Why I Wanted to Die (My Suicide Attempt Story)
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- In September of 2018 I attempted suicide and this is my story.
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@EricBZink, you bleeping broke me, as I am here on a Sunday afternoon thinking of the same thing. (Financial stress and the recent loss of an ex live-in girlfriend) I have never seen a more REAL talk about going to the edge! Liked and subscribed immediately, the 8-minute-on mark got me, big time!
What area of the country are you in? You came of as the type of person anyone would be lucky to have in their circle. REAL AF.
Better Help is expensive. They don't accept Medicaid, and they're of no help. Thanks anyway.
People don’t want to die. They just want the pain to stop.
Totally agree
I want it to stop so bad
I feel hopeless! Seeking God but he is in silence!
It's not that I'm not loved. I just feel like I don't have a place in this world anymore 😢
It's there.. but it might not be where you think it has to be.
Selfish family members can contribute to someone's depression that leads to suicide, even though it isn't 100% anyone's fault. That needs to be put out there more often. It's actually a huge factor for a lot of people.
Thank you for sharing your story.
Sooo true. The family who shuns and is cruel all the time, All the time, causes 💔 suicide thoughts and the longer the time goes by and the suicide thoughts get deeper. And I JUST WANT TO SAY TO EVERYONE WHO WAS CRUEL TO ME GOODFUCKINGBYE.
Facts.. my parents yelled at me daily about having a job and being successful and moving out, in the Bay Area, where a home is like 3 million dollars… I crippled myself on the job and my family kicked me out. I have wanted to die everyday, they won’t even talk to me now, they tell me I shouldn’t have did it to myself… they ask why I feel so stressed about nothing, when it was them telling me daily that I was going to be homeless because I couldn’t work hard..
Yh, pretty sure my selfish, control freak, shrewd, heartless father will drive me to it. Though I should probably write the long book about everything and him go down in history afterwards. He's like Putin but has a 161 IQ and is in his 70's. How do I compete with that?
This video definitely helped me.. but I’ve made it to 20 years old today. It’s my birthday
Your story rings so true to me. I’m 51 and have struggled with severe depression that meds don’t touch. I’ve always considered life as not to be lived but endured. I have a great wife and kids but I’ve been , too many times with a pistol in my mouth ready to blow my brains out. I’ve hated my life since I was about 14 yrs old. The way I got through it was to work. As long as I was working I couldn’t think about dying. It’s a terrible disease. One day at a time.
As someone who has survived 2 suicide attempts, I'm wondering, does being married and having a family give you any relief from your despair? Hope you're staying strong.
@@galenjoyce8895what reliefs me from despair is listening to the quran. Everytime I do it all the pain decipates.
It is not fair that some places like America got easy access to guns, and can take the easiest, most effective way out. UK people have to do a traumatic way. Needs to be places anyone can get it done if they qualify as having no point in living their life.
You have a family bro, keep going for them especially kids..you built a family your obligated to be there for them… there’s people like me that don’t have a partner or kids and it definitely trying at the times…at least you have a family…think of them.
U@@galenjoyce8895
Thanks for sharing your story. I had a job that required me to remove bodies at times. I got a call for a guy who shot himself in the heart in the basement of the family home. When i get there the whole neighborhood was grieving outside the house. Apparently he had just changed medication for his depression. We put him in a body bag and carried him up the stairs to the stretcher into our ambulance then drove to the mourge. I will never forget looking at the family when we were leaving the home. Rest in peace to that man and his family.
I am truly hopeless.
💔Me too grieving and in pain from this insufferable life, lonely without loving parents. My adopted mom just passed the only mom I ever knew I just no longer want to be here…💔😥🌏
Are you ok? It’s been a year
@@AidenS7197 Lot’s of praying, contemplating, a couple trips to the hospital, hard work, friends, family and especially my dogs and the grace of God, came through the other side (at least for now 🙂)
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@@AidenS7197same..
