It reminds me of that song with Eminem and Rihanna - "I'm friends with the monsters that's under my bed, get along with the voices inside of my head" I believe that every person on earth has had the feeling of "voices" in (pick any "there, they're, their") heads at least once
I'm too scared to get checked for it.if I do have it,I feel it'd open up a can of worms I don't want opened if I talked to someone about it. I'm not against others going to get help,I just don't want all the hassle unless my symptoms get worse.idk if they're even symptoms 😅
I know. It's awful. I am treated with depression and take medicine but then it comes into my mind "what if I am faking? What if I am manipulating people and am actually being toxic on purpose to bring them down?" It makes me have depressive breakdowns
I can’t speak for anyone else but I have Major Depressive Disorder with comorbid (secondary) anxiety and I feel like I’m overreacting most of the time and my illnesses aren’t as bad as they feel.
Reminds me of the host by Stephanie meyer, in the movie when they had the creature implanted in them the tell was a silver ring around the pupil and ever since I saw that movie I've been enamoured with that look!!! Absolutely beautiful secondary effects from the ring light that's for sure:)
You have SUCH a good point. When I've said to someone, "I'm diabetic," or "I can't eat nuts or seeds," no one has ever said, "Really? Are you sure? Are you faking it?" No one has ever accused my friend who has cancer of faking his cancer. No one has ever questioned the validity of another friend's allergy to seafood. But the minute someone says they have something like depression or DID or PTSD or Bipolar Disorder....suddenly everyone is a psychologist who thinks they have not only the RIGHT but the ABILITY to question it.
Whilst I agree with you for the most part (with the questioning of mental health issues) I have to say that people struggle to believe my milk allergy. To the point where I've had people put milk in my food to "trick" me or "catch me out". I have huge trust issues now and don't usually let anyone go near my food or drinks.
I think it's partially due to the fact there are those (for whatever reason idk) that wish they had some sort of mental illness to be "different" or "unique" and glamourize them, leading to people claiming they have something they actually dont- which makes it harder for people to trust when they say "I have depression" "I have anxiety", they'll doubt you, because they've seen people faking it online many times (especially when people say they have something but was never diagnosed) so it's super super unfortunate. I've never had any one really question my issues I got going on so I'm grateful for that. Hopefully the world becomes nothing but more understanding of each other 😅
I've actually had people openly doubt my allergies to me and tell me I must be faking because sometimes I get really ill and other times I don't at all (allergies do not cause a reaction 100% of the time). I also have a breathing condition, and doctors don't have a name for it (yet), and sometimes people think I'm faking that too. So it does happen with other medical conditions, but cancer was a great example she picked because I don't know anyone who doubts a person when they say they have that.
It’s unhealthy and horrible that someone would imitate a real disorder but it’s like this “if they’re doing it for attention they probably need attention.”
@@calsteel6616 it might be manipulating and horrible, but no regular person can just go on doing that unless their is some other mental health problem that they need to have looked at
Ok, I hear you guys but someone who fakes it can still have a personality disorder like histrionic personality disorder, among other mental illnesses. Human suffering is human suffering.
This is wonderful. I had a friend hesitantly come out to me as having DID. Having viewed a lot of DID TH-camrs, I was able to say "OK, would you like me to ask who is out when I see you or just assume that it's [host name] unless you tell me otherwise?" They said that the way my fiancé and I just accepted them was incredibly affirming and made them feel that they didn't have to hide. So thank you @dissociadid for educating us and helping us accept people for who they are
THIS is the way to respond!! As a new system, my best friend asked me somewhat the same thing. But giving them a choice, and showing that you are open to them - ALL of them, is SO validating. Thank you!
Came here from Anthony P's channel to learn a bit more about DID and left with not just that, but also general fantastic advice of how just to be a better person in our day to day life. Many thanks for that. :) This is the kind of video we should be sharing in schools and more!
Sean Winston me too! This channel is so informative especially because my friend thinks she might have a dissociative disorder (not necessarily did) so I’m trying to learn more in the field!
Sean Winston um I’m overthinking now cause like... “am I really aromantic or have I just not found the right one? Haha come off it, you still think about relationships..”
"What if this is all in my head?" It is. Literally. It`s how your brain works and your brain is indeed in your head. But it absolutely does not make it any less valid or serious. Your brain also happens to be your most important organ.
Not Funny What do you mean? Sure there are those people who are sadly faking disorders and for some wicked reason glorify them, but it doesn’t take away from them being real issues that people actually struggle with and suffer from.
Love thinking of all the people clicking on this being like, “I’m finally gonna find out who’s faking” only to be educated on the validity of not only DID but any mental health disorder.
My bf's friend says he has DID. And told that to his gf when she found out she* (meant to say he) cheated on her and he said he has 11 other identities, and can control all of them except one, which is the sexual identity. Not sure if I believe him because I have never seen any signs of DID from him. He also can be a compulsive liar and believe his lies thinking they are really so.... Anyone wanna help me out here?
@@emmaz3505 Gurl as some one who has DID i dont want to juge because. This is a safe space and if he does DID then thats really messed up if i were to say he was faking. But if he is because he is a compulsive liar then just never talk to him again that sound like a toxic person just because if he made that up DID is not for explanations on why cheating is ok. Hopefully your friend drops him either way because he cheated/ blamed her of cheating when she didnt even know. Hopefully you and you friend are doing and his situation comes to light -love muí the protector of my host💕
@@undertheradar9333 sorry I had a typo, meant to say he cheated on her and when she found out that's what he told her. He said he got it because he "gf" from when he was in elementary school died in a plane crash, but then said it was the Malaysia airlines plane that disappeared, but that happened wayyy after his mind developed into one.
I legit argued with a monster sitting in my kitchen about how I'm not faking having schizo symptoms. Monster in my kitchen bullying me, "faker! Liar! Loser!" tryin to tell me I don't see & hear things. My hallucination tried to convince me I don't hallucinate. Yup.
This is what I hear, but I’ve been told so much that I am a pathological liar. So even if I was telling the truth, I would believe I was a liar because my family would tell me so. I’m currently going through therapy, and there is so much shit i never have thought about or realized, but when he says it, it makes so much sense and kinda pulls me into reality. God damn I wanna delete this comment, makes me very uncomfortable to say anything like this
When I was showing my mother how I got diagnosed with DID, how the therapist with a PhD came to the conclusion, she completely denied it. We think that if she accepts that I have experienced trauma, she'll have to acknowledge the abuse that my father and her have placed on me. How their own parents abused them has now transfered onto me. How horrifically they raised me lead to such a horrible disorder to live with. Right now I'm working on trying to get a good therapist so I can communicate how I really feel to them.
I guess your mother also developed some kind of mental block in order to never have to take responsibility for what happened... and I'm so sorry... maybe one day she will find healing and see the truth, but what's important right now is YOU and your healing and I hope you have a great support system and that you can live in an environment that allows you to heal. You can always contact me and lots of people online in certain communities and forums where we are all open to listening as a friend. You are valid. You deserve to be surrounded by those who respect you. You deserve to live. You deserve a beautiful life
OMG same! Edit: this is all so new to me so I know exactly how you feel. I actually found this out about the community and disorder about 5 months ago (thank you Anthony) and still think I am faking
Don’t worry, I was diagnosed with depression and even though I don’t sometimes feel like I’m faking, there are a bunch of people with depression who think they are faking, you aren’t alone. Here’s a dog lol 🐶
@DJ Warning sadness is a part of life, but prolonged sadness with no reason behind it, where you stop feeling joy over the things you normally love, that my friend is depression. Some people's brain dont make enought serotonin and/or dopamine. Just as Nin said about DID, it is also true that people with depression shoulnd't have to "prove" their diagnosis to you.
@DJ Warning I've had bipolar for 40 years! I've been to several funerals, including my 21 year old son's. There IS a difference between circumstantial depression and a severe physiological chemical imbalance induced depressive dysphoria. You know neither are connected when you have both been dealt a severe life blows like deaths in the family/friends, and can clearly recognize your bipolar cycle's eb and flow simultaneously. I actually came out of clinical depression during the week of my Son's passing, but certainly was in mourning depression for nearly two years!
"okay so... you started experiencing symptoms after moving out." yes. "and you not only relate to systems, but actually fit all the necessary criteria." yes. "your "mood swings" are getting worse and more distinct. AND you're hearing voices in your head." yes. "so you should consult a therapist!" no way, I don't even remember my childhood. that means I can't have childhood trauma. *surprised pikachu face*
Same, I don’t remember most of my past, I’ve been having lots of memory loss recently, I don’t remember a lot of events that happened last year, that my friends and family ASSURE me I was there. I can’t recall almost anything. Even worst for my childhood. I don’t remember any traumatic event or something really bad to happen. So I can’t actually have DID. It would be pretty much contradictory. 🤔
@P V I relate to this so much! I know you don't have to remember your trauma to be affected by it, so it wouldn't be impossible for me to have DID or OSSD. But even if I got the diagnosis I wouldn't be able to believe it.
I don't remember really much bad parts of my childhood, even though I have little to no amnesia between parts (OSDD-1b). So yeah, you don't have to remember to be dealing with the effects of it. Like I'm hypersexual and have been since I was a child. And other stuff.
Brooo, wtf. I’m watching this video in the morning, at school, on the freaking toilet. and our of nowhere nin decides to tell me I’m “Deserving of my own life” now I’m bawling my eyes out, blowing my nose with the toilet paper id originally grabbed for other purposes🤦🏻♂️😂
I felt really weird.... I got a load of sad emotions that I didn't understand...I was looking for my headphones but couldn't move to look for them for a few seconds because my emotions caused anxiety feelings. 😢 Am I just taking information and thinking I have it?
I'm a masters level therapist. This was very interesting! We discussed DID some while I was in school, and I was told more of the reasons some people don't think it exists than I was told the criteria and development process. I haven't encountered any clients with this diagnosis, but I've hopefully got a long career ahead of me, so anything could happen.
Hey Laura B, Thanks for the reply. It is heartening to hear a mental health professional who is open to learning from the people experiencing this. So many of us could do with boots on the ground learning from experience therapists out there. We are often left to learn about it on our own in places like TH-cam or Reddit through discussion.
Did you truly believe this is real? And as a fellow educated clinician, do you think that there is enough consensus regarding not only the development, diagnostic criteria, and even it's very existence for this untrained person to be telling people this information as if its fact? Telling people it is okay to rely on a self-diagnosis?
@@mmorrow7243 hey. i suffer from did, dissociative identity disorder, also previously known as MPD. what nin is saying is that people is can self diagnose but should be certain to get an diagnosis. i also once self diagnosed, but took a diagnosis when i was 14. i’m now a 17 year old who has been diagnosed with Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID). so i can agree with what nin is saying. and how dare you say “do you really believe this is REAL!?” i’m not sure if it was used in that context but i, the host find that very offensive.- The Nicholson System.
@@mmorrow7243 typical doctor. Always has to act like they know everything and everyone else is a smart as a jar of mayonnaise. People like you are what caused my PTSD, probably because they profited from "treating" it with more of the same.
@@areyousureyouenteredyourna85 This is exactly what I experienced too. One of my triggers of my PTSD is condescending comments from doctors due to repeated usage of having my condition explained to me when they don't understand it themselves
me: maybe this video will finally let me know if I'm faking nin: syke you are VALID thank you so much for all the informational and validating content you put out here for us, you've been a massive help to many people including me
I'd love for there to be a Netflix show about DID but that is created by someone who has DID so that it is respectful to the system and can also educate the public a bit more.
Id low-key watch a movie like that without at least harmful triggers or that mentioned when triggers would happen. Like if omega were to start talking about the trauma and they showed it she'd say " before I tell you my story know it has triggering scenes. Please skip to the pink screen if you wish." Kind of thing so that DID systems don't get triggered but so that others can watch how trauma is stored between systems.
honestly I've been daydreaming about reading webcomic where the inner world and each alter is graphically represented and showing how fronting and conversations between alters work. basically a story about the life of someone with DID. Or maybe one of those transmigration isekais where the MC shows signs of DID so at the end your left wondering "did they actually get reincarnated into this medieval fantasy world or is this a fictive alter where the alter is the one from the modern world?". However I am neither an artist, nor do I have DID so I can't really do this. Just felt like putting the idea there.
