As someone with BDD, we were n e v e r comfortable in our own skin. That's probably why benzos were such a relief for us at first, and also why we might have a tougher time to heal than others. There are deeper roots to how we got in to this predicament in the first place.
I'm so proud of you Tess, you have battled long and hard and have not only survived, but come out stronger and wiser and with so much compassion for others who are suffering. I praise God for all that He has done, and is going to do, in and through you 💖💖
I just got recently diagnosed with body dismorphia and I'm taking medizapin and paroxetine 20 Mg. Not doin that much but it's certainly alleviating the mirror chekin thing a bit. It's a really hard disorder to deal with and diagnose most of psychiatrists fail to notice its symptoms which is really sad. U've got this girl.,we can do it. Keep fighting
I think it's becoming harder to diagnose because doctors disregard the symptoms as just normal "self obsessive behaviour" due to social media. Like "Oh here's another person too obsessed with trying to be perfect, they should stop using instagram so much". When in fact it's a real thing. I hope youre journey with this diagnosis is a healing one. Remember, what we see is multiplied a thousand times to what others see of us. I check the mirror and say "That's as good as its going to get" and make the choice to stay away the rest of the day" hahah. We'll be okay!
I was bullied really bad too growing up and it unfortunately continues to impact us in different ways. I suffer from social anxiety, I always feel like other people are better than me, and I am stupid, ugly , weird , ect. I also still live in the same town I grew up in and when I take my daughter to school I see all the people who used to bully me and it's like the high school reunion I never wanted to attend lol , gotta love small towns everyone is still cliquey and snobby. The job I have now has helped my self esteem greatly though, it was so hard at first I work as an Indigenous support worker at an elementary school 1 town over. In the beginning I was in fear everyday at work, of being judged and having to do a lot of public speaking and my voice and hands used to shake. Through my job I have made a lot of great friends and gained a lot of respect and I realize I am smart, clever, funny, and yea I am weird but in a good way and people like me. It only took about 2 years for the fear or social anxiety to go away, but I am proud of myself now. Also the kids are great and make it all worth it, and I get to be the adult I wish I had as a child. I am proud of you, you are so pretty that's the first thing I thought when I saw you, not that it matters you have a great personality as well. I am also coming off this god awful medication these doctors put me on.
This is so sad to hear. Don't get a nose job, Ur nose is spot on. Literally. N the rest at minimum a 8/10. I got ocd 2. After hearing your voice on 1 of Ur tracks I almost become obsessed with you haha. Na voice of an angel n look like an angel. Hope you come to realise that. Gonna watch 1 of your more recent videos to see how your doing
Well that was a fascinating story. It's amazing to me that someone so beautiful had all these insecurities about their appearance. I also had massive insecurities about my appearance as a teenager, but it was mostly related to pimples. I didn't want to go to school or leave the house because I was so self-conscious about my pimples; I thought I looked hideous and I just wanted to fast-forward time to become an adult so that my pimples would be gone. I became quite neurotic and developed all these strange habits trying to hide my pimples. At one point, I started using a bit of my mom's foundation to hide glaring pimples (I'm a guy, LOL). The only thing that got me through highschool was that there was a few kids in my year with WAY worse acne than me. The worst of my acne was over when I was 18, and my face had completely cleared up by the time I was about 19/20. Please don't get plastic surgery - you are perfect. You're like a hotter version of Megan Fox. Not even joking.
I'm sorry high school was such a crazy time for you. It's super common to get fixated on something that eventually takes over your whole thinking. I'm glad it cleared up and you could move on. Thank you for the compliment, God bless
Being a perfectionist really makes people vulnerable to body imagine problems. How has your recovery been going? You seem to have had quite noticeable improvements so far
Are you referring to improvements in my akathisia or BDD? My Aka has been much better since I realised the underlying cause was interdose withdrawls, I addressed that at the start of the video 👍
@@antons4419 He has been busy so I am only able to get in to see him now. Hoping there are ways to help with the withdrawls and naturally helping my illnesses. Also going to try CBD oil
I have subscribed to you! 👍 great that you dare to speak about this. i also have body dysmorphic disorder myself .. which was diagnosed by my psychologist. only I don't see it that way myself, and I really don't find myself to be seen. i hate to see photos and movies of myself .. i avoid this. i am taking prozac 60mg myself .. this has always worked for me. but the complaints come back. What medicines have you taken and what dose? take it easy! you are a beautiful woman😘
Sorry to hear you are suffering, what a warrior! I used to take 80mg prozac too for over 10 years but am off that and coming off other things. I want to treat it as naturally as I can as I've had health issues with meds just making me worse xx
@@beautifullybroken1591 hey, i'm still having a lot of trouble with my bdd. and tried 80mg, but I immediately got a lot of hair loss ... did you also suffer from this? and did this go away after taking it for a longer period of time?
