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Have you come off all hormones now?

Do you know what your Prolactin levels are? Get them checked please.

you've got one thing money, time, study, and practice can't get you. you've got character; man woman or any flavor theirin, that's worth it's weight in gold. this is story is doing good for a great deal of people. thank you sam

Young trans woman here after getting curious about the experiences of detransitioners (not the path I see in my own future, but one I'm trying to better understand and educate myself on for compassion and solidarity's sake). Thank you for sharing your story and profound introspection, I'm so happy to hear you found and accepted yourself. Wishing you all the best living with authenticity.

Are you familiar with the works of Neville Goddard, Sam? I do believe you would love his books “Mental Diets” and “The Power of Awareness: Includes Awakened Imagination.” They are a lovely read and I feel you would really love em!!

i might have just fixed negative self talk for life. instead of being harsh on myself, i imagine saying that to my child self, would i do that? ofcourse not. he has gone through so much and I'm so proud of how interesting he is despite whatever he went through.

You're speaking truth for us all. Thank you. Sending you love.

A daily reminder that you are a lovable person and you are loved very very much by your viewers Sam. Hearing your voice coming through loud and clear now and I can see the self-healing progress in the recent videos you have made. Thank you for sharing your experiences and vulnerability with the intention to help others. I have so much empathy for what you went thru as a person Sam. Be well Sam. ❤️

cope repper

Women only have that power over men when they are young.

Do we stay in the same place because the Water evaporates? Hey, Sam?

posting a video about detransition is just a breeding ground for conservatives to find new excuses for why trans people aren't valid, and that its all because of mental illness. posting this during the election times too is horrible. conservatives took away trans peoples rights because of misconstrued lies about the trans community. I wish you would've taken the time to include how surgery and transition protects so many teens and adults from suicide, and that majority of people do not detransition. it may not seem important to you now that you're not in the community, but you need to be aware of the American conservatives that are going to use this to affirm their hate. this is why the man who wants trans healthcare taken away is in office

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Thank you Sam, that brought a tear to my eyes. Such a strong message I needed to hear this morning…..xxxxx

You are totally allowed

Youre always on the money Sam

I think anyone with complex trauma will understand where you are coming from, at least to some degree. It takes so much to overcome the mind after we develop with horrible trauma from early on. We take over treating ourselves the same way our hostile families treat us. We must dig so much harder to find the worthiness and love at our core in order to find healing and peace. It can be so consuming going within to give ourselves the love we so deserve as our birthright. Thank you Sam.

The truth is, Trans individuals are all deeply traumatized individuals. In reality, they're living a lie. It's a traumatic response to want to 'transition'. You can't transition away from pain. Yes. You speak so much facts. You were a confused little boy. Please help others. They need someone like you to speak the truth to power. You can save lives. So many young being manipulated, & abused.

I hope you find happiness. Please don't convince others to de-transition. That's solely up to them. I'm sorry for your childhood trauma.

"You're already enough. You always have been. There's nothing to fix. There's nothing to apologize for. Be gentle with yourself. That's it." ❣

The imagery of flinging your arms around your child self and feeling its cheek made me cry. It's so beautiful. We ARE so awful to ourselves!!!

"It was true then, but it's not now." Yes.

I was moved not only by the story but also by the comments of people reacting to the story. May God bless you all.

I am only now just finding this video , but I just want to say thank you. I have recognized a lot my own childhood traumas, and every day I do battle my inner critic. But just as you said, I must find the kindness within myself because searching outward, I will never find it.

Thank you Sam! 🔥♥️

can you teach me sorcery?

Dear Sam, i cant wait for your next video! Happy Thanksgiving

Being willing to share this is incredible. You are a brave man to open this door to help others. Not just people going through the exact type of experience, but anyone who is hurt and afraid. Thank you for your openess.

“You are already enough” brought me to my knees. Mind wants to argue this fiercely. Thank you Sam.

This truly wrenched my heart. The words I wanted to hear. I'm so grateful I came across your channel. I still cried but they were good tears. Tears of relief to hear your words.