@@tobyl.1703 then report her to the authorities, call the police, something, babe. Don't be afraid, there's something you can do, search on the internet, find help; don't let your toxic mom do this to you.
It's so important to believe someone and not ask for evidence or proof when they are putting themselves in a vulnerable position. Even if someone is faking it, that in itself is a cry for help. Something must be wrong for someone to make up a disorder. You believing them and being open would probably help, even if they are faking
I'm an alter, Beth is, uh.. Very happy and relieved. Shes very comforted with your videos... Thank you so much. These videos have made her feel much better about her mental state and she now knows what to seek help for... We're all grateful to you. Thank you. - Ivy
It's been three months, no matter what alter you may be at the moment or time of the day/night, I would like to know how you're doing! ^^ Or if you'd like, if Beth isn't your present alter, how are they doing? :)
@@3starsburningbright I didn't know anything at all about DID before this video so i'm very new to all this. I find all of this very interesting though. I have PDDnos and ADHD and I consider mental health ally, growing up with people in many different conditions but i've never encountered anyone with DID. I really want to educate myself more on this and i'm learning quite a bit from these comments too. I hope everyone is doing well!
Me: oh my god what if I'm faking My alter to the other alters: *claps his hands sarcastically* did you hear that guys we're faking! The Host, as I am typing this: actually, I'm pretty sure you're also an alter Me: Impossible-
i'm literally on my alter's youtube channel watching this telling myelf im faking it all cuz i didnt know i had alters until i was out of the abusive household. but this video is really comforting. esp since my alters are still in their differtiatiating phase and arent fully ppl yet it feels like such a sham, but (not to repeat myslef) thank you so much
@@marigriffiths458 oh, that was the host using my channel, he don't post that much on his channel but i can give you a link to his stuff if you'd like? he's tryna do speedpaint commentary stuff, and i think its rather nice.
"Having somebody believe you is so overwhelmingly life changing" really hits the nail on the head Nin. Having our closest friend believe us when we finally worked up the courage to tell them we'd been diagnosed made all the difference in the world because no matter what anyone else thinks or says, we know the most important person to us believes. There is such safety in that. Thanks for the video and per usual the makeup is spot on love. :) -Emi
"Just because you met someone with DID who isn't' diagnosed doesn't mean they're faking." SAY IT LOUDER FOR THE PEOPLE IN THE BACK! I am SO tired of people saying I'm faking. - Kyle
I was always told "if you're questioning it, then you're probably faking" and i think that kinda stuck with me and it's making my doubt and denial worse
Lucid Dream I usual think it’s the opposite lol. People who are faking it would know they are, but if it’s real you’ll probably worry & question because you want to be honest. 👍
If you are losing time, and are unsure, you definitely need some help. It can be dangerous to lose time. Sometimes you can have something and just simply not know, that doesnt mean you're faking.
When she said that other way around in the video, the first thing I thought was when I was questioning my sexuality xD I think it's easier to think on those terms cus it's something so instinctive xD it's like YOU DON'T SIMPLY WONDER HOW TO KISS OTHER GIRLS (if you're a girl) AND GO LIKE NA I'M TOTALLY STRAIGHT. Also, we should de-stigmatize that it's totally okay to be questioning and finding whatever you are/are not in safe spaces. IT'S OKAY FOLKS either being whatever or not! It's way better than living repressed your whole life! And in the end you get the bonus of getting to know yourself better and be better prepared to deal with the world!
Yeah, I know it is personal thing but can you say what differences you have for example? ☺️ I am just curious, And also I hope that you and your sister are doing great now
Never heard of siblings having the same disorder before. It makes sense that siblings who have experienced the same traumas would both develop the same disorder. I never understood why it doesn't always work that way. I kind of assume that because everyone is different even if they're raised the same way what might have been traumatic to one sibling may not have been to the other. I can't even imagine how horrible things must of been for you that both you and your sister developed the same trauma disorder.
I would die for them... I dot have DID( i don't think I haven't been diagnosed but I've doing research) but I feel like just cuz of their videos I feel like they are family❤
I live in Ireland so like 10% of the population had red hair so hearing that that statistic is the same as DID always makes me go "Uhh that's worrying... oh wait I'm Irish"
i live in a pre-dominantly asian country, so when she said "think of how many redheads uve seen" i said 0 and she goes "that's exactly how many people have DID" i had to pause the video for a good 2 minutes to think about what ive done
I always had a hard time believing that DID is a real thing, because of the portraial in movies or creepypastas. So excuse me for being suspicious at first. Over the last three days I watched alot of your videos and I have to say, that you really opened my eyes. Please keep on making videos, you guys are aweseome.
Yeah same thing with me, I didn't "truly" believe it at first but now it's one of my favorite topics to learn about, because it is so complex and shows a lot about how our brain works and keeps us safe!
Ink Isolation I had the same experience! It seems like such a wild and complex disorder that’s it’s nearly unbelievable but now I love learning about DID & other psychology things!
@@notfunny1410 A LOT of DIAGNOSED people with DID also refer to themselves as a system. System is a valid term to describe ALL of the personalities/parts of someone with DID. I don't know what other term you wanna use? Same thing goes with "we" when talking about more than one alter. I don't really understand the problem? And diagnosing often takes a very long time.
I'm starting to see nin's personality coming out and having fun with new clothes and makeup, and it's super refreshing. I'm proud of you! I'm glad you're starting to become more comfortable being yourself and expressing that through your style. 💛
Amber THW She would probably feel validated and use it to further justify her videos and stories... Sayin "I told you. None of ya'lls business telling me if I have a disorder or not." Which technically is true, but still doesn't erase the harm that's been done by her misinformed videos. 🙈 Used to love trolls... Now I feel she is trolling too far. 🙄 Ugh...
As a BPD I had the “i am faking” this feeling “as well as other factors” kept me in a dangerous unaware state for over a decade. The cross overs are amazing.
As someone who thought they had BPD after being medicated for something different, I stabilized. Haven’t brought it up to a doctor tho Also I told a friend I thought I had BPD later said they were diagnosed earlier on and never mentioned it, kinda fishy do I bring it up?
"You're valid as you're, don't let anybody tell you otherwise, not even yourself." My protector is clapping as she hears it 'cause I was in a roller coaster of self doubt. Thank you. Our system loves you all.
The fact it takes, on average, at least 7 years of *already* being in the mental health system for those wit h DID or OSDD to get an actual diagnosis is a real and quite tragic situation. DID is definitely a stigmatised disorder and many who work in the field of mental health don't know how to recognise or treat it. Thank you so much for providing education and information about DID.
"If you were faking, you would know" That brought tears into my eyes. I May not have DID but I was mentaly abused in childhood and I was never allowed to cry, so I was told that I've to be "strong". Nowadays I'm a veeeerry moody person, I can be happy a second later hurt than laughing like a child or a crazy person and at least be really really mean without wanting to be so I try to not say the mean Things. It's verry exhausting, when I have the mood swings. I may have a disease but for now I'm not ready to go to a therapist so... I'm so glad I found this Channel and I wish all a lots of love!❤️❤️❤️
Delete Child I had a appointment about bpd today and I told my friend and her little brother said is that the Kpop group🤦🏻♀️ Sorry if you took it the wrong way I said it because I thought it was funny
Hi im very sorry for your struggles :( i can relate to it though. Watching this channel and reading the comments really helps me to try to validate my right to show my emotions and take care of them. I also was not allowed to cry in my home and since i moved out im feeling very weird, im confused all the time and i dont know how to act because all the coping mechanisms i had at home dont serve me outside of it but i cant get rid of them even when theyre destructive to me. I become lonely very quickly too but its hard for me to connect and open up before others, its hard for me to cry in front of ppl and show any signs of struggle actually, it comes with a lot of shame and self doubt. I sometimes forget i just had a rough start in childhood and beat myself up for being „problematic”. Idk what to do sometimes, u cant expect all ur friends to always be attentive to u and therapy is expensive, i can afford going only very rarely. Im trying to figure this all out. Its good to have at least this channel in reach
Dear DissociaDID, Hi, we are the Cherokee system (host Ori and alters Carsyn, Annabeth and Kaleb). We stumbled upon your channel through Anthony Padilla's video and are so glad we did. Keep being amazing. We love you all.
A dear friend of mine got diagnosed pretty late. She is actually the only one of triplets who got diagnosed with DID. Although they all had to experience the same awfull things each one of the three coped differently with the trauma. She is now in her late 50s and back when the first symptoms could be seen from the outside, no one knew anything about DID, which made it pretty difficult to get her help or to understand what's actually happening at all. We don't talk about it a lot as I don't want to trigger her in any way. The only thing I know is her having barely any amnesia anymore. But it took her a very long time to get to that point of "healing", if you could call it like that. She's a very sweet, loving and wise person and I'm more than happy to have her as a friend.
I feel like thinking "This could never happen to me/ I can't have this disorder." comes part and parcel with dissociative trauma disorders because the brain is trying shield you from the memories of the trauma. Thank you for bringing up the bit about alters becoming more "vocal" once you are in a safe place -- I am in the process of trying to figure out whether or not I has OSDD and did not become aware of my other parts until I was finally in a place were I no longer had to constantly look over my shoulder, where I could finally fully relax. I think that is why some of them have started to act out the way they have because their former duties and world view have been thrown into disarray now that we are in a safe place for once in our lives. Your videos have always been such a great help.
@Radadada Bladada “Other Specified Dissociative Disorder” - it’s basically the catch-all term for dissociative conditions that don’t fully match the diagnostic criteria for DID. For example, OSDD type 1b is very similar to DID but there’s either no or not much amnesia between the alters and type 1a is also very similar to DID but the alters aren’t as distinct as in a DID system (might be older or younger versions of the host rather than being fully separate people), whereas OSDD type 4 doesn’t have as much to do with the creation of alters but has a whole lot to do with dissociation and amnesia. Usually when people talk about OSDD though (especially in system communities) they’re just referring to type 1
My ex: I have multiple personality disorder Me: uhhh wrong terminology but I support you My ex: my alternate personality is Satan and I want to sexually harass and insult you for correcting my grammar Me: *well this is not ideal*
Krab Shanty this situation is almost exactly what happened to me except I don’t count him as an ex because he forced me into the relationship and I am a lesbian
I'm gunna say something controversial here. Just because they have a mental disorder does mor mean you have to stay with them or accept their behaviour. Yes, Be sympathetic. Yes, be compassionate but never sacrifice your safety for the happiness of someone else
@Lilymoon I didn't got in a "life threatening" situation but my ex, at some point, started to talk about her... alter (we didn't even know at the time any terminology, you tube was in =3 times) it was only one, I believe there was never any amnesia barriers. I tried to "match up" and convinced myself I had an alter too. Again, there were no amnesia barriers, and this was around 15/16yo. A few months before our 3 y relationship totally collapsed she admitted "we and our alters were the same". That's not how I've felt ever. My alter was so different from me. This still gives me chills and it's why I've been looking so much to learn about DID. The first time I found Multiplicity and me I totally had an anxiety attack specially meeting Ed. Recently I watched the documentary about Gypsy Rose Blanchard and I totally had an anxiety attack when she mentions her previous relationship which involves a system she dated and the personas she created to fit with that system... Sorry for the long text, I guess this felt like a safe space but what I meant was - she totally manipulated me to get from me what she wanted - personality traits I didn't have and I couldn't give her. I was manipulated that entire time, I cried so much..
People asking me things like: are you sure this is real? (Don't have DID btw) Are you just faking it? My Brain: You know you are. You're just upset. In Reality and what Nin says: your feelings are real. They suck, but they're real.
The beginning of this hit me so hard oh my gosh! I have severe anxiety and depression to the point of I had to get a service dog but I CONSTANTLY second guess myself of "What if I am just faking?"
