My biggest tip for not spiraling into depression: stop judging yourself for not being the person in this video. It’s okay if you’re not meditating, not doing yoga, not reading books, or eating ice-cream. The worst thing you can do to yourself is judge yourself. Acceptance is key to contrasting those negative thoughts. “My room is messy by TH-cam standards and I watched TikTok for 5 hours today and that’s okay. I still love myself.”
yes to this, i finally got out of a 7year depression last year and become a new person, but at the beginning of the year i felt down i hated throat i wasn't doing yoga or meditation or being like her or other put together spiritual people making me feel like i should return to the darker me. but i just let myself feel my emotions while reminding myself y i was having these emotions and i'm doing much better now i think it's not about staying good but being able to work through hard times in a healthy way
@@lyuba_bobrova movies and tv shows are made to seem all wonderful and fun because it is written from the imagination of someone, it's very unrealistic so don't ever push that ideology that your life is boring just because it's not like what's shown on media because most people don't live like that.
Treating myself like a child I'm responsible for has been the biggest factor in doing things to prevent depression from setting in and fixing disordered eating. I ask myself, "would I let my 6 year old niece lie in bed all day scrolling through social media, and then eat a bag, or handful of crisps (depending which way the scale of my self worth would be tipping) as a meal, before getting back into bed while saying horrible things about herself?" the answer is no. I'd make her wake up at a reasonable hour, feed her mind, take the time to cook a proper nutritious meal, take her outside for some fresh air and a walk in nature to get her body moving and mind stimulated. Keeping my mind and body active and my nutrition healthy has given me the strength to take the next steps, like reach out and make new friends and work towards my goals.
This is a very helpful picture. I will try to think of it like that. I find it so easy to love and help others but so hard to do the same for myself. Thinking of myself as someone I should care for - like a child - might actually help. Thank you!
@@hederahelix4600 I have the exact same problem. If my husband is hungry I will cook whatever his heart desires. But if I'm hungry a handful of crisps is about as much effort as I'm willing to make. It's helped me tremendously, there are still dark days, but when you take care of yourself they're fewer.
Yes yes yes! The best advice I ever got in relation to sleep issues was to treat myself like I was my own child. Because of that I now have a lovely bedtime routine and instead of hating going to bed, I really enjoy it! It really makes such a difference!
Its really weird but, depression gives me a feeling of solace , its an uncomfortable comfort zone, where I feel like im being the most truthful to myself, so its really hard to want to feel better. I think I ended up associating a lot of my personality with depression- dealing with it since my pre teen years, now as an adult its really hard to give it up for some twisted reason.. but i am giving my best as we all should!! love your content xx edit: wow, didn't know so many people felt the same, but the good thing is that realising and accepting it means that we've already come such a long way, now all we need to do is to try and change it little by little... its something that doesn't go away quickly like i would want it to, so i keep that in mind and try to congratulate myself in the little accomplishments (as hard as it may be) baby steps! We can do it guyss!!
this is... me. when im starting to feel happy i often find myself self-sabotaging since theres this weird feeling of missing sadness and believing it fits me better than happiness.
Best start w/ meditation, and practice it constantly, u will see change very soon (we procrastinate b/c things are demanding more than our focus power, so it’s either u increase your focus power like practicing medication/yoga, or breaking things down into smaller pieces which you can handle one at a time, and give yourself rewarding system to give yourself motivation to carry it out :-) I was a big procrastinator, and trust me meditation HELPS A LOT!
Same, it is hard for me looking at her perfect body and face, and also that she hast her life together, i so not begrudge it her, but i cannot deny the feelings i feel and thoughts i have
Can I say something, this kinda helps me in my insecurities. So in your head, just think about ONE thing that you have which the other person might not, whether it's a friend or an experience of maybe a memorable trip. Just imagine that if you were someone else, you wouldn't have had that.
The thing that I always do whenever I find myself in that place is that I remind myself that "I'll never be like them so quit it". Not to say that I'm not beautiful, but to acknowledge that I'm a unique beautiful human being, and that society doesn't like different things. Society like to control/label things. So the more that I say that to myself, the more that I love myself every day. 🦋💗
"I miss the comfort in being sad"... I often find myself almost basking in that sadness, melancholy and anxiety, whilst I understand how much it's dragging me down. But it's becoming better gradually. When I think how much beauty that sadness is making me miss, how much fuller my life can be if I allow myself to feel different emotions, that's when I snap out of it. And negative feelings too can be turned into something beautiful, but we shouldn't limit ourselves to only one emotion. Thank you SO much for making this video. It's amazing to know you're not alone going through this. :)
I don’t know if this is a coincidence or not but please listen to the song Frances Farmer Will Have Her Revenge On Seattle. It couldn’t be any more spot on.
For anyone considering this; I just deleted it the other day and I feel way less anxious. I really don’t miss it at all lol. (Even though I spent hours a day on it)
I removed all friends from my FB account in 2015 and it continues to be freeing. I keep the account for the lost and found dog posts in my neighborhood but I don’t have to see the feed.
I deleted every form of social media 3 days ago and I’m honestly shocked at how much less anxiety I have already, but my brain feels like mush. I haven’t really used my mind for anything productive for almost a year now and have spend 6-7+ hours on mostly TikTok a day. Time to learn how to enrich my mind and brain again ✨
my biggest issue when I start spiraling is just getting out of bed. It gets so difficult, and I start checking my phone without pause until it's so late in the morning I feel like I wasted my day.
i do this exact same thing... sometimes i’ll get up and be like “okay i’m not doing this today” and get up and like get something to eat or go wash my face but then i end up sitting back on my bed thinking it’ll just be a few minutes and end up laying back down on my phone for a few more hours..
Sameee.. i think about lets think about this and get some work done, but viola i ALWAYS end up using my phone..at this point, i have even stoped drinking water..i am dehydrated af, puffy face, no will to get anything..i wonder- am i just lazy or depressed for real?
Yoga 6:04 Clean your space 7:07 Phone a friend 7:30 Intentional time with friends 8:48 Limit screen time 10:05 Be pragmatic about your goals 11:25 Be aware of energy vampires 11:50
I love that you said “life ending thoughts”. When I try to express this to people or what I’m going though, the S word is so hard for me to say bc it’s triggering and feels horrible. But this is a more comfortable way to put it
That part is an eye-opener for me, I have always struggled with saying or even thinking the S word and I honestly didn't know of any other way to phrase it in a polite way that also said what I wanted to say, so I really like the way this is said, I'm way more comfortable with this instead
Worth watching the whole video, but if you're short on time- ~8 daily habits~ 1 always have access to asana 6:03 2 clean your whole space every day 7:05 3 phone a friend 8:07 4 intentional time with friends 9:42 5 limit screen time 10:03 6 feed energy to your dreams 10:34 7 be pragmatic about your goals 11:45 8 be aware of energy vampires 11:50
Can I just say your intentional time with friends is so beautiful and wholesome, I actually cried. I cried out of sadness for myself that I have never experienced pure plutonic love like that. I thank you for helping me release that emotion that I wasn't even aware of, this video reminded me that I too can have my chosen family, I too can have beautiful sacred connections.
Hello beautiful earth lover! I too have been conditionally loved by my parents and strive for love from friends and people that don’t just want to take from me!
you look so pretty and I don't even mean it in a physical way, it's kind of like... you look so happ and it really shows. I hope I can one day look as happy as you do.
let's be real she is pretty I know she's depressed but come on u think she doesn't have it better than the rest of u...she does...her looks will let her be depressed ppl will accommodate n sympathize being real
I’m crying. This video is so beautiful. I’m 17 years old. I pray that one day I will live a life with such passionate beauty. To be an empowered woman surrounded by other empowered women. To leave this city and be the person I’ve always yearned to be. Sometimes it feels like I’ll never get out of my parents house. I yearn to be alone.
im 17 too, im falling into depression, & im currently struggling with anxiety. i dream of this just like you... i am certain that one day, you will achieve your dream, you deserve it ! you are amazing
i've been struggling a lot with creating meaninful relationships, and everytime I watch tiktok or social media in general I just see this perfect group of friend that I don't have, but hearing you talkin' about loneliness and spending time on your own just reminded me that this is a perfect time to know me better and have my own space, thanks Hitomi
Sofía Montenegro this has probably been my biggest struggle so far in my 21 years of life. I have never, despite my best efforts to put myself out there and also taking a back seat at times, had a close friend, and every time I’m close, it doesn’t fit. It’s been a pretty big factor in my depression, because I just feel like the only person in the world that can’t get a connection. It seems so easy, like second nature, to everyone else, I just don’t get it.
