As always, this video was extremely educational, informational, and entertaining, as well as extremely bittersweet. I have been following the system for quite some time now, and would just like to give a warm welcome to post-integration Chloe. I am so proud of all the progress you are making and so impressed as well as grateful by your openness during this journey. Countless members of this community (including myself!) are very excited to meet you, and we send you all enormous amounts of love and warmth. 💖
Hey, I haven't watched the video yet but where did Chloe mention she has integrated. If its in this video I'll get to it, if not where can I see that bit please? Also who did chloe integrate with?
@@letitrain7530 lol... I feel ya! (thankfully I didn't think anyone was living in the walls, that would definately be freaky... It's freaky enough at first to start getting messages from others of me, haha... Thankfully we are mostly used to each other and communication together, usually anyways, but we are poly fragmented and there's regularly new parts will come into awareness... It's hardest to leave memos to help the youngest ones who can't read and don't know they are adult or anything else... And yeah, sorry, we was started rambling but hi hi hi me hop u hav a happy day!
I actually thought my dissociation was some kind of supernatural experience because I would be paralyzed and hallucinate. I could just be in the middle of a board game or doing something and it happen. It's been happening since I was very young the hallucinations are less now I am older but yeah until I actually knew what it was I thought I was haunted or something. I was about 2 or 3 when it started so yeah had no idea what it was and didn't really talk about it so people didn't know. Until it got really out of control and now I hallucinate very rarely but my episodes last a long time so people notice.
There's a photo of a lipstick message Nadia left when they were back in university on DissociaDID's Instagram - lovely message, because Nadia is an actual ray of sunshine, but also terrifying because *lipstick mirror writing*
It's so weird hearing and seeing pre-integration Chloe talk knowing what happened. Can imagine it's even more bittersweet for all of you. Very glad Chloe post-integration is still dedicated to this channel and educating us. I'm sure she's absolutely lovely and will continue the channel wonderfully, can't wait to meet her! Love you lots 💛
@@georgia8865 integration is when two alters sort of merge into one, that's the easiest explanation. They made a video on it on their channel that explains it further. So pre-integration is before that merge happened, and post-integration is after the integration happened.
@@georgia8865 sometimes two alters of a system integrate and become one. That's what happened with Chloe and Nina, if I remember correctly. They integrated and became one alter, which is a different person with characteristics of both alters, that still calls herself Chloe.
I don't have DID nor OSDD but I've been watching you for a while now and I've learnt so much. I now feel much more comfortable with the possibility of one day having someone with DID or OSDD in my life and more confident that I will be able to support them. You also make me feel accepted with my own disorder (OCD) despite it not being what you talk about. Thank you to all of you!
I have none of these things, this is just really educational. I feel weird commenting on videos, as if im invading someone elses life, and because i can’t relate to the som of the things 😅
When she mentioned the lipstick on mirrors making her think of horror movies all I could think of was a note on a mirror like "clean your room damnit!" or "do your homework" and I couldn't stop laughing
@@debopriya14 I think she means Nin. In the begging when they first integrated Nin wanted to still be called Chloe, but she changed her mind. I might be getting this wrong though.
I found out my friend is part of a system a few weeks ago. A couple of days after I found out I invited them over to my place because I was like, "Hmm, okay, I know a bunch about this stuff and I know that communication is helpful. I'm gonna try to help them with that." The host didn't remember the names of any of the other alters until after they told me and I talked to their primary protector to relay information back to them. When they were at my house, I gave them a notebook that only had like one or two pages filled in it so I just ripped those out and we got to work. We made a 'profiles' section where each alter would fill out important information like their name, age, gender/pronouns, positive triggers, etc. We also made a 'log' section where they could put the date and any important stuff like 'this person fronted for the first time in a while' or 'new location in the inner world.' Then there was the communications tab where people would just write what they wanted, sorta like a diary. That's the part they've used most- the other parts I had to convince them to use. They then made a creativity tab on their own where alters could just draw or write or do stuff like that. Also here, have just personal thoughts from me. Might be kinda sad. Idk yet. I hope I'm doing the right thing by trying to help. Another one of their friends knows and just ignores it. I'm scared they'll think the only reason I'm talking to them so much now is because I know they're a system. They opened up to me a lot on that day and it just made me intrigued and I just wanted to spend more time with them and get to know them even better. Not to mention that I find them hilarious and entertaining and just fun to be around. I just don't want them to hate me. I want to help them. Sometimes I'm scared that I'm accidentally glorifying mental illness by wanting to be friends with those who have them. I usually don't know this before I want to be their friend. It's a coincidence. I just worry a lot. I also know how much it sucks to have your brain not be... normal? I have ADHD, anxiety, and depression. Doesn't sound like much to most people. The combination of the three makes your brain feel like it's on fire. Too many people don't know that ADHD also affects emotions. Knowing how sucky it is to have a brain that just doesn't like to work, I find myself drifting towards people who feel the same way. That and I want to be there for them. It feels like nobody's here for me and I don't want other people to feel that too. Maybe feeling like nobody's here for me is what makes me so ridiculously clingy. I'm lonely. I can't deal with people leaving me. I deserve to be cared about too, right? This got sad. Also super all over the place. Thank you for being a safe space. I hope you're alright, considering all the changes you guys are going through right now. Stay strong. I believe in you.
Are you treating others the way you wish to be treated? Sounds exactly like that's exactly what you're doing. :-) Your head and heart seem to be in exactly the right place, so try not to worry too much about WHY you're being kind to others, as long as you ARE being kind to others. On top of that, helping other people gets you out of your own head sometimes, which may alleviate your own anxiety and depression. And to answer your very important question... YES! You absolutely deserve to be cared about, too!
I really hope you’re doing well even a year after writing this comment, you sound like an amazing person and as someone who just realized I may have DID I bet your friend is so grateful to have you.
my partner did something really similar to this when she was told about our system. nowadays we use tools like Simply Plural, PluralKit, and Octogon to write down information, but notebooks were our saving grace for a long time
Quiet Distress he said once that he’s usually close by when she films!! just in case she needs to switch out or she needs him to explain something!! :D he likes to be in the loop so he can explain things better
I don't have DID but if I did I would be screwed due to being terrible at organization I can barely even get ready for school in a timely fashion let alone do stuff like clean my room .
Me and my system are incredibly close at this point, my partner has DID as well. Both of our systems are comfortable with each other and have basically become a giant family. Learning to talk to them was difficult at first, but I'm thankful for my partner. My alters keep me in the loop on what's going on thankfully. I love watching this channel and getting more and more comfortable with everyone. Thanks from our system to yours!!
I seen a genderfluid person, have a hair cut that could transform from a more feminine look, to than a more masculine look. Like even a girl in middle school I once knew had her sides shaved and you couldn't even see it unless she pulled her hair up. Maybe a system could do something like this to make everyone more comfortable? Or even just some hats or something.
omg I am DYING! in maths today, my alter protectors, Jamie and Jackson, were having an argument and the fact the the opposite of a firefly is a water fall and Jamie was telling Jackson that his hair dye was messing with his head, and it was that kind of argument that you just cannot take seriously, no matter how hard you try, and I was trying to not laugh and we were doing a test and the teacher sent me out for making noise and I literally died of laughter afterwards outside and now my teacher is so confused about me.
And THAT is when you realise that your alters are brilliant people, the argument you can't take seriously, wow, the only one who gets into arguments in our system is apparently me, primary protector, Avery
Haha! That's such a funny story. I love little funny stories. So does your teacher not know? How does that work - do people normally tell their schools if they know at that age?
As much as I love that you guys have a democracy with your body's appearance....Short hair looks so good on you guys. In that picture, you can see Kyle so perfectly. It's so crazy how you guys have physical differences once you learn the personality of the person speaking. I'm also hoping everything is going well with you since the integration Chloe. I am sure Pinata System is such a fantastic help with this for you guys.
