Really shit that mate, I was completely unaware. Not been able to tune in to your streams for some time now as I've been so busy myself. Glad you built up the courage to get something sorted, that's the main thing. I wish you all the best mate truly, you have to remember there are a lot of people you can talk to in the community. Take your time mate, look after yourself x
Hi Dean. None of this is your fault and it's only natural to want to bottle it up and hope it goes away, you can't blame yourself for the past 2 years. It's all too common these days and talking about it not only (hopefully) helps you but so many others too, so thanks for this. So glad to hear that it sounds like you're making progress and getting better. I look forward to entertaining you with more Cliff Richard song requests whenever you feel you're ready to come back, but please don't rush. We'll all still be here. 🙂
Thanks for the open heartedness my love. You've always known my inbox is open if you need it. Love you loads, stay strong and I hope things progress positively for you soon! ❤️
I've literally just discovered this video. I figured you were struggling many, many months ago. I'm so glad to see so many people have posted support for you! I'm here for you 😊 You've got this 💪
Hey fella - stay strong through this. And if there's anything I can do to help, even if it's just by providing a listening ear, don't hesitate to give me a shout. Here's hoping all of this, whatever it is, is just a sour memory one day soon.
Mate i'm so sorry you've been going through all of that. You're a good man and absolutely don't deserve that crap. I'm always here if you need to vent or talk. Literally anytime
I can relate, my mental health took a massive dip around 2 years ago to the point I had thoughts... well more than thoughts, plus coupled with a rough life but I learned the hard way that there is nothing wrong with reaching out to someone you trust, it really did help ease me and it did help me realize that reaching out and talking shouldn't be seen as a stigma it affected my content, it affected me BUT talking about it helped, not overnight mind you... these things take time and it seems like it'll take a lifetime. opening up and facing my demons helped me to turn my life around 180 degrees. I am here to help if you ever need someone to reach out to and I hope that things get better for you in life, I'm 100% rooting for you and everyone else that's going through something... anything. I thought I'd share my experience a little bit and thank you for talking about your situation even a little bit.
You started the process about 3 months ago, I'm about a year ahead of you in a very similar position, even if what started it was different circumstances. I'm gonna only speak about myself but feel free to pick and choose what does or doesn't apply to you. Retrospectively I can see that I should have done this 20 years ago or more. This is not to fix me, just to help me have a little more defense on my side mentally. This is something that will last as long as it needs to and though it's not perfect, it is better than without. Please feel free to DM me on Twitter if you'd allow me to introduce you to a whole load more people within gaming who will have your back, encourage you and make your life better.
Hey Dean, hope you're okay dude. You, me and IB have to get together soon and watch crap 80s/90s kung fu action films together. But most of all, chat and chill together.
Hey Dean, well done for posting this video, give yourself all the time you need, take each day as it comes. Take it easy on yourself. Amazing work on the charity donations !! I hope 2023 is the best year for you
Sorry to hear this Dean. It's important to remember that you don't have an obligation to viewers - the great thing about these platforms is that you can post as much or as little as you want. I've had spells over the years on The Pixel Empire where I've felt stressed by self-imposed deadlines, the idea I needed to be putting out 'X' amount of content. In the end, it's far more important that you enjoy the process because it shows in your work. Life comes first. I had really bad A&D at the start of 2017, so abruptly stopped for about 6 months, until I felt I could start writing again. It's impressive and heartening that you're able to talk about your struggles so openly, I'm no stranger to anxiety and depression (and Sertraline!) but have often struggled to articulate it to loved ones. Hope things are on the up for you 😊
Hey, I'm glad you're on the mend. I was in a pretty horrible living situation up until December 2021, until my dad and step-mum took me back in. To say it F'd me up pretty bad would be an understatement. Fast forward until the early hours of New Years day this year, I still hadn't told them what happened. I'd been getting progressively worse and worse and was really snappy and judgemental towards them. Tbh I was an absolute dick. It all blew up eventually when my step-mum had enough and asked me to leave ( I would've asked me to leave as well in her position), but I finally broke down and told them. I'd held in all that hate and anger for so long and it was finally out. I was scared they wouldn't believe me or just judge me, but they didn't judge, and they did actually believe me. Once you've held something in for so long, it gets to the point where it's almost impossible to let it out. The fact I now feel, not great, but at least like I'm safe now, shows how important it is to be open. Glad you're on the mend too. I'm Benchy from Twitch/Twitter btw if you remember me. Gone through a few names :D but it's me.
