The more labels we put on ourselves and each other the more confused we become. I only witnessed your divinity because that’s all I heard and saw. Your awakening is inspiring and I want to thank you for a message I will listen to over and over again. Sending you a big hug and love.❤
I have mourned many years of trauma and even more years of inviting more trauma into my life due to unresolved issues of the initial trauma. Accepting that others won't acknowledge what happened and that I need to move on from what I don't want in my life and that will be framed by others as selfishness is something that I'm finally coming to terms with. Many blessings to you dear Sam. Your eloquent descriptions of your process of healing is in turn very healing to others.
Yes, it is so difficult to let go of that need for resolution found in the simple acknowledgement of our experience by others. Growing past that need is work in progress for me and as you say, we mourn. Blessings to you too. May you find peace. X
@@anitarose7915please hold on. You are valuable and lovely, although yes, life is full of pain. 😢. I share your faith, as well. God will repay the years the locusts have eaten.
This is so profound and it's the conversation that needs to happen: the real one. There's a danger in forcing the souls of deeply traumatized people. We must never forget that. Keep doing what you're doing.
People live and die without realising this… You’ve articulated this so so well. Thank you for speaking on a pain so many of us have suffered. I have no doubt that your words will inspire others.
Such a deep wisdom to wake up to this morning. So grateful for your fearless peeling back to self. Sitting there in your garden made it easy to focus on your words.
I too woke to this message. First time here though Sam's channel often appears in my feed. I don't know that I can add further words to the perfection of this moment's experience with Sam.
I am not trans and never have been, but your videos just randomly popped up on my feed. I love stories about the human experience. You speak so eloquently and are so insightful. I've gone back and watched some of your first videos as well. New subscriber! I look forward to watching more of your videos.
I have never transitioned or self-harmed in any serious way, but I have self-sabotaged and acted from a place of desperate delusion and been unable to face the reality of shame and selfishness. And I have spent years running away from things that only existed within. I love life and I am grateful every day for the privilege of experience, and the clarity of perspective. All that is to say thank you for sharing your story. There is a sense in which it is universally relatable, or at least for me, despite my very different form and life story. Thank you Sam. Glad to be sharing the world with you.
I realised after watching this video that my trauma made me transition into drugs. If I were a child today, they would possibly push me into gender transitioning... I was blessed with good therapy from several psychologists over a decade that allowed me to find a true self who did not have to take drugs. I thank God that I had no lasting effects from that time. 🙏
You've opened my heart like a little flower blooming this morning. I've never heard anything so wonderfully expressed. Maybe it's just my time to "get it", but thank you for putting so much into perspective. We are already enough. I needed to hear this.
In the brokenness, in our wretchedness is where we find His infinite love for us. It surpasses our reason, a complete mystery. Praise be to God ❤he loves us as we are
Many people are too invested in one decision to the extent that it becomes impossible to then later admit it was the wrong one...so sad. The stories people tell themselves: when I'm slimmer, when I've had cosmetic surgery, when I've transitioned, when I'm rich, when I'm famous whatever....these are like anything in life no guarantee to happiness. And who really even lets themselves believe they have made the wrong decision when everyone around them told them it was the solution. So it must be, but it isn't. You should be applauded for your honesty and more people need to hear this before making such enormous decisions
Your words have touched my soul. I was so impacted by them that I began to write them out, and ended up transcribing nearly the entire video! I keep rereading your words and reflecting on them. Thank-you for sharing your thoughts. I think your mind has settled in a beautiful place, and I hope that someday I can reach it too.
Thank you for your wise words. You impart your thoughts in the most mediative and prayerful way. Silence spreads outwards from you and is your great gift.
Keep Going Sam, I have a history of terrible trauma as a child, and we do what we need to do to survive, your a suvivor and you are coming back to core soul self, sending you all my love, we can do this xx
Dear Sam, Thank you for being such an incredibly inspiring, shining light in the world. I believe you are helping to heal a great many people and bring them back to truth. There are few here who have reached your level of courage and connection with divinity and what a gift you are giving to share that so widely. You have touched my heart deeply and given me faith in the capability of humans. X
Thank you very much, this is high praise indeed. I assure you I'm just like everyone else , I'm flawed and scared and often confronted with my own self centredness. I do think that there is a divine spark within us all, and we all invited to participate , equally. Blessings to you. X
@@Call-Me-Sam Yes; it’s your awareness of the wholeness of yourself with all its shades and your openness to be in the unknown that is healing in itself just to witness. It is rare in these current times and I believe that by speaking as you do, it ignites others’ courage to let go, even if just a fraction, for just a moment, as you have done for me. X
Dearest Sam, I am so glad to hear from you! I am blessed to have met you. Yes, your eloquence is outstanding, you have a message to share. It seems that regardless of the original trauma, we all need to get back to finding our true identity. What I am finding out in my 60’s is that even our deepest hurts can serve their purpose, if we let them. My experience also in regards to healing is that we have what we need, we only have to be able to see it. God bless you! I have not arrived yet but I have definitely left that place of self imposed identity) sending you my love and sending love to all who love true and are determined to find it.
Thank you Monica. It is hard being human. I can't help but think we are in a classroom, learning through suffering, to transcend our personal pain and to give ourselves to others and to God. I wish you well. X
I'm in an emtyness now I'm beyond who I thought I was, everything and nothing has changed. I just realised I don't exist in the past anymore, there is still yearning to be who I was before, but that I can only do that moving forwards. I've dismantled everything that isn't me and the more I do it the more I am. I hadn't noticed how far away from me I was until I'd spent enough time alone. Who am I can only be lived and not explained is where I'm arriving. Thank you Sam and to anyone asking themselves these questions, I love you ❤ be nice to yourself, that's the difficult bit.
You be nice to yourself too...sounds like you've come a long way to finding you. Whatever your beliefs I do pray that God will bless you on your journey. A sudden thought...I feel I'm meeting the real me, bit by bit...it's a strange thing, and I take solace in knowing that we are known by God already and that we are safe in him...sorry if it sounds like a preach, but I know he loves us and is a God of restoration, love and healing. May that continue to be your experience. 🙌
Sam, you are so dear. It’s a hard road to find self love. It takes a lot of time and a lot work. I don’t know if you can get there until you find healing. You CAN heal but it is excruciatingly hard. Don’t ever give up. So while you’re trudging up that crooked path full of quicksand and pitfalls to find the self love you deserve, please enjoy the love from the community you’re forming here, who see your struggles and want to comfort and love you because you’re such a beautiful human. Enjoy the love, you deserve it. Let it sink in and let it bring you comfort while you sort yourself out. You are right, that you-need to lean into the pain. “Don’t surrender your lonely so quickly, let it cut more deep. Let it ferment and season you as few human or even divine ingredients can” ~ David Wilcox, American musician. We love you and wish that you will find your way to healing and self love. Compassionate people fall in love with you because of your sweetness, insight and honestly. We care about you. Get used to it 😜😌💖
I am so grateful to have discovered your channel. There is so much conversation today about transition and detransition this is so far outside what I have known and understood in my life. To find someone so openly sharing these experiences is so helpful to me in my struggle to understand. Thank you so much for your courage to share your experiences.
Thank you Sam. I have never identified with anyone ever like you. Trauma does this exact thing.There is a solution. You speak it. I thank you from the bottom heart.
