"But instead, I kill relationships before they really start." I felt that way too deep. As oblivious as I was I kept them at a certain distance and made them dislike me so that I would not deal with the feeling of really having them disliking the real me. That's how fucked up I am.
I think most of us experience anguish when it comes to dealing with our fellow humans beings. They're our kryptonite. For borderlines the stress and emotional turmoil we expose ourselves to simply to maintain a friendship is practically unbearable. I've lost all my friends and am more isolated than I've ever been.
“ normal is like feeling nothing” the mood swings , I feel everything and nothing too quickly and so intensely . Ive never heard something so simple but perfectly accurate.
I wrote an email last october. When I found my words it hit me hard. That's the video I'll show close people around to help me explain my BPD. Thank you for all of this.
can't donate (broke af) but I watched all the ads without skipping them, liked the vid, and I'm commenting to help you earn more money from your video. I really hope you can continue making vids, they are really helpful for raising awareness and helping ppl with these conditions. I wish you all the best in life.
This video hurts me so much because it is so true. At the same time, it makes me feel understood because it exactly defines what I am feeling these days. You should be proud of yourself Kat. Thank you once again.
Okay, so here it is, finally! I've devoted much more time to this video than any other one in terms of researching the disorder. It's difficult to cover it all in a video that wouldn't be too long (attention spans are not great these days), but I tried my best. If you're not completely satisfied by this as a person with BPD, I get it, but please keep the comments respectful. Thank you and I hope I got close with this vid. :)
In past videos, you put words to my feelings with such accuracy that I was thrilled because I felt that I finally had the tool to make people understand what it's like to live with a mental health problem. However, after seeing this video about a mental disorder I don't have, I'm thinking that maybe the real magic in your videos is that you have such a way with words and such an ability to relay other people's experiences that everyone is able to imagine (at least to some extent) what it's like to live with any mental disorder, and that's an incredible feat. God, you're a dream...
My ex best friend has BPD, our friendship truly hurt me. What she didn’t understand is that I never feared her, I feared losing her, just like she did.
My ex is BPD and I cannot be the same anymore after she (didn't) decided to leave... This video is a masterpiece, it perfectly describes my perception of her and all the hopelessness we had to go through. BPD is the most sublime level of imperfection. Still I don't regret an instant. Next life we will try again, I'll wait.
as a person with BPD i just wanted to say thank you, the amount of work you've put into this, the research, the visuals... i'm deeply amazed and thrilled
Hi.. I’ve been feeling all of this for a very long time, is there any way to know if you have BPD..? My parents probably won’t let me get an official test, and I’m pretty sure they’ll just try to pray the pain away. I know this is something that I probably shouldn’t ask, I’m sorry. I just need some type of clarification..
@@goofyrat2938 you can get a diagnosis by your psychiatrist or therapist. But it doesn't matter if it's BPD, PTSD or undiscovered DID. I highly advice you to get help. Although many don't do such diagnoses, because they beliefe it's not good for you. For me it was nice to have a name for that shit, but the work staid the same. You can do online tests too, but they are tricked too easily. Wouldn't rely on the result. But as a tool for self-assessment, with knowing that your diagnose will be inaccurate, they are fine.
@goofyrat2938 Hi, I am BPD too , my parents is like yours too, but i decide to secretly having consult with psychiatrist online, and i never tell them until now.
I don't have BPD, I have generalized anxiety, which leaves me wide open to becoming codependent. 2 months ago I broke up with a BPD-diagnosed girlfriend of 6 years, who abused me first emotionally, then physically. I knew of her trauma, and for years I tried to be empathetic to her. I try even now as she still hurls demeaning insults and tried to hit me when we met recently. I feel like this video perfectly illustrates what is constantly going on within her, the things I could see right off the start, but closed my heart to after the assaults began, and allowed because my anxiety-ridden mind was afraid of losing her. I know that deep inside, she is a sweet, beautiful person who is really capable of taking care of others. I have enormous trouble separating her illness from herself, but the wounds are not healed yet. I hope in my heart that one day we can forgive and be friends, but I fear that her emotions will forever make her think that her deeds and words towards me were justified, just as she never apologized for anything. I hope she starts therapy eventually. What a terrible illness this is. It scares me when I compare it to my own brain troubles. It's tragic how destructive it is, how it can condemn one to loneliness through actions that happen when one is basically taken over by a passenger from the back of the head. I would like to give my wholehearted cheers to anyone making a sincere effort to battle this illness - you are fighting a grand war to be a better person, a war for good. Please don't give up.
I have BPD this is ..very much on point ..thanks Kat as usual you're so detailed while explaining everything so it doesn't makes me feel 🙃 like im having a disorder..you show exactly what we're missing and craving..
