I have tears in my eyes commenting this video. I’m in the middle of a divorce after an emotional rollercoaster so similar to yours. There were dark days and the only thing holding me here was the love for my family. Seeing you fulfilled, happy and grateful about how your life turned out, fills my heart with hope of a better future for me, too. The message you posted here is powerful, thank you so much for that ❤️
Daianne, I am sending you so much love dear!!! I am so sorry for the hardships and heartbreak you have gone through. Keep trusting in the Lord and I know your happily ever after will come!! You are stronger than you know and so incredibly and fiercely loved by God, don't ever forget it. xoxox
I hope God has blessed you. But if not keep the faith your day is coming just like mines will. God doesn't work on our time but yet he still never late. All praise be to our Father and all glory go to God. Thank you Jesus!! I hope today you are fully blessed. In the name of the Father Amen!
Attention seeking.....nothing more, men have it so much harder and yet have to deal with rejection and hardships. And no one gives a sh!t about our struggles.....
happy days will come back what is needed is to keep believing because giving up is not an option.i never dreamt that my marriage will fall apart but yooo life has got surprises.i know one day God make it happen i will rejoice again
I am a therapist and was looking for help for a client - I found your video - it really helps me both delve deeper into what they are going through but I will also share this - I think it’s important that people can connect with others who have gone through the same things. Thank you for what you do - May God abundantly bless your channel.
You said “if this video can help just one person….” Well, as a 60 year old man who knows nothing about makeup I came across your video while having the same thoughts as you did back then. This video helped so much when I first watched it and I have come back to say Thank You. Thank you so much and I really REALLY think you need to speak to groups of people and share your story. It is so genuine and from your heart. I can’t thank you enough!
I’m in the middle of divorce right now and your video has helped me realize that this pain won’t last forever and God has a plan for my life. I’ve felt so lost. Thank you ❤
It's interesting when you said things got better for a short time but then went back to the way it was. This was my experience with my ex husband. He would act like he cared and heard me for maybe a week or so but deep down he was just masking to make me feel comfortable. He didn't think I would leave...and I'm so glad I did. He's a covert narccicist.
Love bombing you for a week or two and then things go right back to where they were! They just want to appease you and in your head you're really thinking this time I know he's really going to change we know how that works right? Basically with that is really about is biggest want to smooth things over because you know how forgiving you are because we're always saying I understand I know you're going through a rough time I love you so much... They eat that shit up! How many times have you said to yourself here we go again!!!
Man this hurt. Most comments are from women but as a man I felt this too. I am still struggling with the mess she left and damage caused. Thanks for your story. I hope one day I can find someone who will make me feel safe for the first time in a long time.
i’m so glad i stubbed upon this video. thank you for sharing your story. my story is so similar to yours! we just started the divorce process & although I feel really sad about it- i also have peace. not to say it doesn’t hurt. i wish we could fix things but i’m trusting God to help me through this separation. Looking forward to the light at the end of the tunnel!
Thank you so much for sharing your story, there are two things that make the most impact on me, “you have to stay here” and “I love you, even though I don’t know you”.
I'm a year 1/2 post-divorce and I feel that things are worse now than what they were before my divorce. I struggle every single day and can't seem to find the closure to my marriage and to move on. Everyday I think about my past and my life when I had a family. I feel like no one understands. Everyone tells me to move on but I just can't. I don't know what tomorrow will bring but I pray all the time that things will somehow get better ~ that one day I'll be happy again. 😞
Thank you so much for sharing your story. It is so encouraging. I recently divorced and 28 year old. Also married very young at the age of 22. After 3 moths, I am still dealing with the detachment process, blame, resentment and some regrets. I am doing my best to go back to love myself again and embrace the current emotions to the end of being back in peace. Again, thanks for your video and wish you the best luck.
I’ve been there too. But thank God I didn’t go through with it. And I physically left that marriage three weeks ago. Now I’m just waiting on it to be official. Already I feel liberated.
My husband and I are divorcing. After 7 years of cheating and lies. I’m tired. I’m hurt, I too am having those thoughts. We have two small kids and I never wanted my marriage to end. I can’t eat, I can’t sleep. I don’t know what I did to deserve this treatment. My heart is completely broken 😞
Wow! This is what I need, my husband moved out a week ago after making my life a living hell with mind games and manipulation. He was out to destroy me with the things his done. I have also gotten to a point of just ending it all but the love of my family and friends kept me. Many of these people who hurt you so deeply are damaged and demonic. They thrive on chaos and deceit. I believe in God, He is real I know that. I have just not experienced him in my dark times but now I know He is very present. I pray that my story will be as wonderful as yours. God bless you and everyone here who have been to the depts of despair like I have.
Thank you for your reply. This means so much to me. I don't know how my husband can just move on with a new person. They have set my world alight. They are happy making plans for their new lives while mine is burning down. I've asked God to remove the love I still hold in my heart for him.
I have recently ended a relationship with a really good person. I wasn't fully happy although i loved him and became depressed/ utterly overwhelmed. Ending it nearly killed me, triggered clinical depression. The most painful experience of my life. Prayer saved me 🙏
@merriemakeupartist he is heartbroken and I'm still feeling very sad for him and terribly guilty 😔 All I can do is pray about it and hand him over to God's care 🙏
Feeling alone and depression is taking me to dark place , but my kids keep me going, marriage is a toxic mess from manipulating narcissistic wife, thank you watching this video makes me feel I'm not alone . thank you
So happy that you shared your story. It is inspiring and gives hope to others. Appreciate your vulnerability. I am so glad that you are remarried and happy. Love it!
