Surviving Benzo and SSRI Withdrawal - My Story Part 3
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 3 ก.พ. 2023
- My Protracted Withdrawal Experience
This is part three of my story of surviving psychiatric medication. Please note that I am not a medical practitioner, and cannot offer any kind of medical advice. These are my experiences and what I have learned through my own research and communication with others going through this. I wish you all so much love, light, and healing.
Thank you for sharing your story. ❤️You're very brave. I too can relate. I'm a 64-year-old woman. I was on Klonopin for 23 years and cold turkey by the doctor. Beginning of April will be 3 years I've been free at this poison. And I'm still healing. Sharing your story will help you I'm sure and others. I wish you all the best.
Thank you matt for sharing your story. The absolute terror and insomnia and intrusive thoughts are beyond anything that I could explain. I had none of these symptoms before or while on meds. Thank you for being brave and helping people know they are not alone. We can keep healing together.
Yes. Thank you so much 😢
Oh Yes. It's Unfathomable, the Suffering. I also don't have words...except "Bastards!".I think We All know who I am directing that word at. Just keep going! We are all with you.
I had that EXACT same sleep thing..and it went on for months.... EVERY time I would fall asleep I would be awakened with a boom and like electricity going through my body and in pure terror and even my vision would turn white..on top of the dozens of other symptoms... I also lost my 20 year career. BUT it did all finally fade away after about 3 years ..PRAISE GOD...You WILL heal from this.
I am so glad you made it to the other side. It’s truly inspirational.
@@Heymattmarinhow is ur low energy sym
@@rameshlumb4003 it comes and goes. Some days I can barely move. Others I feel like I have to.
@@Heymattmarin thank you friend
It's horrible thing.❤
Well, there it is. An exact description of my symptoms for the past 3 1/2 years. I’ve watched many of these but this is the closest one to mine. I am almost recovered but I’m left with a weak heart due to the insomnia and diet. What a mess. Even thinking about it makes me almost just a sick as I was. Adding the panic I had to loud noises and food dilemmas were horrible.
Omg, I have been struggling with this for 7-8 years, just now realizing that it's PAWS!!
I’m so lucky to completely stop taking X and didn’t have withdrawals after 6 months of use
praying have helped me a lot i was on psych meds for 2 months but i think it did damage, i had crazy symptoms, it gets better but i ask GOD to reveal himself to me and He does giving me smiles and conforting me, just ask him humbly to reveal himself to you
Thank you Matt for sharing your story. You are helping others to not feel so alone. Thank you for the love you share. I am 59 and almost 4 years 3 months off an SSRI that I took for almost 25 years. Still in wd. We are healing together. Much love to you❤
Matt you’re unbelievably strong. I’m going through the same for the second time. I went back on the meds. Still in the hell. Just as you described. Surreal. Pain is shocking and unbelievable. If the meds don’t work to stop the withdrawal symptoms then I’m done here. Either way I’m damned if I do damned if i don’t. The doctors have no idea. And you’re right. This community is growing. I had to diagnose myself after doctors completely dropped ball. I never knew pain like this existed. Keep banging pots and pans
I’m so sorry you’re in it too. I have had to be my own doctor too. It’s so unfair. Sending you love and wishing you healing very soon ❤️
Thanks for sharing! you're helping more people than you could ever imagine.
I know someone who went through this.. 13 years.. It slowly gets better.. Supplements do help.. Exercise and Intermitent fasting helps.. Keto, etc.. After 13 years, intermittent Blues and memory difficulty, linger..
You are young.. You will slowly improve.. Patience with the process and not allowing the slow progress to cause you despair.. You wont see the progress, but, others will.. Wanting to get better immediately is the biggest problem.. It is hard to imagine having to wait so long... Keep at it.
A lot of similarities in our stories. I experienced protracted withdrawal also. I’ve had my share of inpatient stays as well. I feel like I have PTSD just from the withdrawal alone. I am back on Lexapro, hoping to use harm reduction tapering to wean starting in the spring. Slow and steady. I am Terrified of going through it again. I hope you find your peace soon. I will continue to watch your videos and look forward to being on the journey with you❤
I’m so sorry you have had to deal with it too. Wishing you the best with your taper ❤️
I too went back on the very Med that’s destroyed me. I can’t take goin through this again no matter how long the taper.
When are ppl like us going to get the mainstream attention that’s necessary in order to inform ppl about this stuff? I’m still recovering myself from Klonopin after taking it for the past 20 years. I tapered way too fast for 3 months until I ran out in Spring of 2022. I can relate to all of your symptoms. The intrusive thoughts will cause a day of reckoning for the world. I still believe that a lot of these mass shootings in the US are most likely tied to psych drugs IMO. I know benzos definitely create suicidal/homicidal ideation. I’ve finally found some comfort from LENS Neurofeedback treatments in Nashville at the harmonized brain center. They have helped calm my brain down from that overstimulation feeling. Before them, it felt like my brain was screaming at me and could never think straight because of BIND. Keep the content up brother. Much respect and love from HSV, AL!
It it truly unbelievable what these drugs put people through. And it is my dream to see the day that people like us are validated and real, effective help is developed for this horrific withdrawal process. That's why I am making videos. We must get the word out! I hear you and really resonate with what you're saying. I am so sorry you have had to go through this too, but so glad to hear that you have found some relief through neurofeedback! Keep going. It does get better. I am FINALLY getting windows after 34 months with almost none. The other side of this is magnificent. So much love to you!
You are an amazing young man. I too suffered the most horrendous withdrawal after only 5 weeks on klonopin...there are no words for the unbelievable suffering i went through. 15 months now and still experiencing some symptoms but tolerable. The terror anxiety and heart racing was phenomenal and i am athletic and a nurse. Never ever ever again will i step foot in a psychiatrists office. What i have seen in a psych ward after trying to come off is pure and utter criminal. These so called psychiatrists are enforcing addiction . You are a compassionate wonderful man x
I hope you know that you are destined for greatness, Sir. I mean that with all of my heart. Continue your truth, your kindness and your journey to full wellness. Can’t wait for your book. 😉
That means a lot to me thank you
As a fellow psychiatry survivor I feel you man I went in for ADHD and ended up on 80mgs geodon 400mgs trazodone, benzos and a bunch of other stuff that I don’t even remember.
Thanks for sharing Matt, strongs
You're an awesome person. Thank you! You give me hope!
