an honest life update (I relapsed) 💔
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 7 มิ.ย. 2024
- I relapsed, slipped up, whatever you want to call it...but I'm okay and ready to get back to it and focus on my recovery. I was nervous to share this video because I know many of you see me as a leader, but I wouldn't be honest if I wasn't sharing both my highs and lows. You're not alone, you got this. Thank you so much for the support. Let's end the stigma!
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00:00 what happened
9:07 what caused it
12:09 your progress is not lost
13:57 what I learned
16:35 some words of motivation
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A relapse doesn’t take away ALL the days you had sober. It’s a blip on you’re journey. A great guide I found was “put the shovel down” here on you tube. Don’t give up!
According to AA your back to square one. That's really counter productive to tell someone that.
I will be sober five years on May 28th. I have been considering drinking again during my vacation due to life stress. My vacation starts next week. This video may prevent me from relapsing. Thank you so much for posting this! Thanks for being real!
Ironically alcohol increases your stress with even more stress after you drink. So you will actually be more stressed than you did when you went on vacation.
How did you do? I hope you’re doing ok!!
@@dreamingoffall7694 I did not drink. I will be seven years sober this May 28th. 🎃
Don't do it !
It won't be worth it to drink. Keep going!
3 months semi sober with one relapse where I wanted to celebrate. Worst decision ever, I thought I was gonna die. I have high anxiety; cannabis/CBD edibles have been an amazing intervention. It relaxes me, I can function, and I have no desire to drink. When I think about wanting to drink I remember the insomnia, random cold sweats, low energy, impotence, cloudy judgement, weight gain, bad/reddening skin, odd body aches, injuries, bloodshot eyes, intestinal issues etc etc
“Alcohol makes me suffer and I don’t deserve to suffer” - this!!!!! Thank you for sharing with us. You are so well-spoken and your insights are going to help people 💖
Relapse is reality. Most people do not get sober their first attempt. This is absolutely not the time to give up. You've proved it can be done. Two years is wonderful. Figure out what happened and learn from it. Work a little harder this time. Sobriety is hard work. Face up to that but be stronger than the alcohol. Prayers and peace to you always
Sobriety is achieved in the same way as becoming an elite athlete, or musician, or fill in the _____! The more we "PRACTICE" the better we get! All the best to you Stephanie! Mark 5/8/1994
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I relapsed 4 days ago after 10& a half months of sobriety from alcohol and came across this video. I was also binging on adderall which I do believe lead me to my relapse. So now I’m 4 days 100% sober from everything and I just wanted to tell you that this video helped me a lot by just knowing I’m not alone. 💛
How is it going now?
I just relapsed after 16 months of sobriety and I feel really bad about it. Thanks for making this video it definitely is helping me feel a little better.
I have been sober from alcohol for 23 years. And I am the same, in that if I even had one drink, my brain would still remember like it was yesterday. The brain creates pathways and remembers experiences for future events. For some people like us, it just does that better. I relapsed many times over months before I finally had my last drink in April 2000. What helped me to stay on track was I didn't like having to start counting the days since my last drink. I felt like I was beginning all over again. I had to get used to what it felt like with no alcohol in my body and for many months after my last drink it felt strange. Even now If I go into a bar which is rarely I can smell the strong alcohol and it tries to call me back. Its been long enough now that my body and mind have accepted my life without alcohol and so it sees no point in producing overwhelming cravings or thoughts to drink. But it has taken years to get my brain and body to that point. But I still don't let my guard down. The disease of addiction is in the way that creators of such products have literally hijacked our brains to keep us in consumption. I didn't take pills after I stopped drinking but I did drink a lot of coke, which after a while affected my heart. Today along with no alcohol I also have no caffeine and I was eventually able to stop taking my heart medications and at 56 years of age, my body and mind are in a better place today. So it is possible to recover, and it helps understanding how your unique body reacts to all substanes. Its no accident that the pharmacutical industry creates addictive products in the form of pills and the same goes for the food industry. They have made it socially acceptable to consume that stuff in quantities that our brains and bodies are not adapted to. They know what the stuff does to us, we can only win against them if we don't consume their products at all.
