You try so hard to fit when you are young, like it's the most important thing. Then, when you get older and mature, you appreciate and embrace all your quirky differences. I remind all the young people I interact with that it's okay, and we are all feeling this way.
I will never understand how LGBT+ people can demonize detransitioners when our movement is all about acceptance and love! I wish you all the best honey and there are queer people who still value you and accept your decision! I’m one of them! 💜
They demonize detransitioners because its reality knocking at their door , the detransitioners also knew adamantly that they were living in the wrong body which later the realized they were wrong and then had the strength to detransition even with the stigma surrounding it .The others are so scared to detransition because of that stigma,so its easy for them to ridicule the brave.A lot know they have done the wrong thing ,but they have damaged their bodies so severely and cant go back,a lot have committed life away its horrible l do feel so bad for them, to believe that something is so right to later realize its so wrong.
I think the LGB has nothing to do with the rejection of detransitioners. It's the T. This is why more and more LGB want a divorce from the rest of the letters.
It definitely doesn't stand for 'love and acceptance' anymore. It now stands for authoritarianism, bullying, bigotry, misogyny, obscenities and homophobia. This is all since the 'T' took over. Your 'movement' is now abusive. There is absolutely no pride to be found in it.
Being a woman is more than just wearing a dress and makeup and having long hair. That’s the issue with the new trans movement. It’s literally reduced being a woman to wearing a dress and makeup.
Yep, they see women as nothing more than a costume. It wouldn't matter if they kept that to themselves, but instead they want extra validation by taking our words, spaces and rights, which I find very hard to forgive.
I'm male and use estrogen and have been castrated but have never worn a dress or wore make-up. You want to define the narrative as does this youtuber who loves to delete my comments.
@@DorianPaige00 there are obviously different kinds of transpeople. Some agp males really are obnoxious towards woman and for example demand to be allowed into all lesbian spaces.
@DorianPaige00 No youtuber has to have your or anyone elses comment for that matter on their channel. You can start your own channel defining the narrative has you see it 💜
i’m a detrans woman. testosterone for 5.5 years and a double mastectomy. i know how hard it can be, but being your authentic self is always the best course of action ❤
I'm a 62 years old gay man and we fought for non conformity and seeing people thinking in the recent decade that they have to be the other sex so they can fit in society is a huge step backward. We fought against the stereotypes and somehow a movement was created to enforce it. Gender Dysphoria was extremely rare and should go back to be extremely rare. I will support the transsexuals who went through a long journey to be who they are. The rest, it's only a trend. When the trend will end, it'll be a mess.
So let me get this straight. The trans/gay community accepted you for wanting to be trans and encouraged you to be who you wanted to be then, but now that you truly found yourself and are being who you want to be now, they won't accept you? That is so messed up and is what makes some (not all) trans/gay people so hypocritical. Supporting one's sexuality or gender identity isn't about creating a cult, it's about creating a world where we can all be comfortable with who we are. And it's also okay if who we are changes over time.
They do the same to bisexuals. Bisexuals in a straight relationship = bad evil straights that aren't lgbt. Bisexuals in a gay relationship = good, supporting the cause. The cause itself is far more important to them than the very "inclusivity" and "acceptance" they preach.
@@agnes1250 Well, Calvin deleted my initial comment and that goes to show who is trying to control who. It wasn't derogatory but he felt he didn't want a counter opinion or a rebuttal on his channel. I've been castrated and use low dose estrogen as HRT but still present as a gay male. I don't accept the physical changes that testosterone puts a male through and felt comfortable around Tanner 3 development. This gives me that opportunity as opposed to losing my hair, becoming red face and bellicose, and developing aggressive tendencies associated with men. Men cause harm and commit 95% of violent crime and that isn't a social construct. That fact is throughout many different countries and societies with the only constant being testosterone production. I don't have physical issues and am easily mistaken for a teenager and I'm in my late 40's. And yes, I'm happy to hang around a few adult males who are like myself. I don't do a full integration like Calvin did by encroaching on biological spaces. It seems Calvin likes to have it both ways where he encroaches for a time and that admits that he violated these women by gaining access. If you ask me, maybe he should be charged with a felony if he feels that way. Your vote against our healthcare is practicing medicine without a license. You'll no doubt win in the short term but I have no problem denying medicine and vaccines to someone who does not let doctors practice. Did you hear about the harm of birth control and how condoms are obscene? That's where this is headed and headed for your household because legislators and psychologists are using the exact same arguments they used to ban gender medicine.
@@DorianPaige00 Just because you no longer see it comment doesn't mean he deleted...Sometimes YT automatically hides comments without the creators permission.
You transitioned to become the person you are today. You lived through a mistake and you learnt so much about who you are and thats incredible! Sounds like you had a dark night of the soul and have come out of the other side with a story to tell.
Thanks for sharing your story. I remember watching your original "coming out" video with your mum some years back. It takes a lot of courage to change course, and publicly. Best wishes to you.
I see a beautiful person who has, like many of us, learned something valuable from having made decisions that were not right for us in the long run. Keep taking good care of yourself now.
Congratulations on finding yourself, Calvin. No doubt, this well done video will help other young people grappling with gender identity issues. You are a very handsome and articulate young man. Wishing you the very best.
People were never your friends. They were using you as confirmation of their delusion. Real friends should want the best for you, what will make you happy. You don't want these people.
what is so striking to me right off the bat is the difference between the two videos. Energy level was so jacked up high and dare I say almost valley girl acted in the "girl" videos, and the now detrans video/interview is calm and collected.
@@nadjak3410 you make 0 sense... I do not know if people close to you coddle you or what... but you need to leave your bubble and grow up! I believe in Universal Goddess Earth Creation Destruction FEMALE POWER. I can be like The Empress to Kali depending on my mood. I know what that is from every fiber of my being... do you? I can not imagine the ignorance to come on here and say something SO DUMB! cRAzY.
It must be liberating to finally find out who you are meant to be. You tried being a woman, it was not right for you and you then detransition. You are a very handsome young man. ❤️❤️
I started transitioning at 28 and called it off at 38. I lived as a gay man and I never fit into that identity. I was always feminine and people always treated me differently because they could see the difference in me. I called it off because it was extremely difficult trying to reach my goals. Between the expenses, my fathers crap genes that made hair removal impossible, and my mother passing away suddenly I threw in the towel. Not because I’m not still trans, but because emotionally and financially I couldn’t fight anymore. I’m on a journey at nearly 41 trying to love myself as I am. I don’t regret starting down the path because I learned so much. Gender is deeply personal and I don’t blame other trans people for turning back. It’s hard and society is ignorant af. I wish we made space for more gender expressions and maybe people wouldn’t feel the need to transition in the first place.
