SWITCHING ON CAMERA & NON HUMAN ALTERS - All About Alters 3 | Debunking DID: Ep 5
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 30 มิ.ย. 2018
- Sally, Amira, and Chloe explain why some DID Systems have Non-Human and animal alters, and how they are created! SCROLL DOWN FOR RESEARCH LINKS.
Seeing Amira in the footage was a big surprise - our system is now 22 Alters strong! Switching from Sally/Amira to Chloe begins at 14:30.
NOTE FROM JANUARY 2020: (Video was filmed in JUNE 2018)
We now know Amira is a non-human alter herself, a tiger. Knowing this I notice that she grimaces/bares her teeth when talking about abuse. Thank you Amira for joining this video, even before you had introduced yourself to us personally.)
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Studies and sources used in this video:
Lovelace and McGrady (1980); Timerman (1981) as cited in Herman, J. L. (1992). Complex PTSD: A syndrome in survivors of prolonged and repeated trauma. J Trauma Stress, 5(3), 377-391. doi:10.1007/bf00977235 pp.385-386.
Hendrickson, K. M., McCarty, T. & J. M. Goodwin. (1990). Animal alters: Case reports. Dissociation, 3(4), p. 218-221.
Howell, E. F. (2011). Understanding and Treating Dissociative Identity Disorder: A Relational Approach. Routledge. ISBN 1135845832.
Miller, A. (2014). Becoming Yourself: Overcoming Mind Control and Ritual Abuse. Karnac Books. ISBN 1782412182.
International Society for the Study of Trauma and Dissociation. (2011). [Chu, J. A., Dell, P. F., Van der Hart, O., Cardeña, E., Barach, P. M., Somer, E., Loewenstein, R. J., Brand, B., Golston, J. C., Courtois, C. A., Bowman, E. S., Classen, C., Dorahy, M., ̧ Sar,V., Gelinas,D.J., Fine,C.G., Paulsen, S., Kluft, R. P., Dalenberg, C. J., Jacobson-Levy, M., Nijenhuis, E. R. S., Boon, S., Chefetz, R.A., Middleton, W., Ross, C. A., Howell, E., Goodwin, G., Coons, P. M., Frankel, A. S., Steele, K., Gold, S. N., Gast, U., Young, L. M., & Twombly, J.]. Guidelines for treating dissociative identity disorder in adults, third revision. Journal of Trauma & Dissociation, 12, 115-187. Doi: 10.1080/15299732.2011.537247
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Excellent, excellent, excellent explanation that made the entire mystery behind DID much more understandable. This is by far the best explanation I've encountered on TH-cam.
steve randall I totally agree. I already subbed to Multiplicity&Me, and between the two channels I’ve found them SOOOO educational. I’d been watching vids about all sorts of mental health issues prior to these two so I guess it was only natural I’d come across this disorder at some point. I’ve heard references to a certain movie in relation to it...and I’m sooooo glad I’d never watched it.....and am actually starting to feel a bit annoyed that the film was even allowed to be released....as tbh I find it quite disrespectful..on too many levels that I’d even care to mention. I don’t have DID myself but the field of mental health SERIOUSLY interests me, and not because of wanting to scrutinise it in any way, but I rather guiltily admit that to some degree it fascinates me....and it’s summit that the whole world SERIOUSLY needs to be educated about....and not just in order to help people, but to put a bloody END to the RIDICULOUS stigma that’s attached to it. I’m just glad that things are FINALLY starting to change in that respect
Search for Encina Severa's interview, it will clarify even more.
@@GhostKnightNo1 that film you're on about aint even that bad. Split and Glass are great films. The first time i saw Split i knew that all people with DID were NOT evil serial killers with a superhuman personality. Instead, watching Split made me research into DID. Split actually had some factual scenes too explaining how people with DID can do extraordinary things, for example in Split the personaility Dennis talks about a blind women who had DID and some or her personalities developed sight. This happened in real life. The theory of a superhuman alter could be true in theory. We can already flip cars like The Beast in Glass using purely the power of the mind to increase adrenaline and strength, we can change our body chemistry with our thoughts. Thoughts literally shape reality so by truely beleiving you are one thing, you really become that.
@@conorstechreviews1 I agree. Split was a movie that I had watched multilple times without getting tired of it *still watching it by the way*. It showed me how fascinating and interesting DID actually is. It was what led me to search up on DID. After reading up about how DID could actually change one body chemistry so much, I believe that personalities such as The Beast might exist. Maybe some of us could actually possess abilities like The Beast. I believe that a part of The Beast exists in all of us. We are what we believe we are.
@@tanxuanhan8426 thats exactly what i believe! I really reckon im capable of some of the things the beast is, like the strength, pain suppresion, etc, pretty much everything expect the wall climbing and cannabilism
The alters being nonhuman makes sense, but the fact that someone can be so cruel to a child that the child doesn't think they are going to be able to survive is the unbelievable part.
Fr tho as a mom of 2 it makes me want to cry. Everyday I look at my 2 year old and new born and wonder how could ANYONE harm somethinf so sweet, innocent and caring. These kids and babies are unable to fight back and its so sick and disgusting anyone could hurt such innocence.
In addition to children unfortunately born to abusive parents, I believe there's a network of dark occult societies behind some cases where the abuse is deliberate and ritualistic in manner. You have to be a profoundly sick individual to subject a child to this...but the coping mechanisms of the brain are amazing. Learning more about it and their inner worlds opens up profound metaphysical questions about the nature of consciousness and the soul.
It made me cry honestly.. it felt like someone was squeezing my heart.. 😥
It is heartbreaking 💔
when she said a child was tricked into thinking their limbs were removed my heart broke. I don’t know how anyone could do that do a child or any living being it’s so fucked up..