What I've noticed is that they only dye their hair from like 10 centimetres of the hairroots. Maybe that's already for the boys to be able to pull the hair back, and not having the colour visible for the most part? I can't imagine Nadia being able to deal with short hair if I'm honest
I have OSDD, sometimes i definitely know there is someone else in here with me, and I notice that sometimes I blink and then when my eyes open its a month later. I used to think that DID would be super cool to have so that I wouldn't have to deal with my traumatic memories. now that I've been diagnosed, (after thinking I might have it for a few years) it isn't fun. it isn't cool, or fun. Its genuinely awful. For people who don't know what dissociation is like (especially a severe form) you can have grand ideas for the day, and then you dissociate. And then the whole day is away from you, or, you have no recollection of an event you wanted to consciously attend. For people who do have dissociation, get a whiteboard! I lived in filth and chaos for so many years, and since i've gotten a whiteboard, and write down all the tasks i have to do, what day it is, the month, the weather, etc. Sooooo necessary to have. Chloe mentions this around 4:40. I cant tell you how much stuff wouldn't get done unless I write it down.
1)I imagined the littles trying to read the note, like: -what does it say? -I don't know -that word looks like a unicorn -MINE -NO IT'S MINE (Proceed to fight over a unicorn made out of words until Kyke stops them) Also, am I the only one who thought about Nina when they talked about the mirror messages??
I’m kinda emotional knowing this is one of pre-integration Chloe’s last videos. I’m proud of post-integration Chloe too for continuing this hard work to educate us. That serif app looks amazingly helpful. Thanks for sharing. Sending my love ❤️
@@rona6781 When two alters integrate, it means that the amnesia barrier separating them dropped, and they became one alter. Nin has all of Chloe's memories, but she has Nina's as well.
i don't know if you will see this, but i just wanted to say - thank you. i started researching DID/OSDD for writing purposes because i wanted to write it correctly. little did i know that a year later i'd find out i actually had DID. the first switch i was aware of was when i was co-conscious with another alter. i was terrified, but if i hadn't done the research i had done beforehand - i don't know what would've happened. knowing what i knew helped things go so much more smoothly. so, from the bottom of my heart, thank you. you've helped me - *us* - so, so much. thank you. thank you. thank you. you are a gift. i read about what happened with the integration and i hope everything is slowly getting better. sending you lots of love. 💕
Before watching the video, I just want to say Chloe (post integration) I want you to know you are loved. I love Chloe (pre integration), what she stands for. And Nina, I was always so intrigued by her. Seeing Chloe (pre integration) is bittersweet, but It’s like looking back at old holiday pictures and loving the memories. And I can’t wait to meet you, the new you and the more of you. Like looking forward to the future holidays. I’m not sure if that makes sense but I just want to reiterate how loved you are and how much we love you, no matter what. So much love to you and your system, I know you’ve all been struggling. You are loved. You are beautiful and you are supported. All of you. No matter what, at least by me.
To anyone reading this, I hope you can remember that integration is NOT something to be fearful of. It is not for everyone and it is not easy. BUT it should not be something to throw out because integration naturally happens whether you want it or not. It is a good thing. Scary, but good. Your brain is healing. There is progress happening and the brain is an incredible organ as well as our entire body, capable and created to heal in ways beyond our comprehension. Please Chloe don’t leave out the importance and GOODNESS there is in integration and you are so wonderful and encouraging and educating and I hope integration will be another wonderful way you will document your experience in a healthy manner for those either hoping to or inevitably will integrate. There will be hard work it will take to continue to heal and move forward. But there in strength in us all. And we are not alone! This community is fantastic. Stick close and continue to keep talking, keep asking questions, keep healing. I have So much love sending to you all. 💜
i did a psychology project on DID 2 years ago and i’m just realizing how perfect your videos would have been to show to the class. I’m so happy that everyone else doing projects or research will be able to watch such an informative video like yours!
Chloe and Nina (before integration), you will be in our hearts forever. Chloe (PI -post integration), hi, I personally already in love with your doodles. Please, be safe and healthy
There's more about it on their Instagram. I started using it just a while ago. Chloe (post-integretion) agreed to make a video soon about integrating using Instagram stories that helped her a lot for people who couldn't see it. There's going to be 2 more videos from Chloe (pre-integration) and then we'll hopefully get to meet Chloe! ❤️
I hope they make a video of Instagram videos. To show how all this happened. I don't use Instagram. So im a bit behind. Much love to this channel and everyone involved.
I think I might have DID but I’m afraid of it so I feel like a can’t talk to anyone about it , these videos have made me feel less alone through this. It all started when I kept referring to my self as we in my head and didn’t know why I was saying we but then I noticed that when I think it’s more like conversations with other people and now I’m seeing changes in my hand writing and I can’t draw for shit but then sometimes I find beautiful drawings in my note book and I have a really nice drawing with the name James underneath so I think they are alters.its quiet scary but I would like to say thank you for making these videos.
I sometimes think I have DID but have no recollection of trauma. But sometimes I don't recognize myself in the mirror, like it's not me but me at the same time. Also, I have "episodes" of dissociation or derealization where i completely space out for long amounts of time and it may only feel like 5 mins but i snap out of it but 20+ mins to like an hour pass by. Some even times I am doing something I don't remember starting. And sometimes have conversations with myself like there are two or more different alters and go by so many names. Etc
I'm going to see a psychiatric NP next week to talk through it if it's actually DID or maybe its correlated w/ my current mental illnesses or something else
Japa S this has kinda started happening to me. I don’t find weird drawings, but in my head I refer to myself as we and I also have conversations in my head? I’m really confused please help
I’ve recently discovered that I’m a host of a osdd system. I’m one of three known altars and we’re all trying to get to know each other. This video came out at the perfect time. Thank you. -Alex, the Whatever System
Before hearing it from any of systems/ytb channels, I decided to start journaling and then I fount the alters when new content started to pop-up... Other comm strategy I use is to leave notes for them to record a video talking about anything they feel like. 8:15 bout decision taking - one of my alters started to fight and argue that I (host) was leaving them clueless on the next steps (such as moving out, starting a new second job, etc) so that he would take over the front and let me feel the same, I was a bit terrified in the beggining because he's a persecutor but I managed to be empathic and agree with it. Yesterday at night, the 4 of us (main fronters) agreed that I am not in condition to deal with the level of stress my current job requires, so I let two protectors do it. Today, it was the best day at work I had since a long time, and I could even remember most of it. [Ps Sorry if I wrote smth wrg, English isnt my mother language.]
So I really like drawing and making characters that *properly* have different disorders. I’ve been using your videos to educate myself and properly portray DID. I one day want to make a comic with characters having different, very misunderstood, disorders and properly display them.
Brilliantly written, informative, and super easy to understand, as all DissociaDID videos are. Much love to post-integration Chloe, I hope you're doing well; and as always, just as much love to everyone else in the system. You are so valued x
These are helpful non invasive suggestions that I never thought to consider. Thank you for past Chloe being informative and to present day Kya for continuing :)
We want to give the warmest welcome to the new Chloe!!! We heard about the integration earlier today on Tumblr & Twitter, and to be honest it did seem sort of sad at first. We were all quite fond of both Nina and Chloe, although we've never personally met anyone in your system, many of us (including myself) felt like we related to them both deeply. Still though, it's just like you said; they're not gone!! You're here, and your existence and life and everything is insurmountably wonderful. We're all so so excited to get to know you through these videos moving forward and we all wish you all the best of luck!! Thank you so so much as always for everything!! 💝🌟🌙💫✨ ~~ Felicia Rose Antonia of The Star System
Thank you for posting this. I've been keeping tabs on your channel for a while, since I have friends with DID. Just recently, not only have I noticed a gigantic hole in my memory, but I could have sworn I heard someone trying to talk to me through the headspace. I've been trying to talk to her for a while now, but no luck. She hasn't made an effort to front either, so...
You guys seem super well organized. I leave myself (it's just me in there) communications all the time. They are always titled "to-do-list" and nothing gets done consistently. All the more impressive that you manage so well! Also for what it's worth Kyle's hairstyle is gorgeous.
Chloe is referring to many past videos (much more than usual, it feels like), and that makes me feel like she is wrapping up what she has accomplished so far to say good bye...knowingly or unknowingly. I miss pre-integration Chloe, and am looking forward to post-integration Chloe in the channel when she is ready to appear.
