Loved this discussion. It is so glad to see Dr K. doing videos on bipolar. It is frequently misunderstood and stigmatised. Let's all continue to try to understand eachother.
I realized it my junior year of college, something about finals stress brought it to the surface after so many years, and it was a family relative and they were a bit older than me too...kinda helped me make sense of the constant self-loathing and sense of worthlessness I had since I was little.
What the heck. I feel like every time I randomly click one of these interviews, I never expect how intensely helpful they are. Amazing how brave she is. Thank you Dr. k.
2:40 reminds me of my uncle. My uncle’s side is known to have so many health problems genetic to his family. Yet they were all “ignited” by things that could be avoided (ie drugs, alcohol, cigarettes, and even red meat) so he just never drinks, he never eats red meat, and is a vegetarian, and avoids any drugs. Because of this he is healthy, and is living much longer than any of his family members have.
Thank you very much! I learned a lot too! This is one of the most valuable resources I know! Thanks Dr. K! Thanks OR3O! And so nice to have another meditation technique 'in my arsenal'! I am so grateful Dr. K. is really helping me (and others also from what I see
You can really see Dr. K trying to make incremental progress after she had difficulty to understanding that what happened to her was horrific. I hope she finds some sort of peace. Knowing the strength certain people have is incredible, but where it comes from can sometimes be very sad.
I experienced sexual trauma in my childhood, and forced exhalation is a method that I've apparently been trying on my own already, but not in an educated way.. NOW I KNOW that what I've been trying to do is called forced exhalation!!! NOW I KNOW how to do it properly!!! I love the academic part of your work. In the few months that I've been watching your content so far I have learned SO MUCH! You drop terms that are helpful and sources that BLOW MY MIND and I'm just so freaking grateful for the knowledge I've gained.
That much suffering without recognition must be agonizing. I wonder if she has a similar experience with victims of sexual abuse such as correlating sexual behavior with that experience. I've gone through something similar to what she did, but a few years younger and a little wider of an age gap. I did learn that kids mimic sexual behavior that they've seen or had happen to them, I never thought of it that way, and I don't really hear otherwise but I just thought that sexual behavior sprouts at varying ages.
yep that's why educating kids is very important, to avoid this situations. Some parents just ignore those topics and don't talk about them, it's pretty dangerous. I wish you the best.
I was struggelng wiht the "but"-Problem for like the last 6 month or so. And it is really hard to get around it. And now you tell me, you can replace it with "and" ... thats awesome, it makes it really easy. Thanks Dr.K
It happened to me too the child on child abuse, pretty much the same thing. His grandfather also molested me, so I wouldn't be surprised that he imitated his behaviour and was also molested. Damn this whole interview has been way too relatable
I've been watching your stuff for a week now. So slowly but surely getting through your videos. I plan on watching the videos on dealing with trauma and PTSD-- since I have those issues-- but I would honestly love to see you discuss the subject on forcing yourself to set healthy boundaries. (Especially in environments when others don't want to respect your wishes.) As well as the discussion of mental illness and physical disabilities, and how the two can affect each other. For example, despite being very understanding about my own physical limits, I tend to push myself beyond it because it's expected of me. Or the sense of feeling like a burden to others, so I end up 'making up for it'. Actually, I tend to be very self sacrificing because of both the burden aspect as well of fear of confrontation-- that's abuse related though. I have a hard time allowing myself to come first, even if my life depends on it. (Literally, I used to be hospitalized every six months because of people pushing me past my limits with no breaks, and my body would break down.) Sorry, I have a habit of trying to explain myself through personal examples. BUT! As I said, I would love to see discussion on these topics. (As i know both gaming and the arts side of youtube both intersect with many of us with disabilities. Seeking comfort and dopamine, yo.)
I only realized the session with OR30 went down after seeing the New Years video! check out OR30's cover of Unravel, all the best to this talented woman!
The word for feeling both sides is "Ambivalence". Since you have internet and now know which word to search for you can find a lot of info about it. I'm sure Dr K is not the only one that can help you.
@@DRN-iu7wh she's not that famous but she's pretty well known in the anime community, she does covers, parody VA (not sure about actual VA), etc. she's also not on twitch i think that's why a lot of twitch people dont know her
Hello there, I’m new to this channel and I just want to say that everything about this stream was absolutely beautiful. It’s always amazing to see such a kind-hearted person help someone in need. You helped out a musician I love so much with something that so serious, but often ignored or not known well and that’s amazing. It’s shocking to see OR3O, an amazing person who always puts a smile on my face, revealing what she had to go through when she was younger. It was absolutely heartbreaking to me and actually made my cry at one point, but you helped her in a way she needed most, which is not only rare, but beautiful. This also helped me, because this is the first time I’ve heard of bipolar disorder, I’m thinking of being a psychologist when I’m older so I can help people with these struggles, and it shows me a way to find a balance between two separate thoughts without getting rid of another. Thank you, Dr. K, for helping OR3O, helping others, and helping me.
