I Hallucinated in This Video: A Life Update
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 13 ต.ค. 2023
- Alternative title: I try to make a depression vlog but psychosis interrupts me until it doesn't and then I finish the dang vlog.
Back before I knew I was schizoaffective, the psychotic experience you see in this video was common, and I truly believed it was the noise of the universe that leaked through our space time continuum. I was just “lucky” to hear it. I still struggle with that right when it happens.
Learning that the Noise™ was something that could be fixed with a pill was the greatest joy when I first started taking antipsychotics. Back before Zyprexa saved my life, the Noise™ would cause immense distress when it happened. Usually it would last for days at a time. But towards the end of my psychotic break, it was weeks of it.
But I wasn’t always looking like I did in this video. Back then I was better at hiding those expressions, the cringes, the reactions, and I got so used to it that the screaming in my head was normalized in my own brain. It's crazy what you can get get used to
And let it be known, when this happens, I am not violent, I am actually quite distressed and anxious and vulnerable; AKA the opposite of what the media--and society--would lead you to believe. I uploaded this for educational purposes, because mental health education is my passion and I want the world to know what this experience is like.
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"I'm so tired of being mentally ill..." Man, that hit hard.
“In so tired of being mentally ill” I felt that in my soul
Me too. Depression is so tiring.
Lately I’ve been seriously dating someone who deals with almost the exact same thing and am trying to understand his disorder more. I can tell it’s hard for him to talk about his symptoms which I don’t blame him, but personally for me I want to see what he’s dealing with so I know how to help him. I’ll bet it wasn’t easy to film this but I deeply appreciated you showing a vulnerable side and deepening my knowledge on this. Thank you! Lots of love 🫶🏻💪🏻
Thats why I do it! Thanks for this
I'm not skizoprenic but I can relate to a couple things. I cant imagine hearing voices non stop voices I've had a few friends who were skizoprenic & they were super burdened by it.
I use laughter alot to cope with how absurd life can be at times.
Hope all goes well 🖤
Hi, it is really complicated because you can’t help us. It is nice of you to understand him. All we need is emotional support. Medication and therapy can help us to alleviate our symptoms, but we have to live with this disorder and accept it.
You are actually going thru this like real champ. Laughing. Its amazing coping skill.
Ive had psychotic episode that lasted over 2 years. My brain after psychosis was destroyed. Hell couldnt have normal conversation with another human. Felt like I had autism. Couldnt understand anything. Reading few sentences from books was challange.
But time passed, I used some of my ways to heal my brain, to speed up process. Now I live completely normal, hell my life is great again. I work and I am pritty well paid for my country, I train mma, and it is getting serious, might turn even pro. It is possible, trust me it is to recover from everything. Ive seen with my own eyes people recovering from worst illnesses possible.
By the way your youtube channel is so helpful to others that are suffering, they feel that they are not alone in this, they have someone that is gong thru same, even worse, for some cases, and he is going like thru hero.
Dont know what to say anymore exept that you are very smart, beautiful, brave, and great person. I am glad that we share same air on this planet :D
Stay strong little bee; the rain doesn't fall forever.
I also have Bipolar 1 and it is absolutely crippling. I don't even know how I manage to hold down a job. I hope you get through this quickly.
I know the feeling. I also have schizoaffective disorder. I get similar episodes. The noise. My god the noise. The assault on the other senses. The scatter brain. The not being able to tell what is real or not. You got this. Anyway, I hope you feel better soon. All the best.
Wow. Thank you both for sharing. Sending so much love
I know it is not real, but it takes time to process what is going on. I struggle to tell apart between internal diagnoses and hearing foreign voices. At times, I tell myself “ Did I hear it or is just my imagination playing tricks on me”?
UGH! I feel for you. I had a stroke four years ago and experienced things I never could have imagined. Brains can be a pain.
I'll admit- I had trouble sitting down for the first little bit, but holy shit, this hit hard. I live with autism, and I can relate significantly in terms of feeling like I just can't get over my emotional states sometimes, regardless of how much I try to. Thank you so much for being willing to record this for us, and I wish you luck in your journey with your condition.
Take my hand champ! You've got the willpower to find new joy and meaning and you are doing plenty enough! Remember to take time to relax your face and shoulders ect because stress will make you tense with defensive energy. I can only recommend what helps me which is biking in nature, balance exercises (I slackline) and taking time to stretch and breathe in a comfortable place inside or outdoors. Peace Kit!