Dearest Chloe, welcome home. Integration must be unbelievably difficult. I remember when Nina said that Chloe and she got on like a house on fire. You will be a beautiful, singular team amongst the whole wonderful family of DissociaDID.
I'm so gonna miss the old Chloe. Idk why, but when I heard about her integration it brought actual tears to my eyes. I am so happy you will remain dedicated to the channel and educating though. It must be very hard on the system when integrations happen. I don't have DID, but I've been watching your channel for a while and it's one of my favs. I've learned so much. Much love to the whole system.
I just happened to stumble across a few of your videos and now I can't stop watching. You are absolutely amazing!! Your intelligence level and understanding of your disorder is remarkable. You truly have a gift for teaching and educating those of us who are not familiar with DID. I admire your courage and strength and have the utmost respect for you. You're absolutely fantastic!!! ❤
We love you Chloe! No matter what you think, we still love you no matter what. I'm so proud of you for uploading this despite the pain it may cause seeing pre-integrated Chloe talking. Just know that we are supporting you and love you so much.
I will alway miss the pre-integrated Chloe because thats who ive grown to love and connect with but i am so excited to meet the newly integrated Chloe! I know Nina and Chloe integrating was probably scary and stressful and crazy but you guys are an amazing, strong, smart system and I cant wait to see the new you. Please take a break and take care of yourself! I cant wait to see you Chloe!!
I don't leave manny comments as I don't have DID but I still watch and get educated =) . And on every video I want to reach through the screen and give you a warm hug when I see how much heart and genuine feelings you put into this. Also the way you work through your issues you inspire me to make myself better, work on my issues and be a better person. Lots of love from Poland
(TW) I really needed this video today, as last night we had an alter who decided to harm the body. Clearly the inner and external communication needs to improve. Thank you so much, as always, DissociDID system. Love always, the KaiCo System. ~Kai
Kyle cutting the hair short - must have been a learning curve! Hearing your journey compromising with all of the alters is rather inspirational, you are all just incredible
The first time my current alters reached out to me was through a thorough "keep calm, you already know we're here, so here I am" kind of not by Cassie in our Grimmoire. LOL. It didn't scare me, because I'd been trying to find a way to reach out to them. Now we have a steady communication routine and organizing a lot. We're a system of three. Our communication is different from when I was in a system of four as a little/host. I can send thoughts more easily than Cassie and M (he doesn't want his name or nickname displayed), and that's good, because I usually have a lot of people around in college (chuckle). Cassie and M don't control the impulse that much though and tend to speak externally even if there are people present. I don't hide it from people in college and I'm always campaigning for Psychology students to research more about it, because the number of Psychologists that are aware of DID in Brazil is minimal. I think we can all agree in here that post its and a system journal are life saviours whenever we face any kind of difficulty in getting in touch with each other. -Beah
Thank you so much for this it’s making dealing with this so much less scary and confusing and helping me be able to start figuring out where to go. You are a godsend thank you so much!! You have no idea how much this means to me.
Binging your videos in an attempt to better understand DID, one of my best friends has it and I want to make sure I’m as educated on the topic as I can so I can support them better. Thank you for making these
Wow. I just watched a bunch of your videos and they were super* informative! All of your alters are so positive and so friendly. I thought did was a bit scary before (sorry for having been ignorant) but you have definitely opened my eyes and changed my perspective. It's beautiful how you are educating people through your channel.
Late to the party as usual! This is super helpful (additional points to this below at (*)). I have a non verbal (we guess 4 year old), she cannot read, cannot write, cannot type. She desperately wants to communicate to others without sounding like a non verbal 4 year old who uses facial/body expressions and strange throat noises and basic gestures when in the Inner World. She also finds laptops very alien to her (due to past rememberings that the body has not been through). The basic suggestions have seemed either to not communicate enough, and/or are not very compatible with most messengers etc. (To give you an example of her level with laptops: Recently, she fronted solo (a rareity!) and posted a picture message on fb to a person we permitted her contact should she want to. She was so proud of herself she couldn't front solo for any longer! We were so proud of her! She saw how to do it and was permitted to do so when she was co conscious with someone at some point). Any suggestions? This is important as most of our communication, support, requests for help (and typically would include emergency services should we require it!) etc are through the laptop and over the internet (even to those whom reside nearby!). We often struggle to know where we are in a big way (even the country, though the body has never left this one!), and tend to either be too disorientated, and/or generally not know where we reside. One time (near accepting we might have DID) a very trusting different Little fronted as the adult that was out was some how triggered very badly and very suddenly went inside (this is scary for a second reason as the body has chronic conditions that can become very symptomatic very quickly when overwhelmed in any manner. We think the Little knew of this and wanted to protect us!). The Little picked a random stranger to her, point blank told her she didn't know where the residence was, and asked them to help and take her home. (Yes, the Little knew and knows about stranger danger, and thankfully the 'stranger' was someone several of the adult System members knew when the Little shared what we call a 'memory message' later on. Yes, we were safe apart from totally freaking out given we resemble an adult!). We only leave the residence (regardless who was Fronting when we left!) with either a trusted 'safe' person (typically one that is employed to support the papername with general tasks!), or into a trusted known and 'safe' taxi from outside the door of our residence that goes to an appointment location, we attend the appointment, then take a trusted known and 'safe' taxi from directly outside appointment location to the outside door of our residence. (*)In the days with free unmonitored chatrooms that you could login as many times as you wanted to in different names, that approach rocked for me (I know I'm dating the body!). Unbeknownst (sorry our awesome super wordy teen bookworm is co conscious, so I look more intelligent than I am!)... Unknown to me (as I thought I was the only member of a System/one body one person), I was actually chatting to various members of the System I'm part of, but I thought I was just messing around roleplaying. However, I did develop the ability to rapid shift quickly through this method, and through playing multiplayer solo cards with real cards (again, I now know I was playing with various System members, but thought I was just playing card games solo!).
Hi! Just wanted to say I found your TH-cam channel some weeks ago and I’ve been binge watching ever since. Every single person on the DissociaDID system is absolutely beautiful and amazing and I hope all of you do really well as I’m currently struggling with severe depression and you guys are shining a bit of light in these dark times
This is what one of my alters were doing! They realized I wasn't doing well in math and I hadn't noticed they existed but I did realize that it wasn't ME talking to myself. It was him. Now that they've fronted i understand where they were coming from and now we use notes all the time to talk to each other.
I love you and your videos so much! YOU (the D.I.D system) helped me go to therapy. I now know that I show a lot of signs for BPD and I’m going to see a psychiatrist to get my diagnosis. I know they aren’t the same thing but I just relate to you so much and I see so much of myself in Chloe. Just - thank you.
The serif app seems incredibly useful!! I’ve heard so much about diaries, but it’s hard to take the time to write it out or find the diary in the first place. If you’re someone who always has your phone with you, that could be a game changer. Thank you, Chloe!! 💜
Serif?? Omg the functionality of that app is BRILLIANT!! FINALLY!!! I was hoping there was something like that out there! Thank you for sharing it with everyone here! Also, I was going to suggest Voice Recordings if you didn't say it. I'm glad you know, because I definitely believe that to be a very useful means and agree with needing to hear sometimes; imperative emotions to properly convey what's being said. You are awesome Chloe, and so is the rest of your system. I highly overall appreciate what you're doing and the way you describe everything. You are such a special person with an amazing system. I'm really glad I discovered this channel!! Thank you Chloe for all your wisdom, support to others and compassion. And to everyone else in your system for everything they contribute too. Ya'll are the coolest people (in my opinion).
So I remember one of the videos I can’t remember but it was about how when two alters intergrate it’s like losing two people and I didn’t understand that but I’m feeling that way with Chloe. I just started watching the channel last month and I felt like I had I guess a connection with Chloe and yes she’s gone I know she’s not fully gone. I also know Nina is not fully gone. I hope and pray for the system I’ve heard that intergrations can be extremely hard.
Sweet Chloe, thank you for this! I’m sure this will help the people that this applies to so much. I hope you’re settling in and feeling okay about the integration, sending all my love and hugs as always! 💛💛
I am looking forward to the OSDID SOOOO much!!! I think I might have something like that since I have such a hard time remembering everything but if someone tells me about it I can remember small details. I hope you realize how flipping important you are to us and how much you're teaching us!