I've cried so much at the quiet borderline part. because I felt a lot of pity for the person who wrote and felt this and then i realized - i'm feeling the exact same. and it's crazy how little empathy I show myself
Today I had the worst episode of BPD and finding this video open a door to my soul. I was definitely tired and just wanted to leave this earth. But at least today that I survived, I want to become the voice of million of people that have not a voice to express how they are feeling dealing with BPD.
it’s so damn true and so cool, but in the same time, as I’m having BPD I couldn’t watch it to the end, because even though it’s very cool, it hurts me catastrophically, like hell, and I’m so tired of this rollercoaster of feelings that I just don’t know where to put myself. And the worst thing is that I'm already used to it as I live my whole life with this, and this is the norm of life for me, which causes me physical and mental inconvenience
Came here bc I was having an episode. Sat on my kitchen floor with a bottle of vodka at a low point. Thank u for making me feel understood and less alone once again. Love you kat♥️
I’ve never seen my thoughts and feelings represented in such an artistic, beautiful yet soul crushing way. I found myself sympathizing with myself, accepting some parts of me that i subconsciously demeaned. “Tell me you’re not my enemy.” Really stuck with me, i just want to know that for once someone understands, fully. And i hope everyone else gets that reassurance one day as well.
I have never felt this validated. I began to cry when I heard, “I can understand why you’re afraid of me because I am too” that is something I live with almost every day, being afraid of myself, feeling terrible for the fear I instill in others. I’ve grown so much and still, even through it all, learning to cope, heal, name emotions, and open up, even though all people only see a monster. I know, though, I deserve love and happiness just like any other person. This video means so much to me, and it helps immensely to validate me. Thank you for making it, and thank you for giving this validation to so many others who have BPD too
Wow, just wow. I'm a 26 years old man diagnosed with BPD and I've researched BPD a lot, read articles, read books, watched TH-cam videos, investigated my mind, learnt most of my triggers, I understand this disorder quite well, and this video is probably the best I've seen on TH-cam describing how it is to live with BPD. I am quite stable now, my mental health is good and my life is good at the moment, I am not emotional (in comparison to bad times when I'd cry from anything) and you made me weep. Thank you for this!
I can't express how hard is just to have a 15min of reality in a day , I can't express how hard it is to express how u feel when your emotions are changing constantly and when they don't change you just feel empty I can't explain how on edge you are when you are so close to try and change your name and move to another city just to build some stable character because atm u don't know who u are and you don't know what is reality anymore ... I changed 7 psychiatrists this year because it's so hard to admit some things .. I want to say I am grateful for your channel and I hope you are doing well ❤
0:20 THE BEGINNING 1:50 EXTREMES & IMPULSIVITY 3:44 ABANDONMENT 6:15 FAVOURITE PERSON 8:00 SPLITTING 9:26 EMPTINESS & LACK OF IDENTITY 11:10 QUIET BORDERLINE 12:27 GETING THROUGH AN EPISODE 14:18 THE END
Z tym kłamaniem o sobie też jest tak, że właściwie nie wiemy co jest prawdą o nas samych. I mówiąc coś czujemy się jak oszuści bo nie do końca czujemy, żeby te słowa nas określały.
"Sadness feels like suicide , anger feels like murder , loving is loosing control , loosing someone is dying , happiness in unbelievable euphoria and feeling normal is like nothing i hate to admit it but sometimes I become a walking breathing mindfield for anyone that interacts with me " Beautifully said and explained really accurate ❤️❤️ people who don't have BPD can understand it you have given words to so many silent voices ❣️ thank you really appreciate your work 3:12
Brakuje troszkę na temat ryzykownych zachowań autodestrukcyjnych, izolowaniu się od ludzi, myślach samobójczych i samookaleczeniu się… ale ogólnie 11/10 :) Ujęcia piękne. Widać, ze spędziłaś dużo czasu na zrozumieniu tego zaburzenia, bo klip bardzo pasuje. Dziękuje Ci, długo czekałam na film, z którym będę mogła się utożsamić 🥰
Wonderfully and detailed, deep description of BPD. I felt so seen and understood and when someone asks me how I am, I literally give up at answering due to the chaos I have in my mind. Thank you for this video, it's so beautiful, to say the least.
It’s been a while since my extremes have flared up, but this is the video I needed to see that I know I’m not alone. I’ve gone through years of therapy and still going to them to find coping skills that help me manage my episodes, impulsive acts and splits. I know i’m never going to be “normal” but now I am able to manage them gracefully. Communication with someone safe who truly understands is key, could be a friend, sibling, therapist even, talking about it helps greatly at least for me. I know I still go through rough days where I’m still in that rollercoaster, at least now I’m not as intense as I used to be. I’m thankful for my journey and yes anyone could do it too, it’s a scary and messy process but trust me, learning to cope and manage your emotions will improve your life in so many ways. I know for all the people who suffer with this mental illness can get there. I did it, you can too! ♥️
Thank you for putting so much time and energy on this video. I know is so not easy to address. I have BPD and I thank you for putting content related to this disorder, It helps us to have more visibility and feel heard Hugs and well wishes
I really appreciate your work. I felt understood and at the same time i saw how much i left behind me. After six years of therapy i'm still living with bpd. But now i can live with this and to everybody who watch this... One day we are going to live without this. It just take time and a lot of hard work. Anyway. Amazing video, as always breathtaking.