Thank you so much for sharing how hard It can be to cope everyday but at the same time how it's possibile to thrive and live a normal good life despite all the difficulties of navigating a disorder. Love your videos
Psychosis is so hard. It's something I fear the most with schizo affective disorder. Keep being resilient you got this. Saying a prayer! kit. Sincerely Tyler.
Stress can be a huge trigger music is extremely helpful
I just watched all 3 of your videos about this episode in a row, so now I'm coming back & leaving comments.
Just like with the other episodes you've shared so far, I just want to say thank you again for being vulnerable enough to show this on camera. It really does help a lot to see the experience firsthand. It was clear to see just how much it affected you when things started getting noisy in your head. Your description of it being like a crowded subway tunnel was really vivid (& I'm impressed that you were able to talk through it considering what it feels like).
I'm so sorry you had to deal with such an extended period of depression during this episode. A few days sounds bad enough - several weeks sounds brutal. I got really emotional when you said "I'm so tired of being mentally ill." That hit super hard. But it was great to hear you say you were going to get help right after that. Your other coping skills (taking time off work, spending time with friends, & just trying to accumulate positive experiences in general) also sounded like great ways to take care of yourself during this extremely difficult time.
Thank you again for sharing this with us.
This video was a hard one to post, but I seek the make the uncomfortable comfortable of course so I pressed publish :) And when it comes to talking through this stuff, well, I’ve been dealing with it for so long that once I figure out what’s happening I can kinda… work through it. It took me a long time, but it’s amazing what brains can get used to. What was really weird for me was playing this back, watching myself, and seeing… that it was actually quiet the whole time it was happening. Very weird. Very very weird.
And yeah, I’m very tired. SO tired. But there’s no way to go but forward. Thanks so much for the comments GC, they’re wonderful as always!
Thanks for sharing this Kit. I just hope you get back to your best soon
Thank You so much for this video. Take care❤ we love You ❤
😢 thank you for sharing with us. It hits totally different to visually see you going through it. Thank you again.
You're very brave for posting this. This is so helpful for a lot of people to see. Thank you 🙏
Thanks for sharing the episode and explaining what is going on. Sending positive vibes your way ❤️
I find your videos very helpful as I struggle with similar episodes. Take care and be kind to yourself, I hope you will be fine soon ❤
Thank you for this. I wish I could give you a hug
I think you're really strong Kit. For real. It's helping me alot to watch your videos.
Im sorry you're going through this Kitzo. I can relate, I'm also schizoaffective and I'm trying to navigate my life with the disorder constantly disordering. Somedays I can't believe this is my life you know, i wonder what it's like to be normal. You're not alone. Despite your psychosis thank you for reaching out still. It's very wholesome to see a community come together to support one another.
“The disorder constantly disordering” taking that, that’s hilarious. Thanks for the kind words too!
Keep fighting the good fight Kitzo!
I’m on the same journey, sister. Coping skills is where it’s at. Thank you for making these videos.
I feel what you are saying. I'm sharing your pain. I don't know if it helps but I think it must.I'm so glad you plan to get up and take action. Sending love. X O
I feel this video thank you for your vulnerability ❤
Sweetie!! You are not alone in this ❤❤❤ We know it's tough, many of us live like that too! Sending hugs and hoping you're feeling better now ❤ And please know that you are making a great impact on our lives! We love you, take care! 🌠
Thank you for sharing your daily reality with us 🫶🏼 Very thankful for this insight...
i teared up with you in this video. this year is the year i started being symptomatic and even though it hasn’t been a full year yet it already feels so exhausting. your video made me feel a little more hopeful rn that even though your going through it i can make it more years. i hope you get out of this episode soon
Hang in there, you’re stronger than you think, and there’s always hope to be had even if it likes to stay hidden.
Sending my love I hope this passes fast for you. I can relate 🫂
Hey Kit. I completely understand “being so sick and tired of being mentally Ill” I have been dealing with Schizoaffective disorder since I was a teenager. I’m tired of taking meds and having to be so medicated. But I see your strength and perseverance and I will try to keep my head up. You are so special and I wish the best for you! ❤
Sorry you’re going through this I have schizoaffective disorder and I know it’s not easy . Take care and best wishes .❤x
You remind me so much of my fiancé who I haven't seen or heard from for almost 2 years now. I believe now that she had undiagnosed schizoaffective disorder. Her delusions became so bad that she cut off all contact with everyone in her life and disappeared. I wish I'd seen videos like yours back then so I could help her better. I think the pandemic and lockdown really made her symptoms a lot worse. We knew something was wrong and was able to see a therapist once but then she became very paranoid and wouldn't see them anymore. Her delusions got so bad she thought my family and I were keeping her against her will and exploiting her.
