I fear the future so much I want to jump but never seem to have the courage. I want to escape homelessness, sickness, poverty and despair. Yet here I am still holding on.
Your words and kindness have helped me over and over during the last years. I'm 29 and went through a severe and long lasting depressive episode. Thank you so much for giving people the strength to carry on. Your channel is unique 🙏 🙋♀️😊
Thank you niki. I’m glad you came out of the depression. At the age of 29 you have your whole life ahead of you. That was the year I started to become a writer
Hey I learned a new word today, "dross"! Beautiful video, all of them are. I find that you're one of the very few mental health educators who actually gets down to the nitty gritty of depression. You're not afraid to show the ugly darkness of it and that it can be a fatal disease(suicide). You're not afraid to take it there- to explore the dark abyss with us. Your books are a treasure. You keep it real, and that is why you've been so therapeutic and helpful to so many. You know exactly what we're feeling, you've been there and survived.
Thank you for your words. They’re very beautiful. Yes, I’ve been to hell and back on more than one occasion. By the way, what books of mine do you have.
You just took the exact words from my mouth ! I wouldn't have anything else to add after reading your post, except repeating with my own words that Douglas does a formidable terapeutical job with his videos ... a formidable job !!
Wonderful Douglas. Threading Fire is a constructive way to pass the time in Hell, versus the other option that we all know, the flames ALWAYS subside, like the tides they come and go. Thanks for reminding us of this FACT.
I’ve been in the building for years, the flames just get worse. Nothing ever gets better, especially these past two years. I’ve dealt with these flames for long enough. “No mud no Lotus”-Brother Thay. I understand these messages and have read Thich Nhat Hahn’s books, but for years the mud and flames stay, no matter what I do. I have been told I’m very strong and I put up with a lot (I have many physical illnesses that have changed my life) The world around me is beyond my control, lockdown brought back my agoraphobia for the third time and I am never going out again.
Thanks Domina. You’re obviously a very strong woman. Maybe as the Covid restrictions lift you can work with a counselor or therapist and slowly learn to get back into the world. I believe you are capable of it.
@@DouglasBloch Thankyou Douglas, your videos are always a source of comfort for me. I have a psychologist and psychiatrist, but neither are very good. The only people who understand are those who have tread the fire.
@@DouglasBloch Morning from Perth, Western Australia, I’ve sufferered with depression -& anxiety my whole life, all of your videos help me in many different ways, they are really emotionally soothing , I use “this too shall pass & when going thru hell don’t stop, keep going” as my daily mantras, Thank you for all you do 💕
Thank you for sharing and thank you for caring. I can feel your pain because I also suffer from some very painful things and health issues. I hope that all of us one day do find a way to get better. I think it’s different for every person but somehow there’s something in common as well. I thought your video was very good thank you again and may we all be well. Thank you.❤
I don't know who posted the thumbs down -- I'm sure they don't even know what the word "depression" means. Wonderful metaphor. Keep up the good work. Looking forward to the next "episode".
Thank you for this video Douglas. You might not get 100,000 views regularly but the topics you cover are vast and that’s how I came to find your helpful channel
Hi Douglas great video On February 16 2015 I 3am I jumped out my bed and into the bathtub fill it up with water and put my head under and end my life I could not do it because it was hard the pain was so intense I called a cab and went to Elmhurst hospital I was fighting in hell with fire
I’m glad you’re OK now. That’s exactly when I got out of the hospital after being there for one month getting ECT treatments. It was a low point in my life but I gradually got better
For me my hell is not anxiety. It’s the losing a huge part of myself after my mental breakdown and not feeling human. Not feeling like I can even feel my morals. It’s losing such a huge part of myself and wondering if I’ll ever get it back.
I also lost a huge part of myself during my worst breakdown. But slowly it came back the brain has something called neuro plasticity which means it can heal itself. Give it time and hopefully you aren't under the care of a good mental health professional.
Yes, I run a online video chat where I answer questions about mental health recovery. The people who attend are very supportive of one another, giving each other encouragement and sometimes advice. It functions as a peer support group. If you'd like to attend, just show up at the homepage of my TH-cam channel on any Sunday at noon Pacific Coast time in the US. Click on the link when it appears.
To me it's getting to the point where I'm convinced those I love are far better off without me. I bring more suffering in their lives alive than if I were dead. What if I am not refined by this but stay only to suffer till my inevitable death.