I have bpd and the technique that was given was like.... An epiphany for me. Im going to try the "and" method when I'm in an episode now. And im going to use it for practice as well. Thank you for that. It helps solidify the "grey" area
I know the creepy uncle thing is a common joke, but I think there’s a reason why it’s such a common reference and that’s unfortunate and needs to be discussed more in a serious manner😬😬😬
Dr K said that the person suggesting the meditation would be dangerous for her, so how can we tell if a meditation would be dangerous for us ? How can we tell what would be safe
Charles in this case it’s pretty obvious because he’s talking about a specific practice (kundalini) which is often cited by both yogis and western health professionals as dangerous without the right conditions and the continuous presence of a trained teacher. like, it’s the most cited for meditation induced psychosis. the awakening it works towards is often described as “like a drug trip”. and mania puts you at risk for psychotic episodes already
Took me 1 hour and 3 minutes to notice the small Dr.K on or3o's cam. I'm not sure if I should feel good that I was focused on the conversation or be concerned that my eyes didn't register movement over there sooner
I'd like to c the "after talk" Dr. K does with chat. I know it's on Twitch, but like another commenter mentioned before, "The editing in TH-cam loses valued content. The video won't be on Twitch permanently."
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OR3O, just because other people have it bad doesn't mean your problems are any less significant, your problems need to be dealt with as well so you can heal from them, stop comparing, it doesn't do anything but keep you from accepting that your problems are real problems to you.
I would give anything to be on a interview with this guy . To me It would be an interesting to hear a perspective of a small content creator and the hardships we deal with because I dealt with a lot grinding especially hate and self doubt. Hopefully one day 🙏
It's so weird how she seems fairly happy even though shitty things have happened to her. i mean, it might be a front to some extent to bury the emotions, or she's just a strong woman and manages to move on. she's got a nice personally i don't want to sound like a simp, because im really not, but she's very cute. had to check out her channel as I wasn't she if she was a streamer or not. to my surprise it's music, and she's damn good at it. such a unique style. kinda wish she didn't more that had her singing though. i like finding people through these chats. i mean, i really enjoy when it's just random people with absolutely no kind of fame, but it's cool to see how some people really are. like sometimes I might not even be that into what they're known for, but if I really like them as a person, as i feel like people are quite genuine on here, i'll sub to them anyways.
Just a couple of thoughts to add, Cyclothymia is not a lower level of both. The life quality of those who suffer from it is pretty miserable. They cycle between elevated and depressed on an almost constant basis. Another thing, Bipolar 2 has significantly more severe depression than Bipolar 1
5:33 reasons why I dont drink. My father had addiction issues with everything under the sun (alchohol included). I'd prefer not to follow in his footsteps.
Yeah, that's a big worry for me too. My dad also had addiction issues, and in college I'm surrounded by heavy drinkers and smokers. It's hard to balance the desire to fit in and genuinely enjoy the effects of those substances, and the desire to not die of cancer.