I hurt for you... I hurt for us all. I wish you well friend
wat I’ve learned about suicide is that we just want to be free from Pain,,, if death can bring me peace / then life can be deceased
I recently lost my dad to suicide and now feeling like I don't want to live anymore. Sorry that you have gone through so much suffering in your life. Your story helped me feel not as alone in my suffering.
Sometimes you just want to escape a very difficult situation in life that's too exhausting to overcome, so you want to go not the feeling of being Unalived. 😢
You made me cry.. just to hear what you went through and your emotions 💔 then I looked on my life and realised that the emotions you had... I have
Hit me like a ton of bricks
I don't want to 🐝 here anymore, because there's no one on this earth who loves me. I'm so done with the hurt & betrayal. I feel hopeless too. I'm wanting to go away. My family would all be sooo excited if I was dead. They'd throw a big party. They all told me to My face. I feel like this everyday. I wanna go home and never look back.
Same
you have no idea how amazing you are, im only 14 and every day i wake up wondering "why the hell am i still alive, no one wants me, im worthless, i should go get my gun and rope and im gonna fucking do this", and i went on TikTok, looked up dr1ven8 and your videos absolutely help me whenever im having these moments where i feel fucking worthless. i tell people whats wrong and they tell me i want attention and just leave my life right away. i still to this day, wake up hoping the day would come where i would just not wake up ever again, i joined the discord, but i dont bother texting you because i feel like i would just be annoying. thank you for what you do everyday, sharing your stories to help others, no matter how hard it must be to talk about these things every day. please know it'll be okay and you're amazing, and you matter! you made it through 100% of your worst days to get through two today! 😌
Eric, thank you. I was feeling really low tonight. I lost my Mom and best friend, will probably lose my home, and I'm broke because I couldn't really work while taking care of Mom. The thought of being full of this grief and just wanting not to be here anymore makes me wonder how I can even go out and try to start a new job. I relate to alot of what you said and somehow the pain feels somewhat better after hearing you. I think I need some type of counseling because I am so heartbroken. My Mom did hospice at home and I think I might see if they can send me a grief counselor. Thank you for being so real. Thank you for keeping me company with your thoughts and words at this terrible time.
@user-or7wj5gi4s. I hope you're ok
Each day of hopelessness is another layer added to the previous day's layer ... Like a snowball gathering density on it's way downhill...
I needed to hear this so badly. I am on my first day off alcohol and struggled greatly yesterday with suicidal thoughts. It got really scary for me. That's why today is my first day with no alcohol.
I cried because I feel the same way rn 😭😭
I am so so proud of you. I'm in tears. You're strong, Eric. I love you and thanks for everything ❤️
Tied 3 belts together earlier, hung it from the bannister as a sort of test, seemed about the right height. Maybe later. No way I'm living with my weird burden and the accompanying bullshit for the rest of my life. Some people literally been forced to do it, which sucks. Wish there were easier humane ways with a sympathetic board allowing it to happen for you.
I hope you didn’t do it
I have a fake smile. Thanks for sharing
You’re a truly amazing person, incredibly strong to be honest you’ve restored my faith in humanity, truly remarkable
This is so sad 😭😭 I'm going Glad your still alive
I've been struggling. This has been helpful. Thank you.
Good for you. Thank you for sharing this I hope you know you helped and saved so many people. Bless you!
Aw august seems so rough for you, stay strong ❤️❤️ I’m still crying over this video 🥺
Thank you for sharing your story. It helps so much to know I'm not alone in these feelings and emotions. On my bad days, I track down your videos and really listen to what you have to say and it helps so much.
Good job on sharing this story, Eric. I've dealt with a family member whom we lost to suicide and it's great that people like you are sharing this in order to help people realize that they aren't alone and they can get the help that they need. I'm proud that you got the help you needed and that you're still here. Hope you're staying safe and healthy.
Eric, you are so brave for telling your story and I just want to say thank you for helping me and so many others struggling. You really have changed my life and I know you have changed so many others.
