@@trickrunner4842 DO NOT BE SO RUDE IS OUR JOB TO LISTEN TO JWOOL. THE REASON HE IS MAKING VIDS LIKE THESE IS CUZ HE EXPECTS US TO GIVE HIM TIPS AND A WHOLE OF OTHER DIFFERENT REASONS. REMEMBER DON'T JUDGE THE BOOK BY ITS COVER TREAT OTHERS AS YOU WANT TO BE TREATED SO LETS ALL BE NICE SHALL WE?
You need to call your prescribing doctor and tell him/her what you are experiencing. Your meds will probably need to be adjusted. Do that as soon as possible❤❤
I personally think he needs to not be on those meds. Sometimes they can make you suicidal and worse off than you are in the first place. Took lithium and it ruined my thyroid now I’m on thyroid medicine. I hope to God he’s not taking Paxil! I’ve heard a two people that shot themselves because of taking it.
This is the best advice. The medication may need to be lowered or maybe what you are on is not right for you. The doctor is the best person to work with you now. And yes, do it now. Every Dr has a call service so you can reach them after hours.
Yes please do this now. Don't wait until tomorrow. Go to ER if you can't get ahold of your doctor. As others have said meds may need adjusted. Please take everyones advice and take care of this today.
@@KristinaM624Is he on lithium? Antidepressants have helped millions, and done nothing for others. It really is an individual thing. Lithium is pretty heavy duty, and I'm sorry it f**cked you up
For me, the only thing that's keeps me sane and going through each day is music. If it weren't for the music I listen too I don't know if I'd still be here. Music is a powerful thing. Hope ya start feeling better.
I can relate. It’s hard to describe, and it’s hard to tell what’s doing what. It does sound like SSRIs. They can keep you from ruminating, but seems they can make you sort of numb as well. Not easy.
i found your channel a few days ago and its unreal how much i relate to all the things you are feeling. thank you for letting me know i’m not alone in this. i have faith that we will heal in time.
What you talked about in the last minute, about feeling happy but having the voice in your head telling you it's fake, that really spoke to me. I've had that before. Hang in there bro. We all love you and are here for ya.
@@Jwool.mp3 You're awesome. Like others have said, hearing you talk about stuff and being able to connect to it so similarly makes me feel good that I'm not the only one going through similar stuff.
You video, your channel popped up on my stream for a reason. You are not alone. You are more than enough. I am healing from a childhood of trauma and abuse that resulted in me having DID and a past riddled by addiction. I am over 2 years sober now and healing everyday. I owe ALL of that to God. ALL of that!!💯 Everyone is on their journey and in their perfect time each will find God. He is always with us, it just takes us opening our hearts and we will see that He is and has always been with us ready to help give us a peace that truly surpasses all understanding! I pray that you will see what a precious and beautiful soul you are and have always been in Gods eyes! I too went through the medication ups and downs. What helped me get stable, feel more like myself was building a relationship with God. You are not alone and you are loved! God bless you my friend! 🙏😊❤️
Dude we got your back i was a teenager and i went through depression but now I'm 27 and trust me the best is yet to come. I promise you it's going to get better much love bro . If it helps i believe in you plus everybody in the chat.
I feel ya. I've felt the same way for several years. My advise is, keep pushing on. Eventually you'll rediscover who you are. That is what I'm trying to do. Sometimes i think the meds are putting me in tge place I'm supposed to be and it's so foreign that I can't accept it. Just a thought. Sending love, bud.
I think is probably the depression. I’ve bipolar 1 and when I have a depressive episode I always have dissociative symptoms. Don’t stop your meds alone, talk first with your psychiatrist. I wish you well
I relate to you so hard this almost brought me to tears. That's the first time something's done that in a while. I'm 16, my job is on and off and I hardly work anymore, I try to go out when I can but nothing’s fun anymore and I feel out of place everywhere, and I’m trying so hard to feel like I’m real, like anything around me is real. It’s like I’m watching my life through a screen. I hope things improve, for the both of us. I finally don’t feel as alone after seeing other people I can relate to like this. You got this man.
I don't know what meds you're on but they may be the issue, or a part of it. Tell your psychiatrist what's going on, there may be better ones for you. I've been on many anti depressants before I found one that helped, which I've weaned off of. Maybe the dosage is too high. I CAN relate to this, and hearing your description brought me back to when I felt this way. Please don't give up, changes can be made and a lot of people really care about you 💌🤗🐶
Hi James, one of my friends was on antidepressants and it affected him in the same way. I hope your emotional state starts to balance out, if not speak to your Dr and see what they think. Remember your YT community is there for you and I for one listen to your problems. Take care young man 🤗🐒🐑❤
As you heal, you leave the old version of you behind but you're not quite the new person. When we're depressed we feel really strongly. It's like going on holiday, then getting stuck at the airport as you wait for your plane. You know you're going away but you have to deal with being in the airport. This time will pass. You described it perfectly. IN the future, therapists and counsellors will use your clips to help train people. You describe everything so well. So, you're in an inbetween place, and that's ok. Don't stop, this is just a rough part of it. My meds worked in time, and I moved on to be a mostly better person. Most people give up at this point. Just stick with it. I hope you journal - just for you, not us. It's a powerful self therapy and a healing way to practice what might be your future craft (might, no expectations)
You should definitely mention this to your doctor. But, I can tell you I felt the exact same way when I first started on medication! Eventually the weird sensation went away completely! Hang in there and always communicate how you’re feeling with your doctor and family.
This!!! I feel this every so often, and I can never find the words to describe it, but this summarizes it perfectly!! I absolutely HATE not being able to cry when I'm sad, it's horrible.
I get what you mean because I kinda have the same thing a little rarely though, but for me its like I snap out of reality and I start thinking about how I don't feel like my own personality and like what is even the purpose of life if we are just gonna die. its like seeing yourself from a different perspective and its really annoying because I just want to live for my fullest. but I found my own little "Tunnels" if you will, of finding myself again. I like to play piano and I give my brain and heart to my hands. I like to dance and I give my brain and heart to my legs. and finally, I love to just live with my brain and heart. It takes time to refresh and feel full again, its kinda like a battery where you have to stay charged until you can stop using the cord. I hope this helps a little because I totally understand and It sucks so I don't think you deserve to feel this way at all. We all love and support you man
Being alive is all about FEELING. Both positive and negative feelings, emotions. Being numb does not sound good. With or without meds, let’s strive to become so strong inside that we CAN withstand both good and bad feelings without getting too freaked out by either of them. Maybe get meds which are milder? You need to “be” and “feel” yourself to achieve, enjoy and FEEL all those wonderful experiences and goals you have set for the next 5 years!