bpd is incurable. just treatable. ive been in therapy 6 years too. youll hacve it 4 life use it to be stronger, find your strengths through your uniqueness,, aqdn make the best of it
This is the only media on this subject I’ve felt like understood the most. I listen to this multiple times a week to feel less alone. I’m so glad I can access this video again
Bruuuuuh I saw a fair bit of my email in there (among the many, many other intense and valid experiences you've curated for this video). Surreal experience aside, this video was beautifully constructed, and the time and effort spent on the project was well worth it. Thank you for all the work you do
Thank you. I’ve been watching your videos since your living with depression video 6 years ago. I tried making my own version of it as well for my arts class which I received a lot of praise for. Your videos never fail, and this one especially. I have never felt so understood. I am in literal tears, thank you so much. This video made me reflect on actions that I have done in previous relationships, you have inspired me once again. Thank you again so much for understanding me.
I was trying to name my emotions for such a long time and that video is just like a mirror of my brain. I'm all in tears and I can't find a words to say how grateful I am for what you're doing.
I need to comment. I can't continue without thanking you for this incredibly beautiful, honest, accurate and relatable description. Sending love from another with this sometimes unbearable affliction.
@@KatAmarie for sure there are! Can’t even imagine how hard it was to 1) shape a whole solid piece out of them 2) to let all of those feelings through yourself while creating this video. This is truly an amazing one. Thank you once again
I always recommend this video to people as the best description of borderline personality disorder that I have come across and find myself returning here to watch and listen. You really have done a great service for people who suffer from this illness. It usually brings me to tears feeling so understood. The stigma against us is still harsh and this helps so much to serve as a guide for what it's like to inhabit our skin. Thank you! 💜 Better than a DSM manual.
This is beautiful and astonishing. Every second of this video describes BPD like nothing else before. This is exactly how I feel on a daily basis, this is exactly me. Thank you so much for creating this masterpiece, we have been waiting for a long time, but it was worth the wait. Beautifully done.
Thank you a lot, I was asking from months and I don't truly believed that you were working on it but thanks really, it was very touching and scary seeing my feelings and my emotion portraid in such a deep way.
Kat, thank you. I felt it deep down in myself that I might struggle with this. That's why I got panic attack while watching this. I'm not blaming you, no... It's about myself not your work. I actually appreciate that you put alot of work to public something that could touch my heart. That's impressive.
Kat thank u immensely for this. I’m in a therapy for more than 5 years and I’ve never felt understood by a person like I do right now. You are describing feelings I cannot describe by words. Or I'm rather scared of that.
I got tears iny eyes while watching it because i felt like i am watching my own story . which is full of agony in everyday life 😔GREAT WORK AND THANK YOU
4:41 hit me the hardest...... I've never really been able to keep a friend. I've considered people my best friends where I took them on vacation, dedicated my birthday just to spend with them, etc. They ALL left me for other people, with no explanation. I've said happy birthday to them, with no response or left on opened. I never, ever truly know how someone feels about me because I've been abandoned with false hope and security ALL MY LIFE. Everyone I have ever cared for has left me in the dust and that probably hurts more than absolutely anything to me..... I've always wanted friends who asked ME to hangout first, to text ME first and want ME to be their friend.... loneliness is the worst part about it because you're stuck with your feelings constantly.
it’s so hard pushing away the people you love most. i did that to my sister and would do things to hurt her or disrespect her without my control and then hate myself for not knowing why i did it.
I don't think myself to be an artist in any form, nor a true critic, but these videos simply have me coming back. The content itself is certainly of interest, however the style and care that is gone into making them is quite a joy in my eyes. Keep on keeping on miss Napiorkowska.
This is the video that I seen you worked really hard on. And seeing it on a complete state is very beautiful and also personal to those who sent out the emails. Thank you so much for continuing and completing this project. This is beautiful
I finally understand what's going on. Im so deeply scared. I feel like I'm being torn apart by my own guilt and shame. I thought my emotions were normal, but they are so much stronger than that. I legitimately couldn't tell that those sudden changes and painful reactions were not just the average experience, even though I knew the way I reacted to certain things was never right. I have to get help and I have to talk to someone. Thank you for this video.
Oglądam cię od bardzo dawna. Twoje filmy są poruszające i trafiają w sedno. Czasami wyrażają to czego sama nie potrafiłabym opisać. Jesteś wspaniałą artystką i mam nadzieję, że będziesz tworzyć i tworzyć, bo ludzie cię uwielbiają.
This was a very helpful video to explain BPD. While I showed nothing but compassion and empathy to my ex husband who has all the exact symptoms that were described. Where's our help, the innocent people who chose to stay and try to help them. Still to this day, I left him 3 years ago and still I get nothing but abuse from him. Respect goes to those that recognise that they need help but for the others who play the victim, they make me sick to the core. He broke me and our 4 children all the while everyone is on his side while he claims me and the kids to be the bad ones. Sort yourselves out, yous are not the only ones who have been neglected and abused in childhood!
