Hi everyone 🥰 I didn’t touch on it in the video, but I may be creating videos a bit less regularly than I’d like to. It kills me because I have a whole notebook just filled with ideas and stories to tell, but the reality is I’m afraid to not work full time so I can really dive into it. Maybe one day I’ll have the guts to leave “the 9 to 5” and work for myself like I’m planning to. But just know that I’m writing a lot, dreaming of videos to shoot, of growing a community of people to connect with, and I’m so grateful that you’re here anyways. As always, thank you so much for allowing a little bit of me into your life and for all your kind words ❤🙏
I really want to start celebrating the Old Ways. Like Winter Solstice instead of Christmas and Spring Equinox instead of Easter. I feel it has so much more meaning. I didn't get to do too much for Winter Solstice because I had to work, but I did light some candles when I got home and focused on Peaceful thoughts. I started a journal for my daughter when she was a baby, or before she was actually born, but after a few months I stopped doing it because Life was just too busy. I did give it to her, so she has it now! That Butterfly painting is so beautiful. I love it! My favorite saying is, " Just when the caterpillar thought the world was coming to an end...it became a butterfly"! Thank you for sharing your story!
Dear Gwen, i understand so much what you are feeling. Time ( a long time ) is needed to go ahead naturally. In the same time, you have this wonderful nature all around you. Often, that helps but other times, that beauty makes the heart crying, too sensitive ...
No matter what we know or believe, nothing really prepares us when we lose those we love. Grief is a wound that never really heals. It may soften sometimes and come in like huge waves other times. I have lost so many in my life that has forever changed me. The biggest was loss was my daughter and granddaughter. She went to bed and never woke up and my granddaughter was due only a few weeks away. It's been two years and I still struggle, seeking help for complicated grief, trauma, PTSD. I have a dedicated journal that I write to them both in and do something special for them on what would have been many days of celebrations if they were still here. After COVID is over and safe for me to do so, I plan to get a tattoo with their birth flowers. Never apologize for sharing and talking about your grief. You are not being a downer and not something we should avoid talking about and sweeping under the rug. Being open about it can help others. I think it's beautiful that you completed your mother's painting, now it is something you both shared in doing together. My winter solstice/Yule was very quiet this year. My daughter's birthday is Dec.28th and my father's Jan.6th and this year felt particularly heavy and hard for me so I listen to what I needed. I wasn't much for celebrating, so I spent if mostly cuddling in bed or on the couch with my partner, reading, watching movies and going for walks. Take what you need and all the time for you to process and grief. There is no wrong way to go about it, just be kind to yourself.
I am so sorry to hear this, I cannot imagine what that must be like. I hope you are doing well, I'm glad to know you've found coping strategies that work for you. Sometimes a quiet and simple time during the holidays is all you need, I wish mine were a bit slower this year but you're right, learning what you need and being kind to yourself is so important. Thank you for sharing ❤
oh, Gwendelyne! what a beautiful piece, so full of thoughtful feeling about your current moments. you speak so well of grief, of your grief, and it looks like you have gathered on TH-cam a group of folks who are ready to listen and make that space for you. i’m not sure the digital divide made a difference from my side, except to help me just be present and listen to you. and on your end, even as you felt a lack of connection to us on the other side of the lens, it seemed you connected with things around you and with yourself, and you shared a beautiful reflection of those things. it was moving. your mother so clearly lives on in you, in and around all of you. you will always have her with you in all those other ways that we can’t cuddle, but that can often feel as real as a hug. and your finding light in the darkness of the darkest season is, truthfully, not unexpected, but nothing short of brilliant. as you toss amidst the grief and darkness of the natural season around you and the emotional landscape within you, you come up with birth, renewal, beginnings. what a beautiful thing and what a gift for us all. thanks for sharing your grief and your light in the darkness. be well and carry on!
Absolutely love your videos. I am here waiting for your videos when they come ❤️. You are a huge inspiration! You have inspired me to follow my creative side and make a huge jump.
Oh wow, As you where speaking of your heart I was so emotional about it and tears did came out, and I think I do accept and not deny death . I think your videos are so beautiful and getting better by the time, I love to listen to your insights it does really absent from my life, deep thoughts and real talks with others than my partner. I took the last 2 years to look inside into my soul and find myself again in the darkness of this current time in history, Which is also very good than I got to see who is who really inside of each and every one. For yule and Christmas we made a tree out of branches of other tree (pine), decorate it beautifully and made traditional foods and was so great food and drinks. I love the snowy sense and I want to find time to paint one of the sense of snowy forest.
