I started doing drugs since my teenage. Got addicted to cocaine for over 17 years. Cocaine addiction actually destroyed my life. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Not until my wife recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.
I love hearing great life changing stories like this. I want to become a mycologist because honestly mushrooms are the best form of medicine (most especially the psychedelic ones) There are so many people today used magic mushrooms to ween off of SSRI medication- its amazing! Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death buddy, lets be honest here.
Hey mates! Can you help with the source? I suffer severe anxiety, panic and depression and I usually take prescription medicine, but they don't always help. Where can I find those psilocybin mushrooms? I'm really interested in treating my mental health without Rxs. I live in Australia don't know much about these. I'm so glad they helped you. I can't wait to get them too. Really need a reliable source 🙏
YES sure of mycologist Predroshrooms. Mushrooms literally got me off my feet and turned my whole life around. I am currently a housing manager for a recovery program. I wouldn't have been able to do that shit without psilocybin.
Thanks for sharing your story. That's rough I sympathize. Save your health save your mind. Life is better without heroin, cocaine, alcohol and cigarettes. And you have more money in your pocket. God bless everyone who has rejected the devils intentions to be addicted to alcohol and cigarettes etc which can cause so much damage to health. I will pray for you all.
Believe it or not, the anxiety and panic attacks or because of your ADHD probably. ADHD alone can cause panic attacks and major anxiety issues so without something calming You down, Like Cocaine for people with adhd, it kind of calms anxiety a bit like it does for eric. It did for me as well at one point in my life
I’m not an addict, but I found my self heading down that path. I’ve been using cocaine usually once a month I’d do an 8 ball. I hate the way I feel when the bag is gone, the birds are chirping, and I can’t sleep. Good on you and everyone in these comments for getting clean. I’m stopping my use of cocaine for good. Even though I don’t use daily it’s affected my life terribly. I ended up failing a drug test and losing a good job. I’ve almost ruined a relationship with a great girl. Thank you for your message.
Ive been doing 2-3 grams a day the last 5 1/2 months with my wife. At first it i felt i could control it but lately ive felt like its starting to control me. So last night we both broke down and said enough. Today was our first full sober day in 4 months
Hey may I ask when did you feel like you started getting addicted? So far I’ve done it once and it was a day ago. I didn’t take any today but I want to get some tomorow ( 40 bucks worth ). Is that enough to be addicted ?
Addiction is like a little friend in the corner that you can always fall back on, but without it in situations of self-doubt/anxiety you have to fall back on YOURSELF. And that does not come easy. Just dealing with weed right now but it's crazy hard to have the same level of fun without it at the moment
Great to see you talking about this stuff. I was addicted to meth from 16-19, then addicted to weed and booze from 19-25. Then addicted to pills from 25-35. Finally got sober, and have been from drugs for 14 years. I'm still addicted to other things, just not things that are illegal. I smoke, drink way too much caffeine, eat way too much sugar, but here I still am. I don't think the trait ever goes away, you just have to manage, and focus on it. The truth is through all of it, I learned 1 thing. You have to want it.
I’ve came out to family and wife about my addiction. I’ve hid for 5 years I’m tired of the double life. My neck hurts my emotions are crazy. This sucks. I’m day 2 clean. These voices exactly. It’s so hard
You hit the nail on the head bro!!!! With when closing your eyes the racing scary thoughts keep you from falling asleep! Mine was with opiates but same thing!
No physical withdrawal from cocaine. The power of the psychological withdrawal should not be underestimated though. I stopped in an instant. My young daughter standing at the bottom of my hospital bed was enough to achieve that. I was admitted with a potential heart attack. A terribly deceptive drug. Most of us are self medicating. Keep strong.
yes----it can give you a cardiac arrest out of nowhere ...I'm shocked I got away without ending up in the ER ...I probably should have gone a couple times.
I attempted to save my 14 year relationship with someone who refused help with cocaine and alcohol addiction, this helps me out a lot as to why, I just figured he didn’t love me enough . Thank you so much for this informative video
Never done drugs ever my habits are good herbal tea and exercise 4 days a week dont let anyone bring u down people think coke aint a drug nor is it addictive silly people out there
I haven't touched cocaine since Christmas. Used to LOVE the styff . I had told myself once in a while treat. So far haven't touched it since. Smoking good quality cannabis is what works for me.
@@Gabbbb410it really is man and I loved weed and used to say yku can’t get addicted been off it for 2 months but I go worse drugs im off it bc I want a new job and it led me in a bad path starting to think weed kept me from bad stuff but either way weed IS addictive it’s the safest drug tbh but still too much isn’t good
Great job. Ignore the people saying cannabis is another addiction. If it helps, it helps. Much better off with cannabis. If you feel you need to get off cannabis after a long amount of time off the powder, then deal with it at that point. Anything to not get back on the blow.
I wish my sister could hear this because this is the most accurate and honest account of this type of addiction. You describe this exactly how it really is! ❤❤ My addiction meant I had to cut people out and I’m now two years clean in august after 10 years of addiction. Sadly me and my sister still don’t talk.
ugh the voices. those are the worst. I'm a recovering addict from heroin. been sober 3 years. I feel that. the routine is very hard to break ... I had to move down south to actually stop and luckily I did. I couldn't get sober up north. I had to create a new routine for myself and get out of that environment. Yes, I agree, it is the best decision to get clean. I promise you, it gets better. it's freaking hard but you can do it. to any addict struggling keep going. it DOES get better ❤️
Never been str8 addicted to any drug. But over the past decade ive come to a slow but obvious realization. Im addicted to addiction. Substance no matter what it is "did and do keep a cap on hard drugs. Meth herion pills ect ive kept at bay after a short stint with adderalls in hs" coke has been a new one. But that was still a few mo ago n its just off n on here n there. Done it various times over the years but cant go on a bing for more then 2 to 3 days. Weird part. When i go completely dry of susbtance "mainly to prove i physically dont need it. Fir reasons of balancing health" But the weird thing is when i go completely sober. I end up affecting my life worse then any drug has. I lose jobs, drop hobbies friends and start self isolating full bore. After a few weeks im in constant pain and overly accuetly aware of my body, heartbeat. Feeling my blood move in my vains. Feeling food and gases mive through my intestines Why am i mentioning this. Idk hoping someone can figure it out. Therapy and pshys have not been much help. In fact after seeing them i fell down the hardest paths i was in. And relied way to much on an abusive relationship. But the buggest reason for doing substance. I cant stand being sober. Anxiety depression, my skin is crawling i just cant get comfotable in my own body Now before ya get worried. I do balance everything out. I watch many videos and do hours upon hours of research for everything "hence finding this vid" if i see any corralation between how o feel and someone who is addicted. I stop and change to something else Recently quit weed and alch. Was a bad binge drinker. But weed was the worst. 4-600 a week for last decade nonstop. Anxiety is down bad. But i feel like it shpuld do me good. 2 weeks sober from it. Next thing to go is nic because my lungs are fcked Either way. Not sure why i listed this. Guess just looking for an external non professional opionion. In which i get more honestly and personal experience i trust more then a study on an age group and time period i dont fall into. Many external factors and drugs dont tent to hit me like most Coke for one slows me down n makes me tired. Relaxed. Ready to take a nap for 6-10 hours Where as to sober im hyper. High energy, cant sit still and avg 3 hours or less of sleep per day. "Recent binge on snow acrually fixed sleep schedule before i parked binge last week" prior to that i had gone 6 mo without more then 3 hours of sleep per day. Occasionally got a 30 min nap in tho So what are your thoughts/opinions on my rambings. Worst case jusy view it as a small study group. I aint looking for help, i got it balanced very well. Mainly just tryna find the why and how to fix. Maybe there is a day when i can do substance fir the sake of doing it "to enjoy n party on" vs a break from life/my head -mental list "as this tends to help understanding" Diagnosed list -got diagnosed at 8- the big 4 ill leave out the other's -chronic/clinical depression Bad enough on sober days i often drift in and out of psychosis -anxiety Peaked around 24 7, biggest thing to send it into panic attacks is timeframes. Even on minute things like when to get a shower before work. If behind on time i spiral instantly -compound post tramatic stress disorder, caused from many different instances. The result is a fck load of triggers that i dont know off hand till they happen. When it gets triggered i step back, leave situation. Calm myself down, come back apologize and make ammenda to any damage caused "usually none due to stepping back" and continue on with work needing done And bipolar disorder. But could also be seasonal depression while living in a state where the season can vary by the day. So some days are manic. Others are low. And some just have unbridled rage "i call off work. Stay home. Work out. N try to relax"
I feel you because im the same i have always been addicted to something but somehow i will abuse whatever im addicted too then i will quit it cold turkey i feel its in our head the feeling of been worry that we are doing something wrong and that we need to be on a mission i have always been strong and battle my addiction and my addictive personality but drugs always end up fucking you up because deep inside of you while your doing them you know your doing something extremely fucked up and wrong but wanna enjoy the feeling of fighting your mind and thoughts and addiction to know that you are in control but trust me im like you but it takes me while to get out of of the new addiction i have hopefully this is gonna my last experience with been addicted to any drug and start enjoying life and be addicted instead to working out cooking etccc stay strong and my advice coke is very tricky you will not know tell u find your self fighting the feeling of wanting it stay strong stay clean ❤❤😊
I truly felt like you were telling my story. I’m struggling but I keep trying. I love how treatment centers say that you don’t go thru withdrawals. Yes, we do. I really need help.