Matt we’re all here for you . Keep strong buddy where here for you
Matt i absolutely agree with the fact that i kept asking my psychiatrists to stop and i always got the same answer not the right time ... I was on on ssri and antipsychotics and i quit them CT plus from 0.5 klono jumped to 0.25 and kept on the .25 for 3 years not knowing i was on servere tolerance when I asked my doc to remove that 0.25 and me getting stubborn i wanted to quit i got the answer you will die and never come to my office again i had no option to quit that .25 pill CT too .. well i reinstated two times in these 5 months but i won't say that it destroyed my healing yea it did put me in a huge wave but I'm definitely not that severe case like i was in dec 2023 thanks a lot your videos helps a lot and yea the gut thing i think it was the worst part and these drugs hit gut the worst
have gone through all your episodes, you seem like a really nice guy!❤
Thank you for sharing your experience. It can be hard to describe all these crazy symptoms, but you are very articulate. I am sorry for your pain, but I, and many others, are on this same journey. I hope venting your experience is cathartic. Please keep making videos, it helps to have an outlet. It helps those of us following your experience to validate our own pain. Hang onto any bit of improvement, and note it. If I get a half hour of a break from certain symptoms, I note it. I keep track of those small improvements, even if they dont last, it is encouraging. Much love, your journey will eventually improve.
thank you so much Matt for sharing while you are still sufferrning so much. you are so articulate and give such a clear overview of this horrific condition. i had 5 years of symptoms from gabapentin discontinuation but i am much better now. it does end. God Bless you. It was people like you speaking out and sharing that got me through. I too really recommend inner compass.
Thank you for putting yourself out here and sharing your story. You do a great job of articulating what is so hard to. I relate to so much of what you mention and it truly is a case of needing to experience it to understand. Best wishes to you for your full recovery ❤
Thank you Matt for being willing to share your story. Hang in there, you have the right ideas and thoughts on this and that helps. Knowledge is power!
My story, along with thousands of others, is so similar to yours. Thank you so much for sharing. ❤
These warnings are so important! Good on you for sharing such an honest difficult story ! I know how hard it is to keep it together…… at allllll , Bless 🌱🌳🧸💜
Oh dear ! Thanks Matt for touching on all these hellish symptoms. Almost two yrs for me. Yes the pain, stinging, I have now been going through extreme itching all over and being in my scalp, hair is sooo extream. Have you experienced that? I can’t be out in public. Love you too. God bless us all.
Hi Matt, thank you for explaining the horror of all this nightmare in your lived experience. You are helping all those souls, including me, who need to hope that this will lessen and get better to a degree to become functional and learn to live in a body which can work with you again, not against you.
You account is raw and honest and you are advocating the hidden dangers of these dangerous drugs which are handed without much thought. 🙏✨🌷
Rock on! You got this!
Grateful people talk about things when possible now, thanks. I narrowly escaped that world when I took Effexor and tapered. Nothing on the scale of what you went through
I did try several psych meds, and was “depressed” probably drinking & drugging starting at 15 didn’t help
Anyway if I hadn’t heard alarms others were sending I might have gone deeper in, but I was scared after reading those accounts
Blessings• 🙏🏻
Thank you so much for sharing this. I’m going through the same thing especially with the insomnia and feelings of pure terror after poly pharmacy for years and I’m still not off everything. You are spot on about the medical gaslighting. My psychiatrist just told me that this can’t be withdrawal after over a year of tapering, that I have to have an anxiety disorder and can’t still be withdrawal. She insisted I go to inpatient, but I refused bc I don’t want another cocktail of meds. God, they just don’t get it and probably never will.
That sounds like the symptoms I had coming onto SSRIs. It was a nightmare and was the summer from hell... extreme anxiety and panic attacks, vision / hearing like you say, dizziness, weakness, horrible insomnia, fatigue, shakiness, wanting to crawl out of my own skin, and dissociation as well. It was horrible 😱
Oh mate good on you thanks for making the vid, I'm right there with you 2.5 years out getting better all the time clearer longer windows but the waves destroy me all over again and I think its all over, demoralising, it's fuckin unbearable I loose sight of the end and think it's hopeless and it will never end, what ride.
Demoralizing is a perfect word for it. Having a wave hit after any kind of a window is devastating. Eventually the windows just get closer and closer together until the waves disappear entirely. We can do this! Keep going ❤️
God bless you for your noble mission and for speaking up. And you do it so eloquently. Corruption in the pharmaceutical industry, especially in the US, is outrageous and revolting! There is a silent pandemic of psychiatric suffering spreading across the world. People like you are helping raise awareness.
Thanks so much for making this. You have suffered and you are an amazing survivor. Bless you. Try carnivore or keto. For your SIBO try oregano capsules.
I have also had that horrendous diahorrea with extreme anxiety. And those bloody electrical shocks …..i found that magnesium helped a bit for that
Thank you so much for sharing your story. It’s so helpful to all of us. I’m praying for your complete healing and I absolutely believe that voice you heard came from your Guides from Heaven. Keep listening to that voice. ❤️🙏
Thank you so much for watching. I pray for everyone in this community so many times a day! So much love to you.
Thank you.
Thank you so much for sharing. I'm "in this" too. I loved the analogy about the cut on your body and the pain of healing. I would like to.know more about hypnotherapy
I’m glad it was helpful ❤️ I’m happy to share more about hypno. There’s more info on my website www.othersidehypno.com, and my email is there too.
Thank you for sharing your story, I completely understand the intuitive knowing that even when symptoms get worse it's like a healing response almost. Going through this right now again after adding oatmeal back to my diet lol oatmeal, I might have to just stop eating it actually, we'll see.
Thank you, thank you,
Thank you!!! Only the people going through this understand no one else can possibly understand.
You are absolutely 100% correct on every aspect of this. I can’t believe we live in today day in age and doctors and medical professionals have no clue what this does to people. How misled they are and how stupid they have allowed themselves to be. I cried when you explained your story I do t feel so alone after 8 months of meds I took only for months have completely destroyed my life.
But I will take your ending words of healing with some hope.
Thank you! I look forward to more from you.
I’m sorry you’re in it too. I’m glad to have inspired some hope. Sending you love.
Just to give you some reassurance and inspiration, Everything you listed I went through. In fact I'm going to post a list of all 140+ symptoms I went through. I like you believed I had neurological issues, believed everyone around me, went to these places for them to laugh at me and tell me I couldn't be experiencing what I was. I went Cold turkey and here I am 27 months later back to complete health which I get it... How can we ever be normal after experiencing all these dang symptoms... I'm telling you that you will it's a matter of time. Let me find my list of my symptoms I recorded everything in my notepad and I'll post it. Look in the reply section to my comment. This list isn't meant to scare its meant to reassure that what you're experiencing isn't abnormal.