Okay, wait… Is the elephant “There are only 2 genders,” OR “Males can’t become women” (&vice versa), OR “homosexuality is a demonic spirit OF Deception,”… What 🐘?? Help pls🤔
There was always the space for gender expressions. It is called individualism. Be yourself and do the things you want to do in the body of your birth. Love who you are.
✝️Please look to the Bible new testament and teachings from Our Lord and Savior. Don’t take it from me read on your own. Pray that God will give you discernment when you read. God is with you on this journey. Even if you think he is not. He will never leave you. You will not always like what the truth is but, remember the truth will set you free and you know that deep down. That community rejected you because you wanted to change back is patently hypocritical. You’re a handsome young man. You seem to be trying very hard to accept the truth about yourself. Godspeed.
thank you for sharing your story. I saw my daughter go through something similar when she wanted to identify as a male, but so much of it was just about trying to figure out who she was. Adopted, biracial, living abroad, child of the divorced parents. It was very confusing time for her, and gender was one thing she could look at that was concrete. Now she’s decided to accept that she’s a woman and even is changing her name back. But I think it’s just normal process that she went through. I told her that when I was young woman, we all wanted to be men because men were powerful. We wore big shoulder pads, and had big hair and were jerks because we thought that was where the power was. I never felt like I fit into any community until I became a parent. And it was my children who affirmed my identity and who loved me for who I was. Now they’re growing up and moving on so I have to embrace the love that they’ve given me and now love myself for who I am. I’m almost 60 so I’m very happy to know that you are doing it sooner. God bless you.
and thank you for sharing yours♥ and i guess, here comes mine ;) im 64 and breathed your same air. I wanted to be a boy as a young girl and to this day feel most comfortable in the androgenous fashion of the 80's (toned down though, as in jackets but no more skinny ties - they've ruined that - i don't want to look like i'm trying to be a man:( and like you, having children helped me to find myself as a woman and mother. I had home births and breastfed :) and to think, if i were young today, in this atmosphere of propaganda and so much 'affirming', i would have most likely lopped off what fed my children so beautifully. i prayed for 2 boys and was blessed. i feared trying to raise a girl. kudos to you 1000 times for getting your daughter through hard times and back from the brink. hugs and kisses to you both xoxo
Thank you for giving me, a 48 year old straight Danish woman, an insight to this… I think you’re very courageous for telling us your story and for giving yourself the chance to truly be this beautiful you. Lots of love and admiration from me! ❤
Oh lordy. What have you been through? Such a lovely young man...yes a man ! A gentle caring soul , flamboyant for sure, and nothing wrong there! Keep strong on your true path. Those who really love and care for you will continue to do so. The rest.....dust in the wind ! ❤
A fact, many beautiful women sometimes hide themselves from the attention they always get. Many are followed in stores, approached at times they just want to be alone and you just get tired of all the advances. But everyone is beautiful to someone. MUCH LOVE TO YOU
Yes; im an average, maybe “below average,” because of being fat, and I even would stay large due to sexual trauma at a young age; and wanting to “hide.”
I'm not beautiful, 51 years old and last week a drunken guy tried to follow me into the toilet stall and then hung around 10 minutes in front of the door, telling me he wanted to lick my pussy until I called the cops...
What a handsome man he is😇 I wish you deep healing. It is not easy to look back at who you were and all the foolish decisions you made, I know I still choke up when I look back. But I take comfort in knowing that God allowed it to happen and so it must be part of the plan and journey for my life. Things will make more sense when we find out why we were born and specifically in this generation, when we discover our high calling. All the mistakes we made all the way to discover who we are, all of those will make sense as we BECOME. I wish you all the best brother ❤🙏🏽🇿🇦
You're not alone Calvin, there's others of us just like you out here in the world! I enjoyed getting this very personal look into your journey & saw many similarities to my life experiences. Truly the journey "within" is the key to the whole process of growing as a human being. I'm so glad you found your way to more clarity about yourself & becoming comfortable with who you are. You're an inspiration even to an old queen like myself who has 40 years on you. I came out of my transition phase in my late 20s & early 30s, that was in the early 1990s & our story is very much the same. I was clueless about what I was doing, but as soon as I stopped, I became a pariah to my community & I had to restart my life for the third time, but that last time I had discovered my personal strength & self worth originated from within myself. Somehow the journey brought me to my authentic effeminate gay male self & I could see myself clearly & my relationship with my self has only blossomed. So all the hardships & being ridiculed & thrown away by my so-called supportive community saved me. I was standing on the precipese of body modification & I barely escaped unscathed. I have few physical damages, while my deepest & most painful memories are sourced from the alienation of my once supportive community, they left the most mental & spiritual scars upon my psyche. I have had to reinvent myself & find a whole new community & family, which was hard, but I continue to grow from believing in my self rather than looking for acknowledgement from outside world. My personal power is sourced from my inner work & I keep an eye out for others who have done the work of self-examination & have gotten comfortable with their flaws & accepting of others for where they are in their personal journeys. Great job Calvin! If you're ever in NYC hit me up, I've always got a lasagna in the oven & fresh brewed iced tea in the fridge and you are more than welcome to come over for a kiki.❤😂
What a lovely person you are. You may have lost friends but there are people out here who will love you for who you really are...a sensitive and conscious being ❤
You are brave and strong and handsome. Those that can turn their backs on you like that are not true friends. You are who you are in the body you are born in, we are all different in our own ways.
The main thing is that you are happy kn your own skin. I'm happy you are feeling good about yourself in the body you were born in and I would've been happy if you only felt this if you fully transitioned. Im pretty sure it was tough to try to figure out who you are and then being rejected when you realised you're not who you thought you were. I'm really sorry you had to go through all that and I always wish to be present when I hear such stories to provide support. You are beautiful inside and out, don't ever forget that. Sending you hugs and kisses!
The truth is that it can be like a cult. It starts with love bombing and the extremer you go the more respect you get. Till you want something else you get kicked out and find yourself alone again. You are brave lad I hope you really will find what you looking for ❤
I applaud you for having the courage to truly align yourself with your Soul, irrespective of the perceptions of others and risking being isolated. That goes both ways, transitioning, then detransitioning. Thank you for this excellently produced short doc on your journey towards self-discovery. People should be allowed the freedoms to explore without judgement.
