I’m a doctoral level clinical psychologist in the US who treats DID patients. Your videos are phenomenal! I frequently recommend them to my patients. I keep thinking you would be a wonderful therapist and noticed psychology textbooks behind you. Are you in school for psychology? I was just trying to share the video where you tell your story of being diagnosed and it seems it was deleted. Just the other day, I was able to realize that a patient has DID even though she did not endorse any symptoms of it other than conversing with other parts. I knew to ask about that because of your description of being asked about your inner dialogue during your hospital intake. Thank you! You are an inspiration to many!!
That's incredible praise, thank you so much! We work very hard to make our content is as professional and helpful as possible. We're all honoured that you recommend us! We're currently studying to become a counselor, I'm looking forward to joining you in helping our own patients after graduating! - Nin
I'm dating someone with DID AND I'M TRYING so hard to understand and explain to my family that I'm not in danger from her or her system... any ideas how I can talk to my family
My boyfriend can tell as well 😂 he automatically can tell when its kyle and he stops what he is doing to watch with me (he seems to have a bit of crush on kyle... 😂)
Hahah I heard my boyfriend watching their videos lastnight..and through the door I said "Is that Sally??" and it was. I love that I was able to introduce him to this channel and I hope he spreads it to his friends and family too!
I'm sure it's something that came from going through therapy for the Dissociadid system. And it comes with realizing and maybe even being told that you are NOT to blame for things that happened to you. You should have been kept safe as a child. That's your parents/caregivers duty NOT yours. That's on their shoulders NOT yours. Even though people have to live with that, they are not at fault. Never.
im spilling my guts a little because i dont have any friends or mental health professionals i feel like i can talk to. please feel free to tell me to delete this if this is uncalled for/makes you uncomfortable op. but yeah i struggle with that constantly and have since i became aware of having dissociate issues within this strain. i consider my system having gone dormant, although i dont claim a diagnosis because i havent had possibility of pursuing any support with it through mental health without being shut down and condescended to, and i feel like i must be faking because i actually miss having two of the members around. i feel like i must have made it up if the absence of being able to rely on and escape difficult situations through something that made my life and relationships hard to navigate is something i miss and feel lonely through.
Mica I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. D.I.D is a very complicated disorder that I wouldn’t know anything about but im here to talk. Like seriously if you need someone to talk to let me know.
@@mica8701 Hello there Mica! I have a similar history. My system, which I named the system funnily enough, is still active though. I know from experience that disassociation is a little harder to talk about. I've been diagnosed with a lot, but I never bring up DID, mostly because I'm scared that maybe I really am faking it. I'm not a good replacement for actual help, but I reckon some people feel better knowing they're not alone. If you need someone to talk to about it, I'm offering to listen.
but what if the trauma isnt bad enough? Like, I only was sexually touched as a child, not raped or anything. But an "alter" of mine (idk what else to call her), said that the event is way too much of me to handle alone so she is created. Is it because I dont remember it well that I dont care and shes the one who experienced it and wont forget? This is from my perspective tho. I'm also puzzled. Am I faking it?
Victoria Cookiez Productions I used to think my childhood was normal and regular apart from a few little things that bothered me, yes, but oh well. I thought I was faking, but I was really thinking about reasons why I would feel what I felt and I found some memories that I now have with me and that I suffer from a lot. I don’t think you’re faking it! It seems like the “alter” (i only used quotes because you did!) seems to have taken most of the stress off of you, or there could be other things hidden behind amnesia walls.
Nin talking about how a male alter in a female body is created, whilst becoming triggered, and remembering Kyle's been there since the body was 3.....my stomach is sick. You're all so strong and beautiful. Please keep yourselves healthy, take all the time to recover from the recent event, and remember you all matter so much to so many people. Not as fans of a youtuber, we genuinely care about you.
@@dollykumo2959 yes. Kyle is the primary protector. The system used to have Chloe(the host), Nina(the sexual protector), and Kyle(the primary protector). Chloe and Nina integrated into one alter, Nin, back in September. Meaning the new host, Nin, has all the memories of both Chloe and Nina.
"I didn't need to be stronger, I needed to be safe" is an incredibly calming and validating sentence. You're incredible Nin, thank you for all that you and y'all do
I did not need to learn my lesson, I needed to be in an environment that was safe to learn and grow in -- that environment was not safe to learn and grow in. Learning my lesson would not have made it a safe environment.
PoonkAmi that's incredibly rude to say I can surely say I would completely still support their system even if they didn't look like they do. There is beauty in everyone. And saying stuff like that is not ok so please do not.
I love that you said "I promise it gets less scary" instead of "I promise it gets better". That phrase affects me a lot and not many people payed attention to it. Even though I don't have DID you're inspiring in many different ways.
@@CammyW04 I have GAD and I suspect maybe depression, or maybe something else, but I haven't been able to get diagnosed. And I agree- when I get worse, I definitely feel like I am failing them. "I promise it gets less scary" is way more helpful.
Im bipolar and my mum said the same thing to me a few nights ago. Basically i started feeling negative emotions out of nowhere and that led to me crying without actually knowing why. I wasn't sad. So i went into her room terrified and crying wondering what was happening to me and she told me that ill calm down eventually and i shouldn't get so scared it was all gonna be over. Five minutes later i was laughing like nothing happened. So yeah, it gets less scary as you move along.
You have helped me understand DID. My daughter has recently been diagnosed. She is not able to explain it to me. You are providing educational information and I am grateful.
Charmaine Martinez Much love to you and your daughter!! she must be blessed to have someone going out of their way and educating themselves in her life 💖
EDIT: Since they deleted their comment - just FYI the person I was replying to insinuated that the original commenter above was the cause of their child's DID. @@riririnmaru5672 Really not an appropriate question. My mom wasn't in my life until I was 14 - she was basically a kid herself, and should've never had me. She may have done a "bad" thing, but she isn't a bad person. People grow up, people change. People who were once abusers can become the best of advocates, or even go the opposite way and become even worse. Judge someone for who they are, not necessarily who they once were. Much love. 💜
I'm so sorry, this chain is very serious. But I accidentally clicked on your profile when trying to make a comment, and the first thing that came up was a list called Mushrooms xD I'm sorry, that made me laugh. But on a serious note, you are an amazing mother for supporting your child
I cried. Ive been repeatedly traumatized throughout like and in adult life, but i dont have did. I have like.... amnesia that gives me small bits of the trauma at a time thats just enough to deal with. then when i feel like ive accepted it it gives me another little piece. Idk what that is or if it has a name. But when people say "oh you shouldve been over it by now" "or it was your fault, youre an adult and it happens too much to you for you to be telling the truth" and i always respond with "i didnt need to be stronger, i needed to be safe" so hearing that from someone else really made me feel better and not alone.
Me too I don't have did but have went through aduse emotionally physically along with sexual assaults the Trouma has stuck with me and hearing someone say that out loud it's comforting.
Madeline Ford kyle made a short video about it but basically this lady (who claims to have DID herself and has, in the past, claimed to have been lesbian (she wasn't ), transgender (she's not), and married to a cardboard cut out of brad pit) said she thought DisosiaDID were crazy and basically left them feeling like all of the progress they'd made was undone because of the tooootally wrong information she was spreading to such a large audience. there is more to the aftermath i'm sure but that's all i know.
And I had literally just subscribed to this channel.. TH-cam recommended this channel after Anthony's video I watched with DissociaDID and others. I hadn't even known about the rude lady until watching a few videos reacting to that video.. Trish makes me mad, and I've never even heard of her before.
I'm a brand new subscriber and I was delighted to find that someone with so much research and personal wisdom developed a channel that educates such a misunderstood diagnosis. The sheer amount of strength it must take to share such personal insight is awe-inspiring. Kyle, Jade and Sally have so much strength to take on the entire system's organization and protection. But the others that have come forward outside of the primary host are so vital to the system's wellbeing; they really communicate their importance and back up the channel's primary goal of informing the world about this disorder. I am inherently nurturing and through these videos have come to feel a strong empathy and protection of this particular system. I hope they are fairing alright with this pandemic. I also sincerely look forward to more videos if they are well enough, because there are so many other topics that can be discussed about DID. Such as how a system with DID is able to function day to day with work and new relationships and daily responsibilities. There must be so many obstacles that is dealt with and I can only imagine how such a complex system manages these things. I also wonder if there is a space dedicated to each alter's clothing and personal belongings and interests in the home and how that is managed given most homes do not have space for 20+ people. I hope I am not coming across as offensive or ignorant in asking. I truly am curious as I believe each alter should be validated and respected. Sending out my love from California 💛
Did anyone else’s heart just break knowing that this is something that people go through? How can someone be so evil that their child has to disassociate and have amnesia?
Especially when you see the kind of person that Nin is, even back before Chloe integrated. And to know that someone so wonderful had to have undergone such horrible things as a young child. Even much later in life to have an alter like Omega be created. If I could, I would give all the alters a great big hug
It’s terrifying for us, because we’re just starting to come to terms that we’ve been through horrific trauma as a child. And honestly it’s awful... I wouldn’t wish this on anyone.. it’s awful... - Ozzie
I think this is the first time I’ve ever heard someone say “I didn’t need to be stronger, I needed to be safe” out loud. I’ve been told “what happened to you made you stronger” SO many times. It’s well intended, but so invalidating. So thank you for saying what I needed to hear ❤️
a powerful statement. this system is SOOOO intelligent and well spoken!! i'm sorry you were told that. it invalidates vulnerability and vulnerability is a good thing in that it makes us compassionate. all the best to you.
Finally someone said what really needed to happen. I might go further by saying "I didn't need to be stronger, I needed to be safe...I needed someone to protect me" I was one, two, three, four years old, I should not have needed to be strong. Nin, you literally heal my soul time after time, post after post. I am so proud of you for all you have done for the D.I.D. community of which I belong and I am so very grateful. Sending lots of love. The CalleDonia System.
Same here, I was try to find some ways to cope with some stuff and I came to discover this channel. I don’t have DID, but I extremely appreciate how the system talks about the matters and how it explain it.. in certain ways he really helps me a lot in this months
I love how mature Nin and the system handled the whole Trisha situation, you can tell who did it for the attention and who did it for the DID community -Hope you guys are doing ok!
My older sister molested me as a child a lot and I couldnt remember until she came back this year and showed up at my parents house. For 15 years I didnt remember and when she came back it was like a flood of horrible memories. It was so weird to think that I just couldnt remember for so long. I had to be put in the hospital for 2 months after that. I dont have DID but it just made me think of it. Not knowing all the trama from your childhood is scary and it makes you question if there was more.
I’m sorry that happens my dude. I know this isn’t really a constructive question but how did it happen? Like I’m guessing you’re a girl, and so is your sister so how does that really work? Just curious, not trying to discredit you my guy.
@@pearblossom1390 Same! I think it's a good way to word it for those who don't understand what dissociation is because it's different for every system. But ultimately it serves the same purpose 😓
According to one theory, dissociation actually developed from the same neurological response that enables an opossum to play dead or a rabbit to freeze when it is threatened. So it actually goes back further than humanity.
This would be very helpful to many subscribers who've followed the changes in DissociaDID's system and the occasional appearance of Omega and the integration of Chloe and Nina to become Nin. It might also help those who are new(er) to the channel and who find the previous Meet The Alters video(s) a bit confusing due to Nin now being the host.
when she said "do you understand?" during the male alter thing i almost broke out crying because Nin is trying so hard to make people understand people like us understand. and even if it is triggering her she is trying her best to keep going. Well done Dissociadid system you guys rock and give me hope for this world
@@ralphmoses828 They didnt include everyone last time either because not everyone wants to be involved so it would have to be whether or not they want to. I know they have one new alter but they havent given any details about them. Nin is really the only 'new' (integrated) one.