1 - Loss of hair (regrew)/ hair texture changes like cotton candy texture hair and thinning
2 - short term memory issue, I remember there was a entire week where I couldn't Remeber my own age for the life of me
3 - unexplained Ear infections
4- Skin issues, pimples, flushing easily and at random moments for no reason, rashes, skin looks older look and pimples
5 - Benzo flu w/ nausea
6 - Tinnitus and visual disturbances like hearing my name when no one called me
7 - Jerking in sleep and random neck tics
8 - Blood pressure issues both decreased and increased
9 - Rapid heart beat, heart palpitations lasting days to sometimes weeks, chest pressure like a band was squeezing my chest
10 - Body Temperature imbalances
11 - Exteme sweating
12 - Convulsion and two seizures
13 - Chills and cold sweats
14 - Chemical sensativity to damn near everything for a while including my normal medications
15 - Food sensativities
16 - Dental illness, loss of teeth
17 - afraid to drive
18 - afraid to be looked at, keep in mind I never had social anxiety issues before I hit tolerance.
19 - random tremors/shaking for no reason
20 - either difficulty falling asleep and staying asleep or fear to go to sleep. Again never had insomnia issues until tolerance.
21 - Drowsiness like I took a antihistamine or something just out of the blue
22 - extreme dry mouth and metal taste
23 - nightmares and paralysis and this old woman looking at me in the corner and I couldn't move
24 - Paradoxical effects and adverse effects to the Ativan, I'd take a dosage when suppose to when tapering and in 5-10 minutes I'd have these sensations of being out of body or extremely lightweight with my head feeling like it was too heavy, weighed down
25 - Depression. At the worst I'd lock myself in my bedroom for weeks
26 - suicidal ideology and this over whelming urge to harm myself which still freaks me out. I can't explain how it felt it really scared me.
27 - over whelming fear of leaving the house (there's a word for this)
28 - social anxiety (never had it before tolerance)
29 - dimmed/heightened emotional status
30 - increased anger and easily frustrated
31 - Apathy (feeling no emtions, a shell of who I was void of characteristics and personality trades
32 - feelings of doom/dread
33 - increase in underlying conditions
34 - Dizzy/lightheadedness/heavy headed, if I'm in a car I'd get these weird and uncomfortable sensations of feeling wobbly and like I was spin and leaning over while the car was moving (I'm in the passenger seat I'd never endanger another person)
35 - Cognitive impairment and fog, forming thoughts and ideas felt like I had a mental block. Like getting to a conclusive thought was like moving in extremely thick liquid...the further I went the thicker my mentality got
36 - difficulty speaking, pronouncing words, difficultly finding the right word, constructing sentences and executing sentences
37 - Inability to form thoughts or visualize what would be a good word for this opening. I use to be cleaver and sharp
38 - Heightened anxiety/
Anxiety conditions I've never had such as health anxiety, OCDP, Catastrophizing,overthinking intrusive thoughts and chemical embalanced/induced anxiety where cooking could send me into a alerming state of being
39 - Feeling wobbly and off balance especially wheil lying down
40 - sensation of being drunk when I wasn't
41 - Sensation of extreme weakness in over all body, wobbly legs, couldn't lift arms
42 - Sensation of weakness not able to leave my bed
43 - Akathisia three times.
44 - Aches and pains in weird places for no reason
45 - Tightness in head
46 - Depersonalization/derealizarion
47 - Adrenaline rushes
48 - Sensation of extremely weighed down or the opposite of feeling floaty
49 - Sensation of falling within my mind, and when lying down I felt like there was no bed beneath me like was just sinking
50 - Sensation of room expanding and Hallways gaining length
50 - Sensation of room expanding and Hallways gaining length
51 - sensations of visual environment staying still while I move/walk as if my visual environment did not move to meet my perception
52 - Hellucinations such as seen shadow people, tasting what I haven't had in years and food not tasting the same
53 - Sensation of brain feeling heavy/weighed down
54 - Blurred vision
55- Light sensitivity, got so bad all I could do for 5 months was sit in a dark room with a blue towel over my eyes
56 - Seeing yellow or blue spots
57- Dim vision
58 - Visual snow
59 - Flickering vision
60 - Visual auras
61 - sensation of Eyes feeling weird
62 - Seeing flashing lights when eyes closed with patterns and sensations of vertigo when eyes are closed
63 -Vivid vision
64 - Uncontrollable visual focus like I'd be locked onto a object at a frightening degree of focus with zoom inhanced
65 - Sensation of extreme dryness in skin or the opisite, like my skin is extremely flaky or sand like in texture
66 - Sensation of skin being pulled apart or crawling
67 - Face dropping especially my eye
68 - Sensation of burning in cheeks, skin around eyes and burnt lips or the oppisite of numbness in my cheeks and lips but normally on my left side but it could switch sides
69 - Sensation of brain moving
70 - Sensation of a object in throat
71 - Sensation of choking
72 - Air Hunger especially when laying down
73 - Tics in neck or involuntary movements
74 - Extreme chest pain and squeezing
75 - Sensation of numbness in left arm and pecs
76 - Fingertip pain and numbness
77 - sensation of palms feeling like sandpaper
78 - inner shakiness in hands, arm and neck without producing shaking exteriorly
79 - Sensation of extreme tightness in left arm (Tri/Bicep) and wrists
80 - Sensation of electric shocks in wrists, elbows and muscles
81 - Weird to painful nerve pain
82 - Abdominal pains/sensations not on skin but inside include:
83 - 1) pinching in intestinal track that moves
84 - 2) swelling and inflammation
85 - 3) burning sensations to verious degrees, from sensations of a sun burn to being branded in areas such as stomach, liver, kidneys and lower abdominal in pubic hair area
86 - 4) extreme iching inside, lower abdominal and penis
87 - 5) back pain I never had before
88 - 6) Pelvic pain
89 - 7) stabbing sensations all over abdomin
90 - 8) electric shocks in intestinal track.
91 - 9) swollen abdominal section
92 - sensation of muscle in leg being pushed down
93 - weird rash in legs
94 - pain in left foot primary left food but can alternate side to side like most symptoms
95) - weakness in left food that would switch sides
96) - nail cracking, splitting
97) - spider vains in legs
98) - sensations of burning, numbness in both feet especially at night
99) - sensitivity to heat, I'll get dizzy or feel pins and needles on skin
100) sensation of super smooth, almost uncomfortably smooth skin like my poors, oils and any resistance skin on the face should have, completely gone with mild itching or it could go the other way where my skin feels more pounced and rough, like sand
101) Eye twitches and burning on chin
102) intestinal sandpaper. This one is difficult to explain but it feels like my intestines are sandpaper, very rough and sore.