This is it Sam. Mind says I am not enough. Too deeply flawed. It's never enough. My gosh. In awakening circles, the teaching is be still. Don't speak. Inquire inward. And I wonder if others on this path have lived complex tra uma like me, and brutal self harm. I get in touch inwardly and the intuition is rest. Trust. Love. Cradle your beautiful divine self in parental arms of divinity. Drop the rules. Traumatised people turn anything into Self punishment. Breathe. Play. Include. Love. The only thing is now. Already. In pursuing the goal violently your missing what you are. Poached in God. Soft as sunset. The softest kindest love. I have done a lot of trauma work but I need weekly experience, weekly exposure to the felt sense of kindness. To assimilate it. Mirror it. Taste it. Birth it. Raised in narcissism and critical myself of everything I have forgotten how to stop seeking. I wonder if rigid seeking is safer than ego death. It keeps manifesting. ❤ thankyou Sam.

You are a very lovely person Sam. I just found your channel and subscribed ♥️ I am so happy you’re here and sharing your life experience with us/the world 🙏🫂♥️🌿

Your videos bring peace to my soul. Great message as always <3

Sam, I so relate to the ideology of surrendering the story. Yourvstory invited me home. Into the heart home. Free to be me. There is a sneaky challenge in holding the relative and ultimate, one in each hand, that dances each other AS the whole. Your video offers me permission to be a drug addict, to be abused by a father I loved, to not understand the difference. To be emancipating and imbibing the impressions of trauma. Somehow, in the silence, in the not the small self, I have been editing what's here to fit... believing that less is more, negating my juicy humanness. Crying, because inner child healing AND non dual bypass go together, and colour each other out. The mind cannot fathom how both truths are one truth... but I am. I am living consciousness and I am drug addict NESS, this history now, is a gift to those behind me, detransitioning out of the dream safety of drug mother, into now. My story serves in every AA meeting..as your story has filled me up with myself today. We are one being... home..and home includes all of it. Bless you dear honest Sam... What a masterpiece of love ❤

Sending prayers and love to all

Oh my goodness Sam, it’s like the universe has sent this message through you to make me see! I don’t know if you remember but I commented a few weeks ago about my husbands impending life threatening skull base surgery… Well he made it through, god bless him, and the surgery was a successful as it could be……❤ I am now living far away from my home to be near the hospital, and I have been completely let down by my birth family, who live in this area at the worse possible time, and they made me feel such shame, like I am broken, because I showed some fear. I have proved beyond doubt to myself that I am not broken and every part of myself is accepted, by me! The calm and the storm, it’s all completely understandable and needed to get through this. I am completely realistic about what we are facing, and day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute, I am getting through this so I can be there by his side. I think shame (which I have felt for years) may indeed be needed…….until you realise that, lesson after lesson you realise, you are enough….❤️ Many thanks for another superbly timed insightful video….xxxx

Love you Sam ❤

For you dear Sam and all the others that read or write these comments, the genuine Love for your self is the true key to the Light, You are not alone in this crazy world, we care, we hold you in our heart of divine Love. From France. ❤

Listening to your story is fascinating. I'm sorry that you went through so much trauma.

Sam you are beautiful. Your soul is beautiful. I love you 💜

"I just spent the last 4 years at a Zen temple mastering Enlightenment", said NO trans regretter EVER...

to anyone who feels they might be swayed by this, don't make the mistake of repressing transition asap

