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I came off all my meds, antipsychotics,antidepressants,methadone,nicotine.... having fun pacing around a mental ward right now. It helped to see others who are going through this.

I’m constantly in it! I don’t know how to relieve it! How does it pass how?

Mines so bad I’m in a mental hospital and I’m scared I won’t recover because I’m alarmed ALLday and ALL night! I can’t take it anymore

Thank you Matt for your videos. They've helped to keep me company and help describe my own (and many others') horrific, excruciating, protracted, debilitating withdrawal not from benzos or antidepressants but from vitamin b6 neurotoxicity. Which is even less understood and accepted by the medical community if at all despite it often being an iatrogenic prescription injury and despite vitamin b6 being a cofactor in the synthesis of GABA, serotonin, dopamine, and norepinephrine as well as more than a hundred metabolic processes. But the unimaginable terror of akathisia, depersonalization/derealization, intrusive thoughts, constant emotional flashbacks, extreme insomnia and sleeplessness, severe depression, anhedonia, severe cognitive impairments, severe sensitivity to stimuli, ‘adrenaline surges/dumps’ - in addition to dozens and dozens of the other sensory, motor, and autonomic symptoms (POTS, ME/CFS, PEM, MCAS/HIT) from the vitamin b6-induced small fiber polyneuropathy - are all very common among severe b6 toxicity and withdrawal sufferers. The windows and waves, the worsening of existing symptoms and development of new symptoms even after more than a year of stopping the b6, the YEARS that takes most people to recover, the extensive and multisystemic damage and neurological dysfunction, the debilitating and disabling nature of the injuries and of the recovery process, and of course the profound ignorance and gaslighting by doctors. Just some of the parallels with benzo and b6 toxicity and withdrawal injuries. Anyway, I just wanted to leave a comment to say thanks and to share some of my/others’ horrific hell beyond hell experiences from what I now also consider a full body neurological/neuropsychiatric toxin that is b6. ☠ Thanks for sharing your stories, your experiences, and your metaphors! 🙏

I watch this video 6 months ago while I was 4 years from my last dose of benzos. After most of my symptoms had gone away I was still have severe stomach issues which was still causing anxiety. My diarrhea was still horrible and 90% of the foods my stomach just couldn't take. After coming across this video I ended following the same steps as Matt talks about in this video and within less than a month in my symptoms started to go away. It was like the magical pill I was looking for. I can now say that after 4 years of hell my withdrawl symptoms have finally come to an end. I am now 4 months and like I said my gut was the last thing that was finally holding me back after going through many and I mean many horrible withdrawl symptoms. Thank you Matt for this video. I will always be very greatful!

Hey Matt, do you have any other social to hit you up if in tough moments?

How do you just move to Hawaii? do you have a high paying job or do your parents support you financially?

Keto low carb and l Reuteri yogurt (see Dr Davies TH-cam). I’m on benzos for movement disorder so nit sure current depression is due to cutting down slowly. Was fine last year but had traumatic breakup and life change. Try earthing mats and cold plunges, exercise, meditating, fasting. Throw in everything natural you’ve got. Be close to nature,walk barefoot on grass or swim in the ocean. I can empathize . Also on anti convulsants (benzos and anti convulsants used also by epileptics). My neurosurgeons never gave me full info. I’m grateful as they allow me to walk Lance Adams Syndrome. Cutting down 1/16th of tablets every 3 months. So far so good but sleep affected. Getting off social media helps, sun gazing early morning and dusk. With you in spirit. My niece trying SSRI’s for ADHD and trying to convince her to get out asap.

i am in protracted SSRI withdrawal since almost 5 years. My windows are sometimes half a day, when i am lucky. i hope that this is getting better someday...is anyone who took pain killers during withdrawal? i know maybe they make it worse, but i am suffering from strong headaches so its a vicious circle...

31:44, God spoke to you, he is real, he is within all of us. He once told me the Strength is within you. It is within all of us. We are just tricked in believing otherwise. 3 months later I learned transcendental meditation and it cured me of depression. He is real and within us all.