I’m sorry that you’re in so much suffering. I have been there myself. I know people who have told me that the world would be better off without them, but that was not true. Here is something a road called “don’t believe everything your brain is telling you“. I hope you’ll find it helpful. th-cam.com/video/7_l6xmiiLXk/w-d-xo.html
@Douglas Bloch yeah the way I tread fire now is forex trading, like I am making money but I'm like also feeling like I am learning something and it takes my mind off of my depressive states. I just escape a little for at least 5 minutes, and it helps. I do agree that I am also learning that I am becoming refined as a person, I do believe there is a God I don't know which, but I know there is something out there. I am thinking about making music videos based off these depressive states and honestly I think it would help people to cope a little bit more.
@@DouglasBloch Forex trading is basically trading currency. You know when currencies are fluxuating in price, it's basically that, and you can make money from it. It's kind of like the stock market, except with currencies you have trillions of dollars going through it, but yeah. There are a lot of scammers in forex, but if you want a brief run down of it check out the moving average channel on youtube, he has gone through some hard stuff in his life and forex trades, so I love his channel. But yeah definitely gonna use the money I make to make those music videos for sure, it would probably help me and help a lot of others.
Doug I have alot of fall out from toxic ppl in my life and they destroyed almost everything. Im trying to rebuild but there is so much damage ..I quit a decent paying job .
@@DouglasBloch they told me to quit the toxic job but that lead me to much lower paying jobs some places were way less toxic but were low pay and others were still other toxic places. There isn't much more they could say. I just have to find employment suitable or or balanced to heal but it's hard to find it. Thanks
@@DouglasBloch I lost respect from my family mostly my son who couldn't understand how bad working in a prison as teacher for the state would be. There was constant strife from coworkers. I took a job in a nursing home . The people were nicer but the director is working everyone to death . So many ppl were quiting . There were nurses passing out at their computers. The director woukd wriite them up. I just quit this job for another. God keeps making me go through one hell after the other. I dont know why. I even took a job when I first quit the prison unloading trucks for $15 an hr with bad ankles. I just got another job, it's a little more monet than the nursing home but not as much as the state job. I'm 48 and worried about my retirement, I don't have one and I wasn't able to finish my MA. I feel like I hate them, the prison ppl. Wonder if they'll get karma and if things coukd ever really improve where I have enough money, more peace, more manageable work, comradry, pension and ability to finish grade school. My wife has a good job and wants to stay but there are not alot of decent jobs here for some reason . We have considered divorcing but takes two incomes to survive at least in our case. Am I cursed? Why is this keep happening to me . Why don't suitable doors open for me? How woukd you proceed? Depression isn't creating this, this is me getting depressed and anxious from the situations.
@@DouglasBloch I tried meds they increased my anxiety so I stopped and drank alcohol which lead to two duis and my age making it harder to get a decent teaching job and the competition where we live. I went to NYC Chinatown area yesterday and doing that cheered me up a little but I miss training in Kung fu but there is nobody near me in PA which depresses me further. My son complained about the traffic which caused me to not enjoy the experience fully. I coukd have gone alone but I woukd have been lonely because it's a 2.50 drive. This is why sometimes I think I woukd be better off dead too many obstacles and lots of grief. I got 2 duis and my wife has to drive me to work for a year and the only places that will hire me as a teacher are tough inner city schools 1.50 away. Good benefits but I dont need anymore stress from the commute and tough environment.
I totally agree with that. As one spiritual teacher said, “comfort puts people to sleep,” meaning that things become too easy. Without friction there is no growth.
Sir: You can't say cancel or see a way out: many times, I don't have the strength anymore after digging deep and pulling my bootstraps up over and over and over and over sacrificing all of me. When you are truly suicidal there's no " oh better call a friend" because you can't utter any words anymore. Folks get tired of you asking for help, and many of us are in the same level of pain throughout our lives. There are only so many "try again " you can muster. The pain is bad for years and years, and you have no support around: Many have left you or harned you. I have to say this because i hadn't the strength to say cancel. I just cried, and time went by still in pain. I sort of took offense to you transient attitude of this too shall pass. YOU KNOW HOW MANY TIMES I'VE BEEN.TOLD THAT!!!!! No one can advise someone who has spent a lifetime struggling. No one. I'm sorry but that felt like: " little girl..just deal with it" I honestly wish I was on that high ledge with only those 2 choices because it wouldn't look like suicide and hurt others or hurt "the family" image.
