Therapy plays a huge role in recovery and life in general adhdonline.com/ericzink/ to get tested for ADHD and more, along with getting connected to psychiatrists and psychologists in your area.
I was diagnosed with hypersexuality perhaps adhd im impulsive to begin so when you do "ice" it's like gasoline on fire thankfully just viewed lots of porn pnp not so much been tested and have covered my bases still fighting those demons
Honestly the way meth works he probably turns into a mute. In people who are fast normally, they tend to slow down on meth. That’s why normal people take it to speed up.
I dealt keys of coke for about 5 years and was in the crazy drug life for nearly 30 years total. I did all kinds of crazy schit. I remember beating my self up when the birds started chirping at daylight. I have so many embarrassing memories. The shame and regret was endless and in the end I was morally bankrupt and lost everything. I've been chemical free for 12 years and Dont miss that life anymore at all.
That is the worst feeling in the world hearing those birds chirping knowing your ass should be asleep but instead you over there with your eyes closed twitching like hell. Hated cocaine but loved oxycodone which led to 11 years of addiction. Feel great now but it was a rough time getting off that stuff
totally relate. i remember asking for one thing getting another and having to wait there for 5 days before i got it. was so stupid, so curious so addicted, so quickly. the odd thing was how angry people got when your route of administration didnt match theres that i always found really strange.
What is this type of house he is talking about? He is so high, he keeps on rambling and never explains what this house is (except that it has a dirty stove).
@@donniedeville5102 My best guess is it's a house/townhouse/apartment where there are prostitutes and drugs which are exchanged or sold I'm almost afraid to google it
What did you do to stop I have a friend that is having trouble stopping. He stays 2 weeks clean then goes back etc he has a 10 year cycle and advice so I can talk to him or lead him to a facility etc
@@Sunflower-i4r I stopped because it was wayyy harder to continue being a user. The negatives far outweighed the “ good times” the SHAME was debilitating. The most important thing I did was to walk away from my user buddies. I literally walked like 10 miles to my home without telling them I was leaving. Never spoke to them again. Absolute BEST choice I ever made.
I got sober at 38. I'm going to be 47 this month. Took me a long time also. Life beyond my widest dreams as they say. Been to prison 3 times in Florida because of my addiction. Last year i received the mentor of the year award from the Florida department of corrections. I travel around the US and help get people and adolescents into treatment.
Destin Florida here!! Yes 4 years in Florida DOC completely clean for close to 7 years now, I'm a very successful business owner, I got out in 06 and I'm 51 I would love nothing more than to talk to the guys in the chain gang!!
Someone talking about their past substance abuse can trigger themself to feel some adrenaline when they're reliving memories. When I try to describe my intense drugs experiences I begin to speak fast and stumble over my words and lose my breathe.
I started doing drugs years ago as a teenage, got addicted to meth. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Meth addiction actually destroyed my life. Not until my mom recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 3 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.
Yes he's Dr.alishrooms. My daughter did straight shrooms in few days. Made her whole! after words, no more addictions, pains, ptsd and depression. It helped us.
Saw people talking about..checked him out, I must say he's good at what he does. My son is clean 1 year now. Good luck. just micro dose and you won't trip. Mushrooms helped my son get off opioid.
“Some of us get sober and some of us don’t.” That is literally the most powerful statement I have ever heard that motivates me to stay sober. I only drink and not tons but I’m only 22 and have been meaning to quit for 2 years and now I think I can. Such a powerful statement. Thank you
Got severe meth psychosis from shooting up and thought there were bugs living inside me in my arms. Lasted about a month and a half. Scariest thing I’ve ever been through in my life. I now almost have six months clean.
News Flash! There ARE "bugs". Living inside your arms. They also live in your eyelids, your gums, your guts and all over your body. Parasites are a normal part of nature.
underrated TOO much. yall know the way it says "not even once" ? there's a reason for that. 1st line, was just half a dose and i was hooked for 3 years. by 2nd year it was smoking out of tin foil. and by year #3 the needle stuck out of my arm. which i said 2 years ago i would not do even if one paid me for it... eventually my body was so weak and ruined, taking any amount led to OD, i'd be throwing up acid to the point where i pass out. it was so frightening i realised in the middle of major meth psychosis that I'm on the blink of extinction so i went cold turkey (:` it was extremely hard, but the other option was to take it and throw up acid, so that had me motivated :)
I totally identify, I was a 15 year , high functioning, meth addict and have been (not necessarily sober) but at least free of hard drugs like meth, coke etc. since 2007. Yes, have destroyed and rebuilt several times. I am now (fortunately) happier and in better health than I have ever been. It's too bad I had to spend most of my life trying to prevent bad behavior rather than improving on my better attributes. Anyway, it's always good to hear when someone makes it out of it.
If you wanted to go back to your old meth habit, you couldn't. That meth no longer exists, the stuff out now is made differently and it causes instant psychosis and permanent brain changes from few uses. It's like meth, but just the bad side.
Goodbye methamphetamine puffery… when I was feelin down an depressed, your fumes always lifted me up and freed me of my worries, my dignity, and most of what, was in my bowels.
Recently dated an addict and had to cut it off. He’s still trying to come back, apologizing for his behavior while on it, etc. Exposed me to meth, presumably inadvertently. The allure of the high is nothing short of a spiritual battle. What you said about building stuff up then tearing it back down resonated with me. He has the golden touch but won’t stop sabotaging the sh*t out of his life. I still have feelings for him but denied them all when I told him to F off. He’s been addicted for 20 years. I was naive to think he would leave it.
Stay strong and stay away from this guy if I were you. Think with your head and not your heart. You can't control what he does, but you are in control of yourself, you'll be glad you did further down the line. Well done for being strong and looking out for yourself.
You are absolutely right I have very very little respect for an addict well they are human being they lack any consideration for anybody else or themselves only one thing matters the substance. It is good that you got out of that and find somebody worthy of you the addict is not worthy of anything.
I love you so much kid for breaking it off with this loser and I hope you find somebody else that absolutely hates that s***. A friend of mine's dad was kind of an old partier and quite a bit older than I was and he told me the list of names of all the cool kids that were a little older than me you know I'm 21/22 and these people are like making it to 35 and 45 maybe 50 in front of me and dying and I know they smoked weed and had a pretty loose lifestyle had some girlfriend problems. My friend's dad told me his greatest blessing was that he did not like any of that powder s*** and other people liked it and it was bad news. The bad news was all those people that I thought were so cool we're cocaine's and that's why they were high energy and fun to hang around with and I didn't do any of it I did it just wasn't my thing I didn't have any money I'm poor. I'm so glad you got away from that because those addicts will straighten up and pull somebody back and use them to party harder. If it doesn't kill you outright early.
How could u have feelings for someone like that? This is why great guys turn into savages. They're tired of losing. Thats the type of people yall want. So great guys turn into a-holes. Women love a-holes 🤣🔥
I'm 22 I got shown meth for the first time a couple weeks ago and never tried it but it gave me a lot of perspective. I told my dad about it and he couldn't stop telling me how proud he was
Don't ever mess with it. Never never never. I'm one of the lucky ones that thought he could just play with it a little. Five years after being able to rip myself away from the drug and never touch it again. Missing 5 of my molars though.
Fuck meth. I triend one time, i felt yea happy euphoric. But comedown came next day... I was in deepest deppresion ever, i just layed in my bed for 2 days.....
I'm 69+ months sober now from a 22+ year long heroin addiction... I love sober life...! It can be done, so do it...! Thanks, keep up your awesomeness and go enjoy some nature today...
That's the best number of months! I would laugh seeing my 69 day/week/month clean marks, having the clean time counter App is great 👍 Good work 👏 Heroin consumed me over 3 years of addiction. LSD took 3 hours to completely reset my brain to a healthy way of living. Haven't touched either one since 2018. Life is for living 🎉😊
Thank you for sharing your experience. My dad is an alcoholic and drug user. As someone who no longer drinks and has never used any drugs, your story helps me understand more as we walk through this.
