And they'll be "yeah yeah dad I'm sure he was OK". We never care about what old people thought it was cool. It's so weird to think that I'll remember awesome things that younger people won't care about
My mom is 45. She has told me that when she was young, her mother was in her forties. She thought her mother was so old. Now she does not think that 40 years is much of anything.
I turned 28 a week before this was uploaded, and I'm so lost. I have felt this way since I was a teenager,but now that my studies, internships and those sort of things are done , I feel more confused than ever. Now I have stable job and roof over my head, which I am gratefull for as many do not even have that. But it's so exhausting and lonely. I see my peers are all getting married and are having children,it's not necessarily that I want that, but it feels as if something is wrong with me. As if I'm stuck at the same place while everyone else have it figured out and have grown while I still can't figure out what I'm supposed to be doing. I've always had a dread regarding death, but I think now I fear the prospect more that I will never find my place in this world and that time has already run out to get there.
Dude, I'm in the exact same situation. I turned 28 recently, I have a job, a nice apartment, a lovely lady. But I feel lost ... I can't even say why or what is missing. I really hope it's covid related and I just miss people. We never wanted children and we can't see anyone right now... It's depressing even though we have everything we need. I just miss people and events. It's what makes me myself I guess, riding bike, playing video games, making music, forever, without a kid (as lovely as they can be) who annoyes me :D But we are so alone with that thought it seems... Don't know where we are heading.
Hey, I hope you figure it out. If you do, please come back here to write how you did it. It is scary, but it seems to me that - just not bothering is a possible answer. Like when you're in a flow-state. The key here is how do you get this without actually trying - i.e. naturally? So yeah, good luck.
"love God and keep his commandments, for that is the whole of man"... I'm sure you weren't looking for a religious response to this, but this simple statement keeps me going, I have friends that are married, some with kids, and I'm just single, I've got a pretty good career but if I didn't believe in God I honestly think I would have ended it by now. I hate to think of myself as a "religious" person, I have just seen how the world works and based on everything, the Church of Christ is just what lines up with reality the most, or at all for that matter. Because if we are just here to play cs:go and age, I think I'd prefer to just not be here.
I’ve almost finished school, and started to feel “nostalgically old”. An example being when I realised “Children starting secondary school this year would’ve been born in 2010, that’s so strange”. I also have a small grey streak of hair, my mum says it is because that streak of hair has grown through a mole/spot.
My 20th year on this planet, which played out during the beloved pandemic, despite probably being my best year so far, feels short and empty. At this age I think I realise it's all about the grind, the "keeping at it", you just do what you believe is worth your time consistently and achieve what you truly want. You understand you shouldn't feel bad about "time wasted" doing something that, as it turns out, wasn't *it*. But the time wasted is actually time spent getting to know what does matter. It's a funny journey, for which I'm grateful to have the chance to experience.
I've already accepted the fact that I will one day die, either alone or surrounded by people I can call loved ones. It'll depend on what will I do from now. Hopefully, I can get my sh*t together and finally do something that's actually productive. Seeing that I, myself is my worst enemy, holding myself back and waiting for things to change around me instead. Well, I hope y'all can live a good, long, happy life.
Doing something consistently is what'll give results, and there are no shortcuts without compromise. Experienced this first hand with working out and reading. Starting out consistently and on a small scale (ex. 5 pages a day and daily walks ) makes it a lot easier to build habits. After a month of easy daily things, increase the difficulty level and off you go! Good luck lads and lassies! Hope y'all are doing well.
Personally, whenever I feel lionely or unsatisfied with myself, I find that taking a hike and becoming even more alone is a great way to refresh my disposition on things. The world itself is my reset button. I find that discovering new ways to enjoy stunning landscapes is my ultimate disposition in life. For example, I've made up my mind that I want to pursue powered paragliding as my next big "purpose" so to speak. Something that just gets my heart racing! I don't think anyone ever sits down and figures out what they want their purpose to be... life is too random and too spontaneous to organize that. I think if you take it one passion at a time, you'll find yourself drawn towards some bigger picture inevitably.
Phil, you say you read comments so let me reassure you about one thing. i really think you are right that life starts at 16. i am 16 and i actually feel like i just now woke to reality, i realized that i need to bear myself and become more than i am, i actually for the first time in my life feel driven to work, i have so much left to do that it really feels like life just begun a month or two ago...
@@marco31 that’s why I’m gonna be cremated, or turned into a diamond. I don’t want my body rotting underground in a cemetery filled with other people. Oh and btw I’m being serious you can turn your corpse into a small diamond. I might become a family heirloom diamond ring 🤔🤔
That experience you had at 27 of thinking you'd like to freeze yourself. I'm having now, at 32... rip the future me. The video really resonated with me, when you mentioned hitting thirty and worrying about marriage and kids. Great vid dude.
Everyone has gotten so existential lately, I theorise that the pandemic is partially to blame for it. You know they always say 'time flies when you're having fun', but in the long run the opposite is true. If you have no memories to look back on when the year is over, it's like it never even happened.
@peroh If by 'us', you mean professional philosophers, then yes. But most of us aren't. I think that I can represent most of us today somewhat better than socrates when I say that the pandemic has pushed us all into our own little rooms. Both literal and metaphorical. Forcing us to confront and contemplate what we value and why we go on. Partly because of how divorced current life is to what 'life' life is. But also in part due to how much time is spent doing nothing. Not running about, hurrying from place to place. Just being in you room, staring at walls. In other words, philosophising has been a hobby that has been forced onto all of us due to our current conditions. For proof, we can look at the increase in mental health problems and suicides in the pandemic.
Every time I think about this I feel frustrated that I wont be able to see how humanity progresses. It feels like you are somewhere in the middle of an exciting series on Netflix that you like, but you already know that they ended the series prematurely and that after one of the episodes it will just suddenly end, without a conclusion, and your curiosity will never be satisfied.
longevity research progress indicates ageing will be cured in the next few years - that few is 20-60-. So a lot of us will miss that opportunity just by small margins
In their endless pondering about immortality people forget the fact that climate change is about the end our collective careers in the next 100 years. I honestly dont know what rock you people live under. Even if we somehow achieve massive medical breakthroughs despite the hellish capitalist society we live in, none of that will matter when we get drafted into the water wars to die horribly amidst global economic and social ruin. If you do have children, they will not make it past 30.
Thank you Philip for making this video. About a month ago I had a thought about afterlife and what happens to us after we die. This random thought I had led to a panic attack and it was the worst thing It occurred to me. I couldn't sleep that night with that scary thought in mind and thinking that I hadn't achieved shit in my life, even though I'm just 21. Since then I tried to step by step accept this inevitable fact and this video helped me get through of this fear. So thank you for that
@@drmedick That's exactly what I experienced. Sheer terror and then it was followed by me crying uncontrollably for a 10 minutes. It was such a weak moment for me, realizing that thought this early on my life. My mom tried to calm me down saying that I have all my life ahead, even thinking about it right now makes me sad. But what I've learned from this experience is that you should talk about things you are worried about. Yes it may be tough at the beginning but it's such a relief when you have someone to hear them. It's kind of therapeutic
@@sejati75 When I think about age I think about how some day I will have to witness the death of my parents and it makes me really sad. It is just such a shitty feeling
I am 17 and I had one too in the summer. Horrible stuff, and I seem to only get worse even though I try to overcome it. Life sucks yet it's so beautiful. Why does it have to end?
Csgo map tutorials brought me here. When I was like 15ish. I am now 22 and we got to the wonders of the human condition (and horrors) Thank you Philip for enlightening us.
I like to think we are all immortal in our own way. For example; my parents had life experiences that shaped them, then they helped to shape me. In the same way that this video is something that I have now perceived and is now in some form part of me. Just like thousands of other people who have watched your videos. You touch infinite lives by touching one; this is what I believe is real immortality. Everyone's existence transcends time - this can be in a good way, or a bad one. The only thing that we can truly control is ourselves and how we touch the lives of others'.
7:02 "We've always kept records of our lives through words, pictures, symbols... from tablets to books. But not all the information was inherited by later generations. A small percentage of the whole was selected and processed, then passed on. Not unlike genes, really."