"Its like somebody reached into my mind, my psyche, with a razor blade.... and cut me to ribbons inside." That.... Is the most heartwrechingly relatable thing. Personally, I never did any hormone therapy or surgeries - I found love and beauty in my body after four years of going by "Peter". Had an expensive stp and bound my chest in ways that have left me unable to wear the loosest of bras or even too-tight shirts without eventually getting hit by crippling agony and cold sweats. I have no choice in those moments but to strip naked and lay down flat until the pain eases up. I still haven't gone to the doctor for it though I have had a women's health check and they didn't mention finding an issue. Yes, before I was even out of the womb I was suffering the abuse of my biological 'father' beating my mother. Yes, I lived in CONSTANT fear of danger and pain with every step I took in my home until I was 15 (my mom stopped dating). Yes, I've done my best to count as a weird coping mechanism - I was abused over 181+ times before the age of 12. I always add a '1' at the end for a particularly violent one. I don't think most people in my life understand just how bad things were throughout the entirity of my formulative years. No, I never went to therapy (though the state recommended it when I was 7). I did my best to help myself - thankfully my traumas made me extremely (sometimes overly) reflective and internally centered enough to priotize helping myself however and whenever I could. At the end of the day I just wanted to be free of sexualization. I wanted to be free of feeling lesser. I wanted to walk into a room and feel like I had a chance at innate respect/regard. Most of all, I cried tears of joy imagining life without breasts SOLELY so I could feel the sun on my nipples or simply walk around shirtless. Swimming shirtless all the time, too. I wanted to be free of the shackles culturally tied to a women's body. I wanted to be the powerful one - not the victim. I didnt want to be reliant on the goodness of men to gauge my safety.

i feel like i relate to you in almost every sense i fell into the all the same traps you have, my father was neglectful, porn/ videogame addicted same with my grandfather aside him being more father like then my dad, people change due to trauma and its that trauma that shapes you into who you are today, i see that i was wrong to transition for my self because it was an unhealthy obsession to be some one else entirely because of all the trauma i had faced, from being 6-7 years old and getting a death threat while being with my mother who was divorced and with some asshole man who said shut up or ill kill you i was being my self then and it took alot from me and into a spiral of depression and into shutting down into a dark obsession of SH for the majority of my life i cant believe im alive from the "attempts", and the truth is i dont remember much from my transition, its like a blur im also recovering from it because i couldn't open up to a therapist i mentally shut down any happiness, communication is still difficult for me, unless im on a key board, and it feels more natural for me to talk this way. any ways i dont look down on others who choose thier path's in life because we all live and breath on this one planet we exist to defy the universes harsh environment. i hope you have found healing, i hope you have found your path. idk where im at in life rn, feel like a shattered shell of a person who once existed and i have to live with the former persons problems because of his spiritual S**cide rampage in creating/destroying personas to cope with all the BS.

Sadly to many people prey on the vulnerable in order to fund raise and the pharmaceutical\ medical industry

Beautiful brilliant and so spot on insightful! Thank you for sharing your process with us 🙏🌻🫶🏼

I'm so glad I came across these videos. I think they were sent to my by God. Thank you for making them. You've been blessed with great wisdom.

You encapsulated so much in this short talk about finding a way to love and forgive yourself, and let go of Shame. There is still an abandoned child in me, but I can feel compassion . I don't fear so much showing everything I am now. You help us all so much. Even to realise how far we've come. Thank you Sam

I don't hate myself. It really became the opposit. I'm 35 and I came to a weird discovery about a brown spot on the tip of my genitals. It's a burning spot. When I was 12, 13 years old, it started itching and burning like crazy. With yellowgreen puss. The itch was so terrible, I grabbed a lighter and the pain from the tip of the flame was the only thing that could relieve me from the itching and burning. My half brother caught me doing it. But I told him to shut up. And never really talked about it myself. The itching and burning puss went away overtime on its own. Turns out it was gonnorhea. But gonnorhea is only transmittable via seggsual intercourse. At 12, 13 years old I didn't have had any intercourse or whatsoever. My first girlfriend was when I was 17. But when I was 12, 13 we lived pretty isolated. My mother was drinking and smoking a lot in that time. From the 3, 4 days she was at home in a week, there were always one or 2 nights she went out and came home deep in the night. My half brother was asleep and 6, 7 years at that time. Mother came to see if we were asleep regularly. And I don't think she couldn't resist herself while she knew I was deep asleep and yet still growing up. That's what happens a lot when a man falls asleep. So now I finally know the real reason why she fled the country without telling me a word, a few years after she dumped me on the streets at 19 years old. My half brother finally told her what he has seen me doing. I also finally know why she endlessly gaslit me as the pathological liar for years. Just to shut me up ahead.

You are the message...you have become the message. We hear YOU loud and clear. You are a deep pool calling to the deep in others...come out, take a breath, breathe, exhale. Here I am, This is me! (as you once said) Great work, just let it flow 👍