Thank you for making these videos. I know they're helping others like me to understand better what our loved ones might be going through even when they don't understand themselves. I still dream of her almost every night and can only pray she's safe somewhere and will make it through. Hold on to the people who really care about you. I hope you have a great time at Ren Fair!
Thanks for this.
For me it seems like depression is what ignites the flame. I suffered a lot of trauma and EMDR is changing my life. I say often I’m going to get the medicine. I’m afraid but I’m learning to face it. We got this honey bear 🫶🏼🧘♀️🙏❤️
God bless and be with you.
I have been watching your videos for a few months though I'm not subscribed and I have full confidence in you!
yeeee thanks!
I’m sorry you have to feel like this. I’m struggling to support my wife. 10 years and this year has been non stop episodes. I’m drained.
Praying for you.
This is hard to watch I’m sorry to hear your struggling I hope your doing better ❤❤❤❤❤
And also you make me feel less alone and more understood by people you really are a good inspirational person
I remember my first experience getting treatment. I was on a heavy dose of haldol for six months before I could get the medication cut in half. It would have me totally knocked out all day. I put on 40 lbs during that time. It felt almost like punishment. Fortunately I was able to get off the haldol and onto better medications. About the only thing I can say is that the haldol wasn't as bad as the psychosis. Remember that you are a wonderful dear. I hope you are feeling better.
Hope you feel better soon
Ive dealt with all of the symptoms you deal with, kit, and i will give you advice on how to help yourself. It helped me.
Thanks for letting me into your head. 🙏🏻
I have schizoaffective and haven't had psychosis in a long while. Take ur meds people!
Hey, you got this
*feel cuddled*
i've had psychosis too, but i was more thinking how people wanted me dead.
my mom, my cat, my neighbour.
and when i finally got through a long wait to get helped they said i wasn't psychotic enough.
i got through it finally, but now i still have CPTSD to work through.
hope you get the help you need, or at least find some peace of mind.
I'm tied of being mentally ill too and hearing demonic voices. That's awesome that you went to the Ren Fair. I play D&D on weekends with my friends to cope. Writing a daily journal helps too.
I am so sorry that you are stuck in the depressive side of your condition. I hope it ends soon. You are very brave to film this while you are having hallucinations.
Thanks Lisa!
@@SchizoKitzoif u don't mind 😢 😞 have u ever had thoughts about ending ur life from jumping off the building or front of a train do u fear the death 💀💀 do u feel extreme anxiety when u think about suicide please tell me 😢
@@akshorts2115
Being alive is so valuable, it's priceless, and that will never change.
Choose to be priceless and exist as long as you possibly can.
I was just diagnosed recently. Several people in my family suffer. I’m so afraid of medicine. Thank you for your transparency 🫶🏼
Don’t be afraid of medicine. It was a huge relief for me to be on it. Yes it has side effects but those can be managed with patience. Medicine side effects are mostly way better to deal with than symptoms.
I have schizoaffective disorder and the only medication I take is a monthly haldol (haloperidol) injection. No pills thank God
@@Peabody388 I’m doing EMDR for the trauma and DBT for coping skills. I’m terrified of medicine. I love myself I don’t need medicine changing my personality. What I’ve learned this far is if I can stay away from the depression. Anything that has the potential to bring me down I stay away from. I use the tools I’ve been taught and I changed a lot of my routine to reflect self care. I take care of myself so much that it’s not so hard on my tough days. Instead of seeing all the negative all the time I chose to see the positive. I still struggle sometimes but EMDR totally changed my life
@@wolfpack7871 yes I went through DBT too and found it very helpful. As for medicine most antipsychotics made me gain weight, have memory problems where I felt doped all the time and for a long time I thought I'd have to go live in a group home.
The haldol was actually a treatment forced on me when I went off all pills to feel normal again. Thank God it worked and still works. This has been the first summer in 5 years I wasn't symptomatic.
I hope and pray you find your happy ground. Therapy is good but be careful not replacing friends with therapists - it does happen which isolates those in weekly or more sessions. Wishing you well in your journey. God be with you
Hang in there, beautiful soul-woman…xox
Your amazing.
What your goingthrough in this video is where i reverse on the symptoms by going out not thinking, put on a happy face, and go see the world.