@@kt5229 yes! So I have so much anxiety that I cannot even leave my house usually. My anxiety makes me physically ill to the point of being bedridden, I can't go out for more than a few hours without nearly passing out from exhaustion (anxiety drains me heavily), and more. My dog helps me by alerting to symptoms of my anxiety that I do not notice so that I can change the behaviors. If I don't change my behaviors it often leads to an anxiety attack. He also does something called "block" where he basically blocks either the front of me, one of the sides, or the back of me. This is so that I have space in between me and everyone else wherever I go. Another thing is "exit" or "find (caretaker or friend)". If I am panicking I cannot think so I say this if I need him to guide me someone. Exit is taking me to the door of the building or the bathroom and find is where he finds whoever we were with so that I can get human help. Feel free to message me via Instagram if you're more curious 😊
I just found out in January of 2019 that i have DID i had all these litttle clues and messages from my alters and i had tried to tell my mom when i was 13 i was like uuuhhmm mom so like theres other people in my brain and she was like....naaahh and i just said "okay" and I didnt comment on it anymore Hahahahaha she still doesnt know OOP your videos have become a safe place for me. As well as my best friend. You and him are my safe places
I have DID as well and ive told my closest friends because my mom shut me down when i told her. She said "people who dissociate, dont know it" Thats not what i wanted to hear, but I never got support from her again. After finding AlexMax Han and DissociaDID and TeamPiñata, I felt heard and safe and understood
@@NuggetsAdventures524 i get that. My family is one of those families where if uts bot adressed right when it happens, then clearly it didnt happen. I never told my mom about my trauma when i was 6-12 and then a seperate trauma when i was 12. She is the only person other than my best friend who believed me. It's really crappy when the people who think you can trust doubt your condition or your word
@@harleyvick1822 my mom knew a sliver of mine from when I was 3-6, but not the whole story. At this point I'm just waiting to move out so we can be ourselves
Really needed this, thanks. I've suffered through weird amnesia all throughout my life, and thought it was strange when my mom noted my different "mood states".... that seem a little more complex than a simple "mood" when it brings on entirely different speech patterns and outlooks on life. This is a very serious thing, and worry if its something *else*, or if I'm just hyper focusing on something to explain something weird already happening to me. I'm not sure what could have caused this. Maybe I'm not suppossed to know. I'm learning a lot, this is all very new and scary to me, but your channel has been really helpful to me this week in realizing my own experiences and how they may differ. Thanks for this video, it was very reassuring. Congrats on getting your old videos back!
My girlfriend has an alter (I don't know if it's right to say she has double personality or if it's right to say DID),when she told me about her we were been together for 1 month and she was concerned that I wouldn't believe her because she's not diagnosed yet or I would live her alone or I would be scared of her.She was very surprised when I said that it wasn't a problem for me and that I wanted to know her alter (and spoiler we are friends now).I wouldn't change both of them for anyone else.I want also to thank you because with your videos you helped me to know better the alters world and points of view. Thank you and hugs from Italy🇮🇹😘🖐
@@kaiyodei I was an activity leader for children from 5 to 10 years when I was 16 and I think if she'll get a little It will be so fun 'cause I know tons of fun games and I love taking care of people (in fact yesterday she told me that when we will have children I will be a wonderful mom and my poor heart was melting😍) Now that we've been togheter for almost 7 months I can say that I have a wonderful girlfriend and a wonderful alter big sis (sometimes when we joke I call her alter like this cause she's strict and protective with me like a big sister and she's older than us)🤣👌
So I was diagnosed like 3 months ago and I'm still struggling with accepting it. This really helped me. I feel really valid. Thank you for this video. ❤️
@@heliocentric6048 yeah kinda. Depends on the situation. A lot of times it's like watching someone else's life. Or watching your body do stuff but you don't really have control. Or you think you have control and then you suddenly do something out of character and you're like...wait what ....who am I?? Kinda scary. But therapy has helped a lot. Thankfully, the memory loss isn't as bad as some others so I'm blessed in that regard.
@@jennyralgrievous6192 He's not saying that, he's just commenting that in HIS opinion, DDID's quote applies to everyone except Trisha, because it's pretty dang obvious that Trisha is faking.
"So what if they are faking, it will come to light." "But what if they're not." I had a fenceline position on this leaning toward skepticism. Because there are people with sincere and genuine disorders that are placed in a bad light or a stigma as a result of 'Faking'. But I'm convinced by your point. You've changed my mind. It's better to live and let live. The damage that occurs as a result of skepticism may very well outweigh the damage done by faking a disorder. I agree with that. If they are faking, who cares. Let them live their life. I guess I don't think it's a good investment of time and energy. Is it really THAT big a deal to me? No, not for me personally. It's not a big deal, especially when I have more pressing matters like bills, my career, a family. Thanks, Nin P.S. This is meant for the masses. But, If you (Chloe) ever find yourself reading this. Tell Nadia I said "Hey, Girl! 😘"
People sometimes try to invalidate things because they "only" affect a small percent of the population. There are 7 billion people on the planet. 1% of 7 billion is 70 million. DID affects _only_ 70 _million_ people
And that’s the low end. The higher estimates put it as 2% or 3%. As a result, it affects from _70-210 million people._ That’s not even counting the other, related disorders like Unspecified Dissociative Disorder or OSDD1, both of which function extremely similarly I’m going to come back to this and add that if the higher end is true than DID affects roughly the population of Brazil, and if it’s the lower end it affects more people than everyone in the UK. This isn’t a small side thing to be taken lightly, this is as common as living in the United Kingdom of Great Britain and Northern Ireland.
@@Leoji0325 A similar percentage of the population is asexual, but some people suspect that it's higher than one percent and a lot of people just don't identity that way because they don't know they can. It absolutely could be the same way for DID, especially considering how many people don't even believe it exists
I just need to get this off my chest. I'm very confused about whether or not I have/had DID. Several years ago I was convinced I had DID, even my therapist believed me. I had some communication with my alters and they felt so real to me. I remember having panic attacks and then being pulled away to a safe place while someone else took over. Sometimes I would know what was happening while I was gone and sometimes I wouldn't. What makes me question everything is the fact that they all went away. I was with a guy at the time who was somewhat abusive and when he saw me switching he would grab me and beg me not to leave him. After a little while of this I couldn't switch anymore, I couldn't hear them, I couldn't communicate with them at all. They were just gone, and I never heard from them again. So now I wonder if it was ever real at all. If they were real then how could they just disappear? If anyone has any thoughts on this I'd love to know. Thank you.
As you said, the guy was abusive. If your brain began to associate you switch with you getting hurt instead of you being safe it would suppress the other personalities to keep you safe.
They will come back once you get out of the abusive situation. He noticed your switches, so your system had to get better at hiding it. You are vaild. You're alters can't just disappear, they usually just go dormant or in the inner world or dreaming. We connect with our alters especially when we dream. Stay safe. We hope you are in a safer place with your alters.
@@samjen3654 Thank you, I really appreciate that. I've been out of that relationship for a year now, but they haven't come back. Ever since I got out of that relationship my life has been a lot less stressful and my PTSD has also improved. I used to get frequent flashbacks, but now I rarely get them. I guess it's possible that they haven't come back yet because they feel like I don't need them right now.
@ how is she faking did? she had an issue months ago that affected her deeply that it created a new alter. please stop jumping into conclusions. we all said she can take a break from the social media as long as she can.
When I was mid teens I had something happen and for years after I felt as if someone else was in control at times where I felt scared and I couldn't move my body just watch as I'd do things say things that were not me I never really found out what was wrong I have autism I've always thought something was related to that i also hallucinate and have drastic mood swings Watching you is inspiring how yove done so well moving on from your past it gives me hope that one day I wont be scared to go outside or to go to the shop etc x
mara 333 I feel this way too. I don’t have autism but I did have traumatic things happen to me during my teens and it would be like I’m there but I can’t control whose speaking and making actions. For months now I’ve wondered if I’m faking but it just feels so real. Do you ever feel like it’s half of you there and half of someone else? Like someone is there but it feels like you can easier come back if you push hard enough. As stated DID only comes from childhood trauma so I’m wondering what’s wrong with me as I’ve caused alot of trouble in the past from it. Sorry for this ramble but your story really resembles mine and it feels good to hear in not alone.
@@itsaki7195 well there are other types of things like that. For example, I don't know anything about Bipolar disorder, but I see it highly mentioned in these comments along side DID so I assume they are connected in some way. And feeling like half and half would make sense since Bi means two... Once again, I don't know anything about BPD, I'm just going off observations
Silver mitten Seems like Depersonalization which is a form of Dissociation, could be symptom of other conditions. Dissociative Disorder does not involve alters but you feel kond of out of your body watching yourself go through the motions etc. but feels very weird. Can be a symptom of anxiety. I experience Depersonalization when under stress and anxiety getting too strong.
This comment made something click in my head which made us realize we’ve been *us* for much longer than we thought. Now it makes more sense for all of us. Thank you. -Bantahat, caretaker of my DDNOS-1b system.
Just recently discovered your channel thanks to youtube, and I've been binge-watching every video you've made so far. Watching you made me realize a lot of important things, and I wanted to thank you all for that - not specifically speaking about This one video in particular, but all of them, I'm writing this comment here because it's the newest one. I am not part of a system, but I had a long-term relationship with a girl I loved deeply, who was. She never told me, and I don't think she ever realized it herself, due to lack of information / studies on the topic back then. We were together for 4 years back in 2010 to 2014, and she was my everything. I always had a suspicion of her being part of a system, but my knowledge on the subject was Really limited. As I said, I still have no idea if she's aware of her having DID to this day, or is it something she pushed away from herself. We were in a close relationship, and she did tell me about another person in her mind, in fact, I've met that other person quite a few time. They were a prosecutor, and they gave us quite some scary times - whiches were, in fact, especially after watching your videos, somewhat understandable, if I may say so, but it doesn't make them less scarier. I never knew their gender, as my girlfriend referred to them as "ő" (our native language doesn't have any gender pronouns. We use "ő" for all genders, because we don't have anything similar to "she/he/they".) But now I'm sure there were many other people in their system, and I met a lot of them, but I never knew. Watching your switches made me realize a lot of things I never knew about. I never knew how many times I've seen switches in person. Now I know the reason why she was dissociating a lot, why she fainted in my arms during triggering times. Of course, I knew about her traumas, because we trusted eachother. But I was unable to do much about them. We were teenagers at the time. And I blame myself for this to this day, ever since I met her. Watching your videos helped me understand a lot of things from the past I had no idea about. I wish I knew better back then... There were times I could've handled much better. I could've been a better girlfriend. I could've given her much more safety. I should've researched more. I should've done more. And this guilt is something I don't know how to handle. Yesterday I told her how much she means to me to this day, since we did not break up on bad terms, she's still one of my most treasured friends. And I told her I'm sorry there were a lot of times in our lives that I could've handled better. She told me not to worry about them, and that she loves me as her closest friends to this day as well. She's at a good place in her life now. But I still don't think she ever came to the realization that she has DID. I'm sure I'm not the person to bring it up all of a sudden, and I'm not planning on doing so. I just want the best for her, but at the same time I can't help but keep wondering about all of this. Thank you for reading this comment. And thank you DissociaDID system for being so brave and creating this channel to help people understand DID more.
I've been terrified to tell people I might have DID because I don't have a diagnosis and everyone thinks that if I'm not diagnosed, I'm faking it. Hearing you say that I'm valid even if I'm self-diagnosed literally brought me to tears. Thank you so much.
When you actually mentioned how some can find out in their teen years due to moving away from trauma. Thank you, so so much. How young I was when I realized always has been a source of feeling I'm faking it. In my case it was because I moved, I started realizing stuff about a year after as, even though I'm the 'core' I was not comfortable being out, I didn't trust the fact that I was in a stable place that wouldn't be taken so Cal was out most the time. Until recently he and I split the part of host almost 50 50, Ive now taken up that role and it feels so weird, I feel like I never see him compared to how it was, and I'm seeing others more, and others less.
I love you guys so much. I know someone that has DID and he was scared that I wouldn't understand, he was scared that I would break up with him, etc... But weirdly enough about 1 month before meeting him I became obsessed with your channel and it has helped me so much and in so many occasions. Without this channel when he would have told me that I wouldn't have even known what it was let alone be able to let him know he was valid and that I would stand next to him. So all I wanted to say is thank you
Nin and dissociadid... I want to thank you guys so much, my fiancee has recently discovered he had some form of DID and if it wasnt for your educational content, I would have no idea what to do or how to handle it.... your videos changed my life, and my partner systems, for the better x
@@kaiyodei we've all spoken in depth about this possible problem. So far it's okay, but being honest and having open conversations about it isn't off the table. I would never want anyone to feel trapped like that.
I'm just realizing, if I had the inherent ability to dissociate from birth as you mentioned, I might've ended up with DID instead of cptsd. My life would've been very different and I find that so interesting. I fit the other 2 criteria, as my repeated trauma started at least at the age of 4, I don't remember anything from before that. So it's possible it started before even that. I really appreciate your channel, even as a person without DID. I love and appreciate people who educate others, even at the risk of facing backlash because there are so many people out there that don't want to learn or understand and will just hate.
