Recovered Depression Sufferer interview-Gwendolyn
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- Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Gwendolyn, a recovered depression sufferer in San Francisco.
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Wow it’s me!! Thank you Mark for giving me the opportunity to share my story. MDD isn’t a death sentence- it can get better :)
Some things about TMS that I left out-
It has a 50-60% success rate, and 1/3 (the group I was in) experience total remission.
There’s a correlation between the success rate of TMS and listening to guided meditation. (I tried this for a week or so but got bored and just watched Twin Peaks during my sessions.)
The most major risk is seizures, but before each session they ask about risk factors (caffeine intake, how much sleep you got, etc.)
I’m so grateful for this opportunity to share my story and destigmatize alternative methods of treatment!
You should be proud of yourself and ty thankfully you are in a position to help others. Depression is definitely like a vortex that is hard to pull yourself out from and you feel like the sun will never shine. I'm so glad society is bringing mental health issues out into the open. All we can do help educate ourselves and others about this debilitating condition.
I have a similar success story to yours, Gwendolyn! I am now 26, I had experienced depression since I was 18 and thought that I would eventually overcome it on my own. It got really bad this year, I had no will to live as well as very low self esteem. Luckily for me, EMDR therapy and lexapro helped pull me out of the darkness. Like you, I’m smiling and laughing again. I’m so happy that you were able to overcome the obstacles life threw at you ❤
God Bless You Gwendolyn ..that's a miracle !
Hi there! Thank you for coming and sharing your story with us 😃 I'd never heard of TMS until now. I'm 29 and have had depression since about 12. I've tried so many methods to help it, but the most useful and long-lasting tool for me is to simply put in the effort to follow my most desired path in life (my "true calling"). Being productive helps to release the endorphins and when what I'm doing is acknowledged and appreciated by others, I guess it makes me feel as though I'm okay and doing the right thing and definitely have a place here. Easier said than done, but not impossible. Your smile is the proof in the pudding. Thank you.
You are so inspiring! Keep it up and thank you for sharing your story. Wishing you nothing but the best 💛
People that know, know. It's impossible to explain what life is like with debilitating depression to someone that has no experience with it. Sharing like this is affirming and encouraging for all of us. Thanks for that.
Experiencing a remission, even for a short while is a miracle. Long time depression makes you forget what it feels to be normal, and it's horrible.
It is impossible to understand but it’s not impossible to know exactly what you need to do to.. the chemical imbalance thing is disproven and it’s old news… we recreate new chemicals and repair new neural pathways… yes she’s right if anybody wins the lottery that has nothing to do with ur personal happiness what ur purpose is and exercise sleep stuff like that diet… ignoring all that and taking pills and therapy is absolutely ignorant and part of the problem
It’s because they got no backbone. Everyone has depression. It’s normal. Some are just stronger than the others. It’s evolution weeding out the weaker ones.
Depression (clinically diagnosed) is as real as juvenile diabetes. It is a disease. You cannot just “wish” depression away. Its a chemical imbalance. I’m glad she is doing better.
It's impossible to explain any mental health issue.
Dimole as that.
But there's two different kinds of people.
There are the ones that don't really listen and therefore don't understand shait.
And there's the other ones who try to listen. And even though they never will understand, they try their hardest. They are the ones with empathy and patience. And they NEVER use the words I understand how you feel.
I'm so frustrated to the point of being a walking bomb because of people's ignorance when it comes to depression, anxiety, OCD, ADHD, ADD, all the freaking rest of the letters in the alphabet!
How difficult can it be to understand OCD?
Or anxiety?
For real!
Most people have been very afraid and had anxiety once during their life time. How difficult is it to take that feeling and think about it and implement it into another person's life?
Are people this ignorant?
Or do they make themselves stupid?
Aaw. As a sufferer it's lovely to see someone feeling so much better. I hope she stays that way.
What an amazing transformation! To see the pure joy she exudes is heart-warming and inspirational! I'm so glad that there are mental health practitioners who go beyond just trying another type of pill or just talking. TMS therapy was clearly life-changing for her and could also be for others who suffer from depression like me. I will definitely have to look into this with my doctor and therapist.
