You are so nice to forgive them, they all knew and were staying away because one drug addict was already a lot to deal with. They wanted hon to heal and for this reason they were keeping you far from him, your mom and the offspring(s) she has produced. You are so right to smile and do not stop at that. He will die in peace.
You deserve all the compliments. They were afraid that he will die young like your mom, co down faster. It was not sure you were his child and they wanted to protect everyone and themselves too. Les be this family, they look like friendly decent folks:
I just heard something on a Christian radio station here that your last two videos triggered a memory of. A lady was having a very hard time forgiving someone, she said she finally just asked God to forgive them through her because all of her methods were not working. She then said she immediately felt peace, because all of the pressure was off of her to try to figure it out. God healed her heart by extending forgiveness for this person from Him through her.
Mrs. Garcia, Thank you so much for sharing this comment with Zoe, & indirectly with me. I have struggled for over 64 years with an inability to forgive someone for the horrors of my childhood. I will try this method in hopes of achieving that level of forgiveness. Maybe then he can die in a level of peace. GOD BLESS!
But you were cool Zoe. Your gift in all this is about knowing yourself and not needing to be “in” to feel special because you are special and the life you were dropped into has given you many strengths. You have exciting times ahead of you and you will bring your strengths to your new family and will gain much more from them. Your relationship with God and understanding how trust in him will always lead into a safe path is wonderful. Good luck in your new phase of your life.
I used to have a drinking problem when I was young. It runs in the family. When I quit abusing alcohol, I wondered at the blue of the sky and the clarity of leaves on the trees--how much sharper the imagery of what I saw daily. The world was so beautiful and I was in awe. I berated myself for the waste of time. You are so smart! In order to quit, I had to replace bad routines for good routines; abandon old haunts and find new haunts. I was lucky to have realized young that some things lead to nowhere, but I believe that having a bad parent enabled me to do that. God's hand placed the birth of me with those parents with long-range sight. Living it was hard at times, but with good results. I see me in you (not meaning to be egotistical because this is your story); I suggest it was not so much that you had to forgive anyone--but rather let go of anger in order to empathize and understand. To many that is the same, except it is different when you actually meet and know someone than when you never have. You have to forgive a person--you feel anger at a situation. If you never knew the person, there is really nothing to forgive; but rather anger to let go of because of your perception of that person. Meeting the person allows you to let go of it. This is one of the many gifts of knowing who you came from.
Wow. That's awesome that God put the pink vase in your path, then the white tulips. All over Easter weekend. What a beautiful, testimony of the Savior's grace. Thank you for the powerful reminder to choose forgiveness. I can only imagine the pain of not being acknowledged by a parent and grandparent, and I'm sorry that you, that anyone, has had to go through that. Thank you for your insight that it was a different time, etc. Your insight has helped me realize that there is a need and a way for me to forgive multiple people. Thank you for sharing your journey. Our paths are not identical, but the principles still apply. Your vulnerability has blessed me.
I dont think you were too hard on him honesty will be help you two bulid a beautiful relationship .I have a uncle who struggles with some stuff I tell him how I feel all the time.sending prayers to you and your father.Its always exciting to hear any positive experiences.Oh I never knew that about white tulips.
Apropos my last comment on a previous video of yours ...... the more I see of your ................. discovery, the more impressive a human being you appear to be, to me! More power to your arm!!!!!!!!!!! Kindest regards indy
The thing about my dad is he is such an amazing man. He really is so loving, thoughtful and kind. I am so blessed to be reunited with him. While I won’t blame myself for him not getting better, I do pray that my children and myself are a catalyst for him to take his health seriously.
Don't you ever say again " I'm going to say or do something to wreck it" !!! SPEAK LIFE ! You're way too hard on yourself ! You're a Daughter of Zion, child of Almighty God, accepted, loved, and adored !!! You're story is truly inspiring as I embark in a similar journey of my on ! I consider it divinely providential ! God bless you Zoe and thanks for sharing your story !