I feel like Sally would be able to get an entire army to sit down and have a cup of tea together, shes very soothing
James The Gay Guy lol
Her voice is like a warm hug
Sally could get 2 opposing armies to sit down and have a cup of tea together
@@imafuckingmesslol871 AND have a biscuit to go!
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Same lol
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I hate the thought of pain bieng inflicted on children. I wish that didn't exist. I wish non of that had ever happened to any kid, any human. And being.
Why do I picture sally as a garden fairy or a garden goddess
She is very delicate and fairy like isnt she?
Because she is one
@@acecake2241 she is ghost, if I remember correctly.
Treka Double Omega was a ghost Sally is a human
Facts
What makes me so angry is people are so discombobulated by DID that they don't even stop to see that they should be angry because of people doing this to children.
In my case... my mum also had DID and her Alters subjected us to other people who violated us as well as surviving her Alters... some of whom were sadistic. Her father was sexually violating her when she was young... I believe our family default response to trauma is to generate Alters. my siblings also have DID. Pointing the finger at one person imposing violation may not be effective. I know for myself splitting was a result of a daily battle to survive our lifestyle of trauma... there are many spokes in the wheel.
@@angierodriguez900 me too🤣🤣🤣🤣
Exactly also hello ARMY 💜
Exactly
The whole premise for DID brings me to tears. Nobody should endure such horrendous things, for sure, but especially children. I am so glad I've found this channel, learning about DID from all of you has been mind-blowing and eye opening in so many ways. Thank you all for sharing your stories and allowing yourselves to be so vulnerable and transparent to the public.
Same, when I found out why this happens i felt so bad :(
I was reading about DID/OSDD and it was so sad to hear about the horrible things done to children
Whenever Sally hosts the littles front from my system😂 I think they like you Sally!!!
I think I remember in a previous video she said that Sally takes care of all the littles in her system!
wingsonwater she does :)
It might be because she has a caring, and soothing nurture. Like a mother.
She's very mom-like. Her demeanor reminds me a lot of Miss Honey from Matilda, very sweet and gentle
Aww☺️☺️
Just hearing the type of abuse that some children have to go through was absolutely terrifying. It makes me angry at how evil people can be
JuJu Beauty Exactly
Thank you, I was born deaf than locked in a toy chest, in a closet..i have 6 girls... sometimes I feel guilty for not being able to deal with my abuse, I feel like I caused their abuse..But I thank God for them every day..
I feel physical sick just by hearing about it.
@@ivyedan7183 You did NOT cause their abuse, at all. You were a child, your mind did the best it could do to keep you going. Don't ever feel like the existence of them, even though it was caused by your horrific, ableist abuse, was YOUR fault for not being able to "deal". You survived. You did the best you could as a tiny human. We all do the best we can and none of that - or its consequences for you or your girls - is your fault.
Just Another Bucky Lover thank you so much for that...they tell me the same thing you did..bless you
I find the switches very interesting but don’t feel pressure to include them if they are private.
I have to agree with this. I dont struggle with DID, but I find it very interesting and want to know how to approach a situation if something like this happens with someone I meet. @DissocialDID Ty for these insightful videos.
I agree
I completely and full-heartedly agree with that statement. It’s already so vulnerable and I appreciate it and am curious but fully respect and support whatever decisions are are made.
exactly what I was going to say
I agree completely! @Freya
Watching sally when she’s disassociating but still trying to push on and continue talking nearly brought me to tears. You all don’t deserve whatever you went through. And if you don’t want to include the switches, please don’t feel pressured to. It’s your decision.
Um..
@@noirella9349 ?
@@noirella9349 what? i think you didn’t understand something the right way.
@@bogihegyi3110 what do u mean?
Amira almost has a South African sounding accent ... Super interesting
as a south africain, you can definitely hear some sort of south african in her voice
@@gabi-ll9yq I don’t hear it...
@@Momo-sg4sz me too since I don't know the difference between the accents 😭
@@noelle1030 haha
Does Amira appear in any other videos because I have watched loads and this is the first time I have met Amira
As a survivor of child abuse, I was pretty envious when I first learned about DID, because I wished I could have created a protector to step in and help me. But I realise (like any disorder) it significantly complicates daily living can make things more difficult.
I'm so glad someone else said it. I felt horrible to wish that because I know it makes life difficult. But it makes me think back to when I was a child and I just *wish* that someone could've protected me. I wish that I could hide in my mind and let it all wash away for a while. It's so upsetting to think that someone could make a child want to not be in their body like that.
I must confess I’ve thought about it as well. I’m also a child abuse survivor and it was torture going through it at 5 years old...
@@Ace96ify wow I didn't know that someone wishing that their abuse was easier to cope with was narcissism... 😑
@@Ace96ify nothing that any of these people has said, at all reflects narcissistic traits.. trust me, I've seen it and this ain't it chief
I can relate.. but my mind blocks me from rememberibg most of my trauma so I cant cope if I have random flashbacks
Hearing that my trauma possibly altered my gender identity and caused endless gender confsion as a child is the most healing thing. There were literal tears on my face when I heard "What can survive this situation?" A boy. A boy could survive this. He did. Thank you all so much for telling me this.
BunniTeeth I am so glad that you survived, but I'm also sorry that you had to experience any sort of trauma in the first place, and I wish you only safety and happiness in the future
same thing happened to my cousin
Could this be true for non-did people? To my knowledge I am not, but I had that thought running through my head the entire time.
@@Synesthesia_chan I would imagine it could be the case for other types of dysphoria as well, regardless of DID. I am cis and I don't have DID but I am pursuing a psychology degree and thinking about researching DID and other dissociative disorders for my PhD.
