Lol Ive gotten a few comments like that on this video. Its two things. First, I am sitting at an awkward angle for filming myself. Im laying on my bed with pillows beneath my back that are propping me up but are also making it seem like Im inflated. I certainly did and have gained some weight since this all started. In this video Im about 190lbs and I am 6' tall. No offense taken, it actually makes me laugh at this point.
You look good man. I have been clean for a few years now but love watching these videos as a reminder to stay clean. I gotta say, you look alot healthier now and have actually put on a little weight. Hope you stay on this path of greatness my friend. The world is now yours!
Thanx for being an encouragement, I'm so so happy for you. I'm down to 1mg a day, I've been this for 7.5yrs and am ready. I can feel I'm ready, I've put this off for so long due to the fear of how long will I suffer as most do and I realized I don't want to be on this for the rest of my life bc of that. I'm strong and have a great deal of faith. I'm a single mom of 2, I work full time running a company and go to school full time. I'm planning on jumping off completely when I get my vacation time soon. I'd like a week to just be at home and have that break. Thanx for being an inspiration, it's time to rip off that bandaid!
Melbel Danielle Heck ya! That's the kind of attitude required here. Great to hear that you have gotten down to 1mg. That should make things much smoother. Please do check in and let us all know how you are doing as time passes. And thank YOU for supporting me.
Jacque Daniels Thank you Jacque. That means a lot to me. Thanks for being here for me and for all of us. Remind me, are you about to take this journey soon? Or have you already?
Goodbye Suboxone, I am in the "bitch" process of taking the journey.. lol! I'm trying, but not getting very far very fast. I can't get past day 5. Always come day five I give in and take the smallest bit I can just to feel functional again. There's no reason. I have no reasons, only excuses. I'm a single mother, my son is young, I work, I can't leave for a detox and I can't forget my responsibilities long enough to just get through it. I know there are people bigger, better, stronger than myself who just do it but I always fall short. I get so irritable and on edge and don't want my baby seeing me that way or dealing with my anxiety and/or mood swings and I can't not work so I give in. I don't give up, but I do give in. I'm determined though. I want to be done so damn bad I won't stop trying for both myself and my son's future. In my heart I feel I'm stronger than what holds me back but when I'm in the situation I push through and push through but then I hit a wall where I feel out of control sick and just a pure mind fuck of a mess I convince myself "at least I'm trying, I'm doing it, I'm getting there. Slowly but surely." It doesn't matter though. Deep down I'm just afraid and giving in to my weaknesses. I won't give up. I miss life so much. I miss myself as a person. I miss thinking with a clear mind and I want so much more for my son. Obviously he doesn't know what's going on but I feel he must look at me and know something just isn't right. Maybe that's just my own perception of myself I'm projecting onto others but it feels like it must be obvious to the world. I'm sick of being sick and ashamed of who I am. So many times I've watched your videos and just cried. Wanted to comment so much more but can't even find the words to say how I feel. That's how it feels, like I'm an out of control lost little child. So much you say I can relate to on such deep and personal levels, as I'm sure so many others who watch your videos probably feel. You articulate the process so well it hurts my heart for you, for myself, and for everyone else I know are feeling such similar pains. It sucks. On the other hand there are times the pain makes me feel alive. I welcome it because I know in my heart this is the process. These are the growing pains to the beginning of my life again and I both love and hate it so much. You may feel like an average person, I don't know. You probably are just another person like myself and others but always know in your heart that you are NOT just an average person. Not now anyway.. Maybe we're all just average people until we do something truly amazing. Until we face the beast head on and plow through the shit until we reach the other side. I know for myself as well as for the others whose comments I've read on your threads that you ARE and have been an inspiration to many. You know first hand what this takes but you did it. Seeing you now gives me a feeling of so much hope you don't even know. I know I can get through this and in my own time and fucked up ways I will. I wish you and your family and your wife so much love and happiness. We don't just deserve things, I know this. We are deservi ng when we put in the effort. The time, energy, blood sweat and tears and you DO deserve every great thing that comes your way. Enjoy every moment of life at 100%! Thank you for your story. Keep us updated, please. All my love to you and yours❤
Jacque Daniels Wonderfully heartfelt words from you. I would disagree with one thing you wrote though. Those ARE reasons, and NOT excuses. Having a small child and being single sounds about as tough a task as I can think of. Nobody can blame you (and you should not blame yourself) for having aprehentions about taking this leap. You are a much stronger person than I for even stepping into this arena with all that on your shoulders. I would say you deserve more pats on the back than you think. Take your time, plan ahead for this as best you can, get your dose as low as possible, and take the ride. But never rush yourself or beat yourself up for not being ready. I wasn't ready for 8 years. Will talk soon : )
Hello - I just watched all of your videos and they are giving me great strength and inspiration. I know it’s been a while since this video, but I hope you see this message and understand how incredibly important your words are to me. I am in Day 8 and still feeling pretty lousy and scared. My stomach is in the gutter and my mind is keeping it company. But I am determined to touch it out until the very end. So I’ll just say thanks again and I hope you are doing great!
