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Absolutely brilliant. I thank you so much.

Your voice is calming

Benziah 22/8/2024 19/12/2024 my grandson yes I carry on helping whole family tho my daughter broken pushing the family to have faith while I myself bewilded with massive WHY yes life lessons tho my grandchild I really so angry with everything looking at a picture when others life carry’s on mine stopped thisK so my lesson be lost of my grandchild I feel he deserves much more than that he deserves to be here he deserved full life I love him always till I see him again I be hurting cuz I’m hurt he got took away

My dog died I did pray one time months prior to him passing….God didn’t intervene but he was with me when my boy died and after he died….I was so angry to the point I had gotten violent with a family member who decided to fuck with me after his funeral….this is where God did intervene he had put me into a dream with my boy where I got to seem him….I believe God did this because like I said I had became violent and he gave me this dream to calm me down….God also told me in my dream that my boy has perished but there will be another time….that makes me happy but still sad because I’m now here on earth by myself

How do I forgive God for forcing me to live? I was supposed to die at 3 years old. Evil modern medicine kept me alive. Now I’m 34 with no family, career or future. God never made a new plan for me. He forgot I survived. Please pray that he remembers me and lets me die today.

Yes I don't understand why God allowed my son to take his own life , where is God when my son that moment his out of options, desperate devastated to his own life im so angry ,why he is a very good person friend son and partner why god didn't stop him i jave lots of regrets and blaming myself i dont know we don't nobody knows the real reason why although people around him he was very afraid ,scared lossing weight,out of his mind well before that day we dont know the real reason and im far im not beside him that supposed to comfort him have my hands and shoulders when he needs me the most .im sad since march this year 2024 I can't still not believe he is Gone😢

Yes why god allowed mu son died

I just lost my wife of 40 years, to cancer. I pray to God to let me die. I just want to be with her. Please God let me be with her now

My husband Esau lost his mom 6 days ago... Please pray for us. As a family we are so devastated

My wife just passed today! With great sadness, I will never question GOD. I believe she is with HIM and JESUS CHRIST our savior in HEAVEN!🙏🙏🙏

Lost my older brother back in September. Today wouldve been his 39th birthday. I love you brother

I was blocked by a helpline few days ago for contacting it too often - to speak about my friend who died. The last person I spoke to from the helpline said that I was unhealthy for speaking about it again and again. I am so angry.

Thank you for these videos. Your voice is very calming.

My uncle died in an unexpected car accident. They declared him brain dead and we were hoping for a miracle but last night they took out his breathing tube but he unfortunately passed away. We fought very hard for him but only God knows why he decided to take my uncle away from us so early in life. He will be missed very much 💔

My younger brother and I were texting with my older brother minutes before he killed himself. It's added a dimension of trauma

This is so true.I lost my husband six months ago.

Thank you i feel i can really help them get through this with this information.

What my question is is what can even bring someone to do something so horrible to their children , i have accepted it , i lost my nieces boyfriend of 15 years we are a very close nitt family totally shocked us but im seeking information to help my neice and the children heal from this, thank you for these videos.

Ty! I had no clue that this is what was going on with me I absolutely felt I was going crazy.

Deuteronomy 5:33 says, "You shall walk in all the way that the Lord your God has commanded you, that you may live, and that it may go well with you, and that you may live long in the land that you shall possess". Its simple really, those with a close personal relationship and those who still have a purpose to fulfill on earth.

Just lost my love my boyfriend to suicide and it’s like an atomic bomb Hiroshima just fall on me the pain mentally, emotionally and physical is beyond anything i have ever experienced💔 it’s comes in waves and the pain in my chest, back, all my body feels like on fire.. surreal, so heartbroken, feel paralyzed and can’t get myself to move and all the time I just want to sleep, fatigue all day, lost interest in everything but, I force myself because I have to care for my childrens and pets.. I feel like I’m hallucination at time in a parallel dimension where I see the walls of the room we ones shared and have some weird smell out of the blue in my home even though I clean all.

My boyfriend just died i love him so much 😢dont understand why God took him away from me

I lost my brother to ss today and I feel like my soul is gone from my body

My brother killed himself and I'm feeling constant existential dread.