Call and speak with your doctor! Keep fighting .......celebrate the small acomplishments.....get out of bed.....make a snack or dinner...go for a short walk. Sending positive energy your way!!!
ive felt like this just a week ago being on an anti depression medication and everything you described was exactly how i felt for a few days. it completely shattered how i felt and im in a relationship and it was so hard to laugh with him i get what you mean by feeling numb. i couldnt feel anything and it was horrifying i didnt know what was going on. things that made me happy werent making me happy, i just felt like i was there and i wasnt feeling a thing. im currently a few days off of the medication and i feel so much better everything came back to me and im doing great now. i think your medication is messing with you. i dont know your life and dont know the medication but im sure thats whats causing this. i hope you can push through this time, youre going to be okay.
Well i have felt like this before and i just took it out on my family which has gotten me nowhere so the best thing is to reflect about what you have done so far and how are you the person that you are Today. Second is to let go all of the things in the past just come down to hunt you so you can either do two things 1. Run away from it OR 2. learn from your mistakes and what you have done wrong and the next time you go to do the same thing that you have done in the past AGAIN you will do much better as you did last time. I know its hard how you get disconnected and your family including your loved ones BUT trust me. And back then i never used to care about the way how i dress to go to certain things and when people see me they laughed at me BUT what my grandmother told me is that you are gonna be judge based on everything, Such as : your personality, the way how you dress to go certain occasions ETC. Just know that we love you and we support you on your comments, your future and so on. WE LOVE YOU JWOOL KEEP DOING WHAT YOU ARE DOING CUZ YOU GOT ALL YA SUBS IN YOUR CORNER.
TELL YOU PSYCHIATRIST HOW YOU ARE FEELING. The meds can keep you from crying. And they can make you feel detached. You know so much about yourself James. That is so much more than most people! You need to find something creative to do. You said earlier that you live films and filmmaking. Do you have a Mac? There is a program called Apple Keynote which allows you to do simple animations. If I could send you one of my videos I would. I think you’d like them. And making them fullfills my emptiness so much! I’m praying for you James! I wish you were my little brother so I could just hug you and tell you are going to be alright. BECAUSE YOU WILL BE! And for God’s sake stop SELF-HARMING YOURSELF. IT WONT MAKE YOU FEEL ANY BETTER! Then with your depression you’re going to have thigh pain! What good is that? James, James, James… you are not alone. I know you know that. Look at your views, MY GOODNESS!
Please don't be too discouraged. Things can change, and often get better. You're young, smart, inquisitive, thoughtful, open, dependable and handsome. Wishing you happier days to come. ❤
16k with you, just think about that for a moment, 16k people's lives you have touched and impacted, and I'm sure we are all rooting for you. Thanks for being brave enough to share, you are making a huge impact here and now. Really proud of you bro ❤
Your not alone you’ve helped me a lot believe it or not and all of your fans are here to help you to talk about your side effects because if your uncomfortable you shouldn’t be on those meds trust me I’ve been on a ton and am still experimenting
The only thing you should regret is the things you don’t do.. all the side effects damn that is hard, it puts you on automatic pilot.. (no emotions, no confrontational, keeps the feelings and emotions under control) i feel you, my boyfriend forced me to go to amusement park and im thinking going on every ride just so i could feel something.. didn’t feel a thing..
wish I could give you a hug bro and sit with you just to be there for you brother You should talk to your doc about the meds for sure. possibly take a short break from this TH-cam if it is too much right now. work on you. things will get better. I love you brother.
You are loved and cared for live life don't try to just escape I have never met you but I love you because of what Jesus has done through me, he loves you.
Stay strong man. We're all with you! Alot of your videos have been pretty positive and optimistic recently. You seem like you have alot of exciting things coming up. Keep your head up and think of all the exiting opportunities coming your way in college!
I went on Wellbutrin several years ago to help me stop smoking. They say no long term risks. But it slowly made me feel detached from myself. You can't get off the stuff. And as a bonus, it will shrink your balls and enlarge your prostate. I can't advise you on meds. But sometimes it's as simple as taking B complex vitamins and getting more sunlight. Do what you have to do, but consider every alternative. Attitude is most important. You live in a world that isn't designed to care about you. And yet you have as much right to be here as anyone else. Sometimes you just gotta push through the crowd and make a place for yourself. The older I get, the more people want to ignore me and probably would like to see me just disappear. That's why I talk to everybody. I'm not going away. And I won't let the world ignore me. You've got more going for you than you think. Life is a mountain, and you can't stop climbing. Good luck my friend
I just found your channel. You are not alone! Thank you so much for sharing this! I have been feeling the same way. Please, stay strong! ❤ I keep you in my prayers. 🙏
Hey Jwool, don’t listen to the people saying you are under spiritual attack or people who push the bible to you as a cure. They clearly don’t understand what you are experiencing, nor do they have a license to treat mental health issues. What you have is very real and is something that should be taken seriously. I love you Jwool and we wish you the best. Keep talking to us and speak with your psychiatrist about the medicine as well.
OH F***! That's exactly what's been going on with me too! I don't know what to tell ya, it kind of gives you wings, but at the same time, as time goes on, you'll be left with this numbing of the heart. It'll gradually sap out your soul-energy, which will leave you basically unfeeling. I don't know what it is you've been taking, but yeah. On the plus side - your self-esteem / confidence will sky-rocket like nobody's business! Hit me up, if you need more info.
I just stumbled upon your videos and my heart goes out to you buddy. When I was young, I was in a violently abusive family that caused me to experience a lot of the feelings that you described. I quit school at 15 and moved out of the house, depression spiraled, and I tried to kill myself. I was at such a low point, in my case, medications didn't help at all. When I was in the hospital for poisoning treatment, I had wonderful interactions with psychologists, doctors and nurses. Talking with them helped me see a way out of the negative thought loops that I would trap myself in... It was the beginning of a new life for me.^^ I started working hard to get my GED, then I studied psychology and East Asian studies at university, lived in Korea for a decade and opened my own business there. Now, almost 30 years later, I still have moments of depression, but after all these years, I've learned some wonderfully therapeutic lessons from Buddhism. One very important one is that nothing in life is permanent. The pain and sadness we feel, it hurts and it sucks, but it is just another moment that will inevitably pass. The same is true for joy. Realizing that even though joy is wonderful, pain will come back and have its moment again too. It's like waves in an ocean, and it's okay. We don't need to 'awfulize' or inflate the negative feelings that we have. They will just pass naturally in time. And I loved seeing you cleaning your room! I do that a lot too. For me, finding even the smallest success in a dark moment is the best way to get out of it. A bit of cleaning or something productive is so helpful for me. Honestly, from watching your videos, you seem like a really smart, well adjusted guy who is trying his best to figure out this messy thing called life, and from what I can see, you are doing a great job. ^^ It's all gonna suck sometimes.... Like when I was 16, working overtime to pay rent in horrible neighborhood and buying sacks of potatos so I could feed myself. Could I have ever known at that time that one day I would have a rooftop apartment in Seoul and own my own business there? Hell no! Live is full of surprises.^^ Sometimes they are terrible, but a lot of them will be great! ^^ You have no idea what this life has in store for you, but I get the feeling that it will be a lot better than you might think. Lots of love and best of luck to you buddy!