Everyone has a journey of self discovery, your life took a detour but now you seem happy. I hope. I don't mind when people share their detrans stories because they are important to hear!! You weren't bashing it or saying you were 'tricked' into it or flat out saying being trans is bad like others online. Thank you for sharing!
No one should feel ashamed of what they do or how they feel this is why GOD allows us to be here to make CHOICES in our own lives ❤ Thanks for sharing your story 🙏
I say this with love in my heart. If you have read the Bible then you know the reason we are here is to follow Jesus and spread the gospel. I am in infancy on my path to get a better real relationship with my Lord and Savior. I wish anyone reading this to have hope and to seek and find Jesus. ❤
You went inward and it really shows. the calm, confidence, self assurance that doesn't need to be loud is hard to come upon. Very happy for you and thank you for sharing yourself - all versions! I hope you feel as gorgeous as you look !! ❤
sidenote but you are FINE as Calvin. and you are incredibly brave for sharing this part of your journey. I'm glad this popped up on my timeline ❤ I'm praying you find the peace, joy, and love you're looking for. God loves you & always has. you're very special in this world. thanks for sharing
You are a unique being and very good looking. Please be what you are the happiest, you don’t need others to qualify you as a lovely person. I am a 73 year old granny and I think you are so handsome.
Bless your heart, sweetie! You are brave, and I hope it helps others. Have a lovely life - you deserve it. PS I am a 76 year old woman, but I still think you are gorgeous 😂😂😂 some things never leave you!
You are a beautiful..... Human Being! That is first and foremost. And YESSSS.... you are an abSOULutely handsome and beautiful MAN!! Embrace your precious essence, for it is of inestimable value! Let no one EVER tell you different. 💖
As a well-adjusted gay man, I'm considered a transphobe because I dare say I was confused too once. I didn't have the social pressure back then to have to perform, and mutilate or medicate a mental health issue as is the case now, and good old fashioned talk therapy is what got me to a place of quiet authentic pride. 🌈💛🙏🌍🕊
Be happy that they "throw you out" of this harrasment/toxic community..I honestly love bi, gay, trans people..but its way better to have people around you and in your life that accept you and love you when you found your way to be happy with the life you have choosen, not what they want you to be. "We" (the natural born ones, that are often called cis :P ) are happy to have you in our lifes..Even i am living a bit far away in switzerland..I just want you to know that we are out there :)
I've been hearing so many sad stories about transitioning and detransitioning, most have be full of regrets. You would be such an inspiration to many who felt like you did and you could be such a good mentor to those who are thinking about transitioning. Most times people just need to feel like they are truly heard and that who they are is more than enough. But these centers that encourage people to go through the process are not there to empower people who feel most vulnerable and disempowered, but, rather, they are there to make a profit for medical centers, all the while ruining young lives.
It is so very evident that your journey has brought you to a place of self love and acceptance. Thank you for putting this out there. Much love to you.❤
This is what the Cass Review was all about. People need GOOD therapy more than they need affirmation and HRT. Only after really understanding why you don’t want to be in the body you’re in should you even consider something as radical as transitioning.
Good on you for sharing your story. No-one has to transition and certainly not for others' expectations. If it isn't right for you, no need to continue. You are beautiful as you are--however you choose.
Thank you for sharing your story and for being so brave. Hard to believe people stopped being friends with you because you found your true self. Trust me you're better off without them. Stay authentic and know that you deserve better!
Thank you for sharing your story very interesting! ❤ I'm in my 40' transitioned 20+ years ago before internet and influence of social media. I feel this younger generation has made it more of a social statement and transitioning and not struggling with gender dysphoria! Best of luck hun! ❤
I think young people looking for an answer for all the problems that come with being young are seeing this as it. The older generation had to find it the younger gen are getting it shoved down their throats.
One reason people should wait until they’re at least 25 to make any irreversible changes to their bodies. Not just trans related changes, but any, including when people have extreme gauge piercings on their face or have a bunch of plastic surgeries to make themselves look like a reptile, among others.
I've been gender fluid but never full trans, just little things but never that far, I just can't, the female body and mind cannot be duplicated. I'm happy being fluid, its like working grom home, you're out there but within your own gender/body.
transgirl here and in my opinion u are an important part of the community, you also don’t make anyone look bad but you are living your authentic truth which is what the community should be all about..
Opening up about this all deserves respect, young man. I don't think I could ever share vulnerable parts of my life so publicly. However, this topic is an important one to share, because there may be many young people out there who go through a crisis of their identity. The gender is never the problem. No, the problems are often much, much deeper. And some may unconsciously use gender to avoid dealing with the real problems. So dealing with the inner healing and redemption should be top priority. Fun fact from developmental psychology: teenagers do not possess the ability of reflective learning yet. This comes with age, actually. Around the age of 19/20 we start developing the ability to reflect on our past and learn from it and he also experience healing. Many blessings and Shalom on your journey. ❤
You are a BEAUTIFUL human being either way, but I’m glad to see that you’re happy in the body you were born in. That’s your body, it should feel like home. I know it hurts to be different (Black in a world of predominately white people) but that’s what makes you even MORE special, you aren’t the norm. I also grew up Black in a predominantly white neighborhood and I know it can be painful. Good for you for embracing yourself and I wish you all the best on your inner journey.
You´re brave to share your journey to understand who you are. You tried what was available and seend reasinable at the time. Somenthings wasn't for you, others you still carrie within, and learned from it. Thank you for telling your story. Wish you best!
beautiful man. transitioning and de-transitioning is all your journey. There surely will be a better community awaiting you that fits who you are a want to be and that accepts all the changes that that entails.
Any man or woman who has the guts to go on the path of discovery to find themselves and their original sex is incredibly powerful. Withstanding and rising far above peer pressure to find your truth is what life is all about. Hats off to you Calvin!! Hats off for not joining the queer rat race or any rat race for that matter. Just be you without the cliches, cults, trends, and material pressures.
It looks like you have a new community here by sharing yourself. When we change, things around us must change too and that's what you learned and sometimes it's hard. Your journey was meant to show you who you really are and you can decide who that is, at any moment, at any time and be proud❤.
