1:49 my boyfriend died by suicide I knew he had mental illness and a lot of trauma from childhood military failed marriages. He said when he went to therapy, he really didn’t discuss what was bothering him. This happened last Thursday he died Sunday. We had chose to go our separate ways because the relationship was becoming unhealthy. It’s so many unanswered questions! I knew the relationship had long became unhealthy. I just don’t know why I didn’t leave sooner . I’m going to TRUST GOD THROUGH THIS CHAPTER IN MY LIFE!
Thank you so much for making these videos. Im from the Netherlands and lost my soulmate someone I loved deeply , no note, not any sign of something was wrong , and it hurts so much , we said to eachother we could talk about everything , and we are there for eachother . But he never did. I struggle with it ,left behind with questions I never get answered , and pain how bad he must have felt to take this discision , and I couldn't be there for him . And guess anger I also feel, because he took the discission kinda for me by not talking to me ,while he was the one first saying if you need to talk im here . I lost alot people in my life , not have really family left , also friendships have been big issue for me (in my childhood my first best friend also commit suicide ) ,my soulmate was the only real friend I had , After losing him I fight this battle alone . I accepted he ended his life he must have been in alot of pain , but what I cant seem to accept is that he took my discission away how I deal with his situation . Also I found out after cleaning his house he was dealing with stuff I have been through myself ,and he knew it , we even wanted to celebrate that I solved it .. I could have helped him too , it made me so sad to find stuff later back like that , Dont think that was the reason for him to end his life but it didn't helped with whatever he was struggling with these videos are the closest what I can find with grief support , at the start after loss I also got the wrong kinda help
My sincere condolences to you. I know you're heartbreak you're very early on and I realize that 5 months into it. You're sort of still in the zombie numbed shocked feeling physically. It's like a knife is stuck in your heart. I know that's how I felt on March 25th 2020 when my 2 older daughters came to my door and told me Meghan killed herself I actually. Hit my older daughter and called them liars. That's how it is early on and then it turns into where you feel like you've aged about 20 years. It's been 3 years since my daughter's death. She was 32 married and thank God no children but her husband is struggling. We found out so much more after her death that I wish we had known before or death. I got to see her Christmas 2019 she was very peaceful. And loving and looking back now at her notes and her letters she already had planned on what she was going to do again I could only tell you how. Sorry I am because I know no words will ever make anything feel Better and my 3 older children have been changed forever. And nothing will make that better. I think of my daughter every morning and I think of her every night and during the daytime I'm past the anger at her husband from not telling us. I don't blame my daughter, but it's kind of funny that all 3 of my older children who have obviously been with her for the last 32. Years also. All have different views and feelings towards their sister and it surprises me because I don't want them to be so angry at her she felt this was the Best way or the only solution and I don't know what else to say. I still to this day, sometimes believe that she did not mean to kill herself. I sometimes think that. What she killed herself over wasn't that bad, and I and I wish she had just said something it's out of the blue and I think Most suicides are not really announced by the person who is going to end their i am so sorry for your Loss. I know how painful it is for years and and in all honesty the sharpness goes away but the sadness and the questions are still always there. And she left 7 notes to her husband, which he gave copies to us and you read them and it's like doesn't even make.Sense f. So II miss her she was so funny she was accomplished very intelligent. She was very athletic with climbing and marathon running and had her masters in nutrition. She had everything that she had aimed for. And then at the end. She just thought she was a failure and thought this was the best solution rather than leaving her husband and there was nothing wrong with her husband he was just too Quiet for her . her husband said afterwards that he always thought Meghan was an overreactor and he was an under reactor she definitely had a lot of mood swings. And incredible anger and aggression which with him and she it was aggressive with him but when she was with all of us her family we never saw. Any. Of that I'm sure my words are not helping because you may think 3 years and you still have all these questions .That's a long time to have her as my youngest child in my life, and I miss her so much God-bless you and sincere sympathy to You and your family. Ps A few months after her decide I located this doctor Thomas joiner on TH-cam. It's an old TH-cam. It's like 10 years old but he studied suicide for over 20 years. And it's a great lecture. It makes you realize how you just don't know. I'm also reas his book titled Why do peopledie by suicide., another one was very good but it took me 7 months before I opened it to read it. I think it's called Second Chance but could be wrong. I have watched every video on suicide and all of our stories sound alike scary
It’s only been 2.5 weeks since my just turned 18 year old son took his life, I feel like tearing my heart apart at times the loss and anguish is overwhelming. I know my son was struggling with what has been happening in the world around him these last 3 years, and lost belief in a future for himself, although I knew he was struggling and provided as much support throughout these difficult years it wasn’t enough, I believer he is in peace and released from his suffering but I still long for him and wished I could’ve helped him get through this and now I don’t know how I will live my life fully without him, he truly was a beautiful young man that didn’t like the way the world was changing around him
@@karynflanagan2241 My son too. I sold his car the other day, that was very hard, and the person who bought it contacted me later and had found his journal hidden under the drivers seat. What I read in there tore my heart apart .. it was his explanation. Several years of agony he was going through during the lockdowns, etc. I am shattered all over again.
Oh this is devastating! We are so sorry that this has happened to you. Losing him would be hard enough, but losing him this way makes it even harder. Your dad is so much more than how he ended his life. Try to remember that. Please look for support if you think it could help. There are wonderful organizations and groups out there that can help. You can check out our resources page on mygriefcare.com if you like.