Dude you look great compared to your first video (no homo) lol, but for real. I really appreciate your vids. Helps alot and thanks for the advice on the other vid. Keep on keeping on brother
I'm so proud of you! It's been awesome to watch you go through this process and come out the other side of it so well. You gave me hope and something to look forward to! I'm at day 88 now, so close to that 90 day milestone and I couldn't be more excited. The best thing people can do is give themselves time, TLC and not get stuck in their own head.
Yes I just started watching this video because I am on day five taking kratom now and I started freaking out and sweating and rls the whole nine yards you are right about mind and body. Thank you for your videos they are really helping me.
Day 29. Sleep is the main issue. That and a bout of daily depression that the sleeping won’t get better. I’m stuck sleeping 20 min at a time 4 times a night. Hopefully I can start getting 1-2 hours at a time. This too shall pass, and I’m NOT turning back. Only attitude to have. Together we can accomplish anything.
I feel like I have a lot of things in common with you just from what you say in your videos, I love when I can watch people from the beginning and then they keep following through like you did, all the way and still respond to people in need of help
Thanks a lot man I appreciate your videos more then you know.. I was doing perks for about 4 years I stopped a week ago and I am on 1mg of subs a day.. recently heard tons of bad things about subs so I regret ever going on them.. I am going to start in morning getting off these things.. it’s deff hard as hell knowing how long it will take to become normal
chad conner Normal is such a subjective term. I was on 8mg/day for 8 years and I did not taper. Other people who have been on fewer mg/day for less time overall should get back to "normal" much more quickly. I was also well enough to exercise, play soccer (very lightly) and do other things after only 20 days.
I love you bro I hate this shit I just went like 30hrs without taking it and I literally can feel the shit coming on like head heavy nose running body weak...super duper anxiety the anxiety is starting to get worse tried weed but I hate the way it makes me feel... Please pray for me my name is Jamer and I want to be free... I tried praying but I don't think anyone's listening right now...i have a beautiful wife and beautiful children and I hate my life so bad I feel like in behind bars... Please please pray for me... P. S I'm so very proud of you bro... I've watched so many videos and your the absolute only one that I see that went all the way
Jimmy Shadow Thank you for the many kind words. It sounds to me like you may not be ready just yet. What I mean is, inside and out. Do you have your affairs in order? Any time off from work? Support from your family? A comfortable place to be while you detox? Tell me more about whats going on. Lets try to work out a plan friend.
Goodbye Suboxone all the things you listed are here in the palm of my hands I was gonna try to do what you said and take one 2mg for 7 days and then taper to half a pill the following week... I got a nice bike and plan on taking a bike ride with my kids everyday I think sweating it out is gonna help big time... I hate drugs so much...your video definitely has been encouraging... I take my next one at 230 pm and am going to continue till next Saturday then go half... Thanks for responding and hopefully one day soon we share something awesome... BEING FREE
Dude thanks for the encouragement n vids. Im 40yo 12yrs on subs 2 weeks off feel terrible but a lil better every day. Wonder if ill ever feel better. Exercise, water, eat right...basically what humans shud do helps...thank God im not alone...thanks again...ill keep watching...😎
God bless you, thank you. I jumped off subs at 24mg. At day 24 I discovered kratom which helped with wds. Then for 8 months addicted to high doses of kratom . Kratom free for 33 days. Keep on keeping on.
Goodbye Suboxone About 25 pills per day. I think that's 1/2 gram per pill. Basically I delayed my healing by using kratom. I'm finally starting to feel better except energy still a struggle.