Never give up trying something new! There's always a solution
While going through an intensive outpatient therapy, I met several people receiving TMS therapy. I'm a curious person, so I asked them about it, casually. It worked for them. One guy is the owner of a popular local restaurant and he was very open about what they did and how it worked. Unfortunately, covid hit and eventually, everything switched to an online setting. A lot of people's mental health suffered during the pandemic. Mine certainly did. I am diagnosed with depression, GAD, OCD & PTSD. A combination of talk therapy and medication worked for me. Initially, I was on an SSRI & blood pressure rx. During IOT, a mood stabilizer was added and that's when I experienced her moment from TMS therapy. Everyone said I was like a ball of sunshine, but I felt totally normal, like nothing had changed. Ha, imagine that! Anyway, I just wanted to share some of my experiences with you in hopes that it will further encourage you to definitely explore your options. I may not have needed TMS therapy, but I have seen it work for others. All the best to you moving forward in overcoming your battle with depression ❤
My 70 year old sister has been using TMS. She feels free from all the thoughts that hold her down. Over the past 2-3 years, I believe she’s had 3-4 series.
I was diagnosed with clinical depression over 20 years ago and life has been tough. I get what she says when she sees things in black and white as I do exactly the same. My aim is to one day be able to laugh again although at times it seems impossible. This story has given me a little hope, which is all I need right now
Same 👍👍
Hope can take you far and serve you well, sir. Keep a supply of it like your life depends on it.
Diagnosed with clinical depression and severe anxiety 37 years ago. Even so, i managed to finish my academical degree, got married and fronted my own business for 28 years. I live alone now (6 years) and im still trying hard to be able to cope with everyday life.
All the best
life's a bitch and then you'll marry one or die
Thank you for sharing this story. I'm 43 years old and I have lived with depression since I was 11. I wish I could have had the same support from my family that you did. I didn't start getting help until I was in my late 30's.
Thank you for sharing. Exactly the same for me. 43 and have had depression since age 11.
As depressed people, our options are to suffer greatly or suffer a little bit less but feel nothing most of the time from all the medication.
This is truth
Exactly
100 percent right!!!
id rather suffer greatly than help bigpharma keep scamming people out of their lives
@@iyraspusjfzifzocyoyxyoxyoxoy I'm sure most people genuinely want to help other people, I'm sorry you feel this way.
"I lost the genetics lottery..." Gwendolyn is intelligent, articulate, self-aware, beautiful, and the complimentary list goes on. She seems like a winner to me! I'm happy this amazing woman was able to find the right path for her. Thank you for sharing her story.
@-RoyBatty- Wow Roy, that was nice. NOT.
@@Toonces666 what did expect from a replicant? 😏
awwwww poor white girl.
So many people out there claiming that depression is not real and that depressed people are just spoiled and lazy, it's unbelievable!
I had phases when I was calming and relaxing myself thinking how one day I will not exist anymore.
Yeah, definitely sounds like something that you can fix with working out and willpower.
The people saying that are Red pill incels and have no clue!!! Don't let the buttholes bother you!!!
@@Gram72534 Thanks, man.
I'm pretty sure that's a human thing not a depression thing
And I say that I think I'm depressed and 100% think it's real, but what u're talking about seems more like a normal thing that we all do
@@LR-vw8yu It's normal to want not to exist without any particular reason? No, dude, you have some wrong ideas about normal.
Gwendolyn the conclusion of your story gave me goosebumps that lasted for a good 35 seconds - very beautiful, very powerful testimony . Thank you
I sympathise and empathise with Gwendolyn completely. 16 years old has been a complete game-changer for me in terms of my own depression - I don't feel alone anymore, and I hope Gwendolyn is doing well too.
❤️🫡👍
I'm 68 & still depressed.
@@mariehillard1742 Gary Go - wonderful . It's a great song 🎵
@@mariehillard1742Get a makeovers with your Hair and makeup and clothing style and get out there with your fun friends..not depressing friends and do some wonderful activities together..Life is too Short to be depressed anymore.. Volunteer. walk get a dog get a pet go on an adventure..You can do it. Make others happy and laugh. I'm 63 and trying to salvage my remaining years finding Joy 😊. The world is crazy so go for it..
