"Religion is for people who are afraid of going to HELL. Spirituality is for people who have already been there"! I'm now 33 months post all RX drugs including Klonopin after 17.5 years of taking as prescribed! It's a long FKN road for so many of us...at the very least I know I'm not alone "Thanks"!👊
I like to call benzo's The Devils Pills. They draw you in with false promises and then drag you to the depths of hell. Congratulations on all that! I love hearing success stories, gives me more hope 🙏
There are a lot of us in that same boat, being made to taper after decades. We never fully heal and in some cases I think people should be left on a small dose. You don't here about insulin warriors!
@@sharon8121 Yah but unfortunately I hit "Tolerance Withdrawal" and was sick for years trying to figure out WTF was wrong with me? Never once did a quote "DR" suggest it may be all the 💊 pills they had me on at the time.. never once! I had no choice but to ultimately WD from everything...however I can see what you mean for those who never hit "Tolerance Withdrawal". If a little bit works for them so be it however most of these DRs are ignorant 🐑 sheep who try to play GOD with so many lives!
It is so hard. We have to hang on to the hope that we do heal. May God Bless you and heal you and all of us suffering. I’m on that wave now. Love those windows they are glimpses of hope
I'm 14 months out, it will get better for you. Taper taper taper. It took me two years to taper and then leap. You're doing terrific if you're able to make videos, you're healing, it will end and you'll heal. I know EXACTLY how you feel, hang in there, you're a warrior. 🙌💙
@@beautifullybroken1591 let your body dictate the cuts, and don't worry about the holds. I tapered for two years after being reinstated. I was prescribed for 10 yrs 3 to 4 mg of alprazolam daily. Took me two years to taper off that, I'm 14 months out after leaping but still have healing to do. It does get better, hang in there.
I remember when my akithesia slowly began to fade, the dread and severe anxiety still remained, I was at about 60% into my recovery so the misery was still there but not to the extreme that is was. Im a father of seven children, and am married as well. So, I had to find another job because during my akithesia episode I lost my job. I was at my new job when I took a 20mg lexapro thinking it would help me, sent me back into full blown akithesia, I was sprawled out at work on the bathroom floor moaning for help. My boss was so awful and had zero compassion on me, and demanded that I stay and finish my shift! I couldn't do it. I went directly to the ER. I had visited so many doctors and psychs that I lost count trying to get relief, but found none. It eventually dissolved over time. These videos really help, even now after 4 years later. Akithesia leaves you a different person when you come out of it. I still get flashbacks, anxiety, and depression as reminders from the beast.
I hear this so many times. People will be off and then have a sort of bad day and will reach for a rescue dose.. they suffer with akathasia and a wave that can last for 8 months.
Keep fighting. Going on two months w/o and it’s not fun! Please stay strong and be proud of yourself. Thank you for being so open. God Bless if you believe. Much love from the States. Peace
Lov u sys I m going through hell acatisia prayers and my kids I hope I can survive this for them and be happy again one day is mental and physical anguish is a horror movie
It is, I take propranolol that helps, maybe you could try and see a neurologist? Don't give up and just try whatever you can. See a natropath even. Whatever you can do x
I can relate. Off off benzos since April 22, right now I can’t stand. Bambi legs, heartbeat so fast, fear and anxiety…. My eyes are heavy and can’t stand the light. And a pretty bad headache…. Damn, I feel so psychotic. Sending all my love and blessing for us to heal.
I have explained that stomach cramps are totally normal after benzo use already in previous comments!!! A Facebook group is the best place to ask this question a thousand times. I have tried to be supportive but you can't just comment the same question to every single person every day. You will fully heal when your body decides to heal! Please stop commenting this same comment, this is the last warning. Thank you
days ... I'm on my 3rd month of not being functional after an interaction with steroids for bells palsy caused a me to go back into acute, i haven't touched a benzo for 10 month after using for 16 years as prescribed, its doom, its terror, its worse then dying and its sad because even if you get off the drug a steroid or antibiotic can put you right back into hell
@@patrickhyatt172 well most of time on too lol good and body gets use to it and one day you hit tolerance - throws you into withdrawl once that happens no going back period body won’t go there it’s now a spiral - so you figure out how to detox better to quit taper before tolerance hits ✅✅
Withdrawal is incredibly hard I stopped my antidepressant in November 23 after a too fast a taper decided to reinstate in Feb 24 now 4 months later I have seen improvements in my symptoms going thru windows and waves but it's the hardest thing I have had to go through
Im going thru this right now ..I was on klonopin for 9 yrs 3 mg a day. Doc took me off cold Turkey it really sux I cant do much of anything cant drive .work .it takes everything I have to cook,clean,take care of my son.its horrible.