Yesterday night I stopped. Was on ym way to the dealer after finishing my gram for the day - record amount for me. I just forced myself to turn around at a U turn, got a pack of cigs and went home. Today, I experienced about two hours of withdrawal, it literally just passed. Gonna get some herb to help me sleep and hope for the best.
Wish me luck I been struggling with cocaine addiction I’ve quit for like a week and went right back but this video makes me wanna quit for good I’m tired of my nose being stuffed up and dripping I’ve been addicted for about 3 months now imma try to stay off it I’ll update in a couple weeks
My ex girlfriend of 5.5 years struggled with dealing with my addiction. If she hadnt left me i wouldnt ever have gotten sober. It took that pain and another 6 months of addiction before i got sober. When i got sober i started to really understand what it was i put her through - she really was alone in our relationship at the end. Ill never forget nearly overdosing puking in my bed completely blacked out while she had to sit there cleaning my puke and holding me up so i wouldnt choke and die on my own puke and waking up having no memory of it - i was in so much denial that i never considered how it made her feel until years later when i got sober. Its taken a lot to forgive myself for it. As far as i know shes happy and im sober now. We all end up where were supposed to be in the end.
What helped me alot was going hiking it clears the mind and put some relaxing music on my headset then once I got tired of that trail I would find a new trail to explore
It definitely helps. It helps too if you can find something you value and enjoy more than the drugs. That way when you relapse and it stops you enjoying your new thing, you start to resent the drugs for keeping you away from your new love. My new love was gardening. My drug of choice was heroin. Whenever I relapsed it kept me away from my garden and before long I changed my life around. It also helped that I noticed the heroin gave me really bad anxiety and then I’d want to use heroin again to control my anxiety. I got sick of the endless negative cycle and seeing my garden flourish gave me hope and some pride. Definitely added to my self worth.
Thanks. I've been trying to stay clean, and have had a few recent setbacks. I'm really not trying to give up because of my lapse of judgement though. Taking it one day at a time. Your story helps put things in perspective.
doing 2 to 3 g a day...on and off. usually 3 to 4 days a week. I start to get afraid - this is why am watching this guy. trying to find the motivation to do a long break. not easy with coke. he explains very well the issue. life is becoming suddenly much more real and anxiety is present. I dont feel bad when I dont use but feel much better when I use. and I can see I use more and more :-(
I fell of the wagon 2 nights ago. 3.5 gram binge with a loss of almost £900 on top from other things. It’s not the end of the world, but equally, I fell for it after 2 months sober. I’m feeling positive and ready to start from day one again. I’m going to beat this for the long term.
Mate I'm struggling, ordered a ticket and the anxiety came over me just now rang the dealer back and told him I don't want it now!! Feel like shit right now 😐
@@jonathanHerbison-u5m go take a shower, get in bed and get back on the phone and call a friend/family member you haven’t spoken too in a while - with all the lights off - I know it sounds crazy, I know it seems weird, but do it. Assuming you’re in the UK?
Damn the human body is something amazing. Ppl Cheer at ppl who deadlift 300kg but the mental and physical strain your body went through is like lifting tons every second. Happy u recovered
Did it for 2 years 8 months after a break up. I am 35. One day dealer told me how much he hates his job and ruining peoples lives. I went on a 3 day bender had first panic attack thought I was dying. Scared shit out me! That day I stopped cold turkey, said in prayers wouldn't touch it again, ever. 8 years later clean wouldn't even dream of being near anyone that does it. Its vile. Since I stopped my career has flown, had a gf for 7 years solid, spend time with my family, enjoy the basics of life, nature. How to do it is go 1 week without it, then do another week, then get to 1 month. After that 1st month you feel better and better, stronger, clear thinking. Also, delete those people out your lives that do it. You need to get out of that circle.
Thank you darling. I am preparing to Be a Gladiator. My last use today. I'm quitting cigs, bonze n yayo !! N hitting the Gym Every mothafukin morning n night. I must Fix Me back to Good Good. For me and my son. You have inspired me, thaaaaank uuuu soooooooo soooooooo much. Stay blessed n Strong. Plz say a prayer for me amoretti. Ethiopian love from Montreal mmmwaàhhh ❤🌹
@@habibaali5443 hope you're going strong, it's that first 4 weeks get through it and get out of the circle of people. Get your life back and clear your brain of that shit, its amazing how quickly you feel normal again and also how much damn money you save
I had a problem for a little over a year. My withdrawals were so bad some days even up to 2 months after quitting cold turkey. I kept having panic attacks and feeling like someone was clinching my heart for minutes at a time throughout the day. I constantly felt like i was having heart attacks.The restless legs kept me from being able to sleep so i would smoke some weed before bed. The last panic attack happened while i was driving about 2 months of being clean and i pulled over and started to call 911 because i seriously felt like i was going to die. It did go away with some slow breathing and soothing music. After that day i never had anymore pacic attacks or weird heart feelings. Fast forward 8 years and im still completely sober and my life is great. I thank god every day that i made it through that time . A lot of people dont get that second chance. But my clarity on life and discipline now is one if my greatest traits. If you or someone you love is battling addiction or going through withdrawals it will take time to get better and start with getting help. God bless everyone
@Unwritten7 coke literally almost killed me. I had a real fear of dying from it after I had a slight overdose one day. I forced myself to think that if I even did a little bit from then on that it would kill me. So in my mind I had no choice but to stop doing it. My advice is to first get yourself away from the people that have it or are bringing it into your life. You have to remove yourself from it. Delete your dealer's phone numbers. Then tell yourself every day that if you even do 1 line then you will die. This is what worked for me and got me through the weeks of hell after quitting. I really hope you can get past this 🙏
Great watch, im going through it now after 15 years it's been a month and I'm feeling great from getting out off hell, still getting the devil's voice in my head telling me I've been a good boy for 4 weeks and I should treat myself 😰😰😰😰😰.. a constant battle but I'm going to win👍
I had a spike of use during pandemic, two years doing coke practically every day. Trying to shake it off, managed to cut down to maybe 4g a week. Right now decided to go cold turkey and going 5th day drug free. Thank god I never stopped exercising and that's what's keep me sane now. Voices in my head are still there but trying to counter act them by reminding myself how much havoc and destruction it brought to my life. Needed to cut off certain people from my life and avoid situations that could trigger use again. I never drank alcohol though so that might make it tiny bit easier
6 years clean of coke and perks also meth. Only advice I can give is your worst day sober is nothing compared to best day high. A lot of mental work is involved.
