Before the world programmed me, I was super social, fun, had no insecurities and genuinely loved dancing. Now I'm extremely introverted, emotionally sensitive, anxious and insecure. But things are better now, I actually love myself so much now.
I am so grateful for all the advice on social media. Without guys like you, I would still think, that everything other people said about me, is true. I love this community ❤ it gives me a lot of strength
@@naschy0078 honestly same. I feel sorry for people who haven't discovered their self journey because although it can be messy sometimes, coming into terms with yourself never felt better. No ones words of validation will ever mean as much as your own. It's truly heaven.
*when you're talking about how hard it is to look back on pictures where you look conventionally beautiful, i felt that on a **_spiritual_** level. When I had long hair, looked really natural and wore 'feminine' clothing, I was **_pretty_** according to societal standards. But I was not confident in myself at all. Now that I have a shaved head, enjoy wearing heavy eyeliner and wear a hybrid of aesthetics, I feel so much more confident because I look like _ME_. Don't get me wrong I still feel insecure about certain things but I remind myself to not view myself with the male gaze and know that I am authentically myself. GO SHAVE YOUR HEAD IF YOU WANT TO it really has forced me to be comfortable in my appearance and also **#bodyneutrality*
I have thought about it for like two years until i shaved my head one year ago and it was just about the best thing eveer!! I feel so free- I just don`t care anymore what people think! Sometimes I go out with oversized jeans and oversized shirt and sometimes i "dress up" and.. it`s honestly just great.
one thing I was always scared of is changing. I used to hold this mindset that I can only define who I am as a person once. For example, in school, I thought the major I chose would define the rest of my career trajectory and I had to stay that person back in freshmen year who chose that major. But I realized that everyone evolves and youre allowed to redefine yourself at any point of your life. We dont have to uphold the image of someone we thought we were going to be from years ago. I know you talked about changing hair but I think the idea of being able to reinvent yourself goes across all facets of life! yay to letting go of limiting beliefs about ourselves!!
yes! one thing about being young is that we feel that- everything (our partners, friends, jobs) is so permanent, and all of our emotions are so BIG. like everything seems to be the end of the world or so core-shaking. it's a blessing to feel so deeply but we have so much more life to live! the only constant in life is change. i love this, sam!
Ok not gonna lie, when I first started watching your videos, I wasn't a huge fan. I didn't know why, but even though I felt that way, I had the urge to stick around and continue to watch your videos. As months and years passed, I realized I had negative feelings towards you because you are like my childhood self. Positive, but also secretly (was) self loathing, happy, looks at the world with genuine eyes, cares about others and what's going on in the world. I think subconsciously I was mad at myself for losing that part of my important childhood and I took it out on you (I never wrote anything negative, just all in my head haha). As I become older and realize a lot of things about myself and become more and more ok with myself, I see you for who you really are. The negative feelings are all gone. You're the person I look forward to to get inspired, to feel better about myself and feel empowered. Mostly importantly, you made me find my childhood self again. Be happy, love everything - especially yourself! life is too fucking short! Thank you!
yes!! i always say - what you see in me is what you have in yourself (the good, bad, and the neutral). we are all mirrors, projecting our realities. im sooo v happy that youre starting to reclaim who youve always been- an amazing authentic SOUL!
@@RainBow-wp2lv I absolutely agree. It's a shitty thing for me to do to someone and I truly feel bad for doing that to her and probably to others around me. Miserable people are infectious and I would never want to be that person again I've learned a lot from Amy and I thank her so much for being kind and so open that people like me can learn from her.
This came at the perfect time. Yesterday I watched the movie "little" and the quote that stuck with me was along the lines of "you already know who you are when you're little, its the world that beats you out of it"
it would be insane if you started a podcast! i definitely felt you when you were talking about how your hair was a blanket and it was a main factor that defined your beauty. i bleached my hair and dyed it green as well after a breakup, and havent been able to get it back to the dark brown i had before ...
in the works!!! i swear LOL. and u need to tag me in a pic! i need to see this amazing green hair! and itll take time to grow fully back but im sure it'll get there :-)
@@amy_lee I'm so excited! I think it'd be amazing to hear about your spiritual journey in more depth too, I'd love to listen to you on bus journeys, and just in my room too. I love the way that you speak and what you say not only resonates, but makes sense! :)
Fun fact: i also identify as an ogre but.... i've always kept my hair short because in my mind "only pretty girls can have long pretty luxious hair" and i didn't deserve that. i've finally let my hair grow and i'm really taking care of it and i'm starting to feel like a princess and that makes me happy. it's so fun how everyone sees beauty so differently
Amy, I love how much you've changed. Having seen your trajectory it has been nothing short of courageous and inspiring for many. Using your platform to inspire growth in others is such a noble undertaking even if it wasn't the original intent. I always say that we are not meant to live life for someone else but for ourselves. I'd rather live the meager life of my own than the inauthentic opulent life of another. You never escape your souls purpose. From one soul to another!!
wow this was so poetic u____u thank you so much! im so happy my channel/content could help support your OWN evolution in any way. keep going, you are doing great ! YES TO LIVING FOR OURSELVES
I love seeing women want to deepen their relationship with themselves cut their hair/shave their head during that process (I'm mixed with black and white, so seeing women outside the black community show that hair isn't "just hair" makes me so happy).
this video made me cry!! i resonated so much with everything you said. im also 26 and STILL hold on so much to what i thought i was, and wasnt allowed to do or be. even just silly stuff. there are soo many exaamples of this! when i was in grade 8, i had homework to draw a self-portrait. i was semi-proud of what i did but didnt allow myself to even let on that i liked it, because my default to insult myself before others could insult me. my art teacher liked it and showed it as an example to the class. but because i made fun of it prior, my friends started laughing at it and i never allowed myself to think i could be good at drawing, even though i took art into the end of school, i never really drew again. now ive been learning to draw as an adult, and lovingg it so much, i bought myself an ipad air for procreate!! when i was in 5th grade , my friend made such a big deal about how ""good"" it was to be a tomboy, and i followed suit. only in the past 2 years ive started to ""allow"" myself to fully love pink?! when i was younger, i thought i was too fat and unattractive to dance. now im taking lessons on steezy studios and i'm terrible, and probably will never do the routines infront of anyone, even my partner, but im having so much fun and honouring 13 year old me.
ahhh i relate to so much of this- to the insulting myself first, my internalized misogyny towards pink (MY FAVE COLOR since i was a child), and dancing!! u know what is so funny, im working with steezy studios LOL so this comment is rly eerily weird and synchronistic! im proud of u for reclaimng yourself :-) you are doing amazing!!!!