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1:49 my boyfriend died by suicide
I knew he had mental illness and a lot of trauma from childhood military failed marriages. He said when he went to therapy, he really didn’t discuss what was bothering him. This happened last Thursday he died Sunday. We had chose to go our separate ways because the relationship was becoming unhealthy. It’s so many unanswered questions! I knew the relationship had long became unhealthy. I just don’t know why I didn’t leave sooner . I’m going to TRUST GOD THROUGH THIS CHAPTER IN MY LIFE!
I lost my beloved
Girlfriend Amber
Last year
and in my mine
The word WHY
kills me
💔
Thank you so much for making these videos. Im from the Netherlands and lost my soulmate someone I loved deeply , no note, not any sign of something was wrong , and it hurts so much , we said to eachother we could talk about everything , and we are there for eachother . But he never did. I struggle with it ,left behind with questions I never get answered , and pain how bad he must have felt to take this discision , and I couldn't be there for him . And guess anger I also feel, because he took the discission kinda for me by not talking to me ,while he was the one first saying if you need to talk im here .
I lost alot people in my life , not have really family left , also friendships have been big issue for me (in my childhood my first best friend also commit suicide ) ,my soulmate was the only real friend I had , After losing him I fight this battle alone . I accepted he ended his life he must have been in alot of pain , but what I cant seem to accept is that he took my discission away how I deal with his situation . Also I found out after cleaning his house he was dealing with stuff I have been through myself ,and he knew it , we even wanted to celebrate that I solved it .. I could have helped him too , it made me so sad to find stuff later back like that , Dont think that was the reason for him to end his life but it didn't helped with whatever he was struggling with
these videos are the closest what I can find with grief support , at the start after loss I also got the wrong kinda help
I have struggled so hard with this since my beloved son's suicide 5 months ago 💔
My sincere condolences to you. I know you're heartbreak you're very early on and I realize that 5 months into it. You're sort of still in the zombie numbed shocked feeling physically. It's like a knife is stuck in your heart. I know that's how I felt on March 25th 2020 when my 2 older daughters came to my door and told me Meghan killed herself I actually. Hit my older daughter and called them liars. That's how it is early on and then it turns into where you feel like you've aged about 20 years. It's been 3 years since my daughter's death. She was 32 married and thank God no children but her husband is struggling. We found out so much more after her death that I wish we had known before or death. I got to see her Christmas 2019 she was very peaceful. And loving and looking back now at her notes and her letters she already had planned on what she was going to do again I could only tell you how. Sorry I am because I know no words will ever make anything feel Better and my 3 older children have been changed forever. And nothing will make that better. I think of my daughter every morning and I think of her every night and during the daytime I'm past the anger at her husband from not telling us. I don't blame my daughter, but it's kind of funny that all 3 of my older children who have obviously been with her for the last 32. Years also. All have different views and feelings towards their sister and it surprises me because I don't want them to be so angry at her she felt this was the Best way or the only solution and I don't know what else to say. I still to this day, sometimes believe that she did not mean to kill herself. I sometimes think that. What she killed herself over wasn't that bad, and I and I wish she had just said something it's out of the blue and I think Most suicides are not really announced by the person who is going to end their i am so sorry for your Loss. I know how painful it is for years and and in all honesty the sharpness goes away but the sadness and the questions are still always there. And she left 7 notes to her husband, which he gave copies to us and you read them and it's like doesn't even make.Sense f. So II miss her she was so funny she was accomplished very intelligent. She was very athletic with climbing and marathon running and had her masters in nutrition. She had everything that she had aimed for. And then at the end. She just thought she was a failure and thought this was the best solution rather than leaving her husband and there was nothing wrong with her husband he was just too Quiet for her . her husband said afterwards that he always thought Meghan was an overreactor and he was an under reactor she definitely had a lot of mood swings. And incredible anger and aggression which with him and she it was aggressive with him but when she was with all of us her family we never saw. Any. Of that I'm sure my words are not helping because you may think 3 years and you still have all these questions .That's a long time to have her as my youngest child in my life, and I miss her so much God-bless you and sincere sympathy to You and your family. Ps A few months after her decide I located this doctor Thomas joiner on TH-cam. It's an old TH-cam. It's like 10 years old but he studied suicide for over 20 years. And it's a great lecture. It makes you realize how you just don't know. I'm also reas his book titled Why do peopledie by suicide., another one was very good but it took me 7 months before I opened it to read it. I think it's called Second Chance but could be wrong. I have watched every video on suicide and all of our stories sound alike scary
It’s only been 2.5 weeks since my just turned 18 year old son took his life, I feel like tearing my heart apart at times the loss and anguish is overwhelming. I know my son was struggling with what has been happening in the world around him these last 3 years, and lost belief in a future for himself, although I knew he was struggling and provided as much support throughout these difficult years it wasn’t enough, I believer he is in peace and released from his suffering but I still long for him and wished I could’ve helped him get through this and now I don’t know how I will live my life fully without him, he truly was a beautiful young man that didn’t like the way the world was changing around him
@@karynflanagan2241 My son too. I sold his car the other day, that was very hard, and the person who bought it contacted me later and had found his journal hidden under the drivers seat. What I read in there tore my heart apart .. it was his explanation. Several years of agony he was going through during the lockdowns, etc. I am shattered all over again.
S0 sorry ❤
My heart goes out to you
My dear dad took his own life for 2 months ago 😢
Oh this is devastating! We are so sorry that this has happened to you. Losing him would be hard enough, but losing him this way makes it even harder. Your dad is so much more than how he ended his life. Try to remember that. Please look for support if you think it could help. There are wonderful organizations and groups out there that can help. You can check out our resources page on mygriefcare.com if you like.