Can I ask you, I think I have DID but I can’t tell. I don’t have the Amnesia like everyone talks about. I have had full blown convos with a 23 year old man, in my head. I’m scared to look for help. Please tell me what you think.
I feel like... Idk. When Nin talks about topics such as skin colour in SUCH a respectful way... I just don't get how people can go on with their accusations. I mean... isn't the way she talks and what she says about these topics in so many videos full proof that she is a decent person with no bad intentions? So frustrating :/
Have you seen the older videos (Some have been privated) and tweets and comments she's made? A lot of poc people don't like them. It seems they don't like the alters being labeled as a race but the alter has never experienced the racism so it feels rude. She has drawn twice her native American alter very stereotypical with a feather and them being 'spiriual.' I've been told she removed those drawings recently from instagram. Why wouldn't she leave everything up if there's nothing wrong with them.
Saiyuri Co I can understand that and it’s a topic that has to be approached very carefully and respectfully, I totally agree. I can understand that some things were worded not correctly and poc have a right to be irritated. Calling Nin racist is a whole other story for me though and something that has been thrown around so easily. In my opinion it’s clear that she has no bad intentions and wasn’t aware it was offending to anyone. I think that’s the main difference. EDIT: now that I've learned more about that topic, I'd like to say that I do understand the point that's been made better now. That racism isn't always actively violent, it can be subconcious and unintended - that doesn't make it okay though! I'm sorry if I was ignorant before. I believe DissociaDID are aware of that, have educated themselves and changed their phrasing. So I do still think that they are good-hearted people with no bad intentions.
@@legion160 apologizes if I'm misunderstanding because current events and it's 1 am but I agree with you. That's how DID is treated. But I do know from professionals they have to get to know the alters in order to integrate and heal
@@legion160 while yes thats the goal its not always possible due to integration meaning also the integration of the trauma, also it has to be said that the "host" is not the same as the "original" because the host is the one in control of the body most often an the original is the person before the "split"
What's sadder is that not every kid that has trauma that extreme develops DID. I swear you should have to take a test before you're allowed to have kids.
@@beth9138 thats so true, i dont have DID but i disociated a lot as a kid because of repeated trauma, i dont do it anymore unless im stressed, or scared. and it will last for the rest off my life, and its not always the parents fault tho, because my mom did everything she could to protect me, but she just couldn't nobody could, because nobody knew, sometimes those bad people play it so well that not even the best parent ir care giver can help you and you cant do shit about it or tell anyone about it
I think about that everytime she mentions it. specially being that there are supposed to be resourses to stop that kind of abuse and trauma to happen and protect kids.
@@sch00lgirll That scares me, I'm a mom and I whould do EVERYTHING to protect my children... And you say in some cases I whould not know? I'm realy realy scared... 🥺 My best wishes for you!
"If you feel like you're faking it , and it scares you, then you're probably not faking it" I dont have DID but I have other things going on and this struck a nerve with me 😭
7Stormy CatГ yup me as hell whenever I think about going and talking to someone I get anxiety about trying to explain what’s going on and that I will sound like I’m making it up and then I convince myself that I am in fact making it up. 🙄 the worst.
Lynn Marie yes exactly !!! I’m so glad to know that other people go through the same thing ☺️ Helps me feel like I’m not alone and also, really backs up the fact that we are not faking ! 🤗
same, i doubt myself a lot if i’m actually trans or if i’m faking it (im pretty sure i’m trans when i think about it but still theres this insecure piece of me) so that hit home for me as well
"If there's anything in particular that you would like to see us make..." - on the flip side of that, is there anything that we can do for the DissociaDID?
Wow. We absolutely hate to see how much this has affected you. The fact that Kyle started trying to front there close to the end just shows how recent events have really hurt you. From our system to your's STAY STRONG. This world is a more beautiful place with you in it. I'm just one of the many you've helped understand what they are going through. Don't give others the power to destroy what you've accomplished.
I dont believe in the alters having control, it might not be possible to fix DID, but at the same time normalizing multiple "people" in one isnt good either
@@legion160 stop talking. Just stop. You don't know what you're talking about, you aren't a professional and you aren't educated on the subject to tell other people what to do
This is probably silly but when you said “do you understand?” We stopped dissociating and paid attention. Your videos help us a lot when we don’t understand something In our system. Thank you for that Nin. ~Slider
That's a subconscious trait we all have. The same as when you dont hear someone asking you something but hear them say "are you listening to me" the brain is a weird and wonderful thing 😅
I don’t have DID but I do disassociate a lot. I noticed I picked it up too, strangely enough. I can spend hours zoned out and i tend to repeat it to myself, asking myself if I know where i am, if i understand what’s happening.
@@tsnevtbl That is possible, she can be pretty aloof, but I think part of it may be the want to accumulate more views on her channel. The woman loves controversy. Tbh, I feel like Trisha deserves more credit for her success on TH-cam and her skills at working the system, yet this is an exception for me. As a psych major & future clinical psychologist, it pains me to see such misinformation being spread. I know what it's like to not be taken seriously for a mental disorder (PMDD) and it is very frustrating.
Absolutely agree! I also like Harry Potter - although the author's views on some matters I don't agree with so I try to avoid going to sites like Pottermore now - and I'm a Ravenclaw but I can see what you mean about a Hufflepuff vibe with Nin's makeup! Her makeup is always stunning, and when she appeared with the alter (Omega, I think?) fronting and no makeup, I was impressed with her beautiful skin without makeup - not something many individuals have when makeup is taken off! I also always like the different colours in her hair and have wanted to know what items she uses to create such beautiful colours and to suit her mood!
"I didn't need to be stronger I needed to be safe." And, "If you feel like your faking it, and that scares you, your probably not faking it." These two quotes really resonated with us. Thank you for all that you have done for the DID community. Much love from the DJC System 💖
When you explained about why a male alter may be created in a female body, I almost cried. I don't have DID, have been watching your videos forever, but I still learn so much from them. I'm primarily so sorry for everyone who went through such horrific things, and I'm so upset people cause such trauma. Humans are incredible human beings, and I hope people will learn to be more careful when it comes to kids (and adults, really).
This exact moment also really struck a chord with me personally. I can really relate, made so much click together in my mind about the origins of my gender fluidity and my splits in identity....
This integration needed to happen. Nin is able to talk about details and triggers that Chloe couldn't really touch. This is so refreshing. Thank you for filming this Nin!
*DissociaDID “Find your power” tapestry comes in* Me: *wears as a cape* “I SHALL DEFEAT ALL FOES AND DEFEND THE WEAK!! BE IT SYSTEMS OR SINGULARS!! LOOK OUT ABUSERS!!” (Is singular the term? Idk) (I love this merch so muchhhh)
I did not nod in agreement. I shook my head in disagreement. Can someone please explain to me how having multiple alternative personalities THAT ARE AWARE OF EACH OTHER, is dissociative? That seems to defy the definition of dissociate.
Whenever I think about people questioning the validity of DID I just think of the quote from Harry Potter: Harry: "Is this real? Or is it all just happening inside my head?" Dumbledore: "Of course it's happening inside your head Harry, but why should that mean that it isn't real?" All my love to you and your whole system ❤️stay strong
I cried watching this video. No child should have to go through ANY trauma... DID is such a real thing and it's sad. Like said "I didn't need to be stronger, I needed to be safe" it broke my heart. You guys are so strong and so beautiful!
I don’t know why but when Nin said “you’re not on your own, even when you’re isolation, you’re not on your own” I started crying. Nin, if you see this I love you (and everyone in your system) and I’m really thankful for everything you do. You are incredible and you all are doing something amazing.
"If you feel like you're faking, and that scares you, you're probably not faking." Nin you've said it before, and you'll say it a thousand more times, but you saying it like that actually shook me when I heard it. I'll go in loops and loops and loops talking myself into and out of whether I believe I might have a dissociative disorder, all too many things fall into place and then they don't, and then there's all the things I can't even begin to place cause I don't have the answers. For years I've been too afraid to look into all this and saying my trauma " wasn't that bad", but I've just started my therapy journey and, although I know it's going to be long, you and your system have given me hope and courage to work through my trauma. Sometimes the hardest part of recovery is just the acceptance of a thing, but I want to thank you all for helping me be brave enough to acknowledge my trauma, accept who I am, and move forward with an open mind in my own recovery. You and your system are an invaluable asset to the DID and mental health community, and you are still able to spark bravery and acceptance in others even in stressful times like these.
I have CPTSD and there's not a single therapy session that passes without me thinking at least once that I'm faking it and wondering why my therapist doesn't notice. She doesn't notice because I'm not faking but try to tell that to my brain, it won't listen. I'm so glad you started therapy and got help, I've made a lot of progress thanks to my therapist and hope that yours will do the same for you. Once we acknowledge the trauma we can start to heal from it and I'm wishing you the very best for your recovery!
I’ve been in the same situation similar as you and saying that for most of my life. Thinking others have it worse than me and have been pushing my problems away until it got worse. I’m glad you’ve accepted everything. It’s a weird recovery journey but it’s well worth it.
Don't have DID but the whole "people who are faking know that they're faking" struck a chord with me in terms of my disability. I often worry that I'm faking everything somehow - which is odd as I have tests which prove I'm not faking.
Same I always wonder if I’m faking despite the fact I’ve got an official diagnosis, medication to treat it, a GP, a psychologist and a psychiatrist who are helping me treat my bipolar. They often have to remind me that my illness is real.
As someone with depression and anxiety, I feel the same way. It took my doctor and my psychiatrist to be like "yes, you very much do have these things" for me to start believing myself. But I sometimes still feel like I'm faking.
I have felt so scared most of my life. Thinking I'm "faking" seems to be a completely normal thing for those of us with more extreme mental illnesses. Bc our brain tries to tell us no! We don't have that! Bc if we DID have that, it may mean you have to come to the realization horrible things DID happen to us. And that's a scary thing to come to terms with. So just know you are perfectly normal to question that. Mental illness isn't fun or something anyone wants to have. And those who do think it's "fun" to have it, really may be faking. Which is upsetting for those of us who deal with it everyday. Much love to you all!
You have every right to get emotional and "heated" right now. A lot of very stressful things have hit you all at once - a move, COVID-19, and she-who-will-not-be-named. Happy to see a video from you, no matter how emotional you get in it. Also, your makeup is on point. I hope everybody in your system is doing well, you all deserve to be happy and confident.
I mean not meant to hate or anything I liked this channel wait no I used to I'm sorry I'm not hating I'm not a Trisha fan I hate her it's just Idk since this video nin just felt weird and wrong and if you check the Spotify playlists they were made after the channel was made which really makes no sense Idk I'm sorry I'm not trying to be offensive it's just that this doesn't seem genuine anymore
@@hexil6283 maybe it's a coincidence? I've been following the videos from Chloe and everyone since about 2 months in, and it's been genuine the entire time. I think with the Spotify playlists they decided some people might be interested to see what each alter likes separately. Maybe one of the system members even suggested it or got inspired after reading a comment.
It's definitely broadly effective and extremely helpful but there are several things that Nin does get wrong, though I know they all have the best of intentions. Psychology is pretty much the fastest-developing field of medicine in history right now, and we're learning so many new things every day and correcting misinformation that we thought we knew. Thoughtform or parogenic systems are widely recognised in the plural community. Median systems are also recognised by the community. Yet they do not fit within the established theory of structural dissociation for how a system forms. It also doesn't explain how OSDD types 1a and 1b can form since they either have less distinction between alters, or in the case of our system less/no amnesia.