@@furiousstyles7998Tom macdonald - fighter
I was hired at SoCal TMS in Pasadena,Ca. There were many satisfied patients. I didn’t work there long but in my training I learned the complexity of measuring the skull properly for TMS to be effective. It’s definitely a life-changer for some. Also she said the Lexapro was taken in conjunction with the TMS & so I’m glad she stayed on the medication consistently. It’s really common for people to think they don’t need their medication anymore & then stop it, only to find out again that they will need it. I’m happy for her!!! ❤🎉
Not every TMS facility does brain mapping, but so glad yours did and you mentioned that, because it's super important. I think a lot of the worst side effects happen when no mapping is done too. Like obviously, not everyone has the same anatomy.
This interview is incredible. As someone who studies psychology it always warms my heart to see people change for the better as a result of effective treatment. Thank you for sharing your story!
I’m also 23 and haven’t felt true happiness not induced by acid for as long as I can remember. Thanks for verbalizing the exact way I feel. I’m working on sobriety and have my first therapy session monday. Thanks for the encouragement❤️ your sweater is awesome
I got out of a cult 2 years ago and coming to the realization throughout these last two years that I was a victim of the cult spiraled me into a multi layer depression, I feel like I’m taking a few steps up and out of the hole now, it feels to me like I’m in a deep muddy hole, but now it’s not so muddy and I can start to climb out
@@GolfRCumSluthe/she is special. Very interesting story and I'd like to know how that climb out of the mud goes.
I left a cult when I was 18 and I’m 38 now. It wasn’t easy by any means but I am thankful to be here. I’ve seen some very dark places but my life is drastically better most days.
I got out of a cult too. It took a while to trust myself, still learning how to
Mark you continue to amaze me with the diversity in your interviews. Thank you for this video..this one will help many people. Gwendolyn did a fantastic job and i am so happy for her.
What a lovely video to find on this channel. Kind of like a light in the dark. I'm in my late 20s and have suffered from depression since about 12. It's a daily struggle just to survive, so it's uplifting to see how Gwendolyn has overcome and it gives me hope that the rest of us can also reach our potential for life.
Mental condition conversations are so thought provoking and useful for anyone interested in such things because that's what life is all about. Good interview. Thank You.
I have treatment resistant depression and I have been doing ketamine infusion therapy since 2021 and it saved my life. So happy that you found a treatment that helped you! You exude such a positive energy ❤❤
Ketamine was a game changer for me too. Like a vacation from 4 decades of hell.
I've been battling deppresion all my life. It sucks seeing everyone around you enjoying life, and you're not able to enjoy it with them. I also feel stuck in my life.
Do you ever wonder if those people are just as depressed as you are, but they put on an act as if they're not? I think this sometimes...and sometimes I'M that person putting on an an act as well.
They probably are.@@wesleyalan9179
As someone who has suffered from depression, this person is so articulate & insightful! And beautiful! :) Thank you for sharing!
I felt so sad for her when she said “I’m not pretty” when she actually is. It really sucks how we by default believe our thoughts when a lot of times we really shouldn’t.
Happy she found treatment. Wishing Gwendolyn continued healing and true self love.
Thank you ♡ It took a lot of work and time with myself after treatment to rebuild my self image, but I’m happy to say I don’t feel like that anymore :)
@@GwendolynKH awe that’s amazing! And you’re welcome 🤗
This story definitely hit home for me. My wife and I recently found out that our 12y/o daughter has been depressed and we found online posts of her talking about ending her life. She, too, has high anxiety and there isn't a specific "trigger" that makes her sad/upset most days; she just generally isn't happy. She has spoken with a doctor, who was quick to diagnose her with ADHD and start writing scripts. My daughter felt like the anxiety medicine helped her focus, but that the anti-depressants actually made her more depressed, so she's no longer taking them. It's scary to think that she's this young and already feeling punched down by life, and I sometimes feel hopeless and wish I knew the magic "fix" to make it all better and give her the happiness she deserves.
Just keep being there and listening to her. That matters so much to know that your parents are there for you.
Such a lovely person, and a courageous one. I whish her all the best and happiness she can find.
As someone else who had their life changed and arguably saved by TMS thank you so much for posting this video and thank you to Gwendolyn for sharing her story. I hope TMS continues to become more widely known about and helps others as much as it helped Gwendolyn and I!
as a schizo affective person, id rather have mania or a short strong psychosis than a period of depression, its horrible. i can relate a lot to her and learned some new insights from this video
i'm just crying from her smile and energy. it's so beautiful to see that se is happy. i've been batteling deprission on and of and just so glad she is better.