Well, what is "crazy?" Is it a psychotic break? Is it schizophrenia? Generally the term "crazy" only refers to someone who behaves or experiences things that aren't deemed normal. If it isn't DID, it's just a different diagnosis. If you have testing available, it might be in your best interest to utilize it. You already have questions about yourself, so getting some answers would be beneficial, even if they aren't necessarily the exact answers you're looking for. I wish you (all) the best of luck :)
Thank you ❤️. I’m sure I will be ok. I am blessed with being surrounded by supportive people. I’ve also found some good system friends online who assured me that doubt is normal. As soon as my symptoms go away, I immediately start wondering if I made them up regardless of logic, and I’m just frustrating myself.
@@Butterflysin yeah, I don't have DID, but I do have autism and an anxiety disorder. I deal with doubt too, I get so scared when my symptoms go because I get scared I'm faking. but I understand, and I'm so glad you have supportive people around you!!💜💜 I hope you're okay~~💜
I have ASD but someone accused me of pretending to have DID because of how I choose to handle and process emotions. Even before my diagnosis, I found the film Inside Out really useful and characterised my different struggles and visualising having a conversation with that character really helped me to process different things. I was talking to someone about this and they lost it at me, saying things like, "oh so you're just pretending to have that dissociative whatever it was called disorder then" and "you're clearly insane". I do have what I internally refer to as autopilot mode which is what I go into when I dissociate from myself if trauma related incident are brought up but I just tend to be found blankly repeating the same action or following my routine without any thought. Not sure how common this is but the characters created are more aspects of myself or who I'd like to be rather than alters.
I do that too. But my thing is that I have a sitcom like room in my head were 4 characters of my favorite series sit and they comment and help me. Most of the times they're just chaotic idiots making me laugh, but that's good too
This is very good information. After listening to this entire video , I have complete respect for you as you demonstrate respect and values and emotional maturity. So much honor for you ❤ I’m 62 and was diagnosed when I was 30. I’m just now fully accepting and knowing I have this condition yet I can still at times dissociate from the DID. It’s far and few in between and the denial doesn’t last near as long anymore. But the denial for me was extremely dangerous and almost made me lose my sanity way more than the condition itself. It’s been a long hard road for me but I’m so grateful to be where I am today with it all. ❤
It's interesting to me that you mention comfort in one's environment as having an impact on switches. Every fast switch I can recall seeing you have, you've been in the presence of people you're very comfortable around. Pinata, your friend Anna, the other systems at the sleepover at M&M's house, etc.
I actually started crying at the end when you said how people would KNOW if they were faking and wouldn't just wonder if they were. I and so many members of my system wonder if we're fake. *We'll sit in headspace and wonder if we're faking.* Thoughts of “But my childhood wasn't THAT bad” or “What if they're just hallucinations?” keep me up at night. Thank you for making this video. Thank you for believing me. Thank you for putting yourself out into the scary world we live in dispite the h*te you'll receive. This channel really is making a difference. And it really has changed my world. Since I know how well monitored your comment section is, take care and drink some water. You are all so special and amazing. Keep being wonderful. -Jay, longest know alter and ex-host of the Universe Rescue Squad
Yeah, I came here to learn how to tell when someone's faking having D.I.D But I got so much good info just on what D.I.D is and it's made me learn new things not just about this disorder but other disorders as well. And then when nin got to the part where she said how to find out if someone's faking it, it's really none of your business, I felt so good about and it made me realize that other people saying they have a disorder and whether I think they're a liar or not should never matter. Thank you so much nin
@@debbieklose8776 she's a person who often creates petty drama on the internet. I would not look her up or engage with her content in any way. She has spread bile throughout many communities.
@@jewels3400 that’s definitely unfortunate. I’ve not looked her up. I actually completely forgot I had asked. Such a chaotic life with so many Ins and outs of trying to manage day to day . 🙃
Other people: it's just in your head
Me: yes, that's exactly where my disorder lies
@@iogdavhd4icafhvnonsense540 Well obviously. Kidneys control all of our thoughts. (Honestly, kind of love this )
Yes definitely in your kidneys, brains are absolutely useless and have no reason to be here!
It might not be in YOUR head, but it's probably in your persecutor's head. So yeah.
It reminds me of that song with Eminem and Rihanna - "I'm friends with the monsters that's under my bed, get along with the voices inside of my head"
I believe that every person on earth has had the feeling of "voices" in (pick any "there, they're, their") heads at least once
@@joeljonsson9119 well that voices sh*t is rather schizophrenia than DID.
the body: * gets dyed black hair *
kyle: *hECK YEAH MATE*
Hahaha
savannah marshall
Lol 😂
what is the difference between DID and OSDD?
Jade is probably pumped too lol
savannah marshall LMAO
The quickest switch I've seen y'all do is when anyone makes fun of Kyle's accent
Hahahah true
Oh my god truuue
Yees ahahahha
I was thinking of that lmao I just keep remembering "I don't fucking sound like that" then him being abandoned to have his makeup done
Lacy A LMAO YEAH
me (the host): i’m faking my diagnoses DID
my alters: lol k
I'm too scared to get checked for it.if I do have it,I feel it'd open up a can of worms I don't want opened if I talked to someone about it. I'm not against others going to get help,I just don't want all the hassle unless my symptoms get worse.idk if they're even symptoms 😅
Same we didn't wanna get look at because arguments start and i want everyone's consent so this is where it gets difficult
Your alters:yeah bro say what you want
Her alters: WHAT DID SHE/HE SAIDDDD
SO TRUE! My protector is always like, "Yes, please continue. Let us know when you figure it out."
i dont have did but the “faking disorder feeling” is the WORST
I totally agree. I get that feeling sometimes. But not with DID.
@@mysteryname2888 same;v
I know. It's awful.
I am treated with depression and take medicine but then it comes into my mind "what if I am faking? What if I am manipulating people and am actually being toxic on purpose to bring them down?" It makes me have depressive breakdowns
e t h e r e a l sounds like you have anxiety related to it too 😭
Might need to talk to your doctor again...
I can’t speak for anyone else but I have Major Depressive Disorder with comorbid (secondary) anxiety and I feel like I’m overreacting most of the time and my illnesses aren’t as bad as they feel.
The ring light makes their eyes look ethereal and supernatural and it’s calming. Like a guardian angel speaking to you.
Reminds me of the host by Stephanie meyer, in the movie when they had the creature implanted in them the tell was a silver ring around the pupil and ever since I saw that movie I've been enamoured with that look!!! Absolutely beautiful secondary effects from the ring light that's for sure:)
So true and i like that👍👍😍😍💕💕
I know, I feel like the ring light makes their eye language so much stronger
This comment brought me a peace I didn't know I needed today. Thank you
They are an angel
You have SUCH a good point. When I've said to someone, "I'm diabetic," or "I can't eat nuts or seeds," no one has ever said, "Really? Are you sure? Are you faking it?" No one has ever accused my friend who has cancer of faking his cancer. No one has ever questioned the validity of another friend's allergy to seafood.
But the minute someone says they have something like depression or DID or PTSD or Bipolar Disorder....suddenly everyone is a psychologist who thinks they have not only the RIGHT but the ABILITY to question it.
Whilst I agree with you for the most part (with the questioning of mental health issues) I have to say that people struggle to believe my milk allergy. To the point where I've had people put milk in my food to "trick" me or "catch me out". I have huge trust issues now and don't usually let anyone go near my food or drinks.
I think it's partially due to the fact there are those (for whatever reason idk) that wish they had some sort of mental illness to be "different" or "unique" and glamourize them, leading to people claiming they have something they actually dont- which makes it harder for people to trust when they say "I have depression" "I have anxiety", they'll doubt you, because they've seen people faking it online many times (especially when people say they have something but was never diagnosed) so it's super super unfortunate. I've never had any one really question my issues I got going on so I'm grateful for that. Hopefully the world becomes nothing but more understanding of each other 😅
@@oodledoodle That's...MONSTROUS. People are the WORST.
My mother in law disbelieves both my and my son's banana allergy 🤦♀️
I've actually had people openly doubt my allergies to me and tell me I must be faking because sometimes I get really ill and other times I don't at all (allergies do not cause a reaction 100% of the time). I also have a breathing condition, and doctors don't have a name for it (yet), and sometimes people think I'm faking that too. So it does happen with other medical conditions, but cancer was a great example she picked because I don't know anyone who doubts a person when they say they have that.
When searching 'DID' (trying to find my way here) I found clips of a show called 'dance India dance' I am now obsessed with both!! 😂😂
XD
Haha cool 😂
Hahah
Omgg 😂
🤣🤣🤣🤣
when someone is faking DID there is probably something else wrong with them so they might benefit from your compassion either way
but also that is incredibly manipulative and you are being lied to. it's not healthy.
It’s unhealthy and horrible that someone would imitate a real disorder but it’s like this “if they’re doing it for attention they probably need attention.”
@@calsteel6616 it might be manipulating and horrible, but no regular person can just go on doing that unless their is some other mental health problem that they need to have looked at
Ok, I hear you guys but someone who fakes it can still have a personality disorder like histrionic personality disorder, among other mental illnesses. Human suffering is human suffering.
trisha paytas literally did this. shes such an attention hog.
This is wonderful. I had a friend hesitantly come out to me as having DID. Having viewed a lot of DID TH-camrs, I was able to say "OK, would you like me to ask who is out when I see you or just assume that it's [host name] unless you tell me otherwise?"
They said that the way my fiancé and I just accepted them was incredibly affirming and made them feel that they didn't have to hide.
So thank you @dissociadid for educating us and helping us accept people for who they are
Ian Power aw there needs to be more singlets like you
This is where TH-cam needs a ❤ reaction
THIS is the way to respond!! As a new system, my best friend asked me somewhat the same thing. But giving them a choice, and showing that you are open to them - ALL of them, is SO validating. Thank you!
Isn't it a nice feeling knowing how to respond to someone that you know is in distress
What is the longest you can go between switches? (I’m sure it’s different for everyone) but can it be years, weeks, days?
Came here from Anthony P's channel to learn a bit more about DID and left with not just that, but also general fantastic advice of how just to be a better person in our day to day life.
Many thanks for that. :) This is the kind of video we should be sharing in schools and more!
Sean Winston me too! This channel is so informative especially because my friend thinks she might have a dissociative disorder (not necessarily did) so I’m trying to learn more in the field!
Me too!
Sean Winston um I’m overthinking now cause like... “am I really aromantic or have I just not found the right one? Haha come off it, you still think about relationships..”
SAME!
same
"DID is more common than schizophrenia."
me who has a brother diagnosed with schizophrenia: Ou shoot.
me with DID and schizophrenia:
huh, a 2 in 1 deal. wHaT a BaRgAiN
Yeah she shouldn't have said that. It is like Nin is trying to minimize and diminish schizophrenia sufferers!!!
@@MaleOrderBride nah, I don't think so, it's just statistics
@@MaleOrderBride she said it's more common, not that it's more serious or anything like that
@@whatever3440 right
"What if this is all in my head?"
It is. Literally. It`s how your brain works and your brain is indeed in your head. But it absolutely does not make it any less valid or serious. Your brain also happens to be your most important organ.
I thought this was going to be a hate comment until I read the whole thing 😅 Good for you for being supportive
"He said "It's all in your head" and I said "So's everything" but he didn't get it" - Fiona Apple, Paper Bag
WD Gaster Nothing but 100% support from me for them and anyone struggling with mental health issues (as am I)❤️
Not Funny What do you mean? Sure there are those people who are sadly faking disorders and for some wicked reason glorify them, but it doesn’t take away from them being real issues that people actually struggle with and suffer from.
Love thinking of all the people clicking on this being like, “I’m finally gonna find out who’s faking” only to be educated on the validity of not only DID but any mental health disorder.
thank you for letting me know! now i dont have to watch the whole thing to find out if the thumbnail was clickbait or not, i really appreciate it!
My bf's friend says he has DID. And told that to his gf when she found out she* (meant to say he) cheated on her and he said he has 11 other identities, and can control all of them except one, which is the sexual identity. Not sure if I believe him because I have never seen any signs of DID from him. He also can be a compulsive liar and believe his lies thinking they are really so.... Anyone wanna help me out here?
