Methadone Withdrawal (What does detoxing off Methadone feel like?)
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I have found that everyone suffers with addiction in different ways, we just suffer from a drug one. I journeyed my detox/ withdrawal off heroin from day 5 all the way to the present. I have journaled many experiences and have shown many of my stories on my channel. During this process I have learned much and continue to learn. I have found that we addicts need new people, places and things for sure!
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Derek Lambert I need help. Addicted to methadone 9 yrs. I’m losing job and family.
Thanks for the support this is my second time that I will be doing this cold Turkey I did it a few years ago and I'm doing the mmt program the right way but I've had enough and I just want it completely over
Where are you guys from I'd love to tell my story !!
Going off this shit too day 3 feeling like crap but prayers needed
509? I'm in tri cities too
I started doing drugs 18 years ago as a teenage. Got addicted to meth. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Meth addiction actually destroyed my life. Not until my wife recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 4 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.
YES very sure of Dr.benfungi. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
How do I reach out to him? Is he on insta
I was horrifically depressed since childhood. It was relentless. I assumed it would ultimately end me somehow. About twelve years ago I randomly accepted the offer from a friend of a few doses of mushrooms. I did them two consecutive nights alone. First night was pretty mild. The second night? Wow. I saw my depression from every angle, realized much. Next day: depression totally gone. Never came back, never coming back. It's like it's a forest far away I can remember, and could probably find again with enough effort, but it has zero impact on anything in my life or mind. They honestly saved my life and improved it immensely. I never did them again, either. I wish there was a good, organized way to administer them to people who would benefit from them.
Does he ship?
Yes he ships discreetly got mine shipped here in Spain 🇪🇸
I'm on liquid form of methadone. I can't do this ony own so I've laid my life down and surrender to Jesus Christ to carry me through this. God bless you thanks guys
How's it going? Are you getting through it?
Chasing tht high...and then it becomes running from the sickness...shout out to everyone who's in the struggle...life is so much better if you make tht desicion..I see blessings everyday now...and blessings aren't supposed to happen do people like me, so I thought... but now I see that I'm worth it.. I'm worth life now!!!... and a big shout out to everyone who is in sobriety...ONE DAY AT A TIME!!!!! keep up the good work bro the channel rocks!!!!...
Ray Marks I never thought I would be free and it is a gift. But I made a change and I did suffer but I made it out.
Life is more beautiful than I could of ever thought being sober. It’s absolutely amazing. Blessing to all who are in the struggle YOU CAN DO THIS!! Please don’t give up. We are for you!!!!
A month off the sauce currently. Was at 130 MG at my highest. 9 years on methadone and the previous 10 on opiates. It takes time and perseverance.
It's really both. Trying to get high but most importantly not trying to get sick, once your tolerance gets super high you start mixing your opiates with other downers like benzos and booze just so you can get to that level of comfortably high
Was on 55mg of Methadone for 8 years. Decided to taper down 1mg per week. Been 2 weeks since I got off 1mg. For 1 week minor knee pain, chills and sweats but very minor. Feel fine now.
Thats awesome im on 31 mg burned my ua cup, but want off this so bad the only way I got a burned ua is bc I was using Xanax to sleep...I was on like 3 hours of sleep trying to work and other things..I feel like a failure but congrats to u for getting g off
I was on 90 mgs for the past 11 years. I’ve been detoxing, coming down 2 mgs, every 2 weeks- for a while. Will be at 71mgs when I go back to pick up my take homes & dose, on Thursday. Starting March 4, I will be getting 4 weeks of take homes at a time. So, that will change my detox, to 2mgs, every 4 weeks.
@Jeremy Mitchell Yes thank you. It's been nearly 7 weeks no methadone and I feel amazing.
@@germanschokolade64 You can do it and get off of it if you slowly taper down. Never go cold turkey or relapse. You'll do great. Been nearly 2 months for me without methadone and feel amazing. No longer a slave to it. It's great. But you know your own body so you'll know when the time is right to get off of it.
@Jeremy Mitchell And for advice, just taper off of it slowly and not too fast. Try going down 1mg per week or two weeks. It may take time but eventually you will be off of it.yes the first couple of weeks without it feels a little odd but it's not bad at all. I just had very minor chills, a little bit of craving but it's very minor if you taper down slowly.
I don't care what anybody says about methadone, it saved my life and my 5 kids still have me. F the negativity about methadone!
mr. noodle same. I have my life back , a career, my kids etc. all I heard in this video was methadone saved his life but fuck it he wouldn’t recommend. Like seriously dude
Same methadone saved my life. I use to live check by check and never had money saved. Now 2 years into methadone I have more money saved than I've had ever. My family is so happy with the man I've become. I'm so happy to wake up everyday and not being sick having to call my dealer and hope he's got something for me. I know I have to eventually get off the methadone. Hence why I'm watching this video. But methadone saved my life. I can go on vacations and bring my medicine with me and not worry about detoxing.
Usually people that talk bad about it are those who didn't do it right
you must love that liquid shit better of on diamorphene
people who like methadone cant afford the real thing
Derek you motivated me to get clean and now I'm 10months clean, 1min 1hour and 1 day at a time. You gave me Hope and Hope mean Hearing Other People's Experience
Hope you're still clean brother
@@just_nate_8694 yes mate will be 2 years this November 5th
@@jasonkuy7100 that is awesome man! Don't even know ya but hearing this made my night.
That's right man. If you can quit for 1 minute you can quit for one hour you can quit for 1 day.
This sucks quitting drugs when you suffer from suicidal thoughts and depression
I’m clean from all drugs for 4 yrs been on methadone 17 yrs but been reducing 2 ml every 2 weeks now I’m 5 Days clean of my methadone it’s hard but I’m plodding along , great video love from Scotland
You guys are great I’ve been looking for a video that wasn’t a doctor or just somebody that doesn’t know anything more than what they have read. I don’t dislike those people they’re trying but they just don’t know And honestly for them that’s a great thing and I’m happy but we need more people like you that is actually going through it honestly it’s the scariest thing I’ve ever done!!