Depression isn’t easy, if you’re misdiagnosed it sets you back because you’re prescribed medications that are useless and if you don’t have a good support system life can be difficult.
Some times medications just poop out and it's horrible.
@@adrt9688 I know because I was prescribed so many different medications that I slept a lot, I went through my daily routine in a hazy.
I definitely struggle with depression and have since 3rd grade,I'm 62 now and on disability. The doctors tried every medication known to man, which did absolutely nothing .I've lived as a loner my whole life without ever having a goal,dream,passions,or relationships .I've attempted suicide more than once when I was young,which resulted in hospitalization. The years behind me are far greater than the years that are left,so I'm grateful for that
I'm sorry. I hope & pray that your later years are more peaceful and easier to bare.
@@AnnaH4R Thank you
@@Pault3788 you're very welcome 💓
Sorry to read that Drew. Hope there will still be light for you.
I feel like you making this video is being a huge advocate for so many people suffering depression and anxiety!! Thanks Gwendolyn 😊
I’ve dealt with Major Depressive Disorder since I was in grade school, I’m 54 now. It is a horrible way to live and has set me back in relationships, my career, financially. It is a monster that will someday take me. I’ve just accepted that. One day I will have had enough.
Im 55. I have always suffered. When we were young, depression was a character flaw. With this much experience, it is hard to hope but I am much better than 10 years ago. Much of my condition correlates with my relationship with my wife.
I have been fired 6 times and conveniently terminated 8 times.
Pharmacology is alchemy.
Psychology is mysticisms.
I hope to try psychedelics and meditation.
What an amazing story! Very glad i had the opportunity to watch Gwendolyn's story, and thank you Mark for making it possible.
Didn’t know antidepressant withdrawals was a thing but knowing it exists helps me understand so many incidents my mom had growing up and even currently !
i wish everyone who is in the depths of depression could watch this interview......she makes you want to keep trying....your beautiful Gwendolyn! Thank you❤
This video unfolds brain chemistry imbalance and more hope for happiness for those who suffer. My husband, who is an MD, has been through major depressive episodes that surely would have resulted in death. Electro Convulsive Therapy saved his life. He inherited this condition that manifested in his mid-sixties. He remained episode free for nearly 18 years with no medication. Long story. Suffice it to say he is a living example of overcoming this brain chemistry imbalance.
Thank you for posting Mark 👍
That's great to hear. I was clinically diagnosed in 2000. been on SSRIs ever since. Tried twice to get off them and both times was disastrous. How many times did he undergo the ECT?
@@royharper2003
He has suffered 6 major depressive episodes. Each one was directly linked to loss or perceived painful life events. However, he was hospitalized each time once I recognized his signs. He not only was a doctor with a busy practice, but also an athlete (both of us are runners if ultra distance). He was also an autopsy surgeon for two counties. He stuffed all that loss. That was contributory. Nowadays he emotes and openly discusses his depressions and losses which are a reality of life. His mother suffered this same kind of depression. At age 90, we as a family collectively, are going to celebrate his health for these latter years. One day at a time.
I remain forever grateful that this treatment worked for him. He is also maintained on an older antidepressant these last 10 years. He was treated at UCLA. It’s a great facility. 😀
Oh how I know how she felt. I’ve struggled with depression since a child. My parents either didn’t notice or care. It came and went throughout my life. I’ve been on every med that exists, did TMS and ECT. Nothing helped lift the low mood. I’m managing to live with it and pray some day it will lift. I’m so happy for this girl. I hope she never experiences it again.
Such an articulate explanation of true depression - what a fantastic video! Depression sufferers tend to be quite intelligent, emotionally empathetic and vulnerable. The hardest part is that we WANT to succeed, be happy, prosper. We usually have big goals and a diverse array of hobbies and interests, but the intense weight of depression makes it virtually impossible to follow through. Being unendingly tired/weak, having mind fog, and the horrendous weight of the dark empty world that depression puts you in keeps you from accomplishing your goals. It’s so HEAVY, the feeling and a weird combination of anguish, emptiness, fear, and apathy. Many depressives think of death as like, a comforting option, if it gets too bad.
yah but even as a depressed person choosing the death route is a cowardly bitch move and you're lying to yourself if you think otherwise
@@johnbenedetto3096 I agree. I definitely do not condone it and people should always realize that it gets better! I was trying to say that for deep depression, it makes your brain so dark that you can make the mistake of thinking in that direction as a resolution, which it is NOT the right choice.