I feel like my IQ goes up 50+ points every time I watch a video by this system. You guys, Nin in particular, would make for great teachers. Sending lots of strength and love!
Angie Cardona agree! Nin and the system's way of explaining DID is so thorough yet easy to understand making it so much more interesting to keep learning about
@PoonkAmi do you have no better use of your time than to go out of your way to seek out creators you don't like and reply to multiple positive comments on a MENTAL HEALTH channel with baseless insults and empty filth about someone you don't know? Disgusting. Find a hobby.
Hey guys , dont bring a certain other youtuber into this in the comment section . The other youtuber doesnt deserve attention and its best to learn from nin and the system ! Great video xx
Audrey Mai she literally says she wants to move on form this. this person has cause repeated harm to nin and her system. literally what would be the point of bringing it up? to rehash things nin is trying to move on from? pls stop.
"If you feel like you're faking, and that scares you, you're probably not faking." 🥺💖 Okay so I don't have DID but this one sentence has just validated all of my struggles with my mental health, my gender identity, and the coping mechanisms I have to use to get by everyday. It's hard to accept these things within myself, but hearing somebody else tell me that is just so incredibly validating. Thank you Nin, thank you so much.
I'm so glad Nin said this and it helped you! I remember when I was having PTSD flashbacks of childhood trauma, and I kept thinking I was making it up, or I was "insane", it was REALLY scary. And my wonderful therapist said to me, "If you are experiencing this, and have had so many problems through out your life bc of it, and you are scared and trying to block it out, in my professional opinion, that experience really DID happen to you." I felt so validated, I needed to hear that I wasn't "insane" my whole life. I was just running from the truth bc it's too painful. Feeling validated is a wonderful and life changing thing. Much love sent to you!
„when you‘re afraid of faking it, you‘re not faking it.“ that helped me so much. I thought of this for days and hours and it made me so often so depressed. And just hearing that this is normal makes my heart run. Thank you so much!
Nin & The entire DissosiaDID System are possibly the CLASSIEST & most GRACEFUL humans on earth. I continue to be thoroughly impressed by you all. Thank You for continued education & positivity even in the midst of a difficult season...For your system & the world. Just another reason I love & wholeheartedly support this system & channel. 🤍😘
Friendship is Irish bomb Haha. Touché. HOWEVER...I feel like Kyle is a Classy Badass! He would ALWAYS treat people respectfully & would defend the honor of anyone in need. That’s what I meant by Classy! With Grace Kyle (& the ENTIRE DissociaDID System) in my personal opinion SHOW Grace to those who don’t deserve it. (An example being the video Nin posted after “She who shall not be named” made herself look foolish Nin/The DissociaDID System COULD have BLASTED “T” for the obvious mistruths...Instead They spoke in generalities & didn’t call “T” out. THAT to me is showing someone GRACE! My apologies for the lengthy response! All this Self Distancing I haven’t got my daily word quota in! 😂 Be well & try to find joy in one thing this weekend..Even in the difficult season we are all in! Cheers! 🤍
I don’t have DID but after the latest drama and after hearing all of the misinformation being spread, I’ve decided I want to try and educate myself on this topic
You have come to the RIGHT place. I do not have DID either but Chloe/Nin (and other Alters) have taught me so much about DID. I will always be a subscriber to this channel, because I feel like they are my best friend now. 😊❤
sorry for my comment being off-topic but i just wanna say that if Nin ever wants to branch out and start a make-up/beauty channel i'd 110% be there for it
Don't apologize for trying to make something "short and light-hearted" when this topic is so complex and difficult to talk about, you still manage to make it so accessible for people who would've otherwise never known about DID, sending lots of love to everyone in the system
When you talked about assault, about the thought-path of “if I didn’t have these parts this wouldn’t happen” is one of the biggest struggles of mine. I have never heard another person talk about this. I didn’t know other people had those thoughts.
I have thoes thoutes to and I blame my self so much even tho it was I don't ask for it to happen I said no I tried to go. Nin has helped me come to grips so much with what happened
MultiplicityandMe said the same thing when she was asked about why all her alters are male. I think it makes sense, especially in a child's mind, to come to such a conclusion
I think the same thing about something that happened to me as an adult. For a long time my personal hygiene lagged because I thought it would make me less of a target. I love this channel because it's so educational but at the same time so heartfelt. Thank you for commenting and sharing.
The way she talks in to the screen and stares at the viewer makes you feel like you have a friend!! They are such amazing you tubers I love them so much
I’m going to be completely honest. I used to be very skeptical about the reality of DID. It just didn’t make sense to me how a disorder like this could actually exist outside fiction. But after watching just a couple videos on this channel that completely changed. I now believe it is 100% true & valid, & I owe that to this channel. Thank you so much for helping me understand and eliminate my ignorance. I think what you’re doing, spreading awareness, & specifically how you’re doing it, namely by explaining DID in depth and yet also in a way people can understand & accept it is wonderful. Thank you!
I was diagnosed with DID yesterday and I just wanted to let you know that this channel helped out with that. I'm so appreciative of all of you and your content, without it, I may have been stuck not knowing what to do or what was going on. Thank you so much.
"if you feel like your faking, and that scares you, you're probably not faking." That hit me so hard. I've been struggling with mental health problems (not DID but others) for so long and I never really got proper help until recently because I was so sure I was making it up and that it was all some unconscious ploy for attention. I wish this was something past me had heard so so long ago but even so, it helps immeasurably to hear it now. Thank you dissociaDID for giving me a safe place to feel comfortable to begin to understand myself and come to terms with myself. You guys make me feel so understood. thank you.
it’s honestly so hard to talk to someone about it...(not DID but other mental stuff) I haven’t dared to because I’m terrified that they will just tell me that I’m faking it or that I’m just weak and this is how everyone feels all the time... how did you get the courage to do it?
Yes absolutely, I have bipolar disorder and I always was freaked out that I was faking it, then someone told me that that means I probably aren’t and that made me feel so much better about that
Totally, I have the exact same situation going on with me. I only just recently started to get help for CPTSD, and I was always scared that I was faking it, my parents accusing me of faking it didn’t really help either. I’m so glad that you’re getting help, and I hope that you’re doing well! Best of luck to you ❤️
I went through the same thing with my mental health disorders. Being so afraid that I was faking it or just wanting an excuse. But when I finally got the courage to take to a Dr (I even told her I was scared I was just making it up in my head) and she was extremely supportive and helpful, these videos and comment sections have helped me to see that I'm not alone but that there is a world of people fighting together every day 💜 thank you
Omg thank you for saying this I relate so much. It was really hard for me because I was scared people would say I was faking some did say I was faking what I am and was going through.
I was diagnosed with DID a few months ago and stopped going to therapy as often because I got scared.. now that I found your channel and groups on Facebook, I feel like I found a whole new whole where I can be me and not so scared anymore! Thank you so much!
I’m not sure if this will help as I don’t have DID but I have been diagnosed with other disorders, such as OCD (which is the one that effects my life most) and my therapist reminds me that if my brain is getting stressed on if I’m faking, or if I’m getting anxious that people will think I’m faking that it is a sign that it’s not fake, as she says “people who fake their disorders do not get scared that they are faking, cause they know they are” (sorry if this isn’t helpful but I thought I’d share her wise words) Edit: Just got too the part of the video where Nin said the same thing, sorry for wasting your time if you have read this 😂
@@britishpigeon838 please remember that most people with these disorders face a lot of stigmatization and therefore cannot get the help they need for years on end sometimes, much less a test! it isn't as easy as finding any therapist and asking. it's very hard to find a professional who will believe your experiences! informed self diagnosis can be helpful to those who are unable to get the help they need. that being said, @ the original poster, your brain trying to convince you that you're faking is just a part of the disorder. you and your system are valid. :)
You know what could be cool, a series where different alters do those "draw my life" videos, it would be like an alternative type of "meet my alters". ❤️
Ailish Nixon it could be cool but also very triggering for the alters because they are typically holding trauma. So I’m not sure it would be best since the host lives most of the normal daily life.
She has some older videos where her alters describe/draw what they look like! I’ve been following since the beginning and it’s so interesting and amazing
@@rileyanne9547 I see what you mean now I didn't really think of that, I guess I was just thinking to see what each alter looks like so I guess just drawing each alter,I didn't really think that one through
I can't begin to explain how glad I am for internet to be a thing which allows us all to be connected, even if we've never met. You all are incredibly beautiful. I am, and I am surea lot of other people are too, here for and with you.
"If you feel like you're faking, and that scares you, you're probably not faking" *So true!!* My friend with DID has come to me multiple times worried about this and I've told them as much. 😊 Fakers know that they're faking and wouldn't be worried about it.
@@Honey77227 I have that feeling a lot with stuff... But as Nin said, if you'd be faking you'd know... It's like cheating on a test. You can't cheat if you don't know you are... And I guess the most important thing with these confusing thoughts is to talk. To a therapist, to people close to you who are safe and who you can trust... Outside opinions help.
**trigger warning** Wow, that is the most I've ever heard this system talk about types of abuse, and how sexual abuse can be an environment where an alter is created. Whilst Nin clearly had to work hard to not trigger herself, (understandably!), I was stunned at her bravery and ability to do that in such a responsible and educational way. Blinkin 'eck, @DissociaDID, I hope you're able to recognise and feel proud of these accomplishments! ❤
Watching Nins system grow and evolve is so beautiful! Seeing the changes from their first upload to now shows how much time and perseverance helps people become stronger and healthier. ✨
I've heard you say "You are not alone in this" many times before in different videos, but this time it made my heart tremble and tears rose to my eyes. Yes, everything that has been happening since the whole Corona thing begun has beaten me down SO hard and ruined my already difficult life SO much that even these familiar words through the screen has me bawling... I hate this so much. Thank you for being so strong and letting my mind rest atleast for 18 minutes. ❤️ Love You all.
"If you feel like you're faking and that scares you you're probably not faking" I'm sorry but that realization made me almost throw up I feel like I'm loosing my mind
I've been thinking about Jade lately and wondering how she's doing. I'd like her to know she has done a wonderful job keeping everyone safe and where they need to be, and I hope she's taken some time to self care recently! I have a question for her if she would be willing to answer. I'm wondering how Jade felt when the little came out in the Anthony video. I know your whole system is very protective of the littles but she's the one who made the video to expand on the reasons why the littles will not be a part of the channel. Your little's part was so powerful and letting that footage stay in must have been a big decision for the system!
I'm not her but if I remember correctly, they censored the little's name. And we've seen littles coming out for a bit in other videos of them, so I suppose it's fine
Just a quick thought about faking disorders: I've noticed that a lot of people with these mental health disorders (panic or anxiety, depression, etc.) have at one point in their lives with this disorder have thought they were faking it. For me and my somewhat diagnosed anxiety, I've had many points in time where I thought, "Do I really have this or I am trying to feel special in some way?" And then the panic attacks set in and I think, "No, I actually have this problem." But, you are valid if you have thought you were faking it. It seems pretty normal, actually, to believe you are faking. But you're not, and you are strong for pushing through those obstacles.
Skye, I can agree with this. I as well have anxiety and for the longest time, when an attack would happen, I'd try to tell myself I was overreacting or freaking out for nothing, etc. I did my best to deny it and down play (which inevitably made it worse). When I finally accepted that okay, this is how I process stress, I was able to find ways to help me recenter (most of which, for me, were hormonal). I think you're right that for many with a mental illness, there is a strong period of denial because we dont want to BE that. That's not us! But I think that also shines a glaring light on the general stigmatism that all mental health still holds. I'm so happy to see that more ailments, diagnosis, etc are being brought into a place where we can remove those stigmas and better understand not only the coping mechanisms, but also people in general. Which, really makes us all better people in the end.
