Right there are only like two people saying RIP! And I’m CONFUSED! I’m wondering what happened! He seems pretty decent! I hope it’s not true! Poor dude! I wish he woulda had a chance to get better!
I've been in recovery for a year myself and these stories are part of what keep me sober. I genuinely hope he gets back to where he needs to be and gets back to being a part of his babies lives. ❤
I found this channel a couple months before I checked myself into treatment and it got me clean and sober and getting close to 2 years now has kept me clean and sober. these stories keep me humble, grateful and keep me from forgetting. it's so good over here on the otherside that you can forget how bad it was if you're not careful. but what I stayed tuned into is that I'm the same as everyone here- I just don't get high anymore. it's the humility and humanity for me. love mark, all the guests and all the fans❤
@@marinamarazzo5889 Go Marina! Stay away from temptation. The devil doesn't like it when your not taking his evil potions. I always pray for you all. Stay in the light Marina xx
@@justinat2 ... Heartbreaking, yes... But it's captivating... And you know you're gonna go thru a series of emotions with the person telling the story.
One thing I would like to say about this man is that he was 1 of the best dudes to ever take me under his wing. He showed me how to survive on my own. Like he said in his interview Respect is everything. And you always take care of your own. I love this dude with all my heart. And I'm gonna miss him every day he is gone. We all have our flaws, and it takes us to places we don't want to go. And sometimes when we want to get back, it's too late. But now he is resting in peace, looking over all of us and smiling down from heaven. He is in no more pain no more sufferi mean he is now free from his addictiand is the angel of God. I love you, Pablo I always will, man. You will never be forgotten in my eyes. Love your little homie yours.
This channel is phenomenal. These stories and people need to be heard. It's just so heart breaking to hear how hopeless some of the childhoods were and then what happened to their lives because of that early experience. Heart breaking but also so phenomenal how they have managed to survive.
This guy is hands down my favorite person that has been on here. His story could of been mine. You can turn this around. Your destiny is not written or determined, and I can tell you have the strength if it is what you decide to do, not a doubt in my mind. God has kept you here for a reason, I am praying you can overcome the demons and find the light again. I don’t know you Pablo brother, but I love you. You as well Mark , I fucking love you brother. You are a hero. I wish my words could convey they depth of my feeling more adequately, but it’s all I know how to say. So much heart in both Mark and Pablo . Mark is probably more busy then we can even imagine, but Mark keep in touch with this one. I think you and this talk may have been exactly what Pablo needs, my heart is touched. Damn this life is crazy .
i watched this 5/6 weeks ago from 🏴 and i agree Pablo seems like a bloke with morals etc 👍 and i hope he can get himself back on the straight and narrow (read my comment) it’s going to be hellish beyond belief to do it,as you said though he still has a purpose ❤❤,so i wish him the best and hope to see a follow up with a positive outcome 🤞.
So many people wanted to doubt Johnny! Pablo confirmed some things ! I like Pablo, he seems very aware and well spoken. He can turn his life around if he truly wants to put the effort in. Praying for you Pablo. You are stronger than you give yourself credit for.
this one hurts. he seems like such a kind person even after a lifetime of hurt. this breaks my heart, i pray for you pablo. i pray you find the help you need and can take care of your babies.god bless you
I like him, but I don't know if "such a kind person" is the description that would come to mind. Like he said, some of the stuff he experienced and was involved with would have to change a person. I wish him all the best.
This channel changed my whole damn life been watching them for years I've learned so so much from these interviews and put a lot of people on to SWU! Thank you Mark and anyone watching this channel, were a family here
You'd be such a kick ass Dad dude. You'd be so wise, humble, understanding, positive... You'd be the dad that doesn't need to scare his little girls boyfriends... coz you can teach them good enough to not need your intimidation... teach your girls to be their own body guards... Don't give up. It takes invincible strength to break away from what you fell into & lived through. Break the cycle. Show the young ones it's possible. You have a beautiful, warrior energy. Don't waste it 🖤🖤🖤
@SorryIHadtoDeleteMyName I couldn't have said it better myself. For show and tell, maybe his kids could just bring him into class he could teach them all how to slam dope into their necks too......great role model! He may be an interesting interview, but far from the great man everyone says he is. Just being nice in messages here won't make him the beacon of light they all say they see in him. He just spent the last hour telling everyone what type of man, and what type of father he is. Great to be supportive, but dont fool yourselves, he'd rob and kill anyone for 6 dollars in a heart beat. Great man? Hardly. Could he change, possibly, but if you know about Fentanyl, you know if your slamming a gram or so straight into your jugular, you've already signed your death warrant. Hope he can change, yrs, but I'm not going to fool myself, that's for sure! Sorry if I piss on anyone's poo-poo party, but this is exactly why this country is in its current state. He got clean soooo many times, yet straight back to the needle every time, instantly. Sorry my friends, it's a wrap
@@goodlove9421 Yes, then and while inside flopping like fish, they say they found the God and they're going to change, "I swear to God!" Jailhouse religion! Then, the minute they get released, they go straight back to the dope! Then they complain about how bad their live is, and if they could change it, they would!!!! They just were sober! They were locked up for months or even years....and were sober!!!!! They had every change and opportunity to change, yet almost all of them do not, they go right back too it. He did have a way shitty upbringing, and no support whatsoever, but as smart as he seems, and as articulate he is, he had opportunity after opportunity to make a better choice and decided against it. Hell, he had 2 kids, a wife, worked 2 jobs. If that's not the best opportunity that will ever come his way....well, it's a wrap then. All the bleeding hearts on here saying what a wonderful and great guy he is....your his next victim! He cant wait to meet each of you! Wake up America, the bleeding hearts are enabling this type of lifestyle that is destroying this country. He would rob and kill you if he had to for a $10 fix without hesitation. If that's a definition of a great and wonderful man, then this country may as well kiss it goodbye.
@@straightshooter3643 Well said. I dont write too much in this channel because sometimes i think people dont want to accept the truth (i.e prayers for him etc etc) For me this channel is for us to see another side of life not to pray or think these people are going to change their habits They know exactly where they are and what they are doing. I dont judge nor pray It is what it is
@@straightshooter3643 :Do you understand PTSD, depression, abandonment issues, low self esteem, and addiction? From the get-to this person didn't stand the chance. I believe he can make it. I believe he can change. Don't judge or a point a finger at someone who isn't enjoying this messed up life. Clearly they're his choices but keep his traumas in mind. I speak and declare the opposite of what you say, I say he's a survivor and a warrior and he will make it to enjoy a better life. IMO he needs detox, rehab, life of therapy, and great support systems. I can tell you one thing, people like him don't hurt or rob random people as you state. He's from the later days. If you don't know, you don't understand. Have compassion.
This was one of the most heart breaking, edge if your seat, vivid and something I could picture with every detail he used minus the molestation cuz I've never been thru it. But this gentleman deserves to have a clean and sober family life that he used to. God bless his soul.