I struggled with depression since I was 13 (I am 21 now). And, I, too, had this idea that one day it would just go away. And, it's understandable. In society, now, I think that "self-care" has come to mean putting on a facemask, or drinking enough water. But, it was only when I realized that self-care is a continual, daily, complex process that you have to do, that I could embody real meaning, and contentedness, with my life as a whole. It is a constant struggle keeping your head afloat. But, when you create healthy habits, you forget about the fact that you are even consciously making an effort to be content- you just become content, stumbling upon happiness, thanks to your own conscious efforts to structure your life in a healthy way. Healthy habits are physical (like veganism), they are also emotional (listening to your negative emotions and replacing them with positive perspective-taking, mindfulness, and meditation). It is hard to choose to strive for better, but it is infinitely worth it. Remember to recognize your progress, even in the little things: pat yourself on the back for making your bed in the morning, even if you didn't clean your whole house. And, before you know it, you will be achieving things you never knew were possible. For me, when I was 18 I was a college dropout. Now, at 21, I am about to go to Oxford University next year. I never would have thought, depressed as I was three years ago, that something like this would even be possible. But, the small, daily things kept me afloat, kept me pushing, kept me confident enough in myself, that I could achieve the things that I dreamed of. Even though tragedy continues to strike me, I continue to have faith in myself, forgive myself, and move forward, and that is all a testament to my continual, conscious efforts to formulate good mental and physical habits the protect me even in the worst of moments. You will get there, it will take effort, but, trust me, you will thank yourself years later, that you chose to stay on Earth, that you chose to make your life better even in your worst of moments, that you chose to love, and forgive yourself, and have faith in the process.
literally screenshooting this comment to have as a personal reminder. thank you for sharing. (I'm always glad I scroll down to the comment sections on videos; I love that similar energy is shared here with other people as in the video)
Thank you so much for this ...I am going through depression since 7 months and recently I have been watching videos abt self care and self worth that came in my recommendations....I am now on the journey of healing and hopefully giving my 1000% to complete my dreams which seemed Impossible back then 🙂 If you did it , I can definitely give a try 💜 sending love and warmth🌸
@@ominomi5130 thank you so much for taking time and helping me through your experience...it means a lot....I will surely order this book and read asap ! I am feeling so much warmth that atleast my heart wants to accept my bad phase and get through this ! I want to have morning n night routine (just now I watched some really helpful videos on YT :) I will give my best to make sure to love and speak for myself 💜 depression was a long period and so will be the healing process 🙂 I will update my progress here after a month ✔ .....🤗how hard I try to thank you it isn't enough .
i think a lot of people forget what self care is. no, its not just putting on a facemask or drinking water, but its anything and everything that makes your day even a smidge better. do whatever will make your life at least 1% happier. if facemasks and makeup and water will make you feel better, they count. don’t discredit things that make you feel healthy and good. and most importantly: we say life has meaning, but it only gets as good as we let it become. the best way to heal is to take baby steps and treat yourself like you would treat a hospital patient. maybe you just need a little more love and a little more kindness, and maybe you can give yourself that support. don’t look to others for energy, because they might not always be ready to help you. learn to depend on yourself and your closest people, and remember that you are the version of yourself that you chose to be. if you want to be a better version of you, work harder and treat yourself kinder. growth only comes with time and effort.
i think a lot of people are forgetting that mental illness doesn’t just affect you, depending on the situation, it really can affect your personality, the decisions you make, and how you treat other people. while i see in your video that you are speaking of these fulfilling friendships and people are commenting about how they are sad they don’t have that, they are forgetting that mental illness a lot of the time inhibits these types of long lasting relationships. but that is something that with progress can change, for i’ve experienced it myself. it just comes with patience and love for yourself and compassion for others (which is hard when you feel like your life is the worst it could possibly be and at the same time having guilt by knowing it’s not).
I’m literally in a place of healing and growth, trying to find meaning, peace and tranquility in my interactions with people and myself... but I haven’t quite found it yet, so I felt kinda... stuck. Then TH-cam said ✨here✨ and now I’m crying
This came at a perfect time for me. I’m in such a spiral right now and my thoughts have been so bad, even I’m aware it’s concerning but I find that i don’t really care at that moment. I’m really tired of it so I’m gonna try these habits and hopefully, it’ll improve my thinking even a little bit :)
So weird how reading these comments make me sad and makes me want to give all the love in the world to you and want you to be happy! Even though I don’t know you at all. But yet, you can’t think that way about yourself, or when somebody else says it to you, you don’t believe it. So exhausting. But be good girl! Take it slow and take a deep breath
I struggle with telling friends(honestly anyone) about negative emotions, and not wanting to bring someone else down. It's my goal to feel comfortable and encouraged to share my lower points with friends and feel comforted and understood
@@Kaymitlit personally I'm still searching, but I think that you have to put yourself out there and meet new people and make the effort. Hiding away at home might seem like the most appealing option, but your ideal community of friends is outside, not hiding under your bed, so you have to go outside and keep trying until you find them.
@@Kaymitlit what is helping me is finding a community from something you enjoy doing, if that means sports of video games, just do it. And the ability to start small talk. They may not be friends that you can open up to but having people around when doing something you all love will eventually get you to the point where you can open up to them. If you don’t enjoy doing any sport or you're not into health and fitness i strongly recommend you try to get involved in an activity that benefits both your physical health and mental health like yoga and try to small talk your way into the community.
hi hitomi - i really admire how comfortable you are when speaking about this realm of experience. your speech is so fluid, graceful and passionate. much love
@Nell yurksitis I’m very sorry to hear that because if that’s you in your profile picture then you truly are beautiful and I hope one day you can learn that other people’s beauty does not take away from your own in any way
me too. i have one friend who im building up our relationship with. we’ve been close for a long time. i’ve also found some other people but i hardly talk to them. i get really nervous around them hahah. but i feel like we really connect.
A quote I learned that pulled me out of my own darkness " practice in the light what you want to remember in the dark " it is a daily journey. Daily... Don't stop doing the work just because you feel better 💓
Interesting, that's a good idea. Another one would be "In the silence and stillness of the dark, close your eyes, breathe deeply, and see yourself already restored and thriving in the light."
honestly it sounds weird but i used to think that self love = narcissism. this was rlly damaging because i thought congratulating myself for achieving something would make me a bad person. this made my mental health problems rlly bad. so glad i don’t think like that anymore. thank you for this video
i actually cried at 9:53 the small interactions and gestures of love and friendship look so genuine and uplifting and i hope i can find friends like this in my present
as a current lonely gal who just graduated high school and is staying home bc of covid, i havent been keeping in touch with friends and havent made any new ones, so you saying spending time alone to cultivate higher quality relationships is so special to me bc ive been trying to take my alone time as a blessing to get close to myself and my desires
I have the same thing, I can't really make new friends bc of covid but I also am not good at keeping in touch with friends through social media... so I'm a bit lonely
that’s how I’ve looked at it as well:) the right friends will come as you start finding yourself and figuring out the type of people you want to surround yourself with
Marina C right I relate so much with this, like I can feel the intuition from the start I meet with someone whether I feel spiritually connected with them or they’re just filler for the lonesomeness in my life
Hey Hitomi, i just wanted to say that im beyond grateful for your videos and that you are alive. You help so many human beings with your existence. Im 16 years old and living in Berlin and i dont know but i dont have friends that are sharing the same interests as me (but im also extremly grateful for my friends and i have so much fun with them). But the thing is that i know deep within me that i will find people who do are spiritual and want to dance with me in the rain and want to talk about how crazy it is to be alive and how beautiful everything around us is. I never went through depression or anything and im just so fucking happy. You have created this safe space for me and im so grateful! I can feel your energy everytime i watch your videos and afterward i have this special feeling in me and i just think everytime "Man this live is beautiful!". So yeah i just wanted to say THANK YOU FOR BEING HERE. (sorry for grammar mistakes, im german :) )
ich will dir sagen, ich hab mich in deinem Alter (ich bin jetzt 21) genauso gefühlt im Bezug darauf, nicht die Freunde zu haben, die einen verstehen und auf der selben Wellenlänge sind. Ich hab mich so oft so einsam gefühlt und gedacht, es wird niemals besser, aber glaub mir - das wird es! Du wirst noch die Menschen finden, die zu dir passen, alles wird gut
Hey! I live in Berlin. I'm twice your age lol but I have a youthful spirit. My half-sister is your age and she is my best friend :-). I just wanted to let you know that I have also struggled with loneliness for **years**, and it's only recently that the weight has begun to lift, and I began forming connections that feel nourishing. I also felt this deep need to find my tribe. The universe/life journey brought those forth into my life--it wasn't all just from me. Berlin is definitely a very lonely place just on an energetic level--the grey skies and gloom/doom weather really do a number on you. It changes you--and having good people around makes a difference. You will find your people--just continue doing your soul-searching, walking your path and exploring the world. It will come together for you, even if it takes time. If you want to find me, this is my name on all social media platforms. Take care!
Hey! I don't usually comment but your comment really resonated with me, I'm also 16 and love the happiness that watching Hitomi share her ideas has brought into my life. I hope that you find people that have the same interests as you :)) if you wanna chat about anything you can with me xx
I’m 16 as well, in your same situation. So refreshing to feel such a con rection from a distance, you are not alone! Who knows, maybe we’ll meet one day - a message from my hopeful heart
@@catherinemeade5498 Heyyy, wow im just smiling right now beacuse im so happy about your message! I really appreciate it. i must say that i dont have any social media besides snapchat; but i would love to chat with you! Wow, its crazy how many of us are out here feeling this connected to one person and to each other. So thank you!!
Would love to find a video that speaks to depression coming from frustration with society and anger about feeling trapped, rather than the assumption of being somehow ashamed of yourself and just needing to love yourself more. Ain’t about that for me! Anyone else?
It’s a mix of both for me. I found that antidepressants helped me stop hating myself so much but I feel even more trapped and limited by society now. We deserve better lives, without scarcity and struggle.
Today I felt the worst in a while, constantly having the urge to cry, feeling restless and doing nothing about it, drawing used to be everything for me, but I've lost the ability to enjoy anything other than feeding my own addiction to nicotine and marijuana, never felt that low before to be honest, I've got wonderful friends and an amazing loving and understanding boyfriend(first boyfriend, been besties for 2 years before getting together) which I don't feel I deserve, just feeling so out of control on my life. It's hard to shower, can't bare looking at myself in the mirror. I'll be only turning 18 this year yet I feel trapped inside an old, powerless, sick lady's body. It would be wrong to say that your video made me change my perspective on life, but after watching around 7 videos in that fashion, you're the first one that made me get up and take a shower, to clean my workspace, pick up my sketchbook, the pile of unreaden books that once brought me excitement just by looking at them. Thank you so much, your positive energy is something to strive for.
