HIDING DEPRESSION (high functioning depression)
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 25 เม.ย. 2020
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this is what high functioning depression feels like
also known as dysthymia or persistent depressive disorder, pdd
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You are amazing and don't let anyone tell you believe otherwise
Hey Kat, I have two questions for you. First of all, where did you learn to write so well? Secondly, how did you film all of this? (one-woman army?)
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It really touched me how realistic You show depression and this subject. I catched myself on crying because it was amazing when I felt that anybody now can understand it.
Really love Your work.
Greets from Poland ❤️
You’re so creative and talented and you can picture things and make them look the way they should be which is hard to project. I wish you all the best and hope you achieve your purpose.
"Soon, you become so used to it, you can't even tell when it started"
Felt that one.
same on a DEEP level
i felt that one veeeeery deep.
do you guys feel better now?
@ฅʕ•ع•ʔฅ me too, my doctor recommended me to hospitalize for a month, im stressed asf about the money job and school, my body... just cried about 20 min ago lamo
That fits me. I become so familiar with my mental illness and even feel comfortable when it’s around
"Forever regretful of the past and always anxious about the future"
that one hit so hard
This one wrecked my existence!
Or forever nostalgic of the past and hopeless for the future.
That shit hit hard.
this line hit me the hardest
"You okay?"
"I'm okay, I'm just tired"..
The classic answer, i'm fine. 😣😣😣 I hope I can read mind, so that I can help her through this.😔
Same. Tired of feeling
I never realized how often I am saying that I am tired even though I am feeling sad or numb
I'm so tired that I'm really close of suicide
I didn't say the exact same thing this morning
When they need me, I’m always there to comfort them. But when I need them, they disappear.
I feel the same thing. I hate that
I often think of that for my friends. I want to be able to look after them but I don’t know what to say or do, I just stay with them. He doesn’t leave so he may just like the company. I don’t share too much with my friends because I do not want to make them worry. I have a couple who I talk about stuff with though.
@Coley Awakend hope you’re doing ok, you don’t deserve being treated like that 🧡
Same. It just breaks my heart piece by piece. They tell you they'll be there for you but as soon as you trust that they will they leave you because you're too much of a negative burden impacting on their life. So better stay quiet. You don't wanna lose any more than you already had.
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"Talking to people reminds you how lonely you are" i felt that
oh yeah thats relatable
It’s being alone did I realize how lonely I was for me
T D now that we are quarantined I realized how lonely I really am
Indeed, and that’s really sad 😔
@@TD-dc2tg thats surprisingly powerful actually. You see once you make peace with your loneliness and accept it you no longer fear other people leaving so you become really independent and unique and you can finally live life on your own terms.
"After all, your life has not completely fallen apart yet, so why would anyone believe you're struggling."
FELT THAT.
Same
She might be portraying depression although she is not depressed , but atleast everything she says is what really happens
I literally cried when she said that
coni alvarado valenzuela i cried the whole video....
@@emotionpictures19 how do u know she's not depressed?
“But every time depression hits, it erases pleasant memories, bit by bit.”
That broke me.
reminder that they are just hard to grasp, not erased
🙂
"Best wife, best employee, best daughter, best student, keep everyone happy ...but you."
This one really hits. I get the highest grades in school, try to be the best girlfriend, best daughter for my hardworking mom..
Anyone else?
all I have ever done. I have just realised this today. woow.
I used to badly pressure myself in year 9 to be a smart student
same, but i never manage to be good enough for anyone
are yall ok? if u wanna talk im here. God bless
Yeah. It got so bad that the only reason I stayed here was to not disappoint everyone. I was a straight A student with their life together on the outside, and someone struggling with depression, extremely low self esteem, a verbally abusive parent and budding anxiety on the inside. But yet, nothing was ever bad enough for it to be taken seriously, by me or anyone else. I finally gathered enough courage to tell one of my teachers about it, and when I was done she glossed right over it and started talking about my brilliant essay, the same essay I had written while crying the night before because I knew I would feel like the biggest failure on earth if I didn't finish it and get the highest grade.
“Keep everyone happy. Everyone but you.”
What a powerful line. This is the one I related to the most.
During the overproduced animation or the hired film crew bit? It's preying on YOU. WAKE UP.
