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"Cultish" is garbage written by someone influenced by a modern cult herself. If you want a serious read then pick up The True Believer by Eric Hoffer.

Hi Ingrid thanks for this video. I like asmr and sensory things. I'm also pretty sure I am autistic or have aspergers. I wrote a poem for INFPs. I got inspiration from someone talking about an INFP who helped them when they were in a dark place. He said INFPs will seek out the one broken star in the sky. In realms where twilight whispers secrets old, And galaxies in swirling stories unfold, There lived a star, its light forever dimmed, A lonely ember where hope had been skimmed. The INFPs, with hearts of gentle might, Felt a kinship to the fading star's faint light. Dreamers and healers, with spirits ever free, They yearned to mend the crack in infinity. With paintbrushes dipped in stardust's gleam, They wove a tapestry, a vibrant, hopeful dream. Brushstrokes of solace, in hues of moonlit grace, A symphony of colors to mend the broken space. They climbed on whispers carried by the breeze, Through constellations whispering in the trees. Past nebulae, where dreams in silence lie, Their empathy a beacon in the vast, starlit sky. Reaching the wounded star, with touch so kind, They poured their empathy, a balm for the mind. The broken light flickered, then softly sighed, As hope rekindled, burning bright inside. The star, once fractured, now a beacon bold, A testament to the stories yet untold. INFPs, the menders, with spirits ever true, Leaving a trail of starlight, forever bright and new.

INFP here with a crush on an ENFJ. Great insight and channel. Good luck 👍

Hi Ingrid, Good to see you again. Oh those were lovely cherries. Bon appétit even if it's late. Sorry about your INFJ friend. Some grief may take long time. Sh yes you nailed it , we may bounce back ( when we can of course because sometimes we can't...) but we are scarred. Oh I understand that it was a difficult situation. I hope things will get better soon. Maybe holidays will help, also meeting a friend soon may help :) I get affected by things happening around me too and it's hard to filter things. You know Ingrid I don't think you are self-centered at least to toxic extent. I get the same feedback when I speak about my difficulties and struggles ... ' you are the only one suffering in the world, there are people in much worse situation ' that's what they I say and I swear I do know but st the same time nobody's going to be in my place when I'm having hard time doing even the most basic things... It's really exhausting to explain it each time... Take care Ingrid, sending hugs

"Anything can be a cult" therefore all cults are fine 😂 I've heard this argument a few times now and it is very frustrating. I like saying 'sometimes there is a meaningful difference. Sort of like saying all berries are the same, so what's the difference between eating poison berries and non-poisonous berries? Hm. You read a handbook for the roman soldier as a young child...? I wonder what influence this book had on your life and perspectives... Anyway to answer your question, yes I had a brief experience running a cult but for some reason it didn't work out. I wonder why 😅😂 But I guess the closest I got was the Japanese cult, and even then they didn't say anything to me about the cult. My Mum did briefly get involved with some MLM scheme I think but I doubt she got too involved - being an ENTP she probably saw through it all too quickly? I dunno.

Cults have LASTING impacts on the perspectives of the people they affect 😮 very interesting

MLMs are BIG cults. Had friends in those (and they always kept trying to draw me in). Had family (including wives) in various cults, MLM and other, and I could never see the point of it. Then again, INFJ's are natural non-followers. I think you are right that these are things that are used to rope people in who are looking for extra money, and unfortunately it usually does the opposite and end up costing them money in the end. To make money in MLM you need to be a predatory type person - which is what the people who operate them are. Cults pretty much are operated as a means to bilk large masses of people of money without them knowing it, predominantly the well-meaning and intentioned who are a naive and trusting. Interesting discussion. Sounds like thew book had some merits, because it invoked introspection on your part.

Hi Ingrid, that looks really good. I love udon. I'm kind of a lazy cook lol. But I can get into it sometimes. Once I force myself to start, I actually enjoy cooking.