Love all of you in The System!! Proud of all you do! If anyone is reading this post integration, take your time coming back, process eveything thats gone on we will always support you!
I love this channel cause it’s so educational I’ve been wanting to learn abt did/osdd for a long time now and this channel is really helping me learn more abt it!
I'm looking forward to using some of these methods. Already had a lto of reaching out, mostly through being co-conscious, so I'm hoping that more will happen soon. Thank you all for everything you guys do for us. - Locke Pro System
Ever since finding your channel, I have learned so much about myself and better ways to manage my D.I.D. Thank you for being so open about what it means to have D.I.D. My life has changed so much for the better since using the tips and tricks that you've shared to become a better system. Sending you so much love and support every day. THANK YOU!! 🤗😁💖
Ok I'm not going to lie, the short hair looked really cute on you guys. If you guys ever decided to get fringe/bangs, you should get something layered like from your 2017 look.
Thank you so much for this!! I know it's not the same Chloe who will be continuing the channel but I know you'll be just as amazing and helpful. Lots of love for you guys. You're all so amazing and strong and help so many confused individuals and systems
im here to try to learn more about it, since i know someone who has DID and dont want to be rude to any of them at all, and want to learn how to be respectful and be a good friend to the host, and one day hopefully the alters as well, so thank you :D
I started watching you a little over a year ago and right away things started clicking into place. I'm 52 now and I was just 51 then and I kept thinking there's no way I couldn't possibly have did without knowing about it I'm too self-aware for that. I was wrong and if it hadn't been for your Channel I would have never been able to put the pieces together. It took your channel and a really terrifying situation that I am well out of now to start giving me contact with what has always been a covert system. And I don't know about anybody else but these guys are my heroes and I'm so glad I have communication now. I pretend it's not been frightening at times, but to actually have communication now and have my diagnosis is more than I could have ever done on my own without channels like yours. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. Shellie Host of the Wedja System
Hi Chloe, I just wanted to thank you for creating all your amazing videos about DID. I find it really interesting learning about DID since I want to be a psychiatrist when I leave school. I'm also working on a novel about a teenage girl coming to terms with having DID. All the best for you and the rest of the system 🖤
Post-integration Chloe, I’m glad you still choose to educate others about your system and DID in general. I am sure you are lovely and look forward to fully meeting you when you are ready❤️
I’m not a system but I have a whiteboard on my bedroom door and a small bin below it with markers and an eraser. I use it to tell my parents if I’m streaming or want to be alone, and they use it to let me know if they need me to do something or where they’ve gone. I think everyone should have them, honestly. They make things easier and reduce paper waste!
We personally have our own little journal to communicate and it’s not just for my system but it’s a shared journal (as we call it) with our system and our best friend’s system as we life together and we’ve kinda just formed into one big system.
I can't imagine having to have whiteboards for other, separate roommates AND for alters. Jeez. Sounds like you almost have to be organized for survival with DID. Love to all of you relearning how to live this way! ♥️
I always thought something was wrong with me, but I’ve been watching your videos and it’s all been very recent but I’ve gone through just about all of them, I was so intrigued and it began with me thinking I had a bipolar disorder and I’ve realize I may very well have DID, I really love your videos, they’re not only educational but so entertaining, I cannot take my eyes off of you guys, this is amazing!! Thank you for being so open about all of this especially on the internet!!ALSO I would like to know how you began to be able to talk to your alters as you’ve said you guys can stay in the front? I definitely have had SO many experiences but I don’t know what to do ? I’ve really only recently noticed and your videos have helped GREATLY!! I had such a misconception of DID truthfully my understanding and knowledge was only from SPLIT, and I thought no way I have DID. Again THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! I never would’ve figured myself out!
I don't have D.I.D but I just learned I'm missing an entire year of my childhood after trauma. I'm honestly freaking out and don't know how to take this news. Seeing your videos help, learning to ground and seeing people deal with their issues head on.
I don't have DID, but I enjoy your videos and all of the knowledge you give in them! I started watching your videos one night when I could sleep and was really depressed and I've been watching ever since! You really are amazing and I can't wait to meet the newly integrated you when you're ready 🧡
I love your videos so much 😭 you're so sweet and kind and I just found out my boyfriend if almost 2 years cheated on me and I'm going through so much dark stuff but watching you passionately talk about being proud of who you are just really hits me and makes me feel like there's hope for things to be better thank you so much for what you do ❤❤❤
I honestly appreciate your existence so much. You don't even understand. You've helped me so much and message me feel like I'm not insane and helped me cope with my symptoms. I'm still trying to get my therapist to believe me but I don't know how to go about it. She just thinks I'm just very depressed and anxious. I'm struggling
Always love the videos. Integration is a bad word in our system, seem some professional believed they could put us back together. We're having none of that, and we fired said professional. From a system stand point, alters can and have merged, became as one if you will, but for us, it's been a blending and for a very specific purpose. So we were taken back by the term complete integration. Thanks DissociaDID and best of luck.
As always, this video was extremely educational, informational, and entertaining, as well as extremely bittersweet. I have been following the system for quite some time now, and would just like to give a warm welcome to post-integration Chloe. I am so proud of all the progress you are making and so impressed as well as grateful by your openness during this journey. Countless members of this community (including myself!) are very excited to meet you, and we send you all enormous amounts of love and warmth. 💖
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Hey, I haven't watched the video yet but where did Chloe mention she has integrated. If its in this video I'll get to it, if not where can I see that bit please? Also who did chloe integrate with?
@@farhanabegum7516 instagram x
@@farhanabegum7516 she actually told us on her instagram page
@@farhanabegum7516 she also mentioned that on the community page
alter: *posts sticky notes around*
host: oh my god im HAUNTED
I legit thought that someone was living in the walls when the host started putting up sticky notes. 😂
@@letitrain7530 lol... I feel ya! (thankfully I didn't think anyone was living in the walls, that would definately be freaky... It's freaky enough at first to start getting messages from others of me, haha... Thankfully we are mostly used to each other and communication together, usually anyways, but we are poly fragmented and there's regularly new parts will come into awareness... It's hardest to leave memos to help the youngest ones who can't read and don't know they are adult or anything else...
And yeah, sorry, we was started rambling but hi hi hi me hop u hav a happy day!
@@likeabunnie yeah you too haha😁
@@likeabunnie You opened a bracket you forgot to close. Just FYI. 🙂
I actually thought my dissociation was some kind of supernatural experience because I would be paralyzed and hallucinate. I could just be in the middle of a board game or doing something and it happen. It's been happening since I was very young the hallucinations are less now I am older but yeah until I actually knew what it was I thought I was haunted or something. I was about 2 or 3 when it started so yeah had no idea what it was and didn't really talk about it so people didn't know. Until it got really out of control and now I hallucinate very rarely but my episodes last a long time so people notice.
Omg when your alters left messages in lipstick on mirrors that MUST have been accidentally horrifying OMG
There's a photo of a lipstick message Nadia left when they were back in university on DissociaDID's Instagram - lovely message, because Nadia is an actual ray of sunshine, but also terrifying because *lipstick mirror writing*
Well rupauls drag race must be terrifying
Redrum anyone,
I had to think about the anime your name lol
Did anyone else realize how this comment began and ended with 'omg' 🤔
the last time i was this early, kyle was doing his makeup
july that was a great video XD
That video is iconic
That was a fuckin great vid
How dare you make me rewatch that glorious video
july
Omg I saw that 😂
It's so weird hearing and seeing pre-integration Chloe talk knowing what happened. Can imagine it's even more bittersweet for all of you. Very glad Chloe post-integration is still dedicated to this channel and educating us. I'm sure she's absolutely lovely and will continue the channel wonderfully, can't wait to meet her! Love you lots 💛
can someone tell me what pre/ post intergration means?
@@georgia8865 integration is when two alters sort of merge into one, that's the easiest explanation. They made a video on it on their channel that explains it further. So pre-integration is before that merge happened, and post-integration is after the integration happened.
@@georgia8865 sometimes two alters of a system integrate and become one. That's what happened with Chloe and Nina, if I remember correctly. They integrated and became one alter, which is a different person with characteristics of both alters, that still calls herself Chloe.