Came to add, another way to be nice to your inner kid would be with books you loved as kids! I had this thing where I was like what can I read now I’m in my 20s ?? But the other day I said screw it and ordered myself a Goosebumps book I loved as a kid and it was awesome! I don’t know who makes these phony rules but it’s good when you find out how baloney it all is. Need me some Junie B Jones next 😀
I thought it was just me who felt that I couldn’t cut my hair because I wasn’t confident enough in the rest of my appearance. I keep telling myself that I need to lose weight if I want to cut my hair even though I got compliments when I wore a bobbed wig for a musical.
I just got rid of almost all of my hair and took off nail polish. Reinventing myself kinda became a way to feel happy every few months. It became like constant, fake hair fake nails new clothes constantly just to quell the feeling of dissatisfaction I felt inside, spent weeks looking for new countries to move to and new places. Finally I decided to just stop and cut off my hair and take it all off and live in the nothingness and create that love for life by living it not seeking it!
I’m much older than you (39) but as a fellow first-gen Asian American woman, I feel touched by your journey and the way you’re expressing who you are and working through trauma
What truly makes someone beautiful is when they own themselves completely! So many women are conventionally beautiful, but you can tell that they are not being their most honest self. Shave your head girl! I've done it, and despite it always making my mom mad, I will never take it back! The experience is so liberating and I think every woman should do it at least once in their life. You are beautiful, never doubt that again! When you shave your head, look at yourself in the mirror and see that raw, honest, unquestionable beauty! Rock on, Amy!!
I love this video so much-releasing your inner child and just not giving a fuck about conventions. I've been questioning myself and my purpose for a while, but I feel like your talk about how you're building you sleeve, asking for a sign, and arguing with your parents for the last time was healing for me
I encourage you to check out Mei Pang’s channel. She talks about her journey that led to her shaving all her hair off. Both of you are beautiful souls 💕 Don’t you forget that Amy 🌹
I'm coming across this video so late, but DEAR, SWEET, BEAUTIFUL AMY!!! Thank you, thank you, thank you for always sharing your uniquely beautiful soul to the world. It's so inspirational to see how far you've come and I love that you are able to acknowledge and welcome the wonderful changes you've made for yourself. I'm so proud of you!!!
its so crazy I really believed I was the only one who saw myself as some type of monster because I'm not conventionally pretty and don't have societies standards. we're both uniquely beautiful and at the end of the day, beauty is in the eye of the beholder and our auras attract all that we need 💖💗 much love to you and your loved ones, stay healthy and well rested:)
haha i love the hair talk, i feel like i went through the same journey! never wanting to dye my healthy brown locks, then i bleached it and did every fun color i could think of! last fall i shaved my head and it was the BEST thing- ever!! its so freeing, it was a spiritual journey in itself just cutting it off. now as it grows, i grow yo!
I shaved my head in September 2019 and I had mixed feelings about it. I loved it at first but the growing out process was personally difficult. I felt ugly and out of place everywhere I went but this experience has really changed me. I now see myself differently, I'm more humble. Now I look back at pictures of myself and wish I embraced my buzzcut more. If you're going to shave your head Amy, I say do it! It is a journey
watching you honor your inner child makes me RIDICULOUSLY happy 🥲 i so admire your courage to not only heal her BUT ALSO share your journey on the interwebs!!! thank you amy for always being real 💕
ok WAIT i had the same exact experience regarding sanrio. kind of the same feeling i get when visiting a gucci store nowadays. except the one thing i'd splurge on at sanrio is this one hamburger gummy candy LOL
its my birthday today and im just spending it alone cause my friends are working. this video gave me a little glimmer of hope and happiness so thanks for this :3 your videos always cheer me up
I started collecting dolls last year because I wasn't able to buy any when I was a kid. I am 23 now and seeing you buy toys made me so happy. I was obsessed with Bratz dolls because they were that BITCH!!. I am waiting for the new collection so I can start collecting.
ahh when i saw your sand on your IG story it totally inspired me to treat my inner child! i bought giant painting sets + a journal with a lock (haha) and tons of stickers. makes me sooo happy!!!
I love your videos so much, on my darkest days I like to go through your videos to make me feel better about existing. Right now I’m going through a rough breakup, my first love. It’s been a year but I can’t shake this sadness and feeling of loss. Would love if you could make a video dedicated to first love, heartbreak, and healing afterwards. I love you Amy! Please never stop making videos and spreading your positive vibrations ! 💕✌🏽
Seeing you letting your inner child dance freely on a green field of emotions made me realise how much I needed to do this as well! I might buy some bubble making thing tomorrow and a puzzle to do in my room 🥺 you’re such a blessing to the world dear amy ❤️ I’ve been on your channel for quite some time and I honestly feel honoured to watch you grow and become your authentic self
I love this for you!!! You seem like someone i'd go with a show with or just be goofy together, bc honestly we all have an inner child that is suppressed
You are absolutely amazing. I want to see so much more of you connecting with your inner child! I am doing this process myself and it’s just such a magical time. It’s wonderful seeing you so joyful and connected to the most authentic parts of yourself.