I don't have any friends at all, I'm addicted to fetynal (basically heroin except 100 times stronger) and also nicotine. I think I'd rather be hooked on pot. Count your blessings. Over dosed the other day and had basically died. It could always be worse. You're so so lucky to have friends and support. You're young and you got your whole life ahead of you. I wish I could go back to your age and start it over and do the right things. I envy people like you.
omg i am set on finding friends like that! to meditate cuddle and read poetry. sounds like such beautiful relationships to have! they are coming soon for me just a little more time cultivating and working on myself.
How did you find your way into a community of amazing high vibrational people? I would love to hear your experience as an introverted Scorpio because it me! :)
you and your friends seem like a true family, all the interactions you’ve shown look so full of love. it makes me excited to live my life and find people whose souls match mine, thanks :)
Perfect time of year to upload this. I can feel the seasonal depression starting. My biggest anti-stressor and dopamine source is roller blading and I'm starting to panic because the snow and rain makes that not possible. Have to think of some new ways to destress and experience joy
it's amazing how love can be the answer for... almost every situation ? like being present, creating a safe space and then enjoying those moments w ur loved ones ??? that's what i call connecting and vibing. ty for this video. this is what i took from it ♥
spiraling thoughts is something I have struggled with and it comes back in waves. I learned that the best way to pull myself out of a funk is doing opposite action. So basically when I'm in a depressive state, all I want to do is stay in bed and not doing anything. When I do opposite action, I get out of bed and carry out my day to the best of my ability. The hardest step is getting out of bed and dont get me wrong, opposite action is HAAARD but it has helped me tremendously in the past and still now
I have been feeling overwhelmed lately due to my new job. So this video couldn't come in a better time. Thankful for your videos♥️, sending love and light to everyone 🌙🌠
Thank you for talking about your journey alone before finding your friends, one of the only things I always find hard about watching your videos is seeing you and your friends because you have such amazing beautiful people in your life and unfortunately I don't really have that and I was always a bit jealous. Now I feel like I'm just on my solo journey while I wait for the best possible friends to fall into my life, so thank you so much for helping change my perspective on something that was really bringing me down especially over the last few months and even the last year or two. Im always so grateful after watching your videos
Exactly how I’ve been feeling. But I think it’s so important to love being in your own company (as hard as it can be sometimes) and once you are truly happy in your own company, that is when you will be able to attract the most amazing people into your life. Something I need to keep reminding myself of at the moment. You’re not alone ❣️
@@emily-yq5tk thank you for that Emily. I think I'm meant to be more on my own at this point in my life because I really need to stop being distracted from what I want to do and lately I've been trying to take steps towards achieving my dream life as often as possible so it's probably the right thing for me right now to spend more time alone. I'll make the most of it anyways
Your enviroment has such a huge impact on your health, I’ve learned. Wether it’s the greens outside, or decoration that makes your space feel like your home.
while watching this i got the feeling that i was meant to be watching this right at the moment i am, but my eyes WIDENED at 11:24 when I saw the circle tattoo on your wrist. LITERALLY YESTERDAY in a starvation for self expression I drew an open circle on the exact same part of my wrist and it's insane to see that same image on the same part of your hand when this message already felt so meant for me. just thought i'd share how wild this felt, THANK YOU. this video gave me that same happy buzz i get after therapy
Last year (over a year ago!) I did contemplate ending my life (won't say how tho, in case someone who's where I was reads this). But, I had hope. That was before I was on antidepressants. Getting help was the best thing ever, it's extremely uncomfortable but it is so worth it! If I did it, I wouldn't have met my bunny rabbit and I wouldn't have met all of the people that I have met in the last few months, and I wouldn't have had the happy memories that I have created. I have had many cries since last year but I have also laughed and been happy. It's all gonna be okay. I still am getting help for depression and, again, it's the best thing to do. I have been able to help people through it and someone has helped me through it. I was at volunteer work around 2 weeks ago. I said to my friend, "I'm gonna go home, I'm not feeling well" then this guy asked me, "You ill?" I said, "No (pointing to my head). Mental health." He said to me, "I was were you are right now for two years. It DOES get better and you're gonna get through it." Sorry for the long text, but I would like to try to help someone so thank you for reading if you've read it all.
I’m 42, you could probably be my daughter yet I’ve learned so much in just a few of your videos. The yoga mat tip is genius, it will def be left out all day now while I’m working online. That tip right there is so simple yet so profound. Thank you so much!
You're lucky that you have someone to call, to stay with those u love, to be able to face ur friends, to pray together,......many of us can't bring ourselves to get beyond our dark space and it hurts.
Hitomi🥰 i’m turning 24 in a couple days and this is exactly what i needed to hear to change and be ready for change 🌟 Love Love Love your videos. I watch you every morning to start my day, you’re inspiring and keep being a healer not only to yourself but to your spiritual fans that support you always💖
Growth is definitely a journey. I feel that I go one step forward and two step back, but hopefully soon it'll be the other way around. Thanks for the tips Hitomi. Your videos and the reason why I love our TH-cam community
I’m so glad you talked about how you compared the new you to the past you even though you didn’t yet meet the goal of a perfect you. I felt the urge to cry because I’ve been thinking that I’m such a loser in life, but then I look back a year ago and I’m in a better place. I always feel inadequate when I cook because my skills are limited to eggs and bacon. But last year I didn’t even have the courage to cook at all. I care so much about my appearance, now but before I didn’t even know what an appearance was. Now brushing my teeth, shaving, and my skincare routine all happens daily. This video has reminded me to be grateful for the little improvements and taught me that improvement happens slowly. Something I kind of knew, but needed to hear from someone else. As long as I’m moving forward I’m happy. Thank you.
Thank you for this!! I am a 22 years old young mom married to a guy in the millitary and we now live in Alaska. It is sooooo challenging to want to grow as a person and take care of a family. I have came up with my own ways to cope and “not letting myself go there” It feels so good to know that I am not the only one.
When we were stationed in the Pacific Northwest we used the full spectrum lights to combat seasonal affected disorders SAD. Alaska is even worse for depression due to the lack of sunshine. Just a tip to help😁
Find My Own Style I dont know if disco lights help but I like to keep myself busy so I usually do diy crafts with music, disco lights and a little bit of wine (sometimes). Alaska has taught me to make more homemade stuff because we are in a remote area where shipping is hard. I have also managed to keep my energy up by working out and staying away from tv as much. I have never felt so at peace in my life!! 💓
I love you, Hitomi. I really needed this message today. I've been on a healing journey for over a couple years and lately I've been hitting the wall a lot. I've made a ton of progress but I still feel like a failure when I have days where I struggle, or I return to those depths. Gotta remember how far I've come.
I like it that you made it a point to say that you waited years for the right people in your life and it makes me feel a little bit less alone as I wondered to myself "speech where does this girl live to be finding these amazing people in her life"
The fact that I’ve just spent my evening watching spiritual awakening around depressions and then you legit uploads this while I’m waiting for a new vid from you like wooooowww just woooowww thank you beautiful angel sending good pure divine energy 🌺✨💖💕🚀
Thank you so much for this video. Just after I woke up I was having panic attacks and anxiety attacks and it lasted for a while I wanted to go back to sleep I just couldn’t until I came across this video of yours I feel much lighter now knowing that good things are coming and I can actually heal from these monstrous thoughts of mine. Thank you
one thing that has really helped me was deleting social media and keeping myself busy with things I would be doing but wasn't cause I spent hours scrolling on apps.
i really needed this right now. i've kind of been struggling this month and i've been feeling myself slip back into old habits, spending too much time in bed and on screens, getting lazy with things like cleaning and health and hygiene etc. i think i'm going to have a bit of a journaling sesh now inspired by this video and then have an early night.. hopefully to be better tomorrow :) thank you for being you hitomi ✨
I really needed this. I‘m always afraid of relapsing again, whenever I feel like i‘m facing a down-phase. But I‘ve noticed that’s it’s important to feel these lows again for the highs to feel so good!
We can be friends I'm probably on the other side of the planet tho. But we can talk I used to suffer from depression and anxiety. I went from basically being unable to get out of my apartment for 3 months to almost a fully functional person. I still get these depressive feelings but it's very seldom and I'm managing it pretty easily I would say
This is such a beautiful video, Hitomi! However, I'd like to mention that a lot of what keeps us from spiraling down is healthy & nourishing relationships. A lot of people don't have that! I certainly didn't for a long time and loneliness was a huge factor in my depression. Having good, high-vibe friends to call up and just share your feelings is both a blessing and a privilege! And I know firsthand how imprisoning and isolating it feels like to not have that. So I want to add--for people who are still finding their tribe: it helps to do social things that will foster authentic connections. Joining an online course, support group--anything that will allow you to share your journey with other people who are moving towards similar life intentions. Sharing yourself with the world through your creations and authentic self-expression can connect you to like-hearted people. And on a day-to-day basis...going to cafes, libraries and events can be helpful just to stay afloat. I am a loyal customer to my favorite cafes and restaurants, and I always end up being a friendly with all the baristas and waitresses as a result. I know to such people I always appeared to be so bold and charismatic...but what they don't know is how much light those little interactions brought into an otherwise melancholy day. Or that my 5 minute convo with the person who made my juice is the closest I got to having a real friend that day. It's not easy but if you hang in there and stay open--the universe will bring you what you truly deserve. That is how things came together for me. You'll eventually find what you're seeking if you keep your heart open.
this video found me at such perfect timing. i find myself struggling to be "normal". i tell those around me that i'm fine because i don't have the energy to tell them how much i am hurting. it reminds me that healing isn't about feeling better it's about getting better at feeling. depression and life-ending thoughts don't just disappear. our relationship and how we respond changes. thankyou, hitomi for the reminder that life can be worth living, so let's build it together
When I was at my worst, I thought the toxic ways I expressed myself was me being honest to who I was and to other people. After many years of healing, I now realize that I was a girl in pain, and lived in such a deep denial of it in that I lied to myself order to feel a sense of worthiness and protection. I now know that was not who I am, but it was my pain and my fears. Now that I am free from it, I can step into the best version of myself, and let gratitude, curiosity and compassion be my compass rather than fear. Thank you as always for sharing your experiences so that we can shed light on our own.