Hey Ingrid, I'd be partial towards the Play-doh being a ceramics person. "Socially Acceptable Banana" could be a song or album title. 🙂Glad these things work for you and hope you find even more that does. Thanks for sharing with us. -Carm

Thats true INFP

This is a cute collection! I also appreciated the ASMR, it can still work even without a fancy microphone. 🙂

Loops are great, I hope you’ll like them 😊

You have to face the truth You are not an infp You are an isfj Dont live a lie

If your grandmother on your maternal side is Jewish than you are 100% considered Jewish

Kudos to the people that got out.

Hi Ingrid, Sorry I couldn't watch the video, it's hard for me to focus on you cooking outside of the lives 😅 It was nice seeing you again. Bravo chef

Seemingly worked out well and the udon meal looks delicious. chef! 😋

You're not very intelligent, are you?

That's pretty interesting that you're more than half Lithuanian - I wonder if you have Baltic DNA! (I love Lithuania so I'm a bit excited by that.) Your Mormon-cult rabbit holes are so interesting ha. idiosyncratic

Hi Ingrid, Interesting video. I only knew few things about mormons. I know very few things about my ancestors and probably I won't be able to have records because probably they are lost ... Oh Lithuania! Interesting. If you remember we spoke about of Lithuania in your last live, what a connection. Oh so you remember about the live! ( I'm commenting as I'm going through the video) You mom didn't become a doctor but you are , interesting how things went. generational traumas... For me it's the probably the case. Nice photo by the way. Have a good start of the week Ingrid 😊

Truly interesting ancestry! Btw, don't worry, I firmly believe that in the afterlife we cannot be forced to a "specific heaven" against our will. If we qualify for heaven we are free to choose the place that suits us. Or maybe there's only one heaven for all that suits every soul that gets there. That's just what I believe. But either way, I wouldn't worry about it. :)

I was Mormon for 26 years through and through. Just some nit picking corrections: 1) you don’t actually have to be related to be baptized for someone - Mormons just like to do that because it feels more special. 2) in Mormon theology the person getting vicariously baptized is actually given the option wether or not to accept that baptism, so they don’t necessarily become Mormon. Having said that, I don’t believe a word of it anymore 😂. That’s just the way Mormons see it.

Very complex Ingrid! My children are all of Jewish (Ashkenazi & Sephardic) descent through their mothers side, confirmed by genetic testing. Have you ever done a genetics ancestry test? It'll pull a lot of this back out and confirm it. Could be surprising.

Hey Ingrid, I must say firstly that the picture of you and your uncle is just adorable! ☺Was fascinating to hear more of your own roots and heritage. I've long felt we're all interconnected in ways we don't often and may never fully even realize. Still want to look further into my own family's roots. Actually, I have a friend I've visited in AZ for years who married into a Mormon family, and another who lives nearby them who only found out recently about his own Ashkenazi Jewish roots, so you never know...Thanks for sharing all of this with us. -Carm

Yay - another collage vid! It's coming along really nicely. 😃

Hey Ingrid, Rocky and I watched and found this very relaxing. Lovely hues and textures there. You're making me want to hang more posters now. 🙂

So many lovely notebooks!! I love to see your drawings, it is always interesting to me to see people's drawing style. I also have difficulty using notebooks for just one purpose. I will start out thinking 'this is my journaling notebook' but it inevitably becomes a sketchbook or whatever... If the notebooks look too nice I also have difficulty using them at all, like I'll just ruin it with my writing haha. I never enjoyed journaling but do have a fear of forgetting what my life/thoughts were like in the past. So I try to write at least something every day but usually it is only a couple of sentences. Hope you're doing well!

Nice assortment of stuff! I don’t journal and have also felt like I’m a faux INFP. 😊 I do use writing to clarify and distill my ideas. This process is especially useful when communicating my thoughts with other individuals.

