Kit, I do not have schizoaffective disorder. So, I can only imagine what that is like. However, as someone who struggles with mental health on the daily (in a different way) with debilitating ADHD, OCD, CPTSD, and GAD, you inspire me so much!! I am grateful for you and your channel. The way in which you fiercely advocate for yourself, your own mental health, and the mental health community as a whole inspires me to unapologetically advocate for myself and my own mental health too! Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. 🐝 💜
I have schizoaffective as well. Chronic depression and anxiety. I find your content extremely helpful. I am treatment resistant and have tried many different anti depressants. Always keep hope that you can get through your conditions.
You've probably heard about it, or at least your doctors know it, but I just wanted to give you the information that stimulants for adhd (like Ritalin) can help towards treatment resistent depression. I have bipolar disorder where 90% of my life has been depression, no anti-dep helped. I then got diagnosed with ADD and my Ritalin didn't only help my adhd-symptoms, but also my depression. It was so amazing! And I had been ill for over 15 years, so finding the right medication can really do wonders. Just putting it out there in case you didn't know. Take care!
Hey kit. I don't know if you remember me, I was the person who wrote a few massive manic comments on some of your videos a few months ago. I got very psychotic during that manic episode and then I crashed into a deep depressive episode. I want you to know that it gets better. I very recently recovered from that depressive episode and it was terrible, but it did get better. You have our love and support kit, we are here for you! Keep fighting! We are all so grateful for you and your videos.
We are all rooting for you kit. I was diagnosed with ocd yesterday evening at my additional specialist EDMR therapy consultation for my anxiety. I feel like I don’t know which disorder is worse. The symptoms are so depressing. Turns out I’ve had this my entire life including childhood. I’m glad our disorders have names and that our communities are getting less stigmatized. We’re not crazy , we are just chronically ill. Just like a diabetic needs insulin and to eat well . We need meds and mental health breaks. TKe care of yourself. We miss u but we’re glad you are looking out for yourself. And send a quick prayer out for me in deciding to try Prozac vrs duloxatine .
Comforted by chemistry lol. I got it in college and I would bring it with me to exams to keep that comfort going because I hated the tests. And we always had access to a periodic table so it was allowed. Thanks!
@@SchizoKitzo I was a chem major, graduated 2017. The last two years of school were a roller coaster through h e double hockey sticks. I've had a few psychiatrists, therapists and hospital stays since 2018. Near the end of 2019 I received a schizoaffective disorder diagnosis, bipolar type. Stuff sucks a lot and frequently. I have anxiety and a ptsd disgnosis, just a lot of tough days. I found your channel yesterday when I looked up lamotrigine, my psychiatrist mentioned it for a med change the other day. Thanks for sharing, hope your days a little brighter than when you made this video.
Hey Kit, I’m sorry that you’re struggling. I can tell that you’re working hard to keep your head above water. I know it’s tough, but remember that this episode will pass. This is not your forever. Keep up your efforts to find that light. Find others that will help you too. I wish you nothing but the best.
Hang in there, Kit, and hopefully this episode will pass soon. ❤ Give us an update on if you think that methyfolate is helping. I am interested in that.
I have bipolar I. I had a mental breakdown about five years ago, three hellish years. That may sound discouraging, but also encouraging in that people can get through long periods of adversity. Recently I've been trying an anti-inflammatory diet in addition to my prescribed medications (arguably hypomania and depression are inflammation of the brain), of turmeric and black pepper, and omega 3 supplements, and it seems to be helping.
Hey Kit! Thank you for being so open about your illness. I have Schizoaffective disorder too and I’m currently spiraling down into an episode. I wish you all the best in the world
It’s really amazing how much you are able to accomplish while struggling so much with depression and other symptoms! I think you should be really proud of yourself for doing all that you do. I’m not in a good space right now myself and can really relate to you. I’m sending you all the love and strength I can 💕You are a very strong person❤
It really is amazing! She paints hope onto my computer screen. It takes forever to wipe off and LG doesn't cover scrubbing bubbles. I don't take care of myself at all and can't force myself to do anything I normally find fun. Most of my depressions, I can't even get out of my own head, just sit in my room in the dark, watching my screensaver most of the day. I'm a pure introvert, even when I'm in a normal mood, so hanging out with friends is a hard sell.
I know that sometimes the best I can do is keep slogging through. The problem is accepting that. That too is a painful struggle. Reminding myself that others really care helps. Finding the way through is a at once numbingly-frightening and brave. But it's worth it. My best wishes are with you.
I know how hard it is to spend most if not all of your time alone, I have moments where I feel nothing or feel everything and I collapse but thanks for sharing. I just randomly searched things on youtube to help or find people I can connect or who can relate, I think most people in the comment section are suffering from some kind of depression or feel left out or don't fit in. Just wanna say thanks for the share and I appreciate what you said at the end. Stay strong friend
Thank you so so much for pushing through right now and posting this. Since I started watching a few of your videos I have started to care about you. I was so glad to see this video after the last one. I have no solutions. I just care about you and love you like a mom over the internet. X O
I’m thinking of you, Kit 💜 Being mentally ill is hard on a daily basis. I’m proud of you for fighting this long and continuing to push yourself to do things in spite of depression. Much love to you!
Well I'm going through mild depression myself for a while now, so it's pretty much only video games and youtube for me. I have enough work energy to brush teeth once in two days, sometimes I even miss a day. How many times I take a shower or a bath I won't disclose, but you can pretty much guess. So you're much better at that than me. Not to mention that you work a regular job as well. But that's a life I guess, not everyone gets to be a fighter. Wishing you as fast recovery as possible Kit (come to think of it to myself too) :)
Thanks so much for your kind words (as always) and I hope you get better soon too. Mental Illness is a battle and it takes guts to keep fighting, so hang in there, keep going, and you got this 💪
Kit, you are a true inspiration for me! This has been half a year into a majoric depression episode, with severe avolition & unhedonia I struggle so hard to just survive day to day.. I'm in therapy & I take my meds, unfortunately not reacting at all to anti depressionate, I am dysfunctional. I just had 5 days that I couldn't get out of bed at all, and the thing is I don't have any minute that I'm not hurting so bad .. Watching your channel actually made me feel not so bad for a few moments, and gave me something of a hope, that I desperately needed. So deepest gratitude! You are so so wholesome!