Yes I do relate. He just quietly walked away from our house on a Tuesday morning, to a cornfield and woods a couple blocks away. It’s still unbelievable to me. I knew he was depressed but didn’t know he was so physically sick also. It’s tragic and so sad after 38 years together

Yash, we will love you forever. You are like a brother to us. We wish that you're at peace and not in pain anymore. We wish you can feel our love from the other side. We will always remember you and miss you. And we aren't angry you left us, but we are sad.

My Dad passed after I failed to identify how serious his depression was and missed a visit. We were so close, and I **know** that if I hadn't, he'd still be with us. I loved him so much and couldn't bear to believe I was that lynch pin to him. How fucking awful to be proved wrong.

People don't realize some suicides can be as tho the mind hypnotizes itself....they aren't planned. ....Instantly these thoughts come on very suddenly... and with such euthoria..and determination...the mind has switched and the plan will be carried out ..without warning or care towards others.....hence .teenager comes home from college..asks mum what's be for dinner...goes upstairs ..then mum finds them an hour later..

I’m trying my best God, I really am, my beautiful Kayleigh. She’s gone, 34. I’m broken, I’m so broken, the pain the suffering with her cancer. I’m so heartbroken, I have to go on with life. I loved her more than my life, more than anything. Please give me the strength and courage.

My son died I was so angry at God because I couldn’t understand why he would allow my son to die...Grief is the hardest thing to endure...about a year later, of being mad at God... I decided to make him a deal...I would stop asking...If he would tell me when I get to heaven...I think that was the point when my healing process began...That was 28 years ago and I am still standing on my deal with God...

I needed this 🥺 thankyou 🤍

Thank you for sharing your personal story. I appreciate it as there’s not much information. It truly helps me to hear other people stories so I really appreciate your family struggle and your courage to speak about it . Sadly, they’re so little information I’ve already seen this video about 10 times & I’m going to watch it again. My husband Mark Yeo took his life July 22, 2016. I thought he was the love of my life we met online & married 4 months after meeting April fools Day 2012. Now I can see the irony of the wedding date as well as the signs of an abusive relationship. I have never told anyone this because I was too embarrassed and blamed myself however that morning I had enough of the lies & chaos & I asked for a divorce. I came home with my 8 year old daughter & found his body I completely went into shock for eight years unknowingly. My close friends told me I’m lucky that he didn’t take me with him as he loved me too much to see me with another man and that my daughter is the only reason that I’m alive as he wouldn’t want her to find my body or he would’ve shot me in my sleep, and then himself, I struggle with this idea, but that’s what those closest to me saw in the relationship. His father Clayton Yeo I was notified by his family (who blamed me for Marks death) that his father took his life last month. They asked me how my husband did it they couldn’t remember if it was the heart or head. I couldn’t believe they’re asking me. Anyways, I’ve been re-triggered wondering what to do. I’ve never seen a therapist looking back. I did start my TH-cam channel and I wasn’t sure why, but recently, I began to read the letters that he wrote to me apologizing saying how loves etc. and I’m trying to make the channel useful. I’m wondering how I can be useful although I’m struggling. Any ideas? Also wondering if this is genetic? Also wondering what I need to do to relieve my ptsd that I’ve never acknowledged. I had to raise my kids so put on a fake character & it worked for them they’re doing excellent & well thank God. As of 2024 I’m 45 empty nest & figuring out how when & where to begin my life. I don’t want to be a victim or survivor. I’ve got to let this story go… wishing you all well & thank you for your time, Michelle

I lost my 21 yr old sis Carla, i n 1978. I thought we would grow old together. I have not healed. 😮😢❤

This is very true I lost my husband last month and I cannot feel myself anymore as if I also died with him. I have no more motivation to do things that I usually do. I cannot feel any other emotions but sadness. I pray to God every day however I haven't seen any results yet, I still feel heavy, lost, and miserable...It's killing me softly.

