My most obvious trait I think was how scared I was of loud noises. In elementary school computer lab, I'd never put headphones on because I couldn't turn the volume down quiet enough to be comfortable, I'd just sit there and hold it next to my ear
as i have learned from How emotions are made book, autism is brain prediction disorder so when situation is not like always, everything is a little suprise then and you do not know what to expect so therefore you are anxious
I really dislikes any sort of sauce.. especially ketchup. My parents used to put it on my plate even tho i didnt like it . Theyd try to sneak it on ljke just a singular fry. "Everyone likes ketchup its just not normal" That and then just everytime I got food with sauce on it theyd just be so rude about it like, wipe it off, wtf then starve. To point where whenever someone made me food with sauce accidently id just immediately start bawling. I remember my dad casually bringing up to me one day about how we went out to eat once and I threw such a fit we all had to leave. These things do make me frustrated to think back on and sometime to this day im still bit unhappy bout it. Not that id hold a grudge but its just frustrating that I was just a kid yet I always was the bad guy and it was always my fault i couldnt eat it
i absolutely thought i played normally with dolls and things until recently it dawned on me that i'd never like... played in a way where i used them to act our stories. i found that boring. i would set up my sylvanian families in their little neighbourhood, and then just leave it for a bit then put it away. i did like played make believe games with other people but i do remember being more 'in charge' of what we were doing. i also liked to play pretend on my own quite a bit more. sometimes i would go about my day just.. knowing my head that i was actually this character id made up and i was just going about a normal human life while my 'usual' life was being a witch or a magical cat or something i also didnt like ice cream much (still dont), didnt like pizza much, didnt like chips much. i liked pasta. LOVED plain pasta with grated cheddar cheese. my family typically had the exact same food in rotation so... i never had to eat anything much that i didnt like because it wasnt adventurous food. we had a lot of pasta and cottage pie and stuff. i didnt even like mashed potatoes so id have a fish finger sandwich while everyone else had sausage and mash. i have very specific feelings about like... sauces. some HAVE to go on top. some CANNOT be touching anything else.
Diet was certainly one of my issues - and it still is. From early childhood I had a very restricted diet and in particular would not eat vegetables. As I very rarely ate outside the family home (e.g. the idea of school lunches would have horrified me) this was never really challenged. I wish so much I had been pushed so much more on this as I feel it helped to set up issues I've never been able to resolve. My diet is better now but unlikely ever to be "normal". Perhaps though being pushed to eat a wider range when I was young wouldn't have worked - maybe they tried and I was just too resistant. I've always had sensory issues with certain foods to do with texture, smell and taste and avoid them but am not sure how much it's psychological and how much it it is physical aversion.
My most obvious trait I think was how scared I was of loud noises. In elementary school computer lab, I'd never put headphones on because I couldn't turn the volume down quiet enough to be comfortable, I'd just sit there and hold it next to my ear
as i have learned from How emotions are made book, autism is brain prediction disorder so when situation is not like always, everything is a little suprise then and you do not know what to expect so therefore you are anxious
I really dislikes any sort of sauce.. especially ketchup. My parents used to put it on my plate even tho i didnt like it . Theyd try to sneak it on ljke just a singular fry.
"Everyone likes ketchup its just not normal"
That and then just everytime I got food with sauce on it theyd just be so rude about it like, wipe it off, wtf then starve. To point where whenever someone made me food with sauce accidently id just immediately start bawling.
I remember my dad casually bringing up to me one day about how we went out to eat once and I threw such a fit we all had to leave.
These things do make me frustrated to think back on and sometime to this day im still bit unhappy bout it. Not that id hold a grudge but its just frustrating that I was just a kid yet I always was the bad guy and it was always my fault i couldnt eat it
i absolutely thought i played normally with dolls and things until recently it dawned on me that i'd never like... played in a way where i used them to act our stories. i found that boring. i would set up my sylvanian families in their little neighbourhood, and then just leave it for a bit then put it away. i did like played make believe games with other people but i do remember being more 'in charge' of what we were doing. i also liked to play pretend on my own quite a bit more. sometimes i would go about my day just.. knowing my head that i was actually this character id made up and i was just going about a normal human life while my 'usual' life was being a witch or a magical cat or something
i also didnt like ice cream much (still dont), didnt like pizza much, didnt like chips much. i liked pasta. LOVED plain pasta with grated cheddar cheese. my family typically had the exact same food in rotation so... i never had to eat anything much that i didnt like because it wasnt adventurous food. we had a lot of pasta and cottage pie and stuff. i didnt even like mashed potatoes so id have a fish finger sandwich while everyone else had sausage and mash. i have very specific feelings about like... sauces. some HAVE to go on top. some CANNOT be touching anything else.
Diet was certainly one of my issues - and it still is. From early childhood I had a very restricted diet and in particular would not eat vegetables. As I very rarely ate outside the family home (e.g. the idea of school lunches would have horrified me) this was never really challenged. I wish so much I had been pushed so much more on this as I feel it helped to set up issues I've never been able to resolve. My diet is better now but unlikely ever to be "normal". Perhaps though being pushed to eat a wider range when I was young wouldn't have worked - maybe they tried and I was just too resistant. I've always had sensory issues with certain foods to do with texture, smell and taste and avoid them but am not sure how much it's psychological and how much it it is physical aversion.
Great video - well explained
I think the traits that get missed were certain foods bothered me. The other was info dumping.
Hopefully.
I should have stopped and actually recognized you. Thankfully there’s second chances? 🙏