Been struggling with the chemical terror for over 2 years and it’s so debilitating. I barely leave my house. I struggle with doing basic things like going to the grocery store. It’s inhumane how much suffering we have to endure. I’m sorry that you are also struggling with this symptom.
It's actually a real thing, that our nervous systems will regulate to match the nervous system of who we are spending time with. So the calmer those people are, the better.
Yes my dad is not calm at all and that's how I ended up on benzos while in cortisone withdrawal. And now being around him is an even bigger mess cause I'm ever sicker.
@@xy-qy2ygMy abusive family caused the start of my benzo script and the CT. Now that I'm older I know she wants me on dangerous medications to control me. My mother impersonates me and makes me lose my doctors.😢 I need to find a doctor to properly taper me because I need to be protected from them in a DV shelter or something but I wouldn't do well in a rehab.
I have this. I am at my wits end with it. Internal akathisia is a good term for it. Last night was the very worst night , so far, in my journey. It has followed a very deep wave. Please let me describe my experience with you. Of course, I’m thinking the usual “ Surely this cannot be a withdrawal symptom”. ( it’s my 35 month off ct K.). Thick stupor like head. Mouth so dry that my lips stuck to my teeth. Numbness upon face and lips. Formication also. An inner vibration through my whole body. Intrusive, racing thoughts. Vivid dreams. Exhaustion , of course. Depletion . Elephant foot sensation in my chest The very worst sym is the pulling in my belly. Pulling, swaying, moving, (like there are snakes in there). This gnawing has kept me awake and on high alert, through the night. So internal akathisia is a good description. I didn’t realise it was that because I’m not doing the pacing. It’s all internal. Impossible to sleep through. I’ve never known it this bad. And I have to quickly go the bathroom as all of that vibration causes much bowel movement Distraction seems beyond me at this time, apart from listening to utube stuff. I did go out with my husband yesterday for a walk . My legs were like jelly and I felt weakness throughout, but it was a distraction. I had to sleep after that. I so need reassurance that this is bw? Stupid question, I know. I am 71. Was prescribed K over 30 years ago. ( haven’t a clue what for now) was on .5 to 1.0 milligrams per day. Took them every night. Took them to sleep . Was obviously in tolerance withdrawal through those 30 years but thought I had CFS and the gp agreed with that diagnosis. K was never, not once, questioned and I never , ever thought my state was connected to taking K. After my very concerned daughter, did some research, as she was very concerned about me, the penny dropped and I realised it was the drug all along.I had been breaking my .5 in half for about a year before coming off.,just bc I didn’t like taking a med. So was in withdrawal without knowing it. Came of .25 ct with the gps approval. Was a nightmare tbh but it actually feels as if back in acute now. Sorry for the essay, Not sure why I wrote this here as I’m in a very supportive bw group. Just helpful to know the term you have used here Matt. Rather then just call it Benzo belly. Thanks
How are you doing now? Did you happen to take any antidepressants, antipsychotics, or anti-nausea meds? Those can all trigger it. I hope you've healed 🙏
I'm sorry for anyone that is actually going through this now im so idk ill pray for you all i just found out tonight this even a real thing i did not know wowill pray for you all.
So sad about all these we have accepted to take how the withdrawal is so horriffic. Ive been on antidepressants over 30 years. Tapering is a nightmare. So sorry you are goi g tnrough this challenge😮😊❤God bless you❤
Matt, thank you for your continued videos and support for this community of people who suffer from Akathisia. 😊I saw a dr. Recently who prescribed me a Dopamine Agonist called Ropinirole. On the downside its just more relentless medication, but on the upside i have been able to sleep better but i have to keep increassing the dose. Maybe you could try it? I hope to see a Neurologist soon but it eats at me everyday that i maybe stuck with this forever.😢 I hope that your videos will spread awareness to the medical community and hopefully further so that they will do something about it! 😊
So sorry that you are suffering with these symptoms and i pray they go away soon for all of us. The gnawing (best word i can use to describe it) pain is very real. Mine happens to lie behind my left rib cage. probably in the stomach, heart area of body. It does help if i lay down and make myself relax. or rock in my rocking chair and, like you, being around other people does help too. I also struggle with the guilt and shame that seems to come out of nowhere. I think validation of the iatrogenic harm that withdrawal causes would help a lot. Love and light to you :)
Thank you again for your courage to share. Thanks for the words Chemical Terror. Also the description "internal akathisia" which is very descriptive. Most of us laypersons,and professional psychiatrists for that matter, have no intellectual concept to wrap our heads around. These words and phrases are important to increase understanding for those of us who have never suffered this awful condition.