@@kwisatzhaderach1458 Wtf does that mean
I know that line,..I've lived it. Why isn't there a place for sufferers to get together & heal each other because we can relate? That is what's needed.
Yeah and people think you're just a people pleaser but you do it to feel better about yourself
@@EKEACRES yea, let's get together and do something, let's start powerfull community to get us all out of darkness, we can do it
Sometimes sadness is my most comfortable emotion. If I just submerge myself in sadness, I feel content, at peace. Accepting that nothing is okay makes everything seem okay. Darkness can be a refuge.
John Doe damn , got me thinking , could that be me ? 🤔😔
I feel you, man. It sucks to tell everyone that I'm ok working at home and not meeting anyone for week or two. Usually almost no one understands that and tries to fix me by suggesting to "go out", "meet somebody", "go have fun". I'm fine 24/7 on the couch for week or two. Half of day working another half eating junk food, binge watching series, not answering the phone. Just leave me be with myself. But maybe that's not a depression as after this time with myself I want to meet people again and have fun.
Only for so long, eventually the feeling is enough to be disgusting, but not enough to find comfort, because i know that if i feel sad enough i will feel ok, so now im always at a "Low fire withering" state, not even knowing this can trigger that level anymore.
Maybe your moon is in scorpio?
with time you gets so used to it, like you only know yourself when ur like this
A girl in spain commited suicide, she posted an storie with a link to this video minutes before she did it. This is sad, please talk about your feelings, always. 💔
Where can I read about it? 🖤🥺
I started crying when you said "After all, your life has not completely fallen apart yet, so why would ppl believe you are struggling?" It hit me hard.
"By the time you realize something's wrong, you're neck deep"
True
I felt it...
yes
True
With no way to escape, and to sacred to end it.
im tired of trying to push myself to do things while i have no energy and passion to do anything
same
You complain, get a few likes, this girl profits off of your view, nothing changes. WAKE UP.
@@kwisatzhaderach1458 dude chill she worth it
I’m trying now 💔
I felt that. But I also believe it's because we don't know what to do yet? We have to explore this life and find what inspires us
*_Depression's hard enough; quarantine is giving it a considerable presence._*
Yeah I came here for the girl of Madrid. Mother of god
"But sometimes, you forget your lines and the pain trickles through the cracks." Yep today I accidentally started crying in front of my mother.
Because you BOUGHT this narrative. This channel makes MONEY off of people like YOU. WAKE UP.
@@kwisatzhaderach1458 Yeah but it doesn't cost people to watch anything, they might make money but they don't literally take money from the viewers, fuck why do you care so much?
i was just about to cry in front of my mom yesterday but took a deep breath and left the living room. I went in my room and then cried for half an hour. The last time i actually cried in front of my mom or hugged her was when i was 10. I'm 18 now, and i don't remember how a mother's hug even feels like
im sorry love. are you better now? its been a year. i hope yall are feeling alright. God bless
yall can still cry? lol
The most depressing thing is when you're asking for help but people say that you're just okay :)
@Chaotic Demons same :( my father even told me to appear happy so my mother wont get disappointed :(
That same just keeps being my story
When you ask for help and they say ‘its normal, everyone has such feelings’.... then why is it that I feel so much pain, why is it just so intolerable for me... self hatred just increases more and more... it gets so unbearable
@@zun6501 Stay strong friend. I know how it feels. I wish the best for you
Or when they are just answering "yh me too, I feel like that sometimes, dw you’ll be alright"
I have a feeling my dad has been going through this for a couple years now. He’s a baby boomer so he doesn’t believe in talking things out or getting help. He just tries to stay strong for everyone. But never for himself.
Pls stay with him
Sleep on his lap he'll feel better
hey dear ik its been a year so i gotta ask. did he get better?
I am not depressed anymore. but I was, and this is right on! If you are depressed and seeing this, I want you to know that there is a way out! Please don't give up!!! Sending you love and support!
How
@@agatalach1800 I made a few videos in my channel that speak about it. But the best thing you can do is to go get professional help. Also, read "feeling good" by David Burns and follow his instructions. I hope this helps.
thank you, i needed that. i've been starting to get professional help but it just feels so hard right now, so this comment means a lot
Let's be real. Sometimes there never is a way out.