I want to press the eject button like a fighter pilot would on a crashing plane, but with my anxiety and OCD, no such button exists, just more pills and “positive thinking” bahaha. Whatever I’m still here and treading fire. I don’t give up that easy 💪
I fear the future so much I want to jump but never seem to have the courage. I want to escape homelessness, sickness, poverty and despair. Yet here I am still holding on.
Your words and kindness have helped me over and over during the last years.
I'm 29 and went through a severe and long lasting depressive episode.
Thank you so much for giving people the strength to carry on.
Your channel is unique 🙏
🙋♀️😊
Thank you niki. I’m glad you came out of the depression. At the age of 29 you have your whole life ahead of you. That was the year I started to become a writer
Hey I learned a new word today, "dross"! Beautiful video, all of them are. I find that you're one of the very few mental health educators who actually gets down to the nitty gritty of depression. You're not afraid to show the ugly darkness of it and that it can be a fatal disease(suicide). You're not afraid to take it there- to explore the dark abyss with us. Your books are a treasure. You keep it real, and that is why you've been so therapeutic and helpful to so many. You know exactly what we're feeling, you've been there and survived.
Thank you for your words. They’re very beautiful. Yes, I’ve been to hell and back on more than one occasion. By the way, what books of mine do you have.
You just took the exact words from my mouth ! I wouldn't have anything else to add after reading your post, except repeating with my own words that Douglas does a formidable terapeutical job with his videos ... a formidable job !!
...i like to see our dear Douglas smiling...🙏🏻🌹❤️...
Thank you for your words of wisdom, Dr Bloch, I am under a lot of stress lately...
You're welcome. I don't know anyone who's not under stress. Good luck.
Wonderful Douglas. Threading Fire is a constructive way to pass the time in Hell, versus the other option that we all know, the flames ALWAYS subside, like the tides they come and go. Thanks for reminding us of this FACT.
You’re welcome. I’m glad that you understand this principle
The cancel trick! Thank you!!!!
I’ve been in the building for years, the flames just get worse. Nothing ever gets better, especially these past two years. I’ve dealt with these flames for long enough. “No mud no Lotus”-Brother Thay. I understand these messages and have read Thich Nhat Hahn’s books, but for years the mud and flames stay, no matter what I do. I have been told I’m very strong and I put up with a lot (I have many physical illnesses that have changed my life) The world around me is beyond my control, lockdown brought back my agoraphobia for the third time and I am never going out again.
Thanks Domina. You’re obviously a very strong woman. Maybe as the Covid restrictions lift you can work with a counselor or therapist and slowly learn to get back into the world. I believe you are capable of it.
@@DouglasBloch Thankyou Douglas, your videos are always a source of comfort for me. I have a psychologist and psychiatrist, but neither are very good. The only people who understand are those who have tread the fire.
I basically feel the same way
You are a wonderful human being. Thank you for helping us all who are in survival mode.
You're welcome.
Oh goody, goody, goody. I can't wait. Thanks Doug
(NZ) Thank God things comes to pass, they do not come to stay!
That's a great affirmation.
Thank you, your channel helps me immensely 🌈🌈
I'm glad videos are helpful. what kind of messages have you heard that are helping you?
@@DouglasBloch Morning from Perth, Western Australia, I’ve sufferered with depression -& anxiety my whole life, all of your videos help me in many different ways, they are really emotionally soothing , I use “this too shall pass & when going thru hell don’t stop, keep going” as my daily mantras, Thank you for all you do 💕
Thank you Douglas, excellent video topic. I really like the phoenix bird in the background. Empowerment. Strength. "From this I rise" 🙏🏻🌅🌊
Thank you for sharing and thank you for caring. I can feel your pain because I also suffer from some very painful things and health issues.
I hope that all of us one day do find a way to get better. I think it’s different for every person but somehow there’s something in common as well.
I thought your video was very good thank you again and may we all be well. Thank you.❤
You’re welcome. I am holding the intention that We will both get better
So nice to have your videos. Makes me feel I am not alone in this. Others understand
I needed this...thank you!!
You're welcome.
Finding a way to turn down the heat…..that gives so much hope to all🙏 Thank you Douglas!
Happy to help
God is good what a lovely hymn.