The mind does amazing things, especially in the aftermath of trauma, and I have learned that just about anything is possible.
@@Synesthesia_chan yes, many cases
Totally off topic but: The system’s makeup matches their hair so well! It looks like a sunset. Beautiful!
yes! I noticed it too, it always matches up in every video!
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"every video"
as if I've already watched dozens
When I was a child I said straight up to my mom. "If you keep doing this, I'm going to die."
I'm so sorry you had to go through that, everyone deserves to be treated like a human, and no one should have to go through that kind of abuse.
😢 Reading this breaks my heart. I'm sorry you went through that.
i’m sorry
We feel insanely bad, abuse any kind, either accidental or physical. We escaped from a few abusive fosters, relationships, and even our own home. Knowing that others can relate breaks us. We’re sorry.
Sally is so elequent, well-modulated, and easy to understand. She explains things so well and is a pleasure to listen to. Thank you Sally, Amira, and everyone in the background, for explaining this to us.
To all of the people who have survived abuse as a child and wished they had DID to be able to cope or survive, you should know that you are incredibly strong that your body knew you didn’t need an alter or someone else to step in for you because your body knew that you were the protector. It knew that you were strong enough to deal with this on your own. I’m not saying people who have DID aren’t strong, I think that they are very strong, brave, courageous, gifted and amazing. And so are people without DID. It’s just really devastating that literal monsters would do such horrible things to cause so much damage to a child for the rest of their lives..
*RIGHT*
@@kaiyodei technically, yes. If it's severe and repetitive enough then yeah, but I don't think it's common
Thank you for your comment! ♡
Watching these make me wish I had protective alters. Or rather, surprises me that I don’t have a few.
ARMYYY *Suga’s voice* THANK YOU for this comment!! I felt bad for wishing I had DID instead of PTSD, BPD ect., cause it seems like a huge comfort and some to protect me and some to make me happy - but your comment really hit home for me. So thank you 💕
I don't have DID
I bawled like a baby when I heard how these alters are formed
DissociaDID, I can't even believe what you have been through
You are so so so so so strong
So strong
The look in their eyes are really different when switching 😯
Yeah that is probably from the new accent. Having a new accent would change how your lips move affecting your cheeks going into her eyes. Making it almost a knew face.
We do this as well. When we switch, we can feel the physical shifts in our muscles, one of our headmates tenses the body's shoulders, and even light sensitivity.
As someone who has been recently diagnosed with DID, I'm not ashamed to admit that this video has brought me to tears. For years and years now, one of the headmates (alters) we've known, is a rabbit, physically non-verbal when fronting. Loads of time has passed, and I did not realise, and did not know, why was she a bunny, or why she non-verbal, but entire system loved her nonetheless of course. Turns out, that repetitive s*xual childhood abuse during which I was threatened to never say a word about it or make a sound, wishing to be fast so I could run away from there without being caught or even chased, and being locked in a seperate part of the cellar which looked very similar to a cage has to do with why Lilly (the rabbit alter) has came to life. Thank you so much for this video DissociaDID. Each one of you in the system is so wonderful, lovely, and your channel has helped me out a lot. Much love to everyone. ♡
Baby Bat if you don’t mind me asking, is she treated like a pet in the sense that you can pet her? I’m sorry I’m just so curious
@@kaiyodei valid
Your story brought me to tears - as a child I spend hours hiding from the world in the relatively safe darkness under the sofa with my pet rabbit. Reading your words I could so easily understand how the rabbit-alter could form in you. So sad! With all my heart I wish you all the best and as much happiness in your life as possible :-) Be blessed!
Baby Bat did you switch when writing this cause I noticed you started talking about the host to the tense I when explaingin more of them
This post and in particular Lilly resonated strong with me. What is she like and what does she look like?
Sally looked so scared and sad when she started to switch it actually physically hurt. Thank you for showing us that part of DID it was very eye opening and I thank you.
Right. I always had this impression that it just happened in a moment's notice and they were never the wiser when a switch was about to happen. Fascinating!
I guess it's a matter of the willingness of who ever is out in about to switch, some systems have an easier time switching then others as well as varying symptoms that come with switching as well
@@nachothedrownedlegend704 I've seen a system that could switch at a moments notice, almost like they are all co-concious at once and could very smoothly interact with someone between them
@@pemo2676 the redwoods are like that! they can switch in an instant.
@@leviathanesque It's always so interesting to see how these conditions manifest and interact
To think this happens to children everyday, that happens to your system is absolutely unbelievable and horrible. I’m really sorry for whatever happened to you, just know you’re not alone.
sally is so soft, gentle and well spoken. i feel so comfortable in her presence even when she speaks about hard topics
These videos should be compulsory for anyone studying to become a therapist.
I just started to watch her videos and it has impressed me so much that im thinking on studying psychology and therapy 😍
Hello, i'm really hoping to become a psychologist! Altough i'm just 13, and this is my second language, i still have big dreams about being one! :)
I completely agree. I'm only 14 years old but this channel has further encouraged me to pursue a career in psychology. A million thanks to the
disasociaDID system for pushing the boundaries of my compassion and comprehension.
*me watching this before starting a counselling degree:* :)
Currently in grad school for that very purpose and so thankful I stumbled onto this channel via Anthony Padilla’s video! :)
I kind of feel bad, one of our littles is a dinosaur human hybrid. And though I accepted him as such, I assumed he was only imagining it. But this, along with some other research has opened my eyes, so thank you.
I feel bad to its sad
I'm glad you have got a more open view now I dont have DID but I'm really interested in learning about it and i hope you and your system (especially the little you mentioned) is doing well
Ngl how a dinosaur and human having sex to make a baby?