Ty so much for your sincere testimony ❤❤❤❤ I can totally resonate with your story. I too went through suicide ideation. I’m so glad we are both here today!!! GOD IS SO GOOD
Watched the video with tears. It is truly amazing how courageous you were to step out of the traumatic relationship. Thank you for sharing your experience with the women going through a similar trauma. It is not easy to get out of a narcissistic relationship. It is scary. It was a moment of true happiness when you said that you are now married to a wonderful person. Yes. As you said, we matter. ❤ ❤️
You’re very blessed to have such a happy life at such a young age. Your bad experience pit things in perspective. At 71, I still experience depression and suicidal thoughts. I’m glad for you, but you can’t promise an amazing life for anyone. Still you give good advice.
I've been going through all these things after my husband of 35 yrs told me he wanted his freedom. I was more than devastated & I thought of ending it many times & still do off & on. I still love him so deeply & I just can't accept the fact that he's doing this. Thank you so much for your story; I definitely identify with you. But my husband was never abusive in any way. I never ever saw this coming. I'm still in shock over it all & still in a tremendous amount of pain. But thank you again. I really appreciate you telling your story.
Kathy I'm experiencing the same thing. I will pray for you as I need much prayer. I've been married 31 years. I know God can restore, the question is will He? Stay strong.
I’m going through the exact same and I also felt like ending my life but I can’t because I have two beautiful kids to live for. My heart is crushed. I’m hurt, lonely, angry as hell and lost. I don’t know WHY I’m so unworthy of unconditional love and happiness. I literally give up on ever being more than just a mom.
God can and will restore, I promise! I have seen it time and time again in my life. I promise you, with all my heart, you are worthy of tremendous blessings, don’t give up hope!❤️
You hang in there mama, don’t you dare give up, or give into the lie that you are unworthy of unconditional love. I promise God is a compensatory God, and He WILL come through and bless you beyond your wildest dreams. If it’s not good, God isn’t done working yet. Sending you love ❤️
Thank you for your honesty and admitting that the signs were always there yet you chose to look the other way. Most people don't even admit that and seem surprised when things go south. Good luck with your new relationship and don't ignore the signs.
Thank you so much for this. I’m in the heat of the same exact thing, divorcing in abusive marriage. It feels like life won’t get better but you are proof that it can. Im so depressed and needed to hear this.
Yes I get it, I wish I was dead right now I get the comfort feeling of not being around anymore. If someone you loved treated me this way what could I expect from others so that's how I feel
Every word, every experience just feels like my story ! Thank you for sharing this, this has saved atleast one life today for which you will get lost of blessings❤❤!!
Just tell yourself everyday that you can ,believe in yourself sending hugs to you.i went through depression after i got divorced i really wanted to make it work but just imagine the pain i was having someone cheating 4 times and i will just forgive her.after all i got told am mot man enough i never dreamt that my marriage will fall apart but yooo life has got surprises
I just left my marriage of 17 years, is being one year and I am still so Sad 😭 I have 3 kids one of them with disabilities. I moved in with my parents we live in one bedroom, we don’t have a lot of money, no vehicle ex kept everything, I had to leave to many problems , I was not valued,respected . Now I am trying to move one and it has being so hard 😢 I lost my self worth, and because I have no job my sibilings had no respect . I just pray and hope to feel better and stronger soon. 😢
Wow I really felt you in the part that watching other you tubers and makeup saved you. That hit me so hard . You tube has been my escape since I was around 12 . I feel so much comfort watching my favourite you tubers
I am feeling very emotional. What a powerful testimony and openness you have. I feel like we have had similar experiences. Thank you for sharing your story. Your life has definitely GLOWed UP! I am so happy you found true happiness. :)
I’m sending you so much love!!!! I love what you said about a life glow up-it’s so true!! I’m sorry you have had similar hard experiences, you are so strong.💗
Thank you so much for this video. I was sobbing throughout, because I could relate so much to what you said. I especially needed to hear "God loves you." I forget that often.
Thank you SO much for sharing this. I am in tears watching it and seeing your example of going through something so heartwrenching and coming out happy once again. It gives me some hope while my marriage is ending. Your story is helping others through their situations. Thank you!
Hi new subscriber listening to your story sounds just like mine I felt the same way you did in my marriage now here separated for 7 months and have been going through up and down feelings of wanting to be back due to feeling alone but then I think back to how I felt when I was with him and change my mind now I am focusing on myself through self help books and am in counseling now to try to move forward in life and hope to be remarried one day as well thank you for sharing your story I know this story has helped a lot of women either get out of their situation or it opened their eyes to know they are not the only ones going through it 😊❤❤
I have been going through this for 30years. I am a Christian woman and so much of what you are sharing resonates with me. I’m finally leaving him. God bless you
This takes a lot of courage to speak on, you are beautiful inside and out. As as fellow makeup artist I'm so happy you have found your joy. Wishing you all the best!
Thank you. I am so encouraged that you have come out of the darkness.Unfortunately, your story is so many people’s story. I still value marriage very much, but know that God does not want anyone living in an abusive relationship. It does feel as if it will never end when you are in the midst of it so you have to do what I felt the Holy Spirit tell me, “ step out of the dance” and begin to really see things as they are, not how you wish they were.
Amen!!! I agree, marriage is of God, but I don’t believe God would have us stay in an abusive relationship. I’m proud of you for turning to God and doing what is best for you!!
hey dearly I'm a living testimony of a great Dr Daniel the relationship restorer only healer who fixed back my broken relationship after being separated for months. He can also help you too no matter how worst the case maybe Dr Daniel will put a smile on your face honey within 3days🚀🚀🚀🚀
Now you need a video of how you met your husband, how things were different dating than the previous, how you trusted again when you knew he was the one, how long you dated and all that fun stuff!! 👏 I always ask these questions to my brides it’s so fun!!