oh my god hearing you talk about how you thought short hair was just meant for pretty girls hit home so hard. i've always had long hair. like to my butt. and i've cut it recently and am struggling to see myself as anything close to beautiful :( I hope i can just let go of my attachment to my hair like you have some day. glad to hear you're thriving and doing well xo
when you spoke about being conventionally pretty all i can say is thank you. i have naturally curly hair that i've hated for my entire life because the world told me that my natural texture isn't beautiful. i chemically straightened my hair for about 8-9 years (i'm 24 now). looking back at photos where my hair was straight/conventionally attractive, i remember how insecure i felt about my hair and how i only ever felt beautiful with straight hair. at the end of june, i decided to chop off most of my hair and go completely natural. i remember when my hair dried curly for the first time i actually started crying because that was the first time in my life where *i* felt truly beautiful. now my closest friends tell me that they see SUCH a difference in my self-confidence after i embraced my curls. i still do have my days and moments where i feel insecure and wish i had long, shiny, straight hair, but that doesn't take away from the fact that i feel so beautiful and myself with my curls and i never thought that would've been possible.
Wow, I really needed to hear that inner child pep talk. It was such a simple message, but I'm turning 27 soon and feel this immense pressure to be more "mature" and sometimes feel like I shouldn't do/wear certain things because I need to "act my age" and it's "cringey". But this was the confirmation I needed to just do what I want, regardless of whether it's "appropriate for my age" or not, thank you 💖
Girlll I can’t tell you how much this video helped me. We seemed to have many of the same childhood experiences and love for the same early 2000s stuff! This really hit home. Thank you!!
the stuff you said starting at 3:20 really resonated with me (and also had me lowkey shocked bc girl, I always think of you as this lovely, stunning, ethereal being inside and out!!) because how you describe feeling about yourself is how I feel about myself too. I think I need to do some deep thinking about what my security blanket is...haha. And also you could totally pull off a shaved head like absoLUTEly you could.
Amy, I have been watching your channel for years (literally grew up watching you) but you have been so inspirational lately. I love watching you grow, manifest your dreams, and blossom into such a self assured person. You are like the older sister I never had. I am now starting my spiritual journey to figure out who I am and who I want to be. I can't wait to truly live my life for me. I honestly don't know if I would be going on this journey now if it wasn't for you and your content. Time to honor my inner child!! Much love xoxo
amy!!! i love the hair!! this videos timing is so crazy because i have recently been struggling with the idea of dying my hair, i was the most conventionally attractive maybe in hs i had long black hair too and since then (that was like 5 years ago) i have had like 7 diff colors like pink and purple but then i shaved it n it was so difficult, i felt so vulnerable and insecure!!! growing it out about now i have a bob and i wanted to go back to pastel pink or blonde but i felt scared because through all my crazy colors and bald head i longed for the safety of my long black hair and wanting to look feminine, girly, dainty and being perceived as beautiful ur little hair speech really hit home and did give me some hope to do whatever with my hair so thank u :)
Just asked my spirit guides for a sign of a butterfly yesterday Was bummed that I didn’t see any, but as I was listening to this video, I glanced down when you mentioned your tattoos and saw your butterfly Goosebumps. Thank you for this Amy 🦋 🐢
I'm SO happy for you Amy! I can tell you feel so much better about yourself! I'm going through this kind of journey myself and not only It helped me be unapologetically me but also explore my sexuality and go back to hobbies from my childhood. Nothing feels as good!
I love you AMY, thank you for all the sharing and how playful you are in this video. It has been a while since I last watched your video and I'm glad I did today. Wish you beauty and sunshine wherever you are.
I'm in awe that you are able to share your story so bravely🥰 Thanks for letting people around the world that they are allowed to love themselves and that they should.
I needed this sort of wake up call. I feel like the universe sent me to watch your video to help reawaken a part of myself I'd be neglecting for a long time. I neglected my needs and what make me feel good about myself just to make the people in my life happy or comfortable around me but thats not me. Thanks for the reminder Amy. I truly needed this today ❤
hi amy :) this video was so inspiring especially the first bit where you talked about how you initially disliked your teal hair and how you looked. I can actually relate to that because I just got my hair dyed and what I had imagined was not at all what I felt after getting my hair done and I was really upset about it because I wanted to use that transformation as a confident booster but it ended up making me feel worse however now I'm slowly growing into it and I'm trying to find confidence not only through my hair but also within my inner self if that makes sense. It was really nice seeing how you took that big step too and didn't really like it at first, it sort of makes me feel like I'm not the only one :)
thank you so much for being so honest & raw about how you feel / view your physical appearance & self. Been going through something very similar lately with my own physical appearance and this video made me realize that I'm not alone
Dear Amy 💖I enjoy watching all your vids since such a long time. You always inspire me to be myself and to appreciate myself. Thank you for being so bold and for celebrating yourself 💕
The red hair looks sooooooo good on you! I love it so much. Maybe I likr it more than the teal one because Im usually more drawn to red or because you are able to embrace it now freely and you are so happy with it. Nevertheless you're gonna be beautiful no matter what hairstyle you are wearing, you're gonna be beautiful. There's a german actress (Emilia Schüle) who went bold and looks absolutely stunning.
i can’t get over how similar we are and how i seem to grow at the same stage as you. Also i recently bought play dough again for the same reason and i’m dying my hair red today hehe x
just wanted to say thank you because I have a hair appointment next week to get a shag cut and I’m so nervous that I won’t be able to pull it off. but i’m going to do it DAMMIT!!!