Oh man… I wish you all the very best in your grief. My mom has been battling stage 4 metastasized lung cancer for 20 months, and we found out it’s spreading last week. And it’s so freaking hard. And in a way your videos and you sharing your thoughts and feelings, all of that is healing. Thank you. 🦋
Stunning landscape, brave and wise words. My best childhood friend lost her mom when we were kids, and she's never talked about it to me. Not everyone's ready to open up but thanks for sharing with us. Love you
Hey, I used to vlog until my little brother was killed in a car crash and I couldnt carry on, I made a lot of heartfelt videos after, but eventually I just felt that no one wanted to her about it, it wasnt their problem. I started a new channel focussing on work, this one I am on, watching this beautiful video of yours has sparked something inside of me to maybe pick up the camera and share what its like to come out of the other side of tragedy and loss, well its been three years but doesnt feel like a day. I just wanted to reach out as your words touched me and I think you may have just inspired me to start sharing again. Thank you for being real, it lights the way for others. I am truly sorry for the loss of your mum, keep making her proud , you are a beautiful woman inside and out xxxx
I'm so sorry to hear about this! My heart breaks for you. I try to be grateful that I was able to spend time with my mom at the end and that I had the chance to say goodbye. Thank you for sharing your story ❤
Ziemassvētki. Tas ir tad , kad gaisma atgriežas. Dienas kļūst garākas. Gaisma nāk! Ziemsvētki/ winterfestivity - solstice Is time when the light returns. Days are growing longer. The light comes! the new Beginning,It has absolutely nothing to do wirh Jesus.
What a gorgeous place you live at! I love the snowy stones in the river 😍 just today I've read in a book somebody saying that sharing grief with others that have experienced it means to get a better view on how far you are with your own process and where it can lead. So, go on! We're with you:)
i loved this video, and your channel is very inspiring. It's very calming to watch and I really want to live in the wild too one day, now I shall just do so via your channel , what a blessing for me to have stumbled upon your channel. I wish that you could find your inner peace and happiness at where you are. Winter is almost ending and Spring is here soon, I hope you can find your light in the darkness and do know that there's lots of support here for you! :)
Thank you ❤ I know that feeling all to well, it's strange to suddenly be that outlet for other people! Yes the weather has finally warmed up here and I'm so excited for spring, it's one of my favorite feelings 😊
Hey Gwendelyne, I'm touched by your beautiful words about your mom, and your insight and all the little things you notice and contemplate. It's very beautiful. as for what I did for the season of darkness, I actually celebrated the Swedish Lucia tradition. I absolutely love it, and I recommend looking into it. I actually posted it on my channel if you're interested. And next year I hope to celebrate the pagan 12 days of Jule instead of Christmas which I'm very much looking forward to. I wish you the best in your healing process and I hope you never feel rushed through it by anyone. Take care
Such a beautiful video! Thank you for sharing your life and thoughts with us. I love that you finished your mom’s painting! And the area you filmed is breath taking! Take good care of yourself and we talk at the woman’s circle. 🤗 TK
Really beautiful you finished your mums monarch picture hoping spring brings healing and light and just so sorry you are having to go through your mum passing loosing those we love is so hard 🤗 she seemed like such a kind wise soul on the video you posted about her sure you miss her loads.
I know this is super presumptuous of me to say but I think your mom would be really proud of you for finishing her monarch painting and for trying to find a way forward through the darkness. For the season of darkness I am trying to get in super good shape and figure out my art/youtube channels. Just trying to work hard on my stuff and finding the light
Hi everyone 🥰 I didn’t touch on it in the video, but I may be creating videos a bit less regularly than I’d like to.
It kills me because I have a whole notebook just filled with ideas and stories to tell, but the reality is I’m afraid to not work full time so I can really dive into it. Maybe one day I’ll have the guts to leave “the 9 to 5” and work for myself like I’m planning to.
But just know that I’m writing a lot, dreaming of videos to shoot, of growing a community of people to connect with, and I’m so grateful that you’re here anyways.