I love asking these questions to my brides too! It’s always so fun to hear people’s love stories! I might have to film a video like that in the future😊
Thank you for this massage ❤️ Im in this moment now. Make up is my escape. But this week my thoughts are terrible 😢. I’m out of the abusive relationship almost 2 years but went back for 2 weeks in summer. And it gone worse.
hey dearly I'm a living testimony of a great Dr Daniel the relationship restorer only healer who fixed back my broken relationship after being separated for months. He can also help you too no matter how worst the case maybe Dr Daniel will put a smile on your face honey within 3days🚀🚀🚀🚀🚀
You are amazing, Merrie! Thank you for sharing your story, it was inspired. So many people need to hear this message and know that life is still worth living and your story is proof of that.
I'm going through this right now.. my wife, best friend and absolute love of my life for 11 years.. since 2011..left me 3 weeks ago.. I wake up every morning thinking of how I can end my life.. I don't want to live without her.. I can't bare this pain I feel.. 😫
@izzyoda it's been a horrible 6 months.. we're friends now and hang out with our kids, have dinner every few nights together but this time apart has showed me I don't want to fix things.
@izzyoda I was having those thoughts daily for the first 2 -3 months.. then as I met other ppl it helped take my mind off her and everything.. ppl tried telling me it'll get easier but I didn't believe them. It does get easier.. and sometimes it'll get harder.. but overall there will be a point where you don't feel hurt and those suicidal thoughts become fewer and fewer. Feel free to contact me if u need any help.
Thank you so much. You have given me the strength to go on and see I some much needed help. You are a truly wonderful person and should be very proud of yourself.
Wow, it’s 2024, and I’m not a make up junkie,but your video came across my feed. I know it was God! Thank you for sharing this testimony. I pray that I, too, get to post a similar testimony after some major heartbreaking storms. Thank you for your transparency. ❤
Going through something similar. I’m on the guys end though. I was such a shity man when I met her and I could be such a good boyfriend but I would slip up and hurt her so often.. I couldn’t emotionally grow up. If I felt like she was in a bad mood it out me in a worse one. If I felt like she was being mean I would try to be even meaner. It’s hard when your compulsive and can’t control how you feel and communicate. I’m starting to change.. I seeked counseling, I’ve worked on my communication, I’ve worked harder on my goals.. unfortunately my marriage is over and even though I tried to change and prove that I could change; she had already moved on, she said she’s happy, and for me to move on. I’ve tried so hard to make this work and to improve for her and myself and it just didn’t work.. I’m having a hard time being on my own.. opportunity, growth, and passion are only worth it when it’s with someone you love.. I hope men out there realize that your wife’s emotions and feelings do matter.. maybe that dream you had doesn’t matter.. maybe your marriage is the best and biggest thing In your life and you just need to realize it..
Wow, I am blown away by your humility and emotional maturity. It takes a great deal of both to own up to one’s past mistakes. I just know you will have great things and wonderful fulfillment in your future. Thank you for your comment!
I'm in the same situation right now. Complete darkness, depression, I was never broken so much in my life. Thoughts of no escape, marriage for life and nothing else. I truly thank you for this testimony. Still wrestling about things about remarriage - if God will allow me through His grace be in healthy and fulfilling partnership approved by Him or of I need to stay single for the rest of my life. Please pray for me, thank you!
I support you and hope that life is better for you. As a Christian, I am happy to see that you are not ashamed of Him and share how God helped you and still helps you.
@@merriemakeupartistthank you ❤and for sharing your story. Specially after an abusif relationship when you gotta save yourself. It’s so crushing. But I truly believe God will put my life together. Like he did for you❤
wow such a powerful testimony! brought me to tears..i can see how difficult this was for you to film but glory to God for using you and for you being obedient to share this with millions here on YT! you're an angel and just look at how God is blessing you in abundance for being the hands and feet of Jesus...I came across your bridal makeup videos and then fell in love with her calming voice overs and amazing work of course so I had to stick around and see more, then this 🥲 so encouraging for many..thanks for being fearlessly you! 🙌🏾❤
At least you have a loving parents. They are your guards ♥️. In my situation, my selfish divorced parents have no clue where I am now and that I am getting neglected endlessly by my husband who is all about his own success and desires. Good luck for you and I ♥️.
My parents are not divorced, but they told me that I’ve made a promise to God with my marriage so I cannot get out. My Mum literally said to me „You can be happy with other aspects of life, maybe you will have children one day, try to focus on your job. Not many people are really happy in their marriage”. After hearing that, I cut myself out. I wasn’t (and still am) unable to process how a mother could have said something like that to her child.
Getting a divorce, I hadn't had suicidal thoughts since I was 13...well they came back throught this marriage my first marriage. 😔 I didn't think I'd ever be in that place again.
