Ellie's Depersonalization Recovery Story (2023)
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 22 เม.ย. 2023
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01:50 Long COVID + DPDR
06:57 Stopping Everything for DPDR
10:23 Speaking to Doctors
16:35 "Nothing Feels Real"
21:27 Googling everything
27:20 Dealing with DPDR Thoughts
33:30 "Shutup, Brain!"
36:37 Ellie's Lowest Point
44:28 Telling Friend and Family about DPDR
48:44 Depersonalization Recovery
58:04 Visual Symptoms of Depersonalization
1:07:37 What Does DPDR Recovery Feel Like?
1:11:22 Advice for people with DPDR
Ellie King is 22 years old. She developed DPDR during a difficult experience with Long COVID and Postural Tachycardia Syndrome (PoTS). It lasted for 4 months, leaving Ellie struggling to deal with the mental and physical symptoms of the conditions.
But thankfully, Ellie has fully recovered from DPDR and she tells her story in this interview!
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Disclaimer: Please note that the medical information contained within this video is not intended as a substitute for consultation with a professional physician and is not a recommendation of specific therapies.
Thank you so much for having me. Was great to share my story and help whoever I can! X
I share many of your experiences.
It was so great to have you on the channel Ellie, thanks for sharing your story and insights! 😊
@@joshuataylor3550 I’m sorry to hear that. I truly hope you are able to find a way out of it, as I did. Shaun has a lot of helpful resources, you just have to find what works for you. Take care x
Hi ellie, thanks for sharing your story! I didn't even know what POTS was, but after listening to this, i actually think i have it too and it kickstarted the DPDR. Would you be open to answering some questions? If yes, is there any way i could contact you?
Love your laughter, Ellie! ❤
I had weed induced DP/DR last month, like most people i thought i was stuck in that state forever. Thankfully the symptoms started subsiding little by little over the course of two weeks. As soon as i was able to recognize that my anxiety fed the disorder and learned to ignore the strange symptoms then i noticed i got a lot better. Also, realizing that my brain did this in order to protect me was very comforting, to anyone reading this, it WILL get better. Be patient and please do not spend time on DP/DR forums, it will only prolong your recovery. Oh and do not gauge yourself to see if you are feeling better, simply go about your day and distract yourself by doing daily tasks or talking to friends. I believe in you. You are real. This commment is real. This beautiful world is real.
Thanks for your comment Alan and I'm delighted to hear you're doing so well! 😊
What do u mean the brain is protecting??? Please explain
Im crying watching this. Im only 17 and I feel like this has ruined my life. I want to find a DPDR specialized therapist online but am not sure how. I don't want to waste my single mom's money. I have had anxiety since I was a child, and got it from weed. I likely would've gotten it eventually though. I can't get a job because I can't focus at all. I've been pushing myself recently, to leave the house since I'd almost got agoraphobia. I likely have ADHD since I was told to get tested, and have had intrusive thoughts for the longest. These make it harder to deal with it. I wish I had someone in my area who knew how to help me instead of telling me to go in patient at a hospital where people don't even know what I'm going through
This sounds really tough and I’m so sorry to hear you’re experiencing this. I’m not a medical professional by any means, but I don’t think seeing a specialist would be a waste of money for you. My personal tip would be to try to find someone who specialises in these conditions rather than general CBT. Additionally, Shaun’s DP manual was a huge step in my recovery and is super reassuring, definitely worth the investment. Look after yourself ❤️
@@ellieking5385 My biggest issue is finances. I have a single mom who works long hours, and provides for 3 girls including me. My oldest sister is in rehab and my mom pays for her as well. My family suffers from a rare hereditary disease called SCA2 which messes with balance and vision and will eventually disable you. My father is feeling the effects of it now and broke his foot and dislocated his knee when falling. So now my mom has no financial support. She does everything she can to help but I feel like me living is such a burden. I feel because of my mistake of trying weed I've made my family's life harder, and ruined my own. I wish I could afford these things, I really do. I've messaged therapist that specialize in DPDR asking if they could refer me to someone who accepts insurance since most are extremely pricey. Later found they don't answer DMs. With summer here DPDR is such a harder battle, more noises, outings, stress, etc.
@@ellieking5385 Your story really gives me hope I must add. I cry often just wanting to be normal. I want to go have fun and be a teen. I want to get a mani pedi when my mom has a bonus. I want such simple things but they seem so hard. How long did it take you to recover after starting CBT and with the manual?
@@poffstarr5897 You haven't ruined anything buddy and like you said, it was coming sooner or later, and you'll understand how amazing it changes your perspective on things as you recover!
Trust me when I say this, I understand very well what you're going through (for going through it at about the same age)
This might sound weird to you right now, but trust me, it is that simple; getting over DP is just like getting over an ex! 😁 You start ignoring the anxious feeling, and the intrusive thoughts as much as you would ignore your feelings of .. you missing youe ex .. you remembering the moments, you feeling like you need a hug from her - exactly the same except the latter is not as intense as the anxious feelings of DP. But, it is as annoying, as persistent - even as truthful as it seems .. when you're missing her, you're like; god I 100% love her, but once you get a non-bias perspective on it you're like; nah, I will go do something better.
