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Beautifully Broken
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My name is Tessa and I am dedicated to bringing awareness of the dangers and risks of Pharmaceutical harm.
Find my personal story on this channel
tessaputland@gmail.com
Find my personal story on this channel
tessaputland@gmail.com
Dear Caregivers and loved ones...
This video is a letter to caregivers and loved ones of those suffering from iatrogenic and pharmaceutical harm. I hope this can be shared around and contribute to bringing families together in this time of turmoil.
Here are some other related video's. Most are for benzodiazepine harm but also apply to those affected by all psychiatric drugs.
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Here are some other related video's. Most are for benzodiazepine harm but also apply to those affected by all psychiatric drugs.
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Trauma and giving it to God #benzowithdrawal #iatrogenicinjury #psychmedwithdrawal
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Psychiatric drug withdrawal symptoms Part 1
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The mental load/state in psych med injury/withdrawal
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Frustration/Anger - Mental Health - Benzo Withdrawal
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Misconceptions about Benzo use/withdrawal
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Update/Thoughts/Questions in Benzo World
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Suffering of Akathisia and Benzo withdrawal
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WHAT IS BODY DYSMORPHIA? Living with BDD
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WHAT IS BODY DYSMORPHIA? Living with BDD
I am 6 years into the BIND (Benzodiazepine Induced Neurological Disorder). All caused by prescribed Klonopin (Clonazepam) from my trusted neurologist that I had been seeing for well over 20 years. He prescribed them to me for sleep issues caused by chronic migraine. 😢 I have been through all the devastating issues you mentioned here and so many more. I have been left with debilitating nerve pain that multiple specialists and thousands of dollars cannot help with.
I have no idea how u are even alive 30mg ativan....how long were you on that dose.....holy krap I got a chemical brain Injury from 1.25mg 1mg 5 month daily use. Ct. Ended up er on 7th day given valium to taper 10mg 3 months 5mg 2months on 3.4mg now....tapering ....been in hospital last month dropping the valium with stroke breathing and akasthia I have no idea how u are even alive.....seriously.....holy krap...I can't imagine, my acute was hell on fire......I I only 60% at 5.5 months. I had aka for 3 months straight no windows.....I wanted to die
This is the best message to caregivers that I have ever listened. It covers all about the reality of medical industry and pharmaceuticals, and how the ignorent people are severely harmed without giving them proper information and taking their consent about it. I am now a year off xanax, ( prescribed to me for sleep ) but still suffering badly , every day is a real hell. I don't know myself, my surroundings, I feel like I don't exist anymore, I doubt about my own mind....So many physical and intense mental symptoms. Thanks Tessa, for sharing this video. We are all together. ❤
Did you find going through the injury 2023 you were able to rebound better than 3 years ago
@@naomi8097 No, this injury has been catastrophic
I read some find help with Gaps or Paleo. I wondered if you eat a special diet? ❤
I am on the carnivore diet and have seen benefits so far
I've had really bad akathisia and am now very slowly tapering valium. I have most of these same symptoms. Thankfully i dont currently have the akathishia which I'm sure I don't have to explain to you was the most unimaginable torture... but I do have most of these other symptoms you listed despite tapering ultra slowly.
The worst part for me was that no one believed me. I know you believe me. That is all that matters. I know what you are going through. I pray you turn the corner on this nightmare soon. May God bless you for this video.
Xcellent, spot on , you put so much thought into it
Hey there🙋🏻♀️🇨🇦 I am wondering are you doing a bit better or the same ? With warm love, Shanda 🙋🏻♀️🇨🇦
Sorry for what you’re experiencing but stay positive. Keep open lines of communication to someone. Remember, things could always be worse.
Dang you’re always beautiful. I know you don’t feel good though. Thank you. My family didn’t believe or understand what I went through and they still believed what the doctors told them. They just think I’ve got mental illness with personality disorder. I’ve had akathisia for years now. Thank you for making this. I know you probably felt extremely bad but things are gonna get better. You will heal really quick once you’re off all that crap. Thank you for taking the time to make this.
@@Filthycoffin Thanks. I hope one day this will be common knowledge and no one will need to fight for their family to understand. I have alot of Akathisia and suffering ahead of me with hormonal issues so there won't be any quick healing for me. X
I remember watching you in the past . I’ve been all the things that you said. Crazy stuff I was thinking yesterday what you have become? Really good video. Cheers
You inspire me with your courage and strength. Thanks you so much, God bless you!