You are awesome. Thanks for sharing that private experience. Besides feeling sad, you encourage people to move forward. You are an angel, and wish you the best
Wishing you the best you look strong your very nice for doing this video I have heavy depression too and episodes it's good to see someone tough and give hope too get through it thank you fight on wish you the best
This update was really encouraging to see. I'm so glad you sought help and that your doctor found a vitamin for you to try. It was also good to hear about the other things you did to get through this episode. Those lights at the end of the tunnel are so important, and it sounds like you had some great ones (especially the Ren Faire and hot air balloon festival - that footage was really cool!). And I'm glad you were able to do other things like showering, brushing your teeth, eating, sleeping, & going to work. "I think it's okay to say that life sucks" >> This is so true and such an important reminder. I think society often pressures us to put up a front and pretend life is great all the time. But there are times when it does suck, and we shouldn't be afraid to say so. So thank you for saying it and showing us this honest look at psychotic depression.
First, thanks for this! Second, yes, society does try to hide behind almost…toxic positivity, and I understand seeing the good in things, I do it all the time, but the bad stuff still happens and we can’t just ignore it. I read a book recently that talked about how suffering is a part of life (it wasn’t a depressing book btw) and it will always happen no matter where you are, and because of that it’s okay to say that it sucks and it’s painful and it’s awful. I’m glad that part of the video resonated with you! And finally, thanks again
I have bipolar depression and I applaud your efforts to keep going and find things to do… that’s the hardest for me. Thankfully, I’m well controlled (depakote and seroquel are my friends).
I have schizoaffective disorder too. I also have depression. Like you say it's all rolled up in one convenient package. I've been where you are! I know how much it really really sucks! If there's anything I can do just ask! I know for me I have great friends and they helped pull me out of it. So my advice is that if you have a best friend lean on him or her right now. You'd be surprised how much it can help. So like I said if there's anything that I can do just ask!
Hey Kit, I hope you're coping better. Always put your mental health first. You're very brave for putting yourself out there. Take good care of yourself
Depression sucks. I've had severe depression for most of my life. Hang in there, it's good you can still post and go to places ❤ I hope you'll feel better soon. I also struggle with not eating enough when my depression is bad. It feels pointless to me even though I know I need food to live.
You are a fighter. I also have been struggling with the major depressive side of my schizoaffective disorder... My oldest brother got killed in a hit-and-run in LA and it seems like the world is crashing around me and is against me at the same time... That's how I feel. Anyway, I started following your channel about a year ago now and I'm very impressed with the support and dedication you have put into your work. Most of my projects go unfinished, but I want to share with you this poem I've written a few years back that has helped me... (Disclaimer: I do believe in God, so hopefully it doesn't come off like I'm preachy). The title of the poem is, 'God, Are You Listening.' Me: I'm in pain most days Not willing to fight Oh, my dear God, Are you even listening? God: I know your pain I felt it before Do not think I am closing the door I love you, my child you knew this before So sit down for a moment and I'll tell you what for... You came into this life knowing it wouldn't be easy Just like my begotten you are something amazing I let go of your hand so you may grow I send you my angels when you're feeling low Your mission on Earth is to be a good friend To those in need of a helping mend Look around, you'll never be alone Just reach out your hand to someone below I'll come when your days are nearing their end You'll gain that crown, surely you'll win I'll welcome you back home like a welcomed guest Well done my faithful servant, enter in and rest. -Bradley J. Copeland I hope that this can give you some added assurance and encouragement. I know you are a beloved daughter of God and He loves you and wants to be in communion. He knows every tear you have shed, the worries you may have, and cares about the same things you care deeply about. I don't claim to have all the answers, but God does answer. He has delivered me from so much and I know that He let go of our hands so we may grow. We are here to experience life and one day Ms. You will feel a fullness of joy and the greater capacity to feel that because of the lows you have, are, and will face in this life. Yes, life just sucks sometimes but be reassured that our suffering is for a greater purpose; not to punish us, but to help transform us. I know this might seem bizarre, but I do believe in Christ and I know He lives and loves you just as much as He loves me. He has saved me in many more ways than I can truly count; to be completely honest. I hope what I have shared has been an encouragement and that you may know you are not only deeply loved by us, but by an all-loving and eternal Father. I have been on my faith journey since I was 6 years old after my father passed away and I know coming to know God through scripture and prayer has helped me to survive. Keep pressing forward and if you do believe and have that relationship with God, keep praying... He will answer and I've noticed when He doesn't, He trusts that we will make the right decision and it is time to take positive action. Anyway, that's a lot but I do care and will always have you in prayer. I'll leave you with this... Like the old priest off of the movie, The Count of Monte Cristo," once said (paraphrased): "You may not believe in God, but it doesn't matter... Because He believes in you."
Kit your the best. I love your videos thank you for sharing your experiences. In 2020 I was diagnosed with bi-polar two . My life has changed so much for the better. Im glad I can do research about bi-polar on TH-cam. Take care, I love you.
I have schizoaffective bipolar type. I don’t take meds but I do tons of self care and I eat only non processed foods. I was just saying the other day if I can stay away from the sad I’m just fine. I see the positive instead of the negative most of the time. However, some things still have the power to suck me in. I hope you feel better young lady 🫶🏼
Thanks! It actually helps knowing that it's ok to not feel OK! Painting 24/7 instead of listening to my thoughts. Got two different shrinks but I don't feel it helps anymore. Just grinding the same over and over again.. Get well soon!! I learned to love your content! And I love that you're honest 😇
I admire your strength and willingness to survive and get out of this really difficult situation. I have the same illness and i am not half as positive and motivated as you. You are a very special beautiful person Kid and give me hope ❤️
Hi Kit... I'm sending you lots of love and well wishes in this time. Keep fighting. You're not alone and you will find the light at the end of the tunnel. Everything is temporary. I always remind myself of this when I'm going through an episode as well. Hang in there. Love Ree ❤
thanks for the message at the end. i have the same diagnosis as you and have been in a depression for idk how long. for me i cry randomly for seemingly no reason and can't be excited about things i normally care alot about.
One of the many things I hate about depression is how it warps my view of the world. And how, given long enough, I forget that I ever thought any different. its rough, but hang in there, the rain will stop eventually and the sun will come out again.
@@SchizoKitzo Yes. Depression warps my view on the world after a long time. I started feeling better yesterday after starting supplements. Now, my heart is racing in times of peace because I am so afraid the depression will come back. I feel like I escaped its clutches. Its my job now to keep focus and move forward. I hope you will feel better soon also. (Lemon Balm tincture in my water, Fish Oil and Magnesium boosted me out of my depression)
We are all rootin for you, Kit. Hope art and music and hot air ballons can be the glue. Dance like nobody's watching. Wish I could give you a hug. Hope the vlogging is helping you like I am sure it helps others who need you.