@@jananderton9274 I don’t believe that, life can always change
I had chills throughout this whole video. It’s comforting to know i’m not the only one who relates to this.
So agree! I've been there too 💗
Sucks more cause i cried while watching this, i opened messenger to talk to someone, remembered i dont really have anyone i can tell
❤️! You’re not alone.
Were always here your with many people feeling the same way x
@@francine15able You can write it in a book, online or a real one. It i'll help you, bc u would be telling something u never get to.
Depression is like constantly carrying a weighted blanket with no break. Sometimes it feels heavy, other times it feels like nothing at all..
I used to wear a weighted blanket over my head when I walked in the hallway of my house at night so I wouldn’t see the imaginary monsters in the kitchen, just what I thought of when I read your comment
im sorry love. are u feeling better now? its been a year so thats why im asking
@@whereskentuckybruce8245 i love that
i love how you use a play as a metaphor for high-functioning depression. i often think of myself as an actor when it comes to my depression, always acting. i’d go through my day feeling so heavy but i put on the best act i can, pretending i was fine and i was so shocked at how people willingly and wholly believed me. sometimes i get tired of acting and let my guard down, and people get grossed out by what they see but my anxiety builds that act up again. it’s a cycle i live through day after day.
D.E.P / R.I.P malinanderssen 💔💔💔💔
Remember when she said her good byes because she couldn't afford to make more vidoes. Yea, well I'm so grateful she stayed afloat.
GreenGuyz what do u mean?
what?
I remember when i finally decided to tell my teacher that I'm suffering from depression and she laughed at my face "YOU? stressed? depressed? HAHAHHA"
please don't do this to anyone, ever. ever.
i am so sorry she did that to you, no one deserves to be treated like that. you're loved.
Fake. This channel profits off of every weak individual here. Let that sink in....
@@kwisatzhaderach1458 Never having had depression doesn't necessarily make someone strong, more often than not it just means that the person has been lucky.
@@kwisatzhaderach1458 why cant they be weak? And you are strong for what exactly?
@ Kwisatz Haderach Mate if it’s such a big bloody issue then just stop watching
Hi everyone :D
Big fan❤️
A lot of this hit in the feels.
Recently stopped trying to hide it. Well, now I just hide completely. 12 years of pretending over because I nearly got hit by a lorry on my bicycle and I swerved out the way to avoid it and only got slightly injured as a result. Friends and family happy to see I am okay when deep down I'd never been so angry with myself for getting out of the way. If I just took the hit this would all have been over and nobody would have blamed me or suspected that I'd have been okay with the outcome. I had my one way ticket presented to me. Gutted.
Maybe you actually do want to live?
You might hate life, but if the driver hit you, maybe you would’ve passed that hatred on. To them. And you don’t know how the accident could’ve turned out, instead of being killed, you could’ve been severely injured.
Sometimes we go about our lives thinking it can’t get worse than it already is, and then something comes and proves you wrong. You saved yourself from that.
Don’t give up on yourself if for the sake of it alone.
‘Today is victory over yourself yesterday’ and tomorrow will be the victory of a better you. When you saved your own life, you accomplished what many unfortunately didn’t, and it cost them and their families everything. You took control, don’t be ashamed of the fact that you did a great thing. And you did it selflessly.
@@rivkap242People who are depressed want to live as do people who are suicidal rather they feel they have no choice but to resort to ending their life to gain control. They don’t want to end their lives rather they have no choice.
“You can have good days though, yeah.” - today is not one of them.
Hope today was one then, and tomorrow too💕
Please, ask for hep . You are not alone
Its so relatable in so many ways😔
Hello,
I hope your day is better today. I hope you are healthy and happy. I send you love from Poland. Stat strong. ☀️❤️
@@Roksanka127 Thank you so much. Somewhat a better day. Healthier and a bit happier. 🇰🇪♥️
I like how you choose your words carefully. Depression is like water indeed. At first, in all its stillness, many would fail to recognize its unrelentingly abrasive nature. In my darker moments I tend to compare my situation with getting pulled under water just long enough to be able to gasp for air again, in a continuous loop. The metaphor of ‘not knowing whether there is light at the end of the tunnel’ speaks volumes as well. I’ve recently started wondering whether I’d even still recognize what it feels like to be happy. Lastly, I have to admit I felt haunted by the misty shots in your visual collage. I appreciate how the mist represents the mental fog by which the mind is clouded during a depression. All in all, a comprehensive review dotted with beautiful symbolism.