"You are young and life is long and there is time to kill today And then one day you find ten years have got behind you No one told you when to run, you missed the starting gun" This one really gets me every time. I get 30 this year, I'm now as old as my mom was when we made our first vacation, I still remember her being 30 at this time. It's so weird, man. At least this vid makes me realize that we all go through this :).
This is a terrifying and sort of nice thought: If I (or you) get Alzheimers disease and don’t remember even your family members, I will still remember this point in my life (my teenage years), since for some odd reason those memories are preserved. My great grandmother didn’t recognize my grandma or anyone else before she died, but she did remember her childhood, and her cat she used to have back then. That’s why I believe I (and everyone else too) should have fun as much as possible as a teen, since that may just be the only thing I’ll remember on my deathbed.
I'm 28 and I'm a bit afraid of turning 30. I'm not afraid of 30 itself, but that the next step is 40. That's too close, man. 40 will be what 30 is to me now. Edit: However, it's a good sign that I can watch this video and move on. I think I've finally accepted my mortality. But I started early. I had my first existential crisis at 14, lol.
I remember having thoughts like you had when you were twenty-seven almost every year of my life. I remember being eight and wishing I could be eight forever. Something I’ve noticed is every year I end up saying the same thing about my current age, which I’m guessing means that things have gotten better with every year. I’d say that’s probably the case because I think about the way I was two years ago and cringe and feel grateful that I am the way I am now.
I’m 23 now, and I remember telling my uncle who is 34 about how I’ve started to worry about aging. Not like, it’s an existential thing but that sort of frightening thought that one day I won’t be able to take a fall or get tackled to the ground by a friend or cousin and get up and walk it off after a couple minutes. He told me to enjoy being 23, he said he’d do anything to be 23 again, even though he is still considered “young.” I guess once you hit 30 you’re old at being young, and young at being old.
I started watching your videos for counter strike content. But as I've gotten older and continued watching your content videos like this have become my favorite. I'm 21 years old now and think about stuff like this all the time so it's reassuring to hear your perspective. Especially the part with "I thought I would make my mind up/think differently about it when I'm 30". I'm still shaking off the realization that people don't magically gain wisdom as they age. It was surreal to me when I graduated high school and was all of a sudden meant to pick a college and career path. I hadn't put enough thought into it, and assumed I would figure it out when I got to that age, but when it came time, I still had no idea.
I constantly play the numbers game in my head. To convince myself I'm not aging. Il think "I only left school X years ago, and that seems like a lifetime ago". Or "covid started over a year ago now, that feels like a LONG time ago. So I've got ages left" But lately I've become alot more comfortable with death. It used to scare the crap out of me. But I've now realized I'm a part is a cycle in a universe that's as big as I could ever imagine. And that everything dies, even the sun. And that I'm extremely lucky that I had the chance to be alive, even the fact earth exists in the perfect haven for life is a gift.
And maybe ( most likely I believe ) there comes something after this life. I doubt its gonna be anything like we could ever imagine but I also highly doubt that our life our existence was meaningless.
I had my first existential crisis a year ago, I was 15 at that time of my life. I don't know how it started but maybe it was because of the fact that I had no proper memories from my childhood, which really started haunting me. My parents told me that I was a troublemaker when I was 6 or 7 years old, however I couldn't even remember how I used to look back then. I started wondering that when I'll eventually grow up and reach my 20s, I'll look back at my life and have no memories with me. That fact alone made me paranoid about everything. For a week or so, I started clicking pictures of places I went to, stuff I did, basically everything that was worth remembering. Nowadays, I look back at those pictures and yet I still have a hard time remembering as to why I clicked certain ones.( It's funny how I remember this particular phase of my life so vividly). I'm still kinda nihilistic and I still don't know what lesson I should learn from this part of my life. Maybe preserving memories is just a waste of time. Maybe there's no real value in fake memories. IDK
Just revisited this video a couple weeks after turning 18. I got hit by a disability at the start of this year which meant I've done a lot more in one year than what feels like the past 7. It kinda kickstarted a "holy fuck I've wasted *this long* of my life" feeling I haven't been able to shake and the fact I'm now 18 only made it worse. At least I know other people have the same feelings. Comforting, in a way, even if it means we're all slowly creeping towards death inevitably. It must feel odd seeing someone my age talking about these feelings despite being almost half your age like you said in the video, but it's yet another thing that's oddly comforting since it just shows the discomfort in change is universal - even when it comes to something everyone experiences differently.
I think watching your videos is very healthy for me. having been suicidal for maybe 6 months this and last year, it's very strange to see the view of someone who never considered that. thanks Philip!
I find myself staring in the mirror more and more as of late seeing things I didn't see before creases under the eyes, lines in places I didn't have before and I felt this video very personally it terrifies me to age and wither to know I'm one year older and closer to the end to wonder if I have done enough with my life for my age I look back on old photos with fond memories thinking of the good times a lot has changed in recent years and a lot not for the better hopefully the world might balance itself out and get a bit better and maybe it won't hurt as much as it does now here's to the future and may it be brighter than today love you Phil keep up the good work
This subject is hard to pull out from mind. Especially if it's birthday. Literally consumes you and ironically takes a lot of time. If that's not enough the existantial questions kicks in and it becomes a huge mess. At some point I wanted to believe at reincarnalism or similar beliefs like that. But at someday I thought "Nobody is living a perfect life and eventually everybody will be dead. So why do I think so deeply about this? what's the point of this exhaustion?" and from that day on existancial thoughts became less apparent. The answer is right under your nose folks. No need to overthink. Try to live how you like to live. Very well done video Philip (also sorry for my monstrous eng. I don't comment too much but I needed to share this with you guys)
As someone who just left my religious fundamentalist beliefs, I really related to your perspective on death and aging. I've been watching your channel since I was 16, now I'm 20 years old and it feels like your channel has become a part of my life. Your individuality really comes out in your TH-cam Content, and that's what makes you so important to me. You are genuine and honest. But more importantly, you are vulnerable enough to show it to other people.
I just want to say I first followed your videos in 2013 because I was learning source engine mapping. Almost 8 years later and your videos remain interesting or relevant well outside your source engine and CS videos and I want to thank you for putting these kinds of videos out there. I first struggled with this topic when I was 15-16 and had a bit of a complete mental breakdown over it. Over the past 4 years, I've finally learned to accept it. I still have my fears, but I feel more mentally healthy, peaceful, and capable now at 26 than I felt at 21. I want to echo your sentiments that acceptance of inevitability is probably the healthiest.
Keep pondering man, to remember death is somewhat liberating from worries or anxieties. And also profoundly eye opening. Existential crisis makes us want to learn more. Something naturally rooted to human existiance. We can never learn enough or know everything. What's objectively true is always what is the most valuable knowledge to aquire. Bro your videos where always so interesting because of your casually off topic pondering about stuff. Keep doing you man you could do some major things just believe you are that guy then you will be. God willing
I do agree on your comment that life really only begins at 16. That being said, I've only lived 4 years. Truth be told, I've done virtually nothing in these past 4 years. I did not finish highschool, but am doing so right now, so that I can get a job. I've come to terms that my mental health has not been well since 16, but I'm at a reasonable spot right now. Not feeling too dreadful, but I'm not exactly happy. I feel detached from society, especially with the lockdown these past months in Portugal. In person classes have helped, but those stop if the COVID numbers rise and, honestly, it scares me, saddens me. Maybe I'm just experiencing existential dread because of the topic of this video, or something. I hope things get better. And I want to thank you, Phillip. Even if this video's making me all depressive and stuff, I still want you to know that your content is very much appreciated.
welp, that was depressing. glad I'm still in my 20s. for the next few months that is. it's weird how we're hoping for time to pass to get back to a normal life again, but at the same time we don't want to get older. if it helps, the kliksempire doesn't seem to get older. it's had a very similar feel in the years I saw it grow. it's not getting boring either. it's like you have created a place of your own, with fresh new ideas that might have happened anywhen within the timeline. I think the word timeless describes it best.