I’m suffering from schizoaffective disorder too. Right now I’m suffering from terrible anxiety. I’m waiting to finally pick up my meds. I feel for you. But I have never hallucinated before. I just get paranoid delusions and very bad anxiety.
this can be treated. what are your relationships like? parents? close friends? weekly group meetings? is your mind all on its own? noisy? you need solid relationships. the voices and other stuff thats going on your head isnt merely biochemical, it has to do with your relationships to other people.
What makes you think I don’t have strong, stable, fulfilling relationships with others?
😁 ok so you do cool. i guess i cant help you then. in my case, weak relatonships was a big contributor to my mental instability.
It’s definitely can be a factor for some. Just depends on the person. Best of luck to you!
Your videos help me
I am here for you. Lets talk.
I am very here, yes life care.
Love care and light is here. ❤
Please Trust.
I love you.
I know that feeling when the sufferings gets too bad it’s just too much for me to handle, I thought about ending my own life more than once in the last couple of months idk what to do , I’m tired of being mentally ill too ;(
Ive been doing that technique that you just think look, smell touch on one thing like a bowl of fruit or a bottle of lotion when things like this happen. It might sound weird but it works for me. I use to think like that too really hard but I started simplifiing my life. Just thinking of one thing at a time. I think im going to make a video and explain what I mean and tag you in it.
What are your thoughts like when you're having an episode? Is it jumbled thoughts that can't form a coherent meaning to you or is it outer voices? Do you hear coherent voices or like nonsensical words that don't have a clear associative chain?
I also have the reflex to say "I'm not going to do anything," when I say things too. That's what everyone instantly thinks (or what I feel like they instantly think) when I mention depression, or intrusive thoughts about the thing that I'm not going to do. You want to explain it, but you don't want a vacation in the ward at the same time. I don't know how many times I've explained "just because I can't stop thinking about it, doesn't mean I want to do it."
Writing that down seems less convincing than when I say it (I hope).
I would like to share with you something that helped me with my mental health, even though it's not perfect, it's better, so much better, but I don't want to offer any advice unless it's wanted.
Kit are you already on meds for bipolar? And if so, what? I spent today looking at shitty high school smashmobs because it seemed appropriate to my hopelesslly sad state. It won't be in a few days when I get my pills sorted, feel stronger and don't hate my friends for being on holiday in Spain. I know I'll get out but I hate the wait. The drugs work but I hate them too. I don't want to see you lying down and unwell, especially if you fight without meds. I know I need them to get any balance - my life sucks but mostly it's better than it was.
Oh I take multiple mood stabilizers. The reality is that some people are lucky and go years without symptoms with meds, but for me-and others, I am not alone in this-it just makes the symptoms less frequent, less intense, and more manageable. So yes, I am suffering here, but this is a battle that is so much easier to fight because of my medication. Hope this helps!
Do you ever listen to any music. Is there any music or artists that you love. I don't have any mental illness (that I know of) but nothing lifts me up more than listening to music that I love. If I am dealing with problems music just takes me away. I am much older than you but I still love my music loud and hard ( most times). Wishing you the best. I just found your channel and clicked on it out of curiosity as this is not something I know anything about. I liked and subscribed. I'll be waiting for more videos. ✌
Ok, my mind sometimes is like Tornado in Spaghetti Factory - round and round and round
I've been exactly where you are! It sucks! If there's anything I can do to help just let me know!
This is your most human video, my advice would be visit a traditional healer like a shaman, remember doctors doctor, healers heal
im a 40 yr old male INCEL, im depressed, misanthropic, i have no family or friends, i probably have autism as well and i have schizoid personality disorder, yet im able to hold down a full time job, which i hate but it pays the bills and it gets me out of the house at least, even though im always tired and sad and miserable and angry and depressed, i agree life has 0 meaning, even if i was rich id still be depressed if i was rich id just sit inside all day and watch video and surf the web and sleep, ive never gotten on with any people, at work i have to fake i like being there but i dont even say hi to anyone, theres no point, at this stage i dont even want friends anyway, its too much stress, and women hate me for some reason anyway, i could always go to thailand and try and get a women but there in no point she would only be after my money anyway, no way she could love someone like me anyway.
That sucks.
Yup
This is terrible! Doctors that I had it, but I had a psychedelic secret. Kodybeld twist: it's ADHD and autism. I repressed my stupid family like a psycho.