Been using every weekend with alcohol . My legs are gettin worse they hurt and are sore ..ive been praying and tryn to shut it down. Never use to be this bad . Its like i stopped caring..anxiety induced for sure
Did cocaine for 12 years….wrote a lot of music and partied hard for days on end. Never lost a job and was high functioning. Stopped and after about 8 months, my motivation and dopamine returned to baseline. I exercised a lot…the withdrawals were almost none existent
@temprary580 ye ye some people js don't enjoy a stimulant high that much, I tried it last night about a gram of some shifty stuff over a couple hours first time no tolerance I asked bro to try it cause he's done it quite a bit and he was like it's not bad but it ain't good, yea it was js fckn annoying tbh, felt sick the next day, got no sleep, nose hurt, idk I js don't have the Crack head genes ig
I spent twelve years and the voice is still there even after all the time between me getting sober. I cut everyone loose. You have to remember this sobriety is about one thing. It has to be about just me.
I currently live with the father of my three children, he is and addict, almost going on fourth year, What Can i do to help him? I feel So brooken and crazy, ive known him for 18 years, so it breaks my heart that he is about to throug away his life.. he ruined Our aconomy lost jobs and his licens.. i have no idea What to do..
Just left my ex a couple months ago because of his withdrawal behaviour and him refusing to help himself. I tried so hard to support him and he was not pleasant.
I did coke for 20 years when i quit i had no withdrawals to speak of.Maybe for a fews days after taking it you feel deprssed.I also did oxys and methdone for 10 years now thats withdrawl i felt like death for weeks i didnt sleep right for a month.I wanted too die it was so bad.
I had restless leg so bad i couldnt stop or feel it. I was in a wheelchair for like a year, started with one leg then hit the other. And yes even during the day. 24/7 restless leg. Im glad i couldnt feel them. Guess it was triggered by PTSD, i found a dog and i became emotionaly attached to him big time, two weeks later my legs slowly came back and i could walk. Still have restless when i sleep but i can stop it and feel it now
You sound like me after 6 years of abuse 3 to 4 balls a day... 12 years I was clean... then I fell off the wagon from a failed relationship... went clean 5 years fell off from another failed relationship... but everything u say is exactly how I went through withdraws...
Let me start this of by saying I’m 18 years old, I’m currently in the army and got hooked around 6 months ago, got found out on a drugs test maybe 2 weeks ago, about to lose my job, spending even more on it, around 2g a day wasting my finnal wage before being booted, what do I do
Hard to believe you survived that much coke daily! That is scary, so glad you kicked it. I am 62 and have been doing it fairly regularly for a few years after 30 year hiatus .
I was coke addict for awhile too… i remember a week before going into treatment I had a mild stroke…no one knew..it was terrifying. I also remember waking up from dreams about it with a bloody nose…
My agoraphobia basically makes me immune to substance abuse the idea of having to deal with a dealer to get my fix is more uncomfortable than any withdrawal 😂
Does that mean you don't even want people coming to your house? Genuine question because lately I don't want to leave the house or even have anyone come visit. It hasn't been "lately", it's actually been about a year and a half of this.
6 months clean off of coke and i can honestly say for me personally there was no withdrawals quit using alcohol cause if i wasn't drunk i didnt think about it outta sight outta mind kinda thing
I’m so late seeing this video but man thanks so much this is very helpful to me..I’m ten days clean and i can’t stop the night sweats it’s so aggravating
Ive never done that much in a day. I stay within like .1 -.2 a day because my body is very reactive. But i can feel it creeping closer to controlling me completely. Im going to beat this shit.
Drug withdrawal ill sum up the worst part for you all. Imagine lying down on a bed when your depressed to relax and sleep. But imagine when there is no relaxition and nothing you do can calm the panic attack then you eventually sleep only to wake up and repeat the whole ordeal over and over and over again for id say at least 4 month or longer minimum. Drugs dont just cause you to die physically but its the effect it has on your brain is where the pain comes from. Peace of mind is the foundation for happiness but when drugs damage the brain it can cause maybe a permanent lowering or absence of excitment and happy feeling mood. Dont risk trying drugs because even if you think addiction wont happen it Will And DOES. Why would you gamble your life away for a poisoness high.
I was clean until two days ago. A "friend" gave me a little bag and said go make yourself a line. I couldn't resist and when I saw the powder, I took half of it. I told him I was sorry, I couldn't help it. Seing it turns me into an animal. It becomes an obsession. More, more, more. But I'm not buying. I'm not looking for it. I just keep puting myself in situations where it is offered to me. At the worst of my addiction, I was 55kg for 1m75. I was taking so much coke, MDMA and alcohol my collegues were concerned. They thought I would make an overdose at some point. I had no limits. I don't wanna feel that taste ever again.
The most unhappy I ever was in my life was when I dated a Coke addict 10+ years ago. The lies, the mood swings, the no money, the cheating, the last on the priority list.. so happy to be free from it. Still waiting to receive my “amends”… so that tells me all I need to know.
@@dadjacobs8977 it gets better and better people come. Trust. With my current partner I don’t ever have to hear about how he “lost his phone”, “couldn’t find his phone cord”, “phone died”, “I passed out early” and all the other lies he told me when he’d disappear on a Friday or Saturday night while I waited for his phone call.
Personally I've been addicted to coke for 2 years and overcame the peak addiction but I'm now a functioning addict I don't crave it it's more Like a second thought and then boom I message my connect and 3 grams in it's hard to completely stop but I won't give up
get rid of his number and if you have a iPhone and MacBook delete his number from the iMessages on there too. That’s the only thing that did it for me. Convenience is a MF
Yeah, you think you’re a functioning addict until you try to stop and actually sit with how you feel in the aftermath and then keep that going… you’ll see what it does to you, never want this ever - the highest definitely not worth the pain that comes later .. and if you think you have avoided it, it’s only a matter of time🙏🏻 my habit is completely mild to all the people on this comment board, but I still feel the anxiety, and panic and depression from coming off using..it’s horrible- makes me feel but myself ., and nothing is enjoyable. The worst
Few days clean and my depression is thru the roof,just want a long run of days clean and for this to heal ,its awful,but im never using again this is ny recovery i can do it
Im an alcoholic and when i drink i wanna do coke i drink every day and do coke twice a week i only do half a gram each time i dont think im addicted because i dont do it every day but when i do after i finish the half gram after the last line i crave it and feel like shit without it i smoke weed to help me sleep but it takes 2h+ to fall asleep so i dont think im addicted because i dont use it everyday but when i do and i run out and craving more and feel like shit it makes me feel like iam
I was 6 years clean but then I had one of my close friends pass away , just last year then my uncle passed away also the same year witch made me relapse, but I have been now a month clean I can definitely say some times are harder then others not to want to do it again .
