@@RealD8 I look at it as being in remission. I am an addict in remission from addiction. If I don;t practice recovery actions and principles every day, I could go back into active addiction very easily.
@@RealD8 I don't think the physical changes to the brain are permanent, you will always be prone to developing physical dependence to opiates quicker, the baggage you carry after addiction is mainly emotional/psychological afaik
Nevermind anyone's negative comments. You were a Mom doing the very best for your son. So sorry for your loss.I wish my son could turn his life around but All I can do is love him.
AMEN ! AMEN!!! ...AAAAMEN SISTER !...RESPECT! I'm proud of you ...dont know you but know your strong , brave and I AM going to be just like you one day.... Well I want to aNYWAY.
I was addicted to Dilaudid and Morphine for seven years following a lower spine reconstruction. Neither the pain management doctor who was prescribing these medications, nor my primary care provider, would help me get off of these drugs. Rehab was way too expensive, so I went to a place where I could be alone, and I went through the withdrawals by myself. It wasn’t fun. I’ve been clean for 26 months now. I feel her pain.
Im an opiate addict and its a terrible disease to live with. I live in a area where their isnt to many resources like inpatient drug rehabilitation centers. But their's county jails and prisons. God bless everyone out there struggling with family and friends in addiction.
I was diagnosed with type 1 diabetes at age 8 and I can understand a lot of this story. Things can snowball downhill very quickly. It’s a life where you don’t get a single moment to sit back from fighting.
To Deb ive just listened to your story, and just wanted to tell you, that you were an amazing Mum to your son, and to set up a recovery unit, in his name is really awe inspiring
This video explains 100% accurately of my sons suicide at age 29,,depression, addiction,failure.And im going through the same,lost jobs because of my opioid addiction.I have since moved out of state 700 miles away to get a FRESH start and im about to be 59.
32. got hooked 10 years ago when i suddenly was diagnosed with cancer. I stopped taking everything 4 days ago. I still feel sick, but the worse thing for me right now is... I want to know if life will be fun again? I don't get pleasure doing anything im doing. it's depressing and makes me miss the drug. I only stopped because insurance did some prior authorization and I had to wait. so I just cancelled the order to see if I could do without it.
I am so glad I stumbled over here to your video. I lost my son 2 years ago the same way. You are spot on with the depression and also the availability of suboxone. My heart is full and I have too much to say to write it all down here.we struggled for twenty years and I now realize we needed professional help along with a more faith based approach.
I can help to make the world better. I am a recovering addict and psychiatry survivor and I claim I have discovered the cure to addiction and i can prove the truth is addiction is the psychology of a liar, only liars get hooked and only honesty gets freedom, when the unpublishable truth is published collapsing addiction rates. Humanity are dying because are not honest. I am alone.
1. Severe depression is silent 2. Thoughtless people respond with *_everybody hurts_* and *_everybody suffers_* ... we don't need to hear that stupid useless word ... "everybody." 3. Isolation, indifference, and bullying are the true killers. 4. Starting drugs at a young age especially just to get high sets up a lifetime of affliction whereas older people starting opioids after the age 40 for pain have a much lesser problem with addiction. 5. Mixing *alcohol* with any drug is catastrophic and almost always fatal.
Type 1 diabetes can be a very difficult condition to deal with. The blood sugar fluctuations, dietary restrictions, insulin injections every day and this is all for the rest of your life. Neuropathy pain can become a sad reality if the diabetes isn’t controlled and the nerve damage is often permanent. I’ve taken care of a lot of DKA patients in the hospital over the years, a lot of them young adults, and often they are depressed, and that combined with the chronic pain, addiction does happen.
I admire what your doing by leading these men to understand how God's grace and mercy is the strongest path to freedom from addiction! We are redeemed!!
I can help to make the world better. I am a recovering addict and psychiatry survivor and I claim I have discovered the cure to addiction and i can prove the truth is addiction is the psychology of a liar, only liars get hooked and only honesty gets freedom, when the unpublishable truth is published collapsing addiction rates. Humanity are dying because are not honest. I am alone.
The cycle of addiction, the drug progression, opiod perscriptions, tolerance, hassle of obtaining treatment and proper meds. This lady hit it all right on the head! Its something almost all addicts deal with. Her story is so sad but its the same blueprint of addiction unfortunately.
I'm a recovering opiate addict and I have to say that it was the most intense experience of my life. You can't explain it to anybody that hasn't been through it. Your brain it's basically short circuiting.
I’m so sorry for your loss. I’m a pain patient in recovery (low dose of Suboxone now). I don’t feel so alone when I see this, because people don’t talk about chronic and disabling illness and pain in young adults. Your story makes me realize that, even if I have to live with this pain, it is not worth it to use full opiates, because I don’t want my mother to lose a child. I am going to show my mother this video. I think it will really help her, too! P.S. I used Kratom before when I was looking for a Suboxone doc for a year, and I would rather use the Kratom for pain, but insurance covers Suboxone, so I’m grateful. If too much Kratom is ingested, you just throw it up. I would still not want to mix it with drugs or alcohol. I just thought I’d mention this in case it helps anyone you work with, or anyone who might read this.
As an Addiction Crisis Intervention Counselor I have seen Kratos addiction where they need more and more. I lost a very good friend who couldn't get enough and started back on heroin. He overdosed alone in his house and passed away. Please do research and be very careful with what you take..❤.❤❤❤
I have a 22 year old son in rehab for Fentanyl. I heard Kratum can help but I was also scared. Like you, I am on Suboxone low dose because like her son, I was legally prescribed strong medication when it wasn't needed. I didn't know any better. God Bless this mother.
