Crystal Meth and Fentanyl Addict-Ehab

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  • Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Ehab, a crystal meth and fentanyl addict in Los Angeles.
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  • @terryoconnor1744
    @terryoconnor1744 2 ปีที่แล้ว +244

    I grew up with Ehab, he's a great dude. Talented, smart, giving and he has an amazing sense of humor. Ehab - It's never too late to change your life. Talk with someone about the underlying circumstances of your addiction, so you can begin healing. Then start building up reasons to be sober, and over time, it will get easier. Love you, man.

    • @dannyreynolds8001
      @dannyreynolds8001 2 ปีที่แล้ว +31

      Man, this almost has me crying. Ehab is one of the good ones. So are you Terry, even me maybe. Glad you saw this

    • @terryoconnor1744
      @terryoconnor1744 2 ปีที่แล้ว +25

      @@dannyreynolds8001 You are too, man. I think learning self-forgiveness and acceptance helps us see it in ourselves. Time and geography have separated us, but you all are etched in my heart, and I think about you often. Love you man.

    • @dannyreynolds8001
      @dannyreynolds8001 2 ปีที่แล้ว +14

      @@terryoconnor1744 love you too brother, badass neck tattoo btw!

    • @mediii8057
      @mediii8057 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Awe I hope your friend takes your advice and cleans up for his own sake. He needs friends like you to be the positive in the situation

  • @elexis3728
    @elexis3728 2 ปีที่แล้ว +105

    You can hear something in his voice that isn’t deliberate. He is not intentionally trying to tell a sad story or anything like that but man, I hear it loudly. I wish better days for him.

    • @hnybee113
      @hnybee113 2 ปีที่แล้ว +14

      You hear his trauma in his voice. The almost child like fear of telling his truth. It hurts me too listen too his pain of why? Why dad? Why?. These interviews humble me in such powerful ways.

  • @danib4798
    @danib4798 2 ปีที่แล้ว +145

    Ehab has a gift. Not everyone can just go off talking and have you intrigued. Found myself hanging on every word. He has construction worker hands. Can't believe after everything he doesn't blame his dad. Very interesting life story Ehab. I can tell you have a big heart & love your family. Sorry you had to go through all that. Your father's issues caused a trickle affect. Be strong my friend you can do whatever you set your mind to, including being a best man! 👏 👏 to you for putting the roof on your moms house by yourself!

    • @Mercedesg604
      @Mercedesg604 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      It's the speed that most likely brings him this intelligence. Most down addicts are sluggish and lazy and bad vocabulary or rather choose not to use a good vocabulary.

    • @Mercedesg604
      @Mercedesg604 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      But methheads on the other hand.... charming when they talk and articulated. I don't mean like a deteriorated methhead who's been on the road of self destruction for years and who isn't a functioning addict, but from experience, people who start this narcotic methamphetamine, have the gift of the gab in the beginning stages. It makes you feel powerful confident and clever and to say the least witty..... how long does this fake sense of intelligence last? Only God knows.

    • @z.s.n.
      @z.s.n. 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Those hands are from injecting drugs into them.

    • @florairvan8305
      @florairvan8305 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      After reading so many comments and
      writing one myself, I just want to
      say how much I appreciate the
      kind and loving comments directed
      to Ehab.... and Mark, if you ever
      read this I want to compliment
      you from the bottom of my heart.
      It is a great, even godly thing that
      you are doing giving broken,
      hurting people a platform in
      which there is no judgment, no
      condemnation, but a listening
      ear. What you are doing is
      actually very Christlike. He
      did not condemn but listened
      with a heart filled with compassion.
      You don't provide answers, but
      that is not your job. I sense that
      you are providing a real ministry,
      much more than traditional
      church where you wear a mask
      and keep your mouth shut. Mark
      I discern that you are so turned
      off with traditional "Christianity."
      And guess what? So is God.He
      looks at the heart only and is not
      turned off by so-called dregs of
      society.In fact, Jesus was called
      a wineo and glutton by the
      pharisees It's in the Bible: New
      Testament I am THANKFUL for
      you Mark.....and God Bless You..

  • @esthermurray4130
    @esthermurray4130 2 ปีที่แล้ว +132

    Heart-wrenching to listen to this man.
    He's not taking the victim role on him at all.
    I respect him for that , and the deep love he has for his mother.
    The hold that drugs have on people is so, so terrible and sad .

    • @jeriannsmith4128
      @jeriannsmith4128 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Agree. Heartbreaking

    • @termite7790
      @termite7790 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      I agree too

    • @nikkialicia3303
      @nikkialicia3303 2 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      This one has probably made me the saddest. His sadness breaks my heart :(

  • @ProductofNZ
    @ProductofNZ 2 ปีที่แล้ว +114

    This channel really brings home how much a father's behaviour can literally affect generations.

    • @5thdimension625
      @5thdimension625 2 ปีที่แล้ว +32

      The sins of the father shall be visited upon the son~William Shakespeare

    • @susanmurphy958
      @susanmurphy958 2 ปีที่แล้ว +13

      @@5thdimension625 And the grand son. And the great grand son, etc.