Big hugs to you Eric!!! Thank you for sharing and you are awesome!
I started shaking and crying by watching it and I had to take a little break.I'm so glad you shared your story.I'm so proud of you, your courage and your strength.I know that your dad is very proud of you.You really make a difference in someone else's life.
My dad took his life 3 years ago on the 23 rd.Yesterday,3 years ago his wife called me.He took a overdose.The last time I talked to him was on my birthday 5 days before I got that call.
I still miss him.He was my rock.
I attempted suicide multiple times.In 2019 was my last and it ended up in the hospital again.And I'm currently struggling due through this situation of isolation and social distancing.I haven't seen my therapist for 6 weeks.We can only talk on the phone but her time is limited.
So I struggle most of the time silently, because there is nobody else to talk to.I don't want to make my kids feel worried about me or being a burden.I really need help because I don't know what to do any more.
I even don't struggle only with my BPD.Actually I wouldn't ask for help.But currently I'm my worst enemy.And I can't escape from this situation.
i’m really sorry to hear that but please remember that your kids love you and so many people love you. your children will feel the exact same way you did and if they’re young then it’ll be worse so please stay. you matter so much and so many people love you. IT GETS BETTER please trust me. you have eric’s story and my sister almost committed suicide in 2016 but she didn’t because she thought about my mom and i. she was at her lowest point and she didn’t think that things would get better, but now she’s happier than ever. she’s doing amazing in school, and has a loving family and boyfriend, so please things get better. you matter. your family loves you, your friends, so many more people than what you can imagine. try using his discord and resources provided in the description. you can do this. it gets better. i love you. ❤️
@@ascyrr1610 I'm already in the Discord but haven't been there for a while.Most of the time I suffer silently and try to make it on my own as I did my whole life.
But some days I wish I could to talk to someone and asking for help.
Thank you so much for your kind words.Love you too❤️
Hey Eric thank you for sharing I know it was hard but thank you I am in your discord and I just wanna say thank you
This is motivating ❤️ you are inspiring and you help a lot more people than you know. Keep it up!
Eric, you are so much stronger than you realize. You are so much stronger than most of us. Thank you for sharing this with us. It really helps others who are so confused sometimes in life.
Thank You For Helping Other People After Going Through Your Battles. Your Scars, you fought and you won. I AM PROUD OF YOU and I’m happy you’re here.
Thank you for posting this, it really helped
Of course you matter
I hope you're feeling better now if not you will be better i know! You're not alone and you are all the kind words you spread to strangers from internet. Thank you for you bravery, i know how hard it can be to talk about these stuff but you are brave and you are strong and you are amazing. Never ever give up!!! ♥️ sending best wishes
Very brave to share this kind of thing, thank you!
My daughter just sent me a vid of yours and I cried. I never reach out because people can't hear me. They have words that don't reach my ears. Having a physical disability and 2 long bad relationships I feel alone. At times I feel at rock bottom. Thank you for reaching out to us. Thank you for caring. I kept crying and re-watching you say "you matter". Be blessed. You are such a great soul to try and reach others this way. You care!
I hope this helped people on the discord server- there’s a lot on there that are struggling
I hope it does we need a reminder it’s worth it
You are right about that.
Ha yea lol..
Thank you for posting this. Truly
This made me cry (in a good way) and it made me realise that whatever happens don’t give up and it can be hard but you have to stay strong and btw I have duetted you on TikTok and I want to thank you so much I love you
All the love and awesome I’ll make sure to give you some support and love
I just want to give you a hug...I’m happy I found you on TikTok
I’m so sorry for everything you’ve been through, you’re such a strong man. I hope I can one day find strength like you!