Sorry to hear you've been going through a tough time, glad you've managed to reach out and get help, all good steps towards recovery! Looking forward to seeing you stream again!
I am sorry things have been so difficult for you. Your honesty is an incredible strength and appreciated. You have support from this community and I wish you the very best. Hugs and kisses Derek
Dean, first thing i will do when i meet you again is give you a massive hug. We all have to admit these things, and live our life the best we can. I've delt with these things for decades, but really we all need to talk about this, before it eats us up. You are my friend, and when ever you need to talk, im on discord to talk. Be brave, be true, and to thy own self be true. xx
Good on you for taking healthy steps to help manage what your experiencing it can be very hard to do. Also big respect for sharing your experience and advice with others just knowing what others are going through too can make a big impact and change. If just 1 person makes the decision to speak to someone or their GP after watching this that's massive. Keep making the content you enjoy but remember its ok to take a break if it stops being fun.
Good on you, Dean. Onwards and upwards.
We’re all here for you Dean, hope to catch up with a cuppa soon
Good on you for being so open about everything, sending all my love and support always ❤️
Really shit that mate, I was completely unaware. Not been able to tune in to your streams for some time now as I've been so busy myself. Glad you built up the courage to get something sorted, that's the main thing. I wish you all the best mate truly, you have to remember there are a lot of people you can talk to in the community. Take your time mate, look after yourself x
Glad your betting better dude! lets try and meet up soon!
You're a legend mate, I'm always available if you need to chat.
My heart goes out to you in your situation. I admire your openness and hope that things have and will continue to improve. Be well!
🙏🏼🙌🏽🙏🏽🙌🏽🙏🏽🙌🏽🙏🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽☀️☀️☀️
Keep Your Head Up Deanoooo!!!!!
Hi Dean. None of this is your fault and it's only natural to want to bottle it up and hope it goes away, you can't blame yourself for the past 2 years. It's all too common these days and talking about it not only (hopefully) helps you but so many others too, so thanks for this. So glad to hear that it sounds like you're making progress and getting better.
I look forward to entertaining you with more Cliff Richard song requests whenever you feel you're ready to come back, but please don't rush. We'll all still be here. 🙂
Thanks for the open heartedness my love. You've always known my inbox is open if you need it.
Love you loads, stay strong and I hope things progress positively for you soon! ❤️
Hope that things get better for you, sir.
I've literally just discovered this video. I figured you were struggling many, many months ago. I'm so glad to see so many people have posted support for you! I'm here for you 😊 You've got this 💪
Hey fella - stay strong through this. And if there's anything I can do to help, even if it's just by providing a listening ear, don't hesitate to give me a shout.
Here's hoping all of this, whatever it is, is just a sour memory one day soon.
Mate i'm so sorry you've been going through all of that. You're a good man and absolutely don't deserve that crap. I'm always here if you need to vent or talk. Literally anytime
I can relate, my mental health took a massive dip around 2 years ago to the point I had thoughts... well more than thoughts, plus coupled with a rough life but I learned the hard way that there is nothing wrong with reaching out to someone you trust, it really did help ease me and it did help me realize that reaching out and talking shouldn't be seen as a stigma
it affected my content, it affected me BUT talking about it helped, not overnight mind you... these things take time and it seems like it'll take a lifetime.
opening up and facing my demons helped me to turn my life around 180 degrees.