Is there a doctor who will reinstate you so you can do a slow taper? Or do you think you will just soldier through cold Turkey? So sorry you are dealing with this, the system is horrible
I feel you, totally. You are amazing and we will get through this. About to get off Xanax, next week on 40 mg diazepam, Then tapering 5mg every two weeks. I hope that isn’t too fast. I hope the people that love me will stand by me. This is an effin nightmare. The strange part is that, all through this I have to work and help others and be a “normal” person. The whole time feeling like I’m going to crack open and shatter into a ball of disparity. Absolute hell. The good news is this, once you walk through hell, your armor has been tempered by the flames and will be stronger than ever. Bless you.
Sorry for the late reply! In my opinion (I am no doctor but from experience) 5mg every two weeks is way too fast! If your body can handle it then great! But I dropped 10 mg and almost died. Landed myself in a psych hospital again. Slow and steady wins the race and I mean that whole heartedly. So sorry you have to go through this it is so horrible 😔
Psychs who know what they are doing recommend a slow taper. Anywhere from 1-5% of your dose every 4-6 weeks but usually even 5% is too much. Just go with your body and listen to it! If you have started already, how are you going?
We are all going to be so much more humble and stronger after this I was already a good-hearted so to begin with and I just I just feel so bad for all of us and I know it's horrendous right now but it will to pass I know it feels like we're stuck in this forever but it's going to go away for good one day at a time I'm working on not trying to be hard on myself and that it was hard for me to do and just understand that I need to be better first before I can do better for anyone else so... God bless you I pray that you get recovered sooner than later. Lately thank you sweet Jesus Christ God Amen ❤️🙏❤️🙏
My quick story.. I was on 4 different benzodiazepines AT ONCE ! Ativan diazepam Klonopin & Teamazepam and 2 ssri’s Prozac and Effexor tapered Colt turkeyed all the benzodiazepines except for diazepam I tapered for 2 weeks then jumped off . And of course I was sent to withdraw hill and my mind was completely obliterated had hundreds and hundreds of symptoms I could see him being the worst one . Of course no doctors believe me or sent to to psych wards. Got released from the psych wards to be left to my own devices. Trust me I know your pain.... 🤝
Doctors will never take responsibility for the shitty ways they practice. They don't want to help us, just give us more drugs. There are a few good ones out there. I cant imagine what you went through. Are you doing okay now?
@@JIMMYJREVIEWS_thaiM-A-F-I-A wow, how long did it take you to fully heal ? I'm 14 months off after 2 year taper after being cold turkeyed and reinstated under another doctor...true hell is an understatement..glad you're healed, very good to hear.
@@sharon8121 yep... back in the early 2000’s ! My doctor told me to try 1 on for size then if I had an issue try another then so on and so on ... it would NEVER happen now a days! Lol
You've explained that feeling very well. And that's not easy to do. Thanks. Have you subbed to Gabe McCall channel? He's super helpful, and so funny too!
Do you have any of the success links to share in a message with me? In the search I end up in the rabbit hole of horror. Akathisia here also. Also any advice on how to do this on my own, I’ve lost everyone apart from one friend. The losses haunt me. Thank you so much for what you do 💕
If you go onto spotify you can find success stories there. Or if you go to the search bar in the Akathisia support group you can find success there too. I am sorry you are doing this alone. I don't know where you live but in Australia you can register with a disability scheme and have someone visit you multiple times a week to talk or help you with shopping and cleaning. Surround yourself with positivity with music, God, podcasts, movies...whatever makes you happy. Even if you have to move and pace while listening.
I know you made this video a while ago but I'm curious to how you are doing? I've been off valium for 6 months now and I'm hitting a wave. I was on 20mg of valium for a little over a year and it took me 6 months to get off. I joined a benzo group on Facebook and they had so much knowledge. I was doing so good and it hit me out of nowhere.
I had been doing great in taper. Down to 11mg from 30 and dosing 4 times a day to stop interdose withdrawal. Just been tripped up by what I think was a natropathic powder so Akathisia has been horrible and I have covid at the same time. So taper going well, just something else has come up. Sorry to hear you have had a setback. What are symptoms?