Oh I felt the exact same about using hair as protection ! 3 years ago I had my hair so long it was touching my butt! but I knew I was keeping it long because "long hair is so beautiful" and I had a very toxic relationship at that time and that person would tell me it looked innocent ?? I had no idea. A few months ago I chopped everything to my ears lol I hated it at first too ! But now it feels so good ! ✨ I've been following you since soo many years now, you inspired me in so many ways ! So happy for your self healing journey Amy 💕
Oh my goodness I love you! You honestly rock that red hair and it looks so gorgeous, you definitely look beautiful. Thank you for spreading such a positive message, we all feel the same at some points in life so you’re not alone ❤️
i used to hide behind long natural brown hair but last year i decided to chop it above my shoulders and dye it blue and i never want to go back. i can’t believe i had myself convinced that long hair = beautiful
wow, i can't believe watching this video gave me a self-realization. when you showed pictures of how you don't like the photos of you look 'conventinally pretty' i realized for me, i never allowed my self to tap in to my own femininity... i used to feel gross about myself, and never had boys approach me, it made me think was i to ugly, or to ugly to be approached? and it made me turn into masculine clothing to seek men's validation because if they didnt want me, then maybe i can just become one of the guys. i didnt even think i deserve wearing make up because i thought i was to ugly.... wow. Thank you Amy! This video inspired me to tap into my inner feminime side that I always wanted to embark in❤
that "what dreams are made of" shirt... i'm in love omg !!! loved that song sooo much growing up. anyways, i loved this video, thank you so much, i've also been in this 're-inventing' mood these days.
DAM IT, your are one of the most aesthetically pleasing person I’ve ever seen. And what I love the most about you is how you appearance is a reflection of your inside. As a photographer I would be just incredibly happy to have someone like you as a model. Sorry you have to feel the opposite.
i went through the worst breakup and didn't realize it was such a toxic relationship until months after he left me. since that realization i've been spiritually awoken and I am so glad I stayed subscribed to you because now I have re-discovered your videos and there is SO much content that I can relate to, is so interesting, and I know I can mindfully consume. i didnt notice how much of a change that your content went through, I just stopped watching for a bit until you talked about that change in this video. So, so glad you're able to produce this content and help others like me in a fun way :)
i relate to your story so much. i came from an emotionally abusive relationship, and i only started to realize that after i began healing. im so proud of you and keep going!!!!
it's really amazing to see you retroactively self-actualizing. I had never thought about what a priviledge it was to have the opportunities to actualize myself as I was a teenager.
Ok but I love this, as a child I was so interested in so much stuff and thus just knew so much, I was exploring and just Viking while loving to dance and then the typical German teenage world hit me and I got such bad anxiety and depression, but luckily I’m going to therapy and it’s slowly getting batter but I wish I got that curiosity and knowledge back (so I definitely relate to the buying toys to make up for lost childhood things)
I get mistakes as a young soul but I am actually a old soul. I am just learning to embrace my inner child. She has been though a lot. I had a traumatizing childhood so I am living the childhood I always wanted as an adult! Your videos warm my heart. Thanks Amy!!! 💖😊
hehe plz add your fave songs from the 2000s to my collaborative Y2K KWEEN playlist! spoti.fi/39P7RvA
so much fun
Omg I wish they had Aaliyah Ugh I’d add that in a heartbeat.
I added 90 songs from my playlist “songs that raised me” 🤦♀️ i went a bit overboard lolol too much nostalgia i couldn’t resist
This is AMAZING!!! I relate so much!! 💖✨💖✨💖
U know I'm about to add so good from bratz rock angelz
*Being a woman I feel like I re-invent myself every single day. Our cycles and fluid nature is our POWER!* 🤗✨🌊
yes and yes to all of this!! ugh sounds like such a good affirmation lol
Before the world programmed me, I was super social, fun, had no insecurities and genuinely loved dancing. Now I'm extremely introverted, emotionally sensitive, anxious and insecure. But things are better now, I actually love myself so much now.
are you ready to go back and reclaim her?? let's do it. we love all of you :-)
@@amy_lee yes I've never been so ready 🙏🏻
I am so grateful for all the advice on social media. Without guys like you, I would still think, that everything other people said about me, is true. I love this community ❤ it gives me a lot of strength
@@naschy0078 honestly same. I feel sorry for people who haven't discovered their self journey because although it can be messy sometimes, coming into terms with yourself never felt better. No ones words of validation will ever mean as much as your own. It's truly heaven.
You got this 💓💓
*when you're talking about how hard it is to look back on pictures where you look conventionally beautiful, i felt that on a **_spiritual_** level. When I had long hair, looked really natural and wore 'feminine' clothing, I was **_pretty_** according to societal standards. But I was not confident in myself at all. Now that I have a shaved head, enjoy wearing heavy eyeliner and wear a hybrid of aesthetics, I feel so much more confident because I look like _ME_. Don't get me wrong I still feel insecure about certain things but I remind myself to not view myself with the male gaze and know that I am authentically myself. GO SHAVE YOUR HEAD IF YOU WANT TO it really has forced me to be comfortable in my appearance and also **#bodyneutrality*
i can totally SEE this in you, estrella! also you/ your avatar looks so cool lol. just all tha vibez. xD keep going, you inspire me
I have thought about it for like two years until i shaved my head one year ago and it was just about the best thing eveer!! I feel so free- I just don`t care anymore what people think! Sometimes I go out with oversized jeans and oversized shirt and sometimes i "dress up" and.. it`s honestly just great.
one thing I was always scared of is changing. I used to hold this mindset that I can only define who I am as a person once. For example, in school, I thought the major I chose would define the rest of my career trajectory and I had to stay that person back in freshmen year who chose that major. But I realized that everyone evolves and youre allowed to redefine yourself at any point of your life. We dont have to uphold the image of someone we thought we were going to be from years ago. I know you talked about changing hair but I think the idea of being able to reinvent yourself goes across all facets of life! yay to letting go of limiting beliefs about ourselves!!
yes! one thing about being young is that we feel that- everything (our partners, friends, jobs) is so permanent, and all of our emotions are so BIG. like everything seems to be the end of the world or so core-shaking. it's a blessing to feel so deeply but we have so much more life to live! the only constant in life is change. i love this, sam!