I've watched all your videos over the past couple of months, and congrats brother. As someone who has been on Subutex for years at 16-24mg a day, and wanting to take that step to stop you are an inspiration. -N 👍✌️
Nomad So Im just going over some past comments and I realized that I have watched several of your videos. Especially like the one where you and another guy go to audit the police station, and that bald old school cop lost his mind..."your behavior isn't NORMAL" Aahahahaha Never gets old. Great vids
I also feel the same with the food. I used to live on McDonald's and BK . Now if I eat it I feel sick, and I can finally eat a full meal! The first thanksgiving I was totally sober was like heaven lol. Man did I eat and enjoy it. Stay strong brother. The world is now yours!
Been watching your videos for the past couple of days. So many others have scared the shit out of me but I like your videos. I want to stop I've tried a few times and the longest I got was 4 days
I've been on Subutex for 6 years and I'm on day 10 being off of that horrible drug. For me, days 3-5 were the worst. My biggest issue right now is the extreme fatigue! I barely wanted to get up and go to the bathroom. Today my symptoms are the extreme fatigue, hand sweats, occasional cold chills, rapid sneezing. Luckily I dont have to work and can just focus on getting better but it's still not easy. I have 3 big 90lb labs that I spoiled and so now I have to push myself just to make sure their routine stays the same.. but your videos give me hope that it will get easier over time. Thank you!!!
I'm at 99 days today & this is exactly how I feel. The better I take care of myself, the better I feel. If I eat a bunch of sugar, I'll feel tired & crappy for about 24 hours. If I eat healthy food & take my vitamins, I feel more energetic & healthy. If I exercise, my muscles feel more awake. If I skip exercising, my muscles feel weak & tired.
After nearly three weeks of restless legs syndrome i started taking Spring Valley brand Calcium Magnesium and Zinc 3 plus vitamin D3 per day usually after lunch and like magic I'm sleeping fine Thank you Jesus cause i was going bat shit nuts every night good luck everyone !
Definition of conquer transitive verb 1 : to gain or acquire by force of arms : SUBJUGATE conquer territory 2 : to overcome by force of arms : VANQUISH conquered the enemy 3 : to gain mastery over or win by overcoming obstacles or opposition conquered the mountain 4 : to overcome by mental or moral power : SURMOUNT conquered her fear intransitive verb : to be victorious
Hope you are still well brother ? I'm on 2.8 and am tired of reductions so probably going to jump in next few weeks. All the best and hope you do a video soon .
I keep re watching your videos cause they give me hope. I take 1 mg one day and 1.5 the next. Just about to drop to 1 mg one day, and .75 the next. I would go slower, but don’t have enough Suboxone to go slow. I’m just hoping I will be OK
Congrats! I have been taking 16mg for 5 years. I don’t know why but I have a full script and I decided 2 days ago to not take it just too see what it’s about and I feel like crap. Did you go cold turkey off 6mg? 53hrs for me now and just wondering if I should have tried a taper first. Keep up the amazing work!
Day 6 just starting subutex 8mg. I bought a pill cutter because I took 2~ 8mg in one day 16mg & I'm not a drug addict but a 63 yr old woman with back & knee pain plus lupus. It made me feel like I did Angel Dust from the 70's. I can finally eat & sleep Kind of like this new feeling
I was a hundred% after 3 weeks the restless leg syndrome was gone along with the brain pain of the want i guess i was just lucky but everybody has different withdrawals depends on the person !! Back year's ago i tried comeing off of norcal and that was way worse
Tammy Marshall Talk to me. Whats going on? Remind me of where you are at with your detox. Its going to be up and down for a while but it WILL get better. I promise.
Congratulations again on getting to this point, it's a HUGE accomplishment. Very inspiring for those of us following in your footsteps. I posted a brief video on my channel about where I'm at, check it out. Keep fighting the good fight!
Are you able to feel joy and happiness from things again? I’m on day 10 and while things are better, I still feel anxious and depressed a lot and I don’t enjoy anything quite as much as I did yet
AbleAnderson Absolutely. I felt very flat for the 1st few months. It certainly took my brain some time to rewire itself. Try not to expect too much too soon. It absolutely DOES get better
Goodbye Suboxone today is day 20 and I feel like joy is creeping back. Physical is almost all gone other than insomnia and occasional restlessness. I’ve been forcing myself to workout and eat right, and I’ve had work non stop. Doing all that off subs has kind of started building some pride in me. I’m still struggling to get locked into anything like a book, a tv show, a video game, you name it, so it’s tough to relax on my downtime yet. Anxiety is still a little too strong for me to be entertained for any length of time by anything but I’m not miserable anymore at all. I’m at the point where I believe it’s possible. You’ve been a big help
AbleAnderson You sound like you are right where you should be in your detox. Anxiety should be high. Sleep just starting to get better. But without a doubt the anxiety and lack of motivation/energy will be the longest lingering symptoms. There is a ton that we can do to ease those symptoms though which is great. Always easier said than done but this was never going to be easy was it? : ) People like us dont experience life "the easy way". Perhaps we are being hardened for something greater? Only time will tell. So happy to hear you are doing well my friend. Please continue to check in with us.