Oh my god you are BEAUTIFUL! Your smile and your features are otherworldly. They are what people go in to have cosmetic surgery to look like. Much love to you on your journey 🙏🏼
Bless you in your journey; you are an example for many. You are beautiful before and after, and there are so many people that need to know that. Your story will help so many others! My friend who was a drag queen, but living as a feminine gay man just passed away 2 weeks ago. I loved him like no other, and my children & family did as well. It's hard & I understand from a different perspective. 🙌🏽🙏🏽❤️
That says a lot that immediately once you detransitioned, that the "community" rejected you. Its like they only care about you if you fit one thing but then once you actually find your own truth and authenticity they immediately feel threatened by that (because many of them are also probably just confused) and shut you out. They're clinging to an identity for dear life thinking it makes them suddenly whole and worthy so anything that questions that or places doubt is immediately rejected by the ego. That means it's not really a community of love but a community of fear, ego and "us vs. them" mentality.
Sometimes the idea(s) we run towards to is not the “logical” place to go. We grow, love,heal in G-D’s Time. When you take the time to think things through, that is G-d’s time moving you towards where you need to be. You are a journey, a trip, an adventure. Draw from it what you will, learn, love and accept who you are. As an outsider looking in, you are perfect. You have always been. You just needed time to realize it. Enjoy the ride, the journey, the trip, it’s meant to teach you about yourself. You’re smarter today than you were yesterday and more beautiful now, than before. I wish you continued success, always.
I don't believe in heros since I woke up to this hell hole in 2020 but you are a low key hero for speaking out. May our true Creator guide and protect you and the spirit of Truth and Love go with you. Thank you for sharing ❤
It sounds like those fair weather friends were just using you. The people who really matter, the ones who love you will stick by you through thick and thin. You’re a good looking lad and now that you are more comfortable with who you are I am sure you will be fine. You survived some turmoil but you’ve made it through now. You know who you are.
I am happy that your Journey got you to truly see yourself. I wish you all the best, and that you find the peace, hope and love you seek. Thank you for sharing your story because there is someone that is out there that needs to hear it. I pray for many blessings for you.
If society accepted that some men are naturally feminine and some women are naturally masculine we wouldn't have so many people trying to "transition". A lot of these transitions is rooted in trauma.
It's such a brave decision you've made. Both the choice to transition and then the choice to detransition, even though it meant admitting that you were wrong about yourself - which is so hard to accept. I'm sad to hear that the people who preach about knowing yourself and being true to yourself are now shaming you for it. Keep being you :) Keep finding out more about yourself. Thanks for sharing!
We came here to stand out,not fit in. Our physical body is the most fragile of all our bodies. We are sould who have a physical body,a mental body,a emotional body,a metaphysical body. All this focus on our physical body is programming ,we are way way more than flesh. Peace love and innerstanding to one and all❤
You've been through so much and all I see is a strong, handsome man who is shining with his light. If you were my friend I'd be very proud of you. God bless you dear. Sending you lots of love ❤❤❤❤❤❤
❤❤❤ Jesus saved my life. Let Him find you and heal all your wounds. Have your identity in Christ. He is the only way. He brings freedom, love and peace.
love seeing you seeing the beauty in yourself!!! congrats on this journey. you are learning more about yourself and it is so beautiful to come back to yourself
You're making sense and obviously thinking in a more rational way and with understanding as an adult... its a shame that so many go through similar experiences. I wish you all the best and all the hope and exceptance you wish for in your bright future. Xxx
That’s why in my country you gotta go through transition with medical and psychological supervision, no matter if you choose the public health system or decide to go private medical care. Surgery is only allowed after a minimum of three years of ambulatory treatment. Doing so will allow you be sure about your gender identity. Trans ppl do exist, but not all effeminate gay man is trans…
You are absolutely gorgeous (and you were beautiful as a woman as well, honestly), but I'm happy that you are finally feeling comfortable in your own skin. There's nothing like the real thing!
Can someone explain to the young kids that “not fitting in” is a NORMAL part of growing up!
Be yourself
You try so hard to fit when you are young, like it's the most important thing. Then, when you get older and mature, you appreciate and embrace all your quirky differences. I remind all the young people I interact with that it's okay, and we are all feeling this way.
Exactly I never fit in while in high school but I did me myself and I as I wished…I had 5 children and have been single since 2004…
I never fit in. I had undiagnosed ADHD and bipolar 2. It never occurred to me to switch genders.
Best answer.
I will never understand how LGBT+ people can demonize detransitioners when our movement is all about acceptance and love! I wish you all the best honey and there are queer people who still value you and accept your decision! I’m one of them! 💜
They demonize detransitioners because its reality knocking at their door , the detransitioners also knew adamantly that they were living in the wrong body which later the realized they were wrong and then had the strength to detransition even with the stigma surrounding it .The others are so scared to detransition because of that stigma,so its easy for them to ridicule the brave.A lot know they have done the wrong thing ,but they have damaged their bodies so severely and cant go back,a lot have committed life away its horrible l do feel so bad for them, to believe that something is so right to later realize its so wrong.
I think the LGB has nothing to do with the rejection of detransitioners. It's the T. This is why more and more LGB want a divorce from the rest of the letters.
@@SLam-ve3ypI agree. It’s starting to look like a WiFi password. I don’t like being lumped in with the blue haired queers +
It definitely doesn't stand for 'love and acceptance' anymore. It now stands for authoritarianism, bullying, bigotry, misogyny, obscenities and homophobia. This is all since the 'T' took over.
Your 'movement' is now abusive. There is absolutely no pride to be found in it.
As a blue haired queer this made me LOL 🤣
Being a woman is more than just wearing a dress and makeup and having long hair. That’s the issue with the new trans movement. It’s literally reduced being a woman to wearing a dress and makeup.
Yep, they see women as nothing more than a costume. It wouldn't matter if they kept that to themselves, but instead they want extra validation by taking our words, spaces and rights, which I find very hard to forgive.
Absolutely. I can’t help but roll my eyes at these self indulgent people.
I'm male and use estrogen and have been castrated but have never worn a dress or wore make-up. You want to define the narrative as does this youtuber who loves to delete my comments.
@@DorianPaige00 there are obviously different kinds of transpeople. Some agp males really are obnoxious towards woman and for example demand to be allowed into all lesbian spaces.
@DorianPaige00
No youtuber has to have your or anyone elses comment for that matter on their channel. You can start your own channel defining the narrative has you see it 💜
i’m a detrans woman. testosterone for 5.5 years and a double mastectomy. i know how hard it can be, but being your authentic self is always the best course of action ❤
I've never understood how artificially changing your body is in anyway being authentic. To really be authentic don't change a bloody thing .
I feel for you all. Thank you for being brave and finding your authenticity.
@@mikescollard6499you wouldn’t understand.
How are you coping with that mentally? I really admire your strength.
@@ongoingawakening4257 You don't have to find your authenticity. It's just there.