I think there are many different types and causes of depression. I believe most people have dealt with depression in one form or another for sometime in their lifetime but this young lady must have had an extremely rare cause / genetic disposition to have such extreme depression at such a young age. I am very glad she found her magic bullet and I pray her mood never gets anywhere close to where it was before. I could only imagine what a fall that would feel like coming from where she is now. I hope she can find someone to share that happiness with and make this world just that much brighter. Thank you Mark for another wonderful interview.
I don't think that it's very rare.
I was diagnosed as an adult with having depression back to my childhood.
I've also had anxiety as long as I remember, so from I was like 3 years old.
As a child I was very flat compared to other children. Exept from when something like bullying or changes happened then I reacted like crazy and cried and was hysterical.
But I learnt to suppress that when I got older like before 10 probably.
I'm sure many other people can relate.
I’ve been debilitatingly depressed since I was a child and still suffer now at 37. It’s not rare at all, I know several people who struggle like I do. Suicide is number 10 on causes of death in the US.
Such a frustrating place to be stuck. Very relatable.
“I am bent, but not broken. I am scarred, but not disfigured. I am sad, but not hopeless. I am tired, but not powerless. I am angry, but not bitter. I am depressed, but not giving up.”
❤
Trauma is what breaks people
I started Lexapro this Summer and it’s honestly hard to imagine going back. I think my thing was more about anxiety than depression, but I definitely got to a point where I had no desire to keep on top of tasks at work, at home, etc. and I became very forgetful about important events happening.
Before Lexapro, I had been dealing with a lot of death and grief and around my family and friends and I think it just put me in a rut I couldn’t escape from.
Now I have a similar outlook to Gwendolyn here, and when she said she can “see color” she was spot on. I have more motivation now than I’ve had in years and I feel like I can actually move through life without having my brain spiral so bad and so often even over the most inconsequential things.
This is so incredibly interesting! When she mentioned not being able to feel an endorphin high from exercise that was an 'aha' moment. Neuroscience and Endocrinology are fascinating. I pray this interview gives Many people profound insight into their own mental health. So happy Gwendolyn was blessed with successful treatment.
I did find it ironic that in the opening of the interview she expressed neither of her parents "had ever suffered from mental illness or depression"...but later revealed her mother suffered from anxiety that required medication.
Gwendolyn, it is a true Blessing for every person, that has had and will have, the privilege of witnessing your inner and outer beauty and your infectious smile and laughter!!
May God Bless You Richly. Know you are Loved here and Beyond. ❤️🕊️
Though he brings grief, he also shows compassion
because of the greatness of his unfailing love.
Lamentations 3:32
Yeah that struck me too. It's clearly genetics from the mother, most possibly. It's a shame her mother wasn't more Intune with her decease. My mother was untreated but I gave me a hunch of what could be. I'm always on the lookout in my kids, since this can carry on for sure.
I've been depressed for probably 13+ years now and I'm 23 years old. I had never heard about this treatment before even though I have a psychiatrist and have had a lot of therapists through all those years (maybe because I live in Brazil, I don't know how that works here). I've been taking SO much different medication throughout all those years and I just feel like it keeps me "stable", more like a zombie tbh. I'm SO glad about this video because now I feel like something can actually help. Thank you SO much Mark for all the amazing work and content you've been putting out and thank you so much Gwendolyn for sharing your experience!! When I read "recovered depression sufferer" I just thought "no way this is real" cause up until now I really had just accepted the fact that I was never going to be happy, or truly happy, and that depression is simply incurable. I think about death 24/7 and have been trying to k1ll myself since I was 13, but it has never worked because I have an amazing mother and doctors who are always able to bring me back to life. Well the point is, after watching this video, now I really feel like something may work and I can't wait to discuss it with my doctor, so thank you so much
My hugs to you. Also google a brain retraining program naimed Lightning Process. It helped a lot of people including me. I didn't have depression but a neurological condition that was unbearable as well
She has a pretty smile, a smile that is genuine straight from the heart ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜
I don't remember feeling as happy for someone I don't know as I do for this beautiful young lady... Makes your heart smile!