@@emmaz3505 Gurl as some one who has DID i dont want to juge because. This is a safe space and if he does DID then thats really messed up if i were to say he was faking. But if he is because he is a compulsive liar then just never talk to him again that sound like a toxic person just because if he made that up DID is not for explanations on why cheating is ok. Hopefully your friend drops him either way because he cheated/ blamed her of cheating when she didnt even know. Hopefully you and you friend are doing and his situation comes to light
-love muí the protector of my host💕
@@undertheradar9333 sorry I had a typo, meant to say he cheated on her and when she found out that's what he told her. He said he got it because he "gf" from when he was in elementary school died in a plane crash, but then said it was the Malaysia airlines plane that disappeared, but that happened wayyy after his mind developed into one.
@@emmaz3505 It sounds like he might be a compulsive liar just based on that wild claim.
Me, at least once a week: "I don't actually have did. That's crazy."
The 40+ voices in my brain: "Here we go again..."
This is a whole mood (based of my experience)
so relatable... only the 40 plus voices in our headspace are more like;
"ARE YOU F***n SERIOUS?" "REALLY, STILL WITH THIS?" "I EXIST DAMN IT!"
I legit argued with a monster sitting in my kitchen about how I'm not faking having schizo symptoms. Monster in my kitchen bullying me, "faker! Liar! Loser!" tryin to tell me I don't see & hear things. My hallucination tried to convince me I don't hallucinate. Yup.
@@nosmartyr Damn. yah that's got to suck :( sorry your hallucination is such a d*** - Mega
bro I relate to this sooo much (especially with the alters that showed first)
“If you were faking, you would know.” We need to hear this more often!!
but what if I am faking it without realising...?
Stacy Owl That’s deep...
@@Zackisnotdead uhhh.... how???
Footidy Moon I have no idea when or why I wrote this tbh XD
This is what I hear, but I’ve been told so much that I am a pathological liar. So even if I was telling the truth, I would believe I was a liar because my family would tell me so. I’m currently going through therapy, and there is so much shit i never have thought about or realized, but when he says it, it makes so much sense and kinda pulls me into reality. God damn I wanna delete this comment, makes me very uncomfortable to say anything like this
When I was showing my mother how I got diagnosed with DID, how the therapist with a PhD came to the conclusion, she completely denied it. We think that if she accepts that I have experienced trauma, she'll have to acknowledge the abuse that my father and her have placed on me. How their own parents abused them has now transfered onto me. How horrifically they raised me lead to such a horrible disorder to live with. Right now I'm working on trying to get a good therapist so I can communicate how I really feel to them.
That must be really hard. I wish you the best of luck and support and hope you're able to heal
I wish you the very best luck in the future. Don't give up! 🖤
I hope she finally understands and accepts you, all of you, for who you are❤️
that unfortunately is very common.. parents straight out denial so they dont have to take any blame 😔✊🏽
I guess your mother also developed some kind of mental block in order to never have to take responsibility for what happened... and I'm so sorry... maybe one day she will find healing and see the truth, but what's important right now is YOU and your healing and I hope you have a great support system and that you can live in an environment that allows you to heal. You can always contact me and lots of people online in certain communities and forums where we are all open to listening as a friend. You are valid. You deserve to be surrounded by those who respect you. You deserve to live. You deserve a beautiful life
she keeps wearing dark makeup and my mind goes directly to jade or ruby. so I am so surprised hearing NIn's voice lol every time! LOL
Same! I was 100% expecting another pep talk from Jade about how systems are valid 😁
I thought it was Jade but Nin is looking good o3o
Yesss
Sameeee
Me too!!! 😁haha
Here after Trisha Paytas's video. Also think the whole DissociaDID system needs an apology from Trisha after she said they looked "crazy"
Who are you asking to apologise? Telling Trisha to? If so then good but I doubt someone like her would - Ash
The Onion System She’s saying that Trisha should apologize to this system after calling them crazy
@@delkas45 ah okay good - Ash
How Ironic is it that this video is ONLY a month old...
She's annoying
me (host): *clicks on this video to see if i'm faking*
dissociadid: thinking you're faking is normal
me: i-
OMG same!
Edit: this is all so new to me so I know exactly how you feel. I actually found this out about the community and disorder about 5 months ago (thank you Anthony) and still think I am faking
I feel so much like I'm faking it because I haven't been diagnosed by a doctor but my alters are just like AYO IM RIGHT HERE HOMIE DO YOU EVEN SEE ME
lmao same, im being so called out by this video and the comments
this is exactly what i did
Yup.
I always feel like I'm faking my depression when I have a good week
Don’t worry, I was diagnosed with depression and even though I don’t sometimes feel like I’m faking, there are a bunch of people with depression who think they are faking, you aren’t alone. Here’s a dog lol 🐶
Same, but my family thought that I was faking it so they had the doctor take me off of it because "it's just a crutch"(I wasn't 18 yet a the time)
And I feel like I'm faking my mania when I'm having a bad one! Ha ha
@DJ Warning sadness is a part of life, but prolonged sadness with no reason behind it, where you stop feeling joy over the things you normally love, that my friend is depression. Some people's brain dont make enought serotonin and/or dopamine. Just as Nin said about DID, it is also true that people with depression shoulnd't have to "prove" their diagnosis to you.
@DJ Warning I've had bipolar for 40 years! I've been to several funerals, including my 21 year old son's. There IS a difference between circumstantial depression and a severe physiological chemical imbalance induced depressive dysphoria. You know neither are connected when you have both been dealt a severe life blows like deaths in the family/friends, and can clearly recognize your bipolar cycle's eb and flow simultaneously. I actually came out of clinical depression during the week of my Son's passing, but certainly was in mourning depression for nearly two years!
"okay so... you started experiencing symptoms after moving out."
yes.
"and you not only relate to systems, but actually fit all the necessary criteria."
yes.
"your "mood swings" are getting worse and more distinct. AND you're hearing voices in your head."
yes.
"so you should consult a therapist!"
no way, I don't even remember my childhood. that means I can't have childhood trauma.
*surprised pikachu face*
Lawrence Elvin you don’t have to remember your trauma
Same, I don’t remember most of my past, I’ve been having lots of memory loss recently, I don’t remember a lot of events that happened last year, that my friends and family ASSURE me I was there. I can’t recall almost anything.
Even worst for my childhood. I don’t remember any traumatic event or something really bad to happen. So I can’t actually have DID. It would be pretty much contradictory. 🤔
@P V I relate to this so much!
I know you don't have to remember your trauma to be affected by it, so it wouldn't be impossible for me to have DID or OSSD. But even if I got the diagnosis I wouldn't be able to believe it.
I don't remember really much bad parts of my childhood, even though I have little to no amnesia between parts (OSDD-1b).
So yeah, you don't have to remember to be dealing with the effects of it.
Like I'm hypersexual and have been since I was a child.
And other stuff.
literally, LITERALLY my train of thought
Brooo, wtf. I’m watching this video in the morning, at school, on the freaking toilet. and our of nowhere nin decides to tell me I’m “Deserving of my own life” now I’m bawling my eyes out, blowing my nose with the toilet paper id originally grabbed for other purposes🤦🏻♂️😂
I felt really weird.... I got a load of sad emotions that I didn't understand...I was looking for my headphones but couldn't move to look for them for a few seconds because my emotions caused anxiety feelings. 😢 Am I just taking information and thinking I have it?
Careful on that TP. That's a valuable commodity right now.
@@battydragon3399 Same. I feel exactly the same. We're meant to watch these videos for a reason.
Just get over yourself! jesus!
@@LateBear Sounds like you got a personal problem there, bud.
Me: watching this thinking I'm faking my DID
Her: If your think your faking it your probably not
Me:.... but what it I'm still faking it
Literally me right now
same bro
So accurate
Mood n same-
SAME
I'm a masters level therapist.
This was very interesting!
We discussed DID some while I was in school, and I was told more of the reasons some people don't think it exists than I was told the criteria and development process.
I haven't encountered any clients with this diagnosis, but I've hopefully got a long career ahead of me, so anything could happen.
Hey Laura B,
Thanks for the reply. It is heartening to hear a mental health professional who is open to learning from the people experiencing this. So many of us could do with boots on the ground learning from experience therapists out there. We are often left to learn about it on our own in places like TH-cam or Reddit through discussion.
Did you truly believe this is real? And as a fellow educated clinician, do you think that there is enough consensus regarding not only the development, diagnostic criteria, and even it's very existence for this untrained person to be telling people this information as if its fact? Telling people it is okay to rely on a self-diagnosis?
@@mmorrow7243 hey. i suffer from did, dissociative identity disorder, also previously known as MPD. what nin is saying is that people is can self diagnose but should be certain to get an diagnosis. i also once self diagnosed, but took a diagnosis when i was 14. i’m now a 17 year old who has been diagnosed with Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID). so i can agree with what nin is saying. and how dare you say “do you really believe this is REAL!?” i’m not sure if it was used in that context but i, the host find that very offensive.- The Nicholson System.
@@mmorrow7243 typical doctor. Always has to act like they know everything and everyone else is a smart as a jar of mayonnaise. People like you are what caused my PTSD, probably because they profited from "treating" it with more of the same.
@@areyousureyouenteredyourna85 This is exactly what I experienced too. One of my triggers of my PTSD is condescending comments from doctors due to repeated usage of having my condition explained to me when they don't understand it themselves
"How do you tell if someone's faking? It's none of your business"
PREACH!
me: maybe this video will finally let me know if I'm faking
nin: syke you are VALID
thank you so much for all the informational and validating content you put out here for us, you've been a massive help to many people including me
Exactly what I was thinking when I started to watch this 😂😂
Alpha Key me tooo!!😂
MOOD
@yvoi your art is so neat
Same.
I'd love for there to be a Netflix show about DID but that is created by someone who has DID so that it is respectful to the system and can also educate the public a bit more.
yea like split was such a shitty movie sending out wrong message
And something made so creatively that it doesn't show common triggers that could hurt us.
Id low-key watch a movie like that without at least harmful triggers or that mentioned when triggers would happen. Like if omega were to start talking about the trauma and they showed it she'd say " before I tell you my story know it has triggering scenes. Please skip to the pink screen if you wish." Kind of thing so that DID systems don't get triggered but so that others can watch how trauma is stored between systems.
have yall seen united states of tara? it wasnt written by someone with did, but its on hulu.
honestly I've been daydreaming about reading webcomic where the inner world and each alter is graphically represented and showing how fronting and conversations between alters work. basically a story about the life of someone with DID. Or maybe one of those transmigration isekais where the MC shows signs of DID so at the end your left wondering "did they actually get reincarnated into this medieval fantasy world or is this a fictive alter where the alter is the one from the modern world?". However I am neither an artist, nor do I have DID so I can't really do this. Just felt like putting the idea there.
My mom says I'm faking with my tourettes even though I've been diagnosed multiple times by different doctors
Babe; sue her
@@noneofyourbusiness273 I'm not old enough
@@tobyl.1703 then report her to the authorities, call the police, something, babe. Don't be afraid, there's something you can do, search on the internet, find help; don't let your toxic mom do this to you.
@@noneofyourbusiness273 ok, thanks for the advice. I hope you have a great life.
toby the bother can’t tell if this is sarcasm or not
It's so important to believe someone and not ask for evidence or proof when they are putting themselves in a vulnerable position. Even if someone is faking it, that in itself is a cry for help. Something must be wrong for someone to make up a disorder. You believing them and being open would probably help, even if they are faking
THIS IS SO TRUE! Thank you so much for saying this.
I came here to say that even if someone is faking a disorder, they probably have a disorder. So treat people kindly. But you said it better.
Assuming they aren't being malignant toward you or others
“Think of how many people you’ve seen with red hair.”
*looks in the mirror*
Oop-
Same
gingers unite
Lyvi Jane 👩🏻🦰
Lyvi Jane big up the gingers👨🏻🦰
👩🏻🦰 Whaddup, gingers
I'm an alter, Beth is, uh.. Very happy and relieved. Shes very comforted with your videos... Thank you so much. These videos have made her feel much better about her mental state and she now knows what to seek help for... We're all grateful to you. Thank you. - Ivy
Hi Beth, Ivy and any other alter you have :>
Hi!!!!!!!!!! ^^
It's been three months, no matter what alter you may be at the moment or time of the day/night, I would like to know how you're doing! ^^ Or if you'd like, if Beth isn't your present alter, how are they doing? :)
@@3starsburningbright I didn't know anything at all about DID before this video so i'm very new to all this. I find all of this very interesting though. I have PDDnos and ADHD and I consider mental health ally, growing up with people in many different conditions but i've never encountered anyone with DID. I really want to educate myself more on this and i'm learning quite a bit from these comments too. I hope everyone is doing well!