I find it SO admirable when someone deals with relapse. It may happen again, but its OKAY. You are HUMAN. What matters is that you are sober now. 💛
I believe I’ve read research that said after huge milestones our brain can sometimes subconsciously be like “Okay! Now I can try again.” It’s not a linear journey. Thank you for sharing your journey with us. 👏🏻 I had to take a hard look at my relationship with alcohol after the pandemic. Day drinking became so normalized when we transitioned back into normal life it felt like I needed it. It was definitely a crutch for my anxiety.
I am 60 years old and have lived a life on lived. This is due to CPTSD,BPTSD and extreme panic attacks.. I tried to get help it didn’t work. I’ve been addicted and abused by more people and Abused, more substances, than I cared to think about. All in order to try and live my life to what everyone else’s perception was, and even mine at times .Even now I’ve been trying ways to get off a certain medication. I wish somebody would have told me this but I’m going to tell you after everything I’ve researched I feel cognitive therapy learning why you feel the way you do and act the way you do along with low low doses of lithium, no more than 5-10 mg. Which has been used for years to stabilize the mood receptors in your brain, but talk to a doctor, a good Neuropsychologist, It may take a bit but at least you will be able to start living your life With purpose. a life un lived is so tragic. It is human to error, so dust yourself off and look into what I told you about and start living your life. LIVE YOUR LIFE WITH PEOPLE AND WAYS THAT ARE SINCERE Sincerely, Brenda.❤
Be proud of the two years and that you are getting back on track. We are not perfect!
remember not to get down bc you have an “addictive personality” these are highly addictive substances. sending love and light ♥️
I relapsed 4 days back after 3 years of being sober. I drank a couple of beers rode a bike and crashed it into a ditch and broke my feet. I got out of the hospital yesterday after surgery, and I'm not able to forgive myself for all the pain and suffering I've caused my family. No one will believe me from now on, 3 years of hard work and all the trust I gained, gone in a few hours. I hope no one has to ever go through what I'm going through right now. I just want to hug my mom and dad, and make them feel better. I just want to rewind time and go back to when I was just a little boy who knew nothing more than loving his mom and dad. I love you ma and pa, please forgive. Edit: I've been sober since, I adopted a dog and his name is Tony. He helped me throughout my journey so far. I hope you guys have a good life.
God forgives you. I understand your pain.
Sending you all the love and grace, you are enough and able. You are still worthy of love and understanding 🧡
I could have written this myself. Unfortunately my parents passed within 6 months of each other and 15 years later I still long to go back to being a child and start again without being a continual disappointment. Reality is our parents love us unconditionally like we love our kids and you can get back on track. Please don't give up, you did brilliant and you will again. Sending so much love. X
Is your fault you deserve it recover or die.
@@owen3655 crawl back under your stone. Nothing nice to say, keep it shut, sad little man.
2 years is incredible . You should be proud . Relapses should be considered as nothing but minor speedbumps if at all someone does tend to relapse. And it’s very normal as well. Drowning in guilt and fixating tooo much on it pulls you into a negative spiral. Just keep moving forward. Remember if you’re moving 100 steps forward n one step back it’s okay .good luck . I too am in sober mode n will complete a month soon
I'm sorry this happened for you. That's totally cool, keep on the trying to make the right decision with every new day. You are an inspiration to me. Thank you so much for making yourself vulnerable and sharing your story.
I appreciate your honesty! I have been there, and there are still times when I think about drinking. This does not diminish your progress. It is a learning curve and apart of your journey.
Thank you for sharing. I'm on day 5 and this vid really helps to get through the rough patch that you experienced which I will probably experience over the next few months. I'm glad you published this, and hope you do another one a year after your relapse. Stay strong!
Thanks for sharing - I just relapsed two days ago, your posting has helped tremensously.
So you literally described me and my patterns perfectly...down to the substance. You are not alone. I am on naltrexone as an aid now to get back on track because I felt I couldn't do it without an extra push. Keep going girl. You inspire me!
Keep goin sis! Relapses happen. We are human not robots! Sending you strong vibes!
You are amazing Steph! You have inspired me since I discovered your videos. Thank you so much for posting this. What helps me in these situations is this: Slip ups are not failures, they are “data points” on the larger picture of the sobriety journey, events you learn from and that only strengthen your reasoning and desire to stay sober. Proud of you.
