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horrible experience 😆

I stopped doing acid cause it always made me horny when im alone and very awkward with other people

Just the title gives me goosebumps I had an intense experience exactly like what you guys are taking about and now 13 years later I am still not stressed about anymore but haunted by the sheer infinitely edged majesty of infinity

This is about dogs that are scared of fireworks? I'm so confused. Anyway, stuck around for 8 minutes, can't handle anymore.

I got sick from it after the first time using it puked all night. Why tho?

This dudes head physically expanded after his trip

The old dude needs 100ug and some molly , and an interpreter, to get some things off his chest 😂

I really would like to live in Spain and you are really answering all the relevant questions, great content.

I dont think its a leading cause BUT it absolutely is a contributing factor

I still do 4MMC because It's only £20 a gram way cheaper than doing coke and less comedown than MDMA.

It's a real difficult thing I find, asking myself truthfully if I actually enjoy smoking and the CBD THC conundrum, trying varying ratios out etc . I personally go through seasons of enjoying smoking and I just try to go with that nowadays.

I have a little theory that bad trip residuals come back through weed ,and quite regularly too. Especially the impending sense of bad things .

Dude one time me and a couple good friends and I got some really good MDMA . We started rolling really hard and I decided it would be a great idea for us to all come clean with one other about anything we may have been hiding from each other or if we had ever stolen or done something hurtful to another. It would be a night of forgiveness. We sat on the floor in a circle and one by one started explaining our mistakes. Now one of my friend’s girlfriends was pregnant with their son at the time. What he didn’t know was that our other friend (also rolling that night) had been sleeping with her as well. She wasn’t sure who the father was. Only me, the girlfriend and the other friend knew this at the time. So I looked my buddy in the eye who had been sleeping with her and without saying much at all, he understood. He then went on to tell the whole story in detail and how awful he felt. I quickly realized even on ecstasy that this may have been a bad idea but in reality it seemed very normal and beautiful. I watched as my friend apologized followed by the other friend hugging and forgiving him. All of us then began to cry and have one big hug on that living room carpet. What a crazy drug.

Hey dude love your videos. You should do an interview with Aaron Berry he has a channel called the Awakened Brave. He hits alot of similar themes IE altered states, god, psychedelics. Nice one and thanks for sharing your vids.

Lsd + ketamine psychosis set me for sure! Wont believe what the hobgoblins want me to however.

Please upload more!! I keep rewatching all your vids

I really like your way of covering every aspect of the reality of weed anxiety and the cost of that in our interactions with people while growing up. Really insightful content ,thanks for that .

Love that you've uploaded again ❤️

just ordered 14g XD

Thanks for sharing. I'm doing my first brothel experience this year. I haven't held the hand of the opposite gender in 7 years. Attempted suicide largely for this reason. I am heavily mentally ill. Perhaps, seeing an escort (legally) is the only way i will ever be with a women, unfortunately. My severe mental illness is the main culprit imo. Perhaps, seeing an escort annualy, for the disabled may be quite healthy. It's that, or deep depression, low quality of life, and higher suicide rates among the handicapped/disabled. I choose the former.

Crack , i found , in my personal experience, was so much less of a bodyload and the comedown was only really the initial crash and id feel pretty normal after it compared to the powder but it was a lot harder to stop once i started.

I find your channel very calming and interesting so thank you and keep up the great content.

Try cbd flower mixed with it in varying ratios or h4cbd it helps the cravings to keep going in my experience at least,? Just an idea.

I really enjoyed your video. Thanks for sharing your experience. Your description of reality as two forces locked in opposition resonated with me. I had an LSD trip in which I experienced reality as a battle between order and chaos, which, in a sense it is. We are beings that spend all our years on Earth battling entropy. The whole order-chaos thing has been a background obsession for years--one I especially like to (need to?) explore in art. The art I love could be seen as controlled chaos or fractured order: order and chaos in a complex dance that is part war and part lovemaking. Lately, I've been exploring order and chaos in world mythology, and I've become especially interested in trickster characters, who are somehow part of both forces at once. In the LSD trip, which was, of course, about the order and chaos that's been inside me all my life at least as much as it was about the Universe, I felt violently tugged back and forth between the two forces. Thinking of when you clasped your hands together to show the tangle, it was as if I was one hand, then the other, then the first again, then the second ... After a while, this became unbearable. I remember thinking "Entropy always wins in the end, so I can stop this horrible back-and-forth by just letting go of order. I need to stop resisting chaos. It's the resistance that's making me suffer. I need to let go. I need to entropy it take me over entirely. I need to let it pull me apart." But I couldn't do that. I felt like a drowning animal that was always drowning but never drowned, eternally thrashing and kicking for a life that could neither be resumed nor ended. The instinct for chaos would not cease. The instinct for order would not cease. The small part of me that was still aware of being at home in my bedroom turned to music for help. This will amaze me for the rest of my life, but some part of my mind knew what I needed was Aboriginal Australian didgeridoo music. The didgeridoo is in no way a part of my life. I live in Atlanta, Georgia. I have never been to Australia. I have never met an indigenous person from there. I don't own any didgeridoo music. I'd heard it now and then in movies, but not for years. Somehow, I 100% knew it was what I needed, so I found some on Apple music, and started playing it. To my untrained, Western ears, the track that played didn't sound like music at all. It sounded like the chaos. But then it started throbbing and cohered into a steady primal beat. And it felt as if my breathing and heartbeat had aligned with it. And, suddenly, I was no longer being yanked back and forth between order and chaos. I had stopped identifying with either of them and had become the gestalt of the battle itself. Like, imagine two armies, a red one and a yellow one, rushing towards each other on the battlefield, intermingling, and clashing with each other. But you are thousands of feet up in the air, so you just see a single, red-and-yellow swirly object. In your metaphor, I had ceased to be either hand and had become the pulsation both of them created together. At this point, the trip ceased to be horrible. It wasn't peaceful, either. It was dynamic. I felt more alive than I'd ever felt before or since. I became aware of the entire system that is me, all the biology which, even when I'm asleep, is never still. It's always metabolizing, always dancing. And, whereas in the past, I'd thought of aging, death, and decay as something that was happening to me, something I was fighting against, I now saw it as something I was just as much as I am the resistance to it. I am the wholistic dance of decay and the fight against decay. I am not push. I am not pull. I am push-pull. In sober life, I think a great deal now about the structures people put in place to fight entropy or chaos (and the ways they rebel against those structures, seeking anarchy.) It strikes me that the instinct for order (for fighting entropy, meaninglessness, chaos) will always be with us, and it will latch onto *anything.* Any sort of order at hand will do. Which means that, if it's what's available, we will latch onto the worst sort of Nazi authoritarianism or the kindest kind sort of charitable, spiritual practice. Knowing that hunger we have for ordering mechanisms, it behooves us to find the (ultimately arbitrary) ones that cause the least amount of suffering and the most amount of happiness. If we don't seek order mindfully, we will seek it unmindfully.

