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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 7 พ.ค. 2024
- In this video I talk about a bad MDMA experience I had recently.
My Experience with MDMA:
• My Experience with MDMA
The Story of My Troubled Relationship (And How Breaking Up Saved Us):
• The Story of My Troubl...
MDMA for the First Time in Four Years - Regained the Magic??:
• MDMA for the First Tim...
My Experience with Mephedrone:
• My Experience with Mep...
My Experience with Amphetamines:
• My Experience with Amp...
My Ayahuasca Experience:
• My Ayahuasca Experience
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I stopped planning my usage of drugs cause the excitement always makes me an insomniac but it's always on a weekend so i have to convince myself im not gonna do drugs this weekend
The beauty of shrooms is that they are kind of impossible to abuse because they just stop working after a bit so you have to take a break. There is no compulsion with them either as you said.
Yeah. Honestly, I'm really excited to get more into them, I loved my last experience, and I just really like the idea of taking something with potential chemical benefits rather than the opposite. Plus the growing/cultivating/different flavours/strains side is cool, which is something I miss about weed.
Probably be a quick video anyway..
27 mins later haha.
Love listening to your vids mate
😂cheers for watching dude
I'm saving 4mmc and MDMA for a few years from now, just gonna stop while im ahead bc I still get the magic from both but I'd rather not risk losing that; also good video man like usual
Can hear the sadness still in your voice, hope your better soon mate. Feels strange having you say how crap it’s made you feel (and seeing it) but you still multiple times say you’ll probably do it every year. You also say we should change our societal relationship with drugs, am interested I guess why then you’re so invested in taking them? That all comes off so negative and I don’t mean it to or anything against you just from hearing you sound so down makes me wonder, although I also say that as a rhetorical question as I know all the perceived benefits and have listened to your eps of other good experiences with them. Anyway that was a ramble but thanks for sharing the video hope to hear your cheery self back next time ;) Enjoy the shroomies much better for the soul than chemicals :D
Hey dude, thanks for the concern. Tbh, I wasn't feeling hugely sad when I made this, I think that's just the way my voice sounds. We had one very bad day on the comedown but apart from that it was fine. Today's Thursday and today and yesterday (which would usually be the worst days) I've felt completely normal.
The reason I haven't sworn off doing MDMA again, and the reason I say we should change our relationship with drugs is because I'm aware that my improper usage and planning was the issue here, not the chemical itself. Of course, people are fallible and so that in itself becomes a danger with any kind of drugs, but I have to take personal accountability, which also allows me to learn valuable lessons.
I could just say "I had a bad experience and so I'll never do this thing again for the rest of my life", but that feels a bit hysterical to me. The experience prior to this one was great, and in retrospect it was obvious that doing it again so soon after was a bad idea. I can't blame MDMA or drugs as a whole for that.
I've gone a year or so consuming almost no substances and it was alright, but for me it did leave me lacking something in my life, the variety of different headspaces and atmospheres is something I really enjoy. Much like exercise, food, sex, gaming, sleep, socialising, work and pretty much anything else: drugs can be enjoyed in moderation and they can also be overdone.
You would make a Great guidance counselor mate.
Cheers Wilfred. I'd like to do something like that if I was still in the UK. I used to do support work and found it very fulfilling. The pay is bloody terrible though, which is a shame for both the employees and the service users.
More mephadrone stories? And a little about how to do it safe?
Honestly, I have no idea how! It's one of those things that I think's better avoided. And I don't really have any more stories about it unfortunately.
I would take it once a year at a festival purely for the enjoyment of it. As far as the emotional catharsis aspect goes once you've experienced it once its pointless to repeat it. Its said about MDMA that once you get the message you should hang up the phone.
Agreed. I think for some people it can be beneficial more than once a year but not much more. Certainly, taking it regularly is stupid.
Nice video thanks for sharing. It’s all about balance in n my opinion. Shrooms every week or anything else without a purpose it’s unhealthy. Seems like you did for the sake of doing g it and you been on a roll. Don’t blame the medicine blame your timing.
Agreed
MDMA very quickly became something that I did for the sake of it because of how good it felt. the most fucked up thing about it is how it brainwashed me into thinking my life revolved around it, and being ignorant to the consequences of frequent dosing.
It also tricked me into thinking it was a healthy and good for me, even though the negative effects greatly outweighed the therapeutic and euphoric effects. Started using it when I was 16 and only used it for 6 months before I realised it was making me depressed, while simultaneously obsessing over the experience. I’m 18 now and have luckily recovered, stopped smoking weed too recently and my confidence and productivity have never been higher. I don’t plan on ever using MDMA again because it sends me to such a dark place but I have big respect for people that are able to use it without becoming so emotionally attached.
@@BenjaminGraham-tq9wk Man! Well done for stopping. It took me a lot longer than that to snap out of it. For me it was exactly as you described: I deluded myself into thinking it was fine etc. To be honest, in the latter stages I knew it was bad but was in self-aware, self-destructive denial. Anyway, well done on quitting and on quitting weed as well, it takes most people decades to do that.
@@BigDome1 cheers mate it was definitely the right decision. Loving your videos by the way, your great at describing experiences whilst not glamourising or demonizing them. I saw your video about magic truffles and I'd recommend picking liberty caps from sheep fields in mid to late october , drying and putting them in tea is great for the nausea and is a quicker comeup too.
Can't beat a years supply of free shrooms lol.
@@bengraham9545 thanks dude, that's exactly what I aim for in the videos so I'm glad to hear it comes across.
Yeah, the truffles are fucking expensive really so I'm thinking about trying grow kits. Shrooms do grow in the wild here but they're a lot harder to access than in the UK. But I reckon growing at home will be quite fun anyway.
Just an observation, but did you test the substance for other potentially unwanted substances? Nowadays there are analogues so similar its hard to tell what it really is without multiple reagent tests or lab
We had the same stuff before and it felt super clean. If it weren't for that, I would have suspected something.