So If anything paranoid or schizotypal personality. The drug experiment helped that, but now I got some reality type of this from the bad acid. I hope you feel better though. Mental disorders suck!
:’((((( im so sorry b
when you’re in psychosis are you able to work? :(
Sometimes yes, sometimes no. Just depends on the situation.
Im curious what the screaming in your head sounds/feels like
When I was watching you i heard in my mind "shut up. This is stupid. Your wasting your time, no one cares about what comes out your mouth. Everyone is laughing at you. Shut up. Stop talking about this because it isnt going to help you."
Thats what I hear. Even now, writing this, thats what I am hearing/feelings.
It feels like....
There is an image/vision playing out where I am surrounded by a group of ppl, some I know, others that I dont, and they are pointing their fingers at me.
Shame.
They are telling me that I should be ashamed of myself for trying to empathize.
Im only going to make the situstion worse because i dont know what Im talking about. Im an idiot who needs to mind my own business. And if I keep it up then they are going to find a way to break my fingers off so that I can do something this stupid again. They are going to find a way to make me suffer for all eternity. Never ending pain because thats what I deserve for being such a rotten human being, down to the core of black soul that not even Satan would want.
A waste of organic matter that would be better off being ripped to shreds by all of the most terrifying things that would give my nightmares nightmares.
Phew
Now that that passed
Thats what it sometimes looks/feels like for me.
But what was happening to you triggered them up to the surface for me, which isnt a bad thing.
Darkness to Light
They dont like being in the spot light. Presuming we are experiencing something similar.
Ive never been diagnosed, nor do I need to be.
For me they are helpers.
When they tell me to "go right" i "go left", so to speak.
I dont like what I was feeling while I was writing that out but for me the only way out is thru.
Granted, there are times when "their" version of reality becomes my reality, but I allow it to happen because I know what comes out the other side, for me.
Presuming you were hearing/feeling what I felt you were, you are doing the right thing, which is going to eventually prove to be more effective then the medication.
Granted, I do not take anything, and I am only making presumptions.
Ive had to train myself to play reverse psychology with them, which was incredibly difficult
Thank you. I love this. Please dial it up. Give me more of this because i love how it feels. Keep telling me how stupid i am. Your right. Your absolutely right about me. I am a shameful, worthless, waste of a man who deserves all of the worst forms of torture and punishment
May all of the things i love most about this life be destroyed right in front of my stupid, ugly face. I am a huge piece of garbage that doesnt deserve anything good.
I gladly welcome all of the terrible things coming to me.
Thank you before being honest with me. But, then again, there is a part of me that thinks your just jealous because you wish you had what I got.
So get back to your hole in the Darkness, and the next time you want to come out and say something to me, make it nice, or Im going to have to slap the bee eye tee see "h" out of you again, and put it on public display.
Thank you for your insights.
Phew
That how we deal with things on my end.
I hope that my presumptions are more then .002% correct and you can take away come form of medicine from this.
You got this 🤘
Can you believe that she's beautiful, as that, and beyond, and doesn't even know it, nor is satisfied being so, sometimes?
I thought when someone was experiencing psychosis they dont know?
Paryers 🙏🌎🌈⭐🌞🌨️
Awww. I am sorry that you are going through this stuff.
God Loves you. God IS Love. Way way way much more SUBSTANTIALLY than
you even know. That's not me guessing that He exists and that
He has that kind of Love I absolutely know that. Zero doubt from experience.
He is still in the business of Healing.
There is hope.
If you had a broken leg I would tell you this. I don't see a reason
why because you have mental difficulties going on that that would
be a good reason to exclude you from being told this:
Love, joy, Peace... I believe God has those for you in amazing measures
beyond what you can dream of at the present moment. The surefire
way that I know of of how to obtain those things (it's a process) is to make a real grasp of
the absolute Best invitation that anyone could ever possibly be given.
That invitation is this:
Here I am! I stand at the door and knock.
If anyone hears My voice and opens the door,
I will come in and eat with that person, and they with Me.
Revelation 3:20
He Loves you ENTIRELY
and you can TRUST Him ENTIRELY
My wish for you would be for you to obtain a joyful abundance
of realizing that Reality. It's possible.
Hi beautiful! Are there any romance anime that you recommend?