This is so important
Beautifully said Sam!
Ok not gonna lie, when I first started watching your videos, I wasn't a huge fan. I didn't know why, but even though I felt that way, I had the urge to stick around and continue to watch your videos. As months and years passed, I realized I had negative feelings towards you because you are like my childhood self. Positive, but also secretly (was) self loathing, happy, looks at the world with genuine eyes, cares about others and what's going on in the world. I think subconsciously I was mad at myself for losing that part of my important childhood and I took it out on you (I never wrote anything negative, just all in my head haha). As I become older and realize a lot of things about myself and become more and more ok with myself, I see you for who you really are. The negative feelings are all gone. You're the person I look forward to to get inspired, to feel better about myself and feel empowered. Mostly importantly, you made me find my childhood self again. Be happy, love everything - especially yourself! life is too fucking short! Thank you!
yes!! i always say - what you see in me is what you have in yourself (the good, bad, and the neutral). we are all mirrors, projecting our realities. im sooo v happy that youre starting to reclaim who youve always been- an amazing authentic SOUL!
@@amy_lee THANK YOU!! keep making awesome videos, we LOVE it!!! :)
Wow I literally feel the exact same way... everything you mentioned. So happy you found yourself again :) Amy’s a wonderful soul 🥰
How hard must it be for Amy to be the representation of the mirror being held against yourself?
@@RainBow-wp2lv I absolutely agree. It's a shitty thing for me to do to someone and I truly feel bad for doing that to her and probably to others around me. Miserable people are infectious and I would never want to be that person again I've learned a lot from Amy and I thank her so much for being kind and so open that people like me can learn from her.
*it's so refreshing seeing someone reinvent themself while I'm embarking on the same journey*
same :')
This came at the perfect time. Yesterday I watched the movie "little" and the quote that stuck with me was along the lines of "you already know who you are when you're little, its the world that beats you out of it"
Where did u watch it?
it would be insane if you started a podcast! i definitely felt you when you were talking about how your hair was a blanket and it was a main factor that defined your beauty. i bleached my hair and dyed it green as well after a breakup, and havent been able to get it back to the dark brown i had before ...
in the works!!! i swear LOL. and u need to tag me in a pic! i need to see this amazing green hair! and itll take time to grow fully back but im sure it'll get there :-)
@@amy_lee I'm so excited! I think it'd be amazing to hear about your spiritual journey in more depth too, I'd love to listen to you on bus journeys, and just in my room too. I love the way that you speak and what you say not only resonates, but makes sense! :)
Fun fact: i also identify as an ogre but.... i've always kept my hair short because in my mind "only pretty girls can have long pretty luxious hair" and i didn't deserve that. i've finally let my hair grow and i'm really taking care of it and i'm starting to feel like a princess and that makes me happy. it's so fun how everyone sees beauty so differently
I love this for you. ❤️
Your soul is so pure Amy and not in the innocent way but because your willing to heal/evolve/progress is so genuine
Amy, I love how much you've changed. Having seen your trajectory it has been nothing short of courageous and inspiring for many. Using your platform to inspire growth in others is such a noble undertaking even if it wasn't the original intent. I always say that we are not meant to live life for someone else but for ourselves. I'd rather live the meager life of my own than the inauthentic opulent life of another. You never escape your souls purpose. From one soul to another!!
wow this was so poetic u____u thank you so much! im so happy my channel/content could help support your OWN evolution in any way. keep going, you are doing great ! YES TO LIVING FOR OURSELVES
I love seeing women want to deepen their relationship with themselves cut their hair/shave their head during that process (I'm mixed with black and white, so seeing women outside the black community show that hair isn't "just hair" makes me so happy).
this video made me cry!! i resonated so much with everything you said. im also 26 and STILL hold on so much to what i thought i was, and wasnt allowed to do or be. even just silly stuff. there are soo many exaamples of this!
when i was in grade 8, i had homework to draw a self-portrait. i was semi-proud of what i did but didnt allow myself to even let on that i liked it, because my default to insult myself before others could insult me. my art teacher liked it and showed it as an example to the class. but because i made fun of it prior, my friends started laughing at it and i never allowed myself to think i could be good at drawing, even though i took art into the end of school, i never really drew again. now ive been learning to draw as an adult, and lovingg it so much, i bought myself an ipad air for procreate!!
when i was in 5th grade , my friend made such a big deal about how ""good"" it was to be a tomboy, and i followed suit. only in the past 2 years ive started to ""allow"" myself to fully love pink?!
when i was younger, i thought i was too fat and unattractive to dance. now im taking lessons on steezy studios and i'm terrible, and probably will never do the routines infront of anyone, even my partner, but im having so much fun and honouring 13 year old me.
ahhh i relate to so much of this- to the insulting myself first, my internalized misogyny towards pink (MY FAVE COLOR since i was a child), and dancing!! u know what is so funny, im working with steezy studios LOL so this comment is rly eerily weird and synchronistic! im proud of u for reclaimng yourself :-) you are doing amazing!!!!
@@amy_lee ahhh, thanks for responding!! So cool to hear you are working with steezy! 😊💗
awh! love to see this !!!!!!! hit some beautiful topics Amy!
Girl you shave your head if it's what you want!! Love the inner child expression in this one. You seem freer, lighter. I love it so much
i think i'd cry rn LOL but one day!!! and thank you ari! n_n so happy to have you here on this journey together
@@amy_lee HAHA appreciate you for being you regardless! And sharing it with us all :)
"I'm 26- I can be the teen idol of my dreams" YESSS I've just entered this phase for myself and I am LOVING IT.