@@metalcoremichael1024 :)
Me: oh my god what if I'm faking
My alter to the other alters: *claps his hands sarcastically* did you hear that guys we're faking!
The Host, as I am typing this: actually, I'm pretty sure you're also an alter
Me: Impossible-
Yes! When I learned that I was an alter and not the "host," it was a lot to take in.
I love how you're able to make light of such a situation 💛 you just made my day 😂
Kristy Thomas Yeah someone in our system thought they were the host and kept telling all of the other alters and the host that they were faking
Bruh liar
@@stoned2192 no. leave.
i'm literally on my alter's youtube channel watching this telling myelf im faking it all cuz i didnt know i had alters until i was out of the abusive household. but this video is really comforting. esp since my alters are still in their differtiatiating phase and arent fully ppl yet it feels like such a sham, but (not to repeat myslef) thank you so much
if you don't mind saying, what's your alter's channel?
Mari Griffiths I think it’s the one he used to comment with
@@marigriffiths458 oh, that was the host using my channel, he don't post that much on his channel but i can give you a link to his stuff if you'd like? he's tryna do speedpaint commentary stuff, and i think its rather nice.
@@Tebocra yep
@@Sensory-Spam Yes thank you I'm very interested in checking it out
"Having somebody believe you is so overwhelmingly life changing" really hits the nail on the head Nin. Having our closest friend believe us when we finally worked up the courage to tell them we'd been diagnosed made all the difference in the world because no matter what anyone else thinks or says, we know the most important person to us believes. There is such safety in that. Thanks for the video and per usual the makeup is spot on love. :)
-Emi
That's amazing Emi - Ash
This, so much this.
"Just because you met someone with DID who isn't' diagnosed doesn't mean they're faking."
SAY IT LOUDER FOR THE PEOPLE IN THE BACK!
I am SO tired of people saying I'm faking. - Kyle
For real though. The host keeps doing this and refusing to tell people that we know we can trust and i can't -Jake
I love this comment cause I haven’t been diagnosed but I have alters so im pretty sure I have it. - eel
Oh us too!
Well well, isnt this comment section full of Different systems~
Kaleb.
@@Gabriel-js6lr Love the name☺️
I was always told "if you're questioning it, then you're probably faking" and i think that kinda stuck with me and it's making my doubt and denial worse
Lucid Dream I usual think it’s the opposite lol. People who are faking it would know they are, but if it’s real you’ll probably worry & question because you want to be honest. 👍
If you are losing time, and are unsure, you definitely need some help. It can be dangerous to lose time. Sometimes you can have something and just simply not know, that doesnt mean you're faking.
When she said that other way around in the video, the first thing I thought was when I was questioning my sexuality xD I think it's easier to think on those terms cus it's something so instinctive xD it's like YOU DON'T SIMPLY WONDER HOW TO KISS OTHER GIRLS (if you're a girl) AND GO LIKE NA I'M TOTALLY STRAIGHT.
Also, we should de-stigmatize that it's totally okay to be questioning and finding whatever you are/are not in safe spaces. IT'S OKAY FOLKS either being whatever or not! It's way better than living repressed your whole life! And in the end you get the bonus of getting to know yourself better and be better prepared to deal with the world!
Why did this make me start crying? I'm not gonna go into detail but this just blew my mind and changed my life. Thanks.
Same. I love these videos but I bubble uncontrollably and I'm not really one to do that.
Same
My sister and I both have DID and boy oh boy, we are verryyyy different in how it presents outwardly
I know it is none of my business, but as a psychology enthusiast, could you share a minor example? Just out of curiosity
Yeah, I know it is personal thing but can you say what differences you have for example? ☺️ I am just curious,
And also I hope that you and your sister are doing great now
i hope all of you are doing great now :)
Interested in reply if she is comfortable telling people
Never heard of siblings having the same disorder before. It makes sense that siblings who have experienced the same traumas would both develop the same disorder. I never understood why it doesn't always work that way. I kind of assume that because everyone is different even if they're raised the same way what might have been traumatic to one sibling may not have been to the other. I can't even imagine how horrible things must of been for you that both you and your sister developed the same trauma disorder.
Me: I’m faking this, whats going on
My alter Sebastian: alright honey
Skylark: *slowly claps*
The littles: faking what?
Awwwww
Good thing the Littles aren't offended
Skylark is such a cool name!
@Tweed Penguin Wdym lol
Hands up who would protect the DissociaDID system with their lives, cause i would, and so would at least 90% of our system.
I would die for them
@@Mirkwood_Forest s a m e
My caretaker is their caretaker
@@Mirkwood_Forest YES
I would die for them... I dot have DID( i don't think I haven't been diagnosed but I've doing research) but I feel like just cuz of their videos I feel like they are family❤
It's great seeing Nin getting more comfortable talking on the channel, and talking about such sn important issue!
“ That is the same percentage as people who have red hair”
How ironic would it be if DissociaDID was a redhead
Right here.
Red haired system here aha -Phoenix
Red-head systems sound off lol
-Nic
✋🏻
it wouldn’t be ironic, but it would be a funny coincidence.
I live in Ireland so like 10% of the population had red hair so hearing that that statistic is the same as DID always makes me go "Uhh that's worrying... oh wait I'm Irish"
it's the opposite to me, never ever seen a red hair in real life :v
i live in a pre-dominantly asian country, so when she said "think of how many redheads uve seen" i said 0 and she goes "that's exactly how many people have DID"
i had to pause the video for a good 2 minutes to think about what ive done
I'm Irish and a red head so I guess ima hit the jack pot 🤣
@@silverstar1251 That had to make your brain hurt for a second 🤣💀
I always had a hard time believing that DID is a real thing, because of the portraial in movies or creepypastas. So excuse me for being suspicious at first. Over the last three days I watched alot of your videos and I have to say, that you really opened my eyes. Please keep on making videos, you guys are aweseome.
Basically never trust movie portrayals of any condition 99% of time
@@ecologist_to_be exactly - Ash
Yeah same thing with me, I didn't "truly" believe it at first but now it's one of my favorite topics to learn about, because it is so complex and shows a lot about how our brain works and keeps us safe!
Ink Isolation I had the same experience! It seems like such a wild and complex disorder that’s it’s nearly unbelievable but now I love learning about DID & other psychology things!
@@notfunny1410 A LOT of DIAGNOSED people with DID also refer to themselves as a system. System is a valid term to describe ALL of the personalities/parts of someone with DID. I don't know what other term you wanna use? Same thing goes with "we" when talking about more than one alter. I don't really understand the problem? And diagnosing often takes a very long time.
When you talked about how if you were faking you would know you were faking, I seriously started crying. Thank you so much for making this video.
I'm starting to see nin's personality coming out and having fun with new clothes and makeup, and it's super refreshing. I'm proud of you! I'm glad you're starting to become more comfortable being yourself and expressing that through your style. 💛
The makeup really makes her eyes look amazing.
“If you were faking, you wouldn’t be feeling like that” wow, I felt that on an emotional level, as someone who lives with invisible illnesses
Someone needs to send this to Trisha.
Amber THW She would probably feel validated and use it to further justify her videos and stories... Sayin "I told you. None of ya'lls business telling me if I have a disorder or not." Which technically is true, but still doesn't erase the harm that's been done by her misinformed videos. 🙈 Used to love trolls... Now I feel she is trolling too far. 🙄 Ugh...
Amber THW she probably watched this video already and is using it as her validation 🤷🏽♀️
I think if Non can be an adult about this we can too
“Think about how many people you’ve seen with red hair”
Me: *forgets everyone I’ve ever seen with red hair*
As a BPD I had the “i am faking” this feeling “as well as other factors” kept me in a dangerous unaware state for over a decade. The cross overs are amazing.
BPD here and same
As someone who thought they had BPD after being medicated for something different, I stabilized. Haven’t brought it up to a doctor tho
Also I told a friend I thought I had BPD later said they were diagnosed earlier on and never mentioned it, kinda fishy do I bring it up?
Borderline personality or bipolar? Sorry if that’s stupid
Sam Fielder borderline
No! It’s not some competition. Just cause you have BPD doesn’t mean they can’t be living with it.
"You're valid as you're, don't let anybody tell you otherwise, not even yourself."
My protector is clapping as she hears it 'cause I was in a roller coaster of self doubt. Thank you. Our system loves you all.
The fact it takes, on average, at least 7 years of *already* being in the mental health system for those wit h DID or OSDD to get an actual diagnosis is a real and quite tragic situation. DID is definitely a stigmatised disorder and many who work in the field of mental health don't know how to recognise or treat it. Thank you so much for providing education and information about DID.
Error...many don't believe it exists?
I saw the thumbnail and just thought "looks like Jade started the day"
funny enough this video was recommended to me after watching newest Trisha Paytas video
oh god what'd she do now
TK she did a “meet my alters” video saying she has DID because she self diagnosed herself :))))))))))
This happened to me as well..🙄 smh I hope she goes to a therapist and gets help
Now she’s saying DissociaDID is “bullying” her 🙃🙄
We need a face palm emoji istg
I could honestly listen to Nin all day. She has such a calming voice, and she keeps me interested in what she’s saying. I love this channel.
yea, like i watch their videos all night and don’t even realize it’s already 1 am.
"If you were faking, you would know"
That brought tears into my eyes.
I May not have DID but I was mentaly abused in childhood and I was never allowed to cry, so I was told that I've to be "strong". Nowadays I'm a veeeerry moody person, I can be happy a second later hurt than laughing like a child or a crazy person and at least be really really mean without wanting to be so I try to not say the mean Things. It's verry exhausting, when I have the mood swings. I may have a disease but for now I'm not ready to go to a therapist so...
I'm so glad I found this Channel and I wish all a lots of love!❤️❤️❤️
This is so similar to how I feel
I relate to a lot of this and I'm diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder.
Delete Child I had a appointment about bpd today and I told my friend and her little brother said is that the Kpop group🤦🏻♀️
Sorry if you took it the wrong way I said it because I thought it was funny
Hi im very sorry for your struggles :( i can relate to it though. Watching this channel and reading the comments really helps me to try to validate my right to show my emotions and take care of them. I also was not allowed to cry in my home and since i moved out im feeling very weird, im confused all the time and i dont know how to act because all the coping mechanisms i had at home dont serve me outside of it but i cant get rid of them even when theyre destructive to me. I become lonely very quickly too but its hard for me to connect and open up before others, its hard for me to cry in front of ppl and show any signs of struggle actually, it comes with a lot of shame and self doubt. I sometimes forget i just had a rough start in childhood and beat myself up for being „problematic”. Idk what to do sometimes, u cant expect all ur friends to always be attentive to u and therapy is expensive, i can afford going only very rarely. Im trying to figure this all out. Its good to have at least this channel in reach
Oh my gosh. Why so the same to me? The effect and the reason why i am like this now is the same as you. 😱
It’s interesting to see other systems here in the comments. I’m glad this one is helping others be more open and comfortable with who they are
Dear DissociaDID,
Hi, we are the Cherokee system (host Ori and alters Carsyn, Annabeth and Kaleb). We stumbled upon your channel through Anthony Padilla's video and are so glad we did. Keep being amazing. We love you all.
A dear friend of mine got diagnosed pretty late. She is actually the only one of triplets who got diagnosed with DID. Although they all had to experience the same awfull things each one of the three coped differently with the trauma.
She is now in her late 50s and back when the first symptoms could be seen from the outside, no one knew anything about DID, which made it pretty difficult to get her help or to understand what's actually happening at all.
We don't talk about it a lot as I don't want to trigger her in any way. The only thing I know is her having barely any amnesia anymore. But it took her a very long time to get to that point of "healing", if you could call it like that.
She's a very sweet, loving and wise person and I'm more than happy to have her as a friend.
Thank you for sharing! I’m sorry she had to go through trauma and am sure she’s a lovely person!