I have a question for you, while you were tapering down did you start to feel emotions come back before you or even completely off it cuz I'm feeling my emotions come back I believe and I'm still on a dose, small but still on a dose
Reid Schaper Absolutely. Thats how you can tell you are truley tapering. Lots of laughing and crying. Expect to feel raw but in a positive way. Always remember that no matter how strong a spirit we have, we are still organic beings, very much controlled by chemical balances (and imbalances) in our brains. When we feel elated, it isn't so much because we choose to be that way. Our brains dump chemical "x" and we feel "y". You are going to go through a period where your brain is very much sorting itself out inernally. It is humbling, and rewarding. Feel everything and embrace it. Embrace the good feelings and try not to dwell on the bad ones, ever reminding yourself of WHY you are feeling that way, and that you will NOT feel that way forever.
Goodbye Suboxone thank you man, I appreciate what you do and are doing for me, it's very hard because nobody in my life and I mean nobody knows that I'm on this Suboxone. I just have to keep keeping my eye on the prize and the prize will be a normal life without being handcuffed to Suboxone
Goodbye Suboxone any idea why you gained that much weight after getting off? I don’t understand why people gain so much weight when they come off. I actually want to gain weight so I’m hoping this gives me more reason to do so.
badass1g Well for starters, suboxone and opiods in general do things to our digestive systems which make it very inefficient at processing many things that we need from our food. In addition, I only ate 1x a day generally, and I ate poorly. When I jumped off I started to exercise and I had an enormous appetite after 25 days or so. The biggest factor was likely just that I ate more. Had I been working the entire time I could have been quite muscular by this video but I didnt and so I got a bit soft. Fine with me though. Ive lost most of that extra weight since.
I'm on for it's been 9 days I'm skipping 4 days and then I'm going down 2.25 I just got to get off and I can't handle it anymore come summer and spring for spring and summer I'm going to be happiest kid test
@amanda I am currently detoxing from kratom. Not fun but for sure doable. I had a daughter and have had some great times in my life the past 3 years but its time to try and kick out the final crutch. Wish I could tell you I've been 100% "clean" for three years but this is real life and I am a real addict. Take it for what its worth. I'm doing the best I can. Still here, still living life. Still merely human. Thanks for stopping by.
Lol Ive gotten a few comments like that on this video. Its two things. First, I am sitting at an awkward angle for filming myself. Im laying on my bed with pillows beneath my back that are propping me up but are also making it seem like Im inflated. I certainly did and have gained some weight since this all started. In this video Im about 190lbs and I am 6' tall.
No offense taken, it actually makes me laugh at this point.
Goodbye Suboxone hey man I have some questions for you if you ever have a moment
rob demarco Hi Rob. Just seeing your comment now. Sorry for the delay. Whats up?
Day 57 for me, you've helped tremendously man.. thanks so much, truly.
John Jordan congrats man!
John Jordan,
That's incredible. You are awesome! Congratulations to you, don't stop. Praying for you. Take it all the way home🕊
Day 130 today John?
John Jordan,
You are both amazing. Do your thing and always stay strong. You are loved❤
Jacque Blank Slate Daniels Hope you are well too friend
You look good man. I have been clean for a few years now but love watching these videos as a reminder to stay clean. I gotta say, you look alot healthier now and have actually put on a little weight. Hope you stay on this path of greatness my friend. The world is now yours!
Thanx for being an encouragement, I'm so so happy for you. I'm down to 1mg a day, I've been this for 7.5yrs and am ready. I can feel I'm ready, I've put this off for so long due to the fear of how long will I suffer as most do and I realized I don't want to be on this for the rest of my life bc of that. I'm strong and have a great deal of faith. I'm a single mom of 2, I work full time running a company and go to school full time. I'm planning on jumping off completely when I get my vacation time soon. I'd like a week to just be at home and have that break. Thanx for being an inspiration, it's time to rip off that bandaid!