I go through much the same as her, have since 2005. Things have improved for me recently, but I've still got battles to fight. I'm glad she seems to be doing well, I related to this so much from the therapy, the feelings and even the names of the drugs. All power to people like us.
But you are beautiful, so glad you are doing well and heard your story. My adult son has been battling depression, going thru all the antidepressants and their side effects.... very awful feeling. This will probably be my son's next step.
im gonna do TMS for depression soon and this video gives me hope. Thank you! The girl also seem very genuine and real
Did you do it yet?? Update? My son is supposed to start it in a couple weeks.
What about people with depression that have only one supportive parent or no family or friends to count on? What about people that don't get the brakes this person has gotten and was given medication that only made things worse? What about people that have been melancholy at best their whole lives?
But I am glad she received the help she needed and is doing better and now we know about TMS. I've never heard of that before.
What about people who can't afford treatment, even after being diagnosed properly. What about people who pioneered this crap when no one was cool with it and no one understood it or tolerated the thought. 00what about if you lost your job over it, which was the love of your life , and someone you hired fired you for " losing it"
No doubt I can't afford tm whatever.
Yeah. We out here
@@kandycepeterson2482 Insurance will cover it if you've failed a certain number of antidepressants. Look into it.
a person who has suffered from depression understands exactly what she is talking about
It’s tough living with this but I still push through
Thank you for sharing your story, Gwendolyn! How fortunate you are to have found relief so young! Thank you for your work, Mark.
Good for her! So glad to see she found a solution to leading a higher quality of life.
Thank you so much. You are absolutely right, one size doesn't fit all. And its a struggle just to begin to reach out to go to your first therapy appointment. And when you realize how good you are with your mask, (which you're sooo use to having on to survive), its a let down when they don't SEE you. Even when you try to shake the mask off, they still don't see it and wonder why you are there...Hard to try it again.
Just like when doctors close their eyes and point to a new med in their book, and say "lets try this one"...uuggh😑
Thank you so much for your insight and your hope and beauty. 💙🌎
OOOHHH MY GOD! I told my friend last year that "it feels like my brain is eating itself because its so f*kn dark in there"- wow! Ive never heard anybody else describe it like that! Ive had this my entire life (47 now) along with Childhood PTSD and severe ADHD. Gets harder everyday of life and I can not afford actual good care.
If you don't earn enough or unemployed you could try to apply for medical in your state . Social Services in your city.
So happy for you Gwendolyn, Wish you all the best.
Aww I love how you feel now Gwendolyn , I´m so happy for you and the people around you :)❤
When I first saw the cardigan with the "shrooms" embroidery, I thought for sure she was going to talk about magic mushroom aka psilocybin. I am glad she had relief with TMS.
it is great she was able to get through this. and i hope anybody going through this gets through easily and well. you all can do it.
She is absolutely gorgeous. Glad she is doing better😊
This was a VERY well story to cover! Made me have goosebumps and cry and smile all at once through this whole video. Such a smart beautiful human on this earth but had to go through the most horrible illness some of us will suffer with. Thank you so much for this one.
Ive been taking antidepressants for around a decade and occasionally I'd run out of my medication paxil the withdrawal is brutal crying and brain zaps i experienced its horrible so i know what she means exactly 💯.
To get over the brain zaps I took omega-3 supplements and that really helped. I wish you well 🙏
I love her! My son had TMS and helped so much!
You’re very pretty Gwendolyn. Congrats on your recovery and I pray you don’t re-visit those dark times.
Wow, I am going into hospital next week for 3 weeks to have TMS for treatment resistant depression. I hope I get a similar response
I hope too.
Make sure they do brain mapping.