I wanted to say My final words and I apologize Misspelling because I am doing speech to text is that As a parent , seeing the pain on my three older children's faces As they have to face their futures without their baby sister is Painful for me. But. We love each other.We connect a lot more I Diligent about making sure I text every day morning and night to They're all married and have husbands and spouses but so did my daughter and He was. A very quiet sort of guy.And I don't want to get into the relationship as she is , but she had no clue on How to behave when we look back?Her sister said she had been too low I. Talked to her Ashes.I talked to her I think she's with her cat who died two years after her Who she loved and had for thirteen years , and her cat mourned her and I believed that Why her cat died?Her husband sold the house and Assume that he's trying to move forward for himself Hopefully find someone to love and treat him better and have children but Because there is no reason to I can't interrogate him anymore But I could talk easily about it.I'd probably.Oh I know what i wanted to say.I'm sorry Doctor thomas joyner amazing professor Who has studied the suicide for 30 years?His father took his life and his lectures Are worth looking up on TH-cam.God bless anybody who's gone through there The siblings have lost their loved ones just listened to other survivors and You realize that everyone's story is almost the same it It is unexpected and you just have to go up and down through all the And it's not linear it is a big circle and you go round it round it

Sorry I didn't realize I put in 300 characters already. But she came to me as a young 16-year-old and the last dream I had of her. She was grown and I wasn't my new apartment that I'm in now for last year. And I remember crying because we were robbed. And I kept saying they took Maggie's Ashes. And she was right next to me and she kept saying it's okay, mom. It's OK, she is also said several times in my dreams. I gotta go I gotta go and those dreams. I think are her coming to me. I don't know, maybe it could be just by rain. Finally, wrapping around that suicide does happen. Of course, and this being suicide prevention month to me. Suicide is sorry to say. I don't believe is preventable, especially with adults who really struggle with the pain that they have and see. That as their only solution but awareness, especially for young children who seem to be taken their lives and teenagers who haven't even lived a life yet. Those I would like to see more mental health in the school. And I truly believe social media is hurting the young children of today. My daughter isolated herself after she got her masters. And couldn't find a job for 6 months and her husband said that for the last year prior to her death, she had been struggling again. Her nor her husband said anything to us. This came as a cannot believe what my 2 older brothers said to be when they knocked on my door I did literally hit my older daughter in the face when she told me because I told I just thought she was lying so you do go through what he states is that you feel like you're losing your. Mind I wasn't there for 3 years. I had a very good grief, counselor. And I stopped about a year ago and I just restarted and only to get through the minimal up-and-down feelings of paranoia and that, I had this heavy shadow over me and that people look at me differently and I know that's not true but trust me. I don't believe you can heal because if I heal then I have to accept that she's gone. Her older sister told me just a few days ago. That 1 thing, she misses so much as that. That was her best friend. You didn't know she was lying. Years older that she has no recent photos, the last photos we have of her. Was of Christmas Eve 2019 I took a photo of her and her husband and the biggest grin she had on her face and 3 months later. She was dead to the hope. I'm giving, I'm hoping that I'm giving that. I'm still here even though I have several times over the last few years. Thought I've just ended my own life but never really planned it and. I like the courage to do something like that and it takes a lot of courage.I am fearlessness.I didn't figure list this and if I could point out also to people to be continued