I’m glad it is helpful, and thank you for researching this on behalf of your son. We need so much support in this, and we need people to believe us. He is lucky to have you!
I know exactly what you’re talking about I have it in the same place. Intensity vary’s when I have to go out or see people it gets worse 😢 I had Akathasia for a week when I stopped my benzo I paced around the house all day and all night couldn’t sit still rocking. I couldn’t sleep, I couldn’t eat. I reinstated to a lower dose of my benzo I couldn’t of gone on any longer. I have MS so pacing with MS put me on the floor and the terror of everything! I’ve never known such terror. The worst thing I have ever experienced. You’re the first person I’ve seen explain where you feel the terror. I tapered off slowly over a year. I am 7 months off now and I still get this chemical terror. Although I am doing much better then I was. It was a very hard taper 😢😢
I experience it as an annoying vibration. I noticed it happens if my histamine levels are high after eating certain foods . I also found speaking it out helps . Thank you for sharing your journey . I am also drug damaged from Prozac and Mirtazapine . My psychiatrist reccomended skydiving to reset my nervous system lol
Damn. Thank you so much for this reassurance and allowance. I’ve never heard my experience with this feeling so perfectly described. And the distraction guilt is real. Trying to get through a video without crying but just can’t 🩵 Thank you, thank you so so much.
I struggle with chemical terror and fear. I get the akathesia, pain in my head, It burns, and my brain feels numb, hurts, terror and panicky, like it's been under Novocain and it's starting to wear off. It moves around my brain, Some times it's so intense I feel the need to run or find a way to make it stop. The terror is so strong sometimes I have a hard time being around people, just feel terror. I am trying to fast taper of the Lex because I think that it's from that. Totally chemical. Some times my forehead feel like a baseball and it affects my thinking which then my brain feels more panic and terror. I alo have this from morning to night. Thank goodness I can sleep.
I have this solar plexus pain/ torture cos that's what it's like after stopping an SARI antidepressant. It's undescribable, cannot find the words for it like you. Nearly driven me mad . Had scans which show nothing. Thank you for talking about this as I know now what it is. Some days it's less now so hopefully gradual healing will take place.
I've been on klonopin 8 years and started my withdrawal on 8-15-22 coming up on one year here. I went down to one half my original dose slowly over the past year but that was way too fast and have been holding for the past 2 1/2 months. I feel your pain my man it is absolute hell you are not alone, and we will get through this!
@Matt Marín lol. Ya I understand that guy Lyle comes on youtube being so whatever and ya I fully understand I almost wentt there but went to a different place that was awful to
Thanks Matt I tremble inside, my body pulsates. Soon as one symptom is gone here comes another one. Btw off Kolonipin 17 months , yesterday for the first time I had a window that actually lasted all day!! But today it’s gone! So sad why can’t or won’t it last?? I know you don’t have all the answers but I just have to reach out to you because you understand. ♥️ I’m grateful for the day of relief I did have.
@@ashleychristie5023 an entirely new phase. I feel like l am slipping in and out of altered states of my mind. Someone told me symptoms would not get worse, oh but they do!!! Nothing seems real not my skin or my mind. Symptoms are just as bad if not worse than two years ago. They are NOT underlying conditions. Thank you Ashley for asking. Wish I had better news to report. I am not able to produce tears when I cry just all too bazar and frightening. ♥️
Sounds like DPDR, which is fairly common for us. I personally have had it 24/7 for the last year. It came on super suddenly after my adverse reaction and has yet to leave. But I’ve heard from many that it goes away along with everything else eventually. Please keep holding on!