Start again❤ come to Jesus, trust me He will help you! Surrender your life to Him and give the Battle to Him I pray that you will achieve victory forever ❤
It’s been like that for years for me , 2 weeks is the point where my brain starts tricking me that’s it’s ok , just a lil bit , I’m 10 minutes sober from coke Hopefully this is it because my life and family is depending on this sobriety
Thank you for that message I believe you should have spoken for more than 11 minutes we both have the same thing in common and going through the same withdrawals I'm still in active addiction and I need help
I can't find a source anywhere for any good psychedelics in my area, I suffer some pretty bad depression and i got a chance to try K and man it was a miracle substance, I felt free,the only high or euphoria was from the relief of my vices being released, that's exactly what it did
Mushroom completely turned my life around and my anxiety and panic attack disappeared and my personality changed into a much more generous loving person
I smoked it - same with crystal. Couldn't stand the depression coming down. After 10 or 12 times I quit. Then I got hooked on opioids, Benzos. Got off the hydrocodone not too much problem. Brenzos are the Soul-Crushers for me. 8 yrs off of these, still a living nightmare. Oh yes, like the cats on the chalkboard!
@rupertoperez4029 last time I used coke I did 2 grams in one night. I took a moment to reflect and realized I could've died easily and that I was lucky to still be alive. As hard as it was to even process a single thought as I was suffering withdrawals, sometimes we all need those hard reminders.
I have been a cocaine addict for 7 years i did cocaine almost every day for 7 years. I have spent at least 250 grand on it. I took credit from different banks and today i have around 100 grand in debt because of cocaine. I lost my job, my appartment and my drivning license. 3 years ago i was clean for 3 months that's the most i have been clean then i started again. Now i took my drivning license agian and i have been clean for 49 days and i'm not going back ever again may god help me
I was a heroin addict but honestly preferred the high of coke... Coke literally scared me because of its addictiveness, it's vastly more mentally difficult to quit. I smashed it and coming down off coke really sucks. With heroin I could buy some and not spend more money but coke I spend it all. Most of it chasing the initial high because, nothing, I mean nothing, is better than a shot of good cocaine.
I’m 2 weeks sober from about 3 years of an ounce of Coke every other week. It’s beyond words trying to get past the mental hurdle. The placebo effect of knowing you’re about to get a zip is almost as good as the high itself. The random girls and reputation you get from always being able to provide the party is difficult to leave. I jog 5 miles a day and only cope chemically with benzodiazepines. Lost all my money not on coke but making bad trade investments towards the end of my cocaine career
Never was addicted to coke, but weed. I downplayed it always like your stance to coke and smoked everyday for many years until I saw the addiction and how my life was a mess. Completly sober for 2 years now and I never felt better.
I came off large doses of amphetamines (the pharmaceutical kind) and I've come off oxycontin, which was absolutely brutal. With the meth pills, I mean Adderall, the withdrawal was easy (relative to opiates), but the damage to the dopamine receptors took years to recover. At least two joyless years followed. I've heard the same about coke. Although I've used it more than a few times, it was too rich for my pocket book, so I don't know whether it's comparable or not.
Most i was ever able to do was around a gram a day. Any more than that and id be on the verge of od'ing. Intense anxiety, tremors, dizziness, irregular heart beat. The fact you were doing 2 balls a day blows my mind
*Psychedelic definitely have undeniable benefits to deal with PTSTD,ADDICTION,TRAUMA AND DEPRESSION ETC.The experience gave mw freedom.I was Able to get shrooms,dmt,edibles,lsd etc from this licensed mycologist who ships to my location without hassel*
I just started doing cocaine since about 2 weeks and I feel awful about myself . I’m trying to get myself to stop and I’ve been sober for almost 2 days. It’s pretty much all I think about and I feel this agonizing craving for it.. also very down mood-wise.. hoping for the best.
Sounds to me like his coke was laced with an opiate like fentanyl. I never felt much any withdrawal from quiting coke. I live in the north of America though and it's very hard finding decent coke up here. By the time it's here it's been cut 8 or 9 times so it's mostly cut. His story sounds like opiate withdrawal though. I've been an opiate addict most my life and it's hard going through withdrawals
I started doing drugs since my teenage. Got addicted to cocaine for over 17 years. Cocaine addiction actually destroyed my life. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Not until my wife recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.
I love hearing great life changing stories like this. I want to become a mycologist because honestly mushrooms are the best form of medicine (most especially the psychedelic ones) There are so many people today used magic mushrooms to ween off of SSRI medication- its amazing! Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death buddy, lets be honest here.
Hey mates! Can you help with the source? I suffer severe anxiety, panic and depression and I usually take prescription medicine, but they don't always help. Where can I find those psilocybin mushrooms? I'm really interested in treating my mental health without Rxs. I live in Australia don't know much about these. I'm so glad they helped you. I can't wait to get them too. Really need a reliable source 🙏
YES sure of mycologist Predroshrooms. Mushrooms literally got me off my feet and turned my whole life around. I am currently a housing manager for a recovery program. I wouldn't have been able to do that shit without psilocybin.
Thanks for sharing your story. That's rough I sympathize. Save your health save your mind. Life is better without heroin, cocaine, alcohol and cigarettes. And you have more money in your pocket. God bless everyone who has rejected the devils intentions to be addicted to alcohol and cigarettes etc which can cause so much damage to health. I will pray for you all.
Where do I reach this dude? If possible can I find him on Google
I did everyday use of cocaine (1-2 grams/day) and alcohol for 6 years. I am sober for the last 9 months and I feel I got my life back!
❤🎉
amazing bro working on getting mine on track 2 gonna quite drugs this week
So awesome and so proud man
How long did the cravings and body aches and brain fog last before you finally felt strong and clean again?
I'm proud of you keep up the good work
20 years sober from it. The anxiety and panic when i quit was unbearable
20 years! Not bad man. I’m trying to stop but it’s the thoughts in my head
I’m trying to stop but your right the anxiety and panic are unbearable that I can’t get past it to get clean. What should I do
Believe it or not, the anxiety and panic attacks or because of your ADHD probably. ADHD alone can cause panic attacks and major anxiety issues so without something calming You down, Like Cocaine for people with adhd, it kind of calms anxiety a bit like it does for eric. It did for me as well at one point in my life
@@Unwritdoneno it’s from
Cocaine use!! Stop using - get your life back
@@Unwritdone no it’s the cocaine. You need to stop using it and stop using any other stimulants repair your nervous system.
Coming off a 2 day bender and fed up with myself. Starting my journey to turn my life around today.🙏🏽
How you feeling??
hey man keep your head up. as long as u get back up and learn something from a relapse
Hope everything is well with you 🙏🏻 keep going
U still doing it too huh
U still alive bro?
I’m not an addict, but I found my self heading down that path. I’ve been using cocaine usually once a month I’d do an 8 ball. I hate the way I feel when the bag is gone, the birds are chirping, and I can’t sleep. Good on you and everyone in these comments for getting clean. I’m stopping my use of cocaine for good. Even though I don’t use daily it’s affected my life terribly. I ended up failing a drug test and losing a good job. I’ve almost ruined a relationship with a great girl. Thank you for your message.
I was just like you but 2 times a month it went in for 15 years
Crazy stuff finally the bad over ride the good and it’s byby
Ive been doing 2-3 grams a day the last 5 1/2 months with my wife. At first it i felt i could control it but lately ive felt like its starting to control me. So last night we both broke down and said enough. Today was our first full sober day in 4 months
Hey man congratulations bro I’m really proud of y’all man. it’s not easy but it’s worth it. You’ll start to see life for what it really is
Stay Strong!!
Stay strong ❤
Hey may I ask when did you feel like you started getting addicted? So far I’ve done it once and it was a day ago. I didn’t take any today but I want to get some tomorow ( 40 bucks worth ). Is that enough to be addicted ?
wtf are you@---TOM
I know it’s not long but I’m one month without using , I feel so much better already
Well-done!!! Keep trying 👍😊
One day at a time, I'm clean 7 year's now, stay encouraged and good luck with your sobriety.