"We are all already something" ❤ These few words will be on repeat in my mind today. Thank you Sam for being you and rooting for you at this pivotal threshold of discovery. Your honesty and eloquence are a panacea to a lot of the ills and uncertainty of trauma 💓🕊️💕🍀✌🏽🦋🥰
Praying for you to be filled with the peace that Jesus gives, the strength that comes in weakness, the wholeness that meets us in brokenness. God is a mystery but revealed in the person of Jesus. “Turn your eyes upon Jesus. Look full in His wonderful face. And the things of earth will grow strangely dim, in the light of His glory and grace.” Proud of your vulnerability and honesty!
Sam, sounds like you have seen the face of evil and darkness. I mourn for you. I pray that you will look to the one True Light that is Jesus. There is nothing foggy or mysterious about Him. Open the book of John and meet Him. He is amazingly real. All the evil forces still want to keep you in the dark through murky metaphysics. Try Buddhism, Hinduism, Taoism, etc. and there will be no battle. But the minute you get a Bible and open to John you will feel that battle! Why? Why only there? Because He is who He says He is…the way, the truth and the light. He can be found, my friend, cry out.
Sam- thank you for putting all of this into words. God bless you for this and for helping others that don't understand that truly we are all imperfect and how hard it is to let go of the trauma. We drag it with us like an eight hundred pound safe wherever we go, and it's never out of mind. It IS selfish. I get so much from your videos, thank you. 🤗
I have been experiencing an extremely painful awakening realization and clarity and this video appeared. This is the most poignant and truthful and hopeful testimony, the utter exhaustion you mention being the start of freedom. You have such profound wisdom and I just keep thinking of this verse. Rev 21:4 “And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes: and death shall be no more, nor mourning, nor crying, nor sorrow shall be any more, for the former things are passed away.” Your former shell has passed away and you have not clung to it - you couldn’t anymore. I believe your tears have watered the garden you will walk in. I’m very inspired by you. I admire your tremendous courage. God bless you.
Thank you Claire, God bless you too. I'm definitely work in progress, as are we all of course . Our path can meander and wander but always we go toward God.
Thank you Sam. Your thoughts are helpful for people generally who are trying to come to terms with whatever is going on in their lives. Not just regarding identity (transitioning/detransition) or childhood trauma. I think everyone at different stages of their lives, are pretending to be something different for all sorts of reasons, but they know it's false.
Bless you, Sam - you are well on your way! Well done - we support you all the way. Sorry I can't donate; I'm a widow living in Cyprus but my heart is with you in your quest.
His voice feels like a cradle .... listening to him soothes the part of me who cries out endlessly that she's not okay..... Thank you Sam. I hear this voice inside myself too . . . .
I hear you Lauren. Though I do feel a dawning peace, there are times I still feel so broken, so much pain and loss, it comes and goes. I think our resistance to actually feeling our own heartbreak causes more suffering. Our capacity to be present with that suffering is far greater than we realise . Healing is feeling, don't stop learning how to feel and all will be well. I wish you peace . Love Sam
@@Call-Me-Sam Thank you Sam, I also have been transitioning out of my old self into life. Oddly, lately, I am hearing that I must "protect" that resistance, and all the pain it brings, protect it with all my heart..... I tried for most of my life hating the resistanace, trying to spiritualize it, get rid of it, even "love" it, but I hadn't yet see its truth: it was innocent energy, only misguided. It, too, wanted to be given a job, . It didn't really want to destroy, it didn't really want to be hurtful ..... Sometimes The sensations are immense, over my heart and throat, and they used to scare and confuse me. Now I protect those sensations and bring them back into my body instead of trying to throw them out of my body. They belong to me, and they have such a crucial role in my healing safety. "Crucial" = "crux" = cross = LIFE. God bless Sam.... i'm with you.
@@Call-Me-Sam I'm glad.... A huge reversal happened to me, where now thee thing that I used to hate and fear, that terrifying inner condemnation and self-hatred, I am now gently protecting within me, and giving it a new respect and importance.... to lift me higher. I read somewhere, and I agree with this statement: "The whole truth can't haunt you if it serves you." It is a most amazing reversal, to find power in your old enemy.
@@lauren4434 have you watched “Hi Ren”? People miss the fact that the point of that song is that when you finally stop struggling against the quicksand, you stop sinking, and eventually find firmer ground. (Quicksand metaphor is mine: Ren’s brilliant lyrics much more mirror what you’ve shared here. ❤)
Thank you Sam for sharing your journey. No need for sorries, shoulds, coulds or woulds. Things go as they go and are as they are. That is what it is because our "Source" is All-that-was,- is- and ever -will be- . We are a part of IT like a piece of a pie is part of the whole pie. So we cannot be" wrong", we just ARE. All the rest ( of our lifes) are stories. And stories scan be rewritten. You are making a beautiful insightful story of your life Sam. RESPECT🙏
Thanks so much Sam. Transitioning is not my issue but I identified with your childhood trauma and recovery journey. Thank you for your sincerity and genuine honesty, you are inspirational. Loved ”The truth destroys who you think you are.” Says it all. I will keep watching have a wonderful day, you’vgot me to think again today. God bless Vicky
Another raw and beautifully eloquent speech. You remind me of so many actresses and actors. Gary Oldman, Helen Miran, Gwenth Paltrow. Amazing face and bone structure.
Dearest Sam, I’m sending you the biggest hug. Healing trauma is deeply painful. I live with a condition called Moebius syndrome, and the main characteristics are the underdevelopment of the 6th and 7th cranial nerves responsible for eye movement and facial expression. For decades I ignored my condition and felt deep shame, with a deep need to be loved. I was abused by my mother. I’m having a wobble at the moment, but know that I am just peeling another layer away to get ever closer to my true authentic self. You are an inspiration to be sharing your story so publicly, and showing your vulnerability. You are a true inspiration, and I send you so much love on this journey of healing ❤️xxx
Hello. Gosh ! it is hard being here, being human. I'm sorry your mother was abusive and for how you suffered. When someone writes such a personal comment, I often have a look at their channel. I looked at yours. The human voice is such a beautiful instrument . This morning it is you that has been an inspiration to me, showing yourself so truthfully is humbling for me to witness. Thank you. Much you love to you too. XX
@@Call-Me-Sam I loved what you said in your video. We are all perfectly imperfect, and that is something I am learning to accept. I have shared a little of my story on my channel, but never really had the courage to open up more about it. You are such an inspiration; more than you realise. Thank you for saying such lovely things about my singing. Much love to you, beautiful soul ❤️
Thank you so much for your videos, Sam. You have no idea how much you are supporting me on my journey. Putting into words feelings that i couldn't place. Sharing your journey so that others might heal. You're so wise, insightful and real. You're a healer. Love you ❤
I have used the costume of very manly lesbian, embracing the side that showed to have more power in the dynamic of my family. The male figure. I didn’t transition, even though I had it in mind, but I started around the age of 24, to wear masculine clothing, shopping from the male shops and act like a man but without the violence and abuse that the feminine figure had going on (including myself) in the dynamics of family. I am at the beginning of unmasking my patterns and the self hate that comes with it. Your videos are pure gold! Validating and empowering. I have fallen in the last year in the hands of shame and desperation to change myself. To fix myself. And recently I’ve realised it myself the power of self abuse. So inside somewhere, there is a little girl who feels it’s her fault for all the abuse it was born into. Thank you! We have very similar patterns, yet different. ❤️
Thank you for sharing, Yes, that shame, still so real for the parts of ourself that didn't understand that it wasn't our fault. Self compassion is the foundation upon which we build. I wish you well in your own process.