@@qwerty-od1zp figure it out and don't be rude because anything is possible in a support system in someone who suffers from D.I.D as you cannot choose who or what is in your support system
@@qwerty-od1zp you know you literally questioned the identity of a child that had lived trauma and had to become this to survive?
I know this is weird but my cat loves Sally's voice. He runs over and lays/cuddles my laptop or phone whenever I watch a video of hers
I teared up when Sally was talking about how non-human alters are created. I'm way too sensitive
I wouldn't say you're too sensitive- it was truly heartbreaking to hear about what some children have to go through and I think it's normal for us to empathize with them. I wish them the best :'3
I'm sensitive, too, but it doesn't have to be a bad thing. Means you care, have empathy for what abuse survivors have gone through.
no, don’t worry, it means you’re truly empathetic, it means you care about others, the whole world needs more people like you❤️
Hello, my name is Akuma, if you know Japanese you'll know what my species is. I am one of the main protectors for Elias and unfortunately I had to switch with him as hearing about abuse is triggering for him. We all find these very helpful and because of all that you guys have done my host and all of the alters have been able to talk to other people about the disorder. So thank you from Akuma, Elias and the banana system. And yes I know this is late but we try our best.
The banana system so cute. I had to say it, I hope that Elias is okay
Dance_ throughlife Butterfly?
Looked it up, I was wrong.
Akuma actually means "Evil Spirits" in Japanese... I guess...
@@Pipopipopi_123 it means devil
The banana system name is a epic fat mood
I think it's both beautiful and desperately sad to have DID.
Not me trying to learn more about my none human alters and ended up dissociating right along with sally. Also DissociaDID's videos are always very well put together with accurate information about the disorder. Have yet to see another channel like this one!
Your keeping the switch in was so human and raw. Sally and Amira's struggle to cooperate (I assume) breaking down to a point where Chloe needed to step in was a very valuable thing to share. As is Sally's expression that she was so excited to make a video, and that she didn't want to stop fronting just yet, even though she's already made a great video without realizing yet. I can't imagine the type of trauma undergone to force the development of DID, but just watching someone show themselves being triggered and the virtually unedited reaction and aftermath was therapeutic to watch in the sense that it makes me feel less "weird" for having similar initial reactions for my own triggers before my respective reactions/coping kicks in for my respective issues. Thank you very much for sharing.
Sally is just. So beautiful. Her mannerisms, the light in her eyes, everything about her is soothing and lovely
The fact that the alter said she didn't want to switch was fascinating.
When I feel or seem like im switching and i switch back i always get told that i said i don't want to switch
Storm Johnson I agree. I find it very fascinating
That is very fascinating
It almost looked painful...😕 And exhausting.
It can be
All this is so heart breaking.. Realizing a Child was hurt to such level. I send you all my love. I am missing words
i wished i was a rock when i was a child and now in my inner world there’s a stone barrier around my palace
No offence at all but thats pretty funny😂😂
What do you mean innerworld? I'm not trying to be offensive, just curios... Feel free to not answer
Alexa PLayz okay so some people with DID don’t have an inner word but for me it’s a place where all my alters stay i guess in my mind? i don’t really understand it. i don’t really like it. it scares me. but when i switch out with a different alter i basically go in there
Alexa PLayz i think she made a video about the innerworld
I don't have DID but I have an inner world in my mind and I spend most of my time there ( as stupid as that sounds... )
At around 7:00 you can really hear Amira. Knowing now that she is a tiger, hearing her unique voice speaking about such horrors really drove it home for me. Thank you for being willing to speak about this.
what video is amira in that it says shes a tiger? I'm looking for even more videos to watch of dissociaDID
@@hannahmires its in the description
You can see the moment she starts to come out is actually right at 3:10 when Sally, or rather I think it would be Amira showing up, sighing and looking to the right when she starts the trigger warning about talking about types of abuse.
I'm really grateful the switch got left up. I remember the first time I saw someone else switch, maybe a decade after I had started experiencing switches myself before I had the concept of DID. It was a huge huge aha! moment to witness it happening from the outside for the first time. Thank you for sharing for others
🚨Trigger Warning: I’m not sure if the words I used could be triggering, but I know they would be degrading if I were to use them to describe someone else. In this comment I’m talking about me🚨
I’m getting really frustrated with myself because I can’t distinguish the accents😣 I can only hear the “very obvious” accents. Like [Nin (or in this case Chloe) vs Kyle] or ( Kyle vs Sally)...if that makes sense. Everybody else has the same accent to me, but clearly different tones, or different colloquialisms.
Is there a time stamp where Amira’s accent is more obvious? I keep rewatching so I can catch it but I can’t and I’m starting to feel dumb🙃😓
@@AlexisC77 13:00 is a good time to hear Amira! I’d say she has less of an ‘English’ accent, more Spanish maybe! Sally has a more fluid, softer accent! You’re not silly for being confused, because they’re Co-con, they keep switching between who’s accent is coming through when speaking, so it can be tricky to distinguish!
I don't have DID but this is so fucking hard to listen to. When you were talking about the dragon, I literally started to cry. Thank you so much for talking about this very important topic.
yes!I cried the whole video and I don't have DID.
Thank you for the trigger warnings, me and my Male alters appreciate that. Especially me and Anthony
When the stomach sounded I thought a tiger was fronting 😂😂
Maria Betancourt, in a way it’s true because Sally was coconscious with Amira, and Amira is a tiger 🐯
@@mysafira wait I'm new to this channel is amira actually a tiger or are you messing? (soz lol I'm really bad at reading sarcasm)
Ella Walsh she’s really a tiger 😂
Maria Betancourt yes she is a tiger, you can read this also in the description of the video.