If you go to some of Johnny's videos there's people saying "ah this dude is lying, he's making it all up cause he's high, blah blah blah" and hey, to be honest there were some little things here and there that I thought he probably exaggerated but when this dude basically corroborated Johnny's status in his neighborhood I knew right then that everything that Johnny has said is fact. Johnny is an exceptional individual regardless if you agree or disagree with his life choices. What a guy.
i always thought Johnny was for real from the very beginning 1 because of the detail and the variety of stories he’s told it’s very hard to lie in that fashion!! but i will say When Pablo (also a solid dude) corroborated Johnny’s character as a man it made me 🤔 HAHAHA to all those people who were saying he was full of it basically,so id love to see more of Johnny and Pablo aswell 👍
You can tell this guy is a good person, aside from all he's been through, he seems to still have some morals. Hopefully he can get clean before it's too late.
If you've never seen someone killed in cold blood count your blessings it's another thing you'll spend the rest of your life chewing on over and over, im sure it has different effects in different people but if you have any sort of a heart you already know. Life is precious. Be safe everybody. Tons of people out there DO NOT value your life.
@@Gram72534 Technically bro, I shoot 1/2 grams at a time and it's at 9 units drawn up I gotta leave that 1 unit to pull back there's no way your busting a whole gram at once. I know he ain't paying the big money extra for the +size barrels lol. And the fact he says he don't stay well for even 10 minutes was odd too. WhatdoIknow tho lol. Anyways I'm alive n kicking bro that's all I got at the moment I'm running with it. Hope u r well too.
I think he has severe PTSD and would find therapy a god send such a shame he will never get it,I wish him all the best and pray he can get away from skid row
Pablo. You were one of the coolest people I met when I moved back to Whittier. We're tocayos..You and I shared a love for jungle,art, and graff.. I'll never forget that time we went to Nucleus and were stranded after the rave was over. I always thought you were and are a stand up guy. I never knew your whole story. I knew you had it rough. I thought I did, but bro, I had no clue.. There are a ton of people in Whittier that have nothing but love for you. Your a big dawg. Always have been always will be. Please. Keep your head up. Don't ever forget. You are loved Pablo. If anybody can beat this crap it, it's you. Your a fcking bad ass. You've always shown me respect. And I'll always have nothing but love for you big dawg. Stay strong. Stay positive. You can do it. You know you can..
There is a quote that I think of often listening to these interviews and thinking about my own life, addictions, and behaviors and I think it sums things up perfectly and that quote is this “The worst part about anything that's self-destructive is that it's so intimate. You become so close with your addictions and illnesses that leaving them behind is like killing the part of yourself that taught you how to survive.” -Lacey L.
He was a very likeable solid interview, and honest. I hope for the best for this gentleman. He had the cards stacked against him since childhood. However he did prove to himself he can live a straight life without being in jail.
Johnny has been vindicated in the eyes of all the doubters. I continue to believe that Johnny is a uniquely extraordinary individual, regardless of your personal view on his life choices or whether you think he's good or bad. The guy is a force and thats remarkable in many ways. An ambivalent character.
Im 17, my dad and mom and dad were heroin addicts, i smoke pot and trip sometimes but its the stories like these that keep me from ever even entertaining the idea of anything harder
Keep striving bro I'm going through it too unfortunately just relapsed after my 1 year couple months ago I'm one week sober today brother. Leave them blues alone man you can do bro it's painful but it's choosing life over death at this point. Much love man
His inner child has been through so much. A lifetime of pain. His substance use disorder is understandable. In spite of his disorder he is so intelligent and articulate. I pray he can find the hope and love outside of drugs and gangs that he so desperately needs. My heart hurts for him.
ANYONE can become addicted. An the “ in spite of his disorder” is a pretty demeaning and disrespectful statement. Just because someone becomes addicted does not mean they are not intelligent by any means.
Lives lost to drugs…families, children - - the outfall of the drug culture. Making money for what. Trying to fill the void that comes from taking from the world instead of giving to the world. Thanks for your story, Pablo. Your life is not in vain.
Pablo YOU GOT THIS BROTHER. FENT is a bitch to kick. I myself have been addicted to opiates for a little over 30 years (minus a 8 year fed bid) and I've been on FENT now for about 3 years shooting and I can't kick it I can't even describe what hell it is. I just turned 49 years old I'm almost 50 I should be living my golden years but I'm not not even close to it. If there's anything I could change in life I would never pick up fentanyl. Edit to add I've had endocarditis, a blood infection and CHF and I still don't have the willpower.. I'm ashamed 😑
Bruh they got this powder called kratom it saved my life never thought I would get well you won't get high but you won't withdraw either closest I've got to normal in 15 years I'm only 31 u can do it homie you just got to get a maintenance going I'm telling u try kratom
Sorry guys but subs and kratom don't work when your banging powdered fet. The subs cause a manic like state and increases the pain from withdrawals. Kratom works if you ground up the powder and then throw it in the garbage. Methadone doesn't even block fent until you pass 80 mgs.
Thanks for sharing your story Pablo. You've through a lot but you still are very polite and have good values. If you could get detoxed and get a job in another state maybe? You need at least 3 years off the drugs to recover 100%.
Yup. Another reason they got a dang cop dog at the hospitals by me (I'm guessing this might be normal in all big city's, it is in Detroit) so you really gotta be careful even trying to sneak stuff in if you did have enough $$$.
I sunk myself in a 10k HOLE....trying to detox. You think you could do it when your high everyday You convince yourself you can handle the detox Then once your 12 hours in...your stomach is sour and cramping... you are either pissing puking or sh*tting every hour... you can stay still...your anxiety Is thru the roof.. your thoughts are intense and racing...you get what's called restless leg syndrome... which feels like constantly cramping in your leg ....cold and hot every 5 minutes ... skin crawling...intense sweating.. smelling like ammonia . Etc and you're only halfway into the first day. You still have probably 3 more weeks of until you feel somewhat normal again And you eventually say F IT. I can't take this anymore....and give in It's like having an insane case of food poisoning...mixed with covid.. and your doctor is like.. I have this pill that will make you feel 100% better and back to normal and you say no. That's the kinds willpower you need to have Fentanyl Is the devil.. it literally seeps into the cracks and crevices of your bones . Dont DO IT EVERRRR
I feel bad for him. He mentioned he had hep C liver failure. That’s what killed my husband. He needs to get himself to the doctor ASAP. Is not the fentanyl he need to worry about more like his health is failing.
I had Hep C and got treatment for it. Its gone, thank God. I wish everyone could get it treated and get rid of it. My liver is in bad shape, but it won't get worse at least
This guy seems to be a decent person considering all he's been through!!!!keep your head up go into recovery sobriety is possible. Things will slowly fall into place !!you can help youngsters some how !!?
So basically he has a guardian Angel bec with all these close call stories and seeing so many people die around him for some reason they leave him alone. Wow. He’s one lucky guy
Thank you for shining a light in the darkness Mark. Your videos are a masterpiece. Thank you for showing us all these stories. I think it's very important to know all these things exist in the world. The good, the bad and the ugly parts of humanity. Thank you for all you do to help others that we don't know about.
Was a pleasure to listen to...this Man has so so much potential...great interview Mark. Get clean Paul, you could educate the world with your life story...stay safe 🙏
This has got to be one thee best channels on TH-cam !!! You just never know what hell people have been through ! These stories are so interesting and heartbreaking at the same time.