I'm so sorry to hear this but know that you are not alone. I could relate to everything in your video, as I have been taking medication for a few years now. I personally, (I don't know what to call it) feel like I'm just living in a dream. It's as if I reach out to touch my hand and it could be a cloud, but when I do touch the object, then I know it is real. What scares me is: I know I have changed, and I think for the worse. Since the medication, I know I don't feel the same and act the same. Which is scary because, all the while I try to be myself, I am turning into something else that is still "myself". If that makes sense... idk. Just keep going. No matter what choice you make; whatever path you go down, try to make the best of it. I know, I KNOW, it is hard. But all we can really do in life is try. 💪💪
I know exactly what you mean, I went through the exact same thing a few months ago and trust me it does improve, maybe not quickly and a lot but it will, you just have to stick with it
I’m currently experiencing this after binge drinking alcohol. It’s hard to deal with but you gotta push through. Many other people have gone through this and it eventually fades away
Im older. It gets better. Struggled with depression for years. I found prayer and meditation helped alot. If you dont go to counseling, go to counseling. Medication dosent work if you dont go to counseling. Set yourself goals. Im praying for ya.
That is your message, I have had the side effects the doctor changed one pill and it made a big difference. But I still have suicide thought but he changed pills again but I am like you I still want to cry. Please keep your head up. If you want to talk grab me on line😢
Hang in there, bro! Don't stop fighting! You are worth the fight! You've got a lot of cool changes coming up in your life that you should be soooo excited about! You can do this! Love ya, bro!
I haven't finished watching the video. Nevertheless, I've been viewing your videos as they appear on my recommended; almost all of them having recently dealt with your mental health. Even though it doesn't really mean anything coming from me, I'm cheering you on, dude. You're not alone; I've felt similar to how you do, and you're such a wonderful guy. You've probably heard this a lot, but I promise you that a lot of people are proud of you for reaching this point. I'm hoping for something greater for you soon, my buddy; you deserve to be happy.
You will have good days and bad days. Everybody does. Dont ride the lows. Dont ride the highs. Be thankful. Instead on focusing on the negative.....start counting your blessings. The fact that you made a video today shows you care anout your well-being. WE CARE also. Keep up the good work. Tomorrow is another day.👍🙏😊
Hey man, I found your channel yesterday and watching a lot of videos I realised that I experience a lot of the same things you describe both on other videos but also this one and it's been quite therapeutic to watch, specially cause the past few days have been hard, even tho idk exactly why. Keep going man, you got this
Haven’t felt like myself for along time too. I don’t even know who I am anymore. Been stuck in this rut for along time. Don’t seem to be getting easier. The world is just so screwed we are all struggling. Just keep breathing and be strong.
dude i really feel this. this is gonna be more a rant, because i dont want to rant to anyone but i think a youtube comment section is a decent place because there might be people who care, and people who care will only care for a short time and it makes it easy. but, im 14 years old, im going in to my first day of high school in 3 days. i found this channel and this is the second video i watched here, but i clicked because i really resonate with whats being described in this video. Ive been aware of the fact i have been feeling really numb, but honestly i didnt care enough to talk about it and create an uncomfortable atmosphere with whoever i talk to. im not on meds, i was diagnosed with some pretty bad depression at 10 when i was in 5th grade, and i would hurt myself a lot back then and up until about a week ago i was clean from that time onward. i dont know what to do, i dont have really any responsibilities at all, or many friends to talk to and my parents are too old to understand. trust me, ive tried talking to them about things. i just dont know what to do. i feel like crying as i type this comment but as in the video, i just cant. i sit all day in my room and rot in my bed. it used to be id sit in my room playing games all day, but now even if a friend texts me to get on, ill just ignore it and keep laying there. all day i tell myself hey this would be fun, but then immidiately, as he describes in the video, the "voice" tells me it just wont be fun and all excitement i had for whatever i was going to do just fades and ill sit for hours wanting to play on my laptop or my phone thats literally in arms reach of me as i lay on my bed but instead i just rot there. i feel like the stereotype of discord mod that has just all the gross stuff goin on, except my room just smells and my friends, when they do come about every 4 months notice it. my girlfriend (long distance) just called me as im typing this and she wants to watch a show. i really dont want to but i also like to make her feel special whenever i can. either way, it just becomes really difficult for me to do absolutely anything. i feel like im drowning and i want to cry and scream from the bottom of my chest but it just wont happen. if anyone has gotten out of this and has any advice to give and it isnt a bother, please give it. im scared that this will continue the rest of my life and ill end up ending it because i had a bad day or something.
I felt a similar way but through faith I was reminded who I was I think you are under spiritual attack, but don't forget you are loved and cared for we love you at our house no matter what you are going through, I was feeling a similar way.
James please make sure you tell your psychiatrist about anything you’re feeling on your medication any side effects. This is very important I went through it too and had to stop what I was on there are other medications and some side effects are kinda like warnings of danger especially in young adults like yourself! You seem like a great kid and I only call you kid because I’m old enough to be your grandfather lol. Hopefully you have talked to your Dr about all side effects and things are better now. This is the 3rd video I’ve watched and in your latest you do seem better! Keep doing these videos and I’ll keep watching them! 👍🏻🙏🏻🙌🏻😎
I relate to this SOOOO much. Everything kinda feels like a dream in a way. It feels like I'm watching the world through my eyes, like im a person inside of myself, like me and my conciousness are two different people, so it always feels like im in my head.
I will be praying for you buddy ❤ keep your head high and know that you will heal with time and some work. When you go to college remember to keep the things in your life that are positive and cut the things that are negative. When i had hardcore derealization it helps to focus on what you can control and to keep your mind on the things in life that water you- exercise, journal, time with your cat, for real try yoga (notice the sensations it brings in your body- this will help anchor you inside your body more and get you feeling more too).. and weed out all of the bad habits whether that be smoking, coffee, beer, porn, staying up too late. Parent yourself as you are a baby give yourself love and compassion you deserve and need
Dude just know that you are not alone and people really care about you even me. So please know that you are worthy of everyone in your life and you deserve to be happy.
I’d recommend talking to your psychiatrist about this, because if your meds might be causing this feeling (or more rather amplifying it as you said), it may just be best to see if there are other options that they can provide. Hope you feel better soon.