    • @thefitzs
      @thefitzs 2 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      It's so tragic how one man can wreak havoc on generations to come. Do men even understand the power they hold? I hope that if they did, they would choose to do better. Many do. But many don't.

    • @bbe3034
      @bbe3034 2 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      I wish there were mandatory “prepare for life classes” in high school and early college that could address relationships, child trauma, abuse, personality disorders, how to manage money, and the real dangers of drugs in depth. Ehab seems like a nice guy. Hope his life gets much better!

    • @nickbrennan3389
      @nickbrennan3389 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      True...and many good men don't get the opportunity to marry and have children

  • @Boss_Man00
    @Boss_Man00 2 ปีที่แล้ว +212

    Oh man, I feel really bad for this guy, I also had an alcoholic father who fought a lot at home, my siblings are also severely physically disabled. I can relate to this guy so much, I did a lot of drugs to try to fill a void. Hope he can get out of it and have a positive happy life.

    • @sauceey7378
      @sauceey7378 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@raven4231 ear. U. Yuh w u you y. R u. Uuuy. U wd

    • @erichramone7812
      @erichramone7812 2 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      @@sauceey7378 what?

    • @erichramone7812
      @erichramone7812 2 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      I agree with you man. I’m recovering as well.

    • @janicetillman6044
      @janicetillman6044 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Yep my daddy is alcoholic and was and still is abusive to us but he's suffering now

  • @bumblebreee
    @bumblebreee 2 ปีที่แล้ว +66

    Definitely has his mother heart ... the honesty & self awareness he has , even at a young age . I see & hope better for his future 🤞🏾💙

  • @nickycole9047
    @nickycole9047 2 ปีที่แล้ว +118

    As a Christian Palestinian/Lebanese Arab you don't come across too many drug addicts. My heart bleeds for this guy's story. I hope he gets clean someday.

    • @Lynnbishouty2012
      @Lynnbishouty2012 2 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      Christian Palestinian here too & completely agreed!

    • @chrissparks3254
      @chrissparks3254 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      🙏

    • @mediii8057
      @mediii8057 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      I’m not middle eastern but I have a ton of friends who are , my brother in law is Palestinian and the most I’ve ever seen any of them do is smoke weed here and there. I’ve never ever seen one addicted to hardcore drugs. That is something that is one of the worst things you can do that shames you and your whole family. Middle Eastern cultures are sooo strict. My god I hope he cleans up his act for his family and his own sake.

    • @binkytube
      @binkytube 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      It's such a shame religion has destroyed a lot of families.

  • @4eyes2sea
    @4eyes2sea 2 ปีที่แล้ว +87

    Truly, one of the most beautiful interviews yet. My heart hurts for him when he cries. We can hear in his voice, there are a lot of unshed years. I love the crazy honesty coming from this beautiful soul. *hugs*

  • @myeyeswentdeaf6213
    @myeyeswentdeaf6213 2 ปีที่แล้ว +110

    First drug I ever sold was crack in NYC in the 90’s. I was fourteen. Through the years I started selling less n using more. But 30 years in the drug life showed me that most hard drug users are just people dealing with trauma who are actually very good hearted people, including many of the dealers. It’s a very dark n dangerous place in life full of predators, it pulls in the vulnerable. But I have met some of the best, caring, n humble people here. Sadly we will not all survive here

    • @francesalexander2545
      @francesalexander2545 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      I agree 💯. It's like once a child is broken it's a hard climbing back out of the hole. God Bless you 🙏🏽🫂

    • @davidmerlin6787
      @davidmerlin6787 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Bullshit.... They are all scumbags

    • @ezramendoza1485
      @ezramendoza1485 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@davidmerlin6787 epic logic moment

    • @theinkbrain
      @theinkbrain 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @My eyes Went deaf! So sad. I don't give a s**t for the pos criminals and the violent junkies and violent nut-jobs, but innocent, non-violent people like the ones you refer to here should not be victims. I wish them well.

    • @lauramarie166
      @lauramarie166 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      Exactly

  • @jujujouet7944
    @jujujouet7944 2 ปีที่แล้ว +32

    What a raw story. Especially appreciated Ehab speaking about spirituality. I liked his comment, "not even God can fight our own existence....and just our own existence is the biggest miracle in the universe." He wears his heart on his sleeve, especially when he speaks about his brother and mother. Very touching, although it makes sense how raw his emotions are, why he would seek drugs to numb himself from the pain of it all.

    • @Copilot1204
      @Copilot1204 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Beautifully said Juju

  • @rangersammy
    @rangersammy 2 ปีที่แล้ว +63

    Damn, this dude is really being honest. I hope he gets help and cleans up his life.

  • @rediculossc7277
    @rediculossc7277 2 ปีที่แล้ว +16

    To think he could have been a productive member of society, and his brother could still be alive if they weren't screwed up by his Father. His Father broke him at a young age. Makes you realize how important being a good parent is.

  • @becky3410
    @becky3410 2 ปีที่แล้ว +168

    Ehab is such an honest breath of fresh air! Such a smart guy who’s made some really bad choices, but he had to grow up with an alcoholic father and he knew at such a young age the anger was because of his fathers hatred for himself! So sad! Even though he struggles with addiction, he still has such respect for his mother! That says a lot about a man’s character! Prayers 🙏🏼 for Ehab and his fight to get sober. God bless him!