Truly appreciate that and here for you always
Thank you so much for sharing your story, it had a profound truth to it that is like no other I've heard before
Thank you for sharing your story with us. It sure did help mex
Hey man just wanna say I shared your video with my friend and you saved his life. I personally want to say your doing such a good job with your life. I understand that sometimes that you struggle and fall in depression and getting betrayed and I get that it hurts. But just know that us as a community are here for you man. Keep up the great work and I hope you have a great future
Together we are stronger ❤️
Dr1ven Industries ❤️
Wow thank you for uploading this, you're so strong and amazing
thank you for being here and making this video. I’m 17 and I feel so hopeless in this world. I just want things to get better but everything just gets worse. My mind is constantly racing and I hope I can keep up with it. I had attempted suicide when I was 15 but survived. 2 years later and things have gotten worse. Stay alive everyone even just for me.
Always here for you and it does get better
Great video Eric. I'm so happy you're still alive. God bless you.
I just lost my dad 2 days ago to suicide and came across your video. Thank you for sharing. You helped me and im sure countless others
😢I hope your okay sending love, Hang in there❤
This showed me how scared I actually am of suicide thank you! I'm not close to killing myself but I could have been in like a few years thank you so much
here for you and you have to remember you matter
Thank you so much again :) you are a BAMF!
@@abandonedaccount414 You are too
stay strong and never give up 😔❤️❤️❤️❤️
Always and we got this
Eric I'm sorry you went through this but I also have thoughts about this and got help.. then I saw your videos and you saved me a lot
Believe me you matter
You are an inspiration. God bless you. Sending you ALL my love 💕
I’m so glad you shared this. You are helping people.
Thank you for this and being 100%. This past week I almost let the guilt and pain of my dads death win. Still cant stop the noise in my head. I'll figure it out, I hope. Ironically, this video is like your frozen bottle of vodka.
Believe me I understand and I was hoping it would be for someone
Thank you so much for sharing this. I’m so sorry you’ve had such a horrible time and your losses of loved ones. I’m in one of the darkest places I’ve ever been. For the 1st time in my life: I can’t see my future. Blank darkness. It’s freaking me out bad. I have bipolar disorder, PTSD, GAD, chronic illness, and I’m literally going blind from a rare genetic eye disease. I’m alone. Part of it is by design: I’m an introvert and I’m depressed af. I’ve reached out to my psychiatrist, and we’ve done 2 med changes in a month. I’ve told a few friends, but I’ve pushed friends away, too. I’ve told my family: they gave me nothing. Actually, they got MAD at me, even knowing I’m in a really bad place. I am such a burden. That was the last straw. Idk why. It just was. I finally reached out to my boss/friend yesterday. He helped me, but bipolar depression ended that last night. The ONLY reason I lived through this past weekend was TH-cam videos nonstop about suicide. I found many, many helpful inspirational videos. People being brutally honest about their suicide attempts, suicidal ideation, treating suicidal bipolar or ptsd people, and suicide survivors of a loved one committing suicide. I’m fighting hard, but... I’ve FORCED myself to tell people I see every day. I know what is done in secret can murder you, so I don’t keep it secret in an attempt to live. Psych wards are unsafe with the laws now. I’m not at that point: I’ve voluntarily went in every time I’ve been. Thank you for sharing. It’s helping me.
I hope you're ok
@@EpicMinecraftFail Thank you. I’m still hanging in there. Your comment means the world to me.
You are an AMAZING, BRAVE,HONEST,VERY REAL AND TRULY HONEST human being. Thank you for helping so many. You had me in tears. Thank you for sharing your story. It will help more people than you know. Im so happy that you now have the life you LOVE to LIVE. Well done Eric,keep being happy. All the way from Australia 🇦🇺.I know you probably won't see this but maybe someone will read this and know that one day at a time it will get better. As they say this to shall pass. To anyoe that is struggling please seek help. Also exercise,meditation and being consciously positive. Just keep saying positive things to yourself even if look at that gorgeous sun or wow look at the rain,whatever little thing that you can focus on. Please remember you are loved and here for a reason even if we dont know the reason. But please most importantly ask for help.