Please keep making content. I appreciate your channel as i was just diagnosed with schizo affective disorder. I have a hell of a story and have thought about starting a channel to help people as well. Keep going!
I don't wanna give up but ... okay thats a lie , I've given up , and I want to give up . I'm on so many medications , and some of them help for a little while , but then they don't . Therapy isn't helping , nothing seems to help . I don't know what to do .
I'm not going to pretend I have answers, I wish I did. I suppose that's how I got here, trying to understand other people's struggles. Thanks for sharing your life experience and I hope you do start feeling better soon.
It is amazing just how much the human body can turn against one... the dark in my mind is something I know I can never get answers to. I have been here before after service... but this year has been something else. I will keep fighting to... the hopeful outcome is very much worth it.
Omg I STAN DBT SO HARD ITS AMAZING! I’ve read ML’s autobiography too in addition to like, actually taking the DBT course a few times. She has made something wonderful and I wish everyone had DBT training. Good luck with yours!
@@SchizoKitzo It has really helped my perspective. I now am visiting a peer center a few times per week to keep focus. How are you? Any improvement? I'm very fond of my online peer-friend.
Hot air balloons are pretty cool. She was smiling, and has the proof. Life should not be so difficult to have a tough time smiling. The one picture of her there smiling made me feel good. I appreciate these videos and the experiences that are being shared.
Hi Kit I am sorry your going through this. I just did too with psychosis supposedly they say. So they added Zyprexa to my other meds, I absolutely love it! I cannot believe in all these years of so many different meds this is working for me anyway. Curious, I know you have tried a lot of meds, so have you tried it? It covers all sensory issues hallucinating, delusions, and mood stabilizing. Anyway, all people respond differently to different meds sooooo with that said, just thought I would mention it.
I’m a Zyprexa Stan! It’s saved my life several times over. As much as the path has been bumpy, that drug is a miracle for me (and many others). Plus the side effects aren’t too bad! Glad it works for you too!
in watching this video I just realized that I am going through an episode. I have recently had a dietary change that i am realizing has been the reason. I am buying much less of the foods that I have been eating to manage my schizoaffective disorder (as an alternative treatment plan). I was getting $300/ month in foods stamps. however, I started working to help me buy some things that I wanted for changes in my lifestyle. I am making a significant amount of money and I'm only getting $20/month in food stamps. I planned this beforehand, I was set on spending about $100/month for a temporary period of time. working has also given me a way to interact with people on a regular basis. it was quite nice actually, but some days I don't want to work and interact with people because of Guilt and Fear Related to Sexual Orientation. I usually have the attitude to focus on self respect towards my feelings. 2 weeks feel like a very long time. usually my motivation to make money (to fuel my desired lifestyle change) fills me with enthusiastic energy, which is much nicer to interact with people that way. this has been off an on, i have been thinking about therapy but I also have 2nd thoughts about it and fear it to some degree. however, I have learned a little bit more about treatment, and the stuff i learn helps me think differently, it makes me feel better, I feel like I'm accepted by society.
I felt that when you said there's always a trade off. I've been taking Zyprexa and Prozac and it causes weight gain. I don't get as manic but I do get depressed sometimes. I get intrusive thoughts too which sucks. I am also schizoaffective bipolar type😊
Try playing videogames. Maybe try some Dota 2 haha. I have schizophrenia since 2018 and have thousands of hours of Dota 2 since i discovered it around an year ago. Great that you like outdoor activities. But i know it can be hard to go out sometimes with all those positive symptoms and negative symptoms. I've followed your channel for a long time now and have a similar story as yours with a certian someone,infatuation,erotomanic delusions so when you said it was worst since you episode in college I knew it's bad. Just eat well Kit. And don't get hurt. I got apathetic to myself when i in my worse bits of depression/psychosis.
Have you heard of photobiomodulation? Seems to be a new method that helps with our type of illnesses. I have bipolar 1 with psychotic features and I will most likely give it a try this year.
I'm on antidepressants (Desvenlafaxine for depression and Clomipramine for OCD and tics) and Lithium, but my depression isn't getting better and the antidepressants are triggering hypomania. The thing is, I'm pretty sure I have cyclothymia (I'll talk with my psychiatrist about that), so both my depressive episode as well as my hypomanic episodes are really short. Hell, sometimes I switch from severely depressive to hypomanic in a matter of hours. Anyways, I really hope you get better. I really do! Xoxo. :)
You have a super well informed neurologist (well i suppose it is a neurologist). Just take time with yourself ikikr but in my experience if you're not on episodes than it's kind of a dull numbing experience so you're brain kind of sets out to search for the extra dosis of neurotransmitters and here we go again it's episode time even with the slightest of 'extra' stress... sorry for my bad writing as english is my second/third language. Virtual hugs
Hi Kit... I guess you know you should have blood tests to make sure the Lithium levels aren't toxic? My ADs don't send me into mania because of mood stabilizers. It's a shame if you if your AD still makes you manic when you're on lithium. Maybe add (or ask about) Latuda... Seroquel is controversial but I think it works well as an anti-manic. But it's very sedating. When I'm bad I just spend a day on You Tube.... it's a good time waster. Even when I'm good I'll have a short jag where I see spiders... but they're not real. It sounds trite but .... This too shall pass. Hang in there. The fact that you can still post and upload a video impresses the hell out of me. Hang in there. Michael.
You know what I've come to realize? People need more hugs. I'd give ya a hug if I was one of your friend. Hugs are good. Don't be scared to give them too. No big deal to hold on too. Much love to ya. Put hugs on your check list. ❤️🩹
My comment question is a bipolar mixed mania requst for your perspective. I realize that this is not discussed in detail. Coming of mania psychosis any Not Much Fun Mood episodes. This question has come up because I am hoping to remain out of this. 13 months loveyour Work. Thanks!