"I'm being congratulated for not having a clue of what I'm doing" - that hit. Also, incredibly handsome man.
Yes!
That was the thing that hit me the most as well.
He really is beautiful, isn't he? I'm glad he's found a way to embrace his beauty without medication.
When a man is naturally so gorgeous... He didn't need to do anything!
What a stunning looking man you are . So glad you found your true self. ❤
he is indeed such a good looking chap
and very masculine
Yes. A very good looking MAN! Glad he finally figured it out.
I'm a 62 years old gay man and we fought for non conformity and seeing people thinking in the recent decade that they have to be the other sex so they can fit in society is a huge step backward. We fought against the stereotypes and somehow a movement was created to enforce it. Gender Dysphoria was extremely rare and should go back to be extremely rare. I will support the transsexuals who went through a long journey to be who they are. The rest, it's only a trend. When the trend will end, it'll be a mess.
That's exactly 💯 what singer Alice Cooper said (being trans/no binary is a trend) and he was crucified on the web.
Y’all are so jealous we get straight men 😂😢
@@jayrose4748 You're both gay men. LOL
@@jayrose4748 Both gays!
@@jayrose4748 Staight men are not gay men. They don't want you by default.
So let me get this straight. The trans/gay community accepted you for wanting to be trans and encouraged you to be who you wanted to be then, but now that you truly found yourself and are being who you want to be now, they won't accept you? That is so messed up and is what makes some (not all) trans/gay people so hypocritical. Supporting one's sexuality or gender identity isn't about creating a cult, it's about creating a world where we can all be comfortable with who we are. And it's also okay if who we are changes over time.
They do the same to bisexuals. Bisexuals in a straight relationship = bad evil straights that aren't lgbt. Bisexuals in a gay relationship = good, supporting the cause. The cause itself is far more important to them than the very "inclusivity" and "acceptance" they preach.
Many detranstitioners go to our legislators to get the cross hormones bans, throwed our doctors in jail, and get transgenders arrested for obscenity.
@@DorianPaige00 Because they experienced first hand what harm it does. It's good that they want to protect others, especially children.
@@agnes1250 Well, Calvin deleted my initial comment and that goes to show who is trying to control who. It wasn't derogatory but he felt he didn't want a counter opinion or a rebuttal on his channel.
I've been castrated and use low dose estrogen as HRT but still present as a gay male. I don't accept the physical changes that testosterone puts a male through and felt comfortable around Tanner 3 development. This gives me that opportunity as opposed to losing my hair, becoming red face and bellicose, and developing aggressive tendencies associated with men. Men cause harm and commit 95% of violent crime and that isn't a social construct. That fact is throughout many different countries and societies with the only constant being testosterone production.
I don't have physical issues and am easily mistaken for a teenager and I'm in my late 40's. And yes, I'm happy to hang around a few adult males who are like myself. I don't do a full integration like Calvin did by encroaching on biological spaces. It seems Calvin likes to have it both ways where he encroaches for a time and that admits that he violated these women by gaining access. If you ask me, maybe he should be charged with a felony if he feels that way.
Your vote against our healthcare is practicing medicine without a license. You'll no doubt win in the short term but I have no problem denying medicine and vaccines to someone who does not let doctors practice. Did you hear about the harm of birth control and how condoms are obscene? That's where this is headed and headed for your household because legislators and psychologists are using the exact same arguments they used to ban gender medicine.
@@DorianPaige00 Just because you no longer see it comment doesn't mean he deleted...Sometimes YT automatically hides comments without the creators permission.
You transitioned to become the person you are today. You lived through a mistake and you learnt so much about who you are and thats incredible!
Sounds like you had a dark night of the soul and have come out of the other side with a story to tell.
Thanks for sharing your story. I remember watching your original "coming out" video with your mum some years back. It takes a lot of courage to change course, and publicly. Best wishes to you.
I see a beautiful person who has, like many of us, learned something valuable from having made decisions that were not right for us in the long run. Keep taking good care of yourself now.
Congratulations on finding yourself, Calvin. No doubt, this well done video will help other young people grappling with gender identity issues. You are a very handsome and articulate young man. Wishing you the very best.
Well written. I concur.
People were never your friends. They were using you as confirmation of their delusion. Real friends should want the best for you, what will make you happy. You don't want these people.
THIS.
Truth
what is so striking to me right off the bat is the difference between the two videos. Energy level was so jacked up high and dare I say almost valley girl acted in the "girl" videos, and the now detrans video/interview is calm and collected.
That's just your misogyny showing tbh
Maybe not necessarily misogyny, but rejection of stereotypical feminine attributes.
I see it. There’s something calmer about the more recent videos. Happier, more peaceful maybe.
@@nadjak3410 you make 0 sense... I do not know if people close to you coddle you or what... but you need to leave your bubble and grow up! I believe in Universal Goddess Earth Creation Destruction FEMALE POWER. I can be like The Empress to Kali depending on my mood. I know what that is from every fiber of my being... do you? I can not imagine the ignorance to come on here and say something SO DUMB! cRAzY.
He's obv changed and got older so his personality did change too and got calmer i dont think that has anything to do with detransitioning
It must be liberating to finally find out who you are meant to be. You tried being a woman, it was not right for you and you then detransition. You are a very handsome young man. ❤️❤️
Thank you for being brave, speaking up, and sharing your story. ❤
My god you're BEAUTIFUL AF!!!!!!
Glad you're back to your own self. Stay beautiful and know you're blessed.
I started transitioning at 28 and called it off at 38. I lived as a gay man and I never fit into that identity. I was always feminine and people always treated me differently because they could see the difference in me. I called it off because it was extremely difficult trying to reach my goals. Between the expenses, my fathers crap genes that made hair removal impossible, and my mother passing away suddenly I threw in the towel. Not because I’m not still trans, but because emotionally and financially I couldn’t fight anymore. I’m on a journey at nearly 41 trying to love myself as I am. I don’t regret starting down the path because I learned so much. Gender is deeply personal and I don’t blame other trans people for turning back. It’s hard and society is ignorant af. I wish we made space for more gender expressions and maybe people wouldn’t feel the need to transition in the first place.
Who *needs* to transition? Feminine men and masculine women have always been around.
@threearrows2248 it's not the same thing.
Can we ever consider the elephant the room? Why the explosion of this problem?
Okay, wait… Is the elephant “There are only 2 genders,” OR “Males can’t become women” (&vice versa), OR “homosexuality is a demonic spirit OF Deception,”… What 🐘?? Help pls🤔
There was always the space for gender expressions. It is called individualism. Be yourself and do the things you want to do in the body of your birth. Love who you are.