Also have you tried temporarily abandoning your electric blanket. I can prove that moves electricity through your body I'm just wondering if maybe it's having a bad reaction in your brain
as a 40yr old incel, i wish i could be worth enough to even take you out on a date but i know even a girl like you would probably reject me and view me as unworthy as even going on one date with you, this is why im such an angry and bitter and depressed and miserable man, is wanting to go out on ONE date too much? i have money i have a car i have a full time job, im not even ugly im a 5/10 probably, im not disabled, yet women just dont wanna even have ONE date with me, i cant even find a homeless chick that will go out with me, and yet im a decent respectable man, its unbelievable, and its made me become even more depressed and hateful of society, at the same time i see horrible men who beat their women who are able to date any woman they like, its so unfair
Friend I think it's demons I've dealt with them quite a bit. Call on Jesus he answers
Wow, faking psychosis is something new. Usually it's "I'm autistic".
You think she's faking? Why?
Pray to Jesus Christ it helps
your faking for sympathy/attention.stop it
I really hope the episode you're in ends soon Kit, you're such a wonderful, unique, somewhat fragile, yet so strong person. I'll just say from my personal experience, try to eliminate stress, stress sux for us 1%. I'd also advise you to consider switching to clozapine from Zyprexa, my understanding is that Zyprexa and all other second generation anti-psychotics except clozapine work on dopamine (so I'd call them basically the same thing), and clozapine has different method of action (my knowledge ends there unfortunately). Yes, there is a risk of life-threatening side effect called agranulocytosis, but my understanding is that occurs in about 1 in 200 people, and there's very strict monitoring system for that, you have to get your blood drawn very often initially, and if all goes well then once a month in maintenance phase. Weight gain, excessive salivation, fast heart rate and constipation are also side effects, so in other words the drug is very "difficult", but my understanding is that darn thing works where everything else failed. And you can always stop taking it if you feel like you can't bear it of course. That's all I'll write for now, thanks for making these videos Kit, again, I'm sorry you're in a "suffering" phase right now", and I really wish you speedy recovery and best of health onwards.
Clozapine is not so difficult when we have support....wish you well,Kits ❤
Gotcha, I won't mention names ... 💯🏵🙌🏻just so you know - all that initiative started after a couple, both doctors nephrologists, had their son mentally ill at 16 y.o. with schizophrenia and then they decided to learn clozapine themselves after not finding a psychiatrist to prescribe clozapine to his son (as it is a "scary" drug.).
That was in 2009, and nowadays, people know much better, clozapine is not more dangerous than any other antipsychotic.
After his son thrived so well, his son attended college and currently works in standup comedy, these two doctors became clozapine specialists.
The moderators and contributors of the afore mentioned group are composed of their patients, and caregivers that carry tremendous life experience and empathy. The doctors contribute to the posts and articles too.
I often check the group, and they helped and continue to help me so much navigate the journey with clozapine...
Even if you are not taking clozapine, I highly recommend you check there (for your knowledge). I see from your videos you are so on top of your medications ...❤❤❤
Take care...
Thanks for your info. I'll just add that when I was hospitalized here in Bosnia in 2008 I heard a lot of Leponex (brand name for clozapine here) being given to lots of my fellow patients and nobody had any life threatening problems that were there with me, so I would assume it's pretty safe drug. Thanks again@@Gondimgondim831
Clozapine side effects - it does not mean a person will experience all the side effects mentioned...my son, for example, has constipation, which is treated with Colace,a stool softener, and weight gain.... he has been VERY hungry in the first year, and this is improving in the second year.
Having a psychiatrist titrate this med slowly also helped mitigate the side effects.
Because he has blood exams periodically, I can tell his sugar levels and cholesterol are fine too. Monitoring is key.
Clozapine many times is prescribed for those who have TD, suicide ideation, catatonia and aggression.
If two antipsychotics have failed you already, you are eligible for clozapine. This is best practice according to APA.
This is because, after two antipsychotics, there is only 7% chance the third one will work.
Cheers!
I know it might not seem like this because of this video but Zyprexa works really well for me, and I’m kinda scared of clozapine lol, and it’s kind of a last resort anyways (they use to to determine how treatment resistant symptoms are, based on how you respond) so I’m trying to avoid it unless I get really really bad…. But Zyprexa has gotten rid of all my delusions, and I’m still amazed at that. And I know that some people go years without symptoms on meds like clozapine (and other antipsychotics) but many like me just have improvement in symptoms not remission no matter what antipsychotic they’re on (I’ve been on three). I appreciate the concern tho! Also “somewhat fragile yet so strong person” is so accurate it hurts 😂
That was a panic attack from the PTSD of having to cope everyday with you're mental illness.