People just dont understand that when your in constant pain somtimes you just want to go to sleep and not wake up just for some relief .unfortunately herion does give that pain relief but its just a slow killer .
I'm not there yet. He is also type 1 diabetes. He's on bad drugs. And I can't stop him. He's not eating properly. He feels it's to late to turn back. To him life has stop turning. I'm so tired 🙏😔😔
I’m so sorry for your loss. I’m a recovering person who struggled with Opioid Use Disorder. You are entirely correct that words matter (I don’t use the word “addict”). I’ve lost many friends to accidental overdoses. And, stigma prevents many people from getting treatment. People with Substance Use Disorder also internalize the stigma and feel worthless. I hope you don’t mind that I’m going to correct one thing you said. You referred to Suboxone as synthetic (which it is) but implied that other painkillers are not synthetic. Narcotic painkillers can be non-synthetic meaning they come naturally from opium (from the poppy plant). These painkillers are referred to as opiates. But, there are also man-made or synthetic painkillers like Fentanyl (referred to as opioids). There really is no difference between opioids and opiates that are intended to treat pain. They work to treat pain. But, they also get you high. Whether a painkiller is synthetic or not is not very important. Suboxone and Methadone are both synthetic opioids. However, they are very different from other painkillers (opiates or opioids) because regular users of opiates and opioids don’t get high from them. Suboxone is a combination of buprenorphine (an opioid) and naloxone (which blocks the effects of opioids). But, the naloxone is only activated if you try to inject Suboxone. The reason Suboxone doesn’t get you high and prevents you from getting high from other opiates and opioids is that the Buprenorphine fits into the brain’s opioid receptors, but it doesn’t fit perfectly. Drugs like heroin, Vicodin, OxyContin fit into those receptors perfectly, thereby stimulating them and producing Euphoria. Suboxone fits into the receptors enough to prevent withdrawal and cravings but not enough to get a regular opiate user high. Also, it strongly binds to the receptor so if you were to take heroin after taking Suboxone you wouldn’t get high. The reason it’s difficult to get Suboxone is that our stupid lawmakers decided that doctors, who can (or, at least, could, prescribe Fentanyl (which is the cause of most overdose deaths in the current opioid epidemic) have to take an 8 hour class before being allowed to prescribe Suboxone and they can only prescribe it to a limited number of patients. Methadone is also a synthetic opioid that is used to treat Opiate Use Disorder. Regular users of opiates don’t get high from it (I’m not sure why but I would guess that it’s due to the fact that it’s very long acting. If Methadone is being used to treat addiction, only a clinic can prescribe it. Suboxone doesn’t work to reduce pain but Methadone does. And, when being used to treat pain a doctor can prescribe it from his office. It seems to me that it would have made sense for a doctor to prescribe Methadone to your son - it would have treated both the pain and the addiction. I didn’t know your son but if you believe he overdosed accidentally I trust you. What happens to many people is that they overdose due to a lack of education. You were talking about plateaus and how the body needs more and more. Th e technical term for that is tolerance. Your body gets used to the drug and you need more and more to get the same effect. But, when you stop using for even a few weeks your tolerance drops. Most people who accidentally OD do so because they don’t realize this and they go back to using the same amount they used to use. But, since their tolerance has dropped their body can no longer handle this amount and they overdose. So, they are being killed by a lack of education. I’m sorry for this long, rambling comment. My main point is that I’m really sorry for your loss.
noblebarnsey Thanks. It sounds like you have learned a lot on your journey. I’m in recovery, and am very excited to be starting classes for a CDC (Chemical dependency counseling certificate) this summer!
I wish this lady all the best keep strong . I’m going to start and make a few videos on how I recovered from a 18 year drug addiction ie heroin crack cocaine sleepers Xanax etc etc etc . Only thing that worries me is that the people out within the UK 🇬🇧 understand what I’m saying. The Scottish accent is hard for us Scots to understand ..
Fk drugs choose Life Fk drugs .... I will understand your accent!! I'm just starting a home detox to get off smack & street Valium right here in Scotland !!! With this lockdown I'm 🙏🏻 this is my time to get clean after almost 20 years of Heroin addition 💔
"If you don't take care of your body with diabetes your body shuts down". Can he take accountability. Drug use is a choice. It's no one's fault. My son is an addict because he chooses to do drugs. He tried the "it started when my arm was broken and tbey gave me those pain pills" No one made him continue to do drugs. Once he knew he had a problem it was his responsibility to say something. He did what he wanted to do and now he is dealing with the consequences. He know right from wrong. I know he does because I taught him. I am so sorry for your loss, and thank you for sharing your story.
As an addict who is now sober and recovered, I understand where you’re coming from. However, it’s not that easy to just “say something” when you start to notice you have a problem. You feel a deep guilt and don’t want to worry/hurt/anger your loved ones. The drug completely takes control over you. It feels like you have a choice to stop using but it is so unbelievably hard. It really is not that easy to get help and trust me I felt so guilty and like an absolute horrible person for being an addict. It took me a very long time to not fully blame myself but in the end it is not fully my fault and it was not fully his fault. Yes we had the choice to keep using but if any of us knew how it would turn out in the end we would’ve never made that choice. We are all just hurting and trying to numb the pain.
@elip241 I hold myself to a high calling. I knew smoking cigarettes was wrong. I did it anyway, git hooked, and now I alone am sleeping with the health problems. I started it, and no one can stoo it but me... period
I have been on methadone for 18 years & clean from all other Opioids since then.I take Methadone for addiction as well as pain & life has been good for those 18 years.at 51 i am no longer working & lead a quiet life with my 5 year old German Shepherd.I am so sorry to hear about you're child.