10 years. Prescribed methadone for pain. I tapered down to 2.5mg for a week. Today is my second day off. Mild withdrawals. Insomnia. No energy etc, this is my 7th or 8th time and actually feels hopeful. This too shall pass. There is light at the end of the tunnel.
@J.P that's so awesome. How are you doing now?
Day 2...it takes 3 days for withdrawal to start...I can go 2 days without it no problem..then it becomes hell. You're on 2.5 and withdrawing..fuck..I went from 60 to 40 in 3 months and now I'm 3 months into 40..
8 years on methadone. Never a end in sight. If I knew then what I know now, NEVER EVER would I have started at the methadone clinic. No actual counseling, therapy, nothing.... people set up for life taking methadone every single day forever. I'm on week 3 without methadone and it has been straight HELL. Doing it on nothing but advil and muscle rub. It didn't take me a day to turn into a pill junkie, its not going to take me a day to feel better. Have to remind myself everyday(several times a day) that I got this.
Stay with it ,even if you go live in a forest , yr brain will change ,, xx stay away from them people xx I know x
I hope you're well
I was on fentanyl, I couldn’t handle the withdrawals so I started methadone before I died on it. I’m on day 9 methadone. 45mg. What would you recommend? I still don’t feel right on methadone, but able to sleep and just barely function to work
Been on methadone fir over a decade and was mostly clean the whole time but I can tell you right now the only way I would ever recommend something as painful as methadone is if you are in the most desperate of situations cause methadone alone has cause more agony and suffering for me then I thought humanly possible. Also never ever take a Suboxone or Subutex if you're on methadone you will experience the worst withdrawals you've ever felt.
@@jedhaas5061 thanks that’s great advice. I suffered from suboxine precip before. I was in the most desperate of situations. I’m trying to taper down, but they are saying tapering down this early will cause withdrawals. I don’t get it. Why would tapering off now cause more withdrawals then after taking it for a year.
I got on methadone at 18 went straight to 125 as fast as i could Im now 34, 2 kids and dont want yo be on itb anymore. I've slowly gone down 1mg a week to ehere im at now at 29 mg!! I'm scared, nervous over home all the west down to 18 mg threw the bottles out, went 2 days and then went right back to the clinic.
Methadone is such a strongdrug, mentally, physically, spiritually. I've lived since 18 in a fog. I'm only realizing this as I get lower and my emotions are coming back.
I'm really excited for my future.
This for your uploads
Man, I was terrified of getting off but I just did a slow taper. I promise you, its not as bad as you think. Think of it as the last time you'll be sick in your life and it is nothing compared to those dopesick nights we had when we were using.
I am from Scotland UK and ive been stuck on Methadone for years and i totally agree with your comments about Methadone.
It is the worst drug to start because its almost impossible to stop. Keep up the good work guys
Nicola Sturgeon is "thee biggest drug dealer" in Scotland!
My boi this is the realest video ive seen in a minute im on the done and u both speakn the truth
Yup
This guy may be off of methadone but he is definitely on something. Listen to his voice and he don't stop scratching his nose.
Definately pills. I used to do the same thing with my nose
Thank you for making this channel and helping people
I'm really impressed with you honesty, and thank you for sharing. I am 65 ,
I self medicated for 50 years after I was diagnosed with Severe ADHD in 1988 !
I'm currently going through a heroin addiction and this is really inspiration for me to quit...this is a good channel bro I'm glad I found it
You can Do it !!
Same don't know how
Some people don't realize that they are trading a mountain for a mole hill when they start a methadone program especially if they aren't serious.
All I can say is keep up the good work and do what you do. Everybody has their ways to getting clean everybody has to accept that everybody has is different. But everybody has the same goal to get clean to stay clean you got to focus on yourself you need support can't do it alone.
I went from using to methadone and it helped me get out of he stupid situations I put myself in. All my friends I used with oddly didn't want to hang out with me anymore, which I now know was a good thing. Wish I didn't stay on it for 3 years though. I got fed up with going to the clinic and not being able to go on vacations to visit family so decided to try kratom, which go me off methadone but now I know it is time to get off kratom as well. Your videos have been a huge help and get me through the tough times and help me remember why I want to not be dependent on anything. Thanks so much!
Thanks I'm withdrawing at this moment. Thank you so much for your help. Thank you so much for ... (Crying now )
Im with u buddy week 3 LETS GO!!!
@@DattBoiiYogii thanks. Getting there. Support system, people who care, exercise, real food (not crap). It really, really works. Thanks again. Come to the light side!
Me too
@@dougg1075 fuck
Dude fight to get your life back.think of coming out of end of tunnel.i pray for you.
yay more people! you are seriously dedicated Derek yay!
Yes ma,ma
Methadone withdrawal is brutal! Absolutely horrifying. The worst thing Ive ever been through.
Not if u go super slow i went from 160mg to 5 mg with no withdrawal or pain. Jumped off at 5mg. Little withdrawal, lasted 6 days
@@royalloyalty8248 that’s where I’m at man, 110 down to 7. Figuring on quitting around 5.. just wondering if it still makes you sick
@@waynejohnting2954 are u good now and can u explain what y did
@@AlexPerez-lg2gg I went all the way down to 1 and stayed on 1 for 5 days . From 10 milli down I experienced brain fog, and I didn't feel great by any means but I wasn't sick. I work 7 nights a week, 10 hrs shift which didn't help either. Lol .. I've been off it for 9 1/2 mos. And feel fine. Workout, take good vitamins seemed to help too
@@waynejohnting2954 how are you doing now???
Thanks bro. Changing lives
Happy New Year! It's going to be a fantastic time!!!🎉🎉🎉
you guys are young and awesome im 62 no drugs at all im gonna die screaming found jesus imagine his pain go from there
Thank you for another Excellent Video!!!
♥️Happy New Year, Everyone!♥️
These guys are young so the with drawls are hell on earth but I'm older person and you need to be careful in detoxing yourself without doctor supervision it can be very dangerous especially pills you can die in a painful way. The channel is an excellent way of sharing there was no social media when I entered the life. I don't imagine a post can replace a meeting but its a good addition in recovery. Good luck with life's struggles. Stay hungry Stay strong.
methadone saved my life!...i was hopelessly addicted to heroin for years now i have my life back so i have a positive outlook on it.
