Finding my Happiness Again · 10
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 26 ส.ค. 2024
- Life is crazy. I'm exhausted, I'm stressed, but I'm also... happy? At the same time? Why does that feel weird?
I figured I'd share some of what I've been experiencing lately in this strange paradoxical state, because this will likely be my last upload for a while.
There are a few editing mistakes with this video, that I'm finding I just don't have the energy to correct at this moment in time. And you know what, I'm learning how to be okay with that for now; to give myself the space to do this just for fun, and to not sweat the small stuff. Thank you for letting me be a human ❤
And, of course, THANK YOU for being here wow what the heck!!
I never expected this little experiment to actually grow to the point it has, so I'm feeling indescribably grateful and in awe of all of you.
I've really loved taking in all the pieces of you that you've chosen to share with me (and others) over this past year. Y'all are impressive.
I hope you're well, and if not, I trust you will figure it out in time.
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(p.s.: don't forget to share this with your grandma!!)
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Hi everyone, popping in here after a while away; just wanted to let all of you know, that I've seen your comments and my heart is bursting. Thank you all so much for your thoughtful words, y'all never fail to surprise me with your kindness ❤️❤️❤️
I may be making a new video - no promises, but if I do it, I'd like to have it done within the next 2-3 months 💚 hope you're all keeping well.
Excited for the new video. Thanks for the masterful content you craft
We are here because you are AMAZINGLY AWESOME!
Oh IF YOU ONLY KNEW HOW LOVED, LOVELY & PRECIOUS YOU ARE❣
If I may...
The JOY, INSPIRATION & VALUE you bring to the WORLD is EPIC, ONE of a Kind & NECESSARY 💯
Just being YOUR JOYOUS SELF is ENOUGH, please don't drive yourself too hard
You know your own GOOD HEART... there are more like you
😋we are here✊🏽
May seem during this time of war, disease and upheaval that there's little left of Human Decency but as you can see from your comments 🤗there are KIND HUMANS that are Very Appreciative, Loving & Generous
Your channel is connecting us
So Grateful for the technology making it possible for like minds & hearts to be able to share like this
Your numbers do NOT reflect the Value, Necessity nor BENEFIT of your Channel, YET (but they will🍀)
Please, please, please keep listening to that small knowing voice inside that Drives you to Lovingly Create, Blossom & Share yourself... you may never know the lives you are Saving but be sure THAT is EXACTLY what you are doing G!
Thank you for saving mine🙏
Please be as Kind, Gentle & GENEROUS with yourself as I would
Do you have Patreon?
Sending Great Gratitude & Appreciation, Big Blessings & LOVE, Many Mercies & Compassion and All the Luck & Joy🍀✌🏽❤🙏🇨🇦May All be Free from Suffering & Joyful
My dear !
Thank you for yours honesty!!!
It is hard ! But you doing great ! All the best for you ! what ever you do or go !!!
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You probably won't read this but - I recently found you because of your cover of the song Ozoliņi, which was beautiful btw. You remind me so much of my niece. I'm in your general part of the world - Michigan to be exact. I'm sorry to hear that you are stepping back but I fully understand. I'm recently retired from a stressful occupation and it's good to concentrate on what you need to move forward. I will enjoy going through your videos. I found the one you made about drinking birch water very interesting. What an interesting life you live. I have spent so much of my life shut up behind sterile office walls. Still, I retreat to Allegan Forest and the lake shore whenever possible to recharge my batteries, so to speak. As I tell young people that come into my life - Live your life and be happy. Life is short and, if you don't live your life, then what is the point? Thank you for your videos and for adding a little joy to my life.
Not just allowed to be Joyful...
💯OUR #1 REASON for BEING is to Create, Share & Envelop the WORLD in HAPPINESS❣
YOU G, are becoming an Expert at it
CONGRATULATIONS ✌🏽💞🙏
Beautiful answer 😉
Gwen, I absolut understand you and agree with the TH-cam think... ❤️❤️❤️👍🏻
Dear Gwen, thank you for your openess. I feel you so much!
I can only relax, when i watch your videos. You have a wonderful channel and i wish you to have all the best ♥ Loves and Hugs from Germany
When you said: thinking like you are wasting an opportunity when you are doing something cool and not filming it - it's not healthy... This is such a lesson to me and I believe others too 😉 thanks
Thank you dear Gwendelyne for what you do. I need a herb cure for my headaches. Just started. You live the life. I need to live.