Sending you love ❤️ you’re such an inspiration to me
Hey Steph! ❤️
The timing of your upload for this video is so eerie (in the best way) as it pertains to my own life. I, too, relapsed in (binge) drinking last week and have been grappling with the painful aftermath ever since and into this week. I must be honest, it is rare for me to feel affected enough by a video to take the time to comment but I’ve been thinking about commenting on one of your videos for a while now, so that I can wholeheartedly express my appreciation for you and your content. I think this upload and its relevance has given me the emotional spur to finally do so. My procrastination on this comment honestly owes to two things: (1) my fear of my public comment “exposing” me and my alcohol abuse and (2) more importantly, my desire of wanting to write something that could thoroughly and properly express my deep gratitude for you. For the former, I am slowly growing more comfortable with taking ownership of my problem and being more open about my struggle, and you definitely have inspired much of this courage. For so long, I let my issue fester in the darkness, so terrified of other people’s judgment and condemnation of what I already knew was a real problem that I needed to address. I truly believe that being honest and willing to talk about it with more people helps to build accountability and support - two of the most crucial ingredients for long-term sobriety, to which I’m sure you’d agree! Thanks to you, I have opened up to some people in my life about the full extent of my drinking problem, people that I never thought I would have the courage to confront on this topic. I’m not quite where you are yet, but I hope that someday I can share my story as openly as you have in order to help young people in the way you have helped me. This beautifully segues into my second reason for putting off my comment for you. I came across your channel a while ago shortly after you uploaded your first video in 2020 and I have been keeping up with your content ever since. I have never come across someone my own age (I am 24) whose experiences and thought processes surrounding alcohol have paralleled my own so closely. Watching your first video was so immensely comforting, and all of your videos on sobriety after that have been equally inspiring. I think about you often in my own recovery. As for this recent blip in your sobriety, I compassionately stand in solidarity with you in your relapse and I am very glad it wasn’t worse for you than what it was. Even though the return of your previous alcohol-related thought patterns and attitudes was so disheartening, I imagine you are able to take this relapse as a visceral and reassuring reminder that abandoning the drug altogether was a worthwhile decision and continues to be so even after 2 years! I am wishing you an enlightened and empowered return to your own sobriety journey. Your honesty is SO admirable! Thank you, Steph. Thank you for sharing. Thank you for being so vulnerable, so brave and so inspiring. Thank you, thank you, thank you.
Love,
Naomi
i appreciate your vulnerability! keep going you’re so strong. I’m 28 days today and I’m happy to have found your sobriety journey here on youtube. you’re still an inspiration relapse or not
It takes us straight back to where we were. You are insightful. Well done for just having one and not letting it get out of control. I relapsed after 8 months and spent 8 days on a bender and then another 2 weeks because I couldn’t stay stopped. It’s painful feeling emotions and knowing how to deal with them but far better than the pain of drinking
Thank you so much for your honesty. I truly am grateful that I found your channel. I'm 112 days sober today. I'm excited for you to stack the days back up. And it's also so important for you to be proud of the two years.
Thank you for your honesty and tremendous insight. Ask for help when you need it! You deserve it! ♥️ Much love🙏
Three weeks ago after an absolutely mortifying and terrible blackout I decided to quit drinking (again). Your video about letting go of guilt and shame really encouraged me. I even shared it with some people close to me. I know how hard it is to get back on track. I had 2 1/2 years of sobriety and then blew it. You don’t half to make the same mistake I did. It’s just a small bump in the road. All that progress made in the last couple years is not negated. In a short while this will be behind you. And you can use it to encourage other people that slip up as well.
Sending so much love - PLEASE don’t give yourself a hard time (easier said then done I know!)
I’ve recently relapsed, after about 6 months of not drinking I drank several times to the point of black out.
Whilst drunk, I text and met up with all my party friends so they aren’t taking my sobriety seriously anymore.
It’s hard.
You are not the problem, alcohol is. It is an addictive poison and you are so so strong for all the wonderful progress you have made and for making a community of young people that don’t want to hurt themselves anymore.
Please take a nice relaxing vacation if you can! Somewhere quiet where you can REST.