Special shout-out to the chicken talking in the background. 🥰

Thank you for making this video. I can 100% relate to everything. I've experienced intestinal issues on these Pharmaceuticals since all the way back to 2012, and I had zero idea what the hell was going on. Not until late 2022 when I found BeyondMeds and SurvivingAntiDepresants and recently TH-cam and Instagram. I'm STILL shocked that these Pharmaceuticals are legal and shocked that Family Drs/etc didn't warn us/inform us about side-effects while on the Pharmaceuticals. How can they not know? Why are they not taught? What's going on? Or they must not say anything because they know and that it's a liability if it wasn't related to Psychotropic Pharmaceuticals. I didn't give informed consent, nor did anyone. And we face the consequences/repercussions; not them. I had zero idea that these Pharmaceuticals CREATE a Chemical Imbalance that didn't exist before. They say it's the opposite: these treatments 'fix' a Chemical Imbalance, but that theory has been debunked. If I had known that they don't know exactly how they work or where they know what to go, I would've never given informed consent or gotten involved. You briefly mentioned this in another 1 of your videos. The serious body language shift when we start mentioning side-effects, both acute and protracted withdrawal/discontinuation, iatrogenic injuries, poly-drugged, informed consent, etc is fucking hilarious and so obvious. Sometimes, they double down and start giving you medical gaslighting. BeyondMeds and SurvivingAntiDepressants are both phenomenal resources regarding intestinal issues related to these dangerous Pharmaceuticals if you guys would like more information and all other issues. & no worries at all about the TMI. This is all strictly Healthcare related. We can handle it because we can relate. I also wanted to quickly acknowledge the anger. For me, a lot of the anger went away when I realized from a post on SurvivingAntiDepressants that Family Doctors/Walk-in Clinic Doctors and Psychiatrists don't have experience being on these Pharmaceuticals and acute and protracted withdrawal/discontinuation. The medical gaslighting is still extremely unethical and can be lethal and leads some of us to pay $$$ to vent to a Counsellor. But yea. None of us did absolutely anything wrong. This has nothing to do with us. We did not give informed consent to these Pharmaceuticals. Go easy on yourself. Your body is being unnecessarily harmed and tortured while on these Pharmaceuticals and for years after extremely slowly tapering off of them. & Take a close look at your environment and your parents to learn more about your depression and anxiety. Modern-day society is dumb. edit: I just discovered this week that boiling ginger and drinking the water is nice. It may just be a placebo effect, but yea. Some GP's/Psychiatrists recommend using Ginger for symptoms of withdrawal/discontinuation...that they caused. Windows and waves with this *legitimate* brain/intestine/endocrine/nervous system/muscle/joint/ligament/tendon injury. Hold on please.

I there, have you experienced waves of anhedonia? Is the symptom that scares me the most by far. Seems to at least be intermittent.

Yeah I remember trying to get back on the same mood stabilizers and ssris I was on and my body would literally give me all the side effects. It’s insane and no doctor no one told me what it could be.

It gets better. Never give up.❤❤❤❤I pray for you.🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

The chicken has a lot to add to this apparently😂😂 I love you, you’re such an amazing human being. And the only reason I know of you is because psych drug has almost killed me. A silver lining, eh?

you screamed in the beginning of the pain, but you devoloped a pokerface gradually?

I appreciate you so much

Matt, can you tell me what you think, if anything, about diet and akathisia. I have it but I got it at 55 after my psyche of 20 years had warned me that “antipsychotics must never pass your lips again” when I started sounding drunk, slurring my words on seroquel (criminal prosecutor in court, so it needed to stop). I’m concerned that with my older brain it’s not going to heal as well as a younger one. Long story short, my genius psyche retired and after I stopped sleeping when my partner died at aged 62, (was getting 4 hours broken per night for 2 straight years) I went to see 2 psyches through a community program, (horribly depressed also for too long) they said “we’re not convinced you have a problem with antipsychotics, so here take Olanzapine,” I protested but stupidly took it and got hellishly restless just one hour in. Pacing all night down to zero sleep, rang and told them, they switched me to Latuda and I even more stupidly took it and ended up in the ER with pins and needles deep inside my brain, a need to rip off my skin, and pace, with a doom fear for which there are no words, and muscles jerking. One injection of benztropine and it ended in minutes for four hours. The two psyches worked at the same hospital as the ED doc who rang them in the morning and advised of the akathisia. One rang me and said “double the Latuda dose to get the sedative effects, it’s not akathisia, it’s agitated depression”. He might have been scared of legal liability. (I have a few more years before I’m statute barred, and given they were put on notice by me, an action in tort is possible.) Now I can’t fuck’n remember why I told you all that (there was a point & I’ve forgotten it, save to say I’ve been up all night with a terrible wave, so I read Jordan Peterson’s daughter’s The Lion Diet (the keto diet for akathisia). What do you think?? I’m way too thin, definitely thinking of quitting all this since I’m running out of stamina for the suffering. PS You once mentioned a supportive group, but I can’t find the video, and I live in Australia so I figured I wouldn’t have access anyway?? Apols for the inarticulate and half baked info for seemingly no reason. Haven’t worked for years now b/c of this, live alone, so cognitive decline is all too noticeable and damned scary that Alzheimer’s is next.