I wasn't diagnosed in any way and still not but I had thought where I was thinking "am I really depressed?" or other stuff like that. I'm better since I finished school but now I feel like I'm stuck in a loop. And unfortunately with this virus going on I can't actually go out of this loop cause we need to avoid people. Can't wait for this epidemic to be over honestly. I really want to get out of my shell
That is really frustrating not know if your issues are real. I have experienced that a lot and like you said, then it's a panick attack and it sinks in. I relate.💜
I absolutely agree, cause I even have thoughts about if I'm faking my ADHD or my EUPD, especially because of the fear that I would be faking it to feel special or validated... and i think it begs the question, is this actually a normal thing about having mental illness or is it because of the stigma attached to mental illness?
I was diagnosed 3 years ago as having Complex PTSD with DID... It was terrifying, because I'm a mom in my 40s with a bachelor's in zoology. How could I be this? Wouldn't people notice? People had noticed, but I had brushed it off, saying I must have doppelgangers... Your videos are the first that made me feel normal, that their are others like me. I'm not ready to go completely public like you, you are so brave, but I have opened up on my Facebook and to my friends and family. It's weird how much it explained to others, and how many suspected. Thank you for your courage.
As a host.... I still imagine my face when our therapist told me: "did you ever heard about DID? Cause that's what you have." Was the first time I heard about that and I was terrified and I thought she was the crazy one. God... Lot of memories about that. Loved your video. So related. More than anything, the way you explained it. We love you girl...
Karma Pandora System if you have thought it over and identify as crazy I totally respect it and will apologize for the comment, but mayby consider you are not crazy for having DID 💜 again, i dont mean to be rude and Im really sorry if I offend
I had a similar interaction with my therapist regarding my PTSD diagnosis. When she said it point blank, “Yeah, you have PTSD” it was a shocking moment. Hope y’all are doing well ❤️
@@brigeem5022 Same when I got my MS diagnosis. I didn't know anything about MS and I was sooo sure that it wasn't MS so I was just shocked. I remember the doctor telling me and my response was "well damn" lol. The only thing I remember after that was the doctor saying something along the lines of "everything I say from now on will probably enter through one of your ears and just go out the other ear, and that's fine". She was very right about that.
Sofia Reumert Once again had a very similar experience when being diagnosed with endometriosis! It never entered my brain that it would be something on the table, and I don’t remember much of what he said afterwards, either 😖
I actually can't believe that DID is relatively more common than bulimia and schizophrenia but is barely even known by most. To feel more realistic, 1-3% of the world population is about 75 million to 225 million people. That means that that amount of people may live their whole lives not knowing that they have DID. I hope that more research and more light will shine on DID. Thank you for your dedication on educating people about this disorder. Came from Anthony's video and left with a lot insights and knowledge 😊
I found out I had D I D by having blackouts as a teen, People would tell me hey you did this and it would be something I’d never do in my life and I’d go by different names and all that stuff that’s scary when you snap back into it! Then a doctor told me when I start to feel like I’m drifting away to smoke cbd “pot with no thc” and it worked till I started watching one of your videos where you have that older alter and you were talking about childhood trauma and it was the first time I’ve started again where my alters were able to fully take over again , I had a nose bleed and all of a sudden I lost control . Idk it hurts me more knowing someone might have gone through what I went through if that makes sense I wouldn’t wish childhood trauma on my worst enemy.
10:14 "Do you understand?" You sound so caring and loving and it just melts my heart. You're an incredible strong and amazing person. You're an incredible strong and amazing system. Thank you for informing the world accurately
“If you feel like your faking it and your scared, your probably not faking it” thank you so much for clearing this up.. We always watch your channel. My system really loves watching you. Much love 🥰
I’m a doctoral level clinical psychologist in the US who treats DID patients. Your videos are phenomenal! I frequently recommend them to my patients. I keep thinking you would be a wonderful therapist and noticed psychology textbooks behind you. Are you in school for psychology? I was just trying to share the video where you tell your story of being diagnosed and it seems it was deleted. Just the other day, I was able to realize that a patient has DID even though she did not endorse any symptoms of it other than conversing with other parts. I knew to ask about that because of your description of being asked about your inner dialogue during your hospital intake. Thank you! You are an inspiration to many!!
That's incredible praise, thank you so much! We work very hard to make our content is as professional and helpful as possible. We're all honoured that you recommend us! We're currently studying to become a counselor, I'm looking forward to joining you in helping our own patients after graduating! - Nin
Nin, have you done EMDR? That is my goal with all of my DID patients, once all parts (alters) are working together and ready
I'm dating someone with DID AND I'M TRYING so hard to understand and explain to my family that I'm not in danger from her or her system... any ideas how I can talk to my family
no
My boyfriend "what are you watching?"
Me: "dissociaDID"
Him: "yeah, that's what I thought, I recognised the voice!"
*busted for watching you a lot*
I loved reading this mostly because I thought, "how cool, boyfriend pays attention too!"
My boyfriend can tell as well 😂 he automatically can tell when its kyle and he stops what he is doing to watch with me (he seems to have a bit of crush on kyle... 😂)
Hahah I heard my boyfriend watching their videos lastnight..and through the door I said "Is that Sally??" and it was. I love that I was able to introduce him to this channel and I hope he spreads it to his friends and family too!
my partner knows all their names by now from me talking about all their videos. lol
Lisa Nordh hahaha love that
"I did not need to be 'stronger'. I needed to be safe."
The most powerful thing I've heard in a while.
😪 seriously. Im so impressed with her knowledge. 💞💖💞 Thank you Nin
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You're at 666 likes and I don't wanna fuck it up.
@@KS-md4no It's okay, it's over. I appreciate it though x]
Because they didn't upload in a while
Yes!!!
"I didn't need to be stronger, I needed to be safe"
Holy shit, that line made me rethink my whole damn childhood. Like, damn.
I'm sure it's something that came from going through therapy for the Dissociadid system. And it comes with realizing and maybe even being told that you are NOT to blame for things that happened to you. You should have been kept safe as a child. That's your parents/caregivers duty NOT yours. That's on their shoulders NOT yours. Even though people have to live with that, they are not at fault. Never.
I love your profile pic 👌
same. and I SO appreciate it. Ive been told it was?is my faukt and this helped so much
“If you feel like your faking and that scares you, you’re probably not faking.”
Thank you.
im spilling my guts a little because i dont have any friends or mental health professionals i feel like i can talk to. please feel free to tell me to delete this if this is uncalled for/makes you uncomfortable op.
but yeah i struggle with that constantly and have since i became aware of having dissociate issues within this strain. i consider my system having gone dormant, although i dont claim a diagnosis because i havent had possibility of pursuing any support with it through mental health without being shut down and condescended to, and i feel like i must be faking because i actually miss having two of the members around.
i feel like i must have made it up if the absence of being able to rely on and escape difficult situations through something that made my life and relationships hard to navigate is something i miss and feel lonely through.
Mica I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. D.I.D is a very complicated disorder that I wouldn’t know anything about but im here to talk. Like seriously if you need someone to talk to let me know.
@@mica8701 Hello there Mica! I have a similar history. My system, which I named the system funnily enough, is still active though. I know from experience that disassociation is a little harder to talk about. I've been diagnosed with a lot, but I never bring up DID, mostly because I'm scared that maybe I really am faking it. I'm not a good replacement for actual help, but I reckon some people feel better knowing they're not alone. If you need someone to talk to about it, I'm offering to listen.
but what if the trauma isnt bad enough? Like, I only was sexually touched as a child, not raped or anything. But an "alter" of mine (idk what else to call her), said that the event is way too much of me to handle alone so she is created. Is it because I dont remember it well that I dont care and shes the one who experienced it and wont forget? This is from my perspective tho.
I'm also puzzled. Am I faking it?
Victoria Cookiez Productions I used to think my childhood was normal and regular apart from a few little things that bothered me, yes, but oh well. I thought I was faking, but I was really thinking about reasons why I would feel what I felt and I found some memories that I now have with me and that I suffer from a lot. I don’t think you’re faking it! It seems like the “alter” (i only used quotes because you did!) seems to have taken most of the stress off of you, or there could be other things hidden behind amnesia walls.
Something about the way Nin talks and looks at the camera just feels like she is right there next you and the words just pierce into your soul.
Ladychu yes! And you can see how much she cares
Exactly!! And when she said “do you understand?” I felt like she was talking to each of us (the individual watching) personally
She is so present, so intense in a very strong and beautiful way. You can't look way or stop listening
Yes yes yes!!
i remember chloe had a similar thing but its just so much more prominent with nin. i love it so much tbh.
“Do you understand ?“
Me: *nods like they can see me*
I did the same thing.
Same
Same here
Same and then was like, why did I just nods?
Make a backup channel!
‘I did not need to be “stronger”, i needed to be safe’ that spoke to me
This is something that needs to be said more! This is the first time I've -ever~ heard someone say it and it resonated so much.
That statement could not be more powerful in putting the responsibility where it belongs.
Nin talking about how a male alter in a female body is created, whilst becoming triggered, and remembering Kyle's been there since the body was 3.....my stomach is sick. You're all so strong and beautiful. Please keep yourselves healthy, take all the time to recover from the recent event, and remember you all matter so much to so many people. Not as fans of a youtuber, we genuinely care about you.
I'm new to the channel-- could you please tell me who Kyle is ?
Kumo Narazi kyle is the systems protector, i believe. i havent been a fan for long also, and im figuring stuff out. i believe this is correct though.
@@dollykumo2959 kyle is the primary protector
@@dollykumo2959 yes. Kyle is the primary protector. The system used to have Chloe(the host), Nina(the sexual protector), and Kyle(the primary protector). Chloe and Nina integrated into one alter, Nin, back in September. Meaning the new host, Nin, has all the memories of both Chloe and Nina.
Thank you everyone for taking the time of your day to explain ♥️✨
“I didn’t need to be stronger I needed to be safe”
Queen Craft .... I know it does not mean anything , but pudding head Chan ( Kenma ) is just so relatable.
“i didn’t need to be stronger i needed to be safe” i’m crying:(
❤❤
I think that line hit everyone. We have all had this feeling at different times of our lives. Hits hard.
"I didn't need to be stronger, I needed to be safe" is an incredibly calming and validating sentence. You're incredible Nin, thank you for all that you and y'all do
I completely agree, it's a statement I've never heard before and it resonates with me so strongly.
I did not need to be stronger, I needed to be safe 💛
I did not need to learn my lesson, I needed to be in an environment that was safe to learn and grow in -- that environment was not safe to learn and grow in. Learning my lesson would not have made it a safe environment.
PoonkAmi that's incredibly rude to say I can surely say I would completely still support their system even if they didn't look like they do. There is beauty in everyone. And saying stuff like that is not ok so please do not.
I love that you said "I promise it gets less scary" instead of "I promise it gets better". That phrase affects me a lot and not many people payed attention to it. Even though I don't have DID you're inspiring in many different ways.
People say that about my depression and it just makes me think when I start getting worse I’m failing
She said that as I read your comment
@@CammyW04 I have GAD and I suspect maybe depression, or maybe something else, but I haven't been able to get diagnosed. And I agree- when I get worse, I definitely feel like I am failing them. "I promise it gets less scary" is way more helpful.