As always, thank you so much for allowing a little bit of me into your life and for all your kind words ❤🙏
This is exactly how i feel… 😓 I hope you‘ll made it some day♥️
I really want to start celebrating the Old Ways. Like Winter Solstice instead of Christmas and Spring Equinox instead of Easter. I feel it has so much more meaning. I didn't get to do too much for Winter Solstice because I had to work, but I did light some candles when I got home and focused on Peaceful thoughts. I started a journal for my daughter when she was a baby, or before she was actually born, but after a few months I stopped doing it because Life was just too busy. I did give it to her, so she has it now! That Butterfly painting is so beautiful. I love it! My favorite saying is, " Just when the caterpillar thought the world was coming to an end...it became a butterfly"! Thank you for sharing your story!
You are amazing, keep on going girl, I really love what you do.
I love your cinematography. Beautiful framing and imagery. Keep it up. Heartfelt too.
Thank you Zintis 🥰
Dear Gwen, i understand so much what you are feeling. Time ( a long time ) is needed to go ahead naturally. In the same time, you have this wonderful nature all around you. Often, that helps but other times, that beauty makes the heart crying, too sensitive ...
Absolutely love your videos. I am here waiting for your videos when they come ❤️. You are a huge inspiration!
Can you feel the chill from this video? The breath of frost
I am so sorry about your mom. And I love how expressive you are with words. To listen to you is like reading poetry. ♥️
Wowwww thank you 😭♥️
No matter what we know or believe, nothing really prepares us when we lose those we love. Grief is a wound that never really heals. It may soften sometimes and come in like huge waves other times. I have lost so many in my life that has forever changed me. The biggest was loss was my daughter and granddaughter. She went to bed and never woke up and my granddaughter was due only a few weeks away. It's been two years and I still struggle, seeking help for complicated grief, trauma, PTSD. I have a dedicated journal that I write to them both in and do something special for them on what would have been many days of celebrations if they were still here. After COVID is over and safe for me to do so, I plan to get a tattoo with their birth flowers.
Never apologize for sharing and talking about your grief. You are not being a downer and not something we should avoid talking about and sweeping under the rug. Being open about it can help others.
I think it's beautiful that you completed your mother's painting, now it is something you both shared in doing together.
My winter solstice/Yule was very quiet this year. My daughter's birthday is Dec.28th and my father's Jan.6th and this year felt particularly heavy and hard for me so I listen to what I needed. I wasn't much for celebrating, so I spent if mostly cuddling in bed or on the couch with my partner, reading, watching movies and going for walks.
Take what you need and all the time for you to process and grief. There is no wrong way to go about it, just be kind to yourself.
I am so sorry to hear this, I cannot imagine what that must be like. I hope you are doing well, I'm glad to know you've found coping strategies that work for you.
Sometimes a quiet and simple time during the holidays is all you need, I wish mine were a bit slower this year but you're right, learning what you need and being kind to yourself is so important. Thank you for sharing ❤
oh, Gwendelyne! what a beautiful piece, so full of thoughtful feeling about your current moments. you speak so well of grief, of your grief, and it looks like you have gathered on TH-cam a group of folks who are ready to listen and make that space for you. i’m not sure the digital divide made a difference from my side, except to help me just be present and listen to you. and on your end, even as you felt a lack of connection to us on the other side of the lens, it seemed you connected with things around you and with yourself, and you shared a beautiful reflection of those things. it was moving. your mother so clearly lives on in you, in and around all of you. you will always have her with you in all those other ways that we can’t cuddle, but that can often feel as real as a hug. and your finding light in the darkness of the darkest season is, truthfully, not unexpected, but nothing short of brilliant. as you toss amidst the grief and darkness of the natural season around you and the emotional landscape within you, you come up with birth, renewal, beginnings. what a beautiful thing and what a gift for us all. thanks for sharing your grief and your light in the darkness. be well and carry on!
wow, this almost made me cry! You wrote this so beautifully and I could really feel your intention behind it. Thank you 🙏❤❤❤
@@gwendelyne :-) that's exactly how i felt about your piece, tears and all.
Absolutely love your videos. I am here waiting for your videos when they come ❤️. You are a huge inspiration! You have inspired me to follow my creative side and make a huge jump.
Oh amazing!! Thank you 🥰
Oh wow, As you where speaking of your heart I was so emotional about it and tears did came out, and I think I do accept and not deny death .
I think your videos are so beautiful and getting better by the time, I love to listen to your insights it does really absent from my life, deep thoughts and real talks with others than my partner.
I took the last 2 years to look inside into my soul and find myself again in the darkness of this current time in history, Which is also very good than I got to see who is who really inside of each and every one.