You’ve got this, thank you for your honesty as always ❤️❤️
I am so proud you for being honest about your journey. sobriety is a moment to moment choice. I also have a lot of addictive tendencies and quit drinking for the fist time before I turned 21. my life is so much better without alcohol and I have to remember that no matter what. We deserve to be happy with a clear mind!!
Damn I'm really sorry to hear that, that's positive you didn't continue to drink. I know being a presence online can be perceived in a variety of ways by others, but I find it brave that you put yourself out there like this, much respect. Relapses and slips after actually being in recovery are fucking devastating in my experience.
I'm an alcoholic and I found your channel when I was 21 and 4 months sober last summer, I was working AA as a junior in college living in a new sober house following a relapse 2 months out of rehab that got me kicked out of my first sober house. I felt a little weird cause I'm a dude, but I didn't have any sober peers that were in college and I felt isolated because there isn't much out content out there from students in recovery on youtube. I'm still sober today, out of the sober house, graduating college this fall, and your content has been a positive influence throughout my journey! Thanks for being willing to put your story out here and helping us learn from your journey, I look forward to continuing to watch your videos as I move on in life
Thanks for posting this. I’m planning a trip to Europe and I needed a reminder of my life drinking. It lead me to a very bad place. It hasn’t been all sunshine and rainbows in sobriety. After listening to your experience strength and hope I heard so much of my story. Thanks again for sharing. One day at a time
You are helping all kinds of people on a wide spectrum who are deciding to really look at their relationship with alcohol. Even though you went through this relapse, it doesn't undo all the service that you have given us. In fact, because of the way you dealt with this, the opposite is true. Thank you for keeping it real. Honesty (especially with ourselves) is freedom. You have helped me. Thank you.
Thank you for your honesty, bravery, and leadership that helps so many of us working on recovery and sobriety. You are an inspiration
Relapse is possible part of the progress. Count your wins, it’s still a win. You went 2 years sober, and you’re winning by getting back on the horse. You got this 🙏 I’m 2 weeks sober today, thanks for your inspiration, honesty and vulnerability
Thank you for this ❤️ I relate so much to the moment of thinking everything through, and STILL doing it anyways. Alcoholism is insanity. This video helped me just as much (if not more) than all your other ones! :)
You are a strong and beautiful person and you being honest and open with yourself is the most important thing. Sharing this with us is courageous and we, as a community, are so lucky to have you. This too shall pass. This will just be a moment in the past and you have STILL accomplished so much. How you are handling the relapse is progress.
I think of you when I want to drink and you help me so much to continue putting my health first. You have also made progress for me :)
Thank you for everything. 💕
Nothing lasts forever and you’ll be alright! There are so many of us trying our hardest to stay sober, and we can together cheer each other up. For me it is bulimia, I’ve been battling this ED for over a decade, got sober during an entire year when I was 14, then relapsed and now at 19 I relapsed after four months sober, I refuse to give up, and I try as much as I can to get better. We’re all struggling. I want you to know that I hear you, I understand you and I give you all my support for you to get better. Stay strong, it’ll pass soon! ❤️
I also struggled with bulimia for around 2 years and although I have been in recovery for 2.5 years every day is a struggle and mentally I don’t think anyone can fully recover.
We all love and support you! Your honesty is admirable
Proud of you for sharing. This is helping me a lot, currently 1.5 years into sobriety and been watching you since the beginning. I’m young too and sometimes it’s really hard to not feel like I’m missing out. Hopefully soon I’ll have the courage to attend one of your meetings because they seem so helpful. I’m proud of your progress and thank you again for sharing during these vulnerable times💜
You should join the meetings! The group is really nice and you don’t have to talk or have the camera on
Thank you so much for being so real. This was really helpful for me💙
Thank you for your honesty and vulnerability
So proud of you for sharing! You can do this!♥️
I really appreciate this video. I’m on my own sobriety journey that I never expected to be on and it’s really revealing how superior I thought I was to other people. It’s humbling to be out of control. Understanding that relapse is part of it is really really hard too.
That was powerful and very inspiring, thanks so much for sharing.
“Especially when it’s hard and even when it’s easy” damn I needed that thank you Steph 💐
You're amazing for every video and post you do - we're here for you. There's no such thing as an addictive personality
Steph keep making your videos. Your helping a lot of people. Falling down is part of learning. But 2 steps forward 1 step back is still moving forward. I’ll pray for you.