Im bipolar and my mum said the same thing to me a few nights ago. Basically i started feeling negative emotions out of nowhere and that led to me crying without actually knowing why. I wasn't sad. So i went into her room terrified and crying wondering what was happening to me and she told me that ill calm down eventually and i shouldn't get so scared it was all gonna be over. Five minutes later i was laughing like nothing happened. So yeah, it gets less scary as you move along.
That reassured me :)
At 10:14 when Nin said "do you understand?" I literally nodded like she could see me 😂
me too lol
Beth Simmons I nodded too
I said uh huh 😂😂😂
I said nope
Same, I saluted her and said “Yes Ma’am!” as if I were taking a class she made 😂
You have helped me understand DID. My daughter has recently been diagnosed. She is not able to explain it to me. You are providing educational information and I am grateful.
Charmaine Martinez Much love to you and your daughter!! she must be blessed to have someone going out of their way and educating themselves in her life 💖
Bravo Mom for trying to educate yourself so that you can help her and understand her system!
@@riririnmaru5672 you shouldn't assume things and ask personal questions :/
EDIT: Since they deleted their comment - just FYI the person I was replying to insinuated that the original commenter above was the cause of their child's DID.
@@riririnmaru5672 Really not an appropriate question.
My mom wasn't in my life until I was 14 - she was basically a kid herself, and should've never had me. She may have done a "bad" thing, but she isn't a bad person. People grow up, people change.
People who were once abusers can become the best of advocates, or even go the opposite way and become even worse. Judge someone for who they are, not necessarily who they once were.
Much love. 💜
I'm so sorry, this chain is very serious. But I accidentally clicked on your profile when trying to make a comment, and the first thing that came up was a list called Mushrooms xD I'm sorry, that made me laugh. But on a serious note, you are an amazing mother for supporting your child
“I did not need to be stronger, I needed to be safe.”
That hit me like a ton of bricks.
I cried. Ive been repeatedly traumatized throughout like and in adult life, but i dont have did. I have like.... amnesia that gives me small bits of the trauma at a time thats just enough to deal with. then when i feel like ive accepted it it gives me another little piece. Idk what that is or if it has a name. But when people say "oh you shouldve been over it by now" "or it was your fault, youre an adult and it happens too much to you for you to be telling the truth" and i always respond with "i didnt need to be stronger, i needed to be safe" so hearing that from someone else really made me feel better and not alone.
Same, I started crying. Someone put it into words and made me feel like it was okay I couldn’t much of anything to prevent what happened to me
I don't have DID, but I felt that.
Me too I don't have did but have went through aduse emotionally physically along with sexual assaults the Trouma has stuck with me and hearing someone say that out loud it's comforting.
I miss her so much. I really hope they're all well and recovering.
Same.i just wish i could help them somehow
What happened? I just came across this and have found it very informative and amazing how balanced they all are. They are incredible.
Madeline Ford kyle made a short video about it but basically this lady (who claims to have DID herself and has, in the past, claimed to have been lesbian (she wasn't ), transgender (she's not), and married to a cardboard cut out of brad pit) said she thought DisosiaDID were crazy and basically left them feeling like all of the progress they'd made was undone because of the tooootally wrong information she was spreading to such a large audience. there is more to the aftermath i'm sure but that's all i know.
And I had literally just subscribed to this channel.. TH-cam recommended this channel after Anthony's video I watched with DissociaDID and others. I hadn't even known about the rude lady until watching a few videos reacting to that video.. Trish makes me mad, and I've never even heard of her before.
I'm a brand new subscriber and I was delighted to find that someone with so much research and personal wisdom developed a channel that educates such a misunderstood diagnosis. The sheer amount of strength it must take to share such personal insight is awe-inspiring. Kyle, Jade and Sally have so much strength to take on the entire system's organization and protection. But the others that have come forward outside of the primary host are so vital to the system's wellbeing; they really communicate their importance and back up the channel's primary goal of informing the world about this disorder. I am inherently nurturing and through these videos have come to feel a strong empathy and protection of this particular system. I hope they are fairing alright with this pandemic. I also sincerely look forward to more videos if they are well enough, because there are so many other topics that can be discussed about DID. Such as how a system with DID is able to function day to day with work and new relationships and daily responsibilities. There must be so many obstacles that is dealt with and I can only imagine how such a complex system manages these things. I also wonder if there is a space dedicated to each alter's clothing and personal belongings and interests in the home and how that is managed given most homes do not have space for 20+ people. I hope I am not coming across as offensive or ignorant in asking. I truly am curious as I believe each alter should be validated and respected. Sending out my love from California 💛
I love that the background letters can spell both Nin and Nan!
I can't be the only one who felt relieved to see these guys back because I'd been super worried about them
They've been active on Instagram
Oh I hadn't seen that, thanks
I've been worried and I'm so glad they are doing better. I'm still fuming... So Nin is a bigger person than I'll ever be.
Sunshine me too and that’s why I have such immense respect for all of them
Nin: puts tons of research ,effort and care into creating a well-put together, sensitive yet educational video. Me: wow pretty eye makeup
Dude that was my first thought as well lol
ME
I absolutely love her makeup. That colour is gorgeous.
So pretty though 😻
This lmaooo.
When Nin tried to stop triggering herself while mentioning sexual abuse, I felt so so sad. I wish I could’ve given you a hug right there 😔
Did anyone else’s heart just break knowing that this is something that people go through? How can someone be so evil that their child has to disassociate and have amnesia?
Especially when you see the kind of person that Nin is, even back before Chloe integrated. And to know that someone so wonderful had to have undergone such horrible things as a young child. Even much later in life to have an alter like Omega be created. If I could, I would give all the alters a great big hug
It’s terrifying for us, because we’re just starting to come to terms that we’ve been through horrific trauma as a child. And honestly it’s awful... I wouldn’t wish this on anyone.. it’s awful... - Ozzie
A heartening thought though - together we are stronger.
We are survivors.
This is the best response to Trisha Paytas anyone could have ever given.
She'll never watch it but I wish she would.
@@BTMR427 because there is no brain in between
@@su0gamer815 no truer words
Nin is very kind and beautiful two things Trisha Paytas will never be because your character is what makes you ugly.
She is watching these and mocking her and bullying her on this stupid channel called tatiana
I think this is the first time I’ve ever heard someone say “I didn’t need to be stronger, I needed to be safe” out loud. I’ve been told “what happened to you made you stronger” SO many times. It’s well intended, but so invalidating. So thank you for saying what I needed to hear ❤️
a powerful statement. this system is SOOOO intelligent and well spoken!! i'm sorry you were told that. it invalidates vulnerability and vulnerability is a good thing in that it makes us compassionate. all the best to you.
Finally someone said what really needed to happen. I might go further by saying "I didn't need to be stronger, I needed to be safe...I needed someone to protect me" I was one, two, three, four years old, I should not have needed to be strong. Nin, you literally heal my soul time after time, post after post. I am so proud of you for all you have done for the D.I.D. community of which I belong and I am so very grateful. Sending lots of love. The CalleDonia System.
“ if you feel like you’re faking it and that scares you, you’re probably not faking.”
Me: actually feeling validated for once
Followed by immediate doubt
Same. I don't have DID but I've had trauma and other mental illness and this was really validating
Amen!!!!
@@jordanleighwheatley i dissociate, so i feel this
Same. I got schizophrenia and I struggle with denial a lot. That line HIT me 😂
This channel is literally the reason I know what DID is. I've never heard of it before and learned so much from you guys
same! this content is wonderful and so enlightening
Same !!
I remember first stumbling on their channel when a teacher asked us to write an assay on DID and I've been hooked since
For me it Was Jess and her Boys aka Muliplicity and Me. I learned about Chloe/Nin in Anthony’s video.
Same here, I was try to find some ways to cope with some stuff and I came to discover this channel. I don’t have DID, but I extremely appreciate how the system talks about the matters and how it explain it.. in certain ways he really helps me a lot in this months
@@superphantom100 I love Multiplicity and Me! I learned about them after going through the community after discovering this channel
I love how mature Nin and the system handled the whole Trisha situation, you can tell who did it for the attention and who did it for the DID community
-Hope you guys are doing ok!
Treat her like Voldemort. She-who-must-not-be-named. I call her Voldemort.
Kit DuBhran Voldemort is too good of a name for her.
EXACTLY
Kit DuBhran nah c’mon don’t do Voldemort like that
@@kitdubhran2968 I call her Jabba the Hutt because she's filthy, evil and gluttonous
My older sister molested me as a child a lot and I couldnt remember until she came back this year and showed up at my parents house. For 15 years I didnt remember and when she came back it was like a flood of horrible memories. It was so weird to think that I just couldnt remember for so long. I had to be put in the hospital for 2 months after that. I dont have DID but it just made me think of it. Not knowing all the trama from your childhood is scary and it makes you question if there was more.
I understand what you meant and I really am sorry. I hope you will have a better future than your past
the brain often buries traumatic events or experiences.
I was molested and raped by a childhood friend, and i hid the memories from myself for 10 years
I'm so sorry you experienced that. I hope you're doing better and your older sister is in prison. Sending you all my love!
I’m sorry that happens my dude. I know this isn’t really a constructive question but how did it happen? Like I’m guessing you’re a girl, and so is your sister so how does that really work? Just curious, not trying to discredit you my guy.
“Dissociation is a form of playing dead”
Really felt that
"dissociation is playing dead" i cant believe i never realized this
Me either. Though I've heard alters say they're just dead inside or don't feel anything. I never really understood where that came from.
@@pearblossom1390 Same! I think it's a good way to word it for those who don't understand what dissociation is because it's different for every system. But ultimately it serves the same purpose 😓
According to one theory, dissociation actually developed from the same neurological response that enables an opossum to play dead or a rabbit to freeze when it is threatened. So it actually goes back further than humanity.
It would be neat to see an updated version of the “Meet the Alters” series.
seconded!
Marissa Hallinan YES!!!
ALSO YES
This would be very helpful to many subscribers who've followed the changes in DissociaDID's system and the occasional appearance of Omega and the integration of Chloe and Nina to become Nin. It might also help those who are new(er) to the channel and who find the previous Meet The Alters video(s) a bit confusing due to Nin now being the host.
THIS
when she said "do you understand?" during the male alter thing i almost broke out crying because Nin is trying so hard to make people understand people like us understand. and even if it is triggering her she is trying her best to keep going. Well done Dissociadid system you guys rock and give me hope for this world
An updated meet the alters would be nice, getting to see how everyone has grown would be lovely.
YES PLEASE! Maybe there are some that integrated or there are new ones.
Agreed
Literally about to say that 😂
@@ralphmoses828 They didnt include everyone last time either because not everyone wants to be involved so it would have to be whether or not they want to. I know they have one new alter but they havent given any details about them. Nin is really the only 'new' (integrated) one.
Victoria Smith absolutely
I just realised that Nin's voice is slightly lower than Chloe's
Little Meloncoli and slightly stronger(In a way she sounds a bit more professional..does that make sense?)
Little Meloncoli and slightly stronger(In a way she sounds a bit more professional..does that make sense?)
@@louielouie9824 melancholy but yes :)
Tabby Haefke ahah, when they said “meloncoli”-that was someone’s username ahah. the username is “little meloncoli”.
I havent seen Chloe in a while, she ok?
Nin *looks in to the camera, feels like she’s looking straight into my eyes*
“you are not alone”
me *starts crying*
Can I ask you, I think I have DID but I can’t tell. I don’t have the Amnesia like everyone talks about. I have had full blown convos with a 23 year old man, in my head. I’m scared to look for help. Please tell me what you think.