I never thought people like you could be depressed...I thought if I become someone like you I will never be depressed, turns out happiness is something else...
Typically, It's people like this who are the most depressed of all.. Simply because they care so much about how they are perceived by others and everything is about crafting an image of how they look to others and trying to rigidly stick to a narrative they feel is acceptable instead of letting them just be a messy and authentic human that isn't always radiating positivity and light. They trap themselves with this as it's very limiting and they need an audience to feel validated, a sense of self esteem and more. I can guarantee that this content creator feels pressure to create, to try be perfect and has their moods at the mercy of how well their content performs on a platform. If you turn yourself into a brand and product and you make your life the thing that's being sold... Well, then that's really a place of pressure and, longterm, misery because even those that do well don't stay relevant and once they are used to that attention they feel very lost without it in the future. This person is pretty young and clearly super invested in this image because it brings many gains to her life in material wealth and attention. Anyone trying to hard to project a story of them being so spiritually evolved and happy is clearly trying to sell something to you for a reason as opposed to it just being a genuine state that exists for themselves. The happiest people and the most genuinely spiritual people don't need to try and prove their wisdom endlessly and try to convince others (and themselves) of how happy and content and perfect they feel. Become someone like you and find your happiness in your own authentic value systems and individual passions, you don't need to be like anyone else in the world. Why idolise people like this and feel like you have to be this to be worthy? You are only seeing the smallest window of their lives and only what they want to see after all.... The story of how they are a hero that overcome all odds, of how evolved and awake they are, of how good they are, how happy and amazing their life is, how they are such perfectly beautiful and morally superior humans etc etc. Don't believe the hype ❤️
You are the most powerful and authentic influencer I have come upon on the internet Hitomi. You are what any influencer should be, and what this world is craving for. Brightest light and love, sprinkle that s..t all over please :-) thank you for doing the work, thank you for having Kinks and being whole on all aspects, not only the soft higher frequency, but all. I am truly happy to see you as a generation of the future and to own your human experience to the max. Nothing is perfect, but you show an example of truth and love vibration, health and consciousness higher than what I have seen before. Blessings to you and I will follow your journey as well.
ugh love the bit about turning off all notifications on ur phone and waiting patiently to find ur community/not settling for those u don’t click with. thank u 💗💗
i just want you to know i grew up in the midwest suburbs and i now live in butt-fuck ohio, and am attending university here. its been incredibly difficult finding ppl who understand me and my energies without immediately making fun of it. thank you for being here and being present. i love you profoundly. im grateful. thank you.
I Love you. Thank you for sharing a slice of yourself. This video could be considered your life's work as far as saving your own life is concerned. But the way you show up for yourself and honor your alone time speak volumes to your self love. Might I also say, you are absolutely beautiful and magnetizing. Peace to you Goddess.
There is a really good quote "If you set out to find a friend you will find them scarce. But if you set out to be a friend, you will find them everywhere." And also remember that even the best relationships with the best people will have conflict sometimes, even if you are not romantically involved. Although tbh I was also never able to have this level of female friendship and it makes me sad. I always felt very uncomfortable around other girls. I have no solution for that hahahaha
the thing about staying in the dark is that for the moment it becomes the only certain thing in my life. so when i have moments of joy, i fear it won't last. but that only takes me away from the moment and truly enjoying the life i deserve
You were the catalyst for my own spiritual journey 3/4 years ago, its so crazy and beautiful to see you grow more and more everyday, and to see myself grow in the process as well 🥺😭😭 love you so muchh!! 💓💗💗
I went through a 30 day intensive therapy group and I gotta say a lot of what you are saying is the foundation of what they teach. This spoke to me so much thank you.
this was hard for me to watch.. suffering hard with depression I haven't left my home in years. I've lost myself completely I pray each day I don't wake up but I do.. and its Groundhog Day all over again.
you have allways help me. you were my go to place in 2018 when i had my first panic attacs i used to put you videos before going to sleep to calm my self and now that my anxiety came back. Allways so peacefull and positive✨! thank youuu !
My biggest tip for not spiraling into depression: stop judging yourself for not being the person in this video. It’s okay if you’re not meditating, not doing yoga, not reading books, or eating ice-cream. The worst thing you can do to yourself is judge yourself. Acceptance is key to contrasting those negative thoughts. “My room is messy by TH-cam standards and I watched TikTok for 5 hours today and that’s okay. I still love myself.”
thank you, i needed that
This made me cry honestly, I felt myself instantly comparing myself to this lovely creator, I guess I’m really struggling harder then I thought
Thanks💖
yes to this, i finally got out of a 7year depression last year and become a new person, but at the beginning of the year i felt down i hated throat i wasn't doing yoga or meditation or being like her or other put together spiritual people making me feel like i should return to the darker me. but i just let myself feel my emotions while reminding myself y i was having these emotions and i'm doing much better now i think it's not about staying good but being able to work through hard times in a healthy way
Saving this to read daily, thanks 😔
“ I used to romanticize every aspect of my life and got disappointed” i felt that
Same, honestly kinda feel like my depression might come from that :')
Books and movies sometimes make real life seem extremely underwhelming
@@shim-kyu6811 i agree omg it’s really bad
@@shim-kyu6811 same.. and how to deal with it? stop reading and watching movies or what...
Absolutely, this was a realization I've had recently, and now I find this. :)
@@lyuba_bobrova movies and tv shows are made to seem all wonderful and fun because it is written from the imagination of someone, it's very unrealistic so don't ever push that ideology that your life is boring just because it's not like what's shown on media because most people don't live like that.
Without daily habits and a certain level of self discipline it's almost impossible not to spiral into depression in today's world
Indeed
So true!
For sure.
*chuckles* I'm in danger.
So true
Treating myself like a child I'm responsible for has been the biggest factor in doing things to prevent depression from setting in and fixing disordered eating. I ask myself, "would I let my 6 year old niece lie in bed all day scrolling through social media, and then eat a bag, or handful of crisps (depending which way the scale of my self worth would be tipping) as a meal, before getting back into bed while saying horrible things about herself?" the answer is no. I'd make her wake up at a reasonable hour, feed her mind, take the time to cook a proper nutritious meal, take her outside for some fresh air and a walk in nature to get her body moving and mind stimulated.
Keeping my mind and body active and my nutrition healthy has given me the strength to take the next steps, like reach out and make new friends and work towards my goals.
This is a very helpful picture. I will try to think of it like that. I find it so easy to love and help others but so hard to do the same for myself. Thinking of myself as someone I should care for - like a child - might actually help. Thank you!
@@hederahelix4600 I have the exact same problem. If my husband is hungry I will cook whatever his heart desires. But if I'm hungry a handful of crisps is about as much effort as I'm willing to make. It's helped me tremendously, there are still dark days, but when you take care of yourself they're fewer.
@@hederahelix4600 I hope it helps :)
@@kitsunecinnamon wow this is actually a great idea! I'm gonna try this
Yes yes yes! The best advice I ever got in relation to sleep issues was to treat myself like I was my own child. Because of that I now have a lovely bedtime routine and instead of hating going to bed, I really enjoy it! It really makes such a difference!
Its really weird but, depression gives me a feeling of solace , its an uncomfortable comfort zone, where I feel like im being the most truthful to myself, so its really hard to want to feel better. I think I ended up associating a lot of my personality with depression- dealing with it since my pre teen years, now as an adult its really hard to give it up for some twisted reason.. but i am giving my best as we all should!! love your content xx
edit: wow, didn't know so many people felt the same, but the good thing is that realising and accepting it means that we've already come such a long way, now all we need to do is to try and change it little by little... its something that doesn't go away quickly like i would want it to, so i keep that in mind and try to congratulate myself in the little accomplishments (as hard as it may be) baby steps! We can do it guyss!!
It feels bad but it became normal and comfortable
there's something endearing in melancholy.
this is... me. when im starting to feel happy i often find myself self-sabotaging since theres this weird feeling of missing sadness and believing it fits me better than happiness.
same for me thing uhg
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Procrastination is such a big issue, I can‘t get out of it.
Best start w/ meditation, and practice it constantly, u will see change very soon (we procrastinate b/c things are demanding more than our focus power, so it’s either u increase your focus power like practicing medication/yoga, or breaking things down into smaller pieces which you can handle one at a time, and give yourself rewarding system to give yourself motivation to carry it out :-)
I was a big procrastinator, and trust me meditation HELPS A LOT!
@@tokyomilmil thanks
@@tokyomilmil i will try this.
i have the same issue!! i watch study with me videos to motivate me to do stuff, even if they're not school related, it helps me a lot!!
@@tokyomilmil thank you sm I will do this ✨
My brain is so unhealthy- whenever I see beautiful happy people my instinct is to just put myself down. I hope to not be like that someday.
Same, it is hard for me looking at her perfect body and face, and also that she hast her life together, i so not begrudge it her, but i cannot deny the feelings i feel and thoughts i have
I'm struggling with my self worth too, it's so easy to compare yourself to others when you think your life is lacking.
Babe, it's cause of habit. You can change that. You're more powerful than you know, promise. Everything takes practice.
Can I say something, this kinda helps me in my insecurities. So in your head, just think about ONE thing that you have which the other person might not, whether it's a friend or an experience of maybe a memorable trip. Just imagine that if you were someone else, you wouldn't have had that.