I have so many lost friendships due to stupid, trivial things such as mistrust, being defensive because I took something wrong or just because I get hurt easily. I made a list of ppl no longer in my life Ive pushed away or blocked on social media. Some deserved it but most didnt. By the time I realize how impulsive and irrational it was, it's too late. They wont forgive me. Im twice divorced. Im 50 and still feel broken. The song by Diamante, "Unlovable " describes how I feel. That song makes me cry, just like this video. Thank you for sharing.
Wow this is amazing video that is both a work of art and informative. Thank you for the time, energy, and effort you put into undoing misinformation with truth. 💜
Such sorrow so beautifully articulated… Thank-You beautiful soul, you have a way with words, & have used it to help us all with BPD to feel heard, understood & validated, bless you…
Nice video.. and all the descriptions seem to fit what my child is and has gone through. However the MONSTER that lives with in and never goes away.. with a ton of hard work, therapy, DBT and if needed the right medications BPD can be happy and usefully WHOLE. there are BPD people to the extreme who after years of hard work and a plan for mental health you would never know they have or ever had issues. It has been a long road for us. Tons of pain, expense and lost opportunities but there is healing. BPD are already stigmatized and the diagnosis considered tragic. And it is a very serious condition. But to the new person to all of this there is more to this video and that is one of change, methods not just to cope the crazy episodes but turn them into joy and connection. So get a therapist, read a book, get into DBT and begin a new (HARD) and wonderful new life
This used to be my every day. I was diagnosed in 2017 and I remember everyday as painful and lonely, scary and empty. I'm so glad I was able to get treatment that I continue to this day because I'm in a much much more stable place and these things are barely noticeable to me anymore.
I still haven't fully finished the video so far but after the part about abandonment, I needed to pause. It resonates so extremely with me, with how I feel and how I act. For years I would feel that way and burn bridges between friends, who just want to help me - for years I wouldn't know why I do this. I am now getting the professional I need and can finally put a name to my way of feeling and thinking.
"Loving is losing control, losing someone is like dying" I felt that.
:(
Wow same!! Same part that got me
“I desperately need validation. But when I get it I choose to ignore it.”
I’m sobbing, I’ve never felt so understood
"Beautiful"
Same!
same here
I swear!!!
Right?
I cried when she said "tell me you are on my side ,not my enemy" sometimes it does feel that everyone is my enemy, especially when I having an episode
Feeling normal is like nothing.
I call it void
I call it...
literally, i just feel nothing/empty
There is no such thing..
At least not for us❤️🩹
Yeah
"But instead, I kill relationships before they really start." I felt that way too deep. As oblivious as I was I kept them at a certain distance and made them dislike me so that I would not deal with the feeling of really having them disliking the real me. That's how fucked up I am.
same honestly
I think most of us experience anguish when it comes to dealing with our fellow humans beings. They're our kryptonite. For borderlines the stress and emotional turmoil we expose ourselves to simply to maintain a friendship is practically unbearable. I've lost all my friends and am more isolated than I've ever been.
“ normal is like feeling nothing” the mood swings , I feel everything and nothing too quickly and so intensely . Ive never heard something so simple but perfectly accurate.
I wrote an email last october. When I found my words it hit me hard. That's the video I'll show close people around to help me explain my BPD. Thank you for all of this.
can't donate (broke af) but I watched all the ads without skipping them, liked the vid, and I'm commenting to help you earn more money from your video. I really hope you can continue making vids, they are really helpful for raising awareness and helping ppl with these conditions. I wish you all the best in life.
Haha thanks!! :)))
This video hurts me so much because it is so true.
At the same time, it makes me feel understood because it exactly defines what I am feeling these days.
You should be proud of yourself Kat. Thank you once again.
Okay, so here it is, finally! I've devoted much more time to this video than any other one in terms of researching the disorder. It's difficult to cover it all in a video that wouldn't be too long (attention spans are not great these days), but I tried my best. If you're not completely satisfied by this as a person with BPD, I get it, but please keep the comments respectful. Thank you and I hope I got close with this vid. :)
It's so amazing and real. Thank thank you for this wonderful video. ❤
In past videos, you put words to my feelings with such accuracy that I was thrilled because I felt that I finally had the tool to make people understand what it's like to live with a mental health problem. However, after seeing this video about a mental disorder I don't have, I'm thinking that maybe the real magic in your videos is that you have such a way with words and such an ability to relay other people's experiences that everyone is able to imagine (at least to some extent) what it's like to live with any mental disorder, and that's an incredible feat. God, you're a dream...
pleasee can you make videos about paranoid, schizoid and shizotypal personality disorder? ❤️
Amazing video!
@@xslt1692 this video is called living with borderline pd. Not living with a person with bpd.
I am bursting into tears.
My ex best friend has BPD, our friendship truly hurt me. What she didn’t understand is that I never feared her, I feared losing her, just like she did.