“Can you include everything?” I recently had what I call my Biden moment - where I froze with fear and became incoherent. And, I can include that part of me. But, as you say Sam, it is hard to live through becoming conscious of the deepest wound inside us. Being with ALL that we are. I have waited to hear from you again. Thank you, Sam, for the fellow-feeling and shared healing. You talk brilliantly.
Oh, Sam! You are so close! You articulate the reality of the sinful self and the Good News of God’s forgiveness in Jesus Christ better than I do, and I’m a Christian minister. Jesus died in his own flesh, killing sin, so that He could cover yours and restore your true identity as a child of God. This is the answer we Lost people are searching for. God bless you, Sam! He loves you and is drawing you to Himself. It’s beautiful to watch and your vulnerable “testimony” is inspiring. If you haven’t read about Jesus, I commend John’s Gospel to you.
The sincerity and depth of your words reflect a beautiful human being who already is wonderfully whole. Such a flow of wisdom comes only with a connection to the divine. Thank you for being who you are and helping all of us. I too am looking at my stories and the way they have led me down a path of suffering and self centeredness. Yet, the experiences that created the stories have given me the awareness that I need to let the stories go and let the false self die so I can live - your amazing words: “We have to die before we die otherwise we are never going to live”. So, if this world is divine, are there any mistakes or anything to forgive? If everything is divinely orchestrated (which I believe is the case), then there can be no mistakes and nothing to forgive if you let the experiences serve you . In your case, it is abundantly clear that they have given you gifts that are beyond beautiful that are serving you and others. You are awesome! 💗
You are kind and you beautifully describe our path here but really and truly, I am working it out as I go. I do know that nothing I do , I do alone. Nothing we do, we do alone. Whatever this place is , it isn't the beginning nor the end. X.
@@Call-Me-Sam Yes, yes, yes. So true. You are doing an amazing job of figuring this all out real time. In that exploration, you are allowing all of us to dig deeper and do our part in healing. We are all connected.
Thank You. I'm reveling in the silence of my apartment today listening to my neighborhood, feeling the mid Atlantic summer heat knowing its ok that I don't do more than this right now. I was bored and scrolling through my subscriptions and this is the second video of yours that I've watched. Very difficult few weeks, you said everything I had no words for, someone else saying them is comforting, maybe like training wheels to accept reality now that the illusion is gone. Its scary out here but I can breathe.
I remember my brother coming to me when he was about 15 yrs old. He told me he thought he identified as female. I told him i would be there for him through any journey. I knew he was struggling with being a gay man because in my family that just wouldn't have been acceptable. I believe he thought if he was to be a woman instead of a gay man, then he would be accepted. For many years I supported him coming out, I protected him against my monster of a father. Eventually he was able to accept his true identity as a gay man. Regardless of if he had transitioned, he was my sibling. We have been there for each other all of our lives through familial trauma. I feel sad that not everyone has a person who accepts them for who they are 100%. I wish you love and strength on your journey. You are a beautiful person and you matter. Seeking who you are meant to be is accepting who you are, because you are enough. ❤
that' s not who he is at all. Why condemn him to that in your own mind? it's the condition he is in after going thru things you hint at. but you being there for him is a good thing. he still needs more help from God. pray for it. God loves him and wants him 100% healed, transformed and enlightened. God wants better for him! same for all others in these dilemmas.
@@cobainzlady This person knows their own brother more than you do. No one needs their gay to be prayed away. The whole point of Sam’s channel is accepting who he is unapologetically, and he’s decided to let us see his journey. This persons brother, it sounds like, went through his own journey of accepting who he is as a gay man. I adore all religious people who can see through the outdated beliefs perpetuated in their teachings and instead love everyone, no matter if they disagree with their lifestyle. It’s not a dilemma to be a homo, it’s a personal bias you have that has no place in society.
"Perfectly imperfect. Beautifully flawed". Oh i love that you are encouraging people to embrace that. I wish we would would celebrate it. Perfection is an incorrect and limited concept, that requires us to believe there is one "way" only. Stifling. No one should have perfection as a goal. It's only destructive. You speak so much sense with a sincere vulnerability. Thank you Sam. ❤️
Thank you Sam. For your honesty. Vulnerbility. Authentic self. You do have unique gift to share. And you have courage , so much courage. If you build it ( patron) people will come. I would love to share a hug with you. From US.
Thank you once again Sam for putting so eloquently what is so difficult to describe. I am working on forgiveness of self, and all the hoops I have made that self jump through in order to gain love from a broken family. Go gently beautiful soul….❤️ I am sure your vulnerability is giving so much solace to so many people….❤xxxx
Thank you for sharing your journey and giving hope to everyone who is or has been in a similar life situation. God never turns His back on anyone. He is always waiting for us to acknowledge Him and return to Him.
❤️❤️❤️ you are so aware of truths and illusions, it seems rare for people to really think deeply enough like this about reality and about the self. it is relieving and painful at the same time to be so aware and see thru things so much but still be stumped by the mystery of it all. you are such a beautiful human, you r in my thoughts and prayers ❤️
@@themeaningofgenderit’s true. Saying that people who don’t live the lifestyle you approve of are selfish, is by itself, very selfish. There are people who thrive in isolation, there are people who thrive in community, there are others who need both, and others that simply exist without caring. Is that really selfish, to live their lives as they wish? Prioritising oneself against other’s wishes is as selfish as prioritising your wishes against others’. It’s just personhood really.
@@holobae374 call me thick, but I don't really understand what you are trying to say here. that said, and I am not arguing here, just trying to converse, even though i am not sure about what you are saying, I am not sure if your use of the word "personhood" works with what you say before. that is because the nature of being a "person" is only experienced and known when you are in a relationship with another, yes, person. the opposite of being a "person" is to be an "individual" which means to stand apart from everyone else, to stand alone, to divide yourself from everyone else. I offer this as conversation, nothing else. no argument, just friendly attempt to clarify thought.
@@themeaningofgender I’m open for a conversation, but personhood is defined as per the Oxford dictionary as “the quality or condition of being an individual person.” Your personhood is related to the world around you, yes, but certainly all of your experiences are processed by you. Your own condition of existing as yourself determines everything in your life. Much of life is self-discovery. Learning what you like, hate, enjoy, despise, avoid, indulge, etc. is the key to how you interact with the world. And everyone is different. Some are quiet and diligent, others are loud and enthusiastic, some are both and others are none. This is just a broad generalisation of course. The spectrum of the human experience is so massive, it’s impossible to analyse it all. And I meant selfish as in, saying that there’s only one way of existing that should be followed by all, is a selfish statement. It’s like saying croissants are the greatest pastries, and anyone who thinks otherwise is a tasteless person. You can’t categorise all humans based on your own interpretation of life. Everyone has a different story and perspective, and not acknowledging that is selfish. I hope this clarified.