Dont have any safe people in my life

Im terrified of getting this, but if i ever will i will contact you

Praying for you.

What about the woman who died from it after 6 years? Jordan Peterson got help from Russia, but how realistic is that today and how expensive?

Love that you put this up. Ive been deep in the absolute rage today. 💀🔪🔪🔪

Hey matt, been watching you for a year, i just put my story up, akathisia, 2 years of 24/7 dizzienss and complete destruction of my vestibular system. .. Ssri for 19years, lithium, accutane plus a million other drugs. ❤... 🫂 Had some windows with my balance recently but now i cant even remember what it felt like... Feel like its my fault when i feel it slipping away again, if i could just do everything exactly right i wouldnt be dizzy, feel like im just stuck in this constant cycle, still somehow believing it will end

what do you do for work to support yourself?

This sounds pretty similar to how I try and describe this to others. The coming up for air, and knowing you’re going to be yanked down by your ankles is what I usually say it feels like. You describe it all so well! Glad you are living in a beautiful place. Love your videos

well said, loads of love and blessings through the fog

You’re not alone

Love you too Matt❤️‍🩹

Hi Matt, I have had POTS now for 2 years. So bad that I can’t continue my withdrawal. Thanks for the video. I totally get the “it’s just over there, but I can’t reach it”. Frustration and despair x lots. Wishing you much love! Brian ❤

Did you use antibiotics in whitdrawal ?

nice hair 😊

Matt your ending hope message gives me hope. I dont have that tiny thing in me that believes. I keepnliving off others hope.

I am sorry Matt, Iam 10 months off and nothing has improved yet. Only have one window in just 10 months. Iam so hopeless. Iam having severe severe looping intrusive thoughts, severe anhedonia, DPDR and many other symptoms

I have been severly injured for 8 years. I dont know ehat is bormal anymore. What is my baseline anxiety. I just want to killmyself. Who will heal traumas from us. I didn't have time to grow up. Never had time to learn how to live i am 12 years in suffering when i was on psych meds and now after 8 years.

Access - that was a word i used a lot. Joy was around me but was inaccessible to me. Hunger was inaccessible. Sleepiness was inaccessible. All that was part of the normal lives all around me was there but was inaccessible. like being a ghost in the midst of living beings. 😢 It will come back

What you said tonight hit home. I was talking to a couple of new people about benzo withdrawal even though I know they will never understand it. I'm always looking for a good metaphor. I did like the color red one, and I will use that. Thank you. Your view was absolutely beautiful until it hit a wave. 😜 As sad as this is, listening to other sufferers helps me not feel so alone. I'm also in a big wave right now, and it's just tough. The suffering gets old. Sending a hug and some healing prayers from cold windy Wisconsin. 👻💝

You are helping inspire me during this difficult journey through HADES. ❤😢TY

Hi Matt, how is your sleep now?

Hi Matt, how is your sleep now?

Appreciate your posts, im dealing with accutane/skin med injury for the past 10 years. We have a lot of mental struggles in common, best wishes

Did you start your "withdrawal journey" with waves and windows or were waves permanent in the begining or did you get worse in the first months/years? 500 days of getting progressively worse moths by month here, 0 window days. Feels like a road to swiss aid.

Over one year out complete survival mode still😢. Cant believe this.

Hi Matt! I'm sorry you are going through this. I had an atypical reaction to one of the drugs and I'm also going through withdrawals. For 2-3 years (it's getting better now) I've had intense emotional reactions to everything (even tiny thoughts), it's like someone had sentitized me 100x, as if normal emotional reactions weren't enough. I had to deal with my worst nightmares everyday. I'm getting better, but this is crazy!

Definitely spot on. Thanks for the post; been thinking of everyone. Stay strong all, don’t worry about others not understanding immediately, they see with time❤❤ We are all in this experience together

Benzo and depakote withdrawal can kill you

1:25 I’m dang lucky to have dodged psych med injury but listening to countless descriptions by victims, it sounds like utter torture. That has no reprieve. God bless you guys 🙏🏻

And we WILL heal…❤

spot on Matt! Exactly how I experience my waves and windows. Unbelievable ! ( 4,3 years off AD )Thanks you!❤