@@ashleychristie5023 Hi I am doing much better now. I’m having more days when I feel human and more like myself. Sure is a wild up and down ride. Thanks for asking. I’m so grateful for the good day I never thought they come. ❤️
That’s the phase I’m in currently. Just over 13 months off everything and still really struggling. No pure windows for me yet. The dpdr is absolutely nuts, and the worst part to me.
Thanks for share your story matt❤im 5 months off of gabapentin and its the most difficult situation that I ever experience, my main symptoms it's dizziness and head pressure 😢😢😢 it's super difficult but we will heal ❤❤
Matt, can you maybe do a short video on how family can support when going through the aka, what to do what not to do. How to cope with the feral beings we become
Heyo, I'm 23. I don't have Akathisia, but I have had severe panic disorder my whole life from age 8 until 22 until I went on 100mg Pristiq and 200mg Lamictal. Those meds pretty much stopped it for me. Other things that sort of helped: talking to others, my phone, dancing at a club, (oddly enough) doing math HW, getting a massage, lifting weights, any hobby that involves thinking or manipulating things with your hands. Just ideas. Hope you find some peace man!
Omg the chest thing, thats me. I just call it the agony in my chest and I have even asked during an episode that they please open my chest and take it out. Like you say distraction is what to do, its extremely hard to do too because my brain is reminding me constantly that Im just sort of ignoring but that hey I feel terror. I feel trapped. Its horrifc. Then nigth comes and I go into panic just knowin what awaits me. It is never ending. I feel on a rollecoaster and many times im like on those deep falls and they never hit a bottom. Sorry to all of us going through this. I send hugs and I am so sorry we are in this turmoil.
Thanks for this video 😊 I'm now 15 weeks of after a rapid detox. I have this deep internal feeling in my solar plexus, with internal vibrations. I'm somehow able to remain calm in it. I did wonder if it was internal aka. Such a weird thing !!
I experience that Terror is called ms hug according to my research ,it like some muscle spasms and muscle pain under the sternum region which is very uncomfortable
Wow reading this yes I had that sternum area muscle cramp thing for 3 years and now at 4.5 years it’s gone but comes back for one or two times every couple of months. This has been the worst thing out of my huge huge list of symptoms. I’m 4.5 years PAWS. Doc tapered me way to fast 30mgs of Cymbalta 😫 It’s taken me years to get over this horror story. I’m lucky to have a great partner help me through the past years. Love to everyone going through this 🙏🏻❤️🇦🇺 Hang in there 🙏🏻 It’s crazy how long it takes to recover but we do heal.
Hey, Some people find a diet like keto or gaps helpfull. intermittent fasting can be a option too. I also experience chem. terror at night. I try to calm me down like a little baby, sometimes it works. You will recover, stay strong. Greatings from Thuringia
Hey there. Yes, I’ve heard of these things working really well for some people. I did keto for a long time but unfortunately saw no change at all in most of my symptoms. My gut did a bit better, but I recently stopped because I couldn’t handle the restrictiveness of it. It felt like it was suffocating me and really impacting my quality of life. I might try I.F. again and see if it helps. Hope you’re doing well and staying strong.
I feel like the inside of me has panic attacks or shaking inside, inside trembling. I just took some propranolol to help. I'm weaning off Klonopin and Subutex
Can you do a Symptom Spotlight on burning skin/scalp/mouth, nerve pain, and electrical sensations. Struggling and don't see too many people experiencing this. Ty so much♡
Hey. I’m going through the same thing for a few years. I feel very isolated. Can’t work etc. I was wondering if you have any advice on how to get support? I don’t have any friends or family for support
Hey, I'm sorry you're going through this. Honestly, I've just been extremely vulnerable through this process. It has not always been met with kindness, but it is more often than not. I have been really open and honest about what I'm going through and it's led me to the right people. If you don't want to talk about it with others, that also makes perfect sense to me. You have to do what's right for you. I am happy to chat if you ever need support. Sending you a lot of love.