103) whenever I get nervous, sometimes excited my body feels extremely weak, my limbs feel like jelly and wobbly, my neck shakes and shivers, my hands shake. This is completely different then what you'd experience in a panic or anxiety attack. I could never explain fully what this feels like
104) when I wake up in the morning, my sight needs time to adjust like most people but I see eventhing in micro squares and my eyes feel really weird
105) muscles difference, I couldn't stop losing muscle. Theres a word for this. But I eventually got it all back, like the hair loss it took a minute but I got it back and then some.
106) Swelling in all areas of the body. Randomly for no reason
107) my palms would feel like there was sawdust and extremely dry
108) pelvic pain, penile burning, itching and stinging
109) sometimes I will think about a symptom I experienced and it'll come back around for a few minutes to a few hours
110) Electric painful zaps in intestinal track. (very scary symptom)
111) Air Hunger. I'd get air Hunger with arm tightness and numbness primarily my left arm.
112) Burning in feet, bottom of feet feel on fire but the worst is my big toe on my left, the middle section feels like it's burnt, little sensation like numbness. Like if you touched a stove, that after effect
113) Now my soles of my feet burn, my fingers feel tingling and like they've been pressed against glass... There's a certain rash type of feeling to them but very dull
114) scared to be home alone, I'd feel this sense of doom whenever someone was over and said "Alright man I'm heading out", I'd often start crying because my emotional response was so over the top
115) breast pain, around the nipple
116) Difficulty losing Adrenaline. If I have a panic attack I shake uncontrollably and it takes hours to come back to a normal state even with a lorazepam in my system I still extend the physical symptoms of extreme panic
117) Weird and scary vibration/inner movement/shakey and weak sensation in my neck primarily at the back
118) feeling like I'm. On the edge of a horrible possible experience. Example would be my eyes,if I'm having visual disturbances I also have this secondary sensation and effect like I'm just on the edge of blindness.
119) weird sharp feelings. Example, I had this sharp pain like I was stratched by a cat on my lower abdomin near my pubic hair. But there's no marks or visual marks.
120) very intense weaknesses all over the body at complete random to where I had to sit down or lay down
121) sensation of choking or my throat around my adams apple, or the corners of my throat were swollen and tightening. Happens randomly but still scary
122) worsen of eye disturbances. Things keep getting more intense. It can back off for a week maybe up to three but it seems to come back and hit harder.
123), hyper sensory issue. My entire body feels a great hyper sensation/sensory urge, complete with the jitters, and my vision goes crazy like light is becoming aggressive and coming at me. Starts off with this uncomfortable restlessness in my leg mainly. The next hour Thi g's slowly get worse and then bam, my symptoms just morph. I feel like I'm losing my mind
124) Feeling like my limbs where going to stop working. It felt like my whole body mainly limbs had this resistance where I actually had to put effort into moving. It made me think that if things kept progressing in this direction that I'd become paralyzed
125- Extreme fatigue (Lasted a day)
126- neurological weakness, not musculatory where my whole body was shaking holding me up
127- room expanding
128- morphing and painful sensations on the top of my head which messes with my vision and left arm
129- Doom and gloom
130- burning pain on the bottom of my feet
131- extremely uncomfortable. This one is hard to explain it's all over my body when the inner of body feels so within distress almost like Akathisia but not quite as bad.
132- body sensations 2# my body feels over exposed and hyper sensitive to even the wind from my fan. It hits my skin and makes my brain feel weird and uncomfortable.
133- Visual stimulus somehow goes back to my brain making it feel the same way my skin would. I was watching Hellraiser 2022 and there was a scene where Roland Vought (bad guy) was on a cross in a white background about to be changed into a Cenobite and it did something to my mind, the sensations from that scene made me want to scream.
134- my brain sometimes when things are bad feels like it and reality are splitting from reality, my eyes sometimes feels this too.
135- around month 14 all symptoms started coming back with aggression, far worse then before and still plague me.
136- feeling like my visual perception isn't moving when I walk. Like I'm looking at the same image no matter how far I walk.
137- "What if thoughts" are destroying me. I can't stop having thoughts that my liver is fried, that I have a tumor or some other brain condition causing all this. Biggest fear is blindness as the visual symptoms although are better sometimes, are progressing.
138-extreme tooth pain. The tooth beside my canine going towards the back of my mouth and the tooth beside where the wisdom tooth use to be keeps having this extreme crushing and pressurized sensation which feels like it's coming from the root where its pulsating and pulsating almost like its growing and growing pushing against my tooth from the inside. Other times it feels overly itchy and that is the worst as nothing can be done.
139- Memory issues: Holy this is bad. It was bad in the beginning but it came back like I owed it money, my short term is just gone. I could of put a cup on the counter no more then 4 seconds ago and forget where I put it.
140- "I'm never going to get better". I keep having this soul crushing thought of never being about to finally just enjoy a day without worrying about symptoms for ones
141- symptoms seem to morph now. I can start off with a head ache, weakness and some muscle weakness or neurological weakness and within 3 hours I'll have debilitating head sensations which forces me to go to sleep
142- hypersensitive to heat where my body will get that neurological weakness from heat, sun and just opening the oven it's crazy
143: Hissing sound on the top of my head almost a stastic sound which is mild but is driving me crazy
144: A tingling currenting moving up and down my left arm
145: Palms and feet feel over whelming dry but like a dry wet I can't explain it better then that.
146: crackling noise in head
147: Tip of my index finger feels like it's throbbing with noticeable pain, not mild or anything to call home over but just noticeable.
148: Arm feels limp especially the Bicept/Tricep.
149: Shaking feeling and sensations in my neck, primarily the back of my neck.
Everything you are experiencing I went through I know the pain of feeling so fucking isolated and scared but I promise you do you're best, endure and you will over come. And I was someone who thought it wasn't in the cards for me.
You're doing so well brotha, don't let anyone tell you it's not the drug
You are a hero you are helping many Write that book how the hell you survived you are one special person glad ya called out ATMC Lyle iz one scary guy on youtube and his 120 piil crap cure
Matt.. you are literally saving my life with this video as this is a very isolating thing to do, even with a. Fiancé I am going through it alone. It’s all my brain has ever known for the past 16 years 15 years old - I’m 30 now. I couldn’t explain the discomfort but you’re pretty much describing what I’m enduring right now and I’m terrified. I can’t see straight. My head hurts. I’m dizzy. I can’t sleep, I haven’t slept. I can’t focus. I can’t stop moving. This is worse than any comedown from any illegal drug.. this is hell.. I wouldn’t wish this on anyone in the world. Idk how you survived this.. I’m only 2 weeks in.. I hope I make it as far as you.