Thank you so much for sharing... You are such an inspiration and I found great comfort and encouragement in your story. I'm going through a divorce right now and my story is very similar to yours... I was a virgin and devout Christian when I married my husband at 31... Thought I found the love of my life and didn't believe in divorce or understand abuse at the time... We've been together 10 years and have two small kids and he has been verbally and emotionally and a few times physically abusive with me... But it was very subtle at first and grew more and more over the years... It's been hard because there were seasons where I truly thought he was progressing and changing but it's been a vicious cycle. I'm grieving because I'm now 41 with a 5-year-old and a 3 year old and I never thought I would be a single mother. On one hand I'm grieving the loss of a dream and a person I thought I knew... On the other hand I'm hopeful and relieved to be moving on to a new chapter I trust that God has great plans in store for us. Again thank you for sharing and being transparent:)
Hello love! I am so sorry for the difficulties and darkness you have experienced! I'm sorry that life has turned out so different than you imagined. You are a beloved daughter of God and He isn't finished with his unimaginably beautiful plan for you. I am sending you hugs and love! xoxo
Your story is really inspiring; thank you for sharing. Such a beautiful and loving lady God has created you to be! So thankful to the Almighty that you have found your joy and happiness again! I pray that one day God will help me overcome just like you too! I feel like i have been going through these same feelings (struggling with suicidal thoughts, depression and loneliness) for 13 years of my marriage.... lately, I even feel like my husband is trying to push me over the edge without laying a hand on me because he knows about my struggle with suicidal thoughts. It's all the lies, mind-games, manipulations, betrayal, blame shifting, neglectful and belittling treatment happening on a daily basis. dealing with him constantly feels like my head is spinning out of control and i don't understand what is happening to me or why. Some days i just feel like i need to mentally shut down just to go through the day. Unfortunately for me, i don't have any family to rely on for any sort of support (as I have converted into christianity from Islam, and have been disowned by them all) and over the years, in the process of being married to him, I have lost all my friends too (true friends with whom i could possibly share such things with)! my prayers and heart goes out to everyone who has been sharing their struggles here. Jesus is the only Hope, and friend I am counting on now.... Much prayers.
This happened for my closest friend. I do believe also in permanence marriage. She held on for so long with his crazy abuse.. until he started abusing her kids. She went from a homeschooling, stay at home mom to a single working mom, but for the first time in her life she had money, options. It was like God blessing her socks off letting her know He would provide. It was pretty cool to watch.
I was really moved by your testimony. You are a very beautiful woman. I have been single for 15 years since my last relationship. I've been very lonely at times. God may have very well saved you from something worse in the future by allowing your marriage to end. Your stronger than you know. In time as you walk with God He will strengthen you and show you the way. Thanx for sharing your story.
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I have tears in my eyes commenting this video. I’m in the middle of a divorce after an emotional rollercoaster so similar to yours. There were dark days and the only thing holding me here was the love for my family. Seeing you fulfilled, happy and grateful about how your life turned out, fills my heart with hope of a better future for me, too. The message you posted here is powerful, thank you so much for that ❤️
Daianne, I am sending you so much love dear!!! I am so sorry for the hardships and heartbreak you have gone through. Keep trusting in the Lord and I know your happily ever after will come!! You are stronger than you know and so incredibly and fiercely loved by God, don't ever forget it. xoxox
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You too huh? Me too
I hope God has blessed you. But if not keep the faith your day is coming just like mines will. God doesn't work on our time but yet he still never late. All praise be to our Father and all glory go to God. Thank you Jesus!! I hope today you are fully blessed. In the name of the Father Amen!
Attention seeking.....nothing more, men have it so much harder and yet have to deal with rejection and hardships. And no one gives a sh!t about our struggles.....
As a divorced Christian woman, I resonate so much with your story and I appreciate you sharing to know I’m not alone 🤍
happy days will come back what is needed is to keep believing because giving up is not an option.i never dreamt that my marriage will fall apart but yooo life has got surprises.i know one day God make it happen i will rejoice again
You truly blessed me with your story! I cried the entire time because your story is the same as mine, You gave me hope today.
I am a therapist and was looking for help for a client - I found your video - it really helps me both delve deeper into what they are going through but I will also share this - I think it’s important that people can connect with others who have gone through the same things. Thank you for what you do - May God abundantly bless your channel.
Thank you so much❤
You said “if this video can help just one person….”
Well, as a 60 year old man who knows nothing about makeup I came across your video while having the same thoughts as you did back then.
This video helped so much when I first watched it and I have come back to say Thank You. Thank you so much and I really REALLY think you need to speak to groups of people and share your story. It is so genuine and from your heart. I can’t thank you enough!
Your comment means so much.❤️ Thank you so much for taking the time to comment. I wish you all the best and a bright future!!!
Don't feel too bad, I am a 50 year old woman, and sadly, I don't know much about makeup either! This video helps me too!
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I’m in the middle of divorce right now and your video has helped me realize that this pain won’t last forever and God has a plan for my life. I’ve felt so lost. Thank you ❤
@@laurafoster4958 I’m so glad it was helpful.❤️ I’m so excited for you to move forward and experience so much joy in your future!!
I'm having a tough time
It's interesting when you said things got better for a short time but then went back to the way it was. This was my experience with my ex husband. He would act like he cared and heard me for maybe a week or so but deep down he was just masking to make me feel comfortable. He didn't think I would leave...and I'm so glad I did. He's a covert narccicist.
Covert narcissist. Something I learnt recently. Hope you are doing well! I’m about 6 weeks out and doing quite well.
Love bombing you for a week or two and then things go right back to where they were! They just want to appease you and in your head you're really thinking this time I know he's really going to change we know how that works right? Basically with that is really about is biggest want to smooth things over because you know how forgiving you are because we're always saying I understand I know you're going through a rough time I love you so much... They eat that shit up! How many times have you said to yourself here we go again!!!