Please make video on ATMC center. I am considering to take my son there even though it is very expensive for me. I really appreciate it if you can talk about your experience there.
I would highly recommend not doing that. I have not been ready to make a video about my time there yet but I will tell you it was very harmful in many ways. They are not qualified and have no idea what they’re dealing with when it comes to these drugs.
Thank you for your videos. They are very helpful to me. I am preparing to make another attempt at withdrawal. Since I could not work even after a year off being of klonopin, having taken it for seven years at 3 mg daily, I got back on it to stop the symptoms. That allowed me to do my job, something I could not financially survive without; and that was about three years ago. Now I am going into withdrawals, even at 4 mg daily. I am setting up a support system of a psychiatrist and a counsellor, along with my husband, who finally got his family reunification visa to join me in the EU country, my Central European ancestral homelands, I immigrated to three years ago. Covid kept us apart for years, but we kept our relationship strong through video chats. I teach, so I am tapering so that my first seven weeks off klonopin will be during my two month summer break. I am very concerned that it will prevent me fro doing my.job, but now I have a much better support system. Back in the US while in withdrawals, I had no insurance and my mother and brother often gaslit me. Additionally, my mother often treated me horribly in other ways. That will not happen here, as they remain in the US. Thanks again for your videos. I look forward to more of them if you have the time and inclination to make them.
I have been taking benzos for about 1 month Xanax bromazolam klonopin Ativan diazepam how long should I taper? and when will I be cured? I'm scared for hell.
I’d have to know a lot more detail, and I can’t make any official kind of recommendations because I’m not a medical professional. I would highly recommend checking out the tapering guides on Inner Compass Exchange.
Does taking Vitamin D help you with this feeling?? Like the day after you take it do you feel better for a while or. Day or so?? Because I feel like it helps me some how even if it is for a day or so.
It’s interesting; I feel it mostly on my neck or head, and behind my eyes. Like, I’m always at the verge of tears. Recently, the neck aspect of it has calmed down. I hope eventually it will go altogether. My agitation has improved quite a bit in the last month, this after a terrible 2 month wave. I am holding onto the small wins ❤
@@Heymattmarin whatever i do have that feeling of not feeling like myself and like something is wrong all the time. Do u have that? I get terror if i get overwhelmed or look at the screens too much. Like inner akathisia. Like wanting to jump out of my skin feeling. But it passes after couple of hours if i calm down
Been struggling with the chemical terror for over 2 years and it’s so debilitating. I barely leave my house. I struggle with doing basic things like going to the grocery store. It’s inhumane how much suffering we have to endure. I’m sorry that you are also struggling with this symptom.
Same.
Are you still on the meds? How are you doing?
It's actually a real thing, that our nervous systems will regulate to match the nervous system of who we are spending time with. So the calmer those people are, the better.
Yes my dad is not calm at all and that's how I ended up on benzos while in cortisone withdrawal. And now being around him is an even bigger mess cause I'm ever sicker.
@@xy-qy2ygMy abusive family caused the start of my benzo script and the CT. Now that I'm older I know she wants me on dangerous medications to control me. My mother impersonates me and makes me lose my doctors.😢
I need to find a doctor to properly taper me because I need to be protected from them in a DV shelter or something but I wouldn't do well in a rehab.
Yes! It scares the hell out of me. I'm becoming agoraphobic. I love people. I'm not like my strange family.
I have this. I am at my wits end with it. Internal akathisia is a good term for it. Last night was the very worst night , so far, in my journey. It has followed a very deep wave. Please let me describe my experience with you. Of course, I’m thinking the usual “ Surely this cannot be a withdrawal symptom”. ( it’s my 35 month off ct K.).
Thick stupor like head.
Mouth so dry that my lips stuck to my teeth.
Numbness upon face and lips. Formication also.
An inner vibration through my whole body.
Intrusive, racing thoughts.