He has me thinking about you. You and your suffering, the pain that you go through, the trauma, being disabled as a mother and a wife. I see your sleepless nights, I see your tears as you cry out in pain and confusion, the loneliness that you feel, i see it as you lay in bed or on the couch, the thoughts that go through your mind as your body is twitching and doing its own thing against your will. I don't know what to tell you to help you, for you to feel better, except to say if I can see it, He sees it too. He is angry at us, at the system that caused this. I see His wrath and He is tired, sick and tired of us being abused. What you are experiencing and going through is a reminder, it only reminds Him. You and your suffering compels Him to action, He is constantly reminded of you
Your suffering is not in vain. If He is God, why doesn't He heal you. You are a sign to us and this worthless system, we see through you and your pain what this system is and has become. It's people like you that break the camels back that compels reform and change. IT TAKES THIS BEFORE CHANGE TAKES PLACE, to see you and your pain and the millions of others before it happens, before change takes place
it's not forever Tess and I don't mean after you are old and dead, I mean here and now. If Father compensates Job double for his trouble in this life, you and your life as well
i see the great war in Heaven, I see the dragon and all of his, coming against and fighting against Him and His. I see the dragon defeated and cast down out of the heavens, to the Earth, I see him raging because he knows that his time is short, his time is short, my Tess. Before long, the strong man is defeated and the kingdoms of this earth become His once again
Over 6 yrs here B.I.N.D. every day is a struggle the ups and downs are so frustrating. Hope is all we have.
It is said the eyes are windows to the soul....your eyes tell a story of pain and sadness that still prevail. But in those eyes one can also see as well as hear in your voice the look and sound of hope. From someone that has no care givers I am grateful for the effort you go through to bring words of encouragement to those who may otherwise never hear. We will heal! God Bless!🙏
Thank you for this. You're young and beautiful and what you're doing is amazing. You're articulating what survivors like ourselves have gone through and are going through. I was damaged decades ago, thinking eventually that it was for my own good. It wasn't, and I awoke to something indescribable, and have spent years and a small fortune in my recovery of detox, neurofeedback, supplementation, and dietary restrictions, all of which I had to find on the Internet. The symptoms you're describing in your videos were also mine as well, brain and CNS damage from drugs specifically designed as "bullets to the brain" (Dr. Peter Breggin). Keep up the good work, things will improve and you will recover.
Thank you for your courage.
Doom, terror and nausea are the absolute worst!
@@rayshoesmith you're not alone
@@rayshoesmith insomnia musculoskeletal and anxiety and neuropathy here
@@jeffgalaska9277 wow! That sounds extreme. Have you checked the following: MSH- melanocyte stimulating hormone Tgfb1 transforming growth factor b1 C3a C4a Mmp9. It would be interesting to see these blood results from you.
I am with you....its destroyed my life on 1.25mg 1mg for 5 months....lorazapam is a demon, still in withdrawal 4 months 3 weeks.
My family would never watch this or not care….😢 Thank you for speaking so eloquently about this and God bless you❤❤❤❤
Fe is power is god king is king one love❤.
You live one god not pain not cry You son god Haven You face sexy 🌹 angel
YAAY ANOTHER VIDEO! <3
Thank you 🌹
Great and very well thought out video. I have been going through Akathisia for over 5 years now and videos like this do help so thank you.
I am from malta hear, you helped me so much thanks
Thank you so much
remove immunity from pharmaceutical companies, make them liable for their products
you are my voice
Thank you 🙏♥️. As you say, we need an army and we appreciate all of the support, love and understanding and advocacy we kan get ❤ even though it is incredible difficult for many to understand, what is going on. So many lives and families are destroyed by this, because of the believe that doctors can not harm anyone, - until you experience it yourself. Even though we can seem as if we fight the surroundings, it is a sign of trauma, ptsd and all the gaslighting that is going on in the healthcare system (and the injury from these drugs), which naturally has lead us to completely mis trust in "normal treatments", which others would be as well, if they experienced an life threatening treatment by the doctors/healtcare system. We appreciate other people so so much, that have the capacity to stand up for us in this unusual situation.
Appreciate you so much
may suicides, should they be put in safe isolaton or something so unable to do it or safe restraints or room or for months and walks in safe place with guide guard. and helmet.
@@orangestoneface ?
@@beautifullybroken1591 my idea how to prevent al the suicides by restraing and guards for the time it takes to get over the illness.
@@beautifullybroken1591 but wouild need a change of law
@@orangestoneface I don't understand what you are saying. Are you saying people with Akathisia need to be restrained?
@@beautifullybroken1591 l just came from another video where a pateent with it was very upset and after the vid some time later she did sui cide. it is seen as bad to restrain but if it works to prevent suicide it seems a better choice at least in those cases . but law would have to be changed l guess. and maybe restraints are not needed but some way of keeping them safe in a closed off area for example some kinda house changed designed for that or even outside maybe with freedom to roam , question if could with special ways be able to go to places with people like downtown or and still be kept safe from trying sui cide. when starting to get better .and maybe not restraints but just special gloves so can not grab hold things l guess that might work to save those lives.