My husband's being telling me that I have to do whatever the hell he's telling because I have no backbone to leave this relationship
Sounds like my soon to be ex husband
Damn, you are so so strong!! Thank you for sharing. I am going through divorce, and this is really helpful ❤ thank you ❤
You’ve got this!! You are so strong too! There is so much happiness ahead for you!❤️
when you said you felt "peace" for the first time in a long time, I felt that so bad. I am still waiting for that moment where I feel that peace
Man this hurt. Most comments are from women but as a man I felt this too. I am still struggling with the mess she left and damage caused. Thanks for your story. I hope one day I can find someone who will make me feel safe for the first time in a long time.
I know how you feel
Same way I feel.
I completely get it. It is a devastating place. You really don’t recognize yourself anymore.
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i’m so glad i stubbed upon this video. thank you for sharing your story. my story is so similar to yours! we just started the divorce process & although I feel really sad about it- i also have peace. not to say it doesn’t hurt. i wish we could fix things but i’m trusting God to help me through this separation. Looking forward to the light at the end of the tunnel!
@@sararamos6208 I am sending you love and hugs!! Your sadness is so valid and important to feel, and I know there is so much joy ahead for you!💕
Thank you so much for sharing your story, there are two things that make the most impact on me, “you have to stay here” and “I love you, even though I don’t know you”.
I cried while watching this , I've been going through a lot lately , struggling with suicidal thoughts, depression and loneliness😭😭😭
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I'm a year 1/2 post-divorce and I feel that things are worse now than what they were before my divorce. I struggle every single day and can't seem to find the closure to my marriage and to move on. Everyday I think about my past and my life when I had a family. I feel like no one understands. Everyone tells me to move on but I just can't. I don't know what tomorrow will bring but I pray all the time that things will somehow get better ~ that one day I'll be happy again. 😞
Gods love shine through you. Thank you for opening to the light ❤
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Thank you so much for sharing your story. It is so encouraging. I recently divorced and 28 year old. Also married very young at the age of 22. After 3 moths, I am still dealing with the detachment process, blame, resentment and some regrets. I am doing my best to go back to love myself again and embrace the current emotions to the end of being back in peace. Again, thanks for your video and wish you the best luck.
I’ve been there too. But thank God I didn’t go through with it. And I physically left that marriage three weeks ago. Now I’m just waiting on it to be official. Already I feel liberated.
My husband and I are divorcing. After 7 years of cheating and lies. I’m tired. I’m hurt, I too am having those thoughts. We have two small kids and I never wanted my marriage to end. I can’t eat, I can’t sleep. I don’t know what I did to deserve this treatment. My heart is completely broken 😞
I hope you are OK xxx i am going through the same thing
Going through the same and i am just so heartbroken and messed up. I dont think i can live another day in this pain 😢
Wow!
This is what I need, my husband moved out a week ago after making my life a living hell with mind games and manipulation. He was out to destroy me with the things his done.
I have also gotten to a point of just ending it all but the love of my family and friends kept me.
Many of these people who hurt you so deeply are damaged and demonic.
They thrive on chaos and deceit. I believe in God, He is real I know that. I have just not experienced him in my dark times but now I know He is very present.
I pray that my story will be as wonderful as yours.
God bless you and everyone here who have been to the depts of despair like I have.
I’m so sorry you are going through that.❤️ I know things will work out for your good and there are beautiful miracles ahead!❤️❤️❤️
Thank you for your reply. This means so much to me.
I don't know how my husband can just move on with a new person. They have set my world alight. They are happy making plans for their new lives while mine is burning down.
I've asked God to remove the love I still hold in my heart for him.
I have recently ended a relationship with a really good person. I wasn't fully happy although i loved him and became depressed/ utterly overwhelmed. Ending it nearly killed me, triggered clinical depression. The most painful experience of my life. Prayer saved me 🙏
@@babbaruff1045 You are so strong, I’m proud of you❤️
@merriemakeupartist he is heartbroken and I'm still feeling very sad for him and terribly guilty 😔 All I can do is pray about it and hand him over to God's care 🙏
Feeling alone and depression is taking me to dark place , but my kids keep me going, marriage is a toxic mess from manipulating narcissistic wife, thank you watching this video makes me feel I'm not alone . thank you
So happy that you shared your story. It is inspiring and gives hope to others. Appreciate your vulnerability. I am so glad that you are remarried and happy. Love it!
You posted this one year ago, but I needed to see it now. Thank you for sharing your story and your heart with us. I appreciate you.
Sending you love and prayers!!❤️
The similarities between your story and my story are mind-blowing
Ty so much for your sincere testimony ❤❤❤❤ I can totally resonate with your story. I too went through suicide ideation. I’m so glad we are both here today!!! GOD IS SO GOOD
Watched the video with tears. It is truly amazing how courageous you were to step out of the traumatic relationship. Thank you for sharing your experience with the women going through a similar trauma. It is not easy to get out of a narcissistic relationship. It is scary. It was a moment of true happiness when you said that you are now married to a wonderful person. Yes. As you said, we matter. ❤ ❤️
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Thank you, I have hope and faith, I'm ending my marriage of 15 years. A total Rollercoaster. Your words are encouraging.
Thank you for being so honest and showing the listeners that God cares and helps🙏
You’re very blessed to have such a happy life at such a young age. Your bad experience pit things in perspective. At 71, I still experience depression and suicidal thoughts. I’m glad for you, but you can’t promise an amazing life for anyone. Still you give good advice.
I've been going through all these things after my husband of 35 yrs told me he wanted his freedom. I was more than devastated & I thought of ending it many times & still do off & on. I still love him so deeply & I just can't accept the fact that he's doing this.
Thank you so much for your story; I definitely identify with you. But my husband was never abusive in any way. I never ever saw this coming. I'm still in shock over it all & still in a tremendous amount of pain. But thank you again. I really appreciate you telling your story.
