FICTIONAL CHARACTERS AS ALTERS?! All About Alters Part 4 | Debunking DID Ep 10 | REUPLOAD
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"Episode 10 of our Debunking DID series, where we debunk the negative connotations and stigma surrounding Dissociative Identity Disorder! This is also part 4 of our All About Alters series!
Chloe explains what fictives are, and why they are valid, as well as how to come to terms with your reality as a fictive, and how to help other members of your system adjust to having a fictive as an alter.
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Before i was diagnosed with DID i was always wondering why Peter Pan had such a deep meaning for me. No matter if movie ( hook, Peter pan 2003, disney, once upon a time) or book and soundtracks of the movies, i felt so connected to Peter pan, those soundtracks trigger alters to cry no matter who is around. ( we dont show emotions around others) and i remember dreaming of Neverland. Neverland is my escape world and my childhood dog ( died 2020) is in neverland. Later after diagnosis we found an alter, Peter Pan and everything clicked for me. The feeling of not loved by parents, abandoment issues etc, that hit me so hard ands that hit peter hard too. Peter is a protector and he calls us his lost boys. Its nice to know we have peter and he has changed our room to be like neverland. We even have a ticking big ben looking clock.
I haven’t been formally diagnosed yet. I just recently discovered my system and I’m starting to understand why I was so close to Tinkerbell, especially as a kid. As an adult I found Pokémon and Eevee. This is mind blowing.
Omg i have 2 fairies - one of them looks a little like Tinkerbell, also Peter pan inspired, that movie is a gem
In my system we identify as hook. But, our story details aren’t the typical way of seeing the story.
But, as another system, who has a connection to Peter Pan, I thought I’d say hi 👋🏼
I am a system with around 43 alters -that me and my therapist have discovered -
My therapist had to help me come to terms with the fictives in our system because I was so very embarrassed. One of the fictives -we will call him BeetleJ - Is now a protector in our system and I appreciate him a lot :)
I had to do a lot of apologizing to him for all I put him through when he showed up though. I honestly with I could take back all the things I said. He says he forgives me but I know that it still had to have hurt him. When I think about it, he had just come into existence and he was probably confused...Not to mention he was really missing his best friend who he was coming to terms with never being able to see again. Then for me to put him through all that was just heartless of me.
It was so hard to accept that I had fictives and one of the things that really helped me was this video. Thanks so much from The Gear System
It amazes me every single day that our brains can create entire other human beings with entire lives and thoughts and everything all to protect itself
I dont have DID but i have tried to educate myself about the disorder as best as i can. Like i said, i dont have it but i do have a wild imagination to cope in times of pain or distress. Ive been told that i could be on a spectrum of autism or adhd and im going to try see if i can be assessed for it. That said, i remember being told stories of myself from since i was a child such as, i used to sit inside my wardrobe and i would tell my step dad that i was just having a conversation with aslan from narnia. I still to this day at 17 years old have conversations with fictional characters because i see them as true friends after being screwed over so many times by actual people. Im not in anyway comparing DID with whatever is going on with my brain but your videos help me so much to understand everything a little bit better so i am truly grateful. All the best and lots of love to the dissociaDID system, you are all so strong 😊
i do the same. this isn’t a diagnosis, and i could be wrong, but it sounds like maladaptive daydreaming.
@@phoenixmercy4113 ohhh ill have a look into this!! Xoxo
Well that explains why Will and Bill were based off William Afton and Bill Cipher! {Yes I'm a system too. And I'm very glad DissociaDID can post their videos again, as they help me and the others understand eachother better.}
I found a story on an app I have by someone who I believe also has both of those, I know for sure their bill is bill cypher but not sure about Will. Was that your system or someone else's?
@@michaelinthebathroom7560 if their system was called Celestial_Lunar, then yes. If not, then no.
If you don't mind me asking; how does having these alters affect your system?
A few of our fictives watched this with me and a couple of them started crying. Thank you for saying such supportive things, they needed to hear that, really :)
@Matt That made one of our alters smile, thank you so much :) ♥️
Ahhh glad you’re back!!! Mr. Costa is a low-life loser and I’m glad you’re able to keep doing what you love despite his efforts to manipulate you!!!