Stories like this make me grateful that I got sober and make me want to remain sober. It’s very worthwhile to share these stories that describe realistically how low things can get. These self destructive paths inevitably get ugly and we all know it. Fuck all that shit, I’m keeping my life pointed in the right direction. Thanks for sharing.
I’m glad you’re helping people. Two years sober here. This is literally the mildest story I’ve ever heard. So glad you got sober because it could have gotten A-LOT worse.
I started doing drugs since my teenage. Got addicted to meth for over 6 years. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Not until my wife recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 3 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.
I'm really happy for you that your wife decided to help you...I hear about alot of family members or so called friends shutting an addict out of their life, which since most addicts do it to mask emotions to me is the worse thing someone can do to an addict.
Yes he's Dr.alishrooms. Shrooms to me is a natrual healer. I know a guy who has used mushrooms in the same way and they have really helped him. mah dudes have safe trips all.
I wish they were readily available in my place. Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac. He's constantly talking about killing someone. He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.
I was horrifically depressed since childhood. It was relentless. I assumed it would ultimately end me somehow. About twelve years ago I randomly accepted the offer from a friend of a few doses of mushrooms. I did them two consecutive nights alone. First night was pretty mild. The second night? Wow. I saw my depression from every angle, realized much. Next day: depression totally gone. Never came back, never coming back. It's like it's a forest far away I can remember, and could probably find again with enough effort, but it has zero impact on anything in my life or mind. They honestly saved my life and improved it immensely. I never did them again, either. I wish there was a good, organized way to administer them to people who would benefit from them.
Good job man I’m sure your channel is gonna help a lot so good karma for you . Addicted at 36 after dabbling here and there until 36 when I jumped feet first into the abyss lost 10 years and change . Made it out with zero legal ramifications thank god and this December I’ll have 7 years . Never lookin back . Keep doin what your doin and life is better sober I wholeheartedly concur.
Damn. I was on leave at a party and a cousin asked if I wanted to do some meth.... We were all smoking weed (classic military leave drug) and I did not know what meth was, so I was cool with it. He did the lightbulb thing. Cracked it open, cooked the powder and hit it with a pen shaft. The process looked so junky, I couldn't do it. That was 30 years ago. Never touched it.
Sounds like a fairly mild bad crystal experience. You kept your lessons easy, some of us had to go to near death to finally start doing the things we need to do to make changes . God bless
You aren't really dealing with crystal meth abuse until you start dealing with sinister spirits, shadow folks peaking at you, and partaking in just straight up wickedness.
That’s a story but it sucks. Glad to hear that your doing better man. This really goes to show how you get as high as possible just to feel at your absolute low level to just run back to the hi. Sober is the only way. Stay strong
Thanks for the video I used to be hooked on meth it is a discusting drug straight from the Devil, I also struggled my whole life with alcholism and addiction took me Year's to finally sober up I'm 54 and have three and a half Year's the obsession to drink and use has been lifted as long as I continue to work on my sobriety DAILY, if your struggling don't give up there is help out there plenty of resources, God bless you all ❤🙏✌️
Actually it's not a drug from the devil. You should never take a drug without understanding what it is and without a medical need to. Methamphetamine stimulates your brain to create a natural chemical, which the brain already produces. Some people with specific neurological deficiencies are prescribed methamphetamine so that they can function normally. Anytime that you put something into your body that it doesn't need you're going to feel terrible!
Good luck , when you get older you realise to have normal sobriety is brilliant ,when you realise old age may rob you of your mind. The same goes for drinking.
Thank you brotha…!! Great testimony. I want to thank you and I never comment on any videos. “I had to rebuild my life multiple times.” Really happy I came across this video, not sure if it’s just you also as the narrator then it actually being you. I can very much soo relate. Thanks again keep it up man.
Started at 18 in the mid 90s (the stuff made with ephedrine), watched all my friends become strangers, lying and stealing. At 22 I went to rehab in another state and everyone thought I moved away. Haven’t really had many close friends since and 47 now. It has directly and indirectly affected my whole adult life. I did it a little again in college in my late 20s but haven’t touched it since about 2003. I think I liked the fun care free use, but once the fiends started coming out I was done with that world. I’ve had issues with other substances since, but glad I dodged the meth bullet.
Remrmber the brown peanut butter crank? Lol. Ot the pink stuff? It used to get cooked hear in the central valley of california. It started changing in the mid 2000s it all started coming from mexico
If that's your worst experience, that's not near as bad as things could have been. Stay sober. Go to meetings. God bless.
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Comparison is a thief of joy, and it can also be used to diminish people's experiences that we deem "oh it could've been worse" . Doesn't matter if it could be worse. It could've been better too. Don't try to take away from someone else's real life experience
I was a functioning every drug on the planet my people said at one point I was off my chain whatever that means I definitely feel like a slave sober though .
Not a drinker. But functional alcoholism seems scarier than being a sloppy drunk. You could easily fool yourself into thinking it's a not a big deal, since it's not impacting your daily life. Glad to hear you got away from it. Keep going!
He’s genuine. They’re fairly “Average” drug addict stories. If you know, you know. But he’s incredibly likeable and charismatic and concise. Relatable. Wise. Curious. Intelligent. A bunch of things.
I’ve been sober for nearly 10 months and love it. Thank you AA as my life has changed so much for the better and I will, with the support of the fellowship, never go back.
Hey brother thanks for your story. Addiction can be a very difficult thing to deal with and it always gives me faith when I hear how people like yourself have found there way to sobriety. It is a better life!
Great story man I could totally relate.. at some point u get tired of living a grimy lifestyle you feel like a damn rat in the streets.. we all deserve better
You could tell you were going through those same emotions u we’re going through when this happened. Man, this man ant lying. Glad you made it through and sober. Much love bro. Congrats on sobriety. I’m 3 years sober
Your stories and perspective are so helpful to people struggling with addictions and recovering. Many people don’t know that relapse is a part of the recovery process. Very few people just get clean without falling off the wagon a time or twenty. It takes a tremendous amount of courage to put it all out there for the world to see. I’m glad you came thru it all and are doing well.
*I saw Crosby Stills and Nash play in 1982...Right before his conviction in 83.* *I read the book and just amazed he was still alive. And yes the joint saved* *him. I will never forget that harmony of that group. Amazing concert in of* *all places...Toledo, Oh.*
He is highly strung and has a bad energy. It fit him better to keep his mouth shut and go and do a good hard days physical work. No one wants to hear his sh1te about his habitual drug use.
That’s one of the insidious aspects of addiction. It doesn’t discriminate. Those of us whom pass as extremely high functioning addicts fool the masses.
There’s always hope as long as you’re alive. I appreciate you telling your story. For all of us who have been through the struggle. I make sure that i hear that other ppl have recovered and living their best life. I have been sober 6 years and 3 months and I’m so grateful for sobriety. It’s the gift that keeps on giving. You just wish you could sprinkle it to every addict in active addiction. God Bless
@EricBZink so wait let me get this right? You have been to escorts and done meth or are you saying how your friends did this yout teeth look fine better than mine ive never did meth what the hell
Did it for 6 months straight, first Hard Drug, Loved it thought it was the best thing ever, 6 months later was a basket case. Haven't touched it since, but I still think about it to this day, this was in 1986.
I tried it once because I had a roommate who was a user. I liked it, really had all kinds of epiphanies and energy, but the bad part is that it gave me insomia. I hate insomia! Worse thing ever. Didn't sleep for 3 days. In the end you get strung out, tweeked, and manic. Your dead tired, but you can't sleep. Its the type of feeling I hate more than anything. But the worst thing about these kind of hard drugs, apart from being illegal and the health effects, is the scumbags that you end up associating with.