It is indescribable. I’m so sorry you’re experiencing it. It sounds like the level you’re at right now is very acute. It’s the worst in the beginning. The intensity will die down you just have to survive until then. You can do this. Sending you so much love.
Matt, I enjoyed listening to you. Thanks, I’m trying to lower my dose of Xanax, been taking for 20 years, Cymbalta, sleep meds! Along with the way of the world these days, it’s hard to feel good. I’m very proud of you for getting off , cleaning up. I haven’t really started completely. Yikes!! Your awesome. ❤ Hang in there !!!😊
Thank you so much. You’ve got this, keep going ❤️
So sad you went through that hell... And best of wishes on your healing journey ❤❤❤ You are very articulate and with a lot of insight. I can relate as I've experienced withdrawal from benzo as well. It's really hard but I guess in a sense it's like an initiatory process where our critical thinking and intuition start refining... Otherwise we wouldn't be here. Thanks for sharing.
Thank you for your kind words. I am so sorry you went through it too. So much love to you
Thank you for your kind words. I am so sorry you went through it too. So much love to you
Dude I've only listened to just over 5 mins of this and relate to so much. Sounds like you've had it a bit worse than I did from your story which I believe. No one wants to be top dog of suffering in this department so I'll take having not suffered to your level, just a bit under. Good job with the clips, brave of you.
Listened to some more now and yeah, you're a level up from me. I don't think I had aka, they say you know if you have. I had much of what you've had but not all. Much respect for benzo survivors, I only had to come off effexor, nothing else. Respect bro.
@@suckermofo1 thank you so much for watching, and I’m so sorry you’ve had to go through it too. It’s definitely not a contest lol but I’ve certainly been dealt a nasty case of protracted ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ much love to you, praying for yours and everyone’s full healing.
@@Heymattmarin did you notice any increase in symptom intensity around the time you had the TMS? When I heard you speak about that I thought of a friend in the u.s. who's been pretty harmed by that procedure. His name is James Hall, he uploads the podcasts he does to TH-cam if you're interested in maybe learning about the bullet you dodged with that one?
@@suckermofo1 to be honest it's been so consistently bad for so long I don't remember it being that much worse during TMS, and it certainly didn't get any better. I stopped when I realized that the clinic I was at had no idea what they were doing. They would mess it up sometimes and hit some random part of my brain and my eyelids would start fluttering and I'd start involuntarily kicking or punching the air. I realized then that I needed to stop.
I’m coming off opiates and have the anesthesia I really get comfort watching you! I wish I could text you!
So sorry that you're going through this. I had a post viral illness and was prescribed Paxil for unexplained nausea . CT after 5 month due to weight gain and other side effects . I was feeling really good for one month. Then it seemed like nausea and old symptoms were coming back. Then I started to have bad anxiety and really bad globus sensation. Was prescribed a benzo for ten days. After stopping benzo, all hell broke loose. I had a cascade of new symptoms, like tachycardia, ligt and sound sensitivity, bright images or husband's touch would make me nauseous and dizzy, my underlying condition became several times worse. I became bedridden with fatigue and weaknesses. Cognitive impairment, brain fog, feeling drunk and in a haze, bouts of terror and shaking. I feel like these psych meds have fried my brain and made me so much worse😢
I’m so sorry. I’m sending you so much love. Just keep going. That’s all we can do. We will heal.
Thank you for sharing this! My brother has been prescribed Xanax for many years and you have helped me understand why he is absolutely terrified at the idea of getting off.
I wonder if you have ever researched the Weston A Price foundation, specifically for your gut health? Their information has help me very much in all matters of health. I believe the nutritional advice the give may support you as you heal.
Blessings to you!
Thank you so much for the suggestion I am gonna look into that! And I wish your brother the easiest possible transition off of Xanax. If he ever needs support or wants to talk about the process I’m here!
@@Heymattmarin thank you!
You are so amazing! Strong as hell! Seem to be doing a lot of it on your own! I’m about to go to an inpatient detox facility . I take no more no less. Exactly prescribed but I’m done with them! My benzo adverse reactions are worse than my darn disease, chronic neuro Lyme disease. I should have NEVER been put on two benzos, 12 yrs now. Benzos are meant for short time use & they have not been studied enough! I don’t know if you know back in the 70s I think, they would prescribe mammas little helper a yellow pill, Valium,
to help her thru the day.meds to get thru her day, yellow pill…”mama little helper.” Think that’s the song.
I’m sorry for this long post but it you see this do you have any words of wisdom in terms the VERY BEGINNING of detox? I’m so scared! I have 3 children, 2 young adults. On adhd headed down same path, not working, zombie on adderall. Anyway , I appreciate you! I don’t know what or if you believe in, but I believe in God so praise Jesus for healing you slooowly and hard but healing. I’m terrified! I’m certain end up in a lock down psych hosp facility! I’m a nurse and had to do a rotation. It was INSANE! I don’t fault one of those people! Something in our lives brought us to these meds and/or needing others help, and I’m just so Thankful I have a God, will help strengthen me throughout this time. God bless You Matt! I will pray or route for you whatever you please. You are right in that we need testimonies like yours and a community so we don’t feel alone. Reach out to me anytime you need someone not that I know this suffering yet!❤Family sure doesn’t understand since well in my case no ones been through it! Don’t get me wrong I don’t know what I would do without them, but people have been thru have help , tips, etc!
Just sad off topic, my 13 yr old lives my husband & I in FL SO 1000 miles from where I grew up. They will have to come down to help. We don’t have a lot of money so my husband has to work overtime 24 hr shifts NP. Dont worry he hates western medicine and treats all babies so it’s a lot diff! Much love to you back!❤
I am so glad I found you videos. I am in protracted withdrawl and Im on disability. It is the most, worse horrific torture there is. I would describe it as not normal. I too spent the first year I would say with severe diarreah.
I have noticed that this thing shifts, when you think the worst has hit you then bang another worse thing hits you
Edit: Is there a way to get in contact with you? I feel so alone and that I am dying.