@@zoejohnson892 your story is incredible ! Truly inspiring ! And who knows, maybe God orchestrated this reunion for you to share the love of Jesus with your Dad. I'm praying the Holy Spirit lead and direct you on how to minister to him, and lead him to salvation !
I am praying for healing for him. He’s such a great guy and he knows about Jesus. It’s the leaning on Him in hard times that is hard for my dad (and for me too sometimes!). Thank you for your positive comment! It means a lot to me.
I wasn’t the cool kid either. Missed out on all the ‘fun’ too. Hard to go threw but glad my right/wrong guide is there. I’ve made other mistakes but have persevered . God bless you and all your new family as you discover all the love
I know that moms can make decisions in life that we may not understand but one decision that your mom made that We are grateful for is that she decided to keep you Zoe. Otherwise we would not have this amazing life story that you so tenderly convey.
Acceptance is a form forgiveness. you alone set the parameters of your relationship with your dad and with your new found family. you also need to decide when and if they will intervene with your husband and children. I raised my grandson and I had to tell his biological father that he was not allowed to take my grandson if I could smell alcohol on his breath.
You have not said what issues your dad has had, but even so I can tell from what you don't say that the dad of someone I know that never was a part of his child's life, it was SO much better than had he been. I am specifically speaking of issues with pedophilia. Sometimes mothers protect their children from such a father (and fathers from mothers with the same issue), and it is not something that can be told to the child before they are young adults if at all possible. I'm just saying this because I know that a LOT of people put the idea of finding their parent(s) on a pedestal, and they could be setting themselves up for some devastation.
I didn’t get a chance to tell the whole story, so I can see why you and some others may be confused. My mother told me that my father did not support my birth. She made it clear to me that she told my bio dad about me and he denied my existence. My bio dad’s mother received my baby picture in the mail (sent by my mother, confirmed by my paternal family) and also denied my relation. That is why I have to constantly work on forgiving.
Zoe, You are not responsible for your Bio-Dad. You are responsible for you & the children you birthed till they reach their adulthood. It is up to you & your husband to protect your babies from potential harm. Remember to 'Error is human, to forgive is devine.' Question: does your Bio-Dad have any other children that he knows of? In otherworld do you have any half-siblings? GOD BLESS! Place your faith in the LORD.
It has been so fascinating to follow your journey! I would love to email you if that is possible!? I can post my email if that is best. If you prefer to keep all communication on youtube, I totally understand that!
Thank you so much! I would love to email or communicate! My email address is orphannolonger24@gmail.com I can also be found on Instagram @Zoejohnsondna and Facebook facebook.com/zoejohnsondna
Terri - you are not the first person that has said this. I think you're right, but I also think it was good for me to be cautious. Thanks for joining me on this journey! Sending my love!
So everything that’s happened in this journey of claiming your whole identity. Forgiveness aspect of this period in your life, shouldn’t be held against anyone with whom you just met from your paternal side of you kinship.if your paternal grandmother knew of your existence and held it in secret, then that might have been an agreement between your mother and her. Look, at it this way. She wholeheartedly is accepting you now without any hesitation with an open arms as being a true member of that part of their clan, and because your mother is out of the equation, which means the agreement they made is no longer valid. Here’s another point I disagree with. In God I believe in, but not in any organized religion, due to all deaths related to divergent view points of the same subject. But it was Science, that gave you the this opportunity to connect to your other half of your DNA identity with a kit, and a smart phone to allow you to connect to and to be connected with, in real time to get this endeavor underway. Now had your mother been forth coming with this information about your father being alive. You could have been saved from all this anxiety and stress and felt whole as a person all you life rather than just the past three years so far, and counting. What God did do for you was give you the strength, stamina, intelligence, wisdom, and hope to persevere in life after your mom died to succeed. And now being a good mother, wife, and being a loving person to all you met. And lastly the physical beauty you have been gifted with.