Your comment is very insightful. I really appreciate that.
Your comment really enhance my perception about this topic, I suspect that I had this type of depression early years ago.
Be like water my friend. You see, if you put water into a cup it becomes the cup and if you put water into a tea pot it becomes the tea pot. Water can flow and water can crash so be like water my friend.
Try antidepressants! You need to find the ones that fit for you.
I tend to compare my situation with getting pulled under water just long enough to be able to gasp for air again .... i used the same example when i describe it
Psychedelic's definitely have potential to deal with mental health symptoms like anxiety and depression, I would like to try them again but it's just so hard to source here.
came across the comments about liberty_capss and I must say he is a genius.
Take it from those governments trying to mask and then the authority forbsayign it's some kind of drug deal
@michaelowens2260 Watch out for scammers. I was scammed by someone who was recommended to me.
Woah, escapism. Totally helps.
@@rkit6707 Escapism isn't the point. It barely even manages to count as escapism, as a psychedelic experience basically takes all of reality, amplifies it and hands it back to you. Though one should be VERY wary when suggesting such things to the feeble-minded, as it has an equally large potential to worsen things if used improperly. The trick is to stimulate neurogenesis and a shift in perspective and instrumentalize this in a directed fashion, not to descend into a full-blown ego-death psychosis.
The droning in the background is a perfect touch. It’s not blaring in your face, but it’s there, it’s always there in the background. Like depression.
"But you don't wanna feel like a burden."
Yes, I rather help others than burden them.
Edit: Wow that's a lot of likes. Thank you guys! 💜
u can talk to me if u want. i wont feel like ure a burden
“But this must forever remain a secret” This reminds me, not to ever judge behavior of someone I don’t know, or even someone I think I know well.
You never know what battles they are fighting.
I had situation at work yesterday, some colleagues that dont know me said to my boss that I'm dark, that I don't smile and that I write some dark things on facebook... Colleagues that never spoke to me but I had them on Facebook.. I deleted them for sure..
@@marinakrsmanovic3871 you should put some salt in their coffee
@@marinakrsmanovic3871 are u ok love
Depression to me feels like a dark room, without windows and without a door. You try to switch on the lights, you try to find the switch, you try really hard. But in that room, there’s no lamp. You just lay on the floor in the complete dark.
"Depression is like water. Hollowing out the stone, drop by drop" A better analogy couldn't be said. It slowly creeps up on you. Initially you feel like you are just getting tired, that you might not have been getting proper sleep, or think you are stressed out about life, etc. and that it will go away. Unfortunately it doesn't and before you can even realize it you are feeling tired all the time, unmotivated and don't want to do anything. You will do the things you need to do like go to work, eat, maybe shower and do a bit of tidying up but it's out of routine rather than wanting to.
You don't want to do anything other than what is absolutely necessary or just the bare minimum. When you're around friends and family you put on a brave face and might even laugh and smile but it's just to keep them off your back. In my mind I just want any social events that I can't get out of to end as quickly as possible, no matter how short or undemanding they might be. Even if I don't spend the day sleeping my mind is simply blank. All activities feel like a major chore, even the ones that normally bring me joy. Sometimes even looking around my apartment at all my possessions it brings up an even greater feeling of despair and disappointment, like they're just a reminder of how I have filled my life with things.
Even people that I normally like to be around make me feel like I am a burden to them and makes me wish I could leave and or that they would leave.
So eventually the hole just fills itself up again; life goes on and in the meantime the water starts dripping all over again. You never know how long it will take until the next bout but you know it's coming.
DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMN
hey, it might sound "stupid", i don't know, but please be aware that i do care about you, and that the pain you may be feeling is legitimate. sorry English isn't my first language but i am sincerely opened to discussion if needed.