The thing that I always do whenever I find myself in that place is that I remind myself that "I'll never be like them so quit it". Not to say that I'm not beautiful, but to acknowledge that I'm a unique beautiful human being, and that society doesn't like different things. Society like to control/label things. So the more that I say that to myself, the more that I love myself every day. 🦋💗
"I miss the comfort in being sad"... I often find myself almost basking in that sadness, melancholy and anxiety, whilst I understand how much it's dragging me down. But it's becoming better gradually. When I think how much beauty that sadness is making me miss, how much fuller my life can be if I allow myself to feel different emotions, that's when I snap out of it. And negative feelings too can be turned into something beautiful, but we shouldn't limit ourselves to only one emotion.
Thank you SO much for making this video. It's amazing to know you're not alone going through this. :)
So beautifully said
Definitely can relate💖 thank you
this comment really resonated with me. thank you
I don’t know if this is a coincidence or not but please listen to the song Frances Farmer Will Have Her Revenge On Seattle. It couldn’t be any more spot on.
I think the same way
Deleting tiktok was definitely the best decision i made to improve my well being
For anyone considering this; I just deleted it the other day and I feel way less anxious. I really don’t miss it at all lol. (Even though I spent hours a day on it)
I removed all friends from my FB account in 2015 and it continues to be freeing. I keep the account for the lost and found dog posts in my neighborhood but I don’t have to see the feed.
@@_ellaaa_8393 Same! I feel like I forgot to live, I was just in some kind of tiktok haze.
i just deleted all socials last night, i hope i see a change
I deleted every form of social media 3 days ago and I’m honestly shocked at how much less anxiety I have already, but my brain feels like mush. I haven’t really used my mind for anything productive for almost a year now and have spend 6-7+ hours on mostly TikTok a day. Time to learn how to enrich my mind and brain again ✨
my biggest issue when I start spiraling is just getting out of bed. It gets so difficult, and I start checking my phone without pause until it's so late in the morning I feel like I wasted my day.
i do this exact same thing... sometimes i’ll get up and be like “okay i’m not doing this today” and get up and like get something to eat or go wash my face but then i end up sitting back on my bed thinking it’ll just be a few minutes and end up laying back down on my phone for a few more hours..
Me too
@@siennacapelli me. too. omg
I am so guilty of this. I wish I could just get out of bed for once
Sameee.. i think about lets think about this and get some work done, but viola i ALWAYS end up using my phone..at this point, i have even stoped drinking water..i am dehydrated af, puffy face, no will to get anything..i wonder- am i just lazy or depressed for real?
I think this is a sign. I’ve been really depressed lately. I’m glad I’m not alone and thank you for your help.
Me too. 🖤
good luck 💗
@Benedetta Luciani thank you a ton 🥺❤️
@@solindasol much love for you 🥺I hope things get better for you
@@e123-5 thank you 🥺💓
Yoga 6:04
Clean your space 7:07
Phone a friend 7:30
Intentional time with friends 8:48
Limit screen time 10:05
Be pragmatic about your goals 11:25
Be aware of energy vampires 11:50
Thank you so much for this!!!❤❤❤❤
ty I have adhd these stamps are so helpful ily
I love that you said “life ending thoughts”. When I try to express this to people or what I’m going though, the S word is so hard for me to say bc it’s triggering and feels horrible. But this is a more comfortable way to put it
Alissa Fairbanks Same for me. I like how she said it.
same like the “s word” is triggering for me but “life ending thoughts” isn’t triggering at all
That part is an eye-opener for me, I have always struggled with saying or even thinking the S word and I honestly didn't know of any other way to phrase it in a polite way that also said what I wanted to say, so I really like the way this is said, I'm way more comfortable with this instead
I’m here just to say that you are worthy and that you deserve love and happiness 💛
You can contact me if you feel alone and need help. IG: @alexnununu
You got this 💛
Worth watching the whole video, but if you're short on time-
~8 daily habits~
1 always have access to asana 6:03
2 clean your whole space every day 7:05
3 phone a friend 8:07
4 intentional time with friends 9:42
5 limit screen time 10:03
6 feed energy to your dreams 10:34
7 be pragmatic about your goals 11:45
8 be aware of energy vampires 11:50
Thank you ☺️
thanks
Thank you!
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***#1. Know that healing is possible***
Can I just say your intentional time with friends is so beautiful and wholesome, I actually cried. I cried out of sadness for myself that I have never experienced pure plutonic love like that. I thank you for helping me release that emotion that I wasn't even aware of, this video reminded me that I too can have my chosen family, I too can have beautiful sacred connections.
Platonic, you mean platonic.
@@DoraM12 yes! I mean Platonic :D thanks lool
that was one part of the video i really felt too.
Hello beautiful earth lover! I too have been conditionally loved by my parents and strive for love from friends and people that don’t just want to take from me!
Im one year clean from self harm this month. Sadness ebbs and flows. Cherish yourself
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im so proud of you!! over 8 months for me, which is the longest ive ever been clean :)
Wow! I’m so happy for you, Asha!
Wow! Me too, i haven't self harmed in all 2020
So proud of you! Congratulations!💖
you look so pretty and I don't even mean it in a physical way, it's kind of like... you look so happ and it really shows. I hope I can one day look as happy as you do.
Yes she is beautiful, pretty.
Agree with you
When we love ourselves we just... ✨ *glow* ✨
but she is pretty in a physical way too
She really does, she’s glowing and just has amazing energy
let's be real she is pretty I know she's depressed but come on u think she doesn't have it better than the rest of u...she does...her looks will let her be depressed ppl will accommodate n sympathize being real
I’m crying. This video is so beautiful. I’m 17 years old. I pray that one day I will live a life with such passionate beauty. To be an empowered woman surrounded by other empowered women. To leave this city and be the person I’ve always yearned to be. Sometimes it feels like I’ll never get out of my parents house. I yearn to be alone.
im 17 too, im falling into depression, & im currently struggling with anxiety. i dream of this just like you... i am certain that one day, you will achieve your dream, you deserve it ! you are amazing
You spoke my heart..btw I too am 17
i feel you
how are you now?
Early to bed and early to rise, makes a man and lady healthy, wealthy and wise.
how dare you assume my gender.
😂😂
best cute little poem haha
Me watching that at 5am: 👁👄👁
Early to rise, early to bed, makes a man healthy but socially dead
i've been struggling a lot with creating meaninful relationships, and everytime I watch tiktok or social media in general I just see this perfect group of friend that I don't have, but hearing you talkin' about loneliness and spending time on your own just reminded me that this is a perfect time to know me better and have my own space, thanks Hitomi
Sofía Montenegro this has probably been my biggest struggle so far in my 21 years of life. I have never, despite my best efforts to put myself out there and also taking a back seat at times, had a close friend, and every time I’m close, it doesn’t fit. It’s been a pretty big factor in my depression, because I just feel like the only person in the world that can’t get a connection. It seems so easy, like second nature, to everyone else, I just don’t get it.
@@XxDangerDaysxX I have the exact same issue.. I just don't understand what it is about me..
Me too you guys, and I’m glad at least I’m not alone in that feeling. And hey, we made it this far! Xx
Guys, idk if you're up for it but why not exchange contact details?
I feel the same way, I have 1 meaningful relationship in my life and I just feel like I’ll never find anyone else who I connect with
"recommended for you'
me at 4am eating my depression sandwich in the dark: gee i wonder why
LOL!
Me eating pop tarts at 3am
3/4 of a gluten free pizza at 4:30 AM
Arumin ❤
Me at 6am
I struggled with depression since I was 13 (I am 21 now). And, I, too, had this idea that one day it would just go away. And, it's understandable. In society, now, I think that "self-care" has come to mean putting on a facemask, or drinking enough water. But, it was only when I realized that self-care is a continual, daily, complex process that you have to do, that I could embody real meaning, and contentedness, with my life as a whole.
It is a constant struggle keeping your head afloat. But, when you create healthy habits, you forget about the fact that you are even consciously making an effort to be content- you just become content, stumbling upon happiness, thanks to your own conscious efforts to structure your life in a healthy way. Healthy habits are physical (like veganism), they are also emotional (listening to your negative emotions and replacing them with positive perspective-taking, mindfulness, and meditation).
It is hard to choose to strive for better, but it is infinitely worth it. Remember to recognize your progress, even in the little things: pat yourself on the back for making your bed in the morning, even if you didn't clean your whole house. And, before you know it, you will be achieving things you never knew were possible. For me, when I was 18 I was a college dropout. Now, at 21, I am about to go to Oxford University next year. I never would have thought, depressed as I was three years ago, that something like this would even be possible. But, the small, daily things kept me afloat, kept me pushing, kept me confident enough in myself, that I could achieve the things that I dreamed of. Even though tragedy continues to strike me, I continue to have faith in myself, forgive myself, and move forward, and that is all a testament to my continual, conscious efforts to formulate good mental and physical habits the protect me even in the worst of moments.
You will get there, it will take effort, but, trust me, you will thank yourself years later, that you chose to stay on Earth, that you chose to make your life better even in your worst of moments, that you chose to love, and forgive yourself, and have faith in the process.
Thank you for this inspiring comment ❤ I'm proud of you!