@@flower-lr5sm I didn't have hair loss no. I am not aware of that as a side effect but it wouldn't surprise me. Are you taking it for any other diagnosis? 80mgs is a lot just to treat BDD alone.
@@beautifullybroken1591 i have pretty severe bdd... and while also social anxiety. I have taken 60 mg for years, but I am starting to feel very insecure again and looking in the mirror is very bad again. dn the fear on the street is back. that's why I thought to increase to 80mg
@@flower-lr5sm Sometimes the meds can do more harm than good unortunately. They can worsen the symptoms of the actual diagnosis. That's why I got off them. I hope your doc can help you find something that works if you choose to go down that path.
Omg you are so beautiful! Even more so without makeup! I went to buy bikinis (actually any bathers) for my first ever holiday next week, it’s taken me two days. I found some, I swear I tried on 34 pairs. But I’m still not happy. Tommoro I’m getting hair extensions, I’ve lost a lot of hair due to health and stress. Next week I hope to be able to afford to get my nails done Atleast. You are so amazing Thankyou for sharing 💕 I have many friends that laugh at me when I say I feel fat or ugly, it’s not my fault I feel that way. Yes social media is 50% the reason. But I just wish ppl understood no matter the size or looks we all have our own issues xx
Aw thank you hun ❤ social media has a huge part to play with alot of people's self worth and image these days. I believe things will change eventually....eventually. Positive self talk is a huge thing, if we can get that down we are half way there 👍❤
As someone with BDD, we were n e v e r comfortable in our own skin. That's probably why benzos were such a relief for us at first, and also why we might have a tougher time to heal than others. There are deeper roots to how we got in to this predicament in the first place.
I'm so proud of you Tess, you have battled long and hard and have not only survived, but come out stronger and wiser and with so much compassion for others who are suffering. I praise God for all that He has done, and is going to do, in and through you 💖💖
Love you so much! ❤❤
I just got recently diagnosed with body dismorphia and I'm taking medizapin and paroxetine 20 Mg. Not doin that much but it's certainly alleviating the mirror chekin thing a bit. It's a really hard disorder to deal with and diagnose most of psychiatrists fail to notice its symptoms which is really sad. U've got this girl.,we can do it. Keep fighting
I think it's becoming harder to diagnose because doctors disregard the symptoms as just normal "self obsessive behaviour" due to social media. Like "Oh here's another person too obsessed with trying to be perfect, they should stop using instagram so much". When in fact it's a real thing. I hope youre journey with this diagnosis is a healing one. Remember, what we see is multiplied a thousand times to what others see of us. I check the mirror and say "That's as good as its going to get" and make the choice to stay away the rest of the day" hahah. We'll be okay!
I was bullied really bad too growing up and it unfortunately continues to impact us in different ways. I suffer from social anxiety, I always feel like other people are better than me, and I am stupid, ugly , weird , ect. I also still live in the same town I grew up in and when I take my daughter to school I see all the people who used to bully me and it's like the high school reunion I never wanted to attend lol , gotta love small towns everyone is still cliquey and snobby. The job I have now has helped my self esteem greatly though, it was so hard at first I work as an Indigenous support worker at an elementary school 1 town over. In the beginning I was in fear everyday at work, of being judged and having to do a lot of public speaking and my voice and hands used to shake. Through my job I have made a lot of great friends and gained a lot of respect and I realize I am smart, clever, funny, and yea I am weird but in a good way and people like me. It only took about 2 years for the fear or social anxiety to go away, but I am proud of myself now. Also the kids are great and make it all worth it, and I get to be the adult I wish I had as a child. I am proud of you, you are so pretty that's the first thing I thought when I saw you, not that it matters you have a great personality as well. I am also coming off this god awful medication these doctors put me on.
This is so sad to hear. Don't get a nose job, Ur nose is spot on. Literally. N the rest at minimum a 8/10.
I got ocd 2.
After hearing your voice on 1 of Ur tracks I almost become obsessed with you haha.