Melbel Danielle Heck ya! That's the kind of attitude required here. Great to hear that you have gotten down to 1mg. That should make things much smoother. Please do check in and let us all know how you are doing as time passes. And thank YOU for supporting me.
I definitely will! Thanku!
Hi melbe how are you in the 2020???
128 days.. amazing.. ur a role model for people who have been there. Keep it up
Eric Davila r u still clean?
100%! Yes!! Congratulations, Friend.
You ARE Superman now❤
Your videos have helped me so much, I'm so happy to see you doing so well. Thank you🕊
Jacque Daniels Thank you Jacque. That means a lot to me. Thanks for being here for me and for all of us. Remind me, are you about to take this journey soon? Or have you already?
Goodbye Suboxone,
I am in the "bitch" process of taking the journey.. lol! I'm trying, but not getting very far very fast. I can't get past day 5. Always come day five I give in and take the smallest bit I can just to feel functional again. There's no reason. I have no reasons, only excuses. I'm a single mother, my son is young, I work, I can't leave for a detox and I can't forget my responsibilities long enough to just get through it. I know there are people bigger, better, stronger than myself who just do it but I always fall short. I get so irritable and on edge and don't want my baby seeing me that way or dealing with my anxiety and/or mood swings and I can't not work so I give in. I don't give up, but I do give in. I'm determined though. I want to be done so damn bad I won't stop trying for both myself and my son's future. In my heart I feel I'm stronger than what holds me back but when I'm in the situation I push through and push through but then I hit a wall where I feel out of control sick and just a pure mind fuck of a mess I convince myself "at least I'm trying, I'm doing it, I'm getting there. Slowly but surely." It doesn't matter though. Deep down I'm just afraid and giving in to my weaknesses. I won't give up. I miss life so much. I miss myself as a person. I miss thinking with a clear mind and I want so much more for my son. Obviously he doesn't know what's going on but I feel he must look at me and know something just isn't right. Maybe that's just my own perception of myself I'm projecting onto others but it feels like it must be obvious to the world. I'm sick of being sick and ashamed of who I am. So many times I've watched your videos and just cried. Wanted to comment so much more but can't even find the words to say how I feel. That's how it feels, like I'm an out of control lost little child. So much you say I can relate to on such deep and personal levels, as I'm sure so many others who watch your videos probably feel. You articulate the process so well it hurts my heart for you, for myself, and for everyone else I know are feeling such similar pains. It sucks. On the other hand there are times the pain makes me feel alive. I welcome it because I know in my heart this is the process. These are the growing pains to the beginning of my life again and I both love and hate it so much. You may feel like an average person, I don't know. You probably are just another person like myself and others but always know in your heart that you are NOT just an average person. Not now anyway.. Maybe we're all just average people until we do something truly amazing. Until we face the beast head on and plow through the shit until we reach the other side. I know for myself as well as for the others whose comments I've read on your threads that you ARE and have been an inspiration to many. You know first hand what this takes but you did it. Seeing you now gives me a feeling of so much hope you don't even know. I know I can get through this and in my own time and fucked up ways I will. I wish you and your family and your wife so much love and happiness. We don't just deserve things, I know this. We are deservi ng when we put in the effort. The time, energy, blood sweat and tears and you DO deserve every great thing that comes your way. Enjoy every moment of life at 100%! Thank you for your story. Keep us updated, please. All my love to you and yours❤
Jacque Daniels Wonderfully heartfelt words from you. I would disagree with one thing you wrote though. Those ARE reasons, and NOT excuses. Having a small child and being single sounds about as tough a task as I can think of. Nobody can blame you (and you should not blame yourself) for having aprehentions about taking this leap. You are a much stronger person than I for even stepping into this arena with all that on your shoulders. I would say you deserve more pats on the back than you think. Take your time, plan ahead for this as best you can, get your dose as low as possible, and take the ride. But never rush yourself or beat yourself up for not being ready. I wasn't ready for 8 years.
Will talk soon : )
Jacque Blank Slate Daniels How are you Jacque? Been a while. Just checking in.
Awe...You’re so Sweet to your dogs. Everyone needs to have at least one animal!😊♥️
just what i needed to hear today. congratulations on 128 days.
Good for u man im at day 21 now seeing the light at the end of tunnel .. but sweating like crazy im still feeling like im 80 years still haha
Shawn Devita Great to hear. Keep checking in.