I feel like... Idk. When Nin talks about topics such as skin colour in SUCH a respectful way... I just don't get how people can go on with their accusations. I mean... isn't the way she talks and what she says about these topics in so many videos full proof that she is a decent person with no bad intentions? So frustrating :/
Have you seen the older videos (Some have been privated) and tweets and comments she's made? A lot of poc people don't like them. It seems they don't like the alters being labeled as a race but the alter has never experienced the racism so it feels rude. She has drawn twice her native American alter very stereotypical with a feather and them being 'spiriual.' I've been told she removed those drawings recently from instagram. Why wouldn't she leave everything up if there's nothing wrong with them.
Saiyuri Co I can understand that and it’s a topic that has to be approached very carefully and respectfully, I totally agree. I can understand that some things were worded not correctly and poc have a right to be irritated. Calling Nin racist is a whole other story for me though and something that has been thrown around so easily. In my opinion it’s clear that she has no bad intentions and wasn’t aware it was offending to anyone. I think that’s the main difference.
EDIT: now that I've learned more about that topic, I'd like to say that I do understand the point that's been made better now. That racism isn't always actively violent, it can be subconcious and unintended - that doesn't make it okay though! I'm sorry if I was ignorant before. I believe DissociaDID are aware of that, have educated themselves and changed their phrasing. So I do still think that they are good-hearted people with no bad intentions.
@@legion160 apologizes if I'm misunderstanding because current events and it's 1 am but I agree with you. That's how DID is treated. But I do know from professionals they have to get to know the alters in order to integrate and heal
@@legion160 while yes thats the goal its not always possible due to integration meaning also the integration of the trauma, also it has to be said that the "host" is not the same as the "original" because the host is the one in control of the body most often an the original is the person before the "split"
@@legion160 the goal right now is to integrate the personas or to make the system functional.
The 1-3%people having DID statistic makes me so sad because the thought that millions of children have experienced trauma is so so sad
Especially trauma like that. It’s so sad. Breaks my heart
What's sadder is that not every kid that has trauma that extreme develops DID. I swear you should have to take a test before you're allowed to have kids.
@@beth9138 thats so true, i dont have DID but i disociated a lot as a kid because of repeated trauma, i dont do it anymore unless im stressed, or scared. and it will last for the rest off my life, and its not always the parents fault tho, because my mom did everything she could to protect me, but she just couldn't nobody could, because nobody knew, sometimes those bad people play it so well that not even the best parent ir care giver can help you and you cant do shit about it or tell anyone about it
I think about that everytime she mentions it. specially being that there are supposed to be resourses to stop that kind of abuse and trauma to happen and protect kids.
@@sch00lgirll That scares me, I'm a mom and I whould do EVERYTHING to protect my children... And you say in some cases I whould not know? I'm realy realy scared... 🥺
My best wishes for you!
"If you feel like you're faking it , and it scares you, then you're probably not faking it" I dont have DID but I have other things going on and this struck a nerve with me 😭
7Stormy CatГ yup me as hell whenever I think about going and talking to someone I get anxiety about trying to explain what’s going on and that I will sound like I’m making it up and then I convince myself that I am in fact making it up. 🙄 the worst.
Lynn Marie yes exactly !!! I’m so glad to know that other people go through the same thing ☺️ Helps me feel like I’m not alone and also, really backs up the fact that we are not faking ! 🤗
same, i doubt myself a lot if i’m actually trans or if i’m faking it (im pretty sure i’m trans when i think about it but still theres this insecure piece of me) so that hit home for me as well
It was the exact same for me
Same with me, I really want to go get checked if I have a anxiety disorder but I’m afraid of being told I’m just being crazy 🤕
"If there's anything in particular that you would like to see us make..." - on the flip side of that, is there anything that we can do for the DissociaDID?
I agree!
They have a Patreon
I also agree, patreon is one way. Knowing others would be great!
Agreed
guys there is a link in the description for their patreon ❤
Wow. We absolutely hate to see how much this has affected you. The fact that Kyle started trying to front there close to the end just shows how recent events have really hurt you. From our system to your's STAY STRONG. This world is a more beautiful place with you in it. I'm just one of the many you've helped understand what they are going through. Don't give others the power to destroy what you've accomplished.
I dont believe in the alters having control, it might not be possible to fix DID, but at the same time normalizing multiple "people" in one isnt good either
@@legion160 stop talking. Just stop. You don't know what you're talking about, you aren't a professional and you aren't educated on the subject to tell other people what to do
This is probably silly but when you said “do you understand?” We stopped dissociating and paid attention. Your videos help us a lot when we don’t understand something In our system. Thank you for that Nin. ~Slider
Huh, I wonder if that was Nin's reason for doing that all along, to snap people out of dissociating.
That's a subconscious trait we all have. The same as when you dont hear someone asking you something but hear them say "are you listening to me" the brain is a weird and wonderful thing 😅
I don’t have DID but I do disassociate a lot. I noticed I picked it up too, strangely enough. I can spend hours zoned out and i tend to repeat it to myself, asking myself if I know where i am, if i understand what’s happening.
I’m really glad you’re finding education and understanding for the world and the people within. I hope all of you are doing good :)
"People who are faking KNOW that they're faking."
*Trisha Paytas has left the chat*
I dont think she does it purposefully, she just doesn't understand herself and is incredibly irresponsible on how she goes about it publicly.
@@tsnevtbl That is possible, she can be pretty aloof, but I think part of it may be the want to accumulate more views on her channel. The woman loves controversy. Tbh, I feel like Trisha deserves more credit for her success on TH-cam and her skills at working the system, yet this is an exception for me. As a psych major & future clinical psychologist, it pains me to see such misinformation being spread. I know what it's like to not be taken seriously for a mental disorder (PMDD) and it is very frustrating.
Shea Cali I’m so glad she stopped ON TH-cam for now
Lunar Fridge Did she?
if i’m honest, i don’t think it’s good for you to mention that name. they’re struggling a lot from the things she said, and it may trigger them
Ok, side note: this makeup is absolutely amazing. Full Hufflepuff vibes going on here
Absolutely agree! I also like Harry Potter - although the author's views on some matters I don't agree with so I try to avoid going to sites like Pottermore now - and I'm a Ravenclaw but I can see what you mean about a Hufflepuff vibe with Nin's makeup! Her makeup is always stunning, and when she appeared with the alter (Omega, I think?) fronting and no makeup, I was impressed with her beautiful skin without makeup - not something many individuals have when makeup is taken off! I also always like the different colours in her hair and have wanted to know what items she uses to create such beautiful colours and to suit her mood!
I love the quote of "we're in similar boats in the same sea" it really resonated with me ❤️
"I didn't need to be stronger I needed to be safe." And, "If you feel like your faking it, and that scares you, your probably not faking it." These two quotes really resonated with us. Thank you for all that you have done for the DID community. Much love from the DJC System 💖
Thank YOU all for the videos you make as well, I really appreciate them! ♡
Great work to you all.
@@missundies Aww thank you for the feedback
@@clarapark7889 Thanks so much Clara :)
-DJC
When you explained about why a male alter may be created in a female body, I almost cried. I don't have DID, have been watching your videos forever, but I still learn so much from them. I'm primarily so sorry for everyone who went through such horrific things, and I'm so upset people cause such trauma. Humans are incredible human beings, and I hope people will learn to be more careful when it comes to kids (and adults, really).
Sadly the people that need to be told to be more careful, probably won't be watching this video..
This shouldn't be watched by kids that may give them an idea to create imaginable fantasies that would affect their future.
This exact moment also really struck a chord with me personally. I can really relate, made so much click together in my mind about the origins of my gender fluidity and my splits in identity....
I see you watch her well you need professional help not a Childs help. Millennials' need to get out of mommys basement and get a life.
@Witchy Inky it would be an imaginable fantasty to a child
This integration needed to happen. Nin is able to talk about details and triggers that Chloe couldn't really touch. This is so refreshing. Thank you for filming this Nin!
*DissociaDID “Find your power” tapestry comes in*
Me: *wears as a cape* “I SHALL DEFEAT ALL FOES AND DEFEND THE WEAK!! BE IT SYSTEMS OR SINGULARS!! LOOK OUT ABUSERS!!” (Is singular the term? Idk)
(I love this merch so muchhhh)
The👏🏻 hero 👏🏻we 👏🏻needed👏🏻
Most of us in the plural community use the term 'singlet'
As a "singular", I accept the term, as long as no one is affended by it :)
I imagined this in All Mights voice
I think it is, idk
Did anyone else nod when she said “do you understand?”
They way she said it hit me so hard!
yes! totally nodded and kept nodding!
I did not nod in agreement. I shook my head in disagreement. Can someone please explain to me how having multiple alternative personalities THAT ARE AWARE OF EACH OTHER, is dissociative? That seems to defy the definition of dissociate.
"Disassociation is a form of playing dead." I don't know why, but this line really struck me.
Plum dissociation*
Same. I relate to it so much
Yeah... I felt that bad.
Whenever I think about people questioning the validity of DID I just think of the quote from Harry Potter:
Harry: "Is this real? Or is it all just happening inside my head?"
Dumbledore: "Of course it's happening inside your head Harry, but why should that mean that it isn't real?"
All my love to you and your whole system ❤️stay strong
TY. Sums it up perfectly. TC!
Wow, that actually sums it up really well!!! -Cara
I cried watching this video. No child should have to go through ANY trauma... DID is such a real thing and it's sad. Like said "I didn't need to be stronger, I needed to be safe" it broke my heart. You guys are so strong and so beautiful!
I don’t know why but when Nin said “you’re not on your own, even when you’re isolation, you’re not on your own” I started crying. Nin, if you see this I love you (and everyone in your system) and I’m really thankful for everything you do. You are incredible and you all are doing something amazing.
I had the same reaction.
Same
I want to know how to donate happiness and calmness.
"If you feel like you're faking, and that scares you, you're probably not faking." Nin you've said it before, and you'll say it a thousand more times, but you saying it like that actually shook me when I heard it. I'll go in loops and loops and loops talking myself into and out of whether I believe I might have a dissociative disorder, all too many things fall into place and then they don't, and then there's all the things I can't even begin to place cause I don't have the answers. For years I've been too afraid to look into all this and saying my trauma " wasn't that bad", but I've just started my therapy journey and, although I know it's going to be long, you and your system have given me hope and courage to work through my trauma. Sometimes the hardest part of recovery is just the acceptance of a thing, but I want to thank you all for helping me be brave enough to acknowledge my trauma, accept who I am, and move forward with an open mind in my own recovery. You and your system are an invaluable asset to the DID and mental health community, and you are still able to spark bravery and acceptance in others even in stressful times like these.
A wow this comment was well spoken, I truly hope that you thrive in your journey and I wish for you to stay strong and keep moving through life!
I have CPTSD and there's not a single therapy session that passes without me thinking at least once that I'm faking it and wondering why my therapist doesn't notice. She doesn't notice because I'm not faking but try to tell that to my brain, it won't listen. I'm so glad you started therapy and got help, I've made a lot of progress thanks to my therapist and hope that yours will do the same for you. Once we acknowledge the trauma we can start to heal from it and I'm wishing you the very best for your recovery!
🖤
I’ve been in the same situation similar as you and saying that for most of my life. Thinking others have it worse than me and have been pushing my problems away until it got worse. I’m glad you’ve accepted everything. It’s a weird recovery journey but it’s well worth it.
I absolutely love how Nin explains things. She's calm and collected, and makes everything easy to understand.