Met a few friends on the street a few days ago, and they had a friend along who said she was born in 2001. That shook me to the core, I still had the perception that anyone born after 1999 is a kid but they are now in their 20s.
I just turned 30 and I recognized myself in many of your reflections. I took a rather different take on immortality though. For me, it is liberating to think that whatever good or bad I do, it will all be forgotten in 100 years top. I use this thought to do whatever I want, but also to focus on people surrounding me. Since I am not immortal, making people around me feel good is probably how I can have the highest impact in this world. So in short: I'm not immortal, yaaaay :D Thanks much for the vids
Another video I come back to every 6 months along with the sleep videos. Just fascinating as I relate and understand all these concepts, and it makes me feel as if I am also achieving something, as my thoughts are being put into these videos as they relate with me. Thankyou Philip
I had my first taste of mortality at 21, dislocated my shoulder and had to skip work and rely on the parents again. I normally didn't mind being injured but it became clear to me that if i had to depend on my self i would be absolutely screwed. Otherwise the years blending together was a big one for me as well and was a fear that my life would be gone in a flash. Childhood is fairly distinguished since each year you noticeably get smarter, stronger and taller but eventually that runs out. 0-16 was quite memorable while many of the years after blend together. But since 2018 i've been doing things that make the year standout, starting to try things i haven't done before and either failing or succeeding at them and i can once again distinguish the years apart. I would say that the envy is there of people who started before me and have years of experience but i feel like once you are solidly on the right track you and moving in the right direction you're happily on your own little journey. Stagnation is hell and I will do whatever i can to avoid it from now on.
This is always a topic I really enjoy. Honestly, I find a great amount of relief in death, and I will explain why that is. My philosophy on life is that we are very lucky. We are lucky of course for all of the reasons we are already aware. We are lucky for our families, our friends, our modestly lovely food, our modestly lovely lifestyles, and we are lucky, despite the inordinately tiny possibility, to be born at all. But on top of that, we are lucky to be a part of the indeterminably small percentage of all the atoms in the universe that are currently pretending to be alive, just because of the order they are arranged in. I can pretty much guarantee that at some point or other, your atoms will have come from the ground, from the air, and probably even some of them existed as part of another living things poo. So whilst we may have good days, yes? And we may have bad days, yes? All the while I am now keen to remind myself of the fact that most atoms within the universe fail to have days at all. We might not always be fortunate, but we are lucky to even be aware of our own issues of self worth and existence, or responsibility. So whilst ultimately everything we do in life is meaningless, I can take comfort within that fact. Because no matter what I will always be a footnote in the history of timespace. And if I can reach the end of my life confident within the fact that I have been a good person. Then no matter fucking what, it doesn't matter how much injustice, or cruelty or suffering there is in the world, there will always have existed a good person. So I do cool shit when I can, and I try to focus on improving myself today so that my life tomorrow is better than it was yesterday. But above all else I try my best to appreciate the small things; not to stress; and to enjoy all of the wonderful things that inevitably do come, even in spite of all of the terrible things that come along too. So I appreciate you Phil, because you bring me joy and admiration, just another bloke in the world. And I hope you're having a good day fella
That is incredibly well worded, and I admire your point of view, it's a fresh take! Of course it is a terrifying thought that there's nothing after death, but does there even have to be? The thought of being immortal and not having the ability to die seems even worse to me than just simply vanishing one day and ceasing to exist.
@@ptur12345 Thank you friend! The way I see it what will be, is, and there's nothing worrying will do for me about it. It is interesting to think about though. I am undecided on immortality. I feel like it would need a pretty drastic change to the planets social infrastructure, and people would very rarely be able to pro-create because then the planet would very quickly become uninhabitable. But if everyone you know is immortal too, think of all that could be accomplished by man. Or I wonder if it would just destroy itself instead lol
I'm 35. :D And I had my first existential crisis at 18. What I think, is that the best way to preserve at least a bit of you throughout the years is to nurture your inner child.
I don't usually do this because TH-cam has an awful amount of comments and mine is destined to get lost, but old age and death is something that very much interests me, so I had to comment. As a Buddhist, death (impermanence) is a major topic and teaching for me. Many people see the inevitability of death as something that is scary and should be something we fear daily, but I don't think we should see it like this. As you say, there is no escape from death. The quicker we can accept this, the quicker we can enjoy the present moment. There is no point in fearing the inevitable. Not many things are inevitable, but death is unquestionable. So, because it is unquestionable, why fear it? It will happen. Do not cause yourself suffering by wasting time fearing and giving yourself anxiety of the inevitable. Instead, live every moment the way it deserves to be lived. Make sure you tell people you love them. Show compassion to your fellow person, animal or even 'inanimate' objects. So, I have spent a lot of time accepting death and I finally accept it. I could die tomorrow. Would I live differently today? No. You could say I live life like every day is my last, but I do not live it by spending lots of money or going on holidays or pushing myself to my limit. I simply look at life and see how special it is, how rare and improbable it is that I'm even here. I have been offered this beautiful thing for, maybe, 100 years. I will spend my years on this Earth taking it all in, showing love to everyone and everything, because I feel honoured to be here. Thank you, Philip, for making such an important video. Death in inevitable, we should stop fearing it. As I say, the faster we can accept it, the better! Much love everyone!
I really like the progress of 5min wirh phil transforms into this, it's like a open diary in which all can have a look into with some knowledge in it for us and for you in the future
This video hit me with a lot of stuff. I'm 23 now, but the last 6 years of my life just whooshed by..From high school, 3 years in college and finally in job..I always remember when I was 19-20, the things I used to do, the way I played football. I still play, but it feels I'm not that good anymore, i know its peak age for players, but idk I feel old, I see the younger guys now and somehow get jealous. There's a lot of regret about things I never did I wanted to do as a child. Thanks Philip, for hitting me with the thoughts again. :)
Sometimes I can't help but think about quantum immortality, wondering "can I die? Or will I be here forever?" I try not to think about it, but maybe it's the alternative that's much worse
I thought of a theory once when I was 15. I’m pretty sure there are similar theories but basically I think that from my point of view, I will never die. But from yours, I will die and you will never die. Because I think that sometimes we die then shift into an alternate universe therefore we don’t die from our point of view. so at some point me and you will split off and go our separate ways, meaning I will die from your POV and you will die from mine. But the problem with this theory is there is no way to prove it. Either way, you will be in my heart forever, NeoQuartz Winter. So you’ll never be gone until i am.
@@bonerprime4010 that's the idea, quantum immortality is largely based on the many world theory, that being it there is a world where you are alive, you will be in that world
Thank you for sharing this. It means a lot to realizie that not only I am expiriencing such questions and feelings, but also you and all this people in a „comments” section.
Right in the feels, man. I remember growing older that most what I had behind me was noticeable, but once I passed 30... It all felt the same. Life got settled in a comfortable way. And suddenly things go faster. Days not so much, really ( remember being a student, watching the minutes creep by in class? ), but weeks, months and seasons/years. Nothing changed much from 30 to 35 ( in april... ). Got married, sure, but I know my wife 13 years now. Realistically it's not a big change. We don't have kids yet due to ... well, several reasons. And I feel that pressure. Professionally I should mean something, and yet I don't. Anyone can replace me. I'm old when I talk to teenagers. They see me as an adult. Yes, I have less energy but I still feel like a 20 something, just tired. Tick-tock, right? And yet, reading Lovecraft: life is as meaningful for yourself and closest as you make it. Not to the universe and even less to what lies beneath the veil. For Lord Cthuhlu, you might as well be a bacteria in a compost heap. Your weaning, tiny, fragile mind can not fathom what it sees. Hail Chtulhu. And cower...
I'm 21 and I already sit in the shower and think about how I will more than likely be dead soon, not like 10 minutes soon. But sooner than I would realise. To anyone reading this comment remember that life has meaning, and because of how we as humans are, you can make life have any meaning you want. Someone somewhere will want you to keep living and if you cant find a reason to live, then live so that someone else doesn't have to spend their life's wondering how they couldn't save you.