If I can give any hope to any other parent has lost. An adult child to suicidei can tell you that 4 years after my youngest daughter took her life at the home, she shared with her husband he's the one who found her is that she planned. She researched it. She knew exactly when she was going to do it. She wanted to wait until all of her siblings and her dad was back in the states. She called me the day before. I also saw her 4 months prior and I've never seen her more peaceful and loving. Not that that means anything she definitely had. Undagnosed mental illness, her husband and I talked in depth about her having borderline personality but she never sought therapy or took drugs. And didn't want to, she always felt. To be perfect, she had to heal herselfi won't go into the details of how she died or everything that she accomplished over her 32 years of life but the ups and Downs we're almost like on a yearly basis or monthly basis for me and her 3 older siblings for me, especially. I went back to work as quickly. As possible because it was just as COVID hit. In Jersey, she died in Pennsylvania and we were able to see her 3 days after her death and had her cremated. Because there was no way I was burying one of my children and her husband was so catatonic that he didn't say anything. By the way, she did not have any children and she wrote that in her notes that she had wanted children and felt that she was too old. Again, she left 7 letters to her husband he shared all those we found out much more after her death call my husband that we had no idea but year one was spent as zombies. Your 2 was horrible because it started to become reality. Here's 3 got even worse because. I was in such denial that she actually did it like he said. You don't. Your disbelief is like you. Just cannot believe that they did that and now it should year 4. I'm struggling just with the acceptance of losing her. I still have feelings of disbelief at times I keep myself distracted with my older kids and my grandchildren. Who bring smiles to my face? My work I love and I work every day very hard at what I do to stay distracted. My co-workers have been immensely empathetic. So I don't agree with the part on the statement because not 1 person didn't give me a hug when I came back to work. And they still listen to me, talk about her. Because I will never not talk about her. I try to keep her alive that way I mean, I have her Ashes. I know she's dead. Of course and one thing I can't say is I don't know if it was experienced this. Her brother had dreams about her right after her sister said she hasn't had any recent dreams but the first few years my dreams were the ones where you wake crying when you realize what happened and you just can't stop crying. I I've shed more tears and the last 4 years. I've shed in my heart. Pole lifetime, but the last few dreams I've had with her in them, a couple of them when she was like 16, you know how?

Sir, you nailed the feels I have been dancing with since 2007. Thank you for all that you are doing, for survivors.

Such a great post. But not all of us have the choice to see others. I’m alone, no friends. I agree, pets are great. I have two. Without them I’d be so alone.

My uncle just died, he was trampled by a bull, he was only about 30 years old, he left behind a wife and 2 beautiful little daughters, please pray for his soul and his family

Thank You So Much. May God Bless You!!!

My grandmother died today. This world is a cruel place. But i stay strong. Because it was his plan. And i wont give up that easily.

I just lost my husband Saturday. I just found this. Thank you for making these videos

My soulmate and best friend did. Its difficult because it was very hard finding it out. The mom isnt telling me anything, wolnt let me see the body, funeral, more details on the suicde. Its hard because she didnt have a good relationship with her mom. She moced out at age 16. She only talked to her a handful of times in the 3 years we were togather. Dad left at early age. I was her family's and when we talked about death she wanted me in charge we even went to hospital and made sure i was the emergency contact. Never got a call, they never even told me about passing. I work in healthcare so i was able to get confirmation. But i need to say my goodbye where she is otherwise it will be even more horrible then it is. Its a permanent pain thats clear. But i need to move forward for both of us so i need that for me

No testimony without a test, no message without a mess. Every great man of God in the Bible had great pain and tribulation that made him a great man. God allows pain in our life to change your focus, change your character, and let us know that He is all we need. Romans 5:3-5 ESV 3 Not only that, but we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, 4 and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, 5 and hope does not put us to shame, because God's love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.

You have provided so much assistance to me to help my dear friend who lost her husband to suicide.

Thank you for giving more insight about the stigma

My girlfriend did take her own life. It's absolutely horrible and never experienced this amount of pain before. We spilt up just 2 months before but remained best friends. The only years she was not hostipalized was when we were together. She didn't want me moving out until her new roommate was ready to move in. I would of still been there when she took her life. I know I could of prolonged her life and less regret as well as had more time with her. I'd do anything to see her again for just a second so if I got another 2 months nothing is not wroth that. Her mom won't even let me see attend her funeral or know where she was laid to rest. Her mom had no relationship with her either it's brutal

Sorry for your loss. I lost my wife too. I prayed for God to tell me why. He did through a church sermon that week. The sermon was on Romans 12:1-2. I had never heard that scripture before. I know her death brought me back to making Christ the center of my life, saved others in both our families, and God only knows what further ripple effects according to His plan. God does not see death the same way we do. We will be reunited for all eternity. God's comfort and peace be upon all who who turn to Him in mourning.

Thank you. Now I can do what I need to do to make my family happy. The only one who loves me is YHWH and I want to go be with him. I shall repent after I eat the berries. Thank you so much!!! Blews you all here in hell on earth.