Quite a life. Don't give up Pablo...you have a lifetime ahead of you...trust me I'm 50 yo and have survived alot..even pancreatic cancer so just know you have the knowledge, ability and skills to do whatever you want to do!! God loves you and so do I xoxo tough times never last, tough people do! You have important things to do still. "Just do it!"~ Nike lol
I am thankful while growing up my parents moved us to Tennessee to be raised. I never understood why they said it’s a better way to raise a family growing up because my entire family lives in California and Oregon. I get it now. For many reasons.
I've been to rehab twice, detoxed 4 times, and hospitalised several times from OD & suicide attempts. Unless you beg for rehab, you're kept alive & released, or, (in my case 9/10 times) put in the mental health ward. I got my trauma from 4-5 years old onwards. Family & family friends. It kept going through my teenage years while I was using & drinking, from friends & strangers. I watched 3 people I ended up calling my best friends, dying from an OD, while we were in rehab. It only takes 1 time. Every time you use it can be your last.
Damn! I never heard of people od'ing in rehab. So sorry hon, sounds like hell. What can we tell you, you've tried everything. All that's left is Jesus...😔
I attempted 3 times. Had to curb my Perc addiction. Started out using for pain then it was to not feel. I became a monster. Withdrawals are... horrific. ODed several times, but my body was able to throw it up.
Best of luck to you the game is all fucked up now was bad before but this fetty is a game changer shit is not going anywhere anytime soon everyone has a cousin or brother or family member who's addicted. And the gang lifestyle is getting worse too there's no respect any more these older guys see that now. Great interview the gang member interviews on here are some of the best interviews on the channel in my opinion
my ex boyfriend died of an overdose in rehab, now 20 yrs ago. it's something you live with that doesn't get better, it just gets different. all of this to say, you're not alone.
I had a best friend who I looked up to named Josh when I was younger and a foster kid who I first smoked weed with. Unlike this story it was a good stable home when I needed one to get away. Now today I strive for my little home to be a sanctuary for anyone going through any kind of issues.
The anxiety he was talking about. Never done drugs myself but have this severe anxiety disorder and yes. When it is the worst it is like dying. Like being waterboarded. Scared to death of dying but yeah. I've thought of jumping out of a window just to get rid of it. I firearm. Maybe. I've been so desperate that would be quite the possibility if I had access to one. Why do they punish drug users? That is messed up. Kicking on those who already are down.
Old belief system. European protestantism. A dislike or disapproval of the sensual. Its a sin. So theres that and the nature of the human animal. Theres a drive to persecute weaker groups within the group. But they think theyre doing the right thing
That’s a legit dude right there. I’ve gone through something similar with a 44 Magnum put on my forehead by a small time kingpin who was in amphetamine psychosis. Told him to fuck off and he put the gun away, embarassed. I’ve been sober for six years now, I don’t long for those times. That shit changes you forever.
So Johnny is a legit guy and his stories are true?! Pablo keep your mind sharp and your head up. You’ll pull through, manifest and speak it into existence.
Mark, they do take care of opioid addicts in the hospital. They have to ‘DISCLOSE’ they are addicted and how much they take so the providers give them the proper amount. Withdrawal can be very dangerous and they know that and hospitals have various opioids they can and will administer if necessary. Please let them know that this should not be a deterrent….
Yep I've never seen a hospital give out opiates to an addict because they are sick in the hospital or have an infection, yea right, that is a damn joke!!! No damn way!!
Your dad was right all along. The very people you called your Family is the one who never cared about your future. Where is your gang family now. I wish you the best. You seem like a nice guy.
Bro, the good part is when him standing up helped his family break a cycle of abuse, and the year or so he was doing alright w his girl. Damn bro. This is a strong story.
I find myself praying for everyone I see on your videos each morning. Some more than others. I cant imagine getting this type of start in life. I feel so fortunate to have pure and happy memories of my childhood. It must be really hard when the weight of the world is on your shoulders. Not being able to dig into your memory bank and think about the good times in life. Unfortunately some people like Pablo dont have that luxury. He was born into survival mode and that is so unfair. Its my Prayer that Pablo gets a break and someone can see the goodness in him and give give him an opportunity to build his life up into something he can sustain and be proud of . Pablo, If you find it hard to take a new path and you feel like you cant do it for yourself do it for your Daughters. You are worthy
Wow. This man May really be at his rock bottom right now. He’s very aware of how his life is going to go. I truly hope he can kick this addiction and get the help he needs. But only time will tell where he will be and what he will do! I hope to see a follow up :)
No cap!! I dnt have a channel and I am a nobody ,, I’m Frm pico Rivera ,, just to let u know so u can say a prayer for Pablo ... a week after this video Pablo is in a better place with his mom that he loved and missed so much .. Rest In Peace Pablo may god have mercy on ur soul wen that judgement day comes
I really hope this man makes it. He seems like such a nice person. He should do it for his daughters, as well for himself. He is still young. God bless him.
You can definitely still OD as a fent addict. Especially if you like to get high enough to nod. Theres a small threshold between nodding and overdosing. I been clean for 7 months, & over the few years i was doing it i overdosed twice. Both times it was when i was high on meth. The fact that this guy does meth makes it even easier for him to overdose. All it takes is to get a more pure batch of fentanyl. Street fent is always very cut, so its more convenient to use. Otherwise a dose would barely be visible to the human eye. So you dont know how much fent is in your powder until you try it. While its true its more difficult to OD than someone with no tolerance, its not "hard to OD" by any means.
@@kylemcmullin5140 I actually used to do carfent, was my preference cuz it lasted way longer than regular fent. But yea it dont take much to OD for anyone
Man I hope this guy can pull it together. He reminds me of a few of my really good friends I knew back when I was using fentanyl/heroin. Those people I actually liked, when I was around them. He seems like such a good dude.
Love this channel because it's showing real life people & their struggles. I have however heard that some of these people have come back at later times & asked that their videos be taken down. I'm sure Mark's probably had them sign something, helped them or even paid them regarding the release of their stories. But when their lives change & they no longer wish to have their stories plastered all over the net I hope he's finding it in his heart to at least work with them in may'be blurring their faces & changing their names not only for their privacy but for a few it might even be for their safety or they've had children & they're trying to protect them. He could always say their names have been changed for their protection, we'd understand & still watch.
This man is a LEADER. You can FEEL it in his delivery..In this life lived and earned humility he displays. I hope this guy makes a life to be truly proud of!