    • @hipsonsogbo
      @hipsonsogbo 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      He's lieing, only if you are gullible will you believe this bullshit story

    • @termite7790
      @termite7790 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      God bless Ehab

    • @aztecruler11
      @aztecruler11 2 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      @@hipsonsogbo Who the FUCK are you to judge???

    • @hipsonsogbo
      @hipsonsogbo 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@aztecruler11 can spot a lier a mile away

    • @hipsonsogbo
      @hipsonsogbo 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@termite7790 God gives kids cancer, God bless

  • @nasrghebar8379
    @nasrghebar8379 2 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    "I don't need money, drugs. I need to be sober" wow powerful

  • @vicklemiss
    @vicklemiss 2 ปีที่แล้ว +70

    The understanding this man has for his violent father is admirable after what he went through. I hope you find peace Ehab 🙏🏻

  • @valeriechapa7567
    @valeriechapa7567 2 ปีที่แล้ว +32

    Watching Ehab's interview has had a an effect on me that has me feeling so much right now. So many different emotions and for different reasons. I'm having a difficult time understanding why I feel a strong connection with him or maybe his experiences, I don't know. I was able to visualize everything he said. And to know there was so much he didn't say, has my heart heavy. I pray that he soon realizes that he not only has his mother's heart, but her bravery and strength as well. Maybe then, he'll be able to let go of everything needed so he can start healing and finally begin to live a happy and healthy life. And, that he's able to do it while he still has his mom.
    Ehab, much love and respect for sharing a part of yourself with all of us. And Mark.. I wish I had a better way to describe or express how, what you do, makes me feel. You blow me away.. Thank you.

    • @abbiesonntag3855
      @abbiesonntag3855 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Valerie! You found words for everything I feel about Ehab and how I felt listening to him and you NAILED it about how I feel as well about Mark and his work! Hard for me to ever find the words for my insides. Thank you for your comment. ❤

  • @onward2727
    @onward2727 2 ปีที่แล้ว +29

    I need this guy to make it. I’m rooting for him. I hope he gets clean and somehow turns things around. Maybe at least for his lost brother, and for the goodness of his mother.
    I’m donating for him. (and other of course).

  • @dannyreynolds8001
    @dannyreynolds8001 2 ปีที่แล้ว +13

    Ehab if you see this, I miss you man... you are forever a brother 💙 I hope you get your feet back under you, you know you can.

  • @jahawhitaker1016
    @jahawhitaker1016 2 ปีที่แล้ว +14

    You can hear the sadness in his voice as if he's all cried out 😩😩 wishing him healing 🙏

  • @dirtypatwalsh
    @dirtypatwalsh 2 ปีที่แล้ว +82

    Great interview Ehab…that was a super interesting story bro. I’m sorry for all of the stuff you had to deal with so far. Stay safe and be well sir.

  • @carynmartin6053
    @carynmartin6053 2 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    Such a beautiful, articulate, insightful young man! I too had an angry alcoholic father who yelled at me for eating dinner too fast, and afterward I ate sarcastically slowly and got my dinner plate flung across the room and he picked me up by my shirt and threw me on the bed with a raised fist in my face for it. It's things like this you remember forever. I had children with a man with similar issues. I told my addict son the same thing ehab's mom told him; he has my heart and his angry alcoholic fathers mind, please try to be more like me than him bc he died young from drugs and alcohol abuse. God bless him 🙏 ❤

  • @lavendersnow6447
    @lavendersnow6447 2 ปีที่แล้ว +21

    This is one of my favorite interviews in a long time. I have a lot of respect for his honesty. He seems like despite his situation, he's a good man. He has a good heart and he really does deserve better than this current situation.

  • @uberrideadventures271
    @uberrideadventures271 2 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    Man this one touched me. He seems to have his mothers heart of gold. Seems to be pretty smart too I hope he keeps on the path

  • @emmaleia13
    @emmaleia13 2 ปีที่แล้ว +21

    Ehab's story breaks my heart. He has only known the dialogue of violence and to appease the violence that has remained in him, drugs appease him. I really hope that he will get out of this situation because he is a good and courageous man. You have a big heart Ehab

  • @anchovy9405
    @anchovy9405 2 ปีที่แล้ว +23

    🥺💔❤️ He loves his family so much, it’s sad when families fall apart… I understand how it is to live in a house where you have an angry father and have to walk on eggshells… It’s an awful environment and scary for a child. Best of luck to you Ehab❤️

  • @specialk5579
    @specialk5579 2 ปีที่แล้ว +18

    It’s soo heartbreaking to know the severity of abuse Ehab went thru as he said the only people who care for his father ; his family are the very people he lashed out at & mentally and physically abused 😔

  • @sandife4nandes365
    @sandife4nandes365 2 ปีที่แล้ว +15

    OMG, I can relate to Ehab's story so much with two exceptions; 1. My father did not drink, he was just mean as hell and 2. I did not use drugs or alcohol. I lost my only sibling, my sister to a rare illness. I have that huge empty hole also. I had rage issues as well. I got into therapy as well as my sister. It helped us tremendously. We lived on eggshells too. I hope Ehab becomes a survivor as well.