Man I had a panic attack recently about death. But I'm getting more and more comfortable with the fact that we're all gonna disappear and get lost in time. I just hope I'll be able to start a happy family before I croak,that's my big goal lol
I think the remarkable thing about me currently being in my early twenties, is the passage of time both feeling like it is speeding up, while in the same thought, also looking back and realizing that not much time has passed at all in the grand scheme of things.
I'm 28 now and a couple of years ago, I made a drunk video together with a friend of mine in which we tell our 30 years old future selves what we expect from them, not to give up on their principles, to enjoy life and not worry about the future and so on. I can't believe it's in just two years. I mean I already expected it wouldn't feel that long, but for some reason it's still surprising.
I started watching you when i was 9-10 years old, and am now almost 18. I still think of myself as the 6 year old who promised his mum he'd never grow up. The video is probably not meant for my age group, but i found comfort in knowing I'll soon have to transition to being a young adult and not a kid. Thank you for that
what makes life so special is the fact that it expires so quickly, like your favorite flavor of candy in a bag with only a few in there. What makes it your favorite flavor? scarcity. So try to savor life as you have it, because you don't realize how many candies or years you have left in the bag till they're gone.
I used to have really terrible existential dread a while ago when I was 14. I’d have moments where I wouldn’t leave bed for a week and would just try to sleep it away. Idk why it hit me so hard then. After dealing with that for a while I started anxiety meds and it’s really changed my life for the better
Started taking anxiety meds and anti depression meds recently and the panic attacks due to the existential dread subsided drastically, they really do alot for you.
@@moshhk I hate how much stigma is around them. I’m still the same person just living a better life. I still get nervous and sad, but it’s not as crippling. Glad it worked for you too
I love these videos. They make me wake up from my shitty-content-coma. They give me motivation to stop throwing away time and instead do something valuable.
I'm 26 this year and i still live with my parents, still in collage and with no job. Never had a girlfriend or any relationship. I'm at an age where people are already full grown adults thinking about getting married and having children, getting an appartment and a job. I still feel like a teenager, and i still only want to play videogames. I don't care about much else.
I'm 28 this year in the exact same situation as you, live with my mom, no job, no relationship in the past or currently. I'll finally finish uni at the end of next year but who cares I have zero motivation to do anything at this point I'm so far behind in life. Gave myself diabetes to boot and barely take care of it.
I used to not think much about this, until I had a terrible accident that shattered 3 of my limbs. My hip, ankle and elbow will never be the same. I went from being an athletic, energetic young lad, to feeling like I'm in my middle ages. I still try to exercise, I've managed to remain fit, and despite getting a severe concussion in the accident, my mind is still sharp. I'm still a strong fragger in games, but that accident was a stark reminder of my mortality, and I value each of my waking hours as a gift from God now.
Honestly, I don't know any other content creator as honest and human as phillip. This videos topic is an unconforting one, but Phil gives it to us straight with honesty. I'm much younger than Phil(16), and this has helped put into perspective age, and why you shouldnt take it for granted. Thank you
2:17 Your brain probably does already lose cells, but that doesn't mean that your mental capability has become worse. Brain cells die, but you also get some new ones, ones that are probably more useful to you. The amount of brain cells isn't that important, most people this age have enough. Only a part of your brain cells exist in the big part of your brain, the one which manages decision making, sensory processing and other stuff. Most of your neurons actually exist in your cerebellum, which needs quicker processing for limb coordination and such.
His videos always make me forget that I am watching on youtube. I can't think of a platform that would perfectly suit his kind of videos, but does it even matter where when he manages to create such an isolated and comfortable ecosystem within his less known channels? I think this makes his content special, the fact that its content is platformless in a way. And if you happen to read this, Philip, I want you to know that I am happy to start knowing you better through your videos. The amount of work and passion you put into your videos is incredible. Needless to say it looks effortless. You have set a new standard in my eyes when it comes to content, if I can call it that. Sometimes I find myself watching other videos and start thinking how much of a difference your work makes. I feel captivated by your stories, but most importantly, I feel intrigued by your thoughts...or mind.
Im almost 18, never had not 1 friend through out my teens because i was "homeschooled" and man... i feel like iv wasted the best part of my life without even realizing :(
From pineapple eating to existential discussions.
how to have an existential crisis like me.
@@Gadtkaz how 2*
@@forbiddentictactoe1734 na that's for the sequel
This man has RANGE
@@forbiddentictactoe1734 like m3
I shall tell my future children about the history of the klik empire
You dare to misspell the name!? You are bold!
@@458alok im so sory fixed imediatly
And they'll be "yeah yeah dad I'm sure he was OK". We never care about what old people thought it was cool. It's so weird to think that I'll remember awesome things that younger people won't care about
This is the sort of video that makes Philip my favourite content creator ever.
@peroh I agree
@peroh exurb1a has some loosely related content to this. Done differently, but I really like it as well
The way he manages to put thoughts many of his viewers have into articulate phrases is a rare ability and I appreciate him a lot for it.
"My mum was younger than me when she had me" man this hits too close to home
Is she single
@@chatsbfc are you good man?
My mom had me at 17. I couldn't imagine having a two year old at this age.
This was a very difficult staring contest
Ha!!!!!! I'm guessing you lost. 😂🤣🤣😀👍
“Most people overestimate what they can do in one year and underestimate what they can do in ten”
“Most people make pointless general observations”
My mom is 45. She has told me that when she was young, her mother was in her forties. She thought her mother was so old. Now she does not think that 40 years is much of anything.
Your mom is extremely young from my perspective since mine is 71 years old.
@@Dregomz02 Is she single
@@chatsbfc yeah by her choice
@@Dregomz02 Can I have her number?
@@reiiz9942 dont say that
I turned 28 a week before this was uploaded, and I'm so lost. I have felt this way since I was a teenager,but now that my studies, internships and those sort of things are done , I feel more confused than ever. Now I have stable job and roof over my head, which I am gratefull for as many do not even have that. But it's so exhausting and lonely. I see my peers are all getting married and are having children,it's not necessarily that I want that, but it feels as if something is wrong with me. As if I'm stuck at the same place while everyone else have it figured out and have grown while I still can't figure out what I'm supposed to be doing. I've always had a dread regarding death, but I think now I fear the prospect more that I will never find my place in this world and that time has already run out to get there.
Dude, I'm in the exact same situation. I turned 28 recently, I have a job, a nice apartment, a lovely lady. But I feel lost ... I can't even say why or what is missing. I really hope it's covid related and I just miss people. We never wanted children and we can't see anyone right now... It's depressing even though we have everything we need. I just miss people and events. It's what makes me myself I guess, riding bike, playing video games, making music, forever, without a kid (as lovely as they can be) who annoyes me :D But we are so alone with that thought it seems... Don't know where we are heading.
Hey, I hope you figure it out. If you do, please come back here to write how you did it.
It is scary, but it seems to me that - just not bothering is a possible answer. Like when you're in a flow-state. The key here is how do you get this without actually trying - i.e. naturally?
So yeah, good luck.
@@kliksphilip Surprisingly unironically good advice. Stuff like school trips with friends were the most fun part of my life.
dude i'm sure most people are in your situation, very few people really have it "all figured out", so don't sweat too badly
"love God and keep his commandments, for that is the whole of man"... I'm sure you weren't looking for a religious response to this, but this simple statement keeps me going, I have friends that are married, some with kids, and I'm just single, I've got a pretty good career but if I didn't believe in God I honestly think I would have ended it by now. I hate to think of myself as a "religious" person, I have just seen how the world works and based on everything, the Church of Christ is just what lines up with reality the most, or at all for that matter. Because if we are just here to play cs:go and age, I think I'd prefer to just not be here.
I’ve almost finished school, and started to feel “nostalgically old”. An example being when I realised “Children starting secondary school this year would’ve been born in 2010, that’s so strange”. I also have a small grey streak of hair, my mum says it is because that streak of hair has grown through a mole/spot.