I think she still has not accepted that her son was an addict. She is making excuses for him. If he took care of himself he would have felt better. I am an addict BTW...
Of course she did accept that he became an addict. However, it’s important to notice her criticism of how kids are put on strong painkillers by medical doctors without any responsibility towards its consequences. My child had a minor head injury and as a result he ended in ER for terrible headache. The nurse said that they would administer morphine. I was shocked and she said that was a common procedure. I said NO! Once, I tried morphine and …hm… never forgot the feeling knowing that I never want to try this drug again because it’s excellent, but for dying people. The medical community in the US has a lot to answer for. Nothing is regulated, nobody is responsible and we live in hell. Not to mention that there is hardly a place in developed world with worse health care.
In my humble opinion, I don't think addiction is a disease. Before people go nuts, I am a opiate addict of over 12 years. In my humble opinion, ii think it's related to depression and dopamine depletion in the brain, kind of like add. I accept that if I was to use opiates I would lose control.
How very tragic:( I was put on high benzodiazepines, narcotics- both sleeping pills & opiates- & im now quite concerned.....thank you 4 sharing, my heart hurts with yours
Benzodiazapines are harder to get off than Opioids.than you got Opioids on top of that.If you ever have to go off both you have Hell to look forward too,good luck to you.
@@cyrillayman7431 ur best bet would b to try to check urself n2 in patient rehab. Benzo Detox could be deadly. I've been thru it & it's bad & one does need medical detox help. Those seizures can b deadly!
I think your son was very much the exception and not the norm. God bless you and all your family and those who were close to Kieth. You are doing a remarkable thing now.
We didn't lose my brother. He committed suicide. It's a phone call you never want. 10 years now. You never get over it. All you can do is try to block it. Then move on.
No matter when, where or how it started, I guess. The thing is that he developped it and was trapped and crept by it. Maybe what you're actually noticing is ver grief for losing him. I mean, who would like to see their kid completely paralyzed in pain?? Dude, that part sounds like a real life nightmare! 😱
More people need to try to have empathy and understanding for the addicts, instead of judging and shaming them. My mother's always said, "you can catch more flies with honey than with vinegar". Such a true statement!
NJTrumpGirl said the NJTrump girl... i’m going to assume that that means you’re a Trump supporter in which case everything you just said in your comment is the total and complete opposite and antithesis of who you elected to presidential offices beliefs and sentiments. who controls the ability for Addicts to get clean if it was up to your elected official and your president because he certainly is not ours, if it was only up to trump these people would just die he’s made that very clear over and over he has called addiction a weakness not a disease and doesn’t think the government should assist people in getting clean he has referenced the term survival of the fittest several times. You might want to re-think your decisions or at least your TH-cam handle. Sad for you
It's so good that you are speaking it's like catharsis.Hearing your story makes me numb.I wish I could help you.I can understand the inner pain a mother goes through.Deb God be with you.You are a great mom.
😅I suffer chronic pain and I don’t want to take pain medication but as you say, about your son, I don’t want the pain anymore but I don’t want to die. I know I’m shortening my life but I can’t function without them. The pain takes over my life and I need to be a grandmother and mother, so I take the pain medication.
Key elements of the extended amygdala include not only neurotransmitters associated with the positive reinforcing effects of drugs of abuse, but also major components of the brain stress systems associated with the negative reinforcement of dependence
23:17 Australia , just wanted to tell you thank you because you have lit a fire inside me to strive even harder to help and understand my Son. I would love to do exactly what you are doing. I pray to The Lord Jesus that he blesses your work and you reach thousands 😢❤🙏
What does the amygdala register? Fear is the main emotion that the amygdala is known to control. That's why your amygdala is so important to survival. It processes things you see or hear and uses that input to learn what's dangerous. If you encounter something similar in the future, your amygdala will cause you to feel fear or similar emotions.
been there. with opioids it is possibly to go cold turkey. not fun but you'll live and then you must live with your source pain. this is my situation, i'm the " back pain guy" and must adjust to thrive. seems society teaches us we should expect no pain from anything but in fact some of us are destined to be in pain. you can live with it. now, if you are addicted to benzodiazepines you are in real trouble so all you opioid addicts out there, buck up, go thru a week to 30 days of nasty withdrawals then live with the pain
So why did he not talk about his problems? My guess is his mom wanted to have a ''positive'' environment, so all talk of negative feeling was softly but surely made taboo. Women have a way of doing that.
Compassionate care forgiveness of our selves . I’ve been in a cycle for years & I just blame myself then use because I blame myself eg the definition of madness “ to do something over & over again & expect a different result
I can help to make the world better. I am a recovering addict and psychiatry survivor and I claim I have discovered the cure to addiction and i can prove the truth is addiction is the psychology of a liar, only liars get hooked and only honesty gets freedom, when the unpublishable truth is published collapsing addiction rates. Humanity are dying because are not honest. I am alone.
Deb you are a very brave woman.Keith was a good son it's just that this was destined.Remember his nice deeds .You are a hero yourself and a special person of God.lots of love and the nicest words that one can think of .God be with u .I wish I could help you.keep up your blessed work.👍👍
i remember i used to get so mad at my bf for taking subs and called him all types of names for not just stopping. i fell like such an asshole now. i’ve apologized profusely since. he was literally trying to get better and stop using that was his way of bandaging the wound and i should’ve stood beside him
Wow.. I’m glad you realize now but what the fuck. Subs saved my life, what a horrible thing to get mad at someone for. I hope your bf is doing well and kept taking suboxone as needed, how sad.:(
Thank you so much for sharing your story only God's love surpasses that of a mother's father of four adult children I will tip my hat everyday of the week but there is no comparison between a mother's love and fathers male bears eat Cubs Mother Bear's runoff males three times their size. All through nature the most fierce creature it's a mother protecting her Young I have four years off of heroin and everyday it's a good day thank you for sharing your story because people always think of the addict but it devastates everyone who loves that attic to and it is a Scourge in our country right now. My mother tried everything to get me help I mean everything Mama truly try all too often the parents get blamed it's not always the parents fault I've got two brothers that work for Boeing sister that's a teacher we were all raised the same I just made bad decisions. Many prayers to you and much respect to you God bless
Who paid for all this? My brother killed himself to. I feel your pain. Its hard. Once they begin down that RD. Sometimes you cant help. Take care of yourself.