Your channel is “great” keep it going ! I’m from Western Europe I visited LA and a few times. I think San Francisco Is even worse. I always was wondering what happened to those people to end up like this. Now I understand it’s very very sad they are really not to blame. The only thing I really don’t understand is that they have children in these difficult situations. But I guess this is what they call a vicious circle :(
I've been clean from heroine and fentanal for 3 years now. I used straight for 6 years. It was the hardest thing I've ever done. Was dope sick for a month. But it can be done
this guy's led a real Hard knocks life from birth😢 'Stead of treated We get tricked 'Stead of kisses We get kicked It's the hard-knock life Don't if feel like the wind is always howl'n? Don't it seem like there's never any light? Once a day, don't you wanna throw the towel in? It's easier than puttin' up a fight No one's there when your dreams at night get creepy No one cares if you grow or if you shrink Empty belly life Rotten smelly life Full of sorrow life No tomorrow life
I was once in a hospital for a check-up: tore a muscle around my rib cage in the gym. A woman on a bed across from me kept twisting and falling off the bed, landing hard on concrete floor. The nurses got pissed and yelled at her for not staying in bed each time she fell. Nobody seemed to care. I thought that was crazy. Only much much later did another nurse explain to me the patient was a typical dope-sick druggie who nurses didn't much care for because they always ended up in the hospital multiple times. This was before Narcan. I understand Pablo's explanation perfectly about why addicts don't go to the hospital.
lol "addicts don't go to the hospital" is woefully inaccurate. The number of times I've been called by addicts in the middle of the night telling me they've suffered some terrible injury and have No OtHeR rIdE to the hospital. I took them the first couple times. I stopped when I realized it was just to try for pills. The reason addicts don't go to the hospital when they're suffering problems from opiates is because they're afraid the hospital will keep them for a few days aka without dope (staph infection in particular I can think of), and they don't drop off ODing bodies because they don't want to have to answer questions. It's certainly not because hospital staff doesn't treat them well enough, though I don't doubt they have a rougher time garnering sympathy.
They judge you so much its not even funny I remember one time I was super sick and throwing up blood and they were trying to give me more drugs and than kick me out I was like dude I understand I'm a addict but we get sick too its not always about getting drugs in our system
@@roseconsumption let me get this straight: addicts both avoid hospitals because no drugs, and beg you to take them to the hospital because yes drugs? Seems legit.
@@fritzfxx I said they avoid hospitals when they're actually sick, for fear that they'll be kept, and will try to use hospitals when they're dope sick to get medicine and dip. The argument is not about whether they get drugs, but that addicts will use hospitals to their liking when they like, and that none of it has to do with staff treatment because they're some lower class.
I usually just pace back and forth for 5-8 days straight with absolutely no sleep, body exhausted from a burning pain in all my muscles that won't let me stay still for just one second, every moment long and excruciating, my mind stretched to it's limit with a burning desire to just make it end from anxiety that can only be described as a panicky, frenetic feeling of impending doom mixed with soul crushing depression that feels somewhat like a never ending bottomless abyss of fear, sadness and regret About a week (which feels like a decade) of that, it finally subsides, i eat and sleep...and i feel great for about 90-180 days and then I start the process all over again. it is truly a poetic love/hate relationship i have with opiates and they have taught me a lot. you pay for every high with a low. there is no free lunch. give as you expect to get. addiction has increased my empathy and truly made me more self aware and gave me a lot of struggle and will. it gives me fight. it gives me resilience. it gives me insight. i choose to look at it in that way and i accept what i am. hope all you do too. Much Love
Pablo, I think you know how this story is gonna end, but you stand straight with your shoulders back and accept your fate as it comes, because you’re at peace with death as inevitably. Peace brother, in another life we would have been friends.
I'm in recovery myself in the UK, now what I've learnt over many years of using, is that addicts are very smart people, it's a shame the drugs and alcohol consumes us
This man is speaking the truth. The withdrawals from fettanyl are almost unbearable. Years after, your nerves are still messed up. No sleep but you're tired af. It's a curse
Im year older than him, from the same place, i left there and moved to Colorado, changed my life , I've owned my own company for 11 years now, married with 5 grandkids.. these doods get stuck in this life and die living it.. F that
I hope he doesn’t have a death wish. He’s got stories that can be turned into a movie/book. I hope you can get it together Pablo. You seam like the coolest guy!
😢Rest in Peace Pablo ❤️
He OD? What happened? There's no mention of him passing anywhere else...?
Right there are only like two people saying RIP! And I’m CONFUSED! I’m wondering what happened! He seems pretty decent! I hope it’s not true! Poor dude! I wish he woulda had a chance to get better!
I knew him personally. His good friend , my best friend found him dead at his place . He was staying with him
🥺 RIP!!!
How long ago did he pass?
I've been in recovery for a year myself and these stories are part of what keep me sober. I genuinely hope he gets back to where he needs to be and gets back to being a part of his babies lives. ❤
You can do it Hannah. Bless. Stay strong a peaceful life is heaven. I wish you well! X
Likewise best of luck to you
I found this channel a couple months before I checked myself into treatment and it got me clean and sober and getting close to 2 years now has kept me clean and sober. these stories keep me humble, grateful and keep me from forgetting. it's so good over here on the otherside that you can forget how bad it was if you're not careful. but what I stayed tuned into is that I'm the same as everyone here- I just don't get high anymore. it's the humility and humanity for me. love mark, all the guests and all the fans❤
God bless you honey. Love & Light
@@marinamarazzo5889 Go Marina! Stay away from temptation. The devil doesn't like it when your not taking his evil potions. I always pray for you all. Stay in the light Marina xx
You can tell it's gonna be a good story when they say "Let me start from the beginning"... I'm obsessed with this channel.
Good story is one way to put it, more like heartbreaking.
@@justinat2 ... Heartbreaking, yes... But it's captivating... And you know you're gonna go thru a series of emotions with the person telling the story.
Meee tooo!
I also cannot stop watching these videos. I find these peoples stories sad but fascinating at the same time. This is real life right here
so this is your entertainment? you are a sick bastard.
One thing I would like to say about this man is that he was 1 of the best dudes to ever take me under his wing. He showed me how to survive on my own. Like he said in his interview Respect is everything. And you always take care of your own. I love this dude with all my heart. And I'm gonna miss him every day he is gone. We all have our flaws, and it takes us to places we don't want to go. And sometimes when we want to get back, it's too late. But now he is resting in peace, looking over all of us and smiling down from heaven. He is in no more pain no more sufferi mean he is now free from his addictiand is the angel of God. I love you, Pablo I always will, man. You will never be forgotten in my eyes. Love your little homie yours.
What happened to him! I'm literally in tears and I don't even know this man!
This channel is phenomenal. These stories and people need to be heard. It's just so heart breaking to hear how hopeless some of the childhoods were and then what happened to their lives because of that early experience. Heart breaking but also so phenomenal how they have managed to survive.
When you think you had it bad you see these videos and realize you’ve been ok the whole time. I love this man.. I feel so bad
Dude fr
I've been Pablo's friend for more then 20 years ..I'm sad to say he passed.. .
Pablo’s voice is so smooth. Mix that with his story and you have an amazing story teller. Praying for better health for him.
This guy is hands down my favorite person that has been on here. His story could of been mine. You can turn this around. Your destiny is not written or determined, and I can tell you have the strength if it is what you decide to do, not a doubt in my mind. God has kept you here for a reason, I am praying you can overcome the demons and find the light again. I don’t know you Pablo brother, but I love you. You as well Mark , I fucking love you brother. You are a hero. I wish my words could convey they depth of my feeling more adequately, but it’s all I know how to say. So much heart in both Mark and Pablo . Mark is probably more busy then we can even imagine, but Mark keep in touch with this one. I think you and this talk may have been exactly what Pablo needs, my heart is touched. Damn this life is crazy .
My favorite person on here too. His story touches my soul
Amen 🙏🏻
i watched this 5/6 weeks ago from 🏴 and i agree Pablo seems like a bloke with morals etc 👍 and i hope he can get himself back on the straight and narrow (read my comment) it’s going to be hellish beyond belief to do it,as you said though he still has a purpose ❤❤,so i wish him the best and hope to see a follow up with a positive outcome 🤞.