@@ellawalsh5434 she's is a tiger fr
My fiancée is DID. And to be candidly honest (and believe me when I say I am ashamed of this) I was truthfully skeptical about the validity of this disorder. I mean no disrespect in saying that. After witnessing not only HER switching, but yours as well, it has opened my eyes completely about this condition and I have a lot of renewed respect and patience. I am proud of you for exposing your experiences in your videos. I will be sharing this particular video with my fiancée.
Scott Major thank you for posting i always think i have to be alone .."lol" ...because of this ...bless you
Hi! If you don't mind, I have a small question. First of all I want to say I mean no disrespect in any way, I'm just asking so I can understand better. Are you engaged to one personality, or to the entire system? I can imagine you would connect more/be in love with only one, and that the other way around not all of the alters would match with you very well? Feel free to ignore this question if it is not appropriate of me to ask, in that case, I'm very sorry.
@@LenaWolschaap Usually a romantic relationship will only take place between one alter in each system or between a person without DID and one of their partner's alters. Because each alter has their own preferences, it isn't guaranteed that all of the alters will be attracted to the system's partner. I hope this helps!
She has DID not is because that because DID is not entirely who you are its a part not you completely.
Roxy Reaper i’m sure it was a typo
While I don't have DID, I did grow up with emotional neglect, (maybe abuse, but I can't remember anything specific), and when I was 13 I needed to image a (multiple at times) hellhound sleeping on my bed to make me feel safe enough to fall asleep.
Especially when I was a teen, my imagination is probably the one thing that kept me sane, through extreme loneliness and being scared of people. Monsters, animals and characters from my stories that became their own personalities.
Definitely not saying DID is anything like imagination, just that I completely understand why a kid (or even a teen or an adult) craves the protection, love or projection of something non human.
This made me also realize, as a kid I was completely fascinated with wolves and werewolves, and I now realize that a big part of the appeal was to me that it was for me the ultimate feeling of freedom, and the freedom to be actually me, and being able to express my emotions without yelling or other repercussions. I've had dreams about running as a wolf, nothing more, that gave me more feelings of being me than anything during the day, and even during the day I at times imaged myself with a wolf as companion to keep me going.
I did that as a kid and young teen too.
Same here!
Listening to the abuses, as a mom, just breaks my heart 😔
Seeing sally not want to switch makes me really sad
I think you should leave every switch in. BUT ONLY IF YOU ARE CONFORTABLE keeping it in
Scripkoiter it’s more that the alters themselves may not be comfortable because it is a vulnerability (which is valid) - not upset more just trying to express a thought
couldnt agree more very personal to you if your happy leave it in
I agree but only if the alter agrees which it
Tbh having DID, I have a lot of alters and one of them is a cat. Like she'd make me zonk out (knock out to sleep almost like Narcolepsy) the moment if comfy REGARDLESS of what I'm doing, whether I'm studying, working, even if I'm just sitting inside a cabinet, a closet or a desk. I also have a child alter that's just so adorable that if she's not my alter, I'd adopt her
DID is so fascinating, how the brain can do so much to protect itself and survive.
But it's also so sad that children experience so much abuse at such a young age that they develop DID in the first place and it makes me sad that children are treated so terribly that they're mind alters just to be able to cope with what's going on in their lives
The human brain is so amazing. The ways it tries to handle trauma is so interesting. Also...Sally speaks in such a soothing way.
I can't imagine how anyone could ever do those things to anyone, especially a child. If this happened to you, I'm so so sorry and wish I could take your pain away.
People that take issue with if it's real should be more outraged at what causes it. I saw a statistic that there are as many DID as bipolar. That is a huge number.
@@sparkythekid9750 Being fair, the other theory as to how it even develops are inadequate therapy. Such as hypnosis not being done correctly. These are comparably harmless to an absurd amount of abuse.
you really can feel Amira there, i think she was a bit angry especially at around 6.50, thank you for those videos
I would say do as y’all feel comfortable at this point.
That said I did get somewhat bothered when during a stream the chat kept asking for a switch to particular alters.. the mods were keeping the unruly peeps in check tho, which made me proud =)
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N.. umm .. yea.. I have memories of early childhood where my mom would disappear for weeks and there’d be nothing to eat except dry dogfood.
Additionally there was a lot of Luis Royo/Borris Vallejo art around that I’m still rather fond of. I remember playing quite vividly in my imagination that I was a jaguar, that I would be able to be self sufficient, could defend myself & big cats are still cats so possibly even worthy of some love. One particular image is almost seared in my mind.
I can definitely see how such a thing might occur, thank you for the lesson Sally, Amira & Chloe.
Ty Kya&Co
Her diction and facial expressions are so different. The way she carries herself is different. I noticed the same with Jade and Nadia. I got interested in DID because I am bipolar and many people confuse it either DID or Borderline.
This is the first video of hers I've seen. I didn't know she had a nadia and a jade. We have a Naydia (spelled that way) and a jade too. That's cool.
LisiLisichan wow I’m not bipolar or anything but I want to learn how to accept people in society . You get what I’m saying ?
I have BPD aswell and it really is amazing how many people confuse our mood change or out of character behavior for something else entirely
I have both bpd and bipolar so I can completely understand why people get them mixed up
Sorry for asking but I will really appreciate it if someone could tell me what's the difference between bpd, bipolar and did? I got a little confused bcs thought they're all the same. Thanks in advance 😃
I think the switches are really interesting, the way you seem tired and confused then after the switch happens you perk up, it's crazy how the brain and body works.