Gail Torricellas I’m not sure if you have watched all the videos in this series or not. This is a very emotional time for everyone involved. Zoe is doing this to help others and share her feelings on a very sensitive subject . Zoe is very brave for putting all of this in a public forum. Then YOU come along and attempt to rain on her parade. Apparently you haven’t been taught it’s better to say nothing than to say something nasty. How about you MOVE ON!!!
Lol! There are always haters. No worries. Thanks for sticking up for me. I try to take the high ground when I read comments like Gail’s. Brene Brown speaks about “being in the arena” and this was quoted in her book: ““It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly.”
Gail- you realize this is a story about her and what she's gone through during this experience, right? What triggered such bitterness, and such a harsh comment? What ever is was, I hope YOU'll be ok. Definitely sounded like it came from a place of pain or need for attention. Btw, I love your name.
You are so nice to forgive them, they all knew and were staying away because one drug addict was already a lot to deal with. They wanted hon to heal and for this reason they were keeping you far from him, your mom and the offspring(s) she has produced. You are so right to smile and do not stop at that. He will die in peace.
Thank you Marie.
You deserve all the compliments. They were afraid that he will die young like your mom, co down faster. It was not sure you were his child and they wanted to protect everyone and themselves too. Les be this family, they look like friendly decent folks:
You have such a big heart I'm really impressed omg and your story is really inspirational and interesting, you have all my love and support!
I just heard something on a Christian radio station here that your last two videos triggered a memory of. A lady was having a very hard time forgiving someone, she said she finally just asked God to forgive them through her because all of her methods were not working. She then said she immediately felt peace, because all of the pressure was off of her to try to figure it out. God healed her heart by extending forgiveness for this person from Him through her.
Yes! It’s so true! God can do so much healing when we can’t. Give it to God. ✝️👍❤️
Mrs. Garcia, Thank you so much for sharing this comment with Zoe, & indirectly with me. I have struggled for over 64 years with an inability to forgive someone for the horrors of my childhood. I will try this method in hopes of achieving that level of forgiveness. Maybe then he can die in a level of peace.
GOD BLESS!
But you were cool Zoe. Your gift in all this is about knowing yourself and not needing to be “in” to feel special because you are special and the life you were dropped into has given you many strengths. You have exciting times ahead of you and you will bring your strengths to your new family and will gain much more from them. Your relationship with God and understanding how trust in him will always lead into a safe path is wonderful. Good luck in your new phase of your life.
I have been in Tulsa for 13 years and I haven't seen any of my family in a long time. It's good to hear about my aunt and cousins.
The white tulips tho... you’re “not gonna cry" but I sure did. Awe so sweet... coincidence?.. I think not. ♥️
Raquel - I agree! It was totally God!
I used to have a drinking problem when I was young. It runs in the family. When I quit abusing alcohol, I wondered at the blue of the sky and the clarity of leaves on the trees--how much sharper the imagery of what I saw daily. The world was so beautiful and I was in awe. I berated myself for the waste of time. You are so smart! In order to quit, I had to replace bad routines for good routines; abandon old haunts and find new haunts. I was lucky to have realized young that some things lead to nowhere, but I believe that having a bad parent enabled me to do that. God's hand placed the birth of me with those parents with long-range sight. Living it was hard at times, but with good results. I see me in you (not meaning to be egotistical because this is your story); I suggest it was not so much that you had to forgive anyone--but rather let go of anger in order to empathize and understand. To many that is the same, except it is different when you actually meet and know someone than when you never have. You have to forgive a person--you feel anger at a situation. If you never knew the person, there is really nothing to forgive; but rather anger to let go of because of your perception of that person. Meeting the person allows you to let go of it. This is one of the many gifts of knowing who you came from.
You are so eloquent in your messaging. Thank you again for relating.
Wow. That's awesome that God put the pink vase in your path, then the white tulips. All over Easter weekend. What a beautiful, testimony of the Savior's grace. Thank you for the powerful reminder to choose forgiveness. I can only imagine the pain of not being acknowledged by a parent and grandparent, and I'm sorry that you, that anyone, has had to go through that. Thank you for your insight that it was a different time, etc. Your insight has helped me realize that there is a need and a way for me to forgive multiple people. Thank you for sharing your journey. Our paths are not identical, but the principles still apply. Your vulnerability has blessed me.