@@beautifullybroken1591 that's awesome you came down that much. I was on 20 mg and would drop 2 mg every 2-4 weeks until I got to 10 mg then I dropped 1 mg every 2-4 weeks until I was at 0mg. It wasn't easy and the hardest thing I had to do. Right now I've been having morning anxiety for the past couple days, nausea, dry heaving, a bit of panic attacks, a little depression, and crying spells. I just hope this goes away. I was doing so good. Had a long window. I know this is part of the process but when you're sick it's hard to be positive. I had a wave when I was 3 months off as well. Now at 6 months. By the time you know it you'll be off these awful pills. Just keep going. You're tapering valium right?
@@kknockout316 That's really rough but it will pass and your body will push through! Maybe an underlying mental health issue? Or just your body has been tripped by something. But be so proud you have come this far and your body will just keep healing as long as you keep it healthy and clean. I can't wait to be off this crap, I'm sure I will deal with all the same stuff too. At least we know we are not alone. Keep breathing friend
@@beautifullybroken1591 thank you! I know it seems like a long journey but you'll be off soon enough. Don't rush and go by how your body feels. Everyone is different. Some people can taper faster. Valium is a lower potency and long half-life so I hear it's a bit easier to taper. I never had interdose withdrawal but I did hit tolerance at 20mg. I had a bad psychiatrist that put me on a higher dose. I learned a lot about these psychotropic drugs and don't trust many psychiatrists. I recently started drinking coffee again and just stopped when I had this wave. Coffee isn't good for anxiety. I feel more like myself today. I hope you post a video of when you finish your taper and keep us updated on your progress. Enjoy your day!
@@beautifullybroken1591 thanks for explaining. I basically built up to 2+mgs of Kolonopin and had been taking it for nearly half a year. I'm a songwriter and a guitarist and I make a living performing on stages. I hated the way benzos made me forgetful and they didn't make me at my best. So I tried to get off a few times way too fast. I went from 2mgs and cut half off every two weeks. When two weeks were up on half a milagram, I went to zero. I was off of it completely for 11 days with horrible symptoms. I went back to 1 ½ mgs seeing that I had tapered way too fast. It's like when I went back to 1 ½mg that my symptoms in regular life just got worse. Even back on them! My chemistry is just jacked... Now I'm back in the taper with you. Still taking 1½ per day just to get back to feeling decent until I cut back. I feel alright enough to perform so I'm thankfully making money again. And recoding in my home studio. But it's very hard because my soul feels quenched. I have very little feelings of happiness and accomplishment. It's very hard for a songwriter and an artist. Music is something that is felt ! So I fight for it. Anyways I'm a new subscriber. You're not alone. I wanna be updated on your progress and seek to find people I can speak to on my journey as well. I can say I understand that this the worst thing I've ever been through in my life. Worse than jail worse than the deepest darkest depression and fear at times. I understand you.
I am having to do a fast taper. I am on sublocade for addiction to pain medication. I was on 15mg Diaz now down to 10mg. Vic roads wants a medical review to see if I'm fit to drive. I am. I had a single vehicle accident three years ago no drugs or alcohol involved. But they want an assessment. I'm being forced to taper way too fast. I hear you x
I've been through it and almost died but fought hard.. took me 7 yrs I only took them for 6 weeks. I had every symptom you describe and more.. hang tight and fight.
@@briandavenport8971 yes I now on January 1st started my 9 yr.. I'm sooooo much better and very capable of living my life but there is still something off a bit.. hopefully this year it'll be all normal again..
Something that make me shocked was the amount of people who terrorize that kind of situation. I chose a long action benzo and physical activity routine was regular. I used to ride bike and run almost every single day. I guess it was essential to reduce almost 100% the side effects symptoms.
I cold turkeyed off of 2 months of klonopin. Relapsed for another 2 months and cold turkeyed again. I’m on my fifth month and I am in hell. This drugs are the devil idk how they are legal.
Why are we put through this! Fact is benzos are commonly and successfully used for severe anxiety allowing sufferers to live a normal happy life...I been put through this so I know. We are talking being able to do the most basic of things like grocery shopping. My heart is with you I hope your withdrawal works. I am not a Dr but have found gabapentin helps a bit
It's very unfair! They are effective until one day they are not. Gabapentin I have heard alot of people use but you also have to wean off but not sure on that one :/ Im sure it wouldn't be as painful to come off as benzos, nothing is!