My ex is BPD and I cannot be the same anymore after she (didn't) decided to leave... This video is a masterpiece, it perfectly describes my perception of her and all the hopelessness we had to go through. BPD is the most sublime level of imperfection.
Still I don't regret an instant. Next life we will try again, I'll wait.
this is the most beautiful description ive ever seen of bpd. "BPD is the most sublime level of imperfection".
rings so true and yet hurts so much.
as a person with BPD i just wanted to say thank you, the amount of work you've put into this, the research, the visuals... i'm deeply amazed and thrilled
I’ve been on anxiety and Bpd hit up lightztripz on Instagram has helped me out he has honey and mushrooms and other products formicrodosing 😌
Hi.. I’ve been feeling all of this for a very long time, is there any way to know if you have BPD..? My parents probably won’t let me get an official test, and I’m pretty sure they’ll just try to pray the pain away. I know this is something that I probably shouldn’t ask, I’m sorry. I just need some type of clarification..
@@goofyrat2938 you can get a diagnosis by your psychiatrist or therapist. But it doesn't matter if it's BPD, PTSD or undiscovered DID. I highly advice you to get help. Although many don't do such diagnoses, because they beliefe it's not good for you. For me it was nice to have a name for that shit, but the work staid the same.
You can do online tests too, but they are tricked too easily. Wouldn't rely on the result. But as a tool for self-assessment, with knowing that your diagnose will be inaccurate, they are fine.
@goofyrat2938 Hi, I am BPD too , my parents is like yours too, but i decide to secretly having consult with psychiatrist online, and i never tell them until now.
@@goofyrat2938sorry i forget to tag
Girl, your color grading is on point. It's so good. Man, what a visual treat.
Thanks. 🙏
I don't have BPD, I have generalized anxiety, which leaves me wide open to becoming codependent. 2 months ago I broke up with a BPD-diagnosed girlfriend of 6 years, who abused me first emotionally, then physically. I knew of her trauma, and for years I tried to be empathetic to her. I try even now as she still hurls demeaning insults and tried to hit me when we met recently. I feel like this video perfectly illustrates what is constantly going on within her, the things I could see right off the start, but closed my heart to after the assaults began, and allowed because my anxiety-ridden mind was afraid of losing her. I know that deep inside, she is a sweet, beautiful person who is really capable of taking care of others. I have enormous trouble separating her illness from herself, but the wounds are not healed yet. I hope in my heart that one day we can forgive and be friends, but I fear that her emotions will forever make her think that her deeds and words towards me were justified, just as she never apologized for anything. I hope she starts therapy eventually.
What a terrible illness this is. It scares me when I compare it to my own brain troubles. It's tragic how destructive it is, how it can condemn one to loneliness through actions that happen when one is basically taken over by a passenger from the back of the head.
I would like to give my wholehearted cheers to anyone making a sincere effort to battle this illness - you are fighting a grand war to be a better person, a war for good. Please don't give up.
thank you :(
I have BPD this is ..very much on point ..thanks Kat as usual you're so detailed while explaining everything so it doesn't makes me feel 🙃 like im having a disorder..you show exactly what we're missing and craving..
I've cried so much at the quiet borderline part. because I felt a lot of pity for the person who wrote and felt this and then i realized - i'm feeling the exact same. and it's crazy how little empathy I show myself
Today I had the worst episode of BPD and finding this video open a door to my soul. I was definitely tired and just wanted to leave this earth. But at least today that I survived, I want to become the voice of million of people that have not a voice to express how they are feeling dealing with BPD.
it’s so damn true and so cool, but in the same time, as I’m having BPD I couldn’t watch it to the end, because even though it’s very cool, it hurts me catastrophically, like hell, and I’m so tired of this rollercoaster of feelings that I just don’t know where to put myself.
And the worst thing is that I'm already used to it as I live my whole life with this, and this is the norm of life for me, which causes me physical and mental inconvenience
I am so sorry :(
Came here bc I was having an episode. Sat on my kitchen floor with a bottle of vodka at a low point. Thank u for making me feel understood and less alone once again. Love you kat♥️
"losing someone feels like dying"
I’ve never seen my thoughts and feelings represented in such an artistic, beautiful yet soul crushing way. I found myself sympathizing with myself, accepting some parts of me that i subconsciously demeaned. “Tell me you’re not my enemy.” Really stuck with me, i just want to know that for once someone understands, fully. And i hope everyone else gets that reassurance one day as well.
I have never felt this validated. I began to cry when I heard, “I can understand why you’re afraid of me because I am too” that is something I live with almost every day, being afraid of myself, feeling terrible for the fear I instill in others. I’ve grown so much and still, even through it all, learning to cope, heal, name emotions, and open up, even though all people only see a monster. I know, though, I deserve love and happiness just like any other person. This video means so much to me, and it helps immensely to validate me. Thank you for making it, and thank you for giving this validation to so many others who have BPD too
Wow, just wow.