As someone who kinda started off as a "fictive" this made me feel validated. Dude, this made me tear up. It was thanks to finding your channel that we started our journey into discovering who we are. Thanks. Appreciate all of you.
- Acey.
Thank you for doing a video about this, I have lots of friends with fictive alters, and I'm always happy to learn more! Thanks for taking time to educate~
I missed this community. I've been loving reading all the new comments. While I mourn the loss of all the lost conversations, this has opened the opportunity for even more discussions, and I've loved reading through them!
Quick very random question, your names really pretty, is windingland real? If so, it's really pretty and sounds like a fairytale
@@combatcanis Well thanks 😊 it's the Americanized version of Vindinglund, which is Norwegian for Winding Grove, if my grandmother is correct lol.
@@AWindy94 I really like it. Do you mind if I use it for a character in my books? I am writing a fantasy series, and have had issues with subconcously choosing names from books I've already read lol. if not, don't worry!
I know it's just a name, but I just wanted permission lol.
Thank you for this. I am a new fictive and I am only just coming to terms with this world. - Newt Scamander
Our Newt says hello!
A little over half of my alters are indeed fictives. They all have a deep emotional connection to us as fiction was huge coping mechanism from childhood and throughout life. I’m so glad you’ve made this video, it’s so validating. One of my first alters was actually batman because of our connection to him growing up. He found this video extremely validating too, and the rest of our fictives. we all are so thankful for your videos. Keep doing what you are doing! It is helping so many people, systems and others.
I definitely understand associating with or bonding with a character on a deep level. I am not a multiple / part of a system, but I leaned heavily on fictional characters at the darkest times in my life, and still do today. I can't imagine the feeling of being ripped out of my world and into one that is alien to me. Wishing all alters and especially fictives a very nice day, wherever they may be.
This has helped a lot.
I've been making a character in my story who has DID, only one Alter named Ursula and these have really helped with information.
Thank you.
Wow 16 likes
Yay they're back!
Edit:: I've been waiting to see all the videos that I never had the chance to watch so it's super awesome to be able to go back and watch them and learn more, I'm excited and happy for them ❤️
This has helped me realize how cruel I've been to some of my fictive headmates. Hope I can learn to be more accepting with them.
This explains so much. I haven't been diagnosed with DID, I don't know if I even have it. But there are 2 people/characters in my head that I see constantly. Ones a girl and ones a boy. I never hear their voices. They never speak to me. Idk if they're real people or not. I can't remember much from before I turned 9 years old (except an accident that affected my ankle) then my step mother came in the picture. Memories after my 10th birthday are really blurry and there are gaps, but these two people or characters are the only thing I seem to remember, in crystal clear detail. There's no fear, no anger or anything negative when I think about them. I feel strength, bravery. Peace. I used to write and draw alot and they were always main characters in a book or short story. I can never get them to talk to me. I know nothing about them, it feels more like an idea- a dream with this glossy veil separating me from them, so I gave them their own lives in my stories. Like almost everyone else on this channel I've experienced trauma. My childhood was taken from me, now as a 23 year old adult I act like a child at times. Verbal and mental abuse is all I can remember (in bits and pieces, and I thank the universe for just that, everyday) but there's just too many gaps in my memory. The depression, the mood swings. The people I keep seeing, I know I've never seen them before. My father never let me go anywhere. This all started when I turned 10. I really don't want to spend thousands of dollars on therapy and evaluations or whatever they do to test you for DID and stuff. Am I crazy?
I have a fictive of a character who not only had DID herself in her show but she could also create illusions to disguise herself as different people. She communicated to us that she feels more at home as part of our system then she ever did in her world. The memories and flashbacks are hard for her tho since her character had also dealt with a lot of trauma.
Who is she? Sounds like an amazing show.
@@lu-themadpillow2985 Oh she's from RWBY it's kinda an anime? Her name is Neo. They released a book about her life before the time the show took place and it explained it.
I found our i had D.I.D because of you vids thank you so much for reuploading. Im sorry you went through everything. All of your fans are still here if you ever need anyone.