@@StephieGsrEvolution Thankyou so much, I truthfully don't really understand what brain mapping is but my doctor is a neuropsychiatric and he will be doing this on my first day. ❤❤
@@EmEm872 oh good! That's where they determine where they aim the currents according to your anatomy. Some don't do that and through my research so far, that seems to be where some potential issues are more likely to happen. Also, if you think you're having really bad side effects, don't them talk you into going further. Listen to your body as always. Minor discomfort and effects are one thing, but you shouldn't be struggling with major pain, excessive brain fog, or memory loss to get through over 30 sessions.
@@StephieGsrEvolution Thankyou so much for this info Stephie, I'll keep it in mind. Thankyou so much xx
My son 16 just sounds so similar. I shared this video with him. I hope he watches it entirely…so encouraging. Thank & God bless you both😊🙏
I’m so thrilled for Gwendolyn and I hope others can benefit from this treatment 😊❤️✌️
Such a beautiful young woman and story, it’s nice to see her smile and laugh.
When I was 11 I had my first depressed episode. I have a family history of depression, bipolar, alcohol dependence. My grandmother had shock therapy back in the 50s. I believe every once in awhile, I get a short manic episode, but about 99% of the time I have the dark cloud following me. Exercise helped to an extent, but now that I also have a chronic health condition (endometriosis) it's very difficult for me to work out without suffering. But it's not all bad. I've learned to except I'm very introverted and my hobbies that I enjoy don't involve other people. I would say the worst parts for me are social anxiety and working. If I can one day write books and work from home, I'd be a little happier. Also, chronic illness doesn't help depression at all. But I don't take any medications and therapy didn't work for me. I try to put everything I have into hobbies and other things, although it's hard when you don't even feel like getting out of bed.
God-damn, this is such a beautiful story that I was brought to tears. May all beings be well...🙏
Sweet young lady I hope she doesn’t go through more depressive episodes. I’ve battled depression, anxiety and OCD for decades and been through medications and several rounds of ECT. I find consistent relief if not elimination of my depression by keeping my gut health in balance with prebiotic foods (high fiber fruit and vegetables) and probiotic foods like yogurt and unpasteurized kimchi or sauerkraut. Dysbiosis may be the key in many people’s depression and anxiety.
regarding tms, i have tried it and it made my depression worse. having severe adhd, usually things work counter-intuitively , so i suppose that's why it didn't work. i'm trying biofeedback, adding a stimulant to my meds, and hopefully find a mushroom study...it's very cool that she lives in a world where this is such support available- it's 4k a pop!
I’ve never gotten quite as low as she was explaining, but I am extremely depressed and drinking a lot. I’m on antidepressants, i hold a good stable job, i am engaged, but it is so hard for me to feel happiness. I hope one day to be where she’s at
That was very interesting and it changed my perception of certain things. Thank you.
That was beautiful!!
I love that you found you way to the right treatment. And I couldn’t agree more about the promise of psychedelics, especially for veterans and first responders!
Thank you for your beautiful share ❤️
Mark , Thank ou for this simple video about just a person with depression, I think is the root of so many horrible drug addiction, homelessness and so many other things , I’m so glad she is well! ❤ Good Luck Gwendolyn!
I am 48 years old and I can connect with you 100% thank you so much for sharing
Im glad TMS worked for her. I tried it a few years ago, and unfortunately, it wasn't helpful. I've tried so many different medications with no improvement, including Spravato. Im currently undergoing ECT, and im pretty sure it's making my depression worse, but I dont think that's a bad thing. I feel much more cold and empty about life. I'm glad that Gwendolyn got help as a teenager, I wish that I had. I asked for help when I was 12, but my mom said no. I wasn't able to see a therapist until I got on my own health insurance at 26. Im now 33, and I wonder what my life could have been like if I had been able to get help back when I asked for it at 12.
I was the same age she was when she went to her mother: I went to my father and IMPLORED him to send me to a different school. I had used up every ounce of my own strength, soldiering through day after day (had been suffering about 4 years). I had never humbled and bared myself so deeply, weeping before my father-I had never needed something SO badly. Tragically I wasn’t heard; nothing was done: I was told that ‘running away from my problems’ wasn’t going to help me…
Looking back, I now see that depression and dread thoroughly swamped me; it did so for another 2 years.😢 I didn’t fit in and was a painful target for ridicule. I only ever assumed that it had to do with my broken family (but we probably were no different than most). So shame was the vehicle that such darkness rode in on, keeping me wretchedly bound and alone.