Hope you find right supplements, meds even supplements load the body trick finding best for you and the internals. My buddies have been doing great hope same for you. Know it’s hard being patient with your doctor but he seem caring
While I no longer have the same doctor, the NP I have now is awesome so far. Supplements make all the difference for me in some cases! Thanks for the super thanks and thanks for the comment!
oh yea, I was taking that! after I Learned about the recent MTHFR Gene Mutation Discovery. I haven't gotten a DNA test to verify if i have this Mutation or not. but it does effect a large size of the population. I don't take it anymore, however, for the past several years i have made it one of my priorities to eat more Leafy Green Veggies which are high in Folate (which is better absorbed than folic acid.) also, Nutrient absorption of unfamiliar foods tends to improve over time.
i wonder, do you think people with SA choose jobs that allow them to go on auto-pilot? i have worked in accounting since age 21ish and it is definitely a job i can mentally check out from. however, it's so suffocatingly boring it can drive me into a manic episode...
Hope that Methylenetetrahydrofolate helps. I will like you to do an update perhaps a little more time it might. Ask your doctor about B vitamins as well. I take sublingual B12 in morning 3-4 under the tongue seems to lift me enough to get going. Ask him about Betaine as well. One supplement might not be enough and who knows what one’s right for you. Good luck hope for wonderful days ahead for you soon. 😊👍 instead of the 👎days. 🖕 to those bad. Body changes so adjustment might need made from time to time. Hope you journal so others might be helped in future. Right now sure you can’t but if successful. Who knows even a book? Maybe not but never know. Just keep doing your TH-cam’s if you can
I already journal quite a lot and how thought about books. Maybe one day! And for the l-methylfolate it works so well! For many people it makes antidepressants work better but since I don’t take one of those it just helps as is. Amazing little supplement. Thanks for this comment and for the super thanks!
Awwwww. I am sorry that you are going through this. You just have to grind it out until better days come along. They will. God Loves you. Actually He Loves you with an astonishing Love, a Love that's beyond your wildest imagining. There are MANY MANY near death experience stories (some found here on YT) that describe God's Love in those terms. People get in plane crashes and bad car crashes or things like that and they "die" and leave their bodies and then go on to experience amazing things but "it's not their time" so they get sent back to their bodies and tell their stories. One guy got into a horrible car crash and while in the hospital they pronounced him dead. He died. He said he left his body and found himself "in the Arms of Jesus" in Paradise. He asked Jesus if he could go back to earth and Jesus said to him "If you want to." Well what the man went on to say is..................................... "He is the kindest, most Beautiful, most Loving, the most amazing human being anywhere in a Billion Universes." Sometimes when I get into a jam or an unhappy place I just sort of mentally let go of all the world (tune it out) and turn my attention to Jesus (as described in that scene) and just look His way and talk to Him (prayer) for an e x t e n d e d period of time. More of GOD is the great need. God is Love. (1 John 4:8) *At last.* The day dawns clear and the sun shines bright Erasing every trace of night; It's happened time and time again and that's the way it's always been. So though the darkness seems to last Soon you will say, "This, too, has passed!" Have faith in Him who holds earth plans within His wise and Loving Hands. Lean patiently upon His breast and He will give you peace and Rest. ...
I love this message and the poem you have shared... It is well written. God is mindful of us and His mind if full of all the wonderful things He wants to bless us with and is going to bless us with. "This is what it is like to experience life." -From another TH-camr I'm so grateful for a loving God that does hear our prayers and that has given me the opportunity to experience this life.
@@bradleycopeland7299 Well thank you for your comment. Amen to what you said. God is Loving, HE WANTS us to talk to Him often, and He has Wonderful things that he wants to bless us (and this girl too) with. You won't get any arguments from me about that. "Draw near to God and He will draw near to you..." (James 4:8) God is Love (1 John 4:8) ALL LOVE. *"Draw near to Love and Love will draw near to you..."* My heart goes out to this girl after watching this video and reading what she wrote under it. I wish I had the ability to send a rainbow laser fusion beam straight into her heart to make her know that GOD is the answer to her dilemma. That's out of my pay zone to be able to do that of course. He created us with free will. We can choose to fly to God or run from Him. Our natural human wills have a tendency and inclination to want to choose the latter. *LOVE* is the master key that opens the gates of Happiness. Love itself is Happiness. There is no happiness but Love. _The more you Love the happier you are._ THE LORD is gracious and compassionate, slow to anger and *RICH IN LOVE.* (Psalm 148:5) “No eye has seen, no ear has heard, and no mind has imagined what God has prepared for those who love Him.” (1 Corinthians 2:9) ...
Im schizoeffective too kit. You know what i do when i suffer depression symptoms? I just say, fuck it, i dont care, theres nothing i can really do about it. Try it, kit, it sounds like you are me when i was 25 and i thought i could control everything. Just say, fuck it.
Just keep taking care of yourself and hopefully this depressive episode doesn't linger for too much longer for you.
Kit, I do not have schizoaffective disorder. So, I can only imagine what that is like.
However, as someone who struggles with mental health on the daily (in a different way) with debilitating ADHD, OCD, CPTSD, and GAD, you inspire me so much!! I am grateful for you and your channel. The way in which you fiercely advocate for yourself, your own mental health, and the mental health community as a whole inspires me to unapologetically advocate for myself and my own mental health too! Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
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I have schizoaffective as well. Chronic depression and anxiety. I find your content extremely helpful.
I am treatment resistant and have tried many different anti depressants.
Always keep hope that you can get through your conditions.
You've probably heard about it, or at least your doctors know it, but I just wanted to give you the information that stimulants for adhd (like Ritalin) can help towards treatment resistent depression. I have bipolar disorder where 90% of my life has been depression, no anti-dep helped. I then got diagnosed with ADD and my Ritalin didn't only help my adhd-symptoms, but also my depression. It was so amazing! And I had been ill for over 15 years, so finding the right medication can really do wonders.
Just putting it out there in case you didn't know. Take care!
Hey kit. I don't know if you remember me, I was the person who wrote a few massive manic comments on some of your videos a few months ago. I got very psychotic during that manic episode and then I crashed into a deep depressive episode. I want you to know that it gets better. I very recently recovered from that depressive episode and it was terrible, but it did get better. You have our love and support kit, we are here for you! Keep fighting! We are all so grateful for you and your videos.
I’m glad you came out of yours! And I’ll keep fighting, no worries on that front 💪
We are all rooting for you kit. I was diagnosed with ocd yesterday evening at my additional specialist EDMR therapy consultation for my anxiety. I feel like I don’t know which disorder is worse. The symptoms are so depressing. Turns out I’ve had this my entire life including childhood. I’m glad our disorders have names and that our communities are getting less stigmatized. We’re not crazy , we are just chronically ill. Just like a diabetic needs insulin and to eat well . We need meds and mental health breaks. TKe care of yourself. We miss u but we’re glad you are looking out for yourself. And send a quick prayer out for me in deciding to try Prozac vrs duloxatine .