Don’t ever give up. Your so strong for doing this and helping others.
You inspired me to go sober back in August of 2021. I recently have also felt that feeling of "oh this is easy now!" And have been in that feeling of oh maybe I'm better now. But seeing your experience with this relapse, I'm convinced now that trying drinking out again isn't worth it. Thank you soooo much for sharing this. I know it is really vulnerable but this helped me so much.
Thank you. I wanted and still want to relapse today. The day isn’t over. I still have to go out to dinner with my friends tonight, but some of the things you said were a really helpful reminder of why I set this goal for myself.
Hey Steph, I finally had a chance to watch your vid just now. Thank you for sharing. To your point, mentors are so important. Besides our wonderful meetings, I couldn't have made it without my therapist, and several other mentors who helped me stay on track throughout my journey - to finish college alcohol-free. They just get it. Especially when they're the same gender and have gone through similar experiences you're currently going through. I know you'll find a good one if you're able to start reaching out more. Also, we appreciate your authenticity. No expectations, just love. You got this. See you soon.♥
Thanks for sharing your story it helps me and so many other people!
I'm so glad :)
Good luck to you. You’re young. You’re doing the work. Most people wait too long. Stay strong
Honey you've got it going on! I am so proud of you. Keep it up sweetie!
I’ve been on and off drinking for years and I can honestly say that the best evening or events have come from not drinking but the social anxiety from certain people/events/unexpected things happening like our dog dying has made me give in to pressure and drink and it’s the personal guilt that makes it so hard to deal with. It’s a blip and to see that you understand this and know what the reason was is absolutely incredible. A lot of people don’t have this perspective as they haven’t ever been sober for a substantial period of time. Most people I know don’t even see how alcohol is effectively damaging their body, mental health, spiritual health and everything in life. Your a rockstar and don’t forget that xxx 😊😊😊😊 I currently don’t drink and have any intention of drinking ever again, but if it happens seeing this video makes me realise we are all only human. Xx 💋
Thanks for your honesty and letting us see you.
You are a warrior . Love you girl . Bank you for being so honest . I relapsed yesterday after so much progress and 3 months sober . But I woke up today not hating myself but with the will to keep going and make today the start of a new journey : ❤ you will overcome !! Listen to him rohn his words of wisdom are life changing . ❤❤❤❤ keep fighting !!!
You are SO amazing and strong. Thank you for sharing your journey with us ❤️
You are stronger for sharing. Thank you and NEVER give up! One relapse does not undo everything you've achieved to this point, that is a dangerous mindset! Hope this was a great learning experience for you.
No worries you got this! I think so often in AA or NA we focus on the time we’ve built up instead of just how our life has changed and the fact that we are willing to change
So true! And so many beautiful things abt the 12 step programs! But the emphasis on time can be so guilt inducing. I had 8 years and relapsed last week.
Very brave to make this video .Sober October is coming up and I start today after weeks of heavy drinking . Always starting from one glass of chardonay , drinking two bottles then buying strong tripel beer after .Not knowing how I went to bed and find a real mess in the kitchen the day after from food preparing ! no energy then and I really want to change this !Thank you for the effort and time you put in these vulnerable video! Many greetings
im proud of you. i'm 22 and I've been sober for almost 40 days and it has been so hard, the cravings are real. don't hold yourself to too much shame and regret, your progress is still there and still admirable. i know you have your own meetings but hosting everything and trying to solve everything yourself can be so stressful. i recommend AA, you meet like-minded sober people who are also actively trying. i thought it would be many old people and unrelatable but it was the opposite. being in California I'm sure you can find many AA meeting for young people and other people who may share similar experiences.
You will get through this. I feel like now things are getting better but you have inspired me to keep away from alcohol each day going forward. you got this and I'm here if you need anything.
You're ability and willingness to "lay it all out there" is so very commendable of you. I have nothing but the highest respect for your candor and honesty. You already got this beat only because you know the tools available to you to WIN. Bless you my Dear.
Thank you for sending this to all of us!!! Because I can never go back. 100 days in, in 4 days
I would go right back to my old self. If you need to hear this… this video helps all of us know to not ever pick it up! Thank you
I have 2 months sober and my life has radically changed in a positive way,
How is it going now?