I have 13 years clean and sober and ur 100% correct, some of us make it out and some don’t. I never stopped trying and fighting for it either. I had two beautiful young kids (5 and 10), who were counting on me. I made a commitment to them first before I made a 2 year mistake that almost cost me everything including my life. Happy to here you made it to the other side. Much respect and keep doing what you’re doing to maybe try and help others ❤❤❤
I remember being so fucked up and seeing the sun come up. I'd never been so depressed and ashamed in my internal life. Where'd time go? I'd done meth and stayed up, but that moment hit in a hard way
Appreciate the video.. coming off a recent lapse I'll call it.. really not proud of myself. I've had long time periods in total sobriety but what ends up bringing me back to the hard stuff is alcohol. It's happened multiple times. Nobody to blame but myself.. it's a faulty coping mechanism. The key I'm realizing though is to pick ourselves up after a lapse or relapse.. I used to beat myself up so bad after I had a relapse, have had a few lol, but beating myself up just keeps me stuck. Nobody's perfect.. we all make mistakes.. self forgiveness is super important and I'm going to be exercising that right now. Again thanks for the words of encouragement.. keep making these vids man
55 here, clean since 40, started doing blow at 14. Im with you , Life is incredible clean. Even the bad times. Because the down doesn't last. Instead of wallowing in the bad moments, and using them as an excuse to get wrecked. I look inward and work on solutions to help me get thru the lows. And learn something from every experience. This builds character and integrity. Which are the two main things addictions steal from us. Thanks for sharing, your story brought back some “Sick” horrible memories of my own. I use these memories to remind me of how shitty life can be, with just a few bad decisions. Peace from Richmond Va. ✌️
Homeboy says he is sober. He is high af on this video. Talking super fast, cant stand still, etc. some might say its just from being an addict so long but honestly his story is very mild. Wouldnt make him permatweaked. He is high af
Yeah, I knew he was talking fast but thought he was just burt out or something. After seeing your comment I saw how he was bouncing around. He's a good salesman and could probably convince people to get sober if he did first.
100% I like ling like multiple days of porn, stimulation toys.. some good automated shit.out there... But yeah.. the strength of the climax.. lasting for day or more... my favourite thing on meth. Only thing is I have no feeling for straight sex anymore... can't even get aroused for it.... because tue pleasure is a 1 out of 10.. weak! Put high as fk on ice.. to saturated levels the pleasure is unbelievable.. 11 out.of 10. The sex stimulation when high definitely plays a major part in my want to score ice
I did coke for a couple decades. In the beginning had a connect who lived next door to my best friend. Would get drunk then do a few lines. Then I would get a bit and force myself to wait until I was good and drunk before doing it. The powder connect got arrested then I moved on to smoking it. At the end I found out that Percs or other opioids really helped the comedown. It got to a point that the quality of the crack was so bad I just bought the pills and stopped doing coke. Of course that led into a long battle with opioids. I have had some absolutely brutal experiences on coke. I wasn’t social on it I couldn’t stand crowds or loud music I would sit alone and be paranoid for hours then want to die when it ran out. Happy that’s in the past and I have almost gotten off methadone (20 mg a day which isn’t much) I’m sure there are great connects for coke in my city but I could never find one and the couple of times I relapsed I found the quality so poor that I wonder how anyone can bother doing it. It’s so weak compared to what I did back then. That helped me not return to doing it. Thx man great content
Good for u man, coke isnt easy but opioids are even more difficult to get off of. My ex was/is on 160ml of methadone 🤦♀️🤦♀️ and now using fentanyl when he runs out of methadone
It was my worst because I watched a good friend on mine Relapse with me and never recover, had a lot of experiences worse but coke related. Stayed away from meth
Back in the day when I was Messing around with Meth, I had a friend who sounds just like your old Buddy, who's house you were at, anyways, my friend took me to this dudes house to pick up a bag, and it was a trap house, cameras and monitors set up everywhere, Porn on 3 different TV's and Computers, and 3 dudes in the living room all Twacked out. They were passing around the Meth Pipe and asked us to sit down and take a few hits, I just wanted to grab the sack and leave, but my buddy wanted to get high for free, so we stayed a little bit. I shorty realized all the guys in the House were Gay, not that there's anything wrong with that, but the guy who's House it was, was sitting next to me on the couch, and he was so lit, he asked if he could give me some Head, I told him sorry I'm not in to guys, then he asked if I minded if he could look at me while he Jacked off, then I noticed the other 2 dudes had their hands down their pants stroking it. I knew at that point, it was time to get the Hell out of their, and FAST!!!
@@EricBZinkmeth was my drug of choice. From 15 to 23 I was off the rails. I thought coke was a waste of time and money. I would do it if someone offered but meth was my love. I spent days alone in my room with a pipe and my guitar. I hate to say it but I messed up pretty bad a few weeks ago. I ran into an old friend and he sold me an 8 ball of coke. I thought we’ll, it’s not meth. It will be ok to have one last skitz. I went through that ball in 4 days and I just bought another one from him three days ago. Fuck man, I can’t do this again. I figured it would be no big deal since I danced with Tina. No more after this. I’m deleting dudes number now and blocking it.
Been doing meth since I was 13 , finally decided to make this TH-cam channel as I'm restarting my life and battling with staying sober , Great video , you got a new subscriber
During the pandemic I was using a lot more, and it got to a point where I was convinced, that I am being followed by some international gang, and they are trying to kill me. Took me close to a year (3 months of that year in psychiatric hospitals) to get out of that delusion. I even thought the doctors and nurses were part of the "conspiracy"/"hunt". That whole time I didn't talk to anyone, nothing. I think that year took like 10 years off my life lol... Scariest experience ever.
I kept waiting for the crazy tweaker stuff to start but... nope. Him and some dude hung out while another dude tried to have sex with hookers. If that's his worst he should be thankful.
Man...the one time I did meth was by smoking it and I totally get the dirty feeling. I noticed that and then couldn't quit thinking about it. The next 3 days of no sleep but tired while trying to yawn but not fully able to. Jaw was so sore....it was awful
You have some very powerful videos man. Im almost 6 months sober off of alcohol and hearing the fucked up stuff you’ve experienced in active addiction help me stay sober. Love brother ❤
I broke my crack cocaine habit in 2010 and have been sober now 14+ years. During my addiction I tried meth once and would never do it again. The one piece of advice I can give is that once you quit it gets better. Stay strong everyone.
How do I know if my co-worker is on Meth? Her name is Krystal and she encourages us to call her meth. She is early 30s, Mexican American, lesbian. North Dallas TX. She is neurotic and pushy.
Im in recovery too and majority of the people i used with are either dead or still high. Only a couple got clean. That says a lot because i was using about 15 years on and off.
Your mind boring and straight is a marvellous thing , old age may take that away from you , So do everything when younger Not to rob yourself of one day of being yourself
Thank you so much for your honesty, I can completely relate. Congratulations on your sobriety, remember, one day at a time. Have a wonderful day TODAY.
First time i did meth ,no one told me it was that potent. I took a spoonful n threw it in the bubble and hit it, and hit it, and hit it, and hit it, till it was gone. I noticed thee old heads where watching me in astinishment. Well..... 12 days later , i realized why they were in aw. I was still up. No food. I could barley swallow ah gulp of water for the first 6 or 7 days. I go accross the street to my house n 2 days later the cops came to the trailer i did it in. They were there on a welfare check cause thee lights were on and from door open day and night for a week and ah half. I was across the street peeping at them through ghe little holes in thee window blind. After they left i looked down and there was a puddle of sweat 3ft by 3ft. I was there soo long and fraking out, and sweating soo much it just gathered on thee hardwood floor. Then thee hallucinations kicked in. Demons, voices, black shadows standing in doorways. Board games that require batteries were going off. Blew my frickn mind. It was a nightmare . I lost 12 lbs in 12 or 13 days. Nightmare.