Yes we are gonna keep fighting! By the way, I like your periodic table blanket 🥼
Comforted by chemistry lol. I got it in college and I would bring it with me to exams to keep that comfort going because I hated the tests. And we always had access to a periodic table so it was allowed. Thanks!
@@SchizoKitzo I was a chem major, graduated 2017. The last two years of school were a roller coaster through h e double hockey sticks. I've had a few psychiatrists, therapists and hospital stays since 2018. Near the end of 2019 I received a schizoaffective disorder diagnosis, bipolar type. Stuff sucks a lot and frequently. I have anxiety and a ptsd disgnosis, just a lot of tough days. I found your channel yesterday when I looked up lamotrigine, my psychiatrist mentioned it for a med change the other day. Thanks for sharing, hope your days a little brighter than when you made this video.
Hey Kit, I’m sorry that you’re struggling. I can tell that you’re working hard to keep your head above water. I know it’s tough, but remember that this episode will pass. This is not your forever.
Keep up your efforts to find that light. Find others that will help you too.
I wish you nothing but the best.
Hang in there, Kit, and hopefully this episode will pass soon. ❤ Give us an update on if you think that methyfolate is helping. I am interested in that.
I hope you start to feel better soon. Sending love to you!
I have bipolar I. I had a mental breakdown about five years ago, three hellish years. That may sound discouraging, but also encouraging in that people can get through long periods of adversity. Recently I've been trying an anti-inflammatory diet in addition to my prescribed medications (arguably hypomania and depression are inflammation of the brain), of turmeric and black pepper, and omega 3 supplements, and it seems to be helping.
Hey Kit! Thank you for being so open about your illness. I have Schizoaffective disorder too and I’m currently spiraling down into an episode. I wish you all the best in the world
i also have schizoaffective, we need an online forum
Take care Kit 💔 we love You so much!❤
It’s really amazing how much you are able to accomplish while struggling so much with depression and other symptoms! I think you should be really proud of yourself for doing all that you do. I’m not in a good space right now myself and can really relate to you. I’m sending you all the love and strength I can 💕You are a very strong person❤
I’m so stubborn, that’s how 😂 But on a serious note, thanks. I appreciate this!
It really is amazing! She paints hope onto my computer screen. It takes forever to wipe off and LG doesn't cover scrubbing bubbles.
I don't take care of myself at all and can't force myself to do anything I normally find fun. Most of my depressions, I can't even get out of my own head, just sit in my room in the dark, watching my screensaver most of the day. I'm a pure introvert, even when I'm in a normal mood, so hanging out with friends is a hard sell.
I know that sometimes the best I can do is keep slogging through. The problem is accepting that. That too is a painful struggle. Reminding myself that others really care helps. Finding the way through is a at once numbingly-frightening and brave. But it's worth it. My best wishes are with you.
I know how hard it is to spend most if not all of your time alone, I have moments where I feel nothing or feel everything and I collapse but thanks for sharing. I just randomly searched things on youtube to help or find people I can connect or who can relate, I think most people in the comment section are suffering from some kind of depression or feel left out or don't fit in. Just wanna say thanks for the share and I appreciate what you said at the end. Stay strong friend
Thank you so so much for pushing through right now and posting this. Since I started watching a few of your videos I have started to care about you. I was so glad to see this video after the last one. I have no solutions. I just care about you and love you like a mom over the internet. X O
I’m thinking of you, Kit 💜 Being mentally ill is hard on a daily basis. I’m proud of you for fighting this long and continuing to push yourself to do things in spite of depression. Much love to you!
Well I'm going through mild depression myself for a while now, so it's pretty much only video games and youtube for me. I have enough work energy to brush teeth once in two days, sometimes I even miss a day. How many times I take a shower or a bath I won't disclose, but you can pretty much guess. So you're much better at that than me. Not to mention that you work a regular job as well. But that's a life I guess, not everyone gets to be a fighter. Wishing you as fast recovery as possible Kit (come to think of it to myself too) :)
Thanks so much for your kind words (as always) and I hope you get better soon too. Mental Illness is a battle and it takes guts to keep fighting, so hang in there, keep going, and you got this 💪
Thanks!
Thank you!!!!! I appreciate this!
I really hope it gets better 🥺🥺🥺
Kit, you are a true inspiration for me! This has been half a year into a majoric depression episode, with severe avolition & unhedonia
I struggle so hard to just survive day to day..
I'm in therapy & I take my meds, unfortunately not reacting at all to anti depressionate, I am dysfunctional. I just had 5 days that I couldn't get out of bed at all, and the thing is I don't have any minute that I'm not hurting so bad
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Watching your channel actually made me feel not so bad for a few moments, and gave me something of a hope, that I desperately needed. So deepest gratitude! You are so so wholesome!
You are awesome. Thanks for sharing that private experience. Besides feeling sad, you encourage people to move forward. You are an angel, and wish you the best
Wishing you the best you look strong your very nice for doing this video I have heavy depression too and episodes it's good to see someone tough and give hope too get through it thank you fight on wish you the best
This update was really encouraging to see. I'm so glad you sought help and that your doctor found a vitamin for you to try. It was also good to hear about the other things you did to get through this episode. Those lights at the end of the tunnel are so important, and it sounds like you had some great ones (especially the Ren Faire and hot air balloon festival - that footage was really cool!). And I'm glad you were able to do other things like showering, brushing your teeth, eating, sleeping, & going to work.
"I think it's okay to say that life sucks" >> This is so true and such an important reminder. I think society often pressures us to put up a front and pretend life is great all the time. But there are times when it does suck, and we shouldn't be afraid to say so. So thank you for saying it and showing us this honest look at psychotic depression.
First, thanks for this! Second, yes, society does try to hide behind almost…toxic positivity, and I understand seeing the good in things, I do it all the time, but the bad stuff still happens and we can’t just ignore it. I read a book recently that talked about how suffering is a part of life (it wasn’t a depressing book btw) and it will always happen no matter where you are, and because of that it’s okay to say that it sucks and it’s painful and it’s awful. I’m glad that part of the video resonated with you! And finally, thanks again
I have bipolar depression and I applaud your efforts to keep going and find things to do… that’s the hardest for me. Thankfully, I’m well controlled (depakote and seroquel are my friends).