I found this video by chance and I'm very glad you're talking about your situation. You're being very sensible. I've seen some commenters recommending that you stop taking the drugs you're on. Please don't do that without your doctor's advice. It may be that the drugs need to be changed or altered in strength. But again, the one person with whom you should discuss how you're feeling and the side effects you're experiencing is your prescribing doctor. When you mentioned the word 'disassociation' it immediately triggered a memory. I had a friend some years ago who suffered from disassociation. His description of the effects mirrored your own experiences. He found that drinking alcohol brought on disassociation, and the effects lasted several days. When he didn’t drink alcohol, he was fine. He was also very sensitive to coffee although there were no ill-effects other than an inability to sleep at nights if he took coffee any later than noon. One other thing about him was that he was highly sensitive to drugs and often experienced rather rare or unexpected side effects. Does any of this fit with what's happening to you? Possibly it's something for you to think about. There might be something you can identify which triggers your disassociation. I must add here that this is just the experience of one man. He told his doctor and it turned out that this was completely new information. My very best wishes for a very happy future. You deserve it❤
i can heavily relate to this especially the feeling happy being fake its like i want to be happy so i try being happy but when a certain level is acheived like i haven't done anything that will cause me not to be happy so now i should be happy but instead i feel that this is not real or i gravitate towards sadness even to the most slightest inconvenience like should i even be happy its so confusing. but rest all you said i dont relate to it.
awww, ur amazing, but i understand your feeling that way we all feel the way u feel🤍 just know we love and care for you and we always got your back i know i do :) you belong anywhere we all love you and just remember be yourself.. you’ll get through it YOU GOT THIS JWOOL :)
We are parallel versions of each other right now. I just told my parents about my harmful thoughts yesterday and today in my suggested feed about having those said thoughts. So I was already really intrigued. So I clicked the video. Then pause before checking your channel because I’ve been trolled by something like that before. It was like the biggest slap in the face and I felt so dumb 😅 But anyways, I checked your channel I see this video here and watched and you get it. Every time you said “If that makes any sense” I would mentally nod. It weird because I was writing songs for this exact feeling and hearing your talk about your thoughts has help some of my thoughts. Like it added clarity and maybe it was just because it felt like being heard for the first time. So things are easier to talk about. So, thank you truly!
*Self harm mentioned* Also for anyone wanting some music that might help you understand you with this feeling to feel as if you’re not alone. Quadeca - “I Didn’t Mean To Haunt You” is my suggestion. I know it’s weird to make a music suggestion but I generally would of died with my thoughts not for this album and I’m hoping somebody scrolling through the comments and see this comment read it and they listen and maybe it’s what they need and they can heal or at least reconsider the thought of harming one self and suicide. It also speaks volumes to feeling invisible.
a suggestion: when you talk to the prescribing physician use the term "in a fog" to describe how you are reacting to the medication and life in general. It may take some time to have your body adjust to the dose you are taking and a modification of when you take the pills could be modified. Wishing you the best.
These videos are helping you and helping us many of “us” are older and concerned, we see this in teens becoming adults with a sense of hopelessness when this should be joyful but also anxiety creating times. after all you are transitioning to an adult and that can be scary. Keep your therapist informed, keep up these videos and read the comments. We are all here for you.
It's a good idea to keep a medication journal. Write down each day how the meds are making you feel. I don't know how severe your...requirements are. My Schizophrenic friend goes in every 3 weeks for a blood test to help adjust and balance his meds. Do you go in similarly for blood tests about every month? Or more? Either way, keep a journal on how you're feeling and when you see a doctor next, show them and discuss it all. You're doing fine man.
I started taking amitryptaline a few months ago for migraines. One of the side effects was suicidal thoughts (which I had before taking the medicine anyways) I was on 10 mg every night but it did nothing for my migraines, so we moved up a dose (20mg) I also got a concussion the same week. Concussion can also cause post depression. After all this I was in the darkest place I’ve been in a long time, I was never sleeping, and when I was sleeping I was in bed scrolling on my phone. It was awful. Medicine is good, but can also be bad. I truly hope that you feel better. I know how awful that feeling is. It’s been going on 4 years now for me. I love your videos, you keep me going.
So hard to find balance, especially with so many changes and adjustments. Of course solicit help from the doctor, but also find some happy places in your mindscape. Take time to relax and flow.
bro if you need anything, please reach out. ive been through hell, and i dont want you to suffer by yourself, because it sucks being alone through this. we love you
Ya i understand. I used to feel something similar. It led to me not knowing who i was or even who i should be. I didn't belong anywhere anymore. I realised that i wasnt happy anymore when i was with the people i loved the most and i didnt miss who i used to miss. And eventually i didn't feel anything at all, like i was apithetic. I did start feeling better for a while but i can feel it slowly coming back. (Edit): it's actually really shocking how relatable this is. And I don't mean this in a funny joking type of way. Like it is actually shocking. I didn't know that there was someone that actually feels and is going through the exact same thing as me.
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Over 11,000 people are here for you.
Not one matters if he isn’t there for himself
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@@trickrunner4842 DO NOT BE SO RUDE IS OUR JOB TO LISTEN TO JWOOL. THE REASON HE IS MAKING VIDS LIKE THESE IS CUZ HE EXPECTS US TO GIVE HIM TIPS AND A WHOLE OF OTHER DIFFERENT REASONS. REMEMBER DON'T JUDGE THE BOOK BY ITS COVER TREAT OTHERS AS YOU WANT TO BE TREATED SO LETS ALL BE NICE SHALL WE?
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Yes 🙏 I’m so grateful for all of then
You need to call your prescribing doctor and tell him/her what you are experiencing. Your meds will probably need to be adjusted. Do that as soon as possible❤❤
I personally think he needs to not be on those meds. Sometimes they can make you suicidal and worse off than you are in the first place. Took lithium and it ruined my thyroid now I’m on thyroid medicine. I hope to God he’s not taking Paxil! I’ve heard a two people that shot themselves because of taking it.
From my own years of experience, I agree.
This is the best advice. The medication may need to be lowered or maybe what you are on is not right for you. The doctor is the best person to work with you now. And yes, do it now. Every Dr has a call service so you can reach them after hours.
Yes please do this now. Don't wait until tomorrow. Go to ER if you can't get ahold of your doctor. As others have said meds may need adjusted. Please take everyones advice and take care of this today.
@@KristinaM624Is he on lithium? Antidepressants have helped millions, and done nothing for others. It really is an individual thing. Lithium is pretty heavy duty, and I'm sorry it f**cked you up
I feel the same . But i hope we all get better.
Yess we will eventually
do not give up on the condition. do not believe nothing will be same.
I'm so sorry, James. Take care, it will get better. You are a great person! ❤
Thank you!
@@Jwool.mp3 u are a good person seeing ur videos make me happy even when I am go through a bad day
You got this, it’s work, talk to your doctors about how you feel they can tweak things…all part of the process
I’ll talk to them and hopefully it’ll help
@@Jwool.mp3your really awesome man I got you if anything your really handsome too I hope we can be friends if you want
For me, the only thing that's keeps me sane and going through each day is music. If it weren't for the music I listen too I don't know if I'd still be here. Music is a powerful thing. Hope ya start feeling better.