I liked having the switch in there. It really shows that switches aren't always this instant, and can be confusing and scary. I don't have DID but I've seen many videos about it, from you and other TH-cam creators.
toothless and Noah (our system's non-human alters) watched this as well and they love it!!
"non-human alters are just as valid and just as needed as any other alters in the system" they both screamed in happiness when they heard that 🥺😄😄
What species are Toothless and Noah? You don't need to answer this question if it's too personal, I'm just curious
@@pickle7185 noah's a ghost, and toothless is a dragon!
@@onyx5453 aww like toothless from how to train your dragon 🥺🥰
@@kiyoms mhm!
Is Toothless a Night Fury?
Sally's expression while she was switching hit me hard...
I know right...
I know right...
lol why
Scary.
Yes, that's where I started crying! It's so frustrating when one part is excited about what they are doing and wants to keep going - and then nope - that's not going to happen the way you envisioned and another part takes the steering wheel. :( All you can do is stop fighting it and work with it it or you start hating yourself. :(
She looked soo sad when she began to switch.
I just wanted to go over and hug her!
💔💔 awh bless you!!
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When did she change like at what time?
sarah 0099 maybe you should watch the video yourself. Not just watch the change.
I dont know the exact moment. After a month. Although it isnt like a split second. She mentions it, I'm pretty sure
I personally find the switches being left in to be educational and massively eye opening.
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Alyssa Nicole it will disappear if you edit the comment😿
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Whew, when Sally started talking about the types of abuse people do to children & sometimes making other children watch 🥺 that took me right back to my childhood & the shit my mother would do & make my siblings and I watch. Those were memories I'd forgotten were even there.
Aw, poor sally :(
She was so excited to make a video
This video made me cry, the human cruelty that was given as an example is something beyond my imagination and emotional perception. I literally wouldn't have even thought of the behaviors presented here. I really hope the author of this video or anyone who went through such an experience will be able to heal and find peace.
Hearing what a person can do physically and mentally to young child is so sad
Sally saying "I don't want to switch i was excited for this video" broke my heart sally if you ever read this know you were heard and did an amazing job this video thank you for your knowledge and info ❤
This was fascinating! You can really tell how passionately Sally feels about this topic from the way she was speaking and her intensity. She's also super captivating, something about her energy radiates kindness but demands respect at the same time. I love her! PS: Amira sounded so beautiful! Listening to their voices swing back and forth between the accents was wild.
I cried at this. I don't have DID, but I do feel like I'm separated into parts/layers. As sally/amira talked about what can survive a child's trauma and the process of creating alters, it felt exactly right. Those were my exact thoughts in middle school: 'what will make me strong enough to get up tomorrow, where can I go in my head to not deal with this'. Thank you. Thank you so much
Days of Lost Athena Dear Athena, I’m so sorry to hear abour your experience. I similarly do not have DID but recognize having ‘parts’. In my case, they feel split off, not matured/stuck in a certain age and sometimes censured, like looking at an image where the middle was literally ‘erased’. I have diagnosed C-PTSD (amongst other diagnoses) and have come to known these parts as Fragmentation. I’m r ppl a book that is very helpful to me in my healing process. I thought it might be to you too; it’s called Healing The Fragmented Selves of Trauma Survivors by Janina Fisher. I wish you all the best.
I feel this. I have this part of me that acts very child-like and "comes out" or expresses itself when i am being /really/ cared for in the way i wished i was cared for when i was a child instead of experiencing the trauma. I also really associate myself with a cat which is why i like cats as well, because i felt understood as a child with their way of life. i actually wrote a book in HS wherein we were required to write a book about our life and my theme was about the correlation of my life with a stray kitten. and that "kitten" expresses itself too different situations. tho i do feel like a singular personality, i sometimes feel very fragmented and i try to reparent my inner child to heal those fragmented parts of me. i also remember coming across bdsm topics here on youtube and thinking maybe im just a "little" but this made more sense. try checking out @the.holistic.psychologist on IG. she also has a youtube account. her posts help me heal.
I've been binge watching your channel for two days now, and I've learned so much. I've gone on binges before learning about DID, but I've never heard anyone explain it so well before. DID doesnt sound like a terrifying disorder anymore like it does when you dont understand it. I really have the mindset that it's almost a super power like someone else said. Its incredible how many people were made just for YOU to keep you safe. And they're all so wonderful. A few of them in particular are so impressive to me.
Anyways, I really appreciate this channel, I love having a better understanding on things i personally dont go through.
You’re creating the most encouraging, raw, and informational content and I just want to say you’re doing an amazing job at also creating a space for those like minded to share their similar experiences. you’re educating the masses and there’s strength in vulnerability so thank you for the impact you’ve had on this community 🌞
You look like a sunset :0
She is a sunset.
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Not surprising to hear this from the OG Milf Hunter
u look like a donut :/
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Sally, Amira, and Chloe, thank you SO MUCH for this video! As a non-human alter myself, I really appreciate you helping to educate people about us, and why we aren't just childish "imaginary friends" or whatever. My name is Elena, I am a 16 year old dragon/human hybrid in our system. We're pretty sure that I was created because of our feelings about being called a "freak" a lot by bullies at school. So, I had a "freakish" appearance as a half human, half dragon. Because of absorbing that verbal abuse, for a long time, I didn't feel comfortable even among the other alters in the internal world. There were several of the others that lived in a mansion in our mind, but I just watched them from a distance, and was afraid to introduce myself to them. The only interactions with the external world I had ever had involved bullies calling me a freak, so why would they be any different? But after we found a therapist who diagnosed us as DID, and the others discovered my existence, they took me in and accepted me and loved me. It still took a long time for me to learn to trust them and accept the fact that I was accepted. But now, I have lots of friends in the internal world, and even a few in the external world as well! Oh, and just to let you know, as a fellow DID system, we wanted to tell you that we appreciate you leaving in the switches, and also explaining things like who is co-conscious and when you are distracted by an internal argument. This helps non-DID people to see what these things REALLY look like, as opposed to the freakish events that Hollywood portrays them to be. We also appreciate you being open and honest about the types of abuse that DID people have experienced. I think a lot of times when some people try to accuse DID systems of being "fakers" online, they aren't thinking about the fact that they are abusing someone who has already survived horrific abuse as a child, and they need to be aware of that. So, thank you for everything that you all are doing, and keep it up!!! - Elena the teenage dragon girl
❤❤❤❤❤ Im so happy for you, and thank you so much!