I dont think you were too hard on him honesty will be help you two bulid a beautiful relationship .I have a uncle who struggles with some stuff I tell him how I feel all the time.sending prayers to you and your father.Its always exciting to hear any positive experiences.Oh I never knew that about white tulips.
Apropos my last comment on a previous video of yours ...... the more I see of your ................. discovery, the more impressive a human being you appear to be, to me!
More power to your arm!!!!!!!!!!!
Kindest regards
indy
You are so kind! Blessings to you!
Zoe,
You have courage and I so enjoyed the story. More to come.
Robin - your support is truly appreciated! Thank you!
a photo album is not narcissistic, it'a thoughtful and open.
Thank you! He really liked the album.
I am hoping you are the catalyst for my cousin to change his life around. Of course change for himself. I know of his struggles all too well.
The thing about my dad is he is such an amazing man. He really is so loving, thoughtful and kind. I am so blessed to be reunited with him. While I won’t blame myself for him not getting better, I do pray that my children and myself are a catalyst for him to take his health seriously.
What a beautiful lady you are with a big heart...
Thank you Mahmoud! You are too kind!
Don't you ever say again " I'm going to say or do something to wreck it" !!! SPEAK LIFE ! You're way too hard on yourself ! You're a Daughter of Zion, child of Almighty God, accepted, loved, and adored !!! You're story is truly inspiring as I embark in a similar journey of my on ! I consider it divinely providential ! God bless you Zoe and thanks for sharing your story !
Thank you John for the good reminder. Sometimes I am too hard on myself. I appreciate your words of truth.
@@zoejohnson892 your story is incredible ! Truly inspiring ! And who knows, maybe God orchestrated this reunion for you to share the love of Jesus with your Dad. I'm praying the Holy Spirit lead and direct you on how to minister to him, and lead him to salvation !
The God we serve is Awesome!!! And You are an amazing, Godly woman! Blessings in your new journey.
I'm am so happy for you and your family god bless .
Thank you Jimmy!
But you are a big part of the reason why he will change!!!! Amen!!!
I am praying for healing for him. He’s such a great guy and he knows about Jesus. It’s the leaning on Him in hard times that is hard for my dad (and for me too sometimes!). Thank you for your positive comment! It means a lot to me.
I wasn’t the cool kid either. Missed out on all the ‘fun’ too. Hard to go threw but glad my right/wrong guide is there. I’ve made other mistakes but have persevered . God bless you and all your new family as you discover all the love
Thank you for relating to me this way! In the end, our true friends stick around, even if we don’t do drugs with them. Thanks for your comment!
I know that moms can make decisions in life that we may not understand but one decision that your mom made that We are grateful for is that she decided to keep you Zoe. Otherwise we would not have this amazing life story that you so tenderly convey.
Thank you so much for your kind words and your support in this journey.
Acceptance is a form forgiveness. you alone set the parameters of your relationship with your dad and with your new found family. you also need to decide when and if they will intervene with your husband and children. I raised my grandson and I had to tell his biological father that he was not allowed to take my grandson if I could smell alcohol on his breath.
Jean - you are very wise to set boundaries. Thank you for your comment.
Random question.. what lipstick do you have on? It’s so prettyyytt
Lipstick: Glam II + Liner: Whirl all by Mac 😘
just sad you do not show us your family would have loved to see them
Here is the link to the video with photos! 😍 th-cam.com/video/dLM0ldEs8MA/w-d-xo.html
And this video also has lots of photos ❤️ th-cam.com/video/xoKMlT9_j28/w-d-xo.html
It is a great story.
You’re the most Beautiful Woman inside and out!
Your support and kind words are touching. Thank you!