Unfortunately that defeats the whole purpose of getting off of benzo's as it's just adding another one on the list to get off of. Docs usually prescribe a small dose of an anti depressant for that. But in my case I dont want any of it. 👎
Buddha said the way to end all suffering is to get out of samsara and not going through the endless round of rebirth in samsara. This is not a good world with lots of suffering and evil.
@@beautifullybroken1591 If you do more research Jesus is similar to a Hindu god Krishna. Jesus could actually be the Hindu god Krishna. Hinduism exist before Christianity. You can't say Hinduism copy Christianity. If your god is really omnipotent, so good and compassionate, why he let you suffer so much? Why he let others suffer so much until couldn't stand anymore and commit suicide? You have to use your brain to think and analyze thing and not blind faith. Also use common sense too. Use your suffering to wake up and see the truth. There are other god so much better than Jesus. Also Buddha said everybody has Buddha nature. We have an inner god. Seeking outside god can be dangerous. Not all outside god is good.
@@chuahping9299Have you met Jesus? I have. Only then will you realise the sovereignty and truth of who he is. I will pray for you my friend, I can talk for days on the how's and why's of suffering. But I am free and I am saved and he has brought me out of the depths of hell countless times. You are free to believe what you want, I won't judge. But I will pray for you. 🙏
@@beautifullybroken1591 Please don't pray for me, I hate it. I am Buddhist and Buddha had helped and saved me many many times. For me Buddha is very compassionate. One time I even have a bad ghost wanting to do something bad to me. I prayed to Amitabha Buddha and He chased away the bad ghost for me. Before the ghost left, I heard the ghost said "your God is so big". I also had Buddha advised me in my dream. And also many times when I feel depressed I chant Buddha's name and I feel relieved. I wasn't so harmed by psychiatric drug because I quit early. The doctors prescribed anti psychotic to me. Lucky I quit early. I think Buddha had protected me. If I am compliant in taking medicine I think I would have Akathisia a few years ago. I thank Buddha for protecting me. For me Buddha is very real and very compassionate. I wouldn't be alive now if not for Buddha.
Do your research. If you have seen my past videos I explain I hit tolerance and it made me incredibly sick so I had to get off. Benzos are poison. Have you not read anything about them before? How they cause addictions, overdoses and suicides and can permanently damage your brain? No one should be prescribed these pills. Research is key my friend
"Religion is for people who are afraid of going to HELL. Spirituality is for people who have already been there"!
I'm now 33 months post all RX drugs including Klonopin after 17.5 years of taking as prescribed! It's a long FKN road for so many of us...at the very least I know I'm not alone "Thanks"!👊
I like to call benzo's The Devils Pills. They draw you in with false promises and then drag you to the depths of hell. Congratulations on all that! I love hearing success stories, gives me more hope 🙏
I'm tapering off Klonopin after 32 years of being on it. 😥
There are a lot of us in that same boat, being made to taper after decades. We never fully heal and in some cases I think people should be left on a small dose. You don't here about insulin warriors!
@@sharon8121 I totally agree
@@sharon8121 Yah but unfortunately I hit "Tolerance Withdrawal" and was sick for years trying to figure out WTF was wrong with me? Never once did a quote "DR" suggest it may be all the 💊 pills they had me on at the time.. never once! I had no choice but to ultimately WD from everything...however I can see what you mean for those who never hit "Tolerance Withdrawal". If a little bit works for them so be it however most of these DRs are ignorant 🐑 sheep who try to play GOD with so many lives!
It is so hard. We have to hang on to the hope that we do heal. May God Bless you and heal you and all of us suffering. I’m on that wave now. Love those windows they are glimpses of hope
I'm 14 months out, it will get better for you. Taper taper taper. It took me two years to taper and then leap. You're doing terrific if you're able to make videos, you're healing, it will end and you'll heal. I know EXACTLY how you feel, hang in there, you're a warrior. 🙌💙
So glad you made it off! How slowly did you taper? I have so far to go 😞
@@beautifullybroken1591 let your body dictate the cuts, and don't worry about the holds. I tapered for two years after being reinstated. I was prescribed for 10 yrs 3 to 4 mg of alprazolam daily. Took me two years to taper off that, I'm 14 months out after leaping but still have healing to do. It does get better, hang in there.