AND CAN WE TALK ABOUT THOSE BOOTS OMG
"material possessions are as meaningful as you make them" here's a slap to the extreme minimalists haha
Haha, I'm not an extreme minimalist, but damn I felt it.
✨I’m inspired ✨and have made the executive decision to become the 2000s pop star on my way to get butterfly clips rn 🤸🏾♀️
YES tag me in ur pics when u do! i wanna see and hype u UP!
Came to add, another way to be nice to your inner kid would be with books you loved as kids! I had this thing where I was like what can I read now I’m in my 20s ?? But the other day I said screw it and ordered myself a Goosebumps book I loved as a kid and it was awesome! I don’t know who makes these phony rules but it’s good when you find out how baloney it all is. Need me some Junie B Jones next 😀
I thought it was just me who felt that I couldn’t cut my hair because I wasn’t confident enough in the rest of my appearance. I keep telling myself that I need to lose weight if I want to cut my hair even though I got compliments when I wore a bobbed wig for a musical.
I just got rid of almost all of my hair and took off nail polish. Reinventing myself kinda became a way to feel happy every few months. It became like constant, fake hair fake nails new clothes constantly just to quell the feeling of dissatisfaction I felt inside, spent weeks looking for new countries to move to and new places. Finally I decided to just stop and cut off my hair and take it all off and live in the nothingness and create that love for life by living it not seeking it!
I’m much older than you (39) but as a fellow first-gen Asian American woman, I feel touched by your journey and the way you’re expressing who you are and working through trauma
What truly makes someone beautiful is when they own themselves completely! So many women are conventionally beautiful, but you can tell that they are not being their most honest self. Shave your head girl! I've done it, and despite it always making my mom mad, I will never take it back! The experience is so liberating and I think every woman should do it at least once in their life. You are beautiful, never doubt that again! When you shave your head, look at yourself in the mirror and see that raw, honest, unquestionable beauty! Rock on, Amy!!
I love this video so much-releasing your inner child and just not giving a fuck about conventions. I've been questioning myself and my purpose for a while, but I feel like your talk about how you're building you sleeve, asking for a sign, and arguing with your parents for the last time was healing for me
11:07 I'm living for these moments of yours
Thank you for your bravery, vulnerability, and for being who you think you are and inspiring us to do so.
I encourage you to check out Mei Pang’s channel. She talks about her journey that led to her shaving all her hair off. Both of you are beautiful souls 💕 Don’t you forget that Amy 🌹
I love Mei so much!
@@EyeOfTheDragon101 ikr? She’s awesome
I'm coming across this video so late, but DEAR, SWEET, BEAUTIFUL AMY!!! Thank you, thank you, thank you for always sharing your uniquely beautiful soul to the world. It's so inspirational to see how far you've come and I love that you are able to acknowledge and welcome the wonderful changes you've made for yourself. I'm so proud of you!!!
its so crazy I really believed I was the only one who saw myself as some type of monster because I'm not conventionally pretty and don't have societies standards. we're both uniquely beautiful and at the end of the day, beauty is in the eye of the beholder and our auras attract all that we need 💖💗 much love to you and your loved ones, stay healthy and well rested:)
haha i love the hair talk, i feel like i went through the same journey! never wanting to dye my healthy brown locks, then i bleached it and did every fun color i could think of! last fall i shaved my head and it was the BEST thing- ever!! its so freeing, it was a spiritual journey in itself just cutting it off. now as it grows, i grow yo!
I shaved my head in September 2019 and I had mixed feelings about it. I loved it at first but the growing out process was personally difficult. I felt ugly and out of place everywhere I went but this experience has really changed me. I now see myself differently, I'm more humble. Now I look back at pictures of myself and wish I embraced my buzzcut more. If you're going to shave your head Amy, I say do it! It is a journey
Amy, you are so honest. I am so touched by how honest you are. Love you.
watching you honor your inner child makes me RIDICULOUSLY happy 🥲 i so admire your courage to not only heal her BUT ALSO share your journey on the interwebs!!! thank you amy for always being real 💕
ok WAIT i had the same exact experience regarding sanrio. kind of the same feeling i get when visiting a gucci store nowadays. except the one thing i'd splurge on at sanrio is this one hamburger gummy candy LOL
its my birthday today and im just spending it alone cause my friends are working. this video gave me a little glimmer of hope and happiness so thanks for this :3 your videos always cheer me up
I started collecting dolls last year because I wasn't able to buy any when I was a kid. I am 23 now and seeing you buy toys made me so happy. I was obsessed with Bratz dolls because they were that BITCH!!. I am waiting for the new collection so I can start collecting.
So much love for you Amy. Thanks for helping me to grow in to the woman I always wanted to be when I was growing up. Stay safe xoxox
thank you nadine!! i'm honored to have played any part in ur growth :-)
ahh when i saw your sand on your IG story it totally inspired me to treat my inner child! i bought giant painting sets + a journal with a lock (haha) and tons of stickers. makes me sooo happy!!!
omg i might need to get a journal with a lock now!!