Na voice of an angel n look like an angel.
Hope you come to realise that. Gonna watch 1 of your more recent videos to see how your doing
Well that was a fascinating story. It's amazing to me that someone so beautiful had all these insecurities about their appearance. I also had massive insecurities about my appearance as a teenager, but it was mostly related to pimples. I didn't want to go to school or leave the house because I was so self-conscious about my pimples; I thought I looked hideous and I just wanted to fast-forward time to become an adult so that my pimples would be gone. I became quite neurotic and developed all these strange habits trying to hide my pimples. At one point, I started using a bit of my mom's foundation to hide glaring pimples (I'm a guy, LOL). The only thing that got me through highschool was that there was a few kids in my year with WAY worse acne than me. The worst of my acne was over when I was 18, and my face had completely cleared up by the time I was about 19/20.
Please don't get plastic surgery - you are perfect. You're like a hotter version of Megan Fox. Not even joking.
I'm sorry high school was such a crazy time for you. It's super common to get fixated on something that eventually takes over your whole thinking. I'm glad it cleared up and you could move on.
Thank you for the compliment, God bless
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Although you are absolutely gorgeous my love, you are so much deeper then your looks, im proud of you also. 👆
Yes, you're so beautiful. How could you feel so bad about your appearance? You have so beautiful and sweet eyes. God bless you.
Being a perfectionist really makes people vulnerable to body imagine problems. How has your recovery been going? You seem to have had quite noticeable improvements so far
Are you referring to improvements in my akathisia or BDD? My Aka has been much better since I realised the underlying cause was interdose withdrawls, I addressed that at the start of the video 👍
Tessa Turner Sorry I was referring to the akathisia. Has many of your symptoms subsided while your still on the Journey of recovery
@@antons4419 while I'm switching to a longer acting benzo yes, but it was get hard once I wean off
Tessa Turner I understand now. Have you be able to seek a naturopath to help on your journey yet
@@antons4419 He has been busy so I am only able to get in to see him now. Hoping there are ways to help with the withdrawls and naturally helping my illnesses. Also going to try CBD oil
I have subscribed to you! 👍 great that you dare to speak about this. i also have body dysmorphic disorder myself .. which was diagnosed by my psychologist. only I don't see it that way myself, and I really don't find myself to be seen. i hate to see photos and movies of myself .. i avoid this. i am taking prozac 60mg myself .. this has always worked for me. but the complaints come back. What medicines have you taken and what dose? take it easy! you are a beautiful woman😘
Sorry to hear you are suffering, what a warrior! I used to take 80mg prozac too for over 10 years but am off that and coming off other things. I want to treat it as naturally as I can as I've had health issues with meds just making me worse xx
@@beautifullybroken1591 hey, i'm still having a lot of trouble with my bdd. and tried 80mg, but I immediately got a lot of hair loss ... did you also suffer from this? and did this go away after taking it for a longer period of time?
@@flower-lr5sm I didn't have hair loss no. I am not aware of that as a side effect but it wouldn't surprise me. Are you taking it for any other diagnosis? 80mgs is a lot just to treat BDD alone.
@@beautifullybroken1591
i have pretty severe bdd... and while also social anxiety. I have taken 60 mg for years, but I am starting to feel very insecure again and looking in the mirror is very bad again. dn the fear on the street is back. that's why I thought to increase to 80mg
@@flower-lr5sm Sometimes the meds can do more harm than good unortunately. They can worsen the symptoms of the actual diagnosis. That's why I got off them. I hope your doc can help you find something that works if you choose to go down that path.
Omg you are so beautiful! Even more so without makeup!
I went to buy bikinis (actually any bathers) for my first ever holiday next week, it’s taken me two days. I found some, I swear I tried on 34 pairs. But I’m still not happy.
Tommoro I’m getting hair extensions, I’ve lost a lot of hair due to health and stress.
Next week I hope to be able to afford to get my nails done Atleast. You are so amazing Thankyou for sharing 💕 I have many friends that laugh at me when I say I feel fat or ugly, it’s not my fault I feel that way. Yes social media is 50% the reason. But I just wish ppl understood no matter the size or looks we all have our own issues xx
Aw thank you hun ❤ social media has a huge part to play with alot of people's self worth and image these days. I believe things will change eventually....eventually. Positive self talk is a huge thing, if we can get that down we are half way there 👍❤