I was diagnosed with schizophrenia in my 20s I find your videos very informative keep it up Kit😊
I have schizoaffective disorder too. I also have depression. Like you say it's all rolled up in one convenient package. I've been where you are! I know how much it really really sucks! If there's anything I can do just ask! I know for me I have great friends and they helped pull me out of it. So my advice is that if you have a best friend lean on him or her right now. You'd be surprised how much it can help. So like I said if there's anything that I can do just ask!
Hey Kit, I hope you're coping better. Always put your mental health first. You're very brave for putting yourself out there. Take good care of yourself
Depression sucks. I've had severe depression for most of my life. Hang in there, it's good you can still post and go to places ❤ I hope you'll feel better soon.
I also struggle with not eating enough when my depression is bad. It feels pointless to me even though I know I need food to live.
You are a fighter. I also have been struggling with the major depressive side of my schizoaffective disorder... My oldest brother got killed in a hit-and-run in LA and it seems like the world is crashing around me and is against me at the same time... That's how I feel.
Anyway, I started following your channel about a year ago now and I'm very impressed with the support and dedication you have put into your work. Most of my projects go unfinished, but I want to share with you this poem I've written a few years back that has helped me...
(Disclaimer: I do believe in God, so hopefully it doesn't come off like I'm preachy).
The title of the poem is, 'God, Are You Listening.'
Me:
I'm in pain most days
Not willing to fight
Oh, my dear God,
Are you even listening?
God:
I know your pain I felt it before
Do not think I am closing the door
I love you, my child you knew this before
So sit down for a moment and I'll tell you what for...
You came into this life knowing it wouldn't be easy
Just like my begotten you are something amazing
I let go of your hand so you may grow
I send you my angels when you're feeling low
Your mission on Earth is to be a good friend
To those in need of a helping mend
Look around, you'll never be alone
Just reach out your hand to someone below
I'll come when your days are nearing their end
You'll gain that crown, surely you'll win
I'll welcome you back home like a welcomed guest
Well done my faithful servant, enter in and rest.
-Bradley J. Copeland
I hope that this can give you some added assurance and encouragement.
I know you are a beloved daughter of God and He loves you and wants to be in communion.
He knows every tear you have shed, the worries you may have, and cares about the same things you care deeply about.
I don't claim to have all the answers, but God does answer.
He has delivered me from so much and I know that He let go of our hands so we may grow.
We are here to experience life and one day Ms. You will feel a fullness of joy and the greater capacity to feel that because of the lows you have, are, and will face in this life.
Yes, life just sucks sometimes but be reassured that our suffering is for a greater purpose; not to punish us, but to help transform us.
I know this might seem bizarre, but I do believe in Christ and I know He lives and loves you just as much as He loves me.
He has saved me in many more ways than I can truly count; to be completely honest.
I hope what I have shared has been an encouragement and that you may know you are not only deeply loved by us, but by an all-loving and eternal Father.
I have been on my faith journey since I was 6 years old after my father passed away and I know coming to know God through scripture and prayer has helped me to survive.
Keep pressing forward and if you do believe and have that relationship with God, keep praying... He will answer and I've noticed when He doesn't, He trusts that we will make the right decision and it is time to take positive action.
Anyway, that's a lot but I do care and will always have you in prayer.
I'll leave you with this...
Like the old priest off of the movie, The Count of Monte Cristo," once said (paraphrased): "You may not believe in God, but it doesn't matter... Because He believes in you."
That poem is beautiful, thank you for sharing. I’ll hang onto that one.
Kit your the best. I love your videos thank you for sharing your experiences. In 2020 I was diagnosed with bi-polar two . My life has changed so much for the better. Im glad I can do research about bi-polar on TH-cam. Take care, I love you.
Thank you very much for these video's. It helps people to understand the struggles of people with mental diseases. Let's all be open about it!
I have schizoaffective bipolar type. I don’t take meds but I do tons of self care and I eat only non processed foods. I was just saying the other day if I can stay away from the sad I’m just fine. I see the positive instead of the negative most of the time. However, some things still have the power to suck me in. I hope you feel better young lady 🫶🏼
Thanks! It actually helps knowing that it's ok to not feel OK! Painting 24/7 instead of listening to my thoughts. Got two different shrinks but I don't feel it helps anymore. Just grinding the same over and over again..
Get well soon!! I learned to love your content! And I love that you're honest 😇
I admire your strength and willingness to survive and get out of this really difficult situation. I have the same illness and i am not half as positive and motivated as you. You are a very special beautiful person Kid and give me hope ❤️
Hi Kit... I'm sending you lots of love and well wishes in this time. Keep fighting. You're not alone and you will find the light at the end of the tunnel. Everything is temporary. I always remind myself of this when I'm going through an episode as well. Hang in there. Love Ree ❤
thanks for the message at the end. i have the same diagnosis as you and have been in a depression for idk how long. for me i cry randomly for seemingly no reason and can't be excited about things i normally care alot about.
One of the many things I hate about depression is how it warps my view of the world. And how, given long enough, I forget that I ever thought any different. its rough, but hang in there, the rain will stop eventually and the sun will come out again.
@@SchizoKitzo Yes. Depression warps my view on the world after a long time. I started feeling better yesterday after starting supplements. Now, my heart is racing in times of peace because I am so afraid the depression will come back. I feel like I escaped its clutches. Its my job now to keep focus and move forward. I hope you will feel better soon also. (Lemon Balm tincture in my water, Fish Oil and Magnesium boosted me out of my depression)
We’re gonna make it , stay strong sys
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Thank you. You made me recognize the voice that builds me
We are all rootin for you, Kit. Hope art and music and hot air ballons can be the glue. Dance like nobody's watching. Wish I could give you a hug. Hope the vlogging is helping you like I am sure it helps others who need you.
❤ You speak very well. Great use of words. 🎉 We will get through this.
I can relate to everything your saying rn I hope you feel better soon your not alone ❤❤❤
Please keep making content. I appreciate your channel as i was just diagnosed with schizo affective disorder. I have a hell of a story and have thought about starting a channel to help people as well. Keep going!
I don’t plan on stopping anytime soon I assure you. Thanks!
I don't wanna give up but ... okay thats a lie , I've given up , and I want to give up . I'm on so many medications , and some of them help for a little while , but then they don't . Therapy isn't helping , nothing seems to help . I don't know what to do .
are you schizo affective too?
I'm not going to pretend I have answers, I wish I did. I suppose that's how I got here, trying to understand other people's struggles. Thanks for sharing your life experience and I hope you do start feeling better soon.