I went on a month bender one time, ended up shooting up a couple hundred mls towards the end of it. Swear to God, was up 2 weeks toward the end of that episode. Bunch of shitty people wanted to recreate their lowest binges with me.
My husband tells me stories, in the 60 through the early 80s, meth was actually derived from the ol bathtub crank, speed, poor man’s way, he😮 called it peanut butter crank, he said sex all night, yep, he knew a person would stay up for would stay up until his body crashed, on average about 20 or so days, Party, Fight, and Sex was the key back then, that key will actually lock you up inside out.
I have “ADHD” and was on Adderall for 10 years and my story is so similar to yours man. Almost exact. I’m 33 and finally am sober. I put myself and other people through hell. But never gave up like you. God bless you man. Anyone here that has addiction, of your care, if you really have that loving sprit of care and love, and compassion for yourself and your loved ones, YOU WILL GET SOBER FOR GOOD!! ❤❤❤
Hes definitely amped up on adderall and has recent videos where he shows his script. If he legit has ADHD its understandable but he has adds for online assessments which can be used with out of network dr’s to get it prescribed when one has a history of drug abuse. it could also be the easiest path for him as the years of coke and meth depleted his dopamine. I feel conflicted about his channel. Amphetamines dont equal sobriety but Adderrall is fun for sure!
I’m 25 and currently a weed addict and I’ve struggled with anxiety and depression/ anger issues way before I ever took my first puff. I used it as an escape and was able to be a functioning addict for a while but after a while (as always) you crack and you lose relationships and jobs because of it. Going to try and start sooner rather than later thanks for this video 🙏🏾
Bro if you think you're addicted to weed.....there's much more sinister things going on in your brain. Please see a Dr/therapist/psychiatrist so you can address the real issue, so you can start healing. Wish you the best!
@xtrobelights is absolutely correct!!! Listen to this person. Us in the addiction/mental health community know people can become somewhat dependant on cannabis but it usually means there’s something much more serious that needs to be approached with a mental health professional. Most of us have been addicted to substances that can easily kill us and so on, and so of course there’s underlying issues with our mental health but Our substances have to be approached first mainly so said-person can get some of their health and mind back first and then deal with the underlying issues. With cannabis it tends to seem that approaching the other issues will in turn remove cannabis from your life’s routine. EITHER WAY DONT TOUCH ANYTHING STRONGER THINKING THAT’LL HELP BECAUSE IT WONT! ALCOHOL, OPIOIDS, CRACK WILL STEAL EVERYTHING AWAY FROM YOU!! 🕉️🕉️🕉️🕉️
Therapy plays a huge role in recovery and life in general adhdonline.com/ericzink/ to get tested for ADHD and more, along with getting connected to psychiatrists and psychologists in your area.
I was diagnosed with hypersexuality perhaps adhd im impulsive to begin so when you do "ice" it's like gasoline on fire thankfully just viewed lots of porn pnp not so much been tested and have covered my bases still fighting those demons
why use that shit? sex is much much better without...
Nope don't need it
If he’s sober, I couldn’t imagine what he would be like on Crystal meth.
Your ear would be bleeding
Hahaha... yeah, he is tweachy as F
Honestly the way meth works he probably turns into a mute. In people who are fast normally, they tend to slow down on meth. That’s why normal people take it to speed up.
😂😂😂
He'd be drilling some homeless dude in his bum while doing a video on meth. You got lucky, kid. Don't need to see all that mess.
I dealt keys of coke for about 5 years and was in the crazy drug life for nearly 30 years total. I did all kinds of crazy schit. I remember beating my self up when the birds started chirping at daylight. I have so many embarrassing memories. The shame and regret was endless and in the end I was morally bankrupt and lost everything. I've been chemical free for 12 years and Dont miss that life anymore at all.
The worst is when your up when the sun comes up again thats one thing I do not miss at all feel like a piece of shit
That is the worst feeling in the world hearing those birds chirping knowing your ass should be asleep but instead you over there with your eyes closed twitching like hell. Hated cocaine but loved oxycodone which led to 11 years of addiction. Feel great now but it was a rough time getting off that stuff
Your apparently were caught doing this correct?
@@DoubleG7793and your out of coke feeling like chit. No thanx I hear ya
@@DoubleG7793 We called that scary hours and if noon passes you by its even worse .
This dudes story happened the night before he made this video.
More like when he made this video the hookers had just left the room 😂
haha
lol
Hahahaa
Seems like he could be abusing his adderall script. He could just be reliving the rush of his past escapades he did show his addy script recently.
how come, this is recommended to me?
Your user name has speed in it bro 😅
@@joshuabetinis😂
lol 😂
Because you use it ..
Your on speed bro 💪🤣💪
Great story. I couldn't tell you how many times i sat in a trap house thinking "WTF am i doing?" Sober since May 9th 2018.
the worst eh
totally relate. i remember asking for one thing getting another and having to wait there for 5 days before i got it. was so stupid, so curious so addicted, so quickly. the odd thing was how angry people got when your route of administration didnt match theres that i always found really strange.
What is this type of house he is talking about? He is so high, he keeps on rambling and never explains what this house is (except that it has a dirty stove).
My worst experience = watching other people doing meth and prostitutes
@@donniedeville5102 My best guess is it's a house/townhouse/apartment where there are prostitutes and drugs which are exchanged or sold I'm almost afraid to google it
Got sober from meth at 27. About to be 47 and have never looked back. It was a sickening and dirty disgusting addiction.
What did you do to stop I have a friend that is having trouble stopping. He stays 2 weeks clean then goes back etc he has a 10 year cycle and advice so I can talk to him or lead him to a facility etc
@@Sunflower-i4r I stopped because it was wayyy harder to continue being a user. The negatives far outweighed the “ good times” the SHAME was debilitating. The most important thing I did was to walk away from my user buddies. I literally walked like 10 miles to my home without telling them I was leaving. Never spoke to them again. Absolute BEST choice I ever made.
How old when you started?
@@Mike-lv2ob 18 years old.
Good for you man. What was your "rock bottom" or turning point that made you choose to kick the meth?
I got sober at 38. I'm going to be 47 this month. Took me a long time also. Life beyond my widest dreams as they say. Been to prison 3 times in Florida because of my addiction. Last year i received the mentor of the year award from the Florida department of corrections. I travel around the US and help get people and adolescents into treatment.
I'm 38 and I got tired of booze myself 38 is an age where you just think man if I keep this up I wont see 40
I love a great come back! your testimony will help many.
Do you have online presence? I’m curious to learn more. Congratulations on your success must of been through hell.
Destin Florida here!! Yes 4 years in Florida DOC completely clean for close to 7 years now, I'm a very successful business owner, I got out in 06 and I'm 51 I would love nothing more than to talk to the guys in the chain gang!!
I would love to do what your doing. Keep it up
Who else has anxiety just listening to this dude?
I feel like I’m listening to someone with rapid cycle bipolar that is unmedicated.
Someone talking about their past substance abuse can trigger themself to feel some adrenaline when they're reliving memories.
When I try to describe my intense drugs experiences I begin to speak fast and stumble over my words and lose my breathe.
😅He’s on a Better Drug now.❤
I wonder what it is ? 😂
It's all coming back 😮
@@reclusive_aggressive it's exiting stuff
I started doing drugs years ago as a teenage, got addicted to meth. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Meth addiction actually destroyed my life. Not until my mom recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 3 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.
Hey! Yes Dr.alishrooms
How do I reach out to him? Is he on insta
Yes he's Dr.alishrooms. My daughter did straight shrooms in few days. Made her whole! after words, no more addictions, pains, ptsd and depression. It helped us.
Thanks for sharing this great information, this would help my son.
Saw people talking about..checked him out, I must say he's good at what he does. My son is clean 1 year now. Good luck. just micro dose and you won't trip. Mushrooms helped my son get off opioid.