Kathy I'm experiencing the same thing. I will pray for you as I need much prayer. I've been married 31 years. I know God can restore, the question is will He? Stay strong.
I’m going through the exact same and I also felt like ending my life but I can’t because I have two beautiful kids to live for. My heart is crushed. I’m hurt, lonely, angry as hell and lost. I don’t know WHY I’m so unworthy of unconditional love and happiness. I literally give up on ever being more than just a mom.
I’m so sorry Kathy.❤️ Please don’t give up hope. You are not alone and there is a beautiful future ahead of you!
God can and will restore, I promise! I have seen it time and time again in my life. I promise you, with all my heart, you are worthy of tremendous blessings, don’t give up hope!❤️
You hang in there mama, don’t you dare give up, or give into the lie that you are unworthy of unconditional love. I promise God is a compensatory God, and He WILL come through and bless you beyond your wildest dreams. If it’s not good, God isn’t done working yet. Sending you love ❤️
Thank you for your honesty and admitting that the signs were always there yet you chose to look the other way. Most people don't even admit that and seem surprised when things go south. Good luck with your new relationship and don't ignore the signs.
Thank you so much for this. I’m in the heat of the same exact thing, divorcing in abusive marriage. It feels like life won’t get better but you are proof that it can. Im so depressed and needed to hear this.
It WILL get better, I promise. Sending you love and hugs!!
Yes I get it, I wish I was dead right now I get the comfort feeling of not being around anymore. If someone you loved treated me this way what could I expect from others so that's how I feel
I'm praying for you the pain is real.
Every word, every experience just feels like my story ! Thank you for sharing this, this has saved atleast one life today for which you will get lost of blessings❤❤!!
Just tell yourself everyday that you can ,believe in yourself sending hugs to you.i went through depression after i got divorced i really wanted to make it work but just imagine the pain i was having someone cheating 4 times and i will just forgive her.after all i got told am mot man enough i never dreamt that my marriage will fall apart but yooo life has got surprises
Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing that. It helped me feel like someone knows how I feel.
oh my word, im going through a divorce as well, and im so grateful that you shared your story. thank you for being vulnerable.
I'm sorry to hear about your divorce, I am sending you love and prayers! Thank you for your sweet comment.
Going through with the same pain
I just left my marriage of 17 years, is being one year and I am still so Sad 😭 I have 3 kids one of them with disabilities. I moved in with my parents we live in one bedroom, we don’t have a lot of money, no vehicle ex kept everything, I had to leave to many problems , I was not valued,respected . Now I am trying to move one and it has being so hard 😢 I lost my self worth, and because I have no job my sibilings had no respect . I just pray and hope to feel better and stronger soon. 😢
I hope it got better for you guys . Going through it right now
Wow I really felt you in the part that watching other you tubers and makeup saved you. That hit me so hard . You tube has been my escape since I was around 12 . I feel so much comfort watching my favourite you tubers
❤ Thank you for sharing 🙏🏾
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"You have to stay here.." I felt that in my soul...
I can relate to her thinking about how ending her life brought comfort.
Thank you. I’m listening to this a day after he moved out and it is so relatable. Thank you for helping me feel less alone
This was so beautiful, Merrie. You are such a light to everyone and I'm so glad you chose to stay so we can know you.
Thank you so much Kailie💗💗💗
I am feeling very emotional. What a powerful testimony and openness you have. I feel like we have had similar experiences. Thank you for sharing your story. Your life has definitely GLOWed UP! I am so happy you found true happiness. :)
I’m sending you so much love!!!! I love what you said about a life glow up-it’s so true!! I’m sorry you have had similar hard experiences, you are so strong.💗
Thank you so so much for your bravery in sharing your story. I've been in your shoes. Still going through it.
I grew so much in my divorce healing journey after reading THE SUN ALWAYS PIERCES THROUGH
Thank you so much for this video. I was sobbing throughout, because I could relate so much to what you said. I especially needed to hear "God loves you." I forget that often.
Thank you sweet, beautiful lady for your encouragement! May God hold you in his hug always ❤
You are SO not alone in having a difficult marriage like this!
Thank you, Merrie. I am going through this exact situation and needed to hear this. God bless you and for having the courage to discuss this. ❤️
I might be a 26 year old Male but i can relate about your feelings and similar things happened in my childhood that i just have to life with!
You are not alone Kommissar!! You can get through anything, I promise. :)
I am going through so much pain and i feel so much better after listening to you ❤
Thank you SO much for sharing this. I am in tears watching it and seeing your example of going through something so heartwrenching and coming out happy once again. It gives me some hope while my marriage is ending. Your story is helping others through their situations. Thank you!
Hi new subscriber listening to your story sounds just like mine I felt the same way you did in my marriage now here separated for 7 months and have been going through up and down feelings of wanting to be back due to feeling alone but then I think back to how I felt when I was with him and change my mind now I am focusing on myself through self help books and am in counseling now to try to move forward in life and hope to be remarried one day as well thank you for sharing your story I know this story has helped a lot of women either get out of their situation or it opened their eyes to know they are not the only ones going through it 😊❤❤
@@kimswrld5321 Thank you so much for your heartfelt comment.❤️ I’m so proud of you and I just know there are amazing things in your future!!
What a beautiful testimony! May the Lord bless you for sharing this and the people that need to hear this!
Thank you so much Irina!!
I have been going through this for 30years. I am a Christian woman and so much of what you are sharing resonates with me. I’m finally leaving him. God bless you
This takes a lot of courage to speak on, you are beautiful inside and out. As as fellow makeup artist I'm so happy you have found your joy. Wishing you all the best!