@@noanimezone3149 It was Chloe and Nina who integrated but otherwise yes.
thanks i didnt know nina and chloe had merged
I don't have DID nor OSDD but I've been watching you for a while now and I've learnt so much. I now feel much more comfortable with the possibility of one day having someone with DID or OSDD in my life and more confident that I will be able to support them. You also make me feel accepted with my own disorder (OCD) despite it not being what you talk about. Thank you to all of you!
I could have wrote this! I feel you
Same here! I found the channel when helping my friend research for her project, and I have really appreciated the channel ever since :)
I have none of these things, this is just really educational. I feel weird commenting on videos, as if im invading someone elses life, and because i can’t relate to the som of the things 😅
I couldn’t agree more! So well put ❤️
Same here! I don’t have any disorder but I found her videos incredibly interesting
When she mentioned the lipstick on mirrors making her think of horror movies all I could think of was a note on a mirror like "clean your room damnit!" or "do your homework" and I couldn't stop laughing
One of my altars who graduated high school fronted during a 7th grade math test, and she got me an amazing grade!
Team Birds haha that’s great
that's so amazing to me! how an alter can know things you never learned.
That's amazing omgg
Lissa they can’t
@@PinupSarah Yes they can
8:52 hahahaha “don’t swear don’t swear don’t swear”
very relatable
Kyle: "sue much fooken backlash"
If post-integration Chloe is reading this, I wish all of you the best of luck and I’m so proud of you for making it this far ❤️❤️
There is no Chloe post integration.
@@debopriya14 I think she means Nin. In the begging when they first integrated Nin wanted to still be called Chloe, but she changed her mind. I might be getting this wrong though.
@@homobissi2872 no, you're right
I found out my friend is part of a system a few weeks ago. A couple of days after I found out I invited them over to my place because I was like, "Hmm, okay, I know a bunch about this stuff and I know that communication is helpful. I'm gonna try to help them with that." The host didn't remember the names of any of the other alters until after they told me and I talked to their primary protector to relay information back to them. When they were at my house, I gave them a notebook that only had like one or two pages filled in it so I just ripped those out and we got to work. We made a 'profiles' section where each alter would fill out important information like their name, age, gender/pronouns, positive triggers, etc. We also made a 'log' section where they could put the date and any important stuff like 'this person fronted for the first time in a while' or 'new location in the inner world.' Then there was the communications tab where people would just write what they wanted, sorta like a diary. That's the part they've used most- the other parts I had to convince them to use. They then made a creativity tab on their own where alters could just draw or write or do stuff like that.
Also here, have just personal thoughts from me. Might be kinda sad. Idk yet.
I hope I'm doing the right thing by trying to help. Another one of their friends knows and just ignores it. I'm scared they'll think the only reason I'm talking to them so much now is because I know they're a system. They opened up to me a lot on that day and it just made me intrigued and I just wanted to spend more time with them and get to know them even better. Not to mention that I find them hilarious and entertaining and just fun to be around. I just don't want them to hate me. I want to help them. Sometimes I'm scared that I'm accidentally glorifying mental illness by wanting to be friends with those who have them. I usually don't know this before I want to be their friend. It's a coincidence. I just worry a lot. I also know how much it sucks to have your brain not be... normal? I have ADHD, anxiety, and depression. Doesn't sound like much to most people. The combination of the three makes your brain feel like it's on fire. Too many people don't know that ADHD also affects emotions. Knowing how sucky it is to have a brain that just doesn't like to work, I find myself drifting towards people who feel the same way. That and I want to be there for them. It feels like nobody's here for me and I don't want other people to feel that too. Maybe feeling like nobody's here for me is what makes me so ridiculously clingy. I'm lonely. I can't deal with people leaving me. I deserve to be cared about too, right?
This got sad. Also super all over the place.
Thank you for being a safe space. I hope you're alright, considering all the changes you guys are going through right now. Stay strong. I believe in you.
Are you treating others the way you wish to be treated? Sounds exactly like that's exactly what you're doing. :-)
Your head and heart seem to be in exactly the right place, so try not to worry too much about WHY you're being kind to others, as long as you ARE being kind to others. On top of that, helping other people gets you out of your own head sometimes, which may alleviate your own anxiety and depression. And to answer your very important question...
YES! You absolutely deserve to be cared about, too!
My SO has quite recently been diagnosed, and it is CHALLENGING. I can't do what you did because of COVID. You're doing so well, good job!
I really hope you’re doing well even a year after writing this comment, you sound like an amazing person and as someone who just realized I may have DID I bet your friend is so grateful to have you.
my partner did something really similar to this when she was told about our system. nowadays we use tools like Simply Plural, PluralKit, and Octogon to write down information, but notebooks were our saving grace for a long time
It seems like Kyle might have been close and partially bleeding through while Chloe was filming this from some of the mannerisms she was displaying
Quiet Distress I read this just as she sounded like Kyle 😂😂
Quiet Distress he said once that he’s usually close by when she films!! just in case she needs to switch out or she needs him to explain something!! :D he likes to be in the loop so he can explain things better
Quiet Distress I was looking through the comments waiting to see this! Kyle’s accent was coming through a lot
You mean co-con?
@@ellesentertainment7938 I think they mean, close to co con, but not quite.
We have our closet doors painted with chalkboard paint, and tons of sticky notes all over the place
-Dameyn from the Shock System ❤
I don't have DID but if I did I would be screwed due to being terrible at organization I can barely even get ready for school in a timely fashion let alone do stuff like clean my room .
That’s such a brilliant idea!
Decent idea yknow
😭 now I wish I could paint my walls
Me and my system are incredibly close at this point, my partner has DID as well. Both of our systems are comfortable with each other and have basically become a giant family. Learning to talk to them was difficult at first, but I'm thankful for my partner. My alters keep me in the loop on what's going on thankfully. I love watching this channel and getting more and more comfortable with everyone. Thanks from our system to yours!!
I seen a genderfluid person, have a hair cut that could transform from a more feminine look, to than a more masculine look.
Like even a girl in middle school I once knew had her sides shaved and you couldn't even see it unless she pulled her hair up. Maybe a system could do something like this to make everyone more comfortable? Or even just some hats or something.
As a gender fluid person, I do this too!!
13:51 Kyle really is a tired parent isn't he
Somehow your videos are so soothing. They radiate something comforting, dedicated, valuable.
omg I am DYING!
in maths today, my alter protectors, Jamie and Jackson, were having an argument and the fact the the opposite of a firefly is a water fall and Jamie was telling Jackson that his hair dye was messing with his head, and it was that kind of argument that you just cannot take seriously, no matter how hard you try, and I was trying to not laugh and we were doing a test and the teacher sent me out for making noise and I literally died of laughter afterwards outside and now my teacher is so confused about me.
And THAT is when you realise that your alters are brilliant people, the argument you can't take seriously, wow, the only one who gets into arguments in our system is apparently me, primary protector, Avery
@@Cheese9220 agreed
Haha! That's such a funny story. I love little funny stories. So does your teacher not know? How does that work - do people normally tell their schools if they know at that age?
@@conlon4332 well, we did, but they didn't put it on the system, so my pastoral team know, but the regular teachers don't
@@jaypegasi3769 Huh. Thanks for explaining anyway. 🙂
As much as I love that you guys have a democracy with your body's appearance....Short hair looks so good on you guys. In that picture, you can see Kyle so perfectly. It's so crazy how you guys have physical differences once you learn the personality of the person speaking.
I'm also hoping everything is going well with you since the integration Chloe. I am sure Pinata System is such a fantastic help with this for you guys.
What I've noticed is that they only dye their hair from like 10 centimetres of the hairroots. Maybe that's already for the boys to be able to pull the hair back, and not having the colour visible for the most part? I can't imagine Nadia being able to deal with short hair if I'm honest
We used to dye it all, but we are taking a break from bleaching. We only dye the parts that are bleached, the rest has grown out
I have OSDD, sometimes i definitely know there is someone else in here with me, and I notice that sometimes I blink and then when my eyes open its a month later. I used to think that DID would be super cool to have so that I wouldn't have to deal with my traumatic memories. now that I've been diagnosed, (after thinking I might have it for a few years) it isn't fun. it isn't cool, or fun. Its genuinely awful.