I care about you
more like nobody cares at all
the fact they ask doesn't mean they care,u've misunderstood the sentence
@@xardomancer7371 I guess he meant like most people don't even bother to ask. Nobody cares anyway but some at least pretend.
I got confused for a few seconds whether I clicked on a Psych2go video or a Kat video, given I was almost sure I clicked on a Kat video.
jaja Same, its an amazing colaboration.
"After all, your life has not completely fallen apart yet, so why would anyone believe you're struggling."
If this isn't the truth. The only time I've ever gotten support from family, friends, work or a doctor is when I'm at that point where things are hitting a dead end. Any other time and the response is "You're fine". People only care when things hit rock bottom, after that they don't care about keeping up with how you are. Truly makes you feel lonely.
My little sister just committed suicide, with her last instagram story (picture with feet hanging out of a high story window) linking to this video.
I'm sorry for your loss
I’m so so sorry, I was the one who made the tweet telling what happened in Madrid, I hope the world remembers her 😔🖤
😢❤
❤
Instantly teary eyed as soon as the video started. I’ve been having manic episodes and I cry hysterically for hours on end, all I want is to be held and comforted.
Uhh i wish i can give you a hug idk what to tell you I'm not going to tell you to be positive and all this because i know you are sicked of hearing it from everyone ❤
wanna talk ab it luv
I haven’t felt the touch of a loving other break through the layers upon layers of masking since the one time my sister told me she loves me, apart from my parents which of course do but I never actually felt it. I cried immediatly when she said that, lately she’s been here for me and I don’t feel so alone anymore, but sometimes I retreat to hiding under my desk for comfort.
"Talking to people reminds you of how only you are" that one hurt for a few seconds but then I was back to being numb
I don't talk to people.
@@Iceis_Phoenix humans are social creatures
"Depression never really leaves you"
That hit hard
"So even when the pain is unbearable, you still get up everyday" I cannot believe just how relatable the words of this entire video are especially this one.
Started sobbing after the line about trying to finally open up about your struggle but people take no regard because it doesn't seem that bad. It's only because I hid it too well all this time! As if I wasn't invalidating myself already and now others do it too. I'm sick of going through the motions of every day and not being present.
I started crying shortly after the beginning. Everything in this hits me to the core
Yeah, I was sobbing literally the whole time... the pain can never seem to go away.
“after all your life has not completely fallen apart yet. so why would anyone believe you’re struggling?” this related to me a lot. no one cared until my seizures got so bad i was in the hospital. friends who haven’t checked up on me in almost a year. thank you for making me feel less alone tho. i love your work💛
thank u for the likes 💕 😭💖🌼☺️
are u ok love?
m yes i am doing a lot better thank you (:❤️
@@makaylaaa8242 im glad dear. God bless and have a great day!!
Too. I went mental hospital, because i couldn't sleep anymore. I didn't sleep for 2 weeks said my sister. And i was crazy, paranoic, it still remains, i have obsessive thoughts still. Even now family not care about me. As in video said "i am screaming inside". I am regretful for my past. You know, when you share that somehow it helps, lol, i don't know why. But i think because everyone needs to be heard. But when you haven't a family who listens to you that's the problem, especially when you have one, but they don't listen, don't care until you die
“So you smile and nod, while on the inside you’re screaming.”
That line hit way to hard for me to be okay.
"you keep everyone happy, everyone but you" I was not prepared for that
This video is like looking in a painful mirror of truth... but I feel like I’m not alone at least
This is artwork at its most profound and honest nature...
The production is, as always, in pristine quality. But more importantly the premise you’re trying to convey is done clear, gorgeous, and incalculably sublime.
Thank you for making complex themes comprehendible and sincere to experience.
I just read that a girl committed suici** yesterday in madrid and her last post was a storie from a balcony view with a link to this video.
Por lo mismo vengo
"talking to people reminds you of how lonely you are.
felt that. loneliness is a feeling, not physical, being alone and being lonely are two different things.
yeah it hurts and you can't fix it even if you were accompanied by people.
Music is by Royce Wood Junior. Think it might be up on spotify at some point, not sure. Will let you know.
I loved the music 🖤 it does add more to your words
Music is exclusive to your video?
But what is the song name?