@@beautifullybroken1591 if you need anything or just want to talk to someone who's been where you are my email is my TH-cam name at gmail dot com.👍
May i ask why you stopped taking as prescribed?
Is anxiety better at 14 monthd
I remember when my akithesia slowly began to fade, the dread and severe anxiety still remained, I was at about 60% into my recovery so the misery was still there but not to the extreme that is was. Im a father of seven children, and am married as well. So, I had to find another job because during my akithesia episode I lost my job. I was at my new job when I took a 20mg lexapro thinking it would help me, sent me back into full blown akithesia, I was sprawled out at work on the bathroom floor moaning for help. My boss was so awful and had zero compassion on me, and demanded that I stay and finish my shift! I couldn't do it. I went directly to the ER. I had visited so many doctors and psychs that I lost count trying to get relief, but found none. It eventually dissolved over time. These videos really help, even now after 4 years later. Akithesia leaves you a different person when you come out of it. I still get flashbacks, anxiety, and depression as reminders from the beast.
Do you ever fully recover? how long has it been with you?
I hear this so many times. People will be off and then have a sort of bad day and will reach for a rescue dose.. they suffer with akathasia and a wave that can last for 8 months.
@@shaun4443 yes, I did finally recover.
You're not alone - we are right there with you. It will get better, it will.
Keep fighting. Going on two months w/o and it’s not fun! Please stay strong and be proud of yourself. Thank you for being so open. God Bless if you believe. Much love from the States. Peace
Lov u sys I m going through hell acatisia prayers and my kids I hope I can survive this for them and be happy again one day is mental and physical anguish is a horror movie
It is, I take propranolol that helps, maybe you could try and see a neurologist? Don't give up and just try whatever you can. See a natropath even. Whatever you can do x
How are you doing now?
Have been in hell all year. I have updates on my channel
You can do this. You're so strong for going through this journey and struggling through this battle. Withdrawal is no fucking joke.
I can relate. Off off benzos since April 22, right now I can’t stand. Bambi legs, heartbeat so fast, fear and anxiety…. My eyes are heavy and can’t stand the light. And a pretty bad headache…. Damn, I feel so psychotic. Sending all my love and blessing for us to heal.
Kayiell did u feel stomach cramps and emptyness in ur withdrawal please ans I m 103 days sober
I have explained that stomach cramps are totally normal after benzo use already in previous comments!!! A Facebook group is the best place to ask this question a thousand times. I have tried to be supportive but you can't just comment the same question to every single person every day. You will fully heal when your body decides to heal! Please stop commenting this same comment, this is the last warning. Thank you
I've sat in fear for days. It's horrifying 😥
days ... I'm on my 3rd month of not being functional after an interaction with steroids for bells palsy caused a me to go back into acute, i haven't touched a benzo for 10 month after using for 16 years as prescribed, its doom, its terror, its worse then dying and its sad because even if you get off the drug a steroid or antibiotic can put you right back into hell
Then why stop?
@@patrickhyatt172 well most of time on too lol good and body gets use to it and one day you hit tolerance - throws you into withdrawl once that happens no going back period body won’t go there it’s now a spiral - so you figure out how to detox better to quit taper before tolerance hits ✅✅
Im off SSRI cipralex since August after taking it for 5 years and still I cannot concentrate properly. Hang in there fellow warrior.
Withdrawal is incredibly hard
I stopped my antidepressant in November 23 after a too fast a taper decided to reinstate in Feb 24 now 4 months later I have seen improvements in my symptoms going thru windows and waves but it's the hardest thing I have had to go through
Im in a horrible wave right now. Did a workout an it put me in a wave. But its worth it in the long run tho. Godbless you hope your doing better.
I HAVE BEEN SIX MONTHS OFF ZOLOFT AND STILL LIVING IN HELL!
Im going thru this right now ..I was on klonopin for 9 yrs 3 mg a day. Doc took me off cold Turkey it really sux I cant do much of anything cant drive .work .it takes everything I have to cook,clean,take care of my son.its horrible.
Is there a doctor who will reinstate you so you can do a slow taper? Or do you think you will just soldier through cold Turkey? So sorry you are dealing with this, the system is horrible
@@beautifullybroken1591 I'm just gonna go thru this .
Good video. Stay strong. Im nearing end of alprazolam taper. Im not sure when ill jump completely off but im getting close.