It is amazing just how much the human body can turn against one... the dark in my mind is something I know I can never get answers to. I have been here before after service... but this year has been something else. I will keep fighting to... the hopeful outcome is very much worth it.
I just got out of a ward. You don't know me, but you have given me strength many times over.
Welcome back!
@@SchizoKitzo back at cha
@@SchizoKitzo I'm now in an outpatient program. It focuses on DBT (Marsha Lindahan). I'm sure you are familiar. Do you have any opinions on her work?
Omg I STAN DBT SO HARD ITS AMAZING! I’ve read ML’s autobiography too in addition to like, actually taking the DBT course a few times. She has made something wonderful and I wish everyone had DBT training. Good luck with yours!
@@SchizoKitzo It has really helped my perspective. I now am visiting a peer center a few times per week to keep focus. How are you? Any improvement? I'm very fond of my online peer-friend.
Big hugs, rest and get plenty of help and support
Hot air balloons are pretty cool. She was smiling, and has the proof. Life should not be so difficult to have a tough time smiling. The one picture of her there smiling made me feel good.
I appreciate these videos and the experiences that are being shared.
I have Psychotic depression and I've been in an episode for a month and a half on all meds been having full blown psychotic episodes with medications.
I love your videos. Have another malady. You've have helped a great deal. Thanks as always! You're A Classic by the way. Be feeling better.
Damn. I am too, it's like day 3 or 4. Going in for ECT soon
Hope you feel some improvement in your symptoms Kit. Love the periodic table top
its a woven blanket actually! I got it during college and I’ve loved it ever since. Guess I like being comforted by chemistry lol. Thanks!
Hi Kit I am sorry your going through this. I just did too with psychosis supposedly they say. So they added Zyprexa to my other meds, I absolutely love it! I cannot believe in all these years of so many different meds this is working for me anyway.
Curious, I know you have tried a lot of meds, so have you tried it?
It covers all sensory issues hallucinating, delusions, and mood stabilizing. Anyway, all people respond differently to different meds sooooo with that said, just thought I would mention it.
I’m a Zyprexa Stan! It’s saved my life several times over. As much as the path has been bumpy, that drug is a miracle for me (and many others). Plus the side effects aren’t too bad! Glad it works for you too!
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Does anyone else who has a mental health condition become overwhelmed when they see a lot of people at one time .
in watching this video I just realized that I am going through an episode. I have recently had a dietary change that i am realizing has been the reason. I am buying much less of the foods that I have been eating to manage my schizoaffective disorder (as an alternative treatment plan). I was getting $300/ month in foods stamps. however, I started working to help me buy some things that I wanted for changes in my lifestyle. I am making a significant amount of money and I'm only getting $20/month in food stamps. I planned this beforehand, I was set on spending about $100/month for a temporary period of time. working has also given me a way to interact with people on a regular basis. it was quite nice actually, but some days I don't want to work and interact with people because of Guilt and Fear Related to Sexual Orientation. I usually have the attitude to focus on self respect towards my feelings. 2 weeks feel like a very long time. usually my motivation to make money (to fuel my desired lifestyle change) fills me with enthusiastic energy, which is much nicer to interact with people that way. this has been off an on, i have been thinking about therapy but I also have 2nd thoughts about it and fear it to some degree. however, I have learned a little bit more about treatment, and the stuff i learn helps me think differently, it makes me feel better, I feel like I'm accepted by society.
I felt that when you said there's always a trade off. I've been taking Zyprexa and Prozac and it causes weight gain. I don't get as manic but I do get depressed sometimes. I get intrusive thoughts too which sucks. I am also schizoaffective bipolar type😊
What about some of the new atypical antipsychotics like Caplyta? The side effect profile for that one seems amazing.
Thanks kate I really hurting you helped me
I get ya, I been waking up hearing out loud, a radio playing, it's background noise that's always been there, when I first wake up is when it happens
Hallucinations first thing in the morning are THE WORST. Have had plenty of those throughout this, stay strong!
Try playing videogames. Maybe try some Dota 2 haha. I have schizophrenia since 2018 and have thousands of hours of Dota 2 since i discovered it around an year ago. Great that you like outdoor activities. But i know it can be hard to go out sometimes with all those positive symptoms and negative symptoms. I've followed your channel for a long time now and have a similar story as yours with a certian someone,infatuation,erotomanic delusions so when you said it was worst since you episode in college I knew it's bad. Just eat well Kit. And don't get hurt. I got apathetic to myself when i in my worse bits of depression/psychosis.
I’m with you girl.. hang in there…❤️🙏😘
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I just tried 5-htp. It's a precursor to serotonin. Seems to be helping me.
Have you heard of photobiomodulation? Seems to be a new method that helps with our type of illnesses. I have bipolar 1 with psychotic features and I will most likely give it a try this year.
I'm on antidepressants (Desvenlafaxine for depression and Clomipramine for OCD and tics) and Lithium, but my depression isn't getting better and the antidepressants are triggering hypomania. The thing is, I'm pretty sure I have cyclothymia (I'll talk with my psychiatrist about that), so both my depressive episode as well as my hypomanic episodes are really short. Hell, sometimes I switch from severely depressive to hypomanic in a matter of hours. Anyways, I really hope you get better. I really do! Xoxo. :)
You have a super well informed neurologist (well i suppose it is a neurologist). Just take time with yourself ikikr but in my experience if you're not on episodes than it's kind of a dull numbing experience so you're brain kind of sets out to search for the extra dosis of neurotransmitters and here we go again it's episode time even with the slightest of 'extra' stress... sorry for my bad writing as english is my second/third language.
Virtual hugs
Maybe try upping the lamotrigine. That stuff has been a miracle for maintenence depression treatment for me.
I feel the same 😞
Hi Kit... I guess you know you should have blood tests to make sure the Lithium levels aren't toxic? My ADs don't send me into mania because of mood stabilizers. It's a shame if you if your AD still makes you manic when you're on lithium. Maybe add (or ask about) Latuda... Seroquel is controversial but I think it works well as an anti-manic. But it's very sedating. When I'm bad I just spend a day on You Tube.... it's a good time waster. Even when I'm good I'll have a short jag where I see spiders... but they're not real. It sounds trite but .... This too shall pass. Hang in there. The fact that you can still post and upload a video impresses the hell out of me. Hang in there. Michael.
Do you live in CO Springs?! Asking cuz I used to live there and we had a Renaissance Fair and a Hot Air Ballon Fest.
