FTM Transition: 5 Years on Testosterone Picture/Timeline
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 20 ม.ค. 2014
- I began taking testosterone on January 21, 2009! Today is my 5 year anniversary!
Please read below for a short essay that talks about this video :)
*Music in the background is just a simple long guitar jam sesh I played & recorded while streaming the video.
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5 Years On Testosterone (you can read the full essay here: skylark11.tumblr.com/post/7407...)
I just wanted to clarify one thing with this 5 year reflection; it was a lot of hard work to get to where I am now, and testosterone only assisted me a fraction in that. Testosterone didn't put muscles on this frame, pushing iron and running miles did. Testosterone didn't put a permanent smile on my face -- this past summer, in June of 2013, after years of struggling to find an inner happiness, I found myself standing on a cliff next to the ocean, my arms spread wide, feeling the wind on my back and smiling to myself as I realized I finally felt whole, at peace, and happy. That is what has made everything worth it -- that moment that I bring with me every day. I would not change anything.
Thank you all, my family, friends, and followers for everything!
And I am still making videos, do not ever worry ;)
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For any trans people watching, the way he binds his chest in the photograph is not a safe way to bind. If you want to bind without the risk of damaging your ribs, wear a professional chest binder, made by trans people, not one has from ace bandages. Bandages don't allow you to breathe properly, and you can run the risk of lung damage, or not being able to have top surgery later,
Isaac Shoffren he’s more gone than yo’ ass!
I'm transgender and not out to my parents yet (as transgender) I've been binding my chest with ace bandages for 2 years now. Because of this I can't breathe properly. But I have no way to get an actual chest binder without my mum finding out
@@dootdoot94xo44 nobody asked mate
@@dootdoot94xo44 look transphobic person fuck off and get off these videos. We're all human beings we all feel the same emotions and we should all treat each other as human beings. I'm not saying you have to support trans I'm saying you should keep your mouth shut this world already has enough negativity in it. Trans people are trying to be happy with them selves instead of waking up every morning hating what they see. It isn't wrong for them to want to be happy. You should try to be happy and live your own life. Instead of worrying about what they're doing with themselves because it's not affecting your life in a negative way. It's pretty sad that you have to life your life in fear of what their doing with their lives. Just worry about yours.
Lost Benevolence that’s so wrong in so many ways but let’s ignore that and focus on the fact that it has nothing to do with you.
Let people live.
If they’re happy when they look in the mirror, they have done the right thing and in the end, no one will listen to you.
If they are happy when they look in the mirror, then they shouldn’t care what you think.
If they are happy when they look in the mirror, they are happy, and it doesn’t matter how they got there.
LET THEM LIVE
Weird thing to say but I love ur nose
xD
Same
I was gonna say that toooo!
ew
Dan lol
Dude, congratulations. You look hot, you feel hot, and that's all that matters. Keep goin' dude.
@@jacobpankratz8084 He's a man
Torrin Ashley literally by no sense of the word
@@jacobpankratz8084 You seem to not know what being trans means 😂😂😂
Torrin Ashley i understand in her brain she is but..... her body is wired female
Torrin Ashley just like yours is. so easy to spot you "guys"
He smiled so much more after transitioning
Before I saw this I heard the word transexual and say "that's not supposed to happen" or some other ignorant saying but now my opinion is completely turned around. Thanks for sharing this video dude.
trista kell bullshit!
I’m so happy you kept an open mind!
Wonderful!
Thank you for understanding! It’s not like we choose to be trans lol I hope you have a very good life!
Irock 56 get a life 😂
You are an incredibly attractive human being. Just overall, good looking, great personality, great heart, and just such an awesome person. :)
Spongebob gangstapants Oh grow up!
Bailey C. Good thing Hank used male pronoun :')
but i dont think so, myupupismup
I've been watching a lot of these ftm transition videos and its helped me clear something up. I've always had a curiousity of what it would be like as a man but I'm definitely not transgender. I think for me personally if I say had another life one in which I could choose which gender I'd be I would be a guy in a heartbeat. however I'm 100% happy as a girl and wouldn't consider myself a man. for me these videos have been really helpful. so thank you for taking the time to make this.