I feel you, totally. You are amazing and we will get through this. About to get off Xanax, next week on 40 mg diazepam, Then tapering 5mg every two weeks. I hope that isn’t too fast. I hope the people that love me will stand by me. This is an effin nightmare. The strange part is that, all through this I have to work and help others and be a “normal” person. The whole time feeling like I’m going to crack open and shatter into a ball of disparity. Absolute hell. The good news is this, once you walk through hell, your armor has been tempered by the flames and will be stronger than ever. Bless you.
Sorry for the late reply! In my opinion (I am no doctor but from experience) 5mg every two weeks is way too fast! If your body can handle it then great! But I dropped 10 mg and almost died. Landed myself in a psych hospital again. Slow and steady wins the race and I mean that whole heartedly. So sorry you have to go through this it is so horrible 😔
Psychs who know what they are doing recommend a slow taper. Anywhere from 1-5% of your dose every 4-6 weeks but usually even 5% is too much. Just go with your body and listen to it! If you have started already, how are you going?
Have you worked out at least 5 times a week? It helps a lot dude.
Or maybe the brands sold in Brazil are not so strong... Because I used to reduced 10% every 20 days.
Just about 8 months off Klonopin and since tolerance I have developed constant pvcs 😢 horrific all day everyday.. hope they go away soon
We are all going to be so much more humble and stronger after this I was already a good-hearted so to begin with and I just I just feel so bad for all of us and I know it's horrendous right now but it will to pass I know it feels like we're stuck in this forever but it's going to go away for good one day at a time I'm working on not trying to be hard on myself and that it was hard for me to do and just understand that I need to be better first before I can do better for anyone else so... God bless you I pray that you get recovered sooner than later. Lately thank you sweet Jesus Christ God Amen ❤️🙏❤️🙏
My quick story.. I was on 4 different benzodiazepines AT ONCE ! Ativan diazepam Klonopin & Teamazepam and 2 ssri’s Prozac and Effexor tapered Colt turkeyed all the benzodiazepines except for diazepam I tapered for 2 weeks then jumped off . And of course I was sent to withdraw hill and my mind was completely obliterated had hundreds and hundreds of symptoms I could see him being the worst one . Of course no doctors believe me or sent to to psych wards. Got released from the psych wards to be left to my own devices. Trust me I know your pain.... 🤝
Doctors will never take responsibility for the shitty ways they practice. They don't want to help us, just give us more drugs. There are a few good ones out there. I cant imagine what you went through. Are you doing okay now?
@@beautifullybroken1591 yes ! Healed 100 percent 👍😊 thank you !
@@JIMMYJREVIEWS_thaiM-A-F-I-A wow, how long did it take you to fully heal ? I'm 14 months off after 2 year taper after being cold turkeyed and reinstated under another doctor...true hell is an understatement..glad you're healed, very good to hear.
Wow! I didn't know they would ever prescribe 3 types of benzos at once?
@@sharon8121 yep... back in the early 2000’s ! My doctor told me to try 1 on for size then if I had an issue try another then so on and so on ... it would NEVER happen now a days! Lol
Another Aussie!! So sorry this is happening, it is f*cked. :/
It all sucks. Glad u r making it. It's taking forever.
I’m going through the same xxx
Good luck... keep fighting!!
You've explained that feeling very well. And that's not easy to do. Thanks. Have you subbed to Gabe McCall channel? He's super helpful, and so funny too!
I dont think so, will check out 😊
I love gabe. He’s always apologizing for his videos “sucking” LOL
Do you have any of the success links to share in a message with me? In the search I end up in the rabbit hole of horror. Akathisia here also.
Also any advice on how to do this on my own, I’ve lost everyone apart from one friend. The losses haunt me. Thank you so much for what you do 💕
If you go onto spotify you can find success stories there. Or if you go to the search bar in the Akathisia support group you can find success there too. I am sorry you are doing this alone. I don't know where you live but in Australia you can register with a disability scheme and have someone visit you multiple times a week to talk or help you with shopping and cleaning. Surround yourself with positivity with music, God, podcasts, movies...whatever makes you happy. Even if you have to move and pace while listening.
@@beautifullybroken1591 thank you 🙏
I know you made this video a while ago but I'm curious to how you are doing? I've been off valium for 6 months now and I'm hitting a wave. I was on 20mg of valium for a little over a year and it took me 6 months to get off. I joined a benzo group on Facebook and they had so much knowledge. I was doing so good and it hit me out of nowhere.