You know what I've come to realize? People need more hugs. I'd give ya a hug if I was one of your friend. Hugs are good. Don't be scared to give them too. No big deal to hold on too. Much love to ya. Put hugs on your check list. ❤️🩹
I came across your video on my TH-cam channel
I hope you feel better soon. What is making you depressed?
Team SK ❤
You got this
Curious about your thoughts on Keto and Brian Palmers book
I have heard some good things about it! I just have not read it myself.
My comment question is a bipolar mixed mania requst for your perspective. I realize that this is not discussed in detail. Coming of mania psychosis any Not Much Fun Mood episodes. This question has come up because I am hoping to remain out of this. 13 months loveyour Work. Thanks!
Totally on the list, thanks!
Hope you find right supplements, meds even supplements load the body trick finding best for you and the internals. My buddies have been doing great hope same for you. Know it’s hard being patient with your doctor but he seem caring
While I no longer have the same doctor, the NP I have now is awesome so far. Supplements make all the difference for me in some cases! Thanks for the super thanks and thanks for the comment!
oh yea, I was taking that! after I Learned about the recent MTHFR Gene Mutation Discovery. I haven't gotten a DNA test to verify if i have this Mutation or not. but it does effect a large size of the population. I don't take it anymore, however, for the past several years i have made it one of my priorities to eat more Leafy Green Veggies which are high in Folate (which is better absorbed than folic acid.) also, Nutrient absorption of unfamiliar foods tends to improve over time.
I can't eat at all during my depressive episodes . It's like swallowing poison .
thanks for sharing that, i relate. idk how long i have been depressed now but i struggle to eat on a daily basis
I love you!!!
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I checked the like because see you on the next video👍
Do you think CBD gummies might help?
i wonder, do you think people with SA choose jobs that allow them to go on auto-pilot? i have worked in accounting since age 21ish and it is definitely a job i can mentally check out from. however, it's so suffocatingly boring it can drive me into a manic episode...
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I'm hallucinating smells._.
I hope that this works for you and you don't have to go back on a higher dose of Lithium. 🙏🙏
Thanks, Lisa!!!
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Hope that Methylenetetrahydrofolate helps. I will like you to do an update perhaps a little more time it might. Ask your doctor about B vitamins as well. I take sublingual B12 in morning 3-4 under the tongue seems to lift me enough to get going. Ask him about Betaine as well. One supplement might not be enough and who knows what one’s right for you. Good luck hope for wonderful days ahead for you soon. 😊👍 instead of the 👎days.
🖕 to those bad.
Body changes so adjustment might need made from time to time. Hope you journal so others might be helped in future. Right now sure you can’t but if successful. Who knows even a book? Maybe not but never know. Just keep doing your TH-cam’s if you can
I already journal quite a lot and how thought about books. Maybe one day! And for the l-methylfolate it works so well! For many people it makes antidepressants work better but since I don’t take one of those it just helps as is. Amazing little supplement. Thanks for this comment and for the super thanks!
@@SchizoKitzo This is helpful for many hope you can stay up with it. 💕
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Praying for you in Jesus's mighty name
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Awwwww. I am sorry that you are going through this. You just have to grind it out until better days come along.
They will. God Loves you. Actually He Loves you with an astonishing Love, a Love that's beyond your wildest imagining.
There are MANY MANY near death experience stories (some found here on YT) that describe God's Love in those terms.
People get in plane crashes and bad car crashes or things like that and they "die" and leave their bodies and then go on to experience amazing things but "it's not their time" so they get sent back to their bodies and tell their stories. One guy got into a horrible car crash and while in the hospital they pronounced him dead. He died. He said he left his body and found himself "in the Arms of Jesus" in Paradise. He asked Jesus if he could go back to earth and Jesus said to him "If you want to."
Well what the man went on to say is..................................... "He is the kindest, most Beautiful, most Loving, the most amazing human being anywhere in a Billion Universes."
Sometimes when I get into a jam or an unhappy place I just sort of mentally let go of all the world (tune it out) and turn my attention to Jesus (as described in that scene) and just look His way and talk to Him (prayer) for an e x t e n d e d period of time. More of GOD is the great need. God is Love. (1 John 4:8)
*At last.*
The day dawns clear and the sun
shines bright
Erasing every trace of night;
It's happened time and time again
and that's the way it's always been.
So though the darkness seems to last
Soon you will say, "This, too, has passed!"
Have faith in Him who holds earth plans
within His wise and Loving Hands.
Lean patiently upon His breast
and He will give you peace and Rest.
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I love this message and the poem you have shared... It is well written. God is mindful of us and His mind if full of all the wonderful things He wants to bless us with and is going to bless us with.
"This is what it is like to experience life." -From another TH-camr
I'm so grateful for a loving God that does hear our prayers and that has given me the opportunity to experience this life.
@@bradleycopeland7299 Well thank you for your comment. Amen to what you said. God is Loving, HE WANTS us to talk to Him often, and He has Wonderful things that he wants to bless us (and this girl too) with. You won't get any arguments from me about that. "Draw near to God and He will draw near to you..." (James 4:8) God is Love (1 John 4:8) ALL LOVE. *"Draw near to Love and Love will draw near to you..."*
My heart goes out to this girl after watching this video and reading what she wrote under it. I wish I had the ability to send a rainbow laser fusion beam straight into her heart to make her know that GOD is the answer to her dilemma. That's out of my pay zone to be able to do that of course. He created us with free will. We can choose to fly to God or run from Him. Our natural human wills have a tendency and inclination to want to choose the latter.
*LOVE* is the master key that opens the gates of Happiness.
Love itself is Happiness. There is no happiness but Love.
_The more you Love the happier you are._
THE LORD is gracious and compassionate,
slow to anger and *RICH IN LOVE.*
(Psalm 148:5)
“No eye has seen, no ear has heard,
and no mind has imagined what God
has prepared for those who love Him.”
(1 Corinthians 2:9)
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Not giving medical advise!
There is a natural lithium that's available in gel caps form. Seek personalized, professional medical adv. ...
Your too beautiful to cheat on your demons. I do experience external hallucinations. Take over it!!!!
Im schizoeffective too kit. You know what i do when i suffer depression symptoms? I just say, fuck it, i dont care, theres nothing i can really do about it. Try it, kit, it sounds like you are me when i was 25 and i thought i could control everything. Just say, fuck it.
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This sounds so stupid, but read "The Hobbit" idk it helps
you look better w/o make up
Thanks!
THANK YOU SO MUCH!