For people who don't know what dissociation is like (especially a severe form) you can have grand ideas for the day, and then you dissociate. And then the whole day is away from you, or, you have no recollection of an event you wanted to consciously attend.
For people who do have dissociation, get a whiteboard! I lived in filth and chaos for so many years, and since i've gotten a whiteboard, and write down all the tasks i have to do, what day it is, the month, the weather, etc. Sooooo necessary to have. Chloe mentions this around 4:40. I cant tell you how much stuff wouldn't get done unless I write it down.
1)I imagined the littles trying to read the note, like:
-what does it say?
-I don't know
-that word looks like a unicorn
-MINE
-NO IT'S MINE
(Proceed to fight over a unicorn made out of words until Kyke stops them)
Also, am I the only one who thought about Nina when they talked about the mirror messages??
mister lol it was Nadia who did that
@@haileykissner582 I want to think that nadia always left notes forming rainbows to comunnicate
mister lol lmao :)
me, trying to help with system communication: "im leaving paper out for yall to write notes on!"
my little: "...... i cant read!"
I’m kinda emotional knowing this is one of pre-integration Chloe’s last videos. I’m proud of post-integration Chloe too for continuing this hard work to educate us. That serif app looks amazingly helpful. Thanks for sharing. Sending my love ❤️
Holly Erin What does that mean?
Liana Marie - Chloe (the host) and Nina (the sexual protector) integrated into one alter, Nin, who is now the host of the body.
I can't find the app for some reason. Maybe you could help me out with it.
Thank you :D
@@pipstix5487 but what happened to chloe? Does she still exist?.. I dont understand.. sorry :(
@@rona6781 When two alters integrate, it means that the amnesia barrier separating them dropped, and they became one alter. Nin has all of Chloe's memories, but she has Nina's as well.
MY MIND IS BLOWN AT THAT ALTER MESSENGER CHAT!!!! THIS IS ALL WE EVER WANTED THANK YOU SO MUCH CHLOE!!!!!-Molly
Did you get the messenger chat app? And if so what's it called cause I can't find it when I search up Serif?
@@RainbowSystem1 its serif but I've heard of others I cant remember any atm
i don't know if you will see this, but i just wanted to say - thank you. i started researching DID/OSDD for writing purposes because i wanted to write it correctly. little did i know that a year later i'd find out i actually had DID. the first switch i was aware of was when i was co-conscious with another alter. i was terrified, but if i hadn't done the research i had done beforehand - i don't know what would've happened. knowing what i knew helped things go so much more smoothly. so, from the bottom of my heart, thank you. you've helped me - *us* - so, so much. thank you. thank you. thank you. you are a gift. i read about what happened with the integration and i hope everything is slowly getting better. sending you lots of love. 💕
Before watching the video, I just want to say Chloe (post integration) I want you to know you are loved. I love Chloe (pre integration), what she stands for. And Nina, I was always so intrigued by her. Seeing Chloe (pre integration) is bittersweet, but It’s like looking back at old holiday pictures and loving the memories. And I can’t wait to meet you, the new you and the more of you. Like looking forward to the future holidays. I’m not sure if that makes sense but I just want to reiterate how loved you are and how much we love you, no matter what. So much love to you and your system, I know you’ve all been struggling. You are loved. You are beautiful and you are supported. All of you. No matter what, at least by me.
To anyone reading this, I hope you can remember that integration is NOT something to be fearful of. It is not for everyone and it is not easy. BUT it should not be something to throw out because integration naturally happens whether you want it or not. It is a good thing. Scary, but good. Your brain is healing. There is progress happening and the brain is an incredible organ as well as our entire body, capable and created to heal in ways beyond our comprehension. Please Chloe don’t leave out the importance and GOODNESS there is in integration and you are so wonderful and encouraging and educating and I hope integration will be another wonderful way you will document your experience in a healthy manner for those either hoping to or inevitably will integrate. There will be hard work it will take to continue to heal and move forward. But there in strength in us all. And we are not alone! This community is fantastic. Stick close and continue to keep talking, keep asking questions, keep healing. I have So much love sending to you all. 💜
i did a psychology project on DID 2 years ago and i’m just realizing how perfect your videos would have been to show to the class. I’m so happy that everyone else doing projects or research will be able to watch such an informative video like yours!
This just became my favorite TH-cam channel. Y’all are really opening up my mind in new ways and everything just makes a little more sense to me.
Chloe and Nina (before integration), you will be in our hearts forever. Chloe (PI -post integration), hi, I personally already in love with your doodles. Please, be safe and healthy
hi dissociadid i was surprised to hear about the intergration that the system has had i hope everyone is adjusting well i love this channel
There's more about it on their Instagram. I started using it just a while ago. Chloe (post-integretion) agreed to make a video soon about integrating using Instagram stories that helped her a lot for people who couldn't see it.
There's going to be 2 more videos from Chloe (pre-integration) and then we'll hopefully get to meet Chloe! ❤️
I hope they make a video of Instagram videos. To show how all this happened.
I don't use Instagram.
So im a bit behind.
Much love to this channel and everyone involved.
I think I might have DID but I’m afraid of it so I feel like a can’t talk to anyone about it , these videos have made me feel less alone through this. It all started when I kept referring to my self as we in my head and didn’t know why I was saying we but then I noticed that when I think it’s more like conversations with other people and now I’m seeing changes in my hand writing and I can’t draw for shit but then sometimes I find beautiful drawings in my note book and I have a really nice drawing with the name James underneath so I think they are alters.its quiet scary but I would like to say thank you for making these videos.
I sometimes think I have DID but have no recollection of trauma. But sometimes I don't recognize myself in the mirror, like it's not me but me at the same time. Also, I have "episodes" of dissociation or derealization where i completely space out for long amounts of time and it may only feel like 5 mins but i snap out of it but 20+ mins to like an hour pass by. Some even times I am doing something I don't remember starting. And sometimes have conversations with myself like there are two or more different alters and go by so many names. Etc
I'm going to see a psychiatric NP next week to talk through it if it's actually DID or maybe its correlated w/ my current mental illnesses or something else
Japa S this has kinda started happening to me. I don’t find weird drawings, but in my head I refer to myself as we and I also have conversations in my head? I’m really confused please help
Hi,,, is there any progress ever since u posted this? :)
Maybe there's just an angel possesing you?
I’ve recently discovered that I’m a host of a osdd system. I’m one of three known altars and we’re all trying to get to know each other. This video came out at the perfect time. Thank you.
-Alex, the Whatever System
your channel is one of the reasons i’ve wanted to go into the psychology field. thank you so much for helping me find something i really love!!
Thank you for making this video! I'm gonna miss the old Chloe but I look forward to meet the intergrated Cloe! Lots of love🧡
Before hearing it from any of systems/ytb channels, I decided to start journaling and then I fount the alters when new content started to pop-up...
Other comm strategy I use is to leave notes for them to record a video talking about anything they feel like.
8:15 bout decision taking - one of my alters started to fight and argue that I (host) was leaving them clueless on the next steps (such as moving out, starting a new second job, etc) so that he would take over the front and let me feel the same, I was a bit terrified in the beggining because he's a persecutor but I managed to be empathic and agree with it.
Yesterday at night, the 4 of us (main fronters) agreed that I am not in condition to deal with the level of stress my current job requires, so I let two protectors do it.
Today, it was the best day at work I had since a long time, and I could even remember most of it.
[Ps Sorry if I wrote smth wrg, English isnt my mother language.]
If Nin reads this, you are loved ❤
I just wanted to thank this channel as it has helped me understand my system more.
So I really like drawing and making characters that *properly* have different disorders. I’ve been using your videos to educate myself and properly portray DID. I one day want to make a comic with characters having different, very misunderstood, disorders and properly display them.
Brilliantly written, informative, and super easy to understand, as all DissociaDID videos are. Much love to post-integration Chloe, I hope you're doing well; and as always, just as much love to everyone else in the system. You are so valued x
These are helpful non invasive suggestions that I never thought to consider. Thank you for past Chloe being informative and to present day Kya for continuing :)
I don’t know why, but hearing you talk always calms me down when my anxiety is going crazy.