He’s literally a child molester
So many people wanted to doubt Johnny! Pablo confirmed some things ! I like Pablo, he seems very aware and well spoken. He can turn his life around if he truly wants to put the effort in. Praying for you Pablo. You are stronger than you give yourself credit for.
this one hurts. he seems like such a kind person even after a lifetime of hurt. this breaks my heart, i pray for you pablo. i pray you find the help you need and can take care of your babies.god bless you
he has heart, even after all it's been thru- it recognizably shows thru
I like him, but I don't know if "such a kind person" is the description that would come to mind. Like he said, some of the stuff he experienced and was involved with would have to change a person. I wish him all the best.
hard to not be waiting for these mark. is everything you touch turns to gold you can bet these are gold. every single one.
Changed my whole routine, up at 5am to see what Marks got cooking for us
Yes I’m addicted to these haha
I'm always waiting for them too
This channel changed my whole damn life been watching them for years I've learned so so much from these interviews and put a lot of people on to SWU! Thank you Mark and anyone watching this channel, were a family here
He’s talking to all the addicts and creating new addicts with people addicted to the channel. Full circle irony 😂
You'd be such a kick ass Dad dude. You'd be so wise, humble, understanding, positive... You'd be the dad that doesn't need to scare his little girls boyfriends... coz you can teach them good enough to not need your intimidation... teach your girls to be their own body guards...
Don't give up. It takes invincible strength to break away from what you fell into & lived through.
Break the cycle. Show the young ones it's possible.
You have a beautiful, warrior energy.
Don't waste it 🖤🖤🖤
@SorryIHadtoDeleteMyName
I couldn't have said it better myself. For show and tell, maybe his kids could just bring him into class he could teach them all how to slam dope into their necks too......great role model!
He may be an interesting interview, but far from the great man everyone says he is. Just being nice in messages here won't make him the beacon of light they all say they see in him. He just spent the last hour telling everyone what type of man, and what type of father he is. Great to be supportive, but dont fool yourselves, he'd rob and kill anyone for 6 dollars in a heart beat. Great man? Hardly. Could he change, possibly, but if you know about Fentanyl, you know if your slamming a gram or so straight into your jugular, you've already signed your death warrant. Hope he can change, yrs, but I'm not going to fool myself, that's for sure! Sorry if I piss on anyone's poo-poo party, but this is exactly why this country is in its current state. He got clean soooo many times, yet straight back to the needle every time, instantly. Sorry my friends, it's a wrap
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⬆️ Overdosing on fetnyol in Prison
😂 😆 it’s too funny!!
@@goodlove9421
Yes, then and while inside flopping like fish, they say they found the God and they're going to change, "I swear to God!" Jailhouse religion! Then, the minute they get released, they go straight back to the dope! Then they complain about how bad their live is, and if they could change it, they would!!!! They just were sober! They were locked up for months or even years....and were sober!!!!! They had every change and opportunity to change, yet almost all of them do not, they go right back too it. He did have a way shitty upbringing, and no support whatsoever, but as smart as he seems, and as articulate he is, he had opportunity after opportunity to make a better choice and decided against it. Hell, he had 2 kids, a wife, worked 2 jobs. If that's not the best opportunity that will ever come his way....well, it's a wrap then. All the bleeding hearts on here saying what a wonderful and great guy he is....your his next victim! He cant wait to meet each of you! Wake up America, the bleeding hearts are enabling this type of lifestyle that is destroying this country. He would rob and kill you if he had to for a $10 fix without hesitation. If that's a definition of a great and wonderful man, then this country may as well kiss it goodbye.
@@straightshooter3643 Well said. I dont write too much in this channel because sometimes i think people dont want to accept the truth (i.e prayers for him etc etc) For me this channel is for us to see another side of life not to pray or think these people are going to change their habits They know exactly where they are and what they are doing. I dont judge nor pray It is what it is
@@straightshooter3643 :Do you understand PTSD, depression, abandonment issues, low self esteem, and addiction? From the get-to this person didn't stand the chance. I believe he can make it. I believe he can change. Don't judge or a point a finger at someone who isn't enjoying this messed up life. Clearly they're his choices but keep his traumas in mind. I speak and declare the opposite of what you say, I say he's a survivor and a warrior and he will make it to enjoy a better life. IMO he needs detox, rehab, life of therapy, and great support systems. I can tell you one thing, people like him don't hurt or rob random people as you state. He's from the later days. If you don't know, you don't understand. Have compassion.
This was one of the most heart breaking, edge if your seat, vivid and something I could picture with every detail he used minus the molestation cuz I've never been thru it. But this gentleman deserves to have a clean and sober family life that he used to. God bless his soul.
I love how Johnny's name changed the entire conversation. Dude is a legend.
Time for a duo conversation?
Hell yeah 😎🙌
If you go to some of Johnny's videos there's people saying "ah this dude is lying, he's making it all up cause he's high, blah blah blah" and hey, to be honest there were some little things here and there that I thought he probably exaggerated but when this dude basically corroborated Johnny's status in his neighborhood I knew right then that everything that Johnny has said is fact. Johnny is an exceptional individual regardless if you agree or disagree with his life choices. What a guy.
@@coldmexican288 man only if you live in LA some people name pull a lot of weight in the streets,
i always thought Johnny was for real from the very beginning 1 because of the detail and the variety of stories he’s told it’s very hard to lie in that fashion!! but i will say When Pablo (also a solid dude) corroborated Johnny’s character as a man it made me 🤔
HAHAHA to all those people who were saying he was full of it basically,so id love to see more of Johnny and Pablo aswell 👍
You can tell this guy is a good person, aside from all he's been through, he seems to still have some morals. Hopefully he can get clean before it's too late.
I hope he rots away for being a Child molester can’t believe ppl feel bad for him
If you've never seen someone killed in cold blood count your blessings it's another thing you'll spend the rest of your life chewing on over and over, im sure it has different effects in different people but if you have any sort of a heart you already know. Life is precious. Be safe everybody. Tons of people out there DO NOT value your life.
good morning T, how are you this morning? homie is slamming fetty a G and a half. holy crap!!
Realest shit ever bruh.
@@Gram72534 Technically bro, I shoot 1/2 grams at a time and it's at 9 units drawn up I gotta leave that 1 unit to pull back there's no way your busting a whole gram at once. I know he ain't paying the big money extra for the +size barrels lol. And the fact he says he don't stay well for even 10 minutes was odd too. WhatdoIknow tho lol. Anyways I'm alive n kicking bro that's all I got at the moment I'm running with it. Hope u r well too.
@@DetroitFettyghost yeah I was wondering, that's enough to turn a white whale blue. Keep your head up my friend. See you later.
Every. Damn. Day
I think he has severe PTSD and would find therapy a god send such a shame he will never get it,I wish him all the best and pray he can get away from skid row
Pablo. You were one of the coolest people I met when I moved back to Whittier. We're tocayos..You and I shared a love for jungle,art, and graff.. I'll never forget that time we went to Nucleus and were stranded after the rave was over. I always thought you were and are a stand up guy. I never knew your whole story. I knew you had it rough. I thought I did, but bro, I had no clue.. There are a ton of people in Whittier that have nothing but love for you. Your a big dawg. Always have been always will be. Please. Keep your head up. Don't ever forget. You are loved Pablo. If anybody can beat this crap it, it's you. Your a fcking bad ass. You've always shown me respect. And I'll always have nothing but love for you big dawg. Stay strong. Stay positive. You can do it. You know you can..