This should be on the top
I feel like thinking "This could never happen to me/ I can't have this disorder." comes part and parcel with dissociative trauma disorders because the brain is trying shield you from the memories of the trauma. Thank you for bringing up the bit about alters becoming more "vocal" once you are in a safe place -- I am in the process of trying to figure out whether or not I has OSDD and did not become aware of my other parts until I was finally in a place were I no longer had to constantly look over my shoulder, where I could finally fully relax. I think that is why some of them have started to act out the way they have because their former duties and world view have been thrown into disarray now that we are in a safe place for once in our lives. Your videos have always been such a great help.
What does OSDD stand for? If you dont mind me asking.
@Radadada Bladada “Other Specified Dissociative Disorder” - it’s basically the catch-all term for dissociative conditions that don’t fully match the diagnostic criteria for DID. For example, OSDD type 1b is very similar to DID but there’s either no or not much amnesia between the alters and type 1a is also very similar to DID but the alters aren’t as distinct as in a DID system (might be older or younger versions of the host rather than being fully separate people), whereas OSDD type 4 doesn’t have as much to do with the creation of alters but has a whole lot to do with dissociation and amnesia. Usually when people talk about OSDD though (especially in system communities) they’re just referring to type 1
omg cant wait to feel safe
Bella Constantinos this was felt- I mean I feel safe but not safe enough to relax
My ex: I have multiple personality disorder
Me: uhhh wrong terminology but I support you
My ex: my alternate personality is Satan and I want to sexually harass and insult you for correcting my grammar
Me: *well this is not ideal*
Krab Shanty this situation is almost exactly what happened to me except I don’t count him as an ex because he forced me into the relationship and I am a lesbian
Yucky that sounds awful, I am sorry
I’ve felt that before.
-Roger
I'm gunna say something controversial here. Just because they have a mental disorder does mor mean you have to stay with them or accept their behaviour. Yes, Be sympathetic. Yes, be compassionate but never sacrifice your safety for the happiness of someone else
@Lilymoon I didn't got in a "life threatening" situation but my ex, at some point, started to talk about her... alter (we didn't even know at the time any terminology, you tube was in =3 times) it was only one, I believe there was never any amnesia barriers. I tried to "match up" and convinced myself I had an alter too. Again, there were no amnesia barriers, and this was around 15/16yo. A few months before our 3 y relationship totally collapsed she admitted "we and our alters were the same". That's not how I've felt ever. My alter was so different from me. This still gives me chills and it's why I've been looking so much to learn about DID. The first time I found Multiplicity and me I totally had an anxiety attack specially meeting Ed. Recently I watched the documentary about Gypsy Rose Blanchard and I totally had an anxiety attack when she mentions her previous relationship which involves a system she dated and the personas she created to fit with that system...
Sorry for the long text, I guess this felt like a safe space but what I meant was - she totally manipulated me to get from me what she wanted - personality traits I didn't have and I couldn't give her. I was manipulated that entire time, I cried so much..
People asking me things like: are you sure this is real? (Don't have DID btw) Are you just faking it?
My Brain: You know you are. You're just upset.
In Reality and what Nin says: your feelings are real. They suck, but they're real.
"If you were faking, then you'd know you were faking.'
That was hugely validating, thanks Nin!!
Loving that goth look today ❤️
Heck yea
Same!! Why can she pull off every look?? Like soft fairy and then goth and then natural makeup 😌😌😌😌
I wonder if Jade picked the outfit/makeup, it’s a very Jade-esque look
Fluffy Quartz definitely! Jade or ruby :) their styles are so unique and beautiful!
The beginning of this hit me so hard oh my gosh! I have severe anxiety and depression to the point of I had to get a service dog but I CONSTANTLY second guess myself of "What if I am just faking?"
thank you so much for the valid bit
@@letterborneVods his name is Slytherin (Sly)! If you wanted his Instagram I would be happy to send it 😊
@@letterborneVods @slytherin.service.adventures
Can I ask how a service dog helps with anxiety/depression?
@@kt5229 yes! So I have so much anxiety that I cannot even leave my house usually. My anxiety makes me physically ill to the point of being bedridden, I can't go out for more than a few hours without nearly passing out from exhaustion (anxiety drains me heavily), and more. My dog helps me by alerting to symptoms of my anxiety that I do not notice so that I can change the behaviors. If I don't change my behaviors it often leads to an anxiety attack. He also does something called "block" where he basically blocks either the front of me, one of the sides, or the back of me. This is so that I have space in between me and everyone else wherever I go. Another thing is "exit" or "find (caretaker or friend)". If I am panicking I cannot think so I say this if I need him to guide me someone. Exit is taking me to the door of the building or the bathroom and find is where he finds whoever we were with so that I can get human help.
Feel free to message me via Instagram if you're more curious 😊
I just found out in January of 2019 that i have DID i had all these litttle clues and messages from my alters and i had tried to tell my mom when i was 13 i was like uuuhhmm mom so like theres other people in my brain and she was like....naaahh and i just said "okay" and I didnt comment on it anymore
Hahahahaha she still doesnt know OOP your videos have become a safe place for me. As well as my best friend. You and him are my safe places
I have DID as well and ive told my closest friends because my mom shut me down when i told her. She said "people who dissociate, dont know it"
Thats not what i wanted to hear, but I never got support from her again. After finding AlexMax Han and DissociaDID and TeamPiñata, I felt heard and safe and understood
@@NuggetsAdventures524 i get that. My family is one of those families where if uts bot adressed right when it happens, then clearly it didnt happen. I never told my mom about my trauma when i was 6-12 and then a seperate trauma when i was 12. She is the only person other than my best friend who believed me.
It's really crappy when the people who think you can trust doubt your condition or your word
@@harleyvick1822 my mom knew a sliver of mine from when I was 3-6, but not the whole story. At this point I'm just waiting to move out so we can be ourselves
@@NuggetsAdventures524 i hope you can move out into a nice place and be yourselves😌😌 it's really great when you can switch out naturally and feel safe
@@harleyvick1822 thank you friend! I hope that whatever goal you have for this year, ends up to be the best thing ever
Really needed this, thanks. I've suffered through weird amnesia all throughout my life, and thought it was strange when my mom noted my different "mood states".... that seem a little more complex than a simple "mood" when it brings on entirely different speech patterns and outlooks on life. This is a very serious thing, and worry if its something *else*, or if I'm just hyper focusing on something to explain something weird already happening to me. I'm not sure what could have caused this. Maybe I'm not suppossed to know. I'm learning a lot, this is all very new and scary to me, but your channel has been really helpful to me this week in realizing my own experiences and how they may differ. Thanks for this video, it was very reassuring.
Congrats on getting your old videos back!
Omg make up and general look is GORGEOUS!!!
You really suit dark colours.
Thank you for another great video. Great message.
My girlfriend has an alter (I don't know if it's right to say she has double personality or if it's right to say DID),when she told me about her we were been together for 1 month and she was concerned that I wouldn't believe her because she's not diagnosed yet or I would live her alone or I would be scared of her.She was very surprised when I said that it wasn't a problem for me and that I wanted to know her alter (and spoiler we are friends now).I wouldn't change both of them for anyone else.I want also to thank you because with your videos you helped me to know better the alters world and points of view. Thank you and hugs from Italy🇮🇹😘🖐
@gaming kiddo thank you so much,you're so kind😊
@@kaiyodei I was an activity leader for children from 5 to 10 years when I was 16 and I think if she'll get a little It will be so fun 'cause I know tons of fun games and I love taking care of people (in fact yesterday she told me that when we will have children I will be a wonderful mom and my poor heart was melting😍)
Now that we've been togheter for almost 7 months I can say that I have a wonderful girlfriend and a wonderful alter big sis (sometimes when we joke I call her alter like this cause she's strict and protective with me like a big sister and she's older than us)🤣👌
Eclipse 2.0 it’s so wonderful to know that there are such accepting people out there
So I was diagnosed like 3 months ago and I'm still struggling with accepting it. This really helped me. I feel really valid. Thank you for this video. ❤️
Cate Parkin sending love to your system from Missouri ❤️❤️❤️
What is it like when you're not in control? Do you see what's going on and just feel powerless?
@@heliocentric6048 yeah kinda. Depends on the situation. A lot of times it's like watching someone else's life. Or watching your body do stuff but you don't really have control. Or you think you have control and then you suddenly do something out of character and you're like...wait what ....who am I?? Kinda scary. But therapy has helped a lot. Thankfully, the memory loss isn't as bad as some others so I'm blessed in that regard.
The question isn’t “what if they’re faking” the real question is “what if they’re telling the truth”
Why not both? I do that because I know I tend to tunnel dive when I come up with one idea
"How do you tell if someone's faking? It's none of your business"
Unless it's Trisha Paytas
Have you even seen her video? Not once does she say Trisha is faking 🙄
@@jennyralgrievous6192 He's not saying that, he's just commenting that in HIS opinion, DDID's quote applies to everyone except Trisha, because it's pretty dang obvious that Trisha is faking.
Dead
AhahahahahHHha AHHHAHAAA
Both are faking it.
"If you were faking, you wouldn't be worrying about that"
My self-hating ass: :0
I'm speechless that was powerfull
WHY ARE YOU SO KIND AND WISE😭😭😭😭😭 IT TOUCHES MY HEART GOD😭
"So what if they are faking, it will come to light."
"But what if they're not."
I had a fenceline position on this leaning toward skepticism. Because there are people with sincere and genuine disorders that are placed in a bad light or a stigma as a result of 'Faking'. But I'm convinced by your point. You've changed my mind. It's better to live and let live. The damage that occurs as a result of skepticism may very well outweigh the damage done by faking a disorder. I agree with that.
If they are faking, who cares. Let them live their life. I guess I don't think it's a good investment of time and energy. Is it really THAT big a deal to me? No, not for me personally. It's not a big deal, especially when I have more pressing matters like bills, my career, a family.
Thanks, Nin
P.S. This is meant for the masses. But, If you (Chloe) ever find yourself reading this. Tell Nadia I said "Hey, Girl! 😘"
People sometimes try to invalidate things because they "only" affect a small percent of the population.
There are 7 billion people on the planet. 1% of 7 billion is 70 million. DID affects _only_ 70 _million_ people
Lexi N wait omg
And that’s the low end. The higher estimates put it as 2% or 3%. As a result, it affects from _70-210 million people._
That’s not even counting the other, related disorders like Unspecified Dissociative Disorder or OSDD1, both of which function extremely similarly
I’m going to come back to this and add that if the higher end is true than DID affects roughly the population of Brazil, and if it’s the lower end it affects more people than everyone in the UK. This isn’t a small side thing to be taken lightly, this is as common as living in the United Kingdom of Great Britain and Northern Ireland.
"Only"
There's probably soooo many more too that just never got diagnosed or misdiognosed. People really can't just be supportive lolol.
@@Leoji0325 A similar percentage of the population is asexual, but some people suspect that it's higher than one percent and a lot of people just don't identity that way because they don't know they can. It absolutely could be the same way for DID, especially considering how many people don't even believe it exists
I just need to get this off my chest. I'm very confused about whether or not I have/had DID. Several years ago I was convinced I had DID, even my therapist believed me. I had some communication with my alters and they felt so real to me. I remember having panic attacks and then being pulled away to a safe place while someone else took over. Sometimes I would know what was happening while I was gone and sometimes I wouldn't.
What makes me question everything is the fact that they all went away. I was with a guy at the time who was somewhat abusive and when he saw me switching he would grab me and beg me not to leave him. After a little while of this I couldn't switch anymore, I couldn't hear them, I couldn't communicate with them at all. They were just gone, and I never heard from them again.
So now I wonder if it was ever real at all. If they were real then how could they just disappear? If anyone has any thoughts on this I'd love to know.
Thank you.
As you said, the guy was abusive. If your brain began to associate you switch with you getting hurt instead of you being safe it would suppress the other personalities to keep you safe.
@@luxtobeyou Thanks for the insight. That makes sense.
Maybe you have a dissociative disorder?
They will come back once you get out of the abusive situation. He noticed your switches, so your system had to get better at hiding it. You are vaild. You're alters can't just disappear, they usually just go dormant or in the inner world or dreaming. We connect with our alters especially when we dream. Stay safe. We hope you are in a safer place with your alters.