I started out in 1996 with heroin as a comedown aid from a really heavy speed binge and i was hooked in properly within four months even though i decided to leave it alone after the first time but that lasted four weeks. Yep its fantastic for mundane things,shitty tv especially 😂but im 48 now and basically my life has been a mess since then but im in 12 step meetings now even though im still on my methadone prescription,one of many so i would definitely be wary of opiates, lean is another way in to this madness too.

Picamillon is another similar drug to pheibut but i don't know much about it.

That really does sound terrible,but inthink the only thing supplement wise i have experienced is kratom,and that had its own side effects for me .

Willpower can work but if it is used ,a lot of the hours in a day are spent just holding on and that doesn't fully ever go away and a life that's all about that , doesn't allow true freedom and recovery,but a programme like 12 steps helps to fill that void spiritually instead of with other destructive behaviours or substances. But I understand both sides of this and it's complex.

I saw the movie 'Samsara' yesterday, i think it would touch you in the most beautiful way ever

i think its that you saw what was really going on from your ego perspective , but i dident have this expirience so i dont wanna act like i know your business, but i hope u are able to work through this bro also i love your videos man

my advice for u! acceptance is key because, (and i know this but i also will say i could totally be wrong although i am 100% sure) that what you expirienced is actually what you are. That oneness is what we entered from and its unchangable, it is God, which we are seperate from for this life. But its important to remember the temporary nature of human existence, and to accept where you are going after. !

Here from your Rogan comment!

Have you experienced any problems with forming a relationship since?

Being isn't the wrong word just used in the wrong way. It is Being but as a verb. If that makes sense.

I think the closer you come to truth/love the more you will fear it. The ego slowly starts to notice that love is truth so it will create a fear so that you wont go closer to love.

Do you know Leo Guras videos? God realization.

Rebbe Winkler taught us the Elohim loosely translates to Group of Developers aka GoD.

Have had v similar experiences exploring psychs and meditation - it is the ultimate fucking around and finding out regarding one's consciousness, seeing the void/emptiness that transcends that apparent duality between life and death. It can seem nihilistic, esp w all the suffering that exists and maybe our minds just cant comprehend such things. For me I find my curiosity forces me towards these questions, even when it can become psychologically and physically debilitating. But then other times life just is, and its fine.

‘Beauty is truth, truth beauty,-that is all Ye know on earth, and all ye need to know.’ - Keats

I think the fear is that our whole lives have been unreal, that our entire experience wasn’t real, and all that is real is the infinite. I think it’s why god decided to do the world, too not feel alone.

I've never heard someone articulate this concept so well. I've had a similar experience myself, I found it terrifying for awhile but I now view it from a neutral perspective. You're a great storyteller man. Wish you all the best!

Never forgot. For my 16th birthday I was gonna see them live on the day. But Yoni broke his hand days before the show. RIP 😂

I was obsessed with his music as a teen, (and now - washed my WHY? shirt yesterday) wow! This is gonna be awesome

I think sometimes people can hesitate to hold someone accountable because they had trauma and even minimise their harmful actions, for me many criminals instead of prison should be getting treatment, but punishment is baked into the fabric of society as "reform" to harmful behaviors which i believe doesnt help, doesnt keep a person accountable to their actions and it might keep a person into a destructive pattern of behavior because now they know what is jail like and they will not be as afraid as first time and as hesitant to commit a crime. So in short i believe that people should be kept accountable for their actions even if it is result of trauma but we need to rethink how the justice system works and programs that actually reform criminals.

I went through something very smiliar and had to extricate myself 500 miles back to my 'home' and I've never been happier single for the time being since. Thanks for sharing.

Hey, I know this is old newqs but I wanted to ask, what actually caused people just spamming comment sections about your music? It was on every rap video for a time.

I used to run through the woods with my dog but too many people take their dogs without a lead and i just end up almost getting bitten all the time so now im like no more woods

New HugeDome! Love it mate, agree with basically all u said! love the recent uploads

New BigDome!

3:06 Sounds like a rough el Karen