Lovely share ... I've just had a couple of days of intensitiy and incredible-ness... Seeing and experiencing my own sense of self absorption, and how it spirals me into a feeling of separation, hurt , unworthiness etc... But then spotting it, dropping through it, and without that "me" ..teally being able to walk un the shoes of other and really be there for others, and in that, find that the love I give to others is reflected back, and that there really is no other ...quite humbling and a work in progress... And I recognise from some of your video's, how you talk about this...about being in relationship...beyond the childush selfishness ...so im grateful for your sharings ...they are helping me navigate through this . Much love to you, and you already know I support your idea to set up patreon ❤
@@karinelaxa959 Hi Karine Good afternoon I hope my comment didn't sound as a form of privacy invasion your comment tells of a wonderful woman with a beautiful heart which led me to comment I don't normally write in the comment section but I think you deserve this complement. If you don’t mind can we be friends? Thanks God bless you….🌺🌺🌺
Ah Congrats Sam! I am so proud of your searching. I applaud your bravery. Your garden looks comforting. I see that you are great within even with transitions swirling around you. Thank You Sam
Such beauty spoken! Sam, I wish we were close as I’d love to sit and weep together as you share the bad and the good as you navigate this transition. Your videos have really spoken to me. I’m deeply moved, however not having gone through much of what you have- I hear the pain and trauma that I knew well in my old identity. I see you being made new in more ways than physically. And I rejoice for I know what can come out of it: Beauty from ashes, joy for mourning. What a story! Thank you for continuing to share with us! I’d love to meet you and hug you one day. Maybe on the streets of gold!
Thanks for sharing as you do, Sam. You offer immense solace for other souls struggling for peace (like myself) with your words. I still feel like I have a mask on when I’m socializing, even while I’m consciously telling myself not to do it - but the fear/survival programming within my unconscious has more leverage than I care to admit, constantly in a state of trauma even while smiling. Escaping, as you say. I moved back in with my mom several years ago out of sheer naïveté (to “heal” our relationship while saving money) - and I now struggle to get back on my feet because I’m constantly in emotional and mental pain. Thinking my wounds will heal with the proverbial knife still there. But I find (as a sort of disease management) that it’s imperative for me to set time and space everyday to mourn; whether as a forgiveness practice or simply a soulful reset. That said, I cried a lot during this video just from knowing how much pain you’re in and moving through - but I also know the immense strength it takes for someone to take on a journey like yours.
So glad you are continuing to be gentle with yourself in your healing 💗☺️🦋... It's really the only way to be..."titrating slowly" as our body speaks to us expressing what it needs at just the right time 💗💗💗
Hi Sam. Thank you for being you. In my heart, I hold a space for you - a place of unconditional acceptance. For whoever you are, and become. Much love.
Sam, you are totally fearless. Perhaps you do not think so, but I'm sure many others agree with me. You have the most incredible ability to speak openly, clearly, intelligently, and without fear. Besides being here on TH-cam, I truly believe you could make a huge mark in this world by speaking on stage in front of audiences everywhere as a motivational speaker. I see it. You have that gift.
That is kind of you but honestly, each video takes a lot of contemplation and introspection and then , I still struggle to let go of what I want to say and surrender , then, something comes out fully formed , spoken from a deeper place of understanding. Hopefully, this will get easier now but still, work in progress. .
"We are all already something, we are all already enough." I agree Sam...we're already whole, we're already part of everything. This is such a beautiful insight. I am personally a follower of Buddhism and your thoughts speak to buddhist philosophy. We are what we think. We are what we pay attention to, etc. Thank you for sharing, I thoroughly enjoy listening to your journey and discoveries because you're speaking to all of humanity, to our human experiences.
I very much relate to your intense feelings of shame and guilt. I still continue to struggle with them and to not hide myself away. I will tell you one book that was extremely pivotal for me, The Idiot by Dostoevsky. I cherish it. I think it would help you as well. Prayers for you, Sam.
Nothing outside can solve our being which is inside. We are all human beings whatever our bodies are whatever our roles are whatever our minds are even. God bless you.
True awakening is from within each being - we are all a mirrors for each other in this great consciousness - the cosmic truth of what Is.death of delusion is the birth of the Truth. You are truly Blessed Sam
My favorite SAM so far. I like the mystery of God also., but yes sometimes looking at self is painful. The journey will finally lead us to that place. I pray I am brave enough to face myself. I feel you are a friend. So take care friend and thanx
Most people never really know themselves. You are extraordinary. This path of awakening to our own divinity is the most destructive and crushing and yet on the other side of it is the most profound expanse of Love. ❤
I loved hearing from you again ❣ Clarity is a wonderful thing, and it's beautiful to see you "dressed in clarity". It shines through. ❤ I have total confidence in your body & that your body will take care of Sam ❤
Thank you, Sam…beautiful as usual. You speak to many of us in ways you’ll never know. Today you reminded me of how ALL of us are encouraged to accrue a sense of worth. I was given to understand worth had to be earned. It’s taken considerable time for me to see it was already there. What I sought was somewhere I never looked. Thanks, Sam for putting it so well-as usual. And thank you for David Whyte. Got ‘Essentials’, and it’s living on my nightstand!!
💔We all eat lies when our hearts are hungry...
Okay WOW! YES! "We all eat lies..."
love this quote
So true
This comment is so profound.
Not truly. That's just another trick of the "romantic" mind.
The more labels we put on ourselves and each other the more confused we become.
I only witnessed your divinity because that’s all I heard and saw. Your awakening is inspiring and I want to thank you for a message I will listen to over and over again. Sending you a big hug and love.❤
I have mourned many years of trauma and even more years of inviting more trauma into my life due to unresolved issues of the initial trauma. Accepting that others won't acknowledge what happened and that I need to move on from what I don't want in my life and that will be framed by others as selfishness is something that I'm finally coming to terms with. Many blessings to you dear Sam. Your eloquent descriptions of your process of healing is in turn very healing to others.
Yes, it is so difficult to let go of that need for resolution found in the simple acknowledgement of our experience by others. Growing past that need is work in progress for me and as you say, we mourn.
Blessings to you too. May you find peace. X
Very well written. If we don't grieve, we end up just swimming in circles down the drain getting worse and losing ourselves.
Me too! I am a Christian and I am so alone I can't handle this anymore.
With all these stories, I can relate even though my story is very different. I am a Christian but so alone I can't handle this life anymore.
@@anitarose7915please hold on. You are valuable and lovely, although yes, life is full of pain. 😢. I share your faith, as well. God will repay the years the locusts have eaten.
This is so profound and it's the conversation that needs to happen: the real one. There's a danger in forcing the souls of deeply traumatized people. We must never forget that. Keep doing what you're doing.
Are you trying to police people's lives?
@@morganm4768 No, it saddens me to see that. It's utterly pointless.
People live and die without realising this…
You’ve articulated this so so well.
Thank you for speaking on a pain so many of us have suffered. I have no doubt that your words will inspire others.
Thank you.
Such a deep wisdom to wake up to this morning. So grateful for your fearless peeling back to self. Sitting there in your garden made it easy to focus on your words.
I too woke to this message. First time here though Sam's channel often appears in my feed. I don't know that I can add further words to the perfection of this moment's experience with Sam.
I am not trans and never have been, but your videos just randomly popped up on my feed. I love stories about the human experience. You speak so eloquently and are so insightful. I've gone back and watched some of your first videos as well. New subscriber! I look forward to watching more of your videos.
I have never transitioned or self-harmed in any serious way, but I have self-sabotaged and acted from a place of desperate delusion and been unable to face the reality of shame and selfishness. And I have spent years running away from things that only existed within.
I love life and I am grateful every day for the privilege of experience, and the clarity of perspective.
All that is to say thank you for sharing your story. There is a sense in which it is universally relatable, or at least for me, despite my very different form and life story. Thank you Sam. Glad to be sharing the world with you.