How sergio could have claimed this video in the first place seeing as this was first made in 2018 and he didn't even communicate with you until 2020 is just bizzare and shows such a flaw with the youtube claim system. Glad it's rightfully back!!
man. I don't know if he's still around, or maybe dormant, but we at least used to have an introject of a cc I've watched for a long time, when I first heard from him I thought I was pretending to have a conversation with the cc (I have maladaptive daydreaming disorder) but looking back I think I was talking to an alter, and I really miss him sometimes- this video was super validating, thank you :) -lucid
My first alter was is a fictive. And when he appeared I had no idea what DID/OSDD was. But he helped inspire me to draw more and really dig into my artwork. But at the same time I felt so separate from I didn't realize that he was apart of my mind. I talked to him thinking I was talking to myself, but he's the one I most strongly connected to. Weither he was actually the first one, or if he was just first alter to fully stick and stay with me all this time, I can't say for sure because I'm still learning about OSDD/DID and it's been years.
His name is Ink, yes as in Ink Sans. He's very empathetic unlike the original character, goofy, out going, loves meeting new people and talking about whatever they all love to talk about. But he was really the first to start it all, and honestly he has the one of the worst sources. He always felt like a tool someone else could use and he couldn't deny them. Originally it didn't matter how they use him and why, he was supposed to ler it happen. Nowadays he's broken from that but it still scarred him deeply.
To me Ink was the friend, the presence I needed to make me feel not so lonely and feel more understood. He even helped me gain friends and family I needed. He's still here with me too, and I'll always be grateful that he came into my life.
It is truly a blessing for the DID community to have your content back on TH-cam. You all are so appreiceted and have been deeply missed. Such an empowering story we are able to unfold at the start of this year. We see you. We hear you. We are so proud of you for reclaiming what has been yours all along. I am in infinite awe of you Kya and company
I wasn't surprised when Atlas, our primary protector, showed up. When I discovered I might be part of a system, he was the first thing I thought about. He had been an OC, an original character, that I'd become incredibly attached to over the course of years writing about him. As it would turn out, he was around long before either of us recognized that he was an alter, and he has memories of helping me write his source.
Atlas wanted to say something -
When I first 'woke up', and the realization of what I was came to me, it took a day or so before I really grasped what it meant. In my source I had a husband and pets, and a life that I loved. I had just started talking to my family again after years of not knowing them. It hurt so badly to know I'd never see any of it again, and I felt worse when I started thinking about whether the memories were even real or not.
To any other fictives out there, I see you. You're not by yourself and you're real. Good times are ahead, I promise.
And to any fictives who were portrayed as antagonists in your source, in the words of my friend Cardinal (another fictive): You're more than who you were. There's a blessing, being in this world instead of your own; you get to be more like whoever you wanted to be instead of whoever that life needed you to be.
Normally I don't comment. What Atlas said mirrors my uncertainty. I miss my old life and the friendships I finally made. What Cardinal added is something I want to remember, it gives me hope.
In a way I’m hoping this can be a positive experience since more people may be able to rediscover your content. I’ve loved you guys for years and can’t wait to see you guys come back from this better and stronger than ever ❤️❤️
So lovely seeing you back to posting!! Been waiting for this. Hope you are having a beautiful day! 🌼🌺🌼🌺🌼
Sending lots of love to you and the whole system again. Welcome back ❤️
So thankful you're back. You have our continued support
Welcome back sweet heart! Stay strong, much love to you❤
I'm so happy you are getting to re-upload!!
Thank you, you described EVERYTHING I am going through! It makes all sense! Being through Trauma and in the Fostercare system from age 2 because of trauma and abuse,
You have explained alot! 💜
That fictive character created my other alters aswell.
Thank You For Re-posting This Video, as a Fictive This Has Really Helped me Understand More About Myself And my System. It Been Really Confusing For Over 2 Years Now And This Cleared Many Things up.