I can't even tell you the amount of confidence this video has given me. You're the best
I love your videos so much, on my darkest days I like to go through your videos to make me feel better about existing. Right now I’m going through a rough breakup, my first love. It’s been a year but I can’t shake this sadness and feeling of loss. Would love if you could make a video dedicated to first love, heartbreak, and healing afterwards. I love you Amy! Please never stop making videos and spreading your positive vibrations ! 💕✌🏽
You are not a fake, you are not ugly or an ugly monster! You’re a beautiful human being inside and out!!! We love you ❤️
Seeing you letting your inner child dance freely on a green field of emotions made me realise how much I needed to do this as well! I might buy some bubble making thing tomorrow and a puzzle to do in my room 🥺 you’re such a blessing to the world dear amy ❤️ I’ve been on your channel for quite some time and I honestly feel honoured to watch you grow and become your authentic self
I love this for you!!! You seem like someone i'd go with a show with or just be goofy together, bc honestly we all have an inner child that is suppressed
You are absolutely amazing. I want to see so much more of you connecting with your inner child! I am doing this process myself and it’s just such a magical time. It’s wonderful seeing you so joyful and connected to the most authentic parts of yourself.
that ending art work was made by my gf and I’m so proud of her 🥰🥰🥰
you are the reason i’m no longer scared to grow up, you’re an inspiration x
oh my god hearing you talk about how you thought short hair was just meant for pretty girls hit home so hard. i've always had long hair. like to my butt. and i've cut it recently and am struggling to see myself as anything close to beautiful :( I hope i can just let go of my attachment to my hair like you have some day. glad to hear you're thriving and doing well xo
when you spoke about being conventionally pretty all i can say is thank you. i have naturally curly hair that i've hated for my entire life because the world told me that my natural texture isn't beautiful. i chemically straightened my hair for about 8-9 years (i'm 24 now). looking back at photos where my hair was straight/conventionally attractive, i remember how insecure i felt about my hair and how i only ever felt beautiful with straight hair. at the end of june, i decided to chop off most of my hair and go completely natural. i remember when my hair dried curly for the first time i actually started crying because that was the first time in my life where *i* felt truly beautiful. now my closest friends tell me that they see SUCH a difference in my self-confidence after i embraced my curls. i still do have my days and moments where i feel insecure and wish i had long, shiny, straight hair, but that doesn't take away from the fact that i feel so beautiful and myself with my curls and i never thought that would've been possible.
Wow, I really needed to hear that inner child pep talk. It was such a simple message, but I'm turning 27 soon and feel this immense pressure to be more "mature" and sometimes feel like I shouldn't do/wear certain things because I need to "act my age" and it's "cringey". But this was the confirmation I needed to just do what I want, regardless of whether it's "appropriate for my age" or not, thank you 💖
Girlll I can’t tell you how much this video helped me. We seemed to have many of the same childhood experiences and love for the same early 2000s stuff! This really hit home. Thank you!!
Wow! what a joyful and inspiring video! You embody joy and kindness and deserve the absolute best.
the stuff you said starting at 3:20 really resonated with me (and also had me lowkey shocked bc girl, I always think of you as this lovely, stunning, ethereal being inside and out!!) because how you describe feeling about yourself is how I feel about myself too. I think I need to do some deep thinking about what my security blanket is...haha. And also you could totally pull off a shaved head like absoLUTEly you could.
3:23 THIS IS ALSO HOW I feel, I just never knew how to put it into words??
Amy, I have been watching your channel for years (literally grew up watching you) but you have been so inspirational lately. I love watching you grow, manifest your dreams, and blossom into such a self assured person. You are like the older sister I never had. I am now starting my spiritual journey to figure out who I am and who I want to be. I can't wait to truly live my life for me. I honestly don't know if I would be going on this journey now if it wasn't for you and your content. Time to honor my inner child!! Much love xoxo
Just wanted to let you know I am also 26. I have watched you for years, and growing and evolving with you has been so fun xxx
amy!!! i love the hair!! this videos timing is so crazy because i have recently been struggling with the idea of dying my hair, i was the most conventionally attractive maybe in hs i had long black hair too and since then (that was like 5 years ago) i have had like 7 diff colors like pink and purple but then i shaved it n it was so difficult, i felt so vulnerable and insecure!!! growing it out about now i have a bob and i wanted to go back to pastel pink or blonde but i felt scared because through all my crazy colors and bald head i longed for the safety of my long black hair and wanting to look feminine, girly, dainty and being perceived as beautiful ur little hair speech really hit home and did give me some hope to do whatever with my hair so thank u :)
Just asked my spirit guides for a sign of a butterfly yesterday
Was bummed that I didn’t see any, but as I was listening to this video, I glanced down when you mentioned your tattoos and saw your butterfly
Goosebumps.
Thank you for this Amy 🦋 🐢
I'm SO happy for you Amy! I can tell you feel so much better about yourself! I'm going through this kind of journey myself and not only It helped me be unapologetically me but also explore my sexuality and go back to hobbies from my childhood. Nothing feels as good!
WOW what a true Queen!!! you're such an inspiration to everyone Amy! truly a gift to this world!!!
I’ve recently been indulging in nostalgia to rekindle the carefree child in me, and through that finding myself
I love you AMY, thank you for all the sharing and how playful you are in this video. It has been a while since I last watched your video and I'm glad I did today. Wish you beauty and sunshine wherever you are.
I'm in awe that you are able to share your story so bravely🥰 Thanks for letting people around the world that they are allowed to love themselves and that they should.
This video brings a huge smile on my face! I’m so happy for you Amy, your joy is my joy. Thank you for being an inspiration
Seeing you get excited over the things you love is just so!!!🥰🥰🥰🥰
This video is like therapy. THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR POSTING THIS AMYYYY. You are such a beautiful human being. Hey now hey noooow!
Absolutely LOVE how you honor your inner child ❤️❤️
Shaving your head is the most freeing & the biggest middle finger to conventional beauty standards. Do it!!!