I have a positive outlook on methadone too. I was in a methadone program for a year. I kicked methadone with a slow tapper of three months and wasn't to bad tapering off I just didn't want to be on methadone the rest of my life. I've heard all the horror stories of the extreme bone pain coming off of methadone, at the clinic I was warned about this from several people that had been on methadone for 30+ years
@@whocares4464 my moma can relate ma,ma
@@whocares4464 You should share your story more. Methadone saved my life also. I have my own story. I am so PROUD of you, good job on getting sober. And tapering off. That is awesome.
Same bro saved my life i was rushed to hospital in a very bad way i was at deaths door so under weight bloodclots in my leg in a bad mess
Me too I have been on methadone for a year and a half and its saved my life I went from losing everything to be homeless to grttong everything back and away from everyone that was in the drug game. I once felt bad about taking it and my aunt who has diabetes says to me I take my medication everyday to live and it's no different for you and that really changed my outlook on it because it is a disease and we need medication some of us to live also
Methadone saved my life. I had a bad Oxy addiction, and the Oxy withdrawl was brutal. I would sh*t and puke at the same time. I started on 20 mg of Methadone and went up to 30 mg. After going up, I slowly started to make my way down. After 1 and a half years, I officialy quit on June 24, 2021. I got down to 1 MG and just stopped. It's been 60 hours and I feel great. Bless everything fighting addiction !
Amen, Ruskey!
How long were you on 1mg a day before you stopped?
@@jefvarnadore2267 a few days actually... I was on 2mg for about 2 weeks, went on 1mg for 3 days and just said "screw this" and quit.
Did you ever have withdrawals after the 60 hours?
@@kirriksanders5494 None at all! After 1 week all my physical withdrawals went away (Headache, groginess, little mind fog) But I did have some disturbed sleep for about a month after. The toughest part of quitting for me was all mental.
The most prominent doctors in the US quote, “Methadone is so bad for the body, I wouldn’t give it to a sick dog.”
Been on methadone for 7 years strait after junk, and he described that perfect when he said you dont get high but your not sober
Agreed... honestly that's the only way to describe methadone
When you take methadone you don’t get high and you are sober some people don’t have a clue what they talking about he also said you can’t have the same friends what a load of 💩💩💩😂😂😂
@@jamiegotti8436 Youre not sober when on mantience opioids idiot, that's not how it works regardless of what you wanna tell yourself. I went from dope to subs to Kratom, I'm still taking kratom and yet I don't go around touting about how sober I am, despite kratom being the end of the finish line with tapering.
@@jamiegotti8436 Also, why the fuck would you wanna continue hanging out with people you used heroin with ?? When you're trying to get shit back on track? Your logic is dumb as hell
Absolutely and the only people who will claim they are sober on methadone are people on methadone .
Derek Lambert and Ryan donelly are angels. Keep up God's work
Matthew Sprung Ryan is no longer with us. A angel, yes.
I went through cold turkey withdrawl from methadone. I was on for four yrs. Had those round ones the size of a quarter dollar & scored to break into 4 pieces I guess for lack of a better way to put it.
July 2018 until September were all withdrawl. Day one puking all day. Then the constant heart racing. Time dragging, not sleeping to the point you pass out at like 3-4am for maybe 2 mins. Wasn't even sure if I really did nod out for a one minute or two. Can't get comfortable. Everything comes up in your mind at night. Mind racing everything negative done & problems in your currently life. Brushing my hair hurt. Water hurt cold & hot. Crushing sadness to anger in a matter of seconds. Pur friggin hell.
I didn't believe people who went through it that it will get better. But, you do. It's a methodical process. You'll know when you're turning the corner. It can be accomplished. Don't lose sight of that even at your darkest moment.
Bro this is so fucking true you can relate too it I hate doing the fish can't sleep didn't know if I feel asleep or not glaad got rn
Methadone in my experience did help for a short period of time long term no use I do agree it helps numerous people . Addiction is so hard people especially certain family members could not understand which made my experience much harder now they have more knowledge it helps so much more clean 2yrs take it a day at a time wish you all the luck in your recovery derek your videos are helping so many xx
I have shared your video because all in all your spot on!
I’ve been on the clinic 5 years!! I can definitely relate it save my life and it did help me get off the streets I’ve been clean for three years on the Clinic for five years and I am coming off I’m on 20 mg now and I’m detoxing really hard but no matter what I would never go back to the other life. But I understand what you’re saying and it is hard to detox from methadone it hurts
Thank you, I hope you are successful. Feel free to come chat with us in the discord. It's in the video description.
are u good now denise?
He said it right the first time? "He wouldn't recommend it.The methadone withdrawal stories are by far the WORST stories! Let your guests say what they wanna say? That's what editing for? Derrek you are THE MAN! Tell Kurt I'm Riding with him&I riding for the Cause! On a side note just found out the Holidays are a TRIGGER for me? (or just an EXCUSE to use?)I went cold turkey back in November- the 1rst was day1(after all that pain &suffering) 30days went by? 60days went by? Oh No "It's New Year's eve?" & I GOT LOOSE! Here I go again: Day 1. Addiction is Definitely a SICKNESS! GOD BLESS YOU BROTHER! "Keep doing what you doing!" Happy New Years! share THIS if you want too." It's all good I stop hiding Long ago. PEACE!
hi man s thank you im coming off methadone from 3o years I tapered off a month ago and im in a living hell its so hard as im old now 60 haaaaaaa but im standing firm imagine after 30 years every day and now nothing aggggggg the mind and body is in utter torment but I know within I will get better withdrawlles do not last forever that's a fact I no that byt being wipped up in a tornado of pain and suffering but I want to be happy and positive and life a good life like you kind guys thank you I have finally found my right path and I will sucseed like you guy respect brothers one love from Kelly in England
How you feeling?
Happy new year y’all. This is the year we get it done. 2019 baby!
2021
im 20 years on meth im on 65mg from 120mg when i start the program the good thing is this program u can stay al long as u want
No please dont send this message out, its just as unhealthy for you
Fuck that mate. 20 years is no offense madness to me . I've been on 4 years been clean 10 days today .