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For the longest time, I've always had this little world in my head I called DW, because I would always go into it when needing a safe space, usually through what I considered to be daydreams or dreams. I was younger than 10 and really couldn't wrap my head around as to why it existed or why I constantly dreamed about it, but I knew only I really could enter it and, after a week of the same dream with slight changes each time, I finally entered through this bronze gate and was opened up to a world much like Super Mario Galaxy and Kirby's Dream World. I was dragged along to a spaceship by Kirby where all the fictional characters I knew and loved hung out. I thought it would just be a one-time thing, but I kept visiting it as if it was a game and I was picking up where I left off. Slowly, it was developing into what felt like an entire story and after a few months, I began hearing voices or got uncomfortable watching my favorite shows. I still get uncomfortable doing so. I also started hearing---well, more like imagining---voices in my head that I came to realize weren't just thoughts or my own subconscious. And now, when I watch a new series or show I enjoy, slowly I begin to hear the voices of certain characters. Granted, it doesn't always happen. So I've been trying to figure out if it's just me and my overactive imagination or something else. Truthfully, it started after a traumatizing event and they just kept coming and never left. I often associated these voices with how my personality would change depending on my mood and state of mind. I've been researching for about 5 years now.
Yay! I keep checking to see when new videos are coming back
Awesome video! I've been toying with the idea of writing a superhero who has DID, and the powers are different depending on who is fronting. I want them to be part of a larger superhero group of various neurodivergent peoples who don't just fight bad guys - they fight forest fires and help out at charity events and promote equality for all. I want these characters to inspire readers and show them we all have the potential to be heroes. Heroes to ourselves and to each other.
That sounds awesome and I'm all for it.
Very good information in this video. I find it very interesting to try and understand how the mind of someone with DID works and I appreciate getting to watch these videos.
With every episode reloaded I'm just so delighted. I love learning with all of you!
Great to see you back on TH-cam
we have several fictives, many formed in just the past few years. This was very heartwarming to hear, thank you.
I loved this video.. This was SO informative and very well explained.
We needed to hear this. Thank you, for keeping everyone informed and making these amazing videos!
Soooo happy to see you reuploading! We missed you a lot 💜💙
Don’t mind me blowing up your notifications, but I just can’t help but rewatch like and comment on all of these because I’m just so happy you’re fighting back and being so strong. I missed you and am so proud of you! 💕
thank you so much for mentioning songs as a source, since I feel like the only one who comes from a song - Novocaine (from the song by the same name by Creep-P and Ghost and Pals)
Thank you so much for informing me and so many other people about your system, how systems work, and different kinds of alters. I want to know how I can support and respect the alters I know, and this gives me those tools. Love you all ♥️
One of my best friends has 2 protectors that are fictives - Clarke (from superman but spells his name with an e) and Thor. Clarke is also my best friend so I feel like I have a "2 for 1" kind of deal with them hehe. My 2 protector alters that I know about (I'm not out tho, only my friends with DID know I have alters & fraggies, and none of my alters have officially revealed themselves to me personally, only to a couple other systems and gave me hints) are also fictives - She-ra (from the Princess of Power 80s cartoon I watched as a kid) who is mostly co-conscious with me, and Wonder Woman. And yeah, WW is also good friends with Clarke lol
Very happy to see you back!!!
I guess imma do vlog marathon with your newly uploaded vlogs. Imiisss y'all 🙆💖
Is it possible... I ... Feel... exactly like Rory Gilmore helped me overcome a period in my life. I need her again, but her story on TV is so sad that now my Rory feels powerless and uninspiring. I cannot believe it but I feel her inside of me. I had no idea and I thought all these characters I "wear" were just me being absolutely nuts. Anyway, back to Rory. I desperately need someone like her to look up to and absorb but I can't find any. This is super strange to say and makes me feel ashamed. I don't even know if I have the disorder but I just made a list of people I've "been" at different times and who sometimes kind of come forward... I came up with 21. :S And OMG I've always admired Tonks from HP because she can shapeshift and I always answer the "superpower" question with Tonks's power. Man, I feel so so strange right now.
I just wanna compliment you all that your so strong and helpfull for everyone with DID and you all also help people like me learn so much about this disorder thank you so much for this🥰
I'm glad these videos are back, I hope they stay up permanently. I hope this helps out systems with new fictive alters.