There is a quote that I think of often listening to these interviews and thinking about my own life, addictions, and behaviors and I think it sums things up perfectly and that quote is this “The worst part about anything that's self-destructive is that it's so intimate. You become so close with your addictions and illnesses that leaving them behind is like killing the part of yourself that taught you how to survive.” -Lacey L.
Thus it is written, only when you die to this world, can you live in the world of righteousness through Christ Yashaya ~
This dudes story is insane.. He seems like a decent kat, wish him the best man it's tough
You mean cat…the expression stems from the Beat era. Like Hep cat…
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@@ccinSFfruitloop however you wanna spell it man..
@@YnrTy18040 yeah…but at least we can educate everyone in case they don’t know the origins.
@@ccinSFfruitloop I think you know it’s just a twist on the spelling..
He was a very likeable solid interview, and honest. I hope for the best for this gentleman. He had the cards stacked against him since childhood. However he did prove to himself he can live a straight life without being in jail.
Johnny has been vindicated in the eyes of all the doubters. I continue to believe that Johnny is a uniquely extraordinary individual, regardless of your personal view on his life choices or whether you think he's good or bad. The guy is a force and thats remarkable in many ways. An ambivalent character.
Im 17, my dad and mom and dad were heroin addicts, i smoke pot and trip sometimes but its the stories like these that keep me from ever even entertaining the idea of anything harder
Keep striving bro I'm going through it too unfortunately just relapsed after my 1 year couple months ago I'm one week sober today brother. Leave them blues alone man you can do bro it's painful but it's choosing life over death at this point. Much love man
Hope ur well, friend
Stay strong. It'll pass
Update I'm 1 year and 7 months sober, following the Lord, working, and taking care of my family, no longer involved with the gang life!!
I love this guy's story, full of drama but he still managed to stay calm and open minded, amazing person! Lots of blessing for him!
Pablo you where a and is A Beautiful Soul. May you rest in peace forever till we all meet again.❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🩸🩸🩸🩸❤️💙🩸
His inner child has been through so much. A lifetime of pain. His substance use disorder is understandable. In spite of his disorder he is so intelligent and articulate. I pray he can find the hope and love outside of drugs and gangs that he so desperately needs. My heart hurts for him.
ANYONE can become addicted. An the “ in spite of his disorder” is a pretty demeaning and disrespectful statement. Just because someone becomes addicted does not mean they are not intelligent by any means.
Lives lost to drugs…families, children - - the outfall of the drug culture. Making money for what. Trying to fill the void that comes from taking from the world instead of giving to the world.
Thanks for your story, Pablo. Your life is not in vain.
Pablo YOU GOT THIS BROTHER. FENT is a bitch to kick. I myself have been addicted to opiates for a little over 30 years (minus a 8 year fed bid) and I've been on FENT now for about 3 years shooting and I can't kick it I can't even describe what hell it is.
I just turned 49 years old I'm almost 50 I should be living my golden years but I'm not not even close to it. If there's anything I could change in life I would never pick up fentanyl.
Edit to add I've had endocarditis, a blood infection and CHF and I still don't have the willpower.. I'm ashamed 😑
If you seriously want to stop there’s always Suboxone. Easy peasy! No withdrawals.
Bruh they got this powder called kratom it saved my life never thought I would get well you won't get high but you won't withdraw either closest I've got to normal in 15 years I'm only 31 u can do it homie you just got to get a maintenance going I'm telling u try kratom
Sorry guys but subs and kratom don't work when your banging powdered fet. The subs cause a manic like state and increases the pain from withdrawals. Kratom works if you ground up the powder and then throw it in the garbage. Methadone doesn't even block fent until you pass 80 mgs.
Do you live in LA?
@@adyorvanderlei4767 yup, the only way to do it is if she went on Fentanyl patches and weaned off
This guy is a good human with solid morals. We could all learn a lot from his wisdom. I hope he can turn his life around. Big love!
People with "solid morals" don't abandon their children to inject Fentanyl in their neck.
He predicted it, video is 2yrs old and he's gone. RIP Pablo
Thanks for sharing your story Pablo. You've through a lot but you still are very polite and have good values. If you could get detoxed and get a job in another state maybe? You need at least 3 years off the drugs to recover 100%.
Thank you Mark for explaining the refusal for medical help. Now I get it.
Yup. Another reason they got a dang cop dog at the hospitals by me (I'm guessing this might be normal in all big city's, it is in Detroit) so you really gotta be careful even trying to sneak stuff in if you did have enough $$$.
I sunk myself in a 10k HOLE....trying to detox. You think you could do it when your high everyday
You convince yourself you can handle the detox
Then once your 12 hours in...your stomach is sour and cramping... you are either pissing puking or sh*tting every hour... you can stay still...your anxiety Is thru the roof.. your thoughts are intense and racing...you get what's called restless leg syndrome... which feels like constantly cramping in your leg ....cold and hot every 5 minutes ... skin crawling...intense sweating.. smelling like ammonia . Etc and you're only halfway into the first day. You still have probably 3 more weeks of until you feel somewhat normal again
And you eventually say F IT. I can't take this anymore....and give in
It's like having an insane case of food poisoning...mixed with covid.. and your doctor is like.. I have this pill that will make you feel 100% better and back to normal and you say no.
That's the kinds willpower you need to have
Fentanyl Is the devil.. it literally seeps into the cracks and crevices of your bones .
Dont DO IT EVERRRR
I feel bad for him. He mentioned he had hep C liver failure. That’s what killed my husband. He needs to get himself to the doctor ASAP. Is not the fentanyl he need to worry about more like his health is failing.
I had Hep C and got treatment for it. Its gone, thank God. I wish everyone could get it treated and get rid of it. My liver is in bad shape, but it won't get worse at least
He recognized our man Johnny 😁. Everyone's favorite story man 👌
For someone using these much drugs, he seems lucid in thinking and looks well groomed and healthy looking. I wish him the best.
This guy seems to be a decent person considering all he's been through!!!!keep your head up go into recovery sobriety is possible. Things will slowly fall into place !!you can help youngsters some how !!?
So basically he has a guardian Angel bec with all these close call stories and seeing so many people die around him for some reason they leave him alone. Wow. He’s one lucky guy
What an amazing interview. Thank you for sharing, Pablo. I hope that good things come your way.
I enjoyed how he went into detail about some of his experiences instead of avoiding them
This is one of my favorite channels! Thank you for giving these people a space to tell their stories.
-pain shared is pain lessened ☮️
I watch them on repeat while working. Love them all
Im also obsessed! It’s insane
I grew up in Whittier and Pico Rivera. This hits so close to home
Thank you for shining a light in the darkness Mark. Your videos are a masterpiece. Thank you for showing us all these stories. I think it's very important to know all these things exist in the world. The good, the bad and the ugly parts of humanity. Thank you for all you do to help others that we don't know about.
Much love from Kansas City! Keep doing what you're doing Mark! I love this channel!