Fuck been on 5 years an I have so much regrets on not tapering in the beginning went to 55 mg high test I got an I couldn't imagine been on it a month longer .. as of today I am at 1 mg
Fyi realwithdraws dint start till about 15, 20 mg everything else is in your head. Good luck
Of course you can stay on as long as you want $$$$
Thanks Guys....Its been so helpful
Keep fighting brothers
I’m withdrawing off methadone cold turkey!!! I’ve been off of it since January 1 till now and I’m still withdrawing bad!!! You are a inspiration to me!!!
Hi mate, hope your doing ok, just to let u know I was still withdrawing after 14 weeks after last dose & it just keeps getting worse, I jumped off a high dose though....., ended up getting back on small dose ( 25mg ), I will try going on small amount of subutex next time to help . Stay strong 💪
@miss muscle cool, just take it real slow, & just remember everyone withdrawals a little bit different & if your doing it tuff it’s ok, just stop reducing for a bit to let your body recover, it’s a long battle, not a race 🙂, I wish u all the best & hope u beat this demon . & try eat healthy it really does help heaps .
SouthWest Syd Kid ✌️
So how long was your withdrawal
I’m 6 weeks off 35 ml daily methadone and I still shitting water waking up writhing with bone ache, and having to shower 3 times daily cos I feel yuk. My morale has really taken a hit because it the same shit everyday and doesn’t seem to get better. That being said I still determined to keep up the fight!
This dude has more experience than more doctors I visited. Absolutely true. I. Quit methadone could not sleep for 22 days
Thank you for sharing this information.
Over 6 months clean. It can be done although not an easy task. Good luck to anyone that wants to rid this horrible drug.
Methadone absolutely saved my life I've tried suboxone and after waiting 4 days being in withdrawal it still made me so much sicker. If you detox methadone properly there is very little pain so glad you guys are doing well.
I've been prescribed methadone since 2012 for chronic pancreatitis. I've been weaning for a year. A very slow taper. I'm down to 5 mg. Next month my doctor wants to switch me to Suboxone bc he said it's way easier to whean off of. What do u think?
@@oceanark77 I had a horrible experience with Suboxone like I even waited the full 4 days like I was supposed to and checked off on the Paul's chart and everything I was in full blown withdrawals. I should have been okay. The doctor said she gave it to me and and 20 minutes later I was on the side of the street getting an ambulance call because I was so sick. I was about to die like I don't think I was literally about that but I felt like it. So they said some boxing just doesn't work with some people. So just know that you're going to have to go like with Suboxone. I think they make you go almost a week or two without it. You can't have anything in your system until they give it to you. So you're going to be feeling sick for a minute
Thank you guys so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
We’re here if you need anything.
Just ask. 😛
I am so glad that there is a channel out there with awareness of people on methadone. However I'm sure that I am one of the few still pulling through that have been on methadone straight for 30 years and that is not counting 21 day detox I'm 54 and started this crazy Journey a month before my 18th birthday. I was beautiful young had the whole world ahead of me but didn't think that way because I came from a toxic environment in fact my dad was my weed connection so that started me off in a turbulent environment and then my step dad was an abusive alcoholic so basically didn't matter where I went there are bound to be some type of drug anywhere and everywhere I went except for a few of my friends homes. But I have survived I'm still on method on it's been 30 years and I am what you would call a rarity when it comes to a counselor in all counselors at a methadone clinic however I would have loved to have gotten off 1520 years ago and that's the downfall they make it too easy for you to stay there you get too comfortable and you stay there and that's a very very sad and dangerous element.🙏🏼🤷🏼
Be strong sister, it aint over until it's over, us women are stronger then we think. You got this.✊🏼💯
@miss muscle no problem as human beings we have to keep each other lifted up and as women we have to have each other's backs no matter what we can't keep tearing each other down we have to bring each other up. And if you ever need a bit of sisterly advice please reach out to me and I'll reach back.🙋🏼✊🏼
@miss muscle hello and how are you doing I hope your doing good , I'm not sure what you're talking about are you referring to somas? And if so I know a few people who take those for sleep.
One day at a time🙏
I am on day 13 at present without using methadone, I was on 80 ml a day and just decided after 23yrs of using to stop. I had to hit rock bottom before realizing enough is enough I've waisted so much of my life. Its been tough up to now still got hot and cold sweats and restless legs but without the support of my wonderful mum I don't think I'd manage
Wow! How are you feeling now? Are you still off of it? 80mg is a heroic dose.
I'm at 145 been on pills since 98 I'm bout to go cold turkey 💯 I want to b free, it's been to long ...your doin Great keep it up 😊
@@Eric-md3xc DO NOT go cold turkey frim such a high dose! You need to slowly taler it down first.
@@AntoinMhicArtain I agree. I was never able to do it.
80 mg methadone for 12 years and was using 600 mg pregabalin ,i went cold turkey 2½ month ago,the legs restlessness has almost gone but the 'flu' ,gingivitis,nausea,gastric reflux and weakness still persist . By the way cafféine and carbonated drinks makes the symptoms worst .
Hey Derek.Ed from Daytona Beach here.your videos are helping me big time..day 4 off pills.cold turkey.think that's the best wayfor me too.
Methadone saved my life, but now I am at the point (6 years later) where I’m tired of being in the shackles. I’m at 6mgs, stopped taking yesterday. I know what’s coming, but I do have to remember where my life was and how bad it was, and know that I just have to get through one day at a time, one minute at a time if need be. Thanks for your channel and the information you’re putting out. 🙏🏼
Hi Derek, I just subbed and apreciate the video. I've been tapering for 2 yrs and, currently take 15mg of methadone and, have been on for 9yrs. Mild withdrawl started for me 5 days ago. My biggest issue is muscle fatigue, weakness, and temp changes and, sweats and, lack of apetite. Do you have any recomendations on how to treat those specific symptons? Any advice will help.