@@kliksphilip not always, it can turn it white or grey as well
My friend had a white spot on his temple because of a mole when he was 14 and it stayed like that so definitely possible
The real scary change is that guy standing to the right at 2:47, I have seen this image many times for years and could swear he wasnt there
I think it's been cropped
@@peashootar trolled
@@UC2Ek5EUq1j4JcWlaQ6D aw
@@peashootar well this was an unusually wholesome trolling session. Have a nice day.
@@armadillito (:
Having just recently hit my 20s, its alredy terrifying how fast time passes.
true, 21 is already close, then 25. Past that and you're not "young" anymore. Dissapointing
oh buddy will that shit start to speed up xD
Same here man
My 20th year on this planet, which played out during the beloved pandemic, despite probably being my best year so far, feels short and empty. At this age I think I realise it's all about the grind, the "keeping at it", you just do what you believe is worth your time consistently and achieve what you truly want. You understand you shouldn't feel bad about "time wasted" doing something that, as it turns out, wasn't *it*. But the time wasted is actually time spent getting to know what does matter. It's a funny journey, for which I'm grateful to have the chance to experience.
I'm close to hitting my 20s, I'm 17 atm and I still feel like I'm 14.
dopamine levels normalised
I've already accepted the fact that I will one day die, either alone or surrounded by people I can call loved ones. It'll depend on what will I do from now. Hopefully, I can get my sh*t together and finally do something that's actually productive. Seeing that I, myself is my worst enemy, holding myself back and waiting for things to change around me instead. Well, I hope y'all can live a good, long, happy life.
You too my man. Life is shit right now any any form of positivity helps.
Doing something consistently is what'll give results, and there are no shortcuts without compromise. Experienced this first hand with working out and reading. Starting out consistently and on a small scale (ex. 5 pages a day and daily walks ) makes it a lot easier to build habits. After a month of easy daily things, increase the difficulty level and off you go!
Good luck lads and lassies! Hope y'all are doing well.
A good start for you or me could be just waking up at a consistent time. Cheers!
thats lowkey motivating lol
Personally, whenever I feel lionely or unsatisfied with myself, I find that taking a hike and becoming even more alone is a great way to refresh my disposition on things. The world itself is my reset button. I find that discovering new ways to enjoy stunning landscapes is my ultimate disposition in life. For example, I've made up my mind that I want to pursue powered paragliding as my next big "purpose" so to speak. Something that just gets my heart racing! I don't think anyone ever sits down and figures out what they want their purpose to be... life is too random and too spontaneous to organize that. I think if you take it one passion at a time, you'll find yourself drawn towards some bigger picture inevitably.
Phil, you say you read comments so let me reassure you about one thing. i really think you are right that life starts at 16. i am 16 and i actually feel like i just now woke to reality, i realized that i need to bear myself and become more than i am, i actually for the first time in my life feel driven to work, i have so much left to do that it really feels like life just begun a month or two ago...
Same here
@peroh well I myself did that a couple months ago, during the last days of my 20th year
yeah i agree i was thinking how spot on he was on that as well. before around that age life was a lot less cognizable i feel
thats deep innit
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I'm close to turning 19 and I've already hit that existential dread...
i think you need to go see a therapist mate
same. sucks mate
don't worry, soon enough you'll miss being 19! and 20! and 21... and so on
@@marco31 that’s why I’m gonna be cremated, or turned into a diamond. I don’t want my body rotting underground in a cemetery filled with other people. Oh and btw I’m being serious you can turn your corpse into a small diamond. I might become a family heirloom diamond ring 🤔🤔
i am 16 and i feel like my life is already over. while i have about 80 years left i do well.
That experience you had at 27 of thinking you'd like to freeze yourself. I'm having now, at 32... rip the future me. The video really resonated with me, when you mentioned hitting thirty and worrying about marriage and kids.
Great vid dude.
For some reason people are the most beautiful at their 40s.
Everyone has gotten so existential lately, I theorise that the pandemic is partially to blame for it.
You know they always say 'time flies when you're having fun', but in the long run the opposite is true.
If you have no memories to look back on when the year is over, it's like it never even happened.
@peroh Nah
@peroh If by 'us', you mean professional philosophers, then yes. But most of us aren't. I think that I can represent most of us today somewhat better than socrates when I say that the pandemic has pushed us all into our own little rooms. Both literal and metaphorical. Forcing us to confront and contemplate what we value and why we go on. Partly because of how divorced current life is to what 'life' life is. But also in part due to how much time is spent doing nothing. Not running about, hurrying from place to place. Just being in you room, staring at walls.
In other words, philosophising has been a hobby that has been forced onto all of us due to our current conditions.
For proof, we can look at the increase in mental health problems and suicides in the pandemic.
Time flies when your having fun short term, but long term, fun and memories make them feel more spread out
Everyone ? Or he is just a guy in his 30's experiencing life crisis...
Strayy its because when we look back at things we feel them in moments. But if we are experiencing them we feel them in time.
Every time I think about this I feel frustrated that I wont be able to see how humanity progresses.
It feels like you are somewhere in the middle of an exciting series on Netflix that you like, but you already know that they ended the series prematurely and that after one of the episodes it will just suddenly end, without a conclusion, and your curiosity will never be satisfied.
longevity research progress indicates ageing will be cured in the next few years - that few is 20-60-. So a lot of us will miss that opportunity just by small margins
@@abeidiot If that happens, I don't think I will take advantage of it if too many of my loved ones are already gone by that point.
Someone hurry up and invent a crystal ball so I can see what VR is like in 100 years
@@abeidiot why does that spook me. What's the point of anything if we just live forever, I dunno, it might be an illogical concern
In their endless pondering about immortality people forget the fact that climate change is about the end our collective careers in the next 100 years.
I honestly dont know what rock you people live under. Even if we somehow achieve massive medical breakthroughs despite the hellish capitalist society we live in, none of that will matter when we get drafted into the water wars to die horribly amidst global economic and social ruin.
If you do have children, they will not make it past 30.
Thank you Philip for making this video. About a month ago I had a thought about afterlife and what happens to us after we die. This random thought I had led to a panic attack and it was the worst thing It occurred to me. I couldn't sleep that night with that scary thought in mind and thinking that I hadn't achieved shit in my life, even though I'm just 21. Since then I tried to step by step accept this inevitable fact and this video helped me get through of this fear. So thank you for that
Honestly. When you let this thought go far enough, you realize a lot of terrifying things
@@drmedick That's exactly what I experienced. Sheer terror and then it was followed by me crying uncontrollably for a 10 minutes. It was such a weak moment for me, realizing that thought this early on my life. My mom tried to calm me down saying that I have all my life ahead, even thinking about it right now makes me sad. But what I've learned from this experience is that you should talk about things you are worried about. Yes it may be tough at the beginning but it's such a relief when you have someone to hear them. It's kind of therapeutic
@@sejati75 When I think about age I think about how some day I will have to witness the death of my parents and it makes me really sad. It is just such a shitty feeling
@@sejati75 Teen drama media always gets to me cause it seems to hit on these nerves.
I am 17 and I had one too in the summer. Horrible stuff, and I seem to only get worse even though I try to overcome it. Life sucks yet it's so beautiful. Why does it have to end?
This comes out just I passed the threshold of no longer being 20 something, but rather beginning to chase my 30s.
Csgo map tutorials brought me here. When I was like 15ish.
I am now 22 and we got to the wonders of the human condition (and horrors)
Thank you Philip for enlightening us.
I really enjoyed this one. Weirdly relaxing to listen to you talking about death. Please more philosophical themes.
I like to think we are all immortal in our own way.
For example; my parents had life experiences that shaped them, then they helped to shape me. In the same way that this video is something that I have now perceived and is now in some form part of me. Just like thousands of other people who have watched your videos.
You touch infinite lives by touching one; this is what I believe is real immortality. Everyone's existence transcends time - this can be in a good way, or a bad one. The only thing that we can truly control is ourselves and how we touch the lives of others'.
7:02 "We've always kept records of our lives through words, pictures, symbols... from tablets to books. But not all the information was inherited by later generations. A small percentage of the whole was selected and processed, then passed on. Not unlike genes, really."