Vivid dreams. Exhaustion , of course. Depletion . Elephant foot sensation in my chest
The very worst sym is the pulling in my belly. Pulling, swaying, moving, (like there are snakes in there). This gnawing has kept me awake and on high alert, through the night. So internal akathisia is a good description. I didn’t realise it was that because I’m not doing the pacing. It’s all internal. Impossible to sleep through. I’ve never known it this bad. And I have to quickly go the bathroom as all of that vibration causes much bowel movement
Distraction seems beyond me at this time, apart from listening to utube stuff. I did go out with my husband yesterday for a walk . My legs were like jelly and I felt weakness throughout, but it was a distraction. I had to sleep after that. I so need reassurance that this is bw? Stupid question, I know.
I am 71. Was prescribed K over 30 years ago. ( haven’t a clue what for now) was on .5 to 1.0 milligrams per day. Took them every night. Took them to sleep . Was obviously in tolerance withdrawal through those 30 years but thought I had CFS and the gp agreed with that diagnosis. K was never, not once, questioned and I never , ever thought my state was connected to taking K. After my very concerned daughter, did some research, as she was very concerned about me, the penny dropped and I realised it was the drug all along.I had been breaking my .5 in half for about a year before coming off.,just bc I didn’t like taking a med. So was in withdrawal without knowing it. Came of .25 ct with the gps approval. Was a nightmare tbh but it actually feels as if back in acute now. Sorry for the essay, Not sure why I wrote this here as I’m in a very supportive bw group. Just helpful to know the term you have used here Matt. Rather then just call it Benzo belly. Thanks
Hope the sensations in the stomach have gotten better
So glad you are brave enough to say it the way it is!!! I can relate to your story and symtoms. 🙏🙏♥️
How are you doing now? Did you happen to take any antidepressants, antipsychotics, or anti-nausea meds? Those can all trigger it. I hope you've healed 🙏
You describe it perfectly, a manifestation of overwhelming fear.. it sucks.
I'm sorry for anyone that is actually going through this now im so idk ill pray for you all i just found out tonight this even a real thing i did not know wowill pray for you all.
It's absolutely maddening😣.. Thanks for the videos mate🗝
So sad about all these we have accepted to take how the withdrawal is so horriffic. Ive been on antidepressants over 30 years. Tapering is a nightmare. So sorry you are goi g tnrough this challenge😮😊❤God bless you❤
Matt, thank you for your continued videos and support for this community of people who suffer from Akathisia. 😊I saw a dr. Recently who prescribed me a Dopamine Agonist called Ropinirole. On the downside its just more relentless medication, but on the upside i have been able to sleep better but i have to keep increassing the dose. Maybe you could try it? I hope to see a Neurologist soon but it eats at me everyday that i maybe stuck with this forever.😢 I hope that your videos will spread awareness to the medical community and hopefully further so that they will do something about it! 😊
So sorry that you are suffering with these symptoms and i pray they go away soon for all of us. The gnawing (best word i can use to describe it) pain is very real. Mine happens to lie behind my left rib cage. probably in the stomach, heart area of body. It does help if i lay down and make myself relax. or rock in my rocking chair and, like you, being around other people does help too. I also struggle with the guilt and shame that seems to come out of nowhere. I think validation of the iatrogenic harm that withdrawal causes would help a lot. Love and light to you :)
Thank you again for your courage to share. Thanks for the words Chemical Terror. Also the description "internal akathisia" which is very descriptive. Most of us laypersons,and professional psychiatrists for that matter, have no intellectual concept to wrap our heads around. These words and phrases are important to increase understanding for those of us who have never suffered this awful condition.
I’m glad it is helpful, and thank you for researching this on behalf of your son. We need so much support in this, and we need people to believe us. He is lucky to have you!
I know exactly what you’re talking about I have it in the same place.
Intensity vary’s when I have to go out or see people it gets worse 😢
I had Akathasia for a week when I stopped my benzo I paced around the house all day and all night couldn’t sit still rocking.
I couldn’t sleep, I couldn’t eat.
I reinstated to a lower dose of my benzo I couldn’t of gone on any longer.
I have MS so pacing with MS put me on the floor and the terror of everything! I’ve never known such terror.
The worst thing I have ever experienced.