Real bro
Check out the new track from Overmono that just dropped six days ago "Gem Lingo." 🐧🍎🍏💙
You're awesome Man. You're trying your hardest and that is all you can do.
Thank you man, just gotta keep trying my best
I can relate. It’s hard to describe, and it’s hard to tell what’s doing what. It does sound like SSRIs. They can keep you from ruminating, but seems they can make you sort of numb as well. Not easy.
i found your channel a few days ago and its unreal how much i relate to all the things you are feeling. thank you for letting me know i’m not alone in this. i have faith that we will heal in time.
What you talked about in the last minute, about feeling happy but having the voice in your head telling you it's fake, that really spoke to me. I've had that before. Hang in there bro. We all love you and are here for ya.
@@isaac24 thank you man I’m glad you could relate to me
@@Jwool.mp3 You're awesome. Like others have said, hearing you talk about stuff and being able to connect to it so similarly makes me feel good that I'm not the only one going through similar stuff.
You video, your channel popped up on my stream for a reason. You are not alone. You are more than enough. I am healing from a childhood of trauma and abuse that resulted in me having DID and a past riddled by addiction.
I am over 2 years sober now and healing everyday. I owe ALL of that to God. ALL of that!!💯
Everyone is on their journey and in their perfect time each will find God. He is always with us, it just takes us opening our hearts and we will see that He is and has always been with us ready to help give us a peace that truly surpasses all understanding!
I pray that you will see what a precious and beautiful soul you are and have always been in Gods eyes!
I too went through the medication ups and downs. What helped me get stable, feel more like myself was building a relationship with God.
You are not alone and you are loved!
God bless you my friend!
🙏😊❤️
Amen
Dude we got your back i was a teenager and i went through depression but now I'm 27 and trust me the best is yet to come. I promise you it's going to get better much love bro . If it helps i believe in you plus everybody in the chat.
I feel ya. I've felt the same way for several years. My advise is, keep pushing on. Eventually you'll rediscover who you are. That is what I'm trying to do. Sometimes i think the meds are putting me in tge place I'm supposed to be and it's so foreign that I can't accept it. Just a thought. Sending love, bud.
truth
I think is probably the depression. I’ve bipolar 1 and when I have a depressive episode I always have dissociative symptoms. Don’t stop your meds alone, talk first with your psychiatrist. I wish you well
You're not alone. Sending positive vibes your way!
I relate to you so hard this almost brought me to tears. That's the first time something's done that in a while. I'm 16, my job is on and off and I hardly work anymore, I try to go out when I can but nothing’s fun anymore and I feel out of place everywhere, and I’m trying so hard to feel like I’m real, like anything around me is real. It’s like I’m watching my life through a screen. I hope things improve, for the both of us. I finally don’t feel as alone after seeing other people I can relate to like this. You got this man.
I don't know what meds you're on but they may be the issue, or a part of it. Tell your psychiatrist what's going on, there may be better ones for you. I've been on many anti depressants before I found one that helped, which I've weaned off of. Maybe the dosage is too high. I CAN relate to this, and hearing your description brought me back to when I felt this way. Please don't give up, changes can be made and a lot of people really care about you 💌🤗🐶
I wholeheartedly agree with you.
Yeah man call your doctor and explain to them how you’re feeling and see what they say. Keep your head up man.
Hi James, one of my friends was on antidepressants and it affected him in the same way. I hope your emotional state starts to balance out, if not speak to your Dr and see what they think. Remember your YT community is there for you and I for one listen to your problems. Take care young man 🤗🐒🐑❤
As you heal, you leave the old version of you behind but you're not quite the new person. When we're depressed we feel really strongly. It's like going on holiday, then getting stuck at the airport as you wait for your plane. You know you're going away but you have to deal with being in the airport. This time will pass. You described it perfectly. IN the future, therapists and counsellors will use your clips to help train people. You describe everything so well. So, you're in an inbetween place, and that's ok. Don't stop, this is just a rough part of it. My meds worked in time, and I moved on to be a mostly better person. Most people give up at this point. Just stick with it. I hope you journal - just for you, not us. It's a powerful self therapy and a healing way to practice what might be your future craft (might, no expectations)
You should definitely mention this to your doctor. But, I can tell you I felt the exact same way when I first started on medication! Eventually the weird sensation went away completely! Hang in there and always communicate how you’re feeling with your doctor and family.
I am not a doctor, but when I was on meds, it was the same way, but this should pass after you get used to it, that feeling
my thoughts exactly - leaving to old version and not quite arriving at the new person
We are here for you! ❤❤❤
How do we fix ourselves?
Much luck to you and all the others that are going through shit like this, myself included.
Don't feel too bad because your body is changing. It's called hormone adjustment. Working out and running helps you get through this period.
This!!! I feel this every so often, and I can never find the words to describe it, but this summarizes it perfectly!! I absolutely HATE not being able to cry when I'm sad, it's horrible.
Don’t give up guy, I know it sounds cliché, but you have a big following and a whole lot of people that believe in you. ❤
I get what you mean because I kinda have the same thing a little rarely though, but for me its like I snap out of reality and I start thinking about how I don't feel like my own personality and like what is even the purpose of life if we are just gonna die. its like seeing yourself from a different perspective and its really annoying because I just want to live for my fullest. but I found my own little "Tunnels" if you will, of finding myself again. I like to play piano and I give my brain and heart to my hands. I like to dance and I give my brain and heart to my legs. and finally, I love to just live with my brain and heart. It takes time to refresh and feel full again, its kinda like a battery where you have to stay charged until you can stop using the cord. I hope this helps a little because I totally understand and It sucks so I don't think you deserve to feel this way at all. We all love and support you man
this is so real, i just started a new med and feel exactly how youre feeling and this video helped me recognize what exactly that change is
Being alive is all about FEELING. Both positive and negative feelings, emotions. Being numb does not sound good. With or without meds, let’s strive to become so strong inside that we CAN withstand both good and bad feelings without getting too freaked out by either of them. Maybe get meds which are milder? You need to “be” and “feel” yourself to achieve, enjoy and FEEL all those wonderful experiences and goals you have set for the next 5 years!
Call and speak with your doctor! Keep fighting .......celebrate the small acomplishments.....get out of bed.....make a snack or dinner...go for a short walk. Sending positive energy your way!!!
ive felt like this just a week ago being on an anti depression medication and everything you described was exactly how i felt for a few days. it completely shattered how i felt and im in a relationship and it was so hard to laugh with him i get what you mean by feeling numb. i couldnt feel anything and it was horrifying i didnt know what was going on. things that made me happy werent making me happy, i just felt like i was there and i wasnt feeling a thing. im currently a few days off of the medication and i feel so much better everything came back to me and im doing great now. i think your medication is messing with you. i dont know your life and dont know the medication but im sure thats whats causing this. i hope you can push through this time, youre going to be okay.