Hey love. I’m so sorry you’re going through protracted withdrawal. You’re right, it is not normal. I’ve always said it feels impossible to feel like this. And yes, the symptoms change constantly. It’s an ever moving target and teaches us to be very adaptable/in tune with our bodies/minds. It does get better with time. Please hang in there ❤️
Im so sorry honey it did sound like black mirror or AHS, I'm never going back to a mental ward again those people don't care at all and its so triggering in there since they don't care or listen AT ALL. Also that's so cool you are cuban and can speak Spanish. Also 120 pills nah that crazy asf, so happy you made it love.
God, I just want to hug you. Ty so much for this. I needed this. Feeling like I'm being burned and electrocuted. Short time user, placed during the pandemic for health anxiety ( I was an RN), and now 6 months off with more intense symptoms. Ty Matt♡
You’re not alone. I’m sorry you’re going through this.
Congratulations 👍
I’ve had all the same symptoms, I literally thought I was going into organ failure. I take duloxetine and I’m just about to start tapering tomorrow. I am finally starting to feel stabilized after going cold turkey in March for 45 days.
I have ZERO trust in our medical system anymore. Obviously all these doctors are trained to harm us even if they’re not aware of it yet. I’m so scared I’m going to be forced into another cold turkey with the state that our country is in. I doubt I have to time to properly taper but I’m going to hope for the best. Thanks for sharing your experience!
I relate to everything you said. Eyes on the prize, try to stay present with your taper and do it slowly and carefully. Read the tapering guides on inner compass exchange if you haven’t yet. And I’m always here if you want to schedule a coaching/support call. Sending you love
So strong , I m so much older and healing may never come !!
It will come. Keep going.
You are so right about doctor's not believing you about your withdrawal symptoms that you literally have to bang pots and pans together had me in stiches 😅😅😅
Lol sometimes I have to laugh at the whole thing or it’s just too horrific 😂
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Thanks so much for these videos. Weaning off 27 years of Valium (prescribed on and off after a physical illness). Was threatened that my script would be stopped. Had severe paraesthesia cutting too quickly and depersonalization. Wrote my funeral plans. The electrical shock down spine and burning is revolting. Feels like a blow torch on lower back. Now using alcohol to wean off the Valium as can't use nothing. I know it's wrong as alcohol is like liquid Valium but I have to get off the damn pills. The alcohol is only thing that stops or numbs the symptoms.
Finding when I lie flat to rest the numbness and nerve burning starts with a horrible fluttering in mid back and I have to sit upright.
Socially it's a disaster. My adult son has cut me off as he doesn't understand why I don't seem interested in my grandchildren. Completely heartbreaking.
Anyone else used alcohol to try to wean off benzos?
Thinking of you all.
Unfortunately alcohol won’t let you withdrawal and eventually you will have issues and end up in a hospital. I would find a good hospital that specializes in benzo withdrawal if you have health insurance. I hope you feel better 🫶🏼
Being hypersensitive can be so disorienting. You try to concentrate studying or working and the softest sound, odor, temperature change and it throws you off. Practicing guitar is the only thing that helped. Good luck Matt
I was so sensitive I would be scared of people because I didn’t know if they had a deodorant, or perfumes or hair products that would set off a 4 day migraine. & again find me in bed 🛌 in the dark & couldn’t even get food & no one was there to help me 🫤
Currently still suffering from sexual dysfunction 3 years later. Absolute poison
Thanks
Thank you for the video. From your experience which would you say is the best SSRI medication or the one with least side effects ? Thanks again
That is very different for everyone unfortunately. There is not a reliable way of knowing if any of them will work for anyone or what kinds of side effects you’ll experience until you try it, which is why it is so risky. This is why we need an informed consent process with these drugs.
I had a traumatic experience like yours in a psych unit
I had Akathisia for 5 weeks and I didn't know that this hell had a name. I thought I had just gone crazy. This happened in August, July of last summer. About two weeks ago, I'm reading a Jordan Peterson book and he talks about his benzo withdrawl and he mentions a term I had never heard: Akathisia. I looked it up and immediately realized that this is what was going on with me last summer. I had no idea such a condition existed. Worst thing ever, by far. I came up with an acronym: Also Known As THIS Is Agony >> Akathisia.
I’m so sorry you experienced it. I had it on and off for a year before anyone even mentioned it to me. I thought I had lost my mind. I didn’t even know protracted withdrawal existed. It’s the scariest thing in the world.
@@Heymattmarin Do you still have Akathisia episodes? I don't see how anyone could last longer than a few weeks. I still can't believe that I got through it. It's crazy, every minute of every day thinking, "I must die." I'll never forget the first time I was able to sit down and watch a football game from start to finish without leaving the couch. It felt like the biggest thing I'd ever achieved in life.
@@biscuitbakerful I think it’s one of the most painful things a person can go through, truly. It’s a feat to survive any amount of it. You should be proud of yourself. I often think about it and think “wow I should not be alive”. I do still have it sometimes but not as often as I used to.
Which Jordan Peterson book is this?
@@kristinm3166 "Beyond Order" He talks about Akathisia in the introduction. I had never heard the term before.
Hey matt again ! ❤
another question, did you have any fullness and pain in ears ? I have them and i'm worried that they will not go away because i didn't find much stories about them.
I have other symptoms which i don't worry about as much as those.
I don’t have that but I have heard of other people have that. There are so many symptoms in this injury, nothing is really off limits if you ask me. If it came with withdrawal, it will leave with healing. Keep going ❤️
@@Heymattmarin
I would like to ask you, what do you feel about this whole experience and how unfair it is ? Also did you learn anything from it ?
It would be nice to have a full video on your experience with Alternative To Meds. I was thinking of having my daughter there - but it's tooo expensive.
When I feel up to it I will be making a video. I would highly advise against sending anyone there.
Oh my gosh I called it psychomotor agitation with severe anxiety and I think that was akathasia! Of course my Dr didn't give me that word 🙄 I would rock, pace, cry and sit in complete fear. It was a side effect of Prozac.
Sounds like akathisia. I’m so sorry.
@@Heymattmarin it's ok it's gone now I think I had it once since getting off Prozac a two weeks ago. It came in waves. 🙏🙏🙏🙏 Praying it's gone.
@@Heymattmarin thought I was ok n just having a bout right now :( I took half a edible n half a muscle relaxer thinking I have to cut down on coffee. The thought n fears are rough but I try to think it'll pass. I wish we could all heal it's so hard
@@nativechique7589 it’s the hardest thing I’ve ever done and probably will ever do. Yeah I’d highly recommend staying away from caffeine and anything that is psychoactive at all tbh
@@Heymattmarin you get this everyday????
Keep it up bro. You got this. Also, you’re really good-looking, no homo.