That's all you need to do, go do something better, like trying to get a job, so what if you might not be the best employee at first? Its okay, who knows, you might be afterall, right? 😁❤️
@@englisherno I have no transportation since my mom works such long hours, and definitely cannot drive. I'm actually not experiencing DPDR currently just bad anxiety afterwards from episodes that turn into episodes. The DP will appear out of nowhere it seems. Happened while I was smiling hard staring out the window going somewhere. Now I just live in fear because I don't know what triggers it sometimes. I feel so much better when I have someone to open up to and want to start therapy ASAP because of it! My day to day anxiety has made it to where I cant eat, I shake uncontrollaby, I get increasingly anxious before bed and I'm not sure why because I'm normally pretty calm and then it happens randomly. It's so unpredictable, and I've became obsessed with it. I'm accepting it now, I relax when it comes, I dont fight it but it's still there and it seems to be the center of my life even when I'm not experiencing it.
These videos are amazing they give people that little bit of happiness in the dark days I started watching one and befor I knew it I was watching them alot they helped me stay grounded keep up the amazing work ❤️
Glad you're finding them helpful! 😊
Thank you Shaun... I found your manual in 2021 but somehow forgot about it and could not understand it better. Now reading and listening to you again and understanding much better .. finally I think I will get out of this
Thank you so much! This was my story after getting covid last year! This makes me feel like I wasn't crazy
Glad it was helpful Lisa! 😊 And check out this interview too, I think you'll find it interesting: th-cam.com/video/nOsV9r_v-K4/w-d-xo.html
Your videos and manual have helped me so much. I can't thank you enough. I developed dp/dr from a panic attack after having a bad drug experience. First 2 months where absolutely hellish. But since then I've gotten about 90% out of this ! My question is, once the anxiety is gone from the feeling, is it normal for the dp "vision" and exstential thoughts to linger a bit ? My anxiety about the condition is pretty much gone and at this point it's just kind of an annoying nuisance. But the wierd intrusive and exstential thoughts still linger in my head along with the vision. Thank you for your time and thank you so much for your channel you are doing great work!
Hi Jacob!! Aware that Shaun may be better able to answer this than myself. However, for me personally, I did deal with the vision issues and existential thoughts longer than I did other DPDR symptoms, 100%. But the fact you have recovered from many symptoms but just have these lingering is amazing progress and should not be taken lightly. The more you reflect and see you’ve come so far you’ll be able to see it’s possible to get over this final hurdle. Ultimately for me, as Shaun says in his manual, it was all about distraction. If I focus hard enough I can still see DPDR things in my vision, like floaters, but I never notice them anymore because everyone gets these, we just don’t focus on them! Take care of yourself x
@@ellieking5385hi girl, anywhere I can chat with you?x
how do i stop thinking about it i always think about thats what makes the cycle proceed
Its been 2 months and i still feel like everything is fake and havin thoughts flood my brain all the time i only feel somewhat normal after waking up with a bad headache on my left side
Hi so I’m 14 and i have it but right now I’m just at the phase where I have no symptoms and i just randomly remember that I have dp and that really brings me down it’s been a little more than 2 weeks
Interesting link between Long Covid and DP.
Absolutely, I've been speaking to a few people recently experiencing this
@@Dpmanual Also in response to any drawn out health issue.
its because of the meds
I suffer profoundly from DP and DR… mine is borne of Lyme disease and Bartonella. The panic is otherworldly yet working hard to overcome.
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I think the spiralling thoughts from DPDR can mimic ADHD.
Is it okay if I get the rights to publish the "Brain, shut up!" book? It is a genius book cover title 😂😂😂😂
I'm being very serious by the way @dpmanual
It's good isn't it! And to be fair I think it was Ellie's idea 😂😂 @ellieking5385
@@Dpmanual Hahahaha! I'll honestly wait for her to reply.
@@Dpmanual Here's a deal for when she sees this, 50% back from what I am getting from publishing this book, rest is going to support the DP Manual 😁❤️
@@englisherno you have my permission!
hi shaun, is smoking cigarettes bad for your recovery? I didnt read anything about it in the manual but i really want to know
Cigarettes are a stimulant that do affect your nervous system. When DpDr happens you’re usually at your limit with stress and anxiety that your mind tries to check you out. If possible I would try my hardest not to smoke. It will be very hard because your used to smoking probably as millions of people are but that’s okay. You want to help your body recover and giving it the appropriate diet and rest is the fastest way.
@@Zamoxi thankyou I’m going to try but it’s going to be hard 😬
anyone can give this little 20yo a bit of hope? I’ve been suffering it since I was 16 when it happened to me for the first time while I was preparing to sleep 💔, Things are going harder please any one managed to survive that long?💔💔💔
Hey, thanks for your comment and I'm sorry to hear you've been having a difficult time. But don't worry, it doesn't matter what caused it or how long you've had it, you can always switch DPDR off completely by stopping the anxiety that's causing it 😊 Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/how-long-does-depersonalization-last/
And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR.