Damn I'm only part way through but already it's going deep into me. I'm just gonna type stuff here to let it out. I know what I went through hurt me deeply and had for so long and it broke something deep inside me that was important. And at one point I realised how much I was changed and hurt by it and the anger and rage was unbearable pointed at everyone, pointed at society for letting it happen, pointed at the world for being this and I hurt everyone around me. And that rage and anger, how can I feel that again? After the pain it caused everyone around me, and even me. And physical and deeply emotional pain. And how much my mind was warped from seeing red for so long. I know now, and I realised that what really broke me was when I blamed my parents and they accepted the blame. Even though they didn't know. But they only accepted the blame even though I blamed them without knowing they didn't realise what was happening to me at that time, because I never said it back then. Because if I was quiet and invisible I could avoid the pain sometimes, and so I became that way always. The rage hasn't gone away, and I still feel it ready to lash out and attack anyone or everyone, I have just recognised it, and worked on myself so much. But the rage is still as maddening and wrathful as it was then. But it is true that I was hurt deeply and that I am suffering still because of everything that happened. What does that mean? I don't want to hurt them anymore, I don't want to yell at them. I said this to myself when I was trying to stop hurting them. If it was for revenge, In total emotional and physical, I have probably given as much as I recieved, you should stop now, you have already taken more than enough revenge, and all at the wrong people. At the only ones you cared about, and the only ones who you know truly care about you. Even after all of this. I deserve hell, I deserve kindness. I deserve healing and I deserve to burn in hell a million times for hurting them. I had become this way. And I never wanted it to be like that. And I hate myself, and I also realise how much darkness is within me for me to have lost my mind for so long and so far, and if it was a movie I was watching as my life, and I saw my past in the movie, I would sympathize with me. I would understand me, and very for me. But I am here, and I have lived through my life, so why haven't I yet been able to accept myself. Do I even deserve it? Isn't it like that? I felt a pull, I blamed them and they took it and I felt the pull, the dark satisfaction of revenge, and I have in to it. Did I not consent to the rest of it right there? But if I did, I wouldn't have tried so hard to stop. I did not know what was to come, when all I thought I was trying to do was let out everything that was inside. But each time the feeling became a little more warped from wanting express my feelings to wanting them to understand how I feel, to screaming that it was all because of them, to showing them what it felt like, to wanting them to feel how I felt, to thinking they didn't care about me, to thinking that all of them were monsters and liars, to thinking that i was the sacrifice and the shit to be stepped on by all of humanity, and in the most unstable of times, which went on for weeks, I thought I was an experiment subject that was to be put through intense suffering to see what happens, and that my parents were the ones who did that. And it wasn't that I thought that, I saw that. and me didn't exist anymore, I was gone and everything was changed and the world was different for me, it was as though the darkest of thoughts in my mind, even jokes, became reality to me then. To the point that the me that knew that this was not real was not even there, more like, my mind wasn't even able to think that. Oh man, I know all of that happened exactly like that. But I see that I elaborated all the things that would let me be empathized, and avoided the details of the shit I did. Because I am ashamed, I might be opening up about all this, but even to myself it's difficult to actually directly think about exactly as the horrible shit I did. I forced myself to see that and beat myself up so much to see the darkness I was spreading, to look at the full extent of the pain I was causing. It might have worked to snap me out, but ended up being another whole years work to work through, because ultimately the more I beat my self up, the more fuel the rage got. I want to get somewhere, to realise something, but it still burns inside me, the pain that caused so much rage, burns like hell at my soul every hour of every day, and no nice sounding thing will make it go ah okay understandable, have a nice day. I actually have to find truth, the path to which will hurt, and fuck with the existing pain. But to remember again: I was hurt deeply, so deeply that it being me so much., And no matter what I have done, I deserve compassion and kindness, atleast from myself. Is that true? No matter what I have done? Yes it is, because I know that everything I learned about it only made me realise that that is exactly what the person who had all that happened to me happened to them will end up doing and end up going through, sooner or later, like fate. I had to go through that hell to realise how deep inside hell I truly was. I regret it had hurt so many other people, I wish I went through it alone, and that hurts to say, because I know how painful it is to go through it like that, but atleast the only person... I was gonna say the only person I would hurt is me, but I know that's not true. Even if I went through it alone. I can't seem to just accept it. That I could be sympathised too, and that someone like me deserves sympathy too. Why does it feels so difficult to say? Because in my still warped mind, beating myself up and burning myself beyond all limits is the right thing to do. And this is the opposite of hurting myself, it is the idea that maybe the better thing to do would be to allow kindness and compassion for myself, because that is what will let myself heal, and that is what will actually truly help me heal the scar. Thank you from my heart for reading till here, because one of the things that is helping me right now is that I'm letting it all out to everyone here. And if you have really spent the time to read till here, I hope this helped you in even the tiniest bit, or that your found atleast something of value.
I guess just like bipolar can uncover other smaller things, (social) anxiety can do the same. Healing the smaller things sounds easier though than healing the big anxiety.
I supressed Releasing my emotions/thoughts for me whole life. I have anxiety, negative thoughts, self value issues and bunch of other stuff i cant work out. Idk how to fix this? Is it possible to fix like is this just mental issues or is this who i am? Im so confused if there is something wrong with me or not. Im trying to get therapy atm and im doubting if its the right thing for my head
To be fair, I think there's more mentally unsound people nowadays than healthy minded ones. I think anxiety, negative thoughts and self value issues are extremely common, so common in fact that based on this, I don't think there's anything wrong with you. This is too vague imo, you should be more specific. Almost everybody has issues like this and they can live just fine. However, if you're not sure whether you should seek therapy, I think you should because I believe therapists can easily fix these issues.