I don't know how to feel. If you can help me understand please do. I am a girl but I feel like I was just supposed to be a boy. But I don't know if I I should be become trans. I am so confused
@@josiesmith6490 Do more research or just take ur time to think about it. Either way, just *never* pretend to be someone you're not! If you don't feel like you're being true to yourself, find the reason!
@@junxo00 thank you for the advice. I am finally starting to accept myself for who i am am (a girl). And things are getting better for me
This comment is exactly how I feel
Yo me too sometimes I’m just like “wow I wish I didn’t have boobs they suck and get in the way” and then I remember that having balls would be worse because they just get caught in everything and I have stupid sleep positions
Thank you for explaining your transition. My daughter expresses the same feelings. As a parent I understand more her inner feelings. I have always supported her lifestyle. She came out to me when she was 14 and I love her unconditionally to this very day and now understand the transition journey she is willing to undertake. I'll be right there to support her through it all. God Bless you and Thank You for your story.
you must be an awesome parent ! i wish mine were like that
parents like you are what kids really need. i wish i had parents like you.
i came out to my parents when i was 15, was treated poorly, and have been "back in the closet" since. my only hope for being who i really am is moving out. and idk when that'll happen, i feel hopeless
@@levvywatch hold on, things change. I didn t know i was going to move out of my parents house one week before i did! So...it was 31 yrs ago and i never had to go back to ppl who didn t love me. Met friends, went on...so hd on. And as a parent, i send u a virtual hug. Yours have a problem, and the problem IS NOT yours, or you. Let them deal with it. They should be proud to have a child with a strong soul!
I'm pre-T and I watch this video when I feel hopeless.
Thank you so much for posting this UuU
same bro i'm pre-t too, this video really is inspiring huh
Emilie Smith what you on bout -_-
my mom’s homophobic :/
Thank you so much for sharing your story, dude! For people questioning or living in stealth this is a valuable resource. People need to see these stories. To see that it is possible to be who you truly are, and that you can be happy with yourself.
Thanks for having the bravery. No joke. It's extremely empowering.
Cheers!
I am who I am ... I am female ... and I love it...!!! I feel sexy etc... I love it ..!!! I am Gods Queen ... I love men and I love my King God..!! I am not trans ..!!!!!! With make up the n my face etc.. and all made up ... it’s obvious I am a 100 percent real girl ..!! Now go on ...who ever u r ... my ex hubby ..? Just stop ..!
I am not Transgender...!!!!!! I love myself ... I love real men .. hung big ... like 10 in a room for hours .. on end .. fantasy of mine !!! Truth ..!!!!!!!
The Rock Critic as he said that i was reading this. i agree this. :))
@@emiliesmith9403 wtf
What a beautiful young man. I love this video. A proof for transgender people that they can be happy the way they are.
Simona Omina, all transgender people are entitled to be happy, just like everyone else. :)This lad is amazing.
Simona Omina SHE SHE SHE 😡
Mr. Error quit being a sensitive little brat.
My channel is dead Rip in pieces I'm quite good-looking and no neck beard here. i live in LA if you wanna see in person
jacob pankratz sure I can waste time and money to see human garbage ;))) just give me a date to arrive there.
He looks like Evan Peters a little bit
THISSS
Love the video. You're a very inspirational person. Also love your guitar in the background. One of the few TH-cam vloggers who can perform his own background music. Thanks for posting this. Cheers!
thank you so much! i had fun doing a little jam session to this heh :) cheers as well!
skylarkeleven Wait you live in Vermont??
skylarkeleven Wait you live in Vermont??
This is the video that made me realize that I was transgender 4 years ago. I remember sitting in my room, crying my eyes out as I watched- because I knew that after learning that transitioning was possible, the course of my life was about to change. And it did.
4 years later I sit here in an airbnb, propped up by pillows as I am 4 days post top surgery, 2 years on t- watching this video again, reflecting on this journey.