  • @Hate_wagon
    @Hate_wagon 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    This man's path is close to my own.... I'm off drugs that aren't from a doctor now..but it was hard... I truly wish him the best

  • @Mesuxyxrxbskxkxyp
    @Mesuxyxrxbskxkxyp 2 ปีที่แล้ว +21

    My roommate from college turned full paranoid schizophrenic our sophomore year. He was experienced with drug use, and one single gel tab acid made him lose his mind and ruined his life.

    • @michaelbyers169
      @michaelbyers169 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Acid can trigger symptoms but it cannot cause schizophrenia. Whether you knew it or not kid already had problems. The acid didn’t help it, but it wasn’t the reason he is schizophrenic.

  • @shadow.banned
    @shadow.banned 2 ปีที่แล้ว +65

    Ehab's story about his brother's bad trip, I hear the same story all the time. Wrong place, wrong time, wrong trauma, it can derail a life.
    Children have no business taking drugs while they're still developing. We're already pushing the limits with candy, soda, energy drinks, etc.
    They absolutely should not be given adderall or LSD or mushrooms. Even THC can induce schizophrenia in the wrong brain.
    Adults who give young children drugs need stiffer penalties. I have no respect for adults who rob kids of their mental health.

    • @solosoulet
      @solosoulet 2 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      If acid could cause brain damage there would be millions of cases in the US alone. The effects he describes here sound like coming from brain trauma or a brain aneurysm.

    • @hipsonsogbo
      @hipsonsogbo 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@solosoulet agree the story about acid is total bullshit, these lame stories misrepresent drugs

    • @amjedhatu542
      @amjedhatu542 2 ปีที่แล้ว +13

      He jumped out of a window. That’s what caused the brain damage. Him taking the drugs and getting a bad trip caused him to jump out of the window. I personally know people who have had bad trips and have hurt themselves. Acid can cause you to hurt yourself if you have a bad trip. He isn’t giving drugs a bad rep, drugs are giving themselves a bad rep.

    • @solosoulet
      @solosoulet 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@amjedhatu542 of course, that's why you should always have a sitter and be in a safe place if you are going to do high dosages of psychedelic drugs. educate yourself before taking drugs like LSD which is the more powerful psychoactive drug known to man, by weight. these things are not toys

    • @amjedhatu542
      @amjedhatu542 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@solosoulet I agree but these guys were basically kids.

  • @jennifersampson8958
    @jennifersampson8958 2 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    I can not even imagine how absolutely exhausting and emotionally draining listening to these stories all day is for mark. I think my favorite thing about the interviews is the photo. Hearing each story then getting the slow pan of a full body picture is what makes the photo a real person, we have a voice and a history explaining why we see what we see in the photo. I am in awe of what you do, mark. It is truly art.

  • @chrissparks3254
    @chrissparks3254 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    He nailed it when he said he realized at age 6 his dad didn’t hate him he hate himself. Self hate fuels some much in a person. It helped fuel 20 years of addiction in me.

  • @abbiesonntag3855
    @abbiesonntag3855 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    The story of his friends, outside the dealers house yelling "Give us our Ehab back!" 😭😭😭😭 I cried pretty much this entire interview. Thank you for sharing, strong Ehab and Mark! Wishing you all tha love! Both of you.

  • @thefitzs
    @thefitzs 2 ปีที่แล้ว +53

    Of all the subjects - wait, no, of all the PEOPLE, the *human beings* interviewed by Mark, Ehab, I think you're my favorite. You were a beautiful little boy who deserved to be loved and cherished by his father, and through no fault of your own, you weren't, and that disorder brought about your pain and the need to escape it. Ehab, you are a wonderful creation of God, and He loves you the way a good father is supposed to love his son. We live in a very broken, fallen world because of sin. You experienced the fallout of that and that is very sad and tragic. But you can make the decision to turn away from that, and toward the one who truly loves you and wants what's best for you. I pray you will do that. You are a remarkable man, and so deserving of love and blessings.

    • @Rhonda9199
      @Rhonda9199 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Very well said!!!

    • @Anewsonginmyheartforever
      @Anewsonginmyheartforever 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      I stand in agreement and will also be praying for you Ehab! (I also can see the beautiful, gentle boy he was and how it breaks my heart to see the brutality bestowed on him)..Ehab is PRECIOUS, SO SENSITIVE AND THOUGHTFUL WITH GREAT AWARENESS

    • @BritTellstheTruth
      @BritTellstheTruth 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Amen. 🙏

  • @amstergal
    @amstergal 2 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    Ehab, you have such a beautiful heart and never deserved the abuse you suffered. I hope you find the will to find another path in life, like having your own business, maybe construction related if that's what you want. I wish you all the best!

  • @grappetsail
    @grappetsail 2 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    I know a lot of people have said this, but these interviews should be shown in schools

  • @Adam_S4
    @Adam_S4 2 ปีที่แล้ว +15

    Ehab, I sincerely hope you figure this out. Call those friends you spoke of and ask them for help. Please believe me, I know it's hard to ask for help, especially for people like us. I've been down the same road, I'm still struggling to stay on the right path. It's harder than words can explain but it's possible. I had no hope...2 od's didn't stop me, jail didn't stop me, losing all my "friends" didn't stop me. I've never related to someone more I've seen on here than you, I wish I was in a position to really help. You're so lucky to have those friends you spoke of, reach out to them and get out of California. Please.