G'day Matt, thanks so much for telling your story. I live in Australia, I am 59 and was prescribed Zanax in 2013 for panic attacks, on January 1st this year my medication was abruptly stopped by my GP because who could no longer prescribe it, it is now only prescribed by Psychiatrist. I was given no alternative, no advice on where to get help nothing, I was eventualy put Oxeapam which is a benzo as well but the dose I was put on was well under what I was originally on. I started to have severe withdrawal and ended up in hospital for a week, where I was treated like a addict because I was unable to explain what was happening to me. I had nothing in hosptial but panadol and was discharged with 5 10mg tablets of diazapam and told to see my GP and taper of the diazapam which I had never taken, it was bizarre considering I had been on Zanax since 2012. Anyway that was in March, I finally got to see a Psychiatrist in mid May this year, I was mess, unable to function at all. The psychaitrist has put me back on my original medication to stablise me and to get me functioning with the intention of tapering me of when I see him in August. The abrupt cessation of a medication that was helping function, work, be a husband, look after my father who has dementia. Can you imagine if the government decided to stop patients blood pressure medication, or their diabetes medication there would be a massive outcry from the public. I can't wait for August to rock around so I can properly taper off this shit, but I am very concerned about my health now going forward. I have ringing the ears, balance issues, headaches and anxiety that I never had this scale before. Thank you so much for telling your story, there are so many people going thru this unnecessarily thru no faulty of their own but it's comforting to know we are not alone. Cheers Gary
Hi Gary 👋 It's not true that only a Psychiatrist can prescribe Xanax. BUT GP's are very reluctant to prescribe. Only a select few will & u must have letters from specialists proving u "need it".
I've been on it 23 years & am very concerned seeing big pharma docos on how psych medications are killing people. I'm not sure if I can get off it; but I'd like to try and also significantly reduce the amount. I think it's the reason I can't remember things even after being told same thing 50 times.
Wishing u the best ❤
Thanks for sharing brother, going through horrific withdrawal myself with no lessening in symptoms and still on .7mg of lexapro. Have you tried the lion diet for your gut? I’m desperate too but I know that going on another med can just make things worse.
I’m so sorry you’re in it too. Keep going. I did try the lion diet. It was too hard on me psychologically and I could not poop and almost became impacted. I had to go back to eating keto to be able to poop. And then my body craved carbs so ravenously I couldn’t take it after a year and a half.
Hey matt !
Do you have any muscle tension ?
Thanks and keep going ❤
Sometimes. It comes and goes now.
@@Heymattmarin so was it worse before ? I have it all over my body ( i'm 13 months off my AD ) when did your muscles start to get better a bit ?
@@somethingimportantwillbean7573 It honestly was never really a huge symptom for me. But I know of many people who healed from it, as well as their other symptoms. It can take a long time. Keep going ❤️
Ty ... very brave.
Hi how much are your hypnotherapy sessions how much should one expect for a hypnotherapy session and how long did it take you to notice any difference
Hi
All symptom I have it and I know exactly what you’re talking about same thing, my stomach electric shock I my head is very hot and flash hot all my body
I don’t have energy to walk sometime I was on Klonopin and Lexapro I stop or year ago and the first few months was the same thing now because I stop Lexapro sam
I’m so sorry you’re going through it. These drugs do awful things to our bodies but it will heal with time. Please hang in there.
Dear Matt, I’am right there with you. 18 out of Kolonipin been f-ing hell. I dont know if this was a stupid thing for me to do but I started tapering off 20mg of proxatine to 10 mg. Please please let me know if this can cause my symptoms all 10,000 of them to worsen? Please don’t ask me to see or ask my once was Dr. Thanks with all my ♥️
sometimes in a real "anxiety wave" it helped me to take a small amount of Aspirin because it calms a bit down, this is one thing that helped me without too much side effects, but also no answer to this extreme anxiety. does anyone know something else or has made similar experiences?
You have to do some/more Magnesium! Give it a try!
Matt, maybe u are doing this already,
using hypnosis for yourself &/or with the help of a friend to:
sync up the subtle natural body rhythms,
breathing
with heart movements, breathing
with belly movements,
breathing
with spine movements & feeling breath within through-out the body
for deep healing..
Did you ever have the feeling when in severe withdrawal that you were going to either end up permanently or temporarily insane or die of a heart attack?
I’m currently going through my own hell it started with mirtazapine being on that for 5 1/2 months on 30 mg abruptly taken off without a taper due to side effects and high blood pressure. They wanted me to start a second antidepressant after discontinuing mirtazapine but the discontinuation syndrome was so severe. There was no way I was going to start this medication within 24 hours I was in terrible withdrawal and scared to death to take another different anti-depressant especially after what I’ve been through for 5 1/2 months on mirtazapine feeling like I was on the verge of a constant panic attack,
After 90 days I was placed on four different kinds of sedating medication’s , and I am am terrified of what I’m about to go through… I’ve begun to taper one of them, and it is absolute pure hell and I can’t imagine having to do this three more times with the other medication’s
I have. I detail it a lot in my videos. It is unspeakable what I went through with these drugs. Please keep going, it all heals.
It really tested my sanity but my sanity is to valuable so I failed.but I am still suffering even though I am back in the same dose withdrawal while on the benzos what the hell?
Hello matt, im going thru some of this! Not as bad as you! My nervous system is messed up from doing medical cannabis for a year! I never new thc could do this to a person! There are tons of people going threw this quitting cannabis! 4 months clean off it! It could take 6 months to 2 years. But my question is do you take regular vitamins like vitamin c , d magnesium ? Because like you I've tried brain supplements and they all make me worse or they don't work at all that I do take my vitamins everyday
Yes, marijuana messes me up very badly. I think anything psychoactive can cause neurological injury tbh. I used to take vitamin/mineral supplements but I don’t anymore because they all mess with me in very weird ways.
@@Heymattmarin This is the hardest thing ive ever been thru! What is the hardest is i obsess over evrything i do! if im doing the right thing to get well! if im taking a med that might prolong my process, if im eating wrong food! etc... is this normal? i feel im going crazy!
@@Terriloo1 absolutely. That is par for the course on this journey. Almost all of us have everything you just said in common.
@@Heymattmarin I also have Akathia and i feel like im living out of my body! this is awful. i am on gabapentin and when i try to quit it gets worse! do you know anything about gabapentin and pregabalin, i only took low dose for 3 months and now i want to stop! so i went without it for 2 days and now im suffering with akathia worse. but i took one 6 hours ago and it did nothing so it might just be from weed paws! im confused, i dont know what to do! this is so hard.