Was a pleasure to listen to...this Man has so so much potential...great interview Mark.
Get clean Paul, you could educate the world with your life story...stay safe 🙏
This has got to be one thee best channels on TH-cam !!! You just never know what hell people have been through ! These stories are so interesting and heartbreaking at the same time.
Quite a life. Don't give up Pablo...you have a lifetime ahead of you...trust me I'm 50 yo and have survived alot..even pancreatic cancer so just know you have the knowledge, ability and skills to do whatever you want to do!! God loves you and so do I xoxo tough times never last, tough people do! You have important things to do still. "Just do it!"~ Nike lol
So many amazing storytellers on this channel. Thank you for giving these people a platform.🤍
I am thankful while growing up my parents moved us to Tennessee to be raised. I never understood why they said it’s a better way to raise a family growing up because my entire family lives in California and Oregon. I get it now. For many reasons.
I like how he starts with a year for his story. I’m so captivated by your channel Mark, it’s absolutely remarkable.
I've been to rehab twice, detoxed 4 times, and hospitalised several times from OD & suicide attempts. Unless you beg for rehab, you're kept alive & released, or, (in my case 9/10 times) put in the mental health ward.
I got my trauma from 4-5 years old onwards. Family & family friends. It kept going through my teenage years while I was using & drinking, from friends & strangers.
I watched 3 people I ended up calling my best friends, dying from an OD, while we were in rehab. It only takes 1 time. Every time you use it can be your last.
Damn! I never heard of people od'ing in rehab. So sorry hon, sounds like hell. What can we tell you, you've tried everything. All that's left is Jesus...😔
I attempted 3 times. Had to curb my Perc addiction. Started out using for pain then it was to not feel. I became a monster. Withdrawals are... horrific. ODed several times, but my body was able to throw it up.
God bless you all. Keep it up with your recovery. Peaceful life without the devil drugs will set you free. Rebuke the devil. X
Best of luck to you the game is all fucked up now was bad before but this fetty is a game changer shit is not going anywhere anytime soon everyone has a cousin or brother or family member who's addicted. And the gang lifestyle is getting worse too there's no respect any more these older guys see that now. Great interview the gang member interviews on here are some of the best interviews on the channel in my opinion
my ex boyfriend died of an overdose in rehab, now 20 yrs ago. it's something you live with that doesn't get better, it just gets different. all of this to say, you're not alone.
I had a best friend who I looked up to named Josh when I was younger and a foster kid who I first smoked weed with. Unlike this story it was a good stable home when I needed one to get away. Now today I strive for my little home to be a sanctuary for anyone going through any kind of issues.
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Not going to lie I’m 19 and video like this is what keeps my head on straight💪🏽💆
Aww the foundation of their childhood is evident it's impacted on people. Your a nice guy pablo. I wish you well. Bless you!
The anxiety he was talking about.
Never done drugs myself but have this severe anxiety disorder and yes.
When it is the worst it is like dying. Like being waterboarded.
Scared to death of dying but yeah. I've thought of jumping out of a window just to get rid of it.
I firearm. Maybe. I've been so desperate that would be quite the possibility if I had access to one.
Why do they punish drug users?
That is messed up.
Kicking on those who already are down.
Old belief system. European protestantism. A dislike or disapproval of the sensual. Its a sin.
So theres that and the nature of the human animal. Theres a drive to persecute weaker groups within the group.
But they think theyre doing the right thing
Hope ur ok. I understand having anxiety
It just comes outta nowhere/ no reason..
Try to maybe find Professional help?
Idk. Stay strong!!..
Always say your withdrawing from alcohol. Always say you drink 2 fiths a day or more. Hospitals give you benzos when you say that rather than heroin.
That’s a legit dude right there. I’ve gone through something similar with a 44 Magnum put on my forehead by a small time kingpin who was in amphetamine psychosis. Told him to fuck off and he put the gun away, embarassed. I’ve been sober for six years now, I don’t long for those times. That shit changes you forever.
There’s no such thing as a small time kingpin, lol. Dude just ran shit because he had the chance untill real gangsters took it back.
So Johnny is a legit guy and his stories are true?! Pablo keep your mind sharp and your head up. You’ll pull through, manifest and speak it into existence.
Mark, they do take care of opioid addicts in the hospital. They have to ‘DISCLOSE’ they are addicted and how much they take so the providers give them the proper amount. Withdrawal can be very dangerous and they know that and hospitals have various opioids they can and will administer if necessary. Please let them know that this should not be a deterrent….
Exactly, i have been there. The addicts dont want to stop is what it is.
Not in NYC . We are the lowest of the low. I have seen doctors and nurses resentful because of the " they did it to themselves ".
Yep I've never seen a hospital give out opiates to an addict because they are sick in the hospital or have an infection, yea right, that is a damn joke!!! No damn way!!
Your dad was right all along. The very people you called your Family is the one who never cared about your future. Where is your gang family now. I wish you the best. You seem like a nice guy.
I want to just give him a hug. I truly hope he can get help and find peace and be able to be there for his little girls. He really touched my heart.
he’s a dead beat who’s a child molester
Pablo you are here for a reason and you don’t know me but your story brought tears to my eyes you helped me more then you know God bless you
Bro, the good part is when him standing up helped his family break a cycle of abuse, and the year or so he was doing alright w his girl. Damn bro.
This is a strong story.
If he could only channel that energy into staying alive. I'm very worried for Pablo.
Pablo touched my ❤️. May he find his way out of that drug- infested living hell to get back to himself.
Shouldn't laugh, but I actually did when he said
"Homeless people shitting in the street...we don't have that...we GET 'em"
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Ikr 😂
I find myself praying for everyone I see on your videos each morning. Some more than others. I cant imagine getting this type of start in life. I feel so fortunate to have pure and happy memories of my childhood. It must be really hard when the weight of the world is on your shoulders. Not being able to dig into your memory bank and think about the good times in life. Unfortunately some people like Pablo dont have that luxury. He was born into survival mode and that is so unfair. Its my Prayer that Pablo gets a break and someone can see the goodness in him and give give him an opportunity to build his life up into something he can sustain and be proud of .
Pablo,
If you find it hard to take a new path and you feel like you cant do it for yourself do it for your Daughters. You are worthy
Wow. This man May really be at his rock bottom right now. He’s very aware of how his life is going to go. I truly hope he can kick this addiction and get the help he needs. But only time will tell where he will be and what he will do! I hope to see a follow up :)
No cap!! I dnt have a channel and I am a nobody ,, I’m Frm pico Rivera ,, just to let u know so u can say a prayer for Pablo ... a week after this video Pablo is in a better place with his mom that he loved and missed so much .. Rest In Peace Pablo may god have mercy on ur soul wen that judgement day comes
@@Trace-fc7nt Pablo died??
November 29, 2021, the day I discovered this channel and am FOREVER changed for the better ❤️ GREAT JOB MARK!
You'll probably be bingeing. Some interesting interviews. You gain a whole new understanding of people.
Welcome aboard! It is eye opening. Been watching daily for 3 years
Good Girl
Great interview. I hope you get clean and live right before it’s to late. I know you can do it.
I really hope this man makes it. He seems like such a nice person. He should do it for his daughters, as well for himself. He is still young. God bless him.
he’s a dead beat child molester who abused the woman of his kids , I hope he rots
prison, drugs, homelessness, gangs...time to change my friend.