  • @maiashar8441
    @maiashar8441 2 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    Ehab's childhood sounds so familiar to me, grew up in a very similar culture, where toxic masculinity and patriarchy destroy families. His story hurt my heart. Hang in there Ehab, you are so smart and kind, you can find your way, I just know it.

  • @WorldofMotown2909
    @WorldofMotown2909 2 ปีที่แล้ว +54

    As important as it is to have a father figure every woman and child is better off without an abusive man in their lives. I have no doubt that since Ehab was a child more has been done to hold such fathers accountable for their destructive actions but it's just not enough imo.

    • @millions2nette
      @millions2nette 2 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      I agree! So many men are like his father. Some of them even murder the women. It's horrible. Ehab even said his dad held a knife on his mother. There should be stronger punishment for this domestic abuse.

    • @barbarab8182
      @barbarab8182 2 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      I had a drug addict/alcoholic husband, when my son was 2 and my daughter was 6 i took control, divorced him and made sure that if he was to see his kids, he had to be clean and have a third party present, he never contacted his kids again. My kids are happy well adjusted adults and had one very loving parent and other family members that loved them! Amen to women who are strong enough to get an abusive or destructive partner out of their lives!

  • @Joanna-hq2el
    @Joanna-hq2el 2 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    Ehab it’s never too late. You can absolutely turn your life around don’t feel like it’s too late. It might not feel like it but you’re still young and you have a lot of life ahead of you if u get clean. I know it’s not easy but you’re worth so much.

  • @rosalind442
    @rosalind442 2 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    The stories these people tell you Mark are so remarkable, sad and heartbreaking! What a tragic life this young man’s had. He does deserve better than this.

  • @BlackTrunksPodcast
    @BlackTrunksPodcast 2 ปีที่แล้ว +21

    Drugs have been the downfall of many great people. Keep your head up and continue to fight against addiction! ✊🏾

  • @mysticmama740
    @mysticmama740 2 ปีที่แล้ว +14

    ""The Sadness", that's what those chapters would be called." - Ehab. And when he tells the meaning of his name and how he feels it's opposite of himself. It's so hard to love and value oneself when those that teach you how to do that act like they hate you and beat you b/c of their own self hatred. He talks about that night his Dad beat him so badly that he ran down the street to his friends house and couldnt even tell them what had happened. I can't imagine the shame he carried along with the hurt. And we can see via his accounts how all of his siblings had a rough life too b/c of this. So so sad to think of innocent kids getting the innocence beaten right out of them and turning to drugs to numb the pain. Ehab is such a sweet, gentle soul, can you imagine if he had loving parents? I wish him the best. Even his word recall and voice sound tattered, he probably had cognitive issues from such a rough life from the start. That time his Dad slammed hi head on the ground for looking out the window. Ugh. Hug Ehab! Sending so much love.

  • @buchi777_
    @buchi777_ 2 ปีที่แล้ว +40

    You definitely deserve better than that Ehab. Your family believes in you and now by sharing your story we believe that you can make it. Its about time to persevere and try to make good decisions specially for yourself. Will be praying for you Ehab.

  • @ahenen04
    @ahenen04 2 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    Ehab you grabbed my heart ❤️. I’m so sorry this happened to you. We are probably related. My mom is Jordanian and from the Tadros family. I totally understand where you are coming from. Thank you for being so honest and bravely sharing your story. I am praying 🙏 for you to get sober and live a happy life.

  • @lynnhexler-haan3357
    @lynnhexler-haan3357 2 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    Ruthlessly honest! Thankyou, Ehab, I wish you well...

  • @celizbish
    @celizbish 2 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    Thanks for sharing your story Ehab! You are a really sweet, humble guy. God please keep him safe and set him free from addiction.

  • @sarair8555
    @sarair8555 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    honest, smart, capable, compassionate, self-aware, and handsome to boot. wishing him a path to a peaceful life

  • @afibeh3761
    @afibeh3761 2 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    Ehab Habibi 🌹
    I can relate to your story having abusive and violent dad at home BUT my siblings and me went the opposite way and we all became educated and professionals!
    So ! It is very much doable.
    You can definitely do it . You are too smart for this lifestyle
    Get clean , get your life back
    I believe in you so much . You have what it takes! START NOW!!

  • @kurdishgirl6361
    @kurdishgirl6361 2 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    Ehab my brother, Baba did you wrong. I hope your heart (mother’s gift) will always be louder than your mind 😘

  • @claudiaguerra1198
    @claudiaguerra1198 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    One of the best interviews yet. I was captivated the entire time. Such a smart man and he owns who he is both his moments to be proud of and his bad decisions. I hope for only the best for, Ehab.
    Side note- he sounds a lot like a young Al Pacino.