@@Terriloo1 I can’t give any official advice but I would definitely suggest not cold turkeying no matter how badly you want to be off of it
Yep, absolutely nothing touches it; nothing, it’s just time, but time means suffering, this is not a picnic. -_-
I tried massage, therapy, supplements, exercise, whatever.
THEY KNOW. THE REASON THEY DON'T ADMIT IT IS THEY ARE AFRAID OF LAWSUITS. IT'S VERY SIMPLE!
Do you know anything about Inner Fire in Vermont? Recommend or?
I haven’t heard of that. But I would say to stay away from ATMC in Sedona!
@@Heymattmarin thank
You ❤️
Did you quit them cold turkey or taper off them slowly? That's the difference between bad withdrawal symptoms and no withdrawal symptoms.
Not for everyone. I described all of it in the videos.
Hey matt did u have neuropathy in hands and legs?? Is so how long did u have? Am scared they say its permanent 😢
I didn’t but I know many who have had that symptom. It is a symptom of this injury even though no one in the medical world will validate that. It can and will heal. People in psych med withdrawal get diagnosed all the time with all kinds of things, and then they just go away.
Matt don't take anything! It will only make the Hell worse!
I want to make videos like you but I am currently at the worse point and I cant even stay on course in onr topic. I obsess over different symptoms and when I try to explain them it all sounds the same.
Don’t push yourself to do it until your system can handle it. There’s no rush.
Hey Matt, do you had any experience with PSSD?
Hey Simon. I don’t personally have experience with this side of things as it hasn’t been one of the symptoms I was dealt. I do know quite a few people in the withdrawal community who deal with this, however. It’s sadly not uncommon especially with SSRIs. I have heard that this, like all other damage from these drugs, does eventually heal.
man! I feel heard! the system is so fucked
Hi love how long did your food intolerances , anhedonia, insomnia, depression and bad aka last? I’ve still got bad anxiety. I’ve been trying to do the gaps diet for the past 2 years. Been trying to heal leaky gut. I feel like ive got h2s sibo from sulphur it causes diarrhoea too.
All of those symptoms persist to this day. My gut hurts so badly today I don’t think I’m gonna be able to do much outside of laying in bed with an ice pack. At this point it seems to be any and all types of food. I’ve treated SIBO multiple times throughout this journey and I’ve mostly given up at this point. I eat clean, paleo, gluten and dairy free. Very little carbs, almost keto. Nothing seems to cut it. At this point I’ve surrendered and just pray that time heals me. I have tried everything else that I can think of, and I refuse to take pharmaceuticals. I sleep more these days, but I almost always have really bad nightmares and wake up in extreme fear/dread with huge adrenaline rushes. As far as anhedonia and depression, those happen but are usually a once in a while situation. I deal a lot more with extreme anxiety/terror that doesn’t shut off. I’m sorry, I wish I had better news. I’m very very scared, but determined to hold onto hope that one day this will all be over. We can do this. Sending you lots of love.
@@Heymattmarinhow are you now
Hey Matt did u have depersonalization/de realization will it get better by time pls help it's hard dealing with it every day I just gave birth cold turkied 6 months pregnant I hope this ends for u soon... My prayers to you
I’m so sorry. Yes I did deal with those symptoms and still do on and off. It’s been less and less lately. I do believe it heals for all of us with time ❤️
@@Heymattmarin thank you Matt that's really comforting thinking how scary it can be.. I'll keep the fight going hope u heal soon too.. God bless you..
@@hiddentalesofnature4183 never stop fighting ❤️ I can’t tell you how many times I’ve wanted to give up on this journey. It is completely indescribable. But the life that’s on the other side of it will feel miraculous. I believe in you!
@@Heymattmarin thanks Matt Jesus will guide us he loves us soo much that's the reason we are still alive I strongly believe in that ull accomplish great things and God will guide u to do so people need to know wat these drugs do it's great that ur sharing your story ❤ ..
Did u have peripheral neuropathy ? I got severe neuropathy symptoms and have weakness in my left hand and leg. I want to start medication now with the neuropathy. Did u have any such issues
Yes, I’ve struggled with neuropathy and I know many others in this who have too. I’m sorry you’re dealing with that ❤️
@@Heymattmarin so did ur neuropathy go away?? Or is it still there?? Did u try gabapentin for the nerve pain it neuropathy?? I am.planning to start gabapentin will it make my brain worse? Also I dont struggle with much mental symptoms post one year of cold turkey just some nerve issue s that s debilitating to function.
@@neetujogi8087 I have no idea how gabapentin will affect you. All I can say is that I personally would never touch any kind of psychotropic medication again. It made me worse once I had been injured by benzos and ssri’s. I am not telling you what to do, just sharing my experience. I’m sorry that the neuropathy is impacting you so much.
@@Heymattmarin can u tell me how was ur nerve pain? What symptoms did u have and how long did u have. Did u do anything dealing with
My story is similar but damn dude i understand how did you not go insane
I did. Many times, honestly. But it becomes a game of letting yourself go through hell and then reeling yourself back in. I also am very blessed to have had a TON of support from friends and family.
I go threw something probably not the same as you I understand something idk what it is but I happens to me withdrawal not normal withdrawal symptoms I am sorry dude I'm out
It sounds like you entered into a contract with the devil when you made the decision to take these meds...crazy. hope you get back to 100% soon.
Does anyone get 'face pulling' on one side of the face and a tight mouth which makes it difficult to speak clearly ? Also, has anyone tried low dose Naltrexone ?
I didn’t have this but I know people who’ve had it very intensely. Tardive Dyskinesia is a common side effect of these drugs.
I was on low dose naltrexone toward the beginning of my protracted withdrawal experience (prescribed for gut inflammation) and would highly caution against it. I am not a doctor, but my lived experience on LDN was horrific. It gave me severe akathisia that intensified dramatically any time I tried to taper off of it. The nervous system is so incredibly fragile in this type of injury that it can react intensely to things that wouldn’t normally be a problem. Not telling you what to do, just sharing my experience. I wish you healing and peace ❤️
I was prescripted cymbalta and used it 7 weeks 60mg,dr "tapered" me in 2 weeks!! Then the TERROR started,i thought i die! Then came benzoz cause i couldnt do nothing!!! They helped first,not anymore,its been over a year of my last dose of cymb,i dont rock or pace but this TERROR is something i cant deal.now im tapering benzoz,brain are mess,horrible ocd thoughts.gut and stomach are ruined.im so scared that i will not survive of this.
I’m sorry you’re going through it too. It feels impossible to survive, but people do recover. You can do this ❤️ sending you love and wishing you quick recovery