@@purplewitchtarotanddivinat5680 Thank you! I am happy that you got something from it. :)
literally screenshooting this comment to have as a personal reminder. thank you for sharing. (I'm always glad I scroll down to the comment sections on videos; I love that similar energy is shared here with other people as in the video)
Thank you so much for this ...I am going through depression since 7 months and recently I have been watching videos abt self care and self worth that came in my recommendations....I am now on the journey of healing and hopefully giving my 1000% to complete my dreams which seemed Impossible back then 🙂 If you did it , I can definitely give a try 💜 sending love and warmth🌸
@@ominomi5130 thank you so much for taking time and helping me through your experience...it means a lot....I will surely order this book and read asap ! I am feeling so much warmth that atleast my heart wants to accept my bad phase and get through this ! I want to have morning n night routine (just now I watched some really helpful videos on YT :) I will give my best to make sure to love and speak for myself 💜 depression was a long period and so will be the healing process 🙂 I will update my progress here after a month ✔ .....🤗how hard I try to thank you it isn't enough .
i think a lot of people forget what self care is. no, its not just putting on a facemask or drinking water, but its anything and everything that makes your day even a smidge better. do whatever will make your life at least 1% happier. if facemasks and makeup and water will make you feel better, they count. don’t discredit things that make you feel healthy and good.
and most importantly: we say life has meaning, but it only gets as good as we let it become. the best way to heal is to take baby steps and treat yourself like you would treat a hospital patient. maybe you just need a little more love and a little more kindness, and maybe you can give yourself that support.
don’t look to others for energy, because they might not always be ready to help you. learn to depend on yourself and your closest people, and remember that you are the version of yourself that you chose to be.
if you want to be a better version of you, work harder and treat yourself kinder. growth only comes with time and effort.
being true to ourself
thank you so so much for this comment
i think a lot of people are forgetting that mental illness doesn’t just affect you, depending on the situation, it really can affect your personality, the decisions you make, and how you treat other people. while i see in your video that you are speaking of these fulfilling friendships and people are commenting about how they are sad they don’t have that, they are forgetting that mental illness a lot of the time inhibits these types of long lasting relationships. but that is something that with progress can change, for i’ve experienced it myself. it just comes with patience and love for yourself and compassion for others (which is hard when you feel like your life is the worst it could possibly be and at the same time having guilt by knowing it’s not).
youtube really said "recommended for yOU" huh
Same 😅 i got it recommended on both my phone as well as iPad, which is definitely a sign..
You forgot to make the ‘y’ in ‘You’ capital.. it’s bothering me 😅
Sorry ,just my ocd (:
TH-cam knows what's up
@@nori9779 it was definitely a stylistic choice
I’m literally in a place of healing and growth, trying to find meaning, peace and tranquility in my interactions with people and myself... but I haven’t quite found it yet, so I felt kinda... stuck. Then TH-cam said ✨here✨ and now I’m crying
This came at a perfect time for me. I’m in such a spiral right now and my thoughts have been so bad, even I’m aware it’s concerning but I find that i don’t really care at that moment. I’m really tired of it so I’m gonna try these habits and hopefully, it’ll improve my thinking even a little bit :)
same
it's really difficult for those who don't care, but I hope we find our way into lightness soon
@@annafidelis me too! All the best to you girl!!
So weird how reading these comments make me sad and makes me want to give all the love in the world to you and want you to be happy! Even though I don’t know you at all. But yet, you can’t think that way about yourself, or when somebody else says it to you, you don’t believe it. So exhausting. But be good girl! Take it slow and take a deep breath
I struggle with telling friends(honestly anyone) about negative emotions, and not wanting to bring someone else down. It's my goal to feel comfortable and encouraged to share my lower points with friends and feel comforted and understood
I hope you have honey!🙏🏽🤍
U are not alone! It’s so good, that ur already seeing this struggle. I believe in you and your power. Step by step.
‘I’ve spent years alone trying to find my community of friends’
Been there, done that. I still ended up hunting them down and making new friendships when the loneliness reached its peak, LOL.
The question is how to find it 🧐 ?
dude this girl has not had issues finding ppl...I need a real person not a cliche of instadepressionaesthetictheraphys
@@Kaymitlit personally I'm still searching, but I think that you have to put yourself out there and meet new people and make the effort. Hiding away at home might seem like the most appealing option, but your ideal community of friends is outside, not hiding under your bed, so you have to go outside and keep trying until you find them.
@@Kaymitlit what is helping me is finding a community from something you enjoy doing, if that means sports of video games, just do it. And the ability to start small talk. They may not be friends that you can open up to but having people around when doing something you all love will eventually get you to the point where you can open up to them. If you don’t enjoy doing any sport or you're not into health and fitness i strongly recommend you try to get involved in an activity that benefits both your physical health and mental health like yoga and try to small talk your way into the community.
hi hitomi - i really admire how comfortable you are when speaking about this realm of experience. your speech is so fluid, graceful and passionate. much love
I compare myself to literally every single person on earth. Its so draining i just wish i wasnt like this.
yeah same bro
The "why am I the way that I am" cosumes me to my core
@Nell yurksitis I’m very sorry to hear that because if that’s you in your profile picture then you truly are beautiful and I hope one day you can learn that other people’s beauty does not take away from your own in any way
Yup your not alone love
Me too it's exhausting
why am I crying, I’m ready to start showing up for myself
Yess
SAME
cheering for you!
I feel this video
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Exactly
Your friendship relationships seems so fulfilling I want that 🥺
Honestly where doEs one find friends like tht🥺
we can be friends :)
I thought exactly the same 🥺
Church, youth groups.
me too. i have one friend who im building up our relationship with. we’ve been close for a long time. i’ve also found some other people but i hardly talk to them. i get really nervous around them hahah. but i feel like we really connect.
you saying toward the end “you have something to live for” just made me absolutely lose it. thank you for making this.
You are so worthy of life and not only to live it but to live it fully with absolute bliss
@@karenkay.o thank you for this comment 💕
A quote I learned that pulled me out of my own darkness " practice in the light what you want to remember in the dark " it is a daily journey. Daily... Don't stop doing the work just because you feel better 💓
I love this 😭
Interesting, that's a good idea. Another one would be "In the silence and stillness of the dark, close your eyes, breathe deeply, and see yourself already restored and thriving in the light."
I love that one as well!!! 😍
Wow I really like that quote. Thank you for sharing that!
@@palestar828 You’re welcome!!
honestly it sounds weird but i used to think that self love = narcissism. this was rlly damaging because i thought congratulating myself for achieving something would make me a bad person. this made my mental health problems rlly bad. so glad i don’t think like that anymore. thank you for this video
thank you for this!!!!
Hey Leah
2 goddesses omg
Leah!!💕
I found leah's comments in literally every single video that I watch. 😳
@@clueless7454 is that clancy???
this video literally revived my lust for life and desire to live life to the fullest. so much gratitude towards you.
i actually cried at 9:53 the small interactions and gestures of love and friendship look so genuine and uplifting and i hope i can find friends like this in my present
as a current lonely gal who just graduated high school and is staying home bc of covid, i havent been keeping in touch with friends and havent made any new ones, so you saying spending time alone to cultivate higher quality relationships is so special to me bc ive been trying to take my alone time as a blessing to get close to myself and my desires
I have the same thing, I can't really make new friends bc of covid but I also am not good at keeping in touch with friends through social media... so I'm a bit lonely
Elio virtual book club seems like the most perfect thing for me i might have to look into that
@Elio those are really good ideas, thanks for the help!!
that’s how I’ve looked at it as well:) the right friends will come as you start finding yourself and figuring out the type of people you want to surround yourself with
Alone time is sacred time to reconnect with yourself. It's very important to reflect
for everyone reading this that's been feeling heavy lately, I'm sending all my positive energy for you right now
you will get there. I believe in you
I’m gonna have friends like these one day ✨Manifestation✨
"Be pragmatic about your goals"
What steps can you take to help bring this dream into reality?
Its hard when you enjoy beeing alone mire than with people you dont connect 100% so you cant even get closer to them and build a relationship
Marina C right I relate so much with this, like I can feel the intuition from the start I meet with someone whether I feel spiritually connected with them or they’re just filler for the lonesomeness in my life
Attract Friends Subliminal - Reprogram Your Mind (While You Sleep) maybe this could help the name of the channel is Live The Life You Love
What you put out you attract!
Hey Hitomi, i just wanted to say that im beyond grateful for your videos and that you are alive. You help so many human beings with your existence. Im 16 years old and living in Berlin and i dont know but i dont have friends that are sharing the same interests as me (but im also extremly grateful for my friends and i have so much fun with them). But the thing is that i know deep within me that i will find people who do are spiritual and want to dance with me in the rain and want to talk about how crazy it is to be alive and how beautiful everything around us is. I never went through depression or anything and im just so fucking happy. You have created this safe space for me and im so grateful! I can feel your energy everytime i watch your videos and afterward i have this special feeling in me and i just think everytime "Man this live is beautiful!". So yeah i just wanted to say THANK YOU FOR BEING HERE. (sorry for grammar mistakes, im german :) )
ich will dir sagen, ich hab mich in deinem Alter (ich bin jetzt 21) genauso gefühlt im Bezug darauf, nicht die Freunde zu haben, die einen verstehen und auf der selben Wellenlänge sind. Ich hab mich so oft so einsam gefühlt und gedacht, es wird niemals besser, aber glaub mir - das wird es! Du wirst noch die Menschen finden, die zu dir passen, alles wird gut
Hey! I live in Berlin. I'm twice your age lol but I have a youthful spirit. My half-sister is your age and she is my best friend :-). I just wanted to let you know that I have also struggled with loneliness for **years**, and it's only recently that the weight has begun to lift, and I began forming connections that feel nourishing. I also felt this deep need to find my tribe. The universe/life journey brought those forth into my life--it wasn't all just from me.
Berlin is definitely a very lonely place just on an energetic level--the grey skies and gloom/doom weather really do a number on you. It changes you--and having good people around makes a difference. You will find your people--just continue doing your soul-searching, walking your path and exploring the world. It will come together for you, even if it takes time. If you want to find me, this is my name on all social media platforms. Take care!