I want to thank you for sharing your journey online so eloquently. You gave me hope- a face to put in the light at the end of the tunnel. Reminding me that I can be normal, happy, creative, free- that being trans does not make me unworthy. It makes me strong.
Your video has just been published by a Brazilian website and I am very happy to have met its history, congratulations on who you are!
Will certainly help many people here in Brazil.
kisses
I finally found this video again. I remember watching this back in 2015 and really feeling something but didn't know what it was, now i've figured out my identity too and i have to say that i'm eternally grateful. Thank you for helping me, and i'm sure a lot of other people feel the same way. :)
same happened to me but with Ty Turners 1 year video xD
As the Mom of an awesome 10 year old F2M son, I so appreciate you being so open, active and willing to share your journey with others Much love!
Lauren Stone 10?! They can’t chose yet
Dear mother, why would you allow this mental sickness and preposterous ideas to enter your home and attack your children. I'm not even hating on you, but shame on you, and I feel really sorry for your poor daughter.
Your story is so beautiful, I'm so happy and proud of you :)
Congrats that's amazing. I identify as the gender I was born with but it's a very harsh and gray world out there, nothing's black or white. I just find it amazing how a persons body can transition like that. You're a very handsome boy and wish you the best of luck with your journey!
Just starting my own journey. Thank you for the inspiration.
Garnet Belial best of luck to you, my friend!
So how's your journey going, my friend?
Congratulations I’m glad you’re happy I’m actually starting therapy and testosterone I’m starting my transition and I’m 14 I’m happy it worked out for u
you have time to stop it
you always had a masculine face, even when you tried to be feminine
I don't see why people are discriminated for who they want to be. If they want to be gay let them if they want to be a guy/girl let them who are we to say that it's wrong? Let them be who they want to be.
You dont 'want' to be gay you either are or arent
@@thoraneh7365 or you're bi or pan or something like that
You're talking about it as if people chose their sexualities.
Your story was so beautiful. You're so strong and an amazing person. This was very inspiring as a pre-T transman.
this was beautiful to watch!!
Superb production. I'm so happy for you and feel sure that many others will benefit from your amazing journey.
I’m happy too for you and I wish you more happiness on this road you’ve chosen. Good luck sweetie and may you only find peace on your journey🌹
You are who you are.
Agreed
Kaisar Dragon And hes one handsome man
Thank you for sharing this. I've followed you on tumblr for a few years now and it's nice to know your back story. :)
Not gonna lie, I cred at the end! You're the best! Always so positive...I just adore you! x
I'm not trans*, and I have no experience with the trans* community, aside from just being an ally, so I can't relate to this personally. However, I found it was impossible to watch this without a huge smile on my face, because I'm just so glad you have such a supportive family and community and that you were able to take the steps you needed to take to be happy and to be comfortable in your own skin. I wish more people's stories sounded like yours -- maybe then the suicide/attempt rate wouldn't be so high among this population (or the LGBT population, in general). Thank you for sharing your story! Wishing you continued happiness! :)
I watched your video a few times. I truly admire your courage and also admire the support you received from your family. I wish you the very best. Continue to be happy and comfortable. Your an amazing young man.
Great video, inspirational story. I have so much respect for people who put this kind of thing in the public domain, you're helping a lot of people in society who need to know that they're not 'weird' or alone. Amazing.
Lana Lee ur a dr?
Love this man. In love.
Gio Marchetti are you gay
The game hub !!, lesbian*
Emilie Smith, wtf ???
My daughter/son just came out to me a week ago. He is 13 FtM. The bravery and beauty of this child has me in awe. I am so proud of the person they are becoming! It all makes so much sense now.
I wish all people suffering with this can be as positive and as happy as you.
You have a hell of a heart. Keep spreading your story and loving life. I hope that if someday I come across a child I do thearpy with, I can show them your vids so they know they are not alone.
Shawna Parsons We have the same second names
this is a fantastic and super inspiring video!