I understand this reference
"You are young and life is long and there is time to kill today
And then one day you find ten years have got behind you
No one told you when to run, you missed the starting gun"
This one really gets me every time. I get 30 this year, I'm now as old as my mom was when we made our first vacation, I still remember her being 30 at this time. It's so weird, man. At least this vid makes me realize that we all go through this :).
So I'm not the only one thinking of death on birthdays and such? Good to know.
google birthday effect, gets me depressed every time
This is a terrifying and sort of nice thought: If I (or you) get Alzheimers disease and don’t remember even your family members, I will still remember this point in my life (my teenage years), since for some odd reason those memories are preserved. My great grandmother didn’t recognize my grandma or anyone else before she died, but she did remember her childhood, and her cat she used to have back then. That’s why I believe I (and everyone else too) should have fun as much as possible as a teen, since that may just be the only thing I’ll remember on my deathbed.
Well, I hated my teens and I'm willing to bet I'm by far not the only one. ;) Some of my best memories from my teens are video games...
I’ve had social anxiety my whole teen years. Gladly, I mostly only remember the good parts.
The biggest predictor of Alzheimer's disease is the amount of sleep you get every night, so if you want to avoid it get your 9-11 hours of sleep
6:15
jesus christ what a handsome guy
Haha, you can tell he took a piccy straight after a haircut. Looking fresh
he looks liek a psychopath
@@mymouseaintbroken what the fuck?
I'm 28 and I'm a bit afraid of turning 30. I'm not afraid of 30 itself, but that the next step is 40. That's too close, man. 40 will be what 30 is to me now. Edit: However, it's a good sign that I can watch this video and move on. I think I've finally accepted my mortality. But I started early. I had my first existential crisis at 14, lol.
I remember having thoughts like you had when you were twenty-seven almost every year of my life. I remember being eight and wishing I could be eight forever. Something I’ve noticed is every year I end up saying the same thing about my current age, which I’m guessing means that things have gotten better with every year. I’d say that’s probably the case because I think about the way I was two years ago and cringe and feel grateful that I am the way I am now.
How appropriate it is, that right before this video was released, I read "I have no mouth, but I must scream".
Improper usage of commas.
@@factoryman28 What was improper?
@@dquakist Commas are used to separate independent and dependent clauses which and he did not do that.
@@factoryman28
This is the scariest reply I have ever received.
@@SmileytheSmile :)
"Benchmark myself..."
I love you Philip...
I’m 23 now, and I remember telling my uncle who is 34 about how I’ve started to worry about aging. Not like, it’s an existential thing but that sort of frightening thought that one day I won’t be able to take a fall or get tackled to the ground by a friend or cousin and get up and walk it off after a couple minutes. He told me to enjoy being 23, he said he’d do anything to be 23 again, even though he is still considered “young.”
I guess once you hit 30 you’re old at being young, and young at being old.
I started watching your videos for counter strike content. But as I've gotten older and continued watching your content videos like this have become my favorite. I'm 21 years old now and think about stuff like this all the time so it's reassuring to hear your perspective. Especially the part with "I thought I would make my mind up/think differently about it when I'm 30". I'm still shaking off the realization that people don't magically gain wisdom as they age. It was surreal to me when I graduated high school and was all of a sudden meant to pick a college and career path. I hadn't put enough thought into it, and assumed I would figure it out when I got to that age, but when it came time, I still had no idea.
I constantly play the numbers game in my head. To convince myself I'm not aging. Il think "I only left school X years ago, and that seems like a lifetime ago". Or "covid started over a year ago now, that feels like a LONG time ago. So I've got ages left"
But lately I've become alot more comfortable with death. It used to scare the crap out of me. But I've now realized I'm a part is a cycle in a universe that's as big as I could ever imagine. And that everything dies, even the sun. And that I'm extremely lucky that I had the chance to be alive, even the fact earth exists in the perfect haven for life is a gift.
And maybe ( most likely I believe ) there comes something after this life. I doubt its gonna be anything like we could ever imagine but I also highly doubt that our life our existence was meaningless.
I had my first existential crisis a year ago, I was 15 at that time of my life. I don't know how it started but maybe it was because of the fact that I had no proper memories from my childhood, which really started haunting me. My parents told me that I was a troublemaker when I was 6 or 7 years old, however I couldn't even remember how I used to look back then. I started wondering that when I'll eventually grow up and reach my 20s, I'll look back at my life and have no memories with me. That fact alone made me paranoid about everything. For a week or so, I started clicking pictures of places I went to, stuff I did, basically everything that was worth remembering. Nowadays, I look back at those pictures and yet I still have a hard time remembering as to why I clicked certain ones.( It's funny how I remember this particular phase of my life so vividly). I'm still kinda nihilistic and I still don't know what lesson I should learn from this part of my life. Maybe preserving memories is just a waste of time. Maybe there's no real value in fake memories. IDK
Just revisited this video a couple weeks after turning 18. I got hit by a disability at the start of this year which meant I've done a lot more in one year than what feels like the past 7. It kinda kickstarted a "holy fuck I've wasted *this long* of my life" feeling I haven't been able to shake and the fact I'm now 18 only made it worse. At least I know other people have the same feelings. Comforting, in a way, even if it means we're all slowly creeping towards death inevitably.
It must feel odd seeing someone my age talking about these feelings despite being almost half your age like you said in the video, but it's yet another thing that's oddly comforting since it just shows the discomfort in change is universal - even when it comes to something everyone experiences differently.
I think watching your videos is very healthy for me. having been suicidal for maybe 6 months this and last year, it's very strange to see the view of someone who never considered that. thanks Philip!
You’re okay boah
I find myself staring in the mirror more and more as of late seeing things I didn't see before creases under the eyes, lines in places I didn't have before and I felt this video very personally it terrifies me to age and wither to know I'm one year older and closer to the end to wonder if I have done enough with my life for my age I look back on old photos with fond memories thinking of the good times a lot has changed in recent years and a lot not for the better hopefully the world might balance itself out and get a bit better and maybe it won't hurt as much as it does now here's to the future and may it be brighter than today love you Phil keep up the good work
nice and light video for a saturday evening phil
The feeling when people in youtube comment section are more and more often younger than you!
Nostalgia is very depressing...
If you get it.
This subject is hard to pull out from mind. Especially if it's birthday. Literally consumes you and ironically takes a lot of time. If that's not enough the existantial questions kicks in and it becomes a huge mess. At some point I wanted to believe at reincarnalism or similar beliefs like that. But at someday I thought "Nobody is living a perfect life and eventually everybody will be dead. So why do I think so deeply about this? what's the point of this exhaustion?" and from that day on existancial thoughts became less apparent. The answer is right under your nose folks. No need to overthink. Try to live how you like to live. Very well done video Philip (also sorry for my monstrous eng. I don't comment too much but I needed to share this with you guys)
As someone who just left my religious fundamentalist beliefs, I really related to your perspective on death and aging. I've been watching your channel since I was 16, now I'm 20 years old and it feels like your channel has become a part of my life. Your individuality really comes out in your TH-cam Content, and that's what makes you so important to me. You are genuine and honest. But more importantly, you are vulnerable enough to show it to other people.
I just want to say I first followed your videos in 2013 because I was learning source engine mapping. Almost 8 years later and your videos remain interesting or relevant well outside your source engine and CS videos and I want to thank you for putting these kinds of videos out there.
I first struggled with this topic when I was 15-16 and had a bit of a complete mental breakdown over it. Over the past 4 years, I've finally learned to accept it. I still have my fears, but I feel more mentally healthy, peaceful, and capable now at 26 than I felt at 21. I want to echo your sentiments that acceptance of inevitability is probably the healthiest.
Keep pondering man, to remember death is somewhat liberating from worries or anxieties. And also profoundly eye opening. Existential crisis makes us want to learn more. Something naturally rooted to human existiance. We can never learn enough or know everything. What's objectively true is always what is the most valuable knowledge to aquire. Bro your videos where always so interesting because of your casually off topic pondering about stuff. Keep doing you man you could do some major things just believe you are that guy then you will be. God willing
Amen
I do agree on your comment that life really only begins at 16. That being said, I've only lived 4 years.