Thank you so much Emily!! That truly means so much. xoxo
Thank you. I am so encouraged that you have come out of the darkness.Unfortunately, your story is so many people’s story.
I still value marriage very much, but know that God does not want anyone living in an abusive relationship. It does feel as if it will never end when you are in the midst of it so you have to do what I felt the Holy Spirit tell me, “ step out of the dance” and begin to really see things as they are, not how you wish they were.
Amen!!! I agree, marriage is of God, but I don’t believe God would have us stay in an abusive relationship. I’m proud of you for turning to God and doing what is best for you!!
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Now you need a video of how you met your husband, how things were different dating than the previous, how you trusted again when you knew he was the one, how long you dated and all that fun stuff!! 👏 I always ask these questions to my brides it’s so fun!!
I love asking these questions to my brides too! It’s always so fun to hear people’s love stories! I might have to film a video like that in the future😊
Right. I didn’t understand what happened or what she was so sad about.
Focusing on love is what pulled me out of the depression. Generate the feeling of love
Thank you for this massage ❤️ Im in this moment now. Make up is my escape. But this week my thoughts are terrible 😢. I’m out of the abusive relationship almost 2 years but went back for 2 weeks in summer. And it gone worse.
I'm so glad you included your journey with God. May you be blessed a thousand times over for that act alone. Thank you.
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Praise the lord 🙏 thankyou for sharing your story.
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I’m so glad you’re still here Merrie. You are a wonderful, beautiful person.
Thank you Megan. xoxoxo
this was my life story , i cried with your video , thanks for sharing😘
Sending you so much love!!!❤️
You are amazing, Merrie! Thank you for sharing your story, it was inspired. So many people need to hear this message and know that life is still worth living and your story is proof of that.
Thank you so much Cece!! Everything you said really means so much.❤️❤️
This made me love you even more. Thanks for being vulnerable and for sharing, Merrie. 💖
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Just thank you .now I know I wasn’t the only one
Thank you for sharing this I needed this today a divorce for me is approaching your video helped, I love to watch Kandees make up videos too
You’ve got this!! Sending you love!❤️
I'm going through this right now.. my wife, best friend and absolute love of my life for 11 years.. since 2011..left me 3 weeks ago.. I wake up every morning thinking of how I can end my life.. I don't want to live without her.. I can't bare this pain I feel.. 😫
Hey, I was just wondering how are things now that time has passed any updates
@izzyoda it's been a horrible 6 months.. we're friends now and hang out with our kids, have dinner every few nights together but this time apart has showed me I don't want to fix things.
@Buck_Maize it's been a month since my breakup of 10 years feeling low at the moment. Are u still having those thoughts ?
@izzyoda I was having those thoughts daily for the first 2 -3 months.. then as I met other ppl it helped take my mind off her and everything.. ppl tried telling me it'll get easier but I didn't believe them. It does get easier.. and sometimes it'll get harder.. but overall there will be a point where you don't feel hurt and those suicidal thoughts become fewer and fewer.
Feel free to contact me if u need any help.
@Buck_Maize thanks for replying. Just knowing you got better gives me hope to keep going. I will do that if I need help
Thank you so much. You have given me the strength to go on and see I some much needed help.
You are a truly wonderful person and should be very proud of yourself.
I hope you are doing well!! Sending you love and hugs❤️
Wow, it’s 2024, and I’m not a make up junkie,but your video came across my feed. I know it was God! Thank you for sharing this testimony. I pray that I, too, get to post a similar testimony after some major heartbreaking storms. Thank you for your transparency. ❤
Sending you all the love!!! God has an incredible plan for you❤️
Thank you so much for your speech it was so good. Iam going through the same thing now. It hurts so bad 😢
You can get through this! It is so tough, I’m so sorry.❤️ I’m praying for you!
Sounds like he was a narcissist. Gosh, it’s easy for anyone to be manipulated by a narcissist. You’re such a brave woman for sharing your story ❤️
Thank you so much :)
Going through something similar. I’m on the guys end though. I was such a shity man when I met her and I could be such a good boyfriend but I would slip up and hurt her so often.. I couldn’t emotionally grow up. If I felt like she was in a bad mood it out me in a worse one. If I felt like she was being mean I would try to be even meaner. It’s hard when your compulsive and can’t control how you feel and communicate. I’m starting to change.. I seeked counseling, I’ve worked on my communication, I’ve worked harder on my goals.. unfortunately my marriage is over and even though I tried to change and prove that I could change; she had already moved on, she said she’s happy, and for me to move on. I’ve tried so hard to make this work and to improve for her and myself and it just didn’t work.. I’m having a hard time being on my own.. opportunity, growth, and passion are only worth it when it’s with someone you love.. I hope men out there realize that your wife’s emotions and feelings do matter.. maybe that dream you had doesn’t matter.. maybe your marriage is the best and biggest thing In your life and you just need to realize it..
Wow, I am blown away by your humility and emotional maturity. It takes a great deal of both to own up to one’s past mistakes. I just know you will have great things and wonderful fulfillment in your future. Thank you for your comment!
Wow! It’s great that you know and acknowledge where you went wrong. Wishing you continued healing.
Your dreams matter. Improve for yourself, not others. Than everything you want will come to you.
I'm in the same situation right now. Complete darkness, depression, I was never broken so much in my life. Thoughts of no escape, marriage for life and nothing else. I truly thank you for this testimony. Still wrestling about things about remarriage - if God will allow me through His grace be in healthy and fulfilling partnership approved by Him or of I need to stay single for the rest of my life. Please pray for me, thank you!