I had been doing great in taper. Down to 11mg from 30 and dosing 4 times a day to stop interdose withdrawal. Just been tripped up by what I think was a natropathic powder so Akathisia has been horrible and I have covid at the same time. So taper going well, just something else has come up. Sorry to hear you have had a setback. What are symptoms?
@@beautifullybroken1591 that's awesome you came down that much. I was on 20 mg and would drop 2 mg every 2-4 weeks until I got to 10 mg then I dropped 1 mg every 2-4 weeks until I was at 0mg. It wasn't easy and the hardest thing I had to do. Right now I've been having morning anxiety for the past couple days, nausea, dry heaving, a bit of panic attacks, a little depression, and crying spells. I just hope this goes away. I was doing so good. Had a long window. I know this is part of the process but when you're sick it's hard to be positive. I had a wave when I was 3 months off as well. Now at 6 months. By the time you know it you'll be off these awful pills. Just keep going. You're tapering valium right?
@@kknockout316 That's really rough but it will pass and your body will push through! Maybe an underlying mental health issue? Or just your body has been tripped by something. But be so proud you have come this far and your body will just keep healing as long as you keep it healthy and clean. I can't wait to be off this crap, I'm sure I will deal with all the same stuff too. At least we know we are not alone. Keep breathing friend
@@beautifullybroken1591 thank you! I know it seems like a long journey but you'll be off soon enough. Don't rush and go by how your body feels. Everyone is different. Some people can taper faster. Valium is a lower potency and long half-life so I hear it's a bit easier to taper. I never had interdose withdrawal but I did hit tolerance at 20mg. I had a bad psychiatrist that put me on a higher dose. I learned a lot about these psychotropic drugs and don't trust many psychiatrists. I recently started drinking coffee again and just stopped when I had this wave. Coffee isn't good for anxiety. I feel more like myself today. I hope you post a video of when you finish your taper and keep us updated on your progress. Enjoy your day!
How are you doing? Peace
Hey thank for uploading. How fast are you tapering?
No worries. Im tapering in a symptom led fashion. So sometimes I'll cut 1mg and hold for 4 weeks or I might need longer depending how I feel
@@beautifullybroken1591 thanks for explaining. I basically built up to 2+mgs of Kolonopin and had been taking it for nearly half a year. I'm a songwriter and a guitarist and I make a living performing on stages. I hated the way benzos made me forgetful and they didn't make me at my best. So I tried to get off a few times way too fast. I went from 2mgs and cut half off every two weeks. When two weeks were up on half a milagram, I went to zero. I was off of it completely for 11 days with horrible symptoms. I went back to 1 ½ mgs seeing that I had tapered way too fast. It's like when I went back to 1 ½mg that my symptoms in regular life just got worse. Even back on them! My chemistry is just jacked...
Now I'm back in the taper with you. Still taking 1½ per day just to get back to feeling decent until I cut back. I feel alright enough to perform so I'm thankfully making money again. And recoding in my home studio. But it's very hard because my soul feels quenched. I have very little feelings of happiness and accomplishment. It's very hard for a songwriter and an artist. Music is something that is felt ! So I fight for it. Anyways I'm a new subscriber. You're not alone. I wanna be updated on your progress and seek to find people I can speak to on my journey as well.
I can say I understand that this the worst thing I've ever been through in my life. Worse than jail worse than the deepest darkest depression and fear at times. I understand you.
I am having to do a fast taper. I am on sublocade for addiction to pain medication. I was on 15mg Diaz now down to 10mg. Vic roads wants a medical review to see if I'm fit to drive. I am. I had a single vehicle accident three years ago no drugs or alcohol involved. But they want an assessment. I'm being forced to taper way too fast. I hear you x
Hey x I mentioned this before I think it’s called impending doom 😭 look into it hun
I've been through it and almost died but fought hard.. took me 7 yrs I only took them for 6 weeks. I had every symptom you describe and more.. hang tight and fight.
7 years!? 😱
@@briandavenport8971 yes I now on January 1st started my 9 yr.. I'm sooooo much better and very capable of living my life but there is still something off a bit.. hopefully this year it'll be all normal again..
Crazy man. I took for about 4 months and I withdrew easily in 4 months without any problem.
@@Supersup.campos you're lucky .. you must have tapered?