We want to give the warmest welcome to the new Chloe!!! We heard about the integration earlier today on Tumblr & Twitter, and to be honest it did seem sort of sad at first. We were all quite fond of both Nina and Chloe, although we've never personally met anyone in your system, many of us (including myself) felt like we related to them both deeply. Still though, it's just like you said; they're not gone!! You're here, and your existence and life and everything is insurmountably wonderful. We're all so so excited to get to know you through these videos moving forward and we all wish you all the best of luck!! Thank you so so much as always for everything!! 💝🌟🌙💫✨
~~ Felicia Rose Antonia of The Star System
8:51 that save was so beautiful ngl, Like I knew what you was gonna say but it transitioned into another word so smoothly.
So much love to Chloe and the rest of the system. Looking forward to getting to know Chloe post integration
Mad love and/or respect from South Africa for everyone in the system 🥰
Just found you. Just diagnosed at 32 yesterday, been treating BPD for 10 years with varried success. So excited and terrified. Thank you.
You got this!
Thank you for posting this. I've been keeping tabs on your channel for a while, since I have friends with DID. Just recently, not only have I noticed a gigantic hole in my memory, but I could have sworn I heard someone trying to talk to me through the headspace. I've been trying to talk to her for a while now, but no luck. She hasn't made an effort to front either, so...
You guys seem super well organized. I leave myself (it's just me in there) communications all the time. They are always titled "to-do-list" and nothing gets done consistently. All the more impressive that you manage so well! Also for what it's worth Kyle's hairstyle is gorgeous.
Chloe is referring to many past videos (much more than usual, it feels like), and that makes me feel like she is wrapping up what she has accomplished so far to say good bye...knowingly or unknowingly.
I miss pre-integration Chloe, and am looking forward to post-integration Chloe in the channel when she is ready to appear.
Dearest Chloe, welcome home. Integration must be unbelievably difficult. I remember when Nina said that Chloe and she got on like a house on fire. You will be a beautiful, singular team amongst the whole wonderful family of DissociaDID.
I'm so gonna miss the old Chloe. Idk why, but when I heard about her integration it brought actual tears to my eyes. I am so happy you will remain dedicated to the channel and educating though. It must be very hard on the system when integrations happen. I don't have DID, but I've been watching your channel for a while and it's one of my favs. I've learned so much. Much love to the whole system.
All the 💙s to chloe and dissociaDID system.
I just happened to stumble across a few of your videos and now I can't stop watching. You are absolutely amazing!! Your intelligence level and understanding of your disorder is remarkable. You truly have a gift for teaching and educating those of us who are not familiar with DID. I admire your courage and strength and have the utmost respect for you. You're absolutely fantastic!!! ❤
We love you Chloe! No matter what you think, we still love you no matter what. I'm so proud of you for uploading this despite the pain it may cause seeing pre-integrated Chloe talking. Just know that we are supporting you and love you so much.
This is so bittersweet! Bye dear Chloe and welcome to dear post-integration Chloe! ♡ Love to everyone in the system!
I will alway miss the pre-integrated Chloe because thats who ive grown to love and connect with but i am so excited to meet the newly integrated Chloe! I know Nina and Chloe integrating was probably scary and stressful and crazy but you guys are an amazing, strong, smart system and I cant wait to see the new you. Please take a break and take care of yourself! I cant wait to see you Chloe!!
I don't leave manny comments as I don't have DID but I still watch and get educated =) . And on every video I want to reach through the screen and give you a warm hug when I see how much heart and genuine feelings you put into this. Also the way you work through your issues you inspire me to make myself better, work on my issues and be a better person. Lots of love from Poland
(TW) I really needed this video today, as last night we had an alter who decided to harm the body. Clearly the inner and external communication needs to improve. Thank you so much, as always, DissociDID system. Love always, the KaiCo System. ~Kai
Kyle cutting the hair short - must have been a learning curve! Hearing your journey compromising with all of the alters is rather inspirational, you are all just incredible
The first time my current alters reached out to me was through a thorough "keep calm, you already know we're here, so here I am" kind of not by Cassie in our Grimmoire. LOL.
It didn't scare me, because I'd been trying to find a way to reach out to them.
Now we have a steady communication routine and organizing a lot.
We're a system of three.
Our communication is different from when I was in a system of four as a little/host. I can send thoughts more easily than Cassie and M (he doesn't want his name or nickname displayed), and that's good, because I usually have a lot of people around in college (chuckle). Cassie and M don't control the impulse that much though and tend to speak externally even if there are people present.
I don't hide it from people in college and I'm always campaigning for Psychology students to research more about it, because the number of Psychologists that are aware of DID in Brazil is minimal.
I think we can all agree in here that post its and a system journal are life saviours whenever we face any kind of difficulty in getting in touch with each other.
-Beah
Thank you so much for this it’s making dealing with this so much less scary and confusing and helping me be able to start figuring out where to go. You are a godsend thank you so much!! You have no idea how much this means to me.
Binging your videos in an attempt to better understand DID, one of my best friends has it and I want to make sure I’m as educated on the topic as I can so I can support them better. Thank you for making these
Wow. I just watched a bunch of your videos and they were super* informative! All of your alters are so positive and so friendly.
I thought did was a bit scary before (sorry for having been ignorant) but you have definitely opened my eyes and changed my perspective. It's beautiful how you are educating people through your channel.
Late to the party as usual! This is super helpful (additional points to this below at (*)). I have a non verbal (we guess 4 year old), she cannot read, cannot write, cannot type. She desperately wants to communicate to others without sounding like a non verbal 4 year old who uses facial/body expressions and strange throat noises and basic gestures when in the Inner World. She also finds laptops very alien to her (due to past rememberings that the body has not been through). The basic suggestions have seemed either to not communicate enough, and/or are not very compatible with most messengers etc. (To give you an example of her level with laptops: Recently, she fronted solo (a rareity!) and posted a picture message on fb to a person we permitted her contact should she want to. She was so proud of herself she couldn't front solo for any longer! We were so proud of her! She saw how to do it and was permitted to do so when she was co conscious with someone at some point). Any suggestions?
This is important as most of our communication, support, requests for help (and typically would include emergency services should we require it!) etc are through the laptop and over the internet (even to those whom reside nearby!). We often struggle to know where we are in a big way (even the country, though the body has never left this one!), and tend to either be too disorientated, and/or generally not know where we reside. One time (near accepting we might have DID) a very trusting different Little fronted as the adult that was out was some how triggered very badly and very suddenly went inside (this is scary for a second reason as the body has chronic conditions that can become very symptomatic very quickly when overwhelmed in any manner. We think the Little knew of this and wanted to protect us!). The Little picked a random stranger to her, point blank told her she didn't know where the residence was, and asked them to help and take her home. (Yes, the Little knew and knows about stranger danger, and thankfully the 'stranger' was someone several of the adult System members knew when the Little shared what we call a 'memory message' later on. Yes, we were safe apart from totally freaking out given we resemble an adult!). We only leave the residence (regardless who was Fronting when we left!) with either a trusted 'safe' person (typically one that is employed to support the papername with general tasks!), or into a trusted known and 'safe' taxi from outside the door of our residence that goes to an appointment location, we attend the appointment, then take a trusted known and 'safe' taxi from directly outside appointment location to the outside door of our residence.
(*)In the days with free unmonitored chatrooms that you could login as many times as you wanted to in different names, that approach rocked for me (I know I'm dating the body!). Unbeknownst (sorry our awesome super wordy teen bookworm is co conscious, so I look more intelligent than I am!)... Unknown to me (as I thought I was the only member of a System/one body one person), I was actually chatting to various members of the System I'm part of, but I thought I was just messing around roleplaying. However, I did develop the ability to rapid shift quickly through this method, and through playing multiplayer solo cards with real cards (again, I now know I was playing with various System members, but thought I was just playing card games solo!).