I think Elena its from the backlash of the otherkin or furry hate, but in there cases its more an alter ego. unlike yourself that is a full person in my eyes ( have had people in my life with DID) . I am also glad the others like you and a few outside pals, you sound like an interesting alter :) and any alter or host reads this please tell her x all of you take care
Thank YOU, DissociaDID system! and epiphanycakes, thank you so much for the supportive comments! It means so much to me, and to us, that a stranger on the internet would write such a nice comment to me! Yeah, I've been told before that I'm very interesting... you're making me blush... (umm, a slightly darker shade of green? ;) ) But seriously, thank you, it warms our heart to know that people that we don't even know are supportive of us. - Elena
I just cried reading your comment. I'm so sorry you were bullied too that extent but I'm so very happy the whole system accepted you and I would be your friend in a heartbeat.
gotham_siren_21 Thank you so much! You're so sweet! - Elena
It's so good to meet you Sally 💖 such a lovely, empathetic video you created, so sorry you couldnt finish, but what you said was amazingly well said. All of you help me learn something new every video ❤ so much love to you all
This is a pretty old video by the time I'm viewing it, but I recently saw your interview with Anthony Padilla and got really interested. I don't have DID and I've also never really understood it but watching your videos has definitely given me a better grasp on what it is. I know you said switches can be very personal too, and I totally respect that, but seeing you switch on camera in a few different videos is what really got me to see how real DID is. I'd never fully understood what alters were or how they worked, and I'm sure most of that is due to poor media representation, but watching you come back from a switch with a noticeably different voice, personality, and body language allowed me a much better understanding of how it all worked. Thank you for sharing with us.
I never really understood the nonhuman alters or why they would exist. As sad as it is that they felt they had to exist, I have a deeper respect and love for the nonhuman alters.
Sally is really interesting. Everything about her, her mannerism, the way she look at the camera is everything. Sorry, can't really word my thoughts right. 😥
Wendy Ann I think I get what ur saying. She’s different from the other alters, in the sense that she is very considerate and understanding, almost maternal to her fellow alters (sounds like that anyway). Plus, with her soft spoken voice and sweet personality makes her a very adorable person!
I like to see my D.I.D as a bunch of friends keeping each other safe. I honestly hat it when they call our alters fake, they are people with real thoughts, emotions, and REAL TRAUMA. Yes it is debilitating and yes it is hard sometimes, BUT THEY ARE NOT MY POSSESSION, THEY ARE NOT HERE ONLY FOR ME. You are the reason I could see it that way, you are the reason I came out to my friend, you kinda made me who I am. What you are doing here is amazing and I support you with all of my heart.
I honestly love when you show the switches, because it gives me the true insight on what really goes on behind closed doors.
I have to say it was really a struggle not to cry when you were talking about the childish desire to be bigger, stronger, able to fight back. Something about that purity and innocence and desire not to be helpless reminded me so much of my own experiences with trauma. Thank you so much.
I had these weird daydreams and memory flash backs the entire time i watched the video because i think i suffered from the same thing as a child but somehow that part of me has changed (although i think i don't have DID) because I guess i just don't remember most of my childhood.
I love watching DID switches, it makes me feel more “normal” but if you don’t want to upload them, we completely understand!
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What a great informative video. Very private and very uncomfortable I could tell. Thank you so much for this channel. It has been so informative and very interesting.
I really appreciate how you put the research in the description, proves that you genuinely know what you're talking about scientifically in addition to your personal experience.
I’m sorry but that lipstick is absolutely stunning on Sally !
I have psychiatric nursing experience, I’m so incredibly proud of what you’ve done to shed light on this disorder! I also have PTSD and I think what you do in amazing! Keep what you’re doing guys! Xxx
I saw your video response to Trisha, I have PTSD myself and I realized I don’t know a lot about DID so I’ve fallen down the rabbit hole of information and I’m just... sobbing because to think anyone, anyone at all could cause such pain and hurt to a child hurts. My PTSD is from prolonged childhood abuse and I thank you so much for using your voice to help people become educated about this disorder and also the very real way abuse affects children. Also I got to say I love Amiras ferocity working in tandum with Sally’s gentleness.
I love hearing Sally talk she's really soothing, I like to watch and learn about mental health problem as I have many myself. I just found your channel so I am new and it was the first time for me watching someone switch and it triggered really bad anxiety for me, and I don't know why. But I really enjoy your videos and seeing you switch somehow makes the connection easier to understand. I'm not trying to offend and I definitly like that you are brave enough to leave the switch, I just wanted to say you all are amazing!
Thank you for putting a trigger warning. I always know i can watch your videos without having to worry about surprise panic attacks or breakdowns. It really means alot.
I think you should leave the switches in, i believe it really helps those of us who do not have DID to understand what you go through, however if you feel uncomfortable or that it’s too personal, definitely talk it over with the others 😊
Thank you lovely ❤
I totally agree!! As someone who doesn't suffer from DID but is a psychology student these switching episodes give me a lot of insight into the matter, thank you all so much for showing us such a vulnerable state ❤️
Thank you so much for appreciating, so glad its helpful 💖
Yes, I am interested in understanding how the switches happen and what they look like also. Thank you for helping us understand those in our lives with DID.