@@sepehrmohaghegh2855 have you found the song? Still cant find it :c
Still interested in this amazing song, can't find it anywhere :(
Is like i have a rock in place of my brain i feel pain physically and psychologically.i don't have joy in anything in this life i'm just existing now
sometimes i need to watch these videos to feel normal
After suffering from depression for 25 years I wish people would take mental health seriously. Your video was so uplifting sometimes we feel like no one understands and we are suffering in silence
We do understand you, its just that sometimes its hard when you are pushing us away and we dont know what to do, but let me assure you that someone wants to help you and be there for you. I am a living proof for that, I just hope that she will reach out to me again when she is ready.🙏🙏🙏🤗🤗
I've been struggling with depression for almost a decade now and this video is so accurate to my life. I'm a high functioning adult so everyone assumes I'm fine. When I felt my false veneer was cracking and I needed help, people told me it's not depression. Depression is something different. I tried to ignore the hole in my chest but it just grew and got worse each hour of the day, every day for over a year. Then I needed help. I'm in therapy now and I can finally see a dim tiny light in this black tunnel I've been in. I'm desperate to get out. I hope I do.
Sorry that you are also suffering this awful disease. Are you taking meds or just therapy? I am realizing now that I have depression, but my budget and work schedule does not allow trying out different treatments. I wish I knew if meds would work. Therapy can be dragged out so long. I know there is no quick fix, but am looking for the best way since my funds are low.
stay strong. you are very brave🤍
AR Rossouw i have dysthymia (long term depression) was in therapy for some time, and it left me with little relief. I haven't tried meds, just some holistic remedies. I strongly feel that St. John's Wort is a great natural way if you are on a budget (as am i). there are some warnings of side effects from taking it though, but i haven't personally experienced any of them. You can get them at almost any pharmacy.
“life becomes high maintenance, but you don’t want to be more burdensome”
felt that
Talking to people reminds you how lonely you are.. And when you try to talk to them to not seem the depressed, nonsocial coworker you come out as awkward and fake because you forgot how to have a normal conversation with someone and you just engage into a discussion beginning to talk but not feeling the words that come out of your mouth. You try to seem happy but that is not how you are so other people start to notice it and label you as fake and avoid conversations with you.. And when you get home you think about what you said and how that affected people's opinion about you. And you cry. You cry because you wish it could go away, you wish to have your life back, your will to live, your self-love, your sense of humour, your ability to make friends your capability to apreciate small things like a cup of coffee ... But it doesn t go away.. And you go to bed and begin a new day.. For you it is not a new day.. For you it seems that you are living the same day over and over again...until you lose track of time, day, month, even year... I am sorry for anyone who feels like this, but especially I am sorry for myself
I saw this girl fall. I feel like I have to watch it.
Thank you for this very accurate video. Sadly, this speaks to me aswell. I'm struggling with depression for more than 12 years. I'm 25 now. Somehow I managed to get my life to the point where I could say I did my best: have a good job in which my employer describes me as one of the best. I rent a flat, but I live alone. And this is it. Society describes the person by the things she or he achieved. The truth is far more tragic than the surface which public can see. My emotional state is terrific because all I can truly feel is an endless loneliness and pain. No one knows this reality and even if I try to tell about my feelings - society just shuts down. People ignore the fact that these kind of things actually exist. Well, most of them. I'm really glad when someone like You speaks about these issues loudly. The person's mind is probably the most dangerous place there is.
After years of struggling, I became numb. I have my worst days when I plan my suicide and the good days when I go outside to the world. But even then the happiness does not exist. It comes the time when I pray to feel the pain because I want to feel something. Even if it's anguish, it's the feelings that I lack. Every morning means a new day which I wan't to end and every night I try to push away the fast-approaching train of tomorrow. This is the life that I have which weren't chosen by me. The death seems peacefull and painless. It will come for me one day. Maybe not today and not tomorrow, but one day. Sadly, I have a strong feeling it will be sooner than many things to come.
And this is what depression does to people. A high functioning depression.
Please reach out to someone and get professional help if you have the economic independence and the money to do it. It doesn't have to stay like this. You may not believe it and it may sound empty to you but you deserve to get better and you can get better. Even if it takes time. Please do it if you can so you can be a light of hope for those of us still struggling to show it's possible.