But she did say he suffered from feelings of isolation because of his disease. I believe physical pain can be intensified when one is already depressed and in emotional pain.
This is so sad. Here in Australia, they seem to have halted an opiod epidemic by, in Feb 2018, they took all codeine products off over the counter & made them prescription only. Also doctors are being taught that opiates are not the best course of action for pain. It's so addictive. I myself got addicted to Endone after an operation, what the US would call Vicodin, & it took about 3 yrs to get off it all. I would doctor shgop, about 5 different doctors. We can't do that now, which is good, because all medications are in real time now with QScript, so it shows if you've got a script anywhere else. My daughter is now an anaesthetic doctor specialising in pain & said there are better forms of pain relief.
@@Nutmegpyeah but she said it’s a disease. It’s not. It’s abuse of addictive substances. She’s definitely in denial of reality. Also she said she didn’t know what diabetes was, and was scared of it. That’s nonsense.
Im very sorry, I know you mom did your best, but you are puting his sock,. Too much, your son had you, why to stop? Drugs make you happy,. He was high and Happy. But not you
Your son committed suicide. I'm sorry to tell you that. He knew what he was doing. It was just a matter of time. Get on with your life. Please. My brother did the same thing. You have to let them go. I do every day. You can't live in the past. It killed my family. He was the golden boy. The 1 that chould do no wrong. If it makes you feel better by doing the things you do to keep his memory alive. Great. At some point you will realize most don't care. You have to let them go. Don't do this to yourself. We are seeing thousands of young people take there lives everyday with the drugs. Please try and move forward. You have to let them go. Life is to short.
The journey is almost over Now ,the next thing to understand is this was all by design. They made 100s of billions…when caught they were fined 1 billion😅. Step back …look from OUTSIDE the fishbowl and understand that things…everything happens because it’s wanted…by design …Conspiracy theory,right??? …But, they wouldn’t dooo that !!! Right ? Think again
How do you go from.. I have an uncle that drinks a beer or two too many at parties to... I became a homeless heroin / opioid addict? Just take responsibility for your own actions! Your uncle has nothing to do with it..
I am celebrating 5 years clean from heroin. Freedom is possible..thanks for sharing your story.
Does it ever leave your brain? Do you still think about it?
@@RealD8 there isnt a day that goes by that I dont think about it..but it's not that overwhelming obsession that it use to be.
Damn I guess that's the brain damage that's permanent. Did you go thru the sickness? Myself am stuck on those fake fent pils
@@RealD8 I look at it as being in remission. I am an addict in remission from addiction. If I don;t practice recovery actions and principles every day, I could go back into active addiction very easily.
@@RealD8 I don't think the physical changes to the brain are permanent, you will always be prone to developing physical dependence to opiates quicker, the baggage you carry after addiction is mainly emotional/psychological afaik
Nevermind anyone's negative comments. You were a Mom doing the very best for your son. So sorry for your loss.I wish my son could turn his life around but All I can do is love him.
I’m 4 years clean now I overdosed twice from heroin I was on drugs for 19 years smh I’m so blessed and thankful that god never gave up on me
AMEN ! AMEN!!! ...AAAAMEN SISTER !...RESPECT! I'm proud of you ...dont know you but know your strong , brave and I AM going to be just like you one day.... Well I want to aNYWAY.
A mum that gets it and is spreading the message now by doing for others what she can no longer do for her son. May you find some peace
I was addicted to Dilaudid and Morphine for seven years following a lower spine reconstruction. Neither the pain management doctor who was prescribing these medications, nor my primary care provider, would help me get off of these drugs. Rehab was way too expensive, so I went to a place where I could be alone, and I went through the withdrawals by myself. It wasn’t fun. I’ve been clean for 26 months now. I feel her pain.
Absolute warrior
Bless you
@@dejaunfranklin7222 And you as well. Thank you.
Im an opiate addict and its a terrible disease to live with. I live in a area where their isnt to many resources like inpatient drug rehabilitation centers. But their's county jails and prisons. God bless everyone out there struggling with family and friends in addiction.
How are you doing now 3 years later ?
I was diagnosed with type 1 diabetes at age 8 and I can understand a lot of this story. Things can snowball downhill very quickly. It’s a life where you don’t get a single moment to sit back from fighting.
Addiction is so cruel to all it touches, those who are using and those who love them and all who have lost.
To Deb ive just listened to your story, and just wanted to tell you, that you were an amazing Mum to your son, and to set up a recovery unit, in his name is really awe inspiring
My heart goes out to all these people...
This video explains 100% accurately of my sons suicide at age 29,,depression, addiction,failure.And im going through the same,lost jobs because of my opioid addiction.I have since moved out of state 700 miles away to get a FRESH start and im about to be 59.
32. got hooked 10 years ago when i suddenly was diagnosed with cancer. I stopped taking everything 4 days ago. I still feel sick, but the worse thing for me right now is... I want to know if life will be fun again? I don't get pleasure doing anything im doing. it's depressing and makes me miss the drug. I only stopped because insurance did some prior authorization and I had to wait. so I just cancelled the order to see if I could do without it.