Hi! Just wanted to say I found your TH-cam channel some weeks ago and I’ve been binge watching ever since. Every single person on the DissociaDID system is absolutely beautiful and amazing and I hope all of you do really well as I’m currently struggling with severe depression and you guys are shining a bit of light in these dark times
This is what one of my alters were doing! They realized I wasn't doing well in math and I hadn't noticed they existed but I did realize that it wasn't ME talking to myself. It was him. Now that they've fronted i understand where they were coming from and now we use notes all the time to talk to each other.
I love you and your videos so much! YOU (the D.I.D system) helped me go to therapy. I now know that I show a lot of signs for BPD and I’m going to see a psychiatrist to get my diagnosis. I know they aren’t the same thing but I just relate to you so much and I see so much of myself in Chloe. Just - thank you.
The serif app seems incredibly useful!! I’ve heard so much about diaries, but it’s hard to take the time to write it out or find the diary in the first place. If you’re someone who always has your phone with you, that could be a game changer. Thank you, Chloe!! 💜
Serif?? Omg the functionality of that app is BRILLIANT!! FINALLY!!! I was hoping there was something like that out there! Thank you for sharing it with everyone here!
Also, I was going to suggest Voice Recordings if you didn't say it. I'm glad you know, because I definitely believe that to be a very useful means and agree with needing to hear sometimes; imperative emotions to properly convey what's being said.
You are awesome Chloe, and so is the rest of your system. I highly overall appreciate what you're doing and the way you describe everything. You are such a special person with an amazing system.
I'm really glad I discovered this channel!!
Thank you Chloe for all your wisdom, support to others and compassion.
And to everyone else in your system for everything they contribute too.
Ya'll are the coolest people (in my opinion).
So I remember one of the videos I can’t remember but it was about how when two alters intergrate it’s like losing two people and I didn’t understand that but I’m feeling that way with Chloe. I just started watching the channel last month and I felt like I had I guess a connection with Chloe and yes she’s gone I know she’s not fully gone. I also know Nina is not fully gone. I hope and pray for the system I’ve heard that intergrations can be extremely hard.
Sweet Chloe, thank you for this! I’m sure this will help the people that this applies to so much. I hope you’re settling in and feeling okay about the integration, sending all my love and hugs as always! 💛💛
I am looking forward to the OSDID SOOOO much!!! I think I might have something like that since I have such a hard time remembering everything but if someone tells me about it I can remember small details. I hope you realize how flipping important you are to us and how much you're teaching us!
Random Note! I actually needed to take out the bins because its rubbish day but i forgot and yoyr video reminded me! Thank you so much!
Love all of you in The System!! Proud of all you do! If anyone is reading this post integration, take your time coming back, process eveything thats gone on we will always support you!
I love this channel cause it’s so educational I’ve been wanting to learn abt did/osdd for a long time now and this channel is really helping me learn more abt it!
Thank you so much for everything you do!! Your videos are so helpful, both for our system and to send people to help further explain things!!
I'm looking forward to using some of these methods. Already had a lto of reaching out, mostly through being co-conscious, so I'm hoping that more will happen soon. Thank you all for everything you guys do for us. - Locke Pro System
So much love for old Chloe
You and everyone in your system are truly a blessing to this world!! Bless your heart for sharing your knowledge and journey. Much love💕💚💙💜
Ever since finding your channel, I have learned so much about myself and better ways to manage my D.I.D. Thank you for being so open about what it means to have D.I.D. My life has changed so much for the better since using the tips and tricks that you've shared to become a better system. Sending you so much love and support every day. THANK YOU!! 🤗😁💖
Ok I'm not going to lie, the short hair looked really cute on you guys. If you guys ever decided to get fringe/bangs, you should get something layered like from your 2017 look.
Thank you so much for this!! I know it's not the same Chloe who will be continuing the channel but I know you'll be just as amazing and helpful. Lots of love for you guys. You're all so amazing and strong and help so many confused individuals and systems
im here to try to learn more about it, since i know someone who has DID and dont want to be rude to any of them at all, and want to learn how to be respectful and be a good friend to the host, and one day hopefully the alters as well, so thank you :D
I'm always utterly fascinated by your strength and gentleness 💖 i love you all
I started watching you a little over a year ago and right away things started clicking into place. I'm 52 now and I was just 51 then and I kept thinking there's no way I couldn't possibly have did without knowing about it I'm too self-aware for that. I was wrong and if it hadn't been for your Channel I would have never been able to put the pieces together. It took your channel and a really terrifying situation that I am well out of now to start giving me contact with what has always been a covert system. And I don't know about anybody else but these guys are my heroes and I'm so glad I have communication now. I pretend it's not been frightening at times, but to actually have communication now and have my diagnosis is more than I could have ever done on my own without channels like yours. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Shellie
Host of the Wedja System
Hi Chloe,
I just wanted to thank you for creating all your amazing videos about DID. I find it really interesting learning about DID since I want to be a psychiatrist when I leave school. I'm also working on a novel about a teenage girl coming to terms with having DID.
All the best for you and the rest of the system 🖤
Post-integration Chloe, I’m glad you still choose to educate others about your system and DID in general. I am sure you are lovely and look forward to fully meeting you when you are ready❤️
Hey Chloe, hope the integration process with Nina is going ok! Make sure to take your time and stay hydrated
Its with Nina not Nadia! x
Chloe integrated with nina, not nadia
Whoops accidentally swapped the names, just corrected myself!
I’m not a system but I have a whiteboard on my bedroom door and a small bin below it with markers and an eraser. I use it to tell my parents if I’m streaming or want to be alone, and they use it to let me know if they need me to do something or where they’ve gone. I think everyone should have them, honestly. They make things easier and reduce paper waste!
this topic is so interesting and I really wanna learn more about this disorder! your videos really are educational and so understandable.
We personally have our own little journal to communicate and it’s not just for my system but it’s a shared journal (as we call it) with our system and our best friend’s system as we life together and we’ve kinda just formed into one big system.
I can't imagine having to have whiteboards for other, separate roommates AND for alters. Jeez. Sounds like you almost have to be organized for survival with DID. Love to all of you relearning how to live this way! ♥️
I always thought something was wrong with me, but I’ve been watching your videos and it’s all been very recent but I’ve gone through just about all of them, I was so intrigued and it began with me thinking I had a bipolar disorder and I’ve realize I may very well have DID, I really love your videos, they’re not only educational but so entertaining, I cannot take my eyes off of you guys, this is amazing!! Thank you for being so open about all of this especially on the internet!!ALSO I would like to know how you began to be able to talk to your alters as you’ve said you guys can stay in the front? I definitely have had SO many experiences but I don’t know what to do ? I’ve really only recently noticed and your videos have helped GREATLY!! I had such a misconception of DID truthfully my understanding and knowledge was only from SPLIT, and I thought no way I have DID. Again THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! I never would’ve figured myself out!
I don't have D.I.D but I just learned I'm missing an entire year of my childhood after trauma. I'm honestly freaking out and don't know how to take this news. Seeing your videos help, learning to ground and seeing people deal with their issues head on.
I don't have DID, but I enjoy your videos and all of the knowledge you give in them! I started watching your videos one night when I could sleep and was really depressed and I've been watching ever since! You really are amazing and I can't wait to meet the newly integrated you when you're ready 🧡
Omg!! I absolutely LOVE YOUR HAIR!! 😍 🌈🌈
I love your videos so much 😭 you're so sweet and kind and I just found out my boyfriend if almost 2 years cheated on me and I'm going through so much dark stuff but watching you passionately talk about being proud of who you are just really hits me and makes me feel like there's hope for things to be better thank you so much for what you do ❤❤❤
I honestly appreciate your existence so much. You don't even understand. You've helped me so much and message me feel like I'm not insane and helped me cope with my symptoms. I'm still trying to get my therapist to believe me but I don't know how to go about it. She just thinks I'm just very depressed and anxious. I'm struggling
lots of love from the Netherlands ♡
And Canada!
Amstedam .
Ey fellow Dutchy 🇳🇱 o/
Always love the videos. Integration is a bad word in our system, seem some professional believed they could put us back together. We're having none of that, and we fired said professional. From a system stand point, alters can and have merged, became as one if you will, but for us, it's been a blending and for a very specific purpose. So we were taken back by the term complete integration. Thanks DissociaDID and best of luck.