Hello Ingrid, Nice cloth for the table. That's lovely from your friend. Your books are well ordered compared to mine 😅 Even physics students, don't really understand physics 😂 Nice collection you have there. Those notebooks are lovely. Maybe this summer, one of your diaries may have some extra pages 😉 My notebook is my head 😅 I think throughout the years there are many pages which are full. Aux armes citoyens as a response aux enfants de la patrie. I have never journaled and I don't know if I will do it. My head is my big journal... I hope you didn't get overwhelmed by my messages lately. Thanks for sharing

Ingrid, what you are experiencing is nothing to feel ashamed about. Your emotional reservoir is as vast and deep as your reservoir of knowledge. Just as you feel the need to share this accumulated information with the hope of making this world a better place, so to must this happen when you are overwhelmed with/by your emotions. Much like a dam on a river or lake that’s in danger of overflowing its banks, sometimes floodgates need to be opened as a protective measure. Your body is reacting/responding to something overwhelming and it is trying to do the same thing by shutting down certain operating systems to focus on others which require immediate attention. Floodgates are opened so all those welled up thoughts, feelings, and emotions can spill out so that the body can recover, recalibrate, and return to normal functioning. I think that because you feel things so intensely, situations that ordinarily might elicit a more subtle response in someone else instead cause you to feel an incredible seismic shift to your mind, body, and spirit. Ingrid, you are capable of so much more than you give yourself credit for. When was the last time you watched the very first video you posted on this TH-cam channel from 10 years ago? Remember her? Look how far you’ve come since then and what you’ve been able to accomplish…all on your own! In times like these, it’s good to allow yourself(and others) a bit of grace and compassion: you deserve and owe yourself that much. Try not to fret too much over things that haven’t gone according to plan. Trips to Japan and Scotland, coming out to your parents, obtaining a drivers license, etc…all of these things will happen because you will make them happen and they will happen when the time is right for you! It’s great that you take everyone else’s feelings into consideration but eventually you must learn to live life on your own terms. I believe in you. When you learn to believe in yourself and what you’re truly capable of then all of the pieces will fall into place. I promise.😊 I feel better knowing you are home and someplace safe while this is happening. Please try and give your troubled thoughts and soul a good rest. 💙🌈

I enjoy your videos and look forward to them when you post them. I find them interesting and engaging. I am a counselor/psychotherapist, and I am also an INFP and I find a lot of commonalities in some of your experiences to one's that I have experienced. The negative comments are not about you as much as they are about what the commenter is experiencing. Everyone is different and everyone has a unique experience. Try not to take the negative comments too seriously. ~Rocky

Since the posts were removed, I can't match the names to the couple bad actors I'm familiar with out there. And there are a few bad actors that exploit people through the MBTI community. The sorts of people who will throw out this sort of accusation because they know it'll force an INFP to give it headspace, processing the accusation. I'm sorry to say, I have experience with this sort of bad actor who's doing it merely for their lulz. Getting some sort of kick out of putting one over on an INFP. 😟

I remember this very topic sending me into a spiral ten years ago where I was called an attention-seeker for having a TH-cam channel, for my comic, blah blah. Because it's like, true and completely unfair lol. The person in question was saying they don't have a TH-cam channel because they aren't self-centred like me (it was an ISFJ) and it was very draining and made me so upset, actually. Because like you say - what are we supposed to do? Never express ourselves? It goes around in circles. Of course in these situations I'd always retreat and cut myself from the world and in my head I'd be thinking 'okay so I need to vanish and never be seen in case someone thinks I'm attention-seeking' and then I wondered where it's ethical to apply for jobs, to show up to parties lol. So yeah it's ridiculous and I guess now maybe I'd be able to argue back a bit better, but I guess the big irony is that the people accusing are also attention-seeking, and in a toxic way.

Hi Ingrid, I guess you know what I think of you. I can be quite sensitive to comments from videos about things I care about. Well if you didn't post some of these videos I wouldn't have known you. Same applies for other people I met through the internet. As a regular commenter on your videos if I do so that often is because I appreciate you and in many videos I felt heard and seen despite we come from different backgrounds. Also when I chose to share some details of my life on the internet is because I somehow found out it's the way it works for me to find people who resemble me in some struggles. I was really hesitant to do so, I remember my first comment was on one of bufo's video which resonated with me so much it made me cry several times. At that moment I felt some sort of connexion and felt comfortable commenting then it somehow clicked. Some people didn't have the chance to find people in real life that's why we seek connexion through the internet, I don't know if I can call it attention seeking it's just we are human beings looking for people who respect us and appreciate us as we are with our struggles no matter how strange they can be. I've said it already but I'm here for the person who became my friend and I'm willing to stick around through thin and thick. See you next time friend

Oh great! Another "cooking show" vid! Just found this scrolling on my computer. Now I've got something to watch tonight before bedtime on my tv. So far I love the feng shui feel of your new kitchen. Light and airy. Hope you're settling in nicely.