Rejected not by a community but by a cult.
✝️Please look to the Bible new testament and teachings from Our Lord and Savior. Don’t take it from me read on your own. Pray that God will give you discernment when you read. God is with you on this journey. Even if you think he is not. He will never leave you. You will not always like what the truth is but, remember the truth will set you free and you know that deep down. That community rejected you because you wanted to change back is patently hypocritical. You’re a handsome young man. You seem to be trying very hard to accept the truth about yourself. Godspeed.
Well said 👏🏽
thank you for sharing your story. I saw my daughter go through something similar when she wanted to identify as a male, but so much of it was just about trying to figure out who she was. Adopted, biracial, living abroad, child of the divorced parents. It was very confusing time for her, and gender was one thing she could look at that was concrete. Now she’s decided to accept that she’s a woman and even is changing her name back. But I think it’s just normal process that she went through. I told her that when I was young woman, we all wanted to be men because men were powerful. We wore big shoulder pads, and had big hair and were jerks because we thought that was where the power was. I never felt like I fit into any community until I became a parent. And it was my children who affirmed my identity and who loved me for who I was. Now they’re growing up and moving on so I have to embrace the love that they’ve given me and now love myself for who I am. I’m almost 60 so I’m very happy to know that you are doing it sooner. God bless you.
and thank you for sharing yours♥ and i guess, here comes mine ;) im 64 and breathed your same air. I wanted to be a boy as a young girl and to this day feel most comfortable in the androgenous fashion of the 80's (toned down though, as in jackets but no more skinny ties - they've ruined that - i don't want to look like i'm trying to be a man:( and like you, having children helped me to find myself as a woman and mother. I had home births and breastfed :) and to think, if i were young today, in this atmosphere of propaganda and so much 'affirming', i would have most likely lopped off what fed my children so beautifully. i prayed for 2 boys and was blessed. i feared trying to raise a girl. kudos to you 1000 times for getting your daughter through hard times and back from the brink. hugs and kisses to you both xoxo
Thank you for giving me, a 48 year old straight Danish woman, an insight to this… I think you’re very courageous for telling us your story and for giving yourself the chance to truly be this beautiful you. Lots of love and admiration from me! ❤
Oh lordy. What have you been through? Such a lovely young man...yes a man ! A gentle caring soul , flamboyant for sure, and nothing wrong there! Keep strong on your true path. Those who really love and care for you will continue to do so. The rest.....dust in the wind ! ❤
A fact, many beautiful women sometimes hide themselves from the attention they always get. Many are followed in stores, approached at times they just want to be alone and you just get tired of all the advances. But everyone is beautiful to someone. MUCH LOVE TO YOU
Yes; im an average, maybe “below average,” because of being fat, and I even would stay large due to sexual trauma at a young age; and wanting to “hide.”
@@SHope-rq1hc hmmm, I didn't know "that" was w.anting to hide
Yes my friend is a model & she will wear baggy clothes & put her hair away so she doesn’t get bothered.
It’s called camouflage and females in nature do it all the time.
I'm not beautiful, 51 years old and last week a drunken guy tried to follow me into the toilet stall and then hung around 10 minutes in front of the door, telling me he wanted to lick my pussy until I called the cops...
What a handsome man he is😇 I wish you deep healing. It is not easy to look back at who you were and all the foolish decisions you made, I know I still choke up when I look back. But I take comfort in knowing that God allowed it to happen and so it must be part of the plan and journey for my life. Things will make more sense when we find out why we were born and specifically in this generation, when we discover our high calling. All the mistakes we made all the way to discover who we are, all of those will make sense as we BECOME.
I wish you all the best brother ❤🙏🏽🇿🇦
God bless...beautifully said
Wow! such a well done video. It’s very informative and educational! Cheers and thank you.
Hey!
You're not alone Calvin, there's others of us just like you out here in the world! I enjoyed getting this very personal look into your journey & saw many similarities to my life experiences. Truly the journey "within" is the key to the whole process of growing as a human being. I'm so glad you found your way to more clarity about yourself & becoming comfortable with who you are. You're an inspiration even to an old queen like myself who has 40 years on you. I came out of my transition phase in my late 20s & early 30s, that was in the early 1990s & our story is very much the same. I was clueless about what I was doing, but as soon as I stopped, I became a pariah to my community & I had to restart my life for the third time, but that last time I had discovered my personal strength & self worth originated from within myself. Somehow the journey brought me to my authentic effeminate gay male self & I could see myself clearly & my relationship with my self has only blossomed. So all the hardships & being ridiculed & thrown away by my so-called supportive community saved me. I was standing on the precipese of body modification & I barely escaped unscathed. I have few physical damages, while my deepest & most painful memories are sourced from the alienation of my once supportive community, they left the most mental & spiritual scars upon my psyche. I have had to reinvent myself & find a whole new community & family, which was hard, but I continue to grow from believing in my self rather than looking for acknowledgement from outside world. My personal power is sourced from my inner work & I keep an eye out for others who have done the work of self-examination & have gotten comfortable with their flaws & accepting of others for where they are in their personal journeys. Great job Calvin! If you're ever in NYC hit me up, I've always got a lasagna in the oven & fresh brewed iced tea in the fridge and you are more than welcome to come over for a kiki.❤😂
What a lovely person you are. You may have lost friends but there are people out here who will love you for who you really are...a sensitive and conscious being ❤
YES! "...a sensitive and conscious BEING". (But they were never his friends, unfortunately.)
Thanks for sharing that. What a beautiful man.
Glad you transitioned back. I feel it is definitely something most will grow out of. You seem more content and secure with yourself.
What a beautiful being. I'm so glad he found a path forward that is physically and psychologically healthy.
You are brave and strong and handsome. Those that can turn their backs on you like that are not true friends. You are who you are in the body you are born in, we are all different in our own ways.
you are a very strong person! I hope you keep sharing your story because I think it could really help a lot of people! thank you
thank you for posting this. i am desisted and stories like these are what gave me the clarity to do so.
The main thing is that you are happy kn your own skin. I'm happy you are feeling good about yourself in the body you were born in and I would've been happy if you only felt this if you fully transitioned. Im pretty sure it was tough to try to figure out who you are and then being rejected when you realised you're not who you thought you were. I'm really sorry you had to go through all that and I always wish to be present when I hear such stories to provide support.
You are beautiful inside and out, don't ever forget that. Sending you hugs and kisses!