You are the wisest of grandmothers ❤️ go gettem
Please listen to your inner self! I didn’t for years . I’m learning now since 1,5 years . I’m 58!! So wishing you all the best and if you here I’ll watch. If not it’s okay too! Much love from the Netherlands 💚🌿🌸
I just was so emotionally moved that I had tears in my eyes. I wish to find it in myself, happiness.
Thank you for the words. I was wondering where did you disappeared .
I was resonating with what you said that you feel uncomfortable to be happy at work, so I am now searching for job and in the field I have studied I don't find it interesting, and I actually thinking to work as a sheep shepherd which really is not connected to academia at all but might just make me happy to go to work. And I really hope to find happiness as now I am really depressed with my life as graduated and have no idea of what to do.
And I am also thinking to learn herbalism to archive this dream of mine to do something that is interesting and not only for my parents to accept me as a successful child that went to university..
Thank you so much !!! Gwen.
The reason I watched your videos is because you remind me myself and what I could be if I follow my heart.
And you show such real content that is from your heart and it is so interesting and beautiful.
Nice
thank you for your videos, you have a beautiful voice, I was very happy to hear something else, with love from Germany, I really like the scenery of your videos, I also like to walk in the forest, the forest gives me more magic ability, but I don't have time on a trip and there is no one to walk with, your videos give me strength💚
Gwen, you asked why people are watching your videos, so I’d thought I’d share my reason 🙂. Basically, you remind me of a younger version of me. For a long time I was very hard on myself for not fitting in to “social norms” (I don’t love that phrase but I’m going to use it anyway 😉). I struggled with what was expected of me and who I really was. So.. for me, it’s really amazing when I come across someone like you who (I think) is probably like minded in countless ways. I get you!!
I loved your words about being honest with yourself in this video. Life is all about perspective and balance, right?
Best of luck with your new business, and don’t forget to enjoy the process 💕.
Saskia
(coming at you from Nova Scotia 🙂🇨🇦)
Sadly, these are stressful times. Climate change and corporate greed certainly don’t help. It’s good that you realize your need to slow down and concentrate on the things that bring you joy and peace. Fortunately your environment offers exciting ways to escape the stress. You’re young, but wise. So many people live their entire life stressed because they’re afraid to experiment in real change. Keep doing the things that you enjoy.🙏🏼
you always make such perfect sense. starting a new educational program, a new business and a new job all at once is asking a lot of yourself. but the energy and focus those efforts require and indicate you are more than eager to offer, seem to say pretty clearly that building a healthy - profitable? - TH-cam channel is not a priority...or even, perhaps, a necessity. your videos have always been, for me, more like a personal journal that you leave open for us to read. i have appreciated deeply the things you have faced and journaled about and shared - sorting out your own sense of being woman/female/feminine, your relationship with your beautiful hawk, your connection to your mother and what she means to you, your struggle with facing down societal expectations and finding comfort in your own path. your honest self-reflection is inspiring because it demonstrates so clearly what our shared humanity and vulnerability can be. i know that sounds like a lot but it's actually just you being you and letting us in...something we all struggle with.
there are two images i will hold from all this: you on the barn floor delightfully buried in all the new little lambs, and you sitting in the sun against a tree with your gorgeous raptor on your hand eating the prize you worked together to catch. sensitivity, strength, self-awareness, comfort.
be well and keep growing. here for whenever you open up your journal next, danny
Wow, so many words I want to say to describe this video - valuable, deep, touching, honest, realistic, open. Thank you so much!!! I really am happy about everything you shared!!! I wish you all the best in your journey and I will expect your sooner or later return 😊❤.
❤️ Pure poetry. Like always. And congratulation to the own business! That is awesome! And I know what you mean about being stressed and happy at once. You are so young and so wise.
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People like to get a look into other people's lives, dear Gwendelyne, that's why we follow your content and start to care about you. Be well, and take all the time you need.
You know when you disappeared for a while and maybe you will again have been the most beautiful part of it all to me 😉 because it really doesn't need to be a full time regular thing to do - and you probably showed other youtubers that it's OK to do that. And it's actually so needed more often that we think. Leaving some memories for ourselves - not filming it constantly as it may became exhausting - taking us away from what we really want to do in that day. We should never feel obligeted we should do it. So thank for this video - as it's so rare to hear what you actually said to those thousands of people. It's a great reminder to all filmmakers/youtubers too.