I realised after watching this video that my trauma made me transition into drugs. If I were a child today, they would possibly push me into gender transitioning... I was blessed with good therapy from several psychologists over a decade that allowed me to find a true self who did not have to take drugs. I thank God that I had no lasting effects from that time. 🙏
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The Way, The Truth,and the Life is leading us home.
Jesus heals and transforms us !
@@cobainzlady this video didnt have anything to do with jesus bro
100%. He loves us so profoundly and unutterably completely. Just say the name…..you’ll never be the same. I promise💜🌱
You've opened my heart like a little flower blooming this morning. I've never heard anything so wonderfully expressed. Maybe it's just my time to "get it", but thank you for putting so much into perspective. We are already enough. I needed to hear this.
You are quietly send hope to so many❤️
What a treasure you are ❤🙏💜
"You come into contract with the shear immensity of your own brokenness." It couldn't be put any better than that. Its a hell of a journey.
In the brokenness, in our wretchedness is where we find His infinite love for us. It surpasses our reason, a complete mystery. Praise be to God ❤he loves us as we are
@@Liselotteyes Liselotte was my grandmother's name.
Many people are too invested in one decision to the extent that it becomes impossible to then later admit it was the wrong one...so sad. The stories people tell themselves: when I'm slimmer, when I've had cosmetic surgery, when I've transitioned, when I'm rich, when I'm famous whatever....these are like anything in life no guarantee to happiness. And who really even lets themselves believe they have made the wrong decision when everyone around them told them it was the solution. So it must be, but it isn't. You should be applauded for your honesty and more people need to hear this before making such enormous decisions
I do appreciate your authenticity. Thank you. ❤
Your words have touched my soul. I was so impacted by them that I began to write them out, and ended up transcribing nearly the entire video! I keep rereading your words and reflecting on them. Thank-you for sharing your thoughts. I think your mind has settled in a beautiful place, and I hope that someday I can reach it too.
Belief in God really does help make sense of so many things. God bless you 🙏❤
Thank you for your wise words. You impart your thoughts in the most mediative and prayerful way. Silence spreads outwards from you and is your great gift.
Keep Going Sam, I have a history of terrible trauma as a child, and we do what we need to do to survive, your a suvivor and you are coming back to core soul self, sending you all my love, we can do this xx
Thank you Lynn. Wishing you well in your own process. X
Dear Sam, Thank you for being such an incredibly inspiring, shining light in the world. I believe you are helping to heal a great many people and bring them back to truth. There are few here who have reached your level of courage and connection with divinity and what a gift you are giving to share that so widely. You have touched my heart deeply and given me faith in the capability of humans. X
Thank you very much, this is high praise indeed. I assure you I'm just like everyone else , I'm flawed and scared and often confronted with my own self centredness.
I do think that there is a divine spark within us all, and we all invited to participate , equally.
Blessings to you. X
@@Call-Me-Sam Yes; it’s your awareness of the wholeness of yourself with all its shades and your openness to be in the unknown that is healing in itself just to witness. It is rare in these current times and I believe that by speaking as you do, it ignites others’ courage to let go, even if just a fraction, for just a moment, as you have done for me. X
Dearest Sam, I am so glad to hear from you! I am blessed to have met you. Yes, your eloquence is outstanding, you have a message to share. It seems that regardless of the original trauma, we all need to get back to finding our true identity. What I am finding out in my 60’s is that even our deepest hurts can serve their purpose, if we let them. My experience also in regards to healing is that we have what we need, we only have to be able to see it. God bless you! I have not arrived yet but I have definitely left that place of self imposed identity) sending you my love and sending love to all who love true and are determined to find it.
Thank you Monica. It is hard being human. I can't help but think we are in a classroom, learning through suffering, to transcend our personal pain and to give ourselves to others and to God. I wish you well. X
I'm in an emtyness now I'm beyond who I thought I was, everything and nothing has changed. I just realised I don't exist in the past anymore, there is still yearning to be who I was before, but that I can only do that moving forwards. I've dismantled everything that isn't me and the more I do it the more I am. I hadn't noticed how far away from me I was until I'd spent enough time alone. Who am I can only be lived and not explained is where I'm arriving.
Thank you Sam and to anyone asking themselves these questions, I love you ❤ be nice to yourself, that's the difficult bit.
You be nice to yourself too...sounds like you've come a long way to finding you. Whatever your beliefs I do pray that God will bless you on your journey. A sudden thought...I feel I'm meeting the real me, bit by bit...it's a strange thing, and I take solace in knowing that we are known by God already and that we are safe in him...sorry if it sounds like a preach, but I know he loves us and is a God of restoration, love and healing. May that continue to be your experience. 🙌
@@vivienlee610 I've accepted God n he sends me angels to remind me. Thank you, you've a good message please don't apologise for sharing it ❤️ ever.
We all need to spend more time alone… not listening to the distractions of the world! In that quietness we can actually hear our God.
Sam, you are so dear. It’s a hard road to find self love. It takes a lot of time and a lot work. I don’t know if you can get there until you find healing. You CAN heal but it is excruciatingly hard. Don’t ever give up.
So while you’re trudging up that crooked path full of quicksand and pitfalls to find the self love you deserve, please enjoy the love from the community you’re forming here, who see your struggles and want to comfort and love you because you’re such a beautiful human. Enjoy the love, you deserve it. Let it sink in and let it bring you comfort while you sort yourself out.
You are right, that you-need to lean into the pain.
“Don’t surrender your lonely so quickly, let it cut more deep. Let it ferment and season you as few human or even divine ingredients can” ~ David Wilcox, American musician.
We love you and wish that you will find your way to healing and self love. Compassionate people fall in love with you because of your sweetness, insight and honestly. We care about you. Get used to it 😜😌💖
Thank you
I am so grateful to have discovered your channel. There is so much conversation today about transition and detransition this is so far outside what I have known and understood in my life. To find someone so openly sharing these experiences is so helpful to me in my struggle to understand. Thank you so much for your courage to share your experiences.
Thank you
Thank you Sam. I have never identified with anyone ever like you. Trauma does this exact thing.There is a solution. You speak it. I thank you from the bottom heart.
Thank you. 'We're all just walking each other home.' Ram Dass
Excellent testimony to the Dark Night of the Soul. God Bless you.
"We are all already something" ❤ These few words will be on repeat in my mind today. Thank you Sam for being you and rooting for you at this pivotal threshold of discovery. Your honesty and eloquence are a panacea to a lot of the ills and uncertainty of trauma 💓🕊️💕🍀✌🏽🦋🥰
Thank you .
Praying for you to be filled with the peace that Jesus gives, the strength that comes in weakness, the wholeness that meets us in brokenness. God is a mystery but revealed in the person of Jesus. “Turn your eyes upon Jesus. Look full in His wonderful face. And the things of earth will grow strangely dim, in the light of His glory and grace.” Proud of your vulnerability and honesty!
Thank you
Sam, sounds like you have seen the face of evil and darkness. I mourn for you. I pray that you will look to the one True Light that is Jesus. There is nothing foggy or mysterious about Him. Open the book of John and meet Him. He is amazingly real. All the evil forces still want to keep you in the dark through murky metaphysics. Try Buddhism, Hinduism, Taoism, etc. and there will be no battle. But the minute you get a Bible and open to John you will feel that battle! Why? Why only there? Because He is who He says He is…the way, the truth and the light. He can be found, my friend, cry out.
Wow. Your wisdom is inspiring. Thankyou for sharing. Sending so much love to you.