You got this.
You are experiencing anhedonia.
Tell a healthcare professional about your symptoms. It is temporary and there’s light at the end of that tunnel.
I just want to hug this woman! I know this story all to well. Very brave to share your story! This will help people!
I am so glad I stumbled over here to your video. I lost my son 2 years ago the same way. You are spot on with the depression and also the availability of suboxone. My heart is full and I have too much to say to write it all down here.we struggled for twenty years and I now realize we needed professional help along with a more faith based approach.
I can help to make the world better. I am a recovering addict and psychiatry survivor and I claim I have discovered the cure to addiction and i can prove the truth is addiction is the psychology of a liar, only liars get hooked and only honesty gets freedom, when the unpublishable truth is published collapsing addiction rates. Humanity are dying because are not honest. I am alone.
1. Severe depression is silent 2. Thoughtless people respond with *_everybody hurts_* and *_everybody suffers_* ... we don't need to hear that stupid useless word ... "everybody." 3. Isolation, indifference, and bullying are the true killers. 4. Starting drugs at a young age especially just to get high sets up a lifetime of affliction whereas older people starting opioids after the age 40 for pain have a much lesser problem with addiction. 5. Mixing *alcohol* with any drug is catastrophic and almost always fatal.
Yes
Type 1 diabetes can be a very difficult condition to deal with. The blood sugar fluctuations, dietary restrictions, insulin injections every day and this is all for the rest of your life. Neuropathy pain can become a sad reality if the diabetes isn’t controlled and the nerve damage is often permanent. I’ve taken care of a lot of DKA patients in the hospital over the years, a lot of them young adults, and often they are depressed, and that combined with the chronic pain, addiction does happen.
Beautiful brave lady. Such courage deserves honouring.
Indeed
I admire what your doing by leading these men to understand how God's grace and mercy is the strongest path to freedom from addiction! We are redeemed!!
This happen to my son. Thank you for sharing because I know how hard it was to do it.
I can help to make the world better. I am a recovering addict and psychiatry survivor and I claim I have discovered the cure to addiction and i can prove the truth is addiction is the psychology of a liar, only liars get hooked and only honesty gets freedom, when the unpublishable truth is published collapsing addiction rates. Humanity are dying because are not honest. I am alone.
The cycle of addiction, the drug progression, opiod perscriptions, tolerance, hassle of obtaining treatment and proper meds. This lady hit it all right on the head! Its something almost all addicts deal with. Her story is so sad but its the same blueprint of addiction unfortunately.
What a heartbreaking loss. So glad you found some support from other parents experiencing the same terrible experiences.
I'm so sorry for your devastating loss, Deb.
I wish Dr Phil could hear this. Addiction has never been explained so much better
I'm a recovering opiate addict and I have to say that it was the most intense experience of my life. You can't explain it to anybody that hasn't been through it. Your brain it's basically short circuiting.
Absolutely and when people like above your comment put unnecessary remarks it is infuriating. God Bless this mom!!!!
I’m so sorry for your loss. I’m a pain patient in recovery (low dose of Suboxone now). I don’t feel so alone when I see this, because people don’t talk about chronic and disabling illness and pain in young adults. Your story makes me realize that, even if I have to live with this pain, it is not worth it to use full opiates, because I don’t want my mother to lose a child. I am going to show my mother this video. I think it will really help her, too!
P.S. I used Kratom before when I was looking for a Suboxone doc for a year, and I would rather use the Kratom for pain, but insurance covers Suboxone, so I’m grateful. If too much Kratom is ingested, you just throw it up. I would still not want to mix it with drugs or alcohol. I just thought I’d mention this in case it helps anyone you work with, or anyone who might read this.
As an Addiction Crisis Intervention Counselor I have seen Kratos addiction where they need more and more. I lost a very good friend who couldn't get enough and started back on heroin. He overdosed alone in his house and passed away. Please do research and be very careful with what you take..❤.❤❤❤
I have a 22 year old son in rehab for Fentanyl. I heard Kratum can help but I was also scared. Like you, I am on Suboxone low dose because like her son, I was legally prescribed strong medication when it wasn't needed. I didn't know any better. God Bless this mother.
God loves you for putting the word out there. God be with you sweet lady.
Most ppl who have addiction are best ppl on the planet . thank you so much for sharing ur son story and i wish u best in this world
My heart goes out to her. I no what chronic pain is like it's a life long battle.
People just dont understand that when your in constant pain somtimes you just want to go to sleep and not wake up just for some relief .unfortunately herion does give that pain relief but its just a slow killer .
I'm not there yet. He is also type 1 diabetes. He's on bad drugs. And I can't stop him. He's not eating properly. He feels it's to late to turn back. To him life has stop turning. I'm so tired 🙏😔😔
I’m so sorry for your loss. I’m a recovering person who struggled with Opioid Use Disorder. You are entirely correct that words matter (I don’t use the word “addict”). I’ve lost many friends to accidental overdoses. And, stigma prevents many people from getting treatment. People with Substance Use Disorder also internalize the stigma and feel worthless.
I hope you don’t mind that I’m going to correct one thing you said. You referred to Suboxone as synthetic (which it is) but implied that other painkillers are not synthetic. Narcotic painkillers can be non-synthetic meaning they come naturally from opium (from the poppy plant). These painkillers are referred to as opiates. But, there are also man-made or synthetic painkillers like Fentanyl (referred to as opioids). There really is no difference between opioids and opiates that are intended to treat pain. They work to treat pain. But, they also get you high. Whether a painkiller is synthetic or not is not very important.
