I have OCD (not the cute kind) | Woodshed Theory
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- Hi! I’m Claire, and this is my channel, Woodshed Theory. Here, you will find the awkward ramblings of an adult autist. I love being creative and sharing my experiences with you. Subscribe to see more DIYs, Discussions, and Bunnies on your feed!
Well I can’t believe I feel comfortable enough to talk about my OCD experience now. If it were two years ago, I would not have been able to even say it out loud. So yeah… I suffer from a chronic mental illness and take medication for it.
Watch to hear a little about my diagnosis and treatment, and also for a general explanation on what OCD really entails.
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I wasn't going to comment because I don't think I have OCD, but thank you for including the "blooper" bit at the end - it provoked a quick little cascade of "OH, YOU NEED TO PUT *THIS* THING THAT YOU RANDOMLY DO, and this one and this one and this one, IN YOUR 62 PAGE HANDWRITTEN LIST OF THINGS THAT MAKE YOU BELIEVE THAT YOU'RE AUTUSTIC, BECAUSE THIS IS ECHOLALIA."
I'm realizing that I randomly imitate little snippits of environmental sounds, but it's difficult to "catch" myself doing them? I do them without kinda really knowing that I do them; I feel connected to the world when I do it and that inner experience greatly overshadows the 1 - 5 seconds that I'm doing anything with my voice/hands/feet. I come out of it with a little burst of loving this crazy wacky universe including the human-made world, without a concrete memory of what I was doing that caused the feeling.
Makes it difficult to give my therapist enough examples that she understands that this is an integral part of how I see myself moving through the world.
(thank you for the video in the first place, but thank you for that little bit at the end)
You did a great job at explaining this!!! I was diagnosed with OCD at age 21. Mine is germs and fears. I was diagnosed at 35 with CPTSD, agoraphobia, Panic Disorder and Anxiety. I am 51 today. I am medicated. And I still suffer (about 40%) My daughter was just diagnosed with ASD and ADHD. The more I read and watch- the more I feel like I’ve been masking MY WHOLE LIFE 🙈 Thank you for your content ♥️♥️
Thanks lovely to have you here sharing your experience!
I had never actually looked into the OCD symptoms/traits and certainly vibe with it. Not to a sever enough level, but it would be rough. So much comorbidity
I prayed obsessively from the time I was 12 to about 22. I used to say seven prayers and I had to say them perfectly, otherwise I would make myself say them all over again. I felt like I owed it to God to express gratitude for life, if he was the one responsible for life, I had to thank him. My life was great then.
I can really relate to this one!
I got diagnosed with OCD long before I got diagnosed autism and it's a challenging way to exist. Great analogy with the record!
I’m so glad I got help!
I have OCD and was diagnosed at 20. I’m 51 now and have been diagnosed with ASD in the past two years. My experience was was very similar to yours: an all-encompassing , unending cycle of intrusive thoughts, panic/anxiety, obsessive thoughts/behavior, temporary relief of anxiety, trigger, and back around to intrusive thoughts. Excellent summary of the cycle and great analogies with both the gum and the record! Great video and thanks for sharing!
Hi LilyKat it means a lot to me that you think I did an okay job describing this. As you know it's not easy to talk about.
What made you suspect ASD so long after the OCD diagnosis? I hear the co-morbidity rate is quite high.
That was such a good explantation, and I know you probably won't see this comment because you did this video 2 yrs ago but I def suffer from OCD, not the cute kind. At one point I was washing my clothes up to 6 times on a normal load (the same load of washing) and if I thought there might be a chance that I encountered latex (which I have anaphylaxis to, so a real fear to a life threatening allergy) this amount of washing would at least double or I would actually just throw the clothes away. My mum would sometimes was the clothing for me several times, then I would take it back and re-wash the usual 6 times! My hands were raw from washing even though I wear gloves nearly all the time, I claim it is solely for my raynaud's but really it's a lot to do with not wanting to touch things. I really had to fight to stop myself from being so anxious around my kids who were young then, every time they kissed my or came near my face I would use wetwipes to wipe my face but I became even more anxious that this would emotionally damage them by my doing this that I fought against that urge so badly. I have gotten the washing down to 2 times, but I think this is down to my super smell sense, I can still smell BO on the clothing. I still either get my mum to wash latex infested clothing or throw it out! Handwashing is now thankfully back to a fairly normal amount, although I do still have my own flannel to dry my hands that no one else is allowed to use! I think compulsions are harder when there is a real need for some ritual to start, like protecting yourself from your allergy, or if it is something you still need, like food, or to shower etc..
Hi there, I am so sorry you are going through OCD, I understand it can take over ones life and be so stressful. I am so proud of you for tackling your compulsions. Group therapy and medication saved my life.
Thanks for sharing your story and experience with us. I’m so glad that you’re feeling much better since being diagnosed. Also you have a really pretty voice.
I too dream of living in the country and enjoying a quiet life.
That’s so sweet thanks! Yes I feel a huge sense of relief
Wow, that is a lot on top of asd. Each beast feeding the other, as well. You have done very well becoming the person I see in these videos.
I know you aren't done with that yet, but it is clear you're making great progress.
I hope you are proud.
Thank you I am proud! Work in progress but in general my life is a lot better now
@@WoodshedTheory yes, I feel the same. The hope is almost scary in its intensity. But I have too much momentum at this point to fear regression.
Always forwards.
Love the obsession song! :) Pleasant beeping only, D
thanks!
Right as rain, How powerful thoughts are ! I did start overthinking for hours and hours ( it was something that was meaningless) in the end I ended up literally knackered I felt a black cloud over my head. Scary to reckon thoughts may become our worst executioner moulding a drop in the ocean into an imaginary storm.
Very true!
I loved your singing, made me smile
Thanks nat
Thank you
You're welcome!
These older videos deserve more views. I'm curious how taking meds has affected your productivity and cognitive function in general, or what differences others have noticed.
yes some good stuff here - i would say medication freed up so much space and time in my day to get more done.
Since your ADHD video I've been trying to figure out what close relatives or distant cousins Austin(my autism) and Debbie(my depression) might have. From research I know it's not uncommon to have co-morbidities to ASD. And looking back on my life it wouldn't surprise me if there is more then a few.
Co-morbitities are super common with asd
Same !! I think we are spirit-twins lol
In that case I hope you subscribe and stick with me twin!
I wonder if OCD is really a mental illness or if it's neurological, like autism. I think we are going to eventually come to a melding of neurological and "mental" problems. What is mental if not neurological? I don't remember who said, "The mind is what the brain does."
i haven't heard that from the research but def. something to look in to - from what i know it is an anxiety disorder
It’s a diagnosis given not something one “has”
Fair point - I do have a dx
it is both something one has and a diagnosis. that’s how they get a diagnosis because they have an illness.
it’s not like once you get the diagnosis, then you get sick…