Love the work your doing left clinic 18 days ago went all the way to 150 mg tapered to 35 amd quit not looking back hardest thing iv ever went thru amd I spent years in prison and methadone withdrawal was harder period point blank dont do METHADONE
Me too man day 32 for me
It sucks that I am just now seeing this... However what you said from 8:10 -8:55 is why I just became a subscriber. Thank you
Big ups bruvs... Right witch yas god bless
Awesome channel bro! Keep up the good work man! To my fellow recovering addicts and addicts wanting to get clean, it is possible.
You are so right. Channels like these educate you no matter how wise a person thinks they are. I and many like us are constantly looking for ways to rid ourselves of this shit. I hold my hands high and admit that I have been weak over the years. Lost count of how many times I relapsed. I started heroin in late 96 early 97. Started methadone in 99 so was using both 65ml and heroin and anything from 100 to 150mg of vallium daily. Quit heroin in 2008. Relapsed for a month in 2016 when my long term wife died. Hit the vallium again but down to 10mg a day and was locked at 10ml of methadone from 65 for years. Couldn't budge from 10ml. Since watching these inspiring vids and reading inspiring comments from fellow addicts (whether successful or not) has gave me a plan that I pray will work. I got a 1ml syringe and reduced to 8ml last week. On Tuesday. In 2 days time when I collect again I. Ll drop to 6ml. Then 4ml the following week. Maybe even try going to 2. But from either 4 or 2 I plan to try using that 1ml syringe barrel to come down 0.1ml at a time. My pharmacist tells me 10ml is easy to jump off but clearly none of them have felt the consequences of a sudden jump thankfully. Like this guy I was caught between a rock and a hard place. I hated heroin in the end but had to have a substitute. Methadone provided that and allowed me to break free from the H lifestyle. I'm pretty much a loner but at 50 years old that doesn't bother me that much. I need to do it for me to be any good for any of my loved ones. But shit I very very much underestimated and/or didn't understand the consequences of methadone. So, I. Ll give it my best shot and hope I succeed. I truly respect anyone trying detox whether they succeed or not because trying Is better than resigning yourself to fate. Love and respect from the UK to anyone around the world stuck in this rutt. And to those who make vids like these that inspire others.
@@perryman12345 Hey Perry, My names Mat and im 48 years old from England and have almost identical drug history to you. I'm really struggling now and although I was down to 10ml I have gone back up to around 30ml as I had no energy and wasn't sleeping. Its been around 10 years ive been on one opiate or another and its really tough. I feel you brother and wish you all the best. We loners really need each other when the chips are down.
@@mattiemclean9882 Hi ya Matt. I'm down in Plymouth Devon. Yeah mate so many of us stuck in this nuts of a rutt. Well my plan didn't work out lol but I'm currently at 7ml. I'm on Mirtazapine which helps sleep but geesus even with them sleep is hard. But after a couple of weeks on 7ml my body has kind of adjusted. Not as quick tempered or agitated. But yeah even at 10ml I feel u Bro as I got that used to waking up daily with the cold shivers it just feels part of the norm so I'm creeping down 1ml a month from here on in or as and when I feel I can manage it. I found a site kratom UK was gonna try some red balli and not go nuts with it but just use it to overcome the darkness and restlessness that comes from withdrawal. Where u from if u don't mind me asking Matt? Seriously mate this ain't watsapp lol but talk to me anytime mate I mean that to. I'm battling with you and millions like us. Keep strong. Don't beat urself for going back up. Shot happens and I've relapsed countless times. F.cking hard isn't it. But it's doable I believe once ur brain gets over the PAWS. Hearing success stories keeps me on the road to fighting hard constantly to reduce and aim to rid myself of this. Imagine if the infrastructure goes down through the crazy way the world is going. That's my fear and prompting me to get off as well as the fact I got loved ones who need me. I'm sure u do to Matt. And yes mate were in this hole together and I. Ll gladly grab a fellow addicts hand to help pull anyone in this deep dark hole out if I can. I'm trying to get out of it to.
Mattie Mclean i would of dropped off at ten mil because everyone says it is easier but I dropped off at 7ml and I’m day 11 cold turkey it’s pure hell
perry1993 I just dropped off 7ml cold turkey I took seraquil 800ml (quitiapine) and slept for two days I’m on day 11 if you can get some of the Imodium tablets from boots chemist they will help you too and some narproxen from your doctor helps with pain
Just wondering how long it took you to decrease your methadone, was it quick or slow? B/c I’ve heard from a lot of people the slower you go the less pain/withdrawal you go through.
Not an addict but I am Here for everyone going through this constant battle that WANT CHANGE❤
I don't think methadone is for everyone but it literally saved my life.....
I'm on methadone and I go to the clinic once a week they say its good and I'm technically sober and I'm doing better than I ever had it doesnt get me high at all and i dont spend all my money once I'm ready I'll start tapering off but its helped me soo much from getting away from everyone that does it I been on methadone for a yr and a half I consider it being sober
Be careful. Why be so quick to taper when ur having success???? Take ur time man.
@@austinwitte311 no you should come of methadone as soon as your ready don't sit on it cos your happy on it. Your not clean when on methadone it still a opioid. People who say it saved my life haven't tryed comeing of it yet. I was on 140mg I'm now on 10mg withdrawals worse than heroine
@@austinwitte311 naw man. I took my time and here I am, still on this god damned methadone 5 years later. One milligram a week isn’t that bad. I went slower and I really regret it, but you are correct in way. If you go to fast it’s easy to fall back into addiction.
I do want to put it out there that going straight to suboxone can cause precipitated withdrawals. it is one of the worst experiences I have ever had.
I agree there. I done that and realised in about 20 minutes it was a bad choice it ruined me that precipitated withdrawl
I’ll second that… left me screaming in my bed. That was not what I expected.