HEY BROTHER YOUR STORY TOUCHED MY SOUL BECAUSE IM TRULY AN EMPATHIC PERSON I WANT ALL PEOPLE IN THIS REALM TO BE HAPPY AND JOYFUL AND TO FIND THEIR PURPOSE AND THE IRONIC THING ABOUT THAT IS THAT I STILL HAVENT CONQUERED ANY OF THOSE THINGS IN MY MIND BUT IM WOKE AS FAR AS UNDERSTANDING WHAT THIS EXPERIENCE WE CALL LIFE ACTUALLY IS BUT I HAVE GHE SADNESS INSIDE N THE HELPLESS FEELINGS AND IVE BEEN THRU A LOt IN MY LIFE AS WE ALL HAVE ITS ALL FOR A PURPOSE THO THD WORSE POSSIBLE THINGS WE CAN IMAGE IS PART OF A DIVINE PLAN AND PART OF OUR EVOLUTION AS HUMAN BEINGS !AND MOST PEOPLE CANT UNDERSTAND THAT BUT YOUR STORY PROVES IT BECAUSE OF THAT BOTTLE OF LIQUOR PERIOD!!! IT WASNT YOUR TIME BECAUSE YOU HAVENT FINISHED YOUR MISSION THAT YOU AGREED TO DO BEFORE COMING TO EARTH WE ALL HAVE MISSIONS SOME GOOD N SOME BAD BUT ITS ALL FOR THE GREATER GOOD OF HUMANITY !! AND WE ALL HAVE AT LEAST THOUGHT ABOUT SUICIDE I BELIEVE JUST MOST DONT GO THRU BECAUSE THERE MISSION WAS NT FINISHED ALSO SND YOUR DOIN YOUR MISSION NOW WITH THESE VIDEOS BECAUSE WE MAY HAVE ENCARNATED BACK TO EARTH THIS LIFETIME TO JUS HELP WAKE OR SAVE ONE PERSON ! OUR WHOLE EXISTENCE OR EXPERIENCE SOMETIMES IS JUS THAT AND THATS HOW WE ASCEND TO HIGHER DIMENSIONS WHERE THERE IS ONLY LOVE NO PAIN BUT WERE IN THE PROCESS NOW OF DOIN THAT TO THIS PLANET ! RAISING ITS VIBRATION AND OURS BECAUSE HEAVEN AN HELL IS NOT WERE WE GO WHEN WE DIE WERE IN HELL SO TO SPEAK NOW AND OUR MISSION IS TO MAKE IT HEAVEN ON EARTH !!! AND YOUR A GREAT EXAMPLE OF HOW THE PROCESS WORKS SO THANK YOU GOR SHARING YOUR MEASAGE BECAUSE YOUR WERE MEANT TO DO SO ! AND IT WILL HELP SOME ONE !AND ALSO IM SORRY FOR YOUR LOSSES BUT THEY HAD TO HAPPEN ALSO FOR THINGS TO MANIFEST AND TO TEST US BECAUSE LIFE IS ONE BIG TEST FOR US BUT ITS UP TO US TO PASS ,BUT NOT TO STUDY ALONE ! WERE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER AND WE HAVETO REALIZE THAT WE ARE PIECES TO EACH OTHER’s PUZZLES AND ITS NEVER COINCIDENCE THAT WE FIND PEOPLE ON PLATFORMS LIKE TH-cam BECAUSE WE CHOSE ALL THAT HAPPENS HERE DURING OUR LIVES AS A TEST FOUR OUR SOULS AND SPIRITS TO GROW FROM PAST LIFE TRAUMAS ! SO WE HAVE TO EXPERIENCE THE PAIN SO IN FUTURE LIFES AND REALIZE ITS REALLY ALL ILLUSIONS ! IT SEEMS SUPER REAL WHILE WERE GOIN THRU IT BUT NONE OF ITS REAL AND WHEN WE DIE OR TRANSITION WE ALL REALIZE THAT IT WAS REALLY ALL A DREAM BUT IT HAPPENED SO WE WONT HAVE TO EXPERIENCE EMOTIONS LIKE PAIN IN OUR NEXT LIFE ! 𝙄𝙏𝙎 𝙎𝙪𝙥𝙚𝙧 𝙙𝙚𝙚𝙥 𝙗𝙪𝙩 𝙞𝙩𝙨 𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 I 𝙠𝙣𝙤𝙬 𝙩𝙤 𝙗𝙚 𝙩𝙧𝙪𝙚 𝙗𝙚𝙘𝙖𝙪𝙨𝙚 𝙢𝙮 𝙝𝙞𝙜𝙝𝙚𝙧 𝙨𝙚𝙡𝙛 𝙘𝙖𝙣𝙣𝙤𝙩 𝙡𝙞𝙚 𝙞𝙩 𝙤𝙣𝙡𝙮 𝙠𝙣𝙤𝙬𝙨 𝙩𝙧𝙪𝙩𝙝 ! 𝙎𝙊. 𝙏𝙝𝙖𝙣𝙠 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧𝙨!