“Some of us get sober and some of us don’t.” That is literally the most powerful statement I have ever heard that motivates me to stay sober. I only drink and not tons but I’m only 22 and have been meaning to quit for 2 years and now I think I can. Such a powerful statement. Thank you
Got severe meth psychosis from shooting up and thought there were bugs living inside me in my arms. Lasted about a month and a half. Scariest thing I’ve ever been through in my life. I now almost have six months clean.
Hang in there, Sis. Sober is Better👍🏻
Proud of you sister! You’ve got this ❤
Congratulations on being clean and sober!! It is a beautiful miracle to live a clear life!!
News Flash! There ARE "bugs". Living inside your arms. They also live in your eyelids, your gums, your guts and all over your body. Parasites are a normal part of nature.
Apparently the meth has changed to where the meth out now can cause psychosis right away.
METH - Main Entrance To Hell
Omg wow I’m in recovery from Meth and never heard of that definition
@@jennsinclair-girouard100YEAH well now YOU HAVE. FIND GOD
Math= Methamphetamine
Damn 🔥🙏🏻. Sober in recovery and first time hearing that
underrated TOO much.
yall know the way it says "not even once" ? there's a reason for that. 1st line, was just half a dose and i was hooked for 3 years. by 2nd year it was smoking out of tin foil. and by year #3 the needle stuck out of my arm. which i said 2 years ago i would not do even if one paid me for it... eventually my body was so weak and ruined, taking any amount led to OD, i'd be throwing up acid to the point where i pass out. it was so frightening i realised in the middle of major meth psychosis that I'm on the blink of extinction so i went cold turkey (:` it was extremely hard, but the other option was to take it and throw up acid, so that had me motivated :)
I totally identify, I was a 15 year , high functioning, meth addict and have been (not necessarily sober) but at least free of hard drugs like meth, coke etc. since 2007. Yes, have destroyed and rebuilt several times. I am now (fortunately) happier and in better health than I have ever been. It's too bad I had to spend most of my life trying to prevent bad behavior rather than improving on my better attributes. Anyway, it's always good to hear when someone makes it out of it.
If you wanted to go back to your old meth habit, you couldn't. That meth no longer exists, the stuff out now is made differently and it causes instant psychosis and permanent brain changes from few uses. It's like meth, but just the bad side.
cocaine,hookers and too much $$$ almost killed me!
today im sober,happy and poor!
Charlie sheen ?
😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂
Goodbye methamphetamine puffery… when I was feelin down an depressed, your fumes always lifted me up and freed me of my worries, my dignity, and most of what, was in my bowels.
😂 squidbillys
😂😂😂😂😂😂😂
Hell yeah, makes a person shit pretty good. Before and after insertion of the vibrator.
Love your transparency bro, you are helping folks even those who arent addicts
100%
no way he is sober
Yeah, he's making us all curious! "Never though about it before, but MAN the day's gonna come I gotta try this shit!"
@@mysticsoulz638i hope he is but he ain’t acting it… could be withdrawal or replacement of just being on camera. Props for being honest though
Ok he’s on adderall that makes sense 5:55
Recently dated an addict and had to cut it off. He’s still trying to come back, apologizing for his behavior while on it, etc. Exposed me to meth, presumably inadvertently. The allure of the high is nothing short of a spiritual battle. What you said about building stuff up then tearing it back down resonated with me. He has the golden touch but won’t stop sabotaging the sh*t out of his life. I still have feelings for him but denied them all when I told him to F off. He’s been addicted for 20 years. I was naive to think he would leave it.
Stay strong and stay away from this guy if I were you. Think with your head and not your heart. You can't control what he does, but you are in control of yourself, you'll be glad you did further down the line. Well done for being strong and looking out for yourself.
You are absolutely right I have very very little respect for an addict well they are human being they lack any consideration for anybody else or themselves only one thing matters the substance. It is good that you got out of that and find somebody worthy of you the addict is not worthy of anything.
I love you so much kid for breaking it off with this loser and I hope you find somebody else that absolutely hates that s***. A friend of mine's dad was kind of an old partier and quite a bit older than I was and he told me the list of names of all the cool kids that were a little older than me you know I'm 21/22 and these people are like making it to 35 and 45 maybe 50 in front of me and dying and I know they smoked weed and had a pretty loose lifestyle had some girlfriend problems. My friend's dad told me his greatest blessing was that he did not like any of that powder s*** and other people liked it and it was bad news. The bad news was all those people that I thought were so cool we're cocaine's and that's why they were high energy and fun to hang around with and I didn't do any of it I did it just wasn't my thing I didn't have any money I'm poor. I'm so glad you got away from that because those addicts will straighten up and pull somebody back and use them to party harder. If it doesn't kill you outright early.
How could u have feelings for someone like that? This is why great guys turn into savages. They're tired of losing. Thats the type of people yall want. So great guys turn into a-holes. Women love a-holes 🤣🔥
Stay away from him please 🙏
I'm 22 I got shown meth for the first time a couple weeks ago and never tried it but it gave me a lot of perspective. I told my dad about it and he couldn't stop telling me how proud he was
Don't ever mess with it. Never never never. I'm one of the lucky ones that thought he could just play with it a little. Five years after being able to rip myself away from the drug and never touch it again. Missing 5 of my molars though.
@Nick , your dad must be VERY proud! Why? Because he cares about you and loves you. Those who show you the garbage just DON'T!
Fuck meth. I triend one time, i felt yea happy euphoric. But comedown came next day... I was in deepest deppresion ever, i just layed in my bed for 2 days.....
Your a smart kid !!! As a dad with kids your age I can guarantee you make the correct choice
Good job young man
Don’t touch it dude!
I'm 69+ months sober now from a 22+ year long heroin addiction... I love sober life...! It can be done, so do it...! Thanks, keep up your awesomeness and go enjoy some nature today...
Too much math
If you keep counting you are a nuts hair away
@@noway57 You've obviously never been in recovery...! 75 months now...!
@@noway57 Thanks Nuthair...!
That's the best number of months! I would laugh seeing my 69 day/week/month clean marks, having the clean time counter App is great 👍 Good work 👏 Heroin consumed me over 3 years of addiction. LSD took 3 hours to completely reset my brain to a healthy way of living. Haven't touched either one since 2018. Life is for living 🎉😊
Thank you for sharing your experience. My dad is an alcoholic and drug user. As someone who no longer drinks and has never used any drugs, your story helps me understand more as we walk through this.
Stories like this make me grateful that I got sober and make me want to remain sober. It’s very worthwhile to share these stories that describe realistically how low things can get. These self destructive paths inevitably get ugly and we all know it. Fuck all that shit, I’m keeping my life pointed in the right direction. Thanks for sharing.
actually, sounds like a blast!
There's something I really like about your delivery, you come across as authentic and humble. Thank you
Agreed.👍
And high AF .
Yep, he is high right now.
@@fitnesspoint2006What’s he high on ?
Sober is only way to really know yourself. Definitely a better man. Thanks for sharing!!
I’m glad you’re helping people. Two years sober here. This is literally the mildest story I’ve ever heard. So glad you got sober because it could have gotten A-LOT worse.
I started doing drugs since my teenage. Got addicted to meth for over 6 years. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Not until my wife recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 3 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.
I'm really happy for you that your wife decided to help you...I hear about alot of family members or so called friends shutting an addict out of their life, which since most addicts do it to mask emotions to me is the worse thing someone can do to an addict.
How do I reach out to him? Is he on insta
Yes he's Dr.alishrooms. Shrooms to me is a natrual healer. I know a guy who has used mushrooms in the same way and they have really helped him. mah dudes have safe trips all.
I wish they were readily available in my place. Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac. He's constantly talking about killing someone. He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.
I was horrifically depressed since childhood. It was relentless. I assumed it would ultimately end me somehow. About twelve years ago I randomly accepted the offer from a friend of a few doses of mushrooms. I did them two consecutive nights alone. First night was pretty mild. The second night? Wow. I saw my depression from every angle, realized much. Next day: depression totally gone. Never came back, never coming back. It's like it's a forest far away I can remember, and could probably find again with enough effort, but it has zero impact on anything in my life or mind. They honestly saved my life and improved it immensely. I never did them again, either. I wish there was a good, organized way to administer them to people who would benefit from them.