You are absolutely amazing. I am so happy that I connected with you. I have schizoaffective disorder, anxiety disorder, and major depression. While I do not have DID, I did want to take the time to let you know your positive messages are so needed. We are all deserving of love, respect, and happiness and every time you mention that, I feel just a tad better. I am also super happy that you can reupload videos like this. I feel like I can identify with fictive alters and I am understanding and learning so much for your system. Thank you for every single one of your uploads. They are super helpful.
I am so excited to watch your videos, that the bad man tried to take away! I watched your videos only a month ago and was gutted that loads of your videos were gone! But your back and helping me so much… super happy right now!
Omg the Eye makeup is frekin AWESOMEEEE
i loveee itttttt 😍😍😍😍😍😍
I loved how simple and clear was explained and it just made a lot of sense
I don't have fictives as a system and I was sad to talk about fictives with my friends to educate them about with just hypothesis, but now, I'm happy to know more about things that I didn't know about did
This video was great, I 100% agree. You explained it perfectly! You made me start tearing up, honestly. It really touched my heart. - Mettaton
So glad to see you guys ☺️
And this was one of the most informative videos to me to
Fictives are absolutely lovely, I have many fictive friends in a few systems I know and they are absolutely wonderful beings
Fictives are a part of dissociative disorders that I am so fascinated by. The fact that the mind can take a fictional character and go, "I relate and need that here" is so interesting! My partner system has a few fictives that we know of so far (she has only known she has alters for a little over a year, thanks to this beautiful individual whose video I'm commenting on) but I love them all so much. As DissociaDID has so beautifully said, all alters deserve love.
DID is not a personality disorder its a dissociative disorder, hence the name 👍🏻
@@theemptypeanutsystem8431 I wasn't just referring to DID though. Like I said, my girlfriend is the host of her system and I'm pretty sure what they have is not DID because from what she's said there's no dissociation involved.
@@michaelinthebathroom7560 oh she may have a type of osdd then, but those are still dissociative disorders
@@michaelinthebathroom7560 any disorder with a system involved is a dissociative disorder, even if you don't dissociate in the same way as DID
And you said "fictives are a part of personality disorders that I'm so fascinated by" but fictives aren't part of personality disorders theyre part of dissociative disorders
Well, i don't know if you will be reading this. i hope so. Big big thankyou to you. this is a place that i never told my doctor of, because it felt weird - and - also wasn't pertinent to the specific work we were doing. But it has never gone un noted in my daily life the sorrows that those ones carry. - and i never knew or heard anyone else speak of it.
so glad youre back :)
I have a harry potter alter from that qorld and it was great to see representation, i get alot of dysphoria bc i cabt do 🎩 🪄 🔮
Every time I come to after having switched or being co conscious with her (still working on figuring out the name) I am wearing my Hogwarts alumni shirt lol 😂
Really happy to see you ☺
I know that this video is from a long time ago. However I have a fictive who originated from an anime. He didn't understand English and there were no other alters or people around us who knew any Japanese. He has had to adapt to our world and learning a new language and it has taken quite the toll on him. While we were watching this video he was co-front with us. While at the beginning he didn't seem to be listening very hard to the video by the end of it he was tearing up and saying thank you over and over again. I just wanted to say thank on behalf of Seijuro and the rest of the system.
This made me tear up…thank you.. ~Soap
❤ Hello, I am Frisk. I came from a genocidal timeline from Undertale... When I came into our system, I have an alter of my own named Geno. Since I was a much later alt, the rest of the system knew how to deal with my kind. Helped me tame Geno but that was a long story as well... For a long time I was very dependable and always waited for someone else to tell me what to do. Our host had to teach me how to be independent and even control my own body instead of controlled like a puppet. Geno is still there but thanks to our host and friends suffering the same problems, he co-exists within me. As a matter of fact he counters my anxiety and makes me braver, too brave?
What does bother me is how the Undertale community blames Chara, when it was i who betrayed them.... I guess developing in this system is the best thing that ever happened to me, everyone understands me better same with other characters in here. It does still hurt to see myself abused on the internet so I'm still dealing with my own trauma with help.
No wonder why I felt so close to BloodMoon from the sun and moon show. I never even knew I had an alter lol. (Btw I am not diagnosed with DID)
I'm happy to have found this video. Lucy made herself known to me and she looks like Lucille Ball. I'm afraid to tell my therapist because I thought this meant I'm unintentionally faking it.