  • @519MaLoNeY
    @519MaLoNeY 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    That ending was outstanding! Something that profound coming out of someone who’s been so hurt by life is truly inspiring. I wish Ehab nothing but the best in putting things back together.
    I don’t know how you get through all these interviews Mark. These are DEVASTATING are heartbreaking. Thank you SO much for sharing these chats with us. They really help.

  • @tereseday4060
    @tereseday4060 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    I'm starting to think everyone should be in therapy. When you meet people, remember, you're really meeting a 5 year old, who may be in pain.

  • @Manifestandchill
    @Manifestandchill 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Omg, I just want to give this man a hug. He really needs love. My thoughts and love are with him.

  • @Ink.by.Leah604
    @Ink.by.Leah604 2 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    One thing about many of the people being interviewed on this channel is they take full responsibility of their own actions no matter what they been through. Poor guy. I come from an Arab background so I can relate to the dynamic. I hope he has the will to get help and get better. I can see he has a lot of love in his heart and pure soul. If you read this Ehab, life is beautiful and there is so much more to it then homelessness and drugs. You deserve better than the cards you were dealt. I hope you can soon appreciate life’s beauty in sobriety in’shallah.

  • @cooperstarr
    @cooperstarr 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Ehab, I love how you love your Mama. It shows your heart and demonstrates that you deserve love. As the Mama of a young man and a person who believes in the healing power of that kind of love, I'm sending you a belly full. May it fill you up and help sustain you until you can love yourself as much.💙

  • @mzblueberryyumyum
    @mzblueberryyumyum 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    The best interviews are when they do the most talking, they can tell their story without little to no need of questions

  • @busterroxymyadorablechihua1741
    @busterroxymyadorablechihua1741 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    You can hear the sadness and despair in his voice! I pray that you find Peace my Friend!

  • @seansullivan4223
    @seansullivan4223 2 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    I love you Ehab. You are a good man.

  • @mariamgrigoryan1458
    @mariamgrigoryan1458 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I wish you all the strength in the world to get through this. I know how difficult it is, but it can be done. If there is anyone in this world who deserves to get through this it’s people with clean hearts like you.

  • @PocketSand89
    @PocketSand89 2 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    Wow he's a beautiful and genuine soul... I hope he can find his way 💚

  • @Phyx1u5
    @Phyx1u5 2 ปีที่แล้ว +18

    dam I really wish this guy gets better. I can definitely relate to this guys situation.

  • @catherinereynolds8281
    @catherinereynolds8281 2 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    Damn Ehab my Heart just aches for you. I truly had know idea it was really that bad. I'm so sorry man. We all love and miss you. I promise things will get better for you because you have a lot of determination. Hang in there Ehab.😊 You deserve nothing but the best! You got this Ehab P.S I miss your silly personality. Love you like a Brother Ehab

  • @shereetedrow8645
    @shereetedrow8645 2 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    Trauma leaves beautiful, talented young souls vulnerable to addiction…it’s heartbreaking 💔…treat the cause not the resulting addiction…I would say why wouldn’t this guy end up addicted to drugs his story is heartbreaking…I hope he finds sobriety with treatment of the trauma

  • @montereyspike
    @montereyspike 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    For all his traumas, I'm glad that at least he has a good Mom who loves him. His eyes lit up when he talked about her.

  • @leneo1731
    @leneo1731 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    You are worth so much more than this, Ehab!
    What needs to happen for you to believe that?
    The love you're missing and longing for from your father unfortunately never happened the way you needed, it sounds.
    He was not a good man.
    You are. You're nothing like him.
    I can hear that you are a kind and caring person.
    The pride you showed when you were talking about the roof was real touching to me.
    I want you to feel pride every day.
    Try and get Mark's help to go to rehab.
    Get clean and feel proud every day.
    People have a lot of respect for addicts that doesn't use anymore.
    People don't judge the way you think they do.
    I've seen it myself, people who get clean get so much respect and love.
    As they should!
    So I really, really want for you to get clean again and feel proud and be happy with yourself.
    You deserve it!

    • @ATF_N3tworkX
      @ATF_N3tworkX 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      I am in recovery myself and I can tell form experience that it was the hardest thing that I had ever had to do. It was all worth it though.

  • @michpratt1
    @michpratt1 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    I could be completely off on this, (even though he said he used to have anger issues also), Ehab has a calming effect and is very open which Mark sometimes has to pull out of ppl. I love that he expresses his pain and hurt so eloquently, like after his brother got hurt and said it created a black hole in the family and their hearts 😞Then he cried. This poor guy.

  • @aminababneh5964
    @aminababneh5964 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Being a Jordanian I know his father’s type, they ruin their children forever. Probably the fact that they moved to the US makes it a lot worse for them.