Suboxone and Methadone are both synthetic opioids. However, they are very different from other painkillers (opiates or opioids) because regular users of opiates and opioids don’t get high from them. Suboxone is a combination of buprenorphine (an opioid) and naloxone (which blocks the effects of opioids). But, the naloxone is only activated if you try to inject Suboxone. The reason Suboxone doesn’t get you high and prevents you from getting high from other opiates and opioids is that the Buprenorphine fits into the brain’s opioid receptors, but it doesn’t fit perfectly. Drugs like heroin, Vicodin, OxyContin fit into those receptors perfectly, thereby stimulating them and producing Euphoria. Suboxone fits into the receptors enough to prevent withdrawal and cravings but not enough to get a regular opiate user high. Also, it strongly binds to the receptor so if you were to take heroin after taking Suboxone you wouldn’t get high. The reason it’s difficult to get Suboxone is that our stupid lawmakers decided that doctors, who can (or, at least, could, prescribe Fentanyl (which is the cause of most overdose deaths in the current opioid epidemic) have to take an 8 hour class before being allowed to prescribe Suboxone and they can only prescribe it to a limited number of patients. Methadone is also a synthetic opioid that is used to treat Opiate Use Disorder. Regular users of opiates don’t get high from it (I’m not sure why but I would guess that it’s due to the fact that it’s very long acting. If Methadone is being used to treat addiction, only a clinic can prescribe it. Suboxone doesn’t work to reduce pain but Methadone does. And, when being used to treat pain a doctor can prescribe it from his office. It seems to me that it would have made sense for a doctor to prescribe Methadone to your son - it would have treated both the pain and the addiction.
I didn’t know your son but if you believe he overdosed accidentally I trust you. What happens to many people is that they overdose due to a lack of education. You were talking about plateaus and how the body needs more and more. Th e technical term for that is tolerance. Your body gets used to the drug and you need more and more to get the same effect. But, when you stop using for even a few weeks your tolerance drops. Most people who accidentally OD do so because they don’t realize this and they go back to using the same amount they used to use. But, since their tolerance has dropped their body can no longer handle this amount and they overdose. So, they are being killed by a lack of education.
I’m sorry for this long, rambling comment. My main point is that I’m really sorry for your loss.
noblebarnsey thanks for this! Knowledge is power and I appreciate the context
Bella Scott Thanks!
noblebarnsey Thanks. It sounds like you have learned a lot on your journey. I’m in recovery, and am very excited to be starting classes for a CDC (Chemical dependency counseling certificate) this summer!
I wish this lady all the best keep strong .
I’m going to start and make a few videos on how I recovered from a 18 year drug addiction ie heroin crack cocaine sleepers Xanax etc etc etc .
Only thing that worries me is that the people out within the UK 🇬🇧 understand what I’m saying. The Scottish accent is hard for us Scots to understand ..
I hope you started your channel, and didn't let your accent hold you back
Fk drugs choose Life Fk drugs .... I will understand your accent!! I'm just starting a home detox to get off smack & street Valium right here in Scotland !!! With this lockdown I'm 🙏🏻 this is my time to get clean after almost 20 years of Heroin addition 💔
"If you don't take care of your body with diabetes your body shuts down". Can he take accountability. Drug use is a choice. It's no one's fault. My son is an addict because he chooses to do drugs. He tried the "it started when my arm was broken and tbey gave me those pain pills" No one made him continue to do drugs. Once he knew he had a problem it was his responsibility to say something. He did what he wanted to do and now he is dealing with the consequences. He know right from wrong. I know he does because I taught him. I am so sorry for your loss, and thank you for sharing your story.
As an addict who is now sober and recovered, I understand where you’re coming from. However, it’s not that easy to just “say something” when you start to notice you have a problem. You feel a deep guilt and don’t want to worry/hurt/anger your loved ones. The drug completely takes control over you. It feels like you have a choice to stop using but it is so unbelievably hard. It really is not that easy to get help and trust me I felt so guilty and like an absolute horrible person for being an addict. It took me a very long time to not fully blame myself but in the end it is not fully my fault and it was not fully his fault. Yes we had the choice to keep using but if any of us knew how it would turn out in the end we would’ve never made that choice. We are all just hurting and trying to numb the pain.
@elip241 I hold myself to a high calling. I knew smoking cigarettes was wrong. I did it anyway, git hooked, and now I alone am sleeping with the health problems. I started it, and no one can stoo it but me... period
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Thank you for your story I have one year three months today only by the grace of God and people like you love 💕 you keep the hope alive.
I have been on methadone for 18 years & clean from all other Opioids since then.I take Methadone for addiction as well as pain & life has been good for those 18 years.at 51 i am no longer working & lead a quiet life with my 5 year old German Shepherd.I am so sorry to hear about you're child.
Thank you for sharing this. Thank you for being another warrior in this war. God bless you!
I think she still has not accepted that her son was an addict. She is making excuses for him. If he took care of himself he would have felt better. I am an addict BTW...
It’s true. She’s in denial.
Of course she did accept that he became an addict. However, it’s important to notice her criticism of how kids are put on strong painkillers by medical doctors without any responsibility towards its consequences. My child had a minor head injury and as a result he ended in ER for terrible headache. The nurse said that they would administer morphine. I was shocked and she said that was a common procedure. I said NO! Once, I tried morphine and …hm… never forgot the feeling knowing that I never want to try this drug again because it’s excellent, but for dying people. The medical community in the US has a lot to answer for. Nothing is regulated, nobody is responsible and we live in hell. Not to mention that there is hardly a place in developed world with worse health care.
It's actually extremely hard to accept your kid has such a problem, tho. Let alone when they're gone for good.