Yes it is. You can see the entire hymn if you type in "how firm a foundation" in a Google search
I love you and your videos so much. You make peoples lives better. You make my life better
Thank you. I'm glad the videos are helpful
Thank you. 🙏🏽
You are so welcome
I found acupuncture as truly helpful to help ease depression and anxiety
So I have many people. Thanks for the tip
Thankyou again for this help.
You're welcome Susan
Wow... you give me hope, man. And congrats on surviving your own journey. Life can be really friggin tough.
Most definitely. I’ve been close to ending my life numerous times. But as I say in my memoir, “when going through Hell, don’t stop!”
I don't know who posted the thumbs down -- I'm sure they don't even know what the word "depression" means. Wonderful metaphor. Keep up the good work. Looking forward to the next "episode".
Thanks Ted for your support of my work.
Thank you for this video Douglas. You might not get 100,000 views regularly but the topics you cover are vast and that’s how I came to find your helpful channel
Thanks for your support. Yes, it would be good to get 100,000 views.
I love the hymn and I hadn’t thought about it in a while. Thank you for your words of encouragement and advice.
You are so welcome!
Thanks for another informative video. Great style and content. Best wishes from Leeds, UK xx
So nice of you
I love the fire/jumping metaphor, it makes me think things through differently! Thank you Douglas as always 🥰
You are welcome as always
So comforting. Thank you 🌷
You’re welcome.
Wonderful advice thank you Douglas
You're welcome, Greg.
God bless you for the work you do ❤️🙏🏽
Thank you Violet
I like all your videos. Thanks
Glad you like them!
Thanks Douglas your wonderful
You’re welcome Margaret. How is Ireland?
@@DouglasBloch weather has been very good.lm doing well thank god.
Thanks for this, Douglas.
You're welcome.
Excellent commentary!
Thank you
You're welcome
Hi Douglas great video On February 16 2015 I 3am I jumped out my bed and into the bathtub fill it up with water and put my head under and end my life I could not do it because it was hard the pain was so intense I called a cab and went to Elmhurst hospital I was fighting in hell with fire
I’m glad you’re OK now. That’s exactly when I got out of the hospital after being there for one month getting ECT treatments. It was a low point in my life but I gradually got better
For me my hell is not anxiety. It’s the losing a huge part of myself after my mental breakdown and not feeling human. Not feeling like I can even feel my morals. It’s losing such a huge part of myself and wondering if I’ll ever get it back.
I also lost a huge part of myself during my worst breakdown. But slowly it came back the brain has something called neuro plasticity which means it can heal itself. Give it time and hopefully you aren't under the care of a good mental health professional.
How have you been holding up with the heat in Portland, Doug?
Sir, Do you have videos dealing with IBS abdominal pain often causing panic and sensitization ?
No, but that's an excellent suggestion. A couple of people in my support group had Crohn's disease which is very similar
My reaspect to all who suffer this LIFE changing intrusive affliction.
I wish you all the best
Do you do any online groups? Looking for support. Thanks for your videos
Yes, I run a online video chat where I answer questions about mental health recovery. The people who attend are very supportive of one another, giving each other encouragement and sometimes advice. It functions as a peer support group. If you'd like to attend, just show up at the homepage of my TH-cam channel on any Sunday at noon Pacific Coast time in the US. Click on the link when it appears.
To me it's getting to the point where I'm convinced those I love are far better off without me. I bring more suffering in their lives alive than if I were dead. What if I am not refined by this but stay only to suffer till my inevitable death.
I’m sorry that you’re in so much suffering. I have been there myself. I know people who have told me that the world would be better off without them, but that was not true. Here is something a road called “don’t believe everything your brain is telling you“. I hope you’ll find it helpful.
th-cam.com/video/7_l6xmiiLXk/w-d-xo.html
@@DouglasBloch Thank you.
@Douglas Bloch yeah the way I tread fire now is forex trading, like I am making money but I'm like also feeling like I am learning something and it takes my mind off of my depressive states. I just escape a little for at least 5 minutes, and it helps. I do agree that I am also learning that I am becoming refined as a person, I do believe there is a God I don't know which, but I know there is something out there. I am thinking about making music videos based off these depressive states and honestly I think it would help people to cope a little bit more.
I think those are good coping skills. I encourage you to make the videos. What is Forex trading?