Hey! I don't usually comment but your comment really resonated with me, I'm also 16 and love the happiness that watching Hitomi share her ideas has brought into my life. I hope that you find people that have the same interests as you :)) if you wanna chat about anything you can with me xx
I’m 16 as well, in your same situation. So refreshing to feel such a con rection from a distance, you are not alone! Who knows, maybe we’ll meet one day - a message from my hopeful heart
@@catherinemeade5498 Heyyy, wow im just smiling right now beacuse im so happy about your message! I really appreciate it. i must say that i dont have any social media besides snapchat; but i would love to chat with you! Wow, its crazy how many of us are out here feeling this connected to one person and to each other. So thank you!!
Your relationship with your friends Looks so genuine and wholesome. ✨Manifesting healing and that for myself one day. 🥺
Would love to find a video that speaks to depression coming from frustration with society and anger about feeling trapped, rather than the assumption of being somehow ashamed of yourself and just needing to love yourself more. Ain’t about that for me! Anyone else?
It’s a mix of both for me. I found that antidepressants helped me stop hating myself so much but I feel even more trapped and limited by society now. We deserve better lives, without scarcity and struggle.
We're the same..
Same.
I’m relieved that I am not the same to feel like that
"I've spent years alone wwaiting to find my community of friends and it was so worth it to take that time"
I really wish I had friends 😭
Today I felt the worst in a while, constantly having the urge to cry, feeling restless and doing nothing about it, drawing used to be everything for me, but I've lost the ability to enjoy anything other than feeding my own addiction to nicotine and marijuana, never felt that low before to be honest, I've got wonderful friends and an amazing loving and understanding boyfriend(first boyfriend, been besties for 2 years before getting together) which I don't feel I deserve, just feeling so out of control on my life. It's hard to shower, can't bare looking at myself in the mirror. I'll be only turning 18 this year yet I feel trapped inside an old, powerless, sick lady's body. It would be wrong to say that your video made me change my perspective on life, but after watching around 7 videos in that fashion, you're the first one that made me get up and take a shower, to clean my workspace, pick up my sketchbook, the pile of unreaden books that once brought me excitement just by looking at them.
Thank you so much, your positive energy is something to strive for.
Sis I relate to everything you said. You are not alone! I hope you feel better soon.
im so happy for you thats a huge step
I don't have any friends at all, I'm addicted to fetynal (basically heroin except 100 times stronger) and also nicotine. I think I'd rather be hooked on pot. Count your blessings. Over dosed the other day and had basically died. It could always be worse. You're so so lucky to have friends and support. You're young and you got your whole life ahead of you. I wish I could go back to your age and start it over and do the right things. I envy people like you.
I’m so proud I hope your doing well
I’m so happy about the shows and you picking up that sketchbook. Hope everything is at least a smidge better.
omg i am set on finding friends like that! to meditate cuddle and read poetry. sounds like such beautiful relationships to have! they are coming soon for me just a little more time cultivating and working on myself.
Even though I'm also on the same journey
right?! this is a dream
How did you find your way into a community of amazing high vibrational people? I would love to hear your experience as an introverted Scorpio because it me! :)
Replying to increase awareness of such a potent comment. Hitomi!!! Tell us!!
literally same introverted scorpio here too
@@nazzy101 🤍🤍
Scorpio and introvert , let’s be friends lol
yes!
The footage of you with your pals made me tear up - such beautiful love and compassion thats visually tangible.
you and your friends seem like a true family, all the interactions you’ve shown look so full of love. it makes me excited to live my life and find people whose souls match mine, thanks :)
Perfect time of year to upload this. I can feel the seasonal depression starting. My biggest anti-stressor and dopamine source is roller blading and I'm starting to panic because the snow and rain makes that not possible. Have to think of some new ways to destress and experience joy
I’ve been worried about this too. Try a roller rink if you live near one! It’s a great way to meet ppl too
Everyone: being depressed when you are at home too much
Me: Being depressed when I have to step out of home...
Mannnn😭
Feel you! Right now I'm thinking excuses to not going out
Sameee thought I was the only one🙃🙃
i'm both MSNDKS
True dat!
it's amazing how love can be the answer for... almost every situation ? like being present, creating a safe space and then enjoying those moments w ur loved ones ??? that's what i call connecting and vibing. ty for this video. this is what i took from it ♥
spiraling thoughts is something I have struggled with and it comes back in waves. I learned that the best way to pull myself out of a funk is doing opposite action. So basically when I'm in a depressive state, all I want to do is stay in bed and not doing anything. When I do opposite action, I get out of bed and carry out my day to the best of my ability. The hardest step is getting out of bed and dont get me wrong, opposite action is HAAARD but it has helped me tremendously in the past and still now
Dope shit.... took me 28yrs to figure these gems out and really start living..... So really, I'm only 9yrs old.
I am only 3 months
This comment hit me hard. God bless you
@@amberjo2470 🙏🏽... Thank you.
i m 0 days in this moment
why did I nearly start crying when she said thank you for showing up for yourself omg
I have been feeling overwhelmed lately due to my new job. So this video couldn't come in a better time. Thankful for your videos♥️, sending love and light to everyone 🌙🌠
Thank you for talking about your journey alone before finding your friends, one of the only things I always find hard about watching your videos is seeing you and your friends because you have such amazing beautiful people in your life and unfortunately I don't really have that and I was always a bit jealous. Now I feel like I'm just on my solo journey while I wait for the best possible friends to fall into my life, so thank you so much for helping change my perspective on something that was really bringing me down especially over the last few months and even the last year or two. Im always so grateful after watching your videos
Same
Exactly how I’ve been feeling. But I think it’s so important to love being in your own company (as hard as it can be sometimes) and once you are truly happy in your own company, that is when you will be able to attract the most amazing people into your life. Something I need to keep reminding myself of at the moment. You’re not alone ❣️
@@emily-yq5tk thank you for that Emily. I think I'm meant to be more on my own at this point in my life because I really need to stop being distracted from what I want to do and lately I've been trying to take steps towards achieving my dream life as often as possible so it's probably the right thing for me right now to spend more time alone. I'll make the most of it anyways
Your enviroment has such a huge impact on your health, I’ve learned. Wether it’s the greens outside, or decoration that makes your space feel like your home.
Havent even watched it yet but I know this is gonna be so good. So many ppl need this right now. ❤
while watching this i got the feeling that i was meant to be watching this right at the moment i am, but my eyes WIDENED at 11:24 when I saw the circle tattoo on your wrist. LITERALLY YESTERDAY in a starvation for self expression I drew an open circle on the exact same part of my wrist and it's insane to see that same image on the same part of your hand when this message already felt so meant for me. just thought i'd share how wild this felt, THANK YOU. this video gave me that same happy buzz i get after therapy
Last year (over a year ago!) I did contemplate ending my life (won't say how tho, in case someone who's where I was reads this). But, I had hope. That was before I was on antidepressants. Getting help was the best thing ever, it's extremely uncomfortable but it is so worth it! If I did it, I wouldn't have met my bunny rabbit and I wouldn't have met all of the people that I have met in the last few months, and I wouldn't have had the happy memories that I have created.
I have had many cries since last year but I have also laughed and been happy. It's all gonna be okay. I still am getting help for depression and, again, it's the best thing to do. I have been able to help people through it and someone has helped me through it.
I was at volunteer work around 2 weeks ago. I said to my friend, "I'm gonna go home, I'm not feeling well" then this guy asked me, "You ill?" I said, "No (pointing to my head). Mental health." He said to me, "I was were you are right now for two years. It DOES get better and you're gonna get through it."
Sorry for the long text, but I would like to try to help someone so thank you for reading if you've read it all.
Wow your room backdrop is one of the most satisfying I’ve ever seen
I’m 42, you could probably be my daughter yet I’ve learned so much in just a few of your videos. The yoga mat tip is genius, it will def be left out all day now while I’m working online. That tip right there is so simple yet so profound. Thank you so much!
You're lucky that you have someone to call, to stay with those u love, to be able to face ur friends, to pray together,......many of us can't bring ourselves to get beyond our dark space and it hurts.
Hitomi🥰 i’m turning 24 in a couple days and this is exactly what i needed to hear to change and be ready for change 🌟 Love Love Love your videos. I watch you every morning to start my day, you’re inspiring and keep being a healer not only to yourself but to your spiritual fans that support you always💖
Growth is definitely a journey. I feel that I go one step forward and two step back, but hopefully soon it'll be the other way around. Thanks for the tips Hitomi. Your videos and the reason why I love our TH-cam community
I’m so glad you talked about how you compared the new you to the past you even though you didn’t yet meet the goal of a perfect you. I felt the urge to cry because I’ve been thinking that I’m such a loser in life, but then I look back a year ago and I’m in a better place. I always feel inadequate when I cook because my skills are limited to eggs and bacon. But last year I didn’t even have the courage to cook at all.
I care so much about my appearance, now but before I didn’t even know what an appearance was. Now brushing my teeth, shaving, and my skincare routine all happens daily.
This video has reminded me to be grateful for the little improvements and taught me that improvement happens slowly. Something I kind of knew, but needed to hear from someone else. As long as I’m moving forward I’m happy.
Thank you.
Thank you for this!! I am a 22 years old young mom married to a guy in the millitary and we now live in Alaska. It is sooooo challenging to want to grow as a person and take care of a family. I have came up with my own ways to cope and “not letting myself go there” It feels so good to know that I am not the only one.