Thanks for this ...its a blessing and a curse currently goin threw tampering down from methadone 10yrs 2 long
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I'm in the same boat- 11yrs now - so I've been on methadone WAY longer than i was on pills. I only started goin to the clinic bc I got addicted to methD on the street in an "attempt" to quit pills on my own. I was in college &worried I'd eventually get arrested, so I went the legal route. I've come down in spurts over the years - slowly - decreasing 2mls a wk (was on 160mls, then 100, now I've recently gone from 70 to 50) &w/this last decrease I'm determined to keep muscling thru it, since I'll never likely _want_ to detox out. The lower I go, the more I worrry how detoxing will effect me, bc I always double my dose, then skip the next day (I've got takeouts) &am _still_ buying a lil extra on wknds. You can't really ask the clinic staff etc those types of ?'s w/o getting in trouble, so I guess I'll deal w/it when it happens. I will say to those not on it, the longer you're on MD the less motivated &more depressed you feel... almost like you're completely empty...but that's NOTHING compared to how u feel when you're w/o. It's also impossible to imagine that you'd be able to be naturally happy, or excited, about things w/o it... even though you don't feel joy w/it, anyway. Guess it's a never ending cycle. Ok, I'm rambling. I'll stop now. Lol
@@lizp5004 I understand Liz. The whole thing really messes with your mind tapering like that and wondering how long it will take and how to feel normal again. I ended up going cold turkey from 140 to 0. If you ever really want off it and feel good about it maybe you should consider that, because I was very similar to you with the addicted mind set, and couldnt really taper and would always want more and sort of just be unsure of myself. At one point I didn't know how or if I could really ever live without opiates, but I could. Coming off cold turkey is a very viscous hell, but once it's over you will off for good. I had to move out of state so I couldn't relapse. It might not be an option if your in an area where you have connections and what not because the torture from the withdrawal becomes to much cold turkey sometimes and if you have connects you will probably use them. I was on methadone for over 10 years straight and was using heroin/fentanyl and crack on top at one point while drinking every day. I now take nothing at all and am super healthy and on no medications for anything either. I workout every day and have a beautiful house and family. You can do this Liz if you want to. Exercise and eating right will help BIG TIME with the depression and anxiety of post acute withdrawal. Its a journey, but it's very rewarding.
As someone who is on methadone, and has been on methadone for 22 years, I often look back and wish I had tried harder to get off opiates before going to methadone. But I have to remind myself that I am having these thoughts with a clear mind and a productive life because of the methadone. I agree with his statement that I really didn't want to get off, and the methadone was a way to keep getting the opiates without all the negatives of the streets and the constant need to find money to buy opiates. It has given me the ability to have a productive life, but I don't expect I'll ever have the strength to get off. I admire those that do.
im was in that hell of a first month off of methadone. i wanted to die... i wanted someone to put me out of my misery. its been 50 days and im still withdrawling !!!!
Did you quit cold turkey? Did you get shakes or head tremors or slight loss of mobility in hand or arms I’m going through it now and feel like I’m literally dying my body jolts sometimes
Damn still?
@@cookiesumsumbanana6810 i been tappering down to 0 mg for years. so no. it wasnt cold turkey.
@@cookiesumsumbanana6810 I hear you. I looked like I was having a seizure, I was shaking so bad when I went cold turkey. Keep it up though you got this.
My methadone detox lasted at least six weeks, it took me nearly 18 months before I started to sleep properly. I went at least two weeks before I even got a few minutes sleep. My detox was done in prison, with just paracetamol, it was hell.
What does was that though?
My pal had to do yhe same thing, he was on 70mg when he went in to jail, they refused to subscribe him anything else other than paracetamol. He said it was pure hell for 6 weeks, the first 3 weeks were the worst.
I did a home detox, dropped fast from 70mls down to 1ml in a month and then dropped off completely. It was pure hell for 6 weeks, although the physical withdrawals staring to go after about 3 weeks and had gone completely by 4 weeks but then mental brain fog, the anxiety, jitteriness and sleep took mla while longer.
@@AntoinMhicArtainI am dropping from 45ml to 1ml in 25 days.
I’m at 15 and already starting to feel it. It’s alright though. I’d rather get through this then be shackled with the liquid handcuffs.
Did you ever use kratom? What helped you during your withdrawal?
@@HiGlowie Mate, I am literally detoxing right now. I did a slow taper from 70mls to 3mls and stopped all methadone 6 days ago. I've been ok until today, now the anxiety is smashing me. I went to my clinic today, they did a drug test and I'm still showing positive for methadone, after 6 days off it!
They prescribed me Zopiclone for first 6 days and today they gave me 7 days worth of Diazepam, just 5mg a day though. From past experience, I'm in peak withdrawals right now and it's gonna be rough for another few days, then it should start getting better from there.
I've never tried Kratom and I wouldn't know where to get it, if I did, I would 1000000% be taking it right now.
6yrs on it and I would never recommend to an addict unless it's a last resort and they truly want sobriety. I checked off both boxes and once I started I regretted it. I would not recommend as a 1st step to get clean. The clinics only care about profit and always recommend going up in dose rather then recommend staying at your dose alittle longer then decreasing. I had to demand they reduce me. I much rather had detoxed from pills then ever get on methadone again. Today is my first day at 0mg, had to tell clinic to discharge me because they were completely oblivious I had tapered myself down by 3mg a week, then by 1mg a week, I had a year to get off. I had a date set and it arrived yesterday so thank you for posting this video. 24-48hrs is bs I have fast metabolism so I show symptoms at 24hrs after dose and it's down hill or up hill rather from there. And I'm working warehouse work on top of it for major package delivery company so I have no choice but to be OK. If I can't manage and work ill be forced into rehab but they won't take you if you don't come up dirty so I don't know how ill survive this month but I'm determined to return to my normal self one day. Keep spreading information because there's very little real experience information out there. Big pharma spins it so addicts fail and they profit. Your life is worth the fight so please if your struggling and reading this you're not alone.
That's a great story! You figured it out! You're smart! Good job!! Are most people really working the program? Or are they using methadone as a crutch? Does the program try to ween them off eventually?? I have a methadone clinic next to my house, and I'm starting to see more homeless activity. People hanging out nearby, sleeping by the dumpster, etc. Do homelessness and addiction kinda go together? Because you do end up losing your job, life, etc. It's a powerful drug that just takes over! Good job at figuring it out you two! I got of alcohol and adderall 5 years ago. It was about a 3 day withdrawal. but man....getting off meth. That sounds brutal!