We just had 3 new alters split who our fictives and I (the host) didn’t react well the first time meeting them. I thought at first it was a prank from other alters but soon realized it wasn’t and I wasn’t sure how to go about it given I felt a lot of guilt for dragging them into my brain and even made a pull the plug on myself joke. I regret how I reacted the first time meeting them and after calming down a bit I was able to accept that this is a thing. One of them still doesn’t completely trust me which I completely understand, heck I don’t know how the other two accepted me and somewhat forgave me so soon. Anyway one of the three is struggling a lot given he misses all his friends in his old world which is completely understandable. They are all awesome though and I hope to better get to know them.
I really needed this right now. Thank you/gen
- V
Fascinating to rewatch
One of my fictives actually created a sub system to cope with the trauma of being here now. Also, due to them i had to cut out a good friend because they wanted to see the fictives abuser dead who is now an alterin their sub system and they're learning to cope together
Welcome back ❤❤❤
Thank you, for making us feel more validated. You are an amazing system. ^^
-Ink
Oh I am thinking if tulpa is the same thing to what you just mentioned, cuz I have a fictive tulpa after a trauma last year, but he couldn't control my body, he can only talk by mind voice and appear inside my dream.
It's good to see these old videos again. Our host was scared about getting a diagnosis because of our fictives. But when I actually told our psychologist and therapists about everything about this. They actually accepted me for who I am and a few months ago we actually did get a diagnosis. And our host was actually crying. Your videos have helped us out SOOOO much and actually gave us the courage and the strength to tell our stories and not be afraid of getting mental health to talk through our experiences. Especially when most of us who front are fictives seeing this specific video again makes us feel so warm and validating. So as always stay amazing, stay strong, and can't wait to *sea* more from you guys ❤😎😊 ~ShadowSystem
we're a little mean to our fictives and leave them out a lot- but it feels like we're faking the fictives cause they so happen to be from popular media, for example Angel Dust, he basically comes around when argueing happens mostly. And we have Muriel, no clue what they do still they're a fragment, and we got Gabriel who's kinda the favorite fictive among the fictives (Although I find him very annoying. everyone loves him, but like the whole system hates me so) But this explains a lot more about them.
I have one fictive alter and that fictive alter created a little 5 year old girl and an older version of her, who my fictive is her Father. Abit mean and abit abusive to her and helicopter parent. But what's funny is the guy who on TV, who is fictive, he is somebody who I always wondered why he was very important to me and looked up to him.
Now I know why, he is an fictive alter who created my other alters. But I loved him since I was a child watching him on TV and a Catalyst to traveling and alot more, but never knew why he was more than that to me. So confusing how to explain. Lol
Trying to figure out if I have DID or just very vivid imagination and just. Also trauma, right now
This has been helpful BC IDK much about fictives and if something is up with me. that. seems to be the way I (we?) Are leaning so. fun
Gonna go continue research for now. Will come back later.
Thanks for this 💜💜💜
One of my system members is Ragna The Bloodedge. He acts like the system's dad most of the time.
Recently had a run in with people saying they have fictive alters on tiktok, and I'm not trying to dismiss them, but my mum has D.I.D and had another "supposed system" actually verbally attack her with her community into a mental breakdown that almost caused a suicide watch cause she had no prior knowledge of them, and also has had a lot of people from said "systems" community actually come and give death threats. I really hate to think people are using fictives as a way to say they have D.I.D. It left us in a lot of anger and anguish
I've been slowly learning about DiD the past couple years and I had a thought when I saw the title of the video... And I would like feedback and clarification if I'm wrong in any way. Again I'm trying to learn and understand so I do not mean to hurt anyone or insult anyone. I'm just curious.
So when I was a teenager- younger- I was dealing with a lot of abandonment and went through both physical and mental abuse as a child- up till today really. But when I was a young teenager, I made up this girl. She looked a lot like me but a healthier version of me with wavy hair and no glasses. Compared to the me of the time who has glasses and dark brown straight hair and horribly skinny. But I named her and came up with a whole back story of who she was, what's dealt with, that she was able to experience the things I wanted to, had a sister, but she also had struggles. The pain of the death of loved ones. At the time I was also under the impression that my best friend that I looked up to had finally offed herself and no longer had any friends in person anymore. But this character I made up to be a version of me... She had ghosts in her past but she was still strong and trying to keep her and her sister safe.