My head tension and feeling of swollen brain just won’t subside. I am losing hope. How can this possibly go away? My whole head and face are so tense.
@@Kiki-sv8gl I believe we deal with a type of encephalitis. You could try an anti inflammatory diet and see if that lowers the overall inflamation in your body
@@beautifullybroken1591 can this diagnosis be ruled out by a doctor? Or can valium withdrawal cause encephalitis? I
I really can feel your pain.. We often feel so lost but we have to stay strong and confident for better times in our life.. Otherwise the pain and the stress of the trauma is just overwhelming and paralyzing.. Sad but true.. The only way out is the way through.. Much love for you❤❤❤😘
Remain hopeful and close to Our Lord Jesus. God bless you and keep you.🙏🏻❤️✝️🌹📖
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Did anyone loose there taste buds
Your a child of God, he will see us through this. I know everyday how painful this injury is, just no words for it. Some days all I say over and over is There is Power in the name of Jesus. He will deliver you, it’s His promise. 🙏🙏🙏❤️🩹❤️🩹
Yep…❤
The algorithm brought me to your video. I am so sorry you are going through this. I have been there. I want you to know that you will come out the other side, stronger than you have ever been. I know it’s hard to believe given where you are now, but please, believe me. You will heal. My story is long and similar to yours in many respects. Back in 2010, I was thrown into full blown akathisia, flight fight mode 24/7. I believe now it was due to long term prescribed Ativan use. They switched me to Xanax . A lot of Xanax. When I could eventually sleep, I would wake up in a state of terror. Over time, that terror state would resolve some earlier and earlier each day. Years of this. Eventually I realized that Xanax was keeping me a state of tolerance withdrawal and I needed to get off it. At that point I was on a relatively small dose, but it still took me 18 months to taper. It took a long time, but eventually I healed for the most part. This is just a very short story of my journey. There were times I spoke with God, and I told him it was OK if he took me back to him. I was OK if for some reason I died. I would never harm myself. But I was ready to go. I watched a couple of your videos, you are very good at describing what it’s like having akastisia. You will get better. Please believe that. I’ve spoken with so many people who were just as bad as me, some even worse and their brains normalized. Keep going forward, and Never, Ever, Give up. I look forward to watching your videos as you start feeling better.. Take care.
I also developed it after an operation to remove my thyroid a couple years ago. I don’t know what they gave me, but I developed akastisia shortly after it woke up. I was pacing the hallway s all night long. I’m sure the nurses thought I was a nutter. I tried to sit down, but I just could not. I refused any medication they wanted to give me. Luckily for me it settled down later the next day and I was ok in a couple days. BTW, your description of it is spot on.
I had a couple months of that 15 years ago. When I say a living hell, I mean living hell. Physical and mental torture beyond anything that could be adequately described.
Tessa, I was rewatching your videos and I wanted to know how are you doing now? 🦢🦋💖🙋🏻♀️🇨🇦
@@shan4145 Hi, I am really unwell. No good news here at this time unfortunately. Thank you for checking in ❤
@@beautifullybroken1591 I know how you feel 🫂. And we all are trying to survive . Keep going Tessa, and the rest of us too on earth here , suffering through ✨🦋💖🦢🙋🏻♀️🇨🇦
@@beautifullybroken1591 i care about you
Jesus is the way 🌟
Can I ask, do you sleep? If you can sleep, you will make this.
@@TheAllKnighter53-t8o At this stage I mostly can but it depends. There is no rest with Akathisia though. That's what can take me out
@@beautifullybroken1591 If you can sleep, you are going to make this. Can I recommend a high dose of DHA/EPA fish oil and a natural non-addictive sedative, Tahitian Noni. These 2 things can heal your brain naturally.
"Cut off from everyone is your own hellish existence" I totally get. You are on the exit from these drugs while I am on the way in. I need all these sedatives to knock me out to sleep at night. I feel totally cut off from God and that he has sent this upon me.
This is aweful, how life can take such a horrible turn. I am the same but story is different. I had a beautiful blessed life but it all got wrecked when 100% Insomnia hit me 5 months ago. I require so many sedatives to knock me out and now I am learning that they are destroying my nervous system. You are still able to drive?
@@TheAllKnighter53-t8o I can drive depending on how bad things are. I am sorry you suffer. Please do your research and find the safest route out of this mess
Have you heard of or tried brain spotting. It has helped me heal from traumas❤praying for healing and continued hope for you ❤
This sounds like full blown benzo withdrawals. It can take a long time but you will recover from it. You will then be able to come off the other drug. You must just be patient and let your mind heal from the Benzos.