Wow! It is as if you were describing me! Only those who have it truly understand the depth of torture inside of our mind. So frustrating. Others think we are just feeling sorry for ourselves. I wish they could spend just 1 day as us so they can grasp how it takes over us. I've had "friends " of 20 years up and disappear like I never existed. Not 1 bothered to check in on me. Yes, I too cannot wait to end this mental hell.
Luke Duke luke you are one in a million and people who are real and have deep feelings feel this mental hell i feel so similar and the this to me is bel in earth 🌎 and the things I love so dearly are being harmed and destroyed every second I am done with this earth 🌎 we need a breakthrough people like us and precious creatures in the universe
Luke Duke “others think we are just feeling sorry for ourselves”... I feel that! To the point where I wonder sometimes if I AM just feeling sorry for myself or lacking the motivation to be ...happy? I also expect others to not understand the true depth of my depressive state, and so I stay silent and put on a happy face, which only makes it harder for them to understand. A vicious cycle maybe? All I know is the sadness and loneliness that, at best is always lurking around the corner, is truly torture.
@@lukeduke1440 I hope I can experience it, even just for a day so that I will have an idea on what my friend is going through, so that I can help her with anything. She is pushing me away but I understand that it is her depression who is doing that, but I am here for her, I will wait for her to reach out to me again.
I’m drowning, begging for a savour. The waters filling up, my heads going down, I’m screaming well people watch. I’m gasping for air, I’m calling your name. I’m sinking, but I’ve given up. You’ve watched me drown, I though you where my savour. The truth is your the one poring in the water.
I struggle very hard but I will never beg for anything.I will not waste my life because of depression,I will rather exchange it for something that is worth it.Not many have this option as they care about their life.Don't be scared to fight,if it is not worth to live why not put everything on one card?
Me too
Watching this shows how much I keep it together bc after a few moments I couldn't stop my tears. It's a struggle that not a lot of people talk about but I think it's very important that we acknowledge it.
Descanza en paz malinanderssen🍃
You re forever regretful of the past and always anxious about the future
This line describes my whole life
“After all your life has not completely fallen apart yet” , this hit me the most ... because it is SO TRUE. And that’s why it is harder for people to understand ... The way you put all this feelings into words is ... don’t have words for that, and then complement it with the visuals is huuuge it actually transports you and makes you feel like that. I really like what you do 👏😊 keep going!
You can’t truly enjoy the good days because you know that soon- everything will turn black… That hit HARD👊🏻
So true right? I soak those moments up like a sponge because I know they are already leaving by that point.
When it mixes with anxiety. I don’t know what I am doing anymore. I do a lot of stuff at impulse now and the anxiety feeling won’t go away and it’s ruining me.
Same
So impressed by the visual quality and how well spoken you are, so grateful you are receiving the help you need to make these videos that ultimately help us, big thanks xx
I just wanna thank you, your videos are helping me a lot, i need help but i can't ask for it cuz no one ever believed me even my family,so i'm hiding for 2 years now but your videos are telling me that m not the only one who's dealing with this, thanks
I love these videos. I always feel like no one gets it but then I listen to these and it’s basically just a big “I understand what you’re going through. you’re not alone, you never have been and you never will be. I’m here.”
Why is this the realest thing I’ve watched in months, after a suicide attempt last week I so badly wanted to not click on this video scared it would send me into another spiral but never have I felt so validated. The main part being the blank stares, FUCK those blank stares especially coming from those you hold dearest. We will get through this, remember the good times. HOLD ON TO THE GOOD TIMES, with all your heart and one day it’ll get easier.
Your "Living with depression" triggered my first panic attack 4 years ago. It made me realize that I was, indeed, neck-deep. And it pushed me to seek help from my friends. It took me a few months but I got out of that dark place, and I'd say that I'm truly fine most of the time. This video just reminded me that I happen to get lost in the dark from time to time, and to be aware of it so I can turn the lights on as soon as I realize it. Thanks for raising awareness around mental health, but above all provoking awareness inside ourselves.
My best friend has high functioning depression and this video just makes me feel so bad for her
this was the most relatable video i have ever seen,you said eveything that i feel and think all the time felt as if someone was reading my mind it gave me chills
With warm salty tears streaming down
my face I write this...