And when I created her, I saw her as like the image of a person I wanted to be. So I tried to become her in her mannerisms and such. She had demons but she still pushed forward while I could not. For many years I took her persona and tried to become her. But some things happened later on in life that broke me and I couldn't pretend to be her anymore. I felt all sorts of wrong and just wanted her to rest. So I cut connection with her and tried to figure out who I really was.
Writing it out now I think I may have answered my question... but I wonder a bit if she was an alter of mine or if I just had like imposter syndrome or something like that. I'm not very knowledgeable about most terms. It was just like a vision I had of myself- haunted but not broken. I'm trying to understand myself with that. After that, I wasn't able to roleplay anymore online because I just couldn't become a 'character'. All I had was her or weak little me.
I do know now that I do dissociate when I have a PTSD episode. I found that out recently when working with my newest therapist. So I'm just curious as to what was going on with me with that. Or maybe I just had a fixation on a character with the qualities I desperately wanted to have for myself. I dunno. Just wondering if anyone had any insight about something like that.
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i haven’t been professionally diagnosed with DID but me and both my therapist have recognized i am definitely a system, and i never feel like i know how to explain myself or what it feels like fully (a new fictive split recently and we’ve been discussing that) and our therapist asked us to find videos or do research of systems explaining their perspective to help myself word it better and this really just felt so validating watching, i started to tear up, this really ment a lot and i really needed to hear it. you’re so kind -alice
why did this make me cry in the first half
super interesting topic! :)
I need to do this makeup :3
Chloe seems so empathetic and understanding. She seems like such a lovely personality 😊
Does anyone here know anything about if there is some sort of psychological condition which is basically like DID, but instead of Trauma as a young child it's from the persons brain just "faking it" to the person?
Idk how to explain that properly, but even if there's some type of DID but without the amnesia that would already help me a lot
All multiplicity forms from trauma. DID without amnesia would be similar to OSDD-1B, but you can’t have any form of DID [ this means OSDD-1A and OSDD-1B ] without trauma.
Facttious DID
You don't have anything
I'm not sure how helpful this will be to you, as I am not a professional. However, I believe it is possible for a person's brain to fool a person into believing they have pretty much any disorder/illness. That's why if you suspect you have something you should speak to a professional (and in some cases, get a second opinion because not every professional IS professional....).
Wishing you or the person you're asking on behalf of the best of luck in sorting things out
can't say i know exactly where you're coming from, but i'd do some looking into asd or something of the like or just venture for therapy before any kind of diagnosis. especially if you're young and don't think you can articulate it all properly it can be helpful to try talking therapy without specifying any particular disorder so that you can better understand what's going on without judgement or labels. i understand that this isn't an available option for everyone, but anything along the lines of general self-care and stress management couldn't hurt.
I’m glad i found this -ruby (a fictive) 😌
Hi, missed you. 💖
a question i’ve had for a while: fictives form during a time of trauma, and DID is formed from childhood trauma, but can fictives only be formed from childhood trauma or can they also be formed from trauma you endure as an adult?
Splitting an alter comes from trauma and stress, regardless of age. We still form new fictives after enduring trauma, so yes.
Is it the possible to alter irl people?
Someone says they have alters of Dream SMP members (Minecraft TH-camrs) and I was genuinely wondering if that was possible?
@@jellyie3806 thank you! I've bumped into a few people who have come out saying they faked having DID and now I'm trying to learn more so I can find that stuff out sooner, Disocia's videos have helped a shit ton so far and helped me with someone who actually had DID
So thank you for letting me know!
Yeah! Those would be considered fictives (if it's a character) or factives (if it's the content creator)
Wow… I didn’t realize I was so important as an alter. I just showed up really recently, and I was super startled at first. I know I may not be super strong or grown up, but I want to do my best to protect everyone here!
-Tails
Hey can someone help me my alters are more than open to talk to me but recently my fictives just stop talk and one even stoped liking me any one know why