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It seems denial was a survival tactic her family and herself used to cope from her childhood through adulthood.
Deep conditioning.
Thank God, there is a better life upon his return! No tears, pain, nor death. Thank you 🙏for reaching others lives.
In my humble opinion, I don't think addiction is a disease. Before people go nuts, I am a opiate addict of over 12 years. In my humble opinion, ii think it's related to depression and dopamine depletion in the brain, kind of like add. I accept that if I was to use opiates I would lose control.
You literally just described a disease.
How very tragic:(
I was put on high benzodiazepines, narcotics- both sleeping pills & opiates- & im now quite concerned.....thank you 4 sharing, my heart hurts with yours
Jade Garner how are you now ?
Did you manage to get off these benzos?
Benzodiazapines are harder to get off than Opioids.than you got Opioids on top of that.If you ever have to go off both you have Hell to look forward too,good luck to you.
@@cyrillayman7431 ur best bet would b to try to check urself n2 in patient rehab. Benzo Detox could be deadly. I've been thru it & it's bad & one does need medical detox help. Those seizures can b deadly!
@@susilabello5371 seizure meds aplenty don’t scare someone beforehand
I think your son was very much the exception and not the norm. God bless you and all your family and those who were close to Kieth. You are doing a remarkable thing now.
We didn't lose my brother. He committed suicide. It's a phone call you never want. 10 years now. You never get over it. All you can do is try to block it. Then move on.
I have empathy for these ppl but it sounds like she is in denial about the real source of his habit.
agirlandamat what? What do you mean by this statement?
I would say his mother knows him better than we do. God bless her
So you are part of their family? You can't give an opinion like that if you didn't live in the same four walls as them. Zip it.
No matter when, where or how it started, I guess. The thing is that he developped it and was trapped and crept by it. Maybe what you're actually noticing is ver grief for losing him. I mean, who would like to see their kid completely paralyzed in pain?? Dude, that part sounds like a real life nightmare! 😱
Denial has been her companion since childhood.
Bless this woman’s heart , we understand
More people need to try to have empathy and understanding for the addicts, instead of judging and shaming them. My mother's always said, "you can catch more flies with honey than with vinegar". Such a true statement!
NJTrumpGirl said the NJTrump girl... i’m going to assume that that means you’re a Trump supporter in which case everything you just said in your comment is the total and complete opposite and antithesis of who you elected to presidential offices beliefs and sentiments. who controls the ability for Addicts to get clean if it was up to your elected official and your president because he certainly is not ours, if it was only up to trump these people would just die he’s made that very clear over and over he has called addiction a weakness not a disease and doesn’t think the government should assist people in getting clean he has referenced the term survival of the fittest several times. You might want to re-think your decisions or at least your TH-cam handle. Sad for you
Thing I don’t understand is when ppl plead ignorance. Information about addictions have been around for two decades.
It's so good that you are speaking it's like catharsis.Hearing your story makes me numb.I wish I could help you.I can understand the inner pain a mother goes through.Deb God be with you.You are a great mom.
... peer-to-peer support ..& learning is invaluable ..it makes such a difference.
I applaud you for sharing your story and your pain and using it to affect positive change in others
I have 21 days. It's hard ,but worth it
johnnypools how’s it going now?
My heart goes out to u its not ur fault bless ur heart and ur son may he rest in peace im sorry
😅I suffer chronic pain and I don’t want to take pain medication but as you say, about your son, I don’t want the pain anymore but I don’t want to die. I know I’m shortening my life but I can’t function without them. The pain takes over my life and I need to be a grandmother and mother, so I take the pain medication.
I understand. Chronic pain is terrible. People I know don't want to be pain meds daily.take care
Key elements of the extended amygdala include not only neurotransmitters associated with the positive reinforcing effects of drugs of abuse, but also major components of the brain stress systems associated with the negative reinforcement of dependence
Thank you for sharing your story. very much appreciated.
23:17 Australia , just wanted to tell you thank you because you have lit a fire inside me to strive even harder to help and understand my Son. I would love to do exactly what you are doing. I pray to The Lord Jesus that he blesses your work and you reach thousands 😢❤🙏
I believe in each and every word of yours.God bless Keith.I wish I could have met him .
Stay a proud, loving mother & best of luck with your young mens home ❤
God bless you. Thank you for sharing your story and sorry for your loss.
What does the amygdala register?
Fear is the main emotion that the amygdala is known to control. That's why your amygdala is so important to survival. It processes things you see or hear and uses that input to learn what's dangerous. If you encounter something similar in the future, your amygdala will cause you to feel fear or similar emotions.
been there. with opioids it is possibly to go cold turkey. not fun but you'll live and then you must live with your source pain. this is my situation, i'm the " back pain guy" and must adjust to thrive. seems society teaches us we should expect no pain from anything but in fact some of us are destined to be in pain. you can live with it. now, if you are addicted to benzodiazepines you are in real trouble so all you opioid addicts out there, buck up, go thru a week to 30 days of nasty withdrawals then live with the pain
So why did he not talk about his problems? My guess is his mom wanted to have a ''positive'' environment, so all talk of negative feeling was softly but surely made taboo. Women have a way of doing that.
Thank you. Praise the Lord for you and what your doing.
LOSING*
William Evins why doesn’t this have more likes lol
This mom is hurting so badly. Please show Grace.
Compassionate care forgiveness of our selves . I’ve been in a cycle for years & I just blame myself then use because I blame myself eg the definition of madness “ to do something over & over again & expect a different result
I can help to make the world better. I am a recovering addict and psychiatry survivor and I claim I have discovered the cure to addiction and i can prove the truth is addiction is the psychology of a liar, only liars get hooked and only honesty gets freedom, when the unpublishable truth is published collapsing addiction rates. Humanity are dying because are not honest. I am alone.