Viktor Szabó well i use to feel its was normal as a kid and all, but now im older and reflect on them times i had bad anxiety thru out childhood, i never released problems i had in my head. And now im living like a 1/4 human not really doing alot. Thanks for responding.
I was listening to this and when you got to the meditation and said listen to your heartbeat or think about it, for whatever reason thinking about my heartbeat or feeling it makes me so insanely uncomfortable. lol
I think I would be an amazing guest on this show for shite-life-syndrom and i think the message would resonate with others because i am lazy, video gamer, unemployed, substance use
The first time I really heard of bipolar disorder was in the documentary “Bipolar Rock’n’Roller” about the wrestling and fighting commentator Mauro Ranallo
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because they have tiger parents. they were taught that parents and teacher are always right. i used to be like that. but when i realized, it was kinda stupid.
I'm just going to say it really f**ing sucks. At least my family now tries to understand when I have a problem (especially with mental health) but it was more like putting themselves in my shoes but insist on tring to walk a path that is physically impossible to exist. A similar analogy is recognizing that people in 1968 don't have cellphones to call emergency services right away but can't understand why they don't try using a cellphone anyway.
@@AdityaPatel-yx2dk The only reason hes as successful as he is in his music career is because of manic episodes, as described in this interview, dr k often gets music artists asking him how they can use their bipolar disorder to help their music careers.
Kanye says he goes off of his medications every time he works on an album. Crazy because he has such a large audience so he faces so many consequences every time he goes manic. Yet, to help him make his music, it's still him worth going off of his meds.
At 23:29 when Dr. K said "that's kinda fucked up" and she said "oh" it gave me goosebumps and made feel really bad for her and think that's fucked up.
Loved this discussion. It is so glad to see Dr K. doing videos on bipolar. It is frequently misunderstood and stigmatised. Let's all continue to try to understand eachother.
damn didnt expect her to come on this show, thats pretty amazing
hearing about her friend's game made me realize that the fact i went through the same wasn't okay DAMN.
I just cried about it on my floor for a half hour
same.
I realized it my junior year of college, something about finals stress brought it to the surface after so many years, and it was a family relative and they were a bit older than me too...kinda helped me make sense of the constant self-loathing and sense of worthlessness I had since I was little.
i dont understand the game
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What the heck. I feel like every time I randomly click one of these interviews, I never expect how intensely helpful they are. Amazing how brave she is. Thank you Dr. k.
2:40 reminds me of my uncle. My uncle’s side is known to have so many health problems genetic to his family. Yet they were all “ignited” by things that could be avoided (ie drugs, alcohol, cigarettes, and even red meat) so he just never drinks, he never eats red meat, and is a vegetarian, and avoids any drugs. Because of this he is healthy, and is living much longer than any of his family members have.
it reminds me of myself.i am like ur uncle
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I do that all the time dude
Same :)
Haha great . I'll do the same!
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Thank you very much! I learned a lot too! This is one of the most valuable resources I know! Thanks Dr. K! Thanks OR3O! And so nice to have another meditation technique 'in my arsenal'! I am so grateful Dr. K. is really helping me (and others also from what I see
Found this channel through youtube comment. Very insightful and this video especially crazy relatable. Thanks for being there
You can really see Dr. K trying to make incremental progress after she had difficulty to understanding that what happened to her was horrific. I hope she finds some sort of peace. Knowing the strength certain people have is incredible, but where it comes from can sometimes be very sad.
I experienced sexual trauma in my childhood, and forced exhalation is a method that I've apparently been trying on my own already, but not in an educated way.. NOW I KNOW that what I've been trying to do is called forced exhalation!!! NOW I KNOW how to do it properly!!! I love the academic part of your work. In the few months that I've been watching your content so far I have learned SO MUCH! You drop terms that are helpful and sources that BLOW MY MIND and I'm just so freaking grateful for the knowledge I've gained.
This was incredibly helpful for me, thank you for sharing.
That much suffering without recognition must be agonizing. I wonder if she has a similar experience with victims of sexual abuse such as correlating sexual behavior with that experience. I've gone through something similar to what she did, but a few years younger and a little wider of an age gap. I did learn that kids mimic sexual behavior that they've seen or had happen to them, I never thought of it that way, and I don't really hear otherwise but I just thought that sexual behavior sprouts at varying ages.
yep that's why educating kids is very important, to avoid this situations. Some parents just ignore those topics and don't talk about them, it's pretty dangerous. I wish you the best.