You have not said what issues your dad has had, but even so I can tell from what you don't say that the dad of someone I know that never was a part of his child's life, it was SO much better than had he been. I am specifically speaking of issues with pedophilia. Sometimes mothers protect their children from such a father (and fathers from mothers with the same issue), and it is not something that can be told to the child before they are young adults if at all possible. I'm just saying this because I know that a LOT of people put the idea of finding their parent(s) on a pedestal, and they could be setting themselves up for some devastation.
Thank you so much for this comment. I can especially relate to the last bit. You are wise for knowing this. I appreciate your viewership.
I’m confused. Why do you need to forgive your father? He didn’t reach out to you because he didn’t know you existed. Not because he didn’t care.
I didn’t get a chance to tell the whole story, so I can see why you and some others may be confused. My mother told me that my father did not support my birth. She made it clear to me that she told my bio dad about me and he denied my existence. My bio dad’s mother received my baby picture in the mail (sent by my mother, confirmed by my paternal family) and also denied my relation. That is why I have to constantly work on forgiving.
Zoe Johnson I’m so sorry. That’s awful.
Zoe, You are not responsible for your Bio-Dad. You are responsible for you & the children you birthed till they reach their adulthood. It is up to you & your husband to protect your babies from potential harm.
Remember to 'Error is human, to forgive is devine.'
Question: does your Bio-Dad have any other children that he knows of? In otherworld do you have any half-siblings?
GOD BLESS! Place your faith in the LORD.
I’m the only child he knows of.
It has been so fascinating to follow your journey! I would love to email you if that is possible!? I can post my email if that is best. If you prefer to keep all communication on youtube, I totally understand that!
Thank you so much! I would love to email or communicate! My email address is orphannolonger24@gmail.com
I can also be found on Instagram @Zoejohnsondna and Facebook facebook.com/zoejohnsondna
I think you need to stop overthinking every detail. You are robbing yourself of the joy of each moment.
Terri - you are not the first person that has said this. I think you're right, but I also think it was good for me to be cautious. Thanks for joining me on this journey! Sending my love!
So everything that’s happened in this journey of claiming your whole identity. Forgiveness aspect of this period in your life, shouldn’t be held against anyone with whom you just met from your paternal side of you kinship.if your paternal grandmother knew of your existence and held it in secret, then that might have been an agreement between your mother and her. Look, at it this way. She wholeheartedly is accepting you now without any hesitation with an open arms as being a true member of that part of their clan, and because your mother is out of the equation, which means the agreement they made is no longer valid. Here’s another point I disagree with. In God I believe in, but not in any organized religion, due to all deaths related to divergent view points of the same subject. But it was Science, that gave you the this opportunity to connect to your other half of your DNA identity with a kit, and a smart phone to allow you to connect to and to be connected with, in real time to get this endeavor underway. Now had your mother been forth coming with this information about your father being alive. You could have been saved from all this anxiety and stress and felt whole as a person all you life rather than just the past three years so far, and counting. What God did do for you was give you the strength, stamina, intelligence, wisdom, and hope to persevere in life after your mom died to succeed. And now being a good mother, wife, and being a loving person to all you met. And lastly the physical beauty you have been gifted with.
You like to talk to much about you! Move on !!!
😂
Gail Torricellas I’m not sure if you have watched all the videos in this series or not. This is a very emotional time for everyone involved. Zoe is doing this to help others and share her feelings on a very sensitive subject . Zoe is very brave for putting all of this in a public forum. Then YOU come along and attempt to rain on her parade. Apparently you haven’t been taught it’s better to say nothing than to say something nasty. How about you MOVE ON!!!
Lol! There are always haters. No worries. Thanks for sticking up for me. I try to take the high ground when I read comments like Gail’s. Brene Brown speaks about “being in the arena” and this was quoted in her book:
““It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly.”
Zoe Johnson 💜💕💜
Gail- you realize this is a story about her and what she's gone through during this experience, right? What triggered such bitterness, and such a harsh comment? What ever is was, I hope YOU'll be ok. Definitely sounded like it came from a place of pain or need for attention. Btw, I love your name.