Truth be told, I've done virtually nothing in these past 4 years. I did not finish highschool, but am doing so right now, so that I can get a job. I've come to terms that my mental health has not been well since 16, but I'm at a reasonable spot right now. Not feeling too dreadful, but I'm not exactly happy.
I feel detached from society, especially with the lockdown these past months in Portugal. In person classes have helped, but those stop if the COVID numbers rise and, honestly, it scares me, saddens me.
Maybe I'm just experiencing existential dread because of the topic of this video, or something. I hope things get better.
And I want to thank you, Phillip. Even if this video's making me all depressive and stuff, I still want you to know that your content is very much appreciated.
Weirdly enough i was just thinking about it a day ago.
Aging is scary, but neccessary, and involuntary.
welp, that was depressing. glad I'm still in my 20s. for the next few months that is.
it's weird how we're hoping for time to pass to get back to a normal life again, but at the same time we don't want to get older.
if it helps, the kliksempire doesn't seem to get older. it's had a very similar feel in the years I saw it grow. it's not getting boring either. it's like you have created a place of your own, with fresh new ideas that might have happened anywhen within the timeline. I think the word timeless describes it best.
Met a few friends on the street a few days ago, and they had a friend along who said she was born in 2001. That shook me to the core, I still had the perception that anyone born after 1999 is a kid but they are now in their 20s.
Looking at my hair in the mirror and wanting that look to be frozen in time was extremely relatable. I'm having an intense existential crisis.
Phillip has just said everything I think about everyday, thank you for putting it so clear
I like the way everhood puts it: "We should not fear death, for he has come to free us."
I just turned 30 and I recognized myself in many of your reflections.
I took a rather different take on immortality though. For me, it is liberating to think that whatever good or bad I do, it will all be forgotten in 100 years top. I use this thought to do whatever I want, but also to focus on people surrounding me. Since I am not immortal, making people around me feel good is probably how I can have the highest impact in this world.
So in short: I'm not immortal, yaaaay :D
Thanks much for the vids
These videos always become unusually comforting.
Another video I come back to every 6 months along with the sleep videos. Just fascinating as I relate and understand all these concepts, and it makes me feel as if I am also achieving something, as my thoughts are being put into these videos as they relate with me. Thankyou Philip
I just rewatched this after my sleep trilogy rewatch. Haha
I had my first taste of mortality at 21, dislocated my shoulder and had to skip work and rely on the parents again. I normally didn't mind being injured but it became clear to me that if i had to depend on my self i would be absolutely screwed. Otherwise the years blending together was a big one for me as well and was a fear that my life would be gone in a flash. Childhood is fairly distinguished since each year you noticeably get smarter, stronger and taller but eventually that runs out. 0-16 was quite memorable while many of the years after blend together. But since 2018 i've been doing things that make the year standout, starting to try things i haven't done before and either failing or succeeding at them and i can once again distinguish the years apart. I would say that the envy is there of people who started before me and have years of experience but i feel like once you are solidly on the right track you and moving in the right direction you're happily on your own little journey.
Stagnation is hell and I will do whatever i can to avoid it from now on.
Haha not real
This video hits hard, and I'm not even in my mid 20s. Good video, man. Keep up the good work.
This is always a topic I really enjoy.
Honestly, I find a great amount of relief in death, and I will explain why that is.
My philosophy on life is that we are very lucky.
We are lucky of course for all of the reasons we are already aware. We are lucky for our families, our friends, our modestly lovely food, our modestly lovely lifestyles, and we are lucky, despite the inordinately tiny possibility, to be born at all.
But on top of that, we are lucky to be a part of the indeterminably small percentage of all the atoms in the universe that are currently pretending to be alive, just because of the order they are arranged in.
I can pretty much guarantee that at some point or other, your atoms will have come from the ground, from the air, and probably even some of them existed as part of another living things poo.
So whilst we may have good days, yes? And we may have bad days, yes? All the while I am now keen to remind myself of the fact that most atoms within the universe fail to have days at all.
We might not always be fortunate, but we are lucky to even be aware of our own issues of self worth and existence, or responsibility.
So whilst ultimately everything we do in life is meaningless, I can take comfort within that fact. Because no matter what I will always be a footnote in the history of timespace. And if I can reach the end of my life confident within the fact that I have been a good person. Then no matter fucking what, it doesn't matter how much injustice, or cruelty or suffering there is in the world, there will always have existed a good person.
So I do cool shit when I can, and I try to focus on improving myself today so that my life tomorrow is better than it was yesterday.
But above all else I try my best to appreciate the small things; not to stress; and to enjoy all of the wonderful things that inevitably do come, even in spite of all of the terrible things that come along too.
So I appreciate you Phil, because you bring me joy and admiration, just another bloke in the world.
And I hope you're having a good day fella
That is incredibly well worded, and I admire your point of view, it's a fresh take!
Of course it is a terrifying thought that there's nothing after death, but does there even have to be? The thought of being immortal and not having the ability to die seems even worse to me than just simply vanishing one day and ceasing to exist.
@@ptur12345 Thank you friend!
The way I see it what will be, is, and there's nothing worrying will do for me about it.
It is interesting to think about though.
I am undecided on immortality. I feel like it would need a pretty drastic change to the planets social infrastructure, and people would very rarely be able to pro-create because then the planet would very quickly become uninhabitable.
But if everyone you know is immortal too, think of all that could be accomplished by man. Or I wonder if it would just destroy itself instead lol
You scare me sometimes, Philip.
I'm 35. :D And I had my first existential crisis at 18.
What I think, is that the best way to preserve at least a bit of you throughout the years is to nurture your inner child.
I don't usually do this because TH-cam has an awful amount of comments and mine is destined to get lost, but old age and death is something that very much interests me, so I had to comment. As a Buddhist, death (impermanence) is a major topic and teaching for me. Many people see the inevitability of death as something that is scary and should be something we fear daily, but I don't think we should see it like this. As you say, there is no escape from death. The quicker we can accept this, the quicker we can enjoy the present moment.
There is no point in fearing the inevitable. Not many things are inevitable, but death is unquestionable. So, because it is unquestionable, why fear it? It will happen. Do not cause yourself suffering by wasting time fearing and giving yourself anxiety of the inevitable. Instead, live every moment the way it deserves to be lived. Make sure you tell people you love them. Show compassion to your fellow person, animal or even 'inanimate' objects.
So, I have spent a lot of time accepting death and I finally accept it. I could die tomorrow. Would I live differently today? No. You could say I live life like every day is my last, but I do not live it by spending lots of money or going on holidays or pushing myself to my limit. I simply look at life and see how special it is, how rare and improbable it is that I'm even here. I have been offered this beautiful thing for, maybe, 100 years. I will spend my years on this Earth taking it all in, showing love to everyone and everything, because I feel honoured to be here.
Thank you, Philip, for making such an important video. Death in inevitable, we should stop fearing it. As I say, the faster we can accept it, the better!
Much love everyone!
I really enjoyed reading your comment. It showed me a refreshing view on life, which is nice, considering most of the comments are quite depressed...
@@heindebont8331 I don't usually read comments because they are very repetitive, but I felt like I had to share something!
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Thank you Phil, seriously appreciate this video.
From my perspective you have stayed the same age as long as i have known about you.
Thank you Philip for being you.
I really like the progress of 5min wirh phil transforms into this, it's like a open diary in which all can have a look into with some knowledge in it for us and for you in the future
This video hit me with a lot of stuff. I'm 23 now, but the last 6 years of my life just whooshed by..From high school, 3 years in college and finally in job..I always remember when I was 19-20, the things I used to do, the way I played football. I still play, but it feels I'm not that good anymore, i know its peak age for players, but idk I feel old, I see the younger guys now and somehow get jealous. There's a lot of regret about things I never did I wanted to do as a child.
Thanks Philip, for hitting me with the thoughts again. :)
Sometimes I can't help but think about quantum immortality, wondering "can I die? Or will I be here forever?" I try not to think about it, but maybe it's the alternative that's much worse
some kind of natural reassurance. Has slipped in my mind for an uncountable number of times.