It's like they are in adjacent rooms
Oh shit
Social distancing
really insightful stream about bipolar disorder. It was definitely hard to watch the non-kosher parts, but OR3O is so brave for speaking about this
I was struggelng wiht the "but"-Problem for like the last 6 month or so. And it is really hard to get around it. And now you tell me, you can replace it with "and" ... thats awesome, it makes it really easy. Thanks Dr.K
It happened to me too the child on child abuse, pretty much the same thing. His grandfather also molested me, so I wouldn't be surprised that he imitated his behaviour and was also molested. Damn this whole interview has been way too relatable
I've been watching your stuff for a week now. So slowly but surely getting through your videos. I plan on watching the videos on dealing with trauma and PTSD-- since I have those issues-- but I would honestly love to see you discuss the subject on forcing yourself to set healthy boundaries. (Especially in environments when others don't want to respect your wishes.) As well as the discussion of mental illness and physical disabilities, and how the two can affect each other.
For example, despite being very understanding about my own physical limits, I tend to push myself beyond it because it's expected of me. Or the sense of feeling like a burden to others, so I end up 'making up for it'. Actually, I tend to be very self sacrificing because of both the burden aspect as well of fear of confrontation-- that's abuse related though. I have a hard time allowing myself to come first, even if my life depends on it. (Literally, I used to be hospitalized every six months because of people pushing me past my limits with no breaks, and my body would break down.)
Sorry, I have a habit of trying to explain myself through personal examples. BUT! As I said, I would love to see discussion on these topics. (As i know both gaming and the arts side of youtube both intersect with many of us with disabilities. Seeking comfort and dopamine, yo.)
I only realized the session with OR30 went down after seeing the New Years video! check out OR30's cover of Unravel, all the best to this talented woman!
Damn the meditation at the end was really insightful about it being okay to feel both ends of the feelings spectrum. I wish Dr K was my therapist
The word for feeling both sides is "Ambivalence". Since you have internet and now know which word to search for you can find a lot of info about it. I'm sure Dr K is not the only one that can help you.
Frombehindyo Thanks for teaching me something new.
Learned a lot from this podcast this is some golden stuff on TH-cam seriously rn
" when I think about some of the most courageous people in the history, some of them just said what happened". this sentence is GOLD.
Props to OR30 for coming on the show! Thanks Dr. K!
Woah! Her TH-cam channel looks so dope!
yeah she's great
Doki doki forever, a true masterpiece
38:02 I know it's a horrible situation, but damn that was funny as hell
When I first watched the stream, we all went WTF at the uncle story... Jesus Christ... "It's only your uncle's magical massage"... nope, nope.
Not the kind of happy ending you want.
Yeeeah, looks like her father "sold her" WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFf
these videos has inspired me to study physiology becouse i want to help people that struggle too. thank you for this!
Same
Bruh physiology or psychology?
Ooh someone I know! Can’t wait to watch through all of this.
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Shiintaro Huni actually who tho
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@@DRN-iu7wh she's not that famous but she's pretty well known in the anime community, she does covers, parody VA (not sure about actual VA), etc.
she's also not on twitch i think that's why a lot of twitch people dont know her
Dude, she is the bravest person
I learn a lot about myself from watching these and I’m temped to get therapy
it'll be hard, but you should do it.
Hello there, I’m new to this channel and I just want to say that everything about this stream was absolutely beautiful. It’s always amazing to see such a kind-hearted person help someone in need. You helped out a musician I love so much with something that so serious, but often ignored or not known well and that’s amazing. It’s shocking to see OR3O, an amazing person who always puts a smile on my face, revealing what she had to go through when she was younger. It was absolutely heartbreaking to me and actually made my cry at one point, but you helped her in a way she needed most, which is not only rare, but beautiful. This also helped me, because this is the first time I’ve heard of bipolar disorder, I’m thinking of being a psychologist when I’m older so I can help people with these struggles, and it shows me a way to find a balance between two separate thoughts without getting rid of another.
Thank you, Dr. K, for helping OR3O, helping others, and helping me.
The fact there are 2 doors into Dr. K's room is so amazing!
IYPITWL The closet 👁👄👁
This is a really rare and interesting topic to discuss and listen to
I have bpd and the technique that was given was like.... An epiphany for me. Im going to try the "and" method when I'm in an episode now. And im going to use it for practice as well. Thank you for that. It helps solidify the "grey" area
An interview with CORPSE would be great!
Thanks, OR3O, for sharing.