Sam- thank you for putting all of this into words. God bless you for this and for helping others that don't understand that truly we are all imperfect and how hard it is to let go of the trauma. We drag it with us like an eight hundred pound safe wherever we go, and it's never out of mind. It IS selfish. I get so much from your videos, thank you. 🤗
hi sam, its nice to see you again. that place looks so peaceful and you look peaceful, too
Thank you, yes, I do feel peace.
Loving prayers going with you Dear Sam
Thank you
I have been experiencing an extremely painful awakening realization and clarity and this video appeared. This is the most poignant and truthful and hopeful testimony, the utter exhaustion you mention being the start of freedom. You have such profound wisdom and I just keep thinking of this verse. Rev 21:4 “And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes: and death shall be no more, nor mourning, nor crying, nor sorrow shall be any more, for the former things are passed away.” Your former shell has passed away and you have not clung to it - you couldn’t anymore. I believe your tears have watered the garden you will walk in. I’m very inspired by you. I admire your tremendous courage. God bless you.
Thank you Claire, God bless you too. I'm definitely work in progress, as are we all of course . Our path can meander and wander but always we go toward God.
Thank you Sam. Your thoughts are helpful for people generally who are trying to come to terms with whatever is going on in their lives. Not just regarding identity (transitioning/detransition) or childhood trauma. I think everyone at different stages of their lives, are pretending to be something different for all sorts of reasons, but they know it's false.
Your garden is beautiful ❤Thank you for inviting us in.
Bless you for your struggle to the truth and the light. Praying for your peace, contentment and healing through this process 🙏🏻
Bless you, Sam - you are well on your way! Well done - we support you all the way. Sorry I can't donate; I'm a widow living in Cyprus but my heart is with you in your quest.
His voice feels like a cradle .... listening to him soothes the part of me who cries out endlessly that she's not okay..... Thank you Sam.
I hear this voice inside myself too . . . .
I hear you Lauren. Though I do feel a dawning peace, there are times I still feel so broken, so much pain and loss, it comes and goes. I think our resistance to actually feeling our own heartbreak causes more suffering. Our capacity to be present with that suffering is far greater than we realise . Healing is feeling, don't stop learning how to feel and all will be well.
I wish you peace .
Love
Sam
@@Call-Me-Sam Thank you Sam, I also have been transitioning out of my old self into life. Oddly, lately, I am hearing that I must "protect" that resistance, and all the pain it brings, protect it with all my heart..... I tried for most of my life hating the resistanace, trying to spiritualize it, get rid of it, even "love" it, but I hadn't yet see its truth: it was innocent energy, only misguided. It, too, wanted to be given a job, . It didn't really want to destroy, it didn't really want to be hurtful ..... Sometimes
The sensations are immense, over my heart and throat, and they used to scare and confuse me. Now I protect those sensations and bring them back into my body instead of trying to throw them out of my body. They belong to me, and they have such a crucial role in my healing safety. "Crucial" = "crux" = cross = LIFE. God bless Sam.... i'm with you.
This is helpful to me , thank you.
@@Call-Me-Sam I'm glad.... A huge reversal happened to me, where now thee thing that I used to hate and fear, that terrifying inner condemnation and self-hatred, I am now gently protecting within me, and giving it a new respect and importance.... to lift me higher. I read somewhere, and I agree with this statement: "The whole truth can't haunt you if it serves you." It is a most amazing reversal, to find power in your old enemy.
@@lauren4434 have you watched “Hi Ren”?
People miss the fact that the point of that song is that when you finally stop struggling against the quicksand, you stop sinking, and eventually find firmer ground.
(Quicksand metaphor is mine: Ren’s brilliant lyrics much more mirror what you’ve shared here. ❤)
Thank you Sam for sharing your journey. No need for sorries, shoulds, coulds or woulds. Things go as they go and are as they are. That is what it is because our "Source" is All-that-was,- is- and ever -will be- . We are a part of IT like a piece of a pie is part of the whole pie. So we cannot be" wrong", we just ARE. All the rest ( of our lifes) are stories. And stories scan be rewritten.
You are making a beautiful insightful story of your life Sam. RESPECT🙏
OH MY! "With our attention, we worship". Yes! So profound!
Thanks so much Sam. Transitioning is not my issue but I identified with your childhood trauma and recovery journey. Thank you for your sincerity and genuine honesty, you are inspirational. Loved ”The truth destroys who you think you are.” Says it all. I will keep watching have a wonderful day, you’vgot me to think again today. God bless Vicky
I am always humbled by the profound insights that you share so eloquently. I watch each of your videos over and over so that I can glean every nuance.
very profound, thanks for sharing.
Another raw and beautifully eloquent speech. You remind me of so many actresses and actors. Gary Oldman, Helen Miran, Gwenth Paltrow. Amazing face and bone structure.
Dearest Sam, I’m sending you the biggest hug. Healing trauma is deeply painful. I live with a condition called Moebius syndrome, and the main characteristics are the underdevelopment of the 6th and 7th cranial nerves responsible for eye movement and facial expression. For decades I ignored my condition and felt deep shame, with a deep need to be loved. I was abused by my mother. I’m having a wobble at the moment, but know that I am just peeling another layer away to get ever closer to my true authentic self. You are an inspiration to be sharing your story so publicly, and showing your vulnerability. You are a true inspiration, and I send you so much love on this journey of healing ❤️xxx
Hello. Gosh ! it is hard being here, being human. I'm sorry your mother was abusive and for how you suffered. When someone writes such a personal comment, I often have a look at their channel. I looked at yours. The human voice is such a beautiful instrument . This morning it is you that has been an inspiration to me, showing yourself so truthfully is humbling for me to witness. Thank you. Much you love to you too. XX
@@Call-Me-Sam I loved what you said in your video. We are all perfectly imperfect, and that is something I am learning to accept. I have shared a little of my story on my channel, but never really had the courage to open up more about it. You are such an inspiration; more than you realise. Thank you for saying such lovely things about my singing. Much love to you, beautiful soul ❤️
Thank you so much for your videos, Sam. You have no idea how much you are supporting me on my journey. Putting into words feelings that i couldn't place. Sharing your journey so that others might heal. You're so wise, insightful and real. You're a healer. Love you ❤
Hey Sam! You look so well! You're smiling!
I am ! Thank you.
I totally hear you. You are telling my story.❤❤❤
I have used the costume of very manly lesbian, embracing the side that showed to have more power in the dynamic of my family. The male figure. I didn’t transition, even though I had it in mind, but I started around the age of 24, to wear masculine clothing, shopping from the male shops and act like a man but without the violence and abuse that the feminine figure had going on (including myself) in the dynamics of family. I am at the beginning of unmasking my patterns and the self hate that comes with it. Your videos are pure gold! Validating and empowering. I have fallen in the last year in the hands of shame and desperation to change myself. To fix myself. And recently I’ve realised it myself the power of self abuse. So inside somewhere, there is a little girl who feels it’s her fault for all the abuse it was born into.
Thank you! We have very similar patterns, yet different. ❤️
Thank you for sharing, Yes, that shame, still so real for the parts of ourself that didn't understand that it wasn't our fault. Self compassion is the foundation upon which we build.
I wish you well in your own process.
“Can you include everything?” I recently had what I call my Biden moment - where I froze with fear and became incoherent. And, I can include that part of me. But, as you say Sam, it is hard to live through becoming conscious of the deepest wound inside us. Being with ALL that we are. I have waited to hear from you again. Thank you, Sam, for the fellow-feeling and shared healing. You talk brilliantly.