You are so amazing 😊 lots of love 💙
All the love
Hey Eric, I’m sorry for ur loss’s😔 I know it’s hard but I’m glad your still here, you deserve to be here❤️ you and your videos have helped me a lot!:) ur so strong for not giving up. I hope ur doing better now, if not we are all here for you! Ur so brave for posting this🥺❤️
Together we are stronger I just hope this helps someone
Dr1ven Industries Eric it did:) it helped me, I’m sure it helped others as well don’t worry❤️❤️
@@xpoppy0x877 I appreciate you more than you know
Dr1ven Industries I appreciate you more😂❤️ and thanks:/ I needed that:)
Thank u for sharing. You're helping so many. I swallowed pills, wrote a note. Prayed to God to show me a sign i was supposed to live and my ex called me out of the blue just to see how i was. I was taken to hospital after that. Never attempted again because i saw the destruction i could have created
Powerful, man. Much love
All the love and thanks for the thumbnail you do amazing work!
It really smacked in my face when you said you have to hsve boundaries with yourself. I need to explore that thought . Thsnk you for that!
Thanks for sharing your story, it helped me realize I'm not alone in these feelings.
A lot of similarities, and a lot of differences. The main reason I don't reach out for help is because I feel so ashamed, and a burden to those I come in contact with. Guilt has a lot to do with it, as well.
I hope everyone going through this, including me, can find some sort of light in this dark place.
August and the first week of January isn't easy for me. August of 2018 I lost my grandfather to cancer, he was my best friend and my heart is still broken and wounded. January of 2016 was the first time I self-harmed. You're amazing Eric, thank you for sharing your story and helping people like me.
Thanks for sharing your story 🙏🏾
Thank you for posting this eric you are such a strong person and you are a BAMF ❤️ thank you for all your hard work we are all here for you ❤️💖
All the love and we are stronger together
I am still alive because of you, and your videos. (And madi’s) thank you for sharing this, you are SOO strong. BAMF.
All the love and always here for you
i know im not supposed to say this cuz the topic of the video (and you probably already know) but your storytelling is very entertaining! i feel like we would be good friends in another life. watching you talk about this topic is very relaxing to me. instead of being depressed, i get sucked in right into you telling your story. and you're right being hopeless is about the worst feeling i have ever experienced in my lifetime. you get it.
Wow your amazing thank you for sharing your story u have helped me and I'm thankful for that
Also I think TH-cam's broke cuz it says no views and 3 likes
Always here for you and thank you for that I appreciate it
@@EricBZink also your teen discord surver are amazing especially ellie I believe her name is lastnight I was in a horrible place and she helped me get through it so thank you and your team for discord
That’s awesome no better gift than people helping people
This helped me alot thanks mate
I'm tired of living with chronic pain despite changing my diet, exercising, supplements and practicing distraction.
Glad you stayed! God Bless! ❤
Thank you for sharing ❤️
U just explained my pain word for word thank you soooooooooooo much
Thank you so much for your honesty. 🙏🏽
Happened to you on tik Tok I haven't seen you in a long time on tik Tok and you really helped me
I’m still there everyday and always here for you
PROUD OF YOU!