Great points full of wisdom here, Ingrid. Yes, telling one's own story in part to illustrate the I'm/your-not-the-only-one-who-lives-this comparable experience of it. 😊

It comes free with being a social species.

Well, you ARE on TH-cam, with a channel of your own. That's NOT hiding in your room, and IS inviting and seeking a response from others in the world. So to a certain extent , yes. You are seeking (very specific) attention. And we are giving it. Now, are you out there deliberately, maliciously, doing manipulation of others - pretending to have incidents, while you flail about like a wounded animal, begging for money or worse? No. You went into several of those negative TH-camr descriptions yourself. Those ARE "attention seeking". You kind of use us to hash out things, a collective group of odd fellows to use as a sounding board. Beats shouting into the darkness alone. I've done that. It's not fun and very lonely. What you do is probably closest to a non-Catholic version of a confessional, or therapy without a therapist. Maybe a weird therapy session group you run with yourself as moderator. Putting yourself out there. Why not? Who is to say what's right? Solving yourself is the biggest and hardest mystery you will ever undertake. We're listening, so as the great sage Bugs Bunny has said, "What's up Doc?"

Please stop thinking it's your fault. Others will have their opinion, and treat it as. "that's nice". You have a life. Your decisions are yours. Don't let society put demands on you. Don't compare yourself or circumstances to others. Impress yourself. Perhaps you give good advice. Maybe one day you can look at these beautiful videos you made and solve this puzzle that is happening to you. Wish you well..

You do a really good job of describing this. Thank you for sharing as it will help others. I hope you can get the rest/restoration you need to move through this.

I don't think you are failing the exercise. Most likely the point of the exercise is to gain some information about yourself and wisdom. It happens even if you don't accomplish your original goals. Try not to feel shame. It's kind of like extra layer of emotion that takes your attention away from your more relevant feelings. (I'm autistic too)

❤ i go through this as well... i cant be creative when im like that, i want to just lay down all day but laying down makes it worse... and then talking to others is literally hard to do cause iis hard to even form the words.

Hang in there ❤

Looking like a real introvert

WHy are people acting like they understand what's going on here?

I'd be careful in using Meyers-Briggs to rationalize certain relationship dynamics you observe with others. People are far, far, far more complicated than this test can account for, and people not getting along is likely far more complicated than mere archetypal personality type assignments.

Ahh I am so sorry, Ingrid. :( I think you are in a pretty bad negative spiral that is caused by much more than just the planning. Give yourself some rest, sleep well, and when you can, take it only little step by little step. This makes such plannings more doable and less intimidating. And btw, if it helps, plannings are sometimes way harder to execute properly than they seem at first glance for all of us! The various factors simply make it difficult and in a bad state of mind it can be too overwhelming. Don't beat yourself up over it. It's not only you who struggles with the execution of plannings. :)

This, too, shall pass. I hope that you had a good sleep and are feeling better by the time you read this.

I am so sorry to hear how bad you feel :( But your problems are really understandable and nothing to judge yourself for. You need some time for yourself, and you are kind to your family, and it is great that you take their wishes into account, but kindness works better when you have the energy for it (that is, if you have the surplus to share). Every person has a different amount of it in different settings and circumstances. And if the world and your surroundings (or certain aspects of these) drain you, you naturally have the need to recover and recharge to be open to interaction with others (or to some actions like planning that may be confusing and terrifying because there is so much to consider). You can't spend energy on others if you don't have it. Please don't think badly about yourself in such moments and just give yourself the (mental) right to take care of your needs, even if that means postponing certain plans for a little while and taking a break from what causes stress and can't be decided upon at the moment. (Sorry if it sounds a bit too personal or straightforward). Also, there is nothing wrong with being distressed from something that triggers you personally and crying as much as you need to relieve the tension, in my opinion. Crying and feeling something is so much better than feeling nothing. I think it is important that you talk about your experience. I hope you will feel much better soon!