38:02 dr k noooo
lol he may have had a smile but he was mad
Straight to out of context Dr k that will go
Just started watching and I clicked your link... oh boy what happened here
I know the creepy uncle thing is a common joke, but I think there’s a reason why it’s such a common reference and that’s unfortunate and needs to be discussed more in a serious manner😬😬😬
Dr K said that the person suggesting the meditation would be dangerous for her, so how can we tell if a meditation would be dangerous for us ? How can we tell what would be safe
Charles in this case it’s pretty obvious because he’s talking about a specific practice (kundalini) which is often cited by both yogis and western health professionals as dangerous without the right conditions and the continuous presence of a trained teacher. like, it’s the most cited for meditation induced psychosis. the awakening it works towards is often described as “like a drug trip”. and mania puts you at risk for psychotic episodes already
Garth Goldwater thank you for the information!
RandomName thank you for the information! I’m thankful for all the replies :D
@RandomName Hey! Identity theft is not a joke!
Dr. K never teaches the more dangerous stuff on stream, he only makes public the easy-level stuff
Took me 1 hour and 3 minutes to notice the small Dr.K on or3o's cam. I'm not sure if I should feel good that I was focused on the conversation or be concerned that my eyes didn't register movement over there sooner
How do you feel about that?
Commenting to boost the algorithm, as always ;) Thank you Dr. K for help us with this interviews!
This is the one single comment you have on this channel.
1:00:38 Omegachad Dr.k wtf
indeed
thank you very much for content which makes sense in bigger picture, pure dharma :)
Ok I just found this channel. Dr, you just got a new subscriber, what an amazing content.
She really is such a treat, I love her!
oh man I remember coming across OR3O's content way back when she did a cover of No Pain No Game
cool seeing her again here of all places
Or3o is a great musician
I'd like to c the "after talk" Dr. K does with chat.
I know it's on Twitch, but like another commenter mentioned before, "The editing in TH-cam loses valued content. The video won't be on Twitch permanently."
Such a lovely woman.
got recommend by someone from discord, this is good!
Ayy OR30 my favorite youtuber!
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@@Kalki70581 gonna try this out later. love you in advance if it works
@@oldgmailaccount988 hell yeah
I never knew this about OR3O
OR3O, just because other people have it bad doesn't mean your problems are any less significant, your problems need to be dealt with as well so you can heal from them, stop comparing, it doesn't do anything but keep you from accepting that your problems are real problems to you.
I would give anything to be on a interview with this guy . To me It would be an interesting to hear a perspective of a small content creator and the hardships we deal with because I dealt with a lot grinding especially hate and self doubt. Hopefully one day 🙏
It's so weird how she seems fairly happy even though shitty things have happened to her. i mean, it might be a front to some extent to bury the emotions, or she's just a strong woman and manages to move on. she's got a nice personally i don't want to sound like a simp, because im really not, but she's very cute. had to check out her channel as I wasn't she if she was a streamer or not. to my surprise it's music, and she's damn good at it. such a unique style. kinda wish she didn't more that had her singing though. i like finding people through these chats. i mean, i really enjoy when it's just random people with absolutely no kind of fame, but it's cool to see how some people really are. like sometimes I might not even be that into what they're known for, but if I really like them as a person, as i feel like people are quite genuine on here, i'll sub to them anyways.
Just a couple of thoughts to add, Cyclothymia is not a lower level of both. The life quality of those who suffer from it is pretty miserable. They cycle between elevated and depressed on an almost constant basis.
Another thing, Bipolar 2 has significantly more severe depression than Bipolar 1
TH-cams gonna bury this huh. It needs to be seen tooo
Thanks for the work!
5:33 reasons why I dont drink. My father had addiction issues with everything under the sun (alchohol included). I'd prefer not to follow in his footsteps.
Same
same
Yeah, that's a big worry for me too. My dad also had addiction issues, and in college I'm surrounded by heavy drinkers and smokers. It's hard to balance the desire to fit in and genuinely enjoy the effects of those substances, and the desire to not die of cancer.
Early squad where yall at!
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You're early. How does that make you feel?
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Nurtan Hehe so let’s talk about that for a second.
This comment is strictly for the youtube algorithm
no
Damn I'm only part way through but already it's going deep into me.
I'm just gonna type stuff here to let it out.