Currently on 16mg of suboxone was addicted to oxycodone 80mg then moved right up to fentanyl, I was on fentanyl for just over 6 months until I decided to get help ... in the next 3 months I will be weaned off suboxone I'm a lil nervous but ready to be free from everything clean 4 months now and going strong
I took my last dose of 95mg 3 weeks ago. I came off cold turkey and it wasn't pleasant, but it WASN'T as bad as heroin or oxy's, it's just longer. After 2 weeks, I could do stuff I normally couldn't do. I was on it for 4 years. I hear a lot of horrible stuff about Methadone withdrawal that I didn't experience.
You are really lucky
hum...95mg is not a small dose...i take same, and your comment makes me want to try to stop, but i am affraid to suffer...i think i will try to reduce 5mg by 5 mg i think
@@grifyn882I go down 2mg a week..I. On 5 mg now so Im set to be off near the end of December...no withdrawals at all so far...a few sneezes buy that's it. You got this...u just have to want it, my friend.
This is hard to believe you must have been taking something else also something like diazepam
@@tomtroy3792 even with diazepam, he is lying, in conscienceness or not...or he does not tell us all the truth (like taking another opiate when stopping the methadone, like codeine, subuxone,or something else like kratom...)maybe he took another legal drug for another health problem which contain some opiate, there are many in many form....
Stoping cold turkey of 95 mg of methadone from many years of daily use is hardcore, not just "unpleasant"
but was it 95 mg each day ?
Some people take a big dose and its ok for them for many day, like 3 or even 4 max...and there is any "luck" in the process, we react all the same biologicaly....
Its less or more hard depdending of the dose (5 or 10 mg of methadone each day is a low dose, but not 95.. its a big dose...)
A Withtraw by cold turkey, so stopping all the dose one day, is a long and violent experience mentaly and physically....more than with heroin...
Thanks for advice... is there a live chat channel somewhere so you can get real time advice from others? wanted something that is real time... thank you for any advice you can give me... and thank you for what I learned from you guys....
both this brothers was 💯 on some forms of opiates
Came off of 300 mg of methadone and 40 mg of Xanax a day and sober 1 year keep up the good work fellas
How are you doing?
@@michaell6892 I'm good! Still sober!
@@michaell6892 let me know if you have any questions let you know about my experience
impossible....no i don't believed you, really?!
@@jasonarambul5802 wow u are a true soldier u just gave me hope.im on 130 mg methadone. I literally take 2 mg of Xanax and break it n to 8 pieces.im trying to detox of both at the same time.my Xanax usage has never been over one bar in a week.ik I got this one at a time.do I'm really takin a cm of a bar.its working.and u just gave me the courage to keep goin.thank u
im now on day 5 coming off methadone
ive been comeing downd for months at 2mls a fortnight. been on for 6 to 7 years at 70mls. im in a good place with my family and im going ti do this but boy its starting bad now. i got 4 5ls of diaziipam a day n a zoplicone on a night. these will be stopped in another week to 2 at the most. dont even know whats ahead but il b sure to check out your chat rooms ect. mikey from england!!
How r u
Diazepam can make u feel well?how abt sleep
Keep some Kratom close, you don’t have to take it, but it should give you some psychological comport.
How’re you doing now? I’ve been on methadone for over 6 years now, been trying to get off of it for over 3... I swear it feels impossible!!
Watch out because that's still a lot of pills to be on... although that was 2 years ago
id like to know how much methadone you were detoxing off of. like what was your last dose? im detoxing now and i dont feel anything.. but ive heard that some people had it really rough. i feel so bad! maybe once im done ill feel it? i plan to have my last doses literally be 1 mg
Abstainance based based recovery is the best way if strong enough
Case by case basis dude.
I am detoxing off 50mg methadone blindly. my counselor just takes off 1 or 2 mg every 2 or 3 weeks so i never feel it. i can tell the dose isnt nearly as high in my bottles as it was before.. i cant wait for it to barely cover the bottom of the bottle :) getting close!
are u good now?
I tapered down fast off methadone to 30mg and waited 3 days and took suboxone still on now 2mg daily. I plan to get off, however I feel way diff. On subs then methadone...much more clear minded. I chose to go that route because I KNEW I wouldn't make it through that withdrawal and I wasn't gonna set myself up to fail.
I’m on 23 mg methadone and am wanting to switch over and do the same thing
Holllllddddd uppppp! First off, i respext this guys journey and what worked for him. But with that being said, i think he wasn’t tapering at a controlled clinic with the Methadone. I combined Vitadone and methadone when tapering down from 65mg. 1 mg a week and at each whole number (60,50.40,30,20,etc) i stopped for one month. I had very little issues until i hit 20mg. Then it got tough a little with being sore and sleep issues. Overall; i did pretty well compared to most recovery stories. Just have to do it correctly. SLOOOOOWWLY! Hey, thanks for ur input brother.
Think carefully before going to methadone. If you don't plan long term maintenance - consider going cold turkey off opiates. Methadone withdrawal was much worse than H withdrawal for me. I was in withdrawal for about 45 days (paws) until I ended up going back to heroin because it was unbearable.
I don't want to scare anyone but know the risks before you're in too deep.
A very slow suboxone taper ended up the cause of my sobriety. To anyone out there struggling - sobriety is possible. You can do it.
I’m on day 11 cold turkey from methadone after a 14 year heroin and methadone addiction. I’ve been climbing the walls rolling about like a possessed maniac growling restless arms and legs I dropped off at 7ml after a long taper and it’s been pure hell I was having heart pulpitations so bad from being up a height I have cold arms at the minute but the restlessness has calmed down
The doctor gave me narproxen to help with pain etc but it takes it away but brings on a very sore gastric belly heartburn pain. Methadone is nasty and so is the withdrawal
Oh my God you had me laughing so hard about the growling. You just described what I'm going through at times. I don't want people to be around me cause it's weird to see and to describe why that happens. Thanks for the laugh. You just made me feel better while I'm still going through a month of this.
@@ericaespinosa4030 did u taper?
How long did the restless legs take to stop and when can u sleep?
Took me 6 months to get off that poison.
The magic button thing you were talking about in your 5 day off heroin video is methadone in a way. You don’t get the high but you don’t feel like crap either. It’s sort of short circuiting the withdrawal process. And I’ve been doing methadone for 15 years so I’ve got an idea of how bad it is.