Congratulations
Hope ur still pushing keep up the good work !
Jajaja and how are you? Bc we can see that you dont answer
Addiction is like a little friend in the corner that you can always fall back on, but without it in situations of self-doubt/anxiety you have to fall back on YOURSELF. And that does not come easy. Just dealing with weed right now but it's crazy hard to have the same level of fun without it at the moment
Great to see you talking about this stuff. I was addicted to meth from 16-19, then addicted to weed and booze from 19-25. Then addicted to pills from 25-35. Finally got sober, and have been from drugs for 14 years. I'm still addicted to other things, just not things that are illegal. I smoke, drink way too much caffeine, eat way too much sugar, but here I still am. I don't think the trait ever goes away, you just have to manage, and focus on it. The truth is through all of it, I learned 1 thing. You have to want it.
I’ve came out to family and wife about my addiction. I’ve hid for 5 years I’m tired of the double life. My neck hurts my emotions are crazy. This sucks. I’m day 2 clean. These voices exactly. It’s so hard
I did the same thing. telling my wife was the worst thing I ever had to do. I am now in a rehab center
Proud of you man! It is hard to see the hurt on the people's faces you love. Don't stop fighting!
Don't give up!!!!
Where at bro….
Best of luck with your sobriety
You hit the nail on the head bro!!!! With when closing your eyes the racing scary thoughts keep you from falling asleep! Mine was with opiates but same thing!
No physical withdrawal from cocaine. The power of the psychological withdrawal should not be underestimated though. I stopped in an instant. My young daughter standing at the bottom of my hospital bed was enough to achieve that. I was admitted with a potential heart attack. A terribly deceptive drug. Most of us are self medicating. Keep strong.
Psychological withdrawal = your dopamine receptors are fried. It can take years to recover and that definitely shouldn't be underestimated.
yes----it can give you a cardiac arrest out of nowhere ...I'm shocked I got away without ending up in the ER ...I probably should have gone a couple times.
@@ElSantoLuchadorthis is so fucked. When you quit you might have to be depressed for years
How much coke you did to get a heart attack and for how long ?
How extensive was your use
Im about 3 months sober after 9 years of using coke everyday. 🥵
....also: he used to care about everything: his home and vehicle.....now everything is piling up and he doesn't care.
Congratulations
Congrats bro
Congratulations
Nice bro! How are doing now?
I attempted to save my 14 year relationship with someone who refused help with cocaine and alcohol addiction, this helps me out a lot as to why, I just figured he didn’t love me enough . Thank you so much for this informative video
Never done drugs ever my habits are good herbal tea and exercise 4 days a week dont let anyone bring u down people think coke aint a drug nor is it addictive silly people out there
They have to do it for themselves
Every day will be a struggle we all on our journey to sobriety. Stay prayed up and find a good outlet ❤️
I haven't touched cocaine since Christmas. Used to LOVE the styff .
I had told myself once in a while treat. So far haven't touched it since.
Smoking good quality cannabis is what works for me.
❤️
Weed is just another addiction .try to have some hobby or some sport .
Sport is the solution
@@Gabbbb410 weed is harmless
@@Gabbbb410it really is man and I loved weed and used to say yku can’t get addicted been off it for 2 months but I go worse drugs im off it bc I want a new job and it led me in a bad path starting to think weed kept me from bad stuff but either way weed IS addictive it’s the safest drug tbh but still too much isn’t good
Great job. Ignore the people saying cannabis is another addiction. If it helps, it helps. Much better off with cannabis. If you feel you need to get off cannabis after a long amount of time off the powder, then deal with it at that point. Anything to not get back on the blow.
Wishing you the best in your recovery.
I wish my sister could hear this because this is the most accurate and honest account of this type of addiction. You describe this exactly how it really is! ❤❤
My addiction meant I had to cut people out and I’m now two years clean in august after 10 years of addiction.
Sadly me and my sister still don’t talk.
Everything takes time dont lose the faith thats blood no matter what.
With time you two will reconnect, as long as you leave that door open the love wont go away
Your strong ❤
Have you and your sister rekindled things yet?
ugh the voices. those are the worst. I'm a recovering addict from heroin. been sober 3 years. I feel that. the routine is very hard to break ... I had to move down south to actually stop and luckily I did. I couldn't get sober up north. I had to create a new routine for myself and get out of that environment. Yes, I agree, it is the best decision to get clean. I promise you, it gets better. it's freaking hard but you can do it. to any addict struggling keep going. it DOES get better ❤️
All the love it is a fight but so damn worth it
@@EricBZink agree!
@@EricBZink can Suboxzon help someone that’s a Coke addicted quit?….
Never been str8 addicted to any drug. But over the past decade ive come to a slow but obvious realization. Im addicted to addiction. Substance no matter what it is "did and do keep a cap on hard drugs. Meth herion pills ect ive kept at bay after a short stint with adderalls in hs" coke has been a new one. But that was still a few mo ago n its just off n on here n there. Done it various times over the years but cant go on a bing for more then 2 to 3 days.
Weird part. When i go completely dry of susbtance "mainly to prove i physically dont need it. Fir reasons of balancing health"
But the weird thing is when i go completely sober. I end up affecting my life worse then any drug has. I lose jobs, drop hobbies friends and start self isolating full bore. After a few weeks im in constant pain and overly accuetly aware of my body, heartbeat. Feeling my blood move in my vains. Feeling food and gases mive through my intestines
Why am i mentioning this. Idk hoping someone can figure it out. Therapy and pshys have not been much help. In fact after seeing them i fell down the hardest paths i was in. And relied way to much on an abusive relationship. But the buggest reason for doing substance. I cant stand being sober. Anxiety depression, my skin is crawling i just cant get comfotable in my own body
Now before ya get worried. I do balance everything out. I watch many videos and do hours upon hours of research for everything "hence finding this vid" if i see any corralation between how o feel and someone who is addicted. I stop and change to something else
Recently quit weed and alch. Was a bad binge drinker. But weed was the worst. 4-600 a week for last decade nonstop. Anxiety is down bad. But i feel like it shpuld do me good. 2 weeks sober from it. Next thing to go is nic because my lungs are fcked
Either way. Not sure why i listed this. Guess just looking for an external non professional opionion. In which i get more honestly and personal experience i trust more then a study on an age group and time period i dont fall into. Many external factors and drugs dont tent to hit me like most
Coke for one slows me down n makes me tired. Relaxed. Ready to take a nap for 6-10 hours
Where as to sober im hyper. High energy, cant sit still and avg 3 hours or less of sleep per day. "Recent binge on snow acrually fixed sleep schedule before i parked binge last week" prior to that i had gone 6 mo without more then 3 hours of sleep per day. Occasionally got a 30 min nap in tho
So what are your thoughts/opinions on my rambings. Worst case jusy view it as a small study group. I aint looking for help, i got it balanced very well. Mainly just tryna find the why and how to fix. Maybe there is a day when i can do substance fir the sake of doing it "to enjoy n party on" vs a break from life/my head
-mental list "as this tends to help understanding"
Diagnosed list -got diagnosed at 8- the big 4 ill leave out the other's
-chronic/clinical depression
Bad enough on sober days i often drift in and out of psychosis
-anxiety
Peaked around 24 7, biggest thing to send it into panic attacks is timeframes. Even on minute things like when to get a shower before work. If behind on time i spiral instantly
-compound post tramatic stress disorder, caused from many different instances. The result is a fck load of triggers that i dont know off hand till they happen. When it gets triggered i step back, leave situation. Calm myself down, come back apologize and make ammenda to any damage caused "usually none due to stepping back" and continue on with work needing done
And bipolar disorder. But could also be seasonal depression while living in a state where the season can vary by the day. So some days are manic. Others are low. And some just have unbridled rage "i call off work. Stay home. Work out. N try to relax"
I feel you because im the same i have always been addicted to something but somehow i will abuse whatever im addicted too then i will quit it cold turkey i feel its in our head the feeling of been worry that we are doing something wrong and that we need to be on a mission i have always been strong and battle my addiction and my addictive personality but drugs always end up fucking you up because deep inside of you while your doing them you know your doing something extremely fucked up and wrong but wanna enjoy the feeling of fighting your mind and thoughts and addiction to know that you are in control but trust me im like you but it takes me while to get out of of the new addiction i have hopefully this is gonna my last experience with been addicted to any drug and start enjoying life and be addicted instead to working out cooking etccc stay strong and my advice coke is very tricky you will not know tell u find your self fighting the feeling of wanting it stay strong stay clean ❤❤😊
Bro you hit the nail on the head. It's a routine almost sacred then you take it away and it's a mofo. Proud of you bro.