I know what I went through hurt me deeply and had for so long and it broke something deep inside me that was important. And at one point I realised how much I was changed and hurt by it and the anger and rage was unbearable pointed at everyone, pointed at society for letting it happen, pointed at the world for being this and I hurt everyone around me. And that rage and anger, how can I feel that again? After the pain it caused everyone around me, and even me. And physical and deeply emotional pain. And how much my mind was warped from seeing red for so long. I know now, and I realised that what really broke me was when I blamed my parents and they accepted the blame. Even though they didn't know. But they only accepted the blame even though I blamed them without knowing they didn't realise what was happening to me at that time, because I never said it back then. Because if I was quiet and invisible I could avoid the pain sometimes, and so I became that way always. The rage hasn't gone away, and I still feel it ready to lash out and attack anyone or everyone, I have just recognised it, and worked on myself so much. But the rage is still as maddening and wrathful as it was then.
But it is true that I was hurt deeply and that I am suffering still because of everything that happened. What does that mean? I don't want to hurt them anymore, I don't want to yell at them. I said this to myself when I was trying to stop hurting them. If it was for revenge, In total emotional and physical, I have probably given as much as I recieved, you should stop now, you have already taken more than enough revenge, and all at the wrong people. At the only ones you cared about, and the only ones who you know truly care about you. Even after all of this.
I deserve hell, I deserve kindness. I deserve healing and I deserve to burn in hell a million times for hurting them.
I had become this way. And I never wanted it to be like that. And I hate myself, and I also realise how much darkness is within me for me to have lost my mind for so long and so far, and if it was a movie I was watching as my life, and I saw my past in the movie, I would sympathize with me. I would understand me, and very for me. But I am here, and I have lived through my life, so why haven't I yet been able to accept myself.
Do I even deserve it? Isn't it like that? I felt a pull, I blamed them and they took it and I felt the pull, the dark satisfaction of revenge, and I have in to it. Did I not consent to the rest of it right there? But if I did, I wouldn't have tried so hard to stop. I did not know what was to come, when all I thought I was trying to do was let out everything that was inside. But each time the feeling became a little more warped from wanting express my feelings to wanting them to understand how I feel, to screaming that it was all because of them, to showing them what it felt like, to wanting them to feel how I felt, to thinking they didn't care about me, to thinking that all of them were monsters and liars, to thinking that i was the sacrifice and the shit to be stepped on by all of humanity, and in the most unstable of times, which went on for weeks, I thought I was an experiment subject that was to be put through intense suffering to see what happens, and that my parents were the ones who did that. And it wasn't that I thought that, I saw that. and me didn't exist anymore, I was gone and everything was changed and the world was different for me, it was as though the darkest of thoughts in my mind, even jokes, became reality to me then. To the point that the me that knew that this was not real was not even there, more like, my mind wasn't even able to think that.
Oh man, I know all of that happened exactly like that. But I see that I elaborated all the things that would let me be empathized, and avoided the details of the shit I did. Because I am ashamed, I might be opening up about all this, but even to myself it's difficult to actually directly think about exactly as the horrible shit I did. I forced myself to see that and beat myself up so much to see the darkness I was spreading, to look at the full extent of the pain I was causing. It might have worked to snap me out, but ended up being another whole years work to work through, because ultimately the more I beat my self up, the more fuel the rage got.
I want to get somewhere, to realise something, but it still burns inside me, the pain that caused so much rage, burns like hell at my soul every hour of every day, and no nice sounding thing will make it go ah okay understandable, have a nice day. I actually have to find truth, the path to which will hurt, and fuck with the existing pain.
But to remember again: I was hurt deeply, so deeply that it being me so much., And no matter what I have done, I deserve compassion and kindness, atleast from myself. Is that true? No matter what I have done? Yes it is, because I know that everything I learned about it only made me realise that that is exactly what the person who had all that happened to me happened to them will end up doing and end up going through, sooner or later, like fate. I had to go through that hell to realise how deep inside hell I truly was. I regret it had hurt so many other people, I wish I went through it alone, and that hurts to say, because I know how painful it is to go through it like that, but atleast the only person... I was gonna say the only person I would hurt is me, but I know that's not true. Even if I went through it alone.
I can't seem to just accept it. That I could be sympathised too, and that someone like me deserves sympathy too. Why does it feels so difficult to say? Because in my still warped mind, beating myself up and burning myself beyond all limits is the right thing to do. And this is the opposite of hurting myself, it is the idea that maybe the better thing to do would be to allow kindness and compassion for myself, because that is what will let myself heal, and that is what will actually truly help me heal the scar.
Thank you from my heart for reading till here, because one of the things that is helping me right now is that I'm letting it all out to everyone here.