Hello - I just watched all of your videos and they are giving me great strength and inspiration. I know it’s been a while since this video, but I hope you see this message and understand how incredibly important your words are to me. I am in Day 8 and still feeling pretty lousy and scared. My stomach is in the gutter and my mind is keeping it company. But I am determined to touch it out until the very end. So I’ll just say thanks again and I hope you are doing great!
I know this video is old, but a huge encouragement to me at day 28.
Dude you look great compared to your first video (no homo) lol, but for real. I really appreciate your vids. Helps alot and thanks for the advice on the other vid. Keep on keeping on brother
So glad you’re at 💯!!! Music to my ears. I’m at 4mg and reducing. Tough ride. Diet & spirituality are key. Please keep us informed! 🌟
I'm so proud of you! It's been awesome to watch you go through this process and come out the other side of it so well. You gave me hope and something to look forward to! I'm at day 88 now, so close to that 90 day milestone and I couldn't be more excited. The best thing people can do is give themselves time, TLC and not get stuck in their own head.
Jessi Lynn. I could't agree more. Great to hear you are doing so well! Better every week or so right? Please continue to check in friend.
Congrats on 90 days!
Yes I just started watching this video because I am on day five taking kratom now and I started freaking out and sweating and rls the whole nine yards you are right about mind and body. Thank you for your videos they are really helping me.
100 days on 2/22/18
Day 29. Sleep is the main issue. That and a bout of daily depression that the sleeping won’t get better. I’m stuck sleeping 20 min at a time 4 times a night. Hopefully I can start getting 1-2 hours at a time. This too shall pass, and I’m NOT turning back. Only attitude to have. Together we can accomplish anything.
I feel like I have a lot of things in common with you just from what you say in your videos, I love when I can watch people from the beginning and then they keep following through like you did, all the way and still respond to people in need of help
Thanks a lot man I appreciate your videos more then you know.. I was doing perks for about 4 years I stopped a week ago and I am on 1mg of subs a day.. recently heard tons of bad things about subs so I regret ever going on them.. I am going to start in morning getting off these things.. it’s deff hard as hell knowing how long it will take to become normal
chad conner Normal is such a subjective term. I was on 8mg/day for 8 years and I did not taper. Other people who have been on fewer mg/day for less time overall should get back to "normal" much more quickly.
I was also well enough to exercise, play soccer (very lightly) and do other things after only 20 days.
You look amazing. You look healthier and more alive!!!
I love you bro I hate this shit I just went like 30hrs without taking it and I literally can feel the shit coming on like head heavy nose running body weak...super duper anxiety the anxiety is starting to get worse tried weed but I hate the way it makes me feel... Please pray for me my name is Jamer and I want to be free... I tried praying but I don't think anyone's listening right now...i have a beautiful wife and beautiful children and I hate my life so bad I feel like in behind bars... Please please pray for me... P. S I'm so very proud of you bro... I've watched so many videos and your the absolute only one that I see that went all the way
Jimmy Shadow Thank you for the many kind words. It sounds to me like you may not be ready just yet. What I mean is, inside and out. Do you have your affairs in order? Any time off from work? Support from your family? A comfortable place to be while you detox? Tell me more about whats going on. Lets try to work out a plan friend.
Goodbye Suboxone all the things you listed are here in the palm of my hands I was gonna try to do what you said and take one 2mg for 7 days and then taper to half a pill the following week... I got a nice bike and plan on taking a bike ride with my kids everyday I think sweating it out is gonna help big time... I hate drugs so much...your video definitely has been encouraging... I take my next one at 230 pm and am going to continue till next Saturday then go half... Thanks for responding and hopefully one day soon we share something awesome... BEING FREE
@@jshadowens1979 how did that work out for you? Did you make it?
yes! ive been waiting on this! congrats and thank you!
Dude thanks for the encouragement n vids. Im 40yo 12yrs on subs 2 weeks off feel terrible but a lil better every day. Wonder if ill ever feel better. Exercise, water, eat right...basically what humans shud do helps...thank God im not alone...thanks again...ill keep watching...😎
God bless you, thank you. I jumped off subs at 24mg. At day 24 I discovered kratom which helped with wds. Then for 8 months addicted to high doses of kratom . Kratom free for 33 days. Keep on keeping on.
Goodbye Suboxone
About 25 pills per day. I think that's 1/2 gram per pill. Basically I delayed my healing by using kratom. I'm finally starting to feel better except energy still a struggle.