You’re the first person I’ve seen explain where you feel the terror.
I tapered off slowly over a year. I am 7 months off now and I still get this chemical terror.
Although I am doing much better then I was.
It was a very hard taper 😢😢
I experience it as an annoying vibration. I noticed it happens if my histamine levels are high after eating certain foods . I also found speaking it out helps . Thank you for sharing your journey . I am also drug damaged from Prozac and Mirtazapine . My psychiatrist reccomended skydiving to reset my nervous system lol
I swear so many psychiatrists make shit up as they go along 😂 I’m so sorry you’re experiencing withdrawal too. We can do this!
Wow sky diving going through withdrawals wtf is he trying to kill you?
Damn. Thank you so much for this reassurance and allowance. I’ve never heard my experience with this feeling so perfectly described. And the distraction guilt is real. Trying to get through a video without crying but just can’t 🩵 Thank you, thank you so so much.
Sending you so much love 💗
Thank you for this video
I struggle with chemical terror and fear. I get the akathesia, pain in my head, It burns, and my brain feels numb, hurts, terror and panicky, like it's been under Novocain and it's starting to wear off. It moves around my brain, Some times it's so intense I feel the need to run or find a way to make it stop. The terror is so strong sometimes I have a hard time being around people, just feel terror. I am trying to fast taper of the Lex because I think that it's from that. Totally chemical. Some times my forehead feel like a baseball and it affects my thinking which then my brain feels more panic and terror. I alo have this from morning to night. Thank goodness I can sleep.
I’m so sorry. I relate to a lot of your symptoms. It’s an unparalleled experience for sure. Please keep going, healing is ahead ❤️
I have this solar plexus pain/ torture cos that's what it's like after stopping an SARI antidepressant. It's undescribable, cannot find the words for it like you. Nearly driven me mad . Had scans which show nothing. Thank you for talking about this as I know now what it is. Some days it's less now so hopefully gradual healing will take place.
It absolutely will take place ❤️ keep going, healing is happening
I've been on klonopin 8 years and started my withdrawal on 8-15-22 coming up on one year here. I went down to one half my original dose slowly over the past year but that was way too fast and have been holding for the past 2 1/2 months. I feel your pain my man it is absolute hell you are not alone, and we will get through this!
We absolutely will ❤️
Matt great video...look forward to seeing that video on ATMC ....
It gets me so worked up to talk about lol that’s the only reason I haven’t made it yet
@Matt Marín lol. Ya I understand that guy Lyle comes on youtube being so whatever and ya I fully understand I almost wentt there but went to a different place that was awful to
Hey Matt ,
Love your videos.
When your 100% better you should think about coaching . You would be great
That is a long term goal of mine. Helping this community means everything to me and I want it to be my job!
Thanks Matt I tremble inside, my body pulsates. Soon as one symptom is gone here comes another one. Btw off Kolonipin 17 months , yesterday for the first time I had a window that actually lasted all day!! But today it’s gone! So sad why can’t or won’t it last?? I know you don’t have all the answers but I just have to reach out to you because you understand. ♥️ I’m grateful for the day of relief I did have.
How are you now?
@@ashleychristie5023 an entirely new phase. I feel like l am slipping in and out of altered states of my mind. Someone told me symptoms would not get worse, oh but they do!!! Nothing seems real not my skin or my mind. Symptoms are just as bad if not worse than two years ago. They are NOT underlying conditions. Thank you Ashley for asking. Wish I had better news to report. I am not able to produce tears when I cry just all too bazar and frightening. ♥️
Sounds like DPDR, which is fairly common for us. I personally have had it 24/7 for the last year. It came on super suddenly after my adverse reaction and has yet to leave. But I’ve heard from many that it goes away along with everything else eventually. Please keep holding on!
@@ashleychristie5023 Hi I am doing much better now. I’m having more days when I feel human and more like myself. Sure is a wild up and down ride. Thanks for asking. I’m so grateful for the good day I never thought they come. ❤️
That’s the phase I’m in currently. Just over 13 months off everything and still really struggling. No pure windows for me yet. The dpdr is absolutely nuts, and the worst part to me.