For yule and Christmas we made a tree out of branches of other tree (pine), decorate it beautifully and made traditional foods and was so great food and drinks.
I love the snowy sense and I want to find time to paint one of the sense of snowy forest.
i’m in LOVE with your drone shots😍❄️
thank you 🥰 I'm so happy I got out for that hike even though I didn't have much time 😅
Oh man… I wish you all the very best in your grief. My mom has been battling stage 4 metastasized lung cancer for 20 months, and we found out it’s spreading last week. And it’s so freaking hard. And in a way your videos and you sharing your thoughts and feelings, all of that is healing. Thank you. 🦋
I'm so sorry you're going through this too, I hope your mom is able to stay strong during an immense challenge such as this🙏❤
Stunning landscape, brave and wise words. My best childhood friend lost her mom when we were kids, and she's never talked about it to me. Not everyone's ready to open up but thanks for sharing with us. Love you
Hey, I used to vlog until my little brother was killed in a car crash and I couldnt carry on, I made a lot of heartfelt videos after, but eventually I just felt that no one wanted to her about it, it wasnt their problem. I started a new channel focussing on work, this one I am on, watching this beautiful video of yours has sparked something inside of me to maybe pick up the camera and share what its like to come out of the other side of tragedy and loss, well its been three years but doesnt feel like a day. I just wanted to reach out as your words touched me and I think you may have just inspired me to start sharing again. Thank you for being real, it lights the way for others. I am truly sorry for the loss of your mum, keep making her proud , you are a beautiful woman inside and out xxxx
sorry to hear about your brother, I think sharing can be hard but also can be cathartic for us to do. I hope you share if you're feeling up to it
I'm so sorry to hear about this! My heart breaks for you. I try to be grateful that I was able to spend time with my mom at the end and that I had the chance to say goodbye. Thank you for sharing your story ❤
So nice videos!!!
Ziemassvētki. Tas ir tad , kad gaisma atgriežas. Dienas kļūst garākas. Gaisma nāk!
Ziemsvētki/ winterfestivity - solstice Is time when the light returns. Days are growing longer. The light comes! the new Beginning,It has absolutely nothing to do wirh Jesus.
What a gorgeous place you live at! I love the snowy stones in the river 😍 just today I've read in a book somebody saying that sharing grief with others that have experienced it means to get a better view on how far you are with your own process and where it can lead. So, go on! We're with you:)
Such a beautiful and touching video🥰
Love this. You are not alone..
i loved this video, and your channel is very inspiring. It's very calming to watch and I really want to live in the wild too one day, now I shall just do so via your channel , what a blessing for me to have stumbled upon your channel. I wish that you could find your inner peace and happiness at where you are. Winter is almost ending and Spring is here soon, I hope you can find your light in the darkness and do know that there's lots of support here for you! :)
Thank you ❤ I know that feeling all to well, it's strange to suddenly be that outlet for other people! Yes the weather has finally warmed up here and I'm so excited for spring, it's one of my favorite feelings 😊
Hey Gwendelyne, I'm touched by your beautiful words about your mom, and your insight and all the little things you notice and contemplate. It's very beautiful. as for what I did for the season of darkness, I actually celebrated the Swedish Lucia tradition. I absolutely love it, and I recommend looking into it. I actually posted it on my channel if you're interested. And next year I hope to celebrate the pagan 12 days of Jule instead of Christmas which I'm very much looking forward to. I wish you the best in your healing process and I hope you never feel rushed through it by anyone. Take care
Thank you! This sounds awesome I will definitely check it out, thanks for sharing :)
@@gwendelyne No problem! Yeah lucia is my favorite way to cope with the darkness
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I love the part with the butterfly especially.
Maybe you'll carry out the generational healing process she started.
Such a beautiful video! Thank you for sharing your life and thoughts with us. I love that you finished your mom’s painting! And the area you filmed is breath taking! Take good care of yourself and we talk at the woman’s circle. 🤗 TK
Really beautiful you finished your mums monarch picture hoping spring brings healing and light and just so sorry you are having to go through your mum passing loosing those we love is so hard 🤗 she seemed like such a kind wise soul on the video you posted about her sure you miss her loads.
I know this is super presumptuous of me to say but I think your mom would be really proud of you for finishing her monarch painting and for trying to find a way forward through the darkness.
For the season of darkness I am trying to get in super good shape and figure out my art/youtube channels. Just trying to work hard on my stuff and finding the light
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