Oh, Sam! You are so close!
You articulate the reality of the sinful self and the Good News of God’s forgiveness in Jesus Christ better than I do, and I’m a Christian minister.
Jesus died in his own flesh, killing sin, so that He could cover yours and restore your true identity as a child of God. This is the answer we Lost people are searching for.
God bless you, Sam! He loves you and is drawing you to Himself. It’s beautiful to watch and your vulnerable “testimony” is inspiring.
If you haven’t read about Jesus, I commend John’s Gospel to you.
Thank you.
Sam is a believer, Sir.
Amen! Jesus transforms us and fills us with His Spirit! Never to leave us!
The sincerity and depth of your words reflect a beautiful human being who already is wonderfully whole. Such a flow of wisdom comes only with a connection to the divine. Thank you for being who you are and helping all of us. I too am looking at my stories and the way they have led me down a path of suffering and self centeredness. Yet, the experiences that created the stories have given me the awareness that I need to let the stories go and let the false self die so I can live - your amazing words: “We have to die before we die otherwise we are never going to live”. So, if this world is divine, are there any mistakes or anything to forgive? If everything is divinely orchestrated (which I believe is the case), then there can be no mistakes and nothing to forgive if you let the experiences serve you . In your case, it is abundantly clear that they have given you gifts that are beyond beautiful that are serving you and others. You are awesome! 💗
You are kind and you beautifully describe our path here but really and truly, I am working it out as I go. I do know that nothing I do , I do alone. Nothing we do, we do alone. Whatever this place is , it isn't the beginning nor the end. X.
@@Call-Me-Sam Yes, yes, yes. So true. You are doing an amazing job of figuring this all out real time. In that exploration, you are allowing all of us to dig deeper and do our part in healing. We are all connected.
Thank You. I'm reveling in the silence of my apartment today listening to my neighborhood, feeling the mid Atlantic summer heat knowing its ok that I don't do more than this right now. I was bored and scrolling through my subscriptions and this is the second video of yours that I've watched. Very difficult few weeks, you said everything I had no words for, someone else saying them is comforting, maybe like training wheels to accept reality now that the illusion is gone. Its scary out here but I can breathe.
I remember my brother coming to me when he was about 15 yrs old. He told me he thought he identified as female. I told him i would be there for him through any journey. I knew he was struggling with being a gay man because in my family that just wouldn't have been acceptable. I believe he thought if he was to be a woman instead of a gay man, then he would be accepted. For many years I supported him coming out, I protected him against my monster of a father. Eventually he was able to accept his true identity as a gay man. Regardless of if he had transitioned, he was my sibling. We have been there for each other all of our lives through familial trauma. I feel sad that not everyone has a person who accepts them for who they are 100%. I wish you love and strength on your journey. You are a beautiful person and you matter. Seeking who you are meant to be is accepting who you are, because you are enough. ❤
that' s not who he is at all. Why condemn him to that in your own mind? it's the condition he is in after going thru things you hint at. but you being there for him is a good thing. he still needs more help from God. pray for it. God loves him and wants him 100% healed, transformed and enlightened. God wants better for him! same for all others in these dilemmas.
@@cobainzlady This person knows their own brother more than you do. No one needs their gay to be prayed away. The whole point of Sam’s channel is accepting who he is unapologetically, and he’s decided to let us see his journey. This persons brother, it sounds like, went through his own journey of accepting who he is as a gay man. I adore all religious people who can see through the outdated beliefs perpetuated in their teachings and instead love everyone, no matter if they disagree with their lifestyle. It’s not a dilemma to be a homo, it’s a personal bias you have that has no place in society.
"Perfectly imperfect. Beautifully flawed". Oh i love that you are encouraging people to embrace that. I wish we would would celebrate it. Perfection is an incorrect and limited concept, that requires us to believe there is one "way" only. Stifling. No one should have perfection as a goal. It's only destructive. You speak so much sense with a sincere vulnerability. Thank you Sam. ❤️
Thank you Sam. For your honesty. Vulnerbility. Authentic self. You do have unique gift to share. And you have courage , so much courage. If you build it ( patron) people will come. I would love to share a hug with you. From US.
Thank you
Thank you once again Sam for putting so eloquently what is so difficult to describe. I am working on forgiveness of self, and all the hoops I have made that self jump through in order to gain love from a broken family. Go gently beautiful soul….❤️ I am sure your vulnerability is giving so much solace to so many people….❤xxxx
Thank you Kate . May you find forgiveness and peace . X
@@Call-Me-Sam thank you Sam, you too…..❤️ We’ll get there I am sure….xxxx
Thank you for sharing your journey and giving hope to everyone who is or has been in a similar life situation. God never turns His back on anyone. He is always waiting for us to acknowledge Him and return to Him.
Thank you Sam. You are an amazing person. No apologies needed. Stay well.
Bless you Sam, you have more insight than most people talking nowadays. What a gift you are to share with us
❤️❤️❤️ you are so aware of truths and illusions, it seems rare for people to really think deeply enough like this about reality and about the self. it is relieving and painful at the same time to be so aware and see thru things so much but still be stumped by the mystery of it all. you are such a beautiful human, you r in my thoughts and prayers ❤️
Well said and thank you for your prayers
Thank you Sam for another inspiring video. Your reflections and wisdom are improving my life. I feel hopeful again. ❤
Ah ! Louise, thank you for letting me know . I wish you well in your own healing .
I would definitely be interested in the patreons idea ❤
Thanks for letting me know.
Do you read Wayne Dyer's books?
I haven't. My stack of books waiting to be read seems to be growing !
Wisdom and compassion are borne from suffering. Thank you for your wisdom and your spirit.
Agreed . Thank you
This profound wisdom applies to so many different types of people. You are an incredible person, thank you for sharing this important teaching.
You are putting the most profound spiritual truths into words. Thank you.
"The catastrophe of the selfish life." Bravo!
Everyone is selfish.
@@morganm4768 that's a cynical comment.
@@themeaningofgenderit’s true. Saying that people who don’t live the lifestyle you approve of are selfish, is by itself, very selfish. There are people who thrive in isolation, there are people who thrive in community, there are others who need both, and others that simply exist without caring. Is that really selfish, to live their lives as they wish? Prioritising oneself against other’s wishes is as selfish as prioritising your wishes against others’. It’s just personhood really.
@@holobae374 call me thick, but I don't really understand what you are trying to say here. that said, and I am not arguing here, just trying to converse, even though i am not sure about what you are saying, I am not sure if your use of the word "personhood" works with what you say before. that is because the nature of being a "person" is only experienced and known when you are in a relationship with another, yes, person. the opposite of being a "person" is to be an "individual" which means to stand apart from everyone else, to stand alone, to divide yourself from everyone else. I offer this as conversation, nothing else. no argument, just friendly attempt to clarify thought.
@@themeaningofgender I’m open for a conversation, but personhood is defined as per the Oxford dictionary as “the quality or condition of being an individual person.” Your personhood is related to the world around you, yes, but certainly all of your experiences are processed by you. Your own condition of existing as yourself determines everything in your life. Much of life is self-discovery. Learning what you like, hate, enjoy, despise, avoid, indulge, etc. is the key to how you interact with the world.
And everyone is different. Some are quiet and diligent, others are loud and enthusiastic, some are both and others are none. This is just a broad generalisation of course. The spectrum of the human experience is so massive, it’s impossible to analyse it all.