  • @sneakerheadjt
    @sneakerheadjt 2 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    I've watched a lot of these and I can't help doubting a few things of their stories but this guy.... I pray he stays safe

  • @francesalexander2545
    @francesalexander2545 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Thank you Ehab. Your story helped me realize that it doesn't matter where you were born, we are all together in this world. We are all having a human experience. God Bless 🙏🏽

  • @questioneverythingFC
    @questioneverythingFC 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    @17:00 I just want to hug him so bad🥺🥺🥺❤️❤️ what a sweet soul. This whole interview is him talking about his family and about how much he loves them (especially his mother and brother who passed) and shaped who he became. I hope the best for Ehab 😢 I was listening carefully throughout, such a heartbreaking story. I hope to get updates soon!💔❤️

  • @alissaxoxo
    @alissaxoxo 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    This interview just breaks my heart. what a sweet handsome man. I pray he gets sober and finds happiness 🤍

  • @nolaflowers6272
    @nolaflowers6272 6 หลายเดือนก่อน

    The Love that flows through this man is so touching. Ehab I’m rooting for you!

  • @susancarver7339
    @susancarver7339 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    The sadness in his voice breaks my heart!

  • @tulipkwt8287
    @tulipkwt8287 2 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    He said his brother’s name: Ashraf Tadros - they both carry neutral Arabic first names but their last name is Eastern Orthodox. This makes them Arab Christians. Which makes sense how they asked for asylum. Many Arab Christians lie about being persecuted in their home countries in order to seek asylum and become Americans. He even said his dad went to European schools which shows they had money. New Jersey and California are examples of how Coptic Orthodox Christians from Egypt lied to seek asylum, became Americans, reached the financial level they aimed for and ended up moving back to Egypt (as Americans) to escape paying taxes. Long story short: if Ehab would have grown in Jordan I know for a fact his story would have been totally different. Being from the M.E. myself I know that he would have had a better support system as a child. His mom’s family would have stood up to his dad’s abuse and Ehab himself would have had many friends that treated him more like a brother. Drugs are not as widely spread on our countries. I’m not saying America is Hell, I’m just a firm believer that people grow better where their roots are! Even Americans stick to their roots, you’ve got Italians, Greeks, Chinese and all other ethnicities in America that group themselves together to gain some kind of inner peace.
    Ehab, if you’re reading this, I hope you know that if you ever feel a longing to go back to where you’re from, your people will have their arms wide open for you! Believe me when I say that the Middle East is beautiful. I hope you get better because first and foremost you deserve to be better, and second because I know that you have a lot to offer. Stay safe brother, Salaam 🙏🏻

    • @marylougeorge9890
      @marylougeorge9890 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      He said there was an area where his people settled.

    • @tulipkwt8287
      @tulipkwt8287 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      @@marylougeorge9890 its never the same. Jordan’s population is quite small.. moving to another country means being put in a totally new community. Let alone the culture shock. Ehab had to deal with a father who couldn’t succeed in work, and deal with an anger issue. America taught Ehab that what he’s going through is due to his dad’s abuse. His “new” culture teaches him to either go to a foster home or suck it up. His mother is probably viewed by many Americans as someone who allowed this abuse by not reporting it! They don’t understand how Arab women are built mentally. Jordanians on the other hand would have shunned his father, got his mother outta this crazy marriage, and saved both Ehab and Ashraf. I honestly don’t know how to explain it to you Mary Lou, because its a whole system, culture, ideology etc. But one thing I know for sure, we Middle Easterners DONT turn our backs on family, friends, neighbors and even nationals of our nations. We literally support each other in every way shape or form whether its emotionally, socially, financially, its just how Arabs are. I know this might sound crazy to you since your media (if you’re American) tells you the total opposite but BELIEVE me, if this man was here with us in the M.E., people would have searched for him, and brought him back to health. This man is an Arab Orthodox and this group of Arabs alone are extremely attached to their Church and religious leaders. His priest alone would have done everything he can. Look at his family now, they are NOT looking for him, not trying to save him.. why…?- because they have been Americanized. They think like most Americans think. They have become Americans on paper and in spirit. You might think (as most Americans) that every person is responsible for his own actions and whatever Ehab does is simply his choice whether its trying to get sober or even buying more drugs. But for us, we look at things in a totally different manner. Ehab if in the M.E. would be the responsibility of Jordan’s ministry of health (to bring him back from drugs), his church, his fellow Christians, his Muslim friends and neighbors, and basically everyone that knows of his existence.
      I still can’t find the right words to explain my idea/opinion of this. But “the American dream” has been proven to be a mirage in most cases. To us, we are already living the dream. Our dream is prosperity in our own land, family, etc. We are living the dream, we have good education (I’m communicating with you in English and its not even the language of the region), most of our Arab nations don’t force taxes, we have beautiful homes despite the variation in size and we have one thing in common whether Muslims or Christians= we feel the connection to our lands. Even Arab Jews who have been exiled in the 40’s and 50’s due to politics still till this day, dream of coming back. Even Israel doesn’t feel like home to a lot of them (Sephardic Jews). Its something about this part of the world that is very magnetic Mary Lou.
      Hope this makes sense and I hope you have the opportunity to visit our side of the world one day. Everything will make sense then.
      Have a great day/afternoon/night, wherever you are 🌸
      Ehab,
      If you’re reading this and my words make sense to you, try saving and buy a plane ticket and come visit. You’ll find home.
      اذا ما شالتك الارض النشامى يشيلوك بعيونهم.
      Translation:
      This is an Arab saying for those who want to visit yet feel that they might be a heavy burden.
      “ if the land doesnt carry you, we’ll carry you in our eyes”.