Hi dude you are doing amazing. It’s keeping your mind occupied but it’s not that simple. All I Say take 1 day by day .I have a hobby now but I always in the bk of my mind think of heroin ,methadone is keeping me sane. Good video .Ross England 🏴💊🙏🏼
Kicked methadone in jail, from 90 mg straight to zero. Withdrawals for at least 10 weeks.
But like I said it did save My life!
Once you have done the rattle without weening off you know like yooooooow don't want thst feeling again ❤️
Hey good video for sure thx for that. Started tapering from 125mg methadone October 30th 2019 after two years on and 5 years 200mg a day morphine before that. I'm currently at 5 mg today now for 10 days still not sleeping, cramping, bone acking, nausea, and dizziness..... It's been five months of this no rest but I'm still trucking!! Got three kids, lost my job in September havnt been able to work at all really this whole time I'm weak and exhausted when I think I can get asleep kids wake up..... If this doesn't make me quit for good when this is said and done idk what would.... I hope all of you suffering see this message cause our minds are the most powerful thing you will ever encounter if you just push it and stay committed to what you know is right!!!
Wow you just spoke some real truth, your gonna doing a great job dont ever give up.✊🏼🙋🏼
Hey everyone hope all is well. I'm over 10 months sober now from last dose on April 11th last year! I know you all can do this!! My life is full again of coarse there are moments but I can bear them now! Thank Goodness you can have same thing
Your guys video had me in tears I’m going thru it right now I quit methadone cold turkey I’m on day 5 & I have Covid! Feel like I’m dying love ya’ll. What can I do to minimize the DT’s?
Stay strong
How are U going now?
Omg what a night mare! I hope you can do your best to stay hydrated. You can do it! Stay safe
Magnesium, naproxen, protein shakes and weed. Magnesium will help with restless legs, naproxen for muscle aches, protein shakes to give you some nutrients and vitamins. Weed will settle your stomach and help with sleep. Understand these things won't make you not withdrawal but they will take the edge off slightly. You may be able to sleep a couple hours which is worth more than gold during withdrawal. I usually take naproxen in the morning and at night, magnesium and weed before you try to sleep. Protein shakes whenever you can get it down.
You should not go off methadone or morphine or oxy, anything, you shouldn't go off it cold.
I was taking methadone for five years as well, got sick of everything and my dumb ass thought I could get on a plane and go to my sisters and kick it. Three months later still experiencing very bad post accute withdrawal symptoms. I went back to Indiana and back to the hell after all that!! Smdh. I was scared and thought omg I’m always going to be a junkie, how do I do this! Very heartbreaking thinking your tough enough and can’t do it. Three years clean today after I found kratom. So many years wasted on opiods and benzos.
Kratom helps with benzodiazepines?
The thing you're forgetting about methadone and suboxone is that they're not just meant to just avoid the withdrawals of opiates, they're meant to maintain you long term so that you don't relapse. I've been on suboxone for 5 years and I would definitely have relapsed if I hadn't been. Sucks being dependent on a medication but it's better than the alternative.
100%
A gradual weekly taper off of methadone is a great way for someone that is serious about getting clean from opioid/ opiate use physically. Phycological counseling is a must to combat the daily mental battle of needing that daily intake to get through the day. THAT is TRUE RECOVERY. But you have to be done with the old and ready for what your life is truly intended to be. The mental battle is not easily fixed with a replacement drug. It's defeated by defeating it's desire to distroy itself. Be proud, because it's a true fight and test of your true strength.
Abstinenca withdrawal of methadone is kinda easy for me...but get off benzos is hell im 4 months clean and some tmes have this "flashs" and i used Modozolam Dormicum pils its medication to take before you go under anestezia sleap ...apologise for my spelling
Yea people say heroin withdrawal is a walk in the park vs methadone.....and they dont tell you that when they start you on it
Andrea,surely you did your homework before making such a decision. You should count your lucky stars you even had the luxury of choice.
yeah methadone withdrawal is baaaaaaaaaaaaadddddd im on 85ml too so i know how bad it is
Yeah they tell you it's not as bad. I'm on 3mg of methadone and I'm getting really bad anxiety even with the kratom i been taking. I might have to go on subs again cause this is bullshit.
@@manicmurph No no kratom nothing but magnesium citrate works wonders for leg pain. But if u remember as a kid we'd ride bikes all day then our legs would ache and hurt or walk all day at six flags or the fair and later hurt so its mental we think omg its withdrawl I can't but we can! I was at 135 mg went down 5mg every two weeks till I hit 5mg and then went down 1mg every two weeks except 3mg I stayed there a month it was rough then on down 1mg every 2 weeks on down to 1mg. I kept about 4mg in the bottle and jummped I knew if i had took the last dosed and jumped mentally my mind would panic more like omg I have nothing it seems to be worse for me just knowing im out. Plus I can look forward to pouring that shit out when im free and out of the woods for good. I know 3mg is rough I said several times Omg i just cant do this but i just kept thinking one day at a time this too shall pass and it did each day got a tiny bit easier. You will be so happy u pushed on threw you've got this!! Look how far you have made it and ive read ALOT of comments where people just cant go down any more when they hit 20 or 30 so you are strong and almost there ..my number is 903 556 6696 text me anytime u want to talk!!☺
@@amyburns5199 yeah the worst for me is the anxiety. It seems like i have to take kratom every couple hours to keep the withdrawal tolerable. I been taking vistaril for anxiety. Kinda helps. It seems like i went slow 1mg a week and I still feel like crap. I felt fine until i hit 3mg. I wrote your number down and will probably text in a little while. It's always good to have someone to talk with about this.
Methadone program gave me my life back in so thankful for it I never felt high stayed at a low dose just made me feel normal doctors say our brain s are permanently changed after getting high ,unfortunately we'll never be the same I get what your saying its a tuff road but you get your life back to a point that you give yourself that month or 2 to recover the methadone
yeah i know methadone is worse than heroin withdrawal man, im on 85ml i went 5 days without once and oh my god it was agony... i had to walk a total of 6 miles to get my prescription which took my the best part of a whole day, hey derek you inspired me to do my own channel, only 1 video so far but will post more