I admire how incredibly self-aware you are, all of the work you've done on yourself, and especially your ability to open yourself up. I'm listening to this video as I type, and you just said how you think your goal in making videos was "...trying to relate to other people, and trying to help other people feel a little less alone." And I promise that you've been successful in this. I've only watched a few of your videos, and I'm feeling nervous, anxious, and even outright *frightened*. This is actually a compliment, because what's making me feel this way is how clearly and articulately you've described your own feelings and struggles, and how they've tinted/colored your perception of yourself, of the world, and your place in it. (And that you *do* have a place.)
I'm about to cry because I feel so certain that there's nowhere for me. I'm not in danger--it'll pass--But I think that what you've done--openly discussed your experiences with a struggle that so many people contend with, but are unable to talk about, and often can't even clearly discern within themselves--has been truly valuable and important. Even if no one had left comments, I'd still be certain that your videos have been a great help to people.
I'm also proud of you [can I *be* "proud" of you?] or I at least admire and respect you because you've made such a great deal of progress while you're still in your 20s. That's an exceptional achievement. I'm in my 50s, and I've just realized within the past few years that, in many ways, I'm still a child. Actually, what I told my friend was that "I'd finally come to realize that I'm controlled by a frightened child." She replied, "We *all* are controlled by a frightened Inner Child." I think I was too embarrassed to point out that I'd said--and meant--*child*, not "inner child."
Okay, that's more than enough from me, I think. My intention was to assure you that your videos are valuable, important, and well worth the effort, not only for yourself, but for lots of other people, many who have no access to any comparable resource. I wish you the best of everything, and when things get rough--and they will--that you'll have developed enough of a "practice" tha you're able to kinda fall back and get yourself together with a minimum of struggle and pain.
Thank you.
Holy moly 😭 thank you for taking the time to express yourself this way - the timing of this is eerie. Exactly what I needed to hear... sat down this weekend to try and make another video after all this time away and ended on "what's the point?". Hearing other people's perspective is so refreshing and necessary. I hope you're doing well 🌿
@@gwendelyne Oh my--thank you!
Since I posted the above, I've been thinking that I should have mentioned something else--actually, I think echoed something that you either said or implied in one of your videos: Please take care to be the person you are *now*. Be careful not to trap yourself into "playing the role" of working along the same path as before. (*This* is very close to what you talked about.)
As you change, your videos--if you choose to make them--should change with you. People who are suffering from depression or other mental illness *need* to hear from other people who've had the same, or similar, experiences. I believe this is essential.
The only time I ever felt part of "a group of my peers" was about 12 years ago when I spent some time in a mental hospital receiving ECT. (My choice, much to my psychiatrist's relief [so she didn't need to argue with me]). I didn't get to know all of the patients, of course, but I did meet several beautiful people--beautiful *souls*, I should say--who were fearlessly kind, and would invite me to join them if I was sitting by myself, and so on.
We were all in there for different reasons, and there's really no way to measure one person's inner pain against another's, but for a moment I had a kind of mini-mystical glimpse of all of the patients (and me) being empty bodies, and each, one by one, being filled with some sort of life-giving soul liquid... *from the same tap*. I felt as if each of us had experienced something and *knew* something that many other people never experience and don't/can't understand.
I'm sure you've spoken with people who've tried their best to empathize with you, but you could sense that they didn't quite "get it." And you've spoken with people who've been through similar experiences and you felt yourself kind of light up inside because you could feel that this person truly understood on a deep level.
YOU ARE NOT OBLIGATED TO BE ANYONE'S SAVIOR. And you need to put your own best interests ahead of everything. I'm just saying that you have the necessary experience (in my opinion), and the talent and ability to reach and provide some hope and relief to many people who are in pain.
I'm sorry if that reads like, "You can help people if you feel like it, or just say 'to hell with 'em." I honestly don't mean it that way. You truly do need to make yourself your primary concern. And, really, you've demonstrated that you're talented, intelligent, and articulate enough that--in addition to photography--there are many other avenues available to you in which you'd excel.
Now, if you'll just send me your bank account and credit card information and passwords... [Ha ha ha. I'm real funny.]
