Priscilla, you are one strong woman! I dropped tears hearing your video and as a Mom to two daughters I can promise you things will get better! . I can personally tell you I have the same fears for my daughters. I am scare of humans hurting them. I am sending you a large hug because I am hurting for that chilhood trauma you had/have❤ May God Bless you and heal you!❤Enjoy and Love Erin! I am sure you already are!
It’s nice hearing from you again! I hope you and your daughters are doing great ❤️ And yes, best thing I did was take a few months off from work to get to her enjoy her as a tiny tiny baby ❤️ sooo many things I didn’t consider when it came to being a parent especially when we as women go through so much in society (generally speaking) I told my self as she gets older I’m going to remind myself not suffocate her out being too over protective because I don’t want to push her away. But even when I get scary about people hurting her, when I’m with my daughter i am the happiest. She really is my light ❤️❤️
while we don’t see everything going on in your day to day the fact that you worry so much about providing her the best life possible shows how much you care and of course you don’t need anyone telling you that you know more than anyone how much you love and treasure and admire your baby girl. You’re a human and you will always have feelings, just because they’re not always positive doesn’t make you a bad mother or one that isn’t up to par with whatever standards are held for us as mothers. You know what’s best for you and your baby and wanting the best for her it will never feel like enough. You worry about the future and the well-being of Erin and why wouldn’t you, a mother is always going to worry. I have the problem of always thinking of the worst and maybe that’s from all the bad experiences from growing up and hoping and doing everything in my power that my baby doesn’t ever experience that. Things may be going great with postpartum and your sweet baby is an angel to take care of, it doesn’t mean that everything is great, you have such a fragile tiny life to care for I wouldn’t doubt the anxiety of at any moment something could happen, again mothers will always worry, and it’s hard to not let your mind drift into dark places even during the best of times, this doesn’t make you a bad mother. You are only one person and your allowed to have overwhelming feelings. I hope you know truly that you did nothing to cause her to have a heart defect. Sometimes there isn’t a reason why things happen and we’ll always want to understand why. You’re doing great mama and you know that and truly wish you and your baby the best. If you ever need a person to talk to my door is open 24/7.
Hi Madysen ❤️ I hope your pregnancy is going well 🥹❤️ I hope you are enjoying every second of it while it lasts! I think everything you said is really spot on. I saw a quote last night after I posted this video on Instagram that was along the lines of “when you become a mom, you spend the rest of your life worrying or in a constant state of worry” and it. Is. So. TRUE. As mothers, I feel like we are healing during the early stages of motherhood and in a way, kinda happy this stuff is resurfacing now instead of later on when she is older and can understand more. But even now, I think she can pick up on my worrying. Because when I’m emotional, she gets more affectionate with me orrrr maybe it’s all up in my head lmao and I’m delulu. You are so right, I gotta work in not trying to rationalize everything in my head. I think I do this a lot because I already feel like I am compensating with being a single mom and the weight it does feel heavy when you are doing it solo. I feel like it’s guilt I need to bear because I made the choice bringing her into this world. Which is such a fucked ho way of thinking, so with the few bumps in the road like her heart defect it really eats at me sometimes. But, I have to become emotionally stronger I think and I think it’s going to take more time for me to come to that realization and become tougher in that sense for her sake. I can get away with being mellow dramatic now but not for much longer so I am kind of taking advantage of my position right now. It makes me feel nice when someone says to me “I didn’t think you would be so into being a mom” or “you are such a good mom to Erin” that feels like the best compliment because it doesn’t feel like work and I hope you have the same experience soon ❤️ Thank you madysen!! This was such a sweet comment and god bless your soul for listening to my annoying ass voice 😭❤️ idk how you did it!
Priscilla, you are one strong woman! I dropped tears hearing your video and as a Mom to two daughters I can promise you things will get better! . I can personally tell you I have the same fears for my daughters. I am scare of humans hurting them. I am sending you a large hug because I am hurting for that chilhood trauma you had/have❤ May God Bless you and heal you!❤Enjoy and Love Erin! I am sure you already are!
It’s nice hearing from you again! I hope you and your daughters are doing great ❤️ And yes, best thing I did was take a few months off from work to get to her enjoy her as a tiny tiny baby ❤️ sooo many things I didn’t consider when it came to being a parent especially when we as women go through so much in society (generally speaking) I told my self as she gets older I’m going to remind myself not suffocate her out being too over protective because I don’t want to push her away. But even when I get scary about people hurting her, when I’m with my daughter i am the happiest. She really is my light ❤️❤️
while we don’t see everything going on in your day to day the fact that you worry so much about providing her the best life possible shows how much you care and of course you don’t need anyone telling you that you know more than anyone how much you love and treasure and admire your baby girl. You’re a human and you will always have feelings, just because they’re not always positive doesn’t make you a bad mother or one that isn’t up to par with whatever standards are held for us as mothers. You know what’s best for you and your baby and wanting the best for her it will never feel like enough. You worry about the future and the well-being of Erin and why wouldn’t you, a mother is always going to worry. I have the problem of always thinking of the worst and maybe that’s from all the bad experiences from growing up and hoping and doing everything in my power that my baby doesn’t ever experience that. Things may be going great with postpartum and your sweet baby is an angel to take care of, it doesn’t mean that everything is great, you have such a fragile tiny life to care for I wouldn’t doubt the anxiety of at any moment something could happen, again mothers will always worry, and it’s hard to not let your mind drift into dark places even during the best of times, this doesn’t make you a bad mother. You are only one person and your allowed to have overwhelming feelings. I hope you know truly that you did nothing to cause her to have a heart defect. Sometimes there isn’t a reason why things happen and we’ll always want to understand why. You’re doing great mama and you know that and truly wish you and your baby the best.
If you ever need a person to talk to my door is open 24/7.
Hi Madysen ❤️ I hope your pregnancy is going well 🥹❤️
I hope you are enjoying every second of it while it lasts! I think everything you said is really spot on. I saw a quote last night after I posted this video on Instagram that was along the lines of “when you become a mom, you spend the rest of your life worrying or in a constant state of worry” and it. Is. So. TRUE.
As mothers, I feel like we are healing during the early stages of motherhood and in a way, kinda happy this stuff is resurfacing now instead of later on when she is older and can understand more. But even now, I think she can pick up on my worrying. Because when I’m emotional, she gets more affectionate with me orrrr maybe it’s all up in my head lmao and I’m delulu.
You are so right, I gotta work in not trying to rationalize everything in my head. I think I do this a lot because I already feel like I am compensating with being a single mom and the weight it does feel heavy when you are doing it solo. I feel like it’s guilt I need to bear because I made the choice bringing her into this world. Which is such a fucked ho way of thinking, so with the few bumps in the road like her heart defect it really eats at me sometimes. But, I have to become emotionally stronger I think and I think it’s going to take more time for me to come to that realization and become tougher in that sense for her sake. I can get away with being mellow dramatic now but not for much longer so I am kind of taking advantage of my position right now.
It makes me feel nice when someone says to me “I didn’t think you would be so into being a mom” or “you are such a good mom to Erin” that feels like the best compliment because it doesn’t feel like work and I hope you have the same experience soon ❤️
Thank you madysen!! This was such a sweet comment and god bless your soul for listening to my annoying ass voice 😭❤️ idk how you did it!
I love love your content so real and authentic ❤😢
Hi Nandee!! Thank you for this sweet comment. I’m glad it resonates with you ❤️❤️❤️