Good job man I’m sure your channel is gonna help a lot so good karma for you . Addicted at 36 after dabbling here and there until 36 when I jumped feet first into the abyss lost 10 years and change . Made it out with zero legal ramifications thank god and this December I’ll have 7 years . Never lookin back . Keep doin what your doin and life is better sober I wholeheartedly concur.
Damn. I was on leave at a party and a cousin asked if I wanted to do some meth....
We were all smoking weed (classic military leave drug) and I did not know what meth was, so I was cool with it.
He did the lightbulb thing. Cracked it open, cooked the powder and hit it with a pen shaft.
The process looked so junky, I couldn't do it.
That was 30 years ago. Never touched it.
We would call that Janky and I agree with U!
Sounds like a fairly mild bad crystal experience. You kept your lessons easy, some of us had to go to near death to finally start doing the things we need to do to make changes . God bless
Oh your so special for taking more meth than him
Some are dumber
You aren't really dealing with crystal meth abuse until you start dealing with sinister spirits, shadow folks peaking at you, and partaking in just straight up wickedness.
It's not really a competition.
@@davidpetersen1😂
That’s a story but it sucks. Glad to hear that your doing better man. This really goes to show how you get as high as possible just to feel at your absolute low level to just run back to the hi. Sober is the only way. Stay strong
My brother just died doing drugs. He had a tortured life. He lived in hell.
I will be with him soon. That describes me perfectly.
Thanks for the video I used to be hooked on meth it is a discusting drug straight from the Devil, I also struggled my whole life with alcholism and addiction took me Year's to finally sober up I'm 54 and have three and a half Year's the obsession to drink and use has been lifted as long as I continue to work on my sobriety DAILY, if your struggling don't give up there is help out there plenty of resources, God bless you all ❤🙏✌️
Actually it's not a drug from the devil. You should never take a drug without understanding what it is and without a medical need to. Methamphetamine stimulates your brain to create a natural chemical, which the brain already produces. Some people with specific neurological deficiencies are prescribed methamphetamine so that they can function normally. Anytime that you put something into your body that it doesn't need you're going to feel terrible!
Congratulations on your sobriety!! I know the road is hard, I'll be 1 year November 12. Keep on keeping on!! Amen brother. God is SO GOOD!! 🙏👑🎶💖🙏
@@michelleshellimeyerketchum1219 Thank you so much, congratulations too you as well 🙏✌️
I commend you for just your openness 🙏🙏🙏 Thank you for virtual support....im on the road to sobriety. Im 2 months clean
Good luck , when you get older you realise to have normal sobriety is brilliant ,when you realise old age may rob you of your mind.
The same goes for drinking.
Booze is garbage
2 words...don't start. That being said, kudos to you for getting your life together and trying to help others do the same
Thank you brotha…!! Great testimony. I want to thank you and I never comment on any videos. “I had to rebuild my life multiple times.” Really happy I came across this video, not sure if it’s just you also as the narrator then it actually being you. I can very much soo relate. Thanks again keep it up man.
You are VERY BRAVE. You should be VERY PROUD OF YOURSELF. And now your helping others. HOW AMAZING ARE YOU. GOB BLESS YOU FOR WHAT YOU ARE DOING. ❤❤
I was on meth for 16yrs in glad i got clean sobriety can be a reality
Help
I just wanted to say what ever your situation is, thank you for sharing and stay strong and on the path of sobriety.
Started at 18 in the mid 90s (the stuff made with ephedrine), watched all my friends become strangers, lying and stealing. At 22 I went to rehab in another state and everyone thought I moved away. Haven’t really had many close friends since and 47 now. It has directly and indirectly affected my whole adult life. I did it a little again in college in my late 20s but haven’t touched it since about 2003. I think I liked the fun care free use, but once the fiends started coming out I was done with that world. I’ve had issues with other substances since, but glad I dodged the meth bullet.
Remrmber the brown peanut butter crank? Lol. Ot the pink stuff? It used to get cooked hear in the central valley of california. It started changing in the mid 2000s it all started coming from mexico
If that's your worst experience, that's not near as bad as things could have been. Stay sober. Go to meetings. God bless.
Comparison is a thief of joy, and it can also be used to diminish people's experiences that we deem "oh it could've been worse" . Doesn't matter if it could be worse. It could've been better too. Don't try to take away from someone else's real life experience
25 year addict here. I still thank God I never liked meth. I'm an opiate addict. I've been off thy crap 14 years now. Meth is the devil.
So happy for you. I have never been on drugs but learning about them and what they do to you...God Bless
go get your own
I quit alcohol at 35 and I'm 46 now. From 18 to 35 I was a "functional alcoholic". I was spinning my wheels, and going no where fast.
I was a functioning every drug on the planet my people said at one point I was off my chain whatever that means I definitely feel like a slave sober though .
You do? It’s a lot better than BEING a slave on drugs. You saved yourself!
Not a drinker. But functional alcoholism seems scarier than being a sloppy drunk. You could easily fool yourself into thinking it's a not a big deal, since it's not impacting your daily life. Glad to hear you got away from it. Keep going!
This guy is a great story teller. I can’t stop watching his videos
He’s genuine. They’re fairly
“Average” drug addict stories. If you know, you know. But he’s incredibly likeable and charismatic and concise. Relatable. Wise. Curious. Intelligent. A bunch of things.
He’d be a better story teller if he took a breath occasionally!
Have you watched soft white underbelly? You’d prob like it.
@@nicolesawyer7117 I have actually and I really like him too. Most of the people he gets on there have some insane stories
Adderall lends itself to talking pretty well doesn't it.
I’ve been sober for nearly 10 months and love it. Thank you AA as my life has changed so much for the better and I will, with the support of the fellowship, never go back.
Hey brother thanks for your story. Addiction can be a very difficult thing to deal with and it always gives me faith when I hear how people like yourself have found there way to sobriety. It is a better life!
Great story man I could totally relate.. at some point u get tired of living a grimy lifestyle you feel like a damn rat in the streets.. we all deserve better
That was a great story. You are a great role model. Stay sober and don't relapse. 😊
You could tell you were going through those same emotions u we’re going through when this happened. Man, this man ant lying. Glad you made it through and sober. Much love bro. Congrats on sobriety. I’m 3 years sober
Thank you. I’ve never done meth and this story makes me want to keep it that way. Glad you’re better. You look good and healthy.
not missing anything
Is this all wants to make you stay away ?
at least try it just once
Your stories and perspective are so helpful to people struggling with addictions and recovering. Many people don’t know that relapse is a part of the recovery process. Very few people just get clean without falling off the wagon a time or twenty. It takes a tremendous amount of courage to put it all out there for the world to see.
I’m glad you came thru it all and are doing well.
Just got through reading David Crosbys book Long Time Gone. He made it VERY clear-either you GET sober OR die..Going to the joint SAVED him.
*I saw Crosby Stills and Nash play in 1982...Right before his conviction in 83.*
*I read the book and just amazed he was still alive. And yes the joint saved*
*him. I will never forget that harmony of that group. Amazing concert in of*
*all places...Toledo, Oh.*
I tell anyone who asks about my husband's years in prison...yep, those years sucked. But it saved his life. It's the reason he's still here today.
@@suzannavaino1300 *Happy to hear*
*that Suzanna. My favorite quote..*
*Everything will be OK in the End.*
*If it is NOT OK ...It is NOT the End.*
Looking at you I’d never think you were an addict. Kudos to you for being so brave & sharing this part of your life.
He is highly strung and has a bad energy.
It fit him better to keep his mouth shut and go and do a good hard days physical work.
No one wants to hear his sh1te about his habitual drug use.