@@samjen3654 Thank you, I really appreciate that. I've been out of that relationship for a year now, but they haven't come back. Ever since I got out of that relationship my life has been a lot less stressful and my PTSD has also improved. I used to get frequent flashbacks, but now I rarely get them. I guess it's possible that they haven't come back yet because they feel like I don't need them right now.
Who else is watching this in 2020 during COVID cuz they miss her and they are bored 😭
I discovered her after she had already stopped making videos and it was very sad getting closer and closer to the end
@ how is she faking did? she had an issue months ago that affected her deeply that it created a new alter. please stop jumping into conclusions. we all said she can take a break from the social media as long as she can.
im just here to make sure im not going crazy and trying to stay educated
she's back
@@ArtiMishra-rd1cp I know I'm very happy about it
When I was mid teens I had something happen and for years after I felt as if someone else was in control at times where I felt scared and I couldn't move my body just watch as I'd do things say things that were not me I never really found out what was wrong I have autism I've always thought something was related to that i also hallucinate and have drastic mood swings
Watching you is inspiring how yove done so well moving on from your past it gives me hope that one day I wont be scared to go outside or to go to the shop etc x
mara 333 I feel this way too. I don’t have autism but I did have traumatic things happen to me during my teens and it would be like I’m there but I can’t control whose speaking and making actions. For months now I’ve wondered if I’m faking but it just feels so real. Do you ever feel like it’s half of you there and half of someone else? Like someone is there but it feels like you can easier come back if you push hard enough. As stated DID only comes from childhood trauma so I’m wondering what’s wrong with me as I’ve caused alot of trouble in the past from it. Sorry for this ramble but your story really resembles mine and it feels good to hear in not alone.
@@itsaki7195 well there are other types of things like that. For example, I don't know anything about Bipolar disorder, but I see it highly mentioned in these comments along side DID so I assume they are connected in some way. And feeling like half and half would make sense since Bi means two...
Once again, I don't know anything about BPD, I'm just going off observations
Silver mitten Seems like Depersonalization which is a form of Dissociation, could be symptom of other conditions.
Dissociative Disorder does not involve alters but you feel kond of out of your body watching yourself go through the motions etc. but feels very weird. Can be a symptom of anxiety. I experience Depersonalization when under stress and anxiety getting too strong.
This comment made something click in my head which made us realize we’ve been *us* for much longer than we thought. Now it makes more sense for all of us. Thank you.
-Bantahat, caretaker of my DDNOS-1b system.
“Of course you’re deserving of your own life. Yes, you are” okay now i’m crying-
The last few days i was in a downward spiral of thinking i was faking this whole thing. Thank you for releasing this video. it helped me a lot.
Just recently discovered your channel thanks to youtube, and I've been binge-watching every video you've made so far. Watching you made me realize a lot of important things, and I wanted to thank you all for that - not specifically speaking about This one video in particular, but all of them, I'm writing this comment here because it's the newest one.
I am not part of a system, but I had a long-term relationship with a girl I loved deeply, who was. She never told me, and I don't think she ever realized it herself, due to lack of information / studies on the topic back then. We were together for 4 years back in 2010 to 2014, and she was my everything. I always had a suspicion of her being part of a system, but my knowledge on the subject was Really limited. As I said, I still have no idea if she's aware of her having DID to this day, or is it something she pushed away from herself. We were in a close relationship, and she did tell me about another person in her mind, in fact, I've met that other person quite a few time. They were a prosecutor, and they gave us quite some scary times - whiches were, in fact, especially after watching your videos, somewhat understandable, if I may say so, but it doesn't make them less scarier. I never knew their gender, as my girlfriend referred to them as "ő" (our native language doesn't have any gender pronouns. We use "ő" for all genders, because we don't have anything similar to "she/he/they".) But now I'm sure there were many other people in their system, and I met a lot of them, but I never knew.
Watching your switches made me realize a lot of things I never knew about. I never knew how many times I've seen switches in person. Now I know the reason why she was dissociating a lot, why she fainted in my arms during triggering times. Of course, I knew about her traumas, because we trusted eachother. But I was unable to do much about them. We were teenagers at the time. And I blame myself for this to this day, ever since I met her. Watching your videos helped me understand a lot of things from the past I had no idea about. I wish I knew better back then... There were times I could've handled much better. I could've been a better girlfriend. I could've given her much more safety. I should've researched more. I should've done more. And this guilt is something I don't know how to handle. Yesterday I told her how much she means to me to this day, since we did not break up on bad terms, she's still one of my most treasured friends. And I told her I'm sorry there were a lot of times in our lives that I could've handled better. She told me not to worry about them, and that she loves me as her closest friends to this day as well.
She's at a good place in her life now. But I still don't think she ever came to the realization that she has DID. I'm sure I'm not the person to bring it up all of a sudden, and I'm not planning on doing so. I just want the best for her, but at the same time I can't help but keep wondering about all of this.
Thank you for reading this comment.
And thank you DissociaDID system for being so brave and creating this channel to help people understand DID more.
(I meant persecutor though, not prosecutor, but autocorrect got me good. Oh well, can't help it now. :'D)
I've been terrified to tell people I might have DID because I don't have a diagnosis and everyone thinks that if I'm not diagnosed, I'm faking it.
Hearing you say that I'm valid even if I'm self-diagnosed literally brought me to tears. Thank you so much.
When you actually mentioned how some can find out in their teen years due to moving away from trauma. Thank you, so so much. How young I was when I realized always has been a source of feeling I'm faking it. In my case it was because I moved, I started realizing stuff about a year after as, even though I'm the 'core' I was not comfortable being out, I didn't trust the fact that I was in a stable place that wouldn't be taken so Cal was out most the time. Until recently he and I split the part of host almost 50 50, Ive now taken up that role and it feels so weird, I feel like I never see him compared to how it was, and I'm seeing others more, and others less.
Yoooo, you also have a Cal! Our Cal says hi :D
@@SoLongSpaceCat so many systems online seem to have one and I'm like 😅 hi all
I love you guys so much. I know someone that has DID and he was scared that I wouldn't understand, he was scared that I would break up with him, etc... But weirdly enough about 1 month before meeting him I became obsessed with your channel and it has helped me so much and in so many occasions. Without this channel when he would have told me that I wouldn't have even known what it was let alone be able to let him know he was valid and that I would stand next to him. So all I wanted to say is thank you
Nin and dissociadid... I want to thank you guys so much, my fiancee has recently discovered he had some form of DID and if it wasnt for your educational content, I would have no idea what to do or how to handle it.... your videos changed my life, and my partner systems, for the better x
@@kaiyodei we've all spoken in depth about this possible problem. So far it's okay, but being honest and having open conversations about it isn't off the table. I would never want anyone to feel trapped like that.
I'm just realizing, if I had the inherent ability to dissociate from birth as you mentioned, I might've ended up with DID instead of cptsd. My life would've been very different and I find that so interesting. I fit the other 2 criteria, as my repeated trauma started at least at the age of 4, I don't remember anything from before that. So it's possible it started before even that.
I really appreciate your channel, even as a person without DID. I love and appreciate people who educate others, even at the risk of facing backlash because there are so many people out there that don't want to learn or understand and will just hate.
We’re mostly afraid of getting all the tests done and told that we are faking or it’s not DID and we are crazy....
Well, what is "crazy?" Is it a psychotic break? Is it schizophrenia? Generally the term "crazy" only refers to someone who behaves or experiences things that aren't deemed normal. If it isn't DID, it's just a different diagnosis. If you have testing available, it might be in your best interest to utilize it. You already have questions about yourself, so getting some answers would be beneficial, even if they aren't necessarily the exact answers you're looking for. I wish you (all) the best of luck :)
I love Nin, she’s so eloquent and intelligent. I learned so much from this and I studied Psych at uni...
Thank you for this. I needed it. I cried myself to sleep lastnight in another bought of self-doubt despite logic that says I'm likely a system.
I hope that everything is okay!!💜 stay strong!
Thank you ❤️. I’m sure I will be ok. I am blessed with being surrounded by supportive people. I’ve also found some good system friends online who assured me that doubt is normal.
As soon as my symptoms go away, I immediately start wondering if I made them up regardless of logic, and I’m just frustrating myself.
you are valid
@@Butterflysin yeah, I don't have DID, but I do have autism and an anxiety disorder. I deal with doubt too, I get so scared when my symptoms go because I get scared I'm faking. but I understand, and I'm so glad you have supportive people around you!!💜💜 I hope you're okay~~💜
Thank you for your kindness ❤️❤️
This channel is so good at explaining everything scientifically, it's just too good. You all know so much and explain things so well.
Hey dissociaDID I would love to see anthony padilla interview u guys since he wants to interview ppl who have DID and talk about it 😁
@@hnktbt Its on his yt community tab he posted it two days ago
@@hnktbt I think he has people he asked for questions not people
it would be amazing! I think it would have to be over video call because I don't think the dissociaDID system lives in California and Nin had ME
Omg yes what a great idea!!
Yees i would love to see that rtoo
I have ASD but someone accused me of pretending to have DID because of how I choose to handle and process emotions. Even before my diagnosis, I found the film Inside Out really useful and characterised my different struggles and visualising having a conversation with that character really helped me to process different things. I was talking to someone about this and they lost it at me, saying things like, "oh so you're just pretending to have that dissociative whatever it was called disorder then" and "you're clearly insane". I do have what I internally refer to as autopilot mode which is what I go into when I dissociate from myself if trauma related incident are brought up but I just tend to be found blankly repeating the same action or following my routine without any thought. Not sure how common this is but the characters created are more aspects of myself or who I'd like to be rather than alters.
Syzygy I have exactly this. I always thought I was insane. Thanks for sharing your story
I've heard this aspects-of-you version referred to as being median as opposed to singlet and multiple.
I do that too. But my thing is that I have a sitcom like room in my head were 4 characters of my favorite series sit and they comment and help me. Most of the times they're just chaotic idiots making me laugh, but that's good too
I love how you made this a month ago and now trish... its as if one of your alters can see into the future
This is very good information.
After listening to this entire video , I have complete respect for you as you demonstrate respect and values and emotional maturity.
So much honor for you ❤
I’m 62 and was diagnosed when I was 30. I’m just now fully accepting and knowing I have this condition yet I can still at times dissociate from the DID. It’s far and few in between and the denial doesn’t last near as long anymore.
But the denial for me was extremely dangerous and almost made me lose my sanity way more than the condition itself.
It’s been a long hard road for me but I’m so grateful to be where I am today with it all. ❤
Good luck on your journey! I wish you and your system the best.
@@jewels3400 thank you so very much 💖
It's interesting to me that you mention comfort in one's environment as having an impact on switches. Every fast switch I can recall seeing you have, you've been in the presence of people you're very comfortable around. Pinata, your friend Anna, the other systems at the sleepover at M&M's house, etc.
I actually started crying at the end when you said how people would KNOW if they were faking and wouldn't just wonder if they were. I and so many members of my system wonder if we're fake. *We'll sit in headspace and wonder if we're faking.*
Thoughts of “But my childhood wasn't THAT bad” or “What if they're just hallucinations?” keep me up at night.
Thank you for making this video. Thank you for believing me. Thank you for putting yourself out into the scary world we live in dispite the h*te you'll receive. This channel really is making a difference. And it really has changed my world.
Since I know how well monitored your comment section is, take care and drink some water. You are all so special and amazing. Keep being wonderful.
-Jay, longest know alter and ex-host of the Universe Rescue Squad
@gaming kiddo awwww. Thank you!!
Yeah, I came here to learn how to tell when someone's faking having D.I.D
But I got so much good info just on what D.I.D is and it's made me learn new things not just about this disorder but other disorders as well.
And then when nin got to the part where she said how to find out if someone's faking it, it's really none of your business, I felt so good about and it made me realize that other people saying they have a disorder and whether I think they're a liar or not should never matter. Thank you so much nin
How to tell someone is faking? Just watch Trisha
I cannot stand Trisha! Shes pathetic.
Larissa Pasieta PLS I can’t stand her either omg
@@larissapasieta6816 who’s Trisha ?
@@debbieklose8776 she's a person who often creates petty drama on the internet. I would not look her up or engage with her content in any way. She has spread bile throughout many communities.
@@jewels3400 that’s definitely unfortunate.
I’ve not looked her up. I actually completely forgot I had asked.
Such a chaotic life with so many Ins and outs of trying to manage day to day . 🙃