I'm a 26 years old man diagnosed with BPD and I've researched BPD a lot, read articles, read books, watched TH-cam videos, investigated my mind, learnt most of my triggers, I understand this disorder quite well, and this video is probably the best I've seen on TH-cam describing how it is to live with BPD.
I am quite stable now, my mental health is good and my life is good at the moment, I am not emotional (in comparison to bad times when I'd cry from anything) and you made me weep.
Thank you for this!
How did u cure it
I have never felt so understood in my entire life. Thank you so much, thank you for letting me know that I’m not alone in this world anymore.
I can't express how hard is just to have a 15min of reality in a day , I can't express how hard it is to express how u feel when your emotions are changing constantly and when they don't change you just feel empty I can't explain how on edge you are when you are so close to try and change your name and move to another city just to build some stable character because atm u don't know who u are and you don't know what is reality anymore ... I changed 7 psychiatrists this year because it's so hard to admit some things .. I want to say I am grateful for your channel and I hope you are doing well ❤
0:20 THE BEGINNING
1:50 EXTREMES & IMPULSIVITY
3:44 ABANDONMENT
6:15 FAVOURITE PERSON
8:00 SPLITTING
9:26 EMPTINESS & LACK OF IDENTITY
11:10 QUIET BORDERLINE
12:27 GETING THROUGH AN EPISODE
14:18 THE END
Z tym kłamaniem o sobie też jest tak, że właściwie nie wiemy co jest prawdą o nas samych. I mówiąc coś czujemy się jak oszuści bo nie do końca czujemy, żeby te słowa nas określały.
:(
"Sadness feels like suicide , anger feels like murder , loving is loosing control , loosing someone is dying , happiness in unbelievable euphoria and feeling normal is like nothing i hate to admit it but sometimes I become a walking breathing mindfield for anyone that interacts with me "
Beautifully said and explained really accurate ❤️❤️ people who don't have BPD can understand it you have given words to so many silent voices ❣️ thank you really appreciate your work 3:12
Brakuje troszkę na temat ryzykownych zachowań autodestrukcyjnych, izolowaniu się od ludzi, myślach samobójczych i samookaleczeniu się… ale ogólnie 11/10 :) Ujęcia piękne. Widać, ze spędziłaś dużo czasu na zrozumieniu tego zaburzenia, bo klip bardzo pasuje. Dziękuje Ci, długo czekałam na film, z którym będę mogła się utożsamić 🥰
Thank you so much! Waited for a BPD video since I founded you few years ago.
This is perfect. Thank you so much for this.
Wonderfully and detailed, deep description of BPD.
I felt so seen and understood and when someone asks me how I am, I literally give up at answering due to the chaos I have in my mind.
Thank you for this video, it's so beautiful, to say the least.
I was waiting for this one .I suffer from borderline personality disorder and seriously I never feel normal its always very loud in my head .
Kasiu... Naprawdę nie da się tego w lepszy sposób opisać. Ten ból, ta pustka.. po trzech minutach płaczę jak dziecko, czuję się zrozumiany. Dziękuję.
It’s been a while since my extremes have flared up, but this is the video I needed to see that I know I’m not alone. I’ve gone through years of therapy and still going to them to find coping skills that help me manage my episodes, impulsive acts and splits. I know i’m never going to be “normal” but now I am able to manage them gracefully. Communication with someone safe who truly understands is key, could be a friend, sibling, therapist even, talking about it helps greatly at least for me. I know I still go through rough days where I’m still in that rollercoaster, at least now I’m not as intense as I used to be. I’m thankful for my journey and yes anyone could do it too, it’s a scary and messy process but trust me, learning to cope and manage your emotions will improve your life in so many ways. I know for all the people who suffer with this mental illness can get there. I did it, you can too! ♥️
Such a beautiful yet scary sentences we have in this film. I... never felt so understood in my life.
Thank you for putting so much time and energy on this video. I know is so not easy to address. I have BPD and I thank you for putting content related to this disorder, It helps us to have more visibility and feel heard
Hugs and well wishes
I really appreciate your work. I felt understood and at the same time i saw how much i left behind me. After six years of therapy i'm still living with bpd.
But now i can live with this and to everybody who watch this... One day we are going to live without this. It just take time and a lot of hard work.
Anyway. Amazing video, as always breathtaking.
bpd is incurable. just treatable. ive been in therapy 6 years too. youll hacve it 4 life use it to be stronger, find your strengths through your uniqueness,, aqdn make the best of it
Thank you so much for this video. It really helped put into words what I am going through!!
I have BPD, DTD, social anxiety, CPTSD, Depression and anxiety. I love these vids Thankyou.
i'm in tears. i've never felt so understood. thank you for this wonderful video!
okkkay, wow, I didn't expect THIS! 😱 This is a whole movie! And sooooo good, wowwww. The visuals are so magical.🖤🌓
This is the only media on this subject I’ve felt like understood the most. I listen to this multiple times a week to feel less alone. I’m so glad I can access this video again
The way you describe things is just so satisfying.. like wow this is exactly how I feel .