Listen to how he talks, it’s obvious
That’s one of the insidious aspects of addiction. It doesn’t discriminate. Those of us whom pass as extremely high functioning addicts fool the masses.
He s hyper still
Good job dude!! Way to keep at it!! Very inspiring story
There’s always hope as long as you’re alive. I appreciate you telling your story. For all of us who have been through the struggle. I make sure that i hear that other ppl have recovered and living their best life. I have been sober 6 years and 3 months and I’m so grateful for sobriety. It’s the gift that keeps on giving. You just wish you could sprinkle it to every addict in active addiction. God Bless
You seem like a great genuine guy, iv quit meth for 4 years but still have alcohol to get rid of.
Alcohol is harder than meth to quit 😢
@@RodneyDangerfield-tg6tx 65 days alcohol free, what makes it hard is the easy access. It's literally everywhere
Finding God and becoming sober saved my life. Thank you for having the courage to share this.
really appreciate your uploads, there very encouraging and give hope to myself and i’m sure others who feel at times there is none, thanks man 🙏
You got this!!! One day at a time!
@EricBZink so wait let me get this right? You have been to escorts and done meth or are you saying how your friends did this yout teeth look fine better than mine ive never did meth what the hell
Don’t give up. One thing at a time. If you relapse, get back on the wagon. Nip it in the bud.
Lots of detoxes and rehabs and charities that will help.
Did it for 6 months straight, first Hard Drug, Loved it thought it was the best thing ever, 6 months later was a basket case. Haven't touched it since, but I still think about it to this day, this was in 1986.
I tried it once because I had a roommate who was a user. I liked it, really had all kinds of epiphanies and energy, but the bad part is that it gave me insomia. I hate insomia! Worse thing ever. Didn't sleep for 3 days. In the end you get strung out, tweeked, and manic. Your dead tired, but you can't sleep. Its the type of feeling I hate more than anything. But the worst thing about these kind of hard drugs, apart from being illegal and the health effects, is the scumbags that you end up associating with.
I have 13 years clean and sober and ur 100% correct, some of us make it out and some don’t. I never stopped trying and fighting for it either. I had two beautiful young kids (5 and 10), who were counting on me. I made a commitment to them first before I made a 2 year mistake that almost cost me everything including my life. Happy to here you made it to the other side. Much respect and keep doing what you’re doing to maybe try and help others ❤❤❤
I remember being so fucked up and seeing the sun come up. I'd never been so depressed and ashamed in my internal life. Where'd time go? I'd done meth and stayed up, but that moment hit in a hard way
Ahhh hell i once stayed up from Thanksgiving til Valentines Day
In your internal life? What about your external life ?🤣
@@Will324 still sucks 🤣
Appreciate the video.. coming off a recent lapse I'll call it.. really not proud of myself. I've had long time periods in total sobriety but what ends up bringing me back to the hard stuff is alcohol. It's happened multiple times. Nobody to blame but myself.. it's a faulty coping mechanism. The key I'm realizing though is to pick ourselves up after a lapse or relapse.. I used to beat myself up so bad after I had a relapse, have had a few lol, but beating myself up just keeps me stuck. Nobody's perfect.. we all make mistakes.. self forgiveness is super important and I'm going to be exercising that right now. Again thanks for the words of encouragement.. keep making these vids man
I'm in the same boat, don't beat yourself up and stay stuck. Keep pushing 🫸
They say that the best way to beat a habit us to replace it with something else.
Hey man, thanks for sharing your story. Hookers, meth and fentanyl took down my cousin. That stuff is dangerous!
On the plus side at least you know he had a little fun before he kicked off
@@devilsoffspring5519 bro.....
he took himself down bro
55 here, clean since 40, started doing blow at 14.
Im with you , Life is incredible clean. Even the bad times. Because the down doesn't last. Instead of wallowing in the bad moments, and using them as an excuse to get wrecked. I look inward and work on solutions to help me get thru the lows. And learn something from every experience. This builds character and integrity. Which are the two main things addictions steal from us.
Thanks for sharing, your story brought back some “Sick” horrible memories of my own. I use these memories to remind me of how shitty life can be, with just a few bad decisions.
Peace from Richmond Va. ✌️
Homeboy says he is sober. He is high af on this video. Talking super fast, cant stand still, etc. some might say its just from being an addict so long but honestly his story is very mild. Wouldnt make him permatweaked. He is high af
Yeah, I knew he was talking fast but thought he was just burt out or something. After seeing your comment I saw how he was bouncing around. He's a good salesman and could probably convince people to get sober if he did first.
Nobody else seems to notice 👀.
@johnmcgraw3568 yeah, he could do it as he is probably, but seems to me he has further to go before rock bottom
@LussoAutomotive lol, true. Was first thing I noticed tho!
Maybe he relapsed off the YT money.
Sir traps are in the hood, you went to a “drug house” 😂
That's what I was thinking ... like, damn I've never seen a trap house like that. 😅
sir ! sir ! sir !!!!
I love Erics stories. Glad he has got his old self back
Meth is hours on hours of sex. It’s crazy the orgasms are indescribable and addictive. The issue with meth is u become Wired to the Sex too
That sounds amazing im gonna try it.
100% I like ling like multiple days of porn, stimulation toys.. some good automated shit.out there...
But yeah.. the strength of the climax.. lasting for day or more... my favourite thing on meth.
Only thing is I have no feeling for straight sex anymore... can't even get aroused for it.... because tue pleasure is a 1 out of 10.. weak!
Put high as fk on ice.. to saturated levels the pleasure is unbelievable.. 11 out.of 10.
The sex stimulation when high definitely plays a major part in my want to score ice
@@cameronmoughton9933it is awesome
@@cameronmoughton9933it will turn your whole world upside down in the worse ways possibles
@@cameronmoughton9933😂😂😂
Your honesty about specific situations was astonishing. Respect!
Your an absolute Warrior Brother! God Bless you for the fight within you!
I am praying for Eric and everyone else, too.
I did coke for a couple decades. In the beginning had a connect who lived next door to my best friend. Would get drunk then do a few lines. Then I would get a bit and force myself to wait until I was good and drunk before doing it. The powder connect got arrested then I moved on to smoking it. At the end I found out that Percs or other opioids really helped the comedown. It got to a point that the quality of the crack was so bad I just bought the pills and stopped doing coke. Of course that led into a long battle with opioids. I have had some absolutely brutal experiences on coke. I wasn’t social on it I couldn’t stand crowds or loud music I would sit alone and be paranoid for hours then want to die when it ran out. Happy that’s in the past and I have almost gotten off methadone (20 mg a day which isn’t much) I’m sure there are great connects for coke in my city but I could never find one and the couple of times I relapsed I found the quality so poor that I wonder how anyone can bother doing it. It’s so weak compared to what I did back then. That helped me not return to doing it. Thx man great content
Good for u man, coke isnt easy but opioids are even more difficult to get off of. My ex was/is on 160ml of methadone 🤦♀️🤦♀️ and now using fentanyl when he runs out of methadone
@@janinem9794that's difficult. He needs to go to impatient. If you keep using on methadone it's not gonna help just make things worse
Dude if this was your worst meth experience consider yourself lucky lol
That’s what I was thinking ! That’s as ordinary as it gets TBH
It was my worst because I watched a good friend on mine Relapse with me and never recover, had a lot of experiences worse but coke related. Stayed away from meth
Back in the day when I was Messing around with Meth, I had a friend who sounds just like your old Buddy, who's house you were at, anyways, my friend took me to this dudes house to pick up a bag, and it was a trap house, cameras and monitors set up everywhere, Porn on 3 different TV's and Computers, and 3 dudes in the living room all Twacked out. They were passing around the Meth Pipe and asked us to sit down and take a few hits, I just wanted to grab the sack and leave, but my buddy wanted to get high for free, so we stayed a little bit. I shorty realized all the guys in the House were Gay, not that there's anything wrong with that, but the guy who's House it was, was sitting next to me on the couch, and he was so lit, he asked if he could give me some Head, I told him sorry I'm not in to guys, then he asked if I minded if he could look at me while he Jacked off, then I noticed the other 2 dudes had their hands down their pants stroking it. I knew at that point, it was time to get the Hell out of their, and FAST!!!