Thank you for sharing your story. It helped me blame myself less. I am a soldier and lost 8 people in my career to suicide. I wish more service members felt they could reach out. The system incentives completing a suicide it seems to me though.
September is my shift hole. Like your videos. You are a brave person
Helps to know we are not alone
Much love for you❤️
My hope is that you are in a better place, inadvertently giving me hope that a better day will come
Ty for your story. I planned my attempt perfectly so I thought. I had lost my dad wrote the notes. My ex boyfriend was dying etc.. I was so mad I woke up in A hospital. My boyfriend had forgotten his wallet. I was hopeless. I've felt the hopelessness creeping back in. I can barely walk, can't have my surgery cause this covid bs, I dont want to be A burden to my husband. I had have this time it will work. Instead I'm going to get help tomorrow. I no that pain and anger from suicide I dont want my husband to go threw that. Much luv I'm glad you're here you probably saved my life.
❤thanks 4 sharing.
I hate the reality we live in. We live in a world where rent and other utilities are expensive, the wrong people are in jail when the real criminals are out there. There's injustice, people take advantage of other people, certain people try to rob other people. Who knows how many wars are going on right now? There are cities where lots of drug addicts and homeless are that can't be helped/taken care of.
I'd pay 1,000 USD for someone to llik me. Read llik backwards.
Stay strong ❤️
Always and we got this
eric you honestly get me through more than you could imagine, i’m so proud of you, your strength is inspiring💛
never forget I believe in you and appreciate you more than you know!
I reached out and found my families love. Thank you
God bless you friend!
My prayers go out to you
Breaking that hopelesness with logic having a way forward really seems to be the key atleast for me. Its just so hard in this world we live in that boxes us in more and more...
It is clearly evident that this should be a recurring NATIONAL DISCUSSION, because it HAS TO BE! You can add me to the pile, and I have absolutely no drug or smoke history, at all! I very RARELY even have a single drink because of losing a friend to it. (Never been cursed with any addictions)
thank you for your story brother
I cry every time I watch your videos on tik tok. It makes me sad that you are the only one I hear say you proud I’m here today and I made it through the day. I don’t hear that from my friends or family. I love what you do. Please keep doing it.
I was 16 at the time my parents were upstairs at dinner eating and talking and I’m here in the basement with a wire cord I was about to hang myself with I can taste the pain today I felt Omg thank gd I didn’t go through with it because you no that feeling when you are about to tear up and you feel something inn your throat like a salty gulp wow crazy feeling thank gd I didn’t do it I’m 25 today I suffer from ptsd I did heroin cocaine drank every day almost at a point smoke 10 joints a day did pills throughout myself now I’m like 1.5 years sober and I feel weird but much better
So glad you shared this, I have been in such a slump lately. And with the holidays coming near its only going to get worse and I hate it. I thought i was doing better but this past year it has been extremely bad, I have started counseling but i feel like its not helping. Kinda just over it all yano
Nonne cares though I dont have real people in my life that really care, if I dont reach out to ppl noone will reach out to me ever went 3 days with my phone off and guess what not a a single message. Just over being there for everyone but noone is there for me. And yes noone will get it, they never have. People I have opened up to in my past arent around anymore or treat me like shit now. so Whats the damn point?
You are so brave and amazing 💞 my month is august too... my baby boy died in august. Hugs 🤗❤️
Virpi Hällström I’m so sorry about the loss of your son. I’ve fallen apart for months when I lose my DOG, so I truly cannot imagine how awful it must be with a son. I’m so sorry.
Missy Richmond ❤️❤️❤️
Eric, it takes a lot of courage to share such a personal experience. Thanks for sharing your story. Not many people understand suicide. That deep, dark mindset is one that I've experienced. I am glad you are still here.
If life is truly a gift then we should be able to return it.