Something that make me shocked was the amount of people who terrorize that kind of situation. I chose a long action benzo and physical activity routine was regular. I used to ride bike and run almost every single day. I guess it was essential to reduce almost 100% the side effects symptoms.
I cold turkeyed off of 2 months of klonopin. Relapsed for another 2 months and cold turkeyed again. I’m on my fifth month and I am in hell. This drugs are the devil idk how they are legal.
It's an absolute failure to the human race that these drugs even exist isn't it
I think it’s normal honestly to be Anxious and Depressed and no pill can help it. What’s not normal is to be a all Happy Slappy
Why are we put through this! Fact is benzos are commonly and successfully used for severe anxiety allowing sufferers to live a normal happy life...I been put through this so I know. We are talking being able to do the most basic of things like grocery shopping. My heart is with you I hope your withdrawal works. I am not a Dr but have found gabapentin helps a bit
It's very unfair! They are effective until one day they are not. Gabapentin I have heard alot of people use but you also have to wean off but not sure on that one :/ Im sure it wouldn't be as painful to come off as benzos, nothing is!
@@beautifullybroken1591 I agree
@@beautifullybroken1591 exactly! No nothing is worse then benzo withdrawal! Been there....
I think if we could take another benzo in a small dose while tapering it would take some of the edge off
Unfortunately that defeats the whole purpose of getting off of benzo's as it's just adding another one on the list to get off of. Docs usually prescribe a small dose of an anti depressant for that. But in my case I dont want any of it. 👎
Many switch to a longer acting Benzodiazepine like Valium to taper and eventually jump off...The Ashton Manual recommends that.
I agree I am now on a very low dose so I'm not doing as bad as I had in the past! Why should it be all or nothing??
The way you describe the wave is exactly how I get.. we got this 💪
Yes we do!
Actually I never know from refill to refill when they might decide to taper...leaving me no control
This is why i stock hundreds and hundreds of Ativan ,. waiting for that day, and if i had none i would buy off internet, no lie
Not me. I wouldn't go that far. I prefer to work with my Drs its easier!
Buddha said the way to end all suffering is to get out of samsara and not going through the endless round of rebirth in samsara. This is not a good world with lots of suffering and evil.
Luckily I have Jesus and I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me 😊
@@beautifullybroken1591 If you do more research Jesus is similar to a Hindu god Krishna. Jesus could actually be the Hindu god Krishna. Hinduism exist before Christianity. You can't say Hinduism copy Christianity. If your god is really omnipotent, so good and compassionate, why he let you suffer so much? Why he let others suffer so much until couldn't stand anymore and commit suicide? You have to use your brain to think and analyze thing and not blind faith. Also use common sense too. Use your suffering to wake up and see the truth. There are other god so much better than Jesus. Also Buddha said everybody has Buddha nature. We have an inner god. Seeking outside god can be dangerous. Not all outside god is good.
@@chuahping9299Have you met Jesus? I have. Only then will you realise the sovereignty and truth of who he is. I will pray for you my friend, I can talk for days on the how's and why's of suffering. But I am free and I am saved and he has brought me out of the depths of hell countless times. You are free to believe what you want, I won't judge. But I will pray for you. 🙏
And I have studied all the ancient and new religions of the world for many years searching. Almost obsessively, (I have OCD). I know my God. Bless you
@@beautifullybroken1591 Please don't pray for me, I hate it. I am Buddhist and Buddha had helped and saved me many many times. For me Buddha is very compassionate. One time I even have a bad ghost wanting to do something bad to me. I prayed to Amitabha Buddha and He chased away the bad ghost for me. Before the ghost left, I heard the ghost said "your God is so big". I also had Buddha advised me in my dream. And also many times when I feel depressed I chant Buddha's name and I feel relieved. I wasn't so harmed by psychiatric drug because I quit early. The doctors prescribed anti psychotic to me. Lucky I quit early. I think Buddha had protected me. If I am compliant in taking medicine I think I would have Akathisia a few years ago. I thank Buddha for protecting me. For me Buddha is very real and very compassionate. I wouldn't be alive now if not for Buddha.
Just stay on benzos,.why stop?
Do your research. If you have seen my past videos I explain I hit tolerance and it made me incredibly sick so I had to get off. Benzos are poison. Have you not read anything about them before? How they cause addictions, overdoses and suicides and can permanently damage your brain? No one should be prescribed these pills. Research is key my friend