Thank you so much, your video is really god sent for me right now because I am in the same situation and it's been only 2 months I have been married.
This is the kindest video that I have ever seen. Thank you for your kindness ❤️
I get this. It hits home so hard. Thank you for sharing ❤
You have a beautiful smile. I'm glad you're still here ❤
This helped at a very dark moment today. Thank you.
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I am crying because you opened my eyes!
You are beautiful inside and out. Wish you all the blessings in life that you can get.
I support you and hope that life is better for you. As a Christian, I am happy to see that you are not ashamed of Him and share how God helped you and still helps you.
Thank you so much for sharing this. I needed this today.
After my separation, I pray to God to heal me and I’m still hoping to have my little family even at my age. ❤ God bless you for sharing your story ❤
Never give up hope. I promise it is never too late for God to work miracles in your life!💕
@@merriemakeupartistthank you ❤and for sharing your story. Specially after an abusif relationship when you gotta save yourself. It’s so crushing. But I truly believe God will put my life together. Like he did for you❤
This message let's people know they're not alone. But God can also deliver you from anxiety and get off the medication.
Thanks for sharing 🙂
Thanks for sharing your story and your testimony!! Very brave and I’m sure many will benefit from your experience.
Thank you so much Kami!!💗💗💗
Thank you 🙏 this video means so much when someone understands every emotion you mentioned. Trying to get out of my darkness.
Praise God- thank you so much.
wow such a powerful testimony! brought me to tears..i can see how difficult this was for you to film but glory to God for using you and for you being obedient to share this with millions here on YT! you're an angel and just look at how God is blessing you in abundance for being the hands and feet of Jesus...I came across your bridal makeup videos and then fell in love with her calming voice overs and amazing work of course so I had to stick around and see more, then this 🥲 so encouraging for many..thanks for being fearlessly you! 🙌🏾❤
At least you have a loving parents. They are your guards ♥️. In my situation, my selfish divorced parents have no clue where I am now and that I am getting neglected endlessly by my husband who is all about his own success and desires. Good luck for you and I ♥️.
My parents are not divorced, but they told me that I’ve made a promise to God with my marriage so I cannot get out. My Mum literally said to me „You can be happy with other aspects of life, maybe you will have children one day, try to focus on your job. Not many people are really happy in their marriage”. After hearing that, I cut myself out. I wasn’t (and still am) unable to process how a mother could have said something like that to her child.
Getting a divorce, I hadn't had suicidal thoughts since I was 13...well they came back throught this marriage my first marriage. 😔 I didn't think I'd ever be in that place again.
You are one of the most beautiful woman I have ever seen in my entire life.
Thank you so much for sharing... You are such an inspiration and I found great comfort and encouragement in your story. I'm going through a divorce right now and my story is very similar to yours... I was a virgin and devout Christian when I married my husband at 31... Thought I found the love of my life and didn't believe in divorce or understand abuse at the time... We've been together 10 years and have two small kids and he has been verbally and emotionally and a few times physically abusive with me... But it was very subtle at first and grew more and more over the years... It's been hard because there were seasons where I truly thought he was progressing and changing but it's been a vicious cycle. I'm grieving because I'm now 41 with a 5-year-old and a 3 year old and I never thought I would be a single mother. On one hand I'm grieving the loss of a dream and a person I thought I knew... On the other hand I'm hopeful and relieved to be moving on to a new chapter I trust that God has great plans in store for us. Again thank you for sharing and being transparent:)
Hello love! I am so sorry for the difficulties and darkness you have experienced! I'm sorry that life has turned out so different than you imagined. You are a beloved daughter of God and He isn't finished with his unimaginably beautiful plan for you. I am sending you hugs and love! xoxo
Merrie this video has helped me so much. I listen to it on repeat. Thank you. God bless.❤️
Your story is really inspiring; thank you for sharing. Such a beautiful and loving lady God has created you to be! So thankful to the Almighty that you have found your joy and happiness again! I pray that one day God will help me overcome just like you too! I feel like i have been going through these same feelings (struggling with suicidal thoughts, depression and loneliness) for 13 years of my marriage.... lately, I even feel like my husband is trying to push me over the edge without laying a hand on me because he knows about my struggle with suicidal thoughts. It's all the lies, mind-games, manipulations, betrayal, blame shifting, neglectful and belittling treatment happening on a daily basis. dealing with him constantly feels like my head is spinning out of control and i don't understand what is happening to me or why. Some days i just feel like i need to mentally shut down just to go through the day. Unfortunately for me, i don't have any family to rely on for any sort of support (as I have converted into christianity from Islam, and have been disowned by them all) and over the years, in the process of being married to him, I have lost all my friends too (true friends with whom i could possibly share such things with)! my prayers and heart goes out to everyone who has been sharing their struggles here. Jesus is the only Hope, and friend I am counting on now.... Much prayers.
This happened for my closest friend. I do believe also in permanence marriage. She held on for so long with his crazy abuse.. until he started abusing her kids. She went from a homeschooling, stay at home mom to a single working mom, but for the first time in her life she had money, options. It was like God blessing her socks off letting her know He would provide. It was pretty cool to watch.
Thank you so much for this video. Your story and advice really helped me.
Thank you so much for sharing this🤎 God bless you, your family, and you business
This is a beautiful video and you are such a beautiful kind soul. Thank you.
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I was really moved by your testimony. You are a very beautiful woman. I have been single for 15 years since my last relationship. I've been very lonely at times. God may have very well saved you from something worse in the future by allowing your marriage to end. Your stronger than you know. In time as you walk with God He will strengthen you and show you the way. Thanx for sharing your story.