I've watched all your videos over the past couple of months, and congrats brother. As someone who has been on Subutex for years at 16-24mg a day, and wanting to take that step to stop you are an inspiration. -N 👍✌️
Nomad So Im just going over some past comments and I realized that I have watched several of your videos. Especially like the one where you and another guy go to audit the police station, and that bald old school cop lost his mind..."your behavior isn't NORMAL" Aahahahaha
Never gets old. Great vids
Did u get clean?
I also feel the same with the food. I used to live on McDonald's and BK . Now if I eat it I feel sick, and I can finally eat a full meal! The first thanksgiving I was totally sober was like heaven lol. Man did I eat and enjoy it. Stay strong brother. The world is now yours!
Been watching your videos for the past couple of days. So many others have scared the shit out of me but I like your videos. I want to stop I've tried a few times and the longest I got was 4 days
Day one for me. Ty. The mind thing is something I will definitely use. I appreciate you man.
I've been on Subutex for 6 years and I'm on day 10 being off of that horrible drug. For me, days 3-5 were the worst. My biggest issue right now is the extreme fatigue! I barely wanted to get up and go to the bathroom. Today my symptoms are the extreme fatigue, hand sweats, occasional cold chills, rapid sneezing. Luckily I dont have to work and can just focus on getting better but it's still not easy. I have 3 big 90lb labs that I spoiled and so now I have to push myself just to make sure their routine stays the same.. but your videos give me hope that it will get easier over time. Thank you!!!
I'm at 99 days today & this is exactly how I feel. The better I take care of myself, the better I feel. If I eat a bunch of sugar, I'll feel tired & crappy for about 24 hours. If I eat healthy food & take my vitamins, I feel more energetic & healthy. If I exercise, my muscles feel more awake. If I skip exercising, my muscles feel weak & tired.
Hope your still clean and thriving! Congrats on quitting...you saved your own life.
Lea S. I am doing quite well. Thank you for checking in friend.
After nearly three weeks of restless legs syndrome i started taking Spring Valley brand Calcium Magnesium and Zinc 3 plus vitamin D3 per day usually after lunch and like magic I'm sleeping fine Thank you Jesus cause i was going bat shit nuts every night good luck everyone !
Definition of conquer
transitive verb
1
: to gain or acquire by force of arms : SUBJUGATE
conquer territory
2
: to overcome by force of arms : VANQUISH
conquered the enemy
3
: to gain mastery over or win by overcoming obstacles or opposition
conquered the mountain
4
: to overcome by mental or moral power : SURMOUNT
conquered her fear
intransitive verb
: to be victorious
Hope you are still well brother ? I'm on 2.8 and am tired of reductions so probably going to jump in next few weeks. All the best and hope you do a video soon .
congratulations dude.
I keep re watching your videos cause they give me hope. I take 1 mg one day and 1.5 the next. Just about to drop to 1 mg one day, and .75 the next. I would go slower, but don’t have enough Suboxone to go slow. I’m just hoping I will be OK
Congrats! I have been taking 16mg for 5 years. I don’t know why but I have a full script and I decided 2 days ago to not take it just too see what it’s about and I feel like crap. Did you go cold turkey off 6mg? 53hrs for me now and just wondering if I should have tried a taper first. Keep up the amazing work!
The Shorts Grind My channel documents my journey from day 2 to day 128. Check it out when you have time. Good luck friend
How did it work out for you?
Day 6 just starting subutex 8mg. I bought a pill cutter because I took 2~ 8mg in one day 16mg & I'm not a drug addict but a 63 yr old woman with back & knee pain plus lupus. It made me feel like I did Angel Dust from the 70's. I can finally eat & sleep Kind of like this new feeling
Your doing great thanks for all the advice
I was a hundred% after 3 weeks the restless leg syndrome was gone along with the brain pain of the want i guess i was just lucky but everybody has different withdrawals depends on the person !! Back year's ago i tried comeing off of norcal and that was way worse
what kind of vitamins, supplements, etc. did you take? anything that helps the withdrawls besides a heating pad?
Tammy Marshall -Loperamide
-Mulit vit
-Magnesium citrate
-B complex
-Melatonin
Goodbye Suboxone thank you! Im so proud of you!!! Im really struggling right now
Tammy Marshall Talk to me. Whats going on? Remind me of where you are at with your detox. Its going to be up and down for a while but it WILL get better. I promise.
Who did you like to watch during your recovery?