Thanks for share your story matt❤im 5 months off of gabapentin and its the most difficult situation that I ever experience, my main symptoms it's dizziness and head pressure 😢😢😢 it's super difficult but we will heal ❤❤
It’s the hardest thing many of us will ever do. You’re so strong. Keep going. I’m with you and we will heal!
Matt, can you maybe do a short video on how family can support when going through the aka, what to do what not to do. How to cope with the feral beings we become
That’s a great idea. I have a friend going through this and wish I knew how to help her more. Idk what to say or what to do for her.
Heyo, I'm 23. I don't have Akathisia, but I have had severe panic disorder my whole life from age 8 until 22 until I went on 100mg Pristiq and 200mg Lamictal. Those meds pretty much stopped it for me. Other things that sort of helped: talking to others, my phone, dancing at a club, (oddly enough) doing math HW, getting a massage, lifting weights, any hobby that involves thinking or manipulating things with your hands. Just ideas. Hope you find some peace man!
Those meds are poisons.
Prayers
@@jonahh9417 , Sometimes the benefits outweigh the risks. Try living with panic attacks.
Most of us do live with panic, but not just in attacks - due to these meds.
Omg the chest thing, thats me. I just call it the agony in my chest and I have even asked during an episode that they please open my chest and take it out. Like you say distraction is what to do, its extremely hard to do too because my brain is reminding me constantly that Im just sort of ignoring but that hey I feel terror. I feel trapped. Its horrifc. Then nigth comes and I go into panic just knowin what awaits me. It is never ending. I feel on a rollecoaster and many times im like on those deep falls and they never hit a bottom. Sorry to all of us going through this. I send hugs and I am so sorry we are in this turmoil.
It’s horrific. It does pass. It will heal. ❤️
Thanks for this video 😊 I'm now 15 weeks of after a rapid detox. I have this deep internal feeling in my solar plexus, with internal vibrations. I'm somehow able to remain calm in it. I did wonder if it was internal aka. Such a weird thing !!
I know the restless aspect so well
Hi Matt how is the terror and akathisia now? Any improvement or pretty much stable
In one of your videos you mentioned insomnia. Can you talk about that a little. How long did last for you? Thank you for making these videos.
I experience that Terror is called ms hug according to my research ,it like some muscle spasms and muscle pain under the sternum region which is very uncomfortable
Wow reading this yes I had that sternum area muscle cramp thing for 3 years and now at 4.5 years it’s gone but comes back for one or two times every couple of months. This has been the worst thing out of my huge huge list of symptoms. I’m 4.5 years PAWS. Doc tapered me way to fast 30mgs of Cymbalta 😫 It’s taken me years to get over this horror story. I’m lucky to have a great partner help me through the past years. Love to everyone going through this 🙏🏻❤️🇦🇺 Hang in there 🙏🏻 It’s crazy how long it takes to recover but we do heal.
Yes I describe it too like fear in my chest
so adorable
Hey,
Some people find a diet like keto or gaps helpfull. intermittent fasting can be a option too. I also experience chem. terror at night. I try to calm me down like a little baby, sometimes it works.
You will recover, stay strong.
Greatings from Thuringia
Hey there. Yes, I’ve heard of these things working really well for some people. I did keto for a long time but unfortunately saw no change at all in most of my symptoms. My gut did a bit better, but I recently stopped because I couldn’t handle the restrictiveness of it. It felt like it was suffocating me and really impacting my quality of life. I might try I.F. again and see if it helps. Hope you’re doing well and staying strong.
I feel like the inside of me has panic attacks or shaking inside, inside trembling. I just took some propranolol to help. I'm weaning off Klonopin and Subutex
Sounds like you could be describing inner akathisia. I’m sorry you’re going through this.
Thank you for this video!
Can you tell wich symptom is from the benzo and wich ist from the ssri?
I can’t tbh. It’s hard to tell.