She’s so incredibly well spoken too
Don't have DID but the whole "people who are faking know that they're faking" struck a chord with me in terms of my disability. I often worry that I'm faking everything somehow - which is odd as I have tests which prove I'm not faking.
I am the same way
"If you think you are faking and you are scared, it probably means that you are not"
Same I always wonder if I’m faking despite the fact I’ve got an official diagnosis, medication to treat it, a GP, a psychologist and a psychiatrist who are helping me treat my bipolar. They often have to remind me that my illness is real.
As someone with depression and anxiety, I feel the same way. It took my doctor and my psychiatrist to be like "yes, you very much do have these things" for me to start believing myself. But I sometimes still feel like I'm faking.
I have felt so scared most of my life. Thinking I'm "faking" seems to be a completely normal thing for those of us with more extreme mental illnesses. Bc our brain tries to tell us no! We don't have that! Bc if we DID have that, it may mean you have to come to the realization horrible things DID happen to us. And that's a scary thing to come to terms with. So just know you are perfectly normal to question that. Mental illness isn't fun or something anyone wants to have. And those who do think it's "fun" to have it, really may be faking. Which is upsetting for those of us who deal with it everyday. Much love to you all!
I felt like the end was so dedicated to Trisha. DID is not a cool disease.
It's not a disease, its a disorder
The REAL Kiki yup
Haven’t watched the vid yet so this is out of context but I find it fascinating and beneficial in a lot of ways
Wanderling Sapling how is it beneficial? I’m not trying to be rude and I’m just asking out of curiosity
Plz don't bring up that name..thank you.
You have every right to get emotional and "heated" right now. A lot of very stressful things have hit you all at once - a move, COVID-19, and she-who-will-not-be-named. Happy to see a video from you, no matter how emotional you get in it. Also, your makeup is on point. I hope everybody in your system is doing well, you all deserve to be happy and confident.
OrbWeaver is she-who-will-not-be-named trisha?
@@oly6732 ssssshhhhh
Hermione Granger we aren’t talkin about her
@@oly6732 forbidden name
@@oly6732 don't say the T word
Whoever dislikes this video sucks honestly because this is very informative and educational
I mean not meant to hate or anything I liked this channel wait no I used to I'm sorry I'm not hating I'm not a Trisha fan I hate her it's just Idk since this video nin just felt weird and wrong and if you check the Spotify playlists they were made after the channel was made which really makes no sense Idk I'm sorry I'm not trying to be offensive it's just that this doesn't seem genuine anymore
@@hexil6283 maybe it's a coincidence? I've been following the videos from Chloe and everyone since about 2 months in, and it's been genuine the entire time. I think with the Spotify playlists they decided some people might be interested to see what each alter likes separately. Maybe one of the system members even suggested it or got inspired after reading a comment.
It's definitely broadly effective and extremely helpful but there are several things that Nin does get wrong, though I know they all have the best of intentions. Psychology is pretty much the fastest-developing field of medicine in history right now, and we're learning so many new things every day and correcting misinformation that we thought we knew. Thoughtform or parogenic systems are widely recognised in the plural community. Median systems are also recognised by the community. Yet they do not fit within the established theory of structural dissociation for how a system forms. It also doesn't explain how OSDD types 1a and 1b can form since they either have less distinction between alters, or in the case of our system less/no amnesia.
Gone is the Era of the Staircase
It's now the Dawn of the Bookcase
Dillon Maynard 😂😂😂
Was thinking this as well!
Y’all deserve your own TedTalk
FOR REAL!!! How can we make this happen?! :) ;)
Absolutely
Yes!!
Period
I don’t want to be rude or disrespectful to their system but what happens if they switched on stage?
I feel like my IQ goes up 50+ points every time I watch a video by this system. You guys, Nin in particular, would make for great teachers. Sending lots of strength and love!
Angie Cardona agree! Nin and the system's way of explaining DID is so thorough yet easy to understand making it so much more interesting to keep learning about
@PoonkAmi do you have no better use of your time than to go out of your way to seek out creators you don't like and reply to multiple positive comments on a MENTAL HEALTH channel with baseless insults and empty filth about someone you don't know? Disgusting. Find a hobby.
Totally, they ARE great teachers, that is exactly what they are doing with this channel, helping so many people! :)
@@jegi505 yes and no, at the end of the day its a DISORDER, as in trying to be multiple people is still bad
I love how she said "do you understand" in the middle of the video. It actually feels like she is talking to the viewers and it made me feel happy :)
“You don’t name your alters. They’re not a role playing fantasy.”
.....🤔 someone tell Trixie, Tatiana, and Tutu
Hi I just y up us for
Trixie as in Trixie Mattel?
Don't forget Tyranny, Tyson, and - most original of all - T *eye roll*
@@fdk12 Paytas
To be fair, some alters just be like "idc what name u give me, im fine with whatever" and they if they vibe with a name then that's their name now.
Hey guys , dont bring a certain other youtuber into this in the comment section . The other youtuber doesnt deserve attention and its best to learn from nin and the system ! Great video xx
I have to ask. What kind of pigeon is Britain?
@@libbymiss a very lonley and depressed one ....
You cant dictate what people comment. If Nin has a problem with certain topics, she will let everyone know.
@@audreymai2773 yeah fair , but the youtuber doesnt deserve attention, i guess im a hypocrite tho .
Audrey Mai she literally says she wants to move on form this. this person has cause repeated harm to nin and her system. literally what would be the point of bringing it up? to rehash things nin is trying to move on from? pls stop.
"If you feel like you're faking, and that scares you, you're probably not faking." 🥺💖
Okay so I don't have DID but this one sentence has just validated all of my struggles with my mental health, my gender identity, and the coping mechanisms I have to use to get by everyday. It's hard to accept these things within myself, but hearing somebody else tell me that is just so incredibly validating.
Thank you Nin, thank you so much.
I'm so glad Nin said this and it helped you! I remember when I was having PTSD flashbacks of childhood trauma, and I kept thinking I was making it up, or I was "insane", it was REALLY scary. And my wonderful therapist said to me, "If you are experiencing this, and have had so many problems through out your life bc of it, and you are scared and trying to block it out, in my professional opinion, that experience really DID happen to you." I felt so validated, I needed to hear that I wasn't "insane" my whole life. I was just running from the truth bc it's too painful. Feeling validated is a wonderful and life changing thing. Much love sent to you!
„when you‘re afraid of faking it, you‘re not faking it.“ that helped me so much. I thought of this for days and hours and it made me so often so depressed. And just hearing that this is normal makes my heart run. Thank you so much!
Nin & The entire DissosiaDID System are possibly the CLASSIEST & most GRACEFUL humans on earth. I continue to be thoroughly impressed by you all. Thank You for continued education & positivity even in the midst of a difficult season...For your system & the world. Just another reason I love & wholeheartedly support this system & channel. 🤍😘
Meanwhile Kyle: the FOK you talkin’ bout mate
Lol no hate I just find that to be a contradiction of “classy” and “graceful” but I also love it so much
Friendship is Irish bomb Haha. Touché. HOWEVER...I feel like Kyle is a Classy Badass! He would ALWAYS treat people respectfully & would defend the honor of anyone in need. That’s what I meant by Classy! With Grace Kyle (& the ENTIRE DissociaDID System) in my personal opinion SHOW Grace to those who don’t deserve it. (An example being the video Nin posted after “She who shall not be named” made herself look foolish Nin/The DissociaDID System COULD have BLASTED “T” for the obvious mistruths...Instead They spoke in generalities & didn’t call “T” out. THAT to me is showing someone GRACE!
My apologies for the lengthy response! All this Self Distancing I haven’t got my daily word quota in! 😂
Be well & try to find joy in one thing this weekend..Even in the difficult season we are all in! Cheers! 🤍
I don’t have DID but after the latest drama and after hearing all of the misinformation being spread, I’ve decided I want to try and educate myself on this topic
Tiffany Mone that’s really comforting to hear for a lot of people I’m sure, thank you and welcome:)
You have come to the RIGHT place. I do not have DID either but Chloe/Nin (and other Alters) have taught me so much about DID. I will always be a subscriber to this channel, because I feel like they are my best friend now. 😊❤
Tiffany Mone ditto, I know little bit but when I saw what misinformation did to the community I thought a little just wasn’t enough
Tiffany Mone thats awesome!!
“I did not need to be stronger, I needed to be safe.” THANK YOU
sorry for my comment being off-topic but i just wanna say that if Nin ever wants to branch out and start a make-up/beauty channel i'd 110% be there for it
Don't apologize for trying to make something "short and light-hearted" when this topic is so complex and difficult to talk about, you still manage to make it so accessible for people who would've otherwise never known about DID, sending lots of love to everyone in the system
When you talked about assault, about the thought-path of “if I didn’t have these parts this wouldn’t happen” is one of the biggest struggles of mine. I have never heard another person talk about this. I didn’t know other people had those thoughts.
I have thoes thoutes to and I blame my self so much even tho it was I don't ask for it to happen I said no I tried to go. Nin has helped me come to grips so much with what happened
MultiplicityandMe said the same thing when she was asked about why all her alters are male. I think it makes sense, especially in a child's mind, to come to such a conclusion
I think the same thing about something that happened to me as an adult. For a long time my personal hygiene lagged because I thought it would make me less of a target. I love this channel because it's so educational but at the same time so heartfelt. Thank you for commenting and sharing.
The way she talks in to the screen and stares at the viewer makes you feel like you have a friend!! They are such amazing you tubers I love them so much
We love you!
@DissociaDID love you too guys! Stay safe everyone during these quarantine times.
PS. Can you say hi to Kyle for me?!
I’m going to be completely honest. I used to be very skeptical about the reality of DID. It just didn’t make sense to me how a disorder like this could actually exist outside fiction. But after watching just a couple videos on this channel that completely changed. I now believe it is 100% true & valid, & I owe that to this channel. Thank you so much for helping me understand and eliminate my ignorance. I think what you’re doing, spreading awareness, & specifically how you’re doing it, namely by explaining DID in depth and yet also in a way people can understand & accept it is wonderful. Thank you!
i’m so glad you’re back and doing better enough to educate everyone and help others❤️
also your makeup looks bomb 💣
I am too
Bengt Bagels That’s very specific but now I’m wondering about that too....
@@BengtBagels The system legally has to identify with the body's name, which is Chloe.
j wilson I mean technically they could prob name themselves “dissociadid” if they wanted
I was diagnosed with DID yesterday and I just wanted to let you know that this channel helped out with that. I'm so appreciative of all of you and your content, without it, I may have been stuck not knowing what to do or what was going on. Thank you so much.
@@Kellysbiggestfan311 Dude what??
@@Kellysbiggestfan311 stop what?
PoonkAmi oh my god stop hating for no reason. Do you get off on this? Just don’t watch the videos or comment. Nothing is gained from this.
PoonkAmi I’m pretty interesting without it actually! The trauma just throws in a little spice to my life :) have a nice day!
Hope everything is OK for you.
"if you feel like your faking, and that scares you, you're probably not faking." That hit me so hard. I've been struggling with mental health problems (not DID but others) for so long and I never really got proper help until recently because I was so sure I was making it up and that it was all some unconscious ploy for attention. I wish this was something past me had heard so so long ago but even so, it helps immeasurably to hear it now.
Thank you dissociaDID for giving me a safe place to feel comfortable to begin to understand myself and come to terms with myself. You guys make me feel so understood. thank you.
it’s honestly so hard to talk to someone about it...(not DID but other mental stuff) I haven’t dared to because I’m terrified that they will just tell me that I’m faking it or that I’m just weak and this is how everyone feels all the time... how did you get the courage to do it?