Well i have felt like this before and i just took it out on my family which has gotten me nowhere so the best thing is to reflect about what you have done so far and how are you the person that you are Today. Second is to let go all of the things in the past just come down to hunt you so you can either do two things
1. Run away from it
OR
2. learn from your mistakes and what you have done wrong and the next time you go to do the same thing that you have done in the past AGAIN you will do much better as you did last time. I know its hard how you get disconnected and your family including your loved ones BUT trust me.
And back then i never used to care about the way how i dress to go to certain things and when people see me they laughed at me BUT what my grandmother told me is that you are gonna be judge based on everything, Such as : your personality, the way how you dress to go certain occasions ETC. Just know that we love you and we support you on your comments, your future and so on. WE LOVE YOU JWOOL KEEP DOING WHAT YOU ARE DOING CUZ YOU GOT ALL YA SUBS IN YOUR CORNER.
It’s okay everyone has those feelings one day. Don’t worry you’ll be fine brother, I’m praying for you.
TELL YOU PSYCHIATRIST HOW YOU ARE FEELING. The meds can keep you from crying. And they can make you feel detached. You know so much about yourself James. That is so much more than most people! You need to find something creative to do. You said earlier that you live films and filmmaking. Do you have a Mac? There is a program called Apple Keynote which allows you to do simple animations. If I could send you one of my videos I would. I think you’d like them. And making them fullfills my emptiness so much! I’m praying for you James! I wish you were my little brother so I could just hug you and tell you are going to be alright. BECAUSE YOU WILL BE! And for God’s sake stop SELF-HARMING YOURSELF. IT WONT MAKE YOU FEEL ANY BETTER! Then with your depression you’re going to have thigh pain! What good is that? James, James, James… you are not alone. I know you know that. Look at your views, MY GOODNESS!
Please don't be too discouraged. Things can change, and often get better. You're young, smart, inquisitive, thoughtful, open, dependable and handsome. Wishing you happier days to come.
❤
I believe they will get better. And thank you!! 🙏
@@Jwool.mp3 you’re welcome!
Happy Sunday from South Florida to my awesome and amazing guy 💯
Happy Sunday Paul!!
@@Jwool.mp3 my #1 guy!
All of us including myself a newbie to your uploads are here for you. Even the darkest days we are all thinking of you. ❤
16k with you, just think about that for a moment, 16k people's lives you have touched and impacted, and I'm sure we are all rooting for you. Thanks for being brave enough to share, you are making a huge impact here and now. Really proud of you bro ❤
Your not alone you’ve helped me a lot believe it or not and all of your fans are here to help you to talk about your side effects because if your uncomfortable you shouldn’t be on those meds trust me I’ve been on a ton and am still experimenting
Even with a million ppl you can still feel alone
@@trickrunner4842 agreed
The only thing you should regret is the things you don’t do.. all the side effects damn that is hard, it puts you on automatic pilot.. (no emotions, no confrontational, keeps the feelings and emotions under control) i feel you, my boyfriend forced me to go to amusement park and im thinking going on every ride just so i could feel something.. didn’t feel a thing..
It’s ok man we are always here for you and we love you and no matter what happens we got your back
wish I could give you a hug bro and sit with you just to be there for you brother You should talk to your doc about the meds for sure. possibly take a short break from this TH-cam if it is too much right now. work on you. things will get better. I love you brother.
I don’t feel like myself either
You are loved and cared for live life don't try to just escape I have never met you but I love you because of what Jesus has done through me, he loves you.
I’m sorry to hear that :(
Stay strong man. We're all with you! Alot of your videos have been pretty positive and optimistic recently. You seem like you have alot of exciting things coming up. Keep your head up and think of all the exiting opportunities coming your way in college!
I went on Wellbutrin several years ago to help me stop smoking. They say no long term risks. But it slowly made me feel detached from myself. You can't get off the stuff. And as a bonus, it will shrink your balls and enlarge your prostate. I can't advise you on meds. But sometimes it's as simple as taking B complex vitamins and getting more sunlight. Do what you have to do, but consider every alternative. Attitude is most important. You live in a world that isn't designed to care about you. And yet you have as much right to be here as anyone else. Sometimes you just gotta push through the crowd and make a place for yourself. The older I get, the more people want to ignore me and probably would like to see me just disappear. That's why I talk to everybody. I'm not going away. And I won't let the world ignore me. You've got more going for you than you think. Life is a mountain, and you can't stop climbing. Good luck my friend
I just found your channel. You are not alone! Thank you so much for sharing this! I have been feeling the same way. Please, stay strong! ❤ I keep you in my prayers. 🙏
I have felt like that in some ways for my whole life just know you are not alone and you can find the right meds
I’m here man. We’ve got your back. Go live
Don't worry bro we got your back no matter what happens ❤❤❤😢
Positive thoughts and well wishes your way. Things will get better in time.
Hey Jwool, don’t listen to the people saying you are under spiritual attack or people who push the bible to you as a cure. They clearly don’t understand what you are experiencing, nor do they have a license to treat mental health issues. What you have is very real and is something that should be taken seriously. I love you Jwool and we wish you the best. Keep talking to us and speak with your psychiatrist about the medicine as well.
OH F***!
That's exactly what's been going on with me too!
I don't know what to tell ya, it kind of gives you wings, but at the same time, as time goes on, you'll be left with this numbing of the heart. It'll gradually sap out your soul-energy, which will leave you basically unfeeling.
I don't know what it is you've been taking, but yeah.
On the plus side - your self-esteem / confidence will sky-rocket like nobody's business!
Hit me up, if you need more info.
I just stumbled upon your videos and my heart goes out to you buddy. When I was young, I was in a violently abusive family that caused me to experience a lot of the feelings that you described. I quit school at 15 and moved out of the house, depression spiraled, and I tried to kill myself. I was at such a low point, in my case, medications didn't help at all. When I was in the hospital for poisoning treatment, I had wonderful interactions with psychologists, doctors and nurses. Talking with them helped me see a way out of the negative thought loops that I would trap myself in... It was the beginning of a new life for me.^^ I started working hard to get my GED, then I studied psychology and East Asian studies at university, lived in Korea for a decade and opened my own business there. Now, almost 30 years later, I still have moments of depression, but after all these years, I've learned some wonderfully therapeutic lessons from Buddhism. One very important one is that nothing in life is permanent. The pain and sadness we feel, it hurts and it sucks, but it is just another moment that will inevitably pass. The same is true for joy. Realizing that even though joy is wonderful, pain will come back and have its moment again too. It's like waves in an ocean, and it's okay. We don't need to 'awfulize' or inflate the negative feelings that we have. They will just pass naturally in time. And I loved seeing you cleaning your room! I do that a lot too. For me, finding even the smallest success in a dark moment is the best way to get out of it. A bit of cleaning or something productive is so helpful for me. Honestly, from watching your videos, you seem like a really smart, well adjusted guy who is trying his best to figure out this messy thing called life, and from what I can see, you are doing a great job. ^^ It's all gonna suck sometimes.... Like when I was 16, working overtime to pay rent in horrible neighborhood and buying sacks of potatos so I could feed myself. Could I have ever known at that time that one day I would have a rooftop apartment in Seoul and own my own business there? Hell no! Live is full of surprises.^^ Sometimes they are terrible, but a lot of them will be great! ^^ You have no idea what this life has in store for you, but I get the feeling that it will be a lot better than you might think. Lots of love and best of luck to you buddy!