And I meant selfish as in, saying that there’s only one way of existing that should be followed by all, is a selfish statement. It’s like saying croissants are the greatest pastries, and anyone who thinks otherwise is a tasteless person. You can’t categorise all humans based on your own interpretation of life. Everyone has a different story and perspective, and not acknowledging that is selfish. I hope this clarified.
❤...p.s. what a gift you are, dear Sam, my brother. I thank God for you every single day.
Mark
Lovely share ...
I've just had a couple of days of intensitiy and incredible-ness...
Seeing and experiencing my own sense of self absorption, and how it spirals me into a feeling of separation, hurt , unworthiness etc...
But then spotting it, dropping through it, and without that "me" ..teally being able to walk un the shoes of other and really be there for others, and in that, find that the love I give to others is reflected back, and that there really is no other ...quite humbling and a work in progress...
And I recognise from some of your video's, how you talk about this...about being in relationship...beyond the childush selfishness ...so im grateful for your sharings ...they are helping me navigate through this .
Much love to you, and you already know I support your idea to set up patreon ❤
Nice work Jazz. Thank you for sharing here and for your support .X
You look so good! Very real indeed, and loveable as always, Sam.
Thank you Karin. Lovely to see you here again.
@@karinelaxa959 Hi Karine Good afternoon I hope my comment didn't sound as a form of privacy invasion your comment tells of a wonderful woman with a beautiful heart which led me to comment I don't normally write in the comment section but I think you deserve this complement. If you don’t mind can we be friends? Thanks God bless you….🌺🌺🌺
Wow, we are perfectly imperfect. This is beautiful, this feels beautiful
You know yourself so well, and can communicate complex emotions clearly. I think you talking about this stuff will help many others.
Ah Congrats Sam! I am so proud of your searching. I applaud your bravery. Your garden looks comforting. I see that you are great within even with transitions swirling around you. Thank You Sam
Such beauty spoken! Sam, I wish we were close as I’d love to sit and weep together as you share the bad and the good as you navigate this transition. Your videos have really spoken to me. I’m deeply moved, however not having gone through much of what you have- I hear the pain and trauma that I knew well in my old identity. I see you being made new in more ways than physically. And I rejoice for I know what can come out of it: Beauty from ashes, joy for mourning. What a story! Thank you for continuing to share with us! I’d love to meet you and hug you one day. Maybe on the streets of gold!
And your hug would be most welcome . Thank you
So pleased to see you, Sam. Hugely profound thoughts and issues 🌼
I actually love you so much ❤️
I just stumbled upon this video, it now resides in my bookmarks under 'beautifulness'.
Thank you so much Sam. You are enough. You need to take time for your own healing.
I've always wondered what detransitioning would be like. After hearing, "it's painful, but liberating," I no longer wonder
Thanks for sharing as you do, Sam. You offer immense solace for other souls struggling for peace (like myself) with your words. I still feel like I have a mask on when I’m socializing, even while I’m consciously telling myself not to do it - but the fear/survival programming within my unconscious has more leverage than I care to admit, constantly in a state of trauma even while smiling. Escaping, as you say.
I moved back in with my mom several years ago out of sheer naïveté (to “heal” our relationship while saving money) - and I now struggle to get back on my feet because I’m constantly in emotional and mental pain. Thinking my wounds will heal with the proverbial knife still there.
But I find (as a sort of disease management) that it’s imperative for me to set time and space everyday to mourn; whether as a forgiveness practice or simply a soulful reset. That said, I cried a lot during this video just from knowing how much pain you’re in and moving through - but I also know the immense strength it takes for someone to take on a journey like yours.
Hi Gianni , you do have a gentle way that comes through in your words. Thank you for your compassion and insight. ❤️
So glad you are continuing to be gentle with yourself in your healing 💗☺️🦋... It's really the only way to be..."titrating slowly" as our body speaks to us expressing what it needs at just the right time 💗💗💗
Hi Sam. Thank you for being you. In my heart, I hold a space for you - a place of unconditional acceptance. For whoever you are, and become. Much love.
Thank you .
Sam, you are totally fearless. Perhaps you do not think so, but I'm sure many others agree with me. You have the most incredible ability to speak openly, clearly, intelligently, and without fear.
Besides being here on TH-cam, I truly believe you could make a huge mark in this world by speaking on stage in front of audiences everywhere as a motivational speaker.
I see it. You have that gift.
That is kind of you but honestly, each video takes a lot of contemplation and introspection and then , I still struggle to let go of what I want to say and surrender , then, something comes out fully formed , spoken from a deeper place of understanding.
Hopefully, this will get easier now but still, work in progress. .
Hey let’s not push the man. In due time. In due time. Read Ecclesiasticus 😅
Sam, you are gift to the earth 💚💚💚
I am awestruck. You are already something unique and powerful x
"We are all already something, we are all already enough." I agree Sam...we're already whole, we're already part of everything. This is such a beautiful insight. I am personally a follower of Buddhism and your thoughts speak to buddhist philosophy. We are what we think. We are what we pay attention to, etc. Thank you for sharing, I thoroughly enjoy listening to your journey and discoveries because you're speaking to all of humanity, to our human experiences.
Thank you Rachel. It seems I am stumbling into eternal truths. 😊
I very much relate to your intense feelings of shame and guilt. I still continue to struggle with them and to not hide myself away. I will tell you one book that was extremely pivotal for me, The Idiot by Dostoevsky. I cherish it. I think it would help you as well. Prayers for you, Sam.
Thank you, I shall add it to my growing stack of books to be read ! Thank you for your prayers . I wish you peace
the way you are and show up is a blessing
You are more than enough, your heart and compassion evidences it xxx
one of the best people
Hello stranger. I hope you are doing well. X
@@Call-Me-Sam I hope to be at least a little more than a stranger to you one day. Working on it
You are an amazing human being.
Thank you. I am certain that we all are.
Nothing outside can solve our being which is inside. We are all human beings whatever our bodies are whatever our roles are whatever our minds are even. God bless you.
Wow ....never seen you before,very struck by your depth and honesty .Thanks for sharing your thoughts 😊
Thank you.
True awakening is from within each being - we are all a mirrors for each other in this great consciousness - the cosmic truth of what Is.death of delusion is the birth of the Truth. You are truly Blessed Sam
You are in my prayers ❤
Thank you, your story is helping me too. I surrendered to Jesus in 2022.
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My favorite SAM so far. I like the mystery of God also., but yes sometimes looking at self is painful. The journey will finally lead us to that place. I pray I am brave enough to face myself. I feel you are a friend. So take care friend and thanx
Most people never really know themselves. You are extraordinary. This path of awakening to our own divinity is the most destructive and crushing and yet on the other side of it is the most profound expanse of Love. ❤
It really is . The false is agonisingly deconstructed and what ever is left is true.
I loved hearing from you again ❣
Clarity is a wonderful thing, and it's beautiful to see you "dressed in clarity". It shines through. ❤
I have total confidence in your body & that your body will take care of Sam ❤
You have evolved as spirit tremendously and I love to listen to you Sam!
Thank you, Sam…beautiful as usual. You speak to many of us in ways you’ll never know. Today you reminded me of how ALL of us are encouraged to accrue a sense of worth. I was given to understand worth had to be earned. It’s taken considerable time for me to see it was already there. What I sought was somewhere I never looked. Thanks, Sam for putting it so well-as usual. And thank you for David Whyte. Got ‘Essentials’, and it’s living on my nightstand!!
Hello stranger. Lovely to see you here .