Jails institutions or death it's an addicts life choose one!!
For me its the eyes. And the fact i recognize that look in my own. Thank you for sharing your story Pablo 💙
You can definitely still OD as a fent addict. Especially if you like to get high enough to nod. Theres a small threshold between nodding and overdosing. I been clean for 7 months, & over the few years i was doing it i overdosed twice. Both times it was when i was high on meth. The fact that this guy does meth makes it even easier for him to overdose. All it takes is to get a more pure batch of fentanyl. Street fent is always very cut, so its more convenient to use. Otherwise a dose would barely be visible to the human eye. So you dont know how much fent is in your powder until you try it. While its true its more difficult to OD than someone with no tolerance, its not "hard to OD" by any means.
Stay up, fella. Best wishes and blessings to you 🙏
@@fleabagfriend85 thank you ❤️
Bro he can just get a stronger batch or even car fentanyl that’s definitely gonna kill you if you shoot that
@@kylemcmullin5140 I actually used to do carfent, was my preference cuz it lasted way longer than regular fent. But yea it dont take much to OD for anyone
Pablo, please escape this addiction. There is a way. Praying for you.
I hope he can get off of this drug... May God bless him 🙏
Man I hope this guy can pull it together. He reminds me of a few of my really good friends I knew back when I was using fentanyl/heroin. Those people I actually liked, when I was around them. He seems like such a good dude.
Love this channel because it's showing real life people & their struggles. I have however heard that some of these people have come back at later times & asked that their videos be taken down. I'm sure Mark's probably had them sign something, helped them or even paid them regarding the release of their stories. But when their lives change & they no longer wish to have their stories plastered all over the net I hope he's finding it in his heart to at least work with them in may'be blurring their faces & changing their names not only for their privacy but for a few it might even be for their safety or they've had children & they're trying to protect them.
He could always say their names have been changed for their protection, we'd understand & still watch.
This man is a LEADER. You can FEEL it in his delivery..In this life lived and earned humility he displays. I hope this guy makes a life to be truly proud of!
He seems like a good guy at his core... addiction is such a struggle... i hope he finds his purpose.
Your channel is “great” keep it going ! I’m from Western Europe I visited LA and a few times. I think San Francisco Is even worse. I always was wondering what happened to those people to end up like this. Now I understand it’s very very sad they are really not to blame. The only thing I really don’t understand is that they have children in these difficult situations. But I guess this is what they call a vicious circle :(
I've been clean from heroine and fentanal for 3 years now. I used straight for 6 years. It was the hardest thing I've ever done. Was dope sick for a month. But it can be done
So Johnny is the shit all you doubters. All these guys are great story tellers.
this guy's led a real
Hard knocks life from birth😢
'Stead of treated
We get tricked
'Stead of kisses
We get kicked
It's the hard-knock life
Don't if feel like the wind is always howl'n?
Don't it seem like there's never any light?
Once a day, don't you wanna throw the towel in?
It's easier than puttin' up a fight
No one's there when your dreams at night get creepy
No one cares if you grow or if you shrink
Empty belly life
Rotten smelly life
Full of sorrow life
No tomorrow life
Awesome
I was once in a hospital for a check-up: tore a muscle around my rib cage in the gym. A woman on a bed across from me kept twisting and falling off the bed, landing hard on concrete floor. The nurses got pissed and yelled at her for not staying in bed each time she fell. Nobody seemed to care. I thought that was crazy. Only much much later did another nurse explain to me the patient was a typical dope-sick druggie who nurses didn't much care for because they always ended up in the hospital multiple times. This was before Narcan. I understand Pablo's explanation perfectly about why addicts don't go to the hospital.
lol "addicts don't go to the hospital" is woefully inaccurate. The number of times I've been called by addicts in the middle of the night telling me they've suffered some terrible injury and have No OtHeR rIdE to the hospital. I took them the first couple times. I stopped when I realized it was just to try for pills. The reason addicts don't go to the hospital when they're suffering problems from opiates is because they're afraid the hospital will keep them for a few days aka without dope (staph infection in particular I can think of), and they don't drop off ODing bodies because they don't want to have to answer questions. It's certainly not because hospital staff doesn't treat them well enough, though I don't doubt they have a rougher time garnering sympathy.
They judge you so much its not even funny I remember one time I was super sick and throwing up blood and they were trying to give me more drugs and than kick me out I was like dude I understand I'm a addict but we get sick too its not always about getting drugs in our system
@@roseconsumption let me get this straight: addicts both avoid hospitals because no drugs, and beg you to take them to the hospital because yes drugs? Seems legit.
@@fritzfxx I said they avoid hospitals when they're actually sick, for fear that they'll be kept, and will try to use hospitals when they're dope sick to get medicine and dip. The argument is not about whether they get drugs, but that addicts will use hospitals to their liking when they like, and that none of it has to do with staff treatment because they're some lower class.
I usually just pace back and forth for 5-8 days straight with absolutely no sleep, body exhausted from a burning pain in all my muscles that won't let me stay still for just one second, every moment long and excruciating, my mind stretched to it's limit with a burning desire to just make it end from anxiety that can only be described as a panicky, frenetic feeling of impending doom mixed with soul crushing depression that feels somewhat like a never ending bottomless abyss of fear, sadness and regret About a week (which feels like a decade) of that, it finally subsides, i eat and sleep...and i feel great
for about 90-180 days and then I start the process all over again. it is truly a poetic love/hate relationship i have with opiates and they have taught me a lot. you pay for every high with a low. there is no free lunch. give as you expect to get. addiction has increased my empathy and truly made me more self aware and gave me a lot of struggle and will. it gives me fight. it gives me resilience. it gives me insight. i choose to look at it in that way and i accept what i am. hope all you do too. Much Love
This guy is down to earth and well mannered than most people who were raised right.
Pablo, I think you know how this story is gonna end, but you stand straight with your shoulders back and accept your fate as it comes, because you’re at peace with death as inevitably. Peace brother, in another life we would have been friends.
I'm in recovery myself in the UK, now what I've learnt over many years of using, is that addicts are very smart people, it's a shame the drugs and alcohol consumes us
This man is speaking the truth. The withdrawals from fettanyl are almost unbearable. Years after, your nerves are still messed up. No sleep but you're tired af. It's a curse
Wish he could leave California and never look back. Everybody in his life is toxic.
Recovery is possible no matter what you’ve been through! Keep your head up!
One of the best interviews yet.
Thanks for being a late night uploader!!! 💛
Or early morning
6am every morning in Detroit Michigan.
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11pm in NSW Australia 👍
@@Mathteacher444 yeah right, America the great 😂
Im year older than him, from the same place, i left there and moved to Colorado, changed my life , I've owned my own company for 11 years now, married with 5 grandkids.. these doods get stuck in this life and die living it.. F that
Good for you! It’s good to get out!
I hope he doesn’t have a death wish. He’s got stories that can be turned into a movie/book. I hope you can get it together Pablo. You seam like the coolest guy!
This is definitely a video that should be shared in High schools.
One of the most genuine people I've ever seen. Really hope Pablo can pull out of his tailspin.
National treasure you are mark! We love you for what you do!