I am here to help if you ever need someone to reach out to and I hope that things get better for you in life, I'm 100% rooting for you and everyone else that's going through something... anything.
I thought I'd share my experience a little bit and thank you for talking about your situation even a little bit.
You started the process about 3 months ago, I'm about a year ahead of you in a very similar position, even if what started it was different circumstances. I'm gonna only speak about myself but feel free to pick and choose what does or doesn't apply to you. Retrospectively I can see that I should have done this 20 years ago or more. This is not to fix me, just to help me have a little more defense on my side mentally. This is something that will last as long as it needs to and though it's not perfect, it is better than without.
Please feel free to DM me on Twitter if you'd allow me to introduce you to a whole load more people within gaming who will have your back, encourage you and make your life better.
Hey Dean, hope you're okay dude. You, me and IB have to get together soon and watch crap 80s/90s kung fu action films together. But most of all, chat and chill together.
Sorry to hear you are going through all this :/ can always drop me a message if you need someone to talk to!
Hey Dean, well done for posting this video, give yourself all the time you need, take each day as it comes. Take it easy on yourself. Amazing work on the charity donations !! I hope 2023 is the best year for you
Sorry to hear this Dean. It's important to remember that you don't have an obligation to viewers - the great thing about these platforms is that you can post as much or as little as you want. I've had spells over the years on The Pixel Empire where I've felt stressed by self-imposed deadlines, the idea I needed to be putting out 'X' amount of content. In the end, it's far more important that you enjoy the process because it shows in your work. Life comes first. I had really bad A&D at the start of 2017, so abruptly stopped for about 6 months, until I felt I could start writing again. It's impressive and heartening that you're able to talk about your struggles so openly, I'm no stranger to anxiety and depression (and Sertraline!) but have often struggled to articulate it to loved ones. Hope things are on the up for you 😊
Respect Dean for putting this video up takes massive courage, always here for you.
Hey, I'm glad you're on the mend. I was in a pretty horrible living situation up until December 2021, until my dad and step-mum took me back in. To say it F'd me up pretty bad would be an understatement. Fast forward until the early hours of New Years day this year, I still hadn't told them what happened. I'd been getting progressively worse and worse and was really snappy and judgemental towards them. Tbh I was an absolute dick. It all blew up eventually when my step-mum had enough and asked me to leave ( I would've asked me to leave as well in her position), but I finally broke down and told them. I'd held in all that hate and anger for so long and it was finally out. I was scared they wouldn't believe me or just judge me, but they didn't judge, and they did actually believe me. Once you've held something in for so long, it gets to the point where it's almost impossible to let it out. The fact I now feel, not great, but at least like I'm safe now, shows how important it is to be open. Glad you're on the mend too. I'm Benchy from Twitch/Twitter btw if you remember me. Gone through a few names :D but it's me.
Sorry to hear you've been going through a tough time, glad you've managed to reach out and get help, all good steps towards recovery! Looking forward to seeing you stream again!
I am sorry things have been so difficult for you. Your honesty is an incredible strength and appreciated. You have support from this community and I wish you the very best.
Hugs and kisses
Derek
Dean, first thing i will do when i meet you again is give you a massive hug.
We all have to admit these things, and live our life the best we can.
I've delt with these things for decades, but really we all need to talk about this, before it eats us up.
You are my friend, and when ever you need to talk, im on discord to talk.
Be brave, be true, and to thy own self be true.
xx
Good on you for taking healthy steps to help manage what your experiencing it can be very hard to do. Also big respect for sharing your experience and advice with others just knowing what others are going through too can make a big impact and change. If just 1 person makes the decision to speak to someone or their GP after watching this that's massive. Keep making the content you enjoy but remember its ok to take a break if it stops being fun.
Any time you want a chat drop me a message. So sorry to hear what you've been going through