I'm so sorry to hear this but know that you are not alone. I could relate to everything in your video, as I have been taking medication for a few years now. I personally, (I don't know what to call it) feel like I'm just living in a dream. It's as if I reach out to touch my hand and it could be a cloud, but when I do touch the object, then I know it is real. What scares me is: I know I have changed, and I think for the worse. Since the medication, I know I don't feel the same and act the same. Which is scary because, all the while I try to be myself, I am turning into something else that is still "myself". If that makes sense... idk. Just keep going. No matter what choice you make; whatever path you go down, try to make the best of it. I know, I KNOW, it is hard. But all we can really do in life is try. 💪💪
I know exactly what you mean, I went through the exact same thing a few months ago and trust me it does improve, maybe not quickly and a lot but it will, you just have to stick with it
I’m currently experiencing this after binge drinking alcohol. It’s hard to deal with but you gotta push through. Many other people have gone through this and it eventually fades away
Im older. It gets better. Struggled with depression for years. I found prayer and meditation helped alot. If you dont go to counseling, go to counseling. Medication dosent work if you dont go to counseling. Set yourself goals. Im praying for ya.
I am not myself either. Only difference is I am not caring because when I do care it ends up making things worse.
That is your message, I have had the side effects the doctor changed one pill and it made a big difference. But I still have suicide thought but he changed pills again but I am like you I still want to cry. Please keep your head up. If you want to talk grab me on line😢
Just keep doing well J-bro. You know you are Awesome!
Thank you Adam!!
Hang in there, bro! Don't stop fighting! You are worth the fight! You've got a lot of cool changes coming up in your life that you should be soooo excited about! You can do this! Love ya, bro!
I haven't finished watching the video. Nevertheless, I've been viewing your videos as they appear on my recommended; almost all of them having recently dealt with your mental health. Even though it doesn't really mean anything coming from me, I'm cheering you on, dude. You're not alone; I've felt similar to how you do, and you're such a wonderful guy. You've probably heard this a lot, but I promise you that a lot of people are proud of you for reaching this point. I'm hoping for something greater for you soon, my buddy; you deserve to be happy.
I can relate so much to this, stay strong man❤
You will have good days and bad days. Everybody does. Dont ride the lows. Dont ride the highs. Be thankful. Instead on focusing on the negative.....start counting your blessings. The fact that you made a video today shows you care anout your well-being. WE CARE also. Keep up the good work. Tomorrow is another day.👍🙏😊
Oh no! So sorry to hear. I would reach out to your therapist or the psychiatrist who prescribed the meds. Sending prayers. Feel better soon.
Hey man, I found your channel yesterday and watching a lot of videos I realised that I experience a lot of the same things you describe both on other videos but also this one and it's been quite therapeutic to watch, specially cause the past few days have been hard, even tho idk exactly why. Keep going man, you got this
Ay thank you!! I’m glad my vids could help!!
Haven’t felt like myself for along time too. I don’t even know who I am anymore. Been stuck in this rut for along time. Don’t seem to be getting easier. The world is just so screwed we are all struggling. Just keep breathing and be strong.
dude i really feel this. this is gonna be more a rant, because i dont want to rant to anyone but i think a youtube comment section is a decent place because there might be people who care, and people who care will only care for a short time and it makes it easy. but, im 14 years old, im going in to my first day of high school in 3 days. i found this channel and this is the second video i watched here, but i clicked because i really resonate with whats being described in this video. Ive been aware of the fact i have been feeling really numb, but honestly i didnt care enough to talk about it and create an uncomfortable atmosphere with whoever i talk to. im not on meds, i was diagnosed with some pretty bad depression at 10 when i was in 5th grade, and i would hurt myself a lot back then and up until about a week ago i was clean from that time onward. i dont know what to do, i dont have really any responsibilities at all, or many friends to talk to and my parents are too old to understand. trust me, ive tried talking to them about things. i just dont know what to do. i feel like crying as i type this comment but as in the video, i just cant. i sit all day in my room and rot in my bed. it used to be id sit in my room playing games all day, but now even if a friend texts me to get on, ill just ignore it and keep laying there. all day i tell myself hey this would be fun, but then immidiately, as he describes in the video, the "voice" tells me it just wont be fun and all excitement i had for whatever i was going to do just fades and ill sit for hours wanting to play on my laptop or my phone thats literally in arms reach of me as i lay on my bed but instead i just rot there. i feel like the stereotype of discord mod that has just all the gross stuff goin on, except my room just smells and my friends, when they do come about every 4 months notice it. my girlfriend (long distance) just called me as im typing this and she wants to watch a show. i really dont want to but i also like to make her feel special whenever i can. either way, it just becomes really difficult for me to do absolutely anything. i feel like im drowning and i want to cry and scream from the bottom of my chest but it just wont happen. if anyone has gotten out of this and has any advice to give and it isnt a bother, please give it. im scared that this will continue the rest of my life and ill end up ending it because i had a bad day or something.
I felt a similar way but through faith I was reminded who I was I think you are under spiritual attack, but don't forget you are loved and cared for we love you at our house no matter what you are going through, I was feeling a similar way.
You're a wonderful person and don't deserve to be going through your struggles. Sending you my support and best wishes dude.
As someone with OCD, I barely feel like myself at all. hope everything gets better for u man.
11k ppl are here for u. We love you. Please keep continuing to get better 🙏
You got this Jwool, keep going.✊
James please make sure you tell your psychiatrist about anything you’re feeling on your medication any side effects. This is very important I went through it too and had to stop what I was on there are other medications and some side effects are kinda like warnings of danger especially in young adults like yourself! You seem like a great kid and I only call you kid because I’m old enough to be your grandfather lol. Hopefully you have talked to your Dr about all side effects and things are better now. This is the 3rd video I’ve watched and in your latest you do seem better! Keep doing these videos and I’ll keep watching them! 👍🏻🙏🏻🙌🏻😎
I relate to this SOOOO much. Everything kinda feels like a dream in a way. It feels like I'm watching the world through my eyes, like im a person inside of myself, like me and my conciousness are two different people, so it always feels like im in my head.