I truly felt like you were telling my story. I’m struggling but I keep trying. I love how treatment centers say that you don’t go thru withdrawals. Yes, we do. I really need help.
Yesterday night I stopped. Was on ym way to the dealer after finishing my gram for the day - record amount for me. I just forced myself to turn around at a U turn, got a pack of cigs and went home. Today, I experienced about two hours of withdrawal, it literally just passed. Gonna get some herb to help me sleep and hope for the best.
Wish me luck I been struggling with cocaine addiction I’ve quit for like a week and went right back but this video makes me wanna quit for good I’m tired of my nose being stuffed up and dripping I’ve been addicted for about 3 months now imma try to stay off it I’ll update in a couple weeks
Wya bro bro
I’ve been off of it since that day been 3 moths clean my nose ain’t fucked anymore it did help to stop not gonna lie best thing I did
@@grimmreaper2190 what typa shit you experience bro?
Thank you for this.. I’m currently struggling with a boyfriend who is a addict and this gave me a good insight
Could we talk privately ? As I think my bf is going through it
I'm trying kratom for opiods wd 2 days in and I don't feel any relief 😢
Fair play for having his back, your a good person
My ex girlfriend of 5.5 years struggled with dealing with my addiction. If she hadnt left me i wouldnt ever have gotten sober. It took that pain and another 6 months of addiction before i got sober. When i got sober i started to really understand what it was i put her through - she really was alone in our relationship at the end. Ill never forget nearly overdosing puking in my bed completely blacked out while she had to sit there cleaning my puke and holding me up so i wouldnt choke and die on my own puke and waking up having no memory of it - i was in so much denial that i never considered how it made her feel until years later when i got sober. Its taken a lot to forgive myself for it. As far as i know shes happy and im sober now. We all end up where were supposed to be in the end.
Did you give up on him? I'd love an update, good or bad.
What helped me alot was going hiking it clears the mind and put some relaxing music on my headset then once I got tired of that trail I would find a new trail to explore
It definitely helps.
It helps too if you can find something you value and enjoy more than the drugs.
That way when you relapse and it stops you enjoying your new thing, you start to resent the drugs for keeping you away from your new love. My new love was gardening. My drug of choice was heroin. Whenever I relapsed it kept me away from my garden and before long I changed my life around.
It also helped that I noticed the heroin gave me really bad anxiety and then I’d want to use heroin again to control my anxiety.
I got sick of the endless negative cycle and seeing my garden flourish gave me hope and some pride. Definitely added to my self worth.
Thanks. I've been trying to stay clean, and have had a few recent setbacks. I'm really not trying to give up because of my lapse of judgement though. Taking it one day at a time. Your story helps put things in perspective.
doing 2 to 3 g a day...on and off. usually 3 to 4 days a week. I start to get afraid - this is why am watching this guy. trying to find the motivation to do a long break. not easy with coke. he explains very well the issue. life is becoming suddenly much more real and anxiety is present. I dont feel bad when I dont use but feel much better when I use. and I can see I use more and more :-(
OMG, I'm glad I discovered this video. Everything he has mentioned is what I'm going through right now!!! I must see more. Thank you.
I fell of the wagon 2 nights ago. 3.5 gram binge with a loss of almost £900 on top from other things. It’s not the end of the world, but equally, I fell for it after 2 months sober. I’m feeling positive and ready to start from day one again. I’m going to beat this for the long term.
Mate I'm struggling, ordered a ticket and the anxiety came over me just now rang the dealer back and told him I don't want it now!! Feel like shit right now 😐
@@jonathanHerbison-u5m go take a shower, get in bed and get back on the phone and call a friend/family member you haven’t spoken too in a while - with all the lights off - I know it sounds crazy, I know it seems weird, but do it. Assuming you’re in the UK?
@@jonathanHerbison-u5m how did it go fella?
@@jonathanHerbison-u5mI could never
How’d you do?
I’m about to start my sober journey and really loved your video
Damn the human body is something amazing. Ppl Cheer at ppl who deadlift 300kg but the mental and physical strain your body went through is like lifting tons every second.
Happy u recovered
It's like breaking up with the hottest girl in the neighborhood. Nothing physical, just heartbreak......
Did it for 2 years 8 months after a break up. I am 35. One day dealer told me how much he hates his job and ruining peoples lives. I went on a 3 day bender had first panic attack thought I was dying. Scared shit out me! That day I stopped cold turkey, said in prayers wouldn't touch it again, ever. 8 years later clean wouldn't even dream of being near anyone that does it. Its vile. Since I stopped my career has flown, had a gf for 7 years solid, spend time with my family, enjoy the basics of life, nature. How to do it is go 1 week without it, then do another week, then get to 1 month. After that 1st month you feel better and better, stronger, clear thinking. Also, delete those people out your lives that do it. You need to get out of that circle.
Thank you darling. I am preparing to Be a Gladiator. My last use today. I'm quitting cigs, bonze n yayo !! N hitting the Gym Every mothafukin morning n night. I must Fix Me back to Good Good. For me and my son. You have inspired me, thaaaaank uuuu soooooooo soooooooo much. Stay blessed n Strong. Plz say a prayer for me amoretti. Ethiopian love from Montreal mmmwaàhhh ❤🌹
@@habibaali5443 hope you're going strong, it's that first 4 weeks get through it and get out of the circle of people. Get your life back and clear your brain of that shit, its amazing how quickly you feel normal again and also how much damn money you save
I had a problem for a little over a year. My withdrawals were so bad some days even up to 2 months after quitting cold turkey. I kept having panic attacks and feeling like someone was clinching my heart for minutes at a time throughout the day. I constantly felt like i was having heart attacks.The restless legs kept me from being able to sleep so i would smoke some weed before bed. The last panic attack happened while i was driving about 2 months of being clean and i pulled over and started to call 911 because i seriously felt like i was going to die. It did go away with some slow breathing and soothing music. After that day i never had anymore pacic attacks or weird heart feelings. Fast forward 8 years and im still completely sober and my life is great. I thank god every day that i made it through that time . A lot of people dont get that second chance. But my clarity on life and discipline now is one if my greatest traits. If you or someone you love is battling addiction or going through withdrawals it will take time to get better and start with getting help. God bless everyone
How did you get through the mental war to not use again. I am struggling with it to stop using
@Unwritten7 coke literally almost killed me. I had a real fear of dying from it after I had a slight overdose one day. I forced myself to think that if I even did a little bit from then on that it would kill me. So in my mind I had no choice but to stop doing it. My advice is to first get yourself away from the people that have it or are bringing it into your life. You have to remove yourself from it. Delete your dealer's phone numbers. Then tell yourself every day that if you even do 1 line then you will die. This is what worked for me and got me through the weeks of hell after quitting. I really hope you can get past this 🙏
Glad you recovered man. I use to be a heavy weed smoker and it really did ruin my. mental health in the long run (anxiety, depression, and ADHD).