@@DouglasBloch Forex trading is basically trading currency. You know when currencies are fluxuating in price, it's basically that, and you can make money from it. It's kind of like the stock market, except with currencies you have trillions of dollars going through it, but yeah. There are a lot of scammers in forex, but if you want a brief run down of it check out the moving average channel on youtube, he has gone through some hard stuff in his life and forex trades, so I love his channel. But yeah definitely gonna use the money I make to make those music videos for sure, it would probably help me and help a lot of others.
Doug I have alot of fall out from toxic ppl in my life and they destroyed almost everything. Im trying to rebuild but there is so much damage ..I quit a decent paying job .
I’m sorry to hear of your misfortunes. Are you working with a counselor or therapist to get support?
@@DouglasBloch they told me to quit the toxic job but that lead me to much lower paying jobs some places were way less toxic but were low pay and others were still other toxic places. There isn't much more they could say. I just have to find employment suitable or or balanced to heal but it's hard to find it. Thanks
@@DouglasBloch I lost respect from my family mostly my son who couldn't understand how bad working in a prison as teacher for the state would be. There was constant strife from coworkers. I took a job in a nursing home . The people were nicer but the director is working everyone to death . So many ppl were quiting . There were nurses passing out at their computers. The director woukd wriite them up. I just quit this job for another. God keeps making me go through one hell after the other. I dont know why. I even took a job when I first quit the prison unloading trucks for $15 an hr with bad ankles. I just got another job, it's a little more monet than the nursing home but not as much as the state job. I'm 48 and worried about my retirement, I don't have one and I wasn't able to finish my MA. I feel like I hate them, the prison ppl. Wonder if they'll get karma and if things coukd ever really improve where I have enough money, more peace, more manageable work, comradry, pension and ability to finish grade school. My wife has a good job and wants to stay but there are not alot of decent jobs here for some reason . We have considered divorcing but takes two incomes to survive at least in our case. Am I cursed? Why is this keep happening to me . Why don't suitable doors open for me? How woukd you proceed? Depression isn't creating this, this is me getting depressed and anxious from the situations.
@@DouglasBloch I tried meds they increased my anxiety so I stopped and drank alcohol which lead to two duis and my age making it harder to get a decent teaching job and the competition where we live. I went to NYC Chinatown area yesterday and doing that cheered me up a little but I miss training in Kung fu but there is nobody near me in PA which depresses me further. My son complained about the traffic which caused me to not enjoy the experience fully. I coukd have gone alone but I woukd have been lonely because it's a 2.50 drive. This is why sometimes I think I woukd be better off dead too many obstacles and lots of grief. I got 2 duis and my wife has to drive me to work for a year and the only places that will hire me as a teacher are tough inner city schools 1.50 away. Good benefits but I dont need anymore stress from the commute and tough environment.
Going to Jurassic park theme song of Steven Steilberg Is awesome about relieving from hell
I do think this pain and suffering does refine us. A life of endless pleasure wouldn’t really be worth living.
I totally agree with that. As one spiritual teacher said, “comfort puts people to sleep,” meaning that things become too easy. Without friction there is no growth.
Sir: You can't say cancel or see a way out: many times, I don't have the strength anymore after digging deep and pulling my bootstraps up over and over and over and over sacrificing all of me.
When you are truly suicidal there's no " oh better call a friend" because you can't utter any words anymore. Folks get tired of you asking for help, and many of us are in the same level of pain throughout our lives. There are only so many "try again " you can muster. The pain is bad for years and years, and you have no support around: Many have left you or harned you. I have to say this because i hadn't the strength to say cancel. I just cried, and time went by still in pain. I sort of took offense to you transient attitude of this too shall pass. YOU KNOW HOW MANY TIMES I'VE BEEN.TOLD THAT!!!!! No one can advise someone who has spent a lifetime struggling. No one. I'm sorry but that felt like: " little girl..just deal with it" I honestly wish I was on that high ledge with only those 2 choices because it wouldn't look like suicide and hurt others or hurt "the family" image.
I want to press the eject button like a fighter pilot would on a crashing plane, but with my anxiety and OCD, no such button exists, just more pills and “positive thinking” bahaha. Whatever I’m still here and treading fire. I don’t give up that easy 💪
Good for you. Neither do I.
You kind of remind me a little of art garfunkel 😉
You're not the first person said that
Or jus download the piano app on your phone n play random keys of music
♥️
I'm in Hell now, literally!
Can't wait.
I hope you will find what I say helpful.
Hell! If anyone ever want to get the glimpse of hell, just ask me, I will explain what does hell or living in hell looks like or feels like.