High school was my 2nd chance, and I grabbed it: a new location, new friends, and no shared history! I suddenly had a life and warm acceptance through a community of youth that we called ‘the gang’. I came out of the shadows and enjoyed friendships and connection, though I still had to fight through overcoming my own inner script that was never my original blueprint. A personal relationship with the Lord and agreeing with how He sees me is what has saved and changed me!✨
The reason psychiatrists have us try various meds, is because they are searching for the one, or the combination, that is successful in our treatment. One size doesn't fit all, so to speak. I know firsthand that this can be frustrating, but it is similar to other illnesses where the first medication doesn't work and you and your Dr. have to try another. I have suffered with treatment resistant depression and have experienced the need to keep searching with my doctor until we found the right meds for me. Getting healthy again required a number of things in my "toolbox." Along with meds, it took a skilled therapist, some supportive friends and family members, exercise in moderation such as walking and a ketamine treatment known as Spravato. At first I didn't understand how each of these things would help, but I was so sad and running low on hope that I gave it a try. This was the combination I needed. Thank you God!
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Thanks for sharing. It’s enlightening to see. Very educational also.
The experiences with the specific drugs are so trustable relatable. I've even tried psychedelics and they do nothing for my depression. Crazy that TMS worked and has had lasting effects. I've been trying to get in to see a psychiatrist but it isn't easy so that's another thing stacked against me, something to make me worse when I'm grasping at straws to get better. So cruel.
Have you tried Ketamine? That helped me amazingly well.
Good story glad things are better
Gwendolyn, you *are* helping people by telling what you went through! It feels almost like hearing my own (early) story. I'm going to ask about TMS therapy, thanks to you. Best of luck in the future, sweet girl! 🤗🙏✌💜
Good for her. Good to know depression is treatable.
For about 30 - 40 percent of people diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder it's not treatable - it's called Treatment Resistant Depression. It's hellish and absolutely debilitating.
I never met anyone who's "recovered" from depression. I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy.
The trials she talked about is the answer. Glad to see your well❤
It's hard finding a therapist here down south Louisiana. It seems everything is done threw a zoom call which feels very impersonal . I guess I'll just watch TH-cam videos and try to educate myself . I watch Julienhimself and that's helped a lot on my social anxiety and self confidence.
I totally understand and give her credit for telling he story , I suffer from cptsd from childhood trauma that sometimes leads me into a depressive state it’s hard to put into words
I suffer depression as well and it’s no fun !
You are beautiful! Thank you for sharing your uplifting and inspiring story.
30 years of depression. Dysthymia for 20 years then 10 years of darkness. Felt like a 30 lb weight hung from my heart. Figured it would kill me like a heart attack. Some ideation but figured the one goal I had was to get to the end naturally. One day I met a woman. She was sunlight. The darkness lifted. Have not had a moment of depression for 7 years now - no medication either.
But you don’t “recover” from depression, you have highs and lows, it doesn’t just go away.
OMG her story is amazing So many people would benefit from. This treatment. I've never even heard of this CST before now.
"I just don't think life is for me" damn I felt that.
I'm in the SF Bay Area too. I'm high-functioning . I'm from a pretty dysfunctional family - no father - grew up on welfare. I left home at 18 and have been independent ever since. Without any support I got my BSEE from Cal Poly SLO. When I got my first engineering job the company I worked for paid for my MSEE at SCU. Today I own a million dollar home in Silicon Valley (which is VERY modest here). I lived in my van while going to Cal Poly. I suffered with depression all my life. It could be me - but, then again, I have no family, no kids, no siblings, no close friends, or love in my life. I know many people from both work and music performance - but, no close friends. So, I spend every Christmas alone. Tomorrow is my birthday - no one will celebrate it. I'm in my mid 50s now. Pretty much it's game over for me. I'm invisible. If I were to disappear tomorrow - only the bill collectors would notice. :(
I so relate - thank god it disappeared around 30. I also can describe it but can’t remember what it “feels” like.
Awesome Gwendolyn. IYKYK. Thanks for sharing! I'm on the start of an upward trend. Feeling empty and lost when you have everything is such a weird place.
What a wonderful story! Hopefully more people can look into TMS 😊
Tms is shock treatment lite, I have to get off Benzos to try it.