The truth is that it can be like a cult. It starts with love bombing and the extremer you go the more respect you get. Till you want something else you get kicked out and find yourself alone again. You are brave lad I hope you really will find what you looking for ❤
yes, i agree - it ticks all the boxes of a cult
I applaud you for having the courage to truly align yourself with your Soul, irrespective of the perceptions of others and risking being isolated. That goes both ways, transitioning, then detransitioning. Thank you for this excellently produced short doc on your journey towards self-discovery. People should be allowed the freedoms to explore without judgement.
They almost got my bro….🤝 congratulations brother.
Thank god he had that DOG in him
It is possible that growing up people were jealous of your beauty
It's so not about "other people" I'm afraid you missed the jewel of knowledge that Calvin provided in this video.
Everyone has a journey of self discovery, your life took a detour but now you seem happy. I hope. I don't mind when people share their detrans stories because they are important to hear!! You weren't bashing it or saying you were 'tricked' into it or flat out saying being trans is bad like others online. Thank you for sharing!
No one should feel ashamed of what they do or how they feel this is why GOD allows us to be here to make CHOICES in our own lives ❤ Thanks for sharing your story 🙏
I say this with love in my heart. If you have read the Bible then you know the reason we are here is to follow Jesus and spread the gospel. I am in infancy on my path to get a better real relationship with my Lord and Savior. I wish anyone reading this to have hope and to seek and find Jesus. ❤
This is a lie! God kill an entire city of Gay people. What Bible are you reading
You went inward and it really shows. the calm, confidence, self assurance that doesn't need to be loud is hard to come upon. Very happy for you and thank you for sharing yourself - all versions! I hope you feel as gorgeous as you look !! ❤
sidenote but you are FINE as Calvin. and you are incredibly brave for sharing this part of your journey. I'm glad this popped up on my timeline ❤ I'm praying you find the peace, joy, and love you're looking for. God loves you & always has. you're very special in this world. thanks for sharing
Mad respect for the vulnerability (honesty) in this whole video for what must be such a personal topic. Thanks for sharing!
You are a unique being and very good looking. Please be what you are the happiest, you don’t need others to qualify you as a lovely person. I am a 73 year old granny and I think you are so handsome.
Welcome back. Spread the word. The actions you take now for truth will give your life more meaning than being "trans" ever could.
Bless you on your journey. Powerful story.
Bless your heart, sweetie! You are brave, and I hope it helps others. Have a lovely life - you deserve it. PS I am a 76 year old woman, but I still think you are gorgeous 😂😂😂 some things never leave you!
You are a beautiful..... Human Being! That is first and foremost. And YESSSS.... you are an abSOULutely handsome and beautiful MAN!! Embrace your precious essence, for it is of inestimable value! Let no one EVER tell you different. 💖
As a well-adjusted gay man, I'm considered a transphobe because I dare say I was confused too once. I didn't have the social pressure back then to have to perform, and mutilate or medicate a mental health issue as is the case now, and good old fashioned talk therapy is what got me to a place of quiet authentic pride. 🌈💛🙏🌍🕊
Remember, this is A story of many, this is a particular experience, this isnt every person's experience. Let people be and experiment, let people BE!
Be happy that they "throw you out" of this harrasment/toxic community..I honestly love bi, gay, trans people..but its way better to have people around you and in your life that accept you and love you when you found your way to be happy with the life you have choosen, not what they want you to be.
"We" (the natural born ones, that are often called cis :P ) are happy to have you in our lifes..Even i am living a bit far away in switzerland..I just want you to know that we are out there :)
I've been hearing so many sad stories about transitioning and detransitioning, most have be full of regrets. You would be such an inspiration to many who felt like you did and you could be such a good mentor to those who are thinking about transitioning. Most times people just need to feel like they are truly heard and that who they are is more than enough. But these centers that encourage people to go through the process are not there to empower people who feel most vulnerable and disempowered, but, rather, they are there to make a profit for medical centers, all the while ruining young lives.
I think life's journey is never easy, but being your true self is validation of who and what you are. Gentle man is something to be proud of.
It is so very evident that your journey has brought you to a place of self love and acceptance.
Thank you for putting this out there. Much love to you.❤
This is what the Cass Review was all about. People need GOOD therapy more than they need affirmation and HRT. Only after really understanding why you don’t want to be in the body you’re in should you even consider something as radical as transitioning.
Good on you for sharing your story. No-one has to transition and certainly not for others' expectations. If it isn't right for you, no need to continue. You are beautiful as you are--however you choose.
Congratulations 👏🏾 don't let anyone make you feel low because you see clearly. This was a good testimony
Dear Calvin, you made the decision that you felt was best for you. You are beautiful, so……keep living, keep learning and most of all keep loving you.
Thank you for sharing your story and for being so brave. Hard to believe people stopped being friends with you because you found your true self. Trust me you're better off without them. Stay authentic and know that you deserve better!
Thank you for sharing your story very interesting! ❤
I'm in my 40' transitioned 20+ years ago before internet and influence of social media. I feel this younger generation has made it more of a social statement and transitioning and not struggling with gender dysphoria! Best of luck hun! ❤
I think young people looking for an answer for all the problems that come with being young are seeing this as it.
The older generation had to find it the younger gen are getting it shoved down their throats.
One reason people should wait until they’re at least 25 to make any irreversible changes to their bodies. Not just trans related changes, but any, including when people have extreme gauge piercings on their face or have a bunch of plastic surgeries to make themselves look like a reptile, among others.
I think it's so important to know that the problems & issues you have prior to transitioning will still be there after. It's not an answer
I've been gender fluid but never full trans, just little things but never that far, I just can't, the female body and mind cannot be duplicated. I'm happy being fluid, its like working grom home, you're out there but within your own gender/body.
I love that you said it's about going within and that journey brought you back to your boy self. Nothing wrong with that. Thank you
transgirl here and in my opinion u are an important part of the community, you also don’t make anyone look bad but you are living your authentic truth which is what the community should be all about..
Opening up about this all deserves respect, young man. I don't think I could ever share vulnerable parts of my life so publicly. However, this topic is an important one to share, because there may be many young people out there who go through a crisis of their identity. The gender is never the problem. No, the problems are often much, much deeper. And some may unconsciously use gender to avoid dealing with the real problems. So dealing with the inner healing and redemption should be top priority. Fun fact from developmental psychology: teenagers do not possess the ability of reflective learning yet. This comes with age, actually. Around the age of 19/20 we start developing the ability to reflect on our past and learn from it and he also experience healing. Many blessings and Shalom on your journey. ❤
You are a BEAUTIFUL human being either way, but I’m glad to see that you’re happy in the body you were born in. That’s your body, it should feel like home.