@@Dpmanual does taking medics like anti depressions and pills that turning thoughts off are useful or my mind will get used to and I will get stuck in the loop for ever and then I will be in need for pills for ever? please answer me if it's possible cause you are the only and last light I have❤❤❤❤
@@88Hypxr I'm not a medical professional so can't give you specific recommendations re medication -- But please read this article, I think you'll find it useful: www.dpmanual.com/articles/can-medication-cure-depersonalization/ -- And again if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR 😊
@@Dpmanual Thank you a lot brother, I wish to come here one day and do a video with you proud that I managed to make it and I will Inshallah, thank you for your time and effort you are saving lifes for real, you are a HERO.
@@88Hypxr Happy to help 😊
I know this is not about dpdr but damn she's soo cute😍
Thank you!! That’s very sweet xx
Hi Shaun,What if dpdr Is caused from pssd?
Read this, I think you'll find it useful 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/what-causes-depersonalization-disorder/
Thank you shaun❤
@@OmSai-bf8mx Happy to help! 😊
I need help mate I’ve had depersonalisation since I was 11 I’m now 20 and it hasn’t gone away at all
Don't worry, it doesn't matter what caused it or how long you've had it, you can always switch DPDR off completely by stopping the anxiety that's causing it 😊 Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/how-long-does-depersonalization-last/
@@Dpmanual that doesn’t help to get rid off it for me mate
@@HazeForDayz I know DPDR can be scary but just remember that it’s a natural reaction to stress and anxiety, and people experience it all the time. The National Institute on Mental Illness estimates that up to 75% of people experience at least one depersonalization / derealization episode in their lives. It's part of your brain's natural defence mechanism and usually it only lasts a few seconds or minutes at a time. It's only when it's focused on as a separate problem (feeling like you're going crazy / in a dream etc) that it can turn into a feedback loop with the anxiety that caused it in the first place. But no matter what caused it or how long you've had it, you can always switch it off completely by stopping that anxious feedback loop. Make sure to carefully read through all the articles and info on my website at www.dpmanual.com
And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR 👍
@@HazeForDayz Read about second fear as Dr. Claire Weekes wrote in her book... the second fear is our reaction/feedback to the obsessive thoughts and feelings we get during anxiety. Like Shaun says anxiety and dp,dr are obsessive habits of thought, nothing else.
Will I regret the decisions I made when I was dissociating? Like getting cats, changing my style, moving ?
I’m not an expert. But no, you’re still you and you’re in full control of your actions and thoughts still. You’re just living inside of this anxious haze, it doesn’t change you fundamentally. You shouldn’t regret those decisions. Take care ❤️
@@ellieking5385 thanks so much ❤️
@@Novanomadmac no worries, you’re gonna be totally fine❤️ keep doing you
Shaun i want ask one thing like when i fear i will lose my sanity and jump in river or seawer or from building is this dp because i dont want to die
Please tell me thisss because dp has stolen my sense of safety to mee
Shaun please tell me thiss i i feel like no control over and controlling by someone
That's the most common anxiety fear
@@BalkanMusicYT please tell me properly and explain well is this normal or you have also expirenced itt please tell
@@BalkanMusicYT tell me properlyy please about thisss please because i am sacred
Is it normal to feel like u enter like a 4th dimensons or something?
Don’t worry Paul, feelings like that are super common with DPDR. I know they can be frustrating but they will fade away and stop as you recover 😊 www.dpmanual.com/about/do-i-have-depersonalization-disorder/
Please call people who are going through derealization also, all people who recovered were going through depersonalization.
Read this carefully, I think you'll find it useful 😊www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-and-derealization-whats-the-difference/
I have been having weed induced derealization for the last one and a half months, I had severe panic attacks for the first 3-4 days , but then they were gone. Then I just always had anxiety like I could literally feel it in my stomach. Now all of that is gone, it's just I feel very empty from inside. I don't feel any emotions, because of that I think my memory is kind of vague. I can do work and go to the office. I do all the normal stuff and also joke around. But I still feel very hollow from inside and also I can feel that my brain is like freeze mode, not stimulating anything. Because of this everything feels unreal. It was my first weed experience, i am never going to do it ever again. Feeling very guilty and hoping to find a way out. Please help. Where to get dp manual? Also if u have some tips about what to do recover from here on. There are som people who tell that they are having dp/Dr for 15-20 years, it's so heartbreaking. Please help me, i don't want to live my life like this
@@prakashsuthar4376 Hey, thanks for your comment 😊 I know DPDR can be scary but just remember that it’s a natural reaction to stress and anxiety, and people experience it all the time. The National Institute on Mental Illness estimates that up to 75% of people experience at least one depersonalization / derealization episode in their lives. It's part of your brain's natural defence mechanism and usually it only lasts a few seconds or minutes at a time. It's only when it's focused on as a separate problem (feeling like you're going crazy / in a dream etc) that it can turn into a feedback loop with the anxiety that caused it in the first place. But no matter what caused it or how long you've had it, you can always switch it off completely by stopping that anxious feedback loop. Make sure to carefully read through all the articles and info on my website at www.dpmanual.com. You can purchase The DP Manual here: www.dpmanual.com/purchase/
And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR 👍
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