Wow what an amazing cure! Good luck telling people that.
Deb you are a very brave woman.Keith was a good son it's just that this was destined.Remember his nice deeds .You are a hero yourself and a special person of God.lots of love and the nicest words that one can think of .God be with u .I wish I could help you.keep up your blessed work.👍👍
This woman gets it 🔥🔥❗❗
i remember i used to get so mad at my bf for taking subs and called him all types of names for not just stopping. i fell like such an asshole now. i’ve apologized profusely since. he was literally trying to get better and stop using that was his way of bandaging the wound and i should’ve stood beside him
Wow.. I’m glad you realize now but what the fuck. Subs saved my life, what a horrible thing to get mad at someone for. I hope your bf is doing well and kept taking suboxone as needed, how sad.:(
Humans are the biggest danger for an addict thats why I live totally alone.
Beautiful said ❤️💫🙏
Heartbreaking 😢.
God bless
This seems rather serious to have such a misspelling. "Loosing"
Misspelling. I love it!
I am so sorry for your loss 😢 God bless 🙏
Thank you so much for sharing your story only God's love surpasses that of a mother's father of four adult children I will tip my hat everyday of the week but there is no comparison between a mother's love and fathers male bears eat Cubs Mother Bear's runoff males three times their size. All through nature the most fierce creature it's a mother protecting her Young I have four years off of heroin and everyday it's a good day thank you for sharing your story because people always think of the addict but it devastates everyone who loves that attic to and it is a Scourge in our country right now. My mother tried everything to get me help I mean everything Mama truly try all too often the parents get blamed it's not always the parents fault I've got two brothers that work for Boeing sister that's a teacher we were all raised the same I just made bad decisions. Many prayers to you and much respect to you God bless
Who paid for all this? My brother killed himself to. I feel your pain. Its hard. Once they begin down that RD. Sometimes you cant help. Take care of yourself.
My sister locks herself into a motel room and drinks continuously for 5 days
You are the best mother ever. Mine is too. And you are too.
its the parents that suffer/ addicts are the victims. the persecuted, the victims.
It all starts with one presentation in a doctor’s office.
Opioids have a place but should be low dose , short term and LAST resort.
I wonder if her sympathy and compassion extends to those addicts who DON’T suffer from physical pain like her son?
But she did say he suffered from feelings of isolation because of his disease. I believe physical pain can be intensified when one is already depressed and in emotional pain.
Rhonda Deakin That’s not what I was trying to say with my comment.
What a weird comment
We support people in the Uk with the same issues. My heart goes out for you all.
If you want to look our Charity up, Tribal Project.org
ĺots of nice comments keep helping those in need x
I kinda wish I could hear his side.
This is so sad. Here in Australia, they seem to have halted an opiod epidemic by, in Feb 2018, they took all codeine products off over the counter & made them prescription only. Also doctors are being taught that opiates are not the best course of action for pain. It's so addictive. I myself got addicted to Endone after an operation, what the US would call Vicodin, & it took about 3 yrs to get off it all. I would doctor shgop, about 5 different doctors. We can't do that now, which is good, because all medications are in real time now with QScript, so it shows if you've got a script anywhere else. My daughter is now an anaesthetic doctor specialising in pain & said there are better forms of pain relief.
"the Ranch" was notorious for sex abuse & eventually closed !!!
Sounds like shes in denial of her son being an addict
"When I found out my son was addicted to these narcotics" She literally affirmed that he was an addict several times?
…and an extreme fear of any judging her or her family.
@@Nutmegpyeah but she said it’s a disease. It’s not. It’s abuse of addictive substances. She’s definitely in denial of reality. Also she said she didn’t know what diabetes was, and was scared of it. That’s nonsense.
It's losing not loosing 😔why can't anyone spell lose and loose right, loose means something is slack. Drives me nuts.
Or "there" instead of "they're". I feel your pain. 😊
Mis spelid don't fret lol.
But for the grace of God go I ❤
Your title is misspelled…. And Kratom causes liver damage and is now a reason people are needing transplants…. It’s on the official list now
Is it directly through kratom or did you use alcohol and bad diet.Just curious hope your doing ok.
This lady didn’t know what diabetes was, and was scared of it?
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Im very sorry, I know you mom did your best, but you are puting his sock,. Too much, your son had you, why to stop? Drugs make you happy,. He was high and Happy. But not you
Your son committed suicide. I'm sorry to tell you that. He knew what he was doing. It was just a matter of time. Get on with your life. Please. My brother did the same thing. You have to let them go. I do every day. You can't live in the past. It killed my family. He was the golden boy. The 1 that chould do no wrong. If it makes you feel better by doing the things you do to keep his memory alive. Great. At some point you will realize most don't care. You have to let them go. Don't do this to yourself. We are seeing thousands of young people take there lives everyday with the drugs. Please try and move forward. You have to let them go. Life is to short.
*too.
Your son was not an addict he was dependent on it not by choice....
weed & CBD often works ...
The journey is almost over
Now ,the next thing to understand is this was all by design. They made 100s of billions…when caught they were fined 1 billion😅.
Step back …look from OUTSIDE the fishbowl and understand that things…everything happens because it’s wanted…by design …Conspiracy theory,right??? …But, they wouldn’t dooo that !!! Right ? Think again
How do you go from.. I have an uncle that drinks a beer or two too many at parties to... I became a homeless heroin / opioid addict? Just take responsibility for your own actions! Your uncle has nothing to do with it..
I think she was just putting context on her stories about addiction in the same family.
My uncle drank
A lot
*losing