Congratulations again on getting to this point, it's a HUGE accomplishment. Very inspiring for those of us following in your footsteps. I posted a brief video on my channel about where I'm at, check it out. Keep fighting the good fight!
Skeet C. Will check it out for sure. Keep up the good fight!
Are you able to feel joy and happiness from things again? I’m on day 10 and while things are better, I still feel anxious and depressed a lot and I don’t enjoy anything quite as much as I did yet
AbleAnderson Absolutely. I felt very flat for the 1st few months. It certainly took my brain some time to rewire itself. Try not to expect too much too soon. It absolutely DOES get better
Goodbye Suboxone thanks for your videos, you have no idea how much they have helped me and I’m sure countless others
AbleAnderson Are you starting to feel any joy again?
Goodbye Suboxone today is day 20 and I feel like joy is creeping back. Physical is almost all gone other than insomnia and occasional restlessness. I’ve been forcing myself to workout and eat right, and I’ve had work non stop. Doing all that off subs has kind of started building some pride in me. I’m still struggling to get locked into anything like a book, a tv show, a video game, you name it, so it’s tough to relax on my downtime yet. Anxiety is still a little too strong for me to be entertained for any length of time by anything but I’m not miserable anymore at all. I’m at the point where I believe it’s possible. You’ve been a big help
AbleAnderson You sound like you are right where you should be in your detox. Anxiety should be high. Sleep just starting to get better. But without a doubt the anxiety and lack of motivation/energy will be the longest lingering symptoms. There is a ton that we can do to ease those symptoms though which is great. Always easier said than done but this was never going to be easy was it? : )
People like us dont experience life "the easy way". Perhaps we are being hardened for something greater? Only time will tell.
So happy to hear you are doing well my friend. Please continue to check in with us.
Im in "that moment" rn.. I hate it
I have a question for you, while you were tapering down did you start to feel emotions come back before you or even completely off it cuz I'm feeling my emotions come back I believe and I'm still on a dose, small but still on a dose
Reid Schaper Absolutely. Thats how you can tell you are truley tapering. Lots of laughing and crying. Expect to feel raw but in a positive way. Always remember that no matter how strong a spirit we have, we are still organic beings, very much controlled by chemical balances (and imbalances) in our brains. When we feel elated, it isn't so much because we choose to be that way. Our brains dump chemical "x" and we feel "y". You are going to go through a period where your brain is very much sorting itself out inernally. It is humbling, and rewarding. Feel everything and embrace it. Embrace the good feelings and try not to dwell on the bad ones, ever reminding yourself of WHY you are feeling that way, and that you will NOT feel that way forever.
Goodbye Suboxone thank you man, I appreciate what you do and are doing for me, it's very hard because nobody in my life and I mean nobody knows that I'm on this Suboxone. I just have to keep keeping my eye on the prize and the prize will be a normal life without being handcuffed to Suboxone
How much weight did you gain??
badass1g can't say for sure because I never weighed myself but a safe estimate is 25 lb
badass1g 20-25
Goodbye Suboxone any idea why you gained that much weight after getting off? I don’t understand why people gain so much weight when they come off. I actually want to gain weight so I’m hoping this gives me more reason to do so.
badass1g Well for starters, suboxone and opiods in general do things to our digestive systems which make it very inefficient at processing many things that we need from our food. In addition, I only ate 1x a day generally, and I ate poorly. When I jumped off I started to exercise and I had an enormous appetite after 25 days or so. The biggest factor was likely just that I ate more. Had I been working the entire time I could have been quite muscular by this video but I didnt and so I got a bit soft. Fine with me though. Ive lost most of that extra weight since.
I gained weight the first time i came off too, like 34 pounds i think in 8 weeks
I'm on for it's been 9 days I'm skipping 4 days and then I'm going down 2.25 I just got to get off and I can't handle it anymore come summer and spring for spring and summer I'm going to be happiest kid test
day 27 for me THANKS
I don't know how to private message you? But I wanted to get your email, and give u mine. Thanks
Jeff Glenn northbaydogwalking78@yahoo.com
U still clean my nigga?
@amanda I am currently detoxing from kratom. Not fun but for sure doable. I had a daughter and have had some great times in my life the past 3 years but its time to try and kick out the final crutch. Wish I could tell you I've been 100% "clean" for three years but this is real life and I am a real addict. Take it for what its worth. I'm doing the best I can. Still here, still living life. Still merely human.
Thanks for stopping by.