And if you have really spent the time to read till here, I hope this helped you in even the tiniest bit, or that your found atleast something of value.
Haven't watched the video, but I hope they cover responsobility during manic episodes. Always thought it was an interesting topic.
I guess just like bipolar can uncover other smaller things, (social) anxiety can do the same. Healing the smaller things sounds easier though than healing the big anxiety.
I'm subscribed because of Exil LoL. He did you one good, man :)
I supressed Releasing my emotions/thoughts for me whole life. I have anxiety, negative thoughts, self value issues and bunch of other stuff i cant work out. Idk how to fix this? Is it possible to fix like is this just mental issues or is this who i am? Im so confused if there is something wrong with me or not. Im trying to get therapy atm and im doubting if its the right thing for my head
Get therapy, won’t hurt to try
To be fair, I think there's more mentally unsound people nowadays than healthy minded ones. I think anxiety, negative thoughts and self value issues are extremely common, so common in fact that based on this, I don't think there's anything wrong with you. This is too vague imo, you should be more specific. Almost everybody has issues like this and they can live just fine. However, if you're not sure whether you should seek therapy, I think you should because I believe therapists can easily fix these issues.
Viktor Szabó well i use to feel its was normal as a kid and all, but now im older and reflect on them times i had bad anxiety thru out childhood, i never released problems i had in my head. And now im living like a 1/4 human not really doing alot. Thanks for responding.
I was listening to this and when you got to the meditation and said listen to your heartbeat or think about it, for whatever reason thinking about my heartbeat or feeling it makes me so insanely uncomfortable. lol
It makes me think about the actual heart beating which is kinda gross but soothing at the same time xd
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great content as always
I think I would be an amazing guest on this show for shite-life-syndrom and i think the message would resonate with others because i am lazy, video gamer, unemployed, substance use
Hey team, what is the meditation Dr. K was saying is bad for bipolar people?
loved this stream
The first time I really heard of bipolar disorder was in the documentary “Bipolar Rock’n’Roller” about the wrestling and fighting commentator Mauro Ranallo
I broke when Dr. K made the little frown and grabbed a tissue
AoE healing at its finest.
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You're welcome.
This video and the overanalyzing, has help me a lot of understand me
Damn this hit hard
Great talk!
This is quite relevant to the David Choe podcast on Rogan - asian people feel like they cant complain and its messed up
because they have tiger parents. they were taught that parents and teacher are always right. i used to be like that. but when i realized, it was kinda stupid.
I'm just going to say it really f**ing sucks. At least my family now tries to understand when I have a problem (especially with mental health) but it was more like putting themselves in my shoes but insist on tring to walk a path that is physically impossible to exist.
A similar analogy is recognizing that people in 1968 don't have cellphones to call emergency services right away but can't understand why they don't try using a cellphone anyway.
@@PeninsulaCity2024 always open to chat if you need it bro
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I appreciate it but I got it covered. 👌
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God this guy is good
or3o's headphones are now apart of her head like they are becoming her ears
Thanks Dr.K
Sleep, food, and exercise work for mania but idk how to help with the depressive episodes
Kanye would really appreciate an interview with you, lol.
Aditya Patel Would he really? Would he just be loud and weird and not listen or would Dr. K resonate with him?
I was making a reference to the fact he is bipolar like OREO here. He clearly needs help...
@@AdityaPatel-yx2dk The only reason hes as successful as he is in his music career is because of manic episodes, as described in this interview, dr k often gets music artists asking him how they can use their bipolar disorder to help their music careers.
Sykkuno needs to be on here
I think OR30 is brave too :)
you're a good dude
Good shit!
Informative discussion about Bi-Polar disorder:
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Living legend ;D
Kanye says he goes off of his medications every time he works on an album. Crazy because he has such a large audience so he faces so many consequences every time he goes manic. Yet, to help him make his music, it's still him worth going off of his meds.
Kanye west? Well, meds or not his musics are just plain shit.
@@Sanx007 your opinion on his music has nothing to do with this discussion, dont be a smartass
@@Sanx007 I love certain songs of his and so do many others
Everybody watch the fucking ads, dr k has helped us a lot and the least we can do is watch the ads for his ad revenue
28:30 "father, who is friends with a guy whos daughter is abused, downplays child abuse" 👮
15:12 didnt know that
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i like chrono cross
@@willianvieirapereira3999 I'll get around to playing cross one day lol
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I thought to myself Dr. K is kinda like Carl Sagan of psychology, then realized you even look alike lol
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HER NAME IS OR3O IM IN LOVE