I wish I could record responses to your videos. I find that you always bring up relevant issues with which I would love to share my experiences. Nothing is ever simple, but I can say that my starving brain tried to reduce most issues and situations into black or white. Nothing is ever that easy, nor static. BUT, life in the variations is rich, interesting and evolving. I think that I tried to use losing weight to solve all of my problems and remedy my deep anxiety and insecurity. At first Weight loss was a talking point, then weight loss gave me false sense of worth…until it did none of those. It exacerbated my anxiety and insecurity. I became paranoid, sleep deprived and bizarre. I too never listen to ED content anymore, but I’m so glad to have clicked upon this video. Being average has its perks, especially the utter lack of the torment of a starving body/brain. I did some research after a masters program in 1998. That was a pressure cooker where insecurity was magnified and mental illness flourished. I loved it too…much more exciting for me than clinical practice, but …not healthy for me. Unfortunately, I continued to use diet/exercise to remedy all of my maladies until the pandemic. Thank you for your generous contributions to the community💗💗💗
Thank you so much for your thoughtful comments. You're absolutely right, I love your description of the richness and varied nature of life beyond the black and white perspective offered by an eating disorder. Yes it is wonderful to be free of a starving brain and intrusive thoughts. I think that if you recover from an eating disorder, that is something quite special and not average. But remaining in an eating disorder and continuing to use eating disordered behaviour is perhaps much more average, because in some ways it is an easier route than to go through the challenges of recovery. I imagine your service is highly valued in clinical practice; it is to the benefit of your clients and colleagues that research wasn't the right fit. Well done for stopping using exercise/diet during the pandemic! That is excellent. xxx
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I wish I could record responses to your videos. I find that you always bring up relevant issues with which I would love to share my experiences. Nothing is ever simple, but I can say that my starving brain tried to reduce most issues and situations into black or white. Nothing is ever that easy, nor static. BUT, life in the variations is rich, interesting and evolving. I think that I tried to use losing weight to solve all of my problems and remedy my deep anxiety and insecurity. At first Weight loss was a talking point, then weight loss gave me false sense of worth…until it did none of those. It exacerbated my anxiety and insecurity. I became paranoid, sleep deprived and bizarre.
I too never listen to ED content anymore, but I’m so glad to have clicked upon this video. Being average has its perks, especially the utter lack of the torment of a starving body/brain.
I did some research after a masters program in 1998. That was a pressure cooker where insecurity was magnified and mental illness flourished. I loved it too…much more exciting for me than clinical practice, but …not healthy for me. Unfortunately, I continued to use diet/exercise to remedy all of my maladies until the pandemic. Thank you for your generous contributions to the community💗💗💗
Thank you so much for your thoughtful comments. You're absolutely right, I love your description of the richness and varied nature of life beyond the black and white perspective offered by an eating disorder. Yes it is wonderful to be free of a starving brain and intrusive thoughts. I think that if you recover from an eating disorder, that is something quite special and not average. But remaining in an eating disorder and continuing to use eating disordered behaviour is perhaps much more average, because in some ways it is an easier route than to go through the challenges of recovery. I imagine your service is highly valued in clinical practice; it is to the benefit of your clients and colleagues that research wasn't the right fit. Well done for stopping using exercise/diet during the pandemic! That is excellent. xxx