I know it hurts to be different (Black in a world of predominately white people) but that’s what makes you even MORE special, you aren’t the norm. I also grew up Black in a predominantly white neighborhood and I know it can be painful.
Good for you for embracing yourself and I wish you all the best on your inner journey.
God, that was disturbing! ...but great that he came to his senses!
such a good looking guy it wouldve been a shame if that was lost
I was thinking exactly the same thing - makes a much better man than a woman.
Not the point
You´re brave to share your journey to understand who you are. You tried what was available and seend reasinable at the time. Somenthings wasn't for you, others you still carrie within, and learned from it. Thank you for telling your story. Wish you best!
Happy you have accepted yourself, wish you the best in your journey
I’ve had to watch this twice because it’s so important, thank you for sharing your story ❤
beautiful man. transitioning and de-transitioning is all your journey. There surely will be a better community awaiting you that fits who you are a want to be and that accepts all the changes that that entails.
Thankyou so much for posting this. Shout out to Liverpool!
You are gorgeous and strong. Sad your community has turned on you~their loss. Stay strong!
Any man or woman who has the guts to go on the path of discovery to find themselves and their original sex is incredibly powerful. Withstanding and rising far above peer pressure to find your truth is what life is all about. Hats off to you Calvin!! Hats off for not joining the queer rat race or any rat race for that matter. Just be you without the cliches, cults, trends, and material pressures.
It looks like you have a new community here by sharing yourself. When we change, things around us must change too and that's what you learned and sometimes it's hard. Your journey was meant to show you who you really are and you can decide who that is, at any moment, at any time and be proud❤.
Oh my god you are BEAUTIFUL! Your smile and your features are otherworldly. They are what people go in to have cosmetic surgery to look like. Much love to you on your journey 🙏🏼
Bless you in your journey; you are an example for many. You are beautiful before and after, and there are so many people that need to know that. Your story will help so many others! My friend who was a drag queen, but living as a feminine gay man just passed away 2 weeks ago. I loved him like no other, and my children & family did as well. It's hard & I understand from a different perspective. 🙌🏽🙏🏽❤️
That says a lot that immediately once you detransitioned, that the "community" rejected you. Its like they only care about you if you fit one thing but then once you actually find your own truth and authenticity they immediately feel threatened by that (because many of them are also probably just confused) and shut you out. They're clinging to an identity for dear life thinking it makes them suddenly whole and worthy so anything that questions that or places doubt is immediately rejected by the ego. That means it's not really a community of love but a community of fear, ego and "us vs. them" mentality.
so wish the mainstream would share stories like yours!! ~ so important during these times (the 2020's)
Sometimes the idea(s) we run towards to is not the “logical” place to go. We grow, love,heal in G-D’s Time. When you take the time to think things through, that is G-d’s time moving you towards where you need to be. You are a journey, a trip, an adventure. Draw from it what you will, learn, love and accept who you are. As an outsider looking in, you are perfect. You have always been. You just needed time to realize it. Enjoy the ride, the journey, the trip, it’s meant to teach you about yourself. You’re smarter today than you were yesterday and more beautiful now, than before. I wish you continued success, always.
I don't believe in heros since I woke up to this hell hole in 2020 but you are a low key hero for speaking out. May our true Creator guide and protect you and the spirit of Truth and Love go with you. Thank you for sharing ❤
Thank you for being so open about this, sending you love xx
It sounds like those fair weather friends were just using you. The people who really matter, the ones who love you will stick by you through thick and thin. You’re a good looking lad and now that you are more comfortable with who you are I am sure you will be fine. You survived some turmoil but you’ve made it through now. You know who you are.
I am happy that your Journey got you to truly see yourself. I wish you all the best, and that you find the peace, hope and love you seek. Thank you for sharing your story because there is someone that is out there that needs to hear it. I pray for many blessings for you.
If society accepted that some men are naturally feminine and some women are naturally masculine we wouldn't have so many people trying to "transition". A lot of these transitions is rooted in trauma.
Society accepts that. The ones transitioning are the ones who don’t accept it
@@nono86753 No they don't. A lot of people still don't accept feminine guys at all
@@danielsabr3822untrue, but whatever...
It's such a brave decision you've made. Both the choice to transition and then the choice to detransition, even though it meant admitting that you were wrong about yourself - which is so hard to accept.
I'm sad to hear that the people who preach about knowing yourself and being true to yourself are now shaming you for it. Keep being you :) Keep finding out more about yourself. Thanks for sharing!
You are perfect. Don't stop. Your voice is needed. The bravest thing anyone can do is stand alone in self mastery.
Honey you are one beautiful man! Congratulations on finding yourself and may God bless you on your journey ❤
You are so handsome..happy you didn't go to far in your transition..u gave urself time to grow and evolve..God bless you
We came here to stand out,not fit in.
Our physical body is the most fragile of all our bodies.
We are sould who have a physical body,a mental body,a emotional body,a metaphysical body.
All this focus on our physical body is programming ,we are way way more than flesh.
Peace love and innerstanding to one and all❤
You've been through so much and all I see is a strong, handsome man who is shining with his light. If you were my friend I'd be very proud of you. God bless you dear. Sending you lots of love ❤❤❤❤❤❤
❤❤❤ Jesus saved my life. Let Him find you and heal all your wounds. Have your identity in Christ. He is the only way. He brings freedom, love and peace.
What a wise soul you are. To look back now and see how you were conned must be so hard. Gosh just look at you now.
love seeing you seeing the beauty in yourself!!! congrats on this journey. you are learning more about yourself and it is so beautiful to come back to yourself
You're making sense and obviously thinking in a more rational way and with understanding as an adult... its a shame that so many go through similar experiences. I wish you all the best and all the hope and exceptance you wish for in your bright future. Xxx
I thank God for turning you back to who He created you to be!
That’s why in my country you gotta go through transition with medical and psychological supervision, no matter if you choose the public health system or decide to go private medical care. Surgery is only allowed after a minimum of three years of ambulatory treatment. Doing so will allow you be sure about your gender identity. Trans ppl do exist, but not all effeminate gay man is trans…
You are absolutely gorgeous (and you were beautiful as a woman as well, honestly), but I'm happy that you are finally feeling comfortable in your own skin.
There's nothing like the real thing!
I really hope you found peace now. Wishing you a wonderful loving journey ❤