Im glad I found your channel..... I literally thought i was going crazy. I'm trying but its winning
I quit on Wednesday after 6g and losing 3 days waking up not knowing if I was actually dead... this helped alot
I have massively cut my drinking down and my coke cravings have really dropped off. Not completely but it has helped me big time.
Great watch, im going through it now after 15 years it's been a month and I'm feeling great from getting out off hell, still getting the devil's voice in my head telling me I've been a good boy for 4 weeks and I should treat myself 😰😰😰😰😰.. a constant battle but I'm going to win👍
I do it when I have the extra money but when I’m broke I don’t go nuts I definitely crave it but I don’t sell my house for it
Same 😂😂
I had a spike of use during pandemic, two years doing coke practically every day. Trying to shake it off, managed to cut down to maybe 4g a week. Right now decided to go cold turkey and going 5th day drug free. Thank god I never stopped exercising and that's what's keep me sane now. Voices in my head are still there but trying to counter act them by reminding myself how much havoc and destruction it brought to my life. Needed to cut off certain people from my life and avoid situations that could trigger use again. I never drank alcohol though so that might make it tiny bit easier
Hope you are still doing well
Just think about the bad parts and whatever you hate about it
6 years clean of coke and perks also meth. Only advice I can give is your worst day sober is nothing compared to best day high. A lot of mental work is involved.
Did cocaine for around a year. Glad to say im off it now. You CAN DO IT dont ever give up
Been using every weekend with alcohol . My legs are gettin worse they hurt and are sore ..ive been praying and tryn to shut it down. Never use to be this bad . Its like i stopped caring..anxiety induced for sure
Did cocaine for 12 years….wrote a lot of music and partied hard for days on end. Never lost a job and was high functioning. Stopped and after about 8 months, my motivation and dopamine returned to baseline. I exercised a lot…the withdrawals were almost none existent
Sounds like all rainbows and sunshine...why quit
@@temprary580because it's cocaine😂
@temprary580 ye ye some people js don't enjoy a stimulant high that much, I tried it last night about a gram of some shifty stuff over a couple hours first time no tolerance I asked bro to try it cause he's done it quite a bit and he was like it's not bad but it ain't good, yea it was js fckn annoying tbh, felt sick the next day, got no sleep, nose hurt, idk I js don't have the Crack head genes ig
I spent twelve years and the voice is still there even after all the time between me getting sober. I cut everyone loose. You have to remember this sobriety is about one thing. It has to be about just me.
I currently live with the father of my three children, he is and addict, almost going on fourth year, What Can i do to help him? I feel So brooken and crazy, ive known him for 18 years, so it breaks my heart that he is about to throug away his life.. he ruined Our aconomy lost jobs and his licens.. i have no idea What to do..
Just left my ex a couple months ago because of his withdrawal behaviour and him refusing to help himself. I tried so hard to support him and he was not pleasant.
You speak such honesty and I will try to take your advice
I did coke for 20 years when i quit i had no withdrawals to speak of.Maybe for a fews days after taking it you feel deprssed.I also did oxys and methdone for 10 years now thats withdrawl i felt like death for weeks i didnt sleep right for a month.I wanted too die it was so bad.
thanks for sharing your story Eric, I'm sure it has helped some of us in our own struggles
Absolutely just helps to know we are not alone
I had restless leg so bad i couldnt stop or feel it. I was in a wheelchair for like a year, started with one leg then hit the other. And yes even during the day. 24/7 restless leg. Im glad i couldnt feel them. Guess it was triggered by PTSD, i found a dog and i became emotionaly attached to him big time, two weeks later my legs slowly came back and i could walk. Still have restless when i sleep but i can stop it and feel it now
Much respect to everyone that’s making the right decisions in life hope we all make it
I just found your channel yesterday. I can relate to A LOT of what you say. Keep up the good work!
You sound like me after 6 years of abuse 3 to 4 balls a day... 12 years I was clean... then I fell off the wagon from a failed relationship... went clean 5 years fell off from another failed relationship... but everything u say is exactly how I went through withdraws...
Let me start this of by saying I’m 18 years old, I’m currently in the army and got hooked around 6 months ago, got found out on a drugs test maybe 2 weeks ago, about to lose my job, spending even more on it, around 2g a day wasting my finnal wage before being booted, what do I do
Stop Now. Don’t buy more. Save your time and money and head
Hard to believe you survived that much coke daily! That is scary, so glad you kicked it. I am 62 and have been doing it fairly regularly for a few years after 30 year hiatus .
Damn dude 62… that’s pretty awesome your body can still take that. You still alive?
I was coke addict for awhile too… i remember a week before going into treatment I had a mild stroke…no one knew..it was terrifying. I also remember waking up from dreams about it with a bloody nose…
Did you ever smoke weed after doing coke? And if so did It give you like uncontrollable shakes?
@@KwabenaSarpong47 💯🥹
@@ThemMetroKids1 😂😂😂I thought I was gonna have a stroke or something
14 months clean… still craving. What keeps me going is that if I do it, my ability to brush it aside in my mind ends.
My agoraphobia basically makes me immune to substance abuse the idea of having to deal with a dealer to get my fix is more uncomfortable than any withdrawal 😂
I’m right there with you my friend!
Panic made it easy for me to put the booze away 25 years ago! Life got so much easier.👍
Exactly. That alone makes you want to stop the small talk is just ugh. Totally get what you're saying
Does that mean you don't even want people coming to your house? Genuine question because lately I don't want to leave the house or even have anyone come visit. It hasn't been "lately", it's actually been about a year and a half of this.
6 months clean off of coke and i can honestly say for me personally there was no withdrawals quit using alcohol cause if i wasn't drunk i didnt think about it outta sight outta mind kinda thing
I'm gakked out of my skull watching this. Man this is tough
gakkity gakk gakk
I’m so late seeing this video but man thanks so much this is very helpful to me..I’m ten days clean and i can’t stop the night sweats it’s so aggravating
Keep pushing bro and u right it is hard🙏
@@sheenajay878 thanks friend how about u are u good
Dude im going true the same situation i have stop since a week ago i wanna get my life back together
i used xanax for 10 years, i'm clean from 2 years, quitting it was the hardest experience in my life, benzos withdrawal is not a joke..
These comments give me hope. Ive been doing a gram a day for about 7 years. My body is shutting down. I need to quit but its so fing hard
Thank you. Thank you. Thank you for sharing this private moment.
Ive never done that much in a day. I stay within like .1 -.2 a day because my body is very reactive. But i can feel it creeping closer to controlling me completely. Im going to beat this shit.
Drug withdrawal ill sum up the worst part for you all. Imagine lying down on a bed when your depressed to relax and sleep. But imagine when there is no relaxition and nothing you do can calm the panic attack then you eventually sleep only to wake up and repeat the whole ordeal over and over and over again for id say at least 4 month or longer minimum. Drugs dont just cause you to die physically but its the effect it has on your brain is where the pain comes from. Peace of mind is the foundation for happiness but when drugs damage the brain it can cause maybe a permanent lowering or absence of excitment and happy feeling mood. Dont risk trying drugs because even if you think addiction wont happen it Will And DOES. Why would you gamble your life away for a poisoness high.