I keep listening to this daily I just feel soo understood and relieved, your videos really help a lot of people and I’m one of them
Bruuuuuh I saw a fair bit of my email in there (among the many, many other intense and valid experiences you've curated for this video). Surreal experience aside, this video was beautifully constructed, and the time and effort spent on the project was well worth it. Thank you for all the work you do
This has me balling cuZ this is EXACTLY how I feel all the time
it feels so good to have people who understand my bpd this made me feel like i can actually understand myself:)
Thank you. I’ve been watching your videos since your living with depression video 6 years ago. I tried making my own version of it as well for my arts class which I received a lot of praise for. Your videos never fail, and this one especially. I have never felt so understood. I am in literal tears, thank you so much. This video made me reflect on actions that I have done in previous relationships, you have inspired me once again. Thank you again so much for understanding me.
Btw after seeing your video I went to get diagnosed and I finally found out I have severe anxiety, ADHD and BPD. Thank you.
I have depression, anxiety with BPD traits. Videos like this make me feel validated ❤❤ never stop making these
Didn't know nothing about this disorder but now I feel understood.. Thank you so much :)
One of the best videos on BPD on the internet.
Thank you for your efforts in putting this together. 🙏
Your vids are always so aesthetically pleasing and inspirational
thank you, thank you! i've waited for it since 2017 i think. thank you again. you're the best! thank you.
Finally.... Thank you♥️ I 've waited along long time for this type of video
I’m sorry I couldn’t manage my symptoms, Chansea. I’ll always love you- I wish we could have said goodbye. I’m so lost.
I was trying to name my emotions for such a long time and that video is just like a mirror of my brain. I'm all in tears and I can't find a words to say how grateful I am for what you're doing.
I need to comment. I can't continue without thanking you for this incredibly beautiful, honest, accurate and relatable description. Sending love from another with this sometimes unbearable affliction.
I’ve recognized one of my phrases in there. Thank you.
There are quite a few from so many other people as well. Thank you for sending an email. ♥️
@@KatAmarie for sure there are! Can’t even imagine how hard it was to 1) shape a whole solid piece out of them 2) to let all of those feelings through yourself while creating this video.
This is truly an amazing one. Thank you once again
I always recommend this video to people as the best description of borderline personality disorder that I have come across and find myself returning here to watch and listen. You really have done a great service for people who suffer from this illness. It usually brings me to tears feeling so understood. The stigma against us is still harsh and this helps so much to serve as a guide for what it's like to inhabit our skin. Thank you! 💜 Better than a DSM manual.
I can't stop crying
It's immense shame of hurting those we love the most
I don’t think I’ve ever felt so understood in my entire life and it’s scary man
This is beautiful and astonishing.
Every second of this video describes BPD like nothing else before. This is exactly how I feel on a daily basis, this is exactly me.
Thank you so much for creating this masterpiece, we have been waiting for a long time, but it was worth the wait. Beautifully done.
Thank you a lot, I was asking from months and I don't truly believed that you were working on it but thanks really, it was very touching and scary seeing my feelings and my emotion portraid in such a deep way.
I’ve been on anxiety and Bpd hit up lightztripz on Instagram has helped me out he has honey and mushrooms and other products formicrodosing 😌
@@laurakim459 thanks for the advice but I don't think that mushrooms can cure bpd'sintoms. Instead my medical therapy is helping me figuring out
The accuracy of this is extraordinary. I’ve never found a video that explains my disorder so well! It makes me sad but this is how I am.
Kat, thank you. I felt it deep down in myself that I might struggle with this. That's why I got panic attack while watching this. I'm not blaming you, no... It's about myself not your work. I actually appreciate that you put alot of work to public something that could touch my heart. That's impressive.
This is just beautiful, thank you for showing what we, people with BPD, experience every day. It means so much!
I’ve been on anxiety and Bpd hit up lightztripz on Instagram has helped me out he has honey and mushrooms and other products formicrodosing 😌
I love this video so much! Thank you! I've never felt so understood!
Kat thank u
immensely for this. I’m in a therapy for more than 5 years and I’ve never felt understood by a person like I do right now. You are describing feelings I cannot describe by words. Or I'm rather scared of that.
I got tears iny eyes while watching it because i felt like i am watching my own story . which is full of agony in everyday life 😔GREAT WORK AND THANK YOU
4:41 hit me the hardest...... I've never really been able to keep a friend. I've considered people my best friends where I took them on vacation, dedicated my birthday just to spend with them, etc. They ALL left me for other people, with no explanation. I've said happy birthday to them, with no response or left on opened. I never, ever truly know how someone feels about me because I've been abandoned with false hope and security ALL MY LIFE. Everyone I have ever cared for has left me in the dust and that probably hurts more than absolutely anything to me..... I've always wanted friends who asked ME to hangout first, to text ME first and want ME to be their friend.... loneliness is the worst part about it because you're stuck with your feelings constantly.
it’s so hard pushing away the people you love most. i did that to my sister and would do things to hurt her or disrespect her without my control and then hate myself for not knowing why i did it.