I also could relate since we are the same age and had the same timeline with school and I thought about where I was in my life while I was looking at where you were in your life, made it all the more real.
thank you for making this video!
also you are incredibly attractive :p
You are such an inspiration! Good going, and it's great to see you living the happy life of your dreams!
I think your smile in your recent pictures says it all. Congrats to you and wishing you a very happy life x
I am so happy for you, Skylar!
Wow! I'm so impressed with your attitude, I wish you all the best!!
Such an inspiring story.
Congrats on your wonderful journey, Skylar!
Had to come back to this video, I start testosterone in three weeks. I remember watching this vid a few years ago (when it had that chill song on it and wasn't narrated) despite feeling happy and motivated by your transition, I was also sad because I felt like testosterone was so far away for me. Thanks man, you've helped me more than you'll ever know.
you are such an inspiration to me and loads of people!
Proud of you man. That's one hell of a life you're living.
awww you’re adorable!!! proud of you for doing this!! it is a lot easier. happy 10 years!! 🎉💜
I first saw this when I was in high school after finding Skylar's blog on tumblr with my friend, and I'll never be able to express how grateful I am for coming across such a beautiful person. Your story is something I desperately needed to hear. Thank you for posting this
This video came across my recommended feed, (probably because I watch a ton of make up videos, including male makeup artists) and this was the first video of yours I've watched. I have to say this was beautiful. I am so happy you for you and I don't even know who you are lol. Is that weird? Haha. I just had to comment because I'm sure you get a ton of hate. Just know not everyone thinks this is "wrong" or that you should stay female because "that's how you were born". You are male, by heart. And that's all that matters. Much love, Skyler. From Texas
I am so happy for you! I am a straight ally, cis woman. I have been trying to educate myself about trans people to better understand what your journey is like. And so I can be better educated when I stand up for the rights of the LGBT+ community!
Thank you for being an ally 🌈
An ally? What does that even mean? Who's the enemy? Lol
thank you for sharing your story. Not only was your story great, but the way you did the video was nicely done.
I just watched this video. A friend of mine recommended I watch your channel. I have to say, I really feel inspired by what I saw in this video. I have never felt comfortable in my female body, yet I have been afraid to stand up for myself and say what I feel. I know I am mentally a male, I just have a physically female aspect. Seeing how much you did to get what you truly felt was you and how much you love that you did it was really amazing for me to watch. It empowers me to want to take more steps into the transformation of my current physical state into one I wish to have. I just wanted to thank you for being out there in the world and sharing all of this on TH-cam for people like me to watch and feel more comfortable with how they truly feel. :)
Geez! You have your sh*t together at such a young age. Very inspiring. Keep sharing your amazing life story and that incredibly positive attitude. Congrats!
Very inspiring :) glad you're living the life that makes you happy, as all people should
I love the way you narrated this. Watching a vid with just explanatory text and some music can be really annoying to try to follow, but this was so engaging. Also love your hand print tattoo!
Thank you for sharing your story. I am so amazed and happy, sad yet inspired by such an important part of your life story!
I couldn't help but cry tears of joy by the end, I am so happy that you were able to love yourself and find acceptance and purpose in your life!
Your definitely an inspiration to me!! I wish I could get top surgery and maybe start on T too. You rock dude!!!
This makes me so happy idk why :,). It was on my recommended and I’m glad I clicked, awe!
Love your profile pic! 😍 BEBOOO!
I've watched this over the years quite a few times. Internally when I do I just feel such warmth, hope...strength, really for my future. thank you for sharing.
Three days till 7 years! So happy for you! You inspired me! :) So much love your way!
You are one handsome man!
Not only that. You are inspirational and amazing.
So incredibly beautiful. Thank you for sharing your journey with the world. I wish you a wonderful future with continued happiness, always.
Watching this when your on 10 year mark, way to go man! You made this far, keep going at the fullest. Never give up never back down.
Thanks so much for sharing your story :) It's awesome seeing you so much more confident and happy as you continue along your journey. All the best!