@@EricBZinkmeth was my drug of choice. From 15 to 23 I was off the rails. I thought coke was a waste of time and money. I would do it if someone offered but meth was my love. I spent days alone in my room with a pipe and my guitar. I hate to say it but I messed up pretty bad a few weeks ago. I ran into an old friend and he sold me an 8 ball of coke. I thought we’ll, it’s not meth. It will be ok to have one last skitz. I went through that ball in 4 days and I just bought another one from him three days ago. Fuck man, I can’t do this again. I figured it would be no big deal since I danced with Tina.
No more after this. I’m deleting dudes number now and blocking it.
this dude is clueless
this touched my inner self and im with you in that sober and clean life good health to you bro
Been doing meth since I was 13 , finally decided to make this TH-cam channel as I'm restarting my life and battling with staying sober ,
Great video , you got a new subscriber
Hope your channel does well.
@@johnmcgraw3568 thank you I appreciate it
During the pandemic I was using a lot more, and it got to a point where I was convinced, that I am being followed by some international gang, and they are trying to kill me. Took me close to a year (3 months of that year in psychiatric hospitals) to get out of that delusion. I even thought the doctors and nurses were part of the "conspiracy"/"hunt". That whole time I didn't talk to anyone, nothing. I think that year took like 10 years off my life lol... Scariest experience ever.
Are there a lot of meth users in MAGA?
Thanks for sharing your insights Eric, very enlightening and sobering
i got sober at 36 too. i’m 38 now.
well, congratulations. i guess. hope you're doing well.
I can tell you’re real. Not typical TH-cam BS
Good shit well told and said.
Respect.
TY !! Light bulbs!!! Rings very true - related to when you said you were an addict but not that kind of addict. trying to stay sober here too..
Truly inspirational and informative
Stay strong brother🙏👍
Your story really doesn't sound that crazy honestly. This just sound run of the mill honestly.
I kept waiting for the crazy tweaker stuff to start but... nope. Him and some dude hung out while another dude tried to have sex with hookers. If that's his worst he should be thankful.
Man...the one time I did meth was by smoking it and I totally get the dirty feeling. I noticed that and then couldn't quit thinking about it. The next 3 days of no sleep but tired while trying to yawn but not fully able to. Jaw was so sore....it was awful
You have some very powerful videos man. Im almost 6 months sober off of alcohol and hearing the fucked up stuff you’ve experienced in active addiction help me stay sober. Love brother ❤
I broke my crack cocaine habit in 2010 and have been sober now 14+ years. During my addiction I tried meth once and would never do it again.
The one piece of advice I can give is that once you quit it gets better. Stay strong everyone.
How do I know if my co-worker is on Meth? Her name is Krystal and she encourages us to call her meth.
She is early 30s, Mexican American, lesbian. North Dallas TX. She is neurotic and pushy.
I love your honesty, yes addiction is awful, you have to want to quit, before you quit. Proud of you for sure!!
Im in recovery too and majority of the people i used with are either dead or still high. Only a couple got clean. That says a lot because i was using about 15 years on and off.
Your mind boring and straight is a marvellous thing , old age may take that away from you ,
So do everything when younger
Not to rob yourself of one day of being yourself
Dude- how high were you when you made this video? Holy moley
Right ? WTF ?
If you're paying attention, he said he's been on adderall most of his life which implies he has ADHD
I can’t tell he’s high
lol
Thank you so much for your honesty, I can completely relate. Congratulations on your sobriety, remember, one day at a time. Have a wonderful day TODAY.
Thank you for sharing Eric that takes a lot of strength and courage to put that out there.
First time i did meth ,no one told me it was that potent. I took a spoonful n threw it in the bubble and hit it, and hit it, and hit it, and hit it, till it was gone. I noticed thee old heads where watching me in astinishment. Well..... 12 days later , i realized why they were in aw. I was still up. No food. I could barley swallow ah gulp of water for the first 6 or 7 days. I go accross the street to my house n 2 days later the cops came to the trailer i did it in. They were there on a welfare check cause thee lights were on and from door open day and night for a week and ah half. I was across the street peeping at them through ghe little holes in thee window blind. After they left i looked down and there was a puddle of sweat 3ft by 3ft. I was there soo long and fraking out, and sweating soo much it just gathered on thee hardwood floor. Then thee hallucinations kicked in. Demons, voices, black shadows standing in doorways. Board games that require batteries were going off. Blew my frickn mind. It was a nightmare . I lost 12 lbs in 12 or 13 days. Nightmare.
I went on a month bender one time, ended up shooting up a couple hundred mls towards the end of it. Swear to God, was up 2 weeks toward the end of that episode.
Bunch of shitty people wanted to recreate their lowest binges with me.
"this is messed up, this is not right" yep, that's addiction. knowing that and still charging forward.....
My husband tells me stories, in the 60 through the early 80s, meth was actually derived from the ol bathtub crank, speed, poor man’s way, he😮 called it peanut butter crank, he said sex all night, yep, he knew a person would stay up for would stay up until his body crashed, on average about 20 or so days, Party, Fight, and Sex was the key back then, that key will actually lock you up inside out.
I have “ADHD” and was on Adderall for 10 years and my story is so similar to yours man. Almost exact. I’m 33 and finally am sober. I put myself and other people through hell. But never gave up like you. God bless you man. Anyone here that has addiction, of your care, if you really have that loving sprit of care and love, and compassion for yourself and your loved ones, YOU WILL GET SOBER FOR GOOD!! ❤❤❤
Inspiring man, keep it up you are doing the right thing. Proud of you!
Dude your body language is telling a different story, you are moving around like you are on a ton of Gank!
I noticed that too.
Hes definitely amped up on adderall and has recent videos where he shows his script. If he legit has ADHD its understandable but he has adds for online assessments which can be used with out of network dr’s to get it prescribed when one has a history of drug abuse. it could also be the easiest path for him as the years of coke and meth depleted his dopamine. I feel conflicted about his channel. Amphetamines dont equal sobriety but Adderrall is fun for sure!
This guy is talking so fast he's out of breath.
I’m 25 and currently a weed addict and I’ve struggled with anxiety and depression/ anger issues way before I ever took my first puff. I used it as an escape and was able to be a functioning addict for a while but after a while (as always) you crack and you lose relationships and jobs because of it. Going to try and start sooner rather than later thanks for this video 🙏🏾
Don’t touch it dude
Bro if you think you're addicted to weed.....there's much more sinister things going on in your brain. Please see a Dr/therapist/psychiatrist so you can address the real issue, so you can start healing. Wish you the best!
@xtrobelights is absolutely correct!!! Listen to this person. Us in the addiction/mental health community know people can become somewhat dependant on cannabis but it usually means there’s something much more serious that needs to be approached with a mental health professional. Most of us have been addicted to substances that can easily kill us and so on, and so of course there’s underlying issues with our mental health but Our substances have to be approached first mainly so said-person can get some of their health and mind back first and then deal with the underlying issues. With cannabis it tends to seem that approaching the other issues will in turn remove cannabis from your life’s routine. EITHER WAY DONT TOUCH ANYTHING STRONGER THINKING THAT’LL HELP BECAUSE IT WONT! ALCOHOL, OPIOIDS, CRACK WILL STEAL EVERYTHING AWAY FROM YOU!! 🕉️🕉️🕉️🕉️
@@ohdannyboythepipes4962 Absolutely spot on
@@ohdannyboythepipes4962 👍
Now that's a eye catching thumbnail. In all seriousness huge congratulations on finding sobriety and hopefully happiness!