DissociaDID I agree witnessing you switch really resonates with me. As someone with DID it gives me more insight as I am just beginning my treatment/Therapy. Many of my alters are very good at switching without me noticing at all even if it was obvious, they’ll pay attention to continuity, use distractions or give a seemingly concrete excuse besides ‘I must’ve dissociated’. Alters can become pros at that stuff. Every quality has a purpose though and I’m thankful for the protection it has given me and my system. Keep up the amazing, relevant videos Lovely! 💜
This was the first video of the dDID system that I saw back when it came out. I was fascinated with DID in psychology class back in school and was playing with the idea of going to university to study psychology. Unfortunately it didn't come to be but I stuck around and have been lurking and binging videos whenever I got the time.
I just want to say how thankful and proud I am of the system. You've all come so far and have educated us so thoroughly and cheerfully. Thank you for having the strength to do all this and showing yourselves to the world ❤
I also was abused as a child, but my Soul, doesnt create other Alters or something. I only learned, to dissociating, if i am in danger. And yeah, i love to dissociate, it gives me a few seconds or minutes of silence. It brings me down. Lots of Love to you all
(Look at me, responding to year old comments) there are different types of disassociation, DID/OSDD is just one of them
-Ari
5:03 Me: Adults?
Her: Dragons.
I said that exact same thing
Same. Same
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Guys where can I find the intro music? It's excellent
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i understand this was just over 2 years ago, but recently i have been wanting to learn heaps more about DID. these videos are amazing and very educational. i completely understand that switching is a personal experience. it is also very fascinating, educational and actually quite brilliant to witness. you are all so unique and different and its very refreshing to watch. i love your videos, keep up the excellent work!!
You are without a single doubt the strongest people I have ever seen. I can't express the amount of pure respect I have for all of you.
It was very interesting to see the coconsciousness between Sally and Amira, and how Amira really shone through when talking about the abuse. I do feel a bit for Sally though, she seemed really excited to make a video.
I am not a system myself, but I am very interested in psychology and mental health and the destigmatisation thereof. I’m a new subscriber, but the videos you guys produce have all been very educative and fascinating. They really illustrate an otherwise misunderstood disorder in a way that is understandable for others.
Keep up the amazing work, friends.
yeah, I’m not in a system either but these videos are so interesting and they explain it so well
Same
We’re a system and we like to see people learning about it. It just makes it easier for all the systems when people are educated, so thank you
-Rhea
As someone’s who’s been abused in some ways you mentioned, and has developed DID, I just want to say that I’m so grateful you’ve explained this to people...
Thank you so very much for this your not just helping persons with DID, and their family and friends, but all of us you’ve had difficulty. You are an angel for putting yourself out there for all to see. I can’t imagine how hard this is but thank you for persevering, thank you for trusting, and to all the alters thank you for sharing your helping a lot of people. Lot of love being sent your way 🥰
I absolutely LOVE your intro btw. Song and graphics, all of the above. It’s SO beautifully done!
I love this video but at the same time I feel like crying, just thinking about what kids have to go through to develop such personalities makes me nauseous. Thanks for being explicit, it gives a very clear understanding to us who don't have DiD
Acid Smiles exactly 💔💔💔
this is exactly how I feel. so curious and intrigued but at the same time it's upsetting to think about the cause of it
And exactely now I wish I had never stumbled across some videos to imagine what humans are capable of....Being me and being so frightened of my needy and childish traits I never felt comfortable near children and try to avoid them because they remind me of what I was never allowed to be or behave without punishment, but what I heard and read there was so unimaginable I wish I could wipe my imagination off my conciousness right now. And... I don't know why I'm even typing this, while I was never able to tell a therapist exactly that.
Jane Doe X sometimes it’s easier to type to a stranger than to talk to another person, especially about the trauma you’ve been through.
If the everyone in the system would allow it, I would love more switches kept in. It helps me understand DID a bit more when I see. It can be hard having sub-personalities but technically not DID. I don’t know how to explain what is going on in my head. Watching you helps me get through the day so please keep working hard
I completely back this up. I don't have DID (I don't have a headspace or alters) but I do have seperate personalities with, for example, a childlike personality and a more fierce one that seems to emerge when I feel threatened.
@@stayarmyshawolexo-lmydayac4032 I have that too. Dissociation is actually a spectrum. Everyone has different sides to them and for most people they transition seamlessly between for example who they are at the office vs home. But with childhood trauma you can start to have more separation between parts. Like a wall between them. And when this gets so extreme you don't remember what happened when you weren't fronting, that's DID. But it's a spectrum. This is what my psychologist who specializes in trauma explained to me. I have it too.
Daesung Dawn There is another disorder that is like DID but it doesn’t fit all of the criteria. I forgot the name but it’s similar to how with eating disorders you can have EDNOS (eating disorder not otherwise specified) because you don’t fully fit the criteria of anorexia/bulimia/BED/etc. Might be something to look into if you want answers!
@@madi371 its called OSDD
Agreed
I just wanted to say thank you. I don't have DID but your videos have helped me understand how it works a bit better. I think it's great what you're doing and I'm so inspired by you. I have other mental health issues and I think it's so important to spread awareness and destigmatise mental health issues. You are so very brave to do this and share such personal struggles that you have. You are all truly inspiring. Thank you.
I find your channel relaxing. I’m always stressed out and sometimes it’s really hard to deal with. It’s nice to listen to you and your alters speak