I have BPD, and a few other disorders. I have never watched anything that depicts this disorder correctly and this does so well. Thank you.
I've no words...like literally it describes me in every way...the accuracy tho>
Kasiu, to jest piękne. Niesamowite jak bardzo dosłowny sam w sobie jest ten film. Thank you
I don't think myself to be an artist in any form, nor a true critic, but these videos simply have me coming back. The content itself is certainly of interest, however the style and care that is gone into making them is quite a joy in my eyes. Keep on keeping on miss Napiorkowska.
This is the video that I seen you worked really hard on. And seeing it on a complete state is very beautiful and also personal to those who sent out the emails.
Thank you so much for continuing and completing this project. This is beautiful
I finally understand what's going on. Im so deeply scared. I feel like I'm being torn apart by my own guilt and shame. I thought my emotions were normal, but they are so much stronger than that. I legitimately couldn't tell that those sudden changes and painful reactions were not just the average experience, even though I knew the way I reacted to certain things was never right. I have to get help and I have to talk to someone. Thank you for this video.
Thank you! Sometimes I feel so alone and like no one else gets it but this video profoundly demonstrates I am not alone.
Oglądam cię od bardzo dawna. Twoje filmy są poruszające i trafiają w sedno. Czasami wyrażają to czego sama nie potrafiłabym opisać. Jesteś wspaniałą artystką i mam nadzieję, że będziesz tworzyć i tworzyć, bo ludzie cię uwielbiają.
This was a very helpful video to explain BPD. While I showed nothing but compassion and empathy to my ex husband who has all the exact symptoms that were described. Where's our help, the innocent people who chose to stay and try to help them. Still to this day, I left him 3 years ago and still I get nothing but abuse from him. Respect goes to those that recognise that they need help but for the others who play the victim, they make me sick to the core. He broke me and our 4 children all the while everyone is on his side while he claims me and the kids to be the bad ones. Sort yourselves out, yous are not the only ones who have been neglected and abused in childhood!
Abuse is never ok, sometimes BPD is more complex than that though
Everything about it is Beautiful and on point. Thank you Kat.❤
I have so many lost friendships due to stupid, trivial things such as mistrust, being defensive because I took something wrong or just because I get hurt easily. I made a list of ppl no longer in my life Ive pushed away or blocked on social media. Some deserved it but most didnt. By the time I realize how impulsive and irrational it was, it's too late. They wont forgive me. Im twice divorced. Im 50 and still feel broken. The song by Diamante, "Unlovable " describes how I feel. That song makes me cry, just like this video. Thank you for sharing.
My mother would stalk people & drive by a surgeon & his wife’s house thousands of times as a young child . The idolization is super intense
Thank you this is how it feels I will share this to my loved one.. I hope they stay best video of course dramatized as our minds in an hour glass
“I knock them off the pedestal they don’t even know they’ve been elevated to.” Dammmmmmmmnnnnnnnnnn
Wow this is amazing video that is both a work of art and informative. Thank you for the time, energy, and effort you put into undoing misinformation with truth. 💜
Such sorrow so beautifully articulated…
Thank-You beautiful soul, you have a way with words, & have used it to help us all with BPD to feel heard, understood & validated, bless you…
Jestem ekstremalnie pod wrażeniem jak mocne jest to co zrobiłaś i jakiego researchu to wymagało. Wow. Naprawdę.
Thank you for including quiet borderline
Nice video.. and all the descriptions seem to fit what my child is and has gone through. However the MONSTER that lives with in and never goes away.. with a ton of hard work, therapy, DBT and if needed the right medications BPD can be happy and usefully WHOLE. there are BPD people to the extreme who after years of hard work and a plan for mental health you would never know they have or ever had issues.
It has been a long road for us. Tons of pain, expense and lost opportunities but there is healing. BPD are already stigmatized and the diagnosis considered tragic. And it is a very serious condition. But to the new person to all of this there is more to this video and that is one of change, methods not just to cope the crazy episodes but turn them into joy and connection.
So get a therapist, read a book, get into DBT and begin a new (HARD) and wonderful new life
This used to be my every day. I was diagnosed in 2017 and I remember everyday as painful and lonely, scary and empty. I'm so glad I was able to get treatment that I continue to this day because I'm in a much much more stable place and these things are barely noticeable to me anymore.
You said the words i couldn’t say to describe myself. Thank you.
Ja, osoba z tym zaburzeniem - dziękuję Ci. Po prostu dziękuję.
Describes me perfectly. Having bpd is a constant battle for survival
I'm tears.. this is INCREDIBLY !
I still haven't fully finished the video so far but after the part about abandonment, I needed to pause.
It resonates so extremely with me, with how I feel and how I act.
For years I would feel that way and burn bridges between friends, who just want to help me - for years I wouldn't know why I do this. I am now getting the professional I need and can finally put a name to my way of feeling and thinking.