    • @marylougeorge9890
      @marylougeorge9890 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@tulipkwt8287 I understand what you're saying. That's why I thought he'd have some of that support here, if his people were living in a consentrated area.
      I'm Japanese American. I was brought up to take care of family, help others and be respectful. I'm 70 so America is not like it was when I was growing up.
      You write very well. I wouldn't have known English wasn't your first language if you hadn't told me.😄

  • @lisakrieg3076
    @lisakrieg3076 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Awww.. this poor man, such a sad story. Seemingly nice guy and smart. Allot of pain in his life. Bless him and I hope he gets help and lives a better life🙏🏻.. Thankyou Mark~ stay safe🙏🏻

  • @prettypurdyprincess437
    @prettypurdyprincess437 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I just want to hug you Ehab! You didn’t deserve any of that as a child. Please stop the hurt & end it now and clean up & get sober. You deserve better and only you can do it!! ✨✨ much peace,love & light 💖

  • @msmisunderstood4348
    @msmisunderstood4348 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    I really thought he was trying to say pitful and I was like sweetheart you said it. Then he said pivot in his life I said ohhhh. Now I know what it's like for people listening to me don't help me find my words let me find them. Thank you for sharing your story ehab. Very handsome man

  • @bunny_girl.905
    @bunny_girl.905 2 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    He looks haunted 😥 and his hands so swollen from shooting up. He's almost completely lost his personality. I hope he finds the strength to get clean 🙏🏻

  • @millyslife9170
    @millyslife9170 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    This story is so heartbreaking. I hope he finds some inner peace

  • @nikot4410
    @nikot4410 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I wish I just could hug him with my arms and heart. For some reason this particular interview hit me so hard. Maybe because I’m an immigrant myself and had some bitter relationship with my father but really live my mom. Whenever he talks about his mother he tears up or becomes very sensitive. Ehab, if you read this at all just know you’re valuable, talented, intelligent, kind. I wish you find a way from your situation and become clean, find a job or perhaps start your own business. I believe in you. God bless.

  • @noracherif8389
    @noracherif8389 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Sending you love and light on your journey Ehab. Know that you are deserving and supported every step of the way! ❤️ ✨

  • @stevemacdaddy9909
    @stevemacdaddy9909 2 ปีที่แล้ว +16

    You can tell dude has a good heart, just made some bad decisions so far. I pray for these poor addicts. Hang in there man.

  • @1624Carolyn
    @1624Carolyn 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    I hope he someday sees all these positive comments. What a beautiful soul

  • @BritTellstheTruth
    @BritTellstheTruth 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    God bless Ehab, the pain that leads to addiction. I hope he can recover. ❤️

  • @cynthiagonzalez1720
    @cynthiagonzalez1720 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    Ehab has a huge heart which is throbbing with pain. Such a loving man hiding behind drugs. I desire all the healing for u my friend ❤️❤️❤️

  • @ohmymascara6527
    @ohmymascara6527 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Got beaten for eating corn too fast??? I couldn't watch this one. Made my heart hurt. God bless him.

  • @ophelia.artaud
    @ophelia.artaud 2 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    I really hope he can figure a way out of the situation he's in, he has the intelligence and self awareness to really make it and it's not too late.

    • @chrissparks3254
      @chrissparks3254 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      It’s never to late. I was 37 when i got clean off a 22 year addiction. If I can do it this man can as well.

  • @donneesf
    @donneesf 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    How many tears he has cried........a heartbreaking story.

  • @lexluthor7212
    @lexluthor7212 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Ehab I have no doubt your Mother adores you as much as you do her. You are special.

  • @dimitarandrievski1471
    @dimitarandrievski1471 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Dear Sir,
    You're 39 and the only hope I see for you is to get a goal. One goal-to become a father. Couse although it's not easy and it would take a lot for you to get there,You from all people know how not to be a bad fother. And the world needs Dad's now more than ever. There's a beautiful soul somewhere waiting for you to meet her.
    Stay strong.
    Thanks Mark.

    • @cch9680
      @cch9680 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Needs to be clean & have a lot of therapy to work through his own childhood issues before he brings a child into the world that he might end up behaving the angry father towards!

  • @MichaelTice-r9l
    @MichaelTice-r9l ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Thank you both for this especially SWU i watch these videos to remind myself sometimes

  • @sgrfpprmnt
    @sgrfpprmnt 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    What beautiful eyes this man has.

  • @baublesanddolls
    @baublesanddolls 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    What a sweet guy. My heart breaks hearing his story.

  • @midnightcryptworx
    @midnightcryptworx 2 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    He's so handsome, what a hard life.

  • @auv461
    @auv461 2 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    Ehad - chosen gift bestowed to man from God... I hope u can turn away from drugs.. u are smart, good-hearted and good looking

  • @JR-mp9wu
    @JR-mp9wu 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Love from the Midwest Ehab! Thank you for sharing your story, alot of it resonated with me. Positive thoughts for you and stay safe out there please.

  • @xdigitalmondx2
    @xdigitalmondx2 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    My heart goes out to his poor mother.

  • @joulaikabuchan
    @joulaikabuchan 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    He feels deeply...I wish sobriety for you, you DO have a good heart.