After 4 months of heavy depression I’m
starting to function & currently fearing the
inevitable return of that dark cloud.
Everything said in this video resonates
with me. Thank u for sharing🙏🏼
I used to be depressed, but now I know how to be sincerely happy and I want to bring everyone here with me.
Glad you are happy :) How did you achieve it?
2days back I told about it to my mother. She said it to everyone to "help" me. My father had no precise reaction. My uncle said maybe it’s “just a sadness” I am saying to as depression. My brother said "it was very stupid for u to talk about THAT. Do you even know what it REALLY is?", about my mom- initially she was concerned (only for max 6-7hrs) and now it’s all forgotten.
It’s true that "no one really believes, until something dramatic happens".
I cried through the whole video. It was like I got stuck in the heart, and all the thoughts I haven't been able to put into words.. you said.
Thank you.
gosh, I cannot describe how badly I do love this video. Those words are perfectly chosen and reveal the darkest purest truth. Everything you said hit different... thanks for your effort!
I'm so so happy to see you collaborating with them!!
Keep up the amazing work xx
"Nigdy nie możesz w pełni czerpać satysfakcji z dobrych dni, bo wiesz, że nie długo, wszystko zgaśnie..."
Jakie to wszystko jest prawdziwe...
Niestety
This was a piece of beauty that won’t be erased. Finding the light within the tunnel whether it lasts or not..Thank you for this.
This is so spot on it’s scary. Thank you for putting into words what I can’t fully explain.
It's just so bad for the first time i tried to finally tell someone i told my friend but she said that she feel sad sometimes too but i told her it's not sadness and then she started talking about herself and when she was finally done she asked me why didn't i tell her anything i said i was just overwhelmed and it's fine now and she accepted it it was painful
I hope you find someone who can trully understand you, and when that someone comes along you will be able to trust that person and even if sometimes you push them away because of your depression they will still be persistent to stay in your life.🤗🙏
Avoid lying and saying that you are fine. You can say that it is not that bad or that you are managing it or whatever and that you are gona be ok. All of these words will putt the other person at ease, but at the same time convey that you are going trough a rough time. I do it all the time, works like wonders.
-sorry for the english gramar
@@dreib5129 thank you so much that really helped me to keep going I hope you're doing fine ❤
Dzięki za te filmy już nie czuję, że jestem z tym sama.
This deserves- no. Requires more attention!!
Beautiful production. Describes what I’ve been trying to figure out with regards to myself for years now from a day to day basis
“Talking to people reminds you how lonely you are”.
FELT THAT
this was really impressively produced. also kind of made me realize something about myself. I look back and think of the worst years of my life and I wonder how I dealt with school, sports, and other activities along with maintaining relationships while I was in the most dangerously depressive state of my life... and I guess I just kept going because I was too afraid to let anyone know about my thoughts.
It's hard to explain dysthymia when you suffer from it for so long. Thank you for this video and all your work.
Thank you for this video, it's really awesome and well made.
I feel both relieved and angry I can relate to this video that much.
Thank you for expressing it so well
i've gotten so good at hiding my depression. been holding onto it like its a sacred secret for years now...no one around me would guess lonely and broken i am. i think one of our most primal needs as human beings is to feel seen. this video has finally made me feel seen. thank you
Con ayuda de este video se suicidó una chica ayer en Madrid. Haces ver como si la depresión no tuviera salida.
getting dressed and ready for work every day really kept my life together through the darkest years i've had so far. I slowly started opening up to my closest and mostly older coworkers, and they explained to me that they felt the same some time in their life. They've lost close ones and family members by becoming too apathetic and distant, by only focusing on functioning and surviving; like me in this time. But in the end it *will* get better. Once you've hit rock bottom, there is only the way up. Keep on living my friends ♥
Thank you for summing up this grey, murky lonely space so accurately. A new fan. 🙏🏼
Wow. This went deep into my heart. I felt a lot of the things you said with those beautiful describing words
Each and every single word hits hard on a different level. Like she said depression never completely goes away. That's the sad truth:(
It's carzy how accurately you described the last 14 years of my life
I love how most of the lines freaking relates to me and this made me cry !!