Can you do a Symptom Spotlight on burning skin/scalp/mouth, nerve pain, and electrical sensations. Struggling and don't see too many people experiencing this. Ty so much♡
Yes I can do that
i have this! mainly burning scalp/skin and head pressure along with it. theres nothing i can do to really help it but im sure it'll go away eventually
@@juliabuteau it absolutely will
Hey. I’m going through the same thing for a few years. I feel very isolated. Can’t work etc. I was wondering if you have any advice on how to get support? I don’t have any friends or family for support
Hey, I'm sorry you're going through this. Honestly, I've just been extremely vulnerable through this process. It has not always been met with kindness, but it is more often than not. I have been really open and honest about what I'm going through and it's led me to the right people. If you don't want to talk about it with others, that also makes perfect sense to me. You have to do what's right for you. I am happy to chat if you ever need support. Sending you a lot of love.
Please make video on ATMC center. I am considering to take my son there even though it is very expensive for me. I really appreciate it if you can talk about your experience there.
I would highly recommend not doing that. I have not been ready to make a video about my time there yet but I will tell you it was very harmful in many ways. They are not qualified and have no idea what they’re dealing with when it comes to these drugs.
Thanks for your replying. So many prayers and positive thoughts to your way. Keep making videos please
@@ru4141 of course. I’m happy to give you more info if you give me a good way to contact you and still have questions.
Thank you for your videos. They are very helpful to me.
I am preparing to make another attempt at withdrawal. Since I could not work even after a year off being of klonopin, having taken it for seven years at 3 mg daily, I got back on it to stop the symptoms. That allowed me to do my job, something I could not financially survive without; and that was about three years ago. Now I am going into withdrawals, even at 4 mg daily.
I am setting up a support system of a psychiatrist and a counsellor, along with my husband, who finally got his family reunification visa to join me in the EU country, my Central European ancestral homelands, I immigrated to three years ago. Covid kept us apart for years, but we kept our relationship strong through video chats. I teach, so I am tapering so that my first seven weeks off klonopin will be during my two month summer break. I am very concerned that it will prevent me fro doing my.job, but now I have a much better support system.
Back in the US while in withdrawals, I had no insurance and my mother and brother often gaslit me. Additionally, my mother often treated me horribly in other ways. That will not happen here, as they remain in the US.
Thanks again for your videos. I look forward to more of them if you have the time and inclination to make them.
I have been taking benzos for about 1 month Xanax bromazolam klonopin Ativan diazepam
how long should I taper?
and when will I be cured?
I'm scared for hell.
I’d have to know a lot more detail, and I can’t make any official kind of recommendations because I’m not a medical professional. I would highly recommend checking out the tapering guides on Inner Compass Exchange.
The Bible for safe chemical withdrawal is The Ashton Manual by Dr. Heather Ashton. She's the original.
Does taking Vitamin D help you with this feeling?? Like the day after you take it do you feel better for a while or. Day or so?? Because I feel like it helps me some how even if it is for a day or so.
I supplements Ive ever tried have ever touched it. But that’s great if it helps you.
@@Heymattmarin Then what did exactly help?? I am sorry i watch the video but its still not clear to me.
TH-cam video "chemical terror - Benzo withdrawal" I left a long comment there that I might help you.
It’s interesting; I feel it mostly on my neck or head, and behind my eyes. Like, I’m always at the verge of tears.
Recently, the neck aspect of it has calmed down. I hope eventually it will go altogether.
My agitation has improved quite a bit in the last month, this after a terrible 2 month wave.
I am holding onto the small wins ❤
#akathisia
I wish i could be around friends or watch tv. Wd brought huge irrational social anxiety and electronic screen sensitivity
I’m so sorry. Have you found anything tolerable that serves as a good distraction for you?
@@Heymattmarin whatever i do have that feeling of not feeling like myself and like something is wrong all the time. Do u have that? I get terror if i get overwhelmed or look at the screens too much. Like inner akathisia. Like wanting to jump out of my skin feeling. But it passes after couple of hours if i calm down
@@sveni3810 I relate very much so. It’s a constant feeling of fear and dread.
Your chest pain, is it like adrenaline going off?
That’s part of it yeah