I will be praying for you buddy ❤ keep your head high and know that you will heal with time and some work. When you go to college remember to keep the things in your life that are positive and cut the things that are negative. When i had hardcore derealization it helps to focus on what you can control and to keep your mind on the things in life that water you- exercise, journal, time with your cat, for real try yoga (notice the sensations it brings in your body- this will help anchor you inside your body more and get you feeling more too).. and weed out all of the bad habits whether that be smoking, coffee, beer, porn, staying up too late. Parent yourself as you are a baby give yourself love and compassion you deserve and need
Hey all of us are here for you!! Much love from the Midwest ❤❤
Dude just know that you are not alone and people really care about you even me. So please know that you are worthy of everyone in your life and you deserve to be happy.
I’d recommend talking to your psychiatrist about this, because if your meds might be causing this feeling (or more rather amplifying it as you said), it may just be best to see if there are other options that they can provide. Hope you feel better soon.
Will do. And thank you 🙏
@@Jwool.mp3can we be friends if that's ok with you
I found this video by chance and I'm very glad you're talking about your situation. You're being very sensible. I've seen some commenters recommending that you stop taking the drugs you're on. Please don't do that without your doctor's advice. It may be that the drugs need to be changed or altered in strength. But again, the one person with whom you should discuss how you're feeling and the side effects you're experiencing is your prescribing doctor. When you mentioned the word 'disassociation' it immediately triggered a memory. I had a friend some years ago who suffered from disassociation. His description of the effects mirrored your own experiences. He found that drinking alcohol brought on disassociation, and the effects lasted several days. When he didn’t drink alcohol, he was fine. He was also very sensitive to coffee although there were no ill-effects other than an inability to sleep at nights if he took coffee any later than noon. One other thing about him was that he was highly sensitive to drugs and often experienced rather rare or unexpected side effects. Does any of this fit with what's happening to you? Possibly it's something for you to think about. There might be something you can identify which triggers your disassociation. I must add here that this is just the experience of one man. He told his doctor and it turned out that this was completely new information. My very best wishes for a very happy future. You deserve it❤
i can heavily relate to this especially the feeling happy being fake its like i want to be happy so i try being happy but when a certain level is acheived like i haven't done anything that will cause me not to be happy so now i should be happy but instead i feel that this is not real or i gravitate towards sadness even to the most slightest inconvenience like should i even be happy its so confusing. but rest all you said i dont relate to it.
awww, ur amazing, but i understand your feeling that way we all feel the way u feel🤍 just know we love and care for you and we always got your back i know i do :) you belong anywhere we all love you and just remember be yourself.. you’ll get through it YOU GOT THIS JWOOL :)
We are parallel versions of each other right now. I just told my parents about my harmful thoughts yesterday and today in my suggested feed about having those said thoughts. So I was already really intrigued. So I clicked the video.
Then pause before checking your channel because I’ve been trolled by something like that before. It was like the biggest slap in the face and I felt so dumb 😅
But anyways, I checked your channel I see this video here and watched and you get it. Every time you said “If that makes any sense” I would mentally nod.
It weird because I was writing songs for this exact feeling and hearing your talk about your thoughts has help some of my thoughts. Like it added clarity and maybe it was just because it felt like being heard for the first time. So things are easier to talk about. So, thank you truly!
*Self harm mentioned*
Also for anyone wanting some music that might help you understand you with this feeling to feel as if you’re not alone.
Quadeca - “I Didn’t Mean To Haunt You” is my suggestion.
I know it’s weird to make a music suggestion but I generally would of died with my thoughts not for this album and I’m hoping somebody scrolling through the comments and see this comment read it and they listen and maybe it’s what they need and they can heal or at least reconsider the thought of harming one self and suicide. It also speaks volumes to feeling invisible.
a suggestion: when you talk to the prescribing physician use the term "in a fog" to describe how you are reacting to the medication and life in general. It may take some time to have your body adjust to the dose you are taking and a modification of when you take the pills could be modified. Wishing you the best.
Life is tough. It’s ok to feel whatever you’re feeling. Keep going and hopefully you’ll be ok!
Me too actually hope u feel better soon ❤
Jwool - I enjoy your videos, you are a very likeable young man - will pray for your peace of mind - God Bless!
These videos are helping you and helping us many of “us” are older and concerned, we see this in teens becoming adults with a sense of hopelessness when this should be joyful but also anxiety creating times. after all you are transitioning to an adult and that can be scary. Keep your therapist informed, keep up these videos and read the comments. We are all here for you.
Hang in there buddy. It will get better. I look up to you. You are my idol! I'm proud of you!!
It's a good idea to keep a medication journal. Write down each day how the meds are making you feel. I don't know how severe your...requirements are. My Schizophrenic friend goes in every 3 weeks for a blood test to help adjust and balance his meds. Do you go in similarly for blood tests about every month? Or more? Either way, keep a journal on how you're feeling and when you see a doctor next, show them and discuss it all. You're doing fine man.
We love you. Hang in there. It will get better bro!
I started taking amitryptaline a few months ago for migraines. One of the side effects was suicidal thoughts (which I had before taking the medicine anyways) I was on 10 mg every night but it did nothing for my migraines, so we moved up a dose (20mg) I also got a concussion the same week. Concussion can also cause post depression. After all this I was in the darkest place I’ve been in a long time, I was never sleeping, and when I was sleeping I was in bed scrolling on my phone. It was awful. Medicine is good, but can also be bad. I truly hope that you feel better. I know how awful that feeling is. It’s been going on 4 years now for me. I love your videos, you keep me going.
Just hang in there, dude. Take it one day at a time. ✌🏻
You got this! I promise. The storm will pass, I used to be really depressed and suicidal, but now things are working out much better for me now ❤
Keep this in your head "This Shall pass"
So hard to find balance, especially with so many changes and adjustments. Of course solicit help from the doctor, but also find some happy places in your mindscape. Take time to relax and flow.
I've gone through this and i know how you feel. Keep going don't lose hope . I know it's tough but don't give up. You'll get better I promise
bro if you need anything, please reach out. ive been through hell, and i dont want you to suffer by yourself, because it sucks being alone through this. we love you
Ya i understand. I used to feel something similar. It led to me not knowing who i was or even who i should be. I didn't belong anywhere anymore. I realised that i wasnt happy anymore when i was with the people i loved the most and i didnt miss who i used to miss. And eventually i didn't feel anything at all, like i was apithetic. I did start feeling better for a while but i can feel it slowly coming back.
(Edit): it's actually really shocking how relatable this is. And I don't mean this in a funny joking type of way. Like it is actually shocking. I didn't know that there was someone that actually feels and is going through the exact same thing as me.