I'm also an addict who is a member of a 12 step fellowship with multiple relapses so I totally relate. Well articulated. My anxiety & depression got crazy bad because of meth, even after quitting. Been clean 7 months now but all we really have is today. I'm not 7 months away, and you weren't 2 years away.. we're always only one bad decision away from picking up. I'm on anti anxiety & depression medication now and it really helps. Better that than dope. Told my primary doctor about my past and they recommended I try a low dose prescription ( non- narcotic)..I don't regret it. Thanks for sharing.
New subscriber thank you youve helped me so sooo much thank you for being so transparent and honest ive been sober 7 years done the same thing it hurt my pride I felt so bad we're all in this together I'm proud of you for making this video I couldn't have done it Your friend always Wendy 💜🙏
I had 8 years and relapsed last week. 💗
Wow I can relate and thank you for sharing. I resonated deeply 🙏
Best of luck friend never stop fighting!
your honesty is so refreshing
Well done for getting back up !
good to see your being honest and that you understand that youve made progress even though you relapsed. and tbh your relapse wasnt too bad or too long(i dont mean to diminish the struggle and the pain that it caused) so you did well at nippin that in the bud
Your first story time about sobriety randomly popped up in my feed and I watched it. This morning I saw this video and there are a few things I want to say to you.
First thing I want to say is that I find you very courageous that you decided to go sober. Especially at this age where alcohol is such normalized.
I’m in my mid twenties and went down the same road and was definitely drinking for the wrong reasons. Its so good that someone (you) speaks up about alcohol abuse in student life.
Point 2, I love your honesty about your relapse. Please don’t feel guilty or ashamed. One of my biggest life lessons was to accept that although my life is stable now there will still be challenges. Life is not about being happy and bubbly all the time. It’s about how you manage those challenges and conquer them. By not running away for it and face it.
Yeah you might relapsed but you are a human being.
I wish you the best and love to follow your journey. You are lovely human being!
X
I relapsed after almost two years and it's been off and on for a few months. Thank you for sharing this
Sending you love!
I'm grateful i found this video a year later. Im 6 months of sobriety after 7 years of relapses and I had some cravings a few days ago and I don't want to run away from figuring out what triggered it. I'm grateful i haven't drunk but its always one day at a time. Thank for this... its a good reminder.. I know if i drink right now.. ill start drinking like i never started. I won't be able to live a normal healthy life. Thank you
I'm 13 months sober and this video was really inspiring to watch. Sobriety has been so easy for me, I'm very lucky, but I'm always vigilant and watching myself to see if any cravings creep in (they haven't so far). I never want to be arrogant about being sober. I know that if I started drinking it would be like the past 13 months never happened and I'd be straight back to how I used to drink before. I would most likely be so demoralised that I would keep drinking to be honest. AND if I miraculously get back on the wagon again I'm not guaranteed to have the easy ride I've had so far. I would probably be a dry drunk, being really bitter that I gave up on my sobriety and that I threw it away and living with non stop cravings. So no matter what I never fool myself into thinking I can drink again. This video is a warning for me. Thank you. x
I relapsed the other day too, it will be okay. You have to bounce back. Don't let it consume you.
You know what? You had a learning epiphany! Awesome! So happy for you! You learned something about yourself! Amazing gift you were handed on that day! Use it well. You are still a sober, and you took one for the team. Face it, young lady...you are a teacher, and sacrifice is part of that. You just showed me to never, ever, ever think it's okay to have 'that one'. Do you realize how much I, and others, needed to hear this from you? Thank you! And again, thank you!!!!
Thank you for sharing your story stephanie, i did 10yrs sobriety in AA & drank again. Its been a battle ever since, i just can't get the months together without picking up, its a daily mental battle that nobody understands unless there an alcoholic. Im currently on day 4, now age 49, its affecting me in my health as it never seemed to when younger. Im currently on a medication that if i drink il be ill. Wouldn't wish this disease/ illness/ Gene whatever it is on anyone. Its torture. Good luck darling.xx
Sending love!
thank you so much for sharing this
This helped me a lot that you for being here!