I needed this sort of wake up call. I feel like the universe sent me to watch your video to help reawaken a part of myself I'd be neglecting for a long time. I neglected my needs and what make me feel good about myself just to make the people in my life happy or comfortable around me but thats not me. Thanks for the reminder Amy. I truly needed this today ❤
hi amy :) this video was so inspiring especially the first bit where you talked about how you initially disliked your teal hair and how you looked. I can actually relate to that because I just got my hair dyed and what I had imagined was not at all what I felt after getting my hair done and I was really upset about it because I wanted to use that transformation as a confident booster but it ended up making me feel worse however now I'm slowly growing into it and I'm trying to find confidence not only through my hair but also within my inner self if that makes sense. It was really nice seeing how you took that big step too and didn't really like it at first, it sort of makes me feel like I'm not the only one :)
omg.. yes YeS inner child!!! I have been feeling empty lately and now I know this is WHY!!!
amy my love you are such a breath of fresh air! you're literally the big sister i've always wanted even though we're both 26
This was posted on my 20th birthday and it means so much to me finding it now 💜 As always, thank you Amy.
thank you so much for being so honest & raw about how you feel / view your physical appearance & self. Been going through something very similar lately with my own physical appearance and this video made me realize that I'm not alone
I feel like youve never been and looked healthier than you have recently!! And I'm HERE for it!!
Dear Amy 💖I enjoy watching all your vids since such a long time. You always inspire me to be myself and to appreciate myself. Thank you for being so bold and for celebrating yourself 💕
its so beautiful to see you come out the other side of everything you've been through in this transformation
I say it every video but Amy you are a God-send! Your videos legitimately brighten my day on a deep level. Thank you!
The red hair looks sooooooo good on you! I love it so much. Maybe I likr it more than the teal one because Im usually more drawn to red or because you are able to embrace it now freely and you are so happy with it. Nevertheless you're gonna be beautiful no matter what hairstyle you are wearing, you're gonna be beautiful. There's a german actress (Emilia Schüle) who went bold and looks absolutely stunning.
aw ur too kind thank you so much. i googled her she looks stunning. are you from germany? :D
I haven’t watched you in months. You seem so much happier omg 🖤
your videos always make me feel so at peace with myself. thank you for showing yourself as who you really are
I'm so proud of you Amy! We're on this self love journey together.
i can’t get over how similar we are and how i seem to grow at the same stage as you. Also i recently bought play dough again for the same reason and i’m dying my hair red today hehe x
omg yeah when i shaved my head the growth that came with accepting who I was / rejecting conventional beauty was so good ... here for your rebirth
just wanted to say thank you because I have a hair appointment next week to get a shag cut and I’m so nervous that I won’t be able to pull it off. but i’m going to do it DAMMIT!!!
I love this vibe! Power to you
Oh I felt the exact same about using hair as protection ! 3 years ago I had my hair so long it was touching my butt! but I knew I was keeping it long because "long hair is so beautiful" and I had a very toxic relationship at that time and that person would tell me it looked innocent ?? I had no idea. A few months ago I chopped everything to my ears lol I hated it at first too ! But now it feels so good ! ✨ I've been following you since soo many years now, you inspired me in so many ways ! So happy for your self healing journey Amy 💕
Oh my goodness I love you! You honestly rock that red hair and it looks so gorgeous, you definitely look beautiful. Thank you for spreading such a positive message, we all feel the same at some points in life so you’re not alone ❤️
i just love you for getting the toys lol. this is so amazing, have never thought of it but it must be SO soothing for your inner child.
i used to hide behind long natural brown hair but last year i decided to chop it above my shoulders and dye it blue and i never want to go back. i can’t believe i had myself convinced that long hair = beautiful
First... The red looks amazing. Second... you’re such an inspiration for me. You’re always pushing yourself to try new things and be your true self 😊
wow, i can't believe watching this video gave me a self-realization. when you showed pictures of how you don't like the photos of you look 'conventinally pretty' i realized for me, i never allowed my self to tap in to my own femininity... i used to feel gross about myself, and never had boys approach me, it made me think was i to ugly, or to ugly to be approached? and it made me turn into masculine clothing to seek men's validation because if they didnt want me, then maybe i can just become one of the guys. i didnt even think i deserve wearing make up because i thought i was to ugly.... wow.
Thank you Amy! This video inspired me to tap into my inner feminime side that I always wanted to embark in❤
Thanks for inspiring me to start my very first vlog. Keep inspiring girl!
that "what dreams are made of" shirt... i'm in love omg !!! loved that song sooo much growing up. anyways, i loved this video, thank you so much, i've also been in this 're-inventing' mood these days.
YOU MAKE ME SO FRIGGING HAPPY
the hello kitty bag made me so happy. i got my melody and kuromi plushies on depop and it's so so nostalgic
DAM IT, your are one of the most aesthetically pleasing person I’ve ever seen. And what I love the most about you is how you appearance is a reflection of your inside.
As a photographer I would be just incredibly happy to have someone like you as a model. Sorry you have to feel the opposite.
Red look so good on you! you're gorgeous
i went through the worst breakup and didn't realize it was such a toxic relationship until months after he left me. since that realization i've been spiritually awoken and I am so glad I stayed subscribed to you because now I have re-discovered your videos and there is SO much content that I can relate to, is so interesting, and I know I can mindfully consume. i didnt notice how much of a change that your content went through, I just stopped watching for a bit until you talked about that change in this video. So, so glad you're able to produce this content and help others like me in a fun way :)
i relate to your story so much. i came from an emotionally abusive relationship, and i only started to realize that after i began healing. im so proud of you and keep going!!!!
@@amy_lee Thank you!!!
it's really amazing to see you retroactively self-actualizing. I had never thought about what a priviledge it was to have the opportunities to actualize myself as I was a teenager.
Ok but I love this, as a child I was so interested in so much stuff and thus just knew so much, I was exploring and just Viking while loving to dance and then the typical German teenage world hit me and I got such bad anxiety and depression, but luckily I’m going to therapy and it’s slowly getting batter but I wish I got that curiosity and knowledge back (so I definitely relate to the buying toys to make up for lost childhood things)
I get mistakes as a young soul but I am actually a old soul. I am just learning to embrace my inner child. She has been though a lot. I had a traumatizing childhood so I am living the childhood I always wanted as an adult! Your videos warm my heart. Thanks Amy!!! 💖😊