Yes absolutely, I have bipolar disorder and I always was freaked out that I was faking it, then someone told me that that means I probably aren’t and that made me feel so much better about that
Totally, I have the exact same situation going on with me. I only just recently started to get help for CPTSD, and I was always scared that I was faking it, my parents accusing me of faking it didn’t really help either. I’m so glad that you’re getting help, and I hope that you’re doing well! Best of luck to you ❤️
I went through the same thing with my mental health disorders. Being so afraid that I was faking it or just wanting an excuse. But when I finally got the courage to take to a Dr (I even told her I was scared I was just making it up in my head) and she was extremely supportive and helpful, these videos and comment sections have helped me to see that I'm not alone but that there is a world of people fighting together every day 💜 thank you
Omg thank you for saying this I relate so much. It was really hard for me because I was scared people would say I was faking some did say I was faking what I am and was going through.
I was diagnosed with DID a few months ago and stopped going to therapy as often because I got scared.. now that I found your channel and groups on Facebook, I feel like I found a whole new whole where I can be me and not so scared anymore! Thank you so much!
Video request: online window shopping with the system so we can see everyone’s fashion sense
ohhh that's a good idea!
YES!!!!
Yes yes yes
Me: what if I'm faking
Nin: you're not faking
Me: oh okay
My brain:
My brain: bet
Make sure you get tested first before self diagnosis! Good luck xx
I’m not sure if this will help as I don’t have DID but I have been diagnosed with other disorders, such as OCD (which is the one that effects my life most) and my therapist reminds me that if my brain is getting stressed on if I’m faking, or if I’m getting anxious that people will think I’m faking that it is a sign that it’s not fake, as she says “people who fake their disorders do not get scared that they are faking, cause they know they are” (sorry if this isn’t helpful but I thought I’d share her wise words) Edit: Just got too the part of the video where Nin said the same thing, sorry for wasting your time if you have read this 😂
@@britishpigeon838 please remember that most people with these disorders face a lot of stigmatization and therefore cannot get the help they need for years on end sometimes, much less a test! it isn't as easy as finding any therapist and asking. it's very hard to find a professional who will believe your experiences! informed self diagnosis can be helpful to those who are unable to get the help they need. that being said, @ the original poster, your brain trying to convince you that you're faking is just a part of the disorder. you and your system are valid. :)
If you don't want to know its okay. Just keep yourself safe.
OOF I FELT THAT
You know what could be cool, a series where different alters do those "draw my life" videos, it would be like an alternative type of "meet my alters". ❤️
Ailish Nixon it could be cool but also very triggering for the alters because they are typically holding trauma. So I’m not sure it would be best since the host lives most of the normal daily life.
She has some older videos where her alters describe/draw what they look like! I’ve been following since the beginning and it’s so interesting and amazing
julia mcdevitt the op means a draw my life, the memories of themselves
@@rileyanne9547 I see what you mean now I didn't really think of that, I guess I was just thinking to see what each alter looks like so I guess just drawing each alter,I didn't really think that one through
There's a Sims one where the system makes the alters in the Sims? :)
I can't begin to explain how glad I am for internet to be a thing which allows us all to be connected, even if we've never met. You all are incredibly beautiful. I am, and I am surea lot of other people are too, here for and with you.
"If you feel like you're faking, and that scares you, you're probably not faking"
*So true!!* My friend with DID has come to me multiple times worried about this and I've told them as much. 😊 Fakers know that they're faking and wouldn't be worried about it.
But, but what if I’m faking it without realized it?;-; (not DID, mental illness in general)
Yesss ♥️also nice pfp♥️♥️
Unrelated but I love your pfp
@@Honey77227 I have that feeling a lot with stuff... But as Nin said, if you'd be faking you'd know...
It's like cheating on a test. You can't cheat if you don't know you are...
And I guess the most important thing with these confusing thoughts is to talk. To a therapist, to people close to you who are safe and who you can trust... Outside opinions help.
Alysandra this is my fear too :(
**trigger warning**
Wow, that is the most I've ever heard this system talk about types of abuse, and how sexual abuse can be an environment where an alter is created. Whilst Nin clearly had to work hard to not trigger herself, (understandably!), I was stunned at her bravery and ability to do that in such a responsible and educational way.
Blinkin 'eck, @DissociaDID, I hope you're able to recognise and feel proud of these accomplishments! ❤
Watching Nins system grow and evolve is so beautiful! Seeing the changes from their first upload to now shows how much time and perseverance helps people become stronger and healthier. ✨
I've heard you say "You are not alone in this" many times before in different videos, but this time it made my heart tremble and tears rose to my eyes. Yes, everything that has been happening since the whole Corona thing begun has beaten me down SO hard and ruined my already difficult life SO much that even these familiar words through the screen has me bawling... I hate this so much. Thank you for being so strong and letting my mind rest atleast for 18 minutes. ❤️ Love You all.
Perfectly said. Dissociadid and team pinata have literally gotten me through this first phase of 3 week isolation:)
"If you feel like you're faking and that scares you you're probably not faking"
I'm sorry but that realization made me almost throw up
I feel like I'm loosing my mind
Your not loosing your mind and you are not alone
You are definitely not alone. The more you can accept, the easier it is to ask for help. It’s okay to ask for help.
Same! That was really helpful. I felt like I was crazy that i was loosing my mind or something. Videos like these are VERY helpful
Yess :(
I feel you
I've been thinking about Jade lately and wondering how she's doing. I'd like her to know she has done a wonderful job keeping everyone safe and where they need to be, and I hope she's taken some time to self care recently!
I have a question for her if she would be willing to answer. I'm wondering how Jade felt when the little came out in the Anthony video. I know your whole system is very protective of the littles but she's the one who made the video to expand on the reasons why the littles will not be a part of the channel. Your little's part was so powerful and letting that footage stay in must have been a big decision for the system!
I'm not her but if I remember correctly, they censored the little's name. And we've seen littles coming out for a bit in other videos of them, so I suppose it's fine
@@Amy-de9pl they did censor it, I don't think they'd keep it in if Nin + the system wasn't happy to
thats what I've been thinking aswell!
@@Amy-de9pl they didn't really censor it They just never said the name I believe
They didn't say the name but they censored the age when Anthony said it
Ok, but how are you 10x better than most beauty gurus at makeup.
omg you shouldve been here during the chloe era. nin has said before that she isnt as good with makeup as chloe was!
Just a quick thought about faking disorders:
I've noticed that a lot of people with these mental health disorders (panic or anxiety, depression, etc.) have at one point in their lives with this disorder have thought they were faking it. For me and my somewhat diagnosed anxiety, I've had many points in time where I thought, "Do I really have this or I am trying to feel special in some way?" And then the panic attacks set in and I think, "No, I actually have this problem."
But, you are valid if you have thought you were faking it. It seems pretty normal, actually, to believe you are faking. But you're not, and you are strong for pushing through those obstacles.
Skye, I can agree with this. I as well have anxiety and for the longest time, when an attack would happen, I'd try to tell myself I was overreacting or freaking out for nothing, etc. I did my best to deny it and down play (which inevitably made it worse). When I finally accepted that okay, this is how I process stress, I was able to find ways to help me recenter (most of which, for me, were hormonal). I think you're right that for many with a mental illness, there is a strong period of denial because we dont want to BE that. That's not us! But I think that also shines a glaring light on the general stigmatism that all mental health still holds. I'm so happy to see that more ailments, diagnosis, etc are being brought into a place where we can remove those stigmas and better understand not only the coping mechanisms, but also people in general. Which, really makes us all better people in the end.
I wasn't diagnosed in any way and still not but I had thought where I was thinking "am I really depressed?" or other stuff like that. I'm better since I finished school but now I feel like I'm stuck in a loop. And unfortunately with this virus going on I can't actually go out of this loop cause we need to avoid people. Can't wait for this epidemic to be over honestly. I really want to get out of my shell
That is really frustrating not know if your issues are real. I have experienced that a lot and like you said, then it's a panick attack and it sinks in. I relate.💜
I absolutely agree, cause I even have thoughts about if I'm faking my ADHD or my EUPD, especially because of the fear that I would be faking it to feel special or validated...
and i think it begs the question, is this actually a normal thing about having mental illness or is it because of the stigma attached to mental illness?
This is exactly what I’m going through right now..
I was diagnosed 3 years ago as having Complex PTSD with DID... It was terrifying, because I'm a mom in my 40s with a bachelor's in zoology. How could I be this? Wouldn't people notice? People had noticed, but I had brushed it off, saying I must have doppelgangers... Your videos are the first that made me feel normal, that their are others like me. I'm not ready to go completely public like you, you are so brave, but I have opened up on my Facebook and to my friends and family. It's weird how much it explained to others, and how many suspected. Thank you for your courage.
Nin: I'm sorry I'm talking about this so much and this is such a long video.
Me: GIRL KEEP GOING!!!!!
100/100
As a host.... I still imagine my face when our therapist told me: "did you ever heard about DID? Cause that's what you have." Was the first time I heard about that and I was terrified and I thought she was the crazy one. God... Lot of memories about that. Loved your video. So related. More than anything, the way you explained it. We love you girl...
Karma Pandora System if you have thought it over and identify as crazy I totally respect it and will apologize for the comment, but mayby consider you are not crazy for having DID 💜 again, i dont mean to be rude and Im really sorry if I offend
I had a similar interaction with my therapist regarding my PTSD diagnosis. When she said it point blank, “Yeah, you have PTSD” it was a shocking moment. Hope y’all are doing well ❤️
@@brigeem5022 Same when I got my MS diagnosis. I didn't know anything about MS and I was sooo sure that it wasn't MS so I was just shocked. I remember the doctor telling me and my response was "well damn" lol. The only thing I remember after that was the doctor saying something along the lines of "everything I say from now on will probably enter through one of your ears and just go out the other ear, and that's fine". She was very right about that.
Sofia Reumert Once again had a very similar experience when being diagnosed with endometriosis! It never entered my brain that it would be something on the table, and I don’t remember much of what he said afterwards, either 😖
I actually can't believe that DID is relatively more common than bulimia and schizophrenia but is barely even known by most. To feel more realistic, 1-3% of the world population is about 75 million to 225 million people. That means that that amount of people may live their whole lives not knowing that they have DID. I hope that more research and more light will shine on DID. Thank you for your dedication on educating people about this disorder. Came from Anthony's video and left with a lot insights and knowledge 😊
I found out I had D I D by having blackouts as a teen, People would tell me hey you did this and it would be something I’d never do in my life and I’d go by different names and all that stuff that’s scary when you snap back into it! Then a doctor told me when I start to feel like I’m drifting away to smoke cbd “pot with no thc” and it worked till I started watching one of your videos where you have that older alter and you were talking about childhood trauma and it was the first time I’ve started again where my alters were able to fully take over again , I had a nose bleed and all of a sudden I lost control . Idk it hurts me more knowing someone might have gone through what I went through if that makes sense I wouldn’t wish childhood trauma on my worst enemy.
10:14 "Do you understand?" You sound so caring and loving and it just melts my heart. You're an incredible strong and amazing person. You're an incredible strong and amazing system. Thank you for informing the world accurately
I wish I could say back *yes I absolutely do understand and thank you for sharing*
Your eyeshadow makes your eyes really stand out, like golden honey 😄
Molly Jade i was going to comment the same thing their makeup is alwayssss bomb
Thanks for acknowledging that men can be sexually abused too. So many people like to glaze over that fact
“If you feel like your faking it and your scared, your probably not faking it” thank you so much for clearing this up.. We always watch your channel. My system really loves watching you. Much love 🥰