I'll close with a line from a poem that Patti Smith recites in the middle of an unfortunately titled song on her album, "Easter": "Those who have suffered understand suffering and thereby extend their hand."
Okay: Take good care, avoid becoming a martyr (a personal difficulty of mine), give as much love as you're able, and BE GREAT. (Be as great as I, an anonymous nobody, knows you can be.)
I wish you all the love I can muster[d].
Thank you for sharing your way of getting happy! It helps me to look at my life differently as well. I follow you on Instagram and I hope maybe one day our way will cross and I can give you a big hug! Take good care of yourself and your happiness!!! ❤️
I just wish you all the best for everything you are doing and building up. Dare to be happy and dare to fill your days with beauty and without being watched by your own camera. Thank you for always sharing your truth, it means a lot. Take good care, life is wild... Thank you for your honesty and wisdom.
And I must say that people want to see your videos. You are verbal in a way others are not and you put your finger on what people think and feel but have not the ability to express. And every time you speak I think that this is what I would say if I was that verbal. I am absolutely sure your channel will grow a lot. Like A LOT! But it takes some years before internet gets it. Algorithms and all that. You have massive potential! But I really understand exactly what you mean with always bringing the camera around. I feel that a lot. So I only do videos when I feel like it. Most days I don't. 💖
so good to hear your words. I am a lot like you. but I live everyday like you don't want to. becouse I dont have the money to go and live like you. I live in Belgium and sorry for the typo. but I am so happy that someone outhere is living my dream. you dont have to do anything. do what you want and live in nature and enyoi every minut of it. I would. Lots of love.
Dont be pessimistic about your channel's growth. Your growth has been exponential. I remember a few months ago you only had 700 subscribers, now you almost doubled. Also don't forget that your channel and your business work very well together. Posting videos regularly is going to help your sales in your business a LOT.
so healing to watch your video.and the sceneries are just incredible 🧡
I agree, to quote a funny one, priority is number one. :) Sounds great that you're puzzling yourself together nicely.
I'd miss your videos, if you actually decided to entirely stop. Depends indeed on what you want. I really enjoy the views, the cinematography - an excellent chance to get lost for a few minutes.
Something like Leena Henningsen did initially.
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I totally agree with you. You go do what your Higher Self and body are telling you to do. Thank you for sharing parts of your life with us. I am very happy for you starting your own business. That is awesome. I will definitely visit your website. I would love to get into Herbal Holistic Healing as well. I have started growing my own herbs and drying them to make teas. Now I just need to get into the tinctures and salves. Congratulations on your endeavor! Hugs!
I just wanted to write to you Gwendolyne 😀 and you posted this beautiful video.
Just wondering if you would like to be in my next film with other women from around the World? It's just that I wanted to invite people who inspired me in some way this year and well you definitely have throughout your you tube channel - so i just couldn't not write to you haha 😉
The fim will be about "IKIGAI - what's your thing that makes you happy in life?" . Each video will be up to 1 minute long - and I believe it will be a great thing for us to look back in 10 years 😀 just wanted to let you know - as my intuition told me to give it a try and ask you 😀 have a wonderful day!
Sounds WONDERFUL ❣
Subscribed to your channel
Thank you !
@@RenayVildhjarta I'm happy you like this idea 💡 Thank you 😊
Your vids have been fulla well thought-out truths and things that always suprise me when i find myself relating to them. V grateful that you had the huge balls to put yourself out there & start connecting to people 💚💚💚 can't wait to see u thrive, on or off youtube/the virtual world
💯#Truth #Agree 🙏💞✌🏽
Do you have any fan mail We can Can give you :) .
This incredible amount of snow that shows up again and again, wow! But I understand the waiting for spring, eventually ^^
Because you asked for a second: I am here because I saw the nature you're surrounded by and because I like your way of talking and I think because we have some similar values 💚
I love the idea of your business! And thank you very much for your honesty. Take your time with everything, but I am also curious I must admit 😉 if you feel that you're in a good way, we're all fine (I think^^) with what we see of you and what we not see. 🫂
Your unique way of sharing your life cannot be matched. It feels so raw and honest! I feel like every single time I watch your video I am sitting with a friend and we are just chatting about our lives together. This is why you've been growing. People feel like they can connect with you on such a deep level. Keep being you my darling.