Im in the process of trying to quit my alcohol and blow routines……. I do what you do go hard af on my 2 days off ……..i look forward to it
Thank you,PLEASE continue to share...someone will be delivered as well.wish I had known this info for my fiancee who lost his battle
I was clean until two days ago. A "friend" gave me a little bag and said go make yourself a line. I couldn't resist and when I saw the powder, I took half of it. I told him I was sorry, I couldn't help it. Seing it turns me into an animal. It becomes an obsession. More, more, more. But I'm not buying. I'm not looking for it. I just keep puting myself in situations where it is offered to me. At the worst of my addiction, I was 55kg for 1m75. I was taking so much coke, MDMA and alcohol my collegues were concerned. They thought I would make an overdose at some point. I had no limits. I don't wanna feel that taste ever again.
The most unhappy I ever was in my life was when I dated a Coke addict 10+ years ago. The lies, the mood swings, the no money, the cheating, the last on the priority list.. so happy to be free from it. Still waiting to receive my “amends”… so that tells me all I need to know.
That is such a succinct comment. So personal, and so apropos to what I'm going through as we speak. No. I'm not the addict.
@@dadjacobs8977 it gets better and better people come. Trust. With my current partner I don’t ever have to hear about how he “lost his phone”, “couldn’t find his phone cord”, “phone died”, “I passed out early” and all the other lies he told me when he’d disappear on a Friday or Saturday night while I waited for his phone call.
Personally I've been addicted to coke for 2 years and overcame the peak addiction but I'm now a functioning addict I don't crave it it's more Like a second thought and then boom I message my connect and 3 grams in it's hard to completely stop but I won't give up
get rid of his number and if you have a iPhone and MacBook delete his number from the iMessages on there too. That’s the only thing that did it for me. Convenience is a MF
Get some help
Yeah, you think you’re a functioning addict until you try to stop and actually sit with how you feel in the aftermath and then keep that going… you’ll see what it does to you, never want this ever - the highest definitely not worth the pain that comes later .. and if you think you have avoided it, it’s only a matter of time🙏🏻 my habit is completely mild to all the people on this comment board, but I still feel the anxiety, and panic and depression from coming off using..it’s horrible- makes me feel but myself ., and nothing is enjoyable. The worst
Few days clean and my depression is thru the roof,just want a long run of days clean and for this to heal ,its awful,but im never using again this is ny recovery i can do it
Im an alcoholic and when i drink i wanna do coke i drink every day and do coke twice a week i only do half a gram each time i dont think im addicted because i dont do it every day but when i do after i finish the half gram after the last line i crave it and feel like shit without it i smoke weed to help me sleep but it takes 2h+ to fall asleep so i dont think im addicted because i dont use it everyday but when i do and i run out and craving more and feel like shit it makes me feel like iam
Can you talk more about how you coped through the symptoms of withdrawal.
Been using a lot of cocaine I need to stop being around people who want to use coke
I was 6 years clean but then I had one of my close friends pass away , just last year then my uncle passed away also the same year witch made me relapse, but I have been now a month clean I can definitely say some times are harder then others not to want to do it again .
Man I just relapsed after 14 days FUCK! I was so proud of myself too…
Well…here’s to day fuckin one….
Start again❤ come to Jesus, trust me He will help you! Surrender your life to Him and give the Battle to Him I pray that you will achieve victory forever ❤
It’s been like that for years for me , 2 weeks is the point where my brain starts tricking me that’s it’s ok , just a lil bit ,
I’m 10 minutes sober from coke
Hopefully this is it because my life and family is depending on this sobriety
Thank you for that message I believe you should have spoken for more than 11 minutes we both have the same thing in common and going through the same withdrawals I'm still in active addiction and I need help
How long you beeb using it for ??
ASK GOD FOR HELP. GOD LOVES YOU. YOU ARE STRONGER THAN YOU THINK. YOU CAN DO ANYTHING YOU SET YOUR MIND TO. 🤍🙏💪
Yes, you are a warrior 👏🏼👏🏼🙏🏼
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The psychedelic experience is temporary but many people have permanent results
Mushroom completely turned my life around and my anxiety and panic attack disappeared and my personality changed into a much more generous loving person
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I smoked it - same with crystal. Couldn't stand the depression coming down. After 10 or 12 times I quit. Then I got hooked on opioids, Benzos. Got off the hydrocodone not too much problem. Brenzos are the Soul-Crushers for me. 8 yrs off of these, still a living nightmare. Oh yes, like the cats on the chalkboard!
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I am currently experiencing coke withdrawals. I'm really fighting the urge to use again. I'm done with this shit!
How did you stop, I can't get myself to do it
@rupertoperez4029 last time I used coke I did 2 grams in one night. I took a moment to reflect and realized I could've died easily and that I was lucky to still be alive. As hard as it was to even process a single thought as I was suffering withdrawals, sometimes we all need those hard reminders.
I have been a cocaine addict for 7 years i did cocaine almost every day for 7 years. I have spent at least 250 grand on it. I took credit from different banks and today i have around 100 grand in debt because of cocaine. I lost my job, my appartment and my drivning license. 3 years ago i was clean for 3 months that's the most i have been clean then i started again. Now i took my drivning license agian and i have been clean for 49 days and i'm not going back ever again may god help me
I was a heroin addict but honestly preferred the high of coke...
Coke literally scared me because of its addictiveness, it's vastly more mentally difficult to quit. I smashed it and coming down off coke really sucks.
With heroin I could buy some and not spend more money but coke I spend it all. Most of it chasing the initial high because, nothing, I mean nothing, is better than a shot of good cocaine.
I just started doing it daily as of late, it’s scaring me, mom and brother are very worried.
I’m 2 weeks sober from about 3 years of an ounce of Coke every other week. It’s beyond words trying to get past the mental hurdle. The placebo effect of knowing you’re about to get a zip is almost as good as the high itself. The random girls and reputation you get from always being able to provide the party is difficult to leave. I jog 5 miles a day and only cope chemically with benzodiazepines. Lost all my money not on coke but making bad trade investments towards the end of my cocaine career
Never was addicted to coke, but weed. I downplayed it always like your stance to coke and smoked everyday for many years until I saw the addiction and how my life was a mess. Completly sober for 2 years now and I never felt better.
I came off large doses of amphetamines (the pharmaceutical kind) and I've come off oxycontin, which was absolutely brutal. With the meth pills, I mean Adderall, the withdrawal was easy (relative to opiates), but the damage to the dopamine receptors took years to recover. At least two joyless years followed. I've heard the same about coke. Although I've used it more than a few times, it was too rich for my pocket book, so I don't know whether it's comparable or not.
I think the worst thing about it is the fatigue i felt so tired for no reason so exhausted to the point i didnt do anyhting but lay in bed
Most i was ever able to do was around a gram a day. Any more than that and id be on the verge of od'ing. Intense anxiety, tremors, dizziness, irregular heart beat. The fact you were doing 2 balls a day blows my mind
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I just started doing cocaine since about 2 weeks and I feel awful about myself . I’m trying to get myself to stop and I’ve been sober for almost 2 days. It’s pretty much all I think about and I feel this agonizing craving for it.. also very down mood-wise.. hoping for the best.
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Sounds to me like his coke was laced with an opiate like fentanyl. I never felt much any withdrawal from quiting coke. I live in the north of America though and it's very hard finding decent coke up here. By the time it's here it's been cut 8 or 9 times so it's mostly cut. His story sounds like opiate withdrawal though. I've been an opiate addict most my life and it's hard going through withdrawals
Yes I agree, I've been a chronic fentanyl relapser for years and quitting cocaine is like quitting pornography
I’ve been doing about a gram once a week for the past few months. Starting to realize where this is headed and am going to try to stop this shit
The day after tomorrow will be my second day clean...
You made it through HELL
The ANXIETY is very horrible
Appreciate the video - I’m terrified of what’s in my mind waiting for me
I was just your 65000 sub lol. Glad your sober now man.
Bro make a video of the time line on coke withdrawl etc and yeah