When we were stationed in the Pacific Northwest we used the full spectrum lights to combat seasonal affected disorders SAD. Alaska is even worse for depression due to the lack of sunshine. Just a tip to help😁
Find My Own Style I dont know if disco lights help but I like to keep myself busy so I usually do diy crafts with music, disco lights and a little bit of wine (sometimes). Alaska has taught me to make more homemade stuff because we are in a remote area where shipping is hard. I have also managed to keep my energy up by working out and staying away from tv as much. I have never felt so at peace in my life!! 💓
omg i live in alaska too!!!
I love you, Hitomi. I really needed this message today. I've been on a healing journey for over a couple years and lately I've been hitting the wall a lot. I've made a ton of progress but I still feel like a failure when I have days where I struggle, or I return to those depths. Gotta remember how far I've come.
I like it that you made it a point to say that you waited years for the right people in your life and it makes me feel a little bit less alone as I wondered to myself "speech where does this girl live to be finding these amazing people in her life"
Over so many years of struggling, this video as truely helped me just take a new fresh breath of the world thank you so much
The fact that I’ve just spent my evening watching spiritual awakening around depressions and then you legit uploads this while I’m waiting for a new vid from you like wooooowww just woooowww thank you beautiful angel sending good pure divine energy 🌺✨💖💕🚀
Thank you so much for this video. Just after I woke up I was having panic attacks and anxiety attacks and it lasted for a while I wanted to go back to sleep I just couldn’t until I came across this video of yours I feel much lighter now knowing that good things are coming and I can actually heal from these monstrous thoughts of mine. Thank you
I hope you're fine, because you deserve it. Its ok my friend❤
one thing that has really helped me was deleting social media and keeping myself busy with things I would be doing but wasn't cause I spent hours scrolling on apps.
Deliting social media is honestly the best thing you can do!!
As a woman in her 40's who grew up without it....I can say life is MUCH better with no social media.
i really needed this right now. i've kind of been struggling this month and i've been feeling myself slip back into old habits, spending too much time in bed and on screens, getting lazy with things like cleaning and health and hygiene etc. i think i'm going to have a bit of a journaling sesh now inspired by this video and then have an early night.. hopefully to be better tomorrow :) thank you for being you hitomi
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honestly no one should skip the beginning portion, so helpful.
I really needed this. I‘m always afraid of relapsing again, whenever I feel like i‘m facing a down-phase.
But I‘ve noticed that’s it’s important to feel these lows again for the highs to feel so good!
“Call a friend”
Has no friends..
Literslly
I call my mum or sis or cousin same thing 😸
Make friend :)
@@k1ng11_1 it’s hard.
We can be friends I'm probably on the other side of the planet tho. But we can talk I used to suffer from depression and anxiety. I went from basically being unable to get out of my apartment for 3 months to almost a fully functional person. I still get these depressive feelings but it's very seldom and I'm managing it pretty easily I would say
i can't wait to break free from my emotionally abusive mother so i can actually start healing and get help for my depression, social anxiety and adhd
This is such a beautiful video, Hitomi! However, I'd like to mention that a lot of what keeps us from spiraling down is healthy & nourishing relationships. A lot of people don't have that! I certainly didn't for a long time and loneliness was a huge factor in my depression. Having good, high-vibe friends to call up and just share your feelings is both a blessing and a privilege! And I know firsthand how imprisoning and isolating it feels like to not have that.
So I want to add--for people who are still finding their tribe: it helps to do social things that will foster authentic connections. Joining an online course, support group--anything that will allow you to share your journey with other people who are moving towards similar life intentions. Sharing yourself with the world through your creations and authentic self-expression can connect you to like-hearted people. And on a day-to-day basis...going to cafes, libraries and events can be helpful just to stay afloat.
I am a loyal customer to my favorite cafes and restaurants, and I always end up being a friendly with all the baristas and waitresses as a result. I know to such people I always appeared to be so bold and charismatic...but what they don't know is how much light those little interactions brought into an otherwise melancholy day. Or that my 5 minute convo with the person who made my juice is the closest I got to having a real friend that day. It's not easy but if you hang in there and stay open--the universe will bring you what you truly deserve. That is how things came together for me.
You'll eventually find what you're seeking if you keep your heart open.
this video found me at such perfect timing. i find myself struggling to be "normal". i tell those around me that i'm fine because i don't have the energy to tell them how much i am hurting.
it reminds me that healing isn't about feeling better it's about getting better at feeling. depression and life-ending thoughts don't just disappear. our relationship and how we respond changes. thankyou, hitomi for the reminder that life can be worth living, so let's build it together
When I was at my worst, I thought the toxic ways I expressed myself was me being honest to who I was and to other people. After many years of healing, I now realize that I was a girl in pain, and lived in such a deep denial of it in that I lied to myself order to feel a sense of worthiness and protection. I now know that was not who I am, but it was my pain and my fears. Now that I am free from it, I can step into the best version of myself, and let gratitude, curiosity and compassion be my compass rather than fear. Thank you as always for sharing your experiences so that we can shed light on our own.
I never thought people like you could be depressed...I thought if I become someone like you I will never be depressed, turns out happiness is something else...
Typically, It's people like this who are the most depressed of all..
Simply because they care so much about how they are perceived by others and everything is about crafting an image of how they look to others and trying to rigidly stick to a narrative they feel is acceptable instead of letting them just be a messy and authentic human that isn't always radiating positivity and light. They trap themselves with this as it's very limiting and they need an audience to feel validated, a sense of self esteem and more. I can guarantee that this content creator feels pressure to create, to try be perfect and has their moods at the mercy of how well their content performs on a platform. If you turn yourself into a brand and product and you make your life the thing that's being sold... Well, then that's really a place of pressure and, longterm, misery because even those that do well don't stay relevant and once they are used to that attention they feel very lost without it in the future.
This person is pretty young and clearly super invested in this image because it brings many gains to her life in material wealth and attention. Anyone trying to hard to project a story of them being so spiritually evolved and happy is clearly trying to sell something to you for a reason as opposed to it just being a genuine state that exists for themselves.
The happiest people and the most genuinely spiritual people don't need to try and prove their wisdom endlessly and try to convince others (and themselves) of how happy and content and perfect they feel.
Become someone like you and find your happiness in your own authentic value systems and individual passions, you don't need to be like anyone else in the world. Why idolise people like this and feel like you have to be this to be worthy? You are only seeing the smallest window of their lives and only what they want to see after all.... The story of how they are a hero that overcome all odds, of how evolved and awake they are, of how good they are, how happy and amazing their life is, how they are such perfectly beautiful and morally superior humans etc etc. Don't believe the hype ❤️
@@domtekos7761 thank you❤️
im going through a very bad depressive episode right now, so this was very much needed. you always find a way to inspire/brighten my day, hitomi
You are the most powerful and authentic influencer I have come upon on the internet Hitomi. You are what any influencer should be, and what this world is craving for. Brightest light and love, sprinkle that s..t all over please :-) thank you for doing the work, thank you for having Kinks and being whole on all aspects, not only the soft higher frequency, but all. I am truly happy to see you as a generation of the future and to own your human experience to the max. Nothing is perfect, but you show an example of truth and love vibration, health and consciousness higher than what I have seen before. Blessings to you and I will follow your journey as well.
ugh love the bit about turning off all notifications on ur phone and waiting patiently to find ur community/not settling for those u don’t click with. thank u 💗💗
i just want you to know
i grew up in the midwest suburbs and i now live in butt-fuck ohio, and am attending university here.
its been incredibly difficult finding ppl who understand me and my energies without immediately making fun of it.
thank you for being here and being present. i love you profoundly. im grateful.
thank you.
I Love you. Thank you for sharing a slice of yourself. This video could be considered your life's work as far as saving your own life is concerned. But the way you show up for yourself and honor your alone time speak volumes to your self love. Might I also say, you are absolutely beautiful and magnetizing. Peace to you Goddess.
i've never had people in my life like that, how do you even find people like that
honestly! I'm so envious of the shared energy in this video
Me too. That sounds so great
be what u want to attract
There is a really good quote
"If you set out to find a friend you will find them scarce. But if you set out to be a friend, you will find them everywhere." And also remember that even the best relationships with the best people will have conflict sometimes, even if you are not romantically involved. Although tbh I was also never able to have this level of female friendship and it makes me sad. I always felt very uncomfortable around other girls. I have no solution for that hahahaha
@@Iudicatio yeaa it's hard i struggle with that too. although in my case i think it's linked to suppressed attraction towards women
the thing about staying in the dark is that for the moment it becomes the only certain thing in my life. so when i have moments of joy, i fear it won't last. but that only takes me away from the moment and truly enjoying the life i deserve
This is so relatable! Especially the introvert part🙏
You were the catalyst for my own spiritual journey 3/4 years ago, its so crazy and beautiful to see you grow more and more everyday, and to see myself grow in the process as well 🥺😭😭 love you so muchh!! 💓💗💗
I almost started crying when you talked about spending time with your friends.
I went through a 30 day intensive therapy group and I gotta say a lot of what you are saying is the foundation of what they teach. This spoke to me so much thank you.
this was hard for me to watch.. suffering hard with depression I haven't left my home in years. I've lost myself completely I pray each day I don't wake up but I do.. and its Groundhog Day all over again.
Sending you love and healing vibes ❤
@@earthmother4507 thank you I need them
best wishes your way, I hope everything gets better for you soon 🤍
Sending you love, you are not alone and we do cherish you ❤️ I hope it gets better for you soon
After two months how are you? I'm just curious Hope you feel better ❤️ You are strong remember that lots of love for you 💗🌞
one thing i got from this video..."show up for life." thank you.
you have allways help me. you were my go to place in 2018 when i had my first panic attacs i used to put you videos before going to sleep to calm my self and now that my anxiety came back. Allways so peacefull and positive✨! thank youuu !
your mind, your soul, your body, your words- ALL BEAUTIFUL!!!! Also thank you so much for this