I thought of a theory once when I was 15. I’m pretty sure there are similar theories but basically I think that from my point of view, I will never die. But from yours, I will die and you will never die. Because I think that sometimes we die then shift into an alternate universe therefore we don’t die from our point of view. so at some point me and you will split off and go our separate ways, meaning I will die from your POV and you will die from mine. But the problem with this theory is there is no way to prove it. Either way, you will be in my heart forever, NeoQuartz Winter. So you’ll never be gone until i am.
@@bonerprime4010 that's the idea, quantum immortality is largely based on the many world theory, that being it there is a world where you are alive, you will be in that world
Is your profile pic supposed to be one of those degenerate flags or an ice cream sandwich?
@@Daddy_Dagoth not all flags with stripes are degenerate bro
Thank you for sharing this.
It means a lot to realizie that not only I am expiriencing such questions and feelings, but also you and all this people in a „comments” section.
Right in the feels, man.
I remember growing older that most what I had behind me was noticeable, but once I passed 30... It all felt the same. Life got settled in a comfortable way.
And suddenly things go faster. Days not so much, really ( remember being a student, watching the minutes creep by in class? ), but weeks, months and seasons/years.
Nothing changed much from 30 to 35 ( in april... ). Got married, sure, but I know my wife 13 years now. Realistically it's not a big change.
We don't have kids yet due to ... well, several reasons. And I feel that pressure.
Professionally I should mean something, and yet I don't. Anyone can replace me.
I'm old when I talk to teenagers. They see me as an adult. Yes, I have less energy but I still feel like a 20 something, just tired.
Tick-tock, right?
And yet, reading Lovecraft: life is as meaningful for yourself and closest as you make it. Not to the universe and even less to what lies beneath the veil.
For Lord Cthuhlu, you might as well be a bacteria in a compost heap. Your weaning, tiny, fragile mind can not fathom what it sees.
Hail Chtulhu.
And cower...
@Crackertjes met pindakaas Mee bezig ;).
I'm 21 and I already sit in the shower and think about how I will more than likely be dead soon, not like 10 minutes soon. But sooner than I would realise.
To anyone reading this comment remember that life has meaning, and because of how we as humans are, you can make life have any meaning you want. Someone somewhere will want you to keep living and if you cant find a reason to live, then live so that someone else doesn't have to spend their life's wondering how they couldn't save you.
I cant be the only one who just got so hit in the face with that nostalgia in the end with the only the lonely track goddamn im bout to cry
Man I had a panic attack recently about death. But I'm getting more and more comfortable with the fact that we're all gonna disappear and get lost in time.
I just hope I'll be able to start a happy family before I croak,that's my big goal lol
I think the remarkable thing about me currently being in my early twenties, is the passage of time both feeling like it is speeding up, while in the same thought, also looking back and realizing that not much time has passed at all in the grand scheme of things.
I'm 28 now and a couple of years ago, I made a drunk video together with a friend of mine in which we tell our 30 years old future selves what we expect from them, not to give up on their principles, to enjoy life and not worry about the future and so on. I can't believe it's in just two years. I mean I already expected it wouldn't feel that long, but for some reason it's still surprising.
I started watching you when i was 9-10 years old, and am now almost 18. I still think of myself as the 6 year old who promised his mum he'd never grow up. The video is probably not meant for my age group, but i found comfort in knowing I'll soon have to transition to being a young adult and not a kid. Thank you for that
what makes life so special is the fact that it expires so quickly, like your favorite flavor of candy in a bag with only a few in there. What makes it your favorite flavor? scarcity. So try to savor life as you have it, because you don't realize how many candies or years you have left in the bag till they're gone.
I used to have really terrible existential dread a while ago when I was 14. I’d have moments where I wouldn’t leave bed for a week and would just try to sleep it away. Idk why it hit me so hard then. After dealing with that for a while I started anxiety meds and it’s really changed my life for the better
Started taking anxiety meds and anti depression meds recently and the panic attacks due to the existential dread subsided drastically, they really do alot for you.
@@moshhk I hate how much stigma is around them. I’m still the same person just living a better life. I still get nervous and sad, but it’s not as crippling. Glad it worked for you too
@Dani California idk if that’s the healthiest alternative but repetition and nicotine certainly provide some relief haha
nothing like existential dread to set me to sleep. thanks, Philip!
I love these videos. They make me wake up from my shitty-content-coma. They give me motivation to stop throwing away time and instead do something valuable.
Hope your doing okay Philip. All of us absolutely adore your content my man. Stay safe and stay happy.
I'm 26 this year and i still live with my parents, still in collage and with no job. Never had a girlfriend or any relationship.
I'm at an age where people are already full grown adults thinking about getting married and having children, getting an appartment and a job.
I still feel like a teenager, and i still only want to play videogames. I don't care about much else.
I'm 28 this year in the exact same situation as you, live with my mom, no job, no relationship in the past or currently. I'll finally finish uni at the end of next year but who cares I have zero motivation to do anything at this point I'm so far behind in life. Gave myself diabetes to boot and barely take care of it.
@@videogaminbiker889 sucks to hear man. I feel for you, it can be hard to stay motivated. But stay strong!
Damn I've had that exact same thought after the shower with the hair n such
I am old now Frodo, and not the same Hobbit I once was...
I'll be honest I haven't enjoyed all of the 5 minutes with Phil videos but this on ewas very thought provoking thankyou.
I used to not think much about this, until I had a terrible accident that shattered 3 of my limbs. My hip, ankle and elbow will never be the same. I went from being an athletic, energetic young lad, to feeling like I'm in my middle ages. I still try to exercise, I've managed to remain fit, and despite getting a severe concussion in the accident, my mind is still sharp. I'm still a strong fragger in games, but that accident was a stark reminder of my mortality, and I value each of my waking hours as a gift from God now.
ironic how he made this video on my birthday
thanks uncle phil
Honestly, I don't know any other content creator as honest and human as phillip. This videos topic is an unconforting one, but Phil gives it to us straight with honesty. I'm much younger than Phil(16), and this has helped put into perspective age, and why you shouldnt take it for granted. Thank you
I love this introspective stuff. It makes me reflect on myself & recalalabrate how I look at the world. And I feel a tiny bit wiser for it.
Finally someone else who loves Logan’s Run. What a good movie.
these patch notes go to some very real places
Thank you for providing me quality content over the years
2:17 Your brain probably does already lose cells, but that doesn't mean that your mental capability has become worse. Brain cells die, but you also get some new ones, ones that are probably more useful to you. The amount of brain cells isn't that important, most people this age have enough.
Only a part of your brain cells exist in the big part of your brain, the one which manages decision making, sensory processing and other stuff. Most of your neurons actually exist in your cerebellum, which needs quicker processing for limb coordination and such.
"The only thing a man can do when death smiles at him, is to smile back."
"Rage, rage against the dying of the light"
"The only way to conquer fear is to stare it straight in the face and laugh at it. Never let fear control you."
His videos always make me forget that I am watching on youtube. I can't think of a platform that would perfectly suit his kind of videos, but does it even matter where when he manages to create such an isolated and comfortable ecosystem within his less known channels? I think this makes his content special, the fact that its content is platformless in a way. And if you happen to read this, Philip, I want you to know that I am happy to start knowing you better through your videos. The amount of work and passion you put into your videos is incredible. Needless to say it looks effortless. You have set a new standard in my eyes when it comes to content, if I can call it that. Sometimes I find myself watching other videos and start thinking how much of a difference your work makes. I feel captivated by your stories, but most importantly, I feel intrigued by your thoughts...or mind.
Im almost 18, never had not 1 friend through out my teens because i was "homeschooled" and man... i feel like iv wasted the best part of my life without even realizing :(
i would have felt much the same at 18. i'm 28 this year and if feel like most of my life has happened in the last 10 years.
you did
@@H4x4t3hN00bz well aware
Phil, you really know how to provoke thought. Thanks for this one.
I think the mental ability does reduce from age 25, but experience more than makes up for those few missed cells
All these pictures staring into my soul make me somewhat uncomfortable. But that's probably exactly what you were going for.