You are so inspirational
The mind never forgets. One drink and I light up like a Christmas tree...it's the hardest substance I've ever stopped long term. It's so attached to social events and I love social events.
Your graph is really insightful and I think what isn't mentioned alot for newcomers. The recovery for adjustment is a long one. A year sometimes 2 years depending on the person. So I think that becomes daunting.... alcohol had such a grip on my mind and body, I thought I was hopeless....😢😢. I knew a guy who had 17 years and relapsed. It's tough and an everyday battle. We're all just human in the end.
It's alright Stephanie we love you and don't beat yourself up you just keep going sweetie
Sending love ❤️ really appreciate you sharing
I didn't drink until redundancy November 2020 due to covid19. I now wake up wanting a drink and drink all day if I can. I think I'm classed as a functioning alcoholic. I've had past bad experiences of loss and I think all the extra time not working has impacted everything. I totally get you and send my love.
I am on same boat, started drinking because of boredom being stuck at home and it started as a fun thing to do but now it addictive. I drink in secretive during the day, while I work from home and have gained 30 pounds. I am so afraid that I will fuck up my life, so I am trying to stop. I went to see my dr to help me deal with my anxiety and help me with chemical imbalances from alcohol and he gave me prescription of Naltrexone. So far today it’s day 4 and no alcohol. But I am hoping to start AA meetings too…
you are still sober regardless of one bad night. the highs outweigh the lows and do not discredit the journey you have been only od 2 years due to one bad night
THANK YOU FOR SHARING !!!!!!!!
Hi STEPHANIE THANKS FOR SHARING YOUR JOURNEY ON STAYING SOBER I HAVE BEEN SOBER FOR 2 YEARS AND 3 MONTHS AS OF JUNE 6-2022 AFTER 22 YEARS OF DRINKING STEPHANIE RELAPSING DON'T MEAN YOU CAN'T STOP DRINKING STEPHANIE YOU MAY HAVE TO STOP GOING A ROUND PEOPLE THAT DRINK IT COULD BE FRIENDS AND FAMILY MEMBERS DON'T GIVE UP STEPHANIE TAKE IT ONE DAY AT OF TIME STEPHANIE FIND A FRIEND A PASTOR IN A CHURCH TO TALK TO YOU MAY LOSE A FRIEND ARE FAMILY MEMBER BUT YOU NEED SOMEONE THAT CARE'S ABOUT YOU I KNOW IT IS HARD TO STOP DRINKING BUT SO EASY TO START STEPHANIE YOU CAN DO IT STEPHANIE LISTEN TO YOUR TH-cam FOLLOWERS THEY WILL BE THERE THROUGH THICK AND THIN I PRAYING FOR YOU STEPHANIE YOU CAN DO THIS I DID IT AFTER 22 YEARS OF DRINKING STEPHANIE YOU CAN DO THIS 🙏🏾❤️🙏
Sending lots of love ❤️
The decision to make this video must have been tough and I just want you to remember we appreciate you. Thank you for being honest and open, especially when you don’t have to be.
Stay strong pretty woman! 💖💖💖😍
I'm writing this here because I haven't had the courage to tell anyone I actually know but I relapsed two days ago. I've realised my biggest trigger is dating. I get nervous, and everyones default date idea is "a drink". I drank about 5 or 6 beers which for some people isn't loads but for me was definitely enough to be enough of a drunken idiot. Dating sober is really hard and I cracked. Got one of those hangovers that lasts beyond the day after...not so physical, just really tired, brain foggy, a bit depressed, a bit wracked with guilt and shame. Thanks for being honest with yours, it'll hopefully help me to build up the courage to be honest with mine.
I didnt drink for over 3 years, and after my husband died, I got back to drinking and was terribly worse, I totally understand you, but the important here is to keep going, will be ups and downs but never give up is important, God bless you!!! thank you for your honesty
Take comfort, you're not alone in this. I'm 37 days sober. Anything can happen in my sobriety but knowing I've gone that long without a drink; and if I did relapse that shows me. I have the strength, willpower and be proud I went that long without alcohol. Before I gave up, I was drinking everyday and it was difficult. I've stopped but always persuade myself I can control and try again. Once I drink I can't stop. Just gotta take the punches and move on. I'm doing this for me and no one else.
Thank you for sharing
Thank you for sharing!