Congratulations on becoming who you were meant to be! :-)
Who could have possibly been the one person to dislike this!!!
your video have inspired me so much, you even gave me hopes, thank you Skylar for making this video.
keep it up man!!! (:
Your video has helped me begin to change my views in a positive way. Good luck!
You look marvelous!
thank you so much for sharing your story! it's so inspirational
Thank you for sharing your story, Skylar. Very inspiring.
Really enjoyed the video😊. Wish you an awesome and exciting life you deserve it man.
he is handsome
You are awesome.
your story is very similar to mine, im currently in my junior year and its really interesting and im really glad you shared this. i first learned about you from arin andrews' book and i love watching your stuff and again im really glad you shared this and i just hope some day i can be like you and just. thank you so so much skylar
Thank you for this video - what a wonderful life story. Beautiful on the inside and outside. Keep rocking it, man!
"my current partner" i died a little, he's really handsome.. btw it was a bad idea to watch this at work.. i0m crying like a little baby
Watch his recent video. All his partner did was lie and it didn't work out really well
Glad to know someone else made that mistake too lol
Thank you so very Very VERY much for sharing your story with me / the world Skyler. You are an amazing young man that brings me inspiration and strength, both in the power of gender identity evolution in this world but also in knowing that I can accomplish anything I put my heart to. I am so happy you are in the best place you've ever been in, and after seeing this I only wish you to continue that awesome ride. Stay amazing, you beautiful man!
Even after a this time, I still find your story so inspiring. Truly a remarkable story and I wish all the best for you man! Massive congrats 👏
I enjoyed listening to your voice telling your journey !! Congrats man!
I try to maintain a very androgynous look because I myself am uncomfortable in my female body. No matter what I do or where I go, I always end up feeling uncomfortable in my skin. It has always felt off, but I have no other transgender friends to relate to or talk to and I'm not sure how I would handle hormones or surgery since I have two anxiety / panic disorders and I often find myself very bipolar about making the change. I always conclude with considering it, and I always argue with myself on what to do. ;-;
Thank you for sharing your story, I find myself relating to your stages before T and it pushes me all the more into figuring out who I am.
Hey! I'm late but I feel exactly the same so I wondered if you could tell me how you feel now about it ? :)
Thank you. So many tears. You are an inspiration.
I appreciate your openness and sharing your journey. Blessings along the way.
This video makes me so happy. Like I love seeing videos like this because these people are so strong and they go through so much. They shouldn’t have to go through all this just to be who they are but they do and they are so brave to be able to get through this😊
It's nice to see how many supporting people there are in the comments :) there should be no room in this world for people who discriminate
Yeah, I am completely surprised. I've read some nasty things on youtube comments, but this video seems to be attracting nothing but positive (if not slightly confused) attention.
Amazingly Beautiful!
Thanks for sharing this, Skylar!!
Congratulations!
Here's to many more happy years cheers!!
So awesome, dude! Congrats on being happy!!
You look good both genders holy shit.
Maybe he will change gender again in a few years if he gets bored.
Your videos are so feels and goosebumpy, I love it 😂
I usually don't like anything on TH-cam, but I think you really deserve a like!
You are a great inspiration for everyone, and it's great seeing someone as confident as you reviling your complete past. I wish you a lot of great, successful, and happy years ahead of you! :)
Totally of topic... but.. 2:48 I NEED YOUR DOG!!! Need the dog! You have no say in the matter, all your dog are belong to me! omg, she is sooo freaking cute!!! I love the little "slick back the ears for added adorable" factor.
Lol, in all seriousness, that is an adorable dog! American Eskimo? White Shepherd (like mine)?
You are a wonderful human being and a beautiful person
LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE your story!!! Thank you for sharing!!!
You are truly an amazing young handsome young man. By sharing your story with others that maybe going through the same rough road that you have traveled. this will be so inspirational to all the young ones that are going there these changes as well.
Wow, you are so handsome....and sooooo special. Kisses 💋💋💋
Your happiness is an inspiration to me!!
This is fantastic